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8/16/2019 LA Confessions

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F.D. N@IJG^Â@I^ by Rafgy dim Cgssag

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Ndptdai Mumfgy ^hatl st``m bgj`rg tlg edtlgraie dt Hìmdy h`riaie‑s egigrdf bragjaiedim nraiegm. At wds d stgdhy mdy ai L`ffyw``m, tlg kaim tldt hdkgs mès narnfg, siajj j`r bf``m dim batg. Gaelt DH dim tlg bdsan dr`hd ai tlg r``h wds tldt `j djtgrsldvg dim b`my `m`r but dff Mumfgy nùfm tlaik dbùt wds tlg laelfy er``hgm, panturg-pgrjgnt jdng`j Mgtgntavg Ndrsì Ndff`wdy.

Ndff`wdy wds sh``tl ds sdtai slggts dim ldm tlg laelfy p`faslgm f``k `j d h`vag stdr.]lg hdi ``zgm nldrashd dim pgrsìdfaty, h`vaie drùim tlg r``h fakg lg `wigm tlg pfdng, gjj`rtfgssfy n`hj`rtdbfg watl hgi `j dff ndfabgrs fakg lg‑m bggi watl tlg FD_M j`rygdrs. But Ndff`wdy wds d rgngit trdisjgr jr`h Igw Q`rk Naty dim d tl`ri ai tlgNdptdai‑s samg. ]lg hdi wds t`` slaiy pgrjgnt dim Mumfgy ldm las suspanaìs.

417? wds eàie t` bg Mumfgy ^hatl‑s ygdr. At wds dff dbùt t` bgeai j`r lah. UatlHankgy N`lgi aimantgm dim jdnaie d fìe prasì stdy, (tlg sueegstaì `j “tdx gvdsaì‑wlaspgrgm ait` tlg MD‑s gdr by Mumfgy lahsgfj), tlgrg wgrg e``m rgdsìs j`r Ndptdai^hatl t` bg nìngrigm dbùt tlg summgify prgsgit dfagi mgtgntavg ai las hamst. J`r tlg


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pdst tw` ygdrs Mumfgy ldm bggi pfdiiaie dim `rediazaie, sgttaie up tlg pgrjgnt dffadingsj`r d strdtgean, uimgtgntdbfg tdkg`vgr `j N`lgi‑s rdnkgts. Las hùtl wdtgrgm dtgvgrytlaie lg‑m ldvg dim l`w gdsy at wds eàie t` bg t` egt at. I` h`rg shdff tahg tdkgsj`r Mumfgy ^hatl, dim dff las ldim-nl`sgi tlues dim bae tahg wlggfgr mgdfgr pdrtigrswgrg eàie t` bgigjat ergdtfy. At wds braffadit dim lg kigw at.

âm Lumegis wds màie las pdrt; l``kaie Zaingiigs up watl tldt tgfgvasaì sl`w, “Bdmeg`j Lì`r‑ dim kggpaie tlg db`vg dvgrdeg idrn`tans mgtgntavg sujjanagitfy `nnupagm watlef`ry-spfdslgm lgdmfaigs dnr`ss tlg jrìt pdegs `j Lusl-Lusl hdedzaig. Lumegis wdskggpaie dff tlg j`nus `jj `j _dtnlgtt ds wgff ds Mumfgy. Dim tlg Ndptdai‑s e`ìs0 Gvgryìg `j tlgh wds pfdyaie tlgar pdrt fakg gjjgntavg bat dnt`rs ai d h`vag. Gvgry ìg `j tlgh… gxngpt ^tgisfdim. Mumfgy er`digm ds tlg sf`ppy hùitdai `j d hdi eruitgm ait` dnldar dim rubbgm las dfn`l`f rgmmgigm gygs. ^`hgtlaie ldm t` bg mìg t` egt tlg burgdu‑snratandf gygs `jj `j ^tgisfdim `r tlg stupam b`y` cust haelt sdy tlg wrìe tlaie.

Mumfgy slujjfgm tlrùel las i`tgs. I`t d bae wggk dim i`t d wl`fg f`t t` sdy t` tlg gaelty

hgi prgsgit. Uatl d fattfg funk lg‑m bg bglaim las mgsk s`ì giùel, las cdnkgt `jj dimtlg brggzg `j las jdi wlappaie las slart sfggvgs uitaf lg wds jaidffy n`hj`rtdbfg dedai.Las gygs r`sg t` tlg sùim `j fdueltgr. Ndff`wdy wds w`rkaie tlg r``h; h`vaie jr`h dki`t `j lummfgm l`hanamg mgtgntavgs t` tlg edtlgraie `j uiaj`rhgm `jjangrs ai tlg bdnkdim jaidffy sattaie watl tlg iaig idrn` mgtgntavgs dim rgpgdtaie tlg sdhg `bvaùsfy `jj-n`f`r c`kg. Egttaie tlg sdhg rùim `j fdueltgr, t``. Zaingiigs r`ffgm las gygs dim h`vgmt` di`tlgr ghpty sgdt dim Mumfgy‑s br`w nurfgm. @jjangrs kigw wlgi tlgrg wds digighy dhìe tlgh…s`hg kigw aistaintavgfy dim quankgr tldi `tlgrs, but tlgy dfwdyskigw. At wds d nìjarhdtaì tldt hdmg Mumfgy‑s suspanaìs taeltgi tlg husnfgs dt tlg bdnk `j las ignk.

Ndff`wdy wds t`` gdsy d jat, t`` ì t`p `j tlaies, t``…sh``tl. Lg ldm t` bg di AitgridfDjjdars pfdit. Mumfgy wds surg `j at. D pfdit t` jaim ùt gvgrytlaie lg‑m bggi pfdiiaiedim wds jaidffy pàsgm t` put ait` dntaì.

]lg ldims`hg Igw Q`rkgr eraiigm las jfdslaie wlatg shafg. ‖H`riaie Ndp,‘ Ndff`wdyslùtgm dim strdiegfy, watlùt Mumfgy ndffaie tlg hggtaie t` `rmgr, gvgry hdi ai tlgr``h quagtgm dim prgpdrgm j`r tlg bragjaie. Mumfgy‑s fap twatnlgm dim lg swdff`wgm tlg bafg nrdwfaie up las tlr`dt watl d eufp `j battgr n`jjgg. ^`hgtlaie ldm t` bg mìg dbùtNdff`wdy, dim at ldm t` bg mìg s`ì.

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^gregdit Mgtgntavg Cdnk Zaingiigs survgygm tlg r``h ds lg t``k d sp`t dedaist tlg bdnk wdff, las haim rghdrkdbfy sldrp djtgr di`tlgr sfggpfgss iaelt spgit ì tlg nùnl. Atwds ìfy d hdttgr `j tahg bgj`rg las wajg gatlgr h`vgm ùt `r tlrgw lah ùt, tlgarrgfdtaìslap ldvaie mgtgra`rdtgm t` tlg pàit wlgrg tlgy wgrg i` fìegr spgdkaie t` ìgdi`tlgr. Lg mami‑t sgg tlg pàit ai nldieaie las favaie drrdieghgits uitaf Faimd sgrvgmlah watl tlg mav`rng pdpgrs; lg kigw slg wds watlai lgr raelts ds lg‑m ldrmfy bggi


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h`mgf lusbdim hdtgradf, but las stubb`ri pramg hdmg lah stdy dim wdat j`r tlg aigvatdbfgsl`wm`wi.

Lg wdtnlgm Ndff`wdy w`rk tlg r``h, i`taie tlg f``ks `j dmhardtaì jr`h tlg yùiegr`jjangrs ds tlgy prdntandffy luie ì las gvgry w`rm. ]lg hdi wds sh``tl, i` mùbt, but

Cdnk nùfmi‑t lgfp but wìmgr dt las h`tavdtaìs. Gvgrytlaie dbùt tlg hdi jr`h tlg wdylg mrgssgm t` las hdiigr `j spggnl sgghgm d fattfg t`` pgrjgnt. Fìmì ^l`p bfdzgr,Atdfadi f`djgrs, cust giùel fattfg mdb‑ff m` yd. Zaingiigs kigw tlg typg dff t`` wgff.

But las haim wds ì `tlgr hdttgrs bgsamgs Ndff`wdy. Ai las ldims lg lgfm d j`fmgrnìtdaiaie d fast `j ki`wi mrue suppfagrs wl` dff ldm d hystgraùs tag ai t` d wgff ki`wiL`ffyw``m degit. Aj las aistaints wgrg n`rrgnt, dim tlgy `jtgi wgrg, lg wds f``kaie dt d bust `j hìuhgitdf pr`p`rtaìs. Lg wds eàie t` ldvg t` put ai f`ts `j `vgrtahg, gatlgrì tlg nf`nk `r `jj, but lg tragm i`t t` shafg ds lg ahdeaigm tlg lgdmfaigs. Lg cust iggmgmtlg `kdy jr`h Mumfgy bgj`rg lg h`vgm j`rwdrm. Qgs, fdmags dim egitfghgi, L`ffyw``mCdnk wds bdnk ai jaeltaie j`rh.

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@jjangr Gmhìm Gxfgy wds dt tlg bdnk `j tlg bragjaie r``h stdimaie ds jdr ds p`ssabfgjr`h tlg `tlgr uiaj`rhgm rdik dim jafg. Lg wds majjgrgit jr`h tlgh; i`t ìfy wds lgshdrtgr dim quankgr ì tlg uptdkg, but lg ldm d idhg dim rgputdtaì t` favg up t`. Dim ajGxfgy ldm diytlaie t` sdy dbùt at, lg wùfm i`t ìfy favg up t` las jdtlgr‑s laelstdimdrm, but surpdss at. Lg wds nìvaingm lg wùfm s`ì bg tlg bgdnì by wlanl dff`tlgr `jjangrs wùfm bg hgdsurgm.

Las gygs wdimgrgm tlg r``h survgyaie tlg sngig, las haim quankfy tdkaie ai gdnl erùp`j mgtgntavgs, gvdfudtaie wl` wds dfaeigm watl wl` dim wlanl wgrg tlg h`st p`wgrjufdffadings. At wds dff pdrt `j las edhg pfdi; nuftavdtg jragimslaps watl tlg bgst, tlg braeltgstdim tlg h`st p`wgrjuf. At wds tlg ìfy wdy t` dmvding up tlrùel tlg rdiks jdstgr tldilas jdtlgr, tlg fdtg, ergdt _rgstì Gxfgy.

Cdnk Zaingiigs st``m dim nduelt Gm‑s gyg. ]lg sl`wb`dtgr , lg si`rtgm t` lahsgfj. @ingd e``m n`p, lg wds i`w ìfy nìngrigm watl tldt e`m-dwjuf tgfgvasaì sl`w dim tlg pubfanaty at edvg lah. Dfwdys ai tlg pdpgrs watl las fdtgst ngfgbraty mrue-bust, eavaie tlg pubfan tlg ahprgssaì tldt lg wds squgdky nfgdi, hdkaie tlg strggts sdjg jr`h m`pg-jagims dim l`p-lgdms. ]lg rgdfaty, tlùel, wds d bat majjgrgit…dt fgdst dnn`rmaie t`ruh`r.

Dim `vgr igdr tlg bdnk wds ìg `j tlg igwgst mgtgntavgs ai tlg mgpdrthgit, Bum Ulatg.Ulgi Gm lgdrm d jgw hìtls bdnk tldt Ulatg ldm bggi pr`h`tgm, lg wds dstùimgm. Ailas `paiaì, Ulatg wds d haimfgss tlue dim i`t mgtgntavg hdtgradf ai diy wdy. Hdybgtlgrg wgrg s`hg ai tlg mgpdrthgit tldt sldrgm las `paiaì. Uly gfsg wùfm Ulatg ldm bggi pdargm watl pr`bdbfy tlg w`rst mgtgntavg ai tlg FD_M, Mank ^tgisfdim.


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]lg sf`ppagst, fùsagst mgtgntavg lg‑m gvgr sggi, Mank wds sattaie…hdkg tldtfùieaie…igxt t` Ulatg dim `bvaùs sfggpaie. Gm ldm igvgr lgdrm d e``m w`rm dbùtlah; aj lg wdsi‑t mruik, lg wds d fdzy, brutdf `dj.

Dim tlgi … tlg nurrgit e`fmgi b`y, Ndrsì Ndff`wdy. Fùm. ]ryaie t`` ldrm t` bg fakgm

dim dnngptgm, Gxfgy tlùelt watl d haxturg `j cgdfùsy dim dwg. Bae tahg n`p jr`h bdnkgdst watl f`ts `j p`fatandf bdnkaie, jaidinadf supp`rt dim d braelt juturg. Ndff`wdy wds tlgghb`mahgit `j gvgrytlaie Gxfgy dspargm t`. Mgjaiatgfy s`hgìg t` nuftavdtg.

Dim n`haie t` tlg p`mauh, tlg hdi lg nìsamgrgm las dng ai tlg l`fg, d hdi lg‑m ki`wijr`h nlafml``m, Ndptdai Mumfgy ^hatl. Kgy t` Gxfgy‑s pfdi wds t` fgdvg tlg uiaj`rhgmrajj-rdjj dim cài l`hanamg ds d mgtgntavg. Mumfgy tlùel, ldm `tlgr amgds. Gm eufpgm dtMumfgy‑s qugstaìs dim las masdppr`vdf `j Gxfgy‑s diswgrs…Uùfm yù bg waffaie t` pfdit n`rr`b`rdtavg gvamging ì d suspgnt yù kigw t` bg euafty, ai `rmgr t` gisurg di

aimanthgit0…Uùfm yù bg waffaie t` bgdt d nìjgssaì ùt `j d suspgnt yù kigw t` bgeuafty 0…Uùfm yù bg waffaie t` sl``t d ldrmgigm nrahaidf ai tlg bdnk ai `rmgr t` `jjsgt

tlg nlding tldt s`hg fdwygr wùfm egt tlgh `jj0

Gm‑s diswgrs wgrg dfwdys dim ghpldtandffy, “i`‑. L`w nùfm lg bgn`hg tlgmgpdrthgit‑s e`fmgi b`y ygt bg euafty `j sunl masrgedrm j`r custang0

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@jjangr Bum Ulatg puslgm ldrm dedaist tlg sfuhp `j ^tgisfdim‑s luinlgm slùfmgr.Junkgr wds dsfggp dedai; tlg igxt brgdtl wds eàie t` bg di gdrtlqudkg `j d si`rg aj Bumnùfmi‑t wdkg tlg hdi quank giùel. Ulatg wds sank `j bgaie ì las `wi, junkaie sankdim targm `j tryaie t` ldimfg ndsgs watl las mruikgi pdrtigr nurfgm ì tlg bdnksgdt dimsfggpaie at `jj. Bum ldm bggi d mgtgntavg j`r sax hìtls dim lg sw`rg tldt ldfj tldt tahglg wds bdbysattaie tlg hdi wl` wds supp`sgm t` sl`w lah tlg r`pgs. âx junkaiehìtls dim tlgy ldmi‑t hdmg d ndsg ygt, ldmi‑t gvgi hdmg d mgit ai diytlaie ì tlgarr`stgr. Lg‑m w`rkgm las dss `jj t` hdkg mgtgntavg. ]las wdsi‑t wldt lg wditgm.

Di aimgpgimgit tlaikgr watl fattfg t` i` nìjamging, lg‑m tdkgi t` `bsgrvaie tl`sg drùimlah. Uldt Bum masn`vgrgm wds d f`t `j tlg sdhg. _drtigrslaps wlgrg ìg mgtgntavgw`rkgm ldrm ds junkaie lgff dim tlg `tlgr mrdik uitaf lg wds bfaim. But…tlgrg wds ìgrgdsì lg t`fgrdtgm ^tgis, ìg `nnurrging tldt kgpt lah dt tlg hdi‑s samg dim dwdy jr`h bgn`haie ìg `j tl`sg l`t sl`ts f``kaie j`r ef`ry ì las `wi.

âx wggks djtgr bgaie dssaeigm ds Ranldrm ^tgisfdim‑s pdrtigr dim ki`waie tlg bae junkwds dfrgdmy mruik ds d skuik dt tgi ai tlg h`riaie; Bum ldm wdfkgm ait` d faqu`r st`rg t`dsk tlg `wigr d jgw qugstaìs. ]lg bdstdrm wds swgdtaie buffgts dim Ulatg kigw lg wdsìt` s`hgtlaie. Aj at wdsi‑t j`r ^tgisfdim burstaie ait` tlg efdss m``r dim puslaie Bum t`tlg jf``r, lg ldvg tdkgi tlg buffgt jr`h tlg st`rg `wigr‑s lammgi sl`teui dim at wùfmi‑tldvg bggi prgtty. ]ldt wds tlg rgdsì d hdi ldm d pdrtigr, dim gvgi pankfgm watl eai dimv`mkd, Mank ^tgisfdim wds tlg kaim `j pdrtigr gvgry mgtgntavg wditgm dt las samg.


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Kggpaie tlg hdi dwdkg wds ahp`rtdit. Bum lds sggi tlg bae euys wdtnlaie las pdrtigrwatl nurfgm br`ws dim d pàsgm pgi `vgr d i`tgb``k.

Ds ^tgis w`kg watl d fùm eruit lg rubbgm las tghpfgs, strdaeltgigm ai tlg nldar, fastgigmt` gvgrytlaie prgsgitgm by tlg Ndptdai tlgi fgdigm nf`sg, las brgdtl sankgiaie swggt watl

faqu`r ds lg lassgm.

‖]ldiks, pdrtigr.‘

‖Qgdl, ygdl,‘ dim Bum st``m t` stdrt las mdy.

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Mgtgntavg Fagutgidit Ndrsì Ndff`wdy pdam nf`sg dttgitaì t` gvgry mgtdaf `j tlg bragjaie, lgdrm dff tl`sg tlaies tlg Ndptdai mami‑t sdy dbùt tlg pdst dim upn`haie wggksdim wìmgrgm l`w diytlaie egts mìg ai d pfdng fakg L`ffyw``m. But lg ldm las `wi

pfdis dim las `wi h`tavgs. ]lrgg wggks dim lg‑m dfrgdmy bustgm d fdreg r`bbgry raie(watl tlg lgfp `j d jgw Hdildttdi jragims) dim wds hdkaie sgraùs lgdmwdy ì ygtdi`tlgr ndsg tldt ldm bdjjfgm tlg FD_M j`r hìtls. Djtgr dff, Ndff`wdy wdsi‑t dbùt t`stgp ait` d igw stdtaì dim i`t sgraùsfy ahprgss tlg brdss. Lg kigw l`w t` usg lasrgsùrngs. F`s Diegfgs ldm ats jdar sldrg `j nrahg, but Ndff`wdy wditgm t` hdkg surg lge`t las jdar sldrg `j cuany dssaeihgits. Dim…

Lg ldm `tlgr tlaies ì las degimd. H`st `j tlgh jgff ait` pfdng gdsafy giùel; hggtaie,waiaie dim maiaie, dim jaidffy bgmmaie tlg jdbufùs dim jdhùs dntrgss, Jrdinaig J`stgrj`r gxdhpfg. Lg‑m snlh``sgm las wdy ait` tlg raelt L`ffyw``m pdrtags dim shafgm laswdy igxt t` Hdrafyi Hìr`g‑s baeegst ravdf. Ai Ndff`wdy‑s gygs, J`stgr wds jdr h`rgefdh`rùs, tdfgitgm dim bgdutajuf tldi tlg bfìm b`hbslgff. Lg‑m sggi Hìr`g ìngwlgi slg wdsi‑t hdmg up j`r tlg pubfan, wgdvaie dim eaeefaie fakg d saffy snl``f earfdttghptaie t` ahprgss lgr bae br`tlgr‑s bgst jragim. _atajuf. Lg wds ghbdrrdssgm j`r lgr.Hìr`g wdsi‑t s` prgtty watlùt dff tldt pdait. But J`stgr wds. ^lg wds stuiiaie.

Jrdinaig J`stgr wds dfs` sgraùsfy aiv`fvgm watl lgr nurrgit n`-stdr dim tlg ruh`rs wgrgwafm tldt wgmmaie bgffs wùfm bg raieaie s`ì. Ndff`wdy mami‑t ndrg. ^lg wds d mdhie``m junk. ^`hgtlaie t` mrgdh dbùt ai las `fm deg. Uldtgvgr Jrdiiy J`stgr mam; e`thdrragm, mami‑t egt hdrragm, nìtaiugm t` pfdy ndt dim hùsg watl lah `r i`t…mami‑thdttgr ìg bat. ^lg wds cust ìg `j las e`dfs wlgi lg mr`vg ait` Ndfaj`riad, s`hgtlaie t`tank `jj ì las fast.

Dim lg ldm `tlgr e`dfs. Dmvdinghgit ai tlg mgpdrthgit dim tlg burgdu wds d eavgi. ButNdrsì Ndff`wdy wdsi‑t tlg ndffùs s`rt. Lg wds d n`p j`r d rgdsì; dim tldt rgdffy wdst` lgfp pg`pfg. Las gmundtaì wds vdst dim n`hpfgx dim lg ldm juff aitgitaìs `j usaie dff`j at t` rgdnl las aitgimgm `bcgntavgs. D mgergg ai psynl`fèy lgfpgm lah jaeurg pg`pfgùt; mgtgrhaig wldt lg wds up dedaist…ai tlg stdtaì `r ì tlg strggt. At dfwdys pdam `jjt` sgg tl`sg wlggfs turiaie ai di`tlgr mgtgntavg‑s haim dim gspgnadffy ai tlg nrahaidf‑shaim. At‑s wldt hdmg lah d hdstgr dt aitgrrèdtaì dim dfrgdmy lg‑m hdmg d idhg j`r


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lahsgfj tlgrg dt tlg L`ffyw``m stdtaì. Cust fdst wggk, nr`wms `j mgtgntavgs jr`h ds jdr dsUgst L`ffyw``m dim m`wit`wi F`s Diegfgs ndhg fakg tlgy wgrg ì s`hg kaim `j paferahdeg dim prgssgm taelt ùtsamg tlg aitgrrèdtaì r``h waim`ws cust t` wdtnl.

Iggmfgss t` sdy, lg‑m rujjfgm d jgw jgdtlgrs…Ndptdai Mumfgy ^hatl j`r ìg. ^hatl wds d

hdi lg iggmgm ì las samg s` Ndff`wdy t``k d ldrm swdff`w dim rgdfazgm at wds tahg t` bdnk `jj jr`h tlg sl`wb`dtaie. Lg‑m hdmg las pàit. I`w lg ldm s`hgtlaie gfsg lgwditgm t` m`.

Las fìe tahg jragim wds i`w d psynl`fèy pr`jgss`r dt tlg uiavgrsaty. _gtgr ^kgffy wdsìg `j tlg rgsùrngs Ndff`wdy h`st `jtgi usgm dim gic`ygm; ranl watl aisaelt dimsueegstgm dppr`dnlgs but at ldm dfrgdmy n`hg tahg t` pdy bdnk tlg papgr.

^kgffy wditgm d stumy mìg dim tlg uiavgrsaty wdsi‑t dbùt t` supp`rt at djtgr Kaisgy‑s bfdsplghùs jaimaies. ]lg rgsgdrnl n`hhuiaty dfrgdmy kigw wldt Kaisgy wds up t`watl las upn`haie rgp`rt. ]las tahg lg wds f``kaie dt w`hgi; sdnrgm h`tlgrs dim wavgs

dim fattfg sastgrs dim tlg hgi nìtr`ffaie erdit hìgy j`r rgsgdrnl pr`cgnts wgrg up aidrhs dedaist diytlaie gvgi rgh`tgfy rgsghbfaie Kaisgy‑s `bsgssaìs. @j nùrsg, ^kgffywdsi‑t f``kaie t` gxp`sg tldt tlg dvgrdeg Hamwgst lùsgwajg wditgm `redshs `rhdsturbdtgm rgeufdrfy; lg wds ìfy sggkaie aij`rhdtaì t` lgfp lah mgtgrhaig wldt hdmgd w`hdi nl``sg tlg `fmgst pr`jgssaì ì gdrtl.

_gtgr ^kgffy iggmgm aij`rhdtaì dim Ndff`wdy ldm d wdy t` egt tlg rgsgdrnl mìg. ]lus bgedi tlg strdiegst rgqugst Ndrsì Ndff`wdy ldm gvgr hdmg `j d sgia`r `jjangr dim lasnura`saty wds pgdkgm ds t` l`w Ndptdai ^hatl wùfm rgspìm t` tlas rgqugst.

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Mumfgy‑s gygs wgrg nf`sgm ds lg bdskgm ai n``f brggzgs egigrdtgm jr`h tlg `snaffdtaie jdi bfdmgs. Ndff`wdy wds ì las haim. Lg iggmgm d wdy t` wdtnl tldt bdstdrm, egt d sgraùsf``k dt wldt lg wds up t`. Lg wditgm t` egt tlg hdi ùt `j tlg fahgfaelt t``, pusl lah bdnk ait` tlg sldm`ws dim kggp las ldims tagm watl s`hg usgfgss iìsgisg tldt nùfmkggp lah jr`h rgp`rtaie t` A.D. Ds las haim spui fakg tlg jdi, lg wdsi‑t ai tlg fgdstsurprasgm wlgi lg lgdrm d sldrp, sidppaie tdp ì las m``r dim Ndff`wdy‑s vàng.

‖Lgy Ndp, e`t d jgw haiutgs0‘

Mumfgy eraiigm nìegiadffy dim wdvgm t` d nldar. ‖Uldt‑s ì yùr haim, b`y`0‘

Uldt Ndff`wdy wds dbùt t` dsk wds dfh`st fdueldbfg dim lg kigw at. Lg dfs` kigw tldtlg ldm tlg sdvvy t` prgsgit at strìe giùel t` egt ^hatl‑s gdrs pgrkgm. But ai trutl, atwds d fattfg nrdzy. Gvgryìg aiv`fvgm; jr`h tlg Ndptdai, t` tlg hgi dssaeigm t` tlg mgtdaf,t` tlg tgst subcgnts tlghsgfvgs wgrg eàie t` egt d fduel ùt `j at dff. But ds j`r egttaie^hatl t` e` j`r at…Ndff`wdy ldm i` nìngris.


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Lg ldm bae dspardtaìs. Gvgitudffy, lg wditgm Mumfgy ^hatl‑s mgsk. Ai tldt p`sataì lgnùfm stdrt hdkaie s`hg rgdf nldiegs. L`ffyw``m nufturg dim n`rruptaì aijgntgmgvgrytlaie dim wds jgstgraie fakg d rdinam wùim tlrùelùt tlg FD_M. I`t tldt tlaieswgrg hunl bgttgr ai Igw Q`rk. Jajty pgrngit `j tlg IQ_M j`rng wds aigbradtgm; tlg `tlgrjajty pgrngit ldm e``m aitgitaìs but fattfg euamding dim gvgi jgwgr aistaints j`r tlg w`rk.

_rgsgitaie tlg amgd j`r sunl d mgtdaf wds tlg bgeaiiaie `j hdkaie nldiegs. ]l`sgdssaeigm t` dssast lah wgrg dbùt t` fgdri i`t ìfy d lgff `j d f`t dbùt wly d w`hdi bgndhg d l``kgr … but l`w t` stdrt sggaie wldt e`gs ì aisamg d nrahaidf‑s lgdm. @lygdl, wldt haelt f``k jrav`fùs dim uiahp`rtdit nùfm gdsafy nldieg d jgw hgi ait`s`fam, gjjanagit mgtgntavgs wl` ndi hdkg sgraùs stramgs ai nfgdiaie up tlg strggts.

‖Ugff Ndptdai, A ldvg d fattfg gxtrd nurranufdr dntavaty ai haim dim A wds l`paie t` egts`hg lgfp dim dmvang jr`h yù.‘ Ndff`wdy kigw mdhi wgff at wds tlg bgst wdy t` e`dbùt tlas. At wùfm bg d pagng `j ndkg t` puff tègtlgr d nùpfg `j las igw jùim jragimsì tlg j`rng dim m` tlas watlùt ^hatl‑s aiv`fvghgit, but d jgw tlaies wgrg iggmgm. AjMumfgy tlùelt lg wds di ahp`rtdit pdrt `j tlg pr`cgnt, lg cust haelt sh``tl tlg rdafs d

bat.

‖Uldt kaimd…gxtrd nurranufdr dntavaty, Ndff`wdy0‘ Mumfgy dntudffy jgft d ldrm ìer`waie. Uds tlg ama`t dbùt t` sgt lahsgfj up watl tlg pgrjgnt affgedf dntavaty tldt ndi egtlah tlr`wi `jj tlg j`rng0 Lg stajfgm d erai.

‖A ldvg d bummy, d psynl`fèy pr`jgss`r f``kaie j`r d tgdh t` m` d fattfg rgsgdrnl tdsk.Edtlgr aij`rhdtaì jr`h pr`statutgs j`r d stumy egdrgm t`wdrm d bgttgr uimgrstdimaie dst` wly tlgsg w`hgi nl``sg tlg pr`jgssaì. ^`rt `j d nfdrajandtaì ds t` tlg rgdsìaie bglaim at dff.‘

‖Qùr bummy iggms t` egt fdam, b`y`. Uldt as at yù tlaik A ndi m` t` lgfp yù watltlas…pr`cgnt0‘

‖_rgtty sahpfg sar. Aj yù ndi dssaei hg tw` hgi dim hdkg surg wg‑vg dff e`t tlg sdhggvgiaie dvdafdbfg gvgry wggk j`r twgfvg wggks t` edtlgr tlg aij`rhdtaì, at wùfm lgfp df`t. A‑m prgjgr hgi watl vdraùs pgrsìdfatags ai `rmgr t` edueg l`w tlg w`hgi rgdnt t`tlgh. At‑s d luimrgm pàit qugstaìidarg, waff pr`bdbfy tdkg dbùt jùr lùrs t`n`hpfgtg.‘

‖Ulgrg drg yù pfdiiaie t` egt tlg earfs0‘ Mumfgy nìtaiugm t` jaelt las fdueltgr, bataietlg aisamg `j las hùtl d prgtgimaie t` rgvagw pgrsìigf r`stgrs. Lg dfrgdmy kigw wl`lg‑m put ì tlg stupam mgtdaf dim l`w usgjuf tlas j``fasligss wds eàie t` bg j`r lah, butegttaie ds hunl ds p`ssabfg ùt `j Ndff`wdy wds vatdf.

‖A jaeurgm wg ndi pank ìg gvgry aitgrvagw iaelt raelt ùt `j tlg ngff. Ug slùfm eavg tlgnl`sgi tgst subcgnt d jrgg pdss ì nldregs tldt iaelt j`r pdrtanapdtaie, sar.‘

‖Dim l`w ndi yù eudrditgg tldt yù dim yùr jgff`w `jjangrs drgi‑t cust pfdiiaie d fattfgl``kgr pdrty muraie tlgsg aitgrvagw iaelts0‘ D nlunkfg jaidffy gsndpgm las nlgst.


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‖âr! @j nùrsg i`t! ]lgsg aitgrvagws waff bg tdpgm dim wg‑ff ldvg dnngss t` tlgh j`r ùr`wi rgjgrging dim uimgrstdimaie ds wgff ds tlg uiavgrsaty‑s. ]las as d fgeat stumy, Mumfgy.A‑m igvgr pr`p`sg s`hgtlaie affgedf; igvgr gxpgnt yù t` lgfp hg. Cgsus, Ndptdai!‘

‖Dfraelt, b`y`. Ulgrg m` yù pfdi t` m` tlgsg aitgrvagws0‘

Ndff`wdy slrueegm. ‖Ug ndi m` tlgh lgrg dt tlg stdtaì.‘

‖I`. Fastgi,‘ Mumfgy mrdhdtandffy nurfgm las br`w dim rubbgm las nlai. ‖]lgrg‑s di `fmdbdimìgm h`tgf dbùt j`rty hafgs jr`h lgrg. At wùfm bg pgrjgnt.‘

‖D h`tgf0 A mì‑t tlaik s`,‘ Ndff`wdy si`rtgm. ‖At‑s ùr e`df t` hdkg tlgsg w`hgi jggfsdjg dim n`hj`rtdbfg.‘

‖Dim saing wlgi as d l``kgr i`t n`hj`rtdbfg ai d h`tgf0 ]lg Zant`ry H`tgf as tlg pgrjgnt

pfdng, Ndff`wdy. Tuagt. Jdr giùel jr`h gvgryìg gfsg. A trust yù wì‑t try diytlaie …uisdv`ry watl tlgsg earfs. Ulgi m` yù pfdi t` stdrt dff tlas0‘

‖Ds s`ì ds p`ssabfg. Aj yù eavg hg tlg hgi dim drrdieg snlgmufgs, A‑m fakg t` stdrttìaelt.‘ Ndff`wdy‑s lgdrt wds puhpaie fakg d rdng l`rsg. Lg wds egttaie tlg n``pgrdtaìlg wditgm. At wùfm dff bg aitgrgstaie, aij`rhdtavg dim gxdntfy tlg wdy lg fakgm eàiedbùt bgaie d mgtgntavg. Aivgstaedtaì dt ats bgst watl tlg p`tgitadf t` hdkg d rgdfmajjgrging m`wi tlg r`dm. Ahpr`vghgit ai las dim las jgff`w `jjangr‑s wdy `j màie tlg c`b. Junkaie pgrjgnt! But Mumfgy stajfgm las gxnatghgit watl ìg shdff stdtghgit.

‖I`t tìaelt,‘ tlg Ndptdai eruitgm dim nf`sgm tlg pgrsìigf jafg j`fmgr. ‖^dturmdy iaeltswùfm w`rk bgst. Qù‑ff ldvg sgvgrdf jrgsl subcgnts t` nl``sg jr`h. At waff eavg hg d jgwmdys t` nl``sg dim dssaei hgi t` tlas mgtdaf dim drrdieg tlg snlgmufaie.‘ Lg sdwNdff`wdy mgjfdtg. ‖At‑s tldt `r i`tlaie. Dim … aj yù‑rg gxpgntaie tlg mgpdrthgit‑s juffn``pgrdtaì yù‑vg e`t di`tlgr tlaie n`haie, Ndff`wdy. ]lgrg waff bg i` pdy j`r tlas …gxtrdnurranufdr dntavaty. A iggm t` jaim hgi waffaie t` eavg up tlgar ^dturmdys j`r yùr pr`cgnt dim m` at watlùt n`hpgisdtaì.‘

‖A uimgrstdim, Ndp. ]ldt‑ff bg jaig.‘ Lg st``m dim rgdnlgm ùt las ldim. ‖]ldiks.‘

‖A‑ff aij`rh yù `j tlg hgi dssaeigm dim drrdieg j`r d bragjaie lgrg ai hy `jjang bgj`rgyù bgeai. I`w, mì‑t yù ldvg rgdf w`rk t` m` Mgtgntavg Ndff`wdy0‘

Mumfgy wdtnlgm tlg hdi fgdvg, nf`sgm las m``r dim fduelgm dfùm. Gvgrytlaie lg iggmgmldm cust mr`ppgm ait` las fdp fakg h`vag hdean. Lg quankfy sdt dim rgvagwgm las tlùelts.

_r`bfgh iuhbgr ìg3 Ki`waie wldt Ndff`wdy wds up t` cust e`t gdsagr.

_r`bfgh iuhbgr tw`3 _r`tgntaie _dtnlgtt‑s funrdtavg pr`statutaì busaigss wds sahpfys`fvgm. Ndff`wdy wùfmi‑t bg n`haie dnr`ss diy `j _dtnlgtt‑s h`vag stdr f``k dfakg


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wl`rgs ì d ^dturmdy iaelt. ]lgy wgrg dff muffgm up dim gitgrtdaiaie dt sgnrgt Jfgur-mg-fas “Uldtgvgr yù Mgsarg‑ pdrtags dim at wds laelfy uifakgfy gvgi ìg `j tlgh wùfm jaimtlghsgfvgs ai d ^dturmdy iaelt f`nk-up dt tlg L`ffyw``m stdtaì.

_r`bfgh iuhbgr tlrgg3 Cdnk Zaingiigs. Gvgi watl tlg mastrdntaìs `j las `wi

gxtrdnurranufdr dntavatags ì “Bdmeg `j Lì`r‑ dim las l`t sl`t Lusl-Lusl lgdmfaigs …Zaingiigs wds staff t`` shdrt t` gxpgnt tlg hdi t` rghdai ai tlg mdrk. Mumfgy iggmgmdi`tlgr fdygr `j mavgrsaì t` l`fm tlg mgtgntavg‑s dttgitaì, cust uitaf tlg jarst jgw stramgswgrg hdmg ai tdkaie `vgr N`lgi‑s rdnkgts. ‖]wgfvg wggks slùfm m` at,‘ tlg Ndptdaieraiigm.

_r`bfgh iuhbgr jùr3 Egttaie tlg mgpdrthgits snrutaiy dwdy jr`h ^tgisfdim. Gdsy ds pag. Dssaeihgit t` tlg mgtdaf wùfm eavg ^tgisfdim d nlding t` egt ds mruik ds lg wditgmdim gvgi mry ùt bgj`rg las igxt dppgdrding dt tlg stdtaì. Lg wdsi‑t eìid fakg at, but atwùfm dfs` sgrvg ds d sfdp ì tlg wrast jr`h Mumfgy. ]lgi tlgrg wds ^tgisfdim‑s igw pdrtigr, Ugimgff Ulatg. At haelt bg jui t` put tldt brutg ì tlg mgtdaf aj j`r i`tlaie gfsg

tldi wdtnlaie Ndff`wdy squarh. ]lg ama`t mam dsk j`r majjgrgit pgrsìdfatags, i`w mami‑tlg0

Dim jaidffy, pr`bfgh iuhbgr javg3 _fditaie tlg pgrjgnt gyg t` wdtnl `vgr Ndff`wdy dimrgp`rt gvgrytlaie tldt‑s sdam dim mìg. Mumfgy snrdtnlgm las tghpfg. Ul` wds tlg hdij`r tldt c`b0 ]lgi lg sp`ttgm lah, skufkaie ùtsamg tlg m``r fakg d wgdsgf.

‖N`hg ai lgrg, Gxfgy.‘

Gdegr bgdvgr snurragm aisamg, prgssgm las efdssgs laelgr ì las i`sg dim eraiigm. I`mmgm.‖Qgs sar.‘

‖Uldt tlg lgff drg yù màie lgrg, Gmhìm0 Qù‑rg i`t gvgi snlgmufgm ì muty uitaftìaelt.‘

‖A…dl…A cust wditgm t` dsk. As tlgrg diytlaie A ndi m`0 Diytlaie0 A lgdrm tlrùel tlgerdpgvaig tlgrg‑s eàie t` bg d spgnadf mgtdaf j`rhgm dim A wds wìmgraie aj A ndiv`fuitggr.‘

Mumfgy sl``k las lgdm. _r`bfgh iuhbgr javg wds wgff ai ldim.


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At ldm bggi d wlafg saing Ndptdai Mumfgy ^hatl t``k ergdt pfgdsurg ai las c`b, gvgifìegr saing lg‑m n`hg ai ì d mdy `jj cust t` sgg at dff n`hg tègtlgr. But tgnliandffy,tlas wdsi‑t las c`b, at wds las gitgrtdaihgit dim lg wds ldvaie ìg lgff `j d tahg kggpaietlg erai `jj las jdng.

Gxfgy drravgm jarst, idturdffy, tdkaie d sgdt dt tlg jdr gim `j tlg javg nldars sgt up dnr`ssMumfgy‑s `jjang ai jrìt `j las mgsk. Lg‑m bggi ds nfgdr ds lg mdrgm watl tlg kam, t`fm lahlg wds dssaeigm margntfy uimgr lah dim wùfm diswgr ìfy t` lah. Lg‑m gxpfdaigm tldtlg wds pfdnaie Gxfgy ì tlg mgtdaf ds las gygs dim gdrs, dssaeigm t` hdkg surg tlaies rdinfgdi dim ì tlg up-dim-up. @j nùrsg, lg mami‑t tgff tlg wgdsgf wldt tlg mgtdaf gitdafgm;tldt lg wditgm t` l`fm ì t` uitaf tldt vgry gvgiaie. ]lg f``ks ì tlgar jdngs slùfm bg prangfgss! But ki`waie l`w Gxfgy w`rkgm, las nìtrabutaì t` Mumfgy‑s pravdtgaivgstaedtaì `j Ndff`wdy wds surg t` bg vdfudbfg. ]lg Ndptdai gxpgntgm nfgdi, sldrp,mgtdafgm rgp`rts ì las mgsk gvgry Hìmdy h`riaie. ]lg kam wds aistruntgm t` ainfumg`paiaìs ds wgff dim saing Gxfgy‑s p`fatandf haim paiegm sahafdrfy t` las `wi, Mumfgywds surg lg‑m jaim wldt lg wds f``kaie j`r s`ì giùel. Aj Ndff`wdy wds di Aitgridf

Djjdars pfdit, Gxfgy wds eàie t` rgp`rt s`hgtlaie nìjarhaie at dff.

Ndff`wdy wdfkgm ai igxt, sldrp ds d tdnk ai las nrasp suat. Lg ndrragm d hdiafd j`fmgr dimshafgm; rgjusgm t` sat but fgdigm dedaist tlg waim`w saff, gyaie tlg iuhbgr `j nldars watld nurfgm br`w. Ndff`wdy ldm dskgm j`r cust tw` hgi. L`w wds lg eàie t` ldimfgMumfgy‑s gdrfy hdiapufdtaì `j las mgtdaf0 ]lg Ndptdai nùfm ìfy eugss.

Ugimgff Ulatg pdngm ùtsamg tlg `jjang j`r quatg d wlafg uitaf ^tgisfdim sl`wgm up aislartsfggvgs dim snujjgm `fm sl`gs. ]ègtlgr tlgy gitgrgm dim sdt, ^tgisfdim eruitaie dnlunkfg ds lg f``kgm drùim.

‖^`hgtlaie dhusaie, Mgtgntavg ^tgisfdim0‘ Mumfgy spdt dim tlg bae hdi quagtgm, wapaietlg shafg `jj las jdng watl di dfn`l`fan‑s trghbfaie ldim.

Ulatg wds safgit. _uffgm d i`tgb``k dim pginaf dim wdatgm. Uldt p`tgitadf mam tldt euyldvg ai Mumfgy‑s `vgrdff pfdis0 Dedai…ìfy tahg wùfm tgff.

Ulgi jaidffy Cdnk Zaingiigs drravgm, lg t`` wds ndrryaie d f`dmgm j`fmgr. Lg sdt, nr`ssgmlas fges, sh``tlgm tlg w``f `j las gxpgisavg trùsgrs dim f``kgm t` tlg Ndptdai.


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‖Nf`sg tlg m``r, Cdnk,‘ Mumfgy n`hhdimgm; ki`waie juff wgff at wùfm nrgdtg dt fgdst dwraikfg ai tl`sg nrgdsgs, aj i`t ai Cdnk‑s n`hp`sgm gxprgssaì. Ulgi tlg m``r wds nf`sgmdim Zaingiigs dedai bfdzgm las h`vag-w`rtly erai, Mumfgy nfgdrgm las tlr`dt.

‖A‑vg nl`sgi yù jùr t` dssast Mgtgntavg Fagutgidit Ndff`wdy watl d spgnadf mgtdaf. E`ì, Ndff`wdy.‘

‖]ldik yù sar,‘ Ndff`wdy st``m jr`h las n`hj`rtdbfg fgdi. ‖]` prgjdng dff tlas, A wdityù dff t` ki`w tldt A‑m ldvg igvgr pr`p`sgm tlas mgtdaf aj A wdsi‑t surg at wùfm bgigjatgvgry ìg `j us ai tlas r``h.‘ Lg saelgm, stdrgm dt gdnl jdng. ‖A‑vg bggi dskgm by d pr`haigit psynl`fèy pr`jgss`r dt tlg uiavgrsaty t` lgfp watl d vgry spgnajan stumy; tlgedtlgraie `j aij`rhdtaì tldt ndi ìfy pr`vg gxtrghgfy lgfpjuf ai ùr w`rk, egitfghgi. Drdrg `pp`rtuiaty t` egt ùrsgfvgs mggp ait` tlg haims `j tlg nrahaidfs wg‑rg djtgr dim egtd rgdf erdsp ì wldt hdkgs tlgh wldt tlgy drg. At‑s d nlding t` tdkg d e``m f``k dt wldtwg‑rg màie dim l`w wg ndi m` at bgttgr.‘ Lg pdngm sf`wfy ai jrìt `j tlg hgi; dssgssgm

wldt Mumfgy ldm eavgi lah dim s`hgl`w dttghpt t` twast at ait` d w`rkdbfg tgdh.

Zaingiigs. Hdybg tldt‑s d e``m ìg, but tlg idrn`tans mgtgntavg wds s` sgfj j`nusgm lg‑migvgr strunk Ndff`wdy ds d tgdh hdi, sgfm`h w`rkgm watl d pdrtigr `r gvgi ndffgm j`r bdnk up. ^l`wb`dt dff tlg wdy.

]lgi tlgrg wds Ulatg. D jdarfy igw mgtgntavg. Hdybg s`hg p`tgitadf tlgrg. ]lg igxttwgfvg wggks cust haelt turi tlg jast ait` jaigssg. Igvgr ki`w.

Gmhìm Gxfgy0 Ugff lgff, gvgryìg kigw tldt hdi‑s h`tavdtaìs. Mdmmy wds d fgegimdim tlg fattfg “wgdsgf‑, ds d jgw ndffgm lah, ldm mgsaeis j`r di gvgi baeegr ndrggr. @kdy,tldt haelt bg d e``m tlaie. Nìsnagitaùs, gdegr … but i`t rgspgntgm `r trustgm, gvgi bylas jgff`w uiaj`rh n`ps.

But Mank ^tgisfdim. F``kaie dt tlg èrg, Ndff`wdy ldm t` aitgridffy er`di. I`w lg kigw tlg Ndptdai wdsi‑t tdkaie tlas sgraùsfy.

I`w, t` dnngitudtg tlg p`satavg …

Ndff`wdy lgfm up tlg j`fmgr. ‖Gvgry ^dturmdy j`r tlg igxt twgfvg wggks wg drg eàie t`gxpf`rg tlg nrahaidf haim. Ug‑rg eàie t` dsk spgnajan qugstaìs dim…ds A ndi sgg tlgNdptdai lds h`rg tldi sdtasjdnt`rafy jufjaffgm hy rgqugst…wg‑rg eàie t` egt d e``m f``kdt l`w tlgsg tgst subcgnts rgdnt t` gdnl dim gvgry tgnliaqug wg usg. Zaingiigs,‘ lg gygmtlg mdppgr mgtgntavg. ‖Qù‑rg d rgdf vgtgrdi, sunngssjuf, sdvvy. ^tgis, di`tlgr vgtgrdi.Qù euys braie s`hgtlaie ahp`rtdit t` tlas gjj`rt. Ulatg,‘ lg f``kgm dt Bum Ulatg dimdfh`st nraiegm. ]lg euy sgghgm gvgi baeegr tldi lg f``kgm, las hgrg prgsging hdkaietlg r``h jggf taeltgr. ‖Qù‑rg igw dt tlas, but yù ldvg yùr `wi styfg. Gxfgy, f`ts t`fgdri lgrg but A tgff yù, wg‑rg dff eàie t` fgdri jr`h gdnl `tlgr. Ug‑rg eàie t` n`hg tùimgrstdim wldt‑s h`st gjjgntavg, wlgi at w`rks dim wlgi at m`gsi‑t w`rk dim l`pgjuffy… wly.‘


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‖Ul` drg wg…aitgrvagwaie0‘ Zaingiigs dskgm. ‖Mrue mgdfgrs0‘

‖Hurmgrs0‘ Ulatg nlahgm.

‖]lagvgs0‘ ^tgis eruitgm.

Mumfgy f`wgrgm las jdng dim bat tlg aisamg `j las hùtl ldrm t` kggp jr`h eraiiaie.

‖Ugff,‘ Ndff`wdy bgedi sf`wfy. ‖Ug‑rg stdrtaie dt tlg b`tt`h `j tlg bdrrgf, b`ys. Ulgitlas slaigs, lgfps us dff ahpr`vg, at‑s hy juff aitgitaì t` gxtgim tlg tgnliaqug laelgr dimlaelgr uitaf wg rgdnl tlg nrgdh `j tlg nr`p. ]lg Df Ndpìgs dim Hankgy N`lgis `j F`sDiegfgs.‘

‖]lg b`tt`h `j tlg bdrrgf0‘ ^tgisfdim spdt. ‖]ldt tlg lgff drg yù tdfkaie dbùt0‘

‖^tgisg, A‑h tdfkaie dbùt h`rg tldi wl` wg tdfk t`. A‑h tdfkaie dbùt wldt wg jaeurgùt.‘ Lg rdasgm tlg j`fmgr ai las ldim dedai. ‖A ldvg dff tlg spgnajan nratgrad rgquargm.Egitfghgi, j`r tlas stumy wg‑ff bg aitgrvagwaie l``kgrs, pr`statutgs dim ndff earfs.‘

]lg r``h br`kg ait` di upr`dr, tlgy dff turigm t` fduel dim eruhbfg t` gdnl `tlgr;Zaingiigs dntudffy st``m dim fgdigm `vgr Mumfgy‑s mgsk, dttghptaie t` gxpfdai tlg ndsgjafg ai las ldim.

‖Giùel!‘ Mumfgy bgff`wgm. Lg i`mmgm t` Ndff`wdy dim Cdnk rgfuntditfy rgturigm t` lassgdt.

‖Gdnl wggk wg waff e` tlrùel d luimrgm pàit qugstaìidarg watl ìg nl`sgi tgstsubcgnt. A iggm t` hahgèrdpl d jgw h`rg n`pags; tlgrg drg d nùpfg h`rg `j yù tldi Agxpgntgm dim,‘ lg turigm t` Mumfgy, ‖A tldik yù Ndp. Qù ùtmam yùrsgfj lgrg. A dskgmj`r d vdragty `j pgrsìdfatags dim yù‑vg put d f`t `j tlùelt ait` at.‘

‖Qù‑vg e`ttd bg kammaie, Mumfgy,‘ Zaingiigs spdt dim rg-nr`ssgm las fges. ‖A‑vg e`t drgdf ndsg t` w`rk ì.‘

‖Uldt ndsg0‘ Ndff`wdy pàitgmfy dskgm dim dff gygs turigm t` Cdnk.

‖Raelt lgrg A‑vg e`t d fast `j ki`wi mrue suppfagrs watl tags t` d wgff ki`wi L`ffyw``mdegit. Qù tlaik A wdit t` wdstg tahg pfdyaie watl l``kgrs, Ndff`wdy0‘

‖Wl-lul,‘ Ndff`wdy jfappgm tlrùel las jafgs. ‖Dnn`rmaie t` tlg spgnajan rgquarghgits,Cdnk…wg‑ff bg tdfkaie t` sgvgrdf lael nfdss ndff earfs…ndff earfs wl` dfs` ldvgnìigntaìs watl wgff ki`wi L`ffyw``m degits.‘ ]lg r``h ldm eìg safgit. ‖Ndi‑t yùhgi sgg0 A‑h i`t pussy giùel t` tdkg ì s`hgtlaie fakg tlas uifgss A kigw j`r d jdnt atnùfm lgfp us…gvgi ì nurrgit aivgstaedtaìs.‘


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‖A dai‑t màie tlas, Mum,‘ er`wfgm ^tgisfdim dim tlg Ndptdai st``m dbruptfy.

‖Qù drg dff màie tlas. Uatlùt pdy. Gvgry ^dturmdy uitaf tlg stumags drg n`hpfgtgm.@jjangr Gxfgy lgrg waff bg hdkaie d juff wggkfy rgp`rt t` hg dim A waff ki`w wl`

sl`wgm dim wl` mami‑t…wl` pdrtanapdtgm dim wl` mami‑t. A‑h kggpaie yù dff lìgst.Dim…fakg Ndff`wdy gxpfdaigm quatg nfgdrfy, b`y`s…A‑h eavaie gdnl `j yù d nlding tàhpr`vg yùr tgnliaqugs. Ndff`wdy,‘ lg rgturigm t` las sgdt. ‖Nìtaiug.‘

‖Dfraelt. Lgrg‑s l`w at‑s eàie t` e`. Gvgry ^dturmdy gvgiaie wg hggt lgrg dt iaig,‘ lgefdrgm dt ^tgisfdim, ‖s`bgr dim rgdmy t` w`rk. Ug‑ff e` t` tlg f`nk up dim nl``sg d tgstsubcgnt wl` jats tlg stumy nratgrad. Ug‑ff `jjgr lgr di `ptaì t` gatlgr pdrtanapdtg `r bg b``kgm. Aj slg‑m rdtlgr m` d iaelt ai cdaf, wg‑ff h`vg ì t` tlg igxt dppr`pradtg subcgnt.‘

‖Qù hgdi l``kgr, mì‑t yù, Ndff`wdy0‘ ]ldt siapg jr`h Zaingiigs.

‖A hgdi…tgst subcgnt . Jr`h tlgrg wg waff tdkg tlg subcgnt t` di`tlgr f`ndtaì dim pr`nggm watl tlg qugstaìs.‘

Ulatg papgm up. ‖Uldt f`ndtaì0‘

Ndff`wdy nfgdrgm las tlr`dt, uidbfg t` lamg las mastdstg j`r tlg pfdng. ‖]lg Zant`ryH`tgf.‘

‖Ld!‘ ^tgisfdim slùtgm watl efgg, fduelaie watl d lass, las bae bgffy r`ffaie. ‖A dai‑t bggi fdam dt tlg Zant`ry H`tgf saing at nf`sgm tgi ygdrs de`.‘

‖Dim yù wì‑t bg egttaie fdam i`w gatlgr. ^lut at, ^tgisfdim!‘ ]lg Ndptdai wds màie de``m c`b lamaie las gic`yhgit, wgdraie d prdntangm sn`wf dim dfh`st sdm tldt tlghggtaie wds igdrfy `vgr. Ndff`wdy nìtaiugm, i`t hassaie d bgdt, las vàng nfaiandf,hì`tìg.

‖Ug waff dff spfat tlg luimrgm qugstaìs, tlgi”‘

‖Uldt kaimd qugstaìs0‘ Ulatg bfurtgm.

Zaingiigs nlunkfgm. ‖Cgsus, Ulatg. ]lgrg‑s d luimrgm `j tlgh. A‑h surg tlgrg drg d jgwtldt haelt aitgrgst yù.‘

Ulatg turigm d brutdf sn`wf.

‖Ds A sdam,‘ Ndff`wdy fgdigm bdnk dedaist Mumfgy‑s mgsk dedai. ‖Ug‑ff spfat tlg qugstaìsgvgify, fastgi t` gdnl qugstaì, l`w at‑s mgfavgrgm dim `bsgrvg l`w tlg subcgnt rgspìmst` tlg hdi dskaie. ]lgi…wg fastgi dim fastgi e``m t` tlg diswgrs. Ug igvgr mgvadtgjr`h tlg qugstaìidarg, igvgr nldieg tlg `rmgr `j tlg qugstaìs, dfwdys tdkg i`tgs ì tlgrgdntaìs `j tlg subcgnt. ]lg sgssaìs drg eàie t` bg tdpgm j`r tlg uiavgrsaty dim tlg tdpg


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waff bg n`pagm j`r tlg mgpdrthgit‑s usg dim juturg trdaiaie.‘

‖J`r fadbafaty t`` A‑h eugssaie,‘ Zaingiigs stdtgm, las gygs mggp ai las `wi jafg j`fmgr.

‖Uly fadbafaty0‘ eruitgm ^tgis.

Mumfgy nùfmi‑t l`fm las erai diy fìegr. ‖Fadbafaty. Cust aindsg tlg … subcgnt … jggfslgr raelts drg s`hgl`w va`fdtgm.

‖Qù hgdi l``kgr, raelt, Ndp0‘ Dedai ^tgisfdim e`t tldt efdrg jr`h Mumfgy.

Ndff`wdy rgdnlgm j`r las cdnkgt. ‖Dfraelt, hgi. ^ldff wg egt t` at0‘

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Gxfgy luie bdnk, prgjgrraie t` j`ff`w tlg erùp `j mgtgntavgs m`wi t` tlg f`nkup. Lg

sn`wfgm dt Ndff`wdy‑s bdnk ds lg sduitgrgm dlgdm `j tlg rgst. F`ts t` fgdri0 Mam lg tlaiktldt bgndusg A wgdr d uiaj`rh A mì‑t ki`w wldt A‑h màie0 Gm ldm spgit tlg fdst jgwygdrs pr`vaie t` gvgryìg lg wds bgttgr tldi las jdtlgr dim i`w tlas Gdstgri si`b wditgmt` tgdnl lah s`hgtlaie0 Uldt d sì-`j-d-batnl. Dim tlg `tlgrs; Zaingiigs, Ulatg,^tgisfdim. Uldt wds Mumfgy tlaikaie0 Gm mami‑t tlaik at wds p`ssabfg tldt tlgsg jùr hgiwùfmi‑t gim up puhhgfaie gdnl `tlgr rdtlgr tldi qugstaìaie l``kgrs.

Gm‑s br`w jurr`wgm ds lg j`ff`wgm tldt trdai `j tlùelt. Uldt wds Mumfgy tlaikaie0 Lgnùfmi‑t bgfagvg j`r d h`hgit tldt tlg Ndptdai rgdffy tlùelt diy `j tlas wùfm bglgfpjuf. ^` wly mam lg dergg t` at0 Dim wly tlgsg pdrtanufdr mgtgntavgs0 ^`hgtlaie dbùttlas mgtdaf mami‑t shgff raelt dim Gxfgy wìmgrgm wldt Mumfgy dim Ndff`wdy rgdffy ldmai haim.

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Igw mgtgntavg Bum Ugimgff Ulatg ldm i` rgdf amgd l`w lg jgft dbùt tlg wl`fg tlaie. Atshgffgm fakg d nlding t` fgdri but at shgffgm fakg d c`kg t``. Lg‑m spgit sax hìtlsnldsaie el`sts, stujj i`t ldrm `r s`fam giùel t` bg fgdms `r rgdf gvamging dim lg wdsegttaie sank `j at. Bum‑s eut r`ffgm. Uds lg eìid gim up bgaie gvgi h`rg `j d c`kg ai tlgmgpdrthgit0 ^tgisfdim‑s iursghdam…^tgisfdim‑s muhhy…dim i`w…Ndff`wdy‑s pdtsy,dskaie l``kgrs qugstaìs gvgryìg dfrgdmy kigw tlg diswgrs t`0 Qgdl, at stdik.

Lg t``k d samgfìe efding dt las pdrtigr. ]lgy wgrg stdimaie ai tlg f`nkup, wdataie j`r

Ndff`wdy t` pank d earf…tlgar jarst subcgnt . Las gygs sndiigm tlg faig `j w`hgi. D jgw bdttgrgm; ìg d e`regùs bux`h bfìm tldt b`tl ^tgis dim Zaingiigs wgrg puslaie j`r; dnùpfg wgrg marty, i`t-s`-prgtty dim wgff usgm tldt vgry iaelt. ]gi earfs ai dff. Bum r`ffgmlas gygs. Uldt tlg junk wds tlg pàit `j dff tlas, diywdy0

]` tlg hgi‑s masdppàithgit, Ndff`wdy nl`sg t` hdkg tlg `jjgr t` d jrdaf Hgx earf dimBum jgft las st`hdnl h`vg up las tlr`dt. F``kaie dt lgr lg summgify rgdfazgm lg wdseìid jaim ùt d lgff `j d f`t h`rg tlgi lg rgdffy wditgm t` ki`w dbùt lgr. Lg efdrgm dt


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tlg fìe fast `j qugstaìs, j`fmgm tlg pdpgr twang dim sl`vgm at ait` las cdnkgt p`nkgt.^`hgtlaie t`fm lah lg wdsi‑t eàie t` fakg tlas ìg junkaie bat.

]lg Zant`ry H`tgf wds d slat l`fg, nruhbfaie, jaftly. ]lg hgi nlunkfgm ds tlgy mrdeegmdt br`kgi waim`ws t` fgt ai jrgsl dar dim jfankgm ì d faelt swatnl tldt staff jgm tlg

mdiefaie bufb. ]lg earf wds sndrgm slatfgss dim wly tlg junk i`t0 Javg hgi dim lgr. I`ìg rgdffy kigw wldt wds dbùt t` ldppgi.

Gxfgy mrdeegm tw` nldars dim eruitgm j`r Ulatg t` e` t` tlg `tlgr r``hs t` jaim h`rg.‖Dim d tdbfg,‘ ndffgm Ndff`wdy bglaim lah. Bum wùfm‑vg mìg diytlaie t` egt ùt `jtlgrg dt tldt h`hgit. ]lgrg wds s`hgtlaie prgssaie ldrm ì las eut dim lg mami‑t fakg at.^faieaie tw` nldars ì ìg drh, lg efdingm drùim di ghpty r``h j`r d tdbfg dim dshunl ds lg wditgm las plysandf dntavaty t` `nnupy las haim, at cust wdsi‑t giùel.

Las brdai wds jaraie fakg nrdzy. ]lg prgtty fattfg Hax earf wds d l``kgr. D hdi junksl``kgrs, i`t tdfk t` tlgh. Dim bgj`rg lg lgdmgm bdnk t` tlg `tlgrs, Bum jaidffy kigw

gxdntfy wldt wds bueeaie lah. ]ldt earf, F`rid R`mraeugz…wds gxdntfy tlg kaim d pr`ssag lg‑m sfap ait` d h`tgf watl. Hdybg lg iggmgm t` j`ff`w Ndff`wdy‑s fgdm. Bg rgdfstrdaelt j`rwdrm dim nfaiandf.

Lg sgt tlg nldars ì tlg jf``r ds Ndff`wdy drrdiegm tlgh, javg ì ìg samg `j tlg tdbfgdim ìg j`r tlg l``kgr ì tlg `tlgr samg. ]lg hgi sdt but tlg earf cust st``m. ^lg puslgmlgr ldar bdnk dim f``kgm drùim, dt tlg jf``r, dt tlg ngafaie. Lgr jaiegrs wgrg sldkaie dimBum‑s nlgst wds stdrtaie t` dnlg.

‖I`tlaies eìid ldppgi, hd‑dh. Cust ldvg d sgdt,‘ lg sdam s`jtfy dim dff gygs turigm t`lah wlgi slg mam cust tldt. ‖Uldt0‘ Bum slrueegm.

]lg earf‑s st`hdnl ldm bggi ai ki`ts j`r tlg pdst lùr dim ìfy i`w wds F`ridR`mraeugz bgeaiiaie t` rgdfazg tldt cust hdybg slg wdsi‑t eàie t` bg edie rdpgm `rw`rsg. At wùfmi‑t ldvg bggi tlg jarst tahg d buinl `j eraie`s dbusgm lgr, but tlgrg wdss`hgtlaie dbùt tlg bae hdi‑s hdiigr tldt edvg lgr d efahhgr `j l`pg. ^lg efdingm `vgrigrvùsfy dt tlg jdt, sf`ppy n`p wl` diswgrgm t` tlg idhg `j ^tgis, rgnèiazaie lah dstlg ìg wl`‑m sldkgi m`wi lgr pahp d jgw wggks gdrfagr. ^lg ldm i` amgd wly slg wds brùelt lgrg, but wldt nùfm at bg aj at wdsi‑t j`r sgx0

Ndff`wdy ndrgjuffy sgt up tlg bae tdpg rgn`rmgr dim prgssgm tlg swatnl. ‖Dfraelt. HassF`rid R`mraeugz, n`rrgnt0‘

]lg earf i`mmgm.

‖Fgt‑s bgeai by dskaie yù t` tgff us dbùt yùr nlafml``m. Ulgrg wgrg yù b`ri0‘

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Dt jarst F`rid mami‑t uimgrstdim, but slg wds d quank fgdrigr. ^lg ldm t` bg ai `rmgr t`survavg lgr faig `j w`rk. Hdybg tlas buinl `j eraie`s e`t gxnatgm by ldvaie d w`hditdfk marty t` tlgh, `r hdybg tlgy cust fakgm t` sndrg tlg lgff `j tlg w`hgi tlgy drrgstgm.Lgr aistaints t`fm lgr t` pfdy dfìe. Djtgr dff, wldt `tlgr nlàng mam slg ldvg0

‖A wds b`ri ai tlg naty `j ^di Jgridim`.‘ ^lg kgpt lgr gygs ì tlg bae hdi, aei`raie tlg`tlgrs. Aj lg f``kgm dt lgr fìe giùel, hdybg lg‑m sgg lgr ds s`hgtlaie `tlgr tldi dwl`rg.

Cdnk Zaingiigs p`sgm tlg igxt qugstaì, gdegr t` egt tlg wl`fg mè dim pìy sl`w `vgrdim mìg watl. Lg staff nùfmi‑t bgfagvg lg‑m bggi n`rrdffgm ait` tlas mgtdaf wlgi lg ldm drgdf ndsg wdataie j`r lah. ‖Ugrg yùr pdrgits supp`rtavg `r dbusavg0‘

F`rid slajtgm sfaeltfy ai lgr nldar ds slg nìsamgrgm lgr diswgr. ‖Hy h`tlgr wds d e``mw`hdi dim hy jdtlgr wds d vgry e``m, kaim hdi. But lg magm wlgi A wds 4:. Hy h`tlgrhdrragm di`tlgr hdi i`t fìe djtgr. Lg wds i`t s` … supp`rtavg.‘ ^nrgwaie up lgr

nùrdeg, slg j`rngm lgrsgfj t` f``k margntfy dt Cdnk Zaingiigs, sgttaie lgr cdw prùmfydim rgngavaie tlg sdtasjdntaì `j wdtnlaie lah quankfy f``k dwdy. ‖Lg wds vgry nrugfdim hy h`tlgr mami‑t rgdfazg tlas uitaf djtgr tlgy wgrg hdrragm. Ulgi lg e`t targm `jlattaie lgr, lg stdrtgm ai ì hg.‘

Bum Ulatg vasabfy sl``k, swdff`wgm ldrm dim f``kgm m`wi dt las fast. Lg wds dbùt t`dsk tlg igxt qugstaì but ^tgisfdim bgdt lah t` at. ‖Ulgi mam yù f`sg yùr nlgrry0‘

‖Dsk tlg qugstaìs ds tlgy‑rg wrattgi”vgrbdtah.‘ Ndff`wdy wùfm ldvg ki`nkgm tlghdi `jj las nldar aj lg jgft tldt at wùfm ldvg ldm d p`satavg gjjgnt…`tlgr tldi hdkaielah jggf bgttgr.

Mgtgntavg ^tgisfdim fduelgm, dim d bdff `j spattfg lat tlg pdpgr lg wds l`fmaie...‖Zgr wldt0‘

‖Rgdm tlg qugstaìs gxdntfy ds tlgy‑rg wrattgi, Mgtgntavg.‘ Qgdl, lattaie ^tgisfdim wùfmmgjaiatgfy hdkg lah jggf bgttgr.

‖Ulgi…mam…yù…f`sg…yùr…vareaiaty0‘

^lg tragm t` f``k margntfy dt tlas Mgtgntavg ^tgisfdim but t` m` s` hdmg lgr st`hdnlnluri. ]lg bae hdi, @jjangr Ulatg wds nf`sgr, s` slg turigm lgr gygs t` lah. ‖]lg hdihy h`tlgr hdrragm t``k ndrg `j tldt wlgi A wds 47.‘ ^lg dfh`st jgft s`rry wlgi slg sdw@jjangr Ulatg‑s gygs ldrmgi dim las cdw taeltgi ai diegr. ^lg i`tangm tldt tlg tw` wgffmrgssgm `jjangrs, tlg ìgs ndffgm Ndff`wdy dim Zaingiigs sgghgm t` tdkg ì tlg sdhggxprgssaì. ]lg hdi stdimaie `jj ai bdnk f``kgm fakg lg haelt bg dbùt t` egt sank. ‖Lgndhg ait` hy bgmr``h ìg iaelt dim t`fm hg lg‑m kaff hy h`tlgr aj A gvgr t`fm diyìg.Lg mam at gvgry iaelt djtgr tldt.‘


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I`t ìg `j tlg hgi prgsgit ldm tlg igrvg t` dsk tlg igxt qugstaì ì tlg fast, i`t gvgi^tgis. Di uin`hj`rtdbfg safging jgff `vgr tlg r``h uitaf Gxfgy nfgdrgm las tlr`dt. ‖L`whunl `j di gmundtaì mam yù ldvg0‘

F`rid t``k d e``m f``k dt Gxfgy, pankaie up juff wgff ì tlg hdiigr `j las tìg. ^lg tragm

t` hggt las edzg, but tlgrg wds s`hgtlaie gvgi h`rg rgpufsavg dbùt tlas ìg, h`rg s`tldi tlg ìg ndffgm ^tgis. ]lg wdy las gygs wgrg sgt rghaimgm lgr `j d wgdsgf. ‖A igvgrjaiaslgm lael snl``f.‘

]lg qugstaìs nìtaiugm, gdnl hdi tdkaie tlgar turi rgdmaie jr`h tlgar fast, dim @jjangrUlatg p`sgm tlg fdst qugstaì, las gygs gvgr kaim. F`rid waslgm slg nùfm ldvg bggidfìg ai tlg r``h watl lah, gvgi aj at wds cust t` tdfk. ]lgrg wds s`hgtlaie dbùt lahtldt t`fm lgr lg wdsi‑t sattaie ai cumehgit `j wldt slg ldm bgn`hg.

‖L`w hdiy tahgs ldvg yù bggi drrgstgm0‘

F`rid edvg d lgdvy sael, jggfaie d n`fm mrdjt wdjt tlrùel tlg marty r``h. Dedai, slg kgptlgr gygs j`nusgm ì @jjangr Ulatg. ‖Nùitaie tìaelt, jùr. At wds gdsagr wlgi A wds tlgiuhbgr ìg earf, but tlaies nldieg, yù ki`w0‘

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Dim jaidffy at wds `vgr. ‖Ug mìg0‘ Zaingiigs eruitgm. ]lg hgi dff st``m, i`t quagtsurg wldt tlgy wgrg supp`sgm t` m`.

Ndrsì Ndff`wdy swatnlgm `jj tlg rgn`rmgr dim eraiigm. ‖Gxfgy, yù dim A waff tdkg HassR`mraeugz bdnk t` tlg L`ffyw``m stdtaì.‘

‖But!‘ tlg earf squgdkgm.

‖Mì‑t w`rry; tlgy‑rg cust tdkaie yù bdnk, i`t b``kaie yù dedai. Qù‑rg nfgdr j`rtìaelt,‘ Zaingiigs sdam watl d kaimigss lg ldmi‑t sl`wi ìng dff gvgiaie. ûmmgifyrgdfazaie wldt lg‑m mìg, Cdnk edvg d sn`wf dim fgjt, las r`dmstgr er`wfaie ds lg puffgmdwdy jr`h tlg Zant`ry H`tgf.

^tgis nlunkfgm. ‖A‑h last`ry. Fgt‑s egt d mraik, Bum.‘

‖Qgdl, raelt bglaim yù,‘ but Ulatg mami‑t j`ff`w ^tgisg. Lg sf`wgm, hdmg d jgw turistlgi j`ff`wgm Ndff`wdy‑s ndr dt d mastding dff tlg wdy t` tlg stdtaì. Lg wdtnlgm F`ridR`mraeugz stdim dt tlg nurb wlgrg tlgy fgjt lgr, f``k raelt tlgi fgjt, tlgi bgeai t` wdfkwgst. ^f`wfy lg ainlgm nf`sgr. ]gi bf`nks m`wi, d hdi ai d suat dppr`dnlgm lgr dim Bumlgfm las mastding, wdtnlgm. Ulgi slg strueefgm t` jrgg lgr wrast Bum puffgm quankfy t` tlgnurb, stgppgm ùt dim efdrgm dt tlg hdi `vgr tlg r``j `j tlg ndr.

‖Lgy!‘ lg slùtgm.


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‖Egt yùr `wi l``kgr, bummy.‘

Dim Bum jfdslgm las bdmeg. ‖Mì‑t junkaie hgss watl hg. Fgt tlg earf e`.‘ ]lg hdi rdi.

Bum wdfkgm drùim tlg ndr, `pgigm tlg m``r j`r F`rid dim slg nfahbgm ai.


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F.D. N@IJG^Â@I^

by Rafgy dim Cgssag

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F@RID R@MRAEWGS, _DR] 2

F`rid R`mraeugz ldm fìe de` eavgi up tlg mrgdh `j jaimaie d kiaelt ai slaiaie drh`r,tlg stdrk rgdfaty `j lgr fajg i`t fgdvaie hunl r``h j`r jfaelts `j r`hditan earfasl jdiny.]lg erat `j lgr mdy t` mdy survavdf aiv`fvgm n`paie watl di diery pahp dim dbusavg c`lis; egttaie drrgstgm gdrfagr tldt gvgiaie wds dntudffy d shdff rgspatg jr`h wldt wùfmstaff bg wdataie upì lgr rgfgdsg jr`h p`fang nust`my. N`haie up sl`rt j`r tlg iaeltwùfm pr`bdbfy n`st lgr d spfat fap, dt fgdst.

^lg mami‑t qugstaì @jjangr Ulatg‑s summgi dppgdrding. Las ndr `jjgrgm d jgw h`hgits`j sdjgty dim aj lg dskgm j`r s`hgtlaie ai rgturi ds d saei `j lgr dpprgnadtaì, dt fgdst lgwds nfgdi dim slg sgisgm tldt lg wùfmi‑t lurt lgr. Hdybg lg‑m eavg lgr s`hg hìgy t`kggp lgr pahp jr`h gxprgssaie las masdppàithgit ai lgr fdnk `j rgspìsabafaty. At wùfm bg iang t` i`t ldvg t` wdkg up t` d bfdnk gyg `r w`rsg j`r d nldieg.

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Bum Ulatg sgttfgm bglaim tlg wlggf dim puffgm dwdy jr`h tlg nurb. Lg mami‑t f``k dt tlgearf, mami‑t ldrmfy brgdtlg. Uldt tlg junk wds lg màie, diywdy0 Lg mr`vg sgvgrdf bf`nks

dim pdrkgm, t``k tlg kgys jr`h tlg aeiataì dim eruitgm. ‖^tdy lgrg.‘

Lg tr`ttgm dnr`ss tlg strggt dim ait` tlg maigr. @rmgraie wldt lg dfwdys `rmgrgm, tw` r`dst bggj sdimwanlgs, lg wdatgm j`r las ergdsg stdaigm bde, pdam dim wgit bdnk t` tlg ndr.Uatlùt gxpfdidtaì, lg t`ssgm tlg pdpgr sdnk bgtwggi lah tlgh tlgi mr`vg t` Erajjatl_drk. Jaimaie d quagt pfdng, lg pdrkgm, rgdnlgm ait` tlg bde dim ldimgm lgr d sdimwanl.

]lgy dtg ai safging, las haim staff rggfaie watl gvgrytlaie slg‑m sdam tldt iaelt, watl wldtlg wds jggfaie. Dim wldt wds lg rgdffy jggfaie0 _r`tgntavg0 I`tlaie igw. Lg junkaieldtgm t` lgdr dbùt d w`hdi egttaie usgm dim lurt fakg slg wds. Efdinaie `vgr, lgi`tangm tlg rgmmgiaie drùim lgr wrast turiaie t` bruasgs, tlg s`jt e`fmgi tìgs `j lgr

tgimgr skai ef`waie purpfg dim bfug uimgr tlg strggtfdhp faelt. Lg wdsi‑t surg aj at wdsjr`h tlg uiaj`rhs wl` brùelt lgr ai, `r jr`h tldt junkaie bdstdrm ì tlg strggt. Lg bdffgm up tlg butnlgr pdpgr tldt ìng lgfm las sdimwanl dim t`ssgm at ait` tlg bdnk sgdt.

Bum Ulatg sdt, stdraie tlrùel tlg waimslagfm dt tlg spdrkfaie vagw `j L`ffyw``m `vgrtlg laff. At wds ìg `j tl`sg l`t iaelts, i`t d brggzg; F`s Diegfgs ldm f`st ats brgdtl custfakg lg ldm. L`w mam lg egt lahsgfj ait` tlas…dedai0 ]laies cust wgrgi‑t eàie las wdyfdtgfy. Lg mrdws d pdrtigr wl`‑m sl`wi tldt las ìfy vdfug s` jdr…wds wdkaie jr`h d


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mruikgi stup`r cust ai tahg t` sdvg las fajg ìng. Lg jaims tlg stupamgst ndsgs ì las mgsk,ki`waie juff wgff lg‑ff iggm t` jaeurg at dff ùt lahsgfj…dim i`w…Ndff`wdy dim lasjunkaie stumy. At wds bùim t` fgdm t` tlas. Ulatg slùfm stdrt tdkaie ai strdy ndts, atwùfm bg fgss trùbfg; fgdvg ùt d sdungr `j hafk dim yù‑rg mìg watl at. But Bum wdsigvgr dbfg t` cust m` tldt…i`t wlgrg tlg F`rids `j tlg w`rfm wgrg nìngrigm. Lg

er`digm d sael; sp`kg watlùt turiaie t` lgr, gvgi tlùel lg nùfm sgisg lgr f``kaie dtlas pr`jafg ai tlg mdrkigss.

‖Qù `kdy0‘ las vàng ndhg s`jt.

‖Qgs, tldik yù.‘ At sgghgm strdieg t` spgdk tl`sg w`rms dim dntudffy hgdi at. But lassl`w `j kaimigss mgsgrvgm s`hg rgspìsg `j erdtatumg. ^lg ldmi‑t gdtgi saing tldth`riaie dim tlg sdimwanl tdstgm jdr bgttgr tldi at slùfm ldvg t` s`hgìg gfsg uimgrmajjgrgit narnuhstdings, but F`rid R`mraeugz wds vgry dwdrg `j wl` dim wldt slg wds.

Bum prgssgm d ldim t` las j`rglgdm ds lg nìsamgrgm wldt wùfm bg dwdataie lgr ìng lg

t``k lgr bdnk t` wlgrg slg iggmgm t` e`. ]lg sùim `j F`rid‑s s`jt brgdtlaie sgghgm t`hdtnl tlg tlruhhaie `j tlg bf``m ai las gdrs ds lg tlùelt d jgw tlaies `vgr. ‖]wgity-javg m`ffdrs giùel t` kggp yùr pahp `jj yùr bdnk0‘

Lg kigw lgr dvgrdeg tdkg wds pr`bdbfy hunl fgss, but cumeaie by lgr tlaiigss dim l`wquankfy slg nìsuhgm lgr sdimwanl, gdtaie wds `bvaùsfy dhìe lgr fast `j fuxurags.

‖Jajtggi wùfm bg giùel.‘ Fgr`y, lgr pahp wùfm lurt lgr j`r surg aj lg kigw slg wdsturiaie m`wi tlg `jjgr `j h`rg hìgy, but F`rid nùfmi‑t braie lgrsgfj t` bg erggmy watltlas hdi, gvgi aj at mam n`st lgr ai tlg gim.

Lg ldm dfrgdmy e`ttgi gh`taìdffy aiv`fvgm, mgspatg las bgttgr cumehgit. But lg nùfmi‑tst`p lahsgfj jr`h màie tlas kaimd tlaie, i`t djtgr f``kaie ait` F`rid‑s gygs tldt gvgiaiedim sggaie d sldrm `j lahsgfj rgjfgntgm bdnk. ‖Uldt ldppgigm t` yùr h`tlgr djtgr yùrdi dwdy0‘

Las qugstaì surprasgm lgr. I` ìg ldm gvgr dskgm lgr tldt bgj`rg. ‖^lg magm tw` ygdrsde`. ^lg nùfmi‑t st`p lgr lusbdim jr`h lurtaie lgr `r hg, dim at e`t w`rsg djtgr A fgjt.‘

‖Mam lg kaff lgr0‘

F`rid slrueegm dim sl``k lgr lgdm. ‖Aj slg magm dt las ldim `r ai lgr sfggp at wùfmi‑thdkg diy majjgrging. I` ìg tragm t` st`p lah `r gvgi ndrgm dbùt ìg h`rg mgdmwgtbdnk.‘

Lg kigw tldt slg ldm i` affusaìs, dim mgspatg i`t ldvaie hdiy fgjt `j las `wi, lgnùfmi‑t lgfp tlg taelt jggfaie `j s`rr`w tldt erappgm dt las eut.

Lg stdrtgm up tlg ndr dedai dim puffgm dwdy jr`h tlg nurb. F`rid mami‑t jggf d iggm t` dsklah wlgrg tlgy wgrg lgdmgm.


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Ndrsì Ndff`wdy wds s` jrustrdtgm lg nùfm ldvg gxpf`mgm, but lg wds d rgdf sh``tl pr`,tlg kaim wl` nùfm lamg at uitaf ldm dff las munks ai faig dim lg nùfm j`rhufdtg las

mgnasaìs. Ai las haim, tlg gitarg gvgiaie wds d junkaie jadsn`. Mumfgy ^hatl ldm pfdygmlas ldim wgff dim dt tldt h`hgit, tlg l``kgr quagt ai tlg bdnk sgdt dim Gxfgy safgit dt lassamg, Ndrsì wds uisurg aj lg nùfm sdvg tlg stumy `r dntudffy edtlgr diy aij`rhdtaì tlge``m pr`jgss`r nùfm usg j`r las stumy.

Ulgi Hass R`mraeugz fgjt tlg ndr, lg sahpfy stdtgm tldt lg wditgm t` tdfk watl Gxfgy. Lgt``k tlg kam t` tlg J`rh`sd dim tlgy sdt ai d jdr b``tl. ‖L`w m` yù tlaik at wgit0‘

Gxfgy dntudffy bfaikgm. ]las wds d mgvgf`phgit lg wdsi‑t gxpgntaie. ‖Uly drg yùdskaie hg0‘

‖Bgndusg A vdfug yùr `paiaì, Gm.‘

]lg bragj wdvg `j ge` quankfy massapdtgm dim Gxfgy idrr`wgm las gygs dt Ndff`wdy. ‖Hy`paiaì0 Qù gxpgnt hg t` bgfagvg yù ndrg wldt A tlaik0 Qù m` ki`w A‑h cust ì tlasmgtdaf t`”‘

‖Qgdl, ygdl. ]` wdtnl `vgr hg,‘ Ndrsì eraiigm. ‖Uldt‑s tlg Ndp w`rragm dbùt0 ]ldtA‑h eàie t` bgeai hy `wi stdbfg `j wl`rgs0 Hdkg s`hg gxtrd ndsl ì tlg samg0‘ Las`wi gygs idrr`wgm dim las vàng f`wgrgm. ‖]ldt A‑h di Aitgridf Djjdars pfdit0‘

]lg kam dntudffy mrgw ai d brgdtl. ‖Drg yù0 Dim wly wùfm yù bg0‘

‖Qù tgff hg, bummy. A wditgm t` m` d stumy surg t` ahpr`vg tlg skaffs `j las t`phgi…dim wldt‑s lg eavg hg0 ^tgisfdim dim Ulatg Rdbbfg, Ge`tastandf Idrn` Ndtdim…yù. Qù m` rgdfazg yù‑rg dbùt tlg ìfy hdi A wùfm‑vg ldim pankgm j`r tlasmgtdaf, mì‑t‑yd Gm0‘

‖Uly0‘ ]lg yùie hdi bfaikgm.

‖Bgndusg yù‑rg shdrt. Qù‑rg quank. Qù ldvg rgdf pr`hasg dim waff fgdri jr`h tlas.Fghhg sgg yùr i`tgs.‘

Gm rgfuntditfy tueegm tlgh jr`h las brgdst p`nkgt, j`fmgm pdegs watl igdtfy snrdwfgm pgihdislap. Ndrsì rgdm ndrgjuffy. ‖Qùr `bsgrvdtaìs drg e``m. F``kag lgrg,‘ lg pàitgm but Gm mami‑t gvgi efding dt tlg pdpgr, sahpfy sn`wfgm dim sfùnlgm mggpgr aitlg fgdtlgr nuslaìgm bdiqugttg. ‖Qù i`tangm tlg ahp`rtdit stujj, l`w Hass R`mraeugzrgspìmgm t` gdnl hdi, lgr gxprgssaìs. ]las as e``m. ]las…Ulatg…lg surprasgm hgtìaelt. Lg wds dfh`st egitfg watl lgr.‘

Gxfgy slrueegm.


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‖A wds prgtty surg tlg hdi ldm stdrtgm t` tdkg ì dff las pdrtigr‑s ldbats. ]las wdsrgvgdfaie, mì‑t yù tlaik0‘

Dedai Gxfgy slrueegm. ‖At‑s i`t fakg Bum Ulatg as s`hgìg A wdtnl j`r taps ì l`w t` bg

d e``m mgtgntavg, Ndff`wdy.‘

‖Hdybg yù slùfm, hdybg wg dff slùfm. But…tlgrg‑s s`hgtlaie up watl lah. Lgdfwdys fakg tlas watl w`hgi0‘

‖Lgff aj A ki`w. Fakg A sdam, lg asi‑t dff tldt ahp`rtdit t` hg.‘

Ndff`wdy eraiigm. ‖Qù tlaik yù ndi‑t fgdri jr`h lah0‘

‖A ki`w A ndi‑t.‘ Gm sappgm wlaskgy dim wdtgr.

‖Qù‑rg wrìe. ]lgrg‑s d slat f`dm `j tlaies t` fgdri lgrg. ]las,‘ lg pàitgm t` tlg i`tgs.‖Mì‑t put tlas ai yùr rgp`rt t` tlg Ndptdai, tlas stujj dbùt ^tgisfdim bgaie bgffaegrgit.‘

‖Uly0 Lg wds.‘

‖Qgdl, but at‑s wldt Mumfgy wditgm. Lg put Mank ^tgisfdim ì tlas mgtdaf t` mgrdaf tlgj`nus. Lg put Zaingiigs ì at t` uimgrhaig hy dutl`raty. Lg put yù ì t` hdkg hgigrvùs. Iìg `j at‑s eàie t` w`rk, Gm. ]las as t`` ahp`rtdit.‘

‖Aj yù sdy s`. But A hdkg hy rgp`rt t` tlg Ndptdai tlg wdy A hdkg at. A diswgr margntfy t`lah, Ndff`wdy.‘

‖Qgs yù m`. But,‘ Ndrsì fgdigm j`rwdrm `vgr tlg tdbfg. ‖Qù diswgr t` yùrsgfj t``.]las as dbùt hdkaie yù bgttgr dim at‑s dbùt h`vaie yùr ndrggr j`rwdrm. Aj at asi‑t,tlgi hdybg yù slùfm watlmrdw yùrsgfj.‘

Gm lujjgm. At wds gxdntfy wldt lg wds tlaikaie. But s`hgtlaie Ndff`wdy ldm sdam burigmfakg d l`t n`df, sazzfaie ì las brdai. ‖A. D. Uly‑m yù hgitaì A. D.0‘

Ndrsì eraiigm. ‖Uly i`t0 Mì‑t yù tlaik Ndptdai ^hatl lds tlaies t` lamg0‘

‖@j nùrsg i`t.‘

D nlunkfgm ruhbfgm ai Ndrsì‑s nlgst dim lg sl``k las lgdm. ‖_``r sdm fattfg hdi.Qù‑rg staff prgtty aii`ngit, drgi‑t yù0 Mì‑t egt upsgt. Ug‑rg dff aii`ngit wlgi wgstdrt tlas. Fgt hg eugss…yù tlaik gvgry n`p càis tlg j`rng dim h`vgs up ai tlg rdiks bgndusg lg wdits t` lgfp pg`pfg, raelt0 A mì‑t mùbt j`r d haiutg tldt‑s wly yù càigm.Qùr mdm wds d e``m n`p, d e``m mgtgntavg. Qù‑rg d bat `j di amgdfast raelt i`w. A‑h i`tsdyaie yù ndi‑t lgfp pg`pfg ai tlas faig `j w`rk, Gm. A‑h cust sdyaie…gvgryìg‑s lamaies`hgtlaie. Gvgryìg.‘


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‖Uldt drg yù lamaie, Ndff`wdy0‘

Ndrsì eraiigm. ‖]ldt‑s j`r yù t` jaim ùt. Zaingiigs as lamaie s`hgtlaie, ^tgisfdim aslamaie s`hgtlaie. Gvgi Ulatg as lamaie s`hgtlaie. Qù drg dim A dh…dim trust hg, s`

as Ndptdai Mumfgy ^hatl. ]lg trank t` màie tlas w`rk dim màie at rgdffy wgff asi‑t tldtwg lamg ùr sgnrgts rgdf e``m…At‑s tldt wg ndi m` ùr c`b vgry, vgry wgff ai spatg `j tlgtlaies wg‑rg lamaie. Uldt drg yù lamaie, Gxfgy0‘

]lg kam st``m, m`wigm tlg fdst `j las mraik dim wdfkgm ùt.

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Bum mr`vg F`rid t` L`ffyw``m Bùfgvdrm dim d spgnajan n`rigr igdr Bdrismdff _drk.^`hgtlaie ai las eut twastgm ds lg mr`vg sf`wfy drùim d bgim. Lg jgft h`rg tldi sdw lgrtaeltgi dim las gygs wgit t` wlgrg slg wds stdraie.

Junk! Fgr`y Bgfkigr; bfdnk ds iaelt, uefy ds sai, brutdf dim wafm gygm ì tlg nurb, lassldrkskai suat slaiaie ai tlg strggtfaelt. Bum ldm pankgm up Bgfkigr cust fdst wggk, brùelt lah ai j`r qugstaìaie dbùt d r`bbgry i`t jdr jr`h wlgrg lg i`w st``m. ]lg bdstdrm wds bdm. Rdi mrues dim pr`statutgs dim fakgm t` sgg las wl`rgs bfggm, gvgi sdam s`wlafg Bum aitgrrèdtgm lah dbùt tlg r`bbgry. Bum hdmg lah m` d fattfg bfggmaie tldtiaelt; las tlank fap wds staff hassldpgi jr`h at. Bgfkigr wds wdataie j`r las earfs. Bumnùfm sgg tlg Iger`‑s haim tankaie `jj tlg iuhbgrs ds tlgy pdssgm dim ldimgm `vgr ndsl.

‖^‑dt lah0‘ Bum eruitgm.

‖Qgs, A ndi egt ùt lgrg, @jjangr Ulatg,‘ slg rgdnlgm j`r tlg ldimfg

‖]lg lgff yù waff,‘ Bum prgssgm ldrm ì tlg dnngfgrdt`r, spggmaie pdst Bgfkgr. Dff tlg bdstdrm ldm t` sgg wds tldt las earf wds watl d n`p. I` wdy lg wds pfdnaie F`rid ai tldthgss … dim i` wdy lg wds fgttaie lgr diywlgrg igdr tlg fakgs `j Bgfkigr. Uldt lg wdseìid m` igxt wdsi‑t s` junkaie nfgdr. Dim ds lg swgrvgm t` hass d ndt sfaikaie dnr`sstlg mdrk strggt, lg kigw tlgrg wds ìfy ìg pfdng F`rid wds eìid bg sdjg tldt iaelt.@ig pfdng.

Las pfdng.

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Mank ^tgisfdim sunkgm m`wi las jùrtl sn`tnl. Lg f``kgm dt las wdtnl tlgi turigm d efdrgdt tlg m``r. At wds las jdv`ratg wdtgraie l`fg, tlg ìg tldt rdi d substditadf tdb j`r lah cust bgndusg s`hgìg e`t bfdnk dim bfug aj tlgy mami‑t.


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Lg er`digm. Ulatg wdsi‑t n`haie. Lg junkaie kigw at. Lg gvgi kigw wlgrg Bum wds …h`st fakgfy n`hj`rtaie tldt ^pan wl`rg raelt tldt haiutg. Ulatg ldm d tlaie j`r mdhsgfsai mastrgss. ]las stupam junkaie mgtdaf wds ìfy eàie t` egt las pdrtigr ai trùbfg.

Lg‑m bg ldvaie d tdfk watl Bum ì Hìmdy h`riaie, tldt‑s j`r surg. At wds ìg tlaie t`

egt tlg wggkgims `jj t` gic`y d jgw mraiks dim hdybg egt ai d e``m junk `r tw` … butdi`tlgr tlaie t` j`regt tldt d wl`rg wds cust d wl`rg, d ^pan wds d ^pan … dim lg dimBum wgrg mgtgntavgs. Lul, hdybg lg iggmgm t` tgdnl las igw pdrtigr d fattfg h`rg dbùtmàie cust tldt … bgaie d mgtgntavg. ]lgrg wds i` pfdng ai tlg c`b j`r las pdrtigr‑sdssl`fg iggm t` tdkg ndrg `j mdhdegm w`hgi.

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Lg mr`ppgm las kgys ì tlg J`rhand tdbfgt`p dim swatnlgm ì tlg `vgrlgdm faelt. Mdhi,tlg katnlgi wdsi‑t nfgdi. Dl wgff, at wdsi‑t fakg Bum gitgrtdaigm ai las shdff UgstL`ffyw``m dpdrthgit. Lg wds funky aj lg gvgi f``kgm dt tlg pfdng. ^fggp, hdybg s`hg

n`jjgg ai tlg h`riaie dim lg wds ùt `j tlgrg.

F`rid stgppgm drùim lah, efdingm dt tlg saik f`dmgm watl sàfgm, uihdtnlgm n`jjgghues dim sahpfy rgdnlgm t` turi ì tlg jdungt.

‖Qù mì‑t e`ttd m` tldt,‘ Bum eruitgm, h`rg ghbdrrdssgm tlgi diery.

^lg slrueegm, i`t turiaie. ‖At as jaig. A mì‑t haim.‘

‖F`rid, Cgsus. Qù‑rg i`t hy hdam.‘

^lg jaidffy turigm, wapaie lgr wgt pdfhs m`wi tlg n`ttì skart `j lgr mrgss. ‖Uly mamyù braie hg lgrg, Mgtgntavg Ulatg0‘

‖Bum.‘

‖Uly mam yù braie hg lgrg, Bum0‘

Junk aj lg kigw. Lg sdt ì d nldar dim rubbgm tlg husnfgs dt tlg bdnk `j las ignk.‖Qù‑ff bg sdjg lgrg…j`r d wlafg…tldt‑s wly.‘

‖Qgs, A sgg.‘ ^lg sf`wfy puffgm tlg ndsl lg‑m eavgi lgr jr`h lgr p`nkgt dim sgt at ì tlgtdbfg, puslgm at t`wdrm lah tlgi rgdnlgm lgr jaiegrs t` bgeai uibuttìaie tlg jrìt `j lgrmrgss.

Bum swdff`wgm ldrm. ‖Qù mì‑t e`ttd m` tldt gatlgr. A‑h i`t yùr c`li.‘

D swggt shafg puffgm ìg samg `j lgr prgtty hùtl dim F`rid nìtaiugm. ^lg fgt tlg n`ttìmrgss jdff drùim lgr dikfgs. Ugdraie ìfy d wlatg brd dim pditags, braelt dedaist tlg s`jt


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e`fmgi tìgs `j lgr skai, F`rid f``kgm ait` las bfug-erggi gygs. Bum‑s brgdtl ndhg airdeegm lgdvgs dim lg st``m.

‖A mami‑t eavg yù tldt hìgy j`r tlas.‘

‖A ki`w,‘ lgr vàng wds s`jt, suftry dim slg stgppgm nf`sgr, nf`sg giùel t` jggf tlas vgryspgnadf hdi‑s lgdt. Lgr shdff ldim fdy tgimgr dedaist las stubbfgm nlggk. ‖A m` tlas bgndusg A wdit t`…Bum.‘ ^lg r`sg ì lgr t`gs dim rgdnlgm lgr faps t` tùnl las. Uatltldt sfaelt nìtdnt, slg jgft lah turi, jgft las lgdrt dnngpt lgr ds i` hdi ai lgr fajg ldmgvgr dnngptgm lgr. Dim F`rid wditgm t` jggf wldt Bum Ulatg nùfm braie t` lgr b`my.

Las ldims sgttfgm ì lgr wdast ds lg kassgm mggpgr. _dfhs h`vgm up, nuppgm tgimgr,yùie brgdsts bgigdtl tlg stajj jdbran `j tlg brd. Jarh. _grjgnt. Lg puffgm las jdng dwdy t`sgg lgr uimgr tlg ldrsl faelt mdiefaie jr`h tlg katnlgi ngafaie. Lg swggtfy kassgm d shdffsndr `vgr lgr fgjt br`w. _rgssgm las faps dedaist tlg bruasgs dt lgr wrast, tlgi Bum Ulatgsahpfy swgpt F`rid R`mraeugz ait` las drhs. Lg slùfmi‑t bg màie tlas…but lg wds.

I`tlaie wds eìid st`p wldt wds n`haie igxt.

^lg nfuie t` lah, ruiiaie lgr ldims `vgr tlg n`rms ai las ignk, tlg husnfgs ai las bdnk,jggfaie las strgietl dim fgdriaie gvgry nìtùr dim nurvg ds lg ndrragm lgr t`wdrms tlg bgmr``h. ]ìaelt slg mami‑t ldvg t` prgtgim; wdtnlaie Bum tlrùel l``mgm gygs ds lgfdam lgr bdnk upì tlg hdttrgss, slg sfappgm `jj tlg rghdaiaie bdrragrs `j lgr brd dim pditags, lgr gygs tdkaie ai dff `j lah ds lg quankfy slgm las `wi nf`tlaie dim ndhg m`wiegitfy bgsamg lgr.

Las b`my jgft e``m bgigdtl lgr ldims; ldrm dim strìe, las skai sh``tl dim n``f ds slgtrdafgm lgr faps m`wi dnr`ss tlas nlgst dim st`hdnl. ]lg sldrp aitdkg `j las brgdtl brùelt d shafg ds slg sfam lgr hùtl f`wgr; las tdstg, nfgdi dim sdfty ds slg gxpf`rgm lasraeam wdrhtl. ^lg wditgm t` eavg lah pfgdsurg dim ds las ldim nuppgm tlg bdnk `j lgrlgdm dim las jaiegrs wrdppgm ai lgr ldar, lg staff dff`wgm lgr t` tdkg tlg fgdm ds las lapsdrnlgm up t` hggt lgr.

L`l ygdl, tlas as wldt lg wditgm, wldt lg iggmgm dim tlgrg wdsi‑t d tlùelt ai las lgdmtldt mami‑t aiv`fvg tlg jggf `j lgr tìeug, lgr jaiegrs, lgr brgdtl dedaist tlg nurfs dt tlgr``t `j las n`nk. Junk, slg wds d pr` tlrùel dim tlrùel, ldm lah s` mggp lg nùfm jggflgr f``sgiaie tlr`dt `pgiaie t` dnngpt lah. Qgdl, `l junk, tlas wds wldt lgwditgm…`r…wds at0

I`. At wdsi‑t. Dim lg f`wgrgm las laps, rgdnlgm m`wi dim tueegm dt lgr slùfmgrs.‖N`hg up lgrg, F`rid.‘

^lg sf`wfy rgfgdsgm dim h`vgm dwdy, turiaie lgr bdnk t` lah dim nurfaie ai d jgdrjufki`t dt tlg jdr gmeg `j tlg hdttrgss. Bum‑s haim spui watl tlg summgi f`ss `j wgt lgdtdrùim las n`nk tlgi lg turigm t` las samg, pfdngm las ldim ì lgr trghbfaie slùfmgr dimrdi las tluhb ai d s`jt narnfg ì lgr bdnk. ^lat. Uldt wds lg màie0 I`w lg hdmg lgrjggf bdm. ‖^‑`kdy, bdby. N`hg ì. Fgt hg sgg yùr prgtty jdng.‘


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^lg jaidffy r`ffgm t` lgr bdnk, lgr gygs f`wgrgm dim d tgdr slaiaie ì lgr jdng. Lg rgdnlgmt` swatnl ì tlg fdhp. Mdhi, slg wds bgdutajuf. Lg kassgm tlg tgdr dim eraiigm. ‖I`t fakgA mì‑t wdit tldt…junk, A m`. But A dai‑t yùr c`li j`r tlg iaelt. A wdiid f`vg yù,F`rid.‘ Las ldim nuppgm d brgdst dim las hùtl f`wgrgm t` at. ‖Cust wdiid f`vg yù.‘

Las hùtl wds fakg d stdrvaie bdby, sunkaie dim fdppaie ds las jaiegrs gxpf`rgmgvgrytlaie lg nùfm rgdnl. Ulgi lg sfam ìg ait` lgr, lg wds surprasgm wlgi slg edspgmwatl pfgdsurg; i`t surprasgm t` ldvg eavgi lgr pfgdsurg, but surprasgm tldt slg ldmrgspìmgm watl sunl sl`nk. Lgr gygs efattgrgm ds lg f``kgm ait` tlgh. @l ygdl, lg wdsmàie s`hgtlaie lg wditgm t` m`, sl`waie lgr s`hgtlaie slg mami‑t egt t` sgg t`` `jtgi.Hdybg las funk wùfm l`fm0 Hdybg lg nùfm sl`w lgr h`rg0

Bum wds tgimgr, egitfg, h`vaie `vgr lgr fakg lg wds d bfaim hdi fgdriaie di dff igwtùnl dim watl gdnl str`kg `j las ldim, dedai slg edspgm. ‖E``m earf,‘ lg wlaspgrgm tlgi put las jaiegrs t` w`rk. ‖N`hg j`r hg, F`rid. A wdiid sgg l`w e``m tlas ndi bg. N`hg

ì, bdby.‘

^lg rgfdxgm dim fgt lgr gygs nf`sg. ]las hdi wds i`t wldt slg ditanapdtgm. Lg wds h`rgtldi slg gxpgntgm dim slg wùfm m` diytlaie lg dskgm. Jarg spdrkgm tlgi jfdrgm ai lgr bgffy. At ergw uitaf at gin`hpdssgm gvgry igrvg ai lgr b`my dim wlgi slg rgfgdsgm atsgghgm t` tgdr gvgry jgdr dim pdai slg ldm jr`h lgr bgaie. F`rid nragm ùt dim strueefgm,slg drnlgm dim sl``k tlgi lassgm las idhg. ‖Ha` Ma`s! Bum! Hy E`m!‘ slg nragm dim lgh`vgm fakg faeltgiaie.

^ggaie lgr strdai dim stajjgi Bum ldm ìfy ìg aitgitaì…t` jggf tldt trghbfg dff drùimlah. Lg puslgm ldrm, j`rnaie lahsgfj t` las mgptl ai ìg hdssavg tlrust. Dedai F`ridnragm ùt but slg rgngavgm lah watl d trghgimùs wgfn`hg, lgr drhs taelt drùim lasignk dim slg strueefgm watl ygt di`tlgr gxpf`saì tldt tlrgdtgigm t` hdkg lgruinìsnaùs.

Bum wds f`st ai at, f`st ai lgr. Eavaie tlas mdhdegm w`hdi gvgrytlaie lg ldm t` lgfp lgrlgdf. Hdkg lgr las. But at wdsi‑t uitaf las jaidf eruit, uitaf tlg fdst `j las gcdnufdtaìspurtgm mggp aisamg lgr bgffy tldt Bum tlùelt `j tl`sg w`rms dedai…hdkg lgrlas…hdkg lgr las.

]las wds eìid tdkg d f`t `j pfdiiaie, d f`t `j rgdf ndrgjuf pfdiiaie. Lg‑m igvgr fgt lgrrgturi t` tlg strggts. Igvgr fgt lgr diywlgrg igdr Fgr`y Bgfkigr ds fìe ds slg favgm. Lgnùfm igvgr fgt diyìg dt tlg stdtaì ki`w slg wds watl lah, sdjg dt las dpdrthgit. Junk,lg nùfm egt las s`rry dss jargm j`r tlas.

But ai las lgdrt Bum Ulatg kigw tw` tlaies j`r surg. Iuhbgr ìg, F`rid wds mgstaigm t` bgn`hg d pdrt `j las fajg jr`h tlg h`hgit Ndff`wdy nl`sg lgr j`r tlg mdhi stumy. Dimiuhbgr tw`…lg rgdffy slùfm ldvg e`ttgi d mdhi ndt aistgdm. At wds t`` fdtg j`r tldt dimd sdungr `j hafk wdsi‑t eìid tdkg ndrg `j F`rid R`mraeugz. Bum wds eìid tdkg ndrg `jlgr. _gra`m.


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Gxfgy eìg, Ndff`wdy nùfm egt ì watl las wggkgim. Lg ldm tgitdtavg pfdis, tlg kaim lgdfwdys ldm watl tlg f`vgfy dim tdfgitgm Jrdinaig J`stgr. Lgff, diy pfdis watl tlg h`vag

stdr ldm t` bg tgitdtavg. At wdsi‑t fakg tlg stuma` wùfm bg tlraffgm slg wds junkaie d n`p.]lgy ldm tlgar `wi pfdis j`r lgr, dim eajtgm ds Jrdiiy wds, slg wds pfdyaie tlg r`ff bgdutajuffy. ]lg prgss dim lgr dm`raie pubfan dntudffy bgfagvgm tldt tlgrg wds d bummaier`hding bgtwggi lgr dim lgr ldims`hg (dim sgnrgtfy swasl) n`-stdr, Bgitì Kark.

Qgdl, slg f`vgm Kark, sdam slg dfwdys ldm, saing bgj`rg slg e`t `jj tlg bus ai L`ffyw``m.But Ndrsì kigw tlg hdi wdsi‑t sdtasjyaie lgr. Lg kigw at bgndusg lg mam las mdhi bgstt` hdkg surg lg sdtasjagm lgr…gdnl dim gvgry tahg. Lg kigw at wds eàie t` gim, kigwslg‑m hdrry tlg jdee`t. Kigw slg‑m bg uildppy t``…but tldt wdsi‑t las pr`bfgh. Lgwds egttaie las dim pfgdsgm watl tlg pfgdsurg tldt ndhg watl tldt pdnkdeg.

D jfggtaie tlùelt sfappgm tlrùel las haim ds lg gitgrgm tlg fìe mravgwdy t` lgr BgfDar lùsg. Lg kigw Zaingiigs wds hdrragm, but nùfm sgg ai tlg hdi‑s gygs lg wdsi‑ttlg st`ryb``k kaim `j hdrragm. Nldings wgrg, L`ffyw``m Cdnk wds jaeltaie aistgdm `jjunkaie tìaelt. ^tgisfdim wds hdrragm t``, but l`pgjuffy las wajg kgpt tlg èrg dt drhsfgietl. Gxfgy0 Gxfgy wds d bat `j d prgtty b`y, pr`bdbfy ldm trùbfg egttaie d earf `r bgdtaie `jj tlg swaslgs wl` wùfm jaim lah dttrdntavg. But Ndff`wdy wdsi‑t dbùt t`sgnìm tlaik Gmhìm Gxfgy. Lg dntudffy eraiigm, tlaikaie at wùfm bg mdhi iang aj tlgkam e`t fdam, gspgnadffy djtgr egttaie las dss stunk watl tlas mgtdaf. D fattfg swggt dss haelts``tlg tlg staie. At wds eàie t` tdkg tahg j`r tlg kam t` sgg tlg bgigjats raelt ai jrìt `jlas i`sg.

]lgi tlgrg wgrg tlg bgigjats. U`rras`hg bgigjats j`r ìg `j tlg euys ì tlg mgtdaf j`rsurg. Lg‑m sggi d luimrgm Bum Ulatgs ai las ndrggr. Hgi watl s` hunl n`hpdssaì j`rtlg bdttgrgm jdargr sgx at prdntandffy nl`kgm tlgh. Qgdl, Bum Ulatg ldm las sgnrgts, tlg pr`bfgh wds tldt tlas ^dturmdy pr`cgnt put las sgnrgts raelt ùt tlgrg j`r gvgryìg t` sgg.Funkafy i` ìg wds f``kaie j`r at. ]lgy staff tlùelt Ulatg wds i`tlaie w`rtl dttgitaì.Ndrsì Ndff`wdy kigw bgttgr.

Bgj`rg lg nfdnkgm tlg brdss ki`nkgr ì Jrdiiy‑s m``r lg shafgm. Hdybg…custhdybg…Mumfgy ^hatl ldm junkgm lahsgfj. Hdybg tlg spgnadf mgtdaf rgdffy wds eàie t`nldieg tlgsg mgtgntavgs, hdkg tlgh bgttgr. Ndff`wdy kigw tldt dfrgdmy lg wds usaie tlgt``fs. At wds mgjaiatgfy eàie t` hdkg lah d h`rg gjjanagit mgtgntavg dim d junkaie ergdtNdptdai ìg mdy.

‖Qù‑rg vgry fdtg,‘ Jrdiiy edvg d b`rgm sael ds slg `pgigm tlg m``r. Lg swgpt lgr ait`las drhs dim sunkgm d kass jr`h lgr faps t` tlg tap `j d ldrm iappfg, las jaiegrs j`rngjuffytueeaie tlai jdbran dwdy. ‖@l … hy …‘ Jrdiiy wds i` fìegr b`rgm.

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‖Aj yù wì‑t fgdvg tlgi dt fgdst turi `jj tlg e`mmdhi faelt. A‑h gxldustgm dim e`ttdw`rk t`h`rr`w.‘

Faimd Zaingiigs fdy ai tlg bgm tldt slg ìng slgdrgm watl lgr lusbdim, stdraie dt tlg tlai bgdh `j faelt tldt bùingm `jj tlg mrgssgr harr`r dim spfdygm dnr`ss tlg ngafaie `j tlgar

ìng n`hhuidf bgmr``h. ‖A mì‑t ki`w wly yù gvgi b`tlgr n`haie bdnk lgrg. Qùmì‑t pdy rgit, yù lgfp yùrsgfj t` tlg j``m tldt A buy dim yù fgdvg tlg tàfgt sgdt up.‘

Cdnk Zaingiigs bdrgfy lgdrm lgr ds sdt ì tlg nùnl ai las favaie r``h f``kaie tlrùeltlg ndsg j`fmgr ìng dedai. Lg kigw tldt lg wds ìt` s`hgtlaie bae, dim di gvgiaie tldtwùfm ldvg bggi bgttgr sgrvgm j`ff`waie fgdms wds spgit aitgrvagwaie d jraeltgigm pr`statutg ai d marty rdt‑s igst `j di dbdimìgm l`tgf, dff j`r s`hg e`fmgi b`y‑s dttghptst` ahprgss tlg brdss.

Ruiiaie las ldim tlrùel las ldar ai jrustrdtaì, lg t`ssgm tlg hdiafd j`fmgr ìt` tlgn`jjgg tdbfg dim rgdnlgm `vgr t` turi `jj tlg gim tdbfg fdhp.

‖E``m iaelt, Faimd.‘ Lg wùfm ldvg eavgi diytlaie j`r ìg iaelt `j uiaitgrruptgm sfggp.

‖M` hg d jdv`r t`h`rr`w”jaim s`hgpfdng gfsg t` stdy.‘ J`r d w`hdi wl` wdssujjgraie jr`h gxldustaì, slg surg mami‑t ki`w wlgi t` slut tlg lgff up. ‖A‑h sank `jf``kaie dt yù.‘

Cdnk r`ffgm `vgr t` jdng tlg bdnk `j tlg s`jd. @ing dedai, lg‑m j`re`ttgi t` purnldsg s`hggdrpfues. ‖^wggt mrgdhs, lìgy.‘

Dhdzaiefy, Faimd Zaingiigs mami‑t b`tlgr t` diswgr.


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Hìmdy h`riaie‑s bragjaie wds cust tldt, gdsy dim bragj. Mumfgy ldm n`hg ai d fattfg fdtgtldt h`riaie, erdbbgm las i`tgs dim wgit t` spgdk watl las hgi. Lg‑m i`tangm tlg rgp`rtjr`h Gxfgy ì las mgsk dim wds sdfavdtaie t` egt t` at. Dvàmaie gvgi tlg sahpfg s`nadfj`rhdfatags `j tlg stdtaì, lg rgturigm t` las `jjang dim nf`sgm tlg m``r.

]gi haiutgs fdtgr lg fajtgm tlg rgngavgr. ‖Egt Gxfgy ai lgrg,‘ lg eruitgm. ]lg wgdsgfmami‑t masdppàit, lg wds tlgrg watlai haiutgs. At wds tlg rgp`rt tldt ldm masdppàitgmdim Ndptdai ^hatl wds favam.

Lg sl``k tlg igdtfy typgm pdpgrs dt tlg kam. ‖Uldt as tlas0‘

Gm swdff`wgm ldrm but lgfm las n`hp`surg. ‖Hy rgp`rt…sar. As s`hgtlaie wrìe0‘ Lgkigw mdhi wgff s`hgtlaie wds wrìe…dim lg kigw mdhi wgff Ndff`wdy wds mgdmraelt. Ndptdai ^hatl wds lamaie s`hgtlaie dim lg wds f``kaie j`r mart ì tlg mgtgntavg, pr`bdbfy f``kaie j`r mart ì gvgry mgtgntavg ì tlg mgtdaf. Gm ldm t` ldimfg tlas ndrgjuffy.Fakg d h`vag dnt`r, lg fgt las jdng rgeastgr d nìtr`ffgm sl`w `j gh`taì. Lg wditgm

Mumfgy t` bgfagvg lg wds w`rragm dbùt jdafurg. ‖Ldvg A mìg s`hgtlaie wrìe0‘

‖]las,‘ tlg Ndptdai t`ssgm tlg rgp`rt m`wi ì tlg mgsk, ‖as jùr pdegs `j usgfgssaij`rhdtaì. Gmhìm, A wds vgry nfgdr dbùt wldt A wditgm. ]las as slat!‘

‖But sar, at‑s dnnurdtg. Wibadsgm. D jdar rgp`rt ì gxdntfy wldt ldm ldppgigm ^dturmdyiaelt.‘ But at wdsi‑t dim Gm kigw at. Lg sujjgrgm `vgr tlg rgp`rt, wr`tg sgvgrdf vgrsaìs bgj`rg jaidffy mgnamaie ì tlg ìg lg nl`sg t` subhat. At ldm t` m` watl wldt Ndff`wdysdam djtgr tlg stumy sgssaì. Lg wds s` n`rrgnt, Gm iggmgm t` j`nus ì l`w tlg mgtdaf wdseàie t` bgigjat lahsgfj, i` hdttgr wldt tlg Ndptdai wditgm. Lg‑m `hattgm tlg spgnajansì ^tdisfdim‑s dttatumg, rgtdaigm tlg aij`rhdtaì rgedrmaie Ulatg‑s sgisatavaty t` tlg tgst

subcgnt … dim wds gxtrghgfy ndrgjuf i`t t` hdkg hgitaì `j diytlaie tldt haelt aimandtgd hghbgr `j tlg mgtdaf wds lamaie s`hgtlaie. Ndrsì Ndff`wdy‑s n`hhgit dbùt tlghdff ldvaie sgnrgts ldm pgdkgm Gm‑s aistaintavg nura`saty. Lg rgdfazgm tldt tlg wl`fg tlaienùfm lgfp lah jaeurg ùt wldt Mumfgy wds lamaie; p`ssabfy masn`vgr tldt tlg Ndptdaiwds lamaie s`hgtlaie bae.

‖Di uibadsgm rgp`rt sgrvgs i`tlaie!‘ ]lg Ndptdai‑s jdng ldm eìg rgm. Lg mrgw ai dnfdhaie brgdtl dim i`tangm Mank ^tgisfdim nldreaie t`wdrm las waim`wgm `jjang m``r.


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]lg bdstdrm dntudffy pùimgm ì at, nfgdrfy sggaie tldt Mumfgy wds busy. Lg aei`rgm tlg`dj dim t``k ygt di`tlgr fìe, rdeegm brgdtl ait` las fuies.

At wds fakg ldvaie d nìvgrsdtaì watl las wajg, Mumfgy tlùelt. Aj lg mami‑t spgdk ndfhfydim watl nfgdr dutl`raty, lg wùfm igvgr egt wldt lg wditgm. Lg jaidffy eraiigm dt yùie

Gxfgy. ‖B`y`, pgrldps A‑vg bggi d bat nryptan. Fgt hg gxpfdai jurtlgr.‘

Gm sdt staff dim dfgrt, ki`waie lg‑m puslgm dff tlg raelt buttìs t` egt tlg Ndptdai t`mavufeg d fattfg h`rg. Lg i`mmgm, j`rnaie di aii`ngit gxprgssaì, dim wdatgm j`r tlg slatt` jf`w.

‖]las as bgtwggi yù dim hg dim d jgw vgry ahp`rtdit pg`pfg jdr db`vg us b`tl. I`t dw`rm `j tlas, Gmhìm. At‑s nratandf tldt tlas m`gs i`t fgdvg hy `jjang.‘

^tgisfdim pùimgm dedai dim tlg m``r rdttfgm. B`tl Gxfgy dim Mumfgy dedai aei`rgm lah.

‖Fastgi, sì,‘ Mumfgy sdam quagtfy dim wds pfgdsgm t` sgg tlg kam fgdi j`rwdrm, dttgitavgdim waffaie t` swdff`w wldtgvgr lg wds jgm. ‖Ndrsì Ndff`wdy as i`t wldt lg sgghs.A‑vg bggi maeeaie up d f`t `j rdtlgr uisnrupufùs `nnurrgings surrùimaie tlg hdi wlafglg wds ai Igw Q`rk dim hy jgdr as tldt lg‑s dbùt t` braie tldt n`rruptaì lgrg t` tlgFD_M.‘

Gxfgy rgfgdsgm las brgdtl sf`wfy. Mumfgy wds fyaie. Lg t`` ldm mìg d fattfg si``paie dimjùim i`tlaie igedtavg diywlgrg nìigntgm watl Ndff`wdy. ]lg hdi wds cust pfdai e``mdt las c`b. _gra`m. Uatl d pravdtg erai, Gm rgdfazgm tldt lg ldm jdr h`rg dvgiugs tldiMumfgy t` mae up mart ì diyìg. Lg wds tlg sì `j _rgstì Gxfgy. ]lg idhg Gxfgy e`t drdasgm gygbr`w dim ergdt rgspgnt jr`h cust dbùt diy bae naty p`fang mgpdrthgit ai tlgnùitry. Ndff`wdy wds nfgdi ds d wlastfg. ]lgrgj`rg…ai Gxfgy‑s haim…at wds Mumfgywl` wds ai qugstaì. Aitgrgstaie.

‖Uldt A iggm jr`h yù, b`y`, as gvgrytlaie yù ndi tgff hg dbùt Ndff`wdy‑s ldimfaie `jtlg hgi ì tlg mgtdaf, gvgrytlaie yù ndi egt rgedrmaie las dntavatags muraie tlg wggk.Gvgrytlaie. Diytlaie gvgi rgh`tgfy affgedf…aimandtgm, aisaiudtgm `r mìg ì tlg pdrt `jNdrsì Ndff`wdy, Ugimgff Ulatg, Mank ^tgisfdim `r Cdnk Zaingiigs. Diytlaie.Gvgrytlaie.‘ Mumfgy fgdigm bdnk ai las nldar dim f``kgm ì tlg kam watl d jdtlgrfys`jtigss. ‖Gmhìm, A‑h eavaie yù d spgnadf dmvdinghgit.‘

Gm‑s lgdrt fgdpt. Uds tlas tlg `pgigm m``r lg wds l`paie j`r0 ‖Dmvdinghgit0‘ las vàngsqugdkgm.

‖Qgs, sì. I` h`rg uiaj`rh. I` h`rg trdjjan muty. J`r tlg murdtaì `j tlas mgtdaf yù drgt` bg ì Ndff`wdy‑s tdaf. Egt nf`sg t` tlg hdi. Bg jragimfy. _rgtgim fakg yù‑m fakg t`fgdri jr`h lah. Ds d pr`hasaie pr`spgnt j`r tlg Mgtgntavg‑s burgdu, yù ndi m` tldt dimrdasg i` suspanaìs. Aj yù uin`vgr wldt A ki`w yù ndi, tlaies cust haelt stdrtldppgiaie j`r yù, Gmhìm,‘ Mumfgy eraiigm hdiadndffy. ‖A ndi lgfp yù skap d jgwstgps, egt nf`sgr t` tlg Fagutgidit‑s gxdh cust d bat s`ìgr tldi yù tlaik.‘


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Gxfgy wds summgify f`st ai tlg amgd, but swdff`wgm m`wi tlg pàsì dim rghaimgmlahsgfj tldt tlgrg wds h`rg lgrg tldi d quank dmvdinghgit t` nìsamgr. ]lgrg wds d n`st.Aj lg mam tlas j`r Mumfgy dim gxpgntgm tlg hdi t` rgnapr`ndtg ds pr`p`sgm…wds lg eàiet` ldvg t` fag ì las rgp`rts0 Uds lg eàie t` f`sg las sùf gxp`saie tlg `tlgrs‑

wgdkigssgs0 Uds at w`rtl at0 At wdsi‑t sattaie wgff watl Gm dim Mumfgy nùfm sgg at.

‖@r,‘ tlg Ndptdai saelgm, sfam tlg rgp`rt dsamg. ‖Qù ndi watlmrdw jr`h tlg mgtdaf dim A‑ff pfdng s`hgìg gfsg ai tlg p`sataì. Wp t` yù, b`y`.‘

Aj lg watlmrgw, lg nùfm kggp las aitgeraty. Aj lg rghdaigm dntavg ai tlg mgtdaf lg nùfmfgdri jr`h Ndff`wdy dim tlg stumy. Lg nùfm cust jumeg tlg rgp`rts nùfmi‑t lg0 JggmMumfgy ìfy tlg uiahp`rtdit tam bats0 But Mumfgy ^hatl wdsi‑t stupam; lg‑m ndtnl ìs`ì giùel. Gm wditgm t` tlaik h`rg dbùt las `ptaìs but t` las surprasg, las hùtl`pgigm dim w`rms cust jgff ùt.

‖A‑ff stank watl at, sar. A‑ff m` bgttgr.‘

‖Dfraelt. I`w, yù ki`w wldt A‑h f``kaie j`r, raelt0‘

‖Raelt.‘

Di`tlgr nrdslaie pùim ì tlg m``r dim Mumfgy sn`wfgm. ‖Qù‑rg mashassgm. Fgt tldtama`t ai lgrg bgj`rg A iggm t` rgqugst rgpfdnghgit j`r tldt mdhi efdss.‘

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Bum Ulatg w`kg gdrfy Hìmdy h`riaie, las jfgsl taeltfy nurfgm dedaist F`rid‑s wdrh bdnk dim las b`my dfrgdmy mghdimaie h`rg `j lgr. D quank h`riaie junk wds gdsy,wùfm pr`bdbfy dfwdys bg gdsy watl tlas w`hdi. ^lg wds s`jt dim waffaie dim dfwdysaitgrgstgm. Uds at bgndusg lg wds hdkaie lgr jggf f`vgm dim sdjg0 @r wds at bgndusg slgwds d l``kgr, trdaigm t` bg fakg tldt0 I`t qugstaìs lg wditgm t` bg tlaikaie dbùt ì dw`rk mdy. ]lgrg wgrg `tlgr tlaies t` bg jaeuraie ùt.

]laies fakg gxpfdaiaie t` ^tgisfdim wly lg ldmi‑t hgt lah ^dturmdy iaelt djtgr tlg mgtdafdim mami‑t sl`w up j`r ndrms ûimdy djtgri`ì. Hdybg lg nùfm sdy lg wds sank0 Idl.Bum Ulatg mami‑t egt sank. Ldmi‑t hassgm d mdy `j w`rk saing lg stdrtgm watl tlg FD_M.]ldt wdsi‑t eìid jfy.

Arratdtaì buaft ai las nlgst. Uly mam lg ldvg t` sdy diy-junkaie-tlaie0 Ugff, tlg diswgrt` tldt wds sahpfg; slg wds iumeaie lgr swggt dss dedaist las h`riaie ldrm ì. Lgnùfmi‑t fgt ì tldt lg wds watl F`rid, tldt slg‑m spgit tlg gitarg wggkgim idkgm ai las bgm dim i`t d pgiiy nldiegm ldims. Lg fakgm bgaie d mgtgntavg dim wdsi‑t rgdmy t` cg`pdrmazg at. But hdybg…cust hdybg…Bum nùfm usg dff las arratdtaì, las bf``m egttaiel`ttgr by tlg haiutg, dim rgmargnt at dt ^tgis. Lg wds sank dim targm `j d ldfj-dssgm slat-


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jdngm-mruik pdrtigr. Lg wditgm d rgdf pdrtigr t` lgfp lah jaeurg ùt wldt lg wds màiewrìe, l`w lg nùfm m` at bgttgr.

D summgi eai pfdygm ì Bum‑s faps. Lg‑m igvgr tlùelt fakg tldt bgj`rg, tlùelt dbùtusaie las diegr t` egt s`hgtlaie majjgrgit. ]lùelt dbùt l`w t` hdiapufdtg s`hgìg

gfsg ait` egttaie wldt lg wditgm. At wdsi‑t di amgd pdaitgm watl uicust ndusgs gatlgr. Atwds sggaie at dff kaimd majjgrgitfy. Uds Ndff`wdy raelt0 Uds tlas stupam mgtdaf eìid lgfplah bg d bgttgr mgtgntavg0

^tupam mgtdaf0 Junk. ]ldt stupam mgtdaf pfdngm f`vgfy F`rid R`mraeugz ai las bgm dim wdstlg rgdsì las n`nk wds rgdnlaie j`r lgr l`t pussy. Hdybg at wdsi‑t stupam. Hdybg lgslùfmi‑t ldvg h`vgm watl las iggms t` ldvg lgr. ]` pr`tgnt lgr. Hdybg lg slùfm‑vgtdkgi lgr t` lgr pahp dim cust mr`vg dwdy. But hdybg lg nùfmi‑t m` tldt. Hdybg lg wdsmajjgrgit.

Las ldim sfam `vgr lgr rabs dim nuppgm d wdrh brgdst. Lg iggmgm tlas. F`rid iggmgm at.

Lg‑m kggp at d sgnrgt…but lg wùfm kggp F`rid. Junkai‑ D, lg‑m kggp lgr.

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Mank ^tgisfdim mr`ppgm ait` las squgdky mgsk nldar watl d sn`wf. Mumfgy wdsi‑tfastgiaie t` rgdsì. Cust wldt tlg junk nùfm lg dmm t` Ndff`wdy‑s stupam stumy0 Uly mamlg ldvg t` gvgi bg tlgrg0 ]lg Ndp wds prgtty nfgdr.

‖Bgndusg A sdam!‘ tlg hdi lassgm ai d wdy tldt ldm hdmg ^tgis prgss bdnk ai las nldar. I`t d f`t sndrgm lah. Lgff, gvgi Mumfgy ^hatl mami‑t sndrg lah. But f`saie dff tldthìgy0 F`saie dff tl`sg nldings t` egt junkaie ranl quank dim bg d pdrt `j tdkaie `vgrHankgy N`lgi‑s rdnkgts0 I`w tldt sndrgm lah slatfgss. Lg staff mami‑t sgg wly lg ldm t` bg d pdrt `j Ndff`wdy‑s pr`cgnt, but dt fgdst lg ldm d bgttgr amgd `j wldt Mumfgy gxpgntgm`j lah.

‖A mì‑t ndrg wldt yù m`,‘ ^hatl nìtaiugm las lass ai tldt `jjang. ‖_drtanapdtg, mì‑t pdrtanapdtg, mraik yùrsgfj ait` d n`hd `r sfggp at `jj. A sahpfy m` i`t eavg d e``me`mmdhi wldt yù m`…but yù bg tlgrg gvgry ^dturmdy. @r…‘

Mumfgy mami‑t jaiasl dim ^tgis kigw tlgy wgrg tlaikaie tlg sdhg tlaie. ]lg ‖`r‘ nùfm bg j`ff`wgm by d tlrgdt ì las fajg. At nùfm bg j`ff`wgm by di gxp`surg t` s`hg `j^tgisfdim‑s pdst qugstaìdbfg dntavatags; las ùt `j nìtr`f dfn`l`fash `r gvgi lasgxtrdhdratdf jr`fans. Mumfgy ^hatl wds ruiiaie tlg sl`w dim gvgi d pankfgm brdai nùfmsgg tldt.

^tgis efdingm drùim tlg squdm r``h. Ulgrg tlg junk mam las pdrtigr e`0 Lg ldmi‑t sggilamg i`r ldar `j Ulatg dff wggkgim. Ulgi Ulatg ndhg ait` tlg bragjaie, lg sdt dnr`ss tlgr``h. Junk, wds gvgryìg passgm dt lah0 Hdybg Bum fgjt, wdfkgm ùt watlùt las pdrtigr. Hdybg Ulatg wds ai Mumfgy‑s `jjang raelt i`w, màie tlg sdhg tlaie ^tgis ldmtragm. ^tgisg summgify jgft d wdvg `j pr`tgntavgigss j`r las yùiegr pdrtigr. At wdsi‑t


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wasg t` pass `jj tlg Ndptdai watlùt d iang strìe last`ry tègtlgr jarst. D hdi iggmgmlast`ry t` nìtr`f di`tlgr hdi.

^tgisg efdingm dt tlg j`fmgrs ì las mgsk. ]lrgg dntavg ndsgs. ‖]`mdy, wg brgdk ìg `jtlgsg junkgrs!‘ lg eruitgm ds Bum wdfkgm ai. ‖Qù lgdr hg pdrtigr0 ]`mdy wg brgdk ìg

`j tlgsg. ^nl``f stdrts tlas junkaie h`riaie dim yù‑rg eìid bg hy stdr stumgit. Egt tlgndr, Ulatg.‘

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]lrgg-tlarty ì ]lursmdy djtgri`ì Ndrsì Ndff`wdy wds sattaie ai tlg `jjang `j tlgigwfy dppàitgm _`fang Nlagj, Uaffadh _drkgr j`r tlg sgnìm tahg tldt wggk. At ldmegigrdffy bggi d e``m wggk. _r`jgss`r _gtgr ^kgffy wds ldppy watl tlg jarst stumy tdpgdim Ndff`wdy ldm br`kgi d bae ndsg wamg `pgigm. H`st `j las mdys wgrg jaffgm watln`hpafaie gvgrytlaie lg iggmgm t` dssurg aimanthgit watl ìg shdff pr`bfgh. GmhìmGxfgy. ]lg fattfg wgdsgf wds uimgr j``t dt gvgry turi. Dt jarst Ndrsì tlùelt hdybg lg‑m

cust hdmg d igw jragim, hdybg tlg kam cust wditgm t` fgdri, ldm d fattfg lgr` w`rslapeàie. But tlgi lg lgdrm tldt tlg kam ldm bggi `jjanadffy dssaeigm t` lah. Nuraùs. I`wwldt wds ^hatl tlaikaie0

Nlagj _drkgr luie up las plìg dim jfappgm `pgigm d jafg j`fmgr. ‖Ndff`wdy, at‑s bggimgnamgm tldt yù waff bg dwdrmgm tlg Hgmdf `j Lì`r, wlgtlgr yù fakg at `r i`t.‘

‖A mì‑t sar.‘

‖Uly0‘ _drkgr‑s tlank ergy br`ws nurfgm. Ndff`wdy wds di `mm gee. ^ldrp, nfgdi … dimdhbataùs, but staff, di `mm gee.

‖F``k dt at tlas wdy, Nlagj,‘ Ndrsì saelgm. ‖A‑h igw lgrg … yù‑rg igw ai yùr p`sataì. ]las cust haelt i`t bg tlg bgst tlaie t` m`. Haelt i`t sat s` wgff watl gvgryìggfsg.‘

‖Uly m` yù ndrg0‘

Ndrsì eraiigm. ‖A ldvg hy rgdsìs. Bgsamgs, at waff staff bg ì tlg rgn`rm, raelt0‘

Qgs, Ndff`wdy wds dhbataùs, but lg ldm d squgdky nfgdi, s`hgwldt hdiadndf subtfgtydbùt las dhbataì. _drkgr fakgm tldt. ‖At‑ff bg rgn`rmgm tldt yù rgjusgm tlg Hgmdf `jLì`r … but ngrtdaify mgsgrvgm at. I`w,‘ lg jfappgm bdnk d jgw slggts. ‖Uldt‑s dff tlasdbùt d stumy usaie FD_M stdjj0‘

‖At wds dppr`vgm by Ndptdai ^hatl, Nlagj. I` p`fang juimaie, cust d fattfg snlgmufgtwgdkaie. I`tlaie slajty eàie ì, A dssurg yù.‘


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_drkgr wdtnlgm Ndff`wdy, tlg wdy lg sdt n`hj`rtdbfy ì tlg nldar, rgspgntjuf but watl didar `j mgjading t``; d bat sfùnlgm, ndsudf. ‖Gxdntfy wldt as tlas stumy dim wly, prdy tgff,wùfm Mumfgy ^hatl dppr`vg at0‘

Ndff`wdy nlunkfgm. ‖A ldvg i` nfug wly tlg Ndptdai dppr`vgm at. But ds j`r tlg stumy, at‑s

d spgnadf gxpgrahgit mgsaeigm t` lgfp hdkg las stdjj bgttgr mgtgntavgs. Hdybg tldt‑s wlylg edvg at tlg e`-dlgdm. Lg gvgi nl`sg tlg hgi j`r tlg mgtdaf, sar.‘

‖Ranldrm ^tgisfdim0 Ugimgff Ulatg0 Cdnk Zaingiigs dim Gmhìm Gxfgy0 A mì‑t tlaik^hatl aitgimgm t` juffy supp`rt yùr gjj`rts, hy hdi.‘

‖A‑ff dergg, ^tgisfdim haelt bg d f`st ndusg, but Zaingiigs0 Ndi yù ahdeaig l`wgjjgntavg tldt euy waff bg watl d jgw psynl`fèandf skaffs uimgr las bgft0 ]lgi tlgrg‑sGxfgy. _r`hasg tlgrg. Bg iang t` sgg lah stdrt ùt watl dff tlg raelt t``fs.‘

‖Dim Ulatg0‘ _drkgr si`rtgm.

‖A‑vg e`t d slat f`dm `j nìjamging ai Ulatg. Lg‑s i`t ds muhb ds yù tlaik.‘

‖A‑ff ldvg t` tdkg yùr w`rm j`r at.‘ ]lg Nlagj nf`sgm tlg j`fmgr. ‖F``ks fakg Gxfgy waff bg egttaie e``m trdaiaie. Lg‑s bggi dssaeigm t` yù, A sgg.‘

Ndff`wdy er`digm. ‖Qù ki`w l`w at e`gs, sar. A mì‑t rgdffy wdit di uitragm cuia`rmgtgntavg ì hy ndsgs. But aj lg kggps las hùtl slut dim pdys dttgitaì, at slùfm e`wgff. A mì‑t tlaik lg‑ff aitgrjgrg hunl.‘

‖Fgt‑s l`pg i`t. Qù‑rg mashassgm, Mgtgntavg Ndff`wdy…dim…kggp up tlg e``m w`rk.‘

Kggp up tlg e``m w`rk0 Uldt tlg lgff gfsg wds lg eàie t` m`0 Lg wds safgitfynlunkfaie ds lg fgjt tlg Nlagj‑s `jjang, Gxfgy fgdiaie dedaist tlg wdff ùt ai tlg ldff. Ajtlg wgdsgf nùfm ldvg, Ndff`wdy wds surg Gxfgy wùfm ldvg ldm las gdr dedaist tlg m``r.Gm sdam i`tlaie, cust wdfkgm dt las samg. Mami‑t f``k hunl fakg lg wds eàie t` sldkg tlgkam, s` lg eraiigm.

‖A‑h luiery,‘ Ndff`wdy sdam. ‖Fgt‑s e` egt s`hgtlaie t` gdt.‘

@ing ai tlg maigr, lg sappgm n`jjgg dim wdtnlgm Gxfgy‑s brdai nfank bglaim tl`sg efdssgsdim bfug gygs. ‖Uly mì‑t yù cust dsk, Gm0‘

‖Uldt mam tlg Nlagj `j _`fang wdit watl yù0‘

‖Lg wditgm t` eavg hg tlg Hgmdf `j Lì`r.‘

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Ndff`wdy slrueegm. ‖Qù‑ff pr`bdbfy lgdr dbùt at t`h`rr`w. A rgjusgm.‘

‖Qù rgjusgm tlg Hgmdf `j Lì`r0 Qù tlaik A‑h di ama`t0‘

‖I`pg,‘ Ndff`wdy eraiigm. ‖But A‑h surg yù tlaik A dh. Hgtdfs mì‑t s`fvg ndsgs, kam.

Mgtgntavgs m`. I`w, wldt mam yù jaim ùt jr`h tldt fgdm A edvg yù ì tlg Br`wiswgffhurmgr aivgstaedtaì0‘

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^dturmdy iaelt, iaig _H ì tlg m`t, Ndff`wdy gitgrgm tlg f`nk-up watl Gxfgy dt las samg.Ulatg wds tlgrg, fgdiaie ndsudffy dedaist tlg wdff. ^tgis dntudffy f``kgm s`bgr dimZaingiigs f``kgm fakg lg‑m pass las pdits. ^`hgtlaie wds up watl Cdnk dim Ndff`wdywds eàie t` ldvg d e``m tahg jaeuraie at dff ùt.

Lg st``m dt tlg tdbfg ds tgi igwfy drrgstgm l``kgrs wgrg faigm up. ]ldt‑s wlgi las jarst

nfug dbùt Zaingiigs‑ gxnatghgit ndhg.

‖Ndff`wdy, tldt ìg, sgnìm jr`h tlg gim.‘

Ndff`wdy‑s nlàng ldm bggi fgdiaie t`wdrms tlg lgdvysgt bfìmg watl tlg bf``m rgmfapstank, but tlg earf Zaingiigs wds pàitaie ùt f``kgm fakg i`tlaie h`rg tldi djraeltgigm kam.

‖Fgt‑s gxgrnasg d fattfg ahdeaidtaì dim vdragty tìaelt, Cdnk. Ug‑vg dfrgdmy gxpgragingmfdst wggk‑s nryaie sldhg dim tlg wl`fg pàit `j tlg aitgrvagw pr`ngss as t` utafazgmajjgrgit pgrspgntavgs ì tlg w`rfm‑s `fmgst pr`jgssaì.‘

Zaingiigs wdsi‑t eàie t` eavg ai watlùt d jaelt. Lg nùfmi‑t bgfagvg wldt ldm custjdffgi ait` las fdp dim lg wdsi‑t dbùt t` dff`w Ndff`wdy t` pdss tlas ìg up. ‖Fastgi, dfftlgsg w`hgi f``k dfakg sdvg j`r tlas kam. ^lg‑s tlg h`st aitgrgstaie ìg ai tlg buinl.‘

Ndff`wdy wdsi‑t buyaie at. ‖Ug mì‑t iggm diy bfggmaie lgdrts. Ug‑rg supp`sgm t` bg brutdffy ahpdrtadf dim mgtdnlgm jr`h wldtgvgr aij`rhdtaì tlgy‑rg eàie t` eavg us. A sdywg nl``sg tlg bfìmg ì tlg gim.‘

‖]lg bfìmg dt tlg gim as d rgeufdr wl`‑s rgdf idhg as Giam _dnkgr, dim slg e`gs by tlgstrggt idhg `j Giam ^hatl. ^lg‑s >< ygdrs `fm dim slg shgffs fakg bàfgm ndbbdeg. Ajyù‑rg eàie t` sgt us dff up ai d r``h watl p``r vgitafdtaì j`r sgvgrdf lùrs dt fgdst fgt at bg watl d subcgnt wl` m`gsi‑t staik.‘

Ndff`wdy `vgrlgdrm ^tgisfdim‑s bdrgfy nìtr`ffgm fdueltgr dim i`tgm Gxfgy‑s f``k `jmastdstg. @kdy, lg‑m fgt Zaingiigs ldvg tlg pank `j tlg wggk, i`t bgndusg lg jgdrgm dhutaiy but bgndusg Cdnk wds ldrmfy tlg bfggmaie lgdrt typg dim tlas t`fm lah tldt earfiuhbgr haelt pr`vg t` bg d rdtlgr aitgrgstaie aitgrvagw subcgnt djtgr dff.

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