Questions D1
Transcript of Questions D1
Ted Leach Draft #1 December 7, 2009
She's getting ready to ask me a question. I know it, because I can see her in the
back of the room, writing notes in that worn leather notebook she carries with her. For
weeks, she's had that notebook, in which she writes everything. I've never looked in it,
but I see her writing. I know she's writing notes about me. What she sees me do. What
she sees the class do. And she's got this knack of asking me the perfect question every
time.
We're sitting in the back of the room, at the makeshift desk I've set for her. She's
got the notebook open in front of her, and she's looking at it. She always does this. She
looks at the notebook, pauses. Sighs a bit, then moves her pen in a semi-circle.
I know what she's doing. She's looking for the perfect question -- the one that
pulls everything together. This is what she's good at -- every day she watches, writes, and
then pulls together the perfect question. The one I have trouble answering inevitably.
"Hmm..." she pauses. I wait, knowing what’s coming.
"Can you tell me how you decide to use group work? When you decide to do a
group assignment rather than individual seat work?"
She's got me.
It's not that I can't answer her questions. I can -- but it takes me the same amount
of time sometimes to answer her questions as it does for her to come up with them.
Sometimes days. And she's always apologetic as she asks them, as she watches me
struggle to find the answer.
"Don't apologize," I say. "It's a good question. It deserves a good answer. Besides
-- if I can't answer this question, then I really shouldn’t be doing this job."
This job, of course, is being a mentor teacher. After 12 years of teaching
students, I suppose I’m now supposed to have some answers. Why else would Bard have
brought me into this program? I’m a Mentor Teacher. I’m supposed to have The
Answers to The Questions.
So I struggle. I think. And eventually I come up with the Answer.
“How do I decide when to do group work? Well, there are a few things that come
into play here. The class, for example. Some classes just aren’t as good at being in
groups as others. They’ll get better in time, the more they do group work. But not on a
Friday. With a vacation coming up, this is not the day to throw the eight period class into
a group. But the sixth period almost needs to be in a group, because they’ll take the
points you’re trying to make and run with them to places you can’t anticipate. And do
you have different ability levels in the class? A cooperative group might be a good fit in
those cases. Have you read Johnson and Johnson on cooperative groups? I’ve got my
copy at home, I’ll bring it in if you want, though I bet there’s something better out there
now.”
That’s what my answers sound like. Sometimes I can distil my thoughts down to
a coherent sound bite. But more often than not, my answers come out in a somewhat
rambling stream of coherence. By the end of it I might have answered the question.
Or perhaps I confused her more. That’ll give her something else to write about in
her journal. Must make seminars fascinating. I remember going to seminar during my
own student teaching. Flash back to 1997, Simmons College in Boston. Meeting once a
week, we’d inevitably spend the first hour of a three-hour seminar venting, griping and
eviscerating whatever idiotic requests were made of us by our cooperating teachers. I
shudder to think what if anything she’s said about me.
I’ve never been good at the straight answer. But I guess that’s because there just
aren’t that many good answers. The questions though, fascinate me.
It took me three or four years of teaching before I really began to develop a
respect for good questions. My department head at the time suggested I read Mortimer
Adler, who had come to the school several years earlier to teach a workshop on Socratic
Seminars. In his book The Paideia Program, Adler wrote that seminars could “be
described in a single word: they are conversations” (17). Adler’s approach hooked me. I
began to prepare for classes by writing out questions. The questions were designed to
evoke further questions. Sometimes I would even create flow charts of questions; one set
of questions to ask if the class went one way, one set to ask if they went another.
Then I began reducing my questions to only two or three. Eventually I got to the
point where I could prepare for my seminars with a few notes on the back of an index
card. The better the questions, the fewer of them I needed. It was about this time that we
also were working on a lot of “Essential Questions.” Predictably, I loved it. I loved the
conversations that flowed from a good question.
As I learned the value of good questions, I learned the fascinating paradox of
teaching. It’s not in having all the answers that good teaching lies. It’s in asking the
right questions. Granted there’s a place for having some answers – and there’s a place
for asking questions that are designed to get the right ones.
But I had learned that when you change schools, or change roles in your school,
you become, for a brief moment, a new teacher again. So, in the fall of 2008, when I
became for the first time a teacher of teachers, I forgot this essential truth for a few
thankfully brief moments. And I struggled with the questions my apprentice posed,
partially because I knew they were good questions, ones that I should be able to answer.
How do I set up my groups? I’m sure I have a better reason than the day of the
week.
And thus the conversation began.
Sometimes it took place in the back of my classroom, long after the students had
left the room. We’d sit, and talk about the lessons, the students. We’d talk about the life
of a teacher, and the need to roll with the punches that the highs and lows of beginning a
teaching career bring.
And sometimes the conversation would continue after she left. Behind the wheel
of my car, driving out of Kingston, through the traffic circle, up Route 28, into the
mountains, I’d continue thinking about the problems we’d discussed. Sometimes I’d talk
them out aloud. I’ve long since stopped apologizing for my habit of talking aloud.
Sometimes those conversations led to a coherent answer. Sometimes they simply
led to more questions. Sometimes, I suspect we didn’t even come close to anything
approximating an answer.
But maybe that’s okay. In 2007, a group of teacher educators identified four
critical stances necessary in beginning teachers; they’re open to collaboration with other
teachers, able to face challenges and find necessary support, deal with the binary tensions
inherent in teaching, and develop their own identity as teachers (NCTE).
All of these essentially reduce to questions.
How do we best collaborate with other teachers?
How do I deal with the challenges of teaching?
How do I balance my personal and professional life?
And most important: Who Am I as a teacher?
These are questions that as teachers we struggle with throughout our careers.
Thankfully, no one demands that we have a coherent, permanent answer. What is
demanded is that we engage in the conversation.
So I’m glad that in my first year as a mentor teacher I managed to stumble my
way to a few answers. I’d hate to think that my apprentices left with an image of
someone who can’t ever give a straight answer.
But, in a strange way, I also hope that when they leave my classroom, they left
with more questions than answers. If they’re okay with that, then I think they’ll turn out
to be great teachers.
Works Cited
Adler, Mortimer J. The Paideia Program. New York: Macmillian, 1984. Print.
“What Should English Education Consist of During the First Years of Teachers'
Careers?” National Council of Teachers of English, Conference on English
Education. 18 Sep. 2008. Web. 7 Dec. 2009.