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ARCADEPUBLISHING•NEWYORKCopyright©1960byN.Margareta
NyiszliTranslationcopyright©1993byRichardSeaver
Allrightsreserved.Nopartofthisbookmaybereproducedinanyformorbyanyelectronicormechanicalmeans,includinginformationstorageandretrievalsystems,withoutpermissioninwritingfromthepublisher,exceptbyareviewerwhomay
quotebriefpassagesinareview.LibraryofCongressCataloging-in-
PublicationDataNyiszli,Miklos.
[Dr.Mengeleboncoloorvosavoltamasauschwitzikrematoriumban.English]Auschwitz:adoctor'seyewitnessaccountbyMiklosNyiszli;translatedbyTibere
KremerandRichardSeaver;withaforewordbyBrunoBettelheim.—1stArcade
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p.cm.Originallypublished:NewYork:F.Fell,circa1960.ISBN1-55970-202-8
1.Nyiszli,Miklos.2.Auschwitz(Poland:Concentrationcamp)
3.WorldWar,1939-1945—Personalnarratives,Hungarian.
4.WorldWar,1939-1945—Atrocities.5.Humanexperimentationinmedicine.6.Mengele,Josef,1911-.7.Physicians—Hungary—Biography.8.Physicians—
Germany—Biography.I.Title.
D805.P7N951993940.54'7243'094386—dc2093-24737PublishedintheUnitedStatesbyArcade
Publishing,Inc.,NewYorkVisitourWebsiteat
http://www.arcadepub.comISBN1-58996-066-1AdobeeBook™
edition,2001ISBN1-58996-065-3Microsoft
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Reader™edition,2001DigitaldistributionbyGiantChair,Inc.
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CONTENTSFOREWORD......................................................5INTRODUCTION.............................................25DECLARATION...............................................34I..........................................................................37I
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XXXIII..............................................................268
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EPILOGUE.....................................................304
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FOREWORDItwaswithhesitationthatI
acceptedtheinvitationtowriteaforewordtothisbook.Auschwitz,beyonddoubt,isanhonestbook,andanimportantone.Ittellsofeventswhich,thoughgruesome,needtobetoldandretolduntiltheirmeaningfor
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ourtimesisaccepted.Itisnotabookofdirectinsightintothemeaningoftheexterminationcamps,butinthefateoftheauthorliesmuchofitssignificance.Leastofall,despitetheauthor'sclaim,isitthebookofaphysician.Otherphysicianshavewrittenotherbooksabouttheirexperiencesintheconcentrationcamps:forexample,thepsychiatristDr.VictorE.Frankl,who
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alsowroteofAuschwitz.ButFrankldidnothelptheSSintheirexperimentationonhumanbeings;hedidnotperverthiscallingbyjoiningthosewhohaveaptlybeencalleddoctorsofinfamy.InsteadofhelpingSSdoctorsinthekillingofpeople,hesufferedasahumanbeing.Speakingofhisexperiences,hequotesHebbel:"Therearethingswhichmustcauseonetoloseone'sreason,orone
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hasnonetolose."OneofDr.Nyiszli'sfellowdoctorsdidlosehisreason,andthedescriptionofhowithappenedisnotonlyoneofthemostmovingpartsofthebook,butoneofthemostreassuring.Therewere,andstillare,peoplewholosetheirreasonwhenthereissufficientcausetodoso.Othersdidnotlosetheir
reasonbecause,likeDr.Frankl,andthousandsof
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otherconcentrationcampprisoners,theyneveracceptedtheirfatebutfoughtit.Rightly,Dr.NyiszlidevotesmuchspacetothemenofthetwelfthSonderkommando,prisonersworkinginthegaschambers.Aloneofallsuchcommandos,itrediscoveredfreedominthelastdaysofitsexistence,andontheverylastdayregainedit;thereforetheydiedasmen,notasliving
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corpses.TheaccountofthisoneSonderkommandoalonewouldmakethebookanimportantdocument.Butitsfateraisesevenmoreacutelythequestionofwhyonlyoneofthefourteensuchcommandosfoughtback.Whydidallothersmarchthemselvestotheirdeath?Whydidmillionsofotherprisonersdothesame?Surelythestoryofthese800-oddmenisaheroicsagaofthe
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exterminationcamps;itisastorythatrestoresourtrustinhumanbeings.Buttheydidonlywhatwewouldexpectallhumanbeingstodo:tousetheirdeath,iftheycouldnotsavetheirlives,toweakenorhindertheenemyasmuchaspossible;touseeventheirdoomedselvesformakingexterminationharder,ormaybeimpossible,notasmoothrunningprocess.Theirstory,then,remains
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withinthehumandimensions.Iftheycoulddoit,socouldothers.Whydidn'tthey?Whydidtheythrowtheirlivesawayinsteadofmakingthingshardfortheenemy?WhydidtheymakeapresentoftheirverybeingtotheSSinsteadoftotheirfamilies,theirfriendsoreventofellowprisoners;thisisthehauntingquestion.Initscluestoananswer
liestheimportanceofthis
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book.Itisanunbelievablestory,butweallknowitistrue.Wewishtoforgetit.Itjustdoesnotfitintooursystemofvalueandthought.Andratherthantoreshapethem,wewishtodismissthestoryoftheGermanexterminationcamps.Ifwecould,wewouldprefertothinkitneverhappened.Theclosestwecancometobelievingthatisnottothinkaboutitsothatweneednot
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cometotermswithitsnightmarishperspectives.Thehistoryofmankind,as
oftheWesternworld,aboundsinpersecutionsforreligiousorpoliticalreasons.Largenumbersofmenwereexterminatedinothercenturiestoo.GermanyitselfwasdepopulatedbytheThirtyYearsWar,duringwhichmillionsofciviliansdied.Andiftwoatomicbombshadnotsufficed,
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maybeasmanymillionsinJapanwouldhavebeenexterminatedasintheGermanexterminationcamps.Warishorrible,andman'sinhumanitytomanevenmoreso.Yettheimportanceofaccountsontheexterminationcampsliesnotintheiralltoofamiliarstorybutinsomethingfarmoreunusualandhorrifying.Itliesinanewdimensionofman,anaspectweallwishtoforget
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about,butforgetonlyatourownrisk.Strangeasitmaysound,theuniquefeatureoftheexterminationcampsisnotthattheGermansexterminatedmillionsofpeople—thatthisispossiblehasbeenacceptedinourpictureofman,thoughnotforcenturieshasithappenedonthatscale,andperhapsneverwithsuchcallousness.Whatwasnew,unique,terrifying,wasthatmillions,like
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lemmings,marchedthemselvestotheirowndeath.Thisiswhatisincredible;thiswemustcometounderstand.Strangelyenough,itwasan
Austrianwhoforgedthetoolforsuchunderstanding,andanotherAustrianwhoseactsforcedaninescapableneedtounderstandthemuponus.YearsbeforeHitlersentmillionstothegaschambers,Freudinsistedthathumanlife
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isonelongstruggleagainstwhathecalledthedeathinstinct,andthatwemustlearntokeepthesedestructivestrivingswithinboundslesttheysendustoourdestruction.Thetwentiethcenturydidawaywithancientbarriersthatoncepreventedourdestructivetendenciesfromrunningrampant,bothinourselvesandinsociety.State,family,church,society,allwereputtoquestion,and
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foundwanting.Sotheirpowertorestrainorchannelourdestructivetendencieswasweakened.There-evaluationofallvalueswhichNietzsche(Hitler'sprophet,thoughHitler,likeothers,misunderstoodhimabysmally)predictedwouldberequiredofWesternman,werehetosurviveinthemodernmachineage,hasnotyetbeenachieved.Theoldmeansofcontrollingthe
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deathinstincthavelostmuchoftheirhold,andthenew,highermoralitythatshouldreplacethemisnotyetachieved.Inthisinterregnumbetweenanoldandnewsocialorganization—betweenman'sobsoleteinnerorganizationandthenewstructurenotyetachieved—littleislefttorestrainman'sdestructivetendencies.Inthisagethen,onlyman'spersonalabilitytocontrolhisown
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deathinstinctcanprotecthimwhenthedestructiveforcesofothers,asintheHitlerstate,runrampant.Thisnotbeingmasterof
one'sowndeathinstinctcantakemanyforms.Theformittookinthoseexterminationcampprisonerswhowalkedthemselvesintothegaschambersbeganwiththeiradherenceto"businessasusual."Thosewhotriedtoservetheirexecutionersin
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whatwereoncetheirciviliancapacities(inthiscase,asphysicians)weremerelycontinuingifnotbusiness,thenlifeasusual.Wherebytheyopenedthedoortotheirdeath.Quitedifferentwasthe
reactionofthosewhodidawaywithbusinessasusualandwouldnotjointheSSinexperimentationorextermination.Someofthosewhoreportedonthe
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experience,desperatelyaskedthequestion:Howwasitpossiblethatpeopledeniedtheexistenceofthegaschamberswhenalldaylongtheysawthecrematoriaburningandsmelledtheodorofburningflesh?Howcometheypreferrednottobelieveintheexterminationjusttopreventthemselvesfromfightingfortheirveryownlives?Forexample,Lengyel(inFiveChimneys,thestory
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ofAuschwitz,Chicago:ZiffDavis,1947)reportsthatalthoughsheandherfellowprisonerslivedjustafewhundredyardsfromthecrematoriaandthegaschambersandknewwhattheywereallabout,yetaftermonthsmostprisonersdeniedknowledgeofthem.Germanciviliansdeniedthegaschamberstoo,butthesamedenialinthemdidnothavethesamemeaning.Civilians
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whofacedfactsandrebelled,inviteddeath.PrisonersatAuschwitzwerealready
doomed.Rebellioncouldonlyhavesavedeitherthelifetheyweregoingtoloseanyway,orthelivesofothers.WhenLengyelandmanyotherprisonerswereselectedtobesenttothegaschambers,theydidnottrytobreakaway,asshesuccessfullydid.Worse,thefirsttimeshetriedit,someof
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thefellowprisonersselectedwithherforthegaschamberscalledthesupervisors,tellingthemthatLengyelwastryingtogetaway.Lengyeloffersnoexplanationexceptthattheybegrudgedanyonewhomightsavehimselffromthecommonfate,becausetheylackedenoughcouragetoriskactionthemselves.Ibelievetheydiditbecausetheyhadgivenuptheirwilltolive,hadpermittedtheirdeath
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tendenciestofloodthem.AsaresulttheynowidentifiedmorecloselywiththeSSwhoweredevotingthemselvestoexecutingdestructivetendencies,thantothosefellowprisonerswhostillheldagriponlifeandhencemanagedtoescapedeath.Butthiswasonlyalaststep
ingivinguplivingone'sownlife,innolongerdefyingthedeathinstinctwhich,inmorescientificterms,hasbeen
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calledtheprincipleofinertia.Becausethefirststepwastakenlongbeforeoneenteredthedeathcamp.InertiaitwasthatledmillionsofJewsintotheghettostheSScreatedforthem.ItwasinertiathatmadehundredsofthousandsofJewssithome,waitingfortheirexecutioners,whentheywererestrictedtotheirhomes.Thosewhodidnotallowinertiatotakeoverusedtheimposingofsuch
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restrictionsasawarningthatitwashightimetogounderground,joinresistancemovements,providethemselveswithforgedpapers,etc.,iftheyhadnotdonesolongago.Mostofthemsurvived.Again,inertiaamongnon-Jewswasnotthesamething.Itwasnotcertaindeaththatstaredthemintheface,butoppression.Submission,andadenialofthecrimesoftheGestapo
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were,intheircase,desperateeffortsatsurvival.Theremainingmarginforahumanexistenceshrankseverely,butitexisted.Sooneandthesamepatternofbehaviorhelpedsurvivalinonecase,intheotherdidnot;itwasrealisticbehaviorforGermans,self-delusionforJewsandforprisonersintheexterminationcamps,ofwhomamajoritywereJews.Whenprisonersbeganto
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servetheirexecutioners,tohelpthemspeedthedeathoftheirownkind,thingshadgonebeyondsimpleinertia.Bythen,deathinstinctrunningrampanthadbeenaddedtoinertia.Lengyel,too,mentionsDr.
Mengele,oneoftheprotagonistsofAuschwitz,inatypicalexampleofthe"businessasusual"attitudethatenabledsomeprisoners,andcertainlytheSS,toretain
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whateverinnerbalancetheycoulddespitewhattheyweredoing.ShedescribeshowDr.Mengeletookallcorrectmedicalprecautionsduringchildbirth;forexample,rigorouslyobservingallasepticprinciples,cuttingtheumbilicalcordwithgreatestcare,etc.Butonlyhalfanhourlaterhesentmotherandinfanttobeburntinthecrematorium.Thesamebusiness-as-usual
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attitudethatenabledDr.Nyiszlitofunctionasadoctorinthecamp,thatmotivatedhimtovolunteerhishelptotheSS,enabledmillionsofJewstoliveinghettoswheretheynotonlyworkedfortheNazisbutselectedfellowJewsforthemtosendtothegaschambers.Itwassimilarinertiaifnotalsothe"business-as-usual"attitudethatpostponedtheuprisingintheWarsawghettotillhardly
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anypeopleoranystrengthwasleftforfighting,andcertainlyfartoofewtomakeabreak-throughthatmighthavesavedthousandsoflives.Allthiswouldbepast
historyexceptthattheverysamebusiness-as-usualisbehindourtryingtoforgettwothings:thattwentiethcenturymenlikeussentmillionsintothegaschambers,andthatmillions
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ofmenlikeuswalkedtotheirdeathwithoutresistance.InBuchenwald,Italkedto
hundredsofGermanJewishprisonerswhowerebroughtthereinthefallof1938.IaskedthemwhytheyhadnotleftGermanybecauseoftheutterlydegradinganddiscriminatingconditionstheyweresubjectedto.Theiranswerwas:Howcouldweleave?Itwouldhavemeantgivingupourhomes,our
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placesofbusiness.Theirearthlypossessionshadsotakenpossessionofthemthattheycouldnotmove;insteadofusingthem,theywererunbythem.AsamatteroffactthediscriminatorylawsagainsttheJewsweremeanttoforcethemtoleaveGermany,leavingmostoftheirpossessionsbehind.ForalongtimetheintentionoftheNaziswastoforceundesirableminorities,such
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astheJews,intoemigration.Onlywhenthisdidnotworkwastheexterminationpolicyinstituted,followingalsotheinnerlogicoftheNaziracialideology.ButonewonderswhetherthenotionthatmillionsofJews(andlaterforeignnationals)wouldsubmittotheirexterminationdidnotalsoresultfromseeingwhatdegradationtheywerewillingtoacceptwithoutfightingback.The
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persecutionoftheJewswasaggravated,slowstepbyslowstep,whennoviolentfightingbackoccurred.ItmayhavebeenJewishacceptance,withoutretaliatoryfight,ofeverharsherdiscriminationanddegradationthatfirstgavetheSStheideathattheycouldbegottentothepointwheretheywouldwalktothegaschambersontheirown.MostJewsinPolandwhodidnotbelieveinbusiness-as-
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usualsurvivedtheSecondWorldWar.AstheGermansapproached,theylefteverythingbehindandfledtoRussia,muchasmanyofthemdistrustedtheSovietsystem.Butthere,whileperhapscitizensofasecondorder,theywereatleastacceptedashumanbeings.Thosewhostayedontocontinuebusiness-as-usualmovedtowardtheirowndestructionandperished.
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Thusinthedeepestsensethewalktothegaschamberwasonlythelastconsequenceofaphilosophyofbusiness-as-usual.True,thesamesuicidalbehaviorhasanothermeaning.Itmeansthatmancanbepushedsofarandnofurther;thatbeyondacertainpointhechoosesdeathtoaninhumanexistence.Buttheinitialsteptowardthisterriblechoicewastheinertiathatprecededit.
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PerhapsaremarkontheuniversalsuccessoftheDiaryofAnneFrankmaystresshowmuchweallwishtosubscribetothisbusiness-as-usualphilosophy,andtoforgetthatithastensourdestruction.Itisanoneroustasktotakeapartsuchahumane,suchamovingstorythatarousessomuchcompassionforgentleAnneFrank.ButIbelievethattheworldwideacclaimofher
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storycannotbeexplainedunlesswerecognizeourwishtoforgetthegaschambersandtoglorifytheattitudeofgoingonwithbusiness-as-usual,eveninaholocaust.WhiletheFranksweremakingtheirpreparationsforgoingpassivelyintohiding,thousandsofotherJewsinHollandandelsewhereinEuropeweretryingtoescapetothefreeworld,thebettertobeabletofighttheir
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executioners.Otherswhocouldnotdosowentunderground—notsimplytohidefromtheSS,waitingpassively,withoutpreparationforfight,forthedaywhentheywouldbecaught—buttofighttheGermans,andwithitforhumanity.AlltheFrankswantedwastogoonwithlifeasmuchaspossibleintheusualfashion.LittleAnne,too,wantedonlytogoonwithlifeasusual,and
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nobodycanblameher.Butherswascertainlynotanecessaryfate,muchlessaheroicone;itwasasenselessfate.TheFrankscouldhavefacedthefactsandsurvived,asdidmanyJewslivinginHolland.Annecouldhavehadagoodchancetosurvive,asdidmanyJewishchildreninHolland.ButforthatshewouldhavehadtobeseparatedfromherparentsandgonetolivewithaDutch
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familyastheirownchild.Everybodywhorecognizedtheobviousknewthatthehardestwaytogoundergroundwastodoitasafamily;thattohideasafamilymadedetectionbytheSSmostlikely.TheFranks,withtheirexcellentconnectionsamonggentileDutchfamiliesshouldhavehadaneasytimehidingoutsingly,eachwithadifferentfamily.Butinsteadof
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planningforthis,themainprincipleoftheirplanningwastocontinueasmuchaspossiblewiththekindoffamilylifetheywereaccustomedto.Anyothercoursewouldhavemeantnotmerelygivingupthebelovedfamilylifeasusual,butalsoacceptingasrealityman'sinhumanitytoman.Mostofallitwouldhaveforcedtheiracceptancethatbusiness-as-usualwasnotanabsolute
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value,butcansometimesbethemostdestructiveofallattitudes.ThereislittledoubtthattheFranks,whowereabletoprovidethemselveswithsomuch,couldhaveprovidedthemselveswithagunortwohadtheywished.TheycouldhaveshotdownatleastoneortwooftheSSmenwhocameforthem.TherewasnosurplusofSSmen.ThelossofanSSwitheveryJewarrestedwould
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havenoticeablyhinderedthefunctioningofthepolicestate.ThefateoftheFrankswouldn'thavebeenanydifferent,becausetheyalldiedanywayexceptforAnne'sfather,thoughhehardlymeanttopayforhissurvivalwiththeexterminationofhiswholefamily.Theycouldhavesoldtheirlivesdearlyinsteadofwalkingtotheirdeath.Thereisgoodreasonwhy
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thesosuccessfulplayendswithAnnestatingherbeliefinthegoodinallmen.Whatisdeniedistheimportanceofacceptingthegaschambersasrealsothatneveragainwilltheyexist.Ifallmenarebasicallygood,ifgoingonwithintimatefamilylivingnomatterwhatelseiswhatistobemostadmired,thenindeedwecanallgoonwithlifeasusualandforgetaboutAuschwitz.ExceptthatAnne
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FrankdiedbecauseherparentscouldnotgetthemselvestobelieveinAuschwitz.Andherstoryfoundwideacclaimbecauseforustoo,itdeniesimplicitlythatAuschwitzeverexisted.Ifallmenaregood,therecanbenoAuschwitz.IhavemetmanyJews,as
wellasgentileanti-Nazis,whosurvivedinGermanyandintheoccupiedcountries.Buttheywereallpeoplewho
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realizedthatwhenaworldgoestopieces,wheninhumanityreignssupreme,mancannotgoonwithbusinessasusual.Onethenhastoradicallyre-evaluateallofwhatonehasdone,believedin,stoodfor.Inshort,onehastotakeastandonthenewreality,afirmstand,andnotoneofretirementintoevengreaterprivatization.Iftoday,NegroesinAfrica
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marchagainstthegunsofapolicethatdefendsapartheid—evenifhundredsofthemwillbeshotdownandtensofthousandsroundedupinconcentrationcamps—theirmarch,theirfight,willsoonerorlaterassurethemofachanceforlibertyandequality.TheJewsofEuropecouldequallyhavemarchedasfreemenagainsttheSS,ratherthantofirstgrovel,thenwaittoberoundedup
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fortheirownextermination,andfinallywalkthemselvestothegaschambers.ItwastheirpassivewaitingfortheSStoknockattheirdoorwithoutfirstsecuringaguntoshootdownatleastoneSSbeforebeingshotdownthemselves,thatwasthefirststepinavoluntarywalkintotheReich'scrematoria.Whileallotheraccountsof
theconcentrationcampsthathavecometomyattention
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werebypersonswhoneverwillinglyservedtheSS,tomyknowledgeDr.Nyiszli'sistheonlyreportwrittenbyoneofthemanyconcentrationcampprisonerswhovolunteeredtobecomeatooloftheSStostayalive.Buthavingmadehischoice,Dr.Nyiszlihad,afterall,todeludehimselfattimestobeabletolivewithhimselfandhisexperience.Andhereinliesthetrueimportanceof
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thisdocumentfortheprotectionthatunderstandingcanoffer.BecauseevenintheoverpoweringsettingofAuschwitz,certaindefensesstillservedlife,notthedeathinstinct.Mostimportantofthesewasunderstandingwhatwentoninoneself,andwhy.Withenoughunderstanding,theindividualdidnotfoolhimselfintobelievingthatsavinghisskinwasthesameassavingthetotalself.He
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wasabletorecognizethatmuchofwhatapparentlyseemedprotectivewasactuallyselfdestroying.Amostextremeexample
werethoseprisonerswhovolunteeredtoworkinthegaschambershopingitwouldsomehowsavetheirlives.Allofthemwerekilledafterashorttime.Butmanyofthemdiedsooner,andafterweeksofamorehorriblelife,thanmighthavebeentrueifthey
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hadnotvolunteered.HowDr.Nyiszlifooled
himselfcanbeseen,forexample,inhisrepeatedlyreferringtohisworkasadoctor,thoughheworkedastheassistantofaviciouscriminal.HespeaksoftheInstituteforRace,Biological,andAnthropologicalInvestigationas"oneofthemostqualifiedmedicalcentersoftheThirdReich"thoughitwasdevotedto
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provingfalsehoods.Thattheauthorwasadoctordidn'tatallchangethefactthathe,likeanyoftheprisonerofficialswhoservedtheSSbetterthansomeSSwerewillingtoserveit,wasaparticipant,anaccessorytothecrimesoftheSS.Howthencouldhedoitandsurvive?Bytakingprideinhisprofessionalskills,irrespectiveofwhatpurposetheywereusedfor.Againand
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againthisprideinhisprofessionalskillpermeateshisstoryofhisandotherprisoners'sufferings.TheimportantissuehereisthatDr.Nyiszli,Dr.Mengeleandhundredsofotherfarmoreprominentphysicians,mentrainedlongbeforetheadventofHitlertopower,wereparticipantsinthesehumanexperimentsandinthepseudo-scientificinvestigationsthatwentwith
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them.Itisthisprideinprofessionalskillandknowledge,irrespectiveofmoralimplications,thatissodangerous.Asafeatureofmodernsocietyorientedtowardtechnologicalcompetenceitisstillwithus,thoughtheconcentrationcamps,thecrematoria,theexterminationofmillionsbecauseofrace,arenolongerhere.Auschwitzisgone,butaslongasthisattitude
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remainswithusweshallnotbesafefromthecriminalindifferencetolifeatitscore.Irecommendtocareful
readingthedescriptionofhowthefirsttaskofeverynewSonderkommandowastocrematethecorpsesoftheprecedingkommando,exterminatedjustafewhoursbefore.Irecommendtothereader'sspeculationwhy,thoughthetwelfthSonderkommandorevolted,
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thethirteenthwentquietlytoitsdeathwithoutopposition.Inthissinglerevoltofthe
twelfthSonderkommando,seventySSwerekilled,includingonecommissionedofficerandseventeennoncommissionedofficers;oneofthecrematoriawastotallydestroyedandanotherseverelydamaged.True,alleighthundredandfifty-threeprisonersofthekommandodied.Butthisprovesthata
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positionintheSonderkommandogaveprisonersachanceofabouttentoonetodestroytheSS,ahigherratiothanexistedintheordinaryconcentrationcamp.TheoneSonderkommandothatrevoltedandtooksuchheavytolloftheenemydidnotdiemuchdifferentlythanallotherSonderkommandos.Why,then—andthisisthequestionthathauntsallwho
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studytheexterminationcamps—whythendidmillionswalkquietly,withoutresistance,totheirdeathwhenrightbeforethemwereexamplessuchasthiscommandothatmanagedtodestroyanddamageitsowndeathchambersandkill10%oftheirownnumberinSS?Whydidsofewofthemillionsofprisonersdielikemen,asdidthemenofonlyoneofthesecommandos?
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PerhapscomparingthetwophysicianswhosurvivedAuschwitzmaysuggestananswer.Dr.Frankl,whoduringimprisonmentsearchedcontinuouslyforthepersonalmeaningofhisexperienceasaconcentrationcampprisoner,therebyfoundthedeepermeaningofhislifeandlifeingeneral.Otherprisonerswho,likeDoctorNyiszli,wereconcernedwithmeresurvival—evenifit
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meanthelpingSSdoctorsintheirnefariousexperimentswithhumanbeings—gainednodeepermeaningfromtheirhorribleexperience.Andsotheysurvivedinbody,hauntedbyremorseandnightmarishrecollections.Thisbookthenismostof
allacautionarytale,asoldasmankind.Thosewhoseektoprotectthebodyatallcostdiemanytimesover.Thosewhoriskthebodytosurviveas
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menhaveagoodchancetoliveon.
UniversityofChicagoMay,1960—BrunoBettelheim
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Auschwitz
ADoctor'sEyewitnessAccount
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INTRODUCTIONItisnowafullhalfcentury
afterthealmostunimaginableeventsthisbookdescribes,anddespitealleffortstomakesurethatthetwelveincredibleyearsofHitler'sswaywillneverbeforgotten,thefactremainsthatfewofthosewhoexperiencedtheNazi
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concentrationcampsarealivetobearwitness.Inevitablyandinexorably,historyreducesthepersonaltotheimpersonal,subsumestheindividualintothecollective,renderstheimmediateremote.Monumentsandmuseums,howevereloquent,cannevertrulyorfullyconveytheexperienceitself.ThatiswhyDr.MiklosNyiszli'sbookremainssoimportantalmostfivedecades
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afteritwaswritten,morethanfortyyearsafteritfirstappearedinJean-PaulSartre'smonthlyreview,LesTempsModernes.Oneoftheearliestbookspublishedonthesubject—atatimewhenmanypreferrednottoknowwhatreallywentondaytodayinthedeathcamps—Auschwitz,forallthemoralambiguityofitsauthor'sstance(whichisdulynotedbyBrunoBettelheiminhis
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eloquentforeword),remains,astheNewYorkReviewofBooksnotedinaroundupofseveralbooksonthesubject,"thebestbriefaccountoftheAuschwitzexperienceavailabletoareader."Forthisnewedition,afewwordsofbackgroundareinorder.Inmid-March1944the
GermansinvadedHungary.AllJewswereimmediatelyconsignedtohousearrest,inconformancewithHitler's
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longstandingSchutzhaft,whichheintroducedin1933immediatelyaftercomingtopower,tocowandcontrolallthosewhomightconceivablyposeathreattohisthennewregime.Deportationsbegansoonafterward.InApril,Dr.Nyiszliandhisfamily,togetherwithalltheJewsofhiscity,Oradea-Nagyvarad,wereshippedtoAuschwitz,inthealltoofamilarcattlecarstheNazisusedto
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accomplishthefirst,debasingstepoftheirFinalSolution.Separatedfromhiswifeanddaughteruponarrival,Dr.NyiszliwasshortlychosenbytheinfamousDr.JosefMengeletotakechargeofallthepathologicalworkcarriedoninthecamp.Assuch,NyiszlibecameamemberoftheSonderkommando,thespeciallyqualifiedandprivilegedgroupofprisonerswhoworkedexclusively
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insidethecrematoriums.ThisSonderkommando,alsoknownasthe"kommandoofthelivingdead,"wasmadeupof860maleprisonerschosenfortheirvariousprofessionalabilitiesaswellastheirphysicalstrengthandhardyconstitution.Aslongastheylived,theirlotwithinthecampwasrelativelygood,butingeneraltheylivedforonlyfourmonthsfromthedaytheyfirsttookuptheirduties
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insidethecrematoriums.Attheendofthatbriefperiodtheyweresummarilyliquidatedandreplacedbyanewgroupofprisoners.Inthisway,theNaziauthoritieshopedtokeepfromtheworldanyknowledgeofwhatwasgoingoninthese"deathfactories."Theyverynearly
succeeded.Tostart,allmembersoftheSSwhoservedinthecamps—andin
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AuschwitztheynumberedseveralthousandfromApril1940whenthecampopenedtoitsliberationinJanuary1945—hadtoswearthattheywouldneverrevealwhattheysaw.Further,in1944GermanauthoritiesdestroyedthetransportlistsofallJewswhohadbeensenttoAuschwitzuptothatpoint,andinthesucceedingmonthsorderedthedestructionofallotherincriminating
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documents.Later,astheRussianarmiesdrewnearAuschwitzearlyin1945,otherevidencewaseitherburnedortransferredtocampsfartherwest.Inmid-January,theSShastilyexecutedthousandsofprisoners;then,sometimeaftermidnightonJanuary18,theyfled,leavingthecampunmanned.ManyoftheremainingAuschwitzinmates,asNyiszlidescribes,
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inturntookadvantageofthesuddenlyemptytowersandopenAuschwitzgatestofleethecamp,fearingthatiftheywaitedtheGermans,whowereretreatingbeforetheRussianoffensive,mightpausetomurderthemaswellbeforeproceedingwest.WhentheRussiansdidarrive,onJanuary27,1945,theyfoundthebodiesoftheSS'sfinalvictims.Buttheyalsofoundseventhousandinmates
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whohadchosennottoleavethecamp,mostlybecausetheyweretooillorweaktoflee.Thus,despitetheirconsiderableefforts,theNazisfailedtodestroyallevidenceofthecamps.BoththemagnitudeofthecrimeitselfandtheGermans'predispositionforbureaucraticefficiencymadeitinevitablethatthetruthwouldultimatelyberevealed.Whilehundredsof
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documentsandbooksonthesubjectoftheKZ(theNaziconcentrationcamps)haveappearedoverthepastthirtytofortyyears—fromtheautobiographyoftheAuschwitzcommandantRudolfHoesstopersonalaccountsofsurvivors,andculminatinginDanutaCzech'smonumentalAuschwitzChronicle,1939-1945—nonetomyknowledgehasever
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recountedindetailwhatwentoneverydayinsidethecrematoriums,forthesimplereasonthatthegatetothecrematoriumswasthegatetodeath.Almostmiraculously,Dr.
Nyiszlisurvived.Throughhiseyeswecanrelivethoseexceptionaltimes,andfromhisuniqueviewpointwitnessaswelltheslowdisintegrationofamad,grandioseempirebuilttolast
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athousandyears.Forthepicturethatunfoldsbeneaththedoctor'suntutoredpenspanstheperiodfromthe"selections"madeuponarrivalatthecamptothemethodicalexterminationsof1944andearly1945,endingwiththenightmarishexodusthatmarkedtheNazicollapseinthewinterof1945.Isay"untutoredpen"because,asDr.Nyiszlihimselfstates:"WhenIlivedthroughthese
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horrors,whicharebeyondallimagining,Iwasnotawriterbutadoctor.TodayinwritingaboutthemIwritenotasareporterbutasadoctor."Butstylisticinadequaciesareoflittleimportancehere;whatmattersinabookofthisnatureistherawmaterial.WhatMiklosNyiszlilived
throughandwitnessedmanywillprefernottobelieve,eventoday,forthehumanmindtendstoturnawayfrom
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sufferingandwhateverisrepugnant.Fromthattodenyingthatsuchtreatmentandtorture,suchdebasementanddegradation,suchinhumanitytoone'sownfellowbeingscouldeverhavehappenedisbutasimplesteptotake.Fortherearesometodaywhorefusetobelievethattheexterminationoftwelvemillionpeople,ofwhichfivetosixmillionJews,evertookplace,who
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indeedmaintainthatitwasallafabrication,orattheveryleastagrossexaggeration.Whiletheyareatinyminority,therearemanyotherswhosimplyprefertoblockitfromtheirminds.Andevenassumingoneknowsanddoesnotturnaway,onemaywellask:Whatisthepointofdwellingonthesubject?Whyrakeovercoldashes,stirupoldanimosities?Woulditnotbe
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bettertoforgiveandforget,turntowardthefutureratherthanlookbackinangeronthefadingpast?Fairquestionsindeed.Theanswercomesfromthevictimsthemselves."ThesevictimsofNaziatrocities,"MeyerLevinoncewrote,"hidfragmentaryrecordsoftheirexperience,theyscratchedwordsonwalls,theydiedhopingtheworldwouldsomedayknow,notinstatisticsbutin
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empathy.Wearechargedtolisten."Atleastintheearlyyears
followingtheirrelease,thosewhohadlivedthroughthecampswereoftenreluctantorunwillingtotalkoftheexperience,letalonewriteaboutit.Thesubjectwastoopainfultorecall;itwastimetohealandattempttogetonwiththeirlives.Latertheveilwaslifted,atleastinpart,assomefeltincreasinglyobliged
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totelltheirstory"sothattheworldwouldnotforget."Lookingback,thequestionmostoftenaskedseemedtobe:Howcouldthishavehappened?Howcouldtheworldhaveallowedittohappen?Thereisnoeasyanswer,especiallysinceithasbecomeincreasinglyclearthat,inthelaterstagesofWorldWarII,manyWesternleadersdidknowifnotthegrimdetailsatleastthe
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generaloutlineofwhatwashappeningbehindHitler'sbarbedwire.Butaseventshaveshowninrecentyears,theworld'sabilitytopreventoutrage,whetheritbeinVietnaminthe1960sortheformerYugoslaviainthe1990s,ispainfullylimited.Inadditiontothose
questionsmustbeaddedtheoneraisedsopoignantlyandinsistentlybyBrunoBettelheiminhisforewordto
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Nyiszli'sbook:WhydidtheJewsallowthemselvestobearrested,deported,andkilledwithoutresisting?Andwhy,evenmoretothepoint,didonlyoneofthefourteenSonderkommandogroupsriseupinrebellionatthehouroftheirdeath?Knowingthelengthoftheirdays,knowingtheyhadliquidatedtheirpredecessorsandthattheirsuccessorswouldinlikemannereliminatethem,why
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didtheynotall"dieasmen,notaslivingcorpses"?IthinktheanswertoallthosequestionsisbestifnotfullyansweredbyWalterLaqueur'sreminder,inhisforewordtoDanutaCzech'smagisterialwork,thatweshouldbearinmindtwoverydifferentelementsoftheHolocaustexperience.ManyifnotmostEuropeanJewswereintegratedintothesocietiesinwhichtheylived.
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TheGermans,afterall,werethepeopleofBachandBeethoven,Kant,Goethe,andSchiller.How"bad"couldsuchapeoplereallybe?Hitler,anaberration,woulddoubtlesssoonpass.LaqueurandothersalsoremindusthatAuschwitz,inadditiontoitsotherinmates,atonepointhousedthirteenthousandRussianprisonersofwar,robustyoungmenwho,ifanyonecould,shouldhave
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risenupandgonetotheirdeathfighting.Yetonlyninety-twosurvived,andtherewasnoRussianuprising.Verysimply,intheunfairgameoflifethenstaged,allthecamp'svictims—weretheyJews,gypsies,orPOWs—werepowerlessbeforethemasters'whimsandwishes.Byaconservativeestimate,
twelvemillionpeopleperishedintheNazi
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concentrationcamps.Mostweremurderedincoldblood,butcountlessothersdiedbystarvation,illness,andsuicide.Thenumbersaretoostaggeringtocomprehend.ThevalueofDr.Nyiszli'sbookisnotinitsinsights.Itsimportanceliesinitsabilitytoshowus,firsthand,whatthatnetherworldreallywas.Ittells,asBrunoBettelheimsays,"ofeventswhich,thoughgruesome,needtobe
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toldandretolduntiltheirmeaningforourtimesisaccepted.
—RichardSeaver
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DECLARATION
I,theundersignedDr.MiklosNyiszli,physician,formerprisoneroftheGermanconcentrationcamps,declarethatthiswork,whichrelatesthedarkestdaysinthehistoryofmankind,wasdrawnupbymeinstrict
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accordancewithreality,andwithouttheslightestexaggeration,inmycapacityasaneyewitnessandinvoluntaryparticipantintheworkoftheAuschwitzcrematoriums,intowhosefiresmillionsoffathers,mothersandchildrendisappeared.Aschiefphysicianofthe
Auschwitzcrematoriums,Idraftednumerousaffidavitsofdissectionandforensic
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medicinefindingswhichIsignedwithmyowntattoonumber.Isentthesedocumentsbymail,countersignedbymysuperior,Dr.Mengele,totheBerlin-Dahlemaddressofthe"InstitutfurRassenbiologischeundAnthropologischeForschungen,"oneofthemostqualifiedmedicalcentersoftheThirdReich.Itshouldstillbepossibletofind
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themtodayinthearchivesofthisResearchInstitute.InwritingthisworkIam
notaimingforanyliterarysuccess.WhenIlivedthroughthesehorrors,whichwerebeyondallimagining,
Iwasnotawriterbutadoctor.Today,intellingaboutthem,Iwritenotasareporterbutasadoctor.DoneatOradea-Nagyvarad,March1946.
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Signed:Dr.MiklosNyiszli
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Tomywifeanddaughter—returnedfromtheCampoftheDead
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IMay,1944.Insideeachof
thelockedcattlecarsninetypeoplewerejammed.Thestenchoftheurinalbuckets,whichweresofulltheyoverflowed,madetheairunbreathable.Thetrainofthedeportees.
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Forfourdays,fortyidenticalcarshadbeenrollingendlesslyon,firstacrossSlovakia,thenacrosstheterritoryoftheCentralGovernment,bearingustowardsanunknowndestination.WewerepartofthefirstgroupofoveramillionHungarianJewscondemnedtodeath.LeavingTatrabehindus,
wepassedthestationsofLublinandKrakau.During
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thewarthesetwocitieswereusedasregroupmentcamps—or,moreexactly,asexterminationcamps—forherealltheanti-NazisofEuropewereherdedandsortedoutforextermination.Scarcelyanhouroutof
Krakauthetraingroundtoahaltbeforeastationofsomeimportance.SignsinGothiclettersannounceditas"Auschwitz,"aplacewhichmeantnothingtous,forwe
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hadneverheardofit.Peeringthroughacrackin
thesideofthecar,Inoticedanunusualbustletakingplaceaboutthetrain.TheSStroopswhohadaccompaniedustillnowwerereplacedbyothers.Thetrainmenleftthetrain.FromchancesnatchesofconversationoverheardIgatheredwewerenearingtheendofourjourney.Thelineofcarsbeganto
moveagain,andsometwenty
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minuteslaterstoppedwithaprolonged,stridentwhistleofthelocomotive.ThroughthecrackIsawa
desert-liketerrain:theearthwasayellowishclay,similartothatofEasternSilesia,brokenhereandtherebyagreenthicketoftrees.Concretepylonsstretchedinevenrowstothehorizon,withbarbedwirestrungbetweenthemfromtoptobottom.Signswarnedusthat
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thewireswereelectricallychargedwithhightensioncurrent.Insidetheenormoussquaresboundedbythepylonsstoodhundredsofbarracks,coveredwithgreentar-paperandarrangedtoformalong,rectangularnetworkofstreetsasfarastheeyecouldsee.Tatteredfigures,dressedin
thestripedburlapofprisoners,movedaboutinsidethecamp.Somewere
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carryingplanks,otherswerewieldingpicksandshovels,and,fartheron,stillotherswerehoistingfattrunksontothebacksofwaitingtrucks.Thebarbedwireenclosure
wasinterruptedeverythirtyorfortyyardsbyelevatedwatchtowers,ineachofwhichanSSguardstoodleaningagainstamachinegunmountedonatripod.ThisthenwastheAuschwitzconcentrationcamp,or,
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accordingtotheGermans,whodelightinabbreviatingeverything,theKZ,pronounced"Katzet"Notaveryencouragingsighttosaytheleast,butforthemomentourawakenedcuriositygotthebetterofourfear.Iglancedaroundthecarat
mycompanions.Ourgroupconsistedofsometwenty-sixdoctors,sixpharmacists,sixwomen,ourchildren,andsomeelderlypeople,both
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menandwomen,ourparentsandrelatives.Seatedontheirbaggageoronthefloorofthecar,theylookedbothtiredandapathetic,theirfacesbetrayingasortofforebodingthateventheexcitementofourarrivalwasunabletodispel.Severalofthechildrenwereasleep.Otherssatmunchingthefewscrapsoffoodwehadleft.Andtherest,findingnothingtoeat,werevainlytryingtowet
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theirdesiccatedlipswithdrytongues.Heavyfootstepscrunched
onthesand.Theshoutofordersbrokethemonotonyofthewait.Thesealsonthecarswerebroken.Thedoorslidslowlyopenandwecouldalreadyhearthemgivingusorders."Everyonegetoutand
bringhishandbaggagewithhim.Leaveallheavybaggageinthecars."
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Wejumpedtotheground,thenturnedtotakeourwivesandchildreninourarmsandhelpthemdown,forthelevelofthecarswasoverfourandahalffeetfromtheground.Theguardshaduslineupalongthetracks.BeforeusstoodayoungSSofficer,impeccableinhisuniform,agoldrosettegracinghislapel,hisbootssmartlypolished.ThoughunfamiliarwiththevariousSSranks,Isurmised
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fromhisarmbandthathewasadoctor.LaterIlearnedthathewastheheadoftheSSgroup,thathisnamewasDr.Mengele,andthathewaschiefphysicianoftheAuschwitzconcentrationcamp.Asthe"medicalselector"forthecamp,hewaspresentatthearrivalofeverytrain.Inthemomentsthat
followedweexperiencedcertainphasesofwhat,at
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Auschwitz,wascalled"selection."Asforthesubsequentphases,everyonelivedthroughthemaccordingtohisparticularfate.Tostart,theSSquickly
dividedusaccordingtosex,leavingallchildrenunderfourteenwiththeirmothers.Soouronceunitedgroupwasstraightwaysplitintwo.Afeelingofdreadoverwhelmedus.Buttheguardsrepliedtoouranxiousquestionsina
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paternal,almostgood-naturedmanner.Itwasnothingtobeconcernedabout.Theywerebeingtakenoffforabathandtobedisinfected,aswasthecustom.Afterwardswewouldallbereunitedwithourfamilies.Whiletheysortedusout
fortransportationIhadachancetolookaround.Inthelightofthedyingsuntheimageglimpsedearlierthroughthecrackinthebox
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carseemedtohavechanged,grownmoreeeryandmenacing.Oneobjectimmediatelycaughtmyeye:animmensesquarechimney,builtofredbricks,taperingtowardsthesummit.Ittoweredaboveatwo-storybuildingandlookedlikeastrangefactorychimney.Iwasespeciallystruckbytheenormoustonguesofflamerisingbetweenthelightningrods,whichweresetatangles
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onthesquaretopsofthechimney.Itriedtoimaginewhathellishcookingwouldrequiresuchatremendousfire.SuddenlyIrealizedthatwewereinGermany,thelandofthecrematoryovens.Ihadspenttenyearsinthiscountry,firstasastudent,laterasadoctor,andknewthateventhesmallestcityhaditscrematorium.Sothe"factory"wasa
crematorium.Alittlefarther
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onIsawasecondbuildingwithitschimney;then,almosthiddeninathicket,athird,whosechimneyswerespewingthesameflames.Afaintwindbroughtthesmoketowardsme.Mynose,thenmythroat,werefilledwiththenauseatingodorofburningfleshandscorchedhair.—Plentyoffoodforthoughtthere.Butmeanwhilethesecondphaseofselectionhadbegun.Insinglefile,
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men,women,children,theaged,hadtopassbeforetheselectioncommittee.Dr.Mengele,themedical
"selector,"madeasign.Theylinedupagainintwogroups.Theleft-handcolumnincludedtheaged,thecrippled,thefeeble,andwomenwithchildrenunderfourteen.Theright-handcolumnconsistedentirelyofable-bodiedmenandwomen:thoseabletowork.Inthis
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lattergroupInoticedmywifeandfourteen-year-olddaughter.Wenolongerhadanywayofspeakingtoeachother;allwecoulddowasmakesigns.Thosetoosicktowalk,the
agedandinsane,wereloadedintoRedCrossvans.Someoftheelderlydoctorsinmygroupaskediftheycouldalsogetintothevans.Thetrucksdeparted,thentheleft-handgroup,fiveabreast,flanked
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bySSguards,movedoffinitsturn.Inafewminutestheywereoutofsight,cutofffromviewbyathicketoftrees.Theright-handcolumnhad
notmoved.Dr.Mengeleorderedalldoctorstostepforward;hethenapproachedthenewgroup,composedofsomefiftydoctors,andaskedthosewhohadstudiedinaGermanuniversity,whohadathoroughknowledgeofpathologyandhadpracticed
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forensicmedicine,tostepforward."Beverycareful,"he
added."Youmustbeequaltothetask;forifyou'renot..."andhismenacinggestureleftlittletotheimagination.Iglancedatmycompanions.Perhapstheywereintimidated.Whatdiditmatter!Mymindwasalreadymadeup.Ibrokeranksandpresented
myself.Dr.Mengele
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questionedmeatlength,askingmewhereIhadstudied,thenamesofmypathologyprofessors,howIhadacquiredaknowledgeofforensicmedicine,howlongIhadpracticed,etc.Apparentlymyanswersweresatisfactory,forheimmediatelyseparatedmefromtheothersandorderedmycolleaguestoreturntotheirplaces.Forthemomenttheywerespared.BecauseImustnowstatea
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truthofwhichIthenwasignorant,namely,thattheleft-handgroup,andthosewhowentoffincars,passedafewmomentslaterthroughthedoorsofthecrematorium.Fromwhichnooneeverreturned.
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II
Standingalone,alittleapartfromtheothers,Ifelltothinkingaboutthestrangeanddeviouswaysoffate,and,moreprecisely,aboutGermany,whereIhadspentsomeofthehappiestyearsofmylife.
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Now,abovemyhead,theskywasbrightwithstars,andthesofteveningbreezewouldhavebeenrefreshingif,fromtimetotime,ithadnotbornewithittheodorofbodiesburningintheThirdReich'scrematoriums.Hundredsofsearchlights
strungontopoftheconcretepillarsshonewithadazzlingbrilliance.Andyet,behindthechainoflights,itseemedasthoughtheairhadgrown
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heavier,envelopingthecampinathickveil,throughwhichonlytheblurredsilhouettesofthebarracksshowed.Bynowthecarswere
empty.Somemen,dressedinprisongarb,arrivedandunloadedtheheavybaggagewehadleftbehind,thenloadeditontowaitingtrucks.Inthegatheringdarknessthefortyboxcarsslowlyfaded,tillatlasttheymeltedcompletelyintothe
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surroundingcountryside.Dr.Mengele,havingissued
hisfinalinstructionstotheSStroops,crossedtohiscar,climbedinbehindthewheelandmotionedformetojoinhim.IgotintothebackseatbesideanSSjuniorofficerandwestartedoff.Thecarbouncedcrazilyalongtheclayroadsofthecamp,whichwereruttedandfilledwithpotholesfromthespringrains.Thebrightsearchlights
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flewpastus,fasterandfaster,andinashortwhilewestoppedbeforeanarmoredgate.FromhispostanSSsentrycamerunninguptoletthefamiliarcarthrough.Wedroveafewhundredyardsfartheralongthemainroadofthecamp,whichwasboundedoneithersidebybarracks,thenstoppedagaininfrontofabuildingwhichwasinbettershapethantheothers.Asignbesidetheentranceinformed
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methatthiswasthe"CampOffice."Insideseveralpeople,with
deep,intelligenteyesandrefinedfaces,wearingtheuniformofprisoners,satworkingattheirdesks.Theyimmediatelyroseandcametoattention.Dr.Mengelecrossedtooneofthem,amanofaboutfifty,whoseheadwasshavedclean.SinceIwasstandingafewstepsbehindtheObersturmfuhrer,itwas
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impossibleformetohearwhattheyweresaying.Dr.Sentkeller,aprisoner,and,asIlaterlearned,theFCampdoctor,noddedhisheadinassent.Athisrequest,Iapproachedanotherprisoner'sdesk.Theclerkrummagedforsomefilecards,thenaskedmeanumberofquestionsaboutmyself,recordedtheanswersbothonthecardandinalargebook,andhandedthecardtoanSSguard.Then
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welefttheroom.AsIpassedinfrontofDr.MengeleIbowedslightly.Observingthis,Dr.Sentkellercouldnotrefrainfromraisinghisvoiceandremarking,ironicallyratherthanwithintendedmalice,thatsuchcivilitieswerenotthecustomhere,andthatonewoulddowellnottoplaythemanoftheworldintheKZ.Aguardtookmetoanother
barracks,ontheentranceto
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whichwaswritten:"Baths&Disinfection,"whereIandmycardwereturnedovertostillanotherguard.Aprisonerapproachedmeandtookmymedicalbag,thensearchedmeandtoldmetoundress.Abarbercameoverandshavedfirstmyhead,thentherestofmybody,andsentmetotheshowers.Theyrubbedmyheadwithasolutionofcalciumchloride,whichburntmyeyessobadlythatfor
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severalminutesIcouldnotopenthemagain.Inanotherroommyclothes
wereexchangedforaheavy,almostnewjacket,andapairofstripedtrousers.Theygavemebackmyshoesafterhavingdippedtheminatankcontainingthesamesolutionofcalciumchloride.Itriedonmynewclothesandfoundtheyfittedmequitewell.(Iwonderedwhatpoorwretchhadwornthembeforeme.)
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BeforeIcouldreflectanyfurther,however,anotherprisonerpulledupmyleftsleeveand,checkingthenumberonmycard,beganskillfullytomakeaseriesoflittletattoomarksonmyarm,usinganinstrumentfilledwithablueink.Anumberofsmall,bluishspotsappearedalmostimmediately."Yourarmwillswella
little,"hereassuredme,"butinaweekthatwilldisappear
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andthenumberwillstandoutquiteclearly."SoI,Dr.MiklosNyiszli,
hadceasedtoexist;henceforthIwouldbe,merely,KZprisonerNumberA8450.SuddenlyIrecalledanother
scene;fifteenyearsbeforetheRectoroftheMedicalSchoolofFrederickWilhelmUniversityinBreslaushookmyhandandwishedmeabrilliantfutureashehanded
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memydiploma,"withthecongratulationsofthejury."
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IIIForthemomentmy
situationwastolerable.Dr.Mengeleexpectedmetoperformtheworkofaphysician.IwouldprobablybesenttosomeGermancityasareplacementforaGermandoctorwhohadbeendraftedintomilitaryservice,andwhosefunctionshadincludedpathologyandforensicmedicine.Moreover,
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Iwasfilledwithhopebythefactthat,byDr.Mengele'sorders,Ihadnotbeenissuedaprisoner'sburlap,butanexcellentsuitofcivilianclothes.Itwasalreadypast
midnight,butmycuriositykeptmefromfeelingtired.Ilistenedcarefullytothebarrackschief'severyword.HeknewthecompleteorganizationoftheKZ,thenamesoftheSScommanders
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ineachcampsection,aswellasthoseoftheprisonerswhooccupiedimportantposts.IlearnedthattheAuschwitzKZwasnotaworkcamp,butthelargestexterminationcampintheThirdReich.Healsotoldmeofthe"selections"thatweremadedailyinthehospitalsandthebarracks.Hundredsofprisonerswereloadedeverydayontotrucksandtransportedtothe
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crematoriums,onlyafewhundredyardsaway.FromhistalesIlearnedof
lifeinthebarracks.Eighthundredtoathousandpeoplewerecrammedintothesuperimposedcompartmentsofeachbarracks.Unabletostretchoutcompletely,theyslepttherebothlengthwiseandcrosswise,withoneman'sfeetonanother'shead,neck,orchest.Strippedofallhumandignity,theypushed
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andshovedandbitandkickedeachotherinanefforttogetafewmoreinches'spaceonwhichtosleepalittlemorecomfortably.Fortheydidnothavelongtosleep:reveillesoundedatthreeinthemorning.Thenguards,armedwithrubberclubs,drovetheprisonersfromtheir"beds."Stillhalfasleep,theypouredfromthebarracks,elbowingandshoving,andimmediately
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linedupoutside.ThenbeganthemostinhumanepartoftheKZprogram:rollcall.Theprisonerswerestandinginrowsoffive.Thoseinchargearrangedtheminorder.Thebarracksclerklinedthemupbyheight,thetalleronesinfrontandtheshorterbehind.Thenanotherguardarrived,theday'sdutyguardforthesection,andhe,lashingoutwithhisfistsashewent,pushedthetallermenback
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andhadtheshortmenbroughtupfront.Then,finally,thebarracksleaderarrived,welldressedandwellfed.Hetoowasdressedinprisongarb,buthisuniformwascleanandneatlypressed.Hepausedandhaughtilyscannedtherankstoseeifeverythingwasinorder.Naturallyitwasnot,sohebeganswingingwithclosedfistsatthoseinthefrontrankwhowerewearingglasses,
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anddrovethemintothebackrank.Why?Nobodyknew.Infactyoudidnoteventhinkaboutit,forthiswastheKZ,andnoonewouldeventhinkofhuntingforareasonableexplanationforsuchacts.Thissportcontinuedfor
severalhours.Theycountedtherowsofmenmorethanfifteentimes,fromfronttobackandbacktofrontandineveryotherpossibledirectiontheycoulddevise.Ifarow
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wasnotstraighttheentirebarracksremainedsquattingforanhour,theirhandsraisedabovetheirheads,theirlegstremblingwithfatigueandcold.ForeveninsummertheAuschwitzdawnswerecold,andtheprisoners'lightburlapservedasscantprotectionagainsttherainandcold.But,winterandsummer,rollcallbeganat3:00a.m.andendedat7:00,whentheSSofficersarrived.
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Thebarracksleader,anobsequiousservantoftheSS,wasinvariablyacommonlawcriminal,whosegreeninsigniadistinguishedhimfromtheotherprisoners.Hesnappedtoattentionandmadehisreport,givingamusterofthosemenunderhiscommand.NextitwastheturnoftheSStoinspecttheranks:theycountedthecolumnsandinscribedthenumbersintheirnotebooks.If
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therewereanydeadinthebarracks—andthereweregenerallyfiveorsixaday,sometimesasmanyasten—theytoohadtobepresentfortheinspection.Andnotonlypresentinname,butphysicallypresent,standing,starknaked,supportedbytwolivingprisonersuntilthemusterwasover.For,livingordead,theprescribednumberofprisonershadtobepresentandaccountedfor.It
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sometimeshappenedthatwhentheywereoverworked,thekommandowhosejobitwastotransportthedeadinwheelbarrowsfailedtopassbyforseveraldays.Thenthedeadhadtobebroughttoeachinspectionuntilthetransportationkommandofinallyarrivedtotakechargeofthem.Onlythenweretheirnamescrossedoffthemusterlist.AfterallIhadlearned,I
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wasnotsorrytohaveactedboldlyandtriedtobettermylot.Byhavingbeenchosen,theveryfirstday,toworkasadoctor,Ihadbeenabletoescapethefateofbeinglostinthemassanddrownedinthefilthofthequarantinecamp.1Thankstomycivilian
clothes,Ihadmanagedtomaintainahumanappearance,andthisevening
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Iwouldsleepinthemedicalroombedofthetwelfth"hospital"barracks.Atseveninthemorning:
reveille.Thedoctorsinmysection,aswellasthepersonnelofthehospital,linedupinfrontofthebarrackstobecounted.Thattookabouttwoorthreeminutes.Theyalsocountedthebedridden,aswellasthepreviousnight'sdead.Heretoothedeadwerestretched
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outbesidetheliving.Duringbreakfast,whichwe
tookinourrooms,Imetmycolleagues.Theheaddoctorofbarracks-hospitalnumber12wasDr.Levy,professorattheUniversityofStrasbourg;hisassociatewasDr.Gras,professorattheUniversityofZagreb;bothwereexcellentpractitioners,knownthroughoutEuropefortheirskill.Withpracticallyno
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medicines,workingwithdefectiveinstrumentsandinsurroundingswherethemostelementaryasepticsandantisepticswerelacking,unmindfuloftheirpersonaltragedy,unconsciousoffatigueanddanger,theydidtheirbesttocareforthesickandeasethesufferingsoftheirfellowmen.IntheAuschwitzKZthe
healthiestindividualwasgiventhreeorfourweeksto
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collapsefromhunger,filth,blowsandinhumanlabor.Howcanonedescribethestateofthosewhowerealreadyorganicallyillwhentheyreachedthecamp?Incircumstanceswhereitwasdifficulttoforgetthatonewasahumanbeing,andadoctorbesides,theypracticedtheirprofessionwithcompletedevotion.Theirexamplewasfaithfullyfollowedbythesubaltern
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medicalcorps,whichwascomposedofsixdoctors.TheywereallyoungFrenchorGreekdoctors.ForthreeyearstheyhadbeeneatingtheKZbreadmadefromwildchestnutssprinkledwithsawdust.Theirwives,theirchildren,theirrelativesandfriendshadbeenliquidateduponarrival.Orrather,burned.Ifbychancetheyhadbeendirectedtotheright-handcolumntheyhadbeen
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unabletostandupundertheordealformorethantwoorthreemonthsand,asthe"chosen,"haddisappearedintotheflames.Overcomebydespair,
resigned,apathetic,theyneverthelessattempted,withtheutmostdevotion,tohelptheliving-deadwhosefatewasintheirhands.Fortheprisonersofthathospitalweretheliving-dead.Onehadtobeseriouslyillbeforebeing
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admittedtotheKZhospital.Forthemostparttheywerelivingskeletons:dehydrated,emaciated,theirlipswerecracked,theirfacesswollen,andtheyhadincurabledysentery.Theirbodieswerecoveredwithenormousandrepulsiverunningsoresandsuppuratingulcers.SuchweretheKZ'ssick.Suchwerethoseonehadtocareforandcomfort.
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IVIstillhadnoclearly
definedjob.DuringavisitaroundthecampinthecompanyofaFrenchdoctor,InoticedasortofannexjuttingoutfromonesideofaKZbarracks.Fromtheoutsideitlookedlikeatoolshed.Inside,however,Isawatableaboutashighasaman'shead,builtofunplaned,ratherthickboards;achair;a
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boxofdissectinginstruments;and,inonecorner,apail.Iaskedmycolleaguewhatitwasusedfor."That'stheKZ'sonly
dissectingroom,"hesaid."Ithasn'tbeenusedforsometime.Asamatteroffact,Idon'tknowofanyspecialistinthecampwho'squalifiedtoperformdissections,andIwouldn'tbeabitsurprisedtolearnthatyourpresencehereistiedinwithDr.Mengele's
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plansforreactivatingit."Theverythought
dampenedmyspirits,forIhadpicturedmyselfworkinginamoderndissectingroom,notinthiscampshed.InthecourseofmyentiremedicalcareerIhadneverhadtoworkwithsuchdefectiveinstrumentsasthese,orinaroomsoprimitivelyequipped.EvenwhenIhadbeencalledintotheprovincesoncasesofmurderand
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suicide,wheretheautopsyhadhadtobeperformedonthespot,Ihadbeenbetterequippedandinstalled.NeverthelessIresigned
myselftotheinevitable,andacceptedeventhiseventuality,forintheKZthiswasstillafavoredposition.AndyetIstillcouldnotunderstandwhyIhadbeengivenalmostnewcivilianclothesifIwereslatedtoworkinadirtyshed.Itdidn't
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makesense.ButIdecidednottowastemytimeworryingaboutsuchapparentcontradictions.Stillinthecompanyofmy
Frenchcolleague,Igazedoutacrossthebarbedwireenclosures.Nakeddark-skinnedchildrenwererunningandplaying.WomenwithCreole-likefacesandgailycoloredclothes,andhalf-nakedmen,seatedonthegroundingroups,chattedas
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theywatchedthechildrenplay.Thiswasthefamous"GypsyCamp."TheThirdReich'sethnologicalexpertshadclassifiedgypsiesasaninferiorrace.Accordingly,theyhadbeenroundedup,notonlyinGermanyitself,butthroughouttheoccupiedcountries,andherdedhere.BecausetheywereCatholics,theywereallowedtheprivilegeofremaininginfamilygroups.
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Therewereabout4,500oftheminall.Theydidnowork,butwereassignedthejobofpolicingtheneighboringJewishcampsandbarracks,wheretheyexercisedtheirauthoritywithunimaginablecruelty.TheGypsyCampoffered
onecuriosity:theexperimentalbarracks.ThedirectoroftheResearchLaboratorywasDr.Epstein,professorattheUniversityof
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Prague,apediatricianofworldrenown,aKZprisonersince1940.HisassistantwasDr.Bendel,oftheUniversityofParisMedicalSchool.Threecategoriesof
experimentswereperformedhere:thefirstconsistedofresearchintotheoriginandcausesofdualbirths,astudywhichthebirthoftheDionnequintupletstenyearsbeforehadcausedtobepursuedwithrenewedinterest.Thesecond
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wasthesearchtodiscoverthebiologicalandpathologicalcausesforthebirthofdwarfsandgiants.Andthethirdwasthestudyofthecausesandtreatmentofadiseasecommonlycalled"drygangreneoftheface."Thisterriblediseaseis
exceptionallyrare;inordinarypracticeyouscarcelyevercomeacrossit.ButhereintheGypsyCampitwasfairlycommonamongboth
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childrenandadolescents.Andso,becauseofitsprevalence,researchhadbeengreatlyfacilitatedandconsiderableprogressmadetowardsfindinganeffectivemethodoftreatingit.Accordingtoestablished
medicalconcepts,"drygangreneoftheface"generallyappearsinconjunctionwithmeasles,scarletfeverandtyphoidfever.Butthesediseases,plus
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thecamp'sdeplorablesanitaryconditions,seemedonlytobethefactorsthatfavoreditsdevelopment,sinceitalsoexistedintheCzech,PolishandJewishcamps.Butitwasespeciallyprevalentamonggypsychildren,andfromthisithadbeendeducedthatitspresencemustbedirectlyrelatedtohereditarysyphilis,forthesyphilisrateintheGypsyCampwasextremelyhigh.
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Fromtheseobservationsanewtreatment,consistingofacombinationofmalariainjectionsanddosesofadrugwhosetradenameis"Novarsenobenzol,"hadbeendeveloped,withmostpromisingresults.Dr.Mengelepaiddaily
visitstotheexperimentalbarracksandparticipatedactivelyinallphasesoftheresearch.Heworkedincollaborationwithtwo
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prisoner-doctorsandapainternamedDina,whoseartisticskillwasagreatassettotheenterprise.DinawasanativeofPrague,andhadbeenaKZprisonerforthreeyears.AsDr.Mengele'sassistantshewasgrantedcertainprivilegesthatordinaryprisonersneverenjoyed.
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VDr.Mengelewas
indefatigableintheexerciseofhisfunctions.Hespentlonghoursinhislaboratories,thenhurriedtotheunloadingplatform,wherethedailyarrivaloffourorfivetrainloadsofHungariandeporteeskepthimbusyhalftheday.Unceasinglythenew
convoysmarchedoffin
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columnsoffive,flankedbySSguards.Iwatchedonecomeinandlineup.Althoughmyvantagepointwasatsomedistancefromthetracksandmyviewobstructedbythemazeofbarbedwirefences,Icouldstillseethatthisconvoyhadbeenexpelledfromsomefair-sizedcity:theprisoners'clothesweresmartlytailored,manywerewearingnewpoplinraincoats,andthe
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suitcasestheycarriedwereofexpensiveleather.Inthatcity,whereveritwas,theyhadmanagedtocreateforthemselvesapleasant,culturedwayoflife.Andthatwasthecardinalsinforwhichtheywerenowpayingsodearly.Despitehisnumerous
functions,Dr.Mengeleevenfoundtimeforme.Acart,drawnbyprisoners,drewupbeforethedissectingroom
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door.Thetransportationgroupunloadedtwocorpses.OntheircheststhelettersZandS(ZurSektion),markedwithaspecialchalk,indicatedthattheyweretobedissected.ThechiefofBarracks12assignedanintelligentprisonertoassistme.Togetherweplacedoneofthebodiesonthedissectiontable.Inoticedathickblacklineacrosshisneck.Eitherhehadhangedhimself,orbeen
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hanged.Takingaquicklookatthesecondbody,Isawthatdeathhadherebeencausedbyelectrocution.Thatmuchcouldbededucedfromthesmallsuperficialskinburnsandtheyellowish-redcolorationaroundthem.Iwonderedwhetherhehadthrownhimselfagainstthehigh-tensionwires,orwhetherhehadbeenpushed.BothwerecommonintheKZ.
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Theformalitieswerethesame,whetheritwasacaseofsuicideormurder.Intheevening,atrollcall,thenamesofthedeceasedwouldbescratchedfromthemusterlist,andtheirbodiesloadedonto"hearses"fortransportationtothecampmorgue.Thereanothertruckwouldpickthemup,attherateoffortytofiftyaday,andbearthemtothecrematorium.
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ThetwobodiesDr.MengelehadsentmewerethefirstIhadbeengiventoexamine.Thedaybefore,hehadwarnedmetoworkonthemcarefullyanddoagoodjob.Iplannedtocarryouthisorderstothebestofmyability.Acarpulledup.Inthe
barracksthecommand"Attention"rangout.Dr.MengeleandtwoseniorSSofficershadjustarrived.They
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listenedasthebarracksleaderanddoctormadetheirreports,thenheadedstraightforthedissectingroom,followedbytheFCampprisoner-doctors.Theyarrangedthemselvesinacirclearoundtheroom,asthoughthiswereapathologyclassinsomeimportantmedicalcenterandthecaseathandaparticularlyinterestingone.IsuddenlyrealizedthatIwasabouttotakeanexamination,andthatthis
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wasthejurybeforeme,ahighlyimportantanddangerousjury.Ialsoknewthatmyfellowprisoner-doctorswerekeepingtheirfingerscrossedforme.NoonepresentknewthatI
hadspentthreeyearsattheBorosloInstituteofForensicMedicine,whereIhadhadachancetostudyeverypossibleformofsuicideunderthesupervisionofProfessorStrasseman.I
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realizedthat,asprisoner-doctorA8450,IhadbetterremembernowallthatDr.MiklosNyiszlihadformerlyknown.Ibeganthedissection.I
proceededtoopenfirsttheskull,thenthethoraxandfinallytheabdominalcavity.Iextractedalltheorgans,
notedeverythingthatwasabnormal,andrepliedwithouthesitationtoallthenumerousquestionstheyfiredatme.
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Theirfacesshowedthattheircuriosityhadbeensatisfied,andfromtheirapprovingnodsandglancesIsurmisedthatIhadpassedtheexamination.AftertheseconddissectionDr.Mengeleorderedmetopreparethestatementofmyfindings.Somebodywouldstopbytopickituponthefollowingday.AftertheSSdoctorshadleftIconversedawhilewithmyfellowprisoners.
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Onthefollowingdaythreemorebodiesarrivedfordissection.Thesamepublicappeared,butthistimetheatmospherewaslesstense,fortheyknewmeandhadseenmywork.Thosepresenttookamorelivelyinterest,madeanumberofastuteandprovocativecomments,andoncertainpointsthediscussiongrewquiteanimated.Afterthedepartureofthe
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SSdoctors,severalFrenchandGreekdoctorspaidmeacallandaskedifIwouldinstructtheminthetechniqueoflumbarpunctures.Theyalsorequestedmetograntthemauthorizationtotrytheoperationonsomeofthebodiesgivenme,arequestIreadilygranted.Iwasdeeplymovedtofindthat,eveninsidethebarbedwirefences,theycontinuedtomanifestsuchaninterestintheir
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profession.Theyattemptedthepunctureandaftersixorseventriesatlastsucceeded,thenwithdrew,quitepleasedwiththeirafternoon'swork.
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VIForthenextthreedaysI
hadnothingtodo.Iwasstilldrawingthesupplementaryrationsissuedtodoctors,butIspentmostofmytimeeitherstretchedoutonmybedorseatedonthebleachersofthestadium,whichwaslocatednotfarfromFCamp.Yes,evenAuschwitzhaditsstadium.Butitwasreservedexclusivelyfortheuseofthe
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GermanprisonersoftheThirdReich,whoactedasclerksinvariouscampsections.OnSundaysthestadiumwastheexcitedhubofsportsactivity,butonweekdaysthevastfieldlayquietandempty.Onlyabarbedwirefenceseparatedthestadiumfromnumberonecrematorium.Iwantedverymuchtoknowjustwhatwentonintheshadowoftheimmensestack,whichnever
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ceasedspewingtonguesofflame.FromwhereIwassittingtherewasnotmuchonecouldsee.Andtoapproachthebarbedwirewasunwise,forthewatchtowermachinegunssprayedtheareawithoutwarningtofrightenawayanyonewhohappenedtowanderintothisNo-Man's-Land.Nevertheless,Isawthata
groupofmenincivilianclotheswasliningupinthe
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crematoriumcourtyard,directlyinfrontofthered-brickbuilding:therewereabout200inall,withanSSguardinfront.Itlookedtomelikearollcall,andIassumedthatthiswasthenightwatchbeingrelievedbytheoncomingdaywatch.Forthecrematoriumsranonatwenty-four-hourschedule,asIlearnedfromafellowprisoner,whoalsoinformedmethatthecrematorium
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personnelwereknownastheSonderkommando,whichmeans,merely,kommandosassignedtospecialwork.Theywerewellfedandgivencivilianclothes.Theywereneverpermittedtoleavethegroundsofthecrematorium,andeveryfourmonths,whentheyhadlearnedtoomuchabouttheplacefortheirowngood,theywereliquidated.Tillnowsuchhadbeenthefateofevery
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SonderkommandosincethefoundingoftheKZ;thisexplainswhynoonehadeverescapedtotelltheworldwhathadbeentakingplaceinsidethesegrimwallsforthepastseveralyears.IreturnedtoBarracks12
justintimeforDr.Mengele'sarrival.Hedroveupandwasreceivedbythebarracksguard,thensentformeandaskedmetojoinhiminhiscar.Thistimetherewasno
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guardwithus.WeweregonebeforeIevenhadtimetosaygoodbyetomycolleagues.HestoppedinfrontoftheCampOfficeandaskedDr.Sentkellertogetmycard,thenstartedoffagainalongthebumpyroad.Forabouttwelveminutes
wedrovethroughthelabyrinthofbarbedwireandenteredwell-guardedgates,thuspassingfromonesectiontoanother.OnlythendidI
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realizehowvasttheKZwas.Fewpeoplehadthepossibilityofverifyingthatfact,becausethemajoritydiedattheveryplacetowhichtheyweresentwhentheyfirstarrived.LaterIlearnedthattheAuschwitzKZhadatcertainperiods,heldmorethan100,000peoplewithinitsenclosureofelectrifiedbarbedwire.2Dr.Mengelesuddenly
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interruptedmymeditations.Withoutturning,hesaid:"TheplaceI'mtakingyoutoisnosanatorium,butyou'llfindthatconditionstherearenottoobad."Weleftthecampand
skirtedtheJewishunloadingrampforabout300yards.Alargearmoredgateinthebarbedwireopenedbehindtheguard.Wewentin:beforeuslayaspaciouscourtyard,coveredwithgreengrass.The
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gravelpathsandtheshadeofthepinetreeswouldhavemadetheplacequitepleasanthadtherenotbeen,attheendofthecourtyard,anenormousredbrickbuildingandachimneyspittingflame.Wewereinoneofthecrematoriums.Westayedinthecar.AnSSranupandsalutedDr.Mengele.Thenwegotout,crossedthecourtyardandwentthroughalargedoorintothe
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crematorium."Istheroomready?"Dr.
Mengeleaskedtheguard."Yes,sir,"themanreplied.Weheadedtowardsit,Dr.
Mengeleleadingtheway.Theroominquestionwas
freshlywhitewashedandwelllightedbyalargewindow,which,however,wasbarred.Thefurnishings,afterthoseofthebarracks,surprisedme:awhitebed;acloset,alsowhite;alargetableandsome
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chairs.Onthetable,aredvelvettablecloth.Theconcretefloorwascoveredwithhandsomerugs.IhadtheimpressionIwasexpected.TheSonderkommandomenhadpaintedtheroomandoutfitteditwithobjectsthattheprecedingconvoyshadleftbehind.Wethenpassedthroughadarkcorridoruntilwereachedanotherroom,averybright,completelymoderndissectingroom,with
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twowindows.Thefloorwasofredconcrete;inthecenteroftheroom,mountedonaconcretebase,stoodadissectingtableofpolishedmarble,equippedwithseveraldrainagechannels.Attheedgeofthetableabasinwithnickeltapshadbeeninstalled;againstthewall,threeporcelainsinks.Thewallswerepaintedalightgreen,andlargebarredwindowswerecoveredwithgreen
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metalscreenstokeepoutfliesandmosquitoes.Weleftthedissectingroom
forthenextroom:theworkroom.Heretherewerefancychairsandpaintings;inthemiddleoftheroom,alargetablecoveredwithagreencloth;allabout,comfortablearmchairs.Icountedthreemicroscopesonthetable.Inonecornertherewasawell-stockedlibrary,whichcontainedthemostrecent
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editions.Inanothercorneracloset,inwhichwerestowedwhitesmocks,aprons,towelsandrubbergloves.Inshort,theexactreplicaofanylargecity'sinstituteofpathology.Itookitallin,paralyzed
withfright.AssoonasIhadcomethroughthemaingateIhadrealizedthatIwasondeath'spath.Aslowdeath,openingitsmaddeningdepthsbeforeme.IfeltIwaslost.NowIunderstoodwhyI
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hadbeengivencivilianclothes.ThiswastheuniformoftheSonderkommando—thekommandooftheliving-dead.Mychiefwaspreparingto
leave;heinformedtheSSguardthatasfaras"service"wasconcernedIdependedexclusivelyonhim.Thecrematorium'sSSpersonnelhadnojurisdictionoverme.TheSSkitchenhadtoprovidemyfood;Icouldget
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mylinenandsupplementaryclothingattheSSwarehouse.Forshavesandhaircuts,IhadtherighttousetheSSbarbershopinthebuilding.Iwouldnothavetobepresentfortheeveningormorningrollcall.Besidesmylaboratoryand
anatomicalwork,Iwasalsoresponsibleforthemedicalcareofallthecrematorium'sSSpersonnel—about120men—aswellasthe
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Sonderkommando—about860prisoners.Medicines,medicalinstruments,dressings,allinsufficientquantity,wereatmydisposal.Sothattheyshouldreceivesuitablemedicalattention,Ihadtovisitallthosesickinthecrematoriumonceaday,andsometimeseventwice.Icouldcirculateamongthefourcrematoriumswithoutapassfrom7:00a.m.till700p.m.Iwouldhavetomake
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outadailyreporttotheSScommandantandtotheSonderkommandoOberschaarfuhrerMussfeld,listingthenumberofill,bedriddenandambulatorypatients.Ilistened,almost
paralyzed,totheenumerationofmyrightsandduties.Undersuchconditions,IshouldbetheKZ'smostimportantfigure,wereInotinthe
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Sonderkommandoandwereallthisnottakingplaceinthe"NumberoneKrema"Dr.Mengeleleftwithouta
word.NeverdidanSS,nomatterhowlowinrank,greetaKZprisoner.Ilockedthedoortothedissectingroom;fromnowonitwasmyresponsibility.Ireturnedtomyroomand
satdown,wantingtocollectmythoughts.Itwasnoteasy.Iwentbacktothebeginning.
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Theimageofmyabandonedhomecamebacktome.Icouldseetheneatlittlehouse,withitssunnyterracesandpleasantrooms,roomsinwhichIhadspentsomanylongandtryinghourswithmypatients,butwiththesatisfactionofknowingIhadgiventhemcomfortandstrength.ThesamehouseinwhichIhadspentsomanyhoursofhappinesswithmyfamily.
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Wehadalreadybeenseparatedforaweek.Wherecouldtheybe,lostinthisenormousmass,anonymous,likeallthoseswallowedbythisgiganticprison?Hadmydaughterbeenabletostaywithhermother,orhadtheyalreadybeenseparated?Whathadhappenedtomyagedparents,whoselastyearsIhadtriedtomakemorepleasant?Whathadbecomeofmybelovedyoungersister,
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whomIhadraisedpracticallyasmyownchildafterourfatherhadfallenill?Ithadbeensuchapleasuretoloveandhelpthem.Ihadnodoubtabouttheirfate.Theywerecertainlyenroutetooneoftheforty-cartrainsthatwouldbringthemheretotheJewishrampoftheAuschwitzexterminationcamp.WithonemechanicalwaveofhishandDr.Mengelewoulddirectmyparentsintothe
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left-handcolumn.Andmysisterwouldalsojointhatcolumn,forevenifshewereorderedintotheright-handcolumn,shewouldsurelybeg,onbendedknee,forpermissiontogowithourmother.Sotheywouldlethergo,andshe,withtearsinhereyes,wouldshowerthemwiththanks.Thenewsofmyarrivalhad
spreadlikewildfirethroughoutthecrematorium.
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BoththeSSpersonnelassignedhereandtheSonderkommandocametocallonme.ThedoorwasfirstopenedbyanSSnoncom.Twoextremelytall,militantlookingSchaarfuhrerentered.IknewthattheattitudeIthenassumedwoulddeterminetheirconducttowardsmeinthefuture.IrecalledDr.Mengele'sorder:Iwasresponsibleonlytohim.ConsequentlyIconsidered
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thisvisitmerelyasaprivateactofcourtesy,andremainedseatedinsteadofrisingandstandingatattention.Igreetedthemandaskedthemtositdown.Theystoppedinthemiddle
oftheroomandlookedmeover.Ifeltthefullimportanceofthismoment:itwasthefirstimpressionthatcounted.Itseemedtomethatmymannerwasthebestonetohaveadopted,fortheirrigid
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facemusclesrelaxedslightlyand,withagestureofcarelessindifference,theysatdown.Thescopeofour
conversationwasextremelylimited.Howwasmytrip?WhatwasIdoingintheKZ?Thesewerequestionstheycouldnotask,fortheanswerswouldembarrassthem.Whereaspolitics,thewar,andconditionsintheKZweresubjectsIcouldnotbroach.Still,thisdidnot
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botherme,fortheyearsIhadspentinprewarGermanyfurnishedplentyofmaterialfordiscussion.TheyweremuchimpressedbythefactthatIspoketheirownlanguagebetter,oratleastinamoreculturedmanner,thantheydid.Isoonrealizedthattherewereevencertainexpressionstheydidnotunderstand,althoughtheycarefullyrefrainedfromlettingmeknowit.Iknew
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theircountrywell,wasfullyinformedaboutlifeintheircitiesandtheirhomes,andabouttheirreligiousandmoralconcepts.Soconversationwasnotoverlydifficultforme.Ihadafeelingthatthisexaminationhadalsobeenasuccess,fortheyleftsmiling.Morevisitorsarrived,men
incivilianclothes,cleanshavenandsmartlydressed.TheKapo-in-
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chief3andtwoofhismenenteredmyroom.Thistoowasacourtesycall.Ilearnedthattheyweretheoneswhohadhadmyroomprepared.Theyhadheardofmyarrivalandinvitedmetodinewiththemandmeettheotherprisoners.Asamatteroffactitwas
almostdinnertime.Ifollowedthemupthestairstothesecondstoryofthe
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crematoriumwheretheprisonerslived:anenormousroom,withcomfortablebunksliningbothwalls.Thebunksweremadeofunpaintedwood,butoneachonesilkcoverletsandembroideredpillowsshone.Thiscolorful,expensivebeddingwascompletelyoutofkeepingwiththeatmosphereoftheplace.Ithadnotbeenmadehere,butleftbymembersofearlier
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convoyswhohadbroughtitwiththemintocaptivity.TheSonderkommandowasallowedtodrawitfromthestoreroomsanduseit.Thewholeroomwas
bathedinadazzlinglight,forheretheydidnoteconomizeonelectricityastheydidinthebarracks.Ourwayledbetweenthelongrowofbunks.Onlyhalfthekommandowaspresent;theotherhalf,aboutahundred
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men,wasonthenightshift.Someofthoseherewerealreadyinbedasleep,whileotherswerereading.Therewereplentyofbookstobehad,forweJewsareapeoplewholiketoread.Eachprisonerhadbroughtsomebookswithhim,thenumberandtypedependinguponhislevelofintelligenceandeducation.Tohavebooksandbeabletoreadwasyetanotherprivilegegrantedto
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theSonderkommando.IntheKZanyonecaughtreadingwaspunishedwithtwentydays'solitaryconfinement,inasortofsentryboxjustlargeenoughtostandupin.Unless,ofcourse,theblowsdealthimbeforehandhadalreadykilledhim.Thetableawakinguswas
coveredwithaheavysilkbrocadetablecloth;fineinitialledporcelaindishes;andplacesettingsofsilver:
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moreobjectsthathadoncebelongedtothedeportees.Thetablewaspiledhighwithchoiceandvarieddishes,everythingadeportedpeoplecouldcarrywiththemintotheuncertainfuture:allsortsofpreserves,bacon,jellies,severalkindsofsalami,cakesandchocolate.FromthelabelsInoticedthatsomeofthefoodhadbelongedtoHungariandeportees.Allperishablefoods
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automaticallybecamethepropertyofthelegalheirs,ofthosewhowerestillalive,thatis,theSonderkommando.Seatedaroundthetable
weretheKapo-in-chief,theengineer,theheadchauffeur,thekommandoleader,the"toothpullers"andtheheadofthegoldsmelters.Theirwelcomewasmostcordial.Theyofferedmealltheyhad,andtherewasanabundanceofeverything,forthe
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Hungarianconvoyscontinuedtoarriveatanever-increasingrateandtheybroughtagreatdealoffoodwiththem.Ifounditdifficultto
swallow,however.Icouldnothelpthinkingofmyfellow-suffererswho,beforestartingontheirexodus,hadgatheredandpreparedtheirprovisions.Theyhadbeenhungry,buthadrefrainedfromeatingduringtheentiretripinordertosavetheir
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meagerrationsfortheirparents,theirchildrenandthemoredifficulttimesahead.Onlythemoredifficulttimeshadnevercome:inthelobbyofthecrematoriumthefoodhadremaineduntouched.Idranksometeaspiked
withrum.AfterafewglassesImanagedtorelax.Mymindclearedandfreeditselfoftheunpleasantthoughtsthathadbeenplaguingit.Apleasantwarmthpenetratedme:the
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voluptuouseffectsofthealcohol,comfortingasthecaressofamother'shand.Thecigaretteswewere
smokinghadalsobeen"ImportedfromHungary."Inthecampproperasinglecigarettewaswortharationofbread:hereonthetablelayhundredsofpackages.Ourconversationgrew
moreandmorespirited.Poland,France,Greece,GermanyandItalywere
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representedaroundthetable.SincemostofusunderstoodGermanitservedasourcommonlanguage.FromtheconversationIlearnedthehistoryofthecrematoriums.Tensofthousandsofprisonershadbuiltthemofstoneandconcrete,finishingtheminthemiddleofanextremelyrigorouswinter.Everystonewasstainedwiththeirblood.Theyhadworkeddayandnight,oftenwithout
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foodordrink,dressedinmeretatters,sothattheseinfernaldeath-factories,whosefirstvictimstheybecame,mightbefinishedintime.Sincethenfouryearshad
passed.Countlessthousandshadsinceclimbeddownfromtheboxcarsandcrossedthethresholdsofthecrematoriums.ThepresentSonderkommandowasthetwelfthtobearthename.Ilearnedthehistoryofeach
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precedingSonderkommando,whenit"reigned"andwhoitsheroeswere,andIwasremindedofafactIalreadyknew:thattheSonderkommando'slifespanwasonlyafewmonthsatthemost.Whoeveramongthem
practicedtheJewishfaithcouldthusbegin,onthedayofhisarrival,thepurificationceremonyinpreparationfordeath.Fordeathwouldcome
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tohimassurelyasithadcometoeverymemberofalltheprecedingSonderkommandos.Itwasalmostmidnight.
Thecompanyassembledaroundthetablewaswearyfromtheday'sworkandtheevening'sconsumptionofalcohol.Ourconversationgrewmoreandmorelistless.AnSSmakinghisroundsstoppedtoremindusthatitwashightimewewerein
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bed.Itookleaveofmynewcompanionsandreturnedtomyroom.ThankstotherumIhaddrunkandmytirednerves,Ispentarelativelyquietfirstnight.
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VIIThestridentwhistleofa
trainwasheardcomingfromthedirectionoftheunloadingplatform.Itwasstillveryearly.Iapproachedmywindow,fromwhichIhadadirectviewontothetracks,andsawaverylongtrain.Afewsecondslaterthedoorsslidopenandtheboxcarsspilledoutthousandsuponthousandsofthechosen
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peopleofIsrael.Lineupandselectiontookscarcelyhalfanhour.Theleft-handcolumnmovedslowlyaway.Ordersrangout,andthe
soundofrapidfootstepsreachedmyroom.Thesoundscamefromthefurnaceroomsofthecrematorium:theywerepreparingtowelcomethenewconvoy.Thethrobofmotorsbegan.Theyhadjustsettheenormousventilatorsgoingtofantheflames,in
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ordertoobtainthedesireddegreeintheovens.Fifteenventilatorsweregoingsimultaneously,onebesideeachoven.Theincinerationroomwasabout500feetlong:itwasabright,whitewashedroomwithaconcretefloorandbarredwindows.Eachofthesefifteenovenswashousedinaredbrickstructure.Immenseirondoors,well-polishedandgleaming,ominouslylined
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thelengthofthewall.Infiveorsixminutestheconvoyreachedthegate,whoseswing-doorsopenedinwards.Fiveabreast,thegroupenteredthecourtyard;itwasthemomentaboutwhichtheoutsideworldknewnothing,foranyonewhomighthaveknownsomethingaboutit,afterhavingtraveledthepathofhisdestiny—the300yardsseparatingthatspotfromtheramp—hadnever
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returnedtotellthetale.Itwasoneofthecrematoriumswhichawaitedthosewhohadbeenselectedfortheleft-handcolumn.Andnot,astheGermanliehadmadetheright-handcolumnsupposeinordertoallaytheiranxiety,acampforthesickandchildren,wheretheinfirmcaredforthelittleones.Theyadvancedwithslow,
wearysteps.Thechildren'seyeswereheavywithsleep
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andtheyclungtotheirmothers'clothes.Forthemostpartthebabieswerecarriedintheirfathers'arms,orelsewheeledintheircarriages.TheSSguardsremainedbeforethecrematoriumdoors,whereaposterannounced:"EntranceisStrictlyForbiddentoAllWhoHaveNoBusinessHere,IncludingSS."Thedeporteeswerequick
tonoticethewaterfaucets,
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usedforsprinklingthegrass,thatwerearrangedaboutthecourtyard.Theybegantotakepotsandpansfromtheirluggage,andbrokeranks,pushingandshovinginanefforttogetnearthefaucetsandfilltheircontainers.Thattheywereimpatientwasnotastonishing:forthepastfivedaystheyhadhadnothingtodrink.Ifevertheyhadfoundalittlewater,ithadbeenstagnantandhadnot
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quenchedtheirthirst.TheSSguardswhoreceivedtheconvoyswereusedtothescene.Theywaitedpatientlytilleachhadquenchedhisthirstandfilledhiscontainer.Inanycase,theguardsknewthataslongastheyhadnotdrunktherewouldbenogettingthembackintoline.Slowlytheybegantore-formtheirranks.Thentheyadvancedforabout100yardsalongacinderpathedged
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withgreengrasstoanironramp,fromwhich10or12concretestepsledundergroundtoanenormousroomdominatedbyalargesigninGerman,French,GreekandHungarian:"BathsandDisinfectingRoom."Thesignwasreassuring,andallayedthemisgivingsorfearsofeventhemostsuspiciousamongthem.Theywentdownthestairsalmostgaily.
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Theroomintowhichtheconvoyproceededwasabout200yardslong:itswallswerewhitewashedanditwasbrightlylit.Inthemiddleoftheroom,rowsofcolumns.Aroundthecolumns,aswellasalongthewalls,benches.Abovethebenches,numberedcoathangers.Numeroussignsinseverallanguagesdreweveryone'sattentiontothenecessityoftyinghisclothesandshoes
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together.Especiallythathenotforgetthenumberofhiscoathanger,inordertoavoidalluselessconfusionuponhisreturnfromthebath."That'sreallyaGerman
order,"commentedthosewhohadlongbeeninclinedtoadmiretheGermans.Theywereright.Asa
matteroffact,itwasforthesakeoforderthatthesemeasureshadbeentaken,sothatthethousandsofpairsof
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goodshoessorelyneededbytheThirdReichwouldnotgetmixedup.Thesamefortheclothes,sothatthepopulationofbombedcitiescouldeasilymakeuseofthem.Therewere3,000peoplein
theroom:men,womenandchildren.Someofthesoldiersarrivedandannouncedthateveryonemustbecompletelyundressedwithintenminutes.Theaged,grandfathersandgrandmothers;thechildren;
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wivesandhusbands;allwerestruckdumbwithsurprise.Modestwomenandgirlslookedateachotherquestioningly.PerhapstheyhadnotexactlyunderstoodtheGermanwords.Theydidnothavelongtothinkaboutit,however,fortheorderresoundedagain,thistimeinalouder,moremenacingtone.Theywereuneasy;theirdignityrebelled;but,withtheresignationpeculiartotheir
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race,havinglearnedthatanythingwentasfarastheywereconcerned,theyslowlybegantoundress.Theaged,theparalyzed,themadwerehelpedbyaSonderkommandosquadsentforthatpurpose.Intenminutesallwerecompletelynaked,theirclotheshungonthepegs,theirshoesattachedtogetherbythelaces.Asforthenumberofeachclotheshanger,ithadbeencarefully
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noted.Makinghiswaythrough
thecrowd,anSSopenedtheswing-doorsofthelargeoakengateattheendoftheroom.Thecrowdflowedthroughitintoanother,equallywell-lightedroom.Thissecondroomwasthesamesizeasthefirst,butneitherbenchesnorpegsweretobeseen.Inthecenteroftherooms,atthirty-yardintervals,columnsrosefrom
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theconcretefloortotheceiling.Theywerenotsupportingcolumns,butsquaresheet-ironpipes,thesidesofwhichcontainednumerousperforations,likeawirelattice.Everyonewasinside.A
hoarsecommandrangout:"SSandSonderkommandoleavetheroom."Theyobeyedandcountedoff.Thedoorsswungshutandfromwithoutthelightswereswitchedoff.
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Atthatveryinstantthesoundofacarwasheard:adeluxemodel,furnishedbytheInternationalRedCross.AnSSofficerandaSDG(Sanitatsdienstgefreiter:DeputyHealthServiceOfficer)steppedoutofthecar.TheDeputyHealthOfficerheldfourgreensheet-ironcanisters.Headvancedacrossthegrass,where,everythirtyyards,shortconcretepipesjuttedupfromthe
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ground.Havingdonnedhisgasmask,heliftedthelidofthepipe,whichwasalsomadeofconcrete.Heopenedoneofthecansandpouredthecontents—amauvegranulatedmaterial—intotheopening.Thegranulatedsubstancefellinalumptothebottom.Thegasitproducedescapedthroughtheperforations,andwithinafewsecondsfilledtheroominwhichthedeporteeswere
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stacked.Withinfiveminuteseverybodywasdead.Foreveryconvoyitwasthe
samestory.RedCrosscarsbroughtthegasfromtheoutside.Therewasneverastockofitinthecrematorium.Theprecautionwasscandalous,butstillmorescandalouswasthefactthatthegaswasbroughtinacarbearingtheinsigniaoftheInternationalRedCross.Inordertobecertainof
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theirbusinessthetwogas-butcherswaitedanotherfiveminutes.Thentheylightedcigarettesanddroveoffintheircar.Theyhadjustkilled3,000innocents.Twentyminuteslaterthe
electricventilatorsweresetgoinginordertoevacuatethegas.Thedoorsopened,thetrucksarrived,andaSonderkommandosquadloadedtheclothingandtheshoesseparately.Theywere
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goingtodisinfectthem.Thistimeitwasacaseofrealdisinfection.Latertheywouldtransportthembyrailtovariouspartsofthecountry.Theventilators,patented
"Exhator"system,quicklyevacuatedthegasfromtheroom,butinthecranniesbetweenthedeadandthecracksofthedoorssmallpocketsofitalwaysremained.Eventwohourslateritcausedasuffocating
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cough.ForthatreasontheSonderkommandogroupwhichfirstmovedintotheroomwasequippedwithgasmasks.Onceagaintheroomwaspowerfullylighted,revealingahorriblespectacle.Thebodieswerenotlying
hereandtherethroughouttheroom,butpiledinamasstotheceiling.Thereasonforthiswasthatthegasfirstinundatedthelowerlayersofairandrosebutslowly
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towardstheceiling.Thisforcedthevictimstotrampleoneanotherinafranticefforttoescapethegas.Yetafewfeethigherupthegasreachedthem.Whatastruggleforlifetheremusthavebeen!Neverthelessitwasmerelyamatteroftwoorthreeminutes'respite.Iftheyhadbeenabletothinkaboutwhattheyweredoing,theywouldhaverealizedtheyweretramplingtheirownchildren,
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theirwives,theirrelatives.Buttheycouldn'tthink.Theirgestureswerenomorethanthereflexesoftheinstinctofself-preservation.Inoticedthatthebodiesofthewomen,thechildren,andtheagedwereatthebottomofthepile;atthetop,thestrongest.Theirbodies,whichwerecoveredwithscratchesandbruisesfromthestrugglewhichhadsetthemagainsteachother,wereofteninterlaced.Blood
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oozedfromtheirnosesandmouths;theirfaces,bloatedandblue,weresodeformedastobealmostunrecognizable.NeverthelesssomeoftheSonderkommandooftendidrecognizetheirkin.Theencounterwasnoteasy,andIdreadeditformyself.Ihadnoreasontobehere,andyetIhadcomedownamongthedead.Ifeltitmydutytomypeopleandtotheentireworld
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tobeabletogiveanaccurateaccountofwhatIhadseenifever,bysomemiraculouswhimoffate,Ishouldescape.TheSonderkommando
squad,outfittedwithlargerubberboots,lineduparoundthehillofbodiesandfloodeditwithpowerfuljetsofwater.Thiswasnecessarybecausethefinalactofthosewhodiebydrowningorbygasisaninvoluntarydefecation.Eachbodywasbefouled,andhad
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tobewashed.Oncethe"bathing"ofthedeadwasfinished—ajobtheSonderkommandocarriedoutbyavoluntaryactofimpersonalizationandinastateofprofounddistress—theseparationofthewelterofbodiesbegan.Itwasadifficultjob.Theyknottedthongsaroundthewrists,whichwereclenchedinavise-likegrip,andwiththesethongstheydraggedthe
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slipperybodiestotheelevatorsinthenextroom.Fourgood-sizedelevatorswerefunctioning.Theyloadedtwentytotwenty-fivecorpsestoanelevator.Theringofabellwasthesignalthattheloadwasreadytoascend.Theelevatorstoppedatthecrematorium'sincinerationroom,wherelargeslidingdoorsopenedautomatically.Thekommandowhooperatedthe
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trailerswasreadyandwaiting.Againstrapswerefixedtothewristsofthedead,andtheyweredraggedontospeciallyconstructedchuteswhichunloadedtheminfrontofthefurnaces.Thebodieslayinclose
ranks:theold,theyoung,thechildren.Bloodoozedfromtheirnosesandmouths,aswellasfromtheirskin—abradedbytherubbing—andmixedwiththewater
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runninginthegutterssetintheconcretefloor.Thenanewphaseofthe
exploitationandutilizationofJewishbodiestookplace.TheThirdReichhadalreadytakentheirclothesandshoes.Hairwasalsoapreciousmaterial,duetothefactthatitexpandsandcontractsuniformly,nomatterwhatthehumidityoftheair.Humanhairwasoftenusedindelayedactionbombs,where
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itsparticularqualitiesmadeithighlyusefulfordetonatingpurposes.Sotheyshavedthedead.Butthatwasnotall.
AccordingtothesloganstheGermansparadedandshoutedtoeveryoneathomeandabroad,theThirdReichwasnotbasedonthe"goldstandard,"butonthe"workstandard."Maybetheymeanttheyhadtoworkhardertogettheirgoldthanmostcountries
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did.Atanyrate,thedeadwerenextsenttothe"tooth-pulling"kommando,whichwasstationedinfrontoftheovens.Consistingofeightmen,thiskommandoequippeditsmemberswithtwotools,or,ifyoulike,twoinstruments.Inonehandalever,andintheotherapairofpliersforextractingtheteeth.Thedeadlayontheirbacks;thekommandopriedopenthecontractedjawwith
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hislever;then,withhispliers,heextracted,orbrokeoff,allgoldteeth,aswellasanygoldbridgeworkandfillings.Allmembersofthekommandowerefinestomatologistsanddentalsurgeons.WhenDr.Mengelehadcalledforcandidatescapableofperformingthedelicateworkofstomatologyanddentalsurgery,theyhadvolunteeredingoodfaith,firmlybelievingtheywouldbeallowedto
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exercisetheirprofessioninthecamp.ExactlyasIhaddone.Thegoldteethwere
collectedinbucketsfilledwithanacidwhichburnedoffallpiecesofboneandflesh.Othervaluableswornbythedead,suchasnecklaces,pearls,weddingbandsandrings,weretakenanddroppedthroughaslotinthelidofastrongbox.Goldisaheavymetal,andIwouldjudgethat
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from18to20poundsofitwerecollecteddailyineachcrematorium.Itvaried,tobesure,fromoneconvoytothenext,forsomeconvoyswerecomparativelywealthy,whileothers,fromruraldistricts,werenaturallypoorer.TheHungarianconvoys
arrivedalreadystripped.ButtheDutch,Czech,andPolishconvoys,evenafterseveralyearsintheghettos,hadmanagedtokeepandbring
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theirjewelry,theirgoldandtheirdollarswiththem.InthiswaytheGermansamassedconsiderabletreasures.Whenthelastgoldtooth
hadbeenremoved,thebodieswenttotheincinerationkommando.Theretheywerelaidbythreesonakindofpushcartmadeofsheetmetal.Theheavydoorsoftheovensopenedautomatically;thepushcartmovedintoa
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furnaceheatedtoincandescence.Thebodieswerecremated
intwentyminutes.Eachcrematoriumworkedwithfifteenovens,andtherewerefourcrematoriums.Thismeantthatseveralthousandpeoplecouldbecrematedinasingleday.Thusforweeksandmonths—evenyears—severalthousandpeoplepassedeachdaythroughthegaschambersandfromthere
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totheincinerationovens.Nothingbutapileofashesremainedinthecrematoryovens.TruckstooktheashestotheVistula,amileaway,anddumpedthemintotheragingwatersoftheriver.Aftersomuchsuffering
andhorrortherewasstillnopeace,evenforthedead.
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VIIIThelaboratoryof
pathologywassetupattheinstigationofmysuperior,Dr.Mengele,andwasdestinedtosatisfyhisambitionsintheareaofmedicalresearch.Ithadbeencompletedonlyafewdaysbefore.Allthatwasneededforittostartfunctioningwasadoctorcapableoftakingcharge.
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TheconfinesoftheKZofferedvastpossibilitiesforresearch,firstinthefieldofforensicmedicine,becauseofthehighsuiciderate,andalsointhefieldofpathology,becauseoftherelativelyhighpercentageofdwarfs,giantsandotherabnormaltypesofhumanbeings.Theabundance—unequaledelsewhereintheworld—ofcorpses,andthefactthatonecoulddisposeofthemfreely
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forpurposesofresearch,openedevenwiderhorizons.Iknewfromexperience
that,whereastheclinicsinmostmajorcitiesoftheworldmanagedtofurnishtheirinstitutesofforensicmedicinewithfrom100to150bodiesforpurposesofresearch,theAuschwitzKZwascapableoffurnishingliterallymillions.AnypersonwhohadenteredthegatesoftheKZwasacandidatefordeath.He
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whosedestinyhaddirectedhimintotheleft-handcolumnwastransformedbythegaschambersintoacorpsewithinanhourafterhisarrival.Lessfortunatewashewhomadversityhadsingledoutfortheright-handcolumn.Hewasstillacandidatefordeath,butwiththisdifference,thatforthreeorfourmonths,oraslongashecouldendure,hehadtosubmittoallthehorrorsthe
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KZhadtooffer,tillhedroppedfromutterexhaustion.Hebledfromathousandwounds.Hisbellywascontortedwithhunger,hiseyeswerehaggard,andhemoanedlikeonedemented.Hedraggedhisbodyacrossthefieldsofsnowtillhecouldgonofarther.Traineddogssnappedathiswretched,fleshlessframe,andwheneventheliceforsookhisdesiccatedbody,thenthe
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hourofdeliverance,thehourofredeemingdeathwascloseathand.Whothen—ofourparents,brothers,children—wasmorefortunate,hewhowenttotheleftorhewhowenttotheright?Whentheconvoysarrived,
soldiersscoutedtherankslinedupbeforetheboxcars,huntingfortwinsanddwarfs.Mothers,hopingforspecialtreatmentfortheirtwinchildren,readilygavethem
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uptothescouts.Adulttwins,knowingthattheywereofinterestfromascientificpointofview,voluntarilypresentedthemselves,inthehopeofbettertreatment.Thesamefordwarfs.Theywereseparatedfrom
therestandherdedtotheright.Theywereallowedtokeeptheircivilianclothes;guardsaccompaniedthemtospeciallydesignedbarracks,wheretheyweretreatedwith
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acertainregard.Theirfoodwasgood,theirbunkswerecomfortable,andpossibilitiesforhygienewereprovided.Theywerehousedin
Barracks14ofCampF.FromtheretheyweretakenbytheirguardstotheexperimentationbarracksoftheGypsyCamp,andexposedtoeverymedicalexaminationthatcanbeperformedonhumanbeings:bloodtests,lumbarpunctures,exchangesofbloodbetween
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twinbrothers,aswellasnumerousotherexaminations,allfatiguinganddepressing.Dina,thepainterfromPrague,madethecomparativestudiesofthestructureofthetwins'skulls,ears,noses,mouths,handsandfeet.Eachdrawingwasclassifiedinafilesetupforthatexpresspurpose,completewithallindividualcharacteristics;intothisfilewouldalsogothefinalresults
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ofthisresearch.Theprocedurewasthesameforthedwarfs.Theexperiments,in
medicallanguagecalledinvivo,i.e.,experimentsperformedonlivehumanbeings,werefarfromexhaustingtheresearchpossibilitiesinthestudyoftwins.Fulloflacunae,theyofferednobetterthanpartialresults.Theinvivoexperimentsweresucceeded
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bythemostimportantphaseoftwin-study:thecomparativeexaminationfromtheviewpointsofanatomyandpathology.Hereitwasaquestionofcomparingthetwins'healthyorganswiththosefunctioningabnormally,orofcomparingtheirillnesses.Forthatstudy,asforallstudiesofapathologicalnature,corpseswereneeded.Sinceitwasnecessarytoperforma
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dissectionforthesimultaneousevaluationofanomalies,thetwinshadtodieatthesametime.SoitwasthattheymettheirdeathintheBsectionofoneofAuschwitz'sKZbarracks,atthehandofDr.Mengele.Thisphenomenonwas
uniqueinworldmedicalsciencehistory.Twinbrothersdiedtogether,anditwaspossibletoperformautopsiesonboth.Where,
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undernormalcircumstances,canonefindtwinbrotherswhodieatthesameplaceandatthesametime?Fortwins,likeeveryoneelse,areseparatedbylife'svaryingcircumstances.Theylivefarfromeachotherandalmostneverdiesimultaneously.Onemaydieattheageoften,theotheratfifty.Undersuchconditionscomparativedissectionisimpossible.IntheAuschwitzcamp,
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however,therewereseveralhundredsetsoftwins,andthereforeasmanypossibilitiesofdissection.Thatwaswhy,onthearrivalplatform,Dr.Mengeleseparatedtwinsanddwarfsfromtheotherprisoners.Thatwaswhybothspecialgroupsweredirectedtotheright-handcolumn,andthencetothebarracksofthespared.Thatwaswhytheyhadgoodfoodandhygienicliving
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conditions,sothattheydidn'tcontaminateeachotheranddieonebeforetheother.Theyhadtodietogether,andingoodhealth.TheSonderkommando
chiefcamehuntingformeandannouncedthatanSSsoldierwaswaitingformeatthedoorofthecrematoriumwithacrewofcorpse-transportingkommandos.Iwentinsearchofthem,fortheywereforbiddentoenter
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thecourtyard.ItookthedocumentsconcerningthecorpsesfromthehandsoftheSS.Theycontainedfilesontwolittletwinbrothers.Thekommandocrew,madeupentirelyofwomen,setthecoveredcoffindowninfrontofme.Iliftedthelid.Insidelayasetoftwo-year-oldtwins.Iorderedtwoofmymentotakethecorpsesandplacethemonthedissectingtable.
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Iopenedthefileandglancedthroughit.Verydetailedclinicalexaminations,accompaniedbyX-rays,descriptions,andartists'drawings,indicatedfromthescientificviewpointthedifferentaspectsofthesetwolittlebeings'"twinhood."Onlythepathologicalreportwasmissing.Itwasmyjobtosupplyit.Thetwinshaddiedatthesametimeandwerenowlyingbesideeachother
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onthebigdissectingtable.Itwastheywhohadto—orwhosetinybodieshadto—resolvethesecretofthereproductionoftherace.Toadvanceonestepinthesearchtounlockthesecretofmultiplyingtheraceofsuperiorbeingsdestinedtorulewasa"noblegoal."Ifonlyitwerepossible,inthefuture,tohaveeachGermanmotherbearasmanytwinsaspossible!Theproject,
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conceivedbythedementedtheoristsoftheThirdReich,wasutterlymad.AnditwastoDr.Mengele,chiefphysicianoftheAuschwitzKZ,thenotorious"criminaldoctor,"thattheseexperimentshadbeenentrusted.Amongmalefactorsand
criminals,themostdangeroustypeisthe"criminaldoctor,"especiallywhenheisarmedwithpowerssuchasthose
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grantedtoDr.Mengele.Hesentmillionsofpeopletodeathmerelybecause,accordingtoaracialtheory,theywereinferiorbeingsandthereforedetrimentaltomankind.Thissamecriminaldoctorspentlonghoursbesideme,eitherathismicroscopes,hisdisinfectingovensandhistesttubesor,standingwithequalpatiencenearthedissectingtable,hissmockbefouledwithblood,
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hisbloodyhandsexaminingandexperimentinglikeonepossessed.TheimmediateobjectivewastheincreasedreproductionoftheGermanrace.ThefinalobjectivewastheproductionofpureGermansinnumberssufficienttoreplacetheCzechs,Hungarians,Poles,allofwhomwerecondemnedtobedestroyed,butwhoforthemomentwerelivingonthoseterritoriesdeclaredvital
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totheThirdReich.Ifinishedthedissectionof
thelittletwinsandwroteoutaregulationreportofthedissection.Ididmyjobwellandmychiefappearedtobesatisfiedwithme.Buthehadsometroublereadingmyhandwriting,forallmyletterswerecapitals,ahabitIhadpickedupinAmerica.4AndsoItoldhimthatifhewantedclearcleancopy,hewould
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havetosupplymewithatypewriter,sinceIwasaccustomedtoworkwithoneinmyownpractice."Whatmaketypewriterare
youusedto?"heasked."OlympiaElite,"Isaid."Verywell,I'llsendyou
one.You'llhaveittomorrow.Iwantcleancopy,becausethesereportswillbeforwardedtotheInstituteofBiological,RacialandEvolutionaryResearchat
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Berlin-Dahlem"ThusIlearnedthatthe
experimentsperformedherewerecheckedbythehighestmedicalauthoritiesatoneofthemostfamousscientificinstitutesintheworld.ThefollowingdayanSS
soldierbroughtmean"Olympia"typewriter.Stillmorecorpsesoftwinsweresenttome.TheydeliveredmefourpairsfromtheGypsyCamp;allfourwereunderten
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yearsold.Ibeganthedissectionof
onesetoftwinsandrecordedeachphaseofmywork.Iremovedthebrainpan.TogetherwiththecerebellumIextractedthebrainandexaminedthem.Thenfollowedtheopeningofthethoraxandtheremovalofthesternum.NextIseparatedthetonguebymeansofanincisionmadebeneaththechin.Withthetonguecame
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theesophagus,withtherespiratorytractscamebothlungs.Iwashedtheorgansinordertoexaminethemmorethoroughly.Thetiniestspotorthe
slightestdifferenceincolorcouldfurnishvaluableinformation.Imadeatransverseincisionacrossthepericardiumandremovedthefluid.NextItookouttheheartandwashedit.Iturneditoverandoverinmyhandto
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examineit.Intheexteriorcoatofthe
leftventriclewasasmallpaleredspotcausedbyahypodermicinjection,whichscarcelydifferedfromthecolorofthetissuearoundit.Therecouldbenomistake.Theinjectionhadbeengivenwithaverysmallneedle.Withoutadoubtahypodermicneedle.Forwhatpurposehadhereceivedtheinjection?Injectionsintothe
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heartcanbeadministeredinextremelyseriouscases,whentheheartbeginstofail.Iwouldsoonknow.Iopenedtheheart,startingwiththeventricle.Normallythebloodcontainedintheleftventricleistakenoutandweighed.Thismethodcouldnotbeemployedinthepresentcase,becausethebloodwascoagulatedintoacompactmass.Iextractedthecoagulumwiththeforceps
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andbroughtittomynose.Iwasstruckbythecharacteristicodorofchloroform.Thevictimhadreceivedaninjectionofchloroformintheheart,sothatthebloodoftheventricle,incoagulating,woulddepositonthevalvesandcauseinstantaneousdeathbyheartfailure.Mydiscoveryofthemost
monstroussecretoftheThirdReich'smedicalsciencemade
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mykneestremble.Notonlydidtheykillwithgas,butalsowithinjectionsofchloroformintotheheart.Acoldsweatbrokeoutonmyforehead.LuckilyIwasalone.Ifothershadbeenpresentitwouldhavebeendifficultformetoconcealmyexcitement.Ifinishedthedissection,notedthedifferencesfound,andrecordedthem.Butthechloroform,thebloodcoagulatedintheleft
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ventricle,thepuncturevisibleintheexternalcoatoftheheart,didnotfigureamongmyfindings.Itwasausefulprecautiononmypart.Dr.Mengele'srecordsonthesubjectoftwinswereinmyhands.Theycontainedtheexactexaminations,X-rays,theartist'ssketchesalreadymentioned,butneitherthecircumstancesnorcausesofdeath.NordidIfilloutthatcolumnofthedissection
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report.Itwasnotagoodideatoexceedtheauthorizedboundsofknowledgeortorelateallonehadwitnessed.Andherestilllessthananywhereelse.Iwasnottimorousbynatureandmynervesweregood.DuringmymedicalpracticeIhadoftenbroughttolightthecausesofdeath.Ihadseenthebodiesofpeopleassassinatedformotivesofrevenge,jealousy,ormaterialgain,aswellas
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thoseofsuicidesandnaturaldeaths.Iwasusedtothestudyofwell-hiddencausesofdeath.OnseveraloccasionsIhadbeenshockedbymydiscoveries,butnowashudderoffearranthroughme.IfDr.MengelehadanyideathatIhaddiscoveredthesecretofhisinjectionshewouldsendtendoctors,inthenameofthepoliticalSS,toattesttomydeath.Inaccordancewithorders
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receivedIreturnedthecorpsestotheprisonerswhosedutyitwastoburnthem.Theyperformedtheirjobwithoutdelay.Ihadtokeepanyorgansofpossiblescientificinterest,sothatDr.Mengelecouldexaminethem.ThosewhichmightinteresttheAnthropologicalInstituteatBerlin-Dahlemwerepreservedinalcohol.Thesepartswerespeciallypackedtobesentthroughthe
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mails.Stamped"WarMaterial—Urgent,"theyweregiventoppriorityintransit.InthecourseofmyworkatthecrematoriumIdispatchedanimpressivenumberofsuchpackages.Ireceived,inreply,eitherprecisescientificobservationsorinstructions.InordertoclassifythiscorrespondenceIhadtosetupspecialfiles.ThedirectorsoftheBerlin-DahlemInstitutealways
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warmlythankedDr.Mengeleforthisrareandpreciousmaterial.Ifinisheddissectingthe
threeotherpairsoftwinsanddulyrecordedtheanomaliesfound.Inallthreeinstancesthecauseofdeathwasthesame:aninjectionofchloroformintotheheart.Ofthefoursetsoftwins,
threehadocularglobesofdifferentcolors.Oneeyewasbrown,theotherblue.Thisis
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aphenomenonfoundfairlyfrequentlyinnon-twins.ButinthepresentcaseInoticedthatithadoccurredinsixoutoftheeighttwins.Anextremelyinterestingcollectionofanomalies.Medicalsciencecallsthemheterochromes,whichmeans,merely,different-colored.Icutouttheeyesandputtheminasolutionofformaldehyde,notingtheircharacteristicsexactlyinordernottomix
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themup.Duringmyexaminationofthefoursetsoftwins,Idiscoveredstillanothercuriousphenomenon:whileremovingtheskinfromtheneckInoticed,justabovetheupperextremityofthesternum,atumoraboutthesizeofasmallnut.PressingonitwithmyforcepsIfoundittobefilledwithathickpus.Thisraremanifestation,wellknowntomedicalscience,indicatesthepresenceof
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hereditarysyphilisandiscalledDuBois'tumor.Lookingfarther,Ifoundthatitexistedinalleighttwins.Icutoutthetumor,leavingitsurroundedbyhealthytissue,andplaceditinanotherjarofformaldehyde.IntwosetsoftwinsIalsodiscoveredevidenceofactive,cavernoustuberculosis.Irecordedmyfindingsonthedissectionreport,butlefttheheading"CauseofDeath"blank.
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DuringtheafternoonDr.Mengelepaidmeavisit.Igavehimadetailedaccountofmymorning'sworkandhandedhimmyreport.Hesatdownandbegantoreadeachcasecarefully.Hewasgreatlyinterestedbytheheterochromaticconditionoftheeyes,butevenmoresobythediscoveryofDuBois'tumor.Hegavemeinstructionstohavetheorgansmailedandtoldmeto
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includemyreportinthepackage.Healsoinstructedmetofilloutthe"CauseofDeath"columnhithertoleftblank.Thechoiceofcauseswaslefttomyownjudgmentanddiscretion;theonlystipulationwasthateachcausebedifferent.Almostapologeticallyheremarkedthat,asIcouldseeformyself,thesechildrenweresyphiliticandtubercular,andconsequentlywouldnothave
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livedinanycase...Hesaidnomoreaboutit.Withthathehadsaidenough.Hehadexplainedthereasonforthesechildren'sdeath.Ihadrefrainedfrommakinganycomment.ButIhadlearnedthatheretuberculosisandsyphiliswerenottreatedwithmedicinesanddrugs,butwithchloroforminjections.IshudderedtothinkofallI
hadlearnedduringmyshortstayhere,andofallIshould
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yethavetowitnesswithoutprotesting,untilmyownappointedhourarrived.TheminuteIenteredthisplaceIhadthefeelingIwasalreadyoneoftheliving-dead.Butnow,inpossessionofallthesefantasticsecrets,IwascertainIwouldnevergetoutalive.WasitconceivablethatDr.Mengele,ortheBerlin-DahlemInstitute,wouldeverallowmetoleavethisplacealive?
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IXItwasalreadylate,and
growingdark.Dr.MengelehadleftandIwasalonewithmythoughts.MechanicallyIarrangedtheinstrumentsusedfortheautopsyand,afterwashingmyhands,wentintotheworkroomandlightedacigarette,hopingtofindaminute'speace.SuddenlyIheardascreamthatsentchillsupanddownmyspine.Then,
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immediatelyafterwards,athudthatsoundedlikeafallingbody.Ilistened,mynervestaut,forwhatthefollowingminuteswouldbring.BeforeanotherminutehadpassedIheardanotherscream,aclickandthefallofabody.Icountedseventyscreams,clicks,thuds.Heavyfootstepsretreatedandallgrewquiet.Thesceneofthebloody
tragedythathadjustbeen
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enactedwastheroomadjoiningthedissectingroom.Thehallleddirectlyintoit.Itwasahalf-darkenedplace,withaconcretefloorandbarredwindowsthatlookedoutontothebackcourtyard.Iuseditasastoreroomforcorpses,keepingthemtheretillitwastheirturnfordissection,thenreturningthemthereaftertheautopsytilltheyweresenttobeburned.Used,dirty
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women'sclothes;batteredwoodenshoes;glasses;piecesofstalebread—thenormalrunofKZwomen'sarticles—laypiledbeforetheentrancetotheroom.AfterwhatIhadheardIwaspreparedforsomethingextraordinary.Ienteredtheroomandglancedquicklyaround.Aterrifyingscenegraduallyunfolded:beforemeweresprawledthenakedbodiesofseventywomen;
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curledup,bathedintheirownbloodandinthebloodoftheirneighbors,theylayinutterdisarrayabouttheroom.Asmyeyesgrewmore
accustomedtothedimlightIdiscoveredtomyhorrorthatnotallthevictimsweredead.Somewerestillbreathing,movingtheirarmsorlegsslowly;withglazedeyes,theytriedtoraisetheirbloodyheads.Iliftedtwo,threeheadsofthosestillalive,and
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suddenlyrealizedthat,besidesdeathbygasandchloroforminjections,therewasathirdwayofkillinghere:abulletinthebackoftheneck.Thewoundrevealedthatasix-millimeterbullethadbeenused:therewasnoexithole.Fromthesecursoryobservations,Iconcludedthatithadbeenasoftleadbullet,becauseonlythistypebulletwillimbeditselfintheskullstructure.UnfortunatelyI
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knewsomethingofsuchmattersandwasabletosizeupthesituationquicklyinallitshorror.Therewasnothingsurprisinginthefactthatthesesmall-caliberbulletsdidnotcauseinstantaneousdeathinallcases,althoughtheywerefired—thepowderburnsontheskinprovedit—fromadistanceofonlyaninchortwo,rightintothespinalmedulla.Itappearedthatinsomeinstancesthe
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bullethaddeviatedslightlyfromitspath;thusdeathhadnotalwaysbeeninstantaneous.Itooknoteofthataswell,
butmeditatednofurther;Iwasafraidofgoingmad.SteppingoutintothecourtyardIaskedamemberoftheSonderkommandowherethewomenhadcomefrom."TheyweretakenfromC
Section,"hesaid."Every
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eveningatruckbringsseventyofthem.Theyallgetabulletinthebackoftheneck."Myheadspinning,struck
dumbwithhorror,Iwalkedalongthegravelpathwhichdividedthewell-keptlawnofthecrematoriumcourtyard.MygazewanderedtotheeveningmusterofSonderkommando.Thiseveningtherewasnochangeofguard.Numberone
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crematoriumwasnotworkingtoday.Iglancedinthedirectionofnumberstwo,threeandfour:theirchimneyswerespewingflameandsmoke.Businessasusual.Itwastooearlyfordinner.
TheSonderkommandobroughtoutafootball.Theteamslineduponthefield."SSversusSK."Onone
sideofthefieldthecrematorium'sSSguards;ontheother,the
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Sonderkommando.Theyputtheballintoplay.Sonorouslaughterfilledthecourtyard.Thespectatorsbecameexcitedandshoutedencouragementattheplayers,asifthisweretheplayingfieldofsomepeacefultown.Stupefied,Imadethatmentalnoteaswell.Withoutwaitingfortheendofthematch,Ireturnedtomyroom.AftersupperIswallowedtwosleepingtabletsoften
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centigramseachandfellasleep.Abadlyneededsleep,forIfeltmynervesstretchedtothebreakingpoint.Insuchcases,sleepingtabletswerethebestremedy.
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XInthemorningIawoke
withahangover.IcrossedtotheshowerwhichhadbeensetupinaneighboringroomandlettheicywatersoftheVistulasplashovermeforhalfanhour.Itrefreshedmytirednervesandchasedtheheavinesscausedbythesleepingpills.HowwelltheGermans
caredforus!Theyhadbuilta
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beautifulten-manshower,madeofgleamingtile,fortheexclusiveuseoftheSonderkommandomembers.Thosewhoworkedwithcorpseshadtowashfrequently,soshowersweremandatorytwiceaday,aregulationtowhichweallgladlysubmitted.Icheckedthecontentsof
mymedicalbag.IthadbeenbroughttomefromthestoreroombyaSonderman
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andhadprobablybelongedtooneofmymedicalcolleagues,whohadcheckeditwithhisclothesinthecloakroombeforeenteringthegaschamber.InitIfoundastethoscope,anapparatusfortakingbloodpressure,somegoodsyringes,anumberofotheressentialinstrumentsanddrugs,andseveralampoulesforemergencyinjections.Iwashappytohaveit,forIknewthatit
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wouldcomeinhandyduringmy"visits."Here,inthe
Sonderkommando,"visits"meantmakingtheroundsofthefourcrematoriums.Ibeganwithmyown
building.FirstIstoppedattheSSlivingquarters,planningtoexamineanyonewhoshowedup,fortherewerealwaysafew.Inthecrematoriumseveryonefeignedillnessfromtimeto
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timeinordertogetashortrespitefromhisexhaustingandnerve-rackinglabors.Therewerealsomoreseriouscasesuponoccasion,butwehadnotroubletakingcareofthem:asformedicalsupplies,wecouldhaveviedwiththebest-stockeddrugstoreinBerlin.Aspecialkommandowas
giventhejobofinspectingtheluggageleftinthegaschamberlobbiesand
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recoupingallmedicinesbeforetheclothesandshoeswereshippedaway.Thesemedicineswerethenturnedovertometobearrangedandclassifiedaccordingtotheirtypeandpurpose.Itwasnoeasyjob,forpeoplewerebroughttoAuschwitzfromalloverEurope,andthemedicinestheybroughtwiththemwerenaturallylabeledinthelanguageofthecountryoforigin.SoIfoundlabels
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writteninGreek,Polish,CzechandDutch,allofwhichIhadtodecipher.ImightmentioninpassingthatthemajorityofmedicinesfoundonthosewhohadbeenbroughttotheKZbelongedtooneofseveralkindsofsedatives.Sedativestoquietthe
nervesofEurope'spersecutedJews.Followingmyvisittothe
SS,Iproceededupstairsto
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theSonderkommando'slivingquarters.WhileIwasthereItreatedafewcutsandbruises,commonamongchauffeurs.TheSonderkommandomenseldomhadanyorganicillnesses,fortheirclotheswereclean,theirbedswereprovidedwithfreshlinen,andtheirfoodwasgood,sometimesevenexcellent.Besidestheywereallyoungmen,hand-pickedfortheirstrengthandgoodphysical
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constitution.Theydidhave,however,ageneraltendencytonervousdisorders,foritwasatremendousstrainonthemtoknowthattheirbrothers,theirwives,theirparents—theirentirerace—wereperishinghere.Dayafterdaytheytookthousandsofcorpsesanddraggedthemtothecrematoryovens,wheretheyloadedthemwiththeirownhandsintotheincinerationcases.Theresult
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wasacutenervousdepression,andoftenneurasthenia.Everybodyherehadapastwhichhelookedbackonwithsorrow,andafuturehecontemplatedwithdespair.TheSonderkommando'sfuturewastightlycircumscribedbytime.Fouryears'painfulexperiencehadshownthatitslifespanwasfourmonths.AttheendofthatperiodacompanyofSSappeared.The
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entirekommandowasherdedintothecrematorium'srearcourtyard.Amachine-gunblast.HalfanhourlateranewSonderkommandosquadarrived.Theyundressedtheirdeadcompanions.Anhourlateronlyaheapofashesremained.ThefirstjobofeverySonderkommandocrewwasthecremationofitspredecessor.Duringmyvisitstherewasalwayssomeonewhotookmeasideand
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beggedmetogivehimaswift,surepoison.Iinvariablyrefused.TodayIamsorryIdid.Theyarealldead.Theirdeathwasswiftandsureallright—notself-administeredastheywouldhavepreferred,butatthehandsoftheNazibutchers.
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XIMynextvisittookmeto
numbertwocrematorium,whichwasseparatedfromnumberonebyapaththroughsomefieldsandbytheJewishunloadingplatformalongtherailroadtracks.Itwasbuiltaccordingtothesameplansasnumberone.TheonlydifferenceInoticedwasthatthespacecorrespondingtothedissectionroomin
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numberonewashereusedasagoldfoundry.Otherwisethelayoutoftheundressingroom,thegaschamber,theincinerationroomandthelivingquartersoftheSSandtheSonderkommandowasexactlythesame.Itwastothefoundrythat
allthegoldteethandbridgeworkcollectedinthefourcrematoriumswerebrought,allthejewelryandgoldcoins,theprecious
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stonesandplatinumobjects,thewatches,thegoldcigarettecasesandanyotherpreciousmetalfoundinthetrunks,thesuitcases,theclothes,oronthebodiesofthedead.Threegoldsmithswereemployedhere.Firsttheydisinfectedthejewelry,thensortedandclassifiedit.Theyremovedthepreciousstonesandsentthesettingstothefoundry.Thegoldteethandjewelrysuppliedeach
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daybythefourcrematoriumsproduced,oncesmelted,between65and75poundsofpuregold.Thesmeltingtookplacein
agraphitecrucibleabouttwoinchesindiameter.Theweightofthegoldcylinderwas140grams.IknewthatfiguretobeexactbecauseIhadweighedmorethanoneonanaccuratescaleinthedissectingroom.Thedoctorswhoremoved
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theteethfromthebodiespriortocremationdidnotthrowallthepreciousmetalintothebucketfilledwithacid,foraportion—sometimesafairamount,sometimesonlyalittle—wentintothepocketsoftheSSguardswhenthesemorbidtreasureswerebeingcollected.Itwasthesameforthejewelryandgemssewedintotheliningsoftheclothes,andthegoldcoinsleftinthe
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undressingroom.Inthelatterinstance,however,itwastheSonderkommandoentrustedwiththejobofgoingthroughtheluggagewhoprofited.Anexceedinglydangerousgame,though,fortheSSguardswereubiquitous,andtheykeptaclosewatchonthisnewlyacquiredproperty,whichhenceforthbelongedtotheThirdReich.Needlesstosay,theykeptanespeciallyclosewatchonthegoldand
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jewelry.AtfirstIdidnotunderstand
how,fromajudicialormoralpointofview,theSonderkommandocouldbringthemselvestopocketthegold.Butafewdayslater,onceIhadabettergraspofthesituation,IwasinclinedtoagreethatitwasindeedtheSonderkommandowhoshould—ifanybodyshould—beconsideredthesoleheirsandlegalproprietorsof
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thetreasureswhichfortunehadbroughttheirway.Themenofthe
Sonderkommandoalsoturnedtheirgoldovertobesmelted.Despitethestrictestsupervisiontherewerealwayswaysofgettingittothegoldsmithsandoflaterretrievingitintheformof140gram"coins."Butputtingthisgoldtowork,thatis,exchangingitforusefulgoods,wasamoredifficult
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job.Noonedreamedofhoardinghisgold,forheknewthatinfourmonths'timehewouldbedead.Butforusfourmonthswasaverylongtime.Tobecondemnedtodeathandyetforcedtoperformjobssuchaswehadtoperformdayafterdaywasenoughtobreakthebodyandsoulofthestrongestamongus,andtodrivemanytothebrinkofinsanity.Itwasthusnecessarytomakelifeeasier,
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morebearable,evenforafewweeks'time.Withgoldyoucoulddothat,eveninthecrematoriums.Thuswasborn,inthedays
ofthefirstSonderkommando,aunitofexchange:the140gramgoldcylinder.ThissameunitwasstillbeingusedbythetwelfthSonderkommando.Thegoldsmithsdidnothaveanycrucibleofasmallerdiameter,sotherewasno
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wayforthemtomakeasmaller"coin."Inthecrematoriumsan
objecthadno"value"intheordinarysenseoftheterm.Anyonewhopaidforsomethingwithgoldhadalreadypaidwithhislifethedayheenteredhere.Butthepersonwhogavesomethinginexchangeforgolddoublyriskedhisneck,oncewhenhebroughtthearticlesthatwerehardtocomeby,evenonthe
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outside,throughtheSSbarricadesandcheckpoints,andagainonhisreturntripcarryingthegoldhehadreceivedinpayment.Forbothcominginandleavingonewasalwayssearched.Onitswayoutthegoldwas
carriedinaSonderkommandoman'spocketasfarasthecrematoriumgate.Thereitchangedhands.ThemancarryingthegoldapproachedtheSSguardondutyand
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exchangedafewwordswithhim.Thelatterturnedandsaunteredawayfromthegate.Onthesectionofrailwaytrackthatpassedinfrontofthe"Krema"ateamoffrom20to25Poleswasworking.AtasignfromtheSonderkommandoman,theirworkbossarrivedwithafoldedsackandtookthegold,whichwaswrappedinpaper.Sothesackcontainingthedesiredarticleswassafely
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insidethecrematorium.TheSonderkommandoman
enteredtheguardhouse,whichwasnearthegate.Hetookaboutahundredcigarettesandabottleofbrandyfromthesack.TheSStrooperenteredandquicklypocketedboththebottleandcigarettes.Hewasofcourseextremelypleased,fortheSSreceivedonlytwocigarettesadayandnoalcoholatall.Andyetbothwereindispensable
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here.TheSSguardsdrankandsmokedheavily;sodidtheSonderkommando.Othernecessaryitems,such
asbutter,eggs,hamandonions,weresmuggledinbythissamemethod.Nothingofthissortarrivedwiththedeportees.Sincethegoldwasprocuredthroughacollectiveeffort,thedistributionofthemerchandisereceivedinexchangewasmadeonthissamebasis.Thusboththe
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crematoriumpersonnelandtheSSnoncomsreceivedanamplesupplyoffood,liquorandcigarettes.Everyoneshuthiseyestothistraffic,foritwastoeveryone'sadvantagethatitcontinue.Takenindividually,anySSguardinthecrematoriumcouldbebought.Theydistrustedonlythemselves,knowingthattheSonderkommandohadneverbetrayedanyoneandneverwould.Thatwaswhythe
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food,liquorandcigaretteswereturnedovertooneSSguardbyone"confidenceman"fromthekommando.Bythissameunderground
routetheofficialorganoftheThirdReich,theVolkischerBeobachterwasbroughteverydaytothecrematoriumbyadifferentrailroadworker.Amonthlysubscriptioncostone140gramgoldcylinder.Anyonewhoriskedhisneckthirtytimesamonthbringing
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hisnewspapertoaKZprisonerdeservedthesumhereceived.Sincemyarrivalinthe
crematoriumIhadbeenthefirstonetoreceivethissmuggledcopy.Ireaditinasafehidingplace,thenrelatedtheday'seventstooneoftheprisoner-clerks,whointurnpassedonthenewstohiscompanions.Withinafewminuteseveryonehadheardthelatestnews.
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TheSonderkommandowasanelitegroup;itsadvantagesandprivilegeshavealreadybeennoted.Incontrasttotheprisonersinthecampproper,whowrithedinlice-filledboxes,who,madwithhunger,battledfuriouslyforascrapofbreadorapieceofpotato,itslotwasindeedgood.Fullyawareofthisunbalancedsituation,theSonderkommandodistributedfoodandclothingtotheirless
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fortunatecomradeswhenevertheycould.Forthepastseveraldaysa
woman'skommandoofabout500roadworkershadbeenbusynotfarfromthecrematoriumgate.TheywereguardedbytwoSSandfourpolicedogs.Theirjobconsistedofcarryingrockstobeusedintheconstructionofaroad.SeveralmenfromtheSonderkommando,withthepermissionoftheirown
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guards,approachedthetwoSSguardingthewomenandslippedthemeachapackofcigarettes.Withthatthedealwasconcluded.Thenthreeorfourwomen,loadedwithstones,walkedovertoourgate,asiftheirworkhadbroughtthemthere,andimmediatelygatheredupalltheclothingthathadbeenpreparedforthem.Theyalsogotsomebread,baconandcigarettes.Inturn,theywere
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replacedbyothersinthekommando,tilleachhadreceivedhershare.TherewasneveranyfavoritismshownbytheSonderkommando,fornoneofusknewanyofthewomenpersonally.Overjoyedwiththeir"presents,"theyreturnedtotheirwork.Thenextdayadifferentgroupreplacedthemandthesamescenewasre-enacted.Thecrematoriums'
enormousstoreroom
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containedgreatquantitiesofclothesandshoesawaitingshipment,andIwouldestimatethatseveralthousandwomenprisonerswereaidedinthismannerbytheSonderkommando.Ialsotriedtodomybit:loadingmypocketswithvitaminpills,sulfatablets,bottlesofiodine,bandagesandanythingelseIthoughtmightbeuseful,Ihandedthemoutasthewomenpassed.Whenmy
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stockwasdepleted,Ireturnedtomyroomandrefilledmypockets;forthosewhoreceivedthem,thesemedicinesoftenmeantthedifferencebetweenlifeanddeath.Atleastforalittlewhile.Afterfinishinginnumber
two,Ivisitednumberthreeandnumberfourcrematoriums.Innumberthree,besidestheGreekandPolishmemberswhomadeup
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themajorityofthekommando,InoticedthattherewerealreadyaboutahundredHungariandeportees.InnumberfourthekommandoconsistedlargelyofPolesandFrenchmen.Inallthesedeathfactories
workwasinfullswing.FromtheJewishunloadingplatform,whichwasdividedintofourlargefinger-likeprojections,similartothedeltaofsomefloodedriver,
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thevictimsspilledtotheirdeathwithmaniacalfury.Horrified,Inotedwithwhatorderandrobot-likeprecisionthemurderswereperpetrated,asifthesefactorieswerehereforalleternity.IfbychanceIevergetout
ofthisplacealive,Ithought,andhaveachancetorelateallI'veseenandlivedthrough,whowillbelieveme?Words,descriptionsarequiteincapableoffurnishing
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anyonewithanaccuratepictureofwhatgoesonhere.SomyeffortstophotographinmymindallIseeandengraveitinmymemoryare,afterall,completelyuseless.Withthisdiscouraging
thoughtrunningthroughmymind,Icompletedmyfirstday'stourofthefourcrematoriums.
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XIIIhadmanagedtolaymy
handsonacopyoftheFrenchdictionary,PetitLarousse.WiththehelpofthemapsitcontainedItriedtosituatethenamesofthevariouslocalitiesmentionedinthenewspaperreports.Aloneinmyroom,Istudiedthemilitarysituationalongthesouthernandeasternfronts.Heavyfootstepsresoundedin
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thehallway.Iquicklyflippedthepagesandlookedimpatientlytowardsthedoor.Thecrematoriumcommandercameintoinformmethatanimportantcommissionwasarrivingat2:00p.m.andthatIshouldhavethedissectingroomreadytoreceivethem.Beforethecommission
arrivedahearsepulledup,completelyclosedanddrapedwithblack.InsidelaythebodyofanSScaptain.Ihad
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itplacedonthedissectingtable,stilldressed,justasithadbeendeliveredtome.Thecommission,
consistingofhigh-ranking,impeccablydressedofficers,arrivedpunctually:anSSMedicalCorpsColonel,ajudgeadvocate,twoGestapoofficersandacourt-martialrecorder.AfewminuteslaterDr.Mengeleappeared.Iofferedthemseats.Theyproceededtoholdashort
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conference,duringwhichtheGestapoofficersrelatedinsomedetailthecircumstancesoftheircolleague'sdeath.Hiswounds,causedbya
firearm,pointedtoeithermurderorassassination.Suicidewasruledout:thecaptain'srevolverhadstillbeeninhisholsteratthetimehisbodyhadbeendiscovered.Asforthehypothesisthathehadbeenmurdered,thecrime,theybelieved,might
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wellhavebeencommittedbyafellowofficer,orperhapssomesubordinatewhohadhadagrievanceagainsthim.Butassassinationseemedevenmorelikely:itwasafairlycommonoccurrenceinthePolishcityofGleiwitzandthesurroundingarea,wheregroupsofpartisanswereactive.Thepurposeoftheautopsy
wastodeterminewhethertheshothadbeenfiredfromin
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frontorbehind,whatthecaliberandcharacteristicsofthemurderweaponwere,andfromwhatapproximatedistancethecrimehadbeencommitted.AtthattimetherewasnodoctoratGleiwitzqualifiedasacoroner;thatwaswhythebodyhadbeenbroughttoAuschwitzforanautopsy,forGleiwitzwasonly40kilometersaway,andAuschwitzwasconsequentlythenearestspotwherean
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autopsycouldbeperformedundersatisfactoryconditions.Inmyroleofobserver,I
stoodatarespectfuldistancefromthegroupwhilethisdiscussionwastakingplace,andwaited,withthemutepatienceexpectedfromallKZprisoners,forDr.Mengele'sinstructions.IhadneverthoughtthatI,a
JewishprisoneroftheKZ,wouldbeallowedtosully—bymycontact—thebodyof
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anSSofficer.Asformyperformingtheautopsy,Iwouldneverevenhavedreamedofit,especiallysince,evenwhenIhadbeenaso-called"freecitizen,"raciallawshadinvariablykeptmefromgivingmedicalattentiontoChristians,or,moreexactly,toAryans.SoIwasquitesurprisedwhenDr.Mengeleturnedtomeandaskedmetogetonwiththedissection.
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Thefirstjob,farfromasimpleone,wastoundressthebody.Twomenwouldbeneededtoremovehisbootsalone.Ithereforerequestedpermissiontocallinacoupleofassistants.Whilethebodywasbeingundressed,themembersofthecommissionbecameinvolvedinaheateddiscussionandpaidhardlyanyattentiontomeandmyhelpers.AsImadetheinitial
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incisionIfoundmyselffightingoffanattackofstagefrightandafeelingofinferiority.Icuttheskinoftheskulland,withaquick,precisemovement,turnedhalftheskindownoverthefaceandtheotherhalfoverthebackoftheneck.Thefollowingstepwasmoredifficult:itconsistedofsawingtheskullandremovingthebrainpan.AlmostmechanicallyI
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followed,indueorder,theprescribedsteps.Itwasnowtimetoexamine
thetwowoundscausedbythebullet.Ifithadgoneallthewaythroughthebodytherewouldofcoursebetwoholes,oneatthepointofentrance,theotheratthepointofexit.Inthemajorityofcasesthephysicianhasnotroubletellingwhichiswhich:theplacewherethebulletentersthebodyisalwayssmaller
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thanthepointwhereitemerges.Butinthepresentcasethereweretwoholes,exactlythesamesize,onebelowtheleftnippleandtheotherclosetotheupperedgeoftheshoulderblade.Thematterwasfarfrom
clear,andthereforeallthemoreinteresting.Whatcouldhavecausedtheuniformityofthetwowounds?Dr.Mengelewasoftheopinionthattheremightwellhavebeentwo
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bulletsfired,onefrominfrontandtheotherfrombehind.Thiscouldeasilyhavebeenthecaseiftheofficerhadfallenafterthefirstshotandbeenhitbythesecondwhilehewaslyingontheground.Neitherbulletwentallthewaythroughthebody,thusexplainingthetwoidenticalwounds.Thistheorysoundedplausibleenough,butremainedtobeverified.TodothisIhadtostudythe
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pathofthebullet,orbullets.Indoingso,Ifoundthatthebulletwhichenteredthebodybelowtheleftnipplepiercedtheheart,thengrazedtheleftextremityofthespinalcolumnandcontinuedupwardatanangleof35°tillitreachedtheupperedgeoftheshoulderblade,atinyportionofwhichithadcrushedbeforeleavingthebody.Therecouldbenodoubtaboutit;onlyonebullet
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hadbeenfired,andthatfrominfrontofthevictim,forthepathofthebulletmovedupwardandfromfronttobackattheaforementionedangleof35°.Thereasonthetwoholeswerethesamesizewasthatthebullethadgrazedthespinalcolumnandchippedoffasectionoftheshoulderblade;considerablyslowedbytheseobstacles,ithadleftthebodyaftermostofitsenergyhadbeen
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expended.Besides,itisdoubtfulthatanyonewouldaimdownwardatanangleof35°whenshooting.Todosowouldrequirethemurderertoraisehisarmwellabovehishead.Soitseemedobvioustomethatthebullethadbeenfiredfrominfront,thattheweaponhadbeenpointedupwardfromthehorizontalatthetimeoffiring,thattheshothadbeenmadeatclosequartersandthat,inall
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probability,thekillerhadbeenpreventedbysomeinterveningobstaclefromraisinghisgunanyhigher.Butthiswasamatterfortheinquesttodecide.Isawthatmyremarks
satisfiedthemembersofthecommission,fortheyannouncedthatinthefutureallcasesrequiringanautopsywouldbesenthere.Theyfoundthisaverysatisfactoryarrangement.ThusIbecame,
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withthisoneautopsy,thecoronerfortheKZinchargeofallmatterspertainingtoforensicmedicineintheGleiwitzdistrict.
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XIIIEarlyonemorningI
receivedaphonecallorderingmetoreportimmediatelytothe"pyre"forthepurposeofbringingbacktonumberonecrematoriumallthemedicinesandeyeglassesthathadbeencollectedthere.AfterbeingsortedandclassifiedtheywouldbeshippedtovariouspartsofGermany.
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Thepyrewaslocatedaboutfiveorsixhundredyardsfromnumberfourcrematorium,directlybehindthelittlebirchforestofBirkenau,inaclearingsurroundedbypines.ItlayoutsidetheKZ'selectricbarbedwirefence,betweenthefirstandsecondlinesofguards.SinceIwasnotauthorizedtoventuresofarfromtheactualconfinesofthecamp,Irequestedsome
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sortofwrittenpermissionfromtheoffice.Theyissuedmeasafeconductgoodforthreepersons,forIplannedontakingtwomenwithmetohelpcarrythematerialbacktothecrematorium.Wesetoffinthedirection
ofthethicktwistingspiralofsmoke.Allthoseunfortunateenoughtobebroughtheresawthiscolumnofsmoke,whichwasvisiblefromanypointintheKZ,fromthe
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momenttheyfirstdescendedfromtheboxcarsandlinedupforselection.Itwasvisibleateveryhourofthedayandnight.BydayitcoveredtheskyaboveBirkenauwithathickcloud;bynightitlightedtheareawithahellishglow.Ourpathtookuspastthe
crematoriums.AftershowingtheSSguardsoursafeconduct,wepassedthroughanopeningcutinthebarbed
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wireandreachedanopenroad.Thesurroundingcountryside—apatchworkofbrightgreen,grassyclearing—seemedpeaceful.Butsoonmywatchfuleyesdiscerned,aboutahundredyardsaway,theguardsofthesecondline,eitherloungingonthegrassorsittingbesidetheirmachinegunsandpolicedogs.Wecrossedaclearingand
cametoasmallpineforest.
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Onceagainwefoundourwayblockedbyafenceandgatestrungwithbarbedwire.Alargesign,similartothoseonthecrematoriumgates,waspostedhere:ENTRANCEIS
STRICTLYFORBIDDENTOALLTHOSEWHOHAVENOBUSINESSHERE,INCLUDINGSSPERSONNELNOTASSIGNEDTOTHISCOMMAND.
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Inspiteofthissign,weenteredwithouttheguardsevenaskingusforourpass.Thereasonwassimple:theSSguardsondutyherewerefromthecrematoriums,andthe60Sonderkommandomenwhoworkedatthepyrewerealsocrematoriumpersonnelfromnumbertwo.Atpresentthedayshiftwason.Theyworkedfromseveninthemorningtillsevenintheevening,whentheywere
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replacedbythenightwatch,whichalsoconsistedof60men,takenfromnumberfour.Passingthroughthegate,
wereachedanopenplacewhichresembledacourtyard,inthemiddleofwhichstoodathatched-roofhousewhoseplasterwaspeelingoff.ItsstylewasthatofatypicalGermancountryhouse,anditssmallwindowswerecoveredwithplanks.Asamatteroffact,itnodoubthad
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beenacountryhouseforatleast150years,tojudgebyitsthatchedroof,whichhadlongsinceturnedblack,anditsoftenreplastered,flakingwalls.TheGermanStatehad
expropriatedtheentirevillageofBirkenaunearAuschwitz,inordertoestablishtheKZthere.Allthehouses,withtheexceptionofthisone,hadbeendemolished,andthepopulationevacuated.
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What,infact,mustthishousehavebeenusedfor?Haditbeenmeanttobelivedin?Inthatcasepartitionsmusthavedividedtheinteriorintorooms.Orhaditoriginallybeenonelargeroom,withoutpartitions,meanttobeusedasahangarorstoreroom?Iaskedmyselfthesequestions,butwasunabletosupplytheanswers.Inanycase,itwasnowusedasanundressingroomfor
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thoseontheirwaytothepyre.Itwasherethattheydepositedtheirshabbyclothes,theirglasses,andtheirshoes.Itwasherethatthe
"surplus"fromthe"Jewishramp"wassent,thatis,thoseforwhomtherewasnoroominthefourcrematoriums.Theworstkindofdeathawaitedthem.Heretherewerenofaucetstoslakethethirstofseveraldays'voyage,no
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fallacioussignstoallaytheirmisgivings,nogaschamberwhichtheycouldpretendwasadisinfectingroom.Merelyapeasanthouse,oncepaintedyellowandcoveredwiththatch,whosewindowshadbeenreplacedbyplanks.Behindthehouseenormous
columnsofsmokeroseskyward,diffusingtheodorofbroiledfleshandburninghair.Inthecourtyardaterrifiedcrowdofabout5,000
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souls;onallsidesthickcordonsofSS,holdingleashedpolicedogs.Theprisonerswereled,threeorfourhundredatatime,intotheundressingroom.There,hustledbyarainoftruncheonblows,theyspreadouttheirclothesandleftbythedoorattheoppositesideofthehouse,yieldingtheirplacestothosewhoweretofollow.Onceoutthedoor,theyhadnotimeeventoglancearound
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themortorealizethehorroroftheirsituation.ASonderkommandoimmediatelyseizedtheirarmsandsteeredthembetweenthedoublerowofSSwholinedthetwistingpath,which,flankedoneithersidebywoods,ranfor50yardstothepyre,whichtillnowhadbeenhiddenbythetrees.Thepyrewasaditch50
yardslong,sixyardswideandthreeyardsdeep,awelter
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ofburningbodies.SSsoldiers,stationedatfive-yardintervalsalongthepathwaysideoftheditch,awaitedtheirvictims.Theywereholdingsmallcaliberarms—sixmillimeters—usedintheKZforadministeringabulletinthebackoftheneck.AttheendofthepathwaytwoSonderkommandomenseizedthevictimsbythearmsanddraggedthemfor15or20
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yardsintopositionbeforetheSS.Theircriesofterrorcoveredthesoundoftheshots.Ashot,then,immediatelyafterwards,evenbeforehewasdead,thevictimwashurledintotheflames.Fiftyyardsfartheronascenesimilarinallrespectswasbeingenacted.OberschaarfuhrerMollewasinchargeofthesebutchers.Asadoctor,andasaneyewitness,Iswearthathe
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wastheThirdReich'smostabject,diabolicandhardenedassassin.EvenDr.Mengeleshowedfromtimetotimethathewashuman.Duringtheselectionsattheunloadingramp,whenhenoticedahealthyyoungwomanwhoaboveallwantedtojoinhermotherintheleft-handcolumn,hesnarledathercoarsely,butorderedhertoregaintheright-handgroup.Eventheaceshotofthe
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numberonecrematorium,OberschaarfuhrerMussfeld,firedasecondshotintoanyonewhomthefirstshothadnotkilledoutright.OberschaarfuhrerMollewastednotimeoversuchtrifles.Herethemajorityofthemenwerethrownaliveintotheflames.WoetoanySonderkommandobywhoseactionthelivingchain,whichextendedfromcloakroomtopyre,wasbroken,withthe
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resultthatoneofthemembersofthefiringsquadwasforcedtowaitforafewsecondsbeforereceivinghisnewvictim.Mollewaseverywhereat
once.Hemadehiswaytirelesslyfromonepyretothenext,tothecloakroomandbackagain.Mostofthetimethedeporteesallowedthemselvestobeledwithoutresistance.Soparalyzedweretheywithfrightandterror
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thattheynolongerrealizedwhatwasabouttohappentothem.Themajorityoftheelderlyandthechildrenreactedinthisway.Therewere,however,agoodlynumberofadolescentsamongthosebroughthere,whoinstinctivelytriedtoresist,withastrengthbornofdespair.IfMollehappenedtowitnesssuchascene,hetookhisgunfromhisholster.Ashot,abulletoftenfiredfrom
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adistanceof40to50yards,andthestrugglingpersonfelldeadinthearmsoftheSonderkommandowhowasdragginghimtowardsthepyre.Mollewasanaceshot.HisbulletsoftenpiercedthearmsoftheSonderkommandomenfromonesidetotheotherwhenhewasdissatisfiedwiththeirwork.Insuchcasesheinevitablyaimedforthearms,withoutotherwisemanifestinghis
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dissatisfaction,butalsowithoutgivinganypreviouswarning.Whenthetwopyreswere
operatingsimultaneously,theoutputvariedfromfivetosixthousanddeadaday.Slightlybetterthanthecrematoriums,butheredeathwasathousandtimesmoreterrible,forhereonediedtwice,firstbyabulletinthebackoftheneck,thenbyfire.Afterdeathbygas,by
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chloroforminjections,andabulletinthebackoftheneck,Ihadnowmademyacquaintancewiththisfourth"combined"method.Igatheredupthemedicines
andglassesleftbehindbythevictims.Dazed,mykneesstilltremblingwithemotion,Istartedforhome,thatis,fornumberonecrematorium,which,toquoteDr.Mengelehimself,"wasnosanatorium,butaplacewhereonecould
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liveinaprettydecentway."Afterhavingseenthepyres,Iwasinclinedtoagreewithhim.Oncehome,Ienteredthe
room,butinsteadofarrangingthemedicinesandspectacles,Itookasedativeandwenttobed.Today'sdosewas30centigrams,sufficient,Ihoped,tocounteracttheeffectsoffuneralpyresickness.
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XIVThefollowingmorningI
awokewonderingwhatrevelationthenewdaywouldbring.Forhereeachnewdayhaditsrevelation,onemorehorriblethananythinganormalpersoncouldeverhavedreamedof.IlearnedfromtheSonder,
whoinvariablymanagedtohaveallthelatestinformation,thattheKZwas
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instrictquarantine.Thismeantthatnoonecouldleavethebarracks.SSsoldiersandtheirpolicedogswereoutinfullforce.TodaytheyweregoingtoliquidatetheCzechCamp.TheCzechCampconsisted
ofabout15,000deporteesbroughtfromtheTheresienstadtghetto.LiketheGypsyCamp,ithadafamilyairaboutit.Thedeporteeshadnotbeen
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"selected"uponarrival,butsentintacttotheirquarters.All,nomatterwhattheirageorphysicalcondition,hadbeenallowedtokeeptheircleanclothesandlivetogether.Theirlotwashard,butnotunbearable.Unliketheothersections,theydidnotwork.Thustheyhadlivedfortwo
years,tillthehourfortheirexterminationarrived,assoonerorlateritarrivedfor
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everybodyintheKZ.AtAuschwitzitwasneveraquestionofwhetheryouwouldliveordie,butmerelyaquestionoftime,ofwhenyouwoulddie.Nooneescaped.ThetrainloadsofHungariandeportees,or,tousetheexpressioncurrentintheKZ,the"freight,"arrivedinasteadyflow,sometimestwotrainloadsatatime,anddisgorgedtheirpassengers.ForthemtheubiquitousDr.
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Mengeledispensedwiththecustomaryformalityofselection.Hestoodtherelikeastatue,hisarmalwayspointinginthesamedirection:totheleft.Thuswholetrainloadswereexpeditedtothegaschambersandpyres.Thequarantinecamp,C
Camp,DCampandtheFsectionwereterriblyovercrowded,despitethequotaswhichwerefilled
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dailyforshipmenttomoredistantcamps.IntheCzechCampboththechildrenandagedhadbeengreatlyweakenedbytheirtwo-yearordeal:thechildren'sbodiesweremereskinandbones,andtheelderlyprisonersweresoweaktheycouldscarcelywalk.Bothhadtorelinquishtheirplacestonewarrivalswhowerestillstrongenoughtowork.Duringthepreceding
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weekstheirsituationhadsteadilyworsened.WhenthefirstHungarianconvoyshadbegunarrivingtheirrationshadbeensharplyreduced.Then,afewweekslater,whenthestreamofnewdeporteeshadswelledtofloodproportions,thecampauthoritieshadfoundthemselvesfacedwithaseriousshortageoffood.Asusual,theirremedyhadbeenbothdrasticandefficient:
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theyhadpracticallysuppressedtheCzechCamprationsaltogether.Hungerhadreducedthe
prisonerstoraving,moaningmaniacs.Withinafewdaystheiralreadyweakenedorganismshaddisintegratedentirely.Diarrhea,dysenteryandtyphushadbeguntheirdeadlywork.Fiftyorsixtydeathsadaywasnormal.Theirlastdayswerespentinindescribablesuffering,tillat
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lastdeathcameandsetthemfree.Theclosingofallbarracks
wasorderedearlyinthemorning.SeveralhundredSSsoldierssurroundedtheCzechareaandorderedtheinmatestoassemble.Theircriesofterrorastheywereloadedontothewaitingvanswereterribletohear,foraftertwoyearsintheKZtheynolongerhadanyillusionsaboutwhatlayinstoreforthem.
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"LiquidationDay"foundsomel2,000prisonersleftintheCzechCamp.Fromamongthatnumber1,500able-bodiedmenandwomenwerechosen,alongwitheightphysicians.Therestweresenttonumbertwoandnumberthreecrematoriums.OnthefollowingdaytheCzechCampwassilentanddeserted.Isawatruckloadedwithashesleavethecrematoriumandhead
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towardstheVistula.ThustheAuschwitzmuster
rollswerereducedbymorethan12,000"units,"andonemorebloodypagewasaddedtotheAuschwitz
archives.Thatpagecontainedonlythefollowingbriefinscription:"TheCzechsectionoftheAuschwitzconcentrationcampwasliquidatedthisdateduetoaprevalenceoftyphusamongtheprisoners.Signed:Dr.
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Mengele,HauptsturmfuhrerILagerazt."Theeightphysiciansfrom
theCzechCampwho,thankstoDr.Epstein'sintervention,hadbeenspared,weresenttotheFCamp'shospitalbarracks,eitherbecausetheywerephysicallyandmentallyexhaustedaftertheirsuperhumaneffortsincaringfortheirfellow-prisoners,orbecausetheywereinfectedwithtyphus.
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OnthedayfollowingtheliquidationoftheCzechCampIpaidanofficialvisittoFCamp.ThereImettheeightdoctorswhohadescapeddeathandhadachancetotalkwiththem,andinparticularwithDr.Heller,whosenamewaswellknowninmedicalcircles.FromhislipsIlearnedthefullstoryofthesufferinganddeathofCzechoslovakia'sJewishelite.Sincethen,alleighthave
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perished.Theyweretruedoctors.Iholdtheirmemoryindeepesteem.
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XVTheCcamp,whichwas
situatedneartheCzechCamp,wascomposedofHungarianJewishwomen,oftenasmanyas60,000atatime,inspiteofthedailyshipmentstodistantcamps.Itwasinthisheavilyoverpopulatedcampthatthedoctorsonedaydiscoveredamongtheinmatesofoneofthebarracksthesymptomsof
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scarletfever.ByDr.Mengele'sorderthatbarracks,aswellasthoseoneithersideofit,wasquarantined.Thequarantinelastedonlyashorttime:frommorningtillevening,hardlytwelvehours.Atdusktrucksarrivedtoembarktheinmatesofthesethreebarrackstothecrematoriums.SuchweretheefficaciousmethodsemployedbyDr.Mengeletopreventthespreadof
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contagiousdiseases.TheCzechCampandC
CamphadalreadyfelttheeffectsofDr.Mengele'sbattleagainsttheoutbreakofepidemics.Fortunately,thedoctorsassignedtothesebarracksquicklysizedupDr.Mengele'smethodforstemmingcontagion.AndfromthenontheywerecarefulnottorevealanycasesofinfectiousdiseasestotheSSmedicalauthorities.As
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oftenaswaspossibletheywentsofarastoconcealthesickpersoninacornerofthebarracks,andcaredforhimasbesttheycouldwiththemeagerresourcesattheirdisposal.Theyavoidedatallcostssendingthesicktothehospital,sincetheSSdoctorscheckedallpatientsthereandtheappearanceofacontagiousdiseasemeanttheliquidationbothofthebarrackswherethedisease
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hadoriginatedandoftheneighboringbarracksaswell.SSmedicallanguagecalledthismethod"theintensivebattleagainstthespreadofinfection."Theresultsofthatstrugglewerealwaysoneortwotruckloadsofashes...Aftersuchprecedents,the
bodiesoftwowomenwerebroughttomefromtheBCamphospital.Dr.Mengelehadsentthemtomeforautopsy.Asusual,Ireceived
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filesatthesametimewhichcontaineddetailedmedicalinformationonthedeceased.Inthecolumnheaded"diagnosis"Inoticed,respectively,theterms"typhoidfever"and"heartfailure."Thetwomentionswerefollowedbyquestionmarks.Iamnotoneusuallygiven
topauseandweightheproandconbeforeacting.Idecidequicklyandact
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quickly,especiallywhenitisaquestionofanimportantdecision.Theresultsarenotalwaysbrilliant.ThefactthatIhadended
uphereinthecrematoriumswastheresultofasnapdecision.OnceagainImadeupmy
mindquickly.IcouldnotsendDr.Mengele,inthereportonmyautopsy,adiagnosisoftyphoidfever.Thedescriptionofthe
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victim'sillnesswasfullofloopholes.Thediagnosiswasaccompaniedbyaquestionmark.Thedoctorwasobviouslyunsureofhimselfinthematter.Theautopsywoulddeterminewhetherornothisjudgmenthadbeencorrect.Thatwaswhythetwobodieshadbeensenttome.Iperformedtheautopsy.
Thesmallintestineinbothbodieswasinanulcerous
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statecharacteristicofthree-week-oldtyphoid.Thespleenwasalsoswollen.Beyondallshadowofadoubt,bothcaseswerevictimsoftyphoidfever.Dr.Mengelearrivedas
usualaboutfiveo'clockintheafternoon.Hewasinagoodhumor.Hecameoverandquestionedme,fullofcuriosityastotheresultsofmyautopsies.Thetwobodieswerelyingopenonthetable.Thelargeandsmall
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intestines,aswellasthespleensfrombothbodies,werewashedandplacedinacontainer,readytobeexamined.Igavehimmydiagnosis:
inflammationofthesmallintestinewithextensiveulceration.IexpoundedforDr.Mengele'sbenefitthe
ulceratedstateofthesmallintestineduringthethirdweekoftyphoidfever,and
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comparedittotheulcerationswhichariseduringtheinflammationofthesameorgan.Idrewhisattentiontothefactthattheswellingofthespleenoftenaccompaniedinflammationoftheintestine,andthatasaconsequenceitwasnotaquestionoftyphoidfever,butaseriousinflammationofthesmallintestine,probablycausedbymeatpoisoning.Dr.Mengelewasarace
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biologistandnotapathologist.Soitwasnotdifficulttoconvincehimthatmydiagnosiswascorrect.However,tobemistakenannoyedhim.Turningtomehesaid:"Ifyouwantmyopinion,doctorswhoareguiltyofsuchcrasserrorswouldbemoreusefultotheKZasroadworkersthanasphysicians.Poordiagnoseslikethesecouldcauseanynumberofunnecessary
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deaths."Hetooktheaffidavitsand
files,butbeforeputtingtheminhisbriefcase,addedanoteinthemargin."Makethewomendoctorsresponsible,"Ireadoverhisshoulder.Isincerelyregrettedhavingsowrongedmyinnocentfemalecolleagues,fortheirdiagnosiswasexcellent.Perhapstheywouldnowlosetheirjobsandendupperformingheavylabor;ifDr.Mengelecarried
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outhisthreat,Iwouldhavebeenthecauseofit.Accordingtomedical
customsaspracticedoutsidethebarbedwireIhadcertainlyactedunethically,andwasfullyconsciousofmyguilt.Ihadwrongedtwoorthreeinnocentpeople.ButtowhatlengthsmightDr.Mengelehavegoneinhisfightagainstepidemics,andwhatmighthavebeenthenumberofvictims,ifIhad
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acteddifferently?Thenextday,however,I
receivedcomfortingnewsconcerningthefateofmycolleagues.Dr.Mengelehadreprimandedthem,buthadletitgoatthat.Thewomendoctorsstayedontheirjobs.Subsequentlymanybodiesweresenttome,withtheirmedicalrecords,butthediagnosiscolumnwasneverfilledout.Ipreferreditthatway.Dr.Mengele's
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indignationconcerningthesupposederrorindiagnosisneverthelesscontinuedtopreyonmymindforseveraldays.Tofindsomuchcynicismmixedwithsomuchevilinadoctorsurprisedme,evenintheKZ.Hewasnoordinarydoctor,butacriminal,orrather,a"criminaldoctor."
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XVIOnemorningDr.Mengele
sentformetoreportimmediatelytotheFCampcommander.Iwashappyenoughtogo,foritwouldgivemeachancetogetawayfromthedepressingatmosphereofthecrematoriumsforafewhours.Iknewthatthewalkwoulddomegoodtoo,forIhadlittleopportunitytoexercise.
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AndafterthesmellofthedissectingroomandcrematoriumsIlookedforwardtogettingabitoffreshair.Besides,thisvisitwouldgivemeachancetoconversewithmyFCampcolleagues,whohadwelcomedmesowarmlywhenIhadfirstarrivedintheKZ.Ipreparedforthetripbyfillingmypocketswithpreciousmedicinesandseveralpackagesof
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cigarettes.Ididnotwanttoreturnempty-handedtomyformer"home,"i.e.,tohospital-barracks12.Ileftbytheirongateofthe
crematorium,wheretheguardsnotedmynumber,thenheadedinthedirectionofFCamp,withouthurrying,thebettertoenjoyeventhisshortwalk.Ipassedbesidethebarbedwirefencesofthewomen'scamp,the"FKL,"wherethousandsupon
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thousandsofwomenprisonerswerewalkingtoandfroamongtheflimsyshacksthatpassedforbarracks.Allthewomenlookedalike,andall,withtheirshavedheadsandtatteredclothes,wererepulsive.Ithoughtofmywifeanddaughter,oftheirlongcurlyhair,oftheirstylishclothesandtastefulmannerofdressing,ofthelonghourstheyusedtospenddiscussingtheseall-
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important,feminineproblems.Threemonthshadalreadypassedsinceourseparationontheunloadingplatform.Whathadbecomeofthem?Weretheystillalive?Together?Weretheystillinthewomen'ssectionoftheAuschwitzKZ,orhadtheyperhapsbeensenttooneoftheThirdReich'smoredistantcamps?Threemonthsisalongtime.ButthreemonthsintheKZwaslonger
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still.Nevertheless,IhadafeelingtheywerestillatAuschwitz.Butwhere?Inthiscomplicatedlabyrinthofbarbedwire,whichfencewastheirs?EverywhereIlookedIsawnothingbutavastnetworkofbarbedwire,concretepillars,andsignsforbiddingentranceorexit.TheKZwasnothingbutbarbedwire;thewholeofGermanywasencompassedbybarbedwire,itselfan
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enormousKZ.IreachedtheFCampgate.
TheentrancewasguardedbytheBlockfuhrerstube.AsoldierandanSSnoncomwiththefaceofabrutewereonduty.Iproceededtotheguardhousewindow,pulledupthesleeveofmysuitcoatand,inaccordancewithprescribedprocedure,announcedmynumber:A8450.AsIpulledbackmysleeve,thewristwatchDr.
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Mengelehadgivenmeauthorizationtowear,sinceIneededitformywork,becamevisible.TokeepsuchanobjectwasoneoftheKZ'smostheinousoffenses.WiththespeedandfuryofafamishedtigertheSSnoncomjumpedtohisfeetandcamerunningfromtheguardhouse."Whointhedevildoyou
thinkyouare,wearingawristwatch!"heshoutedinaraucousvoice."Andwhat
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businessdoyouhavecomingheretoFCamp?"Athreemonths'stayinthe
crematoriumswasaschoolthatleftitsmark.Withoutlosingmytemper,withoutevenbattinganeyelash,Iansweredhiminaquietvoice."IamherebecauseDr.
Mengelesentforme,"Isaid."Butifit'simpossibleformetogetintoFCamp,thenI'dbetterreturntothe
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crematoriumandletDr.Mengeleknowbytelephone."Thename"Dr.Mengele"
workedlikemagic.Justhearingitutteredwasenoughtomakemostpeopletremble.Mynoncomgrewtameinlesstimethanittakestotell.InanalmostfawningmannerheaskedmejusthowlongIintendedstayinginsidethecamp."Yousee,Ihavetorecord
theinformation,"headded
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apologetically.Ilookedatmywatch.Itwasteno'clock."Ishallstayuntil2:00p.m.,"Isaid."BythenmybusinesswithDr.Mengelewillcertainlybefinished."TopunctuatemysentenceItookapackageofcigarettesfrommypocketandhandedhimafew.Obviouslypleasedwiththegift,hespoketomeinanalmostfriendlymanner,andevenwentsofarastointimatethathewouldbe
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mosthappytoseemeonmynextvisit.Therewasnodenyingit,
thename"Dr.Mengele,"thementionofthecrematorium,andtheostentatiousdisplayofcigaretteshadmadeastrongimpressionontheSSslave.NowIwascertainofbeingabletospendatleastanhourortwowithmyformerfriends.ButfirsttofindoutwhyDr.Mengelehadsentforme.
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Ienteredthecampcommander'sbarracksandwaitedintheouterlobbytilltheclerkaskedmemybusiness.Itoldhim.Hepointedtoadoorattheoppositeendoftheroom.Icrossedtoitandenteredawell-furnishedstudy.Thewallswerecoveredwithgraphsandchartswhichshowedwhatthepopulationandcompositionofthecamphadbeenduringvarious
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periodsofitsexistence.ProminentlydisplayedinanornateframeInoticedanenormousphoto-portraitofHimmler,withhispince-
nezsetdelicatelyonthebridgeofhisnose.Threepeoplewereseated
intheroom:Dr.Mengele;HauptsturmfuhrerDr.Thilo,headsurgeonoftheKZ;andObersturmfuhrerDr.Wolff,directoroftheGeneralMedicalService.Dr.Mengele
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informedDr.Wolff,whomIhadnotpreviouslymet,thatitwasIwhoperformedtheautopsiesinthecrematoriums."Mostinteresting,"Dr.
Wolffsaid,strokinghischin."Dr.Mengelehastoldmeofyourwork.Iamespeciallyinterestedinpathology,Doctor,andwouldalreadyhavelookedinonsomeofyourmoredelicatecasesiflackoftimehadnot
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preventedme."Iwaitedforwhatwasto
follow."Atthepresenttime,"he
continued,"Iamengagedinascientificstudyofsomeimportance.ButtorounditoutIwillneedyourhelp.ThatiswhyIaskedDr.Mengeletohaveyoucomeoverheretoday."Hepausedandthenwenton:"Asyouknow,diarrheaisextremelycommoninthecamp,and
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90%ofthecasesprovefatal.Iknowallthereistoknowabouttheprognosisandevolutionofthedisease,forIhavemadethousandsofexaminationsandkeptveryaccuratenotes.Butmyworkisimperfect,for,besidesclinicalobservations,ascientificstudyrequiresapathologicalreportonasufficientnumberofdysenterycasestobeconclusive."
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Ibegantoseethelight.Dr.Wolffwasalsoengagedinresearch.Inthemidstofthestenchandsmokeofthecrematoriums,hetoowishedtoprofitfromthehundredsofthousandsofhumanguineapigsavailableintheKZ,manyofwhomhadbeenreducedbydysenterytoanunbelievable60or65pounds.Throughthedissectionofalargenumberofbodieshehopedtodiscovertheinternal
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manifestationsofdysenterystillunknowntomedicalscience.Dr.Mengelewantedto
solvetheproblemofthemultiplicationoftheracebystudyingthehumanmaterial—orrather,thetwinmaterial—thathewasfreetoemployashesawfit.Dr.Wolffwassearchingforthecausesofdysentery.Actually,itscausesarenotdifficulttodetermine;eventhelayman
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knowsthem.Dysenteryiscausedbyapplyingthefollowingformula:takeanyindividual—man,woman,orinnocentchild—snatchhimawayfromhishome,stackhimwithahundredothersinasealedboxcar,inwhichabucketofwaterhasfirstbeenthoughtfullyplaced,thenpackthemoff,aftertheyhavespentsixpreliminaryweeksinaghetto,toAuschwitz.Therepilethembythe
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thousandsintobarracksunfittoserveasstables.Forfood,givethemarationofmouldybreadmadefromwildchestnuts,asortofmargarineofwhichthebasicingredientislignite,thirtygramsofsausagemadefromthefleshofmangyhorses,thewholenottoexceed700calories.Towashthisrationdown,ahalfliterofsoupmadefromnettlesandweeds,containingnothingfatty,noflour,no
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salt.Infourweeks,dysenterywillinvariablyappear.Then,threeorfourweekslater,thepatientwillbe"cured,"forhewilldieinspiteofanybelatedtreatmenthemayreceivefromthecampdoctors.AccordingtoDr.Wolff,at
least150bodieswouldbeneededforthechapterofhisstudydevotedtothepathologicalaspectofthequestion.Dr.Mengele
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interruptedtheconversation."Byperformingseven
autopsiesaday,"hesaid,"youshouldbeabletofinishtherequirednumberinapproximatelythreeweeks."Ididnotagree."I'msorry,
gentlemen,"Isaid,"butifyouwantthejobtobeaccurateandwelldone—ofwhichIhavenodoubt—thenIcanperformonlythreeautopsiesaday."Aftersomediscussionwefinallyagreedonthis
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pointand,withacursorynod,Iwasdismissed.Ipaidacallonmy
colleaguesstationedinbarracks-hospitalnumber12.TheywereoverjoyedtoreceivethemedicinesIhadbrought,andcontentedlysmokedthecigarettesIhandedaround.Theirfacesandwordsbetrayedsymptomsoffatigueanddiscouragement.TheCzechCamp'ssuddenandtragicend
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hadhadastrongeffectonthem.Littlebylittlethehopelessnessoftheirsituationwasoverwhelmingthem,asithadoverwhelmedme,butwiththisdifference:myrealizationhadnotcomelittlebylittle,butallatonce—themomentIhadsteppedacrossthethresholdintothecrematorium.Ididmybest,however,to
encouragethem,exhortingthemtopersevere.Idescribed
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themilitarysituationtotheminsomedetail,andshowedhow,daybyday,itwasevolvingmoreandmorefavorablyforusall.SinceIreadthepapereverydayIwasabletobackupmystatementswithconcretefacts.Wepartedwitharoundofwarmhandshakes.IntheKZ,theexpression"Totakeleaveofafriendistodiealittle"tookonanaddedmeaning.
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InanyeventIleftthemfeelingthatIcouldsay,withoutfearofboasting,thatIhaveastrongcharacter,forinmyownimpossiblesituationIstillmanagedtoencourageotherstopersevere...ObersturmfuhrerWolff's
formerpatients,alldeadofdysentery,passedinsuccessionbeneaththescalpel.Ihadalreadyfinishedthefirstthirtyautopsiesand
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wasrecordingtheresultsofmyobservations.Ineachcasethemucousofthestomachwasinflamed,whichresultedinaburning,orratheracompletewitheringoftheglandsthatsecretechloricacidinthestomach.Alackofgastricjuicesrendersdigestionimpossible,butincreasesfermentationproportionally.Mysecondobservation
concernedtheinflamed
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conditionofthesmallintestine,whichwasaccompaniedbyathinningoftheintestinalwalls.Mythirdobservationrelatedtothemostimportantdigestivejuiceofthesmallintestine,thebile,whichisindispensabletotheproperassimilationoffats.Openingtheliver,Ifound,insteadofagreenish-yellowsecretion,analmostcolorlessliquidwhichscarcelyaffectedthematerial
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stillintheintestineandwhich,inanycase,wasquiteincapableofperformingitsdigestivefunction.Myfourthobservationhad
todowiththeinflammationofthelargeintestine,whichhadresultedinawithering,athinningandanexcessivefragilityoftheintestinalwalls,whichwereaboutasthickandasstrongascigarettepaper.Infact,theywerenolongerdigestive
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tubesbutsewers,throughwhicheverythingflowed,fromoneendtotheother,inthespaceofafewminutes.Such,inoutlineform,and
reducedtoalanguageanylaymancanunderstand,aretheprincipalconclusionsofmyautopsies.ThejobIhadbeenassignedwasinrealitymonotonous,devoidofanyinterestwhatever.Thebacteriologicaltestswereprobablybeingconductedin
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thevillageofRisgau,situatedaboutthreekilometersfromthecrematoriums,inthe"SSArmy'sInstituteofHygieneandBacteriology."There,therenownedProfessorMansfeld,whoheldthechairofBacteriologyatPecsMedicalSchool,wasinchargeofthework.
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XVIIIwastakingmyafternoon
napwhenOberschaarfuhrerMussfeld,pushingthreeprisonersaheadofhim,enteredmyroom.HeinformedmethatDr.Mengelehadgivenmethreeassistants,andsosayinghedartedaglanceintheirdirection,hisexpressionamixtureofcynicismandpity.Theywereindeedpitifulto
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behold,standingthereindirtyrags,dumbfromtheill-treatmenttowhichtheyhadbeensubjected,mortallyafraid,andfeelingbothclumsyandembarrassedbytheirchangeofenvironment.Theytoohadleftallhopebehindthemwhentheyhadpassedthroughthecrematoriumgate.Iextendedthemafriendly
andcompassionatehand.Weintroducedourselves.The
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firstwhotookmyhandwasDr.DenisGorog,aphysicianandpathologistfromthestatehospitalatSzombathely.Hewasasmall,leanmanofabout45,whoworethickglasses.Hemadeafavorableimpressiononme,andIhadafeelingwewouldbecomegoodfriends.Thesecondwasamanofabout50;small,stoopedalmosttothepointofbeinghunchbacked.Hewaspot-belliedandhadamost
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disagreeableface.HisnamewasAdolphFischer.FortwentyyearshehadbeenthelabassistantatthePraguePathologicalInstitute.ACzechoslovakianJew,hehadbeenaKZprisonerforfiveyears.Thethirdnewcomer,Dr.JosephKolner,wasfromNice,France,andhadbeeninternedintheKZforthreeyears.Hewasayoungmanofonly32,notatallloquacious,butmostgifted.
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Dr.MengelehadfishedthemoutoftheDCampbarracksandsentthemtomesothattheever-increasingnumbersofautopsiescouldbeeffectedwithoutriskofabottleneck.Iwasstillresponsiblefortheresearchundertaken,forthekeepingoffilesandthewritingofallreportsmadeontheautopsiesperformed.Thetwodoctorsweregoingtohelpmewiththedissections,andthelab
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assistant,faithfultohisprofession,wouldpreparethebodies.Hewouldopentheskulls,andextractandpreparecertainorgansforexamination.Afterthedissectionshewouldremovethebodiesfromthetableandseethatthedissectionroomandworkroomwerekeptneatandclean.SoIhadbeengiven
competent,qualifiedcollaborators,whowould
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sharemyburdens.Formethiswasanundeniablerelief.
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XVIIIInmyroleof
Sonderkommandodoctor,Iwasmakingmymorningrounds.Allfourcrematoriumswereworkingatfullblast.LastnighttheyhadburnedtheGreekJewsfromtheMediterraneanislandofCorfu,oneoftheoldestcommunitiesofEurope.Thevictimswerekeptfortwenty-sevendays
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withoutfoodorwater,firstinlaunches,theninsealedboxcars.WhentheyarrivedatAuschwitz'sunloadingplatform,thedoorswereunlocked,butnoonegotoutandlinedupforselection.Halfofthemwerealreadydead,andtheotherhalfinacoma.Theentireconvoy,withoutexception,wassenttonumbertwocrematorium.Workwasaccelerated
duringthenight,sothatby
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morningallthatremainedoftheconvoywasapileofdirty,disheveledclothesinthecrematoriumcourtyard.Igazedsadlyatthehillofragswhich,littlebylittle,grewwetandsoggybeneathafineautumnrain.Glancingupward,Inoticedthatthefourlightningrodsplacedatthecornersofthecrematoriumchimneysweretwistedandbent,theresultofthepreviousnight'shigh
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temperatures.Today,duringmyrounds,a
seriouscaseawaitedmeinnumberfour.OneoftheSonderkommandochauffeurshadtriedtocommitsuicidebytakinganoverdoseofsleepingtablets.ThiswasthemostcommonmethodofcommittingsuicideatAuschwitz.ThemenoftheSonderkommandohadnotroubleprocuringsleepingtablets,fortheyfoundlarge
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numbersofthemeverydaywhentheywentthroughthebelongingsofthedead.Approachinghisbed,Iwas
movedandchagrinedtoseethatthepatientwasnoneotherthanthe"Captain."Thatwaswhateveryonecalledhim,fornooneknewwhathisrealnamewas.AnativeofAthens,hehadbeenacaptainintheregulararmyandtutortothechildrenoftheroyalfamilyofGreece.
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Hewasapolite,intelligentman,withthreeyearsofKZbehindhim.Hiswifeandchildrenhadbeensenttothegaschamberassoonastheyhadarrived.Now,havinglostconsciousness,hewassleepingpeacefully.Hehadprobablytakenthesleepingtabletsseveralhoursearlier,andyetIfoundthat,forthemomentatleast,hewasinnorealdanger.ThemenoftheSonderkommandogrouped
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aroundhisbedaskedmesoftly,andwithresignation,"toletthecaptaingo.""Don'tsavehim,"oneof
themsaid."You'llonlybeprolongingtheagony.Andyoucanseeforyourselfhewantedtoescapeitnow,insteadofwaitingforthefiringsquadinafewweeks."Othersofferedmuchthe
sameargument,butIsilentlywentaboutpreparingmyinstruments.Seeingthattheir
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argumentshadhadnoeffect,andthatIwaspreparingtoinjecttheantidote,someofthemenlosttheirtempersandsparednowordsastheytoldmewhattheythoughtofmyaction.NeverthelessIfinishedtheinjectionsandlefttheroom.Unlesshecontractedpneumoniaduringthenextfiveorsixdays,theCaptainwouldlive.Thenforseveralweekshewouldcontinuetostokethefurnaces
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thatburnedthebodiesofthousandsuponthousandsofhisfellowmen,torturedandkilledbygas.TillonedaytheSonderkommando'sfinalhourwouldtoll,andheandhiscompanionswouldlineupoutsidethecrematorium.Amachine-gunblastandallwouldbeover.Heandtheotherswouldfall,theireyesfilledwithhorrorandastonishment.NowthatIwasnolonger
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besidehisbed,nowthathisfacenolongercalledforththedoctorinme,thepurelyhumansideofmynaturewasforcedtoadmitthattheCaptain'sfriendshadbeenright.Ishouldhave"lethimgohisway,"notinfrontofthecoldsteelbarrelofamachinegun,butinthepleasantnarcosisthatnowenvelopedhim,wherehewasfreefromallmoralandphysicalpain.
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Ifinishedmyroundsandreturnedtonumberone.Iglancedaroundthedissectionroomandsawthatmynewcolleagueswerebusyworking,withthezealofneophytes,onthedysentery-rackedbodiesprovidedbyDr.Wolff.Theywerecleanshavenandwerewearingspotlesssmocks,newclothesanddecentshoes.Theylookedhumanagain.Toseethemstandingaroundthe
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dissectiontableintheirwhitesmocksandrubbergloves,anyoneunacquaintedwiththeworkthatwentonheremighteasilyhavetakenthistobethelaboratoryanddissectingroomofsomeseriousscientificinstitute.ButIwhohadworkedhereforthreemonthsknewthatitwasnotaninstituteofscience,butofpseudoscience.Liketheethnologicalstudies,likethenotionsofaMasterRace,Dr.
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Mengele'sresearchintotheoriginsofdualbirthswasnothingmorethanapseudoscience.Justasfalsewasthetheoryconcerningthedegeneracyofthedwarfsandcripplessenttothebutchers,inordertodemonstratetheinferiorityoftheJewishrace.Tobesure,allthiswasnottobepropagatedimmediately,fortheGermanpeoplewerenotyetreadytoswallowit.Butwhentheraceof
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Supermenhadachievedfinalvictory,havingwonthewarandacquiredtheterritoryvitaltoitsneeds,thentheskeletonsofthesecripplesanddwarfswhohadbeenmurderedherewouldbeputondisplayinthespacioushallsofgreatmuseums,alongwithadescriptiveplaquegivingtheirname,age,nationality,occupation,etc.Then,ontheanniversaryofVictoryDay,thousandsof
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studentsofthisThirdReich,builttoendureathousandyears,wouldbeledthroughthesehallsbytheirprofessors,topayhomagetotheirillustriousforebears.Theirforebearswho,bythisvictory,andtherealizationofthesacredmissionwhichHistoryhadentrustedtotheMasterRace,hadpushedthesurroundingpeoples—French,Belgians,Russians,Poles—intotheniches
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correspondingtotheirinferiority.Betterstill,theywouldhavecompletelyannihilatedoneEuropeanpeople,theJews,whohadalonghistorybehindthem,ahistoryof6,000years,butwhohadnorighttoexistafewcenturieslonger.Why?BecauseinthecourseofitslonghistorytheJewishracehaddegeneratedintoapeopleofdwarfsandcripples.Bymixingwithotherraces,they
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hadsullied,andthreatenedtocontaminatewithdegeneracy,theonlypurerace:theAryan.Becauseoftheirblood,the
Jewswereharmfultothatgreatrace.Moreover,theyweredangerousbecausetheirteachers,theirartists,theirmerchantsandfinanciershadbecomesopowerfultheythreatenedtoenslavethewholeofEurope.BydestroyingthisracetheThirdReich'sfirstFuhrerhadgiven
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hisnameimmortalstature,andgainedtherespectandgratitudeofallthecivilizednationsoftheworld.Itwasonthebasisofthese
nonsensicaltheoriesthattheNaziswagedtheirwaragainsttherestoftheworldanddestroyed,afterdeportation,literallyallofEurope'sJews,downtothelastborn,sucklingbabe.EverythinginGermany
wasfalse.Theycalledthis
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waracrusade.IntheireyesthewholeofRussiawasasavagesteppe,peopledbyMongolianbarbarians,themselvesathreattocivilization.Francewasasyphiliticnation,wellonitswaytodissolution.TheEnglish,fromtheirPrimeMinisterondown,wereallincurablealcoholics,sufferingforthemostpartfromdeliriumtremens.WhiletheJapanese,ontheother
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hand,whommostpeoplewouldbeinclinedtoclassifyasMongolians,wereconsideredrespectableAryans,becausetheexigenciesofthemomentdemandedit.Theirwholeoutlookonlife
wasalie.TheirdaughtersandwarwidowscouldbearchildrenbyanymanandreceivethethanksoftheStatefordoingso.Childrensoborncouldtakethenametheir
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motherchoseforthemfromamongthenamesofthosemen,oftennumerous,towhomshehadgivenherself.Themultiplicationoftheracedemandedit.Theircynicismwascompleteandterrible:details,likethelyingsignsoutsidetheundergroundchambersofthecrematoriumsthatannouncedinsevenlanguages,"Baths,"whereasinrealitytheyweregaschambers;theboxesof
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cyclongas,5whichwerelabeled,"Poison:fortheDestructionofParasites,"theparasitesbeing,ofcourse,theuntoldthousandsofinnocentJewsmurderedinthespaceofafewminutes.Whoknowsjusthowfartheliewent?PerhapsindeedthesignsontheKZ'selectricbarbedwirealsolied;perhapstherewasreallyno6,000-voltcurrentrunningthroughit.Butno,
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thatwasnolie,forIrememberedhavingseenOberschaarfuhrerMussfeld'sgiantwolfhoundrunintothefenceoneday,atapointnotfarfromthecrematoriumgate,anddieinstantly,electrocuted.Whileonthesubjectof
signs,Ishouldnotforgettomentiontheone,readbyallprisoners,thatwaspostedattheentranceofthecamp.Itexhortedthemwiththese
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words:"FreedomThroughWork."Hereisaconcreteexampleofwhatthosewordsreallymeant.OnedayalineofboxcarsstoppedattheAuschwitzunloadingplatform.Thedoorsslidopenand300prisonersclimbeddown.Theirskinwasalemonyellowcolor,andtheywereemaciatedbeyondalldescription.WhentheyenteredthecrematoriumcourtyardIhadachanceto
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conversewithsomeofthem.Thisistheessenceofwhattheysaid:"Threemonthsagowe
wereshippedawayfromAuschwitztoworkinafactorythatmanufacturessulphuricacid.Whenwelefttherewere3,000ofus,butmanydiedofvariousandsundryillnesses.Nowonly300ofusareleft,andwe'reallsufferingfromsulphuricpoisoning."
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Theyhadbeentold,beforebeingsentbackhere,thattheywouldbesentforacuretoarestcamp.HalfanhourlaterIsawtheirblood-spatteredbodieslyinginfrontofthecrematoriumovens."Freedomthroughwork!""Restcamp!"Howdiaboliccanoneget?Andthatisjustoneofmanyexamples.Tociteanother:duringthemonthsofJuneandJulythousandsofpostcardswere
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distributedtotheinmatesofovercrowdedbarracks,withinstructionsthattheybesenttofriendsoracquaintancesoftheprisoners.Itwasstrictlyspecifiedthatthecardsshouldinnocircumstancesbeheadedeither"Auschwitz"or"Birkenau,"but"AmWaldsee,"whichisaresorttownlocatednotfarfromtheSwissborder.Thecardsweredulysent,andnumerousrepliescameback.Isaw
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theserepliesburned,some50,000ofthemaccordingtoreliablereports,onapyresetupinthemiddleofthecrematoriumcourtyard.Tohavedistributedthemtotheaddresseeswasquiteoutofthequestion,forthelatterhadprecededtheformer,thatis,theaddresseeshadbeenburnedbeforetheletters.Thatisthewaythematterhadbeenarranged.Thepurposeofthislittleschemehadbeen
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toallaythefearsofthepublicatlargeandputanendtotherumorsthatwererifeconcerningcampslikeAuschwitz.
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XIXInnumberone
crematorium'sgaschamber3,000deadwerepiledup.TheSonderkommandohadalreadybeguntountanglethelatticeofflesh.Thenoiseoftheelevatorsandthesoundoftheirclangingdoorsreachedmyroom.Theworkmovedaheaddouble-time.Thegaschambershadtobecleared,forthearrivalofanew
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convoyhadbeenannounced.Thechiefofthegas
chamberkommandoalmosttorethehingesoffthedoortomyroomashearrivedoutofbreath,hiseyeswidewithfearorsurprise."Doctor,"hesaid,"come
quickly.Wejustfoundagirlaliveatthebottomofthepileofcorpses."Igrabbedmyinstrument
case,whichwasalwaysready,anddashedtothegas
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chamber.Againstthewall,neartheentranceoftheimmenseroom,halfcoveredwithotherbodies,Isawagirlinthethroesofadeath-rattle,herbodyseizedwithconvulsions.Thegaskommandomenaroundmewereinastateofpanic.Nothinglikethishadeverhappenedinthecourseoftheirhorriblecareer.Weremovedthestill-living
bodyfromthecorpses
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pressingagainstit.Igatheredthetinyadolescentbodyintomyarmsandcarrieditbackintotheroomadjoiningthegaschamber,wherenormallythegaskommandomenchangeclothesforwork.Ilaidthebodyonabench.Afrailyounggirl,almostachild,shecouldhavebeennomorethanfifteen.Itookoutmysyringeand,takingherarm—shehadnotyetrecoveredconsciousnessand
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wasbreathingwithdifficulty—Iadministeredthreeintravenousinjections.Mycompanionscoveredherbodywhichwasascoldasicewithaheavyovercoat.Onerantothekitchentofetchsometeaandwarmbroth.Everybodywantedtohelp,asifshewerehisownchild.Thereactionwasswift.The
childwasseizedbyafitofcoughing,whichbroughtupathickglobuleofphlegmfrom
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herlungs.Sheopenedhereyesandlookedfixedlyattheceiling.Ikeptaclosewatchforeverysignoflife.Herbreathingbecamedeeperandmoreandmoreregular.Herlungs,torturedbythegas,inhaledthefreshairavidly.Herpulsebecameperceptible,theresultoftheinjections.Iwaitedimpatiently.Theinjectionshadnotyetbeencompletelyabsorbed,butIsawthat
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withinafewminutesshewasgoingtoregainconsciousness:hercirculationbegantobringcolorbackintohercheeks,andherdelicatefacebecamehumanagain.Shelookedaroundherwith
astonishment,andglancedatus.Shestilldidnotrealizewhatwashappeningtoher,andwasstillincapableofdistinguishingthepresent,ofknowingwhethershewasdreamingorreallyawake.A
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veilofmistcloudedherconsciousness.Perhapsshevaguelyrememberedatrain,alonglineofboxcarswhichhadbroughtherhere.Thenshehadlinedupforselectionand,beforesheknewwhatwashappening,beensweptalongbythecurrentofthemassintoalarge,brilliantlylightedundergroundroom.Everythinghadhappenedsoquickly.Perhapssherememberedthateveryone
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hadhadtoundress.Theimpressionhadbeendisagreeable,buteverybodyhadyieldedresignedlytotheorder.Andso,naked,shehadbeensweptalongintoanotherroom.Muteanguishhadseizedthemall.Thesecondroomhadalsobeenlightedbypowerfullamps.Completelybewildered,shehadlethergazewanderoverthemasshuddledthere,butfoundnoneofherfamily.Pressedclose
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againstthewall,shehadwaited,herheartfrozen,forwhatwasgoingtohappen.Allofasuddenthelightshadgoneout,leavingherenvelopedintotaldarkness.Somethinghadstunghereyes,seizedherthroat,suffocatedher.Shehadfainted.Therehermemoriesceased.Hermovementswere
becomingmoreandmoreanimated;shetriedtomove
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herhands,herfeet,toturnherheadleftandright.Herfacewasseizedbyafitofconvulsions.Suddenlyshegraspedmycoatcollarandgrippeditconvulsively,tryingwithallhermighttoraiseherself.Ilaidherbackdownagainseveraltimes,butshecontinuedtorepeatthesamegesture.Littlebylittle,however,shegrewcalmandremainedstretchedout,completelyexhausted.Large
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tearsshoneinhereyesandrolleddownhercheeks.Shewasnotcrying.Ireceivedthefirstreplytomyquestions.Notwantingtotireher,Iaskedonlyafew.Ilearnedthatshewassixteenyearsold,andthatshehadcomewithherparentsinaconvoyfromTransylvania.Thekommandogavehera
bowlofhotbroth,whichshedrankvoraciously.Theykeptbringingherallsortsof
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dishes,butIcouldnotallowthemtogiveheranything.Icoveredhertoherheadandtoldherthatsheshouldtryandgetsomesleep.Mythoughtsmovedata
dizzypace.Iturnedtowardsmycompanionsinthehopeoffindingasolution.Werackedourbrains,forwewerenowfacetofacewiththemostdifficultproblem:whattodowiththegirlnowthatshehadbeenrestoredto
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life?Weknewthatshecouldnotremainhereforverylong.Whatcouldonedowitha
younggirlinthecrematorium'sSonderkommando?Iknewthepasthistoryoftheplace:noonehadevercomeoutofherealive,eitherfromtheconvoysorfromtheSonderkommando.Littletimeremainedfor
reflection.OberschaarfuhrerMussfeldarrivedtosupervise
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thework,aswashiswont.Passingbytheopendoor,hesawusgatheredinagroup.Hecameinandaskeduswhatwasgoingon.Evenbeforewetoldhimhehadseenthegirlstretchedoutonthebench.Imadeasignformy
companionstowithdraw.IwasgoingtoattemptsomethingIknewwithoutsayingwasdoomedtofailure.Threemonthsinthesame
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campandinthesamemilieuhadcreated,inspiteofeverything,acertainintimacybetweenus.Besides,theGermansgenerallyappreciatecapablepeople,and,aslongastheyneedthem,respectthemtoacertainextent,evenintheKZ.Suchwasthecaseforcobblers,tailors,joinersandlocksmiths.Fromournumerouscontacts,IhadbeenabletoascertainthatMussfeldhadahighesteem
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forthemedicalexpert'sprofessionalqualities.Heknewthatmysuperior
wasDr.Mengele,theKZ'smostdreadedfigure,who,goadedbyracialpride,tookhimselftobeoneofthemostimportantrepresentativesofGermanmedicalscience.HeconsideredthedispatchofhundredsofthousandsofJewstothegaschambersasapatrioticduty.Theworkcarriedoninthedissecting
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roomwasforthefurtheranceofGermanmedicalscience.AsDr.Mengele'spathologicalexpert,Ialsohadahandinthisprogress,andthereinlaytheexplanationforacertainformofrespectthatMussfeldpaidme.Heoftencametoseemeinthedissectingroom,andweconversedonpolitics,themilitarysituationandvariousothersubjects.Itappearedthathisrespectalsoarose
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fromthefactthatheconsideredthedissectionofbodiesandhisbloodyjobofkillingtobealliedactivities.Hewasthecommandantandaceshotofnumberonecrematorium.ThreeotherSSactedashislieutenants.Togethertheycarriedoutthe"liquidation"byabulletinthebackoftheneck.Thistypeofdeathwasreservedforthosewhohadbeenchoseninthecamp,orelsesentfrom
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anotherontheirwaytoaso-called"restcamp."Whenthereweremerely500orless,theywerekilledbyabulletinthebackoftheneck,forthelargefactoryofgaschamberswasreservedfortheannihilationofmoreimportantnumbers.Asmuchgaswasneededtokill500astokill3,000.NorwasitworthwhiletocallouttheRedCrosstrucktobringthecanistersandgasbutchersfor
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suchatriflingnumberofvictims.Norwasitworththetroubleofhavingatruckcometocollecttheclothes,whichwerescarcelymorethanragsanyway.Suchwerethefactorswhichdeterminedwhetheragroupwoulddiebygasorbyabulletinthebackoftheneck.AndthiswasthemanIhad
todealwith,themanIhadtotalkintoallowingasinglelifetobespared.Icalmlyrelated
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theterriblecasewefoundourselvesconfrontedwith.Idescribedforhisbenefitwhatpainsthechildmusthavesufferedintheundressingroom,andthehorriblescenesthatprecededdeathinthegaschamber.Whentheroomhadbeenplungedintodarkness,shehadbreathedinafewlungfulsofcyclongas.Onlyafew,though,forherfragilebodyhadgivenwayunderthepushingandshovingofthe
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massastheyfoughtagainstdeath.Bychanceshehadfallenwithherfaceagainstthewetconcretefloor.Thatbitofhumidityhadkeptherfrombeingasphyxiated,forcyclongasdoesnotreactunderhumidconditions.Theseweremyarguments,
andIaskedhimtodosomethingforthechild.Helistenedtomeattentively,thenaskedmeexactlywhatIproposeddoing.Isawbyhis
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expressionthatIhadputhimfacetofacewithapracticallyimpossibleproblem.Itwasobviousthatthechildcouldnotremaininthecrematorium.Onesolutionwouldhavebeentoputherinfrontofthecrematoriumgate.Akommandoofwomenalwaysworkedthere.Shecouldhaveslippedinamongthemandaccompaniedthembacktothecampbarracksaftertheyhadfinishedwork.
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Shewouldneverrelatewhathadhappenedtoher.Thepresenceofonenewfaceamongsomanythousandswouldneverbedetected,fornooneinthecampknewalltheotherinmates.Ifshehadbeenthreeor
fouryearsolderthatmighthaveworked.Agirloftwentywouldhavebeenabletounderstandclearlythemiraculouscircumstancesofhersurvival,andhaveenough
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foresightnottotellanyoneaboutthem.Shewouldwaitforbettertimes,likesomanyotherthousandswerewaiting,torecountwhatshehadlivedthrough.ButMussfeldthoughtthatayounggirlofsixteenwouldinallnaivetetellthefirstpersonshemetwhereshehadjustcomefrom,whatshehadseenandwhatshehadlivedthrough.Thenewswouldspreadlikewildfire,andwewouldallbe
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forcedtopayforitwithourlives."There'snowayofgetting
roundit,"hesaid,"thechildwillhavetodie."Halfanhourlaterthe
younggirlwasled,orrathercarried,intothefurnaceroomhallway,andthereMussfeldsentanotherinhisplacetodothejob.Abulletinthebackoftheneck.
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XXNextdoortotheSSliving
quarters,onthesecondstoryofnumbertwocrematorium,wasacarpenter'sshop,wherethreecarpenterspliedtheirtrade,fulfillinganyandallrequeststhatweresenttothem.Forthemomenttheywerebusyfillinga"privateorder."OberschaarfuhrerMussfeld,takingadvantageoftheopportunity,had
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orderedthecarpenterstomakehima"recamier,"asortofdoublebedthatcouldalsoserveasalargesofa.Itwastobecompletedasquicklyaspossible.Itwasnoeasyjob,butin
thecrematoriumstherewasnosuchwordas"impossible"whenanorderwasgiven.Thecarpentershadsalvagedthenecessarywoodfromamongtheconstructionmaterialsscatteredaboutthe
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crematoriumgrounds.Thespringshadcomefromtheeasychairsthatcertaindeporteeshadbroughtwiththemtomakethejourneymorecomfortablefortheirailingparents.Therewerehundredsoftheseabandonedchairsinthecrematoriumcourtyardandweusedtositinthemafterworktorestawhileandcatchafewbreathsoffreshair.Sotherecamierwasbuilt
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accordingtoinstructions.Formeithadbecomeanobjectofcuriosity.Ihadfollowedallphasesofitsconstructionandseenitcompleted.Ihadwatchedtheminstallthespringsandcoverthemwitheleganttapestries.TwoFrenchelectricianshadinstalledabedlampandarrangedanicheforaradio.Afterithadbeenvarnisheditwasquitehandsome.Inasmallbourgeoishomein
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Mannheimitwouldlookevenbetterthanitdidupintheuninvitingcrematoriumloft.Fortherecamierwastobesent,attheendoftheweek,toMussfeld'shomeatMannheim.ThereitwouldwaittillthevictoriousOber,backfromthetryingwars,coulduseittoresthiswearybones.Oneday,theweekpriorto
itsshipment,Iwasinmyroomandsawahalfdozen
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silkpajamas—anaturalsupplementfortherecamier—waitingtojointhepackage.Theywereoffineimportedsilkandwouldcertainlyhavebeenunobtainableontheoutside,whererationticketswereneededforeventhemostessentialitems.TheKZalsohaditsrationsystem,amuchbetteronethanthatinforcethroughoutGermany,foritfurnishedthosewhousedit
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withanyitemtheydesired.Intheundressingroomthegoodsweretherewaitingtobetaken.Itonlytookonepointperitem,apointofflamefromtheObefsgun,sendingabulletintothebackoftheowner'sneck.Inexchangeforthese
"points"theSSofficialsreceivedjewelry,leathergoods,furcoats,silksandfineshoes.Notaweekwentbywithouttheirsending
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somepackageshome.Inthepackagesthathad
beensentonefound,besidestheluxuryitemsalreadymentioned,tea,coffee,chocolate,andcannedgoodsbythehundreds,allofwhichwerealsoobtainableintheundressingroom.ThustheOberhadconceivedtheideaofhavingarecamierconstructedandsenthome.AsIwatched,daybyday,
thefinalphasesofits
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construction,anideabegantotakeshapeinmymind.Littlebylittletheideatransformeditselfintoaproject.InafewweekstheSonderkommandowouldbeathingofthepast.Wewouldallperishhere,andwewerewellawareofit.Wehadevengrownusedtotheidea,forweknewtherewasnowayout.Onethingupsetmehowever.ElevenSonderkommandosquadshadalreadyperishedandtaken
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withthemtheterriblesecretofthecrematoriumsandtheirbutchers.Eventhoughwedidnotsurvive,itwasourboundendutytomakecertainthattheworldlearnedoftheunimaginablecrueltyandsordidnessofapeoplewhopretendedtobesuperior.Itwasimperativethatamessageaddressedtotheworldleavethisplace.Whetheritwasdiscoveredsoonafterwards,oryears
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later,itwouldstillbeaterriblemanifestoofaccusation.Thismessagewouldbesignedbyallthemembersofnumberonecrematorium'sSonderkommando,fullyconsciousoftheirimpendingdeath.CarriedbeyondthebarbedwiresofKZintherecamier,itwouldremainforthetimebeingatOberschaarfuhrerMussfeld'shomeatMannheim.
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Themessagewasdraftedintime.ItdescribedinsufficientdetailthehorrorsperpetratedatAuschwitzfromthetimeofitsfoundinguntilthepresent.Thenamesofthecamp'storturerswereincluded,aswellasourestimateofthenumberofpeopleexterminated,withadescriptionofthemethodsandinstrumentsutilizedforextermination.Themessagewasdrawnup
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onthreelargesheetsofparchment.TheSonderkommando'seditor,apainterfromParis,copieditinbeautifullywrittenletters,aswasthecustomwithancientmanuscripts,usingIndiainksothatthewritingwouldnotfade.ThefourthsheetcontainedthesignaturesoftheSonderkommando's200men.Thesheetswerefastenedtogetherwithasilkthread,thenrolledup,
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enclosedinaspeciallyconstructedcylindricaltubemadeofzincbyoneofourtinsmiths,andfinallysealedandsolderedsoastoprotectthemanuscriptfromairandhumidity.Ourjoinersplacedthetubeintherecamier'ssprings,amongthewoolflossoftheupholstering.Anothermessage,exactly
thesame,wasburiedinthecourtyardofnumbertwocrematorium.
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XXIIhadbecomeusedto
seeingatruckenterthecrematoriumgateeveryeveningaboutseveno'clock,carrying70to80menandwomenontheirwaytobeliquidated.Comingfromthebarrackshospital,theyrepresentedtheKZ'sdailyselection.Prisonersforseveralyears,oratleastforseveralmonths,theywere
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fullyawareofthefateawaitingthem.Whenthetruckenteredthecourtyardthewallsresoundedwiththescreamsandcriesofthedamned.Theyknewthatatthefootofthecrematoryovensallhopeofescapedissolved.Notwantingtowitnessthat
dailyscene,Igenerallywithdrewtothemostremotecornerofthecrematoriumcourtyard,whereIsatdown
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underanarborofpines.Thecracklingoftherevolversandthescreamsweredeadenedbythetimetheyreachedme.Oneevening,however,my
luckranout.Fromfiveo'clockonIwasworkinginthedissectingroom.IhadtoexaminethesuicidecaseofanSSOberschaarfuhrerwhosebodyhadbeensentmefromGleiwitz.AnSScaptain—oneofthecourt-martialjudges—andaclerksatin
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onthedissection.Aboutseveno'clock,while
IwasdictatingtheaffidavittotheSSclerk,theheavytruckloadedwithprisonersenteredthecourtyard.Twowindows,barredandcoveredwithmetalmosquitonetting,lookedoutonthecrematorium'srearcourtyard.Alltheoccupantswereextremelycalm.FromthisIdeducedthattheyhadbeenselectednotoutofthe
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barracks,butfromthehospitals.Theywereallseriouslyill,tooweaktoscreamoreventoclimbdownfromtheraisedplatformofthetruck.TheSSguardsbecame
excitedandbegantoshout,urgingthemtogetdown.Noonemoved.Thedriveralsobegantolosepatience.Heclimbedbackinthetruckandstartedthemotor.Littlebylittlethetruck'simmense
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dumpbegantorise,tillsuddenlyitspilledtheoccupantstotheground,awrithing,slipping,franticallygraspingmass.Astheyfelltheybumpedagainsteachother,strikingtheirheads,theirfaces,theirkneesagainsttheconcrete.Thenatlastahorrible,collectivecryofpainburstforthandechoedthroughoutthecourtyard.TheSScourt-martialjudge,
drawnbythemoansand
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shouts,interruptedhisinvestigationstoaskme:"What'sgoingoninthecourtyard?"Hecameovertothewindow,whereIexplainedtohimjustwhatwashappening.Apparentlyhewasnotusedtosuchscenes,forheturnedhisheadawayandsaiddisapprovingly,"Nevertheless,theyshouldn'tdothat!"TheSonderkommando
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strippedthemoftheirclothesandpiledthediscardedragsinthecourtyard.ThevictimswereledintotheincinerationroomsandputinfrontoftheOberschaarfuhrer'srevolverbarrel.Mussfeldwastoday'skilleronduty.Standingneartheovens,wearingrubbergloves,heheldhisweaponwithasteadyhand.Onebyonethebodiesfell,eachyieldinghisplacetothenextinline.Withinafewminutes
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hehad"tumbled"—thatwasthetermingeneralusage—theeightymen.Halfanhourlatertheyhadallbeencremated.LaterMussfeldpaidmea
visitandaskedmetogivehimaphysicalcheckup.Hesufferedfromhearttroubleandsevereheadaches.Icheckedhisbloodpressure,tookhispulse,listenedtohisheartwithastethoscope.Hispulseratewasslightlyhigh.I
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gavehimmyopinion:hisconditionwasnodoubttheresultofthelittlejobhehadjustperformedinthefurnaceroom.Ihadwantedtoreassurehim,buttheresultwasjusttheopposite.Hebecameindignant,gotupandsaid:"Yourdiagnosisis
incorrect.Itdoesn'tbothermeanymoretokill100menthanitdoestokill5.IfI'mupset,it'smerelybecauseIdrinktoo
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much."Andsosayingheturned
andwalkedaway,greatlydispleased.
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XXIIIwasinthehabitof
readingforawhileinbedeachnightbeforeIwenttosleep.Onenight,whileIwasdoingjustthat,thelightssuddenlywentoutandtheKZalarmsirenbeganitsdismalwail.Whenevertherewasanalertweweretaken,convoyedbywell-armedSSguards,totheSonderkommandoshelter,
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thatis,tothegaschamber.Wecrossedthethresholdof
thegaschamberwithheavyhearts.Thewholekommandowaspresent,200strong.Itwasaterriblefeelingtoremaininthisroom,knowingthathundredsofthousandsofpeoplehadmetafrightfulendhere.Besides,weknewthatthelifeoftheSonderkommandowasdrawingtoaclose.Thisbeingthecase,theSScouldvery
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easilyhaveclosedthegaschamberdoorsanddumpedfourcasesofcyclongasdownthechimneystoliquidateusall.Asamatteroffact,such
actionwouldnothavebeenwithoutprecedent.ApartoftheeleventhSonderkommandohadbeentransferredfromtheDquartertoBarracks13,arestrictedarea,andinformedthat,uponordersfromabove,thegroup
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wouldnolongerliveinthecrematoriums,buthenceforthinthisbarracks.Theywouldcontinuetoworkattheovens,however,goingintwoseparategroupsfromthebarrackstothecrematorium.ThatsameeveningtheyhadbeentakentotheDquarterforabathandachangeofclothing.Afterthebaththeyhadbeenpushedintoaneighboringroomtogetdisinfectedclothes.This
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roomwasarealdisinfectingchamber,andassuchcouldbehermeticallysealed.Normally,thatwaswherethelice-filledclothescollectedinthecampweredisinfected.FourhundredmenfromtheSonderkommandowereliquidatedinthismanner.Fromthere,truckstooktheirbodiestothefuneralpyre.Thusouranxietywhile
waitingforthealerttobeoverwasnotunfounded.This
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onelastedforthreehours.Thenwecameupoutofdarknesstoseethelongkilometersofbarbedwireonceagainlightedbythesearchlights,andreturnedtobed.Itriedtofallasleep,butsleepwasslowincoming.Thefollowingday,while
makingmyroundsinnumbertwocrematorium,thechiefoftheSonderkommandothereinformedmeconfidentiallythatduringthealertthe
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previousnightagroupofpartisanshadslippedintothecamp.Inanout-of-the-wayspottheyhadcutthebarbedwiresurroundingthecourtyardandslippedthreemachinegunsandtwentyhandgrenadesthroughtheopening.TheSonderkommandomenhaddiscoveredthemearlythatmorningandhiddentheminasafeplace.Thisnewsgaveussome
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slighthopeforthefuture.Weknewthatthehandsthathadsmuggledustheseweaponscouldnotbefaroff.FromaseriesofobservationsIwasinclinedtobelievethatthelocalundergroundwasoperatingabout25to30kilometersfromthecamp.Wehopedthat,undercoverofthenextalert,theywouldmanagetoslipussomemoreweapons.Recentlytherehadbeenalertseveryday.Butfor
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ustheonlyonesthatreallycountedwerethosethatoccurredatnightandlastedarelativelylongtime,foronlythencouldouranonymousanddevotedfriendsgetclosetothecamp.Afterthreeorfoursuchalerts,wewouldperhapshaveenougharmstotryandforceourwaypasttheguards.Theorganizationforthis
futureoperationwascoordinatedbynumberthree
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crematorium,andhadcontactsinalltheothers.Thewholeaffairwasbeingconductedwiththeutmostcareandcircumspection.Deathstalkedoureverymove,intheformofthelethalmachinegunsmannedbyourguards.Wewantedtolive.Wewantedtogetoutofhere.Butevenifmostofusfailedtomakeit,evenifonlyoneortwoescaped,wewouldstillhavewonout,for
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therewouldthenbesomeonetotelltheworldaboutthedarkmysteriesofthesedeathfactories.Asforthosedestinedto
paywiththeirlives,atleasttheywouldnothavediedlikeworms,crushedbytheirbutchers'uncleanhands.Onthecontrary,theywouldbethefirstinthehistoryoftheKZwho,despiteoverwhelmingoddsinbothnumbersandmaterial,would
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havesoweddeathanddestructionamongtheirtorturersbeforedyingproudlylikemen.
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XXIIIAnnihilationtimehad
comeforthe4,500inhabitantsoftheGypsyCamp.ThemeasurestakenwerethesameasthosetakenfortheliquidationoftheCzechCamp.Allthebarrackswerequarantined.SSguards,leadingtheirpolicedogs,invadedtheGypsyquartersandchasedtheinhabitantsoutside,wheretheywere
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madetolineup.Rationsofbreadandsalamiweredistributed.Thegypsiesweremadetobelievethattheywerebeingshippedtoanothercamp,andtheyswallowedthestory.Averyeasyandefficaciouswayofcalmingtheirfears.Noonethoughtofthecrematoriums,forthenwhywouldrationsoffoodhavebeendistributed?Thisstrategyonthepartof
theSSwasdictatedneitherby
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pitynoraregardforthosecondemnedtodeath,butmerelybytheirdesiretoexpeditealargegroupofpeople,withoutanyunnecessaryincidentsordelays,tothegaschambers,guardedbyarelativelysmallpatrol.Thestrategyworkedtoperfection.Everythingwentoffasplanned.Throughoutthenightthechimneysofnumbersoneandtwocrematoriumssentflames
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roaringskyward,sothattheentirecampwaslightedwithasinisterglow.NextdaytheGypsyCamp,
oncesonoisy,laysilentanddeserted.Theonlysoundwasthemonotonouschantofthebarbedwiresrubbingtogether,whilethedoorsandwindowsleftopenbangedandsqueakedendlesslyunderthepowerfulwindoftheVolhyniansteppes.OnceagainEurope's
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pyromaniacshadorganizedagiganticdisplayoffireworks.OnceagainthesettingwastheAuschwitzconcentrationcamp.Thistime,however,thevictimsthrowntotheflameswerenotJews,butChristians:CatholicgypsiesfromGermanyandAustria.Bymorningtheirbodieshadbeentransformedintoapileofsilveryashesrisinginthecrematoriumcourtyard.Thebodiesoftwelvesetsoftwins
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hadnotbeenconsignedtotheflames.Evenbeforesendingthemtothegaschamber,Dr.MengelehadmarkedaZ.S.ontheirchestswithhisspecialchalk.Inthiscollectionofbodies
thereweretwinsofallages,rangingfromnewborninfantstosixteen-year-olds.Forthemoment,thetwelvepairsofcorpseswerestretchedoutontheconcretefloorofthe"morgue."Bodiesofblack-
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haired,dark-skinnedchildren.Thejobofclassifyingthembypairswasatiringone.Iwascarefulnottomixthemup,forIknewthatifIshouldrendertheserareandpreciousspecimensunusableforhisresearch,Dr.Mengelewouldmakemepayforitwithmylife.OnlyafewdaysbeforeI
hadbeensittingwithhimintheworkroom,nearthetable,lookingthroughtherecords
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alreadysetupontwins,whenhenoticedafaintspotofgreaseonthebrightbluecoverofoneofthefiles.Ioftenhandledtherecordsinthecourseofmydissections,andhadprobablyspotteditwithabitofgrease.Dr.Mengeleshotawitheringglanceatmeandsaid,veryseriously:"Howcanyoubeso
carelesswiththesefiles,whichIhavecompiledwith
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somuchlove!"Theword"love"hadjust
crossedDr.Mengele'slips.IwassotakenabackthatIsattheredumbfounded,unabletothinkofanythingtosayinreply.
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XXIVIconductedthe
pathologicalstudyofthetwelvepairsoftwinswiththegreatestpossiblecare.Aseveryoneknows,therearetwokindsoftwins,one-eggandtwo-egg.Twinsbornofthesameeggarealwaysidentical,bothintheirinternalandexternalmanifestations,andofthesamesex.Theyarevariously
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knownasidentical,uniovularormonozygotic.Twinsbornfromtwoseparateeggsresembleoneanotherinboththeirinternalandexternalcharacteristics,butratherasbrothersandsistersdo.Theyarenotperfectlyidenticaland,inabouthalfthecases,areofdifferentsexes.Theyareknownasfraternal,biovularordizygotic.Theseremarksconstitute,
medicallyspeaking,oneof
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thebasiclawsofheredityconcerningtwins.Thislawhasbeenusedextensivelybythosewhoclaimthatenvironmentalfactors,suchaseducation,nutrition,theillnessesapersonmayhavesuffered,etc.,influenceonlyslightlyhisphysical,mentalandtemperamentalmakeup,whereasheredityplaysamuchmoreimportantrole.Ifthetraitsapersonhasreceivedfromhisforebears
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occuragainandagainthroughoutseveralgenerations,theyareknownasdominanthereditarycharacteristics.Thesedominanthereditary
characteristicscaneitherbetotheadvantageordisadvantageoftheindividual.Forexample,agoodhealthysetofteeth,athickheadofhairthatdoesnotthinwiththeyears,orhypertensionand,insomefamilies,diabetes.
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Amongthementalillnesses,nervousdepression.Thesehereditary
phenomena,whethertheyareadvantageousordisadvantageous,oftenappearatbirth:achildbornwithtoomanyfingersortoeswouldbeanexample.Otherphenomenadeveloplateronandbecomechronicillnesses,suchasepilepsy,asthma,gout,certainformsofhypertension,afewcasesof
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cancer,andthesenilecataractoftheocularlens,thislastoccurringonlyinpeoplesixtyorolder.Amongthesehereditary
phenomenaonesometimesfindsthispeculiarity,thattheyoccurmoreofteninonesexthanintheother.Daltonism,orcongenitalcolorblindness,andanemiaaretwoofthemostfrequentmanifestationsofthesehereditaryphenomena
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definedbysex.Bothoftheseillnessesappearonlyinmales,neverinfemales.Anemiaisthemostobviousexample:themostcommonhereditaryformofanemiaisthatwhichhaspassedfromananemicgrandfatherthroughahealthydaughtertohalfthemalegrandchildren.Malechildrenneverinherititdirectlyfromananemicfather.Eachmalechildandallofhisdescendentswill
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remainhealthy,whethertheybemaleorfemale.Butthefemalechildrenofananemicfatherwill,thoughinthemselveshealthy,carrytheseedsofanemia,andeachoftheirdaughterswilltransmittheseedstotheirmaleoffspring.Ihadthebodiesofapairof
fifteen-year-oldtwinsbeforemeonthedissectiontable.Ibeganaparallelandcomparativedissectionofthe
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twobodies.Nothingparticularlynoteworthyabouttheheads.Thenextphasewastheremovalofthesternum.Hereanextremelyinterestingphenomenonappeared:apersistentthymus,thatis,athymusglandthatcontinuedtosubsist.Normallythethymusisfoundonlyinchildren.Itextendsfromtheupperedgeofthesternumtotheheart,thuscoveringafairlylarge
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area.Withpubertyitbeginstowitherrapidlyandsoondisappearscompletely.Oncesexualmaturityhasbeenattained,allthatisleftofitisasmallpocketoffat,plustheremainsofthefibroustissuesoftheformergland.Thethymushasagreat
influenceongrowth.Whenitwitherstoorapidly,theindividualwillbesmall,perhapsevenadwarf,andbesides,histibularboneswill
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beveryfragile.Overdevelopment,orhypersecretionofthegland,isoftenfoundduringtheautopsyofchildrenwhohavediedsuddenlyfornoapparentreason,withouthavingbeenill.Hypersecretionisalsofrequentlyfoundinyoungpeoplewhoprovetobeexcessivelyvulnerabletoinfectiousdiseases.Thusthediscoveryofthe
thymusglandinthetwin
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brotherswasofconsiderableinterest,fornotonlywasitstillextanthereinthesefifteen-year-olds,whereasitshouldhavedisappearedattheageoftwelve,butitwas,besides,abnormallylarge.Idissectedtwoothersetsoftwins,oneoffifteenyearsofageandtheotherofsixteen,andfoundthethymuswitheredinbothcases.Fromeachoftheeight
identicaltwinsIextractedthe
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cervicalpartofthespinalcolumn.Thefourthandfifthvertebraepresentedananomaly:thesevertebraehadnotclosedupattheageoftwelveorthirteen,butremainedopen,eveninthecaseofthefifteen-andsixteen-year-oldtwins.Thisanomaly,called"spinabifide,"isapathologicalstatewhoseconsequencescanbeextremelyserious.Anindividualdevelopsin
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bothdirectionsofthespinalcolumn,thatis,upwardtowardsthecraniumanddownwardtowardsthepelvis,orrather,thecaudalbone.Developmentiscalledcranialorcaudal,dependingonthepredominanttendency.Inthepresentcasethetendencywascranialforallthetwins,sincethe"spinabifide"andthetransversebonewhichhadremainedopenweredegeneratephenomena.
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AnotheranomalyIfoundinthefivepairsoftwinswasthenon-fixationofthetenthrib.Normally,thisribisattachedtothesternum.Thefactthatitwas"floating"resultedfromanirregularityofthespinalcolumn'sgrowthinthepelvicdirection.Icommittedthesecurious
observationstopaper,inamuchmorepreciseandscientificmannerthanIhaveemployedtodescribethem
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here,formydissectionreport.LaterIspentalongafternoonindeepdiscussionwithDr.Mengele,tryingtoclearupacertainnumberofdoubtfulpoints.InthedissectionroomandlaboratoryIwasnolongerahumbleKZprisoner,andIconsequentlydefendedandexplainedmypointofviewasthoughthiswereamedicalconferenceofwhichIwereafull-fledgedmember.IcontradictedDr.Mengeleon
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severaloccasions,andcompletelydisagreedwithoneofhishypotheses.Iknowmen,anditseemed
tomethatmyfirmattitude,mymeasuredsentences,andevenmysilenceswerethequalitiesbywhichIhadsucceededinmakingDr.Mengele,beforewhomtheSSthemselvestrembled,offermeacigaretteinthecourseofaparticularlyanimateddiscussion,provingheforgot
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foramomentthecircumstancesofourrelationship.
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XXVOncewhenIwasdissecting
thebodyofafairlyoldman,Idiscoveredsomeverybeautifulgallstonesinthebladder.KnowingthatDr.Mengelewasanardentcollectorofsuchitems,Iwashedthestones,driedthem,andthenarrangedtheminalarge-neckedflask,stopperedwithaglasscork.Istuckalabelontheflask,
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givingtheperson'sname,thekindofstonestheywere,andtheirpathologicalcharacteristics.Duringhisvisitnextday,IgavethemtoDr.Mengele.Headmiredthebeautifulcrystals.Turningtheflaskroundandround,helookedatthegallstonesandthen,turningabruptlytome,askedifIknewtheballadofthewarriorWallenstein.Hisquestionwascompletelyoutofkeepingwiththe
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surroundings,butIanswered:"IknowthestoryofthewarriorWallenstein,butnottheballad."Whereupon,smiling,hebegantorecite:"ImBesitzederFamilie
Wallenstein1stmehrGallenstein,wie
Edelstein."which,translatedinto
English,wouldgosomethinglike:"IntheWallensteinfamilyTherearemoregallstones
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thanpreciousstones."Mysuperiorrecitedseveral
stanzasofthatcomicballad.HewasinsuchagoodmoodthatIdecidedtoaskagreatfavorofhim:thatheletmegolookformywifeandchild.OnlyafterIhadutteredtherequestdidIrealizehowdaringitwas:butitwasalreadytoolate.Helookedatmewithastonishment."You'remarriedandhavea
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child?""Yes,Captain,I'mmarried
andhaveafifteen-year-olddaughter,"Itoldhim,myvoicebreakingwithemotion."Doyouthinktheyarestill
here?"heasked."Yes,Captain,becauseat
ourarrivalthreemonthsagoyouselectedthemandsentthemtotheright-handcolumn.""Theymayhavesincebeen
sentontoanothercamp,"he
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said.SuddenlyIthoughtofthecrematoriumsmoke:perhapstheyhadsincebeendispatchedwiththatsmoketosomecelestialcamp.Dr.Mengele,whowasseated,hisheadbentforward,seemedlostinthought.Iremainedstandingbehindhim."I'mgoingtogiveyoua
passtogolookforthem,but..."andplacinghisforefingeronhislips,helookedatmemenacingly.
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"Iunderstand,Captain,andthankyou."Dr.Mengeleleft.Ireturned
tomyroom,completelyelated,holdingthepassinmyhand.OncethereIbegantoreadit:"NumberA8450isauthorizedtocirculatefreelywithintheconfinesoftheAuschwitzKZ.Signed:Dr.Mengele,SSHauptsturmfuhrer."Nevertomyknowledgehadanything
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likethishappenedinthehistoryofthecamp.Ididnotknowquitewheretobegin.ThewomenwerequarteredintheC,B3andFK4Camps.AsfarasIknew,mostoftheHungarianwomenwereinCCamp.Idecidedtotrytherefirst.ThefollowingdayIgotup
stilltired,nothavingsleptawinkallnight.Terribledoubtsassailedme.Here,
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wherethreemonthswasaneternity,somanythingscouldhavehappenedtothem.MypositionintheKZhadmademerealizeonlytoowelleverythingthatwentoninsidethesebloodywalls.IenteredtheSSofficeto
announcemydeparture,andbidmycomradesgoodbye.Theywishedmeluck.Althoughitwasstillearly,
thewhiteAugustsunwasalreadyscorchinghotwhenI
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setoutonmythreekilometerjourney.Asthecrowflies,CCampwasconsiderablycloser,butIhadtokeepwithinthefences,andwasthereforeobligedtomakenumerousdetours.Filledwithamixtureofdreadandcuriosity,Isetoutthroughtheneutralzone,whichwasborderedbyelectrifiedfences.Theyneverfiredonyouwithoutwarningwhenyoupassedthroughthemaze
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ofwires.Motorcyclepatrolsrodebywithsignshungroundtheirnecksreading:"Lagerpolizei":"CampPolice."Imetseveralofthemonmyway,butnonemolestedme.ReachingCCamp,Isawan
immenseirongateloomingbeforeme,whosetwowingsborenumerousporcelaininsulators,reinforcedbybarbedwire.Infrontofthegate,theinevitableguard
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house.SomeSSsoldierswerebaskinginthesun.Theylookedmeupanddown,forIwasanunusualguest,butsaidnothing.Theydidnotbotheraboutbusinessthatconcernedonlytheircomradeseatedneartheguardhousewindow.Iapproachedthelatterand
gavehimmytattoonumber.Helookedatmeexpectantly.ItookDr.Mengele'spassfrommypocketandhandedit
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tohim.Afterperusingit,heorderedhiscomradestoopenthegates,thenaskedmehowlongIwantedtostayinside,for,asalways,hehadtorecorditinhisregister."Untilnoon,"Isaidevenly.
Twohourswasagreatdealtoask,butthecustomarybribeofapackageofcigaretteswassufficienttogethisassent.Ihandedhimapackandpassedthroughthegate.ThemainroadofCCamp,
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borderedbydilapidated,fadedgreenbarracks,wasanimated.Awoman'sdetailwascarryingalargeironcaskfilledwithhotsoup,forherethenoonmealwasdistributedat10o'clock.Anothergroup—ahighwaykommando—wasbusilyengagedcarryingstonesforrepairingthecamproads.Severalwomenwerestretchedoutinthesunalongbothsidesofthismainthoroughfare.Theirbodies
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wereclothedinrags,theirheadswereshaven;theywereindeedapitifulsighttobehold.Manyweredressedinthemostfantasticclothing—onewaswearingasleevelesseveninggown—andwereseatedontheground,busydelousingthemselvesortheircompanions.Theexposedpartsoftheirbodieswerecoveredwithfoul,oozingsores.Itwasfromthissectionthatconvoyswerechosento
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besenttocampsfartheraway.AsfarasIcouldtelltheselectionshadbeenverycarefullymade,forallthoselefthereappearedtobetheveryweakest.Luckyweretheywhohadbeensenttomoredistantcamps,fortheystillhadachanceofsurviving,whereasthefateofthosestillherewassealed,afateidenticaltothatoftheGypsyCamp.Iheadedtowardsthefirst
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barracks.Fromallsidescriesandshoutsgreetedme.Thosewhohadseeminglybeenmerebundlesofragslyingonthegroundorcrawlingonallfoursrevivedand,leavingtheirplaces,rantowardsme.Aboutthirtyofthemhadrecognizedmeandcrowdedaroundaskinganxiouslyfornewsoftheirhusbandsandchildren.Iftheyhadbeenableto
recognizemeitwasbecauseI
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hadmanagedtoliveinsuchawaythatIstilllookedlikeahumanbeing.Butitwasalmostimpossibleformetorecognizethem,sogreatlyhadtheychanged.Mysituationinthemiddleoftheclamoringcrowdwasbecomingembarrassing.Inever-increasingnumberstheycrowdedaroundme.Everyonewantedtolearnsomethingaboutherfamily.Forthreemonthstheyhad
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beenlivingunderanimpossibleregimeandinconstantfear.Hereselectiontookplaceonceaweek.Threemonthshadbeenlongenoughforthemtohavelearnedtoregretthepastandfearthefuture.Thewomenaskedmeif
everythingtheyhadheardaboutthecrematoriumswastrue.Whatwasthesmokeyousawpouringfromthechimneysduringtheday,and
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theflamesthatreplaceditatnight?Itriedtoreassurethem,denyingeverything."It'snottrue,"Irepeated
aftereachoftheirquestionsandsurmises."Besides,thewarisalmostoverandsoonwe'llallbebackhome."Isaiditwithoutreallybelievingitmyself.Ileftthemwithouthaving
learnedanynewsofmywifeanddaughter.Ienteredthefirstbarracksandaskedthe
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overseer,ayoungSlovakiangirl,tohavethenamesofmywifeanddaughtercalledout.Therewerebetween800and1,000womenstackedoneabovetheotherontheberthsthatlinedthewallsofeverybarracks.Tohavethenamescalledoutherewasnoteasy.Thenoiseofthethousandwomendrownedthesinglevoice.Theoverseerreturnedafewminuteslatertotellmethathersearchhadproved
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fruitless.Ithankedherforherkindnessandenteredthesecondbarracks.Herethesituationwas
muchthesame;thesamescenewasrepeatedwithlikeresults.Iwasinthethirdbarracks,standinginthemiddleoftheroom.AgainIhadtheoverseercalledandaskedhertohavemywifeanddaughtersentfor.Shesenttwolittlegirlsdowneachsideofthebarracks;they
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stoppedateachlayerofbunksandcalledoutthenames.Inafewminutestheyreturnedbringingmywifeanddaughterwiththem!Theyapproachedhandin
hand,theireyeswidewithfear,knowingtheprobableconsequencesofapersonalsummons.Buttheyhadalreadyrecognizedme.Theystoppeddead,astonished,rootedtothespot.Iapproachedthem,tookboth
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oftheminmyarms,andembracedthem.Theywereincapableofspeaking,butweresatisfiedtocrysoftly.Itriedtoconsolethem,toreassurethem,butalreadythecrowdsurroundedus.Undersuchconditionstherewasabsolutelynowayofholdingaconversation.Iaskedtheoverseerifshewouldletushavetheuseofherlittleroomforafewminutes.Then,atlast,wewerealone.
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Theybroughtmeuptodateontheirsadexperiencesofthepreviousthreemonths:thedreadedselections,fromwhichtheyhadtillnowescaped,buttheverythoughtofwhichmadethemtremblewithfear,livingastheydidintheshadowofthecrematoriumchimneys.Dressedinrags,theysufferedfromcoldandperpetualhunger.Itrainedintheirbarracksandtheirclothes
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neverdriedoutcompletely.Thefoodwasuneatableand,whatwasworse,theywereunabletosleep.Theplaceassignedtothemwasmeanttoholdsevenpeople:twelvewerestackedinthere.Womenwhosesocialrankbackhomewasfairlyhighpushedandshovedeachotherinordertogivethemselvesafewinchesmorespace,thushopingtosleepalittlebetter,evenititwasattheexpense
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oftheircompanions.Everybodyherehadlostherformerpersonality.Friendsorstrangers,eachwasconcernedonlyaboutherownwell-being,unwillingtomaketheslightestconcession.Mydaughtertoldmethatshesleptontheconcretefloor,sincenobodywouldmakeaplaceforheronthebunkwherehermotherslept.Mywifeaskedmeaboutmywork.Iexplainedto
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herthatIwasDr.Mengele'sassistant,andassuchamemberoftheSonderkommando.AfterthreemonthsofKZlifetheytoohadlearnedthattheSonderwasthekommandoofthelivingdead.Bothlookedatmeaghast.IreassuredthemasbestIcouldandpromisedtoreturnthefollowingday.ThefactthatIhadfound
mywifeandchildmade
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sensationalnewsatthecrematorium.Itookwarmclothing,linenandstockingsfromtheclothingdepartment,toothbrushes,nailcutters,penknivesandcombsfromthetoiletarticlesection.FromthepharmacyIgotastockofvitaminpills,ointmentfortheirsores,andanythingelseIthoughtmightbeuseful.Igotasizablequantity,muchmorethanwasnecessaryformywifeanddaughter.
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Besides,Ifilledmysackwithblocksofsugar,butter,jamandbreadinquantitieslargeenoughtobeabletodistributethemtotheotherprisoners.SoitwasthatIleftfortheCCampwithmysackbulging.Butallgoodthingsmustcometoanend.ForthreeweeksIvisitedC
Campeveryday.OnedaywhatIwasafraidwouldhappenactuallycametopass.Ihadalreadycometothe
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conclusion,aftertheliquidationoftheCzechandGypsyCamps,thatexterminationwasmerelyamatterofchronologicalorder.SoonerorlaterthetimecameforallthosewhospenttheirdaysofmiserywithintheconfinesofAuschwitz'sbarbedwirebarriers.OneafternoonIwasseated
atmyworktableinthelaboratory.Dr.MengeleandDr.Thilowerepresent,
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discussingquestionspertainingtotheKZ'sadministration.Dr.Mengele,asthoughhehadjustreachedadecision,gotupfromhischairandsaidtoDr.Thilo:"IamnolongerabletofeedthedebilitatedprisonersofCCamp.Ishallhavethemliquidatedduringthenexttwoweeks."Suchscenesoftentook
placeinmypresence.Affairsofamostconfidentialnature
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werediscussedasthoughIwerenoteventhere.Was
Inotafterallalivingdeadman,whosepresencenolongermeantanything?IwasdeeplyshakenbyDr.
Mengele'sdecisionconcerningtheliquidationofCCamp,foritconcernednotonlymyimmediatefamily,butthousandsofmyunfortunatecompatriots.Ihadtoactimmediately.AssoonasDr.Mengele
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andDr.Thiloleftthecrematorium,IfollowedthemandheadeddirectlyforDCamp,wheretheSSgroupwhichsupervisedtheincorporationofforeignprisonersintoforcedlaborbattalionswasinstalled.InthiscamptheprisonersnecessaryforthatprogramofslavelaborinforcethroughoutallGermanywereportionedout.TheheadwasanOberschaarfuhrer.Ifound
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himaloneinhisroom.IintroducedmyselfandshowedhimDr.Mengele'spass.Iexplainedtohimthatmy
wifeandchildwereinternedinCCamp.AfterhavingtrackedthemdownwithDr.Mengele'shelp,IhadbeendoingallIcouldforthem.Nevertheless,IknewthefateinstoreforCCamp,andthushadtoarrangetohavemyfamilysenttosomeplacefar
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fromhere.Heconcurredandpromisedtohelpme.Thatweektwoconvoysof
3,000prisonerswereduetobesentfromCCamptowesternGermany'swarplants."Thesefactoriesarethebestsetup,"hesaid,"sincethelodgingandfooddonotaimatexterminating,butratheratthemaintenanceofgoodconditionsfortheworkers,inordertoassuremaximumproductivity."
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Ileftaboxof100cigarettesonhistable.Heacceptedthepackageandpromisedthatifmywifeanddaughtervolunteeredduringtheselection,hewouldassignthemtooneofthetwoconvoys.IhadgotwhatIwanted.IhurriedtoCCamp,buttheremyjobwasevenmoredifficult.Ihadtomakemyfamilyunderstandthattheyhadtogetawayfromhere.Icouldnottellthemthe
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truth,forIwouldonlystartapanic,whichwouldbefatalforallofus.Iaskedformywifeanddaughterintheoverseer'slittleroom,andtriedtomakethemunderstandthat,howeverpainfulitwasforme,thesituationdemandedthattheyleave.Theywouldhavetorenouncemyhelp.Formypart,Itoowouldhavetoforgothepleasureofseeingandhelpingthem.Sometime
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thisweektherewouldbeaselectiontofillaconvoyquota.Theyweretovolunteerforoneoftheconvoys,preferablyforthefirst.Iexplainedtomywifethatseriousmotivesforcedmetoadviseherthus;Iaskedhertotellallheracquaintancestovolunteeraswellfortheconvoysbutthatshesaynothingmoreaboutit.Imightaddthatduringthe
fillingofworkquotas,theSS
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commissionfirstacceptedvolunteersfortheconvoys,andusedarbitraryincorporationonlywhenthenumberofvolunteersdidnotattaintherequirednumber.Nevertheless,therewerefewvolunteers,sincenobodywantedtoforsaketheadvantagesofhispresentsituation—thatofnotworking—foranother.Fewwerewillingtovolunteerforforcedlaborwhenthefood
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rationswereinsufficienteventosustainlifeintheKZ.Poor,short-sightedwomen,ifonlytheyhadunderstoodthementalityoftheThirdReich'sKZ,theywouldhaverealizedthatthosewhodidnotworkdidnotlive.Mywifeanddaughter
realized,however,thatmyreasonsformakingsuchadecisionmustbegood,andtheypromisedtovolunteerfortheinitialquota.Imade
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mygoodbyes,buttoldthemIwouldreturnintwodaystobringthemsomewarmclothesandfoodforthejourney.Whenthetwodayswere
up,IreturnedtoCCamptobidthemalastfarewell,bringingtheclothesandprovisionswithme.ButIdidnotreturnalone.IwasafraidtotakesuchaloadofpackagesthroughtheCCampgate.Some
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high-rankingofficersmighthavebeenintheneighborhoodwhenIarrivedandbecomecurious.SoIaskedoneofthecrematoriumSSguards,whomIhadtreatedforpleurisy,tocomewithmeandhelpcarrythepackages.ThistimeIdidnotvisitmywifeanddaughterintheirbarracks,buthadthemsentforfromadesertedpointalongthebarbedwireenclosure.Itwastherewe
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heldourlastconversation.Wethrewthepackagesoverthebarbedwire.Theplacewassooutofthewaythatnobodysawus.Withthebarbedwirestrandsseparatingus,itwasimpossibleforuseventokisseachothergoodbye.Inthefewminuteswe
spenttogethermywifeassuredmethateverythinghadworkedoutasplanned.Bothsheandourdaughter
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hadbeenacceptedfortheconvoy,withouthavinghadtosolicittheOberschaarfuhrer'shelp.Iwasalsohappytolearnthatmanyoftheotherwomeninthecamphadtakenmywife'sadviceandvolunteeredfortheconvoy.
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XXVIThreedayslaterIreturned
toCCamptocheckandmakecertainmywifeanddaughterhadindeeddeparted.Theyweregoneallright,withoneofthetwoconvoysconsistingof3,000prisoners.Ididnotknowwhatthefuturemightholdinstoreforthem,butIwasneverthelessrelieved,forheretheywereheadedtowardscertaindeath.Now,
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withalittleluck,theymightescapewiththeirlives.Indicationsthatthewarwasdrawingtoaclosewerebecomingincreasinglyevident.TheThirdReich'sgravewasalreadybeingdug.Ihadafeelingthat,atthispointinthegame,aprisoner'schancesofsurvivalwereroughlyproportionaltohisdistancefromcampssuchasAuschwitz.Whichmeantthatmyownchanceswere
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growingslimmereveryday.Whatevermyfate,
however,atleastIcouldendmydaysknowingthatmyfamilywasnowfarfromthepathsleadingtothefuneralpyres.Itwasneitherfearnordespairthatkeptthethoughtofdeathuppermostinmymind,butratherthememoryoftheeleventhSonderkommando'sbloodyend,presagingourown,plusacoldlyobjectiveattitude,
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untaintedbyanysentimentality.AsIleftCCamp,Iletmy
gazelingerinfarewellupontherowsofdilapidatedbarracks.ItwaswithamixtureofsadnessandcompassionthatIlookedoncemoreuponthegrotesquespectacleofourwomenandgirls:theywhohadoncebeensoattractive,someticulousintheirtoiletanddress,werenowshavenandemaciated,
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dressedlikescarecrows,strippedofallhumandignity,ghostsoftheirformerselves.AsIreturnedtothe
crematoriumsIfoundmyselfshivering,andsuddenlyrealizedthatautumnwashere:itwasalreadytheendofSeptember.Thenorthwind,sweepingdownfromthealreadywhitenedsummitsofthemountains,sangthroughthebarbedwiresandmadetheshutterscreakominously.
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Theonlybirdthatinhabitedthisgodforsakenregion,thecrow,flashedagainsttheleadensky.Fromthecrematoriums,builttoendureforever,thewindborecloudsofsmoke,andwiththemthecharacteristic,familiarodorofburninghairandflesh.Mydayswerespentin
idleness,mynightsweresleepless.Iwasterriblydepressed;alldesirehadleftme.Sincemyfamily's
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departure,Ihadbeenfilledwithlonelinessandhauntedbymyowninactivity.ForthepastseveraldayssilenceandboredomhadweighedheavilyonAuschwitz.Abadsign—andmyintuitionwasjustaboutinfallible—merelytheheraldofmorebloodydeedstocome.ThetwelfthSonderkommandohadalmostlivedoutitsfourmonths.Thesandsofourallottedtimewerefastrunningout.We
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hadonlyafewdaysleft—atmostaweekortwo—tolive.Dr.Mengele'sdecisionto
liquidateCCamphadbeencarriedout.Everyeveningfiftytrucksbroughtthevictims,4,000atatime,tothecrematoriums.Ahorriblesight,thiscaravanoftrucks,theirheadlightsstabbingthedarkness,eachbearingahumancargoofeightywomenwhoeitherfilledthe
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airwiththeirscreamsorsatmute,paralyzedwithfear.Inslowsuccessionthetrucksrolledupanddumpedthewomen,whohadalreadybeenstrippedoftheirclothes,atthetopofthestairwayleadingdownintothegaschamber.Fromtheretheywerequicklypushedbelow.Theyallknewwheretheyweregoing,buttherigorsoftheirfourmonthscaptivity,thecorporalpunishmentthey
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hadbeenmadetoendure,andthedisintegrationoftheirnervoussystems,hadreducedthemtosuchapointthattheywerenolongercapableofputtingupanyresistance,orevenoffeelingpain.Theywereherdedpassivelyintothegaschambers.Wearyofbeinghuntedandpersecuted,oflivinginconstantfear,theydumblyawaitedthehandofthesurephysician,Death.Forthemlifehadlostallmeaning
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andpurpose.Toprolongitwouldmerelyhaveprolongedtheirsuffering.Andwhatalongroadthey
hadtraveledincominghere!Howfilledwithunimaginablesorroweachlapofthatjourney!First,theirwarm,comfortablehomeshadbeeninvadedandpillaged.Then,togetherwiththeirhusbands,children,andparents,theyhadbeentakentothebrick-kilnsonthefaredgeoftown,
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whereforweekstheyhadbeenmadetoliveandsleepintheswampsbornofthespringrains.Thesewerethe"ghettos,"fromwhich,insmallgroups,theyhadbeentakeneverydaytothespeciallydesignedtorturechambers,outfittedwithallthelatestinstrumentsconducivetomakingpeople"talk."Theretheyhadbeenquestioned,until,halfdeadwithpain,theyhadconfessed
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eitherthehidingplaceoftheirvaluables,orthenameofthepersontowhomtheyhadconfidedthem.Manyhaddiedfromtheseinterrogations.Thosewhosurvivedhadbeenalmostrelievedtofindthemselvesbeingloadedintoboxcars,eightyorninetytoacar,forithadmeanttheywereleavingthetorturechambersfarbehind.Orsotheyhadthought.For
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fourorfivedaystheyhadlivedinthesecars,watchingthedeadpileuparoundthem,tillatlasttheyhadreachedtheJewishrampoftheAuschwitzconcentrationcamp.Wealreadyknowwhat
happenedtothemhere.Heartbrokenatbeingseparatedfromtheirhusbandsandchildren,franticwithfear,sent,at"selectiontime,"intotheright-handcolumn,
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theyatlastreachedCCamp.Butbeforeenteringthefoul,disease-riddenbarracks,theyweremadetosubmittoanotherhumiliation,designedtodivestthemofanylingeringvestigesofhumandignity:thebaths.Ungentlehandscuttheir
hairandstrippedthemoftheirclothes.Afterthebaththeyweregivenragsthatnoself-respectingbeggarwouldeverhavetouched.Inthese
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clothestheyreceivedtheirfirstdividendundertheThirdReich:lice.Afterthisreception,they
begantheirlifeofconfinementbehindtheKZbarbedwire,theirlifeofthelivingdead.Thefoodtheyreceived,morelikedirtydishwaterthananythingelse,wassufficienttokeepthemfromdying,insufficienttokeepthemreallyalive.Albuminwascompletely
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lackingintheirsystems,causingtheirlegstobecomeasheavyaslead.Theabsenceoffatsmadetheirbodiesswell.Theirmenstruationsceased.Asaresult,theybecameirritableandincreasinglynervous,hadmigrainesandnosebleeds.ThelackofVitaminBcausedperpetualdrowsinessandpartialamnesia:oftentheycouldnolongerrememberthenamesofthestreetswhere
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theyhadoncelived,ortheirhousenumbers.Onlytheireyeswerestillalive,buteventheynolongersparkledwithintelligence.Thesewerethe
circumstancesinwhichtheysubmittedtothedailyrollcallsandmusters,whichlastedseveralhours.Whentheyfaintedandwererudelyrevivedwithabucketofcoldwater,theireyesinvariablyturnedtowardsthecloudsof
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smokethatcoveredtheKZ,ortowardstheflamesbelchingfromthecrematoriumstacks.Thesetwosigns,smokeandflames,remindedthem,dayandnight,thattheywerelivingatthegatetotheotherworld.TheCCampinmateshad
livedforfourmonthsintheshadowofthecrematoriumgate:ittooktendaysforallofthemtopassthroughit.Forty-fivethousand
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tormentedbodiesrendereduptheirsoulsthere.UponCCamp,whosewirestandshadenclosedasmanypoignanttragedies,adismalsilencedescended.
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XXVIITheSonderkommandowas
awaitingthefinalblow.Dayafterday,weekafterweek,monthaftermonth,terrorhadhoveredoverourheads,suspendedbythethinnestofthreads.Andnow,inadayortwo,itwoulddescendbringingwithitinstantaneousdeath,leavinginitswakeonlyapileofsilveryashes.Wewerereadyforit.Hourly
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weawaitedthearrivalofourSSexecutioners.Earlyinthemorningof
October6th,1944,ashotrangoutfromoneofthewatchtowers,killingaKZprisonerwhohadstrayedoutsidetheneutralzoneintotheareabetweenthefirstandsecondlinesofguardsthatsurroundedthecamp.Theprisoner,anex-Russianofficer,hadbeensentherefortryingtoescapefroma
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prisoner-of-warcamp.Inallprobabilityhehadbeentryingtoescapeagainwhentheguardhadfiredonhim.Apoliticalcommission
headedbyDr.Mengeleproceededtothespottomakethecustomaryinvestigation.IfthevictimhadbeenJewishhisbodywouldhavebeenshippeddirectlytothemorgueandthencetothecrematoriums,andthatwouldhavebeentheendofthe
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matter.ButsincethiswasaRussianofficer,whosenameandpersonaldataweredulyinscribedinthecamprecords,thesameprocedurecouldnotbefollowed.Anautopsyreportwouldberequiredtoexplainhisdeath.Followinghison-the-spotinvestigation,Dr.Mengelehadthebodytakentothecrematorium,withordersthatanautopsybemade.Thereportwastobereadyby2:30p.m.Dr.
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Mengelewouldpickitupandcheckthefindingsbypersonallyexaminingthebody.Itwas9:00a.m.whenDr.
Mengeleleftthedissectingroom.Ihadthebodyplacedonthetable,andwouldhavecompletedtheautopsyinthirtyorfortyminutesifthedatehadnotbeenOctober6th,thelastdaybutoneoftheSonderkommando'sallottedlifespan.Wewere
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notcertainofanything,butIfelttheimminenceofdeath.SinceIwasunabletowork,
Ileftthedissectingroomandwenttomyroom,planningtotakeahealthydoseofsleepingtablets.Ismokedcigaretteaftercigarette,mynervescompletelyshot.Unabletostayput,Icrossedintotheincinerationroom,whereIfoundtheSonderkommandocrewworkinghalf-heartedly,
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despitethefactthatseveralhundredbodieswerestackedupinfrontoftheovens.Smallgroupshadformedandthemenweretalkinginwhispers.Iwentupstairstothekommando'slivingquartersandimmediatelynoticedthatsomethingwasamiss.Normally,aftermorningmusterandbreakfast,thenightshiftturnedin.Now,however,at10o'clock,everyonewasstill
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up.Ialsonoticedthattheyweredressedinsportclothes,withsweatersandboots,althoughtheroomwasbrightwithawarmOctobersun.Heretoomanyofthemenwerehuddled,talkinginwhispers,whileothersmovedaboutfeverishly,arrangingandpackingtheirclothesinsuitcases.Itwasobviousthatsomesortofplotwasbeinghatched.Butwhat?Ienteredthesmallroomthathoused
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thekommandochiefandfoundthevariousleadersofthenightshiftseatedaroundthetable:theengineer,themechanic,theheadchauffeurandthechiefofthegaskommando.NosoonerhadItakenmyseatwhenthekommandochieftookanalmostemptybottlefromthetableandpouredmealargeglassofbrandy.ItwasastrongPolisheau-de-vie,thefamouscuminbrandy.I
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downedmyglassinonegulp.Now,inthewaninghoursoftheSonderkommando'sfourthmonth,itmightnotbealife-prolongingelixir,butitwasnonethelessanexcellentremedyfordullingthefearofdeath.Mycomradespresentedmewithadetailedaccountofoursituation.AllevidenceseemedtoindicatethattheSonderkommando'sliquidationwouldnottakeplacebeforethefollowing
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day,andperhapseventhedayafter.Butcarefulplanshadbeenmadeforthe860membersofthekommandototryandforcetheirwayoutofthecamp.Thebreakwasscheduledforthatnight.Onceout,wewouldhead
fortheloopoftheVistulatwokilometersaway.Atthistimeofyeartheriverwasverylowandcouldeasilybeforded.EightkilometersfromtheVistulatherewerevast
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forests,extendingtothePolishborder,inwhichweshouldbeabletoliveforweeks,evenmonthsifnecessary,inrelativesafety.Orperhapswewouldrunintosomepartisansalongtheway.Oursupplyofweaponswasadequate.Duringtheprecedingfewdaysashipmentofaboutahundredboxesofhighexplosiveshadreachedthecamp,sentfromtheUniofactoriesof
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Auschwitz,amunitionsplantthatemployedPolishJewsasworkers.TheGermansuseditforblowinguprailroadlines.Besidesthisstock,wehadfivemachinegunsandtwentyhandgrenades."Thisshouldsuffice,"said
oneofthegroup."Withtheelementofsurpriseonourside,wecandisarmtheguardsusingonlyourrevolvers.Thenwe'lltaketheSSbysurpriseintheir
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dormitoriesandforcethemtocomewithusuntilwehavenofurtheruseforthem."Thesignaltoattackwould
begivenbyflashlightsignalsfromnumberonecrematorium.Numbertwowouldimmediatelytransmitthesignaltonumberthree,whichwouldinturnalertnumberfour.Theplansseemedallthemorefeasibletomeforthesimplereasonthattheonlycrematorium
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workingwasnumberone.Andevenitwouldknockoffworkat6:00p.m.,whichmeantthattheSonderkommandonightshiftwouldnotgoondutythatevening.Wheneverthishappened,theSSguardstendedtorelaxtheirvigil.TherewerethreeSSguardsineachcrematorium.Weadjournedthemeeting
untiltheevening,theorderbeingthat,untilthemoment
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thesignalwasgiven,everyoneshouldaccomplishhistaskasusual,scrupulouslyavoidinganyactliabletoarousesuspicion.Returningtomyroom,I
againpassedthroughtheovenroom.Themenseemedtobeworkingevenmoreslowlythanbefore.Iinformedmytwocolleaguesoftheplan,butrefrainedfrommentioningittothelabassistant.Hewouldinevitably
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bedrawnintoitonceitbegan,butIsawnoneedtoinformhimofitforthepresent.Timemovedforwardon
leadenfeet.Lunchtimearrived.Weateslowly,thenwentintothecrematoriumcourtyardtowarmourselvesintheslantingraysoftheautumnsun.InoticedthattheSSguardswerenowheretobeseen.Buttherewasprobablynothingunusual
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aboutthat;ithadhappenedmorethanoncebefore.Theywerenodoubtintheirrooms.Thegateswereclosed.Outside,thecampSSondutywereattheirposts.SoIaccordednoimportancetotheabsenceofguardsinside.Ismokedmycigaretteinpeace.Toknowthatwithinafewhourswewouldbeoutsidethesebarbedwiresandfreeagainliftedadarkcloudfrommymind,acloud
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thathadhoveredtheresincemyfirstdayintheKZ.Eveniftheattemptfailed,Iwouldhavelostnothing.Ilookedatmywatch.Half
pastone.Igotupandaskedmycolleaguestojoinmefortheautopsy,sowecouldbereadywiththereportwhenDr.Mengelearrivedtopickitup.Theyfollowedmesilentlyintothedissectingroom,andwebegantheautopsyimmediately.Todayoneof
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myassociateswasperformingthedissection,whileIrecordedhisfindingsonmytypewriter.Wehadbeenworkingfor
about20minuteswhenatremendousexplosionrockedthewalls.Intheechoingsilence,thesteadystaccatoofmachinegunfirereachedourears.Peeringthroughthegreenmosquitonettingthatcoveredthemainwindow,Isawthered-tiledroofand
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supportingbeamsofnumberthreecrematoriumblowoff,followedbyanimmensespiralofflameandblacksmoke.Nomorethanaminutelater,machinegunfirebrokeoutjustinfrontofthedissectingroomdoor.Wehadnoideawhathadhappened.Ourplanscalledfortonight.Twopossibilitiesoccurredtome:eithersomeonehadbetrayedus,thusenablingtheSStostepinandbreakupthe
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plannedescape,orelseaconsiderableforceofpartisanshadattackedthecamp.ThedismalwailofsirensbeganinbothAuschwitzIandAuschwitzII.Theexplosionsgrewlouderandlouder,andtherattleofsubmachinegunsmoreandmorepersistent.Thenwecouldheartheharsherstaccatooffieldmachineguns.Ihadalreadymadeupmymindwhattodo.
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Whetheritwasaquestionoftreasonorofapartisanattack,itseemedbestforthemomenttoremaininthedissectingroomandseehowthesituationevolved.FromthewindowIsaw80to100trucksarriving.Thefirstonepulledupinfrontofourcrematorium.Halfacompanyjumpedoutandformedupinbattleformationinfrontofthebarbedwirefences.Ibegantoseewhathad
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happened.TheSonderkommandomenhadtakenpossessionofnumberonecrematoriumand,fromeverywindowanddoor,weresprayingtheSStroopswithbulletsandgrenades.Theirdefenseseemedeffective,forIsawseveralsoldiersdrop,eitherdeadorwounded.Seeingthis,thebesiegersdecidedtoresorttomoredrasticmethods.Theybroughtup50well-trained
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policedogsandunleashedthemontheSonderkommandoentrenchedbehindthewallsofnumberone.Butforsomestrangereasonthesedogs,usuallysoferociousandobedient,refusedtobudge:earsback,tailsbetweentheirlegs,theytookshelterbehindtheirSSmasters.Perhapsitwasbecausethedogshadbeentrainedtodealwithprisonerswearingstripedburlap,
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whereastheSonderkommandoneverworethis"uniform."Orperhaps,toolongusedtodealingwithweakened,unarmedprisoners,theyweremomentarilyfrightenedbythesmellofpowderandscorchedflesh,thenoiseandconfusionofapitchedbattle.Inanycase,theSSsoonrealizedtheirmistakeand,withoutlettingupontheirfire,begantohaulsome
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howitzersintoposition.Itwasimpossibleforthe
Sonderkommandotoholdoutagainstsuchnumericalandmaterialodds.Shoutingexultantly,theyeruptedthroughthebackgatesofthecrematorium.Firingastheywent,theypouredthroughtheelectrifiedbarbedwiresthathadbeencutaheadoftime,andheadedfortheloopoftheVistula.Forabouttenminutesthe
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fightingwasheavyonbothsides.Loudmachinegunfirefromthewatchtowersmingledwiththelesserblastsofthesubmachineguns,andinterspersedcouldbeheardtheexplosionofhandgrenadesanddynamite.Then,assuddenlyasithadbegun,everythingbecamequiet.ThentheSSstationedin
frontofthecrematoriumadvanced,leavingbehindthetwohowitzers,whichthey
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hadnotused.Withfixedbayonets,theyattackedthebuildingfromallsides,andscatteredthroughtheroomsinthebasementandgroundfloor.AgroupofSSenteredthedissectingroom.Gunsleveled,theysurroundedusanddroveus,underarainofblows,intothecourtyard.Theretheymadeusliedownonourbellies,ourfaceshardagainsttheground.Theorderrangout:"Anyonewho
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makesamove,orraiseshishead,willgetabulletinthebackoftheneck!"AfewminuteslaterIcouldtellfromthesoundoffootstepsthatanotherSSgrouphadroundedupandbroughtbackaconsiderablenumberofSonderkommandomen.Theytooweremadetoliedownbesideus.Howmanyofthemcouldtherebe?Withmyheadpressedagainstthegrounditwasimpossibletotellfor
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sure.Threeorfourminuteslateranothergrouparrivedandwasmadetoliedownbehindus.Whilewewerelyingthere
inertontheground,ahailofkicksandblowsfromtheguards'clubsfellonourheads,shouldersandbacks.Icouldfeelthewarmbloodtricklingdownmyface,tillitssaltytastereachedmytongue.Butonlythefirstblowsreallyhurtme.My
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headwasspinning,myearswereringing,mymindwasablank.Icouldnolongerfeelanything.IhadtheimpressionIwasslippingintotheindifferencethatprecedesdeath.Forsometwentyorthirty
minuteswelayonthegroundwaitingforthebulletfromtheSSguardsstandingbehindus.Inthisposition,Iknewitwaswithabulletintheheadthattheyintendedtokillus.The
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swiftestofdeathsatleast,andinthesecircumstancestheleasthorrible.InmymindIimaginedmyheadblownoffunderthetremendousimpactofthebulletfiredpointblank,myskullexplodingintoathousandpieces.SuddenlyIheardthesound
ofacar.ItmustbeDr.Mengele,Ithought.ThepoliticalSSwereawaitinghisarrival.Ididn'tdareliftmyheadtolook,butIrecognized
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hisvoice.Anorder,fromthelipsofanSS:"Doctors,onyourfeet!"Allfourofusgotupandstoodatattention,waitingforwhatwouldfollow.Dr.Mengelemadeasignforustoapproach.Myfaceandshirtwerebloody,myclothescoveredwithmudasIappearedbeforehim.Threehigh-rankingSSofficerswerestandingbesidehim.Dr.Mengeleaskeduswhatpartwehadplayedinall
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this."Nopart,"Ireplied,"unless
carryingouttheordersoftheHauptsturmfuhrercouldbeconstruedasguilt.WeweredissectingthebodyoftheRussianofficerwhentheincidentoccurred.Itwastheexplosionthatinterruptedourdissection.Theunfinishedautopsyreportisstillinthetypewriter.Wedidnotleaveourpostsandweretherewhentheyfoundus."
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TheSScommanderconfirmedourwords.Dr.Mengelelookedhardatmeandsaid:"Gowashupandreturntoyourwork."Iturnedandleft,followed
bymythreecompanions.Wehadgotnomorethantwentystepswhenaburstofmachinegunssoundedbehindus.TheSonderkommando'slifewasover.Ididnotlookback;onthe
contrary,Iincreasedmypace
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andreturnedtomyroom.Itriedtorollacigarettebutmyhandswereshakingtoomuchandkepttearingthepaper.FinallyIgotonerolled,lightedit,inhaleddeeplyseveraltimes,and,onunsteadylegs,madeformybedandlaydown.OnlythendidIbegintofeeltheachesandbruisesthatrackedmywholebody,theresultoftheSSkicksandblows.Somuchhadhappened
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today,andyetitwasonly3:00p.m.ThefactthatIhadcomeawaywithmylifegavemeneithercomfortnorjoy.Iknewitwasonlyareprieve.IknewDr.Mengele,andIknewthementalityoftheSS.Iwasalsofullycognizantoftheimportanceofmywork:forthemomentIwasindispensable.Besidesmyself,therewasnophysicianintheKZqualifiedtomeetDr.Mengele's
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requirements.Andeveniftherewere,theywouldbecarefulnottorevealthemselvesandmakepublictheirprofessionalabilities,fortodosowouldbetofallintoDr.Mengele'shands,andsobringtheirlivestoanend:likeeverymemberoftheSonderkommando,theytoowouldfindthemselvescondemnedtoalifespanoffourmonths.Whenmynervesbecame
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calmer,Igotupandwenttolookaround.Iwantedtoknowexactlywhathadhappenedthisafternoon.Wastherereallyatraitoramongus?AnddidtheSSreallysuppresstherevoltbydestroyingtheSonderkommando?Eveniftheyhadbeenhuntingforapretext,theycouldneverhavefoundabetterreasontoliquidatethekommando.Itwasquitelikelythattoday
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merelymarkedtheexpirationofourallottedfourmonths,andtheSShadreceivedorderstoliquidateus.Theyhadprobablysetouttoexecutetheirorders,buthaddiscovered,totheirsurprise,thatthetwelfthSonderkommandohadnointentionofliningupinthecourtyard.Norweretheytobeluredbythepretextthatthisassemblywasmerelytomakesomeroutine
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announcement,orformuster.Ourkommando,quiteawarethattheSShadcometoexterminateus,hadapparentlychosentogodownfighting.Nowmycomradeswere
lyingnakedinlongrows,infrontofthecremationovens.OneaftertheotherIidentifiedthebodiesofthoseIknew;atleasttheyhaddiedbelievingthatfreedomwasonlyaroundthecorner.They
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hadbeenbroughtbackonpushcartsfromthespotwheretheyhadfallen,somewhereinsidetheouterlineofguards.Thosewhohadbeenexecutedinthecourtyardaswewerewalkingawaywerealsohere.Afterallresistancehadbeencrushed,thebodieshadbeenremovedfromnumbertwo,threeandfourcrematoriumsandbroughtforcremationtonumberone,whichwasmannedbythirty
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new,hastilyrecruitedSonderkommandomen.Ifoundmyselfstanding
besideanSSnoncom,whowasbusyrecordingthetattoonumbersofthedead.Withoutmyasking,heinformedmethattwelveSondermenwerestillmissing.Oftheothers,allbutsevenweredead.Thosesevenweremyselfandmytwoassociates,thelabassistant,theengineerinchargeofthedynamosand
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ventilators,theheadchauffeur,andthe"Pipel,"thatis,ajack-of-all-tradesassignedtotheSSpersonnel,whosedutiesincludedtakingcareoftheirclothesandboots,cleaningtheirkitchenandansweringthephone.Itwashewhogavemeadetailedaccountoftheday'sevents.Ithadnotbeenacaseoftreason.Hereisthe"Pipel's"tale:At2:00p.m.atruckloadof
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politicalSSarrivedatnumberthreecrematorium.TheircommanderorderedtheSonderkommandotoassemble,butnoonemoved.Hemusthavehadaninklingofwhatwasbrewing.Inanyevent,heapparentlyfiguredhewouldgetbetterresultsifhetriedlyingtotheSonderkommando,andGodknowstheSSwerepastmastersintheartoflying.Stoppinginthecenterofthe
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courtyard,hegaveashortspeech,worthyoftheSS:"Men,"heshouted,"you
haveworkedherelongenough.Byordersofmysuperiors,youaretobesentinaconvoytoarestcamp.Thereyouwillbegivengoodclothes,you'llhaveplentytoeat,andyourlifewillbeeasier.ThosewhosetattoonumbersIcallout,stepforwardandlineup."Thenhebegantherollcall.
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HefirstcalledoutthenumbersoftheHungarianmembersofnumberthreeSonderkommando,100inall.TheKZ's"youngest"prisoners,theylinedupwithoutfurtherprotest.Morefearthancouragewasvisibleintheirexpressions.AdetachmentofSSimmediatelytookchargeofthemandremovedthemfromthecourtyard,thenmarchedthemtoDCampand
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crammedthemintoBarracks13.Meanwhile,innumber
threecrematorium,rollcallcontinued.NowitwastheturnoftheGreeks,whofailedtoshowasimilaralacrityinliningup,butneverthelessobeyed.Next,agroupofPoles.Grumblesandmutteredprotestsswelledtoasurlyroar.TheSScalledanothernumber.Silence;noonemoved.Whentheofficer
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raisedhisheadandfrownedabottleofmineralwaterfellathisfeetandexploded.SevenSS,includingthegroupcommander,felldeadorwounded.Thebottlehadbeenthrown
byoneofthePoles.TheSSopenedadeadlyfireontherioters,whoretreatedandtookupdefensivepositionsinsidethecrematorium.Thusprotected,theybegantossingotherexplosive-filledbottles
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intothecourtyard.Aburstofmachine-gunfirefromsomeoftheSSmoweddowntheGreeks,whowerestilllinedupinthecourtyard.Afewtriedtoescape,butwerekilledastheyreachedthegate.Withoutlettingupontheir
fire,theSSmovedintowardsthecrematoriumentrance.Itwasnoeasyjob,forthePolesputupastoutdefense.Theircascadeofbottlessucceeded
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inkeepingtheSSatarespectfuldistance.Justthen,atremendousexplosionrockedthearea,fellingthoseattackerswhohadmovedinclosetothebuilding.Thecrematoriumroofblewoff,sendingashowerofbeamsandshinglesflyinginalldirections,whilesmokeandflamesbillowedskyward.Fourdrumsofgasolinehadexploded,reducingthebuildingtorubbleand
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buryingtheSonderkommandomeninside.Afewofthosewhoescapedwiththeirlivestriedtocarryonthefight,buttheSSmachinegunsmadeshortworkofthem.Others,woundedbutstillabletowalk,headedtowardsthedoorwiththeirhandsup,butanotherbursttumbledthemaswell.Theyexpectedwhattheygot,butfirewasguttingthebuildingandtheychose
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theeasierdeath.Atthesametime,thehundredHungarianswerehastilyreturnedtothecourtyardandexecutedonthespot.Thustheriotbeganin
numberthree.Innumberone,workcontinuedasusualtillnumberthreeexploded.Thesoundoftheexplosionbroughtthetension,alreadyatahighpitchfromthewait,toaparoxysm.Nooneknewexactlywhathappenedduring
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thefirstfewminutes.Themenworkingattheovenslefttheirpostsandgatheredatthefarendoftheroom,wheretheytriedtofigureoutwhatwasgoingonandwhatstepstotake.Theydidnothavelongto
puzzle,however,fortheSSguardcameoverandaskedwhohadgiventhempermissiontostopworkandleavetheovens.Apparentlytheworkboss'sreplyfailedto
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satisfyhim,forhedealtthemanawitheringblowontheheadwiththecurvedendofhiscane—eachoftheSSguardscarriedone,thebettertoencouragetheSondermenintheirwork.RumorhaditthatasecondSondermanalsohadhisheadsplitopenbythesamecane.Buttheworkboss,thetoughestmaninthekommando,wasonlystaggeredbytheblow.Hisfacewascoveredwithblood,
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buthewasstillonhisfeet.Hequicklydrewasharpknifefromthetopofhisbootandthrustitintotheguard'schest.Astheguardfelltwoalertmembersofthekommandograbbedhim,openedthedoorofthenearestoven,andshovedhimheadfirstintotheflames.Thewholeincident
happenedinthespaceofafewseconds,butanotherSSguard,drawnbythecrowd,
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apparentlyarrivedjustintimetoseethebootedfeetdisappearintotheoven.HeknewitcouldonlyhavebeenaSondermanoranSSguard,butbeforehehadtimetolearnwhich,oneoftheSondercrewflooredhimwithasharpuppercut.Withthehelpofabuddy,heshovedthesecondSSguardinbesidethefirst.Afterthatittookonlyafew
secondstobreakoutthe
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machineguns,handgrenadesandboxesofdynamite.Firingbrokeout,theSSstationedatoneendoftheroom,theSonderkommandoattheother.AhandgrenadetossedintothemidstoftheSSkilledsevenandwoundedanumberofothers.Severalkommandomenwerealsokilledorwounded,andthesituationofthesurvivorswasbecomingincreasinglydesperate.ButwhenafewmoreSSdropped,
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theremainder,about20inall,tooktotheirheelsandranforthecrematoriumdoor.Theretheyweremetbyreinforcements,morethanenoughtoturnthetideofbattleintheirfavor.Therestwashistory.Seven
ofuswereleftinthecrematoriums.Thetwelvefugitiveswereroundedupduringthenight.TheyhadsucceededincrossingtheVistula,butwerecompletely
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wornoutandhadsoughtshelterinahousetheythoughtmightfurnishthemwithatleastatemporaryhidingplace.ButtheownerhadinformedanSSdetachmentcombingthearea,andalltwelvehadbeenambushedandrecaptured.Iwasalreadyinbed,
almostasleep,whenanewburstofmachine-gunfirerousedmefrommystateofsemiconsciousness.Afew
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minuteslaterheavyfootstepsechoedinthehallway.MydooropenedandtwoSSstaggeredin,theirfacescoveredwithblood.Thetwelveprisonershad
attackedthepatrolthathadbroughtthembacktothecrematoriumcourtyard,inadesperateefforttoseizetheirweapons.Thetwelvehadhadonlytheirfiststofightwith;theresulthadbeenswiftandsure:alltwelvehadbeen
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quicklykilled.ButtheyhadsucceededinbadlymaulingtheSSguards,whonowaskedmetotreattheirwounds.Imutelycarriedouttheirorders.Thelossofthesetwelve
companionswasaterribleblowtome.Aftersomucheffortandlossoflife,stillnoonehadsucceededinescapingtotelltheworldthefullstoryofthishellishprison.
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LaterIlearnedthatnewsoftherevolthadneverthelessreachedtheoutsideworld.SomeoftheKZprisonersrelatedthestorytothecivilianswhoworkedwiththem.Andbesides,thetonguesofcertainSSguardsweresaidtohavewagged.Itwasindeedanhistoric
event,thefirstofitskindsincethefoundingoftheKZ.Eighthundredandfifty-threeprisoners,andseventySS
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werekilled.IncludedamongthelatterwereanObersturmfuhrer,seventeenOberschaarfuhrerandSchaarfuhrerandfifty-twoSturmmanner.Numberthreecrematoriumburnedtotheground.Andnumberfour,asaresultofdamagetoitsequipment,wasrendereduseless.
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XXVIIIIawokedepressedaftera
nightoftroubledsleep.Mynervesweremoreshotthanever:evenmycolleagues'whisperedconversation,thesoundoftheirfootsteps,gratedonmelikesandpaper.IwasinafoulmoodasI
wentwithmyassociatesonceagainintothedissectingroom.Enroutewehadtocrosstheincinerationroom.
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Theunfriendlyconcretefloorextendedtotheveryedgeoftheovens.Theyhadfinishedthejobofcrematingourcomradesbymidnightlastnight.Thecoolingovensgaveoffafeeblewarmth.ThethirtynewSondermen,strickenbythetragedytheyhadbeenmadetowitnessonthedayoftheirarrival,weresittingorlyingindeadlysilenceonthebedsofthedeceased.
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Butthisconditionlastedforonlyafewdays.Lifesoonresumeditsnormalcourse,asevidencedbytheirdesireforagoodmealandcigarettes,andespeciallyforbrandy,theblessedremedyofallSonderkommandomen,thepanaceaforcrematoriumsickness.AfterhavinggonewithoutclothesintheKZbarracks,theyenjoyedthecomfortofdecentones.Personalhygienewasonce
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againareality:showers,plentyofwaterandsoap,towelsinabundance.Iwatchedthemasanoldsergeantmightwatchagroupofnewrecruits.Theywouldgetusedtoallthisbeforelong.Inthedissectingroom,for
lackofsomethingbettertodo—utaliquidvideatur—Iinventedsomejobstokeepmycolleaguesoccupied.Ihadthemcleanthesurgical
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instrumentstilltheyshonelikedisplaypieces,thensortthemandputthemaway.Themosquitonetting,afterthebattleofthepreviousday,wasalsoinneedofrepair.Asformyself,Iwasseatedatthetable,myheadswathedinbandagesandadhesivetape,mentallycompilingalistofcomplaintsandrequestsIwantedtopresenttoDr.Mengeleattheearliestpossibleopportunity.
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Foronething,Iplannedtotellhimthatnoneofthecrematoriumroomswassuitableasadissectingroom,forthesimplereasonthat,nomatterwhereyouhappenedtobehere,youcouldnotescapetheheartrendingscreamsofthedeportedontheirwaytodeath,screamsthatpiercedtotheverymarrowofyourbones.Whetheritwasthegaschamberorabulletinthe
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neck,thescreamswerethesame.Itwasimpossibleformetoconcentrateproperlyonmyworkhere.Sincethedayofmyarrival,whenIhadlearnedthefateoftheelevenprecedingkommandos,Ihadlivedinaworldofconstantdread:fourmonthsofnerve-rackingtension,waiting,daybyday,forthemomentwhenourkommandowouldmeetwiththesamefate.Ialsoplannedtoaskhimto
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belenientwithmyworkinthefutureifitprovedtobeinaccurate.Why?Because,nolaterthanyesterday,October6th,1944,whenIhadbeenorderedtoperformanautopsyonthebodyofaRussianofficerandtopreparethedissectionreport,numberthreecrematoriumhadblownupbeforemyeyes,andwehadbeenattackedbyabattalionofSStroops.Howitzershadbeenbrought
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upandpolicedogsunleashedagainstus.Handgrenadeshadexplodedaroundus.SSsoldiers,withfixedbayonets,hadchargedintothisso-calledscientificinstituteIwassupposedtodirectandrunusintothecourtyard,strikingandkickingusaswewent.Thenwehadbeenmadetoliedowninthemud.Ihadcomewithinahair'sbreadthofbeingtransformedfromacoronerintoasubject
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fordissectionmyself.ItwastruethatDr.Mengelehadsavedmefromthisfateandrescuedmefromtherowsofthedamned,butonlytobereturnedtothishouseofsorrowforanewreprieveoffourmonths.Iwouldaskhimtoadmit,frankly,whatanimpossiblesituationourshadbeenyesterdayafternoonandevening.Forevenaftertheworstwasover,IhadyethadtogivefirstaidtotwoSS
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noncomswhofivehoursearlierhadkickedandstruckmeunmercifullyandthenwaited,theirgunsaimedatmyhead,forthesignaltopullthetrigger.SuchwerethecomplaintsI
intendedmakingtomychief.ButprincipallyIwantedtoprevailuponhimtohavethedissectingroomanditspersonneltransferredtosomeplaceintheKZbettersuitedtoresearch.
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JustasIreachedthispointinmymusings,Dr.Mengeleopenedthedoor.Astherulesprescribed,Iroseandcametoattentionand,astheseniormemberpresent,announced:"Captain,threedoctorsandonelabassistantattheirposts."Helookedquizzicallyat
mybandagedhead."Whathappenedtoyou?"
heaskedwithanenigmaticsmilethatseemedhalf-
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serious,half-joking.Thenatureofhisquestiongavemetheimpressionthathewouldhavelikedtopretendthatyesterday'seventshadneveroccurred.SoIdidnotanswerhim.Mylistofcomplaintswithered,tillonlytheoneobsessingrequestremained."Captain,"Isaid
unconvincingly,"thisenvironmentishighlyunsuitableforscientific
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research.Wouldn'titbepossibletotransferthedissectingroomtoabetterplace?"Helookedatmesteadily,
hisexpressionhardening."What'swrong?"hesaidcoldly."Gettingsentimental?"Iregrettedhavinglet
myselfgo,havingmomentarilyforgottenthediscretionIusuallydisplayedinhispresence.Ihaddared
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criticizetheoneplace,theoneenvironmentwheremysoft-brainedsuperiorreallyfeltathome:theblazingglowofthepyresandthespiralingsmokeofthecrematoriumstacks;theairheavywiththeodorofburningbodies;thewallsresoundingwiththescreamsofthedamnedandthemetallicrattleofmachinegunsfiredpointblank;itwastothisthatthedementeddoctorcameforrestand
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relaxationaftereachselection,aftereachdisplayof"fireworks."Thiswaswherehespentallhisfreetime;here,inthisman-madehell,thefiendishphysicianofAuschwitzmademecutopenthebodiesofhundredsoffreshlymurderedpeople,whosefleshwasalsousedforthecultivationofbacteriainanelectricincubator.Obsessedwiththebeliefthathehadbeenchosento
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discoverthecauseofmultiplebirths,here,withinthesebloodstainedwalls,Dr.Mengelesathunchedforhoursatatimeoverhismicroscopes.Today,however,Inoticed
thatheappearedtired.HehadjustcomefromtheJewishunloadingplatform,wherehehadstoodforhoursinabitingrain,selectingtheinhabitantsoftheRigaghetto.Asusual,though,"selection"wasno
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longeraveryapplicableterm,foreveryonehadbeensenttotheleft.Bothcrematoriumsstillinoperationwerefull,aswastheimmensepyreditch.TocopewiththisnewinfluxtheranksofthenewSonderkommandohadbeenincreasedto460men.Dr.Mengeleapproached
thetablewithoutbotheringtotakeoffhiscoatandkepi,whichweresoakedthrough.Infacthedidnotevenseem
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tonoticethem."Captain,"Isaid,"letme
takeyourhatandcoatintotheovenroom.They'llbedryinfiveminutes.""Nevermind,"hereplied,
"thewaterwon'tgetanyfartherthanmyskinanyway."Heaskedtoseethe
dissectionreportontheRussianofficer.Ihandedittohimandhebegantoread.Afterreadingthreeorfourlineshehandeditbacktome.
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"I'mverytired,"hesaid."Youreadit."ButafterIhadproceededonlyafewlinesheinterruptedmeagain."Letitgo,"hesaid,"thatwon'tbenecessary."Andhisgazewanderedtothewindow,outofwhichhestaredabsently.Whatcouldhavehappened
tothisman?Coulditbethathehadhadenoughofallthishorror?Orhadhereceivedsomebadnewsinforminghimthathenceforthallthis
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wasmeaningless?Itwasalsopossiblethatthestrainoftheprecedingmonthshadatlastbeguntotakeitstoll.Duringournumerous
contactsandtalkstogether,Dr.MengelehadnevergrantedmewhatImightcallaprivateconversation.Butnow,seeinghimsodepressed,Iscrewedupmycourage."Captain,"Isaid,"whenisallthisdestructiongoingtocease?"
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Helookedatmeandreplied:"MeinFreund!Esgehtimmerweiter,immerweiter!Myfriend,itgoesonandon,onandon..."Hiswordsseemedtobetrayanoteofsilentresignation.Hegotupfromhischair
andleftthelaboratory,hisbriefcaseinhishand.Iaccompaniedhimtohiscar."Duringthenextfewdays
you'llhavesomeinterestingwork,"hesaid,andwiththese
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wordsheclimbedintohiscaranddroveaway.Ishudderedatthethought.
Nodoubtthis"interestingwork"meantanewgroupoftwins.
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XXIXThecrematoriumswere
beingreadied.ThemenoftheSonderkommandowereredoingtherefractorysurfacesofthefurnaceentrances,paintingtheheavyirondoorsandoilingthehinges.Thedynamosandventilatorswererunningalldaylong.Aspecialistmadesuretheywerefunctioningproperly.Thearrivalofthe
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Litzmannstadtghettohadbeenannounced.Thisghetto,itshouldbe
noted,wasestablishedbytheGermansin1939.Inthebeginningithadhousedsome50,000souls,whoworkedinenormouswarfactories.Inexchangefortheirwork,theywerepaidin"ghettoMarks,"butonlyinsufficientquantitiestobuyameagersupplyoffood.Needlesstosay,thedifferencebetween
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theworkeffortfurnishedandthefoodconsumedresultedinahighmortalityrate.Numerousepidemicsalsodecimatedtheirranks.Thus,bythefallof1944,only70,000oftheoriginalhalfmillionwereleft.Andnowthefatalhourhad
arrivedfortheseremainingfew.TheyarrivedattheJewishrampingroupsof10,000.Theselectionsent95percenttotheleft,only5per
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centtotheright.Persecutedandtortured,
physicallyandmorallybrokenbyfiveyearsofghettolife,bowedbytheknowledgeoftheiraccursedrace'stragicdestiny,agedbyforcedlabor,theyarrivedcompletelyapathetic.Althoughtheyrealizedastheycrossedthethresholdofthecrematoriumthattheywereenteringuponthelastlapoftheirlives,therewasanairof
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indifferenceaboutthem.Idescendedintothe
undressingroom.Theirclothesandshoeswerestrewnaboutthefloor.Butthen,itwouldhavebeendifficulttohangoncoathangersthesescrapsofleatherandwoodthatpassedforshoes.Nordidthecloakroomnumbertheywereassignedarousetheirinterest.Theysettheirhandluggagedownanywherethey
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happenedtobe.ThemenoftheSonderkommandowhosejobitwastosorttheirbelongingsopenedafewpackagesandshowedmetheircontents:afewbiscuitsmadeofcornflour,waterandabitoflinseedoil,and,insomecases,threeorfourpoundsofoatmeal;thatwasalltheyhad.Whentheconvoysarrived,
Dr.Mengeleespied,amongthoselinedupforselection,a
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hunchbackedmanaboutfiftyyearsold.Hewasnotalone;standingbesidehimwasatall,handsomeboyoffifteenorsixteen.Thelatter,however,hadadeformedrightfoot,whichhadbeencorrectedbyanapparatusmadeofametalplateandanorthopedic,thick-soledshoe.Theywerefatherandson.Dr.Mengelethoughthehaddiscovered,inthepersonofthehunchbackfatherandhis
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lameson,asovereignexampletodemonstratehistheoryoftheJewishrace'sdegeneracy.Hehadthemfalloutofranksimmediately.Takinghisnotebook,heinscribedsomethinginit,andentrustedthetwowretchestothecareofanSStrooper,whotookthemtonumberonecrematorium.Itwasaroundnoon.
Numberonewasnotworkingthatday.Havingnothingto
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doforthemoment,Iwasinmyroomidlingawaythetime.TheSSsoldierondutycameinandaskedmetoreporttothegate.Thefatherandson,accompaniedbytheSSguard,werealreadythere.Itookthemessagesentme,whichread:"Dissectingroom,numberonecrematorium:thatthesetwomenbeexaminedfromaclinicalpointofview;thatexactmeasurementsofthe
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twomenbemade;thatclinicalrecordsbesetupincludingallinterestingdetails,andmostespeciallythoserelativetothecauseswhichprovokedthebodilydeformities."Asecondnotewas
enclosedforOberschaarfuhrerMussfeld.EvenwithoutreadingitIknewwhatitsaid.IentrusteditfortransmissiontoaSonderman.
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Fatherandson—theirfaceswanfromtheirmiserableyearsintheLitzmannstadtghetto—werefilledwithforebodings.Theylookedatmequestioningly.Itookthemacrossthecourtyard,whichatthishourofthedaywasfilledwithsunlight.OnourwaytothedissectingroomIreassuredthemwithafewwell-chosenwords.Luckilytherewerenocorpsesonthedissecting
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table;itwouldhaveindeedbeenahorriblesightforthemtocomeupon.TosparethemIdecided
nottoconducttheexaminationintheausteredissectingroom,whichreekedwiththeodorofformaldehyde,butinthepleasant,well-lightedstudyhall.Fromourconversation,IlearnedthatthefatherhadbeenarespectedcitizenofLitzmannstadt,awholesaler
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incloth.DuringtheyearsofpeacebetweenwarshehadoftentakenhissonwithhimonhisbusinesstripstoVienna,tohavehimexaminedandtreatedbythemostfamousspecialists.Ifirstexaminedthefather
indetail,omittingnothing.Thedeviationofhisspinalcolumnwastheresultofretardedrickets.Inspiteofamostthoroughexamination,Idiscoverednosymptomof
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anyotherillness.Itriedtoconsolehimby
sayingthathewouldprobablybesenttoaworkcamp.Beforeproceedingtothe
examinationoftheboyIconversedwithhimatsomelength.Hehadapleasantface,anintelligentlook,buthismoralewasbadlyshaken.Tremblingwithfear,herelatedinanexpressionlessvoicethesad,painful,
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sometimesterribleeventswhichhadmarkedhisfiveyearsintheghetto.Hismother,afrailandsensitivecreature,hadnotbeenabletolongenduretheordealswhichhadbefallenher.Shehadbecomemelancholicanddepressed.Forweeksonendshehadeatenalmostnothing,sothathersonandhusbandmighthavealittlemorefood.AtruewifeandJewishmother,whohadlovedher
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owntothepointofmadness,shehaddiedamartyrduringthefirstyearofherlifeintheghetto.Soitwasthattheyhadlivedintheghetto,thefatherwithouthiswife,thesonwithouthismother.Andnowtheywerein
numberonecrematorium.OnceagainIwasstruckbythehorribleironyofthesituation.I,aJewishdoctor,hadtoexaminethemwithexactclinicalmethodsbefore
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theydied,andthenperformthedissectionontheirstillwarmbodies.SoshakenwasIbythesituation,aboutwhichIwaspowerlesstodoanythingatall,thatIsuddenlyfeltmyselfspinningclosetotheedgeofmadness.Bywhosewillhadsuchevil,suchasuccessionofhorrorsbeenmadetodescenduponourwretchedpeople?CouldthisbethewillofGod?No;Icouldnotbelieveit.
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Byanimmenseeffortofself-controlIgotholdofmyselfandexaminedtheboy.OnhisrightfootInoticedacongenitaldeformity:someofthemuscleswerelacking.Themedicaltermusedto
describethisdeformityishypomyelia.Icouldseethatextremelyexperthandshadpracticedseveraloperationsonhim,butasaresultonefootwasshorterthantheother.Withabandageand
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orthopedicsocks,however,hecouldwalkperfectlywell.Isawnootherdeformitytobeindicated.Iaskedthemiftheywanted
somethingtoeat."Wehaven'thadanything
toeatforsometime,"theytoldme.Icalledamanfromthe
Sonderkommandoandhadsomefoodbroughtforthem:aplateofstewedbeefandmacaroni,adishnottobe
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foundoutsidetheconfinesoftheSonderkommando.Theybegantoeatravenously,unawarethatthiswastheir"LastSupper."Scarcelyhalfanhourlater
OberschaarfuhrerMussfeldappearedwithfourSonderkommandomen.Theytookthetwoprisonersintothefurnaceroomandhadthemundress.ThentheObefsrevolvercrackedtwice.Fatherandsonwerestretched
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outontheconcrete,coveredwithblood,dead.OberschaarfuhrerMussfeldhadfaithfullyexecutedDr.Mengele'sorders.Nowitwasmyturnagain.
Thetwobodieswerebroughtbackintothedissectingroom.SosickenedwasIbywhathadjusthappenedthatIentrustedthedissectiontomyassociatesandconfinedmyselftorecordingthedata.Thedissectionrevealed
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nothingmorethanIhadpreviouslyascertainedinmyinvivoexamination.Thecaseswerebanal,butcouldneverthelessveryeasilybeutilizedaspropagandainsupportoftheThirdReich'stheoryconcerningthedegeneracyoftheJewishrace.Lateintheafternoon,
alreadyhavingsentatleast10,000mentotheirdeath,Dr.Mengelearrived.Helistened
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attentivelytomyreportconcerningboththeinvivoandpostmortemobservationsmadeonthetwovictims."Thesebodiesmustnotbe
cremated,"hesaid."TheymustbepreparedandtheirskeletonssenttotheAnthropologicalMuseuminBerlin.Whatsystemsdoyouknowforthepreparationofskeletons?""Therearetwomethods,"I
said."Thefirstconsistsof
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immersingthebodiesinlimechloride,whichconsumesallthesoftpartsinabouttwoweeks'time.Thenthebodiesareimmersedinagasolinebath,whichdissolvesallthefatandmakestheskeletonsdry,odorlessandwhite.Thenthere'sasecondmethod:bycooking.Whatyoudothereisboilthebodiesinwateruntilthefleshcaneasilybestrippedfromthebones.Thenthesamegasolinebathis
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applied."Dr.Mengeleorderedmeto
usethequickestmethod:bycooking.IntheKZorderswere
alwayscursory.Howtheprisonersshouldgoaboutprocuringthematerialsnecessaryfortheirexecutionwasneverspecified.Theorderhadtobecarriedout,andthatwasasmuchaswasknown.Iwasthereforefacedwithaseriousproblem:what
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couldIhavethebodiescookedin?IputthequestiontoOberschaarfuhrerMussfeld.ItoldhimthatIhadtwobodiesthathadtobecooked,butthatIdidn'thaveany...Evenhewashorrifiedby
mytale.Hethoughtforaminute,thenrememberedthatthereweretwoironcasksinthecourtyardwhichweregenerallyusedinthestorehouse.Heputthemat
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mydisposalandadvisedmetoplacethemonbricksinthecourtyardandtolightanopenfirebeneaththem.Thebasewasprepared,and
thetwocasks,containingthebodies,placeduponit.TwoSonderkommandomenweregiventhejobofgatheringwoodandkeepingthefirehot.Afterfivehours,Itestedthebodiesandfoundthatthesoftpartswerenoweasilyseparablefromthebones.I
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orderedthefiretobeputout,butthecaskshadtostaythereuntiltheycooled.Havingnothingelsetodo,I
remainedseatedbeneathalittlearbornotfarfromthecasks.Adeepsilencesurroundedme.Someprisoner-masonswereintheprocessofrepairingthecrematoriumchimneys.Duskwasfalling.Thecasksoughttobecoldbynow.Iwasjustabouttohavethememptied
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whenoneofmymencamerunninguptomeandsaid:"Doctor,hurry,thePolesareeatingthemeatinthecasks!"Itookoffasfastasmylegs
couldcarryme.Fourmen,dressedinthestripedjerkinofprisoners,werestandingbesidethecasks,struckdumbwithhorror.TheywerethePolish
masonsIhadnoticedearlier.Theyhadfinishedtheirworkandwerewaitinginthe
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courtyardfortheirguardstocomeandtakethembacktoAuschwitzI.Starved,theyhadbeenscroungingforsomefoodwhenbychancetheyhadcomeuponthecasks,whichhadbeenleftunguardedforafewminutes.ThinkingitwastheSonderkommandomeatwhichwasbeingcooked,theyhadsniffedatit,thenfetchedupsomepiecesoffleshwhichwerenotcoveredwithskin
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andbeguntoeatthem.Theyhadnotgottenvery
far,however,forthetwoSonderkommandomendetailedtosupervisethecookingandwatchthecaskshadseenwhatwashappeningandhurriedback.Whentheylearnedwhat
kindofmeatitwastheyhadbeeneating,thePolesweresick,horrified,paralyzed.Afterthegasolinebath,the
labassistantverycompletely
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gatheredupthebonesoftheskeletonsandplacedthemonthesameworktablewhere,theeveningbefore,Ihadexaminedthestilllivingmen.Dr.Mengelewashighly
pleased.Hehadbroughtseveralfellowofficerswithhim.Theypompouslyexaminedcertainpartsoftheskeletonsandlaunchedintohigh-sounding,scientificterms,talkingasifthetwovictimsrepresentedan
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extremelyraremedicalphenomenon.Theyabandonedthemselvescompletelytotheirpseudoscience.Andyet,farfrombeingan
extraordinaryabnormality,itiscommontohundredsofthousandsofmenofallracesandclimates.Evenadoctorwhosepracticeislimitedhasoftencomeacrossit.Butthesetwocasescould,bytheirverynature,beexploited
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asusefulpropaganda.Nazipropagandaneverhesitatedtoclotheitsmonstrousliesinscientificapparel.Themethodoftenworkedtoo,sincethosetowardswhomtheseliesweredirectedusuallyhadlittleornocriticalfaculty,andacceptedasfacteverythingwhichboretheregime'sstampofapproval.Theskeletonswere
wrappedinlargesacksofstrongpaper,andforwarded
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toBerlin,marked:"Urgent:NationalDefense."Iwasrelievedthattheywerefinallyoutofmysight,fortheyhadcausedmemanybitterhours,bothwhiletheywerestillaliveandaftertheirdeath.Attheendofaweek'stime,
theliquidationoftheLitzmannstadtghettohadbeencompleted.AcoldautumnrainreplacedthesunthathadwarmedthewaningdaysofOctober.Fogand
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mistshroudedtheKZbarracks;mypastand
futurealsodissolved,asinaseaofmist.Theraincontinuedforseveraldays,andthewetcold,thatpenetratedtothebone,mademybitternessallthemoreacute.EverywhereIwent,everywhereIlooked,Isawonlyelectrifiedbarbedwirestoremindmehowvainitwastohope.Onthethirddayfollowing
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theliquidationoftheLitzmannstadtghetto,theheadoftheSonderkommandobroughtinawomanandtwochildren,drenchedtotheskinandshiveringwiththecold.Theyhadescapedwhenthelastconvoyhadbeensenttoitsdeath.Guessingwhatwasinstoreforthem,theyhadhiddenbehindthepilesofwoodthatwereusedforheatingandthat,forlackofabetterplace,werestoredin
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thecourtyard.Theirconvoyhaddisappeared,swallowedbytheearthbeforetheirveryeyes.Andnoonehadeverreturned.Numbwithfearandcold,theyhadwaitedthereforsomemiraculousturnoffatetodeliverthem.Butnothinghadhappened.Forthreedaystheyhadhiddenintherainandcold,withnothingtoeat,theirragsscantprotectionagainsttheelements,tillfinallythe
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Sonderkommandochiefhadfoundthem,almostunconscious,whilemakinghisrounds.Unabletohelptheminanyway,hehadtakenthemtotheOberschaarfuhrer.Thewoman,whowas
about30butwholookedcloserto50,hadgatheredherwaningforcesandthrownherselfatMussfeld'sfeet,begginghimtospareherlifeandthoseofherten-and
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twelve-year-oldchildren.Shehadworkedforfiveyearsinaclothingfactoryintheghetto,shesaid,makinguniformsfortheGermanarmy.Shewasstillwillingtowork,todoanything,ifonlytheywouldletherlive.Allthiswasquiteuseless.
Heretherewasnosalvation.Theyhadtodie.YettheKZ'spastmustalsohavehaditseffectontheOber;hesentanothermaninhisplaceto
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performthemurder.
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XXXThatwasanotherlittle
episodeweforgot,foritwasabsolutelynecessarytoforgetitifwewantedtokeepfromgoingmad.Darknessbeforeanddarknessbehind...Asalways,drinkwasa
greathelp,amomentarybutnecessaryrespite.WhenIthoughtofthepast,itoftenseemedtomethatallthiswasmerelyahorribledream.My
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onlydesirewastoforgeteverything,tothinkofnothing.ItwasnowNovember,
1944.Snowwasfallinginbigflakes,veilingeverythinginaswirlofwhite.Thewatchtowerswerebarelyvisible,vaguefingersofgrayrisingaboveus.Thewindsangevenlouderinthebarbedwires,andstilltheonlybirdstodarkentheskywerethecrows.
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Iwentforashortwalkbeforenightfall.Theweatherwashardlyconducive,butthecoldwindwasinvigorating,soothingmytirednerves.Imadeseveralturnsaroundthecourtyard;mystepstookmepastthestairwayleadingdownintothegaschambers.Ipausedthereforafewseconds,rememberingthattodaywasAllSaints'Day.Adeadly
silencebroodedover
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Auschwitz.Thecoldconcretestepsdescendedanddissolvedintodarkness.Thesesamestepswherefourmillionpeople,guiltyofnocrime,hadbadelifegoodbyeanddescendedtotheirdeath,knowingthatevenindeaththeirtormentedbodieswouldnotbegrantedthesanctuaryofagrave.Standingtherealone,onthetopstepofthis,theirlastbriefvoyageonearth,Ifeltitmydutyto
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pauseandthinkofthemforamomentwithheartfeltcompassion,inthenameoftheirrelativesandfriendswho,perhapshappyandwell,werestillalivesomewhereintheworld.Ileftthegodforsakenspot
andreturnedtomyroom.Openingthedoor,Inoticedthattheroomwasnotlightedasusualbyastrongbulb,butbytheflickeringlightofasinglecandle.Myfirst
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impressionwasthattheremustbesomethingwrongwiththeelectricity.ButthenIsawthatmyassociate,theex-professoroftheSzombathelyMedicalSchool,wassittingwithhiselbowsonthetable,hisheadrestinginhishands,hisemptyeyesstaringatthecandleflame,histhoughtsathousandmilesaway.Hedidnotevennoticemypresence.Theeerylightflickeredstrangelyonhisface.I
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touchedhimlightlyontheshoulder:"Denis,"Isaidsoftly,"in
whosememorydidyoulightacandlehere?"Hisreplywasconfused.He
mumbledsomethingabouthisfather-in-lawandhismother-in-law,bothofwhomhadbeendeadforfifteenyears,anddidnotevenmentionhiswifeandsonwho,accordingtothetestimonyofsomeoftheSonderkommando
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members,hadperishedhere.Itwaseasytoseethathewasdisplayingallthesymptomsofdepressivemelancholyandregressiveamnesia.Takinghimbythe
shoulders,Ihelpedhimacrosstheroomandputhimtobed,thenstoodthere,gazingdownathim.Poorfriendandlearned
physician,mysensitiveandgentlecompanion,insteadoftreatingandcuringthesick
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youyourselfhavefallenbeneaththeyokeofdeath,andnowbelongtodeath'skingdom.Formanymonthsyouhavewitnessedsuchsufferingandhorrorasthehumanmindcanscarcelyconceive,ashewhoseescannotbelieve.Perhapsitisforthebestthatyournerveshavebetrayedyou,thatabenevolentveilofforgetfulnesshasfallenuponyourmind.Now,atleast,you
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neednotfretorworryaboutwhatthefuturemayholdinstoreforyou.
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XXXIAfterseveraldaysof
silence,thecustomarynoisesofthecrematoriumbeganagain.Themotorsofthebigventilatorspurredonceagain,reawakeningthefurnaceflames.ThearrivaloftheTheresienstadtghettohadbeenannounced.Sincethefoundingofthe
CzechoslovakianRepublic,Theresienstadthadbeen
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primarilyagarrisontown.TheGermans,however,changedtheappearanceofthecitycompletely,tothepointofmovingthecivilianpopulationawayandsettingupamodelghettothere.ThisghettohousedJewsdeportedfromAustria,HollandandCzechoslovakiaitself,about60,000inall.Thelivingconditionsoftheinhabitantswererelativelygood.Theycouldexercisetheir
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professionsfreely,receiveandsendmail,andtheywereaidedbytheRedCross.Infact,teamsfromtheInternationalRedCrosspaidperiodicvisitstothelittlecityand,oneachoccasion,madefavorablereportsconcerningthelivingconditionsandtreatmentofprisoners.ThustheGermansgotwhat
theywantedfromthecreationofthismodelghetto,forthesereportsbythe
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InternationalRedCrosshadtheeffectofneutralizing,orbetteryet,ofqualifyingasevilslandertherumorsgoingroundconcerningthehorrorsoftheKZandthecrematoriums.Butnow,ontheeveofits
collapse,theThirdReichceasedtoworryanylongeraboutworldopinion,andrejectedeventhemaskofitsshadyhumanism.Itbegantoliquidatewithoutdelaythe
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Jewsstillinitscustody.Soitwasthattheturnof
themodelghettoatTheresienstadtarrived.WhentheyreachedAuschwitz,thestillhealthymenofthisghettohadthefollowingconvocationintheirpossession:GOVERNMENTALSS
COMMITTEEOFTHEREICHFORTHERECRUITINGANDEMPLOYMENTOFSLAVE
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LABORERSNotice:TheJewXYofthe
Reichprotectorateisherebyadvisedthatbyorderoftheabove-mentionedauthority,hehasbeendesignatedfortheServiceofObligatoryLabor.Thedrafteeshall,beforehisdeparture,deposithisinstruments,thetoolsnecessarytotheexerciseofhisprofession,asupplyofwinterclothing,andfoodenoughforoneweek,withtheauthority'srepresentative.Thedateofdeparturewillbeannouncedbypublicnotice.THERESIENSTADT,THE
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DATESignatureThewholestoryof
obligatorylaborwasofcourseaninfamouslie,merelyapretexttocarryouttheliquidationwithoutinterruptionandtorecoupsomesorelyneededinstruments,scarcetoolsandwinterclothingneededbytheGermanpopulace.Twentythousandmen,fullycapableofworkingandinthefullflushoftheiryouth,diedin
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thegaschambersandwereincineratedinthecrematoryovens.Ittook48hourstoexterminatethemall.Forseveraldaysafterwards,silenceagainreignedinthecrematorium.Twoweekslater,stillmore
deporteetrainsbeganarriving,inendlesssuccession,attheJewishramp.Womenandchildrenscrambledoutoftheboxcars.Therewasnoselection.All
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weredirectedtotheleft.Onthefloorofthe
undressingroomlayhundredsoftracts,whichread:GOVERNMENTALSS
COMMITTEEOFTHEREICHFORTHERECRUITINGANDEMPLOYMENTOFSLAVELABORERSNotice:Theabove-mentioned
authorityherebyauthorizesthewifeandchildrenofJewXYoftheReichprotectorate,calledfor
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ObligatoryLabor,tojointheabove-namedJewandtolivetogetherwithhimforthedurationofhisemployment.Suitablelodgingsareanticipated.Winterclothing,bedding,andprovisionsforaweekwillbefurnishedbythetravelers.THERESIENSTADT,THE
DATESignatureAsaresultofthis
diabolicallyconceivednotice,twentythousandwomenandchildrenwhowantedonlytoeasetheirhusbands'lot,to
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jointheirfathers,followedthemintothegaschambersandcrematoryovens.
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XXXIIEarlyinthemorningof
November17th,1944,anSSnoncommissionedofficercameintomyroomandinformedmeconfidentiallythat,uponorderofhigherauthority,itwashenceforthforbiddentokillanymoreprisoners,byanymeanswhatsoever,intheKZ.Afterhavingwitnessedsomanylies,Ifounditimpossibleto
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takehimathisword,andexpressedmydoubtsonthematter.Buthereassertedforcefullythatsuchweretheinstructionsthathadbeenreceivedbyradioonlyashortwhilebefore,bothatthecrematoriumsandattheSSpoliticalkommando.Wewouldsoonseewhetherornottheyweretrue.Personally,Ifeareditwasonlyanothertrick.Beforetheendofthe
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morning,however,Ihadoccasiontoverifythetruthofhisstatement.Atrainoffiveboxcarsbearing500sickanddebilitatedprisonerswhothoughttheywerebeingtransferredtoarestcampstoppedontherailsrunningbetweennumberoneandtwocrematoriums.TheyweremetbyanSSpoliticalcommission,whoconversedatsomelengthwiththecommandantandtheSS
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guardsaccompanyingtheconvoy.Atlast,beforethegatesofdeath,thetrainwasturnedround,anditsoccupantssenttotheFcamphospitalbarracks.Thiswasthefirsttime
duringmystayinthecrematoriumsthataconvoysenttoAuschwitz's"restcamp"hadnotbeenliquidated,eitherbygasortheOber'srevolver,withinanhourafteritsarrival,buthad,
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onthecontrary,beengivenmedicalattentionandallowedtorestinthebedsofthecamp'shospitalbarracks.Scarcelyanhourlater
anothertrainarrived,bearing500SlovakianJews:agroupofoldpeople,women,andyoungchildren.Theygotoutofthecars.Iwatchedcarefullyforwhatwouldfollow.LineupandselectionwerethestandardorderofprocedureontheJewish
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ramp.ButwhatInowwitnessedwascompletelyoutofkeepingwithpractice.ThewearytravelerstooktheirheavyluggagewiththemwhentheygotdownandwithoutexceptionmovedofftotherightinthedirectionofDCamp.Motherspushedbabycarriagesbeforethem,andtheyounghelpedtheagedtowalk.Myimmediatereactionwasoneofenthusiasm.Therecouldbe
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nodoubtaboutit:thecrematoriumgateshadremainedclosedbeforetheconvoyssenttotheirdeath.FortheKZprisonersthe
eventwasagoodomen,givingrisetohope.FortheSonderkommando,however,theomenwasbad,signifyingthattheendwasnear.Iwasquitesurethattheliquidationwouldbecarriedoutevenbeforetheendofthefour-monthperiod.
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AnewlifebeganintheKZ.Therewerenomoreviolentdeaths,butthebloodypasthadtobehidden.Thecrematoriumshadtobedemolished,thepyreditchesfilledin,andanywitnesstoorparticipantinthehorrorsperpetratedherehadtodisappear.Fullyconsciousofourimpendingdoom,wegreetedthechangewithamixtureofjoyandresignation.
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OfthemillionsofsoulssentherefromthefourcornersofEurope,byorderofthedementedFuhrer,thepyromaniacoftheThirdReich,tobeassembledlessthananhourbeforetheirdeathonunloadingrampsominouslylightedbythebutchersofMaydanek,Treblinka,Auschwitz,Birkenau,afewthousandwouldcomeoutalive.Feelinguneasy,Ipaida
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returnvisitaboutnoontotheSSradiomanwhohadinformedmeofthegoodnewsearlierintheday.Iwantedtoknowwhatdecisionshadbeenmadeinthecourseofthemorning.HadanydecisionbeenmadeconcerningtheSonderkommando,and,ifso,what?LuckilyhewasaloneintheroomandIcouldtalktohimfreely."TheSonderkommando?
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Whyyes,"hesaidaffably."Inafewdaysyou'llallbesenttoworkinanundergroundwarplantnotfarfromBreslau."Ididnotbelieveawordof
whathesaid.Foronce,however,Iknewthathislieswerenotintendedtolullmeintoafalsesenseofsecurity.Hemerelywantedtosparemethebadnews,fornotsolongagoIhadcaredforhimandcuredhimofaseriousillness.
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XXXIIIItwas2p.m.Ihadjust
finishedlunchandwasseatedbythewindowofmyroom,staringattheskyandclouds,thatborethepromiseofanearlysnow,whenastridentyellfromtheoven-roompassagewaybrokethesilence:"Alleantreten,alle
antreten!"Thiswasanorderwewereaccustomedtohearingtwiceaday,inthe
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morningandevening,formuster.Comingatthishour,however,itaugurednogood."Antreten,alleantreten!"
theorderrangoutagain,thistimemoreperemptoryandimpatientthanbefore.Heavyfootstepsresounded
justinfrontofourdoor.AnSSopeneditacrackandshoutedagain:"Antreten,antreten!"Withsinkingheartsweheadedforthecrematoriumcourtyard,
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whereagroupofwell-armedSSalreadyencircledagroupofkommandomenaswewalkeduptojointhem.Therewasneithersurprisenorthefaintestsignofprotestfromanyone.TheSS,theirmachinegunsleveled,waitedpatientlytillthelaststragglershadjoinedthegroup.Iglancedaroundforthelasttime.Themotionlesspinesthatformedalittletunnelattheendofthe
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courtyardwereblanketedwithsnow.Allwasquietandverypeaceful.Inafewminutes,anorder:
"Totheleft,totheleft!"Weleftthecourtyard,butinsteadofgoingalongtheroad,ourguardshaduswalktowardsnumbertwocrematorium,directlyopposite.Wecrossedthecourtyardofnumbertwo,knowingthatthiswouldbethelastwalkwewouldevertake.Theyledusintothe
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crematoriumfurnaceroom,butnoneoftheSSguardsremainedinsidewithus.Instead,theyspreadoutinacirclearoundthebuilding,stationedatintervalsnearthedoorsandwindows,theirgunspoised,readytofire.Thedoorswereshutandthewindowscoveredwithheavyironbars,completelythwartinganypossibilityofescape.Ourcomradesfromnumbertwowerealso
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present,andafewminuteslatertheyunlockedthedoorandsentinthekommandofromnumberfour.Fourhundredandsixtymeninall,waitingtodie.Theonlythingwedidnotknowforsurewasthemethodthatwouldbeusedtoexterminateus.Wewerespecialistsinthematter,havingseenallmethodsinoperation.Woulditbeinthegaschamber?Ihardlythoughtso,notwiththe
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Sonderkommando.Machineguns?Notatallconvenientinaroomlikethis.Mostlikelytheyintendedkillingtwobirdswithonestone,thatis,blowupthebuildingandusalongwithit.AplanworthyoftheSS.Orperhapstheywouldtossaphosphorousbombthroughoneofthewindows.Thatwouldbeanequallyeffectivemethod,onethathadalreadybeentriedbefore,onthedeporteesfrom
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theMiloghetto.Whattheyhaddonethenwasloadthedeporteesintoboxcarsthatweresodilapidatedastobeofnofurtheruse,thentossabombinside.Themenofthe
Sonderkommandoweresittingontheconcretefloorofthefurnaceroomwherevertheycouldfindroom,waitinganxiouslybutsilentlyforthenextmove.Suddenlythesilencewas
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broken.Oneofthekommandocrew,athin,sickly,black-hairedmanaboutthirtyyearsoldwhoseeyesweremagnifiedbyapairofthickglasses,jumpedtohisfeetandbegantospeakinavoiceloudenoughforeveryonetohear.Itwasthe"Dayen,"therabbiofasmallchurchcommunityinPoland.Aself-taughtman,whoseknowledgewasvastbothinthespiritualandtemporal
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realms,hewastheasceticmemberoftheSonderkommando.Inconformancewiththetenetsofhisreligion,heatesparingly,acceptingonlybread,margarineandonionsfromthewell-stockedkommandolarder.Hehadbeenassignedtothecremationkommando,butbecauseofhisreligiousfanaticismIhadtalkedtheOberintoexcusinghimfrom
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thisfrightfulwork.TheargumentIhadusedwiththeOberhadsimplybeenthatthismancouldnotbeofmuchusefortheheavyworkinvolvedincremation,sincehewasweakfromhisself-imposed,asceticdiet."Besides,"Ihadargued,"heonlyslowsuptheworkbypausingovereachbodytomurmurprayersforitssalvation.Andthereareoftenseveralthousandsoulsaday
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toprayfor."Thesehadbeenmy
arguments,buttheyhadsufficed,strangelyenough,andtheOberhadassignedhimtoburnthepileofrefusewhichwasforeveraccumulatinginthecourtyardofnumbertwo.Thisrefuse,called"Canada"bytheSS,wascomposedofobjectsthathadoncebelongedtothedeportees,objectsofsuchlittlematerialvaluethatthey
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wereconsiderednotworthbeingsalvaged:variousfoodstuffs,documents,diplomas,militarydecorations,passports,marriagecertificates,prayerbooks,holyobjectsandBiblesthatthedeporteeshadbroughtwiththemintocaptivity.Thislittlehillcalled
Canadadailyconsumedhundredsofthousandsofphotographs—picturesof
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youngmarriedcouples,elderlygroups,charmingchildrenandprettygirls—togetherwithinnumerableprayerbooks,inmanyofwhichIfoundcarefullyinkednotationsrecordingthedatesofimportantevents—births,marriages,deaths—inthelivesofthevariousfamilies.Sometimestherewereflowers,culledfromthegravesofbelovedparentsinalltheJewishcemeteriesof
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Europe,pressedbetweenthepagesandpiouslypreserved.Prayerbeadsandoddsandendsofallsortsroundedoutthesmolderinghill.Thiswaswherethe
"Dayen"worked,orrather,wherehedidnotwork,forallhedidwaswatchthefiresburn.Evensohewasdissatisfied,forhisreligiousbeliefsforbadehimfromparticipatingintheburningofprayerbooksorholyobjects.
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Ifeltsorryforhim,butcoulddonothingfurthertohelphim.Itwasimpossibletoobtainaneasierjob,forwewere,afterall,onlymembersofthekommandoofthelivingdead.Thisthenwasthemanwho
begantospeak:"FellowJews...An
inscrutableWillhassentourpeopletoitsdeath;fatehasallottedusthecruelestoftasks,thatofparticipatingin
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ourowndestruction,ofwitnessingourowndisappearance,downtotheveryashestowhichwearereduced.Innoinstancehavetheheavensopenedtosendshowersandputoutthefuneralpyreflames."Wemustaccept,
resignedly,asSonsofIsraelshould,thatthisisthewaythingsmustbe.Godhassoordainedit.Why?Itisnotforus,miserablehumans,toseek
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theanswer."Thisisthefatethathas
befallenus.Donotbeafraidofdeath.Whatislifeworth,evenif,bysomestrangemiracle,weshouldmanagetoremainalive?Wewouldreturntoourcitiesandtownstofindcoldandpillagedhomes.Ineveryroom,ineverycorner,thememoryofthosewhohavedisappearedwouldlurk,hauntingourtear-filledeyes.Strippedoffamily
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andrelatives,wewouldwanderliketherestless,shufflingshadowsofourformerselves,ofourcompletedpasts,findingnowhereanypeaceorrest."Flamesburnedinhiseyes;
histhinfacewastransfigured.Perhaps,ashespoke,hewasalreadyintouchwiththebeyond.Deadsilencefilledtheroom,interruptedonlybytheoccasionalscratchingofamatchassomeonelighteda
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cigarette.Nowandthenaheavysighexpressedalastfarewellbidbyoneofustothelivingandtothedead.Theheavydoorsswung
open.OberschaarfuhrerSteinbergenteredtheroom,accompaniedbytwoguards,machinegunsinhand."Arzteheraus.Alldoctors
outside!"heshoutedimpatiently.MytwocolleaguesandI,
andthelabassistant,leftthe
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room.SteinbergandthetwoSSsoldiershaltedhalfwaybetweenthetwocrematoriums.TheObergavemeasheafofpapershehadbeenholdinginhishandonwhichtherewasalistofnumbersandtoldmetofindmineandstrikeitout.ThepaperscontainedthetattoonumbersofeverymanintheSonderkommando.Itookoutmypenand,afterhuntingforawhile,foundmynumber
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anddrewalinethroughit.Hethentoldmetodothesameformycomrades.Thisdone,heaccompaniedustonumberonegateandtoldustoreturntoourroom,andnottoleaveit.Wedidasordered.Thefollowingmorninga
five-truckconvoyarrivedinthecrematoriumcourtyardanddumpedoutitscargoofbodies,thoseoftheoldSonderkommando.Anewgroupofthirtymencarried
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themtotheincinerationroom,wheretheywerelaidoutinfrontoftheovens.Terribleburnscarscoveredtheirbodies.Theirfacesandclothingweresocharredthatitwasallbutimpossibletoidentifythem,especiallysincetheirtattoonumbershaddisappeared.Afterdeathbygas,onthe
pyre,bychloroforminjections,byabulletinthebackoftheneck,by
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phosphorousbomb,herewasasixthwayofkillingwhichIhadnotpreviouslydiscovered.Duringthenightour
comradeshadbeentakenintoanearbyforestandkilledbyflamethrowers.Thatwefourwerestillalivedidnotbyanymeanssignifythattheywantedtospareus,butsimplythatwewerestillindispensabletothem.Inallowingustoremainalive,
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Dr.Mengelehadmerelygrantedusanotherreprieve.Onceagain,thethoughtgaveusneithercomfortnorjoy.
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XXXIVTheSonderkommando—
thirteenthinthehistoryofthecrematoriums—hadthusbeenannihilated.Nowourdaysslippedbyinuttersilenceandboredom.Atlooseends,wewanderedamongthecold,forbiddingwalls.Theringingofmyfootstepsinthesilencewaspainfultomyears.Weweregivennoorders,hadnothing
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todo.Atnightwelayinbed,unabletosleep.Onlyfourofuswereleftinthebuilding.ThethirtymenwhoworkedinthecrematoriumwerenotmembersoftheSonderkommando,butwerequarteredintheKZitselfandcamehereeverydayonlytoburnthebodiesofthosewhohaddiedinthehospital.Silent,introspective,
prostratewithgrief,weawaitedourend.Itwasabad
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signthatOberschaarfuhrerMussfeld,asifhehadbecomeadifferentperson,studiouslyavoidedmeetingus.Perhapshefeltthathehadfinishedplayinghisrole:thebloodytragedywasover,andsoonitwouldbetimeforthefatethatgovernsthebearersofforbiddensecretstostrikehimaswell.Fordaysatatimeheremainedlockedinhisroom,drinking,withanapparentlyunquenchable
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thirst,toforgetboththepastandthedarklyloomingfuture.OnedayDr.Mengele
arrivedunexpectedlyandcamelookingforusinourroom,sinceheguessedthatwewouldnotbeinthedissectingroom,nowthatbusinesswasslow.HeannouncedthatordersfromabovehadbeenreceivedthattheAuschwitzKZwouldbecompletelydestroyed.No,in
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thepresentinstancehewasnotreferringtoitsinhabitants,buttotheinstitutionitself.Twoofthecrematoriumswouldbedemolished,thethirdwouldservetemporarilyforthecremationofthehospital'sdead.Thedissectingroom,andwealongwithit,wouldbetransferredtonumberfour,whichwouldcontinueinoperation.Numbersoneandtwowouldbedestroyedat
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once.Numberthree,ofcourse,hadbeencompletelydemolishedduringtheOctoberrevolt.Itwasbothanhistoricand
happymomentwhen,thefollowingmorning,akommandoofprisonersarrivedinthecourtyardand,splitupintotwogroups,beganthedemolitionofthebuildings.Seeingtheredbrickwallstumbleoneaftertheotherundertheeffectof
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thedynamiteblasts,IhadapresentimentoftheThirdReich'sowndestruction.Jewshadbuiltit.Jewsweretearingitdown.NeverhadanyKZprisonersworkedwithanintensitysuchasIsawonthefacesofthosemen,whoseexpressionsreflectedthehopeofabetterlifetocome.Inthedissectingroom,
everythingmovablewaspacked.Asforthedissectiontable,onlythemarbleslabs
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weredismantled,andreplacedbyconcretesupports.Themovingwasfinishedinafewhoursandwespentthenightinnumberfour.Afterarrangingtheequipmentandsettingupthetable—placingthepedestalsandcupsinposition—thedissectingroomwasonceagainreadytofunction.Fortendaysnothing
happened.Ourindolentlifecontinued.Moreandmore
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oftenourSSguardssoughtrefugeindrunkenness.Itwasrarethattheyhadtheirwitsaboutthemformorethanafewminutesaday.Oneeveningwhilewewere
eatingdinner,OberschaarfuhrerMussfeldenteredunsteadily,leaneddrunkenlyonthetableandsaid:"GutenAbendJungs...Ihrwerdetbaldallekrepieren,nachheraberkommenwir."(Goodevening,
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children,soonyou'regoingtodie,butafterwardsourturnwillcome.)Bythesewords,spilledfromthelipsofadrunkenman,IlearnedatruthIhadalreadysuspected.Ourguardsweregoingtodisappearwithus.Iofferedaglassofteawith
ashotofhotruminittotheOber,whoemptiedtheglassesasfastaswecouldfillthem,withobvioussatisfaction.Hesatdownat
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ourtableand,asthoughhewantedtomakeupforhispastsilence,begantotalk.Hetoldhowhiswifehadbeenkilledduringanairraid,andthathissonwasontheRussianfront."It'sallover,"hesaid."The
Russiansarebarely40kilometersfromAuschwitz.ThewholeofGermanyisinexodusonthehighways.Everybodyisleavingthefrontierareastoseekrefuge
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intheWest."Hiswordsdidourhearts
good.AndseeingtheObefsdespair,arayofhopebegantogrowinsideme.Perhapswewouldafterallsucceedinleavingherealive.
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XXXVCondemnedtothatregion
midwaybetweenhopeanddespair,wesafelyreachedthefirstofJanuary,1945.Snowstillblanketedthecountrysideasfarastheeyecouldsee.Ileftthecrematoriumtotakeashortwalkaroundthecourtyard.Suddenlythepurrofa
powerfulmotorreachedmyears,andamomentlatera
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largebrownvanappeared.Usedtotransportprisoners,thisvanwascalled"BrownToni"bythecampinmates,foritwaspaintedadarkbrownishcolor.Atallofficergotout.IrecognizedhimasDr.Klein,anSSmajor,oneoftheevil,bloody-handedKZofficials.Icametoattentionandgavehimtheregulationsalute.HehadbroughtahundrednewvictimsfromKZBarracks
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number10,thatis,thecampprison."Here'ssomeworktostart
theNewYearwith,"hetoldtheOberwhohurrieduptogreethim.TheOberwassodrunkhe
couldhardlystandup.HehadapparentlygonealloutcelebratingtheNewYear.Whoknows,perhapshehadmerelybeensteelinghimselfagainsttheguards'impendingend.Atanyrate,itwas
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evidentfromhisexpressionthathewasnotatallpleasedtolearnhehadbeengivenabloodyjobtoperformonNewYear'sDay.AhundredPolishprisoners,Christianmenall,hadbeenbroughtheretobemurdered.SSguardstookthemtoanemptyroomnexttothefurnaceroomandorderedthemtoundressimmediately.Dr.KleinandtheOber,meanwhile,tookastroll
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aroundthecourtyard.Ihastenedtowherethe
prisonerswereundressingandbeganquestioningthemastothereasonsfortheirimprisonment.Oneofthemtoldmehehadgivenrefugetooneofhisrelatives,athishomeinKrakau.TheGestapohadaccusedhimofaidingpartisansandbroughthimtotrialbeforeacourt-martial.Whileawaitingsentence,hehadbeensenttoBarracks10
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Althoughhedidnotyetknowit,thecourthadalreadycondemnedhimtodeath.Thatwaswhyhewashere.Hewasunderthemistakenimpression,however,thathehadbeenbroughthereforashowerbeforebeingassignedtoaforcedlaborbattalion.Anotherhadbeen
imprisonedforhavingaidedandabettedinflation.Aseriousoffense,tobesure.Justwhathadhiscrimebeen?
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Why,hehadboughtapoundofbutterontheblackmarket.Athirdhadbeenjailedforhavingwanderedintoaforbiddenzone.Theyhadaccusedhimofbeingapartisanspy.ItwasmuchthesamestoryeverywhereIasked:minorslipsandinfractionsofthelawturnedintofabulous,trumped-upcharges.Nowthattherewasno
longeranySonderkommando,
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theSSguardsledthementotheOber'srevolver.Again,thesoundof
"BrownToni's"powerfulmotor.Ahundrednewvictimsarrived,allwomen,quitewelldressed.Theyweresenttothesameroomwhere,onlyafewminutesbefore,themenhadundressed.ThenonebyonethewomenwerealsotakentotheOber'swaitinggun.TheytoowerePolishChristians;theytoo
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paidwiththeirlivesforminorinfractionsofthelaw.Thecremationwascarried
outbytheSS,whoaskedmetofurnishthemwithrubberglovesforthejob.Assoonashehadmade
quitecertain,inviso,thatthe200prisonershadbeendulyexecuted,Dr.Kleinleftthecrematorium.TherewasnothingcontradictoryabouttheorderofNovember17thforbiddingthepracticeof
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violentdeath,andtoday'sslaughter.Onthecontrary,alltheSShadjustdonewastocarryoutthesentencestenderedbyadulyconstitutedcourt-martial.
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XXXVIMydayspassedquietly,
withoutinterruption.ItwasrumoredthatDr.MengelehadfledAuschwitz.TheKZhadanewdoctor,and,whatwasmore,fromnowontheareawasnolongertobecalledKZ,but"Arbeitslager,"thatis,"WorkCamp."Everythingwasbreakingupandfallingtopieces.OnthefirstofJanuarya
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newspaperIhappenedtocomeacrosstoldofthebeginningoftheRussianoffensive.Thenoiseofheavyartilleryrattledthewindowpanes;thelineoffiregrewclosereveryday.OnJanuary17thIwenttobedearly,althoughIwasnottired.Iwantedtobealonewithmythoughts.Lulledbytheagreeablewarmthofacokestove,Isoondriftedoff.Itmusthavebeenabout
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midnight.Iwasawakenedbyaseriesofpowerfulblasts,thecracklingofmachine-gunfire,anddazzlingflashes.Iheardthesoundofdoorsbangingandfootstepsrunning.Ijumpedoutofbedandopenedthedoor.Thefurnaceroomlightswereon,andthedoorsoftheSS'roomswerewideopen,witnesstothespeedoftheirdeparture.Thecrematorium'sheavy
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gateswerealsoopen.Notaguardinsight.Iglancedquicklyatthewatchtowers.Forthefirsttimeinmonthstheywereempty.Iranbacktowakeupmycompanions.Wedressedinhasteandgotreadyforthegreatjourney.TheSShadfled.Wewouldnotstayhereaminutelonger,herewhereforeightmonthsDeathhadlaininwaitforuseveryminuteofeveryhour.Wecouldnotwaitforthe
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Russians,sinceweriskedfallingintothehandsoftheSSrearguard,whowouldnothesitatetoexecuteus.Luckilywehadexcellentclothing—sweaters,overcoats,shoes—whichmeantagreatdeal,forthetemperaturewasatleast10belowzero.Weeachtookatwo-poundcanoffood,andfilledourpocketswithmedicinesandcigarettes.Weleft,filledwiththe
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feverishsensationofliberation.Direction:TheBirkenauKZ,twokilometersfromthecrematoriums.Immenseflamesglowedalongthehorizonthere.ItwasprobablytheKZburning.Crossingthefurnaceroom,
wepassedinfrontoftheroomwherethegoldwasstored.Boxescontaininguntoldwealthstilllayinside,butwedidnoteventhinkofstoppingtotakesomeofit.
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Whatwasmoneywhenone'slifewasatstake?Wehadlearnedthatnothinglastsandthatnovalueisabsolute.Theonlyexceptiontothatrule:freedom.Weleftbythemaingate.
Noonestoppedus.Theabruptchangeseemedincredible.OurpathledthroughthelittleforestofBirkenau,whosetreeswerecoveredfromtrunktotopwithaheavylayerof
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glisteningsnow.Thesamepathdownwhichmillionshadwalkedontheirwaytodeath...WepassedbesidetheJewishramp,buriedinthesnow.Andheretheyhadclimbeddownfromtheboxcarsforselection.Theimageofthetwocolumns,leftandright,separatedforever,gazingsadlyacrossatthosetheyhadjustleft,camebacktome.Butforallofthem,thematterhad
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merelybeenoneofchronologicalorder:theywerealldead.Yes,theBirkenauKZwas
onfire.Someoftheguards'rooms,inwhichthecamprecordswerestored,wereburning.Alargecrowd,perhaps3,000,wasgatheredinfrontofthecampgatewaitingfortheordertoleave.WithouthesitationIjoinedtheirranks.Nooneknewmehere.Iwasnolongerthe
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bearerofunholysecrets,nolongeramemberoftheSonderkommando,andthereforedidnothavetodie.HereIwasmerelyanotherKZprisoner,lostinthecrowd.Itseemedtomethiswasthebestsolution.Mycolleaguesconcurred.EveryonewasfleeingBirkenau,butIjudgeditimprobablethattheywouldbeabletotakeusveryfar.InadayortwotheRussians
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wouldcatchupwithus.Butsometimebeforethathappened,theSSwoulddesert.Meanwhile,ourbestbetwastomarchwiththeothersbetweenthetwolinesoffire.Itwasaboutoneo'clockin
themorning.ThelastSShadleftthecamp.Heclosedtheirongatesandcutoffthelightsfromthemainswitchboard,whichwaslocatedneartheentrance.The
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enormouscemeteryofEuropeanJudaism,Birkenau,sankintodarkness.Myeyeslingeredforalongwhileonthebarbedwiresofthecampandtherowsofbarracksthatstoodoutagainstthenight.Farewell,cemeteryofmillions,cemeterywithoutasinglegrave!Wesetout,surroundedby
acompanyofSS.Wediscussedwithournew-foundfriendsallthathadhappened,
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andwhatmighthappennow,tryingtoguesswhatthemorrowwouldbring.WouldtheSSsucceedinescortingourconvoytoanewprison,orwouldthey,aswehoped,desertussomewherealongtheway?Wehadwalkedfor
approximatelyfivekilometerswhenourleftflankbecamethetargetofadeadlyfire.TheRussianadvanceguardhadseenusand,mistakingus
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foramilitarycolumn,openedfire.Theywereusingsubmachinegunsandhadthesupportofalighttank.TheSSreturnedthefireandshoutedforustotakecoverontheground.Wecrawledintotheditchesoneithersideoftheroad.Thefirewasheavyonbothsides.Then,inalittlewhile,allgrewquietagainandweresumedourjourneyacrossthesterile,snow-coveredearthof
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Silesia.Slowlyitbegantogrow
light.Iestimatedthatwehadcoveredabout15kilometersduringthenight.Butstillwemarchedacrossthepackedsnow.AllalongthewayInoticedpotsandblanketsandwoodenshoesthathadbeenabandonedbyaconvoyofwomenwhohadprecededus.Afewkilometersfartheron
wecameuponamuchsaddersight:everyfortyorfifty
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yards,abloodybodylayintheditchbesidetheroad.Forkilometersandkilometersitwasthesamestory:bodieseverywhere.Exhausted,theyhadbeenunabletowalkanyfarther;whentheyhadstrayedfromtheranks,anSShaddispatchedthemwithabulletinthebackofthehead.SoIhadnotleftmurder
andviolencebehindme.ApparentlytheSShadbeenorderednottoleaveany
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victimsbehind.Adiscouragingthought.Thesightofthebodiesmadeadeepimpressiononallofus,andwequickenedourpace.Towalkmeanttolive.Nowthefirstshotsbegan
soundinginourownconvoyaswell.Thebodiesoftwofellow-sufferersfellintotheditches.Unabletoadvanceanotherstep,theyhadsatdown:abulletintheneck.Tenminutesdidnotgoby
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withoutthesamethingrecurring.Towardsnoonwereached
Plesow,wherewemadeourfirststop.Wespentanhourinasportsstadium.Anyonewhohadsomefoodatealittle.Wesmokedacigarette,thensetoffagainalongthesnowyroad,feelinggreatlyrefreshed.Butaweekwentby,two,andstillwewalked.Fortwentydayswewalked,tillatlastwereacheda
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railwaystation.Inall,wehadcoveredover200kilometers,havinghadalmostnothingtoeatforthreeweeks.Atnightwesleptoutdoors,inthebittercold.WhenwearrivedatRatiboronly2,000ofuswereleft.Aboutathousandhadbeenshotalongtheway.Wewereallrelievedtoseethelineofboxcarswaitingforus.Weclimbedintothecars
and,afteranall-nightwait,
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begantomove.Thetriplastedfivedays.Ididnotcountthenumberofcomradeswhofrozetodeath,butonly1,500ofusreachedourdestination,theMauthausenKZ.Someofthemissing500werenotdead,however,fortherewereafewwho,takingadvantageofapropitious
occasion,fledtheconvoyandperhapsescaped.
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XXXVIITheMauthausenKZsaton
topofahilloverlookingtheancientcityofthesamename.Thisexterminationcamp,whichresembledafortifiedtown,wasmadeofgraniteblocks.Withitsbastions,itstowersandloopholes,itlookedfromafar
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likeamedievalcastle.Thispicturewouldhave
beenarareandbeautifuloneifonlythestoneshadbeencoveredwithacentury-oldgrowthoflichen,orstreakedgrayfromtheconstantplayofwindandrainandsnowthroughtheyears.Instead,theypresentedafacadeofdazzlingwhitethatclashedwiththesurroundinglandscape,whichwascrownedwithdarkforests.
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Forthe"castle"hadonlyrecentlybeenbuiltanditswallswerenotyetmarkedwiththatausterebeautyofancientbuildings.TheThirdReichhadhaditconstructedasaKZ.FortythousandSpanishRepublicans,refugeesinFrance,hadbeenbroughthereaftertheoccupation,aswellashundredsofthousandsofGermanJews.Itwastheywhohadworkedinthe
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Mauthausenquarriescuttingtheblocks;itwastheywhohadcarriedthefinishedstonesalongtheseven-kilometerpathupthemountain,whereformerlyonlywildgoatshadgrazed.Anditwastheywhohadconstructedthepowerfulwallsaroundtheirhouseofsorrow,whichwascomposedofwoodenbarracks.Theyhadfinishedthecastleatthepriceofunbelievable
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suffering,buttheyhadneverlivedtooccupyit.Inthemidstofthisgreatmassofstoneandconcretetheyhadallperished,liketheslavesinancientEgypt.Thecamphadnotremained
unoccupiedforverylong,however.ThousandswhohadfoughtintheYugoslavunderground,aswellasmembersofallthevariousresistancemovementsthroughoutEurope—plus,of
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course,Europe'sdoomedrace,theJews—hadflockedherebythetensofthousands,fillingthefortress'barracksinamatterofdays.Theretheyhadlivedduringthebriefperiodprecedingtheirdeath.Nowanotherconvoy,ours,
decimatedbythelongtripandtheinsufferablecold,slowlywendeditswayupthearduous,snow-coveredmountainpath.Ourstrengthallbutgone,weatlast
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enteredthegatesoftheKZandlinedup,inthegatheringdusk,onthe"Appelplatz"Ilookedaroundformy
companions.Fischer,thelabassistant,wasmissing.IhadnotseenhimsincePlesow.Thenhehadbeenlyinginthesnow,hisstrengthcompletelyspent.Fromhiscontractedfacialexpression,Ihadsuspectedthathisendwasnear.Hewasfifty-fiveandhadspentfiveyearsinthe
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KZ,soitwasnotsurprisingthathisorganismhadbeenunequaltothelongwalkandparalyzingcold.Dr.Kornerwasinprettygoodshape,butDr.Gorog,ontheotherhand,wasinacriticalcondition.Hismentaltroubleshadsteadilyworsened,andeveninthedaysofthecrematoriumkeepinghisconditionasecrethadbeenasourceofconstantworrytome.IhaddoneallIcouldto
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makesureheneverranintoDr.Mengele.Mussfeldhadalsobeendangerous.Ifeitheronehadnoticedhiscondition,hislifewouldnothavebeenworthapenny.Beforeleavingthe
crematoriumhehadalreadyinformedmeofhislastwishes."Nicholas,"hehadsaid,
"youareastrong-willedpersonandonedayyou'llmanagetogetoutofallthis
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alive.Asforme,IknowI'mfinished."Ihadtriedtoprotest,buthehadwavedmywordsofencouragementasideandgoneon:"Ihaveproofthatmywifeanddaughterbothdiedinthegaschamber.ButIleftmytwelve-year-oldsonwiththemonksoftheKoszegcloister.Ifyoueverdogethome,fetchhimandbringhimupasyourown.Isaythisinfullpossessionofallmyfaculties,
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knowingIhaven'tlongtolive."IhadpromisedhimthatI
wouldfaithfullycarryouthiswishes,intheeventIescapedandhedidnot.Now,happily,wehadleft
thesiteofcertaindeathfarbehind.Todienow,soneartotheendoftheroad,justwhenthehopeoffreedomhadfilledourhearts,wouldbetrulytragic.Followingrollcall,we
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weresentthroughatortuouspassagetothebaths.Therewejoinedgroupsnewlyarrivedfromothercamps:theremusthavebeen10,000ofuscrammedintothissmallarea.Astrongwindwhistledbetweenthewallsofthecastle.ThemountainonwhichthecampwasperchedmarkedthebeginningoftheAlps,andthewintersherewereextremelyrigorous.Welearnedthatwewouldbe
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takenintothebathsingroupsofforty.Atthatrate,Icalculateditwouldtakethreedaysforeverybodytobathe.Theguardsstationedhere
hadbeenrecruitedfromamongGermancriminals,menservingtermsformurder,larcenyandthelike.Needlesstosay,theywerethefaithfulservantsoftheSS.Todaytheirjobconsistedofgroupingthedeporteesforthebaths.Aryanprisoners
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wentfirst.InfactthereweresomanyAryansthatIfiguredtheJews'turnwouldnotcomebeforethethirdday.Towaitherefortwodaysbecameamatteroflifeanddeath,foraprisonercouldnotenterthebarracksandgethimselfenrolledonthelistofthosetobefedwithoutfirstpassingthroughthebaths.Forapersonwhowasalreadyexhausted,atwo-daywaitwithoutfoodwouldmean
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almostcertaindeath,foreitherhislegswouldbuckleorhiseyelidswouldyieldtosleep,andhewouldsinkintothehard-packedsnow,neveragaintorise.Alreadyaboutahundredprisonerswerelyingonthegroundaroundme.Noonewaspayinganyattentiontothem,foreachhadallhecoulddotosavehimself.ThiswasourfinalsprinttowardsthefinishlineofLife.Reflectingonmysituation,
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IdecidedthatIcouldnotspendthenightoutdoorswithoutseriouslyimperilingmychancesforsurvival.Ihadtogetintothebathstoday.PoorDeniswaswanderingaimlesslyabout,hatless,withouthisglasses,likeamanasleep.Hisgazewastroubledandhewasmutteringunintelligiblewordstohimselfashewalked.Itookhimbythearmanddraggedhimwithme,
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hopingthatIcouldsomehowgetusbothintothebaths.Butbeforewehadgonemorethanafewstepsheslippedawayandwaslostintheseethingmassofhumanity.Icalledhisname,shoutingatthetopofmylungs,buttonoavail.ThewindwassostrongIcouldhardlyhearmyownvoice.Sensingthedanger,I
forcedmywaythroughthecrowdandapproachedthe
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stepsleadingdownintothebaths.AtlastIworkedmywaytothefrontrow.SeveralSSarmedwithrubberclubswereguardingtheentrance.Agroupoffortypeoplewasalreadyassembled,waitingtogoin.TheywereallAryans.OnceagainImadeasnap
decision:leavingthecrowdIapproachedanSSOberschaarfuhrerandaddressedhiminaself-assuredtoneofvoice:
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"HerrOberschaarfuhrer,I'mthedoctorfortheAuschwitzconvoy.Letmeintothebaths."Helookedmeover.My
respectableclothes,perhapsmydeterminedmanner,or,morelikely,myperfectcommandofGermanseemedtomakeanimpressiononhim.Atanyrate,turningtohiscolleaguespostedneartheentrance,hesaid:"Letthedoctorgoinside."
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Idescendedalone,precedingthegroupoffortywhowerewaitingbesidethestairway.Safe!Andhoweasyithadbeen!Yes,sometimesitpaystomakeupone'smindonthespurofthemoment.Thewarmairofthebaths
soonlentnewstrengthtomyalmostfrozenlegs.Afterdaysanddaysofcold,atlonglastawarmroom!Thebathitselfalsodidmeaworldofgood.Ourclotheswereconsidered
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contaminated,andwehadtogivethemup.Iwassorrytohandovermyovercoat,mysuitandmywarmwoolensweater,butatleastwashappytoseethattheyletmekeepmyshoes.Agoodpairofshoescouldeasilybeanimportantfactorinsavingone'slifeintheKZ.Iputmyshoesbackonand
rejoinedthegroupthathadjustfinishedbathing.Otherwisenaked,westarted
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backtowardsthepathleadingtothebaths,wherewewaitedforhalfanhourtilltherewereenoughofustofillanentirebarracks.Afterawarmbath,toremainoutsideinanicywind,withthetemperatureclosetozero,wastoflirtwithdeath.Atlengthanothergroupof
fortyjoinedusandwestartedoff.TheSSguardmadeuskeepinstepaswewalked,butaftermarchingonly50
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yardswereachedBarracks33ofthequarantinecamp.Aprisoner,wearingthe
familiargreeninsigniaofacriminaloffender,waspostedinfrontoftheentrance:ourbarrackschief.Hehandedeverynewcomerafourthofaloafofbread;alittlefartheronaclerkslappedaspoonfulofmargarine,madeofmeatfat,onthebread.Wewerealsogivenhalfapintofsteaminghotcoffee.
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After10daysofprivationthisseemedlikearoyalfeast.Havingdownedmyfood,Ilookedaroundforalikelyplacetoliedown,andfinallysettledonasecludedcorner,whereIjudgedthatmychancesofbeingwalkedonwouldbefairlyslim.Ilayonthefloor,fortherewerenobedsinthequarantinecamp.Nevertheless,Isleptsoundlyuntilreveille.Waking,myfirstthoughts
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wereforthosestillstanding—providedtheywerestillabletostand—inthefreezingcold,waitingtogetintothebaths.WestayedinBarracks33
forthreedays,duringwhichwehadnothingtodo.Ourfoodwasnottoobadandwewerethusmoreorlessabletorecuperatefromourthree-weekmarch.Onthethirddayofourstay
anSSofficer,accompanied
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byageneral,visitedourbarracksandorderedanyonewhohadformerlyworkedintheAuschwitzKZtostepforward.Mybloodfrozeinmy
veins.Methodicalracethattheyare,theGermansnodoubthadamusterlistcontainingthenamesornumbersofthosewhohadworkedatAuschwitz.Itseemedlikely.Andyet...thinkingaboutit,Icameto
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theconclusionthatthiswasmerelyaruse,anattempttosingleoutfromthemassthosecapableofrevealingthesordidmysteriesofthecrematoriums.Iftheyhadreallyhadalistalltheywouldhavehadtodowastocheckourtattoonumbers.Nooneknewmehere.Iwaited,thebloodpoundinginmyears;therewascompletesilenceinthebarracksasthesecondstickedslowlyby.
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Andthentheyleft.Ihadwonagain.Onceagainthewheelofdeathhadspunandpassedmeby.Thatnightweweregiven
thestripedjerkinofprisonersandtakenbythemountainpathtotheMauthausenrailwaystation.Therewewereloadedintotheinevitableboxcars,7,000soulsinall,andsenttotheMelkanderDonauconcentrationcamp.Itwas
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onlyashortjourneyand,forachange,fairlycomfortable,thatis,wewerenotstackedinlikesardinesbuthadroomenoughtositonthefloor.Threehoursafterwehadclimbedintothecarsweclimbeddownagain.TheMelkKZ,likethatof
Mauthausen,satonthecrestofahilloverlookingthesurroundingcountryside.Originallyaprison,bearingthenameofFreiherrVon
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Birabo,itsimmensebarrackswerelargeenoughtoaccommodate15,000criminalsatatime.Thepicturesquebeautyofthecountrysidemitigatedourpainanddiscomfort:theenormous,baroque-stylemonastery
projectedfromtherockyhill,and,below,theDanubewoundsinuouslyonitsway,formingapictureofunforgettablebeauty.The
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Danubewasariverweassociatedwithourhomeandcountry.Seeingitnowmadeusfeelthathomewasnotquitesofaraway.
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XXXVIIIThespringof1945came
early.ItwasnowthebeginningofApril,andthetreesthatrosefromtheditchesliningthebarbed-wirefencesofMelkwerealreadygreen.OnthebanksoftheDanubeagreencarpetreplacedthesnow,only
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patchesofwhichremainedtoremindusoftheseverewinterthroughwhichwehadjustpassed.IhadbeenlivingintheKZ
foreightweeks,throughgooddaysandbad,buttheexperiencehadsappedmystrengthandleftmetiredandweak.Onlythehopeofanearlyliberationkeptmefromslippingintoastateofutterlethargyandindifference.Hereeverythingwas
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disintegrating.ThefinalphasesoftheThirdReich'scollapsewereunfoldingbeforeoureyes.Defeatedarmiespassedininterminablecolumnstowardstheinteriorofacountryalreadyreducedtosmokingruins.OntheDanube,whosewaterswereswollenfromthemeltingsnows,hundredsofboatsandbargestransportedtheinhabitantsofevacuatedcities.TheThirdReich's
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dreamofamillenniumwascrumbling.Theconvictionofapeopleborntorule,ofaMasterRace,wasgivingwaytobitterdisillusionment.ThepeoplesofEurope,avidforfreedom,nolongerlivedinthefearthattheirtownorcitymight,byasimple,arbitrarystrokeoftheconqueror'spen,bewipedoffthemap;therewasnolongeranydangerofseeingtheirhomesplundered,ofhavingthemselvesstripped
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ofalltheyowned,offeelingtheneedlepointtattoonumbersontheirarms,ofbeingshippedtoforcedlaborcampsandguardedbypolicedogsandSStroopswhosebadgewasthedeath'shead.Thepyromaniacsofthe
ThirdReichwerenowplayingtheirfinalsceneonthestageoftheworld:theywhohadsettheworldaflamewerenowperishingintheirownfires.Theraucous-
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voicedcorporal,whosewords,"DeutschlandUberAlles"hadbeenheardonthewavelengthsoftheentireworldforoveradecade,wasnowtremblinginhisundergroundbunker.TheuncompromisingprideoftheThirdReichhadbeenbrokenbytheworldwidecollaborationofpeoplenotavidofconquest,butoffreedom.OnApril7th,1945,the
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stringofarclightssetontopofthepolestowhichthebarbedwireswerefasteneddidnotcomeon.Darknessandsilenceclosedinontheabandonedspot.Thecampwasempty,thegateclosed.The7,000prisonershad
beentakenfartherinland,firstbyboat,thenalongtheroadsswarmingwithrefugees.Forsevenlongdaysandnightswetraveled,tillatlastwereachedournewdestination,
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theEbenseeconcentrationcamp,thefourthKZthroughwhoseyawninggatesIhadpassed.Uponarrival,theinevitable
andinterminablerollcall.Thenthebath.Andthenagainthequarantinecamp,withitsfilthybarracks,itsguardsarmedwithrubberclubs,itshardfloor.Iblindlysubmittedtothesethreecustomaryphases.Duringrollcallacoldwindwasblowing
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andadrivingrainsoakedmyclothes.Bitternessoverwhelmedme.Iknewthatitcouldonlybeamatterofdaysbeforewewereliberated,butforthemomentwewerestilllivinginaworldofconfusionandindecision.Andyet,whenthemomentfordecisionfinallyarrived,perhapsitwouldbeanill-starredoneforusall.Theendofourcaptivitycouldquiteconceivablyturnintoa
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bloodytragedy:theymightkillusallbeforetheimpendingmomentofliberationarrived.Aftertwelvemonthsof
imprisonment,atatimewhenalllawhadceasedtoexist,suchanendwouldindeedbeinkeepingwiththecustomsoftheThirdReich.Butsuchwasnotthecase.
OnMay5thawhiteflagflewfromtheEbenseewatchtower.Itwasfinished.They
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hadlaiddowntheirarms.Thesunwasshiningbrightlywhen,atnineo'clock,anAmericanlighttank,withthreesoldiersaboard,arrivedandtookpossessionofthecamp.Wewerefree.
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EPILOGUE
Sickatheart,andphysicallyill,Istartedmylongvoyagehomeward.Thetripwasnotapleasantone:everywhereIlookedIsaw,whereflourishingcitiesandtownshadoncestood,nothingbutguttedruinsand
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thecollective,white-crossedgravesofthedead.Idreadedthetruth,fearing
toreturntoanempty,plunderedhome,ahomewhereneitherparentsnorwife,daughternorsister,wouldbewaitingtogreetmewithwarmthandaffection.Persecutionandsorrow,thehorrorsofthecrematoriumandfuneralpyres,myeightmonthsinthekommandoofthelivingdead,haddulled
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mysenseofgoodandevil.IfeltthatIshouldrest,try
toregainmystrength.But,Ikeptaskingmyself,forwhat?Ontheonehand,illnessrackedmybody;ontheother,thebloodypastfrozemyheart.Myeyeshadfollowedcountlessinnocentsoulstothegaschambers,witnessedtheunbelievablespectacleofthefuneralpyres.AndImyself,carryingouttheordersofadementeddoctor,
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haddissectedhundredsofbodies,sothatasciencebasedonfalsetheoriesmightbenefitfromthedeathsofthosemillionsofvictims.Ihadcutthefleshofhealthyyounggirlsandpreparednourishmentforthemaddoctor'sbacteriologicalcultures.Ihadimmersedthebodiesofdwarfsandcripplesincalciumchloride,orhadthemboiledsothatthecarefullypreparedskeletons
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mightsafelyreachtheThirdReich'smuseumstojustify,forfuturegenerations,thedestructionofanentirerace.Andeventhoughallthiswasnowpast,Iwouldstillhavetocopewithitinmythoughtsanddreams.Icouldnevererasethesememoriesfrommymind.AtleasttwiceIhadfeltthe
wingsofdeathbrushbyme:once,prostrateontheground,withacompanyofSStrained
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intheartofsummaryexecutionpoisedaboveme,Ihadescapedunharmed.Butthreethousandofmyfriends,whohadalsoknowntheterriblesecretsofthecrematoriums,hadnotbeensolucky.Ihadmarchedforhundredsofkilometersthroughfieldsofsnow,fightingthecold,hunger,andmyownexhaustion,merelytoreachanotherconcentrationcamp.Theroad
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Ihadtraveledhadindeedbeenlong.Now,homeagain,nothing.
Iwanderedaimlesslythroughsilentrooms.Free,butnotfrommybloodypast,norfromthedeep-rootedgriefthatfilledmymindandgnawedatmysanity.Andthefutureseemedjustasdark.Iwalkedlikemyownghost,arestlessfigureintheoncefamiliarstreets.TheonlytimesImanagedtoshakeoff
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mystateofdepressionandlethargywaswhen,mistakenly,IthoughtforafleetingsecondthatsomeoneIsaworbrieflyencounteredonthestreetwasamemberofmyfamily.Oneafternoon,several
weeksaftermyreturn,Ifeltchillyandsatdownnearthefireplace,hopingtoderivealittlecomfortfromthecheerfulglowthatfilledtheroom.Itgrewlate;duskwas
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falling.Thedoorbellrousedmefrommydaydreams.BeforeIcouldgetuptoansweritmywifeanddaughterburstintotheroom!Theywereingoodhealth
andhadjustbeenfreedfromBergen-Belsen,oneofthemostnotoriousoftheexterminationcamps.Butthatwasasmuchastheywereabletotellmebeforebreakingdown.Forhourstheysobbeduncontrollably.I
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wascontentjusttoholdtheminmyarms,whilethefloodoftheirgriefflowedfromtheirtorturedmindsandhearts.Theirsobs,alanguageIwaswellfamiliarwith,slowlysubsided.Wehadmuchtodo,much
torelate,muchtorebuild.Iknewitwouldtakemuchtimeandinfinitepatiencebeforewecouldresumeanysortofreallynormallife.Butallthatmatteredwasthatwe
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werealive...andtogetheragain.Lifesuddenlybecamemeaningfulagain.Iwouldbeginpracticing,yes...ButIsworethataslongasIlivedIwouldneverliftascalpelagain.