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Polite

By

Abby Humphries

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Table of Content

A Way With Words

 Photo by: lindsay.dee.bunny

Protein

 Photo by: the bridge

Missing

 Photo by: markhillary

Routine

 Photo by: The webhamster 

Beyond Your Years

 Photo by: Chill Mimi

Penetration

 Photo by: Michael D Beckwith

Schedule

 Photo by:  Dru Bloomfield – At Home in Scottsdale

Sitting Ducks

 Photo by: frozenchipmunk 

Popcorn

 Photo by:  superiphi 

History

 Photo by: yilmaz ovunc

Subordinate

 Photo by:  Fort Rucker 

Extinguish

 Photo by: notacrime

Subjugate

 Photo by:  Eneas

Stardom

 Photo by: Soumyadeep Paul 

Painful Process

 Photo by: kevin dooley

Icons

 Photo by: starrynight_012

Glorious Photo by: whologwhy

Epic Photo by: Just Taken Pics

Giving Up

 Photo by: bk2204

Spontaneous

 Photo by: Ghayty

My Type

 Photo by: halseike

Thanks For The Hug

 Photo by: Joris_Louwes

Ulterior  Photo by: asw909

Masquerade Photo by: FerdC 

Palate

 Photo by:  Jason Lander 

Tuesday Night

 Photo by: SleEEpinGBeaUty

Requisite

 Photo by:  jphintze

Bottled Confessions

 Photo by: SergioDJT 

Composite

 Photo by:  Ask A Forensic Artist 

Three Words

 Photo by: j thorn explains it all 

Trapeze

 Photo by:  peptic_ulcer 

I Wonder Why

 Photo by: zoetnet 

Incurable Insanity

 Photo by:  Dima Bushkov

I Need To Know

 Photo by: F. C. Photography

Expire

 Photo by: chrstphre

Far Away

 Photo by: thomas riboulet 

Brief 

 Photo by: Gavin Llewellyn

Standards

 Photo by: Ron Cogswell 

Flow

 Photo by: mRio

Close To You

 Photo by: degreezero2000

Highway

 Photo by: Abby Humphries

Condolences

 Photo by: cell105

Ivory

 Photo by: Steve Snodgrass

Coiled

 Photo by: Furryscaly

Willow

 Photo by:  Degu Mischief 

Evasive

 Photo by: Beverly & Pack 

Alone

 Photo by: cliff1066 TM  

Polite

 Photo by: perpetualplum 

Complicated Photo by: twm1340

Title Page Photo by:  shehal 

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A Way With Words

You have a way with words

That makes me want to listen

Sometimes I know

What you are going to say

Before you say

SomethingI’ve already spoken with you

Twice today

And I already hope

That you will call again

I feel that I could tell you

Anything

You have so much responsibility

That you put others before yourself 

You told me that the time has not come

That you can even think of yourself Everything

We talked about

Sounded eerily familiar

Like I was talking to

Someone who really understands

I wonder what this interaction means

To me

I wonder what this interaction means

To you 

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Missing

I can remember where I wasWhen you went missing

I remember what I wore

When you went missing

I can only hope

I am beyond hope!

That you return as you were

So we can return to the way we were

But we’ll never be the way we wereBecause we can never be the way we were 

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Beyond Your Years

You have to face your fears

When you are beyond your years

You can’t count on the tears

To get you into the clear

You get left behind

When you are beyond your years

A mature mind

A natural kind

Of girl

The kind

That’s hard to find 

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Schedule

Why don’t you fit me in?

Into your schedule

I’m tired of the usual

Routine

Why don’t you give me a call?

And to talk about all

We dream

We still dream

I know you get busy

I get busy, too

When I get the chance

I like to spend time with you

If you want me to

When it’s been a long timeI don’t know what to say

I wish there was an easier way

To say

What we really want to say

To those who should hear

What you have to say

So they know how you really feel

They will know that you’re for real 

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Popcorn

I’m not supposed to

Feed the geese at the park 

I shouldn’t go there after dark 

But I broke the rules

I brought popcorn

LargeStrong birds

Eating from my hand

I thought they’d bite

So I held my hand flat

I never expected that

They’d take it gently

Not to hurt me

Sensitivity

With wingsI felt a bird’s tongue

On my skin

Rough like a cat’s tongue

To clean its feathers

I love

When they fly above

My head 

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Subordinate

Subordination

Like discrimination

Why is this isolation

Called for?

A clause that adds much

To a simple touch

A clause that provides

Further explanation

You should provide

A logical explanation

For why I was demoted

For why I am

The subordinate 

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Subjugate

I know that I can overcome

What I am running from

I know that I can rise above

Everything I’m afraid of 

I know that I can gain control

Over what had control

Over meI know I can because I want to

I want to do

What you never thought

I had the guts to do

I want to do

What I never thought

I had it in me to do

I want to

Prove it to youI want to

Because I have to

I have to get through

This difficult time

I have to get through

I know I can get through

I have developed strength

And developed skills

Because I learn from you 

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Painful Process

Changing

Is a painful process

There comes a time

That everything must change

Or end

I wish there was no end

This series

Of necessary stepsTaken to make it better

A better way of life

So difficult and gradual

Everyone has to take their turns to wait

An opportunity to advance

Natural selection process

Twisted metal

Chrome

Forgotten vehiclesOnce reliable

Forms of transportation

Structured bodies of broken glass

Rubber melting in the sun

Melting like wax

Seats torn out 

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Glorious

You attract public acclaim

A success story

Right from the beginning

Because you wanted to succeed

You can never get what you want

But you can get what you need

You give me what I needThe need to feel

Something real

You have achieved

Fame and honor

You have won

So much more than praise

Why should I clap my hands?

When I leave my seat for you

I am the one who

Has been there for you

I am the one who

Will always be there for you

So glorious is the golden sun

After the longest days are done

When my inhibitions are gone 

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Giving Up

You really should have shame

You are not to blame

You are not the only

One who is lonely

Desperate tendencies

When you’ve had enough

When you want to give up

You can never give up

Even when you’re fed up

When you fall

Get back up

On the horse you fell off 

And gallop off 

Into the setting sunInto the west

You deserve the best

Life is just a test

And you have to do your best

To eliminate the rest

You have to try your hardest

To get to where you ought to be

I know that we can’t always be

Exactly where we’re supposed to be

Please stay next to me 

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My Type

I have been thinking

Of why

That I

Am attracted

To a certain guy

I have been wondering

Why

The characteristicsMeet the criteria

Or do they?

Old fashioned

Morals and values

Gentleman

Even though you don’t think you

can

Live up to

All the expectations put on you

I know that you can

Be a good man

Representative example

Of how a man should beYou say you are a little boy

But you really are a man

You know sorrow

You will meet joy 

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Ulterior

I knew you had

An ulterior motive

I was hoping you did not have

An ulterior motive

Something beyond the obvious

Wasn’t admitted

Hidden on purposeSo I wouldn’t know

So you could try to go

Around town

Looking for someone else

To share your feelings with

You used to talk to me

You used to trust me

You used to share so freely

I could not believeHow much you trusted me

I could not believe

That you chose me

All I had to do was wait

Patiently

All I had to do was wait

And you found me

Sadly; you left me! 

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Palate

A palate of paint

Or the roof of your mouth

Both could convey

The heat of the south

Foundations

Oral limitation

Palatial Cavity

Deep and high

Natural indentation

Decorative liquid substance

Oil and pigment

Corners of creativity

Corners of my mind

Streetlight of thought

Like a light bulb ideaBright and essential

Gone in a flash

Just as fleeting

As time

And a handful of cash

Urgency

You make the dash

And you are gone in a flash 

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Requisite

There will always be

A requisite

Standards to meet

Expectations to live up to

There will always be

A requisite

A record to beatSomething to aspire to

There will always be

A requisite

That’s the only way

We can make changes

To a society afraid of changes

Even positive changes

Afraid of something unknown

Been trying to do it all on my own

I’m not saying that I condone

Of you

Messing up

Messing around

I’m fed up

Of trying to get through to you

When you don’t want to listen to anyone  

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Composite

I compare you

To the composite

I can see youMatching the description

I can see you

Being my prescription

Fulfilling you

Instead of refilling my bottle of pills

Tomatoes ripening on window sills

Not knowing of their ills

The poison they sprout from

Seeds can sprout on the inside

Incubating in its internal juices

Dangerous potential

Festering; concealed underneath

the skinComposed of such picturesque

Tiny components

Sun released capsules

Waiting to explode

Waiting to expose

Toxic effects

I can see you

Fruit salad

Smooth fuzzy peach

Waiting on the beach 

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Trapeze

You swing on the trapeze

With finesse

With ease

Not even the breeze

Sways you

Changes your mind

Makes you want to come downHigh above the world

You dangle perilously

With no safety net

It is amazing

How quickly

We forget

Stigmatic interval

Static cardinal

Pragmatic carnivalAstronautic capital

Neurotic principal

Erotic withdrawal

Erratic approval

Holistic proposal

Panic disposal 

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Incurable Insanity

Incurable Insanity

Has scorn me once again

The places that I found myself 

To lose myself within

In hard times; I wonder

If there is a lightAt the end of the tunnel

This theoretical tunnel

Like a speeding train

Diving underground

Paced like a bat out of fire

Faster than the speed of sound

How can you measure?

The speed of sound?

Based on how fast you hear it?

The brain registers slowlyMental processes take time

By the time you understand

By the time you make sense of 

What you’ve heard

Time has elapsed

Perpetually living in the past

Everything happensBefore you realize

That it has happened

Before you realize

Why it has happened

Everything happens

Before you know it 

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Expire

I bought a carton of milk 

The only mistake

I didn't check the expiry date

An open carton of milk 

And it's too lateTo bring it back 

To get my money back 

Why does milk have to expire?

Why does cheese grow mold?

Why do we have to conform?

When we are growing old?

Why does anything expire?

The longer it lasts

The stronger the desire

For the perfect pitch

Across a telephone wire

Your aim towards goals

Gets higher and higher

So do your standards

Impossible to meet

You won't hold my hand

As we walk down the streetThere's always a reason why

You made me cry

There's always a reason why

I thought that I

Wasn't good enough

The truth is that I still cry

Over rotten milk  

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Brief 

Our conversations

Kept brief 

Or conventions

Breed mischief 

You are a man of little words

There is no need for words

There is no time for words

I'd rather show you

Than tell youLove beyond belief 

I know why you leave me

Before you drink your coffee

Returning to reality

Track back to society

They do not approve of me

Of my irregularity

Of my insecurity

When security does not exist

You are an illusionist

Putting on a show

To let everybody know

That they cannot fool you

When they have reason to

You are my escape from grief 

Even if our time is brief For a love beyond belief 

Getting into mischief 

Time is the worst thief  

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Flow

Emotions flow

The way rivers flow

A molecule of water

Never stays in the same place

Precipitation and absorption

Emotions flow

The way tears flowI am lucky because I know

That life will only get

As bad as I let it get

I am lucky because I know

That times will only get

As hard as I let them get

The goals that I have

Are the ones that I set

That I only can have

What I already have

That I'll be the slave

To the money I cannot save

To the crest of the tidal wave

That I will be the slave

If I let myself be a slave 

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Highway

Traffic light

Shining bright

Doesn't keep me up at night

When I cannot sleepI pretend to hear

Ocean waves

A seashell to my ear

I live next to the highway

I watch traffic travel

Day after day

All day

If only I could find a way

A way to pay

My respect to society

When society

Goes to great length

To intimidate me

Pull the wool over my eyes

The philosophy of the wise

Money will never make me happy

Money will never seeWhat it does to society

What it does to me

Shoestring like a tightrope

Never enough to cope

Living on luck, living on hope

A highway is a commodity

Tricking society

Into thinking

That it is free

When none of us could ever be

Because we live in

This society 

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Ivory

Without a trace

Of lipstick smeared across your face

Of the blood that you taste

When you bite your lip

Booze gone to waste

You let it drip

From the corners of your mouthAs you elaborate

As you migrate

With the birds as they fly south

Fine perfumes so elegant

And many musks, so prominent

Why shoot an elephant?

Just for its tusks?

Why throw out the corn?

Just to keep its husks?

Ivory morning

Ebony night

What gives us the power?

What gives us the right?

Just because we can

Doesn't mean it's right

I believe in love

But not at first sight

Ivory morning

Ebony night 

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Willow

Willow

Dear Willow

Why do you weep?

Do you have difficulty

Falling asleep?

Willow

Dear willow

Overgrown fern

Does your heart ache?

Does your soul yearn?

Willow

Dear willow

Are you haunted by memories?

That stealthily seep

Through your tough exterior?Do you feel inferior?

Willow

Dear willow

Why do you weep?

Do you weep for those whose

secrets

You cannot keep?

Or is it something more personal?

Something too deep?

Willow

Dear willow

Let your leaves blow in the breeze

You don't have to please

The other trees

You don't have to weep over

memories 

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Alone

When I am alone

The outburst of creativity

Finds it's way

To me

When I am alone

The explosion

Of expression

Enters meWhen I am alone

I feel alive

I feel like a portrait

The oils thicken

Like twists in a plot

The story changes

Each time you read

The image changes

Like role reversal

The universal

Business proposal

When I am alone

Sensors at the tips of nerves

The smooth edges

of bodily curvesof celestial curves

Ancestry serves

To remind us

That everybody

Gets what they deserve 

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Complicated

Complicated explanation

For flying machines

A tin can with wings

Soaring through the sky

Above the clouds

Complicated explanations

For the sincerityOf curiosity

You foresee

The extremity

Future fingers

Pointing at me

All of your predictions

Are beyond your time

And beyond comprehension

How can we wrap our minds

Around theoretical notions?When we know more about the moon

Than the bottom of the oceans?

How can a thought become

More than just a thought?

How does a thought go from

A mental conclusion

To beyond an illusion? 

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Protein

Eggs and cheese

Am omelet

Western style

Re-establishing energy

Storing propensity

Rise in the east

Set in the west

When you expect it the least

It will be the bestLaundry day

Ketchup stain

Fabric stitches

Wash the debris away

Grain by gritty grain

Nervous twitches

Mechanical glitches

Everything switches

From bad to good

From good to badThe best of the worst luck 

That I've ever had

Everything switches

From sad to happy

From happy to sad

You should be glad

That whatever is in fashion

Is just a fad

Even the protein you hadFor breakfast 

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Routine

You pour gasoline

Into your bed

You expect fire

Between your sheets

Tonight; all night

Your matchbox is empty

Just like your promise

Just like your eyes

Void of emotion

Void of expression

You want to light your lantern

You want your wick to burn

A candle lit and both ends

Wax dripping down the walls

Love songs fill the halls

Your love left you long ago

She could not find a way

To accept that which you cannot

change

Swallowing lead like a gun range

Where are your silver bullets?

Where is your wooden stake?

How much time do you need?

How much will it take?

Memories haunt you

Like a stalker in the night

Peering through the window

In the shadows; out of sight

What gives society the right?

To infringe upon your right? 

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Penetration

You make your grand entrance

Like a first impression

With grace and style

Fashionably late

Just to make them wonder

If you're planning to attend

How could you not go?

To your own celebration?

You make your grand entrance

Like the belle of the ball

Everyone is watching you

They all have their eyes on you

Waiting to see what you will do

You have to keep up appearances

Social obligations

Sliding up the Richter scaleExtreme vibrations

Mobile limitations

The ground splitting open

Exposing magma; plasma

Molten bronze and lava

Steeping, boiling java

You make your entrance

You light up the room

You wait for the penetration

Of the unexpected realization

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Sitting Ducks

Sitting Ducks

The shooting gallery

At the fair

You don't know why

You find yourself there

Maybe deep down you know

You have to find escape

You have to find a place to go

A different landscape

The more you struggle

The harder it is to get out

Your voice barely above a whisper

I can see your lips move

But I can't make the words out

Row by row

Of sitting ducks

Waiting to be popped

Like soap bubbles

Like champagne glasses

Waiting to be topped

Like a speeding train

That cannot be stopped

You shut out all the noise around

you

Tunnel vision

Standing before your target

You could hear it fall

Listening for the pin to be dropped

You only get one shot

That's all you get

Better make it your best shot

Your best shot yet 

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History

We have a long

History

Everything we shared

Is history

Because you fell out of loveWith me

I fell out of love

With you

But I'll always have a place

In my heart

For you

That should go

Without saying

I wanted you to knowThat I'm not playing

We cannot throw the years away

We cannot go back to yesterday

Even if there was a way

To prevent ourselves

From going astray

I wish I could tell you

How I really feelBut how can I tell you

What I really feel?

When I can't tell you

That I know what is real

That I know how I feel

Just because we can feel

Doesn't mean we can find the

words

To describe the way we feel 

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Extinguish

Distinguish

Lust from love

Which do you dream of?

Which are you in need of?

I melt in attempts

To extinguish

The fire withinIt never goes out

internally, eternally

As bright and scorching

As the August sun

If you feel the burning

You're not the only one

Sex is not a sport

It's not a game

someone could winIf it's not for love

Then it is a sin

Satisfaction

Cannot come from

Self-gratification

Satisfaction

Comes from

Love

The joy of expression

The expressionOf love 

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Stardom

Stars don't just fall

Out of the sky

Even in October

When the leaves fall

When I loveTo fall

In love

Just to be in love

With the idea of love

There is no perfect love

Just a practical love

Who gets into the kingdom

Of stardom?

How do you get into the kingdomOf stardom?

Does a star fall

Out of the sky

Just for you?

Remember this;

You can become

Infamous

Just as quickly

As you can become

Famous 

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Icons

You told me that James Dean

Is your Idol

You try to achieve his appeal

You will never achieve his appeal

Only he is the real dealI missed his era

He passed away

Before I was born

I wished he could have been my Idol

If only for his confidence

All that I need for self-esteem

He was every girl's dream....

How could James Dean

Really be your Idol?When you didn't know

About Marilyn Monroe?

About that something in their eyes

When they looked at each other

It seems that they knew

Every time I saw themIn photographs

I don't pretend to know

All the details

About Marilyn Monroe

Because you know

How easy it is to be jealous

Of Marilyn Monroe 

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Epic

Dolphins flip

Because they were trained

Like animals in the circus

If a dolphin can flip

Why wouldn't it flip?It looks fun

From a dolphin's point of view

I would flip

Wouldn't you?

An epic is a masterpiece

An opus is a symphony

Timing is absolutely

Critically

Required

If a dolphin had butterfly wings

Enlarged and proportionate

Would it decide to flip for you?

Like a coin in the palm of your hand?

Of would it fly away? 

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Spontaneous

I call you when I feel

Like getting outside

Out of the house

You have to release me

From my cage

Like an animal

From my cell

Like a prisoner

I call you when I feel

Like talking

About what I should do

With myself, with my life

About what I should do

And how to get it done

I want to stay on course

I always stray of courseBecause of strong impulse

Heart ruling over head

Control and domination

Control over logic

I want to be spontaneous

I want to live my life

I want to do what I want to do

Based on how I feel about it

When I should think about it

How can I live my life?

When I cannot go outside

When I'm stuck on the inside?

How can I live my life

In my cage, in my cell

Like an animal, a prisoner 

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Thanks For The Hug

Thanks for the hug

You don't know how much

I needed that hug

I needed your touchJust to feel close

To someone again

Even if you are only

My friend

You are so much

More than just and only

Without you I'd be

Terribly

LonelyIt has been so long

Since I've had a hug

Gave my heart a little tug

Not something I'd sweep under the

rug

Because I could never forget

That hugIt made me feel

Really good inside

It made me feel

Really warm inside

You cannot let your heart

Be the only guide

Your heart and head

Must coincide

That having been saidThanks for the hug 

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Masquerade

My life is a masquerade

People pretending to be

Who they want to be

Instead of acting naturally

They are acting childishly

And gradually

They take off their masks

A piece at a timeNever all at once

They still prefer

Concealment

A piece at a time

Time after time

They still prefer

To be hidden away

Like an enormous pumpkin

Hidden in a closed closet

The enormous pumpkin

Was left in an empty apartment

The tenants moved

And left it there

To rot

To be discoveredThe odor of the rotten vegetation

Permeating

The dwelling

Of someone else 

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Tuesday Night

Sometimes I think 

That this is too good

To be true

That this can’t be real

Something that I’ve waited for

Suddenly out of the blue

Falling from the sky

As though I had commanded it

To fall into the palm

Of my hand

All I could have asked for

And more

That I could never have asked for

That I could only hope forAnd dream of 

This time it is so close

Like stepping into a dream

Where everything is perfect

Almost perfect

Because dreams are only fantasies

All I wanted was truth

A piece of Heaven for me

A place I could feel safe

From all that I run from

A place I could fall asleep

Listening to the steady rhythm

Of heavy breathing

Of your heart beating

A place where heat and moisture

Fills the air that we breathe

Fills this room

Mingled with the scentOf a Tuesday night 

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Bottled Confessions

Maybe I was trying to bide my time

Until I found the right time

Trying to explain

Why I have to keep certain things

To myself 

Why I have to keep certain thoughts

In my head

So that I can use themLike tools

To find the proper way to say

What I need to say

I have to take my time

It is only on your side

Once in a while

The rest of the time

It goes on forever

Like some summer nightsThat you wish would last forever

They only last

Until the sun comes up

And even then

You cannot sleep

Because you are worried

About the secrets I keep

In due time I will confess

It will only make the bond stronger

It will be for the best 

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Three Words

I remember when I heard you say

Those three words

I hadn’t heard for a long time

I had wanted to hear for a long time

Even if I know

That words are just words

It still felt goodTo hear it from you

Even though I know

That it is too early

For those words to mean

What they are supposed to mean

How quickly they are at our

disposal

Ready to launch like ammunition

Except this is not what they are forNot for destruction

Or for target practice

Not for the range

Not for bullets made of lead or silver

Just like an arrow

Straight through the heart

The piercing of a larger scope

And when the blood is washed

away

From my wound

I will again remember when Iheard you say

Those three words

And I will remember how good it

felt

When I heard you say

Those three words

Because I really hope to hear you

say

That you love meI will be waiting

Until you mean it 

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I Wonder Why

I wonder why

It’s been so easy

To talk to you

To tell you

Anything

And everything

I wonder why

It’s been so easyTo have these feelings

All the time

All day long

As though I was always

Meant to feel like this

As though I am

Walking on clouds

In thin air

High aboveEverything

As though I was always

Looking down

From these heights

As though I was always

Adrift some place

Far away

Far off into the distance

Everything I do feeling as though

It has never been done beforeLike each step I take

Is through an open door

Into open arms

Into your heart

Through my own 

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I Need To Know

I need to know

What’s on your mind

The things you think about

And never tell me

I need to tell you

What’s on my mind

The things I think about

And never tell you

For fear they will come out

The wrong way

In the wrong context

At the wrong time

Will there be a time

That we can tradeThoughts for thoughts?

That we can be upfront

And not have to worry

About undesired reactions

Unforeseen responses?

Sometimes I think it’s easier

Not to tell you how I really feel

Because I’m afraid to make this

real

More so than it already is

More so that it has become

Only because once this is real

I will not forget

Once this is real

There is no turning back 

Even if I wanted to

Even if you wanted to

Once this is real

It will deepenAnd become much more

Intense 

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Far Away

When I drift off 

Into the sanctuary

Of my mind

Of my thoughts

I think of you

And how far

You areFrom me

Yet I still wait

Because I believe

That I wait

For something

worth while

For something

That makes me smile

I sit hereWith hope in my heart

And all I have is hope

Maybe you'll always be

So far away

That I could never reach you

So far away

That I will seldom see you

That I will hardly know you

Even though I fear

That my love for you has deepened

That I cannot resolveMy inner turmoil

My anxiety

Because we cannot talk 

When we need to communicate

Because I cannot be

Completely

Open with my heart

How can I be?

When you are alwaysSo far away

From me? 

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Standards

I know you have

High standards

I know why you have

High Standards

Because you want

The best of the best

Meeting standardsLike passing a test

A way to cancel

All the rest

And keep it all

Close to your chest

I know that I should have

High standards

Nobody can meet

My standards

I can't even meet

My standards

Because I have

High standards 

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Close to You

I wish I could be

In your vicinity

I wish you could be

Close to me

The only place I want to be

Asleep peacefullyIn your arms

After the satisfaction

Of a sexual variety

No infringement

On our privacy

Just a propensity

For spirituality

For curiosity

With no proprietyI wish I could be

Close to you

For all

Eternity

Just so I can be

More in love

With you

And hopefully

You will beIn love with me

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Condolences

What does it mean?

To give your condolences

Why do we need

You condolences?

Is it a sign of respect?

In which respect?Does it represent

Sentiment?

Does it fill that empty space?

Put a smile on my face?

No, it cannot

And I want not

Your condolences

I shall not

Receive your condolences

I will not!

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Coiled

I’m wrapped

Around your finger

Like a coiled spring

I’m ready

To leap into action

At a moment’s noticeI’m ready

When you are

Poised to follow

Wherever you may lead

You heart

And I bleed

You want

And I need

To feel aliveAs I once felt

Just for one kiss

To make my heart melt

All I get is another

Low punch

Below the belt

I’m wrapped

Around your finger

Like a string you tie

To always rememberAll that is kept between you and I  

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Evasive

Evading me

Endlessly seeking

Loopholes

Looking for love

In all the wrong places

Last chance

To get out of town

Wear your white dress

The one that makes you feel

Like a woman

The one that you keep

For a wedding day

That will never come

For youThe one you keep

For a husband

You will never have

It’s a shame

That you only wear it

When nobody’s watching

It’s a shame

That you only wear it

In the privacy

Of your bedroom

It’s a shame

That you only wear it

To pretend

To have a reason

To save it

To hold onto it

To hold onto a dream

That will never come true 

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Polite

Why are you being so polite to me?

When I don’t expect you to be?

Why do you show so much respect

For me?

When I hardly see

Why it’s necessary?

Why do you act so formally?

Is that how you were raised to be?

Casualty meets conformity

I have never known

A guy like youI never expected you to

Offer me affection

In the form of a hug

I climb my way out

A day at a time

I slip and fall as I climb

It’s going to take a long time

To get to the right place

I want to go back 

And set the pace

As I try not to fall back 

And slip right through the crack 

Painted lips parted

Alone and broken heart-edNever know how or why

The whole mess started

I thank you for being so polite