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nasrin khosrowshahi and dostojevsky
YALETOWN
Blue hat, blue stockings, the woman ducks behind the silent-white wedding cake, in the
little cake shop, it is a yaletown Saturday, Vancouver, so very post-olympic. The
February is not yet full-blown, just slight hints of a year to come.
She ponders, is pissed-off, her years have passed her by. Middle age, empty nest, the like,
the like. Hints of dislocation, it is time to reinvent yourself. Her films are rejected, her
queries ignored. Her paintings rot in the basement.
The woman looks at her foret noir cake, lots of whipped cream, the slight, so very petite,
so very thin woman behind the counter suggested a cup of water, the cake is too rich, too
rich. Lunchtime in Vancouver, grease, sugar, the day marches forward. Time to leave this
place, to pay, to catch the bus on seymour, to make one’s way to the other side of the
bridge.
GRANVILLE ISLAND
A lowly raven on top of the ocean factory, the painter looks up at the bus on the bridge,
he takes off his grey and pink checkered jacket, he has to go up to the studio on the fourth
floor, put some brush strokes on the small canvas, that hovers in his locker, he ponders if
he should change his major. Painting seems too slow, too slow.
RICHMOND
The woman in the white shirt types away, types away. Her words are pretty bad, she will
never make it in literature land. Dostojevsky she ain’t, that’s for sure. She looks at her
chamomile tea, near the black laptop, in the back corner of the starbucks on minoru road,
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the one where suburbia is happening, heavily. She should drive down to tsawwassen, visit
a friend, but typing seems to be more fun, the possibility to be the next tai yin, the
possibility of reading in front of a crowd, appreciative or otherwise, a hiccup in a white
pickety existence, for moments, for moments.
YVR
The girl with the green and red leggings, in pink rain boots, the black touque, fashionably
on the back of the hair, falling down, but still holding onto the scalp, she whushels thru
the volumes, a red book, catches her eye, the writer is her age, but he has published seven
books already. Talk about prolific, the tale seems to be so very predictable though,
regurgitation of blue velvet, of mary chapin carpenter’s house of cards, the eternal story
of the chaos, disaster, catastrophe beneath the surface, it is the story of our existence,
death lingering under life, dark under light, sorrow after happiness. Or something like
that, the girl in the green and red leggings does not know that much about literary forms
and if push comes to shove, she doesn’t really give a shit.
NYC
He likes this room, very fashionable address, midtown manhattan not quite, more leaning
down to the east village, the right kind of address for a literary agency startup. He used to
be the darling of the bookworld, he had his own imprint, he was on Charlie Rose. Now,
well, e-books did him in. or maybe he did not run fast enough, who knows; he still has
what it takes, at forty-four he will find the next talent, how tough can it be, he knows the
right people, the right restaurants, the right addresses. He knows, who’s who, the only
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caveat being, that he used to be part of the who’s who. He used to be king, not
kingmaker.
YALETOWN
The woman in the blue hat is still struggling with the black forest cake, she likes it here,
she can look out the window, play around with the crumbs, this seems to be a nice shelter
from the rain, which started to drizzle down on the city, the city that is always awash in
rain, the blue hat-ed woman likes it here, the smallish coffeeshop, the slight and reluctant
day, the sleepiness that is not yet there. She might write a poem, why not, why not, why
not?
OAKRIDGE
Too much noise, the dragon dancers are a tad too loud, too many people, too many
people. Escape down onto the Canada Line, just drive around, just drive. Let the train
take you, go, wherever it takes you, you have a baby blue bus pass, a day on the city
train, why not, why not, why not?
THE TYPEWRITER
The author bangs the keys, she had enough of describing all these different scenes, all
these different persons, she knows, there is no narrative, no protagonist, no antagonist, no
forceful motioning forward, no gripping story, no cliffhanger, none, zip, zilch. Her words
are blah at best, they refuse to make it, refuse, refuse. Her story is a non-story, the
drizzles of paint on a canvas on the ground, in a garage somewhere in the Midwest, she
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will be suffocated by her inability to choose the right words, the ones that will resonate
with a publishing culture that does not want her, she feels like barfing all over the white
keybard in the art school, she feels the force of the tears that wanna spurt out, she looks
up at the thick steam outta the ocean factory. And she types and types and types some
more. Slight incoherent words. Whimpering along, whimpering along.
@ THE LETTERBOX, ON LARCH
The woman in the blue hat is wearing a red hat today, her blue hat is tossed into a corner,
she slides the envelope thru the slit, maybe THEY will publish her poem. She stomps
back home, thru the pouring rain, dreams of fame, of fortune, she weeps slightly, her days
pass her by, time to go down to the coffee shop in yaletown, time to dig into the whipped
cream of the foret noir cake, somewhere in the back, ducking behind the wedding cakes,
while rain pours down, while rain pours down.
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