Society Origins - Episode 0: Emergence

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SOCIETY ORIGINS

Book 0: Emergence

J.D. SULLIVAN


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>%1 51" $er%1$" more 2i33ic/ 51" %1 %e! "%1re2 %e "1me

"ree4 %e! 5ere on/! en %o"e" 1$1r4 1n2 $ ni/ no5 %e %12 -een

2e/i-er1e/! 1oi2ing %er 3or ri"k o3 em-1rr1""ing %im"e/3. B %e

51" 2eermine2 o oercome %i" 3e1r %i" ime. T%i" 51" %i" go/2en

o$$orni!. So mc% 51" 1 "1ke.

>i Yng#" 31mi/! -1rge2 %rog% %e cro52 1n2 $ o %e"ecri! g1r2" 5%o "oo2 1 %e 3oo o3 %e "1ir"4 i? %Fng#" 31%er

51" 1/re12! ne1r %e o$.

MLe " %rog%4 5e 1re 31mi/!KP %i" 31%er "1i24 3r1nic1//!

51ing %i" 1rm in %e 1ir o gr1- %e 1enion o3 >? Wng in %e

2i"1nce.

i" mo%er 51" 1"oni"%e2 1n2 2ee$/! em-1rr1""e2. er

%"-1n2 1/51!" 2i2 %i". e 51" 5e// kno5n 3or %i" "mg

$er"on1/i! 1n2 c%1rm. e 51" cer1in/! no 13r1i2 o3 ri"king /i3e 1n2/im- o ge -e%in2 %e "cene"4 een i3 i me1n /!ing. T%1nk3//! >?

@io#" 31%er "15 %em 1n2 51e2 1n2 %e "ecri! g1r2" /e %em

%rog%.

In %e me1n ime 1 %e o$ o3 %e "1ir"4 r. i? 1n2 r. >?

5ere no5 nie2 1n2 "%ook %1n2".

MI " 51ne2 o o33er m! congr1/1ion" o !o >? Wng4

!or 21g%er 51" mo" im$re""ie. Yo m" -e er! $ro2.A$o/ogie" on -e%1/3 o3 %e re" o3 m! 31mi/!4 %e! %12 o m1ke 1n

e1r/! e6i4 - %e! "en2 %eir -e" 5i"%e"4P %e 1/51!" %12 "$e1k 3or


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%em.

>? @io 51" crio" 1" "%e /ooke2 1 %e "r1nge m1n "%e %12

neer c/1$$e2 e!e" on -e3ore 1n2 %e /ooke2 -1ck 1 %er. e %12

%o"e "or o3 $iercing e!e"4 er! "erio" 1n2 3oc"e2.

MW LW4 I#m "o g/12 !o co/2 come4 - %ere i" no nee2 o

1$o/ogi"e. ;orgie me 3or menioning4 - I %1en# "een !o in 1

/ong ime4 I %o$e 1// i" 5e//P >? Wng 1"ke2 5i% concern.

MA// i" 5e//4 I#e " -een 5orking on "ome%ing.P

T%eir coner"1ion conine2 o o3 >? @io#" e1r"%o. S%e 51"

2e"$er1e/! r!ing o oer%e1r %eir 2i"c""ion - %e noi"e 1ron2

%er 51" 2i"r1cing. T%e! "oon $1re2 51!".Ye4 @io co/2 no %e/$ - noice %1 %e! on/! "%1re2 1 31in

"mi/e4 i 1c1//! 3e/ more co/2 %1n 3rien2/!. T%e! "1i2 "ome more

5or2" 1" 5e// - >? @io co/2 no m1ke i o 1mong" %e ro1r"

o3 %e cro52. T%e! "%ook %1n2" 1g1in 1n2 r. i? 51/ke2 -1ck

2o5n " 1" >i Yng#" 31mi/! %12 3in1//! re1c%e2 %e o$.

M;1%er4 5%o 51" %1 m1nP >? @io 1"ke2 %im.

MO% 2on# !o 5orr! 21r/ing4 %e i" " 1 3rien2 3rom 5ork4P%er 31%er con3irme24 - 3rom %e one o3 %i" n"e/ing oice4 -

%i" oice "gge"e2 o%er5i"e.

>? @io#" 31%er rne2 1n2 "15 >i Yng#" 31mi/! -! %e

g1r2" 1n2 %e r1n -1ck 2o5n4 rging %e g1r2" o /e %em %rog%.

Wng 1n2 r. >i g1e e1c% o%er 1 nice gig1nic m1/e %g 1n2

$1e2 one 1no%er on %e -1ck4 gr1--ing one 1no%er#" "%o/2er" 1"

i3 i 5ere " 3or o/2 ime"P "1ke4 i 2e3inie/! 3e/ more re1/ %1n

5i% i? %Fng#" 31%er.MT%1nk !o 3or comingP >? @io#" 31%er "1i2 1" %e! /e

3ini"%e2 $1ing one 1no%er.

MNo 1 1//4 i 51" or $/e1"re4P 1n2 %e conine2 c%1ing o

%e $1ren".

MCongr1/1ion" on !or "cce"" >? @io4P Yng#" mo%er

"1i2 o %er.

M@i6i4P >? @io -o5e24 5%ic% 51" 1n21rin C%ine"e 3orthank you.

M>i Yng4 %ere P %i" 31%er "1i2 1" %e n2ge2 %i" "on#" -1ck.


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M>e//4 "%e i" 2e3inie/! ni7e.P

MI %ink uni"uei" 31r oo com$/imen1r!KP "%e "1i2 -/n/!.

T%ere 51" 1 $1"e4 "22en/! %e 2i2 no kno5 5%1 o "1!.

#e blew it!1!-e %e %12 gien %er one oo m1n! com$/imen".

e %12 o conro/ %im"e/34 %e co/2 %e1r %i" o5n oice in %i" %e12

"1!ing: don$t get carried away, %ust ask her anything?

MSo4 2i2 !o %1e 2innerP %e 1"ke2.

MI 51" "o nero". I %12 %.P

% or congee 51" "ick! or 5e rice4 1n2 i 5orke2 5on2er"

3or i//ne""e"4 e"$eci1//! "om1c% cr1m$" 1n2 i 2e3inie/! %e/$e2 %er

5i% %er $er3orm1nce onig%.MA%4 "noKP %e 7i$$e24 M5e//4 I %12 c%icken noo2/e "o$.P

MSno >e// %1#" one inere"ing o$inion I "$$o"eKP "%e

/1g%e2.

e 3e/ 7ie imm1re 3or re3erring o congee in %i" m1nner4

- 1 /e1" "%e /1g%e2. e co/2 "en"e %1 "%e 51ne2 o 1/k "ome

more - %er - %e noice2 %er 31%er n2ge2 %i" %e12 in %er

2irecion.MI %ink !or 31%er 51n" !o4P %e noice2.

S%e rne2 1n2 %er 31%er r1i"e2 %i" %e12 1g1in4 "ign1//ing %1

ime 51" $. e rne2 1ron2 1n2 51" 12mie2/! $"e. T%i" 51"

%e 3ir" ime %e %12 re1//! go %e c%1nce o 1/k o %er $ro$er/! 1n2

no5 "%e 51" /e1ing.

MO%4 i /ook" /ike I %1e o go4P >? @io "1i24 M- i 51"

/oe/! o mee !o >i Yng.P

&as it lovely? 'ecause she didn$t let on?e %og%.#ad heblown his chances?

MYe"4 !e" er! /oe/!4 re1//! /oe/!d " /oe/!4P >i Yng

"1i2.

A// o3 1 "22en %e %12 -ecome "o nero". 9er%1$" i 51"

-ec1"e "%e 51" 1-o o go 1n2 %e 51ne2 o kee$ %er in %i"

$re"ence 3or 1" mc% 1" $o""i-/e. 9er%1$" i 51" -ec1"e %e 51" "i//

recoering 3rom %i" /i/e -/i$" 3rom e1r/ier.e 3e/ %i" %e1r $once o o3 %i" c%e" 1n2 i 51" %en4 %e

momen %e 51" 51iing 3or4 1n2 "%e 1c1//! "mi/e2 1 %im. e


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"mi/e2 -1ck. T%ere 51" "ome%ing. e 51" no "re 5%14 - i

2e3inie/! 3e/ %ere 51"something4 %o5eer %e 51" r!ing no o ge

%i" %o$e" $.

S%e e6en2e2 %er %1n2 1n2 %e e6en2e2 %i"4 %e! 5ere -"!

"%1king %1n2"4 Mm4 >i Yng4 1re !o going o %o/2 m! %1n2 1//

nig% 1" 5e//P "%e 1"ke2 "5ee/!.

MO%4 2 - 7`4P %e "1i24 1$o/ogi"ing $ro3"e/! 1g1in. e re1//!

3e/ /ike 1 3oo/ no5 %1 51" no5 1 "econ2 ime %e %12 m12e 1

mi"1ke in %er com$1n!. Yng /e go 1n2 "%e "e$$e2 151!4 e2ging

ne1rer o %er $1ren".

M[i i[n4P "%e "1i2goodbye1n2 51e2 o %imM[i i[n4P %e mm-/e2 in 1 21! 2re1m.

MYng4P %i" 31%er c1//e2 %im oer 1" %e "eeme2 o -e in 1

21!2re1m.

T%e m"ici1n" 5ere -"! $1cking $ %eir in"rmen" 1"

org1ni"er" 5ere moing "oo/" 1n2 "e1ing 3rom 5i%in %e 1// o3

9r1!er 3or Goo2 1re"".

e rne2 -1ck o "ee i3 @io 51" "i// /ooking 1 %im - "%e51" no. Con"e7en/!4 >? @io 1/"o rne2 o "ee i3 Yng 51"

/ooking 1 %er4 1" %er mo%er 1n2 31%er 2r1gge2 %er 151! - "%e

" mi""e2 %im. S%e "mi/e2 none%e/e""4 3ee/ing $1ric/1r/!

com$/1cen.

MYo /ike %imP %er mo%er 1"ke2.

MI %ink %e#" 3nn!4P >? @io re$/ie24 M%e 51" "o nero"4 -

er! "5eeKP

M>i Yng i" 1n i2io4P %er 31%er#" rem1rk 51" 7ie -/n 1n2%er mo%er /ooke2 oer o %im4 "%e "eeme2 7ie 1nno!e2 5i% %im4

M-4 %e i" 1 goo2 i2io4 I " me1n %e i" 1 -i o3 1 ner2.P

er mo%er /ooke2 1 %im 1g1in 5i% %er $re""ing e!e".

MOk1!4 "o 1 er! "m1r ner24 - 1n!51!4P %e 51" r!ing o 2ig

%im"e/3 o o3 %e %o/e %e " cre1e24 MI 1/51!" $icre2 !o 5i% 1

$o/iici1n or -1nker.P

e 51" r!ing o "gge" 5%1 51" -e" 3or %er4 - "re/! %ekne5 %1 "%e 51" o/2 enog% 1n2 m1re enog% o m1ke %1

2eci"ion 3or %er"e/3.


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Un3orn1e/! >i Yng %12 oer%e1r2 %i" commen" 1n2 %e

co/2 no %e/$ 3ee/ing 1 /i/e 2i"1$$oine2. T%en 1g1in4 what was

wrong with a nerd?e m12e no 1$o/ogie" or e6c"e" 3or i4 - %e

51" "i// 1 nice g!. er 31%er 2e"cri-e2 %i" geekine"" /ike i 51" 1

con2iion.

An2 1n!51!4 "re/! >? @io 51" "m1r enog% o 3orm/1e

1n2 come o %er o5n conc/"ion "%e 51" o/2 enog% 1n2 "m1r

enog% o 3in2 o 3or %er"e/3. >%! 51" %er 31%er "icking %i" no"e

in e 51" o-io"/! 1 er! $roecie 31%er.

e co/2 %1e $r"e2 1n 1rgmen i3 %e 2e"$er1e/! 51ne2

1n2 i 51" 2e3inie/! on %i" min24 - %e /1" %ing %e 51ne2 o 2o51" cre1e 1 3rore on %er "$eci1/ nig%. I 51" %1r2/! going o 5in

1n! 151r2". e 51/ke2 151! 5i% %i" $1ren".

MD124 eer!one %1" 1 o- in econom! or $o/iic"4P @io oke24

o"m1ring %im.

MVer! re4P %er mo%er 122e24 5i% 1n rging /ook 1 %er 31%er.

MOk1!4 5e// I 1m " /ooking o 3or !or -e" inere""4P %er

31%er in"i"e2.Me i" 1 re1//! "5ee g!4P "%e "1i2 o %er mo%er 1n2 %er

mo%er 1gree2 1" %e! 51/ke2 %ome 3or 1 er! /1e 2inner.


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in 1 $/1ce kno5n 1" Ci! '. I "eeme2 1 "r1ng/e%o/2 %12 -een -i/

5i% mi/e %ig% $/1"m1 3ence" "rron2ing i /ike 1 3orre"".

T%e $roe"er" 5ere 2ee$/! concerne2 -ec1"e %e! -e/iee2

"ecre $roec" 5ere going on. A m1n %12 e"c1$e2 3rom %e

"r1ng/e%o/2 1n2 1 5om1n 1n2 1 gir/ %12 -een ki//e24 - %e

Goernmen 5ere 1""ring %e $eo$/e %1 %e $er$er1or %12 -een

e/imin1e2.

S%e 51" -ore2 1n2 "o 5i% no%ing e/"e o 2o4 "%e 5en -1ck

$"1ir" o ge re12!. S%e %12 1 "%o5er 1n2 %re5 on "ome c1"1/

c/o%e"4 - "%e 1/51!" $ "ome /ig% m1ke*$ on.

A /i/e 5%i/e /1er "%e %e1r2 oice" 3rom o"i2e %e 3ron 2oor.T%en "%e %e1r2 "ome r"/ing. er mo%er 1n2 31%er %12 rerne2

1n2 %e! enere2 %e %o"e c1rr!ing 1 3e5 -1g".

T%e 2oor o$ene2 1n2 %e! 2ro$$e2 %eir -1g" in %e $orc%. T%en

%e! 51/ke2 ino %e %o"e4 %e 2oor "/1mme2 "%. S%e 51/ke2

2o5n %e "1ir"4 -! %e /ook on %er mo%er#" 31ce "%e 2i2 no "eem

er! %1$$!. er 31%er /ooke2 $ o %er.

MA%4 >? @io4 gre1K I %1e "ome 5on2er3/ ne5".P@io rne2 o 31ce %er mo%er 5%o "i// /ooke2 on -/1nk/!.

MI %1e 1 r1in icke 3or !o o gr1n !o 1cce"" o Ci! '4P %er

31%er 1$$e1re2 "ome5%1 2e/ig%e24 MI %1e "ome 5ork /ine2 $ 3or

!o %ere. I 5i// -e goo2 3or !o. Yo c1n /e1e %i" $/1ce4 go o

1n2 e6$/ore %e 5or/2 eno! !or /i3e 5%i/e !o "i// c1n.P

>? @io 2i2 no kno5 %o5 o re"$on2. S%e " co/2 no %ink

o3 1n! re1"on 5%! "%e 51ne2 o /e1e %ome o go o 1 "r1nge $/1ce

%1 51" n31mi/i1r o %er. o5eer "%e 2i2 no een kno5 5%ereCi! ' 51"4 %e 3ir" "%e %12 %e1r2 o3 i 51" on %e ne5" 1 /i/e 5%i/e

1go4 1n2 rig% no5 "%e 2i2 no c1re.

()kay,"%e "eeme2 "ome5%1 n"re 1" %er 31%er 1n2 mo%er

2r1gge2 %e -1g" ino %e kic%en 1n2 "%e 1i/e2 -e%in2 %em.

e 2ro$$e2 %e -1g" 1n2 rne2. e noice2 %er /1ck o3

en%"i1"m4 %er 31ce %12 2ro$$e2.

MI %og% !o 5o/2 -e %1$$!P %e 1"ke2.MRe1//!P %er mo%er 1"ke2 "1rc1"ic1//!4 cro""ing %er 1rm" in

3r"r1ion.


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MB I %og% I 51" going o Bi2[ o 3r%er m! m"ic

c1reerP "%e 1"ke24 2i"1$$oine2.'*id+ 51" 1 common nickn1me 3or

'*i%ng -+u/, or in iX" Eng/i"% 3orm 1" 9eking Unier"i!.

MI " 51n or 21g%er o conine %er m"icP %er mo%er

7erie2. T%e 51! "%e "$oke i 1/mo" "eeme2 1" %og% %i"

2i"c""ion neer %1$$ene24 ei%er %1 or %e! 5ere im1gining i.

MS%e c1n 2o 1// %1 in Ci! '4 %ere 1re m1n! Unier"iie" %ere.

T%ere i" een one %1 i" "$eci3ic1//! 3or A3ric1n 1n2 A"i1n $eo$/eP

>? Wng "1i2 en%"i1"ic1//!.

MYo me1n Sc%oo/ o3 Orien1/ A3ric1n S2ie"4 i i" no c1//e2

Sc%oo/ o3 Orien1/ A3ric1n S2en"4P %er mo%er correce2 %im.MOk1!4 I mig% %1e m12e 1 mi"1ke 5i% %e r1n"/1ionP

@io 1n2 %er mo%er c%ck/e2 1 %er 31%er#" e6$en"e - %e 2i2

no "eem %e em-1rr1""e2 !$e.

MS%e %1" m1n! 1/en" 1n2 %e! "%o/2 no go o 51"e4 I P

M "%e c1n 3in2 "ome more4P %e in"i"e24 "--orn/!.

MI "$$o"e %1#" 1 !$ic1/ 1n"5er 3rom "omeone 5%o -1re/!

"$en2" 1n! ime 5i% %i" on/! 21g%erKP@io 2i2 no 51n o 1gree 5i% %er mo%er4 - "%e 51" rig%.

er 31%er -1re/! g1e %er 1n! ime4 %e 3ir" ime in m1n! mon%"

%1 %e %12 3orgone %i" 5ork o "$en2 ime 5i% %i" 21g%er 1n2

%ere %e 51" "en2ing %er ino %e 5i/2erne"" in 1 $/1ce %1 51"

com$/ee/! 1/ien o %er4 %e 51" "%o5ing /i/e in %e 51! o3

com$1""ion o %er 3ee/ing".

e co/2 %1e re"$on2e2 e71//! cing - 2ee$ 2o5n in"i2e

%e kne5 %1 %i" 5i3e 51" rig%. @io /ooke2 1 %i" e!e" %ere 51""ome%ing 1-o %em %1 51" %o/2ing -1ck "ome in3orm1ion.

MI "ee no re1"on 5%! "%e c1nno 2o -o%.P

MNo 2o- "%e 5i// $ro-1-/! en2 $ 5orking 3or !or

com$1n!4P @io#" mo%er "1i2.

T%e! -o% 51ne2 %e -e" 3or %er 1n2 %e! 5ere -o% rig%. S%e

"i// 3e/ %er 31%er 2e"ere2 o %1e %i" "1! -ec1"e %e %12 1 "7in

in %i" e!e %1 "1i2 1 /o more %1n %e 5or2" coming o o3 %i"mo%.

>? @io g1%ere2 %er"e/3 1n2 %og% %ing" %rog% r1ion1//!.


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On %e one "i2e %er 31%er "eeme2 keen in $"%ing %er o o3 %e

2oor - %e 51ne2 o gie %er 3ree2om 1n2 %er mo%er 51ne2 %er o

"1! %ere 5%ere "%e co/2 conine o eno! %er "im$/e /i3e. S%e 51"

"ck in %e mi22/e.

MT%1nk !o 3or !or %og%"4 I re"$ec !or $oin" o3 ie54 -

I %1e m12e $ m! min24 I 5i// "1! %ere4P @io m1in1ine2.

er mo%er 51" $ro2 o3 %er 21g%er 3or "1n2ing $ 3or

%er"e/3.

er 31%er "ig%e24 /o"ing %i" $1ience - %e %e 51" rnning o

o3 o$ion". e 51" r!ing o 5ork o in %i" %e12 %e -e" 51! o e//

%em4 - %e "oon re1/i"e2 %ere 51" no best way4 %ere 51" on/! one51! 1n2 %e! 5o/2 no /ike i.

MT%e re1"on I nee2 !o o go4 i" -ec1"e I nee2 !o o i"i

"omeone %ere. I i" er! im$or1n %1 !o 2o %i" 3or me.P

M>%oP "%e 1"ke2.

e 21re2 no "1!.

M>%oP %er mo%er rein3orce2.

MYor gr1n231%er4P %e re$/ie2 1n2 %en "51//o5e2 %1r2.MIXm "orr!4 5%oP %er mo%er g1"$e2.

@io#" 15 2ro$$e2 1n2 %er e!e" -eg1n o "5e//. S%e 51" "o

con3"e2. #ow was he still alive? &hy had her father kept this

information secret for so long? #e had been dead for the past seven

years 0 or so they thought?

ME6$/1inP @io 1"ke24 r!ing o 3ig% %er emoion".

Me neer 2ie24P Wng "1i24 M5e "en %im o Ci! ' o $roec

%im 1n2 o $roec 1// o3 ".PI 51" 1 %i" $oin %1 %er mo%er "1 2o5n on %e c%1ir 1 %e

kic%en 1-/e 1n2 "/ke24 r!ing o m1ke "en"e o3 eer!%ing. er

e!e" o$er1e2 on %eir o5n 1ccor2.

MD1r/ing4 I 5ork 3or %e Goernmen4 "ome %ing" 1re in %e

-e" inere"" o3 %e $eo$/e 1n2 I %1e o 1c. I i" 1 og% ro/e 1n2

m1n! in m! $o"iion %1e /o" 31mi/ie" 1" 1 2irec re"/ o3

con"e7ence". B I 1m no $re$1re2 o /o"e !o or !or mo%er. I"%o/2n# een -e e//ing !o %i"4 I 1m ri"king m! o-4 - I c1n# go


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on kee$ing "ecre" 3rom !o. I 2i2 5%1 I 51" o/2 o 2o 1n2 no5 I

1m 1"king !o o 2o "ome%ing 3or me.P

MB4 I 2on# n2er"1n2. >e 5en o %i" 3ner1/P %er mo%er

-e//o5e2.

Wng "/m$e2 2o5n on %e c%1ir 1 %e kic%en 1-/e4 "iing

2i1gon1//! 1cro"" 3rom %i" 5i3e 1n2 c/1"$e2 %i" %e12 5i% "%1me. e

/ooke2 $ o @io 5%o $//e2 o 1 c%1ir 1n2 "1 o$$o"ie %im 1n2

ne6 o %er mo%er.

Mo5 c1n !o 2o %i" o "?P %er mo%er 1"ke2 2r!ing %er e!e".

MI kno54 I#m "orr! o 2o %i" o !o -o%. Yo %1e o 1$$reci1e

%1 I 2o no 51n %i" 3or !or 3re4 - 1 %e "1me ime I %1e o$roec !o. I i" 1 3ine /ine. A// I 1"k i" %1 !o -o% r" me.P

@io 51" "o con3"e2 %1 "%e -r" in o e1r"4 %er 31%er go $

1n2 51/ke2 oer o %er 1n2 kne/ -! %er "i2e4 %e gr1--e2 %er %1n2

1n2 "%e $//e2 i 151! 1-r$/!. S%e rne2 151! 3rom %im.

MSo !o 1"k %er i3 "%e 51n" o go 1n2 !o 1re m1king %er go

1n!51!. >%1 51" %e $oin in %i" 2i"c""ion o%er %1n o "1i"3!

!or egoP %er mo%er 1"ke2.M9/e1"e 3orgie me4 I 5o/2n# -e 1"king %i" o3 !o i3 i 51"n#

im$or1n4P %e "o--e24 e6en2ing %i" %1n2 1g1in. MI 2on# een kno5

i3 I n2er"1n2 i or -e/iee i m!"e/3. Yor r1in 5i// /e1e on %e

J/! ') 1 '00 %or". I 1m going on 1 -"ine"" ri$ 3or 1 co$/e o3

21!"4 - I 5i// rern on S1r21! morning.P

MI3 I 1m going4 I 1 /e1" 51n "omeone o go 5i% me4P >?

@io 2em1n2e2.

I 51" 1 31ir -1rg1ining c%i$4 "%e 51" going o com$/ee/!"r1nge $/1ce4 1n2 "re/! i 51" in %er 31%er#" inere" 3or %er o %1e

"omeone 1ccom$1n! %er 3or $roecion

MVer! 5e//4 I c1nX $romi"e 1n!%ing4 - I 5i// r! 05%oP %e

1"ke2 1" %e "1 -1ck 2o5n o$$o"ie %er.

>? @io co/2 no %ink o3 1n! 3rien2 5%om "%e 5o/2 51n o

1ccom$1n! %ere. Ac1//! "%e co/2 no %ink o3 1n!. Be"i2e"4 "%e

%12 more enemie" %1n 3rien2". 1i2 3h4ng?T%1 5o/2 %1e -een 1ninere"ing c%oice4 "%e %og% o %er"e/3. >%o e/"e co/2 "%e 1"k4

5%o 5o/2 -e more -o%ere2 1-o Ci! ' %1n "%e 51" T%ere 51" 1


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-/1nk. B %ere 51" one $o""i-i/i! %1 "$r1ng o min2. Surely not4

"%e 2i"mi""e2 i.

Mo5 1-o >i YngP %er mo%er o33ere2 1 $er3ec/! goo2

"gge"ion4 "i// 1nno!e2 5i% %er %"-1n2.

M>%1P >? Wng 1"ke2 %i" 31ce rne2 o one o3 %orror 1n2

%en %e /e o 1 nero" gigg/e.

M>e//4 %e i" "c% 1 nice -o! 1n2 %i" mo%er 1n2 31%er 1re re1//!

/oe/!. T%e! 1re goo2 3rien2" o3 or".P

MYe" %e! 1re4 - I 2on# %ink %1 i" "c% 1 goo2 i2e14P >?

Wng "%rgge24 r!ing o 2i"mi"" %e coner"1ion 1" 1 %og51"%.

M>%! noP %i" 21g%er 1"ke2.er 31%er 3e/ 1" i3 %e 5ere cornere2 ino %e room 1" -o% %e

3em1/e" 5ere g1nging $ on %im4 %e /ooke2 -1ck51r2" 1n2 3or51r2"

-e5een %em4 5on2ering i3 %e! 5ere com$/ee/! "1ne or %e! %12

/o" %eir m1r-/e". 5eah, send a computer nerd to 6ity 7, what a

brilliant idea? Surely if the 8overnment found out he would get into

trouble.

MI 2on# kno5 i3 I c1n "5ing i.PM>%!P %er mo%er 1"ke2.

M>e 1re on re2 1/er4 i 5o/2 -e oo ""$icio". e 5o/2 -e

3/1gge2 -e3ore 1n!one e/"e.P

Mo/2 on4 !o 1re no /eing %im go -ec1"e %e i" 1 com$er

geni". >%1 1re !o "o 13r1i2 o3 Some ki2 i" going o -ring 2o5n

%e enire GoernmenP %er mo%er 1"ke2 "1rc1"ic1//!.

MT%e r/e "1e" %1 on/! %e mo" r"e2 $eo$/e 1re 1//o5e2 in

o Ci! '4P %er 31%er 2e3en2e24 M%i" i" no "ome%ing o "nie/ 1. Ii" 1 $rii/ege 1n2 i i" no o -e 1ken 121n1ge o3.P

MT%1 i" ri2ic/o". Yo kno5 %i" $1ren" >e mee %em

3re7en/! 3or 2inner. e %1" 1 goo2 -1ckgron24 %e i" 5e// e2c1e2

1n2 %i" 31mi/! 1re er! 5e1/%!4 %ere i" no-o2! e/"e 1n2 I %ink %e i"

more r"5or%! %1n 1n!one0%e c1n /ook 13er %er 1n2 kee$ %er

"13e.P

@io 51" n151re %1 %e on/! 51! o ener Ci! ' 51" o ge1n ini1ion 3rom %e Goernmen. T%en 1g1in !o %12 o -e

incre2i-/! im$or1n o -e green*/i ino Ci! ' 1n!51!. >? @io


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"%o/2 %1e -een $rii/ege24 %i" 51" no "ome%ing o $1"" $ 1n2

ignore.

MI3 !o 5i// e6c"e me4 I nee2 o /ie 2o5n 3or 1 -i4P @io "1i2

1n2 "%e "/i2 o on %er c%1ir4 "oo2 $ 1n2 /e3 %e kic%en o %e12

$"1ir" o %er -e2room. A" "%e 51n2ere2 $"1ir" "%e co/2 %e1r

%eir 1rging conine.

MI kno5 !or $ro-/em >? Wng4 !o "ee oo mc% o3 !or"e/3

in >i Yng 1n2 !o 1re %re1ene2 -! %im 0i i" 1// 1-o !o.P

>? Wng r1i"e2 %i" 3inger 1n2 con3irme2 5i% 1%ori!4 M%i"

o33er come" 3rom %e o$4 I %1e on/! -een 1-/e o "ecre one icke4

"ecring 1no%er 5i// -e ne6 o im$o""i-/e. I co/2 /o"e m! o-.PMI kno5 "%e i" !or on/! 21g%er - !o c1nno conro/ %er

/ike %i". Yo 51n o gie %er 3ree2om T%en gie %er 1// o3 %e

3ree2om in %e 5or/2. 9/e1"e 2o no re"ric %er /ike %i".P

MI0P

MI#" 7ie "im$/e4 m! 21g%er i" no going o Ci! ' 1/one. T%1

-o! i" going 5i% %er or e/"e !o 5i// %1e me o conen2 5i%4P %er

mo%er "%oe2 1n2 remoe2 %er"e/3 3rom %e 1-/e.>? @io %12 %e1r2 enog%4 "%e 51ne2 o c/e1r %er min2 o3 %e

2i"c""ion "%e " %12 5i% %er 31%er 1n2 mo%er4 "o "%e go $ 1n2

"1 on %e -e2 1n2 -eg1n o re12 one o3 %er -ook". In %er ie54

no%ing co/2 -e more $e1ce3/ o 1ke %er min2 151! 3rom %e

%1r"%ne"" o3 re1/i!.

T%ere 51" no 7e"ion4 "%e 51" 1n incre2i-/! "en"iie $er"on4

"%e 2i2 no 1ke oo kin2/! o -eing $"%e2 1ron2 1n2 r"%e2 o o3

%e 2oor. S%e 51" $1ien4 co//ece24 1n2 /oe2 %er "im$/e %1$$! /i3e.No5 "%e 51" 1-o o -e %ro5n ino %e nkno5n.

T%e /1" %ing "%e nee2e2 51" 1 c%1nge o3 /i3e"!/e. Di2 "%e

re1//! %1e o 121$ o 1 ne5 $/1ce o5 5o/2 "%e co$e A3er 'H

!e1r" "%e %12 -ecome "e2 o %er 51! o3 2oing %ing"4 no5 "%e 51"

"%ere2 o33 o 1 ne5 ci! 1n2 %12 o /e1rn eer!%ing 1// oer 1g1in.


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0& "'i Y(ng78T%r"21!4 J/! 'i Yng 3on2 %e energ! o 2r1g %im"e/3 o o3 -e2 1 '01m. e

51" 3ee/ing 7ie /1!4 5%ic% 51" "r1nge -ec1"e %e 51" kno5n o

-e 1n e1r/! -ir2. e cer1in/! 2i2 no /ike 51"ing 1 21!.The hours

were precious.

e %re5 on "ome c/o%e" %1 5ere 2m$e2 oer %e -1ck o3%i" com$er c%1ir 1n2 51n2ere2 2o5n "1ir"4 1n2 ino %e kic%en.

e 3on2 "ome /e3 oer egg 3rie2 rice 1n2 %e1e2 i $ in %e

micro51e. i" mo%er %12 $re$1re2 "ome e14 "o %e $ore2 o 1

c$ 3or %im"e/34 gr1--e2 %e %e1e2 -o5/4 c%o$"ick" 1n2 51n2ere2

-1ck $"1ir"4 "i$$ing %i" e1 on %e 51!. e rerne2 o %i"

com$er 2e"k.

Yng#" com$er "e*$ 51" 1 /o more e/1-or1e %1n %eeer!21! "er4 i /ooke2 more /ike 1 comm1n2 cenre $//e2 3rom 1

"$1ce"%i$ %1n com$1re2 o norm1/ 2e"ko$. i" 2e"k 51" 1rr1nge2

/ike 1 "emi*circ/e 1ron2 %im4 r1%er %1n %e o/2 conenion1/

"71re2 2e"k 5i% 1 $// o 2r15er 3or %e ke!-o1r2 1n2 mo"e.

A/ong %e -1ck o3 %i" "emi*circ/1r 2e"k 51" 1 /ong $o/e 1n2

on o$ o3 i %ere 5ere 1 /e1" eig% /i/e o-ec"4 "$1ce2 een/! 3rom

one "i2e o %e o%er. i" ke!-o1r2 1n2 mo"e 5ere "/ig%/! 2i33eren

1" 5e//. T%e ke!-o1r2 51" no enire/! i"i-/e - 51" -i/ in o %e

me1/ 2e"k 1n2 m" %1e %12 1 /e1" +00 -on"4 i3 no more.

T%e mo"e 51" e6reme/! /1rge 5i% "eer1/ oc%*"en"iie

-on"4 5%ic% 51" re"ing on 1n incre2i-/! /1rge 1re1 o3 %e 2e"k4

5%ic% "ere2 1" r1ck*$124 %1 one norm1//! 3on2 on r12iion1/

/1$o$". T%e r1ck*$12 1n2 mo"e 5orke2 "c% %1 i3 %e moe2 %e

mo"e o33 o one "i2e4 %e co/2 "e %e r1ck*$12 o m1ke ge"re"

1n2 iner1c 5i% %e "!"em.e %12 no " one com$er c%1""i" - 5o4 1 -o% "i2e"

n2erne1% %i" 2e"k. i" 31%er 1/51!" rie2 %i" -e" o 5in2 $ >i


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i" 2e"ko$ 1$$e1re2 in 3ron o3 %im 1n2 1rio" 5in2o5"

$o$$e2 $4 $re"m1-/! -ec1"e %e "!"em remem-ere2 5%1 %e 51"

"ing 5%en %e /1" "% 2o5n %e "!"em.

e nee2e2 "ome%ing o $ %i" min2 o33 %ing". e 1/51!"

3on2 %e -e" 2i"r1cion 51" com$er $rogr1mming -ec1"e i go

%i" -r1in %inking. B on %i" $1ric/1r occ1"ion %e 3on2 i er!

2i33ic/ o !$e.

I 51" "r1nge4 %e neer enconere2 %i" -e3ore. 1!-e %e %12

5%1 %e re3erre2 o 1" programmer$s block. Like 1 writer>s block

5%en 1n 1%or i" "ck 5i% 5%1 o 5rie ne6. e %12 1/re12!

cre1e2 1 i2eo g1me 1n2 no5 %e 51" 3re"% o o3 i2e1".>%i/" %e 51" eno!ing %i" -re1k31" 1 $o$*$ 5in2o5 c1me $

3rom %e -oom o3 %e "creen4 %e oc%e2 %e 1re1 o3 %e "creen 1n2

i e6$1n2e2 o 3orm 1 mc% /1rger 5in2o5 1n2 1 /1rge neon -/e 13ro

3i//e2 %e "creen4 %en %e %1ir moe2 $51r2" ni/ een1//! 1

-o!#" 31ce 3in1//! 1$$e1re2 1n2 Yng m$e2 1 %e 3rig% o3 %e

-o!#" 31ce.

MRe/16 m1n4 i#" meKP 1n Eng/i"% -o! "1i24 %i" 1ccen "on2e2er! coo/ 1n2street.

Me!4 !o "c1re2 me4P >i Yng "1i24 e1ing %i" rice.

MSorr!4P %e -o! "ig%e24 M"o 1n!51!4 %o5#" rick"P

MYe1%4 ok1!. I#m " %inking.P

MO% 2e1r4 5%1 1-o %i" imeP %e -o! 1"ke24 "1rc1"ic1//!4

%e! 5ere goo2 3rien2".

Me!4 i3 !o m" kno54 i i" 1 %ing o3 -e1!4P Yng in"i"e2.

MYe1% I kno54 i i" rig% n2er !or 2e"kKPMNo4 I me1n 1n 1c1/ thing of beauty 0P

(h, you mean the other kind of technology, %e -o! "1i24

c/1$$ing %i" %1n2" technology51" c/e1r/! %eir co2e 5or24 M"o4 or

>i Yng %1" 3in1//! 3on2 %im"e/3 "ome%ing tangible4 "ome%ing

real?P

M1!-e0P Yng 12mie24 coming oer "/ig%/! %o n2er %e

co//1r4 %e 51" -ier/! regreing %1ing o$ene2 %i" mo%.Yng o/2 %i" 3rien2 1-o %e o%er nig%4 %o5 >? @io

$er3orme2 on "1ge in %e Tem$/e o3 e1en4 "inging 1 er! $oign1n


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"ong4 c1//e2 S^ng Bia4 %e Song o3 ;1re5e//. e 2e"cri-e2 %er

-e1i3/ 2re""4 %e m"ic4 %e in"rmen" %1 %e! $/1!e2 1n2 %e

1/"o menione2 i? %Fng 51" $re"en.

MO%4 !e" %1 n1me ring" 1 -e//.P

ME61c/!.P

e 51" r!ing 2e"$er1e/! %1r2 o m1ke 1 $oin o3 >? @io#"

5on2er3/ "1ge $re"ence 1n2 %eir c%1 %1 %e! "%1re2 13er %e

"%o5. e %og% %1 %e! 5ere geing o33 o 1 goo2 "1r4 %e 51"

incre2i-/! nero"4 r!ing o $ on 1 -r1e 31ce 1n2 %e %o$e2 %e 2i2

no m1ke 1 mi"1ke4 %e! 5ere oking 1n2 "eeme2 o "%1re 1 g/1nce.

MDo !o re1//! /ike %i" gir/P %i" 3rien2 1"ke24 r!ing o -e %e$"!c%o/ogi".

M>e//4 5e#e -een 3rien2" 3or 1 "%or 5%i/e.P

MSo4 1"k %er o# %i" 3rien2 12i"e2.

MI "0I c1n#0P %e %e"i1e2.

&%1 1-o %imP Lig%ning 1"ke2.

Me 2oe"n# 1$$roe o3 me. e "1!" I 1m 1 geek 1n2 "r1nge 0

1n2 5e//4 -1"ic1//! %e "1i2 "%e 2e"ere" -eer /ike 1 $o/iici1n or

-1nkerKP

M>e// %1#" "$i24 o3 cor"e !o 1re 1 geek4 o3 cor"e !o 1re

"r1nge0"o 1m I05e/come o %e c/-. Ok1!4 o 7oe one o3 m!

1//*ime /egen21r! 31orie 1cor#": being a geek is all about beinghonest about what you en%oy and not being afraid to demonstrate

that affection. 9t means never having to play it cool about how much


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you like something. 9t$s basically a license to proudly emote on a

somewhat childish level rather than behave like a supposed adult.

'eing a geek is etremely liberating!P

Ok1!4 %1 m1ke" me 1 -i 3ee/ -eer4P Yng "1i2.

MLook4 -22!4 i#" no 1-o %im4 i#" 1-o !o 1n2 %er4P

Lig%ning e6$/1ine24 M"o m! 12ice o !o i" o ge ri2 o3 %e 212.P

MYo 51n me o !o 51n me o kill0 %e 212P Yng

1"ke24 1king %i" 3rien2#" 12ice "ome5%1 /ier1//!.

MNo4 I me1n4 moe %e 212 1"i2e4 3in2 1 51! 1ron2 %im4 or !o

co/2 " -e 1 "ck*$ 1n2 $roe o %im %1 !o 1re 1m1ing.P

M>i// %1 5orkPMo5 %e %eck 2o I kno5 >e//4 i3 %e 2oe"n# /ike !o4 %1

$ro-1-/! 5on# c%1nge4 !o mig% 51n o "ick 5i% %e 3ir"

o$ion.P

Mi//P

M>%1 i" 5rong 5i% !o Yo %1e "ome o-"e""ion 5i%

ki//ing %im O% !e1% /ike ki//ing %im i" 1n in"1n $// 3or gir/"4

%e! /oe %1 kin2 o3 %ing4P Lig%ning ro1re2 5i% /1g%er.MAre !o -eing "1rc1"icP

MD2e4 ge 5i% %e $rogr1m.P

MOk1!4P %e 51" re1//! con3"e2 no5.

Lig%ning 51" rig%4 i3 "%e re1//! /ike2 %im %en i 5o/2 no

m1er 5%1 %er 31%er %og%. An!51!4 %e /1" %e %e1r2 %er 31%er

5orke2 in 1 "cience /1- %im"e/3. So m1!-e %er 31%er#" commen"

5ere "/ig%/! %!$ocriic1/.

Lig%ning 2i"1$$e1re2 3or 1 5%i/e 1n2 >i Yng 5on2ere25%ere %e %12 gone. T%ere 51" 1 2i"c""ion in %e -1ckgron2 o3 %i"

5e-c1m. e 51" $ro-1-/! 1/king o %i" 31%er.

Lig%ning re1$$e1re24 Mok1! m! 212 i" %ere. I#// ge -1ck o !o

/1er.P

MSee !1 /1er -22!4P >i Yng "mi/e2 1" %i" 3rien2 2i"1$$e1re2

3rom %e com$er "creen. Yng conine2 %i" 3oo2 1n2 "$en %e

re" o3 %e eening 5orking on %i" com$er $rogr1mming -n1r1//! %e %12 one %ing on %i" min2.


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0) *i# +,-ng9:;ri21!4 J/! '


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oer%e1r %eir -ickering4 when was it ever going to end? S%e %og%

o %er"e/3.

er mo%er 51" com$/1ining 1-o %o5 /1e %e 5orke2 /1"

nig%4 %o5 "%e %12 cooke2 2inner 3or %im 1n2 %e 51" no %ome 1n2

"%e %12 c%cke2 i 151! 5%en "%e 2i"coere2 %e %12 or2ere2 1 1ke*

151!.

MI %1e o 5ork oerimeKP

MDo !o no %ink i 5o/2 -e 1 goo2 i2e1 o $riorii"e !or

31mi/!4 oer !or 5orkP "%e 1"ke2 %im.

MI %ink !o 3orge4 I 1m %e -re125inner in %i" 31mi/!4 I %1e 1

re"$on"i-i/i! m1!-e 1" !o 1re 1 %ome4 !o "%o/2 "$en2 moreime 5i% or 21g%erP

S%e 51/ke2 151! 1n2 -1ck o %e $orc%. T%eir oice" ro"e mc%

/o2er 1n2 "%e co/2 %e1r %em 1" "%e 51/ke2 $ %e "1ir".

MI gie con"rcie criici"m4 - I#m no %e one 5%o re1" %er

/ike 1 2o// 5i% 31/"e $romi"e".P

M9er"on1//!4 I 5o/2 r1%er gie %er %o$e4 i gie" %er "ome%ing

o 1im 3or in /i3e.PMUn3orn1e/! %o$e i" "e/e"" 5%en "%e 31i/" 1 eer!%ing

1n!51!KP

T%e 1rgmen conine2. i? %Fng " /1g%e2 1n2 "/1mme2

%e 2oor o %er -e2room. A -rie3 5%i/e /1er "%e co/2 %e1r $1ering4

%er 31%er 51" $ro-1-/! rnning $ %e "1ir"4 he always did that to

make sure she was okay!

e o$ene2 %e 2oor 1n2 51n2ere2 ino %e -e2room.

MI 2on# 3ee/ /ike 1/king 1 %e momen4P i? %Fng mere21n2 $oining o %er -e2room 2oor4 or2ering %im o o3 %er room.

MI#m "orr! i? %Fng4P %e "1i2.

MC1n !o no "ee 5%1 %i" i" 2oing o meP

MI "1i2 I 1m "orr!.P

MI 0 I nee2 o %1e 1 -1%4P "%e "1i24 -! %i" $oin "%e %12

-ecome incre1"ing/! 3r"r1e2 1n2 emoion1/.

i? %Fng "1re2 o n2re"" 1" %er 31%er "1 %ere "1ring 1 %e3/oor.

e 2i2 no kno5 5%1 o "1!4 %e 51" "i// con3"e2.


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Someime"4 i? %Fng %og% "%e %12 -een 12o$e24 "%e %1e2

o %ink %1 51! - %o5 %er $1ren" %12 m1n1ge2 o "1! oge%er

3or %i" 1mon o3 ime 51" no%ing "%or o3 1 mir1c/e.

O3 cor"e4 %e n1r1/ %og% $roce"" 5o/2 /e12 1 c%i/2 ino

-e/ieing %1 %e! %12 come in o %e 5or/2 1n2 rine2 i 3or %em.

>ere %e! "im$/! going o $reen2 %e! 5ere %1$$! oge%er o5

/ong co/2 %i" c%1r12e /1" 3or S%e %o$e2 i 5o/2 /1" no /onger.

i? %Fng /ooke2 $ 1" %er 31%er /ooke2 2o5n 1 %er4 M31%erP

MB0P %er 31%er moe2 151! 3rom %e 2oor 1n2 51/ke2 oer

o %er. A" i3 5%1 "%e %12 "1i2 51" "ome%o5 rging %im o $roe %er

5rong4 Mi? %Fng4 $/e1"e I 1m0PT%i" 51" %e 3ir" ime "%e %12 "een %er 31%er /ooking "o 3r1i/

1n2 5eek "%e kne5 %1 %e 51" mc% og%er %1n %i". i"

1$o/ogie" 5ere -ecoming more 3re7en 1n2 more 2e"$er1e. T%e /1"

%ing "%e 51ne2 51" 1 "ck*$ 3or 1 31%er. S%e 51ne2 %er o/2

31%er -1ck.

MI 51n o 1ke 1 -1%4P i? %Fng in"i"e2.

MOk1!4P er 31%er no22e2 1n2 rne2 o %e 2oor %e rne2-1ck o %i" 21g%er 1n2 "%e g1e2 1 %im. e no22e2 1n2 /e3 %e

room4 c/o"ing %e 2oor -e%in2 %im.

S%e go $ 1n2 5r1$$e2 1 o5e/ 1ron2 %er 1n2 $1ce2 ino %e

-1%room4 /ocking %e 2oor -e%in2 %er. S%e r1n %e 51er o %e -1%

13er %e 51er re1c%e2 %1/3 51! "%e $ore2 "ome /1en2er ---/e

-1% in %e 51er 1n2 "$/1"%e2 i 1ron2.

ee$ing %e o5e/ 5r1$$e2 3irm/! 1ron2 %er 1n2 cke2 in "o

i 5o/2 no 31// 2o5n. S%e ook o33 %er n2er5e1r 1n2 o$4 2ro$$e2%e o5e/ on %e m1 1n2 e"e2 %e em$er1re o3 %e 51er 5i% %er

/e3 3oo -e3ore geing in.

I 51" /oe/! 1n2 51rm 1n2 "%e "1 %ere 5i% %er e!e" c/o"e24

in%1/ing %e /oe/! "me// o3 /1en2er ---/e -1%. I 51" no on/! %er

51! o3 5in2ing 2o5n 13er 1 "re""3/ 21!4 - 1/"o 1 me1n" o3

2i"$e//ing 1// %er %og%" 1n2 neg1ie energ!.

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oer5ork "ome%ing -e5een %er $1ren" %1 "%e 51" no $ri! o


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MI#" 1 -e1i3/ ci!4P %e "o3 oice conine2.


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com$1n!. Gre1KP


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51" %e 51" 1/51!" ninenion1//! $ing %im"e/3 in 15k51r2


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MI 2on# 51n 1n 1rr1nge2 m1rri1geKP Yng inerece2.

Mo5 o/2 i" %i" gir/P %i" mo%er 7erie2.

MYo 1re 1c1//! con"i2ering %i"P Yng 1"ke2 or1ge2.

:ike it was even an option?e co/2 no -e/iee %i" mo%er 51"

een conem$/1ing i. T%1 51" i. e 51" going o re3"e. T%i"

c1//e2 3or 1 -1"ke-1//Atime)out$!e 51e2 %i" %1n2" 1ron2 in %e

1ir 3r1nic1//!.

M>e//4 "%e i" 1ron2 1-o %i" 1ge4P %i" 31%er4 51ere2 %i"

%1n24 %en $1"e24 M5e// in 1 co$/e o3 !e1r"# ime P

MSo "%e i" '=P >i Yng 51" 1-"o/e/! 1g%1"4 M1re !o

cr1!K One %n2re2 $ercen NOKPM>e//4 IXm "re >i Yng 1$$reci1e" %1 !or %e1r i" in %e

rig% $/1ce 21r/ing4P %i" mo%er "1i24 r!ing o -e 1" 2i$/om1ic 1"

$o""i-/e4 M- i "eem" !o 1re mi""ing %e $oin.P

S%e rne2 o %er "on 1n2 5inke2 1" i3 o "1! your secret is safe

with me! >%i/" Yng 51" 2e"$er1e/! r!ing o $roe" %i"

innocence.i" 31%er#" 5or2" 5ere ec%oing in"i2e %i" %e12.(kay,

%ust be honest with yourself 0 you fancy this girl, yeah you want toprotect her, but come on 0 you fancy her? Stop trying to kid

yourself!

MGoing -1ck o %er 31%er4 m! %og%" e// me4 !o 5ere

$ro-1-/! e6c/2e2 -ec1"e o3 !or 121nce2 /ee/ o3 com$ing

kno5/e2ge. Yo 1re o-io"/! 1 /i1-i/i! 1n2 %e Goernmen 1ke

%i" er! "erio"/!. T%ere %1" o -e 1 c/e1n r1ck recor2 in or2er o

1cce"" Ci! '4 1n2 n3orn1e/! !or" i" "1ine2KP

Stained 0 like a coffee stain or tea stain?e %og%. >%1 2i2%1 me1n Eer 2e3e1i"4 Yng %33e2 1n2 "orme2 o o3 %e

kic%en4 rnning $"1ir" o %i" -e2room. e "/1mme2 %e 2oor 1n2

"/m$e2 on %i" com$er c%1ir. i" mo%er 1n2 31%er conine2 %eir

2e-1e in %e kic%en.

MT%1 2i2 no %e/$4P %i" mo%er "1i2.

M>e//4 iXm "orr!4P %i" 31%er 2e3en2e24 M%e %1" o /e1rn o 1ke

%e r% 1 "ome $oin in %i" /i3e. Beer -e 3rom %i" 31%er.PMI kno5 %1 5e -o% %1e 3e/ er! "rong/! 3or 1 5%i/e %1

%ere i" more o %im %1n Ci! = c1n or i" 5i//ing o $roi2e 1n2 I


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%ink or "on "ecre/! kno5X" %i" oo. I3 !o 1"k me4 %er 31%er 3ee/"

%re1ene2 -! %im. >? Wng m1! -e og% on %e o"i2e - %e %1"

1 "o3 cenre i3 !o c1n -re1k i4P %i" mo%er e6$/1ine2.

MI " %ink 5e "%o/2 " -e re1/i"ic4P %i" 31%er $roe"e24

M%e c%1nce" o3 %im geing in o Ci! ' 1re /ooking incre2i-/! "c1rce

1 %i" momen. An2 %e "ooner %e 1cce$" %14 %e -eer.P

Bec1"e nei%er one o3 %i" $1ren" %12 1n! ie" o %e

Goernmen %e! 5ere n1-/e o %e/$ %im4 %e! co/2 no 51e 1

m1gic 51n2 1n2 ge %im on %e r1in 5i% %er. T%e! 3e/ %e/$/e"" 1n2

%12 "$en mo" o3 %e 21! 1n2 eening 2i"c""ing 1rio" o$ion" 1"

5e//.i" 31%er 51" going o 1ke %e inii1ie o go o %eir %o"e

1n2 gie >? Wng 1 $iece o3 %i" o5n min24 - %i" mo%er m1n1ge2

o $er"12e %im o%er5i"e. T%e /1" ime %i" 31%er go ino/e2 in 1

con3ron1ion i go 1 -i me""!.

MNo4 !o mig% m1ke %ing" 5or"e. Le me 1/k o %er mo%er4

IXm "re i 5i// -e mc% e1"ier4P "%e "1i2.

MOk1!4P %i" 31%er no22e24 M- re1//!4 %i" nee2" o come 3rom%im. I i" 1c1//! $oin/e"" " geing ino/e2 -ec1"e i 5o/2

1$$e1r 2e"$er1e 1n2 %1 5i// no 5in %im oer. T%e on/! 51! 3or

or "on o ge ino Ci! ' i" o $roe o %er 31%er %1 %e i" 5or%! o

-e %ere 1n2 %e "ooner %e "1r" 2oing %14 %e -eer.P

>i Yng "$en %e re" o3 %e eening in nero" 1nici$1ion.

e %o$e2 %i" 3rien2 5o/2 come %rog%. e %o$e2 %e co/2 go o

Ci! '. O3 cor"e4 %e kne5 %e c%1nce" 5ere "/im4 - i 51" 5or% 1

"%o 1n2 no5 %e on/! "%o %e %12. e 2i2 no 51n o rem1in ooo$imi"ic4 - 1 /e1" %e co/2 no5 /i"en o m"ic 1n2 i %e/$ in

2i"r1cing %i" min2.


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T5o $eo$/e "1 on 121cen "o31" in 1 2im/! /i "iing room 5i% 1

-e1i3/ /og 3ire $roi2ing on/! 1m-ien /ig%4 enog% o "ee on/!

%eir c%e" 1n2 /eg". T%eir 31ce" 5ere o-"cre2 3rom ie5. T%e

3ire$/1ce cr1ck/e2 1n2 %e "on2" o3 c1" meo5ing o"i2e. I 51"

er! e1r/! morning.MI c1me %ere n2er !or imme2i1e in"rcion4 31%er4P %e m1n

"$oke.

MI" "%e comingP %e o/2er m1n 1"ke2 3rom %e "ing/e "o314 %e

5ore 1 5%ie ro-e.

MYe"4 "%e i" coming4 - i ook "ome conincing4P %e o%er

m1n 1n"5ere24 %e 51" "iing 121cen4 o$$o"ie %e /og 3ire4 on %e

/ong "o31 1n2 %e 51" in 1 -/1ck "i4 5%ie "%ir 1n2 !e//o5 ie.MI 5o/2 no %1e e6$ece2 o%er5i"e4 e"$eci1//! 5%en I 1m

"$$o"e2 o -e 2e12.P

MI nee2 o e// m! "$erior "ome%ing. I nee2 o kno5 5%1 i"

going on.P

T%e o/2 m1n "ig%e24 M3ir" %ing" 3ir"4 5%1 i" %e crren "1"

o3 %e >? Y`ng >\"% $roec.P

MGreen.P

MGoo24 eer!%ing i" on r1ck.PM! "$erior i" geing co/2 3ee4 %e 2oe" no r" %e $roec4

e"$eci1//! 13er W LW#" re"e1rc%.P

MDi2 !o noi3! %im o3 %e $ro$%ec!P

MI 2i2. e %ink" P %e !onger m1n "51//o5e24 M%e %ink" !o

1re irr1ion1/.P

MO3 cor"e4 1" 31r 1" %e >e"erner" 5o/2 "1!4 %e c1nno "ee %e

5oo2" 3or %e ree"4 - %e 5i// come 1ron24P %e $1"e2 3or 1"econ2 1n2 %en %i" e!e" 5i2ene24 Mi "eem" %i" %og%" 1re r--ing


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o33 on !o4 no5 !o 2o no r" !or o5n 31%er o5 c%1rming4P

%e 7ie24 co/2/!4 "ome%o5 1-/e o re12 %i" %og%".

T%e !onger m1n "ig%e2.

MSig%ing 1g1inP %e o/2er m1n 7erie24 "%1king %i" %e12 5i% 1

"en"e o3 2e"$on2ence4 MI 1"ke2 1 31or o3 !o /1" ime4 2i2 I noP

MYo 2i2.P

MAn2 %e er2icP

MT%e 1n"5er rem1in" %e "1me.P

MI "ee. >e// 1//o5 me o e2c1e !o. An2 5%i/e I 2o4 !o 5i//

"i %ere 1n2 /i"en o %i" 1" i3 !or /i3e 2e$en2" on i.P

T%e !onger m1n en"e2 %i" "%o/2er".Mere 5e go. Yo 1re 1 "/1e /ike %e re" o3 ". Ego i" %e

n3orn1e "i2e*e33ec o3 !or $o"iion. T%e "%ock: !o 1re no in

conro/. T%e on/! %ing in conro/ o3 %e $eo$/e i" /i3e i"e/3. N1re

5i// 1ke i" cor"e 1n2 %ere i" no%ing !o c1n 2o 1-o i.P

T%e o/2er m1n /ooke2 1 %e !onger m1n enomo"/! 1n2 5i%

%i" 1%ori1ie 1n2 comm1n2ing oice4 conine24 M/ike !or

"$erior4 !o 1re 13r1i2 o3 c%1nge. T%e nkno5n. Yo 1re 1 $ri"oner4!o 1re in 1 -o6 o3 5%1 "ocie! 51n !o o -e/iee4 r1%er %1n

"eeing i" re n1re. Yo 1re oo "c1re2 o /ook o o3 %e 5in2o5

1n2 2i"coer o 3in2 o %e re me1ning 3or !or"e/3.P

MA21$ing o %e enironmen i" %e -1"i" o3 %m1n /i3e %rog%

%e cor"e o3 or enire %i"or!. In or2er o 31ce re1/i! !o %1e o

/e go o3 %e -e/ie3 %1 eer!%ing i" %i" en"e4 "o/i2 m1er. I i" eer

c%1nging 1ri1-/e"4 no 1 con"1n 1n2 /ine1r 3ncion.P

MOr "ocie! i" 1 5e-4 1 ne5ork 5i% 1// %e 1gen" c%1nging%rog% coner"1ion"4 commnic1ion" 1n2 re/1ion"%i$". Yo

c1nno -e/iee %1 " -ec1"e !o 2o no 51n c%1nge %1 no-o2!

e/"e 2oe"4 %i" 5o/2 -e con"i2ere2 ignor1n. 9gnorance is the night

of the mind, but a night without moon and star.P

T%e "on /ooke2 $4 crio"4 -ec1"e %e kne5 %e recogni"e2 %e

7oe 3rom "ome5%ere.

MI3 "ocie! 2oe" no moe 3or51r2 %e! 5i// -e o-/iio" o %i"2!n1mic iner2e$en2ence 1n2 i" inerconnecion". T%e! 5i// no -e

1-/e o re3/ec on c%1nge" 1n2 %ere3ore 5i// no -e 1-/e o "ee %e


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ne5 c%1//enge" 1n2 o$$orniie" %1 1ri"e 3rom i. T%"4 %e "!"em

-ecome" i"o/1e2 3rom re1/i! 1n2 i 5i// /im1e/!4 31i/. T%i" 2e3ine"

%e o$$o"ie o3 1 51rrior i i" 7ie "im$/! 1 co51r2.P

MA co51r2P %e "on 51" 1ken*1-1ck -! %i" 31%er#"

"r1ig%3or51r2ne"" 1n2 %e 3e/ com$e//e2 o /e1e 1" %e 1em$e2 o

/i3 %i" -o2! o o3 %e "o314 - "ome%ing gron2e2 %im4 1" i3 %e

5ere $//e2 -1ck -! 1n incre2i-/! "rong m1gne.

MNoK Yo 5i// "i %ere 1n2 /i"en o me 3or %e 3ir" ime in !or

/i3e. N1ion1/ Socie! 2e$en2" on i.P

MVer! 5e//4P %e "on "/ke24 12miing 2e3e1 1n2 re/16e2.

T%e o/2 m1n conine24 M!o "ee4 1 51rrior i" 1/51!" 151re o3%i" con"1n c%1nge in %e enironmen 1n2 i" 1/"o con"1n/! 151re4

- %e -e/iee" in %m1ni!. e %1" o %1e %i" -e/ie3 o -e 1-/e o

121$ 5i% %e enironmen 1n2 5i% %e /oe o3 %i" %m1n r1ce4

in"e12 o3 -eing 5orrie2 o3 %e ri"k" 1n2 ncer1inie"4 %e 5i// %"

e1"i/! /e go o3 %i" ego c/inging o %e $1" 1n2 %i" %1-i1/ $1ern"

1n2 /ook ino %e 3re.P

MA 51rriorPMYe". T%i" 51rrior m" conem$/1e on %i" ne5 c%1//enge 1n2

3in2 1 re"/. So %e %1" o -e/iee in %m1niie" 1-i/i! o 121$ o

c%1nge. T%e 51rrior m" -e %ro5n ino %e gre1 nkno5n 1n2

3ig% 3or %e 5or%ine"" o3 %e %m1n r1ce. T%1 i" %i" re"$on"i-i/i!.P

M1e !o 7ie 3ini"%e2P

T%e o/2 m1n ignore2 %i" "on#" com$/1in 1n2 conine24

M-r1er!4 or cor1ge come" 3rom 51rm*%e1re2ne"" 1n2 %e -e/ie3

%1 -1"ic goo2ne"" e6i"" in eer!one4 3rom 5%ic% %e 51rrior2ee/o$" 5i//ingne"" o "%o5 %i" -e1i3/ 1n2 $er3ec 1"$ec o3

%m1ni!4 1n2 %i" %1" -een %e 2riing 3orce 1n2 3on21ion 3or

%m1n" o eo/e 1n2 m1ke $rogre"" %rog% %i"or! o3 "ocie!.P

MSo o$enne"" come" 3rom /eing go o3 ego 1n2 %e 1-i/i! o3

%i" /eing go come" 3rom 1 2ee$ n2er"1n2ing 1n2 con3i2ence in

%e -1"ic goo2ne"" 1n2 5or%ine"" o3 "e/3 1n2 1// -eing". T%i"

con3i2ence in "e/3 "e %e 3on21ion 3or /i-er1ion 1n2 %i"con3i2ence in o%er" m1ke" %e ne5ork o3 1rio" re/1ion"%i$" in


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"ocie!4 orien o51r2" co//ecie ire" 1n2 /i-er1ion4 %rog% /oe4

1n2 com$1""ion4 in 1// /ee/" o3 "oci1/ iner1cion".P

M;1%er P %e "on inerece2.

M9/e1"e 1//o5 me o 3ini"%: !o "ee4 1" !o %1e 1-n21n

con3i2ence in %1 -1"ic goo2ne""4 !o 2o no nee2 1n! 3orm 1n2

$/1nning o3 2e3ence 1n2 $roecion4 1" !o kno5 %1 !or o5n

n1re i" /im1e/! com$/ee 1n2 $er3ec. Remem-er $eo$/e on/!

2e3en2 1n2 11ck 5%en %e! 3ee/ in"ecre 1n2 n"re 1-o %eir

"reng%.P

M>%! c1nX !o "$1re me 1// o3 %i" 2i1ri-e4 1n2 " e// me

5%1 !o %1e "eenPT%e o/2er m1n gigg/e2. M!o 5ere neer 1n! goo2 1 /i"ening o

m! e1c%ing". Too im$1ien4 "--orn4 /1!. I rie2 o ge !o

ino/e2 1 "c%oo/ 1n2 !o 2i2 no c1re4 1// !o 51ne2 o 2o 51" "i

in 3ron o3 !or com$er. Yo 5ere "ck in !or -e2room /ike 1

%ermi.'ah, what is the use!I co/2 e// !o 5%1 I %1e "een4 -

%en 5o/2 !o een -e/iee meP

M>e//4 !o neer kno54 !o mig% 3in2 %1 "ome%ing 1c1//!"1!" $ %ere 3or once4P %e !onger m1n reore24 $oking %i" %e12.

T%e o/2er m1n %33e24 M 3ineK Some%ing i" coming.P

MC1n !o -e 1 /i/e -i more "$eci3ic I nee2 "ome%ing more

1ngi-/e %1n %14P %e "on "mirke2 "1rc1"ic1//!.

T%ere 51" 1 $1"e4 M3e1r no4 !o 5i// no -e 1-/e o oc% i4

- %1 i" no o "1! %1 i 5onX oc% !o. A m1or %re1 /inger" in

%e "%12o5".P

MTo 5%ic% Senien 1re 5e no5 re3erringPM>e 1re no 1/king 1-o 1 Senien. T%i"... i" 1 Roge4P 1" %e

"1i2ogue4 %e 3/1me in %e 3ire$/1ce e6ingi"%e2 -rie3/! 1n2 %en

5i% "rgg/e i 3in1//! re*ignie2 1n2 %en %e conine24 M5e 5ere

/ck! /1" ime - ne6 ime i" 1 2i33eren "or!.P

MT%e! 1re " 1 m!%4 %ere i" no ei2ence o "$$or %e 31c

he51" 1 one of themKP

MT%ere i" eer! ei2ence. I $1in" me " %o5 n1he m! o5n3/e"% 1n2 -/oo2 c1n -e. I me1n %e $roo3 51" rig% %ere in 3ron o3

!o 1n2 !o c%o"e o ignore i.P


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M>%1 2oe" i m1er T%e m12 "cieni" 51" ki//e2 -e3ore %e

%12 %e c%1nce.P

MYe"4 een1//!4P %e o/2 m1n "%rgge24 c/e1r/! i 51" no %e

/1" o3 %i" o$ic 3or %im4 - %e 1$$reci1e2 %1 %i" "on 51"

incre2i-/! o-"in1e 1n2 5o/2 mc% r1%er 51i ni/ %e ei%er

c1me 1ron24 or %12 %e $/e1"re o3 "1!ing: >see, 9 told you so>.

T%e !onger m1n en"e2 $4 1/mo" 1" %og% %e 51ne2 %e

o/2er m1n o %rr! $ 1n2 ge on 5i% i4 Mok1!4 3ine4 "$$o"ing 5%1

!o "1! i" re 1n2 one emerge" 3rom %e 21rkne""4 I "i// nee2

"$eci3ic". >%14 5%ere4 5%en4 5%! 1n2 %o5P

MI 2on# concern m!"e/3 5i% Science r1%er4 e1$%!"ic".Some%ing %1" "1re2 1 c11/!" or 1 c%1in o3 een" %1 c1nno -e

$reene24 $reor21ine2 or $re2omin1e2. T%e "ee2 o3 Unkno5n

Origin" i" on i" 51! o Ci! ' 1n2 i m" -e "o$$e2. I 1"ke2 !o o

"1r %e $roec 1n2 I#m "re !o 5i// no /e me 2o5n.P

T%e !onger m1n "re""e24 Mi3 !o %ink I 1m going 1%e12 5i%

%i" -1"e2 on %e /imie2 in3orm1ion !o %1e $roi2e2 o me4 %i"...

hunch4 !o 1re gr1e/! mi"1ken.PMI i" no 1 %nc%4P %e o/2 m1n "124 o33en2e24 MI 5i"% I co/2

e// !o o%er5i"e4 -ec1"e %i" i" c/o"e o %e c%e" 3or me 1/"o4 -

%i" i" 5%1 %e $ro$%ec! e//" me 1n2 I %1e 1 o- no o ignore i. I

%1e 1 o- o 1c on i 1n2 I %1e 1 o- o e// !o

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