ACCESS DENIED For Reasons Of National Security ......made public. As presiding judge, the...

ACCESSDENIEDForReasonsofNationalSecurity

byCathyO’BrienwithMarkPhillips

Dedication

ToMarkwithinfiniteloveandeternalgratitudeforsavingmylifeandgivingmecausetoliveit;forvaliantlylightingthepathtofreedombyliving the love you are; and towhom I attribute the realization thatloveisthemostpowerfulforceintheuniverse,peaceandfreedomareofthesoul,justiceisabsoulute,andhopeiswhywe’rehere.

ToKellywhosepositiveattitudeandbrilliantnaturelightsthewayforotherstolikewisetrustinloveandlivepeacefullytrue-to-soul;whosewiseandcompassionatespiritcompoundsthefelonyofbeingforcedto struggle day to daywithout technological rehabilitation; andwhocontinuestobemyinspirationinlightof‘Love’sSpace’thateternallybindsusbigger-than-life.

AndtoInfiniteotherswhosupportrealityinlightoflove…

TABLEofCONTENTS

FOREWORD

CHAPTER1:THEMOSTDANGEROUSGAMECHAPTER2:PROSandCONSCHAPTER3:THEROADTORECOVERYCHAPTER4:FREETOLOVECHAPTER5:SOULUTIONSCHAPTER6:JUST‘CAUSECHAPTER7:WASH.DCCHAPTER8:TWOWAYMIRRORSCHAPTER9:REFLECTIONSCHAPTER10:“GETTOKILLING”CHAPTER11:MENTALHELLthCHAPTER12:POPTOPSandDENTALFLOSSCHAPTER13:FAMILYMATTERSCHAPTER14:IT’SNOTOVER‘TILWEWINCHAPTER15:THEHUNDREDTHMONKEYCHAPTER16:CRIMINAL“JUSTICE”SYSTEMCHAPTER17:GOVERNYOUROWNTHOUGHTSCHAPTER18:COVEROPSCHAPTER19:OCTOPUSCHAPTER20:“SUICIDED”CHAPTER21:FEDERALWARRANTCHAPTER22:NEED-TO-KNOW

CHAPTER23:PANDORA’SBOXCHAPTER24:STEPSEVENCHAPTER25:USMALECHAPTER26:GODSAVEUSFROMRELIGIONCHAPTER27:OUTPOSTofFREEDOMCHAPTER28:WHEREHAVEALLTHECHILDRENGONE?CHAPTER29:SODOMandGOMORRAHCHAPTER30:MARINCOUNTY,CALIFORNIACHAPTER31:BEHINDYOUREYESCHAPTER32:HEALthCHAPTER33:TREASONSOF“NATIONAL”SECURITYCHAPTER34:SEVENTEENLITTLECHILDRENCHAPTER35:THERAPISTSMISTAKESCHAPTER36:THANKSFORTHEFALSEMEMORIESCHAPTER37:TRUTHMAKESU.S.FREECHAPTER38:PULSEOFTHENATIONCHAPTER39:CANYOUTHINKTOCARE?CHAPTER40:EVOLUTIONOVERREVOLUTIONCHAPTER41:VOICEOFTHEPEOPLECHAPTER42:SELECTIONSCHAPTER43:COLLECTIVECONSCIOUSEVOLUTIONCHAPTER44:THETURNINGOFTHETIDECHAPTER45:BACKTOTHEFUTURECHAPTER46:ALERTPEOPLE!CHAPTER47:INLIGHTofINSIGHTCHAPTER48:GLOBALWARNINGEPILOGUE:ASSUMEYOURVICTORY!ABBREVIATIONS

FOREWORD

This true life’s recorded account of extraordinary proportions beganunfolding,likesomekindofhyperOrigami,nearNashvilleTennesseeonacoldwintermorningFebruary8th1988.

Namesofpersonsmentioned in thisbookhavenotbeenchanged toprotect their identities whether they are proven innocent or guilty,heroesorvillains,because thisbookwaswritten foryou toadjudgethefactsandbecomeapartof thesolutionrather thanunwittinglyapartoftheproblem.

Atthismomentyouareafullyentitledjudge,electedbyyourfellowmantoenterthelargestcourtoftheland:theCourtofPublicOpinion.In your court there is no jury selection formanipulation, no secretswithheld,andnoimmorallegalloopholeswrittenandenactedintolawbylawyerstoprotectthoseyoumayadjudgeguiltyascharged.Therearenolawyersbeingpaidobsceneamountsofmoneybytaxpayersto“argue”foreitherside.Thefactsofthiscasearepresentedtoyouherefrom detailed sworn testimony which were strictly derived fromhundredsofhoursofvideoandaudiorecordings,thousandsofpagesofhandwrittendatednotes,courtroomrecords,andsworntestimoniesby the plaintiffs to all applicable national & international lawenforcement agencies, before bothHouses of theUSCongressionalPermanent SelectCommittees on IntelligenceOversight, TheWorldCourt, Interpol and The United Nations Commission on HumanRightsAbuses.

“ACCESS DENIED For Reasons of National Security” is a USfederal legal ruling that affects all Americans and her allies fromadjudicating against criminal politicians.As judge and jury, you areresponsible for discerning the truth from the detailed testimoniesgiven, free of this encumbrance to justice. Youmust also take intoconsideration the past political records of the politicians presentedhere, as well as past and present newsmedia accounts of their liesmadepublic.

Aspresidingjudge,thepunishmentsyouareentitledtoadministertothosefoundguiltyaschargedwillbepublicexposureoftheircrimes.Allwhohavecomebeforeyouandafterinlikeduty,willinglydosoin thehumanebelief thatyou, too,are fair andhonestandwill takeresponsibilityinyoureverydaylifeforseeingthatjusticeisserved.

Whereas,justicefortheplaintiffswillbedonewhenthoseresponsiblefor the alleged crimes committed against them are publicly exposedaround the world and the 1947 US National Security Act and ThePatriot Acts are abolished. The only compensation remedy theplaintiffsseekispublicprosecutionofthoseconvictedinyourcourt.

Wetheplaintiffs,MarkPhillipsandCathyO’Brien,submitintoyourcourtouroriginalpublishedtestimonythatweprovidedonorbefore1995totheaforementionedagenciesandgovernmentalbodiesentitledTRANCEFormationofAmerica.Fortheconvenienceoflikejudgesaround theworld this book is now available in the Turkish, Italian,German,andArabiclanguages.Manymorelicensedpublishersareatthisverymomenttranslatingthisunchallengeddocumentedtestimonyintoadditionallanguagestoreachasmanyotherjudgesaspossibleintheshortestamountoftime.

InconclusionweprayyouwilldothatwhichyoucanandadditionallythatyouwilllendsupporttogovernmentwhistleblowerslikeMark&

Cathywhohavenothingtolooseandeverythingtogivetothefuturegenerationsofhumanity.Supportthembysharingwhatyoulearnherewithasmanypeopleyouknowwhohaveeyestoseeandearstohearthetruth.

Onlytruthwillsetu.s.free.

Chapter1THEMOSTDANGEROUSGAME

“Wake up, sleeping beauty,”Mark said as he gently rousedmewith a cup offreshcoffee.“Welcometoanewday.”

Myeyesopened.“MyGod,didIdie?”Iwondered,sensingtheloveandpeacesurroundingme.

Marksmiled.“Youjustswitchedyourformerexistenceforlife,not‘death’,andit’s timeyoubeganrememberingyourpast,”hesaidashestrappedabeautifulwatch tomywrist. Notingmywonder and surprise, he continued, “Now youknowthatIgaveyouthetimeofday.”

Thetimeofday?Noonehadevergivenmetheir timebefore.Theyonlytookmine.AndIneverworeawatchbefore.Ididnotevenknowwhatmonthoryearitwas,letalonethetimeofday.Ihadnoconceptoftime,whichMarkexplainedI must always monitor from that moment on. A concept of time equated toawareness,andIhadintenseneedtobeawareofmypast.

“Youhavetoknowwhereyou’vebeentoknowwhereyou’regoing.Andyou’regoing to remember everything.”Mark appeared confident, emitting a sense ofsecuritywhileIteeteredontheedgeofadangerouspast.

“Yousaysomeoneistryingtokillyou.Why?”Icouldnotthinktoanswer.Iwastotally amnesic. All I knew was that his life, as well as my eight-year-olddaughter Kelly’s and mine were all on the line. We were in grave danger,literallydodgingbulletswhileIdesperatelysoughttheanswerswhy.

Absolutemindcontrolwas theonlyexistenceKellyand Iknewprior toMarkPhillipsrescuingusdirectlyfromtheCIA/DIA’s1MKUltra2ProjectMonarch3in 1988. Through a series of carefully orchestrated events, Mark cleverlymaneuveredourmindcontrolhandler,AlexHouston, intoapositionof“trust”

that provided him the latitude to lift us free of our existence. In addition tohelping me remove a few of my meager belongings from Houston’s farm inGoodlettsville,Tennessee,MarkarrangedforourlivestockpetstobefreedfromHouston’s horrific abuse aswell. Peoplewho abuse children oftentimes abuseanimals,asthoughtheyhavenoregardforlifeatall.Houstonwasnoexception,andMarkknew it.WhileMark tended to thehorses, cows,guineas, chickens,cats, and dogs, I spun the combination on the safe in the bedroom to retrieveHouston’s familiar CIA diary and ledger. We left the premises momentarilyundetected,andKellyandImovedintoanapartment.

WhenmypoliticallyaffluentownerinMKUltra,USSenatorRobertC.Byrd4,and other so-called leaders of our country involved in theProject realized theproblem Alex Houston’s bumbling had created, our danger intensified. Manygovernment secrets and personal reputations were staked on the belief that Iwould never be free to recall that which I was supposed to forget. They hadneverstoppedtoconsiderthestrengthofthehumanspirit,thepoweroflove,orwhat could happen when a man of integrity like Mark Phillips opened theirPandora’s Box of secrets. Now their paradigm was shifting, and our dangerintensifiedaccordingly.

KellyandIcouldnotsurviveonourown,andsoonmovedintoMark’shouseforprotection.Withindays,thelocalsheriffwhereMarklivedadvisedhimtoleavetown,claimingaSpecialAgentdispatchedfromNashville’sFBIofficesaidtheCIAhadahitoutonhimthat“hadsomethingtodowiththatwoman.”Indeed,traffichadconspicuouslyincreasedontheunmarked,ruraldead-endgravelroadleading toMark’s remotecountryhome.Wenoticedmanyunfamiliar facesontheroad,inthewoods,andeveninthetreeswhowejokinglyreferredtoas“thewatcherswatchingthewatcherswatchingthewatchers.”Then,withoutwarning,all ofMark’s personal identification records disappeared.His life savings hadseeminglyvanishedintothinairfromhispersonalandbusinessbankaccounts.UnnervedbytheseCIAtactics,andmoredeterminedthanevertofindoutwhytheywerehappening,Markimplementeddeliberatestepstoensurethatourliveswerenottaken,too.

He quickly sold everything he owned, including his “back to the future” DeLoreanusedintherescue,retainingonlybasicnecessities.Thefundswouldbeused to take Kelly and me away from his no-longer private residence to thesafety and serenity ofAlaska.Mark understood that safetywas tantamount to

memoryrecovery.Atthesametime,noneofuscouldbesafeuntilIcouldrecallwhoandwhatwewereupagainst,andwhy.

Asweprepared to embarkonour journey to the topof theworld,my former“husband”AlexHoustonattemptedtopreventmefromleaving.FornearlyeightyearsHoustonhadhandledKellyandmemuchthewayhedidhisventriloquist’sdummy.Nowitseemedhewantedhis“merchandise”backatallcosts.

IsworeoutthreearrestwarrantsonAlexHoustonforthreatsandattemptsonourlives with the Nashville, TennesseeMetropolitan Police Department. I soughtfurther protection through Nashville’s District Attorney’s office, where Iexplained to the DA’s Investigator Skip Sigmund that Alex Houston was aventriloquist and stage hypnotist capable of torturous controls. He respondedthat“untilgunshotswerefired”nothingcouldbedonetoprotectme.

MarkacceleratedourpacetoleaveTennesseeforAlaska.

IcouldnotyetthinktotrustMark,thoughIsensedthatIcould.Mycapacityforconscious thought and reason had been stifled through decades of torturousabuse,wherebyIcouldonlydoasIwastold.Markcertainlydidnot“order”metogowithhim.Hedidn’t evenknowme, let alone likeme.Howcouldhe? Ididn’tevenknowwhoIwas,whereI’dbeen,orevenmyownageornameattimes!Withoutthecapacityforfreethought,Ihadnofreewillandultimatelynosoulexpression.IhadnowaytoexpressloveevenifIcouldfeelit.Withnothingtogiveandnothingtolose,Ireliedonlyonmyheightenedsenses.Icouldsensemuchlikeananimalcouldsense,andIhadseenthetrustandaffectionhispetraccoonsandfoxeshadforhim.EventhefarmanimalsthatHoustonhadabusedsohorriblyexhibitedtrustforMark.

KellysensedtrustforMarkaswell.Afterall,hewasthefirstmanwhodidnotabuseusandgenuinelycaredforourwelfareandwell-being.Hispatient,gentlemannerwastherapeutic,whilehispropensityforhandlingweaponsandapparentintellect kept us safe against all odds. His inside knowledge of CIA innerworkingsdue tohisownpastproved invaluable inkeepingusa stepaheadofTheMostDangerousGameandcontinuestodosotothisdate.

February4,1988markedthebeginningoflifeforKellyandme.Italsomarkedthe beginning of a new kind of survival as we embarked on “The Most

DangerousGame”ofinternationalproportion.

Chapter2PROSandCONS

“It’sa long, longwayto the topof theworldfromhere,”Mark toldmeasweloadedupourpetsandafewpersonalbelongingsinasmallrentedtrailerhehadhookedup tohis1976Pacer. “Thatwill giveyouplentyof time to rememberwhereyou’vebeenandwhywehavetoleavehereunderthegunthisway.”

My response was not as profoundly revealing as another MK Ultra victim’swouldbeinlateryearswhenshesaid,“NoonewouldbelievethethingsIcan’tremember.”InsteadIbegan,“IhopeItalkaboutitthewholeway…”

“It’s notwhat you remember that matters, it’s how you remember it.” Markhandedmeseveralnotepadsandapenasheopenedthedoorforme.“Thepenismightierthanthesword.Rememberthat.”Hesettledintothedriver’sseatasthePacerherestoredspranginstantlytolifeatthetouchofaswitch.Wewereonourway.

“HowamIsupposedtorememberwhathappened?”Iwonderedtomyself.IthadbeenmereweekssinceIhadevenfoundoutmyage.WhenMarkreferredtomyageas30,IhadarguedthatIwas24untilheshowedmeonmydriver’slicenseandthe1988dateonnewspapers.WherehadIbeenallthoseyears?Itseemedlike Iknewbut justdidn’twant to thinkabout it.Mark spokeconfidentlyandwithoutemotionasthoughhehadbeenreadingmymind.

“Iknowfromstudyingmindsciencesallmylifethatthebrainphotographicallyrecords events surrounding trauma. You display every indication of havingenduredsignificant trauma.Whetheryouwanted to forget itornot,yourbrainautomatically compartmentalized memory so the rest of your mind couldfunction normally as though nothing had happened. This is the mind’s sanedefense to trauma too horrible to comprehend. It takes brains for this copingmechanism to even occur, which means you are smart enough to remembereverything.Youalreadysurviveditonce.NowI’mgoingtoteachyouasimple

methodofmakingtheincomprehensiblecomprehensible.”

IinterruptedMarktoanxiouslyinject,“IknowIalreadytoldyouaboutWayneCox. I’ll probably never see Kelly again.” My eyes widened even further inhorror.

“No,youdidn’ttellme.”MarkappearedcalmtomedespitehisincreasingalarmforKelly’simmediateplight.

Twoweeksprevious,wehadstoppedbythePostOfficetoclearoutthemailinpreparation for this move. A summons for me to appear in court later thatafternoonwasinhisbox.Withnotimetoprepareorobtainanattorney,andthethreatofbeing incarcerated for takingKellyoutof theStateofTennessee,wedrove straight to the courthouse.Kelly’s biological fatherWayneCox andourformer mind control handler Alex Houston were among those opposing ourexodus.Representingmyself,IexplainedtoJudgeSwiggartthatIhadswornoutthreewarrantsforAlexHouston’sarrestandwassufferingfromamnesia.Sincethis did not openly reveal anything about Wayne Cox, Judge Swiggartthoughtfullyconsideredthesituation.

“Theseareunusualcircumstances,”hebeganashegrantedmetherighttomoveKellytoAlaska.Hefurtherexplainedthathismainconcernwasforthechildren,andthereforewouldliketospeakwithKellyinhischambersregardingvisitationwithWayneCox prior to our departure. Horrified beyond reason, I could notthinkwhyIsoadamantlyopposedthepossibilityofKellyvisitingWayneCox.Judge Swiggart later explained to me that, had he known about dissociativedisordersandoccultism,hewouldnothavetakenKellyintohischamberstoaskherhowshefeltaboutseeingCoxbeforemovingtoAlaska.Kelly,alsosufferingfrom amnesia, responded only to the moment. Judge Swiggart’s black robesubconsciously triggered theoccultism towhichCoxhadpreviously subjectedher, and Kelly robotically complied with every suggestion Judge Swiggartpresented. Believing Kelly had willfully complied, Judge Swiggart ruled thatKellywastovisitCoxinhisLouisianaresidenceeffectiveimmediately.

Myhysteriarising,IblurtedouttoMarkashedroveusoutofNashville,“He’sgoingtokillherinaritual.Healwayskillspeople.”

“Writeitout,”Markinstructed.“Idon’twanttohearaboutit.Iwanttoreadit

whereIcanunderstandit.Itmayfeelasthoughyouhavealreadytoldmeaboutthis,butyouhaven’t.Norwillyou.Verbalizingeventsofthepastonlyreinforcesitinyourownmindandcanfurthertraumatizeyou.Ittakesthelogicportionofthe brain tomove a pen.Therefore,when youwrite outmemory, it shifts theemotionallyincomprehensibleovertologic,makingitcomprehensible.Onceitis comprehensible, you can deal with the reality of your past in a logicalmanner.”

Iponderedhisstatement.“Itdoesn’tseemlogicalthatwhenIseemypast,it’sasthoughIwereviewing it fromabove. It isas ifmyspirit tookflight toasafe,lovingspacewhilemybodywasbeingusedandabused.”

“Severetortureandtraumadoesaffectpeoplethisway.Simplyshiftthisnaturalperspectivetoa‘mind’sscreen/moviescreen.’Thiswillallowyoutorememberwithoutabreaction.”MarknoticedthatIdidn’tunderstandtheword‘abreaction.’Heknewthatphotographicallyre-experiencingtactilesensationscouldresultinahistaminereaction1.“Inotherwords,”heexplained,“withoutrelivingit.LikeIsaid,youalreadysurviveditonce.There’snosenseinyourelivingit.It’syourmemory,andyoualreadyknowit.Viewyourmind’sscreenthroughtheeyesofthepartofyouthatenduredit.Smellthesmells.Thenwriteitout.That’swhyIsaid‘thepenismightierthanthesword.’Thismethodwillgiveyoucontroloveryourmemory and, ultimately, your ownmind.Now,write outwhat youweregoingtotellmeaboutCox.”

Iwrote a brief line thatCoxwas an occult serial killer.Mark glanced over atwhatIhadwrittenashemergedontothefreeway.Suppressinghisownhorror,henonchalantlyasked,“Howdoyouknowthis?”

“Isaw…”Markinterruptedme,remindingmetowriteitout.

I wrote most of the way to Las Vegas, where Mark met with a few oldacquaintances to discuss our predicament. They didn’twant to discuss it. TheCIA’s merging with the Mafia had created such havoc they had their ownpolitical problems to dealwith. “Thewholeworld is changing right now.Youshouldchange,too.Leavethatwoman.Now.Saveyourself.”

Markhadnotexpectedthisresponseandhefrowned.“Savemyselffromwhat?”hewonderedtohimself.Heknewitwasuptohimtosafelynavigateourwayto

the futureagainstallodds.He lookedathisassociatesandsaid,“LasVegas isstilltheplaceforquickmarriages.I’mgettingmarried.”Heknewhecouldsavehimselfalotoflegalgriefbytakingsuchastep.Markstoodupandstrodeforthedoor.

“You’restillthesame,Flash”oneoftheguysgrowledasMarkclosedthedoorbehindhim.

ThateveningwhenMarkreturnedtoourhotelroom,heofferedtotakemeouttodinner.Iswitchedpersonas,forgotwhatIwaswriting,andwithrenewedenergycheerfully dressed for dinner.Dressed in hisLasVegas evening attire,Mark’sappearance triggered my sexuality that had been heightened through incest,conditioning, and mind control programming. Naturally, I expressed myimmensedesire.

“You need to know who you are before you have something to give in arelationship. What you’re offering is a small piece of who you really are.”Mark’sobviousarousaldidnot seem tomatchhiswords,yethecontinued, “Idon’twantyouapieceatatime,Iwantallofyouatonce.”

Wow. Thatwas themost deeply appealing thing anyone had ever said tome.WhileIcouldnotconsciouslygraspthedepthofmeaningtohisstatement,myheart rejoicedwith themagnitude of his insight. Coincidentally, Julio Iglesiashappened to be singing All of You (Body and Soul)2 over the radio at thatmoment, the musical harmonics carrying the lyrics deep into my being,profoundlytouchingme.Somewhereinside,lovewasbindingtogetherpiecesofmeIwasn’tevenawareofyet.

It was hard to eat dinner that evening, and it wasn’t due to my developeddigestivedisorders.Aftereating,asprogrammed,only300caloriesperdayforeightyears,combinedwithdirecthighvoltage tomylower intestine/rectumastorture, total digestive failure had been diagnosed. My abusers believed thedoctor’sdiagnosisthatIwoulddie,whichaidedourinitialsurvival.TheyneverconsideredthatIwouldsurvivethroughthehealingpoweroflove,orthatMarkwould literally carryme through our first fewmonths together. Tonight, foodwasthelastthingonmymindandIcouldonlyeatlightlywhilegazingacrossthetableatthemagnificentmanontheotherside.

As our dinner settled,Mark explained the pros and cons of gettingmarried. Ilogicallyagreeditwasawisemove,whilemyheartleaptwithjoythatknewnobounds.Weproceededaccordingly,andweremarriedinaconventionalweddingceremony--unitedinpurposethatseemedbiggerthanlife.

Kelly’s life was still on the line, and tomorrowwe could legally retrieve herfromCox.Backattheroom,MarkshiftedmyfocusfrommysexualdesirestothenotesIhadscrawledearlier.PointingoutanoccultritualIhaddetailed,heavoided comment and asked, ”How did you get there? Where did you goafterwards?”

“Idon’tknow…”IforgotIwasn’tsupposedtoverbalizeanything.

“Ofcourseyoudo. It’syourmemory.”Markhandedmemypenandnotepad.“Writeitout.”

“HowcanIwhenthere’sjustablackholeoneithersideofit?”Thememorystillseemedcompartmentalized.

Mark tookmy notepad and drew an illustration forme of a pie graph.As hedrew the circle he said, “Imagine this is your brain. It compartmentalized thisritual event, for example.” He drew the first section into the pie graph, andpointed out all the rest of the area thatwas left to function “normally”whileignoringtheeventcompartmentalizedinthewedge.Hesectionedoffmoreandmore wedges, describing how my brain was comprised of as manycompartmentsastherehadbeentraumaticexperiencesinmylife.

“Where’sthenormalpart?”Iasked,lookingatallthepiewedges.

“That’swhereyou’reatrightnow.Righthere.”Hepointedtotheverycenterofthegraphwhereallthepiecesmet.“Youjustwentintoacompartmentandwroteoutthememory.Writingitoutcausedthewalltocomedown.Theemotionallyincomprehensible became comprehensible with logic, so you don’t need thatwallanymore.Nowthatit’soutoftheway,thatsectionofyourbrainisyourstocontrol, direct, access, and explore. To connect events and learn how you gotthere and where you went afterwards, all you need to do is go deeper insideyourself.Deeperintohere,”hesaidashepointedatthecenterofthepiegraph.“Deeper into your own subconscious. Relax. Breathe deep. And ask yourself

thesequestions.Howdidyougetthere?Wheredidyougoafterwards?”

ItookadeepbreathandthetrancestateIlivedindeepenedtoafocus.Aneventflashed acrossmymind screen so fast I couldn’t grasp it. I took another deepbreath, refocused, and made a note when it flashed again. Drugs. Cocaine.Mercenaries. What did it mean? Why was Cox there? The flash became amemory,whichIretrievedinphotographicrecall.Itfeltsoclose,so“normal.”IknewImusthavesaidsomethingtoMarkabout thisbefore. It’snot likeIhadforgottenit…orhadI?

Exhausted,Iputdownmypenandbegantofallasleep.Iwassotired,yetkeptjerkingawakeasmybodyrespondedtonightmares.Markquietlycameovertomybedandheldmeclose.“You’resafenow,”heassuredme.“Thatwasthen,this is now, and now you are safe. I’ve got you. It’s OK. You can sleeppeacefullynow.”Hecradledmyheadashewoulddoforyears tocomein themostcomforting,loving,healingmanner.IsleptbetterthanIeverhadbefore.

WhenIawoke,Ifeltstrong,alert,andwellrested.Iwouldneedthisstrengthfortheevents tocome.Excited thatKelly’scourtorderedvisitationwithCoxwasover,Itelephonedtotellherwewereonourwaytopickherup.Cox’smotherand handler,Mary, answered the phone and informedmeKellywould not becomingwithus.Waynepickedup theother lineand toldme I couldnothaveKellyback, thatshedidn’twant toseemeagain.Iknewhewaslying.IheardKellycryinthebackgroundandtoldhimIwasonmyway.

First, I telephoned JudgeSwiggart athishome.Hehad thoughtfullygivenmehishomephonenumber“justincaseIneededtoreachhimovertheChristmasholidays.”

“Louisiana is not my jurisdiction,” he began. “But since Kelly’s father is innoncompliancewithTennesseecourtorders, I canget the localpolice there totakecareofthesituation.”

I had remembered how Cox’s involvement with CIA cocaine operationsextended far beyond the local police all theway to then Louisiana Senator J.BennetJohnston.Briefly,Iexplained.“ItgoesFederalfromthere,crossingStatelinesintoArkansasGovernor3BillClinton’sMena4Airportcocaineoperations.”

ApparentlyJudgeSwiggarthadfoundcausetofurtherresearchourcaseafterhisruling,andheapologeticallyexplainedthatifhehadknownthenwhatheknowsnow,KellywouldnotevenbewithCox.SinceshewasanditwasChristmas,herecommendedthatMarktakemattersintohisownhandswhilehepulledeverystringhecouldtosupplylegitimatepolicebackup.

As we quickly drove to the designated meeting place near Cox’s Chatham,Louisianabackwoodsresidence,MarkassuredmethatCoxwouldshowupwithKellyoncehewas told “what”hewasdealingwith.Still, I becamehystericaltellingMarkwhythissituationwassodangerousandurgent.“Didyouwritethisout?”Mark’squestionroseovermysobs.Ofcoursenot.Icouldn’tseemtowriteeverythingasfastastheinformationwasneeded,soIverbalized.ThisprovedtobeevenmoretimeconsumingthanwritingsinceIwasimmobilizedbymyownhysterics anddisjointed ranting.Mark stopped the car,whichgotmyattentionlong enough to heed his demand that I write out what I was trying to say. Istartedwritingagain,andmytearssubsidedasmymindreturnedfromthebrinkofemotionalrawterrorandbecamerationallylogicalagain.

Iwroteuntilwearrived.Acutelyawareofthelife-threateningcircumstanceswewere under, Mark cleverly applied his mental and physical skills to ensureKelly’s safety above all else. He quickly selected a 45 automatic from hisregistered personal arsenal that he was licensed to carry. Rising above thedramaticsofthemomentandappearingcalm,MarkgotoutofthecarandstrodeovertowhereheknewCoxwouldbe.Smiling,hepointedhisleftindexfingerattheguninhisrighthandwhileCox’sforeheadbrokeoutinasweat.IgatheredKellyandherbag.MarywasdumbfoundedasIhurriedKellyintothecar.Policecars squealed to a stop while the promised backup officers took shootingpositions.Likeinamovie,theirtimingprohibitedCoxfromfurtherpursuitandassaultwhileMarkwithdrewhisweapon, jumpedback in the car andquicklydroveusoutofthearea.

IturnedtoKelly,whosatunblinkinginthebackseat.Physicallyshewasintact.Itwasobviousthatshewasunderextremementalduressandtrauma,theextentofwhichwewouldsoonlearn.

Chapter3THEROADTORECOVERY

Itwas60degreesbelowzerowhenMark,Kelly,andIarrivedinAlaskawithourred chow dog Tong, and raccoons Tycoon, Marty, and Rocky. The trim andemblemshadlongsincefrozenandfallenoffthePacer.YetIbarelynoticedthecold,asItookinthebeauty,safety,andsplendorofAlaska.Thiswinterparadiseon top of the world enthralled me with its abstract magnificence. The sunrevolved in circles rather than rose and set, casting shadows that danced andplayedalongthemountains,constantlychangingthescene.Thehorizonhadnovisible east or west, distorting distance where time knew no night or day.Northern lights of theAuroraBorealis lit up the darkwinter skies,with theirbrillianthuesreflectingacrossthesnowlikedaylight.Ifeltdeeplyfortunateandblessedjusttobealive,letalonelivinginAlaska!

On the long journey toAlaskaafter retrievingKelly fromCox inLouisiana, InoticedMarkwasunusuallyquietanddeepinthought.Hefinallyexplainedthathewasre-evaluatingvalues,re-prioritizingpriorities,andrethinkingprofessionalfriendshipshehaddevelopedover theyears.Whenheneededhisfriends, theywere only there long enough to advise him to abandonme and his quest foranswers.More determined than ever,Mark chose to learn the truth and keepKellyandmealive.SohedroveoninsilencewhileKellyloudlyandirrationallydisplayed her traumatized state by crying, yelling, babbling, and laughinghysterically. I responded to her in kind. SurelyMark sensed a higher purposethantherescueoftwoPTSDed1dissociativeswhohadbeentraumatizedliterallyoutoftheirminds.

Kelly’sconditioncontinuedtoworsen,despitefeelingloveandsecurityforthefirsttimeinherlife.TheextremetraumasheenduredwhilewithCoxapparentlyextended intohypnoticmindcontrolprogramming,whichshe later reported indetail to the psychiatrist assigned to her case. As quickly as Kelly retrievedmemory, she went into espionage level deliberately programmed respiratoryfailure2.WhenMarkandIrushedhertoHumana

Hospital in Anchorage, Kelly did not respond to conventional medicalintervention.Hospitalpersonnelwhonotedhertraumatizedstatecalledintheirleadingpsychiatrist,Dr.PatPatrick.Dr.PatwasthefirsttodiagnoseKellywithD.I.D.(dissociativeidentitydisorder),whichbackthen,wasstillbeingreferredto as MPD (multiple personality disorder3) “with active mind controlprogramming”.KellywasstillintheIntensiveCareUnitwhenItelephonedmyfather,EarlO’Brien,pleadingforhelp.

“Kelly isdyingand Idon’thave themoney toputgas in thecar toget to thehospital.Pleasehelp.”Iknewmyfatherwaswellofffinancially,andassumedhewouldhelp.IwasstillamnesicofhisincestandtheperverseeventsthatledtohissellingmeintotheCIA’sMKUltramindcontrol.

“Nomoremoney!”my father shouted,much tomy astonishment at the time.“ThisisAmerica!”

“ThisisAmerica?”Iwonderedathisoutburst.Whatdid“America”havetodowith his cold-hearted refusal to financially enable me to be with my dyingdaughter?!

Ibegantoshakeuncontrollablyasmyheartbreakanddesperationturnedtosheerterror.

“You’renotgoingtocaveintofearnow,”Markfirmlytoldme.“Truthnaturallyfreesyoufromfear.Thinkaboutit.Focusonwhatyouknowratherthanjumptoemotionallydrivenconclusions.WriteitoutandI’llreaditwhenwegethome.”Markopened thedoor and steppedout into thebriskAlaskan air.Hehad justtakenaninterimjobasMarketingDirectorofAlaskaBusinessCollegeinorderto meet our rent and keep the lights and heat on. The funds generated fromquicklyliquidatinghispersonalassetsbackinTennesseehaddwindled,andwespent the last American Express Traveler’s check on a small, unfurnishedfourplex in Eagle River. He wasn’t counting on assistance from anyone,especiallynotmyfather,andreluctantlyleftmealonewithmypast.

Ilockedthedoorandputmypentopaper.“ThisisAmerica?”Theanswerswereslow to surface, as theydrudgedupyears of relatedmemory that appeared asonelongnightmare.BythetimeMarkreturnedthatevening,Ihadslipsofpaperscatteredeverywherewithbitsandpiecesofmemoryscrawledacrosstheminas

many different handwritings. “I’ve remembered so much, yet nothing makessense.Ican’ttelloneyearfromthenext.”Ishowedhimthescrapsofpaperandcried, “Howcan I figureoutwhen thingshappenedwhen Ihadnoconceptoftime?”

“Simple,” Mark replied. “You have to know what questions to ask yourself.Expandyourvisionbeyondthemoment.Whatistheseason?Isitsnowing?Canyoufeelthewarmthofthesummersun?Doyousmellthespringflowers?Areyouinschool?Whoisyourteacher?Whatareyouwearing?Whendidyouowntheseclothes?Areanyofyourbrothersandsistersborn?HowoldisKelly?Takealookaroundthroughthepartofyouitwashappeningtoandseethroughthoseeyes.Dopeople seem really tall to you like they didwhenyouwere a child?Whatiseyeleveltoyou?Theirknees?Theireyes?Simplypinpointthetimeasaccuratelyasyoucanandleavetheresttoinvestigators.I’vealreadygotsomeoldcontactsofminelookingintothingsforus,andItalkedwiththeFedsagaintoday.”

Mark’s rational answers served to refocusme.My frantic desperation calmed,andwediscussedour plans for thenext day,whichwould include time at thehospitalwithKelly.“Ialsoneedtogotothelibrary,”Markinformedme.Rarebooks on deprogramming and recovery from dissociative disorders weresuddenlybeingmadeavailabletohim.Certainpageswerebookmarkedforhimwith coded instructional notes and unidentified one time use toll free phonenumbers. “You can look through some of the old magazines and newspapersthey’ve accumulated as give-aways,” he continued. “You will want to startclipping pictures, phrases, headlines – anything that catches your attention.Whenyouhaveaboxfulloftheseclippings,youcanmakeacollageofthem.Itwill be like putting together these pieces of your mind.” He scooped up ahandfulof thescrapsofpaperIhadmadenoteson.“Dr.Patrickusedthetermpolyfragmented todescribe thesedustpiecesyou’regathering.Sheagrees thatmysuggestionofmakingacollagewouldbeveryhealingforyou.”

Suddenlymyscrapsofmemorylookedvaluableafterall.Fromthatpointon,Iwrote down everymemory flash I hadwhether it seemed significant or not. Ikept apenandpaperwithmeat all times.Memorieswere flashingacrossmymind’sscreenoften,even to thepointofdominatingmyfocusat inconvenienttimes.Jottingdownawordorphraseservedtostoptheinconvenientintrusions,allowingmetocompleteotherbusinessIwastendingatthemoment.Itwasas

thoughmybrainknewIwouldwriteitoutinitsentiretylater,andtheintrusiveflashing would momentarily subside. Later, when I had time to focus on itproperly,Iwouldrelaxintoadeeperstate,askmyselfquestions thewayMarktaught me, smell the smells, and write out that which was waiting to bephotographicallyretrieved.

“Keep inmind,”Markadvisedme,“that ifamemoryseems too impossible tohave actually happened, then examine it closely to see if it is something youweretoldorisfromamovie.Deprogramtheprogramfirst.Findthebeginningandend,whathappenedbeforeandafter.Set thewrittenout scrapofmemoryaside for threeweeks. Truth doesn’t go away. Filling in the blankswithwhatmight have happenedwill.” Somememory scrapswere temporarily set aside,alongwiththeclippingsIwouldaccumulateformycollage.

UponDr. Pat’s advise,HumanaMedicalHospital transferredKelly toCharterNorthPsychiatricHospital.AlthoughthestaffadmittedlydidnotknowhowtotreatKelly’scondition, theyweresympathetictoherneed.Theyagreedtojoinus in our quest to obtain qualified rehabilitation for Kelly. Mark’s insideknowledge of espionage level deprogrammingwas not appropriate forKelly’sneeds. Besides, she had been subjected to sophisticated NASA/DARPA4

developed harmonic mind control technologies since birth, which was vastlydifferent from the traumabasedmindcontrol fromwhich Iwas recovering. Inessencethekeythatlockedthedoorstohermindneededtobeusedtounlockit.AndCharterNorth5,despitebeingamongthemostprogressivechainofmentalinstitutions in the nation, did not have access to classified technology andinformation.

SeeingKellywas a joyful andpainful experience at the same time.She and Iwere very close, bonded more than the average mother and daughter by thetraumaswehadenduredtogetherforsomanyyears.IhadnevercontributedtoKelly’sabuseandsheknewit,despiteheramnesicmentalblocksandextremePTSD6.Wesharedanunderstandingbeyondwords,andcommunicatedonlevelsexperiencedbysoldiersonthefrontlinesofabattlezone.

IwasgladtoseeKellybreathingeasierunderDr.Pat’scare.“I’mgoingtoseeadoctorwhoknowsaboutsexualabuse,”Kellyproudlyannounced.“Thepoliceneedthepaperwork.”

Mark and I had begun turning pertinent information over as requested toAnchoragePoliceDetectiveJackChapman7 inaneffort toenlistprotectionforKelly fromWayneCox andAlexHouston.Apparently thismedical documentwas required. Iwentwithheras shecompliedwith thegynecologicalexamattheageofeight.Dr.Lillibridgeexaminedandphotographedwhathetermed“thephysicalscarsfromyearsofextreme,horrendoussexualabuse.”Cover-upwasalreadyunderway,eventhoughwehadjustembarkedonwhatwouldbeyearsinpursuitofjusticeandrehabilitationforKelly.Dr.LillibridgeinformedMarkandmethathismedicallicenseandlifehadbeenthreatenedifheconfirmedKelly’sabuse. “This is an outrage!What this child has endured is so extreme I willtraveltoanycourtinthiscountrytotestifyonherbehalf,”hepromised.

Kelly,pleasedwithherselfforcooperatingwiththeexam,hadnoclueastowhatwasgoingon.Inspiteofherdeepinsightandwisdomexceedingheryears,shewasstillachildwhodidnotneedtoknowhowelusivejusticewasbecoming.

BythetimeMarkandIarrivedatthelibrary,memorieswerefloodingmymindandIwasmakingnotesasfastasIcould.IstoppedlongenoughtorequesttheoutdatednewspapersandmagazinessoIcouldbeginmycollage,piledtheminthe Pacer out front, then sat down at a desk to write whileMark tended hislibrarybusiness.

Irememberedhowmyfather’ssexualabuseseemedso“natural.”Ididn’tknowanybetter,andpedophiliawassorampant8inMuskegon9,MichiganwhenIwasgrowing up, my neighborhood friends didn’t know any better either. EventhoughIhadlongedforsomeplaceontheplanetwherepeopledidn’thurteachother, the pursuit of pleasure by acting out sexuallywas theway of life backthen.

Soonmyfather’ssexualabuseextendedintochildpornography.BonnieandtheBoxerwas thepornographicbestiality filmmadeofme thatwouldchangemylife forever. Looking through the eyes of the child I was when those eventsoccurred,IrecalledhowmyUncleSam’sboxerdog,Buster,wassomuchbiggerthanme!Myfatherhadfilmedtheevent,andapparentlysolditthroughthelocalMichigan Mafia child pornography ring. As I recalled, my maternalgrandfather’sMasonicLodgewasinstrumentalinbringingbusinessmen,police,andpoliticiansintoourlives.Sowhenalocalpoliticiancametoourhousewith

acopyofthepornfilmunderhisarm,itseemedas“natural”tomeassex!

Ikeptmyhead“upmypast”fordays,writingoneveryscrapofpaperIcouldfind.Still,itwouldbesometimebeforeIwouldunderstandthefullimportanceandscopeofthatevent.ThememoriesIwroteoutinphotographicdetailturnedout to be just a small piece of the elaborate puzzle that revealed some of themissingyearsofmylife.ItwouldbeyearsbeforeIlearnedhowthatlocalchildpornography ring came to be sanctioned by politicians involved inMKUltramindcontrol10.ProjectPaperclip11hadimportedNaziandFascistscientistsintothe US, gleaning Hitler/Himler research on multigenerational incest basedfamilies12. Itwas learned that incest resulted indissociativedisorders ideal forroboticmindcontrol.Suchcandidatescouldbeusedinespionage,themilitary,or anywhere government officials wanted secrecy and control. Brainwashingwasbeingrefined,andcertainpoliticianssuchastheonewhocametoourhousewith the Bonnie and the Boxer film under his arm, were sanctioning childpornography rings inorder to targetchildren likemyself forgovernmentmindcontrolprojects.

“Spiesaremade,notborn,”myfatheroftenquipped.Hewasproudtobepartofwhathedeemedanimportantgovernmentproject.This localpolitician,GeraldFord, would later become the un-elected Vice President and eventually un-electedPresidentoftheUnitedStates13.Backintheearly1960’s,though,Fordwasjustasimplepoliticianwhowassliminghiswaytothetop.Hepromisedmyfather immunity fromprosecution if hewould agree to seeme intoMKUltramindcontrol.Irememberhowthetwohadlaughedlikeoldfriends,tellingtalesaboutmyUncleBobTanis.

UncleBobwasAirForceIntelligence,aprofessedJesuit,andfriendswithbothFordandanotherlocalpolitician,GuyVanderJagt.VanderJagtwentontoheadtheRepublicanNationalCommittee14while serving as aUSCongressman. Inretrospect, it is bizarre how my father, who had a sixth grade education andearned his living as a worm digger, became associated with the likes ofVanderJagtandFordthroughillicitpornfeaturingme!Yetithadallseemedsouneventful,simple,and“normal”tomebackthen.

WritingoutmymemoriesthewayMarktaughtallowedmetoretrievethemtheway they happened, free of dramatics. I would deepen my trance through

relaxation,watcheventsas theyoccurred inphotographicdetailonmymind’sscreen, smell the smells, and know the physical sensations without re-feelingthem. Emotions were non-existent in the dissociative state in which I hadexisted,soapplyingemotiontoeventswhenrecoveringmemorywasunrealistic.Mark wisely taught me to avoid the question often asked by therapists “howdoesthatmakeyoufeel?”Rememberingthedetails,asdisgustingastheywerenow, helped me understand why my father ignored my pleas for help andshouted, “This is America!” I really didn’t have time to wallow in self-pity,though, when Kelly’s dire and desperate circumstances demanded all of myenergy.

Chapter4FREETOLOVE

Inourdeterminedeffort tohelpKelly,Markand Iworkeddiligently to stayastepaheadofthelawenforcementcover-upthatwasunderway.Oftentimeswewouldoptforspendingwhatlittlecashwehadonpostagestampsratherthanonfood,asinformationdisseminationwasmorecrucialtooursurvivalatthetime.Wehadwrittenhundredsof letters to local, state,and federal lawenforcementagencies,mentalhealthprofessionals,andtovariouscitizen’sorganizationsthatwerespringingupallacrosstheUnitedStates.Kelly’scasewasn’ttheonlyoneofitskind,althoughthe“free”pressandthecourtswereignoringthewidespreadproliferationofincest,ritualabuse,andmindcontrol.Responsespouredinfromeverywhere,includingfromaPriest1concernedaboutabuseswithintheCatholicChurch. Systematic mind control of dissociative victims by pedophile priestswas already rampant by 1989. Mental health therapy for the wide range ofvictimsofincest,childabuse,kidnapping,cults,satanism,dissociativedisorders,andmindcontrolwasallbutnon-existentbackthen.TherapistswerecontactingMarkandmeforguidance.

Information on dissociative disorders, trauma, and mind control had beendeliberately suppressed from the American psychiatric and psychologicalassociations for so-called “reasons of national security.” The founder of theAPA,Dr.EwenCameron,hadbeencaughtusingCIAmindcontrolmethodsatthe Allen Memorial Institute in Montreal, Canada. The CIA was forced tocompensate the victims, yet it took years2. In the meantime, educationalinstitutionsformentalhealthprofessionalslackedthefactsnecessaryfortreatingthevastnumberofvictims/survivorswhowerefillingtheirofficesinsearchofhelpandunderstanding.

Finally, through concerned Alaska State officials, I was able to make contactwith Tennessee Violent Crimes Claims Commissioner Richard Rucker.Commissioner Rucker was able to verify many of the facts, documents, andrecordssubmittedtohim,andwasworkingaboveandbeyondthecallofdutyto

obtainqualifiedrehabilitationforKelly.Sincehewasclosetoreachinghisgoal,heproceededtosubmitarequestforreleaseofemergencyfundsforKellyandmesowecouldcompletehertransfer.Hefiledhercasewiththecommission’snationalheadquartersinWashington,DCattheFBIbuilding.

Bythesummerof1989,MarkandIturnedoverourdoctor’sreports,detailsoffederalcrimes,evidences,andproofoftheongoingcover-upofKelly’scasetoAnchorage’sFBIResidentAgentinChargeJoeHamblinandSpecialAgentKenMarischen3.

“We’vebeenlookingforyou,”Marischensaid.

“I know,” Mark quickly replied. “You’ve been following the trail of myAmericanExpressTraveler’sChecks.”

Marischenwasastounded.“Howdidyouknow?”hedemanded.

“Ididn’t,”Marksmiled.“Youjusttoldme.Whyareyoulookingforme?”

“Your ex-wife is among the FBI’s most wanted criminals4,” Marischencontinued.“Weneedyoutoconfirmhercredibility.”

“Ofcoursesheisnotcredible,”Markanswered.“WhydoyouthinkIdivorcedher?”

“Well,she’sinvolvedinahomicidealongwiththeattorneysheisworkingfor.”Marischeninformedhim.“Ifyouwillsayfortherecordthatsheiscredible,wewillinvestigatethiscaseyouarepresentingtous.”

“Wait a minute.” Mark smiled through his rage. “I’m here to report federalcrimes,andallyouwanttotalkaboutismyex-wife.Ihaven’tseenherinnearlyayear.Iamnotgoingtolieforyouandtellyousheiscredible.I’mcountingonyou tobehonestand investigate thesecrimesandproofs, andyou’re trying toentrapme.Thisisimmoraland…”

JoeHamblinreachedacross thetableandtookthepacketof informationMarkhadbrought them.Hamblinvowed to investigate it, andquicklyshowedMark

thedoor.

Kelly’surgentandprecarioussituationcausedustoreturntotheFBIafewdayslater,onlytobetoldbytheFBI’sreceptionistthatbothHamblinandMarischenhadbeencalledtoWashington,DC.

Acting on a tip from someone he trusted, Mark was patiently waiting inHamblin’s “secure” office when he returned. Hamblin took the voluminouspacketofdocumentsandinformationwehadprovidedhimoutofhisbriefcase.“NothinghappenedinAlaska.Yet,”Hamblinwarned.“Leavebeforeitdoes.”

“We told you we need your help, and ‘nothing’ has happened,”Mark began.“NowIcan’tevenaffordtoleave.Ihavenothinglefttolosebutmylife,andaslongasI’maliveIwilldoallIcantolegallyinciteanhonestinvestigationintothesecrimes.”

KenMarischenpokedhishead in theoffice toofferMark just enoughmoney($500)toleavethestate,complimentsofhisMormon5church.

Mark and I had also turned the same documentation over to US CustomsNorthwestDivisionManagerMaxKitchens.Muchof the detailed informationwesubmittedregardingCIAcocaineoperationshadalreadycheckedout.“YouarethefirstpersonIknowoftoactuallysurviveandpiecetogetherthefactssocomprehensively,”Maxtoldme.Andhewasinapositiontoknowalot6.Maxwasnotonlycompassionateandrespectful,hewasdedicatedtobringingaboutjustice“regardlessofwhoisinvolved.”

“No one is above the law,” he stated. He, too, was suddenly flown toWashington,DC.

Uponhisreturn,MaxdroveouttoourEagleRiverresidence.Hewaswide-eyedandbreathlesswhenhearrived, lookingbehindhimsuspiciously,andasked tocomein.“Iknowthecrimesyouarereportingaretrue,”hebegan.“AndIcan’tevenprotectyou. It tookmeover twohours todrivehere7, takingback roads,andusingeverytrickIknowtoshakeatail.Youwon’tsurvivehere.There’sahighlevelhitoutonyounow,andIbegofyoutoplease leavewhileyoustillcan.”Maxbidus“goodluck,”huggedus,andleft.

As he backed out of our driveway, the telephone rang. It was Charter Northnotifying us that Kelly was in danger andwould be transferred to an interimplacement via the Tennessee Claims Commission. Charter had been informedthatWayneCoxwasonhiswaytoAlaskatokillherandanyonewhostoodinhisway.Kellywasflyingoutwithanurseimmediately.Therewasn’teventimeformetoseeherfirst.Iwasdevastated.

ItelephonedCommissionerRucker,whowasdistraughtovertheprecariousturnofevents.He toldme,“NationalSecurityhasbeenslappedon thiscaseoutofDC.ThereislittlemoreIcando.I’mtoldSenatorByrdisbehindit.”

SenatorByrd?OfcourseIknewhehadanofficeintheFBIHooverBuilding.Ihadbeenthere.

Mymemoryhadbeentriggered.IwaswritingitoutasfastasIcould,pausingbrieflytowipeawaytearsoffrustrationthatIhadn’trememberedsoonenoughto have avoided this pitfall. My heart wrenching concerns for Kelly wereoverwhelming.Takingactionratherthantakingtimetocry,MarkandIbegantopackourbelongingsandmakearrangementstoleaveAlaskawherewecouldbeclosertoKelly.Ikeptwriting.

AfterbeingsoldintoMKUltramindcontrolbymyfather,hewasimmediatelyflowntoBoston,Massachusettswherehesaidhewasgiven instructionsat thenearby Scientific Engineering Institute8 on how to raise me in the Project.Perhaps itwasmyUncleBob’s Jesuit affiliation, or perhaps itwasdue to theCIAcombiningNazimindscienceswithwhattheCatholicslearnedthroughtheSpanishInquisitionandCrusadesregardingtheeffectsoftraumaonthehumanmind,thatsentmyfathertoBoston.Regardless,whenhereturned,myMKUltramind control victimization commenced, beginningwithmind shatteringoccultritualsinmyhometownSt.FrancisdeSalesCatholicchurch.

My father had also been instructed to take me to the Governor’s mansion inMackinacIsland,Michigan.GovernorGeorgeRomney9wasactivelyinvolvedinMKUltra, extending it from theCatholic church tohisMormonchurch10 andbringing it into the school systems as what would later become globaleducation11.BecauseIwasa“primecandidate”ora“chosenone”forMKUltra,Ihadcause tobe thereaswell. ItwasonMackinac Island that I firstmetUS

Senator Robert C. Byrd, whowould becomemy owner inMKUltra. Asmy“owner,” Senator Byrd directed my activities, deciding which military andNASA installations Iwouldbe taken to formindcontrol programming,who Iwouldbeprostituted to andwhen , andwhichgovernmentoperations IwouldultimatelybeusedinduringtheReagan/BushAdministration.

The pieces of my mind were fusing into a full picture, just as the scraps ofheadlines and pictures I had clipped were assembled into a collage theme.Everythingstartedtomakesense.Yetitwasonlythebeginning.

MarkquithisbriefjobatAlaskaBusinessCollegetobewithme24hoursaday7 days a week for security purposes. “Making a living” was secondary to“living,”andMarkchosetostepawayfromsociety’sfinancialratraceinfavorof staying a step ahead of the game of exposing the highest level of criminalcorruption.Hehadalready losthispersonal fortune, andheknewno limits tosacrificinghiscomfortzoneforahigherpurpose.

Withindaysofhisdeparture, twoFederallyemployed thugsgreetedhimashestepped from the elevator to hisABCoffice.Mark heard the triggers cock ontheirweaponsashebrushedpastthem.Inoneswiftmovement,heflippedopenhis briefcase12 and spun around to face his would-be attackers with his 45automaticdrawndownonthem.Usinghisbriefcaseasashield,hesmiledandsaid,“Goodmorning,boys.Whatbringsyouhere?Aneedforaneducation?”

“You’regoing to leaveAlaska,deador alive,”oneof the suits said,while theotherheldtheelevatordooropenwithhisfoot.

“AndIpredictyou’regoingtoleavehere.Now.Whowantstogofirst?”Markcalmlyasked.

“Abandonthatwoman,child,andyourcause.Leavethestateoryou’lldie.”Theelevatordoorclosed.

Mark repacked his weapon and closed his briefcase as he watched from theupper floor balcony as the pair left the building. The elevator doors openedagain,andagroupoffemalestudentsemerged.“Mr.Phillips,”oneyoungblondecalled. “We heard you turned in your notice and won’t be working here

anymore.”

Anotherslippedherarmthroughhis.“We’reheretotalkyououtofit.”

“Lookwhatyou’vedone,”astudentmajoringinmodelingscoldedasshewipedsweatfromMark’sbrow,totallyunawareofwhathadjusttranspired.“Let’shearwhathehastosay.Maybeit’sjustarumor.”

Marknever faltered in his convictions.The easywayoutwasnot thepathhechose,andheturnedtothegirls,stoppingathisofficedoor.“Youcan’ttalkme‘outof’orintoanything,“hesmiled,thenslippedinsideandstartedpackinghisbelongings.

Backathome,MarklaughedashetoldmeaboutthethreatfromtheFeds.“Youshouldhaveseentheexpressionontheirfaceswhentheyrealizedtheirelementofsurprisehadturnedonthem.Theyranlikescaldeddogsall thewayout thebuilding.”

“It’sagoodthingthosegirlsdidn’thaveclassanyearlier,”Isaid,thinkinghowclosetheyhadcomewithoutevenknowingit.

The phone rang. ItwasUCLA’s chair of psychology JollyWest13, wanting tospeakwithme.Markhadalready figuredout thisCIAMKUltraperpetrator’scontainmentagenda.HeknewthatJollyWest’seffortstocommunicatewithusnow clearly indicated how endangered out lives had become. Recently, SteveHassan, alleged acclaimed cohort of Jolly West and Margaret Singer, wasbroughtintoverifyKelly’smindcontrolabusesattherequestoftheTennesseeClaimsCommission.JollyWestwasconcerned,asHassanhadsubmittedstrongverbiagedocumentingKelly’smindcontrolprogramming14.

Wastingnotime,Mark“politely”terminatedthecall.Asquicklyashehungupthephone,itrangagain.“Ineedtogotothelibrary,”hesaidashehungupthephoneagain. Immediately,wewentout thedoor.Aswedrove to theshoppingcenter where the small Eagle River library was located, I sensed a changeoccurringdeepwithinme.Mybrainwasfusing,andIwasregainingcontrolovermyownmindandlife.Bythetimewereachedtheparkinglot,Ifeltlikemeforthe first time indecades. Iknewwho Iwas,where I’dbeen, andwhere Iwasgoing. I realized continuity of thought, and was no longer speaking like the

character Mel Gibson would portray so accurately in the movie ConspiracyTheory15.AsIwalkedacrosstheparkinglot,Ifeltpresent,astrongerattachmentto the planet, an awareness. It was as though dimensions had shifted andmyspirithadreattached tomybodyafterhavingfloatedabove it inasafe, lovingplaceforyearswhileIwastorturedtoroboticallycarryoutordersforothers.Ifeltpeace.Ifeltwhole.Ifeltstrong.

Marknoticedthatmydemeanorhadchanged.Evenmywalkwasdifferent,andneverreturnedtowhatitwasbeforethatmoment.Webothsensedapermanent,profoundchange.Marklookedatme,hissoulfuleyesshining.Unabletocontainmyself,Iexclaimed“Iloveyou!”

Lookingdeepintomyeyes,intotheverysoulofme,hesaid,“Ibelieveyou.Iloveyou,too.”

Markdashed into the librarywhile Iwent into thegrocerystore tobuydinnerwithahandfulofchangewehadfound.Once inside thegrocerystore, Icouldnot think.After decades of only following orders undermind control,makingdecisions formyselfwasn’t happening. Iwas still staring a the grocery itemsunable to choose our dinner when Mark found me, and asked, “What’s fordinner?”

“Iknowthissoundscrazy,butIcan’tdecide.It’slikemybraingoesoffintoablackholebeforeIcanthinktodecide.”Iwasalarmed.

“We’lldosomebrainexercises,”hepromised.“Yourbrainisjustrustyfromlackofuse.Wecanfixthateasyenough.”Marksmiledandslippedhisarmaroundme. “Let’s skip dinner tonight. We need to save every penny for our trip,anyway.”

Itwasabouttime!Yes!!HereallycouldseehowdeeplyIlovedhim.NowthatIhadfreethought,freewill,andsoulexpressionagain,Iwasfreetolove!

Wehurriedback toourhome.Weweavedourway through theboxes alreadypackedwithourfewbelongings.Ourpet’skennelswerereadyforthemandthelongtripbacktothelower48.Wehadn’tdisassembledthebedyet,though,andfellintoeachother’sarms.Ilosttrackoftime,anditwassodifferentthistime.Timelesspassion.Timelesslove.Mychoice.

Chapter5SOULUTIONS

Unitedinloveandpurpose,MarkandIfinallyarrivedbackinthelower48.OurAlaska Airlines flight had been delayed for days due to a major volcaniceruption, leaving us to camp out on the airline floor with our luggage andkennelsfullofpets.NowweweremoreanxiousthanevertoretrieveourPacerandtinytrailerfromtheferryshippingdocksandbeginthelongtrekacrosstheUStoreunitewithKelly.

WhenwelocatedourPacer,allofourbelongingspackedinsidehadbeenraidedand strewn about. Weapons and documents pertinent to our legal action andsurvivalweremissing.Mark’s forethought in hand carrying such evidences asAlexHouston’sCIAdiary,videos, andmedical recordsproved invaluable.Werepackedthecarandtrailer,strappedthekennelstotheroof,andbeganourlongjourney.

I telephoned Commissioner Rucker from a rest area in California. “Kelly isinstitutionalized atValley InstituteofPsychiatry inOwensboro,Kentucky,”hetoldme.“Irealizethisisnotasuitableplacementandit’sonlytemporary.Theyhaven’t even heard of mind control, but at least they’ve treated ritual abusesurvivors. They have high security and are acutely aware of Kelly’scircumstances.They’veagreedtofullycooperatewithusinobtainingqualifiedrehabilitationforher.”

I was overwhelmed by emotion and couldn’t even think to ask necessaryquestions.He continued, “I’ve arranged for disbursement of emergency fundsthroughHuntsville,Alabama’sDistrictAttorneyBudCramersinceheruns theNational Child Protection and Advocacy Center. Hopefully he can give youadviceonhowtoproceedfromthere.Goodluck.”

“Goodluck?”Itseemedeveryonewaswishing“luck”thesedays.Iknewitwasmorethanluckthatbroughtusthisfar!

HuntsvillehadbeenoneofKelly’sandmyprimaryabusebasesforNASAmindcontrolprogrammingduringthe1980’s,andIwasdeeplyconcernedwithgoingtheretopickupouremergencyfunds.AlreadyMarkandIhadheardrumblingsregardingBudCramer1andhisorganizationbeingacatchnetformindcontrolsurvivors.PlusIwasconcernedthatKelly’splacementinOwensboro,Kentuckywas far too close to Fort Campbell where we also had endured extensive,sophisticatedprogramming.

IslowlywalkedbacktothecarandtoldMarkwhatCommissionerRuckerhadsaid.

Neverone todespair,Mark started the engine. “Thepeoplewhohurt youandKellymayhaveIntelligence,”Marktoldme,“buttheylackwisdom.They’reflatthinkerswithnoconceptof the strengthof thehumanspiritor thepowerofamother’slove.Thereisnodepthtotheircriminalminds,whichiswhywisdomoutthinksacriminalmindeverytime.”

Hope, rather than luck, is necessary for human survival, and I was deeplygratefulforthehopeMark’swisdomprovided.WouldIeverbecapableofsuchwisdommyself?IwasstillstrivingtoapplythesimplemottoMarkhadgiventome “voice no negatives without a solution.” It was a challenge to think ofsolutionswhenIwasstilllearningtothinkformyselfatall!Atleastthisphrasekeptme from incessant complaining,whining, and slipping into immobilizingdespair while I strove to pushmy brain to think beyond past conditioning ofcompliancewithoutquestion.

Isettledintomyseat,pulledoutoneofmyever-presentnotebooks,andbeganwriting out details of the vast information I was remembering.My traumaticexperiences with Wayne Cox and his Louisiana backwoods witchcraft bloodritualsleftmeprimeforoccult-thememindcontrolprogramming.Byrdorderedthat this be instilled by Lieutenant Colonel Michael Aquino, founder of theOccult Temple of Set proliferating on US military bases. Aquino seemeduntouchableinthosedayswithhisprofessedNeo-Nazicriminalactivitycoveredby his affiliation with theWar College’s PsychologicalWarfare Division, theCatholic Jesuits, the First Amendment of the US Constitution that ensures“freedom of religion,” and through his association with influential politicianssuchasByrd.

AssoonasKellywasbornin1980,ByrdorderedthatwetransfertoNashville,Tennessee and our second mind control handler inMKUltra, CIA OperativeAlex Houston. Houston worked as a ventriloquist and stage hypnotist in thecountry music industry, which provided an ideal cover for me to travelthroughout theUS, Canada,Mexico, and the Caribbean as ordered. Nashvillewas also in close proximity to two mind control epicenters; one in FortCampbell,Kentuckywhereelitespecialforcessuchasthe101stAirbornewereprogrammed and trained, and the other in Huntsville, Alabama’s NASAfacilities. Lt. Col. Aquino became my primary mind control programmeraccording to Byrd’s instruction throughout theReagan-BushAdministration. IwasprogrammedforCIABlackBudgetfundingoperations,todelivermessagesto and from various government leaders, and fulfill sexual perversion in theprocess2.

Kelly was also subjected to Aquino’s abuse and programming as ordered byByrd, despite the fact that her mind control victimization was far moretechnologically advanced than mine. Kelly experienced classified hightechnology harmonicmind control programming since birth.Wheremy brainwascompartmentalizedthroughtrauma,herneuronpathwayswereharmonicallyvibrated for more precise compartmentalization. Even before she was born, IwassenttoTulaneUniversityMedicalCenterinNewOrleans,Louisianawheregeneticmindcontrolengineeringwasalreadyunderway.Thesophisticatedhigh-techmeansbywhichKellywasconditionedwerealsobeingutilizedattheFortCampbell andNASA facilities,whereAquinowaswilling to administer them.Hewasmuchmoreadeptatplayingdevil’sadvocate,wieldinghisstungunasthe ‘power of satan’ for programming purposes, than he was with harmonicequipment. Nevertheless, Aquino had supposedly established himself at bothmind control epicenters, having used harmonic equipment to fine tune thesingingqualitiesofthecountrymusicentertainersByrdcontrolled3.

It was no wonder that I was hesitant to go back into Huntsville and wasconcernedforKelly’splacementinKentucky.NorwasIcomfortablewhenMarkannounced that we would be stopping in Nashville before proceeding toHuntsvilleasarranged.Thenheexplained,“ItwouldbewisetobuildabackdoortoensureKelly’ssafetyaswellasourown.Weneedtostrategicallydisperseafew packets of information aroundWashington, DC. An old acquaintance ofminethatIwenttoschoolwithisaUSCongressmannow,andhemaybeableto

helpusavoidCIAinterceptionandactuallyreachtheappropriatepeoplewiththedocuments.”

MarkpulleduptoNashville’sFederalBuilding.“Waithere,”hesaid,smoothingthewrinklesfromhistravelpants.Transferringafewselectpacketsintohisbriefcase,hesaid,“I’mgoinguptoCongressmanClement’soffice,andwillbebackintwentyminutes.”

Eighteen minutes later, Mark was back in the car, aiming it for Huntsville.“Done,” he smiled. “Anytime we absolutely need to reach people withsomethinginWashington,DC,Clement’sstaffwillensureitgetsthereintactbyCongressionalRedBagMail.”

“I’mstillstrivingtothinkofsolutionsandyou’realreadyimplementingthem!”HowfortunateIfelttobeliftedfrommymindcontrolexistencebysomeonesowise and capable. I decided solution should be spelled ‘SOULution’. Armedwith soul, truth, and amother’s love, I convincedmyself that Iwas ready forHuntsville.

Two hours later,Mark drove past Huntsville’s Redstone Arsenal, Gate 9 exitnear the NASA Space and Rocket Center. Disjointed bits of memory beganflashing,andIforgotallaboutmyrecentresolutionandbeganshaking.“No.Wewillneversurvivethis.There’snoplacetorunandnoplacetohide,especiallywhenwe’rerightintheirownbackyard!Please…”Ibegged,“let’sgo.Iquit.Ican’tdothis.”

Markmanagedtocalmmyhysteriawithlogic.“Thereisaplacetorun–rightatthem.Andyouhavenoneedtohide–obviouslytheydoortheywouldn’tdevotesomucheffortandmoneytocover-up.Asforbeingintheir‘ownbackyard,’it’sthe safest place to be. As they say, ‘Nazi’s don’t shoot folks in their ownbedroom.’Youcan’tquitnowbecauseI’vealreadydevotedayeartothis,andIrefusetoquit.”Iwasstillsobbingashecontinued,“We’reonthebackofatigerandwe’vegottorideituntilhedropsorhe’lleatusforlunch.Icansurvivetheun-survivable, but I can’t tolerate the intolerable and your negativity isintolerable.”Hestoppedthecar.“Youcangetoutandwalkifyouwant,butI’mgoingtofinishthis.”

Istillwasn’tverygoodatmakingdecisionsformyself.Walkingfromherewas

out of the question, though, and my decision didn’t require any thought. Idefinitelyneededtoworkonthat“voicenonegativeswithoutasolution”thing.For now, I quit sobbing and rode on in silence. Besides, I still had a lot ofmemoriessurfacingthatIneededtowriteout.

We finally arrived at the Highway 72 Circle K rendezvous according toHuntsvilleDistrictAttorneyBudCramer’sinstructions.Plain-clothesdrugcopsJeffBennettandChuckCrabtreeprovidedusakeytothePolice“SafeHouse”where we would be staying. “We’d like to interview you first thing in themorning,”theysaid.

TheinterviewwentonfordayswhileBennettandCrabtreetooknotesonByrdandAquino’stiestoNASA.TheywereawareofHuntsville’srelianceonByrd’sSenate appropriations funds for their NASA operations, yet had no insideknowledgeofmindcontroloperations.IexplainedhowAquinousedmeinthetrainingvideoHowtoCreateaMindControlledSlaveUsingaStunGun4 thatwasfilmedinHuntsville,andevenprovideddetailsoflocalpersonsinvolved.

I elaborated further on how one such individual, Huntsville Police SergeantFrankCrowley,activelycovereduplocalcrime.IhadbeenprivytothecriminalrootsoftheFirst(andlast)AnnualJohnnyLeePicnicheldAugust7-9,1987innearbyGuntersville,whereitwaspre-plannedthatthepromoterwouldstealallproceeds. Houston, who was booked to entertain at the event by his AgentReggieMacLaughlin,wastippedtotheplananddemandedtobepaidupfront.He was also responsible for bringing vast quantities of CIA cocaine into theevent,halfofwhichwastobetakentotheFraternalOrderofPoliceConventionscheduledinMobileimmediatelyafterward.WhenagirlwasmurderedthelastnightofthePicnicinabizarresexact,itfurthercomplicatedthewholecriminalmessandSgt.Crowleywasneededtocoveritallup.CountryentertainerKeithWhitleyhadwitnessedthemurder,wasawareoftheCIA’scocainetiesintoitall,and sobbedhysterically, threatening togo to themediawith it.LorrieMorganasked me to keep their baby in our motor home while she and ReggieMacLaughlintriedtoregaincontrolofKeith.Thenextday,whenallofuswereat the Mobile F.O.P. Convention, Sgt. Crowley bragged how he “had it allcovered.”

BennettandCrabtreeappearedextremelynervous,andIassumeditwasduetothe F.O.P.’s involvement in CIA cocaine operations. “Everybody knows the

F.O.P.isinvolvedinCIAcocaineoperations,”Iconsoledthem.“Itdoesn’tmeanall police are corrupt. I’m not suggesting you two are corrupt just because Iknew somany who are. There’s good and bad in everything—even the CIA.Evenpoliticians.EvenMasons.I’mnotpaintingeveryonewiththesamebrush.”Ismiled.

Markchangedthesubject.“There isamajorcocainedealgoingdownin townthisweekend.One of the CIA’smain players, HankCochran, is scheduled toappearatTheGoldRush.”

“He’sasingerandsongwriterinthecountrymusicindustry,”Iadded.“Ilivedonhis farm in ’78whenWayneCoxwasworkingwith theMandrells. It all tiesright back intoByrd again. IrbyMandrell, the girls’ father, evenbraggedhowByrdhadthemprogrammedandharmonicallytunedrighthereinHuntsville5.”

MarkandIsuppliedsufficientdetailofHankCochran’scocaineoperationswiththeCIAforabust tobesetup.CrabtreeandBennettdrewup theplan,whichwouldoccur thenextevening in theparking lotof theGoldRush.MarkandIweretomeetthemthereat6PM,afterwhichbackupwouldarriveandmakethearrests.

At6PM,MarkandIwereparkedintheappointedspotwaitingforCrabtreeandBennetttoshowup.HankCochran’sgoldMercedespulleduptothedoorofthelounge.HesnortedalineofcokerightinplainsightbeforegoingintotheGoldRush.

“Didyouseethat?”Ishrieked.“Howmuchmoreobviousdotheseguyshavetobebeforejusticeprevails?WhereareBennettandCrabtree?”

HankCochran’sdriverslowlygotoutofthecarwithhishuge,50caliberDesertEaglegundrawn.Standingbehindthecardoor,henoddedhisheadforanotherpassengertogointothebuildingwithwhatappearedtobeaheavyleatherbag.

“That’sthebiggestgunIeversawinmylife,”Iwhisperedasthedriverscannedtheparkinglotforanywitnesses.

“Kissme,quick!”Markpulledmecloseforwhathehopedwouldlookenoughlikeapassionatesexacttogiveustimetopullout.Hepushedmyheaddown,

backedthecaroutoftheparkinglot,anddroveaway.

“Wherewereyouguys?!”Idemandedtoknowthenextday.

“If you want to live, leave.” Bennett gestured over his shoulder to copssurroundingtheso-called‘safehouse.’“OurSergeantdoesn’twantyouhere.”

“OurSergeantisSgt.Crowley.Hedoesn’tknowyou’rehereyet.”Crabtreetriedtosoftenthethreat.“You’dbetterleavebeforehefindsout.”

“Now!”Bennettordered.Referringtothecopssurroundingus,hesaid,“Theseguyswillescortyououtoftownandoutofthestate.”

MarkcalmlysmiledatBennettandpattedtheweaponheandCrabtreeknewhecarried.“Iknewhowtogethere,andIknowthewayout.Youhaven’theardthelastfromme,youchickenshitson-of-a-bitch.”

I gathered our few belongings from the ‘safe house’ while Mark telephonedCramer’soffice.Cramer’sassistantBarbaraJohnsonwasalreadyawareof thisturnofevents.Heronlyvoicedconcernwas toask ifCrabtreehadcashed theViolentCrimesCompensationcheckforusasinstructed.Hehad.Wethrewourbelongingsinthecarwhilethe‘policeposse’lineduptheirvehiclestoescortusoutoftown.Markdrovesmoothanddeliberate,loosingmanyofthematthefirstredlight,sothatfewwereleftbythetimeweturnedbackontoHighway72.

The whole Huntsville experience proved quite productive in spite of the lifethreateningturmoilsurroundingus.Wereceivedthenecessaryemergencyfunds,learnednumerouspitfallstoavoid,andsomehowmanagedtosurvivethewholeordeal.Igrewwiserfromseeingthemagnitudeof thecover-upandcorruptionemanatingfromNASA.

Chapter6JUST‘CAUSE

“My mother will let us stay at her house1 while we finish getting KellytransferredandreportthesecrimestotheFeds,”Marktoldme.WehadarrivedbackinNashvillewithoutfurtherincidentandwearilyunpackedourbelongingsintoasmallbedroominMelba’shouse.

Melba’s fall from the horse she was ridingwithMarkwhen he was only sixyearsoldhadleftherseverelybraindamaged.Marknotonlyraisedhimself,hehadtakencareofMelbaallhislife.Haditnotbeenforhisresultantinterestinmindscienceshopingtofindacureforher,hemaynothaveknownhowtohelpmerecoverfrommindcontrol.IwasdeeplygratefultoMelba,andtouchedbyMark’scompassionandpatienceforherandmeboth.

“I’mgladyou’rehere,”MelbafirmlystatedasthoughMarkhadonlybeenawayashortwhile.“SomefellowfromFortCampbellhasbeencallingforyou.Itoldhimyouweren’thereandhekeptcallingbackanyway.”

“What’shisname?”Markasked.

“Oh, I forgot.”Melba opened the back door and let one of her countless catsoutside.

“’Oh,I forgot’hasbeencallinghereallmylife,”Marksmiledandhuggedhismother. “Thanks for letting us stay here.Hopefullywewon’t need to be herelong.”

Melbalookeddefensive.“Whydon’tyouwanttostayhere?”

“Ididn’tsay‘Idon’twant tostayhere,’Mother,”Markpatientlyexplained.“Isimplyhopeitwon’ttakeuslongtoaccomplishwhatwehavetodo.”

Mark opened the refrigerator door. “I’ll cook dinner tonight if I can findanything.”Movingasidebottlesandjarsofcloudedfuzzandblackgoorevealednothingbutafewfurrygreenballs.

“That’snotedible.”IwasrelievedMelbaknewthedifferencebetweenspoiledandediblefood.Sheopenedthepantrydoor.“Thisisfresh.”

Markeyedthecontentsandreachedforacanofalbacoretunafish.

“That’scatfood!”sheshrieked.

“Youfeedyourcatsalbacore?”Markasked.

“They’refinicky.”

“SoamI,”Marksaidasthephonerang.

“It’sthatmanagain,”Melbasaid.“Youanswerit.”

Markwas looking for bread to gowith the tuna fish, and, as a rule, I did notanswerthetelephoneintheeventitwasa‘tonecall.’AharmonictonedeliveredbytelephonewasByrd’spriormethodoftriggeringmeintoroboticcompliancewithwhateverorders followed.Melbaanswered itherself. Itwasherneighboracrossthestreet,checkingtoseewhowasatherhouse.

“MarkisfinallyheretotakethatcallfromtheFortCampbellfellow,”Melbatoldher.Wow.Therewouldbenosecretsaroundhere.Iwonderedhowmanypeopleknewaboutthis,orifitwasevenrelevant.Isoonfoundout.Nexttimethephonerangitwashim.

“How’dyougetthisnumber?”IheardMarkaskashebrushedacatawayfromhistunafish.Iwentbackintoourtinyroomtotidyitupandputourclothesinthedrawers.A fewminutes later,Mark slipped intoour room,quicklyclosingthedoorbeforethecatsfollowed.Isneezed.

“I’msorryaboutthecats,”hesaidasIblewmynose.“Youfinallygotpastthathistamine2problem,andnowthis.”

“That’sOK,”Isniffed.“Atleastthey’vegotsomequalitytunatosharewithus.”

Mark smiled, and then got serious. “The timing of that phone call has mewondering.ItseemsFortCampbellalreadyknowswewerereportingAquino’scrimesinHuntsville.JimDibble,aDefenseIntelligenceAgency‘specialagent’assigned to the Fort Campbell Criminal Investigation Division, wants tointerviewyou.HejustcamebackfromPanamawherehewaschiefinvestigatorofNoriega’slair.ApparentlyhefoundsomethingsthatlinkNoriegatoAquinoandCIAdrugops.”

“At leasthe’llhaveapointof reference forunderstandingwhat I’mreporting.Whenishecoming?”

“Day after tomorrow. I told him to give us some time to settle in and unpackbeforehestartsdemandingdocumentsandpaperwork.I’mnotrealsurewhathisagenda is, and itmakesme nervous that he found us throughHuntsville. I’mgoingtomakeaphonecallwhenwegointotowntomorrowandcheckhimoutwithmysources.”Marktestedthebed.Itdidn’tbouncewhenhepattedthespotnexttohim.Isnuggledintohim,findingallthecomfortintheworldinhisarms.

MyminddriftedbacktoOperationShellGame3,andBradentonBeach,Floridajust

outsideofMcDillAirForceBase. Itwas1987 in theheatof IranContra, andNoriegahadalreadybeenwarnedtoceasehisCIAcocaineactivitiesforawhile.Yethewasasbrazenandobviousasever.SinceIhadhaddealingswithNoriegainthepast4,IwastobeusedforthisoperationunderordersfromDickCheney5,whowasstillworkinginhisbasementquartersofthePentagonatthetime.TheplanwastoappealtoNoriega’socculticsuperstitions,whichincludedAquino’sso-calledwizardry,myextensivemindcontrolprogramming,anddeliveryofanultimatumtohimfromthen-PresidentReagan.Icouldstillrecalltheverbiageofthemessage in photographic detail6, complete with the voice inflections usedwhenthemessagewasinstilledandsubsequentlywhenitwasdelivered.

“Is Dibble superstitious?” I asked. “Or does he know that Aquino’s satanic

powerisintheformofastungunandNazi-basedmindcontrol?”

“Superstitionbeginswhereknowledgeleavesoff,”Marksaid.“IhavenoclueifDibblecaneventhinkforhimself,letalonewherehisknowledgeleavesoff.”

“Well,wecan’tgowrongwithtruth,”Istated.

“Ifyousurpasshispointofreferenceforunderstandingit,hemaynotrecognizeitasreality.”

“Buttruthnevergoesaway,”Iargued.“Eventuallyhe’llgetit.”

“Timeisnotourfriendrightnow,”Markcountered.“Andwedon’tneedDibbleasanenemy.HejustreturnedfromOperationJustCauseandhe’sinahighlevelpositionto‘justcause’usproblems.”

“CanweaskhimabouttheharmonicsusedagainstNoriega?”

MarkknewIwasreferringtothehighlypublicized“rockmusic”embeddedwithharmonics that US soldiers strategically blared through boom-boxes into theVaticanembassywhereNoriegawashidingoutpriortohiscapture.“Approachthe subject carefully,” Mark advised. “Dibble may buy into the deliberatemisnomer that ‘lyrics’ affect the subconscious rather than harmonics7. You’vegot to consider that Dibble has heavy Catholic8 ties into this, andmay be assuperstitiousasNoriegaandAquinocombined.”

“I’lljustanswerquestions,”Iconcluded.

“Why offer Fort Campbell information on Aquino, anyway?” Mark asked.“Theyknowhimbetterthanwedo.IfDibbleis‘investigating’Aquino,hisownpeoplehaveeitherlefthiminthedarkorthey’resendinghimintofindoutwhatyou’veremembered.”

Mystomachgrowled,andIchangedthesubject.“Didyoufindanythinginthekitchen tocookfordinner?”Markwasagourmetchef,having learnedhowtocook in France some years previouswhileworkingwith Capital InternationalAirways. C.I.A. had an office atOrleyAirport in France,whichwas in close

proximitytothechefschoolheattended.Howfortunateformesincemymeagerdietforsomanyyearslimitedmyabilitytoevenboilwater.Markseemedlikemy‘universal justiceof thefood.’ Iatewell thesedays,evenwhenwehadnobudgetforgroceries. Itwashewhowasenduringaradicalshift fromthehighqualityfoodhewasusedto.

“We’llhavetogototownforgroceriestomorrow.There’sstillplentyofalbacoretunafishinthepantry,though.”Marksmiledatme.“Haveyounoticedthatthepoorerweare,thebetterfoodtastesandthehottersexis?”

Hissimplequestioncausedmetoponderourcircumstances.Ireallydidnothaveacomparativebywhichtoanswer.Wewerefinanciallydevastatedbythetimemydigestiveproblemsallowedmeto indulgeinMark’scooking,andit isstillbyfarthebestI’veevertasted.Andsexually,IfeltasthoughhewerethefirstrealsexIeverhaddespiteincest,pornography,prostitution,andbeingusedasaWhiteHouse/Pentagonlevelsexslave.BeforeMark,Ihadnoideathatabodycouldenduresomuchpleasure!ThesexIwastrainedforunderMKUltramindcontrolwasautogenicallyderived,oftenbrutal,andperverse.With lovecomessexual freedom, and sexual freedom ismore fun thanmy programmers couldbegintoimagine!

“Howcanbeingpoorfeelsorich?”Iasked.

“We’ll always remember the love of these times,” Mark caressed me. “Let’sembracethemomentbecausewewon’tbepoorforlong9.”

Thenextmorning,MarkandIdrovetothenearbytownofDicksoninsearchofgroceries.WhatlittlefoodMelbahadwasforherandthecats,andsheneededamoresubstantialdietaswell.WestoppedbythelocalCatholicchurchwhereIrequesteda fewgroceries fromcharity, and soughtadviseonhow toofficiallyreporttheritualandsexualabuseIexperiencedwithinthechurchbypriests.

“Youshouldn’tevenbealive!”roaredtheattendingpriest.“Thereisnothingforyouhere.”Themassivedoorsswungshutbehindme.AsIwalkedback to thecar,Iwonderedwhatthelocalparishionerswouldthinkoftheirpriest’sattitude.Perhapstheywouldwithholdtheirdonationsandweeklyofferingsiftheyknewthehungrywerebeing turnedawayand ignored.Whatactionwould they takeforthechildren’ssake?

“Well,how’dyoucomeout?”MarkaskedasIgotbackinthecar.

“Ilandedonmyfeetwhenthepriestthrewmeout.”

Markputhisarmaroundme,“I’msorryhetreatedyouthatway.Somedaythechurch is going to pay for ignoring blatant and rampant abuse,” he comfortedme.

“I’lljustkeeptalkinguntilsomeonelistens,”Ismiledthroughmytears.

“ApparentlyKellyistalking,too,andisbeingheardallthewaytoWashington,DC.”Markinformedme.“IjustmadethatphonecallaboutDibble,andlearnedthat Kelly’s situation is far more pressing than my concerns about FortCampbell’s‘suicidesoldiers.’”

“Whatsuicidesoldiers?”

“That’swhattheycallFortCampbell’s101stAirbornearoundhere.Everyoneinthe vicinity knows the fighting elite is programmed.Anyway,Dibble is not athreat.It’sKelly’ssurroundingsthatweneedtosecure.”

“Canwestillgoseeher?”MyheartcaughtinmythroatatthethoughtofbeingdelayedfromseeingKellyanylonger.

“Ofcourse,”Marksaid,backingthecaroutofthechurchdrive.“Iwanttoseeher, too. But I’ve got to see to her safety, first. We need to have a few keypackets of information red bagged toDC throughCongressmanClement, andmeetwithUSCustomsofficialsintheNashvilleofficebeforewemakeplanstotraveltoKentucky.”

ReturningtoourimmediateneedIsuggested,“Let’sgotoSecondHarvestFoodBank. They are notorious for feeding the hungry even when it’s notThanksgiving–andtheydon’tanswertothechurchorthegovernment.Peoplehelpingpeople.That’swhatworksbest.”

Markpulledintotheirparkinglot.BeforeIcouldeventell theSecondHarvestworkersmyneed,theytoldMarktobackthecaruptotheloadingdock.“You

wouldn’tbehereifyouweren’tinneed,”theycheerfullysaidastheyfilledthecarwithboxesofgroceries.

“I hope this is the last time I’ll have to rely on you,” I said as I thanked thecompassionateworkers.“SoonI’llbeabletocontributeinstead.”

“No one wants to be poor,” a Second Harvest worker told me. “Life has itsstruggles,though.Aslongasyouhaveneed,youhavehelpavailablerighthere.”

Withthecarloadedwithenoughgroceriesforallthreeofus,Markdrovebacktohismother’shouse.“Next timewe’re inNashville,” Ivowed,“I’ll lookup thearchdiocese and report Catholic abuse directly to them. Surely all Catholicsaren’tinvolvedinthis.Evenifit’sacardinallawtousherpedophilepriestsfromchurch tochurch, there’sboundtobesomeonewhocaresabout thewelfareofthechildren.”

Beforewefinishedpullingintothedriveway,MelbaopenedthefrontdoorandholleredtoMark,“When’sdinner?Ithoughtyouwerecooking?”

ThenextdayIsetoutafewcookiesI’dbakedwhileMarkbrewedcoffee.JimDibble’s line of questioning quickly revealed that Mark’s conclusions wereaccurate as usual. Fort Campbell was interested in finding out what I hadremembered,whileDibble’sapparentsuperstitionsrevealednothingnewtous.ThebestwewereabletogleanfromthemeetingwasadirectconnectiontotheTennesseeBureauofInvestigation’sAndyEarlandGoodlettsvillePoliceChiefFredSchott,whobothwerereputedtobehonest.

MarkandIintendedtoturninformationovertotheTBIanyway,andperhapswecouldobtainameasureofprotectionforKellythroughChiefSchott.KellyandIhadbeenkeptinGoodlettsvilleduringthecourseofourvictimization,andAlexHoustonwasstill residingthere.Ourfirstorderofbusinesswouldbemorefarreaching, however, from US Customs and Congressman Clement’s office toWashington,DC.

Chapter7WASH.DC

LouBock,”theUSCustomsagentextendedhishand.“I’vebeenexpectingyou.Please sit down.” Lou gestured toward two chairs crammed into his small,sparselydecoratedoffice.

Marklaidthepacketofinformationonhisdeskaswesatdown.“You’vestirredquiteabitofinterestthroughouttheagency,”Lousaid.“Apparentlymuchofthedrug information you turned into our Alaska office has already checked out.Whyareyoubringingaclassifiedissuelikemindcontrolintothis?”

“There’salittlegirl’slifeonthelinehere,”Marktoldhim.

“She’s my daughter,” I continued, “and she’s tangled in the mental healthsystem’sbureaucratic red tapedue to cover-up.TheCIAusesMKUltramindcontrolvictimslikeusintheirdrugoperationsbecausetheybelieveitwillkeeptheircriminalcovertactivitysecret.”

“Obviously they’rewrong,”Marksaid.“Wehadmoredetailsof their ‘secrets’redbagged1toDCthismorningonthewayoverhere.”

“Youcouldgetfurtherinyoureffortsifyouleftmindcontroloutofthis,”Louadvised.

“It’s loveformydaughter thatmotivatesmetoexposethishighlevelcriminalmess,”Iargued.“I’mnotinthisforvengeance,bitterness,hatred,oranyothernegativepurpose.LoveisthemostpowerfulforceintheuniverseanditisloveforKellythatcompelsmetomakeapositivedifferenceforherandourcountry.”

“Look,”Lousaid.“Yourchancesofsurvivalareprobablyslim,andIcannotinallgoodconscienceproceedwithoutatleastofferingyouprotectionthroughtheFederalWitnessProtectionprogram.”

Mark injected, “Lou, you’ve got to understand something here. Federal‘Protection’ is an oxymoron in this case. Let’s get real. Kelly needs qualifiedrehabilitation.Sheneedsprotection from theFeds,notby theFeds. Ifyousawwhattheircontainmenteffortsweredoingtothatchild,youwouldbeoutraged.”

“I’m sure themental health systemdoesn’t evenknowwhatmind control is,”Louconceded,“letalonehowtosafelytreatsomeonewho’sbeensubjectedtoit.Especiallynotachild.Whydidn’tyourehabilitateher?”

Marksighed.TherewasnowayLoucouldknowthedepthofemotionthisissuestirredinhim.“Kellywasexposedtoharmonicssincebirth.”LoufrownedandsetdownasMarkcontinued.“Sheneedsrehabsuitableforherneed.Cathywassubjectedtotheoldmethodofphysicalandpsychologicaltorture.Myownpastin Intelligenceprovidedmewhat Ineeded toknow, aswell aswho, to ensureCathy’sdeprogrammingwasasuccess.”

“HowdoIknowherdeprogrammingwassuccessful?”Louturnedtome.“Ms.O’Brien,isn’titpossiblethatpeopleyou’venamedisjustafantasyofyoursforpublicity’ssake?”

“Iwishitwas‘justafantasy’.Thenthosepoliticallyaffluentperpetraitors likeSenatorByrdwouldn’tbespendingsomuchtimeandourcountry’smoneyoncovering-upKelly’sneed.Wemightget further inourefforts toobtainKelly’sright to qualified rehabilitation plus gain the publicity necessary for raisingawarenessandincitingnecessarychange.”

“Byrd?”Louraisedhiseyebrows.“Areyousurethisisn’tjustapublicitystunt?”

“It’sbackwardsifthatwasmyintent.”Iwasragingnow.“IfIwantedtocreateasexscandal,IwouldhavechosenaKennedyorsomethingmorebelievablethanByrd!Haveyoueverseenhim?Ihave,andthatwastortureinitself.”

“Isthiswhyyoutalkabouthispenissize?”Louasked.

Thislineofquestioningseemedsotrivialtothemagnitudeofwhatneededtobeaccomplished. “Kelly reported Byrd’s unusually small penis size in twoinstitutionsalready.It’ssomethingByrdcan’tchangeanymorethanIcanchangethevaginalmutilationheorderedperformedonme.”

“OK,”Loustrokedhischin. “Let’sgetbackonpoint.We’vegotUSCustomsInternalAffairscominginonthis,andyouaregoingtobeaskedalot tougherquestions thanthese.Therearemanyofusawareof theCIA’sdrugoperationslikeOperationWatchtower2.You’veidentifiedafewofourown,andindividualslike Jose’Busto3masquerading as an Immigrations officer.We’d like for youand Mark to cooperate with us. Maybe we can even get some financialcompensation for you for your information, although your refusal to acceptFederalProtectionmakesitdoubtful.”

“We could use some helpwithKelly’s situation,”Mark said. “It is extremelydifficulttoobtaineffectiverehabilitationforKellywhenthegovernmentishell-bent on covering-up the cause. Now she is telling unskilled therapists aboutclassifiedCIAdrugops, and it’s creating serious problemsbecause theydon’tknow what to keep secret. The Feds just found out she is talking, and hercircumstances are becoming precarious.Neither Federal Protection normoneycansolveherproblems,butperhapsCustomscanhelpkeephersafe.Ofcoursewe’ll cooperate regardless of any compensation. Customs has consistentlycooperatedwithus.Wecan’tmeetwithInternalAffairsnextweek,though,sincewe’realreadyscheduledforalengthyinterviewwiththeFBI.”

“I already know about your FBImeeting.” Lou chose hiswords thoughtfully.“Doyouhaveataperecorder?”

“Runningrightnow,asamatteroffact.”MarkflippedopenhisbriefcasewhileLourolledhiseyes.

“Great. Bring it with you.” Lou pantomimed for Mark to turn it off, thencontinued.“I’llgowithyou, ifyouwant.You’vegotsometroublewaitingforyou.Betteryet,Icouldarrangeforthemtomeetushere.”

“Let’s have them meet us here.” Mark closed his briefcase, concludedarrangementsfornextweek’smeeting,andshookLou’shand.“EnjoyDC.EverytimeweturninformationovertoaFederalagent,they’reflowntoWashington,DC.I’msureyou’llbenoexception.”

IfollowedMarkout thedoor,stillshaking insidewithragefromLou’s lineofquestioning.“IthoughtCustomswasgoingtobeofhelp,”Icomplained.

“Theyare,”Markbegan.

“Ican’tseeit!”

“It’shardtoseewhenyou’reblindedbyemotion.Thinklogically.”Markstartedthe Pacer. “There’s more to this than you know, and you’re jumping toconclusionsbasedonemotion.”

“I’msorry,” I apologized. “I justwantKelly’s situation resolved, and it seemsthereisnowheretoturnforhelp.”

“Idon’twanttohear‘I’msorry.’Iwanttoseetheresultsofyourbeing‘sorry.’Expandyour thinking,”Mark advised. “Youare jumping to conclusionsbasedon your past dealingswith a few criminal Customs officials involved in CIAdrug ops. There is more to know than what your experience has taught you.Lookbeyondyourownexperience.Thinkfurther.”

IfeltlikeIwasatmywit’sendandmybrainwasfallingintotheblackholethatdemanded expanded thought in order to rise above it. Iwasn’t beingmentallylazy.Mybrainwasusedtoexercisenow.Isimplydidn’tknowwhichdirectiontoexpandmythought.

Mark sensedmy lackof direction. “Whenyou look through eyesof hope andtrustintruthagain,yourvisionwillclear.”

HowfortunateIfelttoberehabilitatedbyMark.Hispatienceandwisdommadeall the difference in the world to me. I thought about his statement as henavigatedusthroughNashville’sheavyrushhourtraffic.Myvisiondidbegintoclear,andmythoughtexpandedbeyondperceivednegativitytootherstatementsLouhadmade.

“WhatisInternalAffairs?”Ifinallyasked.

“Customs is cleaning their own house4. They’re disgusted with CIAcontainment,illicitdrugoperations,corruptionontheborders,andhavingtheirlegitimate investigations terminated in DC. So Customs Internal Affairs iscleaninguptheagencysotheywillhavethenecessarypowertoovercomethe

filth permeating the so-called Justice Department. This country needs onereliable agency, and it sure isn’t the current CIA or DEA5. Customs had abrilliantmanrunningtheagencywhoislegitimatelycleanandisstilldeterminedtoovercomecorruption.”

“Whoishe?”Iasked.

“William Von Raab6. He was Commissioner of Customs when we turnedinformationover toMaxKitchens inAlaska, andhe’s in aposition tomakeaworldofdifferenceforallofus.”

“Ididn’tknowanyonecleancouldevenmakeittothetopofaFederalAgency.”I was impressed. Mark was right about my past experience limiting myknowledge.Peopleoftendrawconclusionsbasedonwhat theyknow,and theyneedtoknowtheirknowledgebasehasbeendeliberatelylimitedbygovernmentsecrets.Igotexcited.

“EveryoneneedstoknowaboutVonRaab!”Iexclaimed.

“People are as blinded by emotion as youwere a fewminutes ago.There areveryfewpeoplethesedayswhohaveeyes-to-seeandears-to-heartruth.Socialengineeringthroughcover-up,censorship,andcontrivednewskeepsthepublicfearful andemotionally arguingover ancient issues like abortion, cloning,guncontrol,andsonglyrics.Peoplehopelesslyrelyongovernmenttotellthemwhattodo,thenblindlyblameandfighteachotherindrugandracewarsdesignedtoseparatethemfromthetruthandeachother.”

“People are so easily led, it’s nowonder the criminals I knew inDC refer tothemas sheeple.Byrdevensaid that95%of thepeoplewant tobe ledby theruling5%.”

“That is awidelyknown fact,”Mark said, “thatgives folks likemehope.Weonlyneedthemajorityofthat5%toknowandlivetruthinordertohaveleaderslikeVonRaabinpower.”

“If themajorityof the5%wouldserve thepeople insteadofmake thepeopleservethem,wecouldrestorefreedom,justice,andpeace!”Resolutionlookedso

simpleandclear.

“Whenthepeoplelead,leadersfollow,”Markquipped.

“IsthevoiceofthepeopleleadingVonRaabtomakeadifference?”Ipondered.“Whoisgoingtotellthemthattheyarebeingheard?Thenewsisn’tlettingthemajorityrule.WithpeoplelikeJackValenti7dictatingwhatthepubliccanknowfromhisloftyperchinHollywood,howwilltruthbebroughttolight?”

“Throughthethanklesseffortsofpeoplewhodaretolivetrue-to-soulandstandwithconvictionwithouthavingtobetoldtheyarethemajority,”Markreplied.

My mind was still rushing from the hope Mark’s wisdom inspired when hepulled into Nashville’s Catholic Archdiocese for my appointment with SisterMary-something. Despite my high hopes for humanity, my expectations forimmediate resolution to the sexual abuse, occultism, and mind controlpermeatingtheCatholicChurchwerelow.Nevertheless,Iwouldstandbymyconvictions and exertmyself true-to-soul in hopes that the pedophile priests Inamedwouldbedefrockedratherthansimplyshuffledaroundasusual.ItwouldbeoveradecadebeforeIwouldseeanytruthcometopubliclightregardingtheBostonmind control connection, but I still assertedwhat I knew inmy 1990testimony.

“I’ll write up this information and turn it in,” Sister toldme. “If I were you,though,Iwouldn’tbelookingforanymorehelpfromtheindividualchurches.”

Iwasindignant.“I’msuretheVaticanwillneedthefundsgeneratedbyCatholiccharitiesmorethanIevercould,anyway.They’regoingtohavealotoflawsuitsto defend since I am certainly not the only one recovering from such horrificCatholicabuse.”

Sheshowedmetothedoor.“Youneedtoforgetyourpast,quitbegging,andgetajob.”

“ThejobI’mskilledforbecauseofmypastcouldgeneratecash,butitisnotaconsiderationmymoralstandardswillallow.Ichoosetofocusonmydaughter’sneedsandmydeprogramming,thankyou.”

Feeling empowered rather than discouraged, Iwalked back to the car pleasedthat I had stood by the truthwith conviction. True-to-Soul is the onlyway tolive. A clear conscience provides clear vision, and I could see hope for thefuture.“Success!”Iannouncedwithasmile.“Nogroceries,though.Orfinancialcompensation.Orcompassion.”

“YoursmileisallIneed,”MarksaidasheaimedthePacertowardshome.

Chapter8TWOWAYMIRRORS

WithKelly’simmediatesecuritystrengthened,MarkandIusedpartofthe$500emergency funds released through Bud Cramer’s office to drive to Kentucky.Our long awaited trip to see her at Valley Institute of Psychiatry provedencouraging.Shewasobviouslybeinglistenedtoandcaredforbytherapistsandstaff.

“Dad!”Kelly called toMark as she flung her arms around him in a big hug.“WayneCoxisonlymybiologicalfather…he’snotmydad.You’retheonewholovesme,andIloveyou.So,ifit’sOKwithyou,I’mgoingtocallyoudad.”

“Ofcourse,”MarklaughedasIfinishedsigningusin.

“I’ve missed you so much, Kelly!” I cried as she jumped into my arms. “IwantedtoseeyouwhenIheardyouwereleavingAlaska.”

“Iknow,”Kellysaid.“Thenurseexplainedeverythingtome.Nowwe’reallheresafe.I’vegotsomuchtotellyou.”

Kelly’sattendingtherapistRogerHargusshowedusintoameetingroom,quietlyexplainingtomethatourvisitwouldbevideotaped.“I’llgiveyouacopywhenyouleave.Kellyhasbeenrememberingquiteabit.Youmaywantthisforlegalevidencetofurtherprotecther.”

Assoonasthedoorclosed,Kellyranovertothetwo-waymirrorandwaved.“Iknowthat’snotamirror,”Kellysaid.SheexcitedlytoldusabouthowV.I.P.staffwas tending to her asthma, keeping her from total respiratory failure. I knewfrompastexperience,however,thatthehighdosesofmedicationshewasgivenkeptherinaprecarioushealthbalance.Kellywentontoexplainthatsheknewwho and what we were up against, and thanked me for being such a goodmother.OfcourseIcried.Shesaid,“Howmanyothermotherswouldtakeona

wholegovernmentfortheirchild?”Iwasastoundedbyherinsight.ShetalkedindetailregardingsexualabusebyAlexHouston,ritualabusebyWayneCox,andsexual/ritual abuse in both Catholic and Mormon churches. She was evenrememberingCIAcocaineoperations,includingcodes.

“RememberwhenwetookthecruiseandgotcocaineinSt.Thomaswherethatguy1asked,‘WhatdidtheByrdsay?’HemeantSenatorByrd,didn’the?”Kellywas rememberingsomuchso fast! Iwaspleased thatall this informationwasbeingvideotaped.

“Youhavetolearnyourpastfromtheinsideout,notfromoutsideinputinordertoheal,” I toldher. “So I really can’t commenton that.Haveyouwritten thisout?”

“Yeah,but Ineed towritemore. I justhaven’thad timeyet,”Kellyanswered.“Staffisalwaysgivingmepaperandapentellingme‘writeitout’.Theywritealotofitdown,too.Isawthemdoit.”

By the timewe leftV.I.P.,myarmswerefullofmedical records,staff reports,andthevideotape.Still,theyfeltemptywithoutmypreciousdaughterinthem.Hugginghergood-byewasmoredifficultthanfacingHuntsville,andIcriedforhoursasMarkdrove.

“Weneed tomake copies ofKelly’sV.I.P. records before tomorrow’smeetingwiththeFBI,”MarksaidaswearrivedbackinNashville.

“Whataboutthevideo?”Iwondered.

“Wereallycan’taffordtomakeacopyofitrightnow,”Marksaid,handingmehiswallet.“CountourcashandseehowmanycopiesofKelly’srecordswecanmake.”

“Thatdidn’ttakelong,”IstatedasIcountedhisonedollarbill.“We’llneedtochooseonlythemostimportantrecords.”

“I’mexpectingsomemoneyinthemail.MaybeitsatthePostOffice.”Markdugdeep intohispantspocketandpulledoutahandfulofchange forme tocount

whilehepulledintohisGreenHillsPostOffice.Itwasunlikelythatwewouldget any mail since his service had been repeatedly interrupted withoutexplanationsinceourreturntothelower48.

“There’sstillnomail,”MarkgrumbledasheclimbedbackintothePacer.“I’mgettingwearyofourmailbeing illegallyconfiscated.Even that letter Imailedmyself didn’t showup. Iwrote theCIA amessage to put themail in the boxwhentheyfinishedsteamingitopen,andthatdidn’twork,either.I’vegottodosomethingaboutthis.”

“WhileyouwereinthePostOffice,”Itoldhim,“Ifoundacopyshop.Lookhowconvenient it is.” Ipointed to the shoppingstripnextdoor,which featured theCopyShop.Wewalkedoverandwentinside.

Mark and I began reprioritizing our paperwork to copy what few pages wecould.“Let’smakesureCustomshascopies forsafekeeping,even if itmeanstheFBIwillhavetowait.Wecanalwaysturnitintothemlater.”

“Should Imakeanycopies togo in the red-bagpacketswe’redroppingoff atClement’soffice?”Markponderedmyquestion,re-calculatingourexpenses.

“CanIhelpyou?”

That questionwould reverberatewithmeaning for years to come.Mark and Iturned around, expecting to see a typical print shop employee. Billy wasanythingbuttypical.Wesawanextremelyhandsome,well-muscledyoungmanwhose bright blue eyes twinkled with intelligence. Billy would eventuallybecomeoneofourclosestfriends,andliterallyalifesaver.

“No,”Marktoldhimasheresumedsortingpapers.“Ican’tevenaffordtorunallthecopiesIneedonthisselfservemachine.”

“Mymachineisn’t inuserightnow,”Billysaid.“Itwon’tcostyouanything.IheardyoutalkingandI’dliketohelp.”

“Youhavenoideahowmuchthismeanstous,”Marksaid,handinghimastackofdocuments.“I’musedtogiving,nottaking.ButI’lltakeyouuponyouroffer

thistime.”

Billyslippedsomeofthepapersintotheautomaticfeederofhiscopymachine.“Areanyofthesedocumentsclassified?”heasked.

“No,”Mark toldhim.“Itdoeshave todowithhorrificgovernmentabuse thatthey’retryingtocover-up,though.There’salittlegirl’slifeonthelinehere,andwe’re not going to let them cover it up. Have you ever heard of CIA mindcontrol?”

“Asamatteroffact,Ihave,”Billyanswered,muchtooursurprise.“Mywholefamily is involved in medicine in this town, and I know about the BarbaraMandrell2incidentatBaptistHospital.BackwhenBarbaraMandrellbangedherheadinthatcarcrash,theybroughtherintoBaptist.TherewereFederalagentsandarmedsecuritypostedeverywhere,andBarbarawastalkingabout theCIAandmind control.Anyonewhoheardherwas told itwas amatter of nationalsecurity,and that theywould lose theirmedical license, lifeand liberty if theyrepeatedit.”

“Obviouslysomeonedidrepeatit,”Marksaid.

Billy shookhis head in agreement. “Everybodyknows about it now.What doyouknow?”BillyinvitedMarkintotheemployees’backroomwheretheytalkedwhileIfinishedcompilingthepaperworkfortomorrow’smeetingwiththeFBIattheCustomsoffice,andsealingthepacketstobered-baggedfromClement’soffice first thing in themorning.As soon as I finished,Billy opened the doorinvitingmetojointhem.

“How’dyouknowIwasthrough?”Iasked,astoundedbyBilly’sperceptiveness.

“Iwasn’tusingmypsychicabilities,”Billylaughed.“Thisisatwowaymirror.”Heshowedmethemirroronthebackroomwallwasactuallyawindowfromtheemployees’side.“It’samazingwhatcanbeseenthroughatwowaymirror.”

Billywaseasytotalkwith,andheandMarkgotalonglikeoldfamiliarfriends.BillyrepresentedthegoodsideofhumanitythatMarkhadbeentellingmewasthemajority. It took awhile forme to realize it, though, since years of beingexposed to self-centered cruel people had jadedmy perspectives. Even after I

regainedaloveforandbeliefinhumankind,Billystillstandsoutasthatone-in-a-millionkindoftruefriend.

Responding to thegratitudeweexpressedaswewentout thedoor,Billy said,“Anytime.Imeanit.Anytime.”

Itseemedwehadjustgonetobedwhenthealarmrang,promptingustopreparefor the days events. After stopping by Clement’s office, which ironicallywaslocatedinthesameFederalBuildingastheFBI,wecrossedtowntotheCustomsofficewherewewerescheduledtomeetwiththem.

“Comein,”Loucalledfromaclutteredcornerwherehewasbentoverlookingforstyrofoamcoffeecups.“CanIgetyousomecoffee?”

“Thanks.Creamandsugarforbothofus,”Iacceptedhiswarmoffer.“HowwasDC?”

“Windy.”Loudidnotelaborate.

MarktossedcopiesofKelly’srecordontopofthestacksofpaperonLou’sdesk.“WebroughtafewpertinentrecordsfromV.I.P.foryou.We’vegotapowerfulvideotapeofKelly’stestimony,too,thatwe’llprovideyouoncewemakeafewcopiesofit.”

Louhandedusourcoffeeandlookedthroughthepapers,compassionreflectinginhiseyesashesilentlyreadthem.Heclearedhisthroat.“WhatdoyouwanttheFBItohave?”

“Everything,”Mark said. “They’vealreadygot the informationpacket thatweturned into the Anchorage office. Plus I turned over the documents to theJackson,Mississippiofficewheremyex-wife’scaseisactive.”

“Isent information toAgentRogerYounginLasVegassincehe’sworkingontheMichaelDante’3aspectofthecase,”Iadded.

Louquicklysearchedhismentalfiles.“WhoisDante’?”

“MichaelDante’ is thepornographer inBeverlyHillswhocovertlyvideotapesperversions of global leaders for the likes of Reagan. Roger Young wasinterested in Dante’s collection, due to the impact it could have on globalpolitics.SinceIsawthevaultinDante’smansionwherehekeptthetapes,RogerYoungwasaskingforalltheinformationIcouldsupplyhim.Iwasoftenusedinsexually compromising positions during theReagan-BushAdministration, andknewwhowasblackmailingwhomforwhatpurpose.Thesecriminalsdon’ttrusteachotherandhaveeachotherbytheperversionso-to-speak.ManyofthefilmsIwasused inweremadeatBohemianGrove4 inNorthernCaliforniaor in theWhiteHouse5.”

“Howmanyofthesevideosweremade?”Louasked.

“I reallydon’tknow,” I toldhim.“I’msureKellyand Iweren’t theonlyonesbeingprostitutedbytheCIAforblackmailpurposes.ThevaultinDante’shouseisaboutthesizeofthisoffice,anditwasstackedtotheceilingwithvideos.”

Loulookedathiswatchandstoodup.“Excuseus,”hetoldme,noddingtoMarktofollowhimintotheotherroom.Alonewithmythoughts,myminddriftedtomysexualencounterwithPresidentdelaMadrid6ofMexicothatwasvideotapedthroughatinyfish-eyelensintheceilingDecember1986inMalibu,California.The Juarez, Mexican border was being opened as groundwork for NAFTA7,allowing for the free flow of drugs intended to equalize theUS andMexicaneconomies.Theparty inMalibubrought in thenPresidentRonaldReagan,hisfriend and head of the Motion Picture Association of America Jack Valenti,GeorgeBush,Jr.,MichaelDante’,thenMexicanPresidentMigueldelaMadrid,andotherhighrankingofficialsinvolvedinCIAdrugrunning,prostitution,andmind control. Dela Madrid was no stranger to government-level blackmailtactics,andhadcleverlyimplicated“Poppy”Bush,Sr.’sinvolvementwithCIAheroinaswellascocaineforthe‘hidden’camera.

“They’re here,” Mark quietly alerted me as he walked back in the office,immediately followed by Lou Bock and FBI Agents Brad Garrett8 and PhilTuney.Theonewho introducedhimselfasGarrettappeared tobedressed inasatanistcostume,lookingabsurdinhisallmat-blackattire.Tuneylookedlikeacomic book red nosed alcoholic right out of the funny papers. My amuseddisgustwentunnoticedsincetheirfocuswasonthecoffeecorner.

Garrettsaid,“How‘boutservingussomecoffee?”

Louwasriflingthroughastackofpapersonhisdesk.Withoutpausing,heshotGarrettasharplookandsaid,“IknowyouguysareusedtoservingtheCIAinyouroffice,butwedon’tserveanyonearoundhere.Helpyourself.”

GarrettandTuneyleanedagainstthedesk,coffeeinhand,andtookthepacketofinformationMarkhandedthem.

“Thelefthanddoesn’talwaysknowwhattherighthandisdoing,”Markbegan,“sohere’saduplicateoftheinformationwe’veturnedintotheFBIthroughtheAlaska,Mississippi,LasVegas,andDCbureaus.”

“We’veseenthis.AndifwhatMs.O’Briensaysistrue,shewouldbetoocrazytorememberit,”Garrettbegan.

“Muchofwhatshehassaidhasalreadycheckedout,”Loutoldhim.

Garrettpuffedouthischestevenfurther.“Iamapsychologistworkingfor theFBI.”

“Good,”Mark said,matter-of-factly. “Thenyou’reawareofmindcontrol.Areyoufamiliarwithharmonics,orjustAquino’soccult-basedvariety?”

“We know about trauma-basedmind control.” Tuney responded, seething. “Inordertoavoidfurthertrauma,youknowyouwanttodisappearintoourFederalProtectionProgram.”Hepulledafilefromhisbriefcase.“Everythingisinorderforallthreeofyoutoenter.”HepushedthefiletowardMark.

Mark lookedhim in theeyewithoutpicking itup.“Youmust ‘know’ thatMs.O’Brien and her daughter need protection from the Feds not by the Feds, andfrankly, I’mquite capable of seeing to their safety.”Markpattedhis briefcaseandside.“YouseeIamaonemanarmy.”

Lourolledhiseyes, frustrated thatMarkwasresorting toaveiled threat inhisoffice.WhileTuneycitedreasonsMarkshouldn’tcarryaweaponintoaFederaloffice,GarrettbeganusingsubtleJesuitmindcontrolhandsignalsinaneffortto

triggerme.Tuneyaddedacoupleofsignalsaswell,includingtheoccultsignofthehorns,whichindicatedtomethatbothhadbeencuedonmyoldmindcontrolprogramming.I triednot tosmileasGarrett,whoapparently thoughtIhadnotseenhisantics,intensifiedhissignaling.BothheandTuneywerehandsignalingsointenselytheylookedliketheybelongedonabaseballfield.

“Since you are an FBI psychologist,” I told Garrett, “you must know thedifference between deprogramming and reprogramming. Had I beenreprogrammedover the top ofmyold programming, your hand signalswouldhaveworkedbynow.SinceIhaveactuallybeendeprogrammed,notonlywillIignoreyourefforts,youcanspreadthewordallthewayuptoDickThornburgh9thatIhaverememberedeverything.”

“And you,”Mark pointed at Garrett with hismiddle finger, “be sure and tellAquinohishandsignalsareantiquated.”

“Idon’tknowwhatyou’retalkingabout,”Garrettbegan.

“Itsall inhere,”Markpointed,stillusinghismiddlefinger, to the informationpacketwehadgiventhem.“Ithoughtyousaidyoureadit?”

TuneywasslammingtheFederalWitnessProtectiondocumentsinhisbriefcase,whileGarrettpickedupthedocuments.“I’msurewe’llseeyouagain,”Garrettglared.

“Youknowit.GiveourbesttotheboysinDC10,”MarktoldthemastheyshookhandswithLouandstormedoutoftheoffice.

It was late at night by the time we arrived back at Melba’s house. Melbaexcitedly gaveMark his day’smessages as I carried the contents of thePacerintoourtinybedroom.Thewallswereoddlybarren.MypicturesofKellyweregone.Mystackofdeprogrammingnotes,collagepieces,andremindernoteswasmissing. Where was everything? As I turned to tell Mark, I could hear hismothersay,“Thosemeninnicesuitscamebytodayforthepaperstheysaidyouwantedthemtohave,soIletthemin.”Icried.IcriedbecauseIfeltviolatedthattheFeds cleanedusout again, butmost of all I criedbecauseMarkhad livedwithhismother’sconditionallhislife.

Mark’s facefellwhenhesawouremptyroomand the tears runningdownmyface.“Atleasttheycan’ttakethepicturesIhaveofKellyinmyheart,”Isaid.Suchatenderman.Suchaharshday.

Mark reached up into the air conditioner return vent and pulled down a smallpackage,examiningit.“Theydidn’tgetKelly’sV.I.P.video.”Helookedaroundabitmore.“OranythingelseIstashed.IlearnedalongtimeagotoexpecttoberaidedwhenreportingtotheFBI.”Hetossedhisstashonthenightstand.“Hey,it’snotsocrowdedinhere,”Marksmiledthroughhiswearyeyesashebouncedon our twin bed, patting the pillow beside him. I crawled into his arms, hispowerfulenergyflowingthroughhishandashecradledmyhead.

“Iknowagreatway to relieve tension,”hebegan.Howfortunate I feltat thatmomenttohavesurvived,knowlove,sharepassion,andcomesofarinexposingpoliticallyaffluentabusers.Iwasabsolutelyconvincedthisbrilliantmanbesidememusthavethebiggestballsandbiggestheartontheplanet.Whoelsecouldtakeonsuchataskagainstallodds?

Chapter9REFLECTIONS

Thenextfewdayswerespentwritingoutmemory.SeeingGeorgeBushin thenews,oftentimesinthecompanyofhisclosefriendandcomradeDickCheney1,causedbitsandpiecesofmemorytoflashacrossmymind’sscreen.Othereventstriggeredmemoryaswell, fromsongson theradio tocommentspeoplewouldmakeinpassing.EverythinginmyenvironmentwasatriggerasMarkexplainedandIwonderedhowlongthedeprogrammingprocesswouldtake.

“Inessence,itwouldtaketenyearsx10toremembereverydetailoftenyears,”Mark was telling me. “If memory is still being triggered, it needs to bedeprogrammed. By deprogramming the program first, you have renderedyourself inaccessible. This doesn’t mean that you’ve remembered everything.Take the time tobring tomindwhatyoursubconscious isdemanding thatyoufocuson.”

“Well,IknowItoldyouabout…”

“Oh,no,”Marklaughed.“Herewegoagain.”

Ireachedformynotepadandpen.MemoriescanfeelsocloseandfamiliarwhentheysurfacethatoftentimesIthoughtI’dalreadyrecalledandrecordedthem.Iwould even begin to dismiss some as trivial. Experience taughtme that theserecognizablecuesindicatedIneededtowriteoutintrusivememory.

In addition to regaining control over my own mind and brain throughdeprogramming, the process was allowing me to reframe perceptions. Forexample,sinceIhadnoconceptof timeundermindcontrol, Ihadnopointofreferenceforjudgingdistancewherebymygeographywasdeplorable.Distortedgeography is a common trait among people who have suffered from adissociative disorder.Once I regained awareness of time, experience began togivemeaconceptofdistance.Ialsolearnedthattimingismoreimportantthana

concept of time.Undermind control, I had lost this senseof timing,which iscrucialtomovinginharmonywithabiggerpictureplan.Inadditiontobecomingconsciouslyawareofmypast,therewasawholeworldofinformationtolearn!

SometimesIfeltlikethestorybookcharacterRipVan-Winkle,whosleptsolongthe whole world had changed when he awoke. My environment had beencontrolled all of my life in an effort to keep me from inadvertently beingtriggeredintoreality.ManyofthepoliticiansIwasexposedtowereinthenews,and their deliberately formed public projections were in conflict with mypersonal experiences. Therefore, my television viewing was controlled. Thesubconscious effect of harmonics in music was well understood by thoseinvolved in MK Ultra, and therefore my music was as controlled as mytelevisionviewing.Ididn’tgettolistentothe1960’speaceandfreedomsongs,or watch the hippie movement on television, as would have beenmy naturalchoice.Instead,Ilistenedtothemusicmyabuserschose,andwatchedwhattheyinstructedmetowatch.

I listened toByrd’sold-stylecountrymusic fiddling,Ford’s favorites likeRodStewart’s“Tonight’stheNight,”DickCheney’sclassicalmusic,Reagan’schoiceofMichaelJacksonorlovesongsbyAirSupply,andsongsIwasconditionedtotriggertolikeLionelRichie’s“ThreeTimesaLady.”

WhenIwasbeingconditionedatpuberty,myfatherexcitedlyencouragedmetolisten toMichael Jackson (still of the Jackson 5) andDonnyOsmond (of theOsmonds) as they were “of the same MK Ultra genetic project” that I was.Becauseofmyfather’sdialogue,Isensedanunderstandingofthembeyondthemedia hype and advanced harmonic technology, which further enhanced theeffectstheirmusichadonme.

On TV, I saw theWizard of Oz, Disney Classics, Twilight Zone, and horrormovies I never would have chosen. The phenomena of experiencing otherpeople’schoices inacontrolledenvironmentcausedmetobeoutofsyncwithwhat the general population knew based on their ‘normal’ experience. Forexample,Markwould refer to ‘60’s rocker JoeCocker and I’d say, “Who?” Iwouldlaughatanadcampaignthatwasfunnytootherstenyearsprevious.OrIwould have no concept of the public conditioning ad campaigns behindmasssocialengineeringexperimentslikeHandsAcrossAmerica.

My concept of the people I had been exposed to on the highest levels wasbeginning tomergewithpublicperception,givingmeaclearviewofhowthepublic is led. Having been exposed to Reagan2 the way I was for years, myperceptionbegan tomergewith theunderstanding thatpeoplehad forgotten toconsiderhewasanactordespitehisreminding them.Theybelievedhisscreenimage,followingwhathesaidratherthanwatchinghiscontrivedactions.Peoplelistened to the words of corrupt Congressmen like Jim Traficant3 rather thanwatchingvoting records to seewhatwas actuallydone. Sensing the energyofindividualssuchasBillClinton4,combinedwithmyexperiencewithhiminthedrug industry, made it difficult to understand how people could see him asanythingbut adrug lord.Howcouldpeople lookpastDickCheney’s sneer tobelievehewas the leastbitconcernedwithservinghumankindasan“elected”official?Overtheyears,IwatchedpeoplelikeTimRoemer5,whoappearedtobethe most robotically mind controlled individual I had ever encountered, be“elected” into Congress. I watched while unlikely, low charisma people likePennsylvania’sTomRidge6wereslippedintopublicoffice. Inorder toexpresstherealityofmypast,Iwouldhavetoreachapublicwhosepointofreferencewasdeliberatelydistortedthroughsocialengineering.

SinceIwasstillrememberingandreframing,Markutilizedhisunderstandingofhuman nature to diplomatically bring the reality of mind control to light. Hewrote hundreds of letters7 that reached throughmisperceptions in an effort toincitepositivechangethroughpublicawareness.Responseswouldtrickleinforyearsdespite the1947NationalSecurityActcontinuouslylimitingactionfromthosewhoshouldovertlyhelp.

He pleaded for help from organizations including Amnesty International, theChristicInstitute,theRainbowCoalition,theAmericanPsychiatricAssociation,all major Judicial and Oversight Congressional Committees, all major newsmedia, law enforcement of Federal, State, and local levels, domestic andinternationalIntelligence,andgroupsandpoliticiansonaglobalscale.Heevenwroteletterstohigh-levelperpetraitorsfrommypast,whichconcernedmeuntilheexplained.“Theyhavenocause tosilenceus if theyknow their secretsarealreadyout.Besides, itmightkeep them from raidingusagain if theyalreadyhaveeverythingwearereleasing.”

Mark’sletterwritingcampaignencompassedtheglobeevenbeforetheInternetbecame the peoples’mode of communication.He knew that if he reached the

controlling5%withthetruthonmindcontrol,thatmanyparadigmsweresubjecttoshift,causingperspectivestochange.ForthoseoperatingonaNeed-to-Knowbasis, the information onmind control could expand their vision towhat andwhom they were actually working for. Those who ignorantly relied on mindcontrol slaves to keep their secrets suddenly realized deprogramming was areality that could publicly expose them. Those who believed in Reagan’sstatement that the only way to world peace was through mind control of themassesbegantorethinktheirshallowconclusion.Withoutfreethought,thereisno free will, and without free will there is no soul expression.What kind ofworldpeacecouldhumankindachievewithoutpeacewithin?

My stackof deprogrammingnotes looked small in comparison to the stackoflettersMark had produced by the time we went back into Nashville the nextweek. Although we momentarily lacked the finances for copies and stampsnecessaryfordistributingthem,weweredeterminedtoprevail.

“Wherethere’sawillthere’saway,”MarkassuredmeasheparkedthePacerinthe Tennessee Bureau of Investigation parking lot, where we had our firstmeetingof the daywithAgentAndyEarl.Ourmeetingwas brief sinceAndyEarl’shonestintentionscouldnotoverridehissuperior’sordersforcontainment.He strongly recommended that we meet with his friend Goodlettsville PoliceChief Fred Schott. We left the previously prepared information packet,documents,medicalrecords,andmytestimonywiththeTBIanddrovestraighttoChiefSchott’soffice.

ChiefSchott listenedattentivelyas IdetailedphysicalandsexualcrimesKellyand I had endured in Goodlettsville through CIA mind control handler AlexHouston. Mark handed him the documents and an information packet, alongwiththeV.I.P.videoofKelly’stestimony.

“AlexHoustonisjustoutsidemyjurisdictionby500feet,”ChiefSchotttoldus,lookingat thecitymaponhiswall. “I’darresthim if I could.Youhavemorethanenoughevidencehere.”Heinvitedustostaythemorningtotalkwithhimanyway,ashewasacutelyawareof theCIAdrugoperationsandmindcontrolproliferatinginhistown.

“IknewBarbaraMandrellwasundermindcontrol8whenshehadthathead-oncollisionafewyearsback.Thatbumponherheadcausedhertotalk.TheFeds

that showed up on the scene told me what I was hearing was a ‘matter ofnationalsecurity.’WhenIwenttothehospitaltocheckonher,therewerearmedguards everywhere. Iwas the investigatingPoliceChief and theywouldn’t letmein!”

Chief Schott tipped us as to who was involved in cover-up, and whom hebelievedwouldpursuejusticeatallcostsregardlessofthecriminals’affluence.He toldusnumerousother storiesofCIAcover-up involvingcocaine,murder,andmindcontrol.Hehad investigated thedeathofcountrymusicsingerKeithWhitley, concluding that he had beenmurdered. Yet the case was closed andcovered-updespiteChiefSchott’sexpertevidence.“It’sbadenoughtotrytoriseabove CIA containment, but it’s even worse when a popular entertainer isinvolved.AssoonasI’dsaythename‘LorrieMorgan’or‘KeithWhitley’–letalonemention‘BarbaraMandrell’–noonewantedtohearit.”

“We’veexperiencedthesamething,”Marksaid.“Peoplewouldratherholdontotheirillusionsthanfacethetruth.”

“It seems to me that people have to know their own truth before they canembracesomeoneelse’s,”Iphilosophized.

Markelaborated,“Theaveragepublicissociallyengineeredtothepointwheretheynolongerthinktolookwithin.”

“Iknowonewomanwhoisn’tafraidoftruth,”ChiefSchotttoldus.“Sheworksout of Governor McWherter’s office with the Organized Victims of ViolentCrime,andevenhecan’tseemtokeepherquiet.She’shonestanddoesn’tcareabout politics or prestigewhen it comes to stopping crime.”He advised us tocontactEdithHammonsrightaway.

“You’llneed tosee theSumnerCountyDistrictAttorneyfirst, though, tokeepAlexHoustonawayfromKelly.HisnameisRayWhitley9,andhe’safriendofmine.I’llcallhimandtellhimyou’reonyourway.”

WethankedChiefSchott,anddrovetotheSumnerCountyD.A.’soffice.Afterwaiting four hours outside General Whitley’s office for our ‘immediate’appointment,we decided to leave the information and reschedule for the nextday. General Whitley was sitting at his desk when we opened the door. We

should have known something was wrong, yet Chief Schott’s sincerity hadoverriddenourinstincts.

“Comein,”RayWhitleysaid,asifwehadn’talreadytakentheinitiative.“ChiefSchottsaidyou’dbedroppingoffavideoforme.Givemetimetotakealookatit,andcomebackinaweekortwo.”

“A little girl’s life is on the line, here,”Mark told him. “She doesn’t have ‘aweek or two’ towait on you to review this video.We need it back sincewecouldn’t afford to make a copy of it. We did make copies of the childpornographyHoustonusedherin,though.”

RayWhitleyturnedcrimsonwithrage.“It’sagainstthelawforyoutoholdanychildpornographywhetheryoudeemitevidenceornot. I’llhaveyouarrestedforthat.”

Mark smiled. “I don’t believe so. Do you see me holding it? Other lawenforcementconcernedwithjusticehasit.We’lljustwaitforyoutotakealookatthisvideosowecanpassitontothemaswell.We’renotleavinguntilyouseethis evidence and take the necessary legal action to stopAlexHouston.We’lljustsitout frontwhereeveryone in thesquarecanseehowlongwe’vewaitedforyou.”

We sat in thehot sun, hopingRayWhitleywouldn’twastemuchmoreof ourtime.Wehadused all of our cash forgas todrive toSumnerCounty, andweknewwecouldn’taffordtocomeback.Besides,Iknewfromexperiencethatthiswasaverycorruptcounty,andIwaseagertoleave.

“Here’syourvideo,”Whitleysaid,bringingitoutsidetous.“There’snotenoughevidenceonitformetoarrestHouston.YouwouldhavetoprovidemewithavideoofhimhavingsexwithKellybeforeIcouldrespond.”

“You already said you’d respond by arresting me for providing you withevidenceofchildpornography.You’remakingyouragendaveryobvious.”Marktookthevideo,notyetrealizingWhitleyhaditdestroyedwhilewewaited,andwequicklylefthisoffice.

“I reallywant tobe freeof thiscounty,”Markassuredme,“butweneed toat

leastleaveaninformationpacketoffattheSheriff’soffice.”

“IdoubttheywouldenforcelawinthiscaseanymorethanWhitleydid,”Isaid.“I’llmakesuretheyknowaboutit,though.”

WestoppedbySumnerCountySheriffSutton’soffice,andIdashedinsidewiththe information. “We’vebeen expectingyou,”SheriffSutton sneered. “This ismyDeputyJeffPuccini.”

“Haveaseat,”Puccinigesturedtothejailcell,jinglingthekeys.“I’msureyou’llbehereawhile.”

“As a matter of fact, the Sumner County Crimes I am reporting are alldocumented here,” I said, putting the information packet on Sheriff Sutton’sdesk. “Your name is all over it.” I pointed to his name on the outside of thepacket,andturnedtowardthedoor.“Ihaveacarwaitingoutsidewhowillcallforback-upifIdon’treturnimmediately.”

Iwasoutthedoorandinthecar,whichMarkthrewintodriveassoonashesawtheexpressiononmyfaceanddrovestraighttoChiefSchott’soffice.

ChiefSchott’seyesfilledwithtearsashelearnedofhis‘friend’s’betrayal.“I’msorry to have sent you to him without making a copy of that video. I neverdreamedhewasontheirside.IknowEdithHammonswon’tletyoudown.Imetwithherearliertoday,andsheiswaitingforyoutostopbyherhouse.”Hegaveusheraddress,whichwasnearby.

“IthoughtRayWhitleywascorrupt,”Edithannouncedassheopenedthedoor.“ChiefSchottjusttoldmewhathappened.Comeinandhavesomecoffee.Let’stalk.”

Thearomaofcoffeefilledoursense,andwegladlyacceptedheroffer.“There’snot much to eat around here.” Edith gestured to her meager surroundings.“Peoplewhohelpvictimsneverhavemoney.Neitherdo thevictims. It seemsonlythecriminalswhoabusethemhaveallthemoney,andtheybuyjusticewithit. That’swhy it’s called theCriminal Justice system. I can offer you advice,though, and my copy machine. The first rule is make copies of everythingbecauseitwillbedestroyed,tamperedwith,stolen,andwhateverelseittakesto

keepyouquiet.Ifyouhaveataperecorder,keepitgoingatalltimes.Nowwhenyoudecide if you’regoing to spendyour lastdollaron foodor stamps,you’llhavetoaddaudiotapestoyourlist,too.Survivalhasitsprice.”

“Howwellweknow.”Mark sipped the coffee. Itwasn’t the importedkindhehad been used to, and he reached for the sugar and creamer. “We need anattorney.”

“I’ll seewhat I can do,” Edith saidmatter-of-factly. “In themeantime, you’llneedtoreportthesecrimestotheUSAttorneyGeneralinNashville,JoeBrown.LastIknewhewasclean.ButAttorneyGeneralsareappointedbythePresidentand tend to cave in to the slightest pressure fromWashington, DC. Plus JoeBrown is already looking shady since he hired Ray Whitley’s wife as hissecretary.”

“Noway,”Iprotested.“Isn’tthatcollusion?”

“Don’tgivehimanyofyouroriginaldocuments.Makecopies.”Edithfilledheroldworntabletopcopymachinewithtonerink.Sheslippedusaten-dollarbillfor gas sowe could get to the FederalBuilding the next day.Nowonder shelivedinpovertyherself.“Comebackandseemewhenyou’rethrough.”

Thatnight,V.I.P.telephonedusatMark’smother’shouse.“WayneCoxisonhisway.Wehavehighsecurity,butitisnotdesignedtokeepmercenariesortheCIAout.We’rereleasinghertomorrow.Beheretopickherup.”

Apparentlyourattempts tostopCoxandHoustonfromhavingaccess toKellyonly intensified theproblem. IcalledEdithHammons to tellher thenewsandseeifshehadlocatedanattorneywillingtodonatehistime.“RandyStampswasan attorney in SumnerCounty before hewas elected to the State Legislature.He’sinapositiontohelp,andiswillingtomeetwithyourightaway.”

HowcleancouldanattorneyfromSumnerCountybe, letalonefromtheStateLegislature?We’dhavetofindout.Kellywasoutoftime.

WemetwithRandyStampsbrieflyinhopeshecouldstopV.I.P.fromreleasingKellyonsuchshortnotice.“Thereisn’ttimeformetoevenfilealegalbriefonit,”Randysaid,compassionfillinghiseyes.“Youhavemytotalsupport,though.

I’lldoallIcantohelpyourealizesomeformofjustice.”Heshookourhands.“Godbless,”hesaid,whichsoundedbettertomethan‘goodluck.’

Kelly’sbagswerealreadypackedwhenwearrivedatV.I.P.thenextday.ItoldRoger Hargus and the Administrator what had happened to the video andpleadedforextra time toarrange forKelly’sneeds.“Ihavenowayofdealingwith her respiratory problems right now, and it would be cruel to need tohospitalizeherjustbecauseCoxpushedyourpanicbutton.”

Rogershookhishead.“Morethanthathashappened.Wealreadylostourcopyofthatvideo,plusalotofKelly’srecords.”Anursegavemeasmallfolderwithseveral remaining records in it. “Wemanaged tokeepa fewdocuments aside.Youtakethem.Itlookslikeyou’regoingtoneedthem.Kellyissafestwithyou,too.”Wewerequicklyusheredoutthedoor.

“Why did the Feds come in last night and take my records?” Kelly askedbetweenwheezes aswe all climbed back in the old Pacer. “They’re not evenprotectingme fromWayne Cox.Whatmore do they need before they’ll helpme?”

“Justicecomesinmanyforms,Kelly.”MarkaimedthePacertowardNashville.“Thewheelsof justicegrindslowly,but italwaysprevailsbecause truthby itsverynaturenevergoesaway.Truth livesawretchedlifebutalwayssurvivesalie.Wewon’tstoporbestoppeduntilyouseesomejustice.Remember,Kelly,‘its not over ‘tilwewin.’ Thatwill be our familymotto. ‘Its not over ‘tilwewin.”

“Itsnotover‘tilwewin,”Kellyechoed,andsmiled.

Kelly’s asthma grew increasingly worse as we drove, forcing us to stop byVanderbilt Hospital in Nashville for a breathing treatment for her. As usual,Kelly did not respond to conventional medical intervention, and soon wastransferred to the IntensiveCareUnit.Througha seriesofnightmarishevents,Kelly was ultimately transferred to Cumberland House for psychologicalevaluation.

Meanwhile, Commissioner Rucker contacted the Commissioner of MentalHealth, Eric Taylor, to explain his efforts to obtainKelly’s rights to qualified

rehabilitation and to schedule an appointment for me. He also scheduled anappointment forme at then-GovernorMcWherter’s office, as hewas unawarethat I had been forced under mind control to work on his political campaignduringtheReagan-BushAdministration.EdithHammonsmadeanappointmentforuswith,amongothers,USAttorneyGeneralJoeBrown.MarkandIsetupappointmentsaswell,beginningwithanothermeetingwithRandyStamps.

Asawarenessroseandourcircleofsupportincreased,theloopofcontainmenttightenedaroundusproportionately.

Chapter10“GETTOKILLING”

“Still no mail,” Mark said as he got into the car. “I know Bob Clement isbeginningtogetresponsesfromthered-baggedmailhedeliveredforusaroundWashington,soit’snotlikeourinformationisn’treachingpertinentpeople.It’sjust that their response isn’t reaching us. I have confirmation that the CIA isconfiscatingit.”

“Why?”Iasked.“We’rekeepingtheminformedsotheydon’thavetostealit.”

“It’scalledharassment.I’mgoingtoexhausteverydiplomaticmeansofstoppingthisbeforeItakepersonalaction.”

Mark and I walked over to the Copy Shop to make enough copies for ourimmediateappointments.

“How’sitgoing?”Billyasked

“Itseemsourproblemshaveintensifiedabit,”Marktoldhim.

“Kelly is stuck inCumberlandHousewithout therapywhile themental healthsystemtriestofindawayaround‘nationalsecurity’cover-up,”Iadded.

Mark told Billy about the CIA confiscating our mail, and our pendingappointmentswithTennessee’sUSAttorneyGeneralJoeBrownandNashville’sMetropolitanPoliceDepartment.

“Feel free to make all the copies you need,” Billy offered, digging into hispockets.“I’llcoverthecost.”

“That’snotnecessary,”Markdeclined theoffer.“I’vegotacoupledollarsand

wedon’tneedmanycopiestoday.Whatweneedisourmail.It’souronlysourceofincomerightnow.IsitalrightifIleaveCathyherewithyoutomakecopieswhileIgoseesomefriendsaboutthis?”

“Ofcourse,”Billysaid.

Mark lowered his voice and explained that our situation was somewhatprecariousrightnow.“Youlookablebodiedtomeintheeventofanytrouble.”

“I amwell armed,”Billy smiled, hismuscles threatening tobulge through thefabricofhisshirt.

Markhuggedmeandwentoutthedoor.

AssoonasIhadmadethenecessarycopies,Billyofferedmeaseatinthebackroom where he could watch the store through the two-way mirror while wetalkedprivately.

“Areyouscared?”Billyasked.

“Notwithyouaround.”Ismiled.

“ImeanscaredofreportingclassifiedcrimestotheFeds,”Billyelaborated.

“No.Theyalreadyknowaboutmindcontrol.Theonlynewpartislearningthatsomeonewithmyinsideknowledgecanbedeprogrammedtothinktotell theirsecrets.”

“Younamenames.Doesn’tthatfreakthemouttolearntheverypeopletheytakeordersfromhaveacriminalagenda?”

“The good guys appreciate confirmation of their suspicions, and the bad guysjustmakethreats.Itreallydoesn’tscareme.Besides,whataretheygoingtodo,tortureme?I’vealreadybeenthroughthatandIknowhowtodepartpain.Takemydaughter?Theyalreadymadethemistakeofdoingthat,too.I’mnotscared,I’m livid. Now they’re messing with a mother’s love, and love is the mostpowerfulforceintheuniverse.There’snowaytolose.”

Billysmiled.“Marksaysya’llhavenothingtolose,andanyonewithintelligenceknowsbetter than tobackaman in thecornerwhohasnothing to lose.That’sprettypowerful.”

“He is!” I exclaimed. “What are the chances of someone of his fortitude andwisdomcomingalongandrescuingKellyandme?Itallseemssoprofound.”

“It is profound,” Billy agreed. “Have you remembered everything about yourpast?”

“Notyet.I’mstilldeprogrammingandwritingoutquiteabitofmemory.IknowthepeopleIwasexposedtoareinfluential,butitallseemedsonaturalthewayithappened.Therewasnoglamouror thrillsaboutbeingaround them, that’s forsure.Theirpoliticalpoweronlyequates to anability to exercisemorecontrol,cover-up,andcontainment.Iwishtheyhadallbeenlow-life’slikemyfather.”

“Isyourfatherlockedup?”

“No, he’s still free for ‘reasons of national security’.” I thought about Billy’squestion.“Thanksfortheperspective.Theyarealllow-life’slikemyfather1.”

The frontdoorbells jingledannouncingacustomer.Oneof themostbeautifulgirls I had ever seen walked in, and I had been around some of the sexiestwomenontheplanet.Billy’sdemeanordidnotchangewhileheexcusedhimself,andwalkedout front.Shegavehimanenvelope,huggedhim,and left. “Whowasthat?”Iexclaimedashewalkedbackin.

“Oh, she’s a friend of mine.” Billy tossed the envelope on the color copymachine.“Shewantsmetorunsomecolorcopiesforhermodelingportfolio.”

“Yousurehaveprettyfriends,”Icommented.

“Ineverreallythoughtaboutit,butyou’reright.It’sjustthecirclesIsocializein.”Billythoughtamoment.“Itmusthavebeenlikethatforyou,too.WithFordandByrdinvolvedinyourvictimization,youwouldnaturallyhavemetquiteafew influentialpoliticians.Add thecountrymusic industry,and it’snowonderyouknewsomanypublicpeople.”

“It is so nice to have someone understand that,” I said. “That’swhat Imeantabout how ‘natural’ it all seemed. I certainly didn’t have preconceivedknowledgeorperceptionsof thesepeoplebefore Iwasexposed to them,andIknowthemforwhattheyreallyare.”

“Same with me and these models,” Billy said. “The one you just saw is myfriendand…”

ThedoorjingledagainandMarkwalkedin.“Done,”heannounced.“Hopefullyourmailservicewillresume.”

IgatheredupthecopiesandturnedtoBilly,“Andhopefullywewillresumeourconversationnexttime.Thanksforeverything.”MarkandBillytalkedamomentmorewhileIloadedthePacerandorganizedfortheday’sappointments.

CumberlandHousewasjustaroundthecorner,andwewouldbestoppingbytoseeKellybeforeourappointments.Iwantedtoappearconfidentwithoutgivingherfalsehopes,andyetitwasallIcoulddotomusterthestrengthto“visit”myprecious daughter. The best I could exhibit was unconditional love, totaldevotion to her needs, understanding beyondwords, and conveymy belief inher.Themoreshebelievedinherself,thestrongershewouldbeinheradverseenvironment.All the love in theworldcouldnot returnher tomyarmsby thetimewehadtoleave,though.Leavingwasalwaysheartwrenching.

WedrovesilentlythroughtownwhileIrefocusedonourappointmentwithUSAttorneyJoeBrown.WhenwepulleduptotheFederalbuilding,Markremindedmetodisarmforthemetaldetectorsandhedidlikewise.JoeBrown’sofficewasspaciousandexpensivelydecoratedasiftointimidatevisitors.“Iwonderwhereallthismoneycamefrom?”Ipondered,naturallythinkingintermsofthewealthgeneratedbyNashville’sillicitdrugbusinesswiththeCIA.

Asthoughreadingmymind,Markpointedtoaprobablecameraandsaid,“Thewallshaveears.”

Ishrugged.Iwasn’tgoingtovoicewhatwasonmymindanyway.Itwasalreadyapparent that this would not be a productivemeeting. Previously it had beenexplained tome thatUSAttorneyGeneralswere appointed byPresidents andplacedineverystatetocarryouttheworkoftheirboss,theAttorneyGeneralin

Washington,DC.DickThornburgh,whom I had known for years undermindcontrol while he was Governor of Pennsylvania2, was currently the top USAttorneyGeneralandJoeBrown’sboss.TheheavywoodendoortoJoeBrown’schambersslowlyopened,andheinvitedusin.

“Don’tbetalkingaboutmindcontrol.Nooneknowswhatitmeansanyway,”hebegan.

“Shouldwesay‘brainwashing’?”IthoughthewasgivingusadviceuntilMarkglancedmywaynotifyingmeotherwise.

“You’re not likely to live long discussing the topic by any name.” JoeBrownfoldedhisarmsacrosshismassivechest.“Sowhydon’tyoushutupandgetalife.”

Markbristledandsaid,“Who’slifedoyouhaveinmind?”

“I toldEdithI’dmeetwithyou,”JoeBrownsaid.“NowthatIhave, just leavethatenvelopeofdocumentsandI’llseewhatIcando.”

“Mydaughter…”

JoeBrown interruptedme, finishingmy statement hisway, “…is notmy job.YouneedtotalkwithCommissionerTaylor.”

“Idid…”

“Well,good.”JoeBrownopenedhisdoor.“Thanksforcomingby.”Heclosedthedoorquicklybehindus.

“ThatwentbetterthanIthought,”Isaidsarcasticallyaswewalkedbacktotheelevator.Marksmiledandputhisarmaroundme.

“IhopethismeetingwithMetrogoesaswell,”Marksaid.“Ineedyoutowaitinthe car for me this time. If I’m not out in half an hour, come back here toClement’soffice.”

I considered the gravity ofMark’s statement and glanced around whispering,“Thewallshaveears.”

“Ihopethey’relistening.”

Theelevatordoorsopenedandwegoton,brieflystoppingat theFBI levelonthewaydowntothegroundfloor.Ofallpeople,PhilTuneygotontheelevator.“What a coincidence!” Mark said jovially. “I was reading the funny paperstoday, thought of you, and nowhere you are.”Mark kept talking, obliteratinganychanceTuneywouldhavehadtoconveythemessageheappearedtowanttodeliver.“Whyaren’tyouinDCwithGarrett?I’msurehecoulduseyouonthiscase.”TheelevatordoorsopenedandweleftTuneydumbfoundedtorideitbackuptotheFBIfloor.

“We’vegotmoreproblemswiththeFBIthanyouknow,”Markseriouslywarnedmeaswedrove to thepolice station.Hemaneuvered thePacer intoaparkingspacedirectlyoutfront.“Halfanhour,”hesaid,checkinghiswireandrecorder.“Watch your watch. If I’m not back, you know what to do.” Mark took hisbriefcaseandwentintoMetroPoliceStation.

Ihadbeenintherewithhimbefore,anditwasnotapleasantexperience.Onehomicidedetective,PatPostiglione,wasaneighborofAlexHouston’stoldme,“We’vealreadyconfirmedwhatyoureportedaboutthemurderinNashville,andyes it was covered-up by Byrd’s friend Lieutenant Ezell3. Ezell is dead now,unofficially of a cocaine overdose and officially of a heart attack. Yourinformationisaccurate,butthat’sasfarasitgoes.Yououghttoforgetaboutallthisandjustgoliveyourlife.”

Forgetaboutit?Ihadfortenyears!Nowitwastimeforaction.Kelly’slifewasontheline,Imissedherdesperately,andjusticehadtoprevailinorderforhertobe freed from the grasp of her powerful perpetraitors.Noone should have toendurewhatsheandIhadundermindcontrol,andknowledgeismankind’sonlydefenseagainst it.Theonlyway tobring theknowledge to lightwas to incitejustice.Justicesurewaselusive,though.AndPostiglionewasgoingaboveandbeyondthecallofdutytocreatefurtherproblems.ThishomicidedetectiveevenattendedoneofKelly’smentalhealthsessions4tocounterhertestimonywithherintake therapist. I lookedatmywatch.Twenty-sevenminutes togo. I tookoutmypen andnotepad, andbeganwriting an event that kept flashing acrossmy

mind.

Dick Thornburgh was a happy person considering the magnitude of thecorruptionhewallowedinallthetime.IhadmethimataPennsylvaniacountyfair where AlexHoustonwas entertaining as a cover for distributingmassiveamountsofCIAcocaine.SinceGovernorThornburgh5wasassociatedwith theCIA’s cocaine operations, he was acutely aware of Houston’s true purpose inbeingthere.HealsoknewthatIwasunderMKUltramindcontrolandtrainedfor sex,whichhe indulged inwithme for the next eight years alongwith thecocaine.

Thornburgh often frequented nearby Youngstown, Ohio’s Charm School asthoughitwereabrothel,sharingcamaraderiewithoneofhispartners-in-crimeJimTraficant.AsSheriffofYoungstown,TraficantrantheCharmSchoolwhereIwastrainedalongwithnumerousothergirlstofulfilltheperversionsofvariousworld leaders until hewas indicted for cocaine.Thenhewaspromoted toUSCongress, still ran the Charm School, and remained friendswith Thornburgh,Byrd, and others I was associated with. Oftentimes I was trained andprogrammedatCharmSchoolalongwithoneofDickThornburgh’sregularsexslaves, and she and I became as close of friends as twomind controlled girlscouldbe.Wewereoftenprostitutedandusedpornographicallytogether,andsaweachothereveryAugustwhileHoustontraveledthePennsylvaniafaircircuitinhismotorhome.Thehollowwallsofhisspeciallybuiltmotorhome6were linedwith cocaine, which further lined the pockets and nasal passages of DickThornburgh.

US Customs had reportedly obtained the Norwegian Cruise Lines manifestlistingThornburghandmeon the samecruise in1987.Hewasenroute to themindcontroltrainingcampintheDominicanRepublicalongwithhisfriendJimZerilla to scoutbaseballplayers fornational leagues.Mindcontrolledbaseballplayers were invaluable to the likes of Thornburgh, who oftentimes bet oncontrived baseball games. Knowing who was going to throw the game asprogrammedgavehimanenormousedge in thebaseballbettingscene,andhemadevastamountsofmoney from it aswell as from thecocainemuled inbytheseunsuspectingplayers.Whencriminalbettinggrewsolargethatitwaswellknownamongst thepublic,PeteRosewas their sacrificialgoat chosen to takethefall.OnceagainThornburghskatedfree.

As Attorney General, Thornburgh decided which Federal crimes were to beinvestigated, thereby making Mark’s and my pursuit of justice precarious.Nevertheless,Thornburgh’scriminalactionsdidnotmakeallFederalagentsbadandwehadnoalternativebuttocountonthemtomakethedifferenceforKelly.

I checkedmywatch.Mark still had tenminutes to come out ofMetro PoliceDepartment.Suddenlyheappearedandwasstridingacrossthestreetatarapidpace.Iunlockedthedoorandswungitopen.Inonemotion,hewasinhisseatanddrivingthecarawayfromthestation.“Well,”hesaid,wipingsweatfromhisbrow, “thatwas close. They just threatenedmy life. Thatmakes twice in oneday.”

“What?” Ipaledandswallowedhard,knowingany idle threatwouldnothavefazedhim.

“TheytoldmeIwouldn’tlivelongunlessIabandonedyou,Kelly,andthiscasenow.Itoldthemtogettokillin’becauseIwasnotgoingtostoporbestoppeduntiljusticeprevailed.”

“Whotoldyouthat?”Iasked.

“MychildhoodschoolmateLieutenantTommyJacobs;theCaptainofhomicide,Mickey Miller; and that jerk who told you to keep quiet, Pat Postiglione.McElroyandHicksonwerethere,too.

“Youtoldallofthem‘gettokillin’?’Iwasflabbergasted.

“MickeyMillerbroughtmeintohisofficetodeliverthethreat.Theywereallinthere for backup, I guess. I told them I was wired and flipped open mybriefcase7.TheythoughtIwasgoingtoshowthemmyrecordingequipment,butIuseditforashieldandbackedoutthedoor.Therewerequiteafewweaponsdrawn.”

“Andyousaid‘gettokillin’?”

Marklookedatmelike‘ofcourse’andsaid,“Iftheyweregoingtokillmethey

wouldhavedoneitwhenIfirstwalkedin.Wehadbetterduplicateanddistributethisaudiotapefast, though.Likenow.I’mgoingbacktoFederalbuildingforafewminutes.You’llneedtowaitoutsideagainwiththedoorslocked.Firstsignoftroublestartblowingthehorn.YoushouldbeOKhere,though.”MarkparkedinfrontoftheFederalbuilding,tookhisbriefcase,andgotoutofthecar.

“Themetaldetectors!”Iremindedhim,believinghewouldwanttodisarm.

“Where’syourweapon?”heaskedme,andleftwhileIturnedtomoveitwithinreach.

EveryminutefeltlikehourswhileIwaited.Ipickedupmynotepadandpentofinishwhat I’d beenwriting, but neverwrote aword. Iwatched.Andwaited.Twentylongminuteslater,Markwasbackinthecar.

“Well?”Iprompted.

“They’dbettergettokillin’,”Markseethed.

Chapter11MENTALHELLth

Followingacodedtrailthatwasakintoachild’streasurehuntgame,MarkandIarrived atwhatwould be our rendezvouswithRandyStamps. “Sheriff Suttonhadmy family’s life threatened,”Randybegan, lookingPTSDed andnervous.“AndwehavetobeabletoliveinSumnerCountyformetobeaLegislator.”

The threats that Mark and I had already endured from Sumner County andSheriffSuttondidnot intimidateus. “If they threatenyou, theyonly intend toscareyou,”MarkassuredRandy.“It’swhenthey’requietthatthereisreasonforconcern.”

“I’malreadyconcerned.”Randy’seyesgrewwider.“I’msorryIcan’thelpyouwithyourdaughter’slegaldilemma.Idon’thavetheTopSecretClearancetogetaroundthe‘nationalsecurity’issues,anyway.YoucanrestassuredI’llbedoingallIcancovertlyfromtheinside.Pleasedon’tcontactmeanymore.Let’skeepEdithHammonsasourgo-between.”Randyhuggedusasthoughitwerethelasttimehe’deverseeusalive,nervouslyglancedaround,andranoutthedoor.

“Wecertainlyhavealotofsupporthidingbehindtheirdesks,”Igrumbled.

“That’swhyIalwaysworkedalone.”Markputhisarmaroundme.“Peoplefearwhat they don’t know, and they Need-to-Know the truth in order to effectpositivechange.Whenfolksareleftinthedark,theycaveintofear.Bringtruthto light, and their path is clear. The criminals you knew were aware of this.That’swhytheyoperateonthephilosophythatsecretknowledgeequalspower.Youknowyourselfhowtruthfreesyoufromimmobilizingfear.Wehavetobetough.”

I agreed.My previous terror inHuntsville had taughtme that reality ismucheasier to deal with when armed with facts, no matter how harsh, rather thanblindedbyemotion.

“Besides,” Mark was saying, “when people are left to superstition andconjecture,theirconclusionshavenobasis,renderingthemineffective.WehavegottofindawaytobringtherealityofmindcontroltolightamidstawealthofmisinformationandterrorforKelly’ssake.”

“Itreallyisuptous,isn’tit?”Isaid,feelingaloneinourpursuitofjusticeandrehabilitation for Kelly. I thought of Kelly alone at Cumberland House, andrealizedshemustbe toughestofall. Ithadbeen threedayssincewehadbeenallowedtoevenseeher,andIwasanxioustocheckinonher.

“Hello, I’mDr.Gaboy, the residentpsychiatristhere,”aghoulish lookingmanstuckouthiswet,limphandtogreetuswhenwearrivedatCumberlandHouse.Was this somekindofa joke,orhad I just entered the setofahorrormovie?MarkandIsatdowninhisoffice to fillout forms.Therewasnoplaceon theState forms towrite about classified issues, andwe filled themout asbestwecould. Looking over the paperwork we had completed, Dr. Gaboy continued,“Youknow,thereisnosuchthingasmindcontrol.”

“Somepeoplecallitbrainwashing,”Isaid,usingtheoldterm.

“Thereisnosuchthingasbrainwashing,youknow.”Dr.GaboyrelatedanoldwarstoryortwofromtheKoreanWar,driftingfarfromanypointhemighthavethoughttomake.

I triedanotherapproach.“Iknowthere isa lotofsatanicactivityaroundhere.Youmustbeseeingsomevictimsofoccultism.”

“Youknow, there is no such thing as satanism,”he said. “Come.Let’s go seeKellynow.Wearethroughhere.”

Mark looked at me briefly, his eyes telling me that talking any further wasuseless.IknewheunderstoodmyneedtogetKellyoutoftherefast.

Kellywasinanisolationroomreservedfornewcomers,andIwastraumatizedjustwalkingin.Kellysatonabed,unblinking,suckingherfingerslikeshedidwhenshewasaninfant.Bloodsmearscoagulatedonthewalls,someshapedintopentagrams.Adirtyplasticcurtaindangledbyapaperclip,andthestenchfromsmearedfeceswasoverwhelming.Iwasoutraged.

“Nosuch thingas satanism?”Myvoicewas rising,andMarknudgedme.Hislook reassured me that we would take care of this situation outside ofCumberland House. Instantly I knew the hysteria I was feeling would notproduce thedesired results.Markslippedacamera fromhispocketandbegansnappingpicturesofthewallsandroom.Iswallowedmytemper,anddemandedtoseethenurseincharge.

“I’m leaving here for a meeting with Commissioner Taylor,” I told her. “I’mgoingtoreportthebloodonthewalls,satanicgraffiti,theunsanitarydisarrayofKelly’s room,andmostdefinitelyher condition. Iwanthermoved intoanewroomimmediatelyuntilIcangetheroutofherepermanently.”

“Wewerejustmovingher,Ms.O’Brien.”ShescurriedtogatherKellyandherclothes.“Idon’tknowwhatyouaretalkingabout,though.”

MarkhadspokenwithKellywhileItalkedwiththenurse,andshehadstoppedsuckingherfingersandwasblinkingagain.Weassuredherwewouldbebackthenextdayandhuggedher.Istumbledoutintothesunlight.

“Whattimeisit?”Markasked.

Iblinkedthroughmytearstolookatmywatch.“2:50,”Isaid.

“Wehavetenminutestoget toyourappointmentwiththeCommissioner.Stayalert.”Markspokesternly,realizingIwasteeteringondissociativeness.“Kellyneedsyoutobehervoicerightnow.Staylogical.”

WhenwearrivedatCommissionerTaylor’soffice,thereceptionistwaswaitingformeathisdoor.Marksqueezedmyhand,andIwalkedrightin.“Iknowyourstory,”CommissionerTaylorgreetedme.“AndIknowyouhavestrongpoliticalsupport.I’malreadyworkingonyourdaughter’scase.”

“Areyouawareoftheextremelypoorconditionssheishavingtoendurewhileyou’reworking on it?” I briefly told him aboutKelly’s desperatemental stateunderCumberlandHouse’s‘care,’thesatanicgraffiti,feces,andbloodsmears.

“I’ll sendMarshaWillisover there in themorning.She’smybestworker,and

sheisassignedtofindinganappropriateplacementforKelly.We’lltransferherimmediately to qualified rehab formind control –anywhere in the country- asfastasMarshadeterminesthereisnooneintheStateofTennesseewhocandoit.Youcanexpediteeverythingbysigningtheselegalformsthatwillprovidethenecessaryfundinganywhereinthecountry.Medicaidonlycoversin-statecare,and Commissioner Rucker has gone as far as he can with Federal funding. Iknow you’re up against ‘national security,’ and this will help circumvent it.”Commissioner Rucker handed me the paperwork, and pointed me to MarshaWillis’desk.

Marshawas talkingwithMark, and stood up as Iwalked over. “You can filethosepaperswiththeJuvenileCourtassoonasIdeterminethereisnooneinthestate qualified to help her. Federal law stipulates that I must go through thisexercise,” Marsha assured me. “Mark explained Kelly’s conditions over atCumberlandHouse,andIwouldliketomeetyouthereinthemorning.ThenwecancomebackheretomyofficeandstarttheprocessoftransferringKelly.”

Itsoundedsosimple.Toosimple.Markdroveusbacktohismother’shouseinthecountrydespitebeingasexhaustedasIwas.

The next morning when we arrived at Cumberland House the smell of freshpaint filled the air. “You obviously prompted the changes you demanded,”MarshaWillissmiled.

“I’llconsidermyeffortssuccessfulwhenKellyisoutofhere,”Ireplied.Kellymetwithusinthedayroomsincehernewbedroomwassharedwithotherkids.Asmallsparkofhopeshoneinhereyes.

“Canyoutakemehomenow,Mom?”sheasked.

Marsha introduced herself and assured Kelly we were all working on hersituationasfastaspossible. I talkedwithKellywhileMarshaexplained to thestaffthattheirchangesneededtobemorethancosmetic1asnumeroushighlevelpoliticianswereoverseeingKelly’scase.

“Is Tipper Gore working on this case?” a Cumberland House staff memberasked.TipperwashighlypublicizedasaleaderinstatementalhealthsinceshewasSenator2AlGore’swife.

Staff member Charlene Johnson giggled. “You know she can’t sober up longenoughtodoanything.”

Marsha smiled. “Neither she nor Al are working on this case. They are notamong the politicians Iwas referring to. This is a serious case, definitely notintendedforpublicityorphotoops.”

Marsha returned to theDepartmentofMentalHealth toworkonKelly’s case,whereMarkandIsoonjoinedherafterconcludingourvisitwithKelly.

“I’ve already made numerous telephone calls,” Marsha began. “It is reallydifficultdealingwithmentalhealthprofessionals regardingaclassified subjectlikemindcontrol.Theyliketobelievetheyalreadyknowitall.”

Mark and I nodded in agreement. “Have you tried using the word‘brainwashing’?”Iasked.

“Yes,” Marsha said. “I’ve even resorted to using the term ‘behaviormodification’ and I’m still having difficulty simply defining the disorder letalonelocatingrehabilitationforit.Ifyouagree,I’mgoingtore-startmysearchinanattempttolocatesomeonewhocandiagnoseherwithMPD3.”

“IsthereanyonewithinthestatewhocantreatMPD?”Markasked.“Bycurrentmentalhealthstandardsittakesanaverageof8.5yearstodiagnosethedisorder,duringwhichtimeitmustbetreated.Until theIntelligencecommunitycangetaccuratediagnosisandrehabilitationinformationfilteredintothementalhealthcommunity,antiquatedlong-termtherapyisthebestthatcanbeoffered.Howdoyou propose to find anyone in state mental health to diagnose Kelly’s CIAabuse?”

“I was hoping you could tell me,” Marsha sighed. “I’m up against Federalbureaucraticred-tapethatstipulates‘inorderforachildtobetransferredout-of-state of treatment, diagnosis must be obtained within the state first’. Do youknowofanyonewithadegreeinmentalhealthwhocouldsimplydiagnoseher?”

“I thought Commissioner Taylor was able to override this obstacle,” Icomplained.“Thatwasmywholepointingoingintoseehiminthefirstplace.Whoishisboss?”

“LouisSullivaninDCisovertheDepartmentofHealthandHumanServices,”Marshaanswered.“I’llgiveyouhiscontact information,andhopefullyhecanhelp.Inthemeantime,I’mgoingtocontinueinmyefforts.”

“Goodluck,”Marksaidaswerosetoleave.

As I gathered up paperwork, I thanked Marsha for her appearance atCumberlandHouseearlier thatmorning,and forher thoughtful,kindwordsofencouragementtoKelly.

Riding the elevator back down to ground level, I suggested we go see EdithHammons. “Maybe she will set up an appointment with Representative BenWest at the Tennessee Legislature, and tell us who we can see with theDepartmentofHumanServiceshere.This routeofCommissionerTaylor’shastoomanyroadblocks.”

Edithgreetedusatthedoor.“Ididn’tknowyouknewLorettaLynn4.I’mrelatedthroughtheWebbs5.YearsofmysteriesarebeginningtomakesensenowthatIknowaboutmindcontrol.Comein,”sheinvited.“Imadeafreshpotofcoffee.”

MarkandIwentintoEdith’stinybutwarmhouse.“Wecantalkmoreaboutmein aminute,” she said, drying off clean coffee cups from the dish drainer. “IknowKellyisstuckoveratCumberlandHousewhileCommissionerTaylortriestostraightenthingsout,andthatyourappointmentswith(AttorneyGeneral)JoeBrownandMetro(Police)didnotproducetheresultsweneed.Iwanttoknowwhatbringsyouheretoday.”

“Youobviouslyhavegoodsourcesofinformation,”Marksaid.

“Thebest.Me.”Edithpouredthecoffee.

“MarshaWillis…”Ibegan.

“CommissionerTaylor’sbest.”Edithsaid.“Whatabouther?”

“Commissioner Taylor promised to send Kelly immediately out-of-state to

qualifiedrehabafterMarshaconfirmsthereisnoonewithinthestatetotreather.Inordertodothat,shehastoobtainadiagnosisfromwithinthestatefirst.Ofcourse,noone isqualified todiagnoseclassifiedCIAmindcontrol abuses, letalonetreatit.”

“She’s bound by Federal law,” Edith quickly concluded. She picked up thephoneanddialedanumberintoit.“BenWestisafriendofmine.Hecanhelp.”Shespoketohimforseveralminutes,andasked,“Canyoustopbyandseehimthisafternoon?”

Wenodded‘yes’.

“Good.OK,Ben.They’llbethereaftertheyfinishtheircoffee.”

I couldn’t believe she’d said that to a Tennessee Legislator, as if coffeeweremoreimportant.Heobviouslyknewherwell,though,anditcertainlywouldn’thurt our efforts having her clout behind us when we presented him with ourdilemma.

“What do you know about the Commissioner for the Department of HumanServices?”Iasked.

Edith thought aminute. “You’dbestgoaboveandbelowhim,” sheanswered.“BenWestwillbeputtingpressureonhimforyouoncehehearsyourdilemma.”

“We will be contacting his boss, Louis Sullivan, in DC through Clement’soffice,”Marksaid.“AndI’llseeaboutgettingareferralintoseeamanageroverthere just tomakesure theyhaveall thepertinent informationbelowSullivan,too.”

Wefinishedourcoffee.“WhatwereyougoingtotellusaboutLoretta?”Iaskedaswepreparedtoleave.

“I alwaysknewshewasconnected toByrd,now Iknowwhy.The familyhasbeenconcernedabouthis influenceonherandhercareerforyears.Ofcourse,hertalentissogreatshewouldbeasuperstarwithorwithouthisintervention.”Edithsighed.“Ourwholefamilysings.Myhusband,Ed,mydaughterLouAnn,

and I sing gospel and even did some touring before I started working withvictims.I’mgladtobeoutofthemusicbusinesswithwhatIknownow.Enoughaboutme,”shesaidasshehuggedus.“Youtwobecareful.”

Mark’sandmyappointmentwithBenWestwasencouraging.Heunderstoodthedilemma created by state forms that had no fill-in blanks for classifiedinformation, and Marsha Willis’ Federal stipulation obstacle. His apparentsincerity and legislative position with mental health still did not surpass thestrengthof‘nationalsecurity’obstacles,althoughhisinsideknowledgepromisedprogress.We left our information packetwith him. “I’ll do all I can from theinside until I can find a way clear for resolution,” he told us. “Keep meinformed.I’ll tellmysecretary to letyou inanytime,noappointmentneeded.”HewarmlyshookMark’shandandhuggedme.

WewereexhaustedfromanotherlongdayinNashvillewhenwearrivedbackatMelba’shouseinthecountry.“Thatmancalledagain,”shetoldMark,lookingatapieceofpapershehadwrittenon.

“Dibble?”Markassumed‘thatman’wasthesame‘thatman’Melbareferredtobythattitlepreviously.

“No,theonewhocalledlastnight.”

“DaleGriffis?”Markasked.“Didyougetatelephonenumberthistime?”

“Ofcoursenot,”shesaid.“He’sgoingtocallyouinthemorning.”

Dr.DaleGriffiswasaninvestigatorIhadtalkedwithinOhio.Hisreputationasanoccultcrimes investigator6 isnotwhathad initially ledus tohim.Rather itwashisgeographicproximitytoamajorhubofCIAcocainetrafficking.Griffisresided near Henry Ade, who booked acts like Alex Houston into strategicFraternal Order of Police (F.O.P.) shows to dually entertain and distributemassiveamountsofcocaine.SinceIclearlyrecalledthatHenryAdehadvoicedconcernoverGriffis’oppositiontothedrugtradebackwhenIwasundermindcontrol,Ithoughthemightbeanallyinexposingthewholemess.MypreviousconversationswithGriffis usually centered onAquino, though, and then sunkintoapitofsuperstitiondespitemybesteffortstokeephimfocusedontheCIAcocaine operations. He admittedly suspected the cocaine ops proliferating

throughtheF.O.P.viaHenryAde,yetnoofficialinvestigationwaslaunched.

The next morning, we learned why Griffis was contacting us now. “CiviaTamarkinisareporterwithPeopleMagazine,”hetoldus.“ShecoveredthestoryontheMcMartinPreschoolcaseinManhattanBeach,California7.SheconsidersyouauthoritiesonmindcontrolandwantstohelpwithKelly’scase.”

Ourmentalalarmsshouldhavegoneoff.TheMcMartinPreschoolscandalwashighly publicized in the US and had threatened to bring the reality of mindcontrol to light in early 1990. The systematic sexual and ritual abuse of thechildrenwasbeingcovered-upduetothesupposedlyTopSecretMKUltramindcontrolinvolved.MarkandIfollowedthecaseclosely,knowingthatitsoutcomecould set legal precedent and stop the vast proliferation ofmind control. Themedia frenzysurrounding theeventshouldhaveexposed it. Instead, itand the“criminal”justicesystemdiscreditedthechildren,theirparents,andthemassivemovementbyindividualsandorganizationsnationwidededicatedtorisingaboveCIAcontainmenttoexposewidespreadmindcontrolabuses.MagazinessuchasPeoplewhowereownedbyTimeofTime-Warner8wereviewedaspartof thecontainmentproblemratherthanashelpful.Still,Dr.GriffisbelievedinCivia’sgood intentions as strongly as he believed in the power of Satan. “Civiaconsiders you authorities onmind control, andwould like to talkwith you. Ialreadygaveheryournumber.”

Despiteourskepticism,Civiasaidalltherightthings.Sheknewaboutnationalsecurity issues like mind control and CIA drug ops, offering to support usanyway she could. When she heard about Kelly’s immediate dilemma, sheofferedtoreferustoafriendofherswithinHumanServiceswhoworkedunderCommissionerGrunow.“HisnameisCharlesWilson,andI’llcontacthimtodaytosetupanappointmentforyou.”

IimmediatelysetdowntopenmylettertoLouisSullivan,whowasaboveratherthanbelowGrunow.“We’llapproachthementalhealthsystemfromallsides,”Isaid,“justlikewedidtheJusticeDepartment.”

Chapter12POPTOPSandDENTALFLOSS

Over thenext fewmonths,MarkandI literallydrove thewheelsoff thePacerdriving to and from Nashville. The long country road that wound its way toMelba’s tinyruralhousewas treacherous,andwedrove itallhoursof thedayandnight.

Ononenotable tripbackfromNashville toMelba’s, thereardriveshaftbrokeloose from the universal joint, fell to the pavement, and threw sparks. Markmanaged tomaneuver it off to the side of the narrow road. Usingwhat littledaylightwas left,he rummaged through thegloveboxandscoured thegroundforusableparts.Hecameupwithpop-topsanddentalfloss.IknewMarkwasresourceful,usinghisapplicableintelligencetorepaireverythingfrommybraintoelectronics tocarengines.Therewasn’tanythinghecouldn’t fix, itseemed,butthistimetheprognosislookedgrimtome.

“Fixed,” he announced before darkness fell. “It’ll make it home if I driveslowly.”

“We’llnevermakeit,”Iconcludedoutloud.

“Whateverhappened to ‘voicenonegativeswithout a solution’?”Markasked.“What’syoursolution?”

“I promise you that ifwemake it home I’ll never doubt positive possibilitiesagain.”

“BecarefulwhatyoupromisebecauseIwillholdyoutoit,”Marksmiled.“Doyouwanttosweetenthatbet?I’vegotafewproposals.”Welaughedandplayedtheslowdrivehome,whichtotallydivertedmefromworryingabouteachcurvein themountain road.Whenwepulled into thedriveway,Markparked thecararoundbacknearhis sparecarparts and tools.Ashe turnedoff theenginehe

toldme,“Pay-uptime.”

Thesunwasalreadyhighintheskythenextmorningwhenwewokeup.Markslippedintohismechanic’scoverallsandwenttoreplacethepop-topsanddentalflosswithrealcarparts.Idecidedtocleanthehousebeforejoininghim.

IwasnearlythroughvacuumingwhenMarkcamethroughthedoor.Hestoppedinhistrackswhenhesawthecleanfloor,andbentovertoremovehisbootsandgreasyclothes.“Unlessyou’reundressingforafunreason,thereisnoneedforyoutotakeyourclothesoff.”

“Ididn’twanttotrackupthefloor,”hesaiduntyinghisboots.

“You’reworking hard for us.” I tied his bootlaces backup. “I’mnot into thatpower-trip that you need to stopwhat you’re doing just because I’m cleaninghouse.Thatneverhasmadeanysensetome.Nothinginlifeispermanent.Lifeitself isn’t permanent.Why should vacuuming a floor be? Besides, if it wereimportant to me to have everything spotless, it would take me less time tovacuumupthespotthanitwouldtogripe.Anyway,I’mdone.”Iwoundupthevacuumcord,noticingthatMarkstillhesitated.“IstheresomethingIcangetforyou?”

“No,”helaughed,walkingtowardsthebathroom.“Ineedtodothismyself.”

Bynightfallthecarwasrepairedandserviced.Iwasstillamazedthatpop-topsanddentalflosshadheldthecartogetherforthirtytreacherousmiles.“Howdidyouknowtodothatanyway?”Iaskedhim.

“I learned a few tricks that the Cubans use to keep their old US made carsrunningwithoutreplacementparts.BackwhentheCIAunsuccessfullyattemptedtoassassinateCastro1…”

I interruptedMark to ask, “Isn’t it unconstitutional for theCIA to assassinateforeignleaders2?”

“It is,”Markwent on. “Everyone knows they do it anyway.As Iwas saying,when the CIA tried to topple Castro’s government and assassinate him, we

gainedIntel-generatedinsightintothewaytheylivethatisinvaluable.ThetradeembargomakesitimpossibleforthemtogetreplacementpartsfortheUScarsthat were brought down there by the Mafia in the ‘40s and ‘50s, so theyimprovised.Oneoftheiringenioussolutionsgotushomesafelylastnight.”

“Doesn’t the attempt to assassinate Castro somehow tie in with the KennedyAssassination?”

“MafiosoMeyerLanskywasamajorplayerfortheCIA.EventhoughtheCIAandLanskyfailed in theirattemptedcoupandassassinationofCastro,he laterbecame famous for his associationwith JackRuby.LanskyhiredRuby to killLeeHarveyOswaldbeforeanyonecouldquestionhim.”

“Wouldn’t it be nice if people could just share knowledge and ‘ingenioussolutions’ratherthanfightoverdifferences?”

“Wouldn’t it be nice if people made love not war?” Mark’s tongue-in-cheekresponsesoundedrealistictome.

“Let’sstart thatmovement,”IsuggestedasIhelpedhimpeeloutofhisgreasyclothes.

“Thatmovementstartedbackinthe‘60s,”Markinformedme.IwonderedifmyRip-Van-Winkleperceptionswouldevercatchuptodate.

“OK,let’sperpetuateitthen.”

Thenextmorning,wewenttoNashvilleearlytotakecareofbusinessandvisitwith Kelly. We met our appointments with Williamson County officialspertaining to crimes that occurred in their county.WilliamsonCountyDistrictAttorneyJoeBaughandFranklin,Tennessee’sPoliceChiefWisdomgratefullyacceptedtheinformationpackets.

Like Chief Schott, ChiefWisdomwas a friend of Edith Hammons’. He fullyexpectedtobehinderedfrominvestigatingandprosecutingcrimesbythe1947National Security Act. “We have similar cases around here involving mindcontrolandCIAdrugops,andthereislittlewecandoaboutit.Itmakesourjob

ofprotectingandservingthepeoplenearlyimpossible.I’llgiveitmybestshot,though,”ChiefWisdompromised.

WhilewedrovebackintoNashville,MarkupdatedmeonthemostrecentFBIcontainmentefforts.“Onceagainthelefthanddoesn’tknowwhattherighthandis doing. A letter from Senator Sasser3 reached me, and he accused me ofrefusing to provide information to the FBI unless I was provided ‘monetarycompensation’first.IfIhadactuallybeenstupidenoughtodemandmoneyfromtheFBIforinformation,theywouldandshouldhavelockedmeupforExtortion,amongothercrimes.ThataccusationisridiculouscomingfromSasser.”

“IthoughtSasserwasclean.”

“I thought he was just stupid4.”Mark sighed. “I know howChief Schott feltwhenhe foundout his friendRayWhitleywas dirty.Younever knowwho isgoing to stand by their moral convictions and friends when it comes to highcrimescommittedbytheirbosses.Anyway,Sasserrolledonus.”

“Howcanhesaywerefusedtoturninformationin?DoesheknowaboutGarretandTuney?WhatabouttheFBIinAlaska,Nevada,andMississippi?”

“NowyouknowwhyCustomsmonitoredourFBImeeting,”Markremindedme.“ItoldyoutherewasmoregoingonwiththeFBIthanyouknew,andthatLouBockwasaserioushelptous.Icanexposethiswholecover-upnow,andMetrowillbecaughtintheloop.Sasserdidusabigfavoranddoesn’tevenrealizeityet.”

“Whatareyougoingtodo?”

“Red-bagcopiesof thewholemess toDC throughClement,”Markdecisivelystated. “Clement alreadymade sure that Bush5 and Thornburgh got copies ofwhat you are reporting, and the FBI is lookingmoronic for having their boySasser accusemeof extortion. It’s evident thatwe’vegone togreat lengths todistributethisinformation.Weproveiteveryday.”

“We’veevengotthatresponsefromtheWhiteHouse,”Isaid,gettingexcitedatthe possibilities. “And Jesse Helms6 himself contacted the FBI regarding us.

There is so much of our information in DC it seems absurd that FBI wouldaccuseusofwithholdingit!”

“We must be making progress,” Mark assured me. “Someone is gettingnervous.”

Mark’sstatementwasevenmoreapparentbythetimewereachedNashville.

Kelly’scircumstancesatCumberlandHouseweredeplorable.CharleneJohnsonwasworkingovertimetomakeKelly’scircumstancesdifficult,punishingherifshe talked about her past. Once when Kelly refused to wear a pair of “rubyslippers” that someone provided her due to past Oz programming, Charlenelockedher in apaddedcell for threedays.Obviously suchactionswerebeingpromptedfromtheoutside,andCharlenewasdisplayingmorewealthbythedaywithnewclothesandanewcar.

AgynecologicalexamhadbeenperformedonKelly inaccordancewithMetroPoliceandLutonmentalhealth.“Theyhurtme,mom.”Kellycried.“ItwasnotlikewhenDr.Lillibridgeexaminedme.Theypulledmylegsapartandheldmedown,andpulledmyprivatepartsopensohardittoreandbled.ThentheytoldmeIwasn’tabusedasiftheirlieswouldmakemypastgoaway.Besides,theyabusedmehurtingmelikethat.”

“Iamsosorrytheyhurtyou.”Iheldher.“IwishIcouldhavebeentheretostopthemso thatneverwouldhavehappened.Godknowsyou’vebeen through somuchalreadywithout themadding to it.You’reright that their liescan’tmakethepastgoaway.NeithercanCharlene’sdemands thatyoudon’t talkabout it.I’mgoingtotakecareofthismatterassoonasIleave,”Isaidassuredly.

“CharlenethinksIthrewthispictureaway,”Kellywhispered.“It’ssomethingIwasrememberingthattheydidtoyouandme.SinceI’mnotallowedtotalkorwriteaboutit,Idrewitout.”Sheslippedmeapiecepaper,whichIimmediatelytuckedundermyshirt.

“Kelly,I’mgoingtogoseesomefriendswhoaredoingalltheycanforyourightnow.DoyourememberMarshaWillis?She’sworkingreallyhardonyourcase,butshehadbetterbereadytomoveyououtofherenow.I’mgoingtoClement’soffice,too.”IhuggedKellyclose.“I’mgoingtotellthemwhatisgoingonhere

andI’llshowthemthepictureyoudrew,too.Iloveyou.”

IstormedoutofCumberlandHouse.WhenwewerebackinthePacer,Ilookedat Kelly’s drawing and sobbed while I showed it to Mark. It was a veryrecognizablepictureofYoungstownCharmSchool7whereweweretorturedandtrainedtofulfillsexualperversion.

Chapter13FAMILYMATTERS

“Kellyisoutoftime,”IannouncedtoMarshaWillis.ItoldherabouttheshamexamconductedonKellyatMetroGeneralHospital,howshehadbeentreatedso roughly in the course of the ‘gynecological’ procedure, and CumberlandHouse’sdeplorabletreatmentofher.

“Charlene Johnson forbidher to speakofherpast, yet lockedher in apaddedcell for three days because Kelly is still triggering over unresolved issues.”Marsha’s eyes filledwithcompassionas I toldher about the incidentwith the‘rubyslippers’.

“And Kelly is having to sneak me pictures of her memories since she isforbiddenfromwritingthemout.”IshowedMarshaherdrawing.

Marshafrowned.Sensingtheurgencyshesaid,“IammakingprogresstowardsKelly’s transfer.Haveyoufiled thosepaperswith thecourt thatCommissionerTaylorgaveyou?”

“IwaswaitinguntilIabsolutelyhadtofile them,”I toldMarsha,dreadingthewholeprocess.

“If you file with the Juvenile Court in the morning it can help expedite hertransfer.I’vebeenworkingasfastasIcan,andyouneedtobeready.Comebackandseemeafteryougothecourt,andIshouldhavesomenewsforyou.”

MarkandIlefttheDepartmentofMentalHealthanddrovetotheCopyShoptomakecopiesofKelly’sdrawing,aswellasmorecopiesofdocumentstotaketoourappointmentthatCiviaTamarkinhadscheduledforuswithCharlesWilson.

“Iwonderedwhathadhappenedtoya’ll,”Billycalledaswewalkedin.“WhenIdon’tseeyouforafewdays,Igetconcerned.”

“Noneedtoworryaboutus,”Markassuredhim.“We’renotafraid,whyshouldyoube?”

“I’mtoologicaltobeafraid,”Billyclarified.“I’mjustconcerned.”

“Good,”Mark smiled. “Kelly isbeingabusedoveratCumberlandHouse, andwe’removingasfastaswecantogetheroutofthere.I’vegottogoseeafriend,andCathyhassomecopiestorun.”

“Youknowwheretofindherwhenyougetback,”Billysaid,walkingMarktothedoor.

AssoonasIwasthroughmakingcopies,Isetdownintheemployee’sbackroomwithBilly.

“I’msorrytohearaboutKelly,”Billysaid.“Ihopethecourtsystemprovestobemorereliablethanthementalhealthsystem.”

“Me, too,” I sighed.“I’mnotcountingon it, though.We’regoingat this fromeveryangleuntilsomethinggives.Markhascontactswiththelocalnewspapers,and People Magazine is monitoring her case now, too. Bob Clement hasdistributed our information all over Washington for us, including to the USCommissionerofHealthandHumanServices,andevendeliveredcopiesoftheFBIcover-upwhereitmattersmost.Itseemswe’restayingahead,butitreallyhurtstoseeKellytangledinalltheredtape.”

Billy looked somber, and then changed the subject. “I’ve beenwanting to askyouaboutyourbrothersandsisters.Aretheysafe?”

“No,”Ianswered.“They’reallstillundermyfather’scontrol. I reachedout tothem after Mark first rescued Kelly and me, and their initial response washopeful.Afewweeks later,myoldestbrother,EarlWilliam,sentphotosofallthekidswithfreshstungunprodmarksindicatingthatcontrolstightenedaroundthem.”

“Whywouldyourbrotherdoathinglikethat?”

“Underordersfrommyfather,mostlikely.”Icontinued,“HehasthreechildrenofhisownthatarebeingraisedintheProject.Iknowhetriedtocommitsuicidewhenheturnedthirty,whichistheagemindcontrolvictimsaredisposedofdueto the natural electro-chemical changes that occur in the brain. They start torememberchildhoodabuseandoftenbreakprogram.”

Billy thought about it a second and asked, “Is that why repressed memoriessurfacearoundage30?”

“Yes.Andit’salsowhyIwassupposedtobekilledatthatage,”Itoldhim.“Inmycase,though,MarkintercepteduswhenKellyandIwerebeingtransferredtoCaliforniawhereIwastobekilledandKellyhandledbyacreepnamedMichaelDante’.”

“Whydidn’ttheyletyourbrotherdie?”

“BecausehewasraisinghisthreechildrenBilly,Tami,andDavid,accordingtogovernmentspecificationsunderthewatchfulcontrolofmyfather,”Itoldhim.“Mybrother routinely took them toDisneyWorld forMKUltramind controlprogramming, and his youngest son, David, became the poster child for SeaWorldridingShamuthewhale.Thechildren’smaternal1grandmothertrainedtheMaycroftSquaretappersdanceteamthatperformedannuallyinDCattheWhiteHouse.”

“Whataboutyourotherbrothersandsisters?”Billyprompted.

“Ihave two little sistersand three littlebrothers.Thebrother justunderme inage,Mike, isrunningapornbusiness throughhisvideostore inGrandHaven.MysisterKelliJo,whoistenyearsyoungerthanme,wasusedinsomeofthepornhesells.PlussheknewFord.”

“GeraldFord,theformerPresident?”

“Yes.IthinkshehadbeenhurtsobadthroughsuffocationthattheCIAcouldn’tuseherforanythingotherthanfulfillingperversions.She’sabellydancerwhoexcelledingymnastics,andsheisbeautiful.”ItoldBilly.“Myotherlittlesister,Kim,whoistwentyyearsyoungerthanmeknewGeorgeBushandhasbeentotheWhiteHouse.”

“Yourmothermusthavehadalotofkids.”

“Andeveryoneofthemabused.Itflippedheroutprettybaddespitethefactthatshehadbeensexuallyabusedandsufferedfromadissociativedisorderherself.”

“Whataboutyourotherbrothers?”

“Tommywas called ‘Beaver’ after theBeaver Island2,Michiganmind controlcenterwherehewasprogrammedtobecomeaJesuit.Timmyisbipolar,andtheytrainedhimforsports.Iloveandmissthemall,andthebestIcandoforthemnowiskeepshiningthelightoftruthontheircircumstancessotheCIAcan’tusethem.”

“Well, at leastyouandKellyare free, and thatmakesall thedifference in theworldforalotofvictims.”Billy’skindnessandcompassionwerecomforting.

“Kelly’sfreedomisontheline,though,andIcanonlyhopethisnextmovewiththejuvenilecourtfreesherentirely.”

When Mark returned, we kept our appointment with Charles Wilson at theDepartmentofHumanServices.Theappointmentwasuneventfulandprovidednohope.WethenwenttoEdith’stoupdateheronourprogress.

Edith,neveronetowastetime,gotrighttothepoint.“IknowwhatMetrodidtoKellyinthatexam,”shesaid,invitingusin.“I’vescheduledanappointmentforyou with a reputable in-state gynecologist who can reaffirm Kelly’s abusethrough the records and photos you have.” She had seen the photos that Dr.Lillibridge took, as well as his Alaskan reports. “He can also document yourvaginalmutilationcarvingatthesametime3,andheiswillingtodoso.Itmayhelp keepHouston away fromKelly if he reaffirms your horrendous abuse aswell.”

Edith,whoalsohadanurse’sdegree,hadalreadyinspectedthehideousfacethatAlexHoustonhadcarvedintomyvaginawithExactoknivesinaccordancewithSenator Byrd’s perverse demands. She gave us an appointment card with Dr.Presley’s address, contact numbers, and an appointment time for April 15th.

“There is aChurch ofChrist inGreenHills nearDr. Presley’s office that canhelpwithgasmoney.Iknowyouneedit.Just tell themIsentyou.Youmightwant to accept their offering of groceries as well.” Edith was certainlyresourceful. “Good luck with the juvenile court tomorrow,” she said as shehuggedusgood-bye.

Aswewalkedbacktothecar,IcommentedonthewaysEdithhelpedus.“Edithknowshowtoenrichourcircumstanceswaybeyondgivingmoney.Hertimeandadviceareinvaluable,yetshestillunderstandsourmostbasicneedsandseestothemthroughdirectandindirectways.”Ithoughtamoment,reflectingonhowMark was the first to exemplify to me that love and integrity produce moreresults than any amount of money ever could. “You taught me most aboutfinancialpriorities,”I toldMark,“whentheevaporationofyourbankaccountsonlyfueledyourdeterminationtomakeadifferenceforhumanity.”

Marksmiled.“I surecoulduse thatmoney, though, tobeevenmoreeffective.Justiceisboughtandsoldinthiscountry,whichiswhymyaccountsevaporated.They think they can contain us by keeping us so poor. They don’t know ourhungerforjusticeandrehabforKellysurpassesphysicalhunger.”Markopenedthecardoorforme,andcontinuedashestartedthePacer.“Somedaywe’llhavemoneyagainandyou’llbeabletobuythingsforKelly,andI’llgiveyouthingsyou’veneverhad.”

“Likewhat?”Iasked.“I’vegoteverythinginyou.”

“Clothes,foronething,”Marksaidlookingatmycharityattire.I’dneverboughtclothesformyselfbefore.Undermindcontrol,otherslikeByrddictatedwhatIshouldwearfromhigh-classwhoreclothestoCatholicschooluniforms.

“Clothesdon’tmattertomemuchsinceI’mmostcomfortableinmyownskin.Someday my birthday suit may wrinkle, but I’d celebrate that just to live solong!”

“You’re innerbeauty is so radiant, itwouldn’tmatter if yourbirthday suit didgain wrinkles. I’d simply like for you to have the experience of choosing awardrobeforyourself.TherearesomanygiftsandfunexperiencesthatI’dliketogiveyou.”Mark steeredus out of the traffic andonto thepeaceful countryroadbackhome.

“Give.That’s thekey.It’snotwhat isgiven, it’sagivingheart thatmatters.”Iknewmoney didn’t buy happiness anyway since I had been around unlimitedextravagancewithmiserablepeopleinDC.

The next morning we were at the juvenile court when the doors opened.“CommissionerTaylorsentmehere,”Itoldtheclerk.“Hesaidthiscourtpetitionis a necessary formality for obtaining my daughter’s rehabilitation funding. Ihave no intention of relinquishing any custodial rights or controls over hercircumstances.”

Ifurtherexplainedthatourattorneyhadrecentlyquitdueto‘nationalsecurity’issuesinvolvedinthecase.Sheasked,“Arethereanyabusersfromwhichyourdaughtermayneedprotection?Ifso,you’dbestwrite theirnamesdownsowecanprotectherlegally.”

In my own handwriting, I wrote a brief paragraph referring to medical andmental health records naming Alex Houston and Wayne Cox among Kelly’sabusers.Even so,Cox filedchargesagainstmebeforeMarshacouldcompleteherworktowardsKelly’stransfer,andseeminglyasfastasthecourtpaperswerefiled.April 2, 1991, Iwas embroiled in a custody battle thatwould “legally”hinderKelly’stransfer.

Violations of laws and rights beganApril 9 in an attempt to cover-up crimesperpetratedbyKelly’spoliticallyaffluentabusers.Allmedicalandmentalhealthrecords documenting Kelly’s abuse were instantly rejected by the court ongrounds they were “from out-of-state.” I was not permitted to testify on herbehalforinmyowndefensefor“reasonsofnationalsecurity.”

Local and national media, victims’ advocacy groups such as Edith HammonsOrganized Victims of Violent Crime, and all supporters were quickly bannedfromthecourtroom.‘Expertwitnesses’FBIAgentsBradGarrettandPhilTuneywerecalledtotestify.Tuneytestified,“Thereisnosuchthingasmindcontrol,”whileGarrett recommended thatMark Phillips be banned from the courtroomand fromseeingKelly sincehewas an“expert onmindcontrol.”Thisblatantcontradictionwasaccepted,andMarkwasbannedfromthecourtroomandfromfurthercontactwithKelly.AllofmyvisitswithKellyweretobesupervisedsothatIwouldn’tsaywords like‘mindcontrol’or‘MarkPhillips’.4Worstofall,KellywaswarehousedatCumberlandHousewithouttherapy.

Iwas hindered inmydesperate attempts to untangle the quagmire of red tapethat Commissioner Taylor’s ill advice had caused by court ordered probation.The probation imposed on me was supposedly due to my not yet having apermanentaddresstoprovidethecourt.TheonlyaddressIhadwasMark’sPostOfficeBox inGreenHills.Cox’s attorney,BobAnderson, told JuvenileCourtJudgeAndyShookhoff, “Since shecan’t live inaPostOfficeBox, IneedheravailableincaseIwanttoserveherpapers.”SoJudgeShookhofforderedthatIsitinthehallofjuvenilecourtfordays.Atleastitwasaquietspot,andItookadvantageofthetimetowriteoutsomeofthememoriesthatwerefloodingmymind,suchas:

When the 1984 Governor’s Convention was held in Nashville, Tennessee atOprylandHotel,SenatorByrdwasthere.ThisparticularconventionfocusedonGlobalEducation20005, and Iwasworking thereunder totalmindcontrol forReagan’sSecretaryofEducationBillBennett6andTennessee’sformerGovernorLamarAlexander7.LouiseMandrellwasworkingthereaswell,andIspoke toher regarding her sister Barbara’s recent car crash.8 I had known Louise foryears.WayneCoxworkedasasteelguitarplayerforherandRCBannonwhileIwasbeingtransferredtoAlexHoustoninearly1980.CoxhadalsoworkedwithBarbara for years when she was very young. Plus, Alex Houston workednumerousshowswithbothBarbaraandLouisethroughoutthe1980’s.

DespitehavingoftenbeenaroundByrd’sotherslaves,Irarelyhadopportunitytospeakwiththem.Thiswasstrictlyforbiddenasitcouldcauseustoinadvertentlytriggereachotherintodiscussinggovernmentsecretswe’dbeenconditionedtoforget9. Yet no one interfered for several minutes as Louise and I discussedBarbara’sdirecircumstances.

InadditiontodiscussingBarbara,wetalkedabouttheglobaleducationsystem10

and how I had been used in the press to promote “our education Governor”McWherter.Icouldnotthinktotellherhowthiseducationsystem,nowinfullswing in theUSandglobally,wasdesigned to increaseourchildren’s learningcapacitywhiledecreasing theirability tocriticallyanalyze. Icouldonlyparrotwhat I had been programmed to say that night to promote it to our nation’sGovernors.Still,Byrd reprimandedme for talkingwithLouisewhen I arrivedlateformyrendezvouswithhimatOprylandHotel’sRhettButlerrestaurant.

Being back in Nashville now was opening my mind up to eight years ofmemories fromwhich Iwas totally amnesic. Iwas remembering somuch,yetnoneof itwas freeingKelly froma corrupt andmanipulated so-called “legal”systemintheStateofTennessee.

When theprobationwas finally lifted, Iwentdirectly toMarshaWillis’ officedemandingtoseeCommissionerTaylor.Herefusedtoseeme,andMarshawasimmersed in the same quagmire of red tape thatwas deliberately covering upKelly’sdireanddesperateneed.Marshavoiceddeepconcern,whispering,“TheDefenseIntelligenceAgencytoldmetoletyouknowthatyourlifeisinseriousperilifyoukeeptalkingaboutKellyandmindcontrol.”

Unintimidated,IfollowedthroughwithmypreviouslyscheduledappointmentatGovernorMcWherter’soffice.HisassistantBernieDurhamsaid thatGovernorMcWherter“didnotdealwithsuchcases,”shookmyhand,andshowedmethedoor.BeforeIleft,Ihandedhimapacketofdocumentsandinformationfortheirrecords.“GovernorMcWherterwillneedthese,”Iassuredhim.MarkandIwerelaunching an international awareness campaign thatwould eventually result inthousandsoflettersfromallovertheworldaskingGovernorMcWherter“whatdoes‘nationalsecurity’havetodowiththedocumentedrapeandmolestationofachild’smindandbody?”

WhilewewererunningcopiesonEdith’soldcopymachine,itworeoutandquit.WhenGovernorMcWherterrefusedtosupplyherwithanewone,shewasnotsurprisedanymorethanwewere.Edithtookitallinstride,relentlesslyfocusingonresolutionofKelly’sneed.

Chapter14IT’SNOTOVER‘TILWEWIN

“Mom!”Kellyjumpedintomyarms,herblueeyessparkling.“EdithHammonscametovisitme.Shetoldmewhatyouanddadaredoingtogetmeoutofhere,andthatawholebunchofpeoplecareaboutme!”

Edith hadn’t yet told me about visiting Kelly, and I could only imagine thestrings she pulled to get through Cumberland House’s no-visitor policy withregard to Kelly. Obviously she knew her way around and had said the rightthingstokeepKellyawareofthelovesurroundingher.

“I’vegotmyownroomnow,”Kellyproudlytoldme.Ilookedaroundherdrearyroom that was sparsely furnished with several beds. “I’ll have a roommatetomorrow,though.”IleftthesmallsackoftoiletriesI’dbroughtheronthedesk,wishingIcouldhaveaffordedtobringhersomethingfuntobrightenherdismalsurroundings.SheneverevenlookedinthesackwhileIwasthere,althoughshehuggedmeforbringingit.

Asocialworkerstoodatthedoorwithherarmscrossed.“You’renotsupposedtobeherewithoutsupervision,”shesaid.

“Whowantstosupervise?”Iasked.“Wedon’thaveanythingtohide.”

Thesocialworkereventuallytradedherpostatthedoorforachair,relaxinginthe warmth of the relationship that Kelly and I shared.We had so little timetogether to enjoy each other’s company that we maximized every moment.Despiteourtorturouspast,ourrelationshipwasstrong.

Censorshipofourwordsseemedabsurd tous.Wehad longsincedevelopedaheightenedsenseof telepathiccommunicationwhenwewere tortured together.Itwas as thoughwehad been blasted into parts of the brain that people haveforgottenhowtouse.Whilemostpeopleuseareported“10%oftheirbrain,”we

wereusingprimitivesensoryfunctionsandotheraspectstomakeupforourlackof free thought. Kelly and I utilized this ability to exchange sensoryunderstandingon a level similar to animal communication1,whichextends farbeyondmerewords.Thisnaturalmodeofcommunication,saidtohavebeenthecommon languagesharedbefore theBiblicalTowerofBabeldividedmankindbylanguagebarriers,isaphenomenonrecognizedtodaybetweensometwinsorcoupleswhohavelovedtogetherforyears.ThroughoutKelly’svictimizationbytheStateofTennessee’sso-calledmentalhealthandjusticesystems,ourrelianceon this innate telepathic system kept us in full communication despitecensorship. This was small consolation for the gross injustice that forced ourfamilyapart.

WecriedtogetherunderthewatchfuleyeofthesupervisorwhenItoldherthatshewashalfinstatecustody2bycourtorder.Iexplainedthatitwasaformalitythatwould eventually contribute to freeing her. I also told her, “That piece ofpapercannotchangethefactthatyouaremydaughterandIloveyou.”

Kellywipedhertears.“It’snotover‘tilwewin,huhmom?”sheasked.

“We’llwin,”Iassuredher.“Andit’snotover‘tilwewin.”

“Time’s up,” the social worker supervising us announced. Supervised visitscertainlyhadtheirlimitsinadditiontobeinganinsulttoourrelationship.

I kept my appointment with Dr. Presley in hopes it would provide a furthermeasureofsafetyforKellyfromWayneCoxandAlexHouston.CoxwasfreetoseeKellywithoutsupervision,despiteKelly’sdocumentedrecordsprovinghimanabuser.MycourtappointedLegalServicesattorney,JeanCrowe,doubledforthe judgeonhisdaysoff.Andher efforts to impose restrainingorders againstCoxhadyettoproduceanyresults.Itseemedthatshe,likethejudge,wasboundbyfederal‘nationalsecurity’intervention.

Dr.PresleywasapleasantChristianmanwhosesoleintentionwastomedicallydocumentwhat he saw.With in-state records of his reconfirmation ofKelly’sextensive sexual abuse, andmy vaginal mutilation carving, perhaps the courtcould levy the restraints against Cox that Kelly so desperately needed. Dr.Presleywas prepared towaive all financial charges for the appointment sinceEdith apparentlyhadexplainedour financial condition. I offered theMedicaid

card issued to me through the Violent Crimes Compensation Commissionanyway,sinceitwasintendedtofundanycourt-orderedexams.

MarkandIwentdirectlytotheCopyShop,madecopiesofthedocumentation,and then took the records straight to JeanCrowe’s office to be filedwith thecourt.

“Therearealotofrumorsflyingaroundaboutyoutwo,”Jeaninformedus.Shelooked at Mark, “I’ve even been told you are a containment expert who isdiscreditingmindcontrolsurvivors.”

Markquicklydeterminedthiscourtappointedattorneymostlikelywouldnotbeequippedtodealwithnationalsecurityissues.“IfIwereacontainmentexpert,why arewe being contained?Andwhy am I not being paid off? I don’t evenhaveenoughgasinthecartogetbackhome.You’dbestusesomelogicinthiscase,Ms.Crowe,andstoplisteningto‘rumors’obviouslybeingorchestratedbytheoneswantingtocontainthiscase.There’salittlegirl’slifeonthelinehere.”

Ihandedherthemedicalrecords.“Ifyouwanttoseewhatcontainmentreallyis,youneedtogoovertoCumberlandHouseandseewhatishappeningtoKelly.She is counting on me to get her out of there. Charlene Johnson is beingblatantlyabusive,andisgrowingrichintheprocess.HernewcarandgaudynewwardrobearethetalkofCumberlandHousestaff.Haveyounoticedherinfluxofmoney?”

“Well, I have,” Jean admitted. “I’ll go see Kelly myself after court in themorning.Iwanttomeetheranyway.”

Thenextmorning,Iwasatthecourtafewminutesearly.WhileIwaited,Cox’sAttorneyBobAndersontoldKelly’sso-calledguardianad litemMarthaChild,stateattorneys,andCharleneJohnson,“Gather‘round.It’spay-offtime.Cathy’sfather3 thanks you all.” Bob Anderson counted out money into the hands ofthosepresent.WhenJeanCrowefinallyarrived,Itoldherabouttheincident.

“You’rejusthysterical,”shesaid.

Dr.Presley’srecordswerepresentedtothecourtandrejected.Theonlyrecordsthatwouldbeaccepted‘werethosethatthestatewouldrequest.’Iautomatically

assumed all exams would be rigged from then on, and prepared myselfaccordingly.

JeanCrowewenttoseeKellyaftercourt,onlytodetermine,“shelooksnormaltome.”

Despite non-stop persistent efforts to keep Cox from seeing Kelly, he wasgrantedsupervisedvisitation.OnApril15,hisvisitwithKellywas“supervised”byCharleneJohnson!AccordingtoCumberlandHouserecordssecretlyslippedtome by an employee, andKelly’s ownwritten testimony, Charlene Johnsonphysically forced Kelly to have visitation with Cox despite her screams andpleas. Cox delivered CIA codes, keys, and triggers in an effort to incite herprogrammedrespiratoryfailure.

Kellywentintosevereasthma,requiringmedicalattention.Shealsolostover10lbsintwoweeksduetoextremestress.Thisisdocumented.

IattemptedtofilecriminalabusechargesagainstCharleneJohnson.IwastoldthatsinceKellywasinjointcustody,onestateagency(theStateofTennessee)couldnotlegallysueanotherstateagency(CumberlandHouse),andthereforeIhad‘nocase.’

Kelly,whowas severely depressed, brightenedwhen she sawme on our nextvisit.“I’dliketointroduceyoutomyroommateandnewbestfriendLindsay.”

Asweetlittlegirlwithhugeeyesandapixiehaircutshylysaid,“Hi.”Herpupilsweredilatedasthoughtraumatized,andshewasasfrailandthinasKelly.“TheFBIwasinvolvedinmyrapery,”shewhispered.

Despite having invented a word, her sincerity and meaning were clear. Thesocial worker that would be supervising today was walking towards us, andKellyquicklysaid,“HerfatherisFBI,andhermotheristryingtogetherback.Canyouhelpher,too?”

“Please?”thelittlegirlasked,withtearsfillingherbigeyes.

“I’lldowhat Ican,” Ipromised. I turned toKelly,“GodknowsDadandIare

determinedandpersistentenough.Whenwewin,itwillsetprecedentand…”

“Ms.O’Brien,I’mgoingtohavetoaskyoutoleaveifyou’retalkingaboutcourtmatters,”theCumberlandHouseworkertoldme.

“IwishKellyhadaworkerasconscientiousasyoutosupervisewhenCoxwashere,”Itoldher.Kellysmiled.

Lindsay gaveKelly a knowing look that indicated the depth of understandingtheyshared.IsilentlyconveyedmyassurancetoLindsay,andKellyandIwenttothedayroomforoursupervisedvisit.

As I prepared to leave,Kelly said, “WhenEdithwas here, she toldme aboutCongressmanClement and her friendRepresentativeWest. She said they careaboutme,too.Iwrotethemletters.”Kellywasaheadofthegameasusual.Shegaveme two handwritten pages of letterswith another hidden between them.“Willyoupleasemailthemforme?CharleneJohnsonwon’tmailthemforme.Shetoldmeshedoesn’tevenwantmewritingthem.”

“Of course I’ll make sure they get them,” I assured her, unaware that theCumberlandHouseworkersupervisinguswouldreportherforreachingout.ThesoulstirringpleasthatshewrotebroughtmetotearsforyearseverytimeIsawcopiesofthemorthoughtoftheinjusticetheyspawnedinthecourt.Kellywouldbe forbidden by court order to write or receive mail, which was against USConstitutionallawandhumanrights.

Markwaswaitingpatientlyinthecarwhenourvisitwasover.He,too,criedashereadtheletters.Thethirdoneshehadhiddenwastohim.Shewrote:

DearDad,Imissyou.I’mdoingeverythingIcantogetthisclearedup.I’msneak-writingtopeopleliketheRepresentative.ShesigneditoffwithheartsandLove,Kelly.Theothertwolettersread:

DearRepresentativeWest,PleaseHELP!CourtismakingmeseemybiologicalfatherWayneCoxandnotallowingmetoseeMarkandhavingmehavesupervisedvisits.Pleasehelpme.Love,Kelly.

DearCongressmanClement,IreallyneedHelp!Courtismakingthingsworse.Courtismakingmeloosethetwo people I lovemost (mom,Mark) andmakingme seeWayne Cox. He istriggeringmyasthmaandhe’smakingmelooseMark.He’slyingaboutabusingme.IfyoucanPleasegetmeoutofthissituationandhelpmetoseeMarkandtohaveunsupervisedvisits.HELP!Love,Kelly.

Chapter15THEHUNDREDTHMONKEY

“Howmany others likeKelly are being abused by the system for ‘reasons ofnationalsecurity?’”IwonderedaswedrovebacktoMelba’s.ItoldMarkaboutmy encounterwithLindsay.My childhood environment had been so saturatedwith incest that I thought thewholeworldwas thatway. In the 1980’s, I hadwitnessedvastnumbersofpeoplebeingmindcontrolled.“Iwonderhowmanyofthemsurvived?Andiftheysurvived,aretheybeingmistreatedbyanignorantmental health and justice system? Why are people so blind? When is thisnightmaregoingtoend?”

“Haveyoueverheardofthehundredthmonkey?”Markasked.

“No.Whatdomonkeyshavetodowiththis?”

“Itisatheory,notmeanttobeinterpretedsoliterally,”Markexplained.“Itisanexample of evolution in progress. When an action, positive or negative, isrepeated for three generations it becomes genetically encoded. It becomes aninbornautogenicresponse.Ifamonkeycollectsantsonahoney-coatedstick,forexample,andothermonkeysseeheiseatingmorethanthey,theycopyhim.Bythe time thehundredthmonkeybeginscollectingantsonahoney-coatedstick,the added energy creates an ideological breakthrough that affects the wholesociety.When thewholesocietyofmonkeysdoes this for threegenerations, itbecomes their culture. According to Ken Keyes Hundredth Monkey studies,when that hundredth monkey’s added energy creates the ideologicalbreakthrough, evolution occurs. Even monkeys on other continents startcollecting ants on honey-coated sticks without copying. They are bornknowing.”

“IsthisnaturalprocesswhyIdonotrelatetoperpetuatingincestdespitemyownmultigenerationalbackground?”Iasked,realizationclearingmyvision.

“That’sthetheory,”Marksaid.“Peopleareonthevergeofevolvingoutofthisnonsensedespite theeffortsofacriminal fewwhostill cling to thebelief thattheirsecretknowledgeequalspower.”

“Allittakesisonemonkeytoletthesecretout,andbythetimethehundredthmonkeyknowsit,thecriminalsincontrolarehistory.”Iconcluded.

“Unlessthehundredthmonkeycouldn’tthinktodoso.Addmindcontroltotheequation.Hitler/Himlerresearchintogeneticsandmutigenerationalfamilies ledthem to believe that they could control the future by controlling society.Operating on the philosophy that secret knowledge equals power, theywouldkeeppertinentfactsfromthepeopleandaltertheirnaturalevolutionaryprocess.Theyknewthattraumaslikeincestandtortureleftpeoplehighlysuggestibleandeasily led. After three generations of incest, abuse, and ignorance it becomesgenetically encoded and people are bornmore compliant. Itwas believed thatthiscouldbeaformulaformassmindcontrol.”

“Generationsofwar1couldcreatethissamecomplianceinpeople,”Iconcluded.“Godknowswaristraumatic.”

“Hitlerisawarningfromhistorytoallofus.”

“Did theNazi’s reallybelieve thatmindcontrolwould suppress thehundredthmonkeyevolution?”Iwondered.

“Itisnotsosimple.”

“Obviouslynot.Irealizeknowledgedoesn’tfitinabox,”Isaid.“I’mstillonmylearning path just like everybody else, so I’m not trying to package it all up.Thereisalwaysmoretolearn.Yetthatseemslikealogicalquestion.”“The whole concept of mind control has evolved beyond Hitler’s theoriesthrough technological advancements,” Mark reminded me. “Plus we’ve hadgenerationsofconditioningnow.”

“But we’re not monkeys,” I argued, falling back on my original literalinterpretationforillustration.“Thestrengthofthehumanspiritwasn’ttakenintoconsideration.Thehumanspiritisstrongerthangenetics.”

“This is true,” Mark laughed. “Obviously the whole mind control theory isflawed,orwewouldn’tbewherewearetoday.”

MymindreturnedtomyoriginalpointaboutLindsay,onlyIwasfeelingmuchmorehopefulnow.

“WhatdidyoutellLindsaywhensheaskedforourhelp?”Markasked,turningontothewindingcountryroad.

“Iassuredherwewouldsetprecedentandmakeadifferenceforher,”Itoldhim.I thought for a minute and elaborated. “Not exactly in those words but thethoughtwascommunicated.”

“Sheunderstands?”

“Absolutely,whichconfirmsherabusetomeevenmorethanherwordsdid,”Isaid.“Ifonlypeoplewouldsimplyrealize,acceptandutilizetheirinnatethoughtcommunicationcapabilitywithouttheabuse2.KellyandIweretalkingaboutthisand…”

Marklaughed.“Isn’tthatredundant?Whytalk?”

Suddenlythisdeepsubjectseemedlight.“You’reright,”Ilaughed.Itfeltgoodtolaughandbalancetheintensityofourday.“Peoplethoughtcommunicatemorethantheythink.”

Marksmiledandrolledhiseyes.

“Well, theydo.Thinkabout it,” I smiled.“And theanswer toyourquestion is‘yes’.”

“Areyousurethat’smymindyou’rereading?”Mark’sgazeindicateditwasn’t.“Becausethereisnoquestion.”

“Well, I got yourmessage loud and clear,” I squirmed inmy seat, hopingwewerecloser tohome thanwewere.“Itdoesseemthat regardlessofwhereourmentalfocusis,partofusstaysinconstantcommunication.”

“Isn’tthatcalled‘attraction’?”

“Icallit‘love’,”Igiggled.“Thoughtcommunication,likeoursex,ridesonthewingsofloveandcommunicatesbeyondmerewords.”

“Tellmemore,”Mark suggested, pulling into the driveway. “Want tomonkeyaround?”

Chapter16CRIMINAL“JUSTICE”SYSTEM

ThenexttimeIsawKelly,Lindsaywasgone.

“CharlenesaysIhavetogetalongwithmypeersorbelockedinthepaddedcell.Mom,thekidsherearenuts.Mostofthemaresatanists.I’dratherbebymyselfthanlistentotheirnonsense.”

Kellywasright.Hermindcontrolledpastleftherwithheightenedsuggestibility,whichextendedtowhatistermed“mirroringandmatching.”Shewouldtendtowalk their walk and talk their talk, and she was struggling to overcome thisconditionedbehaviorinordertohealandlivetrue-to-soul.BeingpunishedifshedidnotconformtoCharlene’sdemandswascounter-productivetotherapy.

“Theyholdséanceshereforgroupactivity.”

“Whodoes?”Iasked,believingKellymustbeeitherexaggeratingorsufferingflashbacks.

“MelissaThurmondandallthekids,andCharleneforcesmetoparticipate!”

I thoughtofall the satanicgraffiti aroundCumberlandHousewhenKellywasfirst admitted. Swallowing my rage, I approached the worker who held theritualsandaskedheraboutthem.

“It’sallinfun,”MelissaThurmondtoldme.“Wedon’tdoitforreal.”

“Ifthesechildrenknewwhatrealitywastheywouldn’tbehere.Apparentlyyoudon’tknowwhat‘real’meanseither.Thereisn’tany‘fun’inreinforcingnegativebehavior,superstition,andthehorrormanyofthesekidshaveexperienced.Iwilladdress this issuewith theCommissioner ofMentalHealth, State Legislators,thecourts,media,andanyoneelsewhowilllisten.Thisisarchaictherapyandan

absoluteoutrage.DonotmakeKellyparticipateinanymoreofyourridiculousrituals.”

“I follow orders fromCharlene, not from you,”Melissa toldme. “AndKellydoeswhatCharlenetellshertodo.Iamnottheoneforcinghertodoanything.”

WhileIspokewithMelissa,KellywastoldbythesocialworkersupervisingourvisitthatshewasnevertospeakofCumberlandHouseactivitiestomeagainasitviolatedconfidentialityfor theotherchildren. Ifshesaidanythingmore,ourvisitswouldbeterminated.

Kelly and I looked at eachother in total understanding.Sheknew Iwouldbeworkingonthisissuefromtheoutside,andIknewshewouldkeepmeapprisedofhercircumstancesthroughoursilentcommunication.Ourbondgrewstronger.

“Wehave got to find an honest attorney,” I toldMark aswe leftCumberlandHouse.

“Howdowe seek anhonest attorney in a seaofdeception?”Mark said. “Themostsuccessful,highestpaidattorneysaremastersofmindmanipulation.TheyuseNLP.”

“NLP?”Iasked.

“Neuro Linguistic Programming1. It’s the language of the subconscious. Ofcourse,knowledge isneithergoodnorbad, it’swhohas controlof it forwhatpurpose.IwisheverypersonknewNLP.Thenitcouldn’tbeusedtomanipulatetheircriticalanalysis.”

Ithoughtforamoment.“KnowledgeisouronlydefenseagainstNLPthesamewayit’souronlydefenseagainstmindcontrol.Oncepeopleunderstandit,theyknowwhattowatchforandguardagainst2.”

“NLPsubliminalshavelongsincebeenusedinadvertisingandmarketing,andyet people are still ignorant about it because the government keeps theinformationsuppressedsinceitisanintegralpartoftheirarsenalformarketingtheirownagendatoasociallyengineeredpopulation.Attorneyswhoareaware

ofituseittomanipulatethemindsofthejury,andeventhemindofthejudgeifhedoesn’thavetheknowledgetodefendhimselfagainstit.”

“If people thought communicated3 rather than used attorneys, they would getstraight to the truth,” I said. “Instead, they rely on someone to be lawfulwhosimplymanipulateseveryone’sthoughtsandconclusionsthroughasecretmeans.It’snowonderourjusticesystemiscalled‘criminal’!”

“SomedayNLPmustbe taught in thegradeschoolsystem,”Marksaid.“Theneveryonewill have the knowledge and can no longer be led by it. Look howsomeattorneysperpetuatetheirsecretknowledgeofNLPtoadvanceintopoliticssimplybymanipulatingmindsofthepublicwiththesamemeansbywhichtheymanipulatethemindsofajury.”

“Traficant isaperfectexample.WhilehewasSheriffofYoungstown,OhiohewascaughtincriminalactivitythatranthroughCharmSchool.”

“TheonewhereyouandKellyweretortured?”Markclarified.

“Yes. The one she drew the picture of. Anyway, Traficant admitted to takinglargebribes4 tooverlookdrug traffickingandprostitutionwhenhewascaughtredhandedin1980.SinceIknewhimbackthen,IwasawareofhisinvolvementinCIAcocaine,mindcontrol,andprostitution.Bythetimehiscourttrialcamearound in 1983, he had been promoted toCongress.He used subliminals andNLPonthejurythesamewayhemanipulatedthemindsofhisconstituentsandtrainedsexslavesatCharmSchool!Hegotoffonallcriminalcharges.”

“Now he’s running containment by cozying up to the patriots of this country,manipulatingtheirmindsthesameway,”Markpointedout.“Thegoodnewsis,scum bags like him andCharlene Johnson usually get set up to take a fall todivertattentionawayfromthecriminalactivityofthehigher-ups5.”

“Iwishpeoplewouldwakeupandarmthemselveswiththefacts.Itcouldallbesoeasy.Instead,wehavetofind‘anhonestattorneyinaseaofdeception’justlikeyousaid.”

“Iwas toldbyaCIA/DIAofficerwhoworksoutofClarksville6 tocontact the

headoftheTrialLawyersAssociation,ReeseBagwell,andseeifwecanfindacleanone,”Marksaid.“IhavereasontobelievethisBagwellguyisasdirtyasanyattorneycanbe,whichiswhyhe’sheadoftheTrialLawyerslobby.Wehavenochoice.Kelly’soutoftime.”

MarkandImetwithAttorneyReeseBagwell.Bagwellwasworkingalongsideof his former law school roommate Frank Rubino, who was the appointedattorneyfortheformerPanamanianLeaderandCIAcocaineoperativecapturedin‘JustCause,’ManuelNoriega.TheDIA’s‘specialagent’JimDibblewasalsocooperating with Bagwell at the time, which provided further validation andinsightintothevalidityofourcase.Still,wewerecautious.Afterall,Bagwell’sofficewaslocatedinClarksvillenearFortCampbell,andhisbehindthescenesactivitiesreekedofDIA,CIA,andJesuitaffiliation.Asidefromhisassociationwith Noriega, Bagwell’s “friends” included Michael Gilstrap, head of theNationalCoalitionAgainstPornography,andformerAmbassadortoFrance,JoeRodgers7.

Bagwell’s Catholic Jesuit ties and the Mormon ties of his robotic-appearingpartner Phil Kendrick did not keep them from associating with Gilstrap,Rodgers, and their ‘Tabernacle Baptist’ church. This church, considered bylocalstobeacultchurch,usedamassivebluemonarchbutterflyfortheirlogo.MarkandIquicklydeterminedGilstrap’sN.C.A.P.organizationandchurchwereacatch-netoperationforNashvillemindcontrolsurvivorswhenwehadcausetoattend ‘Tabernacle Baptist’ at the request of one of his robotic slaves. Themassivestructurehadanupperbalcony,whichwasstrangely linedwitharmedmilitary personnel apparently guarding the sophisticated electronic equipmentwesawinusethere.Wemetwithourcontactasscheduledasshefearedforherlifeandwaspleadingforhelp.BelievingGilstrapintendedtohelpvictimslikeher,shegaveushisbusinessofficeaddress.

Gilstrap’s ‘toy-manufacturing’ front8 did little to hide his CIA agenda whenMark and I met with him.When his use of CIA and Jesuit codes, keys, andtriggers to Pentagon-level mind control programming failed to produce thedesired results inme,Gilstraphad resorted to stroking thebladeof aknifehehadpulledasa threat.Thewebwewere tangled inwasbecomingclear tous,andwetookallofthisintoconsiderationwhenwemetwithBagwell.

“We need a clean attorney with a security clearance who can deal with the

nationalsecurityissuecoveringmindcontrol,”Marktoldhim.“Becauseofyourposition,youaretheonlyindividualqualifiedtogiveusdirection.”

“Mypartnerwillhelpyou,”Bagwellassuredus,pushingtheintercombuttontopagehim.“Ofcourse,youknowyouareplayingwithfireandareliabletogetburned.”

Mark, who didn’t take veiled threats from anyone, rose like lightening in aneffort to preventBagwell from leaving the room.His partner opened the doorjustintimeforhimtointroduce,“PhilKendrick,”ashehurriedoutthedoorlikeascaldedcat.

Kendrickwaskind,thoughhisdilatedpupilssuggestedthathissinceritywouldnotsurpassinevitableordersofcontainment.Onceagain,wewereblockedfromconventional justice and resolution of Kelly’s escalating need. No help wasoffered,andonlyveiledthreatsvoiced.

WeconveyedtheinformationofourexperiencetoRepresentativeWestwhenwedelivered Kelly’s heart-wrenching plea to him. He was working behind thescenesforKelly’scausejustasEdithknewhewould;yetthemagnitudeofthecontainmentwas seemingly insurmountable. I told him about the rituals beingheldatCumberlandHouse.“Kellyand Idonot take responsibility forwhatwewere tortured to doundermindcontrol,butnowthatweareawareandhealing,wetakefullresponsibilityfor our actions. No excuses. Not only is Charlene Johnson beingcounterproductive to Kelly’s rehabilitation, she is also forcing Kelly to actagainsthermoralconviction.”

Representative West’s concerns were obvious. “The rituals will stop, Ms.O’Brien.Icanassureyouofthatmuch.”

“Are we any closer to obtaining a diagnosis within the state so she can betransferred?”Iasked.

“Talk with Marsha Willis,” he answered, giving me a knowing look. “BarryNurcum9hasagreedtotakeKelly’scase.”

“Whatmadehimchangehismind?”Iaskedsuspiciously.“WhenCommissioner

Ruckercontactedhimin1989,heclaimedhewasnotqualifiedtohelpher.”

“Vanderbilt Psychiatric is a DefenseDepartment Subcontractor,”Mark added,noting that Dr. Nurcum, an Australian citizen, worked there on a green cardworkpermitapparentlyunderwrittenbytheD.O.D.

“I understand there is hope anyway,” RepresentativeWest assured us. “WhenMarsha learned that Charlene Johnson punished Kelly for reporting abuse toJudgeShookhoff,andthatyoureffortstoprosecuteherarehinderedbystatelawprotectingCumberlandHouseworkers, itseemssheconvincedhimto take thecase. Despite how grim things may appear, there are many people deeplyconcernedforallthreeofyou!”

“What do you know about US Customs?” Mark asked, shifting the subjectslightly.

BenWest smiled. “Iknow that InternalAffairswillbecoming in to interviewbothofyou.Theyareseriousaboutcleaningupcorruptionintheiragency,andapparentlyyoutwoareprovidingthemwithsignificantinformation.”

MarkwassurprisedhealreadyknewaboutourpendingInternalAffairsmeeting.

BenWestloweredhisvoice.“IalsoknowthatAgentLouBockmayhavehelpedsaveyourlives.”

This same insight was raised again when we saw Marsha Willis later thatafternoon.“Iwasreallyconcernedforallofyou,”sheconfided.“Mark,Iknowyou are capable of keeping Cathy safe as long as you two are alive.” Sheswallowedheremotion,“IwasrelievedtolearnofLouBockandBobClement’sintervention on your behalf to the FBI. This case is tough. Everyone will bemuch safer when Kelly is transferred to rehabilitation, and Dr. Nurcum hasagreedtoevaluateherforthenecessarydiagnosis.”

“Howcanhedothat?”Iasked.“Healreadysaidhe’snotqualifiedtodiagnoseMPD/DIDletalonemindcontrol.”

“I spokewithDebbieUpchurchof the ICAM10 organization.Apparently your

meetingswithher,andhermeetingswithKellyprovidedherenoughinsightintothevalidityofyourcasetocompleteStateformswithadiagnosisof‘looks likeMultiple Personality Disorder,’ andDr. Nurcum is qualified to determine thatmuch.”Shesmiled.“Kellybeginstherapywithhimimmediatelyafterhemeetswithyoutwo.Younamethetime,andI’llschedulethemeeting.”

“We have extensive meetings already scheduled with Internal Affairs,” Markbegan.

“Customs?”Marshainquired.

“Yes,”Marksaid.“Sowe’llmeetwithhimthefirstofnextweek.”

“Done,”shesaid.

OurmeetingswithUSCustomsInternalAffairsbeganthenextday.Inadditionto detailed testimony, I provided photographic details describing corruptCustomsofficialsinvolvedinCIAdrugoperations.JoseBusto’sIntercontinentalShippingbasedinSanJuan,PuertoRicowasofparticularinterestsincehehadmasqueraded as a US Customs and Immigrations officer with NorwegianCaribbeanLinescruiseships11.Throughoutthe1980s,myassociationwithCIAdrugopsviaNCLhadplacedme incontactwithnumeroushigh rankingdruglordsandpoliticians;includingManuelNoriega.

By1986,Noriega’sblatantcocainedealingsthreatenedtofurthercomplicatetheongoingIranContrahearings. Inaneffort to threatenNoriega intosilenceandtemporary inactivity, a meeting took place in Bradenton Beach, Florida nearMcDillAirForceBase.IwasthereonNoriega’syachtalongwithOliverNorthand Aquino, among others12. The object of “Operation Shell Game” was toappealtoNoriega’ssuperstitionssincealogicalapproachhadn’tslowedhisCIAcocaine ops down. Psychological Warfare, which is designed to incitesuperstitious response, was used to no avail. Soon after, CIA Chief WilliamCaseydiedofasuddenbraintumorthedayhewastotestifyinIranContra,andthe scandal diverted away from Noriega’s dealings. By the time Bush Sr.’s‘OperationJustCause’resultedintheincarcerationofhisformerCIAassociateNoriega,muchpertinent informationhad come to light that not onlyvalidatedourcasebutbroughtustothispointofprovidingdetailstoInternalAffairs.

“Your experience ties in with Watchtower13,” the Customs Internal Affairsofficer told us. “We have numerous validations, yet are continuously beingstoppedfromthetopinDC.Wewanttoknowwhy.I’msendingintwoofmybest agents from Florida to interview you at length. Compensation forinformation likeyours runs into thehundredsof thousands,andI’ll seewhat Ican do to have the funds released to you despite your declining FederalProtection.Quite frankly, I don’t blameyou for turning downprotection fromthecriminalsyouareturningin!Ican’tpromiseyouanything,butIcanassureyouIwilldoallIcantohavethiscompensationreleasedtoyouinorderthatyoucanbetterprotectyourselvesandgetsomerehabilitationforyourdaughter.”

I already felt drained of every bit of information by the time Agents JackDevaneyandHowardRudolphcameintomeetwithus.RatherthanconducttheinterviewinLouBock’soffice,theysuggestedwemeetattheirhotelsuitewhereeveryonecouldbemorecomfortable.“Wecanorderapizza,stretchoutonthecouch,andenjoyafewcomfortswhilewedragyouthroughall this testimonyagain,”Devaneysaid.

Mark and I were comfortable with these interviews regardless of where theywereconducted.Itwasstrenuoustrudgingthrougheverydetailofmyexperiencerepeatedly,yet itwas important that itbe recordedmore thanonce forprecisecomparativeaccuracy.Sincemymemoryofsucheventswasphotographicduetothemindcontroltraumainvolved,itwaseasytellingthetruthoverandover.Atthesametime,itwasexhaustingmindworkforhoursonend.

Agents Rudolph and Devaney were kind and compassionate. Their boss inFloridaworkeddirectlyunderVonRaab,and itwasduring thecourseof theseinterviewsthatwelearnedtheextenttowhichVonRaabhadsucceededagainstinsurmountableoddsinweakeningthedrugoperations.WhenGeorgeBush,Sr.washeadoftheCIA,heoversawthissamesoutheastregionthroughwhichCIAdrug ops were established14. Overcoming Bush’s obstacles to unveil the drugoperationswasanenormousaccomplishmentconsideringhewasofficiallyUSPresidentatthetime.

“We risk our lives, infiltrate Caribbean drug operations, bust the drug lords,catchtheleaders,obtaintheplans,dismantlethestructure,thenwegetstopped.UndercoverCustomsagentsandDEA15areexposedandkilled,leadersanddruglordsand theconfiscateddrugsarebackon thestreets,andplansareputback

into action before we can finish dismantling them,” one of the agentscomplained.

“Havingeyestoseethesecovertoperationsisquiteanaccomplishmentinitself,“Ibegan.“Irealizethatthemoreyouknow,themoreyousee.Still,mostpeopledon’t thinktolookfor thiskindofcriminalactivitywhenit involvesawomanandherchild,andparticularlywhenitinvolvestheirfavoriteentertainer!JimmyBuffet’s direct involvementwithCIA drugs ops inKeyWest naturally placedhimina‘key’positiontoexchangedrugforarmsinCuba.”

“DoyoubelieveBuffetwasundermindcontrol?”Iwasasked.

“Absolutely not!” I exclaimed. “Buffet was highly skilled in using CIAmindcontrol codes, keys, and triggers to program or access me to ensure theoperationsheorchestratedwerepreciselycarriedout.Notonlywashiscoverasasuccessfulsinger/songwriterhighlyeffectiveindivertingpeoplefromhisCIAaffiliation,hewasalsohighlyadeptatcarryingoutcovertoperationsunnoticed!”

DevaneyandRudolphsmiledandnodded toeachother.Apparently theywerealreadywise toBuffet’sKeyWestCIAops.“Cuba isonly88miles fromKeyWest,”oneofthemprompted.

“Buffetbraggedaboutbeing‘Uncle’spointmantoCuba’oncewhenIwasusedin a drugs for arms operation,” I answered. “The boat Buffet used in theoperationlookedlikeanormalspeedboat,yetitgotusfromKeyWesttoCubaquickly. Drugs were being exchanged for rocket launchers to be sent toAfghanistan.TheCIAwasarmingtheAfghaniFreedomFightersagainstRussia,and the same “You Are What You Read” programming George Bush (Sr.)subjectedmetowasbeingusedthroughouttheCuba-Afghanistanoperation.Mypurpose in being there was to deliver the Afghanistan book embossed with agoldkeyusedinprogramming.”

Rudolphasked,“AreyousayingthatMKUltrawasusedinCuba?”

Markspokeup.“Considering thatshewasundermindcontrolat the time,shewouldhavehadnoabilitytoconsciouslycomprehendspecificdetailsregardingthe programming of others. Since shewas likely on amilitary base, andMKUltra mind control is used in all military facilities, the information she is

reportingsimplyprovidesfurtherspecifics.”

Devaneymade a note and askedMark, “Are you aware of anymind controltrainingfacilitiesinAfghanistan?”

“Mind control training camps encompass the globe,”Mark began. “There aremoremindcontrol trainingcampscroppingupeveryday,particularly those intheMiddle East that are sponsored by the Arabs,Mossad, and US! The vastevidence regarding those blond-haired blue-eyed children who are beingabductedandtransportedintoSaudiArabiaformindcontrolpurposesisonlythetip of the ice-burg.FormerUSmilitarywhohavenot beendeprogrammed, aswell as men from war torn and impoverished countries are prime targets forthese terrorist mind control facilities. Mind control is out of control, and the1947NationalSecurityActfurthercoversthisinvisiblemenace!”

Devaney and Rudolph were making notes in addition to the tape recordercatching every word. “This certainly clarifies Custom’s dilemma in resolvingtheseissues.EverytimeVonRaabsubmitsplansofresolution,DickThornburghinDCshootsthemdown.Iknowhe’sdoingthesametoyourcase,andallwecandoispersist.”

“Thornburghisblatantlyandvastlycorrupt,”Isaid.“HowmuchlongercanhestayintheofficeofAttorneyGeneralwiththelikesofVonRaabfrustratedwithhisblatantinjustice?”

“There are two scenarios at work here,” one of the agents answered. “One,followthemoneyandtrailsofcokerightintoThornburgh’sofficeandpubliclyexpose him through the media. Or two, expose his criminal activity from adifferentangle.He’stangledupinsomuchitwon’tbehardtodo.”

“Orthree,”theotheragentsaid,“Catchhimbothways.Aslimysnakelikehimcouldwigglefreeofanythingunlesshe’soverwhelmedfromeveryangle.”

Wetalkedonintotheevening,fillingupeveryaudiotapetheyhadwiththemandour own!By the timewe parted, Customs InternalAffairs knew everything Iknew about Thornburgh, Bush, Noriega, Jose Busto, Jimmy Buffet, theCaribbeanbranchofCIAdrugops,thearmingofNicaragua’sContras,andthedestabilizationof theMiddleEast throughthearmingofAfghanistanandIraq.

MarkandIknewwehadstrongsupport,andfriendsasdedicatedasweare todismantlingthecriminalcorruptionthatwaserodingthesoulofAmerica.

Chapter17GOVERNYOUROWNTHOUGHTS

Theclockon thewallof theStahlmanBuilding’sLegalServicesoffice tickedannoyingly loud,as if toremindMarkandmethat timewaspassingwhilewewaited.My court appointed attorney, JeanCrowe,was finishing up her lunchhourbeforemeetingwithme.Mark’sstomachgrowled,disruptingthemonotonyofourwaitasitechoedthroughtheemptywaitingroom.Finally,thesecretaryappeared.

“Ms.Crowewillseeyounow,”sheannounced.

“WhyhasKellybeendeniedtherighttotestifyincourt?”IaskedJeanCroweasshewipedcrumbsfromherdesk.

“Itwas just a hearing anddoesn’tmatter, anyway,” JeanCrowe toldme. “AllKellydoes is incitenegative response fromCumberlandHousewhen she tellsthejudgethatCharleneisabusive.”

“How can that not matter?” I was agitated. “It is bad enough that I am notallowed tobeKelly’svoice toprosecuteCharleneJohnson.Nowshe isdeniedaccesstothecourt,aswell.Whatvoicedowehave?”

“Well,” Jean cleared her throat. “You haveme. Kelly has CumberlandHouseattorneysandaguardianadlitem.”

“Are you aware of the séances that are being held as ‘group therapy’ atCumberlandHouse?”

“Oh,Cathy,”shesighed.“That’sjustallinfun.”

Iswallowedmyrisingrage,standingfirmonlogicratherthanallowingmyselfto be blinded by emotion. I tried another direction. “Kelly is forbidden from

tellingmeanythingfurtherabouthercircumstances; IamdeniedcopiesofherCumberlandHouserecords;Coxandhisattorneyhavefullaccesstoherandarereportedly triggeringher;herhealth is failing;shecanno longerwrite, receivelettersorhavephonecalls;sheiscounseledthatherpastisnotrealandthatIaminsane…”

“Well?”Jeanraisedhereyebrows.

“IwishIwereinsane.Thennoneofthiswouldbereal.Therewouldbenosuchthing as mind control, Kelly would be OK, and all would be right with theworld!”

“Thewholeconspiracytheoryisirrational.”

“You’replayinggameswith semantics,” I countered. “This isn’t about a ‘wildconspiracy’; it’s about real crime. It’s about theway things are. It’s about thepoliticalaffluenceoftheperpetratorsinvolvedwhoarehellbentoncoveringuptheir crimes at all costs. They’ve got all themoney and influence, I’ve got awelfareprobonoattorney,andKellydoesn’tevenhaveavoice.”

“AndIhavealifeandothercases,youknow,”JeanCroweasserted,asthoughIwereimposingonher.“ThisshouldbeaFederalcase,notoneforfamilycourt.”

“Wellatleastweagreeonsomething,”Isaid.“But,asyoumustknowbynow,Dick Thornburgh and so-called “national security” are blocking all routes toconventionaljustice.Theultimatejusticewillbepositivechangethroughpublicawareness, anyway. The media is hot on the issue of mind control andgovernment corruption right now, and theywon’t stop until Dick ThornburghgoesdownasthemostimmoralcriminaltoeveroverseetheUSDepartmentofJustice.”

“Mark my words,” I said, gathering my paperwork. “Dick Thornburgh’sreputationandcareerareontheline…thelineofcokethatleadsstraighttohisofficeanduphisnose.Hewillbeforcedtoresigninascandalthatwillshaketheso-calledhallsofjusticeofthiscountry.Maybethenyou’llbefreetodoyourjobandatleastrestoreKelly’sConstitutionalrights.”

I stormed out of the office, slumping against the wall of the elevator as it

groanedandsqueaked it’swayup to theDistrictAttorney’soffice.“Straightenup,”Markadvised.“ThismeetingwithScottRosenburgmayresultinprovidingKelly’stickettofreedom.”

Markwas right. By filing for back child support fromCox throughAssistantD.A.ScottRosenburg,wecouldbe awarded sufficient funds toobtainKelly’stransfer to qualified rehabilitation outside the state of Tennessee. At the veryleast,perhapsitwouldlegallybindCoxtowherehewouldn’tbeabletocontinuehisvisitswithKelly.

“Come in,” Scott Rosenburg invited me into his office as he perused thepaperwork I had provided. He took out his calculator. “According to thesefigures,Coxowes inexcessof$21,000 inbackchild support.”He lookedup,satisfiedwithhisconclusions.“Ifwecanprove…”Hisphonerang,interruptinghisstatement.“Excuseme,”hetoldme.“Yes,”hesaidintothephoneandhungitup.Aknockatthedoorpromptedhimtopickupalargefile,whichhehandedto a secretarywithout discussion. “I’m sorry,” he apologized, his soulful eyesreflectinghissincerity.“Weareunderfundedandunderstaffed.Ichosethisjobtomakeadifferenceforthekids,and…”

Another secretary poked her head in the door. “Yourwaiting room is full andyouhaveameetingin15minutes.”

Scottsighed.“Iwouldliketotalkwithyoufurther,Ms.O’Brien.”

“Cathy,”Idroppedtheformality.

“Iheardaboutyourcasesometimeago,Cathy,andknowthatyouhavesupportfromthemostmoralpoliticiansIknow,”Scottsaid.

“Iusedtobelieve‘moralpoliticians’wasanoxymoron,”Ismiled.“NowIknowbetter. It’s more like ‘military Intelligence’… few and far between butneverthelesspossible.”

“Let’s see what we can do about getting that back child support that’s owedyou,” Scott said. “Kelly needs it.How can I reach youwhenwe’re ready forcourt?”

“ThroughJeanCrowe.Sincewe’reinjuvenilecourttwoorthreetimesaweekthesedaysI’minherofficeoften.”

“Whileyou’reinthebuilding,comeupandseeme.Thiscaseistoppriorityandshouldbereadyforsixthcircuitcourtsoon.”Scottstoodup,lookingmeintheeyeashewarmlyshookmyhand.

ItoldMarkaboutournewpossibilitiesaswedrovetoourappointmentwithDr.BarryNurcumatVanderbiltUniversityPsychiatricHospital. “Even ifKelly isawarded a fraction of the amount that is owed,” Mark said, “we can obtainserioushelpforher.”

“MaybeInternalAffairswillsucceedinarrangingforcompensationandhelpforKelly,”Ioffered.

“WithDickThornburghheadoftheJusticeDepartment?Countingonthecourtstoservejusticeisastrongerpossibility.”Heparkedthecar.“I’mgoingtomakeaquickphonecall.I’llmeetyouinNurcum’soffice.”

I rode the elevator up to the psychiatrist’s office, feeling more confident inMark’s plans than I did in Dr. Nurcum’s abilities. Mark joined me as Dr.Nurcum’ssecretaryinvitedusin.

Dr.NurcumwasalreadyawareofKelly’scasethankstoMarshaWillis,andnotimewaswastedonrecapitulatinghistory.“I’llbeginseeingKellynextweek,”hetoldus.“Inthemeantime,youtwomustceasetalkingaboutmindcontrol.”

“We havemeetingswith top law enforcement officials, politicians, andmediapersons,andyouwantmetoavoidthewordsmindcontrol?”Iasked.

“Nooneknowswhatyou’retalkingaboutanyway,”Nurcumstated.

“CiviaTamarkinwithPeopleMagazineknowswhatmindcontrolmeans,andIamawarethatyouknowCivia,”Icountered.“Shespeakshighlyofyou.”

“I’mtellingyoutoforgetabouttheissueofmindcontrolbecauseitwillcostyouyourlifeifyoupersist.”Nurcumwasbecomingagitated.

“Ihopeyouwon’tbeadvisingKelly to‘forget’aboutreality.”MywordswerelosttothefrictionrisingintheroomasMarkstoodup.

“Waitaminute.YouareKelly’sdoctornotourattorney.”

“I’mtellingyoutoshutup.”

“Youdon’twanttodothat,”Marksaid,beginningtosmile.

“While I domy job, youmust shut up.”Red rose in his neck asDr.Nurcumstoodto lookMarkin theeye.Igatheredupourpapersandpreparedto leave.Fast.“IknowwhatI’mtalkingabout,shutup!”

“Are you quoting Civia Tamarkin, or is she quoting you?” Mark asked,sarcastically referring toa recentconversationhehad recordedwithher.CiviahadapparentlybeentippedthatweweremeetingwithNurcum,andhadadvisedusto“forgetaboutmindcontrol”and“shutthef---up.”

“PeopleMagazinewon’tbequotingmeaboutthiscase.”Nurcumsaid.

“If youwere quotingCivia, youwould haveused the same foul language shedid,”Marksmiled.“Iwonderwhobothofyouarequoting?Whoseadviceareyou two following that has you so hysterical over two littlewords like ‘mindcontrol’?Wise up. Think for yourself. Either way you’ll be losing that greencardassoonastheguardchangesinDC.”

MarkandIwentoutthedoor.OnthewaybacktothecarIsaid,“Hisofficeiscrawling with Feds. They may as well have punched eye-holes in thenewspaperstheyweren’treadingtowatchmoreclosely.”

“They’d have removed their dark glasses if they needed to see better,”Markadded.“Theywere there tobeseen, and it seems theyachieved theirpurpose.Theyknow they can’t intimidate us, but they sure did succeed in intimidatingNurcum.Thatdoctorneedsaheavytranquilizer.Waituntilyouhear the tapeImadeofhimlosinghistemper.”

“IsKellysafewiththisarrangement?”Iwasconcerned.

“IbelieveNurcum’sintentionstohelpheraregenuine,”Markobserved.“ButIdon’ttrustanyonewhoisthatscared.He’drollinaheartbeat,andhiscowardlyheartisbeatingfastfromfear.Let’sgotoplanB.Imadeaphonecallthatisverypromising.Idon’twanttodiscussitaroundhere,though.”

We talked about our options and plans aswe drove back toMelba’s house inCharlotte.Withoutprovidingunnecessarydetail,Mark toldmeabout a trustedassociate on the inside of the Intelligence Community who had access totechnology that couldhelpKelly. “Oneof thebest spies in theworldwas justdeprogrammed through thisdoctor andmadea remarkable recovery.He’s safeandthinkingfreeagain.ThisdoctorisawareofourcaseandhasagreedtohelpKelly.Wecouldusethatchildsupportsettlementtogetplaneticketsoverseas.”

I knew better than to question him further. Mark always shared whateverinformationhecouldwithme,andtopressforadditionaldetailsaheadoftimewas both unnecessary and unsafe. I excitedly pondered the possibilities,reflecting on my meeting with Rosenburg. His soulful eyes had shined withsincerity,andIfeltbetteraboutmyconnectionwithhimthanwithanyoneelseinvolvedinKelly’scase.NurcumIwasnotsocomfortablewith.Ithoughtbackonourmeetingwithhim,andsuddenlylaughedoutloud.

“Whatintheworldissofunny?”Markasked.

“Itjuststruckmefunnythatyoutoldaleadingpsychiatristto‘thinkforhimself.’ConsideringwhatKellyandIemergedfromandwhatwe’vebeenthroughwiththementalhealthsystem,itseemsironic.”

Marksmiled.“Ifyou liked thatone, thenyou’ll like the letter I justsent toAlGoreafterherefusedtohelpKelly.”

“Ireallyhopedhe’dhelp.Hedoesn’tseemlikeabadguy.”

“He’snot.Norisheagoodguy.He’sjustaguywhodoeswhathe’stoldwhohasjumpedthroughsomanyhoopshenolongerhasanoriginalthoughtofhisown,”Mark explained. “So I sent him themessage in DC ‘govern your ownthoughts’hopinghewouldreconsider.”

“Whatdidhesay?”

“Nothing.LikeIsaid,Idon’tbelievehisthoughtsarehisown.”

IponderedhowMark’smessage toGore reverberatedwithprofoundmeaning.“Therewouldbenosuchthingasmindcontrolifeveryonerealizedtheneedtoapplythephrase‘Governyourownthoughts’.”

Chapter18COVEROPS

“Oneofour‘guardianangels1’gavemeacontactnumberforRitaJenretteof‘ACurrentAffair’TVshow.Ijusttalkedwithher,andifthiscomesoffasplannedit couldbe a realbreak forus,”Mark toldmeas I emerged froma refreshingshower.Itwasabrightmorning,andweweregettingdressedforameetingwithourlocalDistrictAttorneyDanAlsobrooks.Weneededhimtobeawareofourgrowing reputation as government whistleblowers and the precariouscircumstances that accompanied it. He had also stated interest in our caseregardinga localcriminalby thenameofErnestRayLynn2.Fornow, though,ourfocuswasonthephonecallthatMarkjustcompleted.

“Rita Jenrette is a Washington insider turned television host. Her TV newsmagazineisshakinguppolitics.”Markpausedtopokehistongueinhismuscledcheekforasmoothershave.

“Is she part of the media expose’ on Dick Thornburgh that Customs InternalAffairsreferredto?”Iasked,pullingonmybluejeans.

“Yes,”Mark splashed shaving cream fromhis handsome face. “A former FBIOperativebythenameofDarleneKinseyandherpartner,CIAAgentandfieldofficerBradleyAyers,turnedinevidencethatcorroboratesyourinformationonCaribbeanCIAcocaineops.Theywouldlikeyoutoseetheshowthat’sairingtonight since they’ll be showing photos of that mansion in Jamaica you talkabout.”

“Thatsoundsinteresting,”Icommented,passingMarkthetowel.

“What’s interesting is that they, too, tie this whole thing to Thornburgh, hisinvolvementinthedrugindustry,and‘nationalsecurity’cover-up.”

“Howaretheysurviving?”Iasked,deeplyconcernedfortheirwelfareknowing

all-too-wellthedifficultiesencounteredwhilewhistleblowing.

Compassion filled Mark’s eyes. “Darlene Kinsey said her husband has beenmurdered.Officially itwas ruled a suicide, but that’s not theway she sees it.Rather than succumb to terror tactics being used to silence her, she’s goingpublicwiththeinformation.”

“Smart move.” I looked at my watch. “We have twenty minutes to get toAlsobrooks’office.I’llgetourbriefcasesandmeetyouinthecar.”

Mark had the carwarmed up and ready to go by the time I climbed in a fewminutes later. The ‘pop-tops and dental floss’ were holding up great, and thePacerwas as reliable as ever.Switchinggears fromour earlier conversation, Iturnedtodiscussingourupcomingmeeting.“IsDanAlsobrooksclean?”

“We’re about to find out,” Mark said, steering us toward the small town ofCharlotte, Tennessee. “Edith Hammons says he’s clean. She’d have cause toknowsincehe’sinvestigatingErnestRay.”

LorettaLynn’sson,ErnestRay,wasindictedforshootingawomaninthebackinwhatwas termeda ‘trailerpark’ fight3. IhadknownErnestRay throughoutthe 1980’s since he was traveling the CountryMusic circuit as front man inLoretta’s band. In reality, I knew him to be acutely involved inmind controlatrocities,CIAcocainedrugops,andhadevenheardhimbragthathe“couldgetawaywithmurder4”duetowhatheknewaboutSenatorByrd.ErnestRaywasacting in the capacity of Loretta’s mind control handler along with her RoadManagerKenRileywhiletheydealtinCIAcocaineopswithoutherknowledge5.

DanAlsobrookswasascleanasEdithhadsaidhewas,andhepromisedtodoallhecouldtohelpkeepussafe.Hewasinapositiontohelpconsiderably,andhedid.Wesharedapassion for justice regardlessof the fameand/or influenceofthe perpetrators, as well as a need to stop the flow of corruption that washinderingprosecutionofthem.MarkandIsharedinformationwithAlsobrooksregardingThornburgh,‘nationalsecurity,’andwhatIknewaboutEarnestRay.

“ErnestRayisnotedforhis‘charmingpersonality’andforbeinga‘lady’sman,’whichinrealityissimplythatheusesNLPtomanipulatethemindsofeveryone

heencounters.HemasteredmindcontroltechniquesthroughhisCIAfriendsandcontacts.IknowfromexperiencethatheassociateswithByrdandBillClinton.ThatshiftoftheCountryMusicIndustryintoBransonwasadeliberatemovetobring Nashville’s branch of CIA drug ops closer to Clinton’s Mena Airport6operations.ThesearepowerfulcontactsforErnestRay,whichallowshimtobeprivytoclassifiedinformation.”

“WhatdoyouthinkofErnestRay’scharacter?”Alsobrooksasked.

“HeknewMKUltracodes,keys,andtriggerstomymindcontrolprogrammingandaccessedsexualaspectsforhisownperversion.That’snotexactlybeingthe‘lady’s man’ he portrays himself to be, but it does illustrate his total lack ofrespect for CIA ops. He wasn’t supposed to be doing that, and arrogantlylaughed at anyone trying to stop him. He was a loose cannon. Pretty crazy,really.Anyonesoimmoralastorepeatedlytraumatizehisownmothertocontrolher iscapableofabsolutelyanything. I’mnotsurprised thathe iscaughtup inlegal trouble, although prosecuting him will be a challenge considering hiscontacts.”

“Hewillbeprosecuted,”Alsobrooksvowed.“He’sgoingtolearnthattherearethosewhodoopposehiscriminalactions.”

MarkandIleftDanAlsobrook’soffice,satisfiedthatsomeoneofhiscalibersharedourpassionforjustice,regardlessoftheoutcome.“ThegoodDAisinforasurpriseifhethinkshecanputErnestRayaway,”Marksaid.

Thatnight,aftertheTVnewsmagazine‘ACurrentAffair’publiclyrevealedthedirect involvement of Dick Thornburgh in CIA Caribbean cocaine and mindcontrolops,RitaJenrettetelephonedagain.Hershowwasbeingcancelled,theirliveswerethreatened,andallthreewerenowfranticallystrivingtosurvive.

“Darlene,Bradley,andIwillbeappearingonGeraldoRivera’sshowrightawaytoexposethecontainmentthathasbeenplacedonus.”

“Geraldo?”Markasked.“Youknowheisawareofourcase,vowedtoexposeit,thenrolledoveratthefirstthreat.Geraldoisaspinelesssensationalist.”

“I’mnot surprisedat all,”Rita said. “Butwehavenochoice. It is amatterof

gettingourvoicesheardnowordie.”

Markvoicedhisunderstanding,offeringsupport.

“I’vebeenaroundDCenoughtoknowhowtosurvive,evenifmyshowdidn’t,”Ritasaid.“ItwasworthittoexposeThornburgh.Hehasgottobestopped.Iamconcerned forDarlene, though.Thishasbeenhardonher.” Itwasagreed thatMarkwould stay in contactwithDarleneKinsey until all necessarymeasureswereinplacetoensurehersafety.

WhenGeraldoaired,itwasbrief.Thethreewereremovedfromtheshowduringcommercial break. Darlene was back in contact with Mark immediately, andgreatlengthsweretakentomaintainhersecurity.

In the meantime, Kelly’s security remained a primary concern as well. HersessionswithDr.Nurcumhadbegun, andknowing thatVanderbiltPsychiatricHospital isaDefenseDepartmentSubcontractornever leftmymind.Afterall,Vanderbilt Hospital was where Kelly had been taken several times per yearduring the1980’s.Oncewhenshewas theredue to respiratory failure,Lorettawasin thePsychiatricwingat thesametimereportedlybeingreconditionedinMKUltrastyle.Vanderbiltwasanightmarefromthepastthatwasintrudingonourpresent.IquestionedKellyforeverydetailinanefforttomonitorherlevelofdissociation.ThebestnewsshehadtoofferwasthatshefeltlikeNurcumwaslisteningtoherregardingCox.

MarkandIleftCumberlandHouse,checkedourPostOfficeBoxwhichwasstillbeingfilteredbytheCIA,andwentovertotheCopyShop.Afterrunningafewnecessary document copies and updating Billy, we began the drive to adesignatedrendezvouspointforameetingwithJohnMorrow.

“WhoisJohnMorrow?”Iasked,shiftingmyfocusfromKellytoourmeeting.

“He’swith theNebraskaLeadershipConference7.He traveledhere inorder tomeet with us. Apparently one of the kids8 Houston abused in Boys Town9 istalking,and they’vegotquiteabitofevidenceonsomeof thepoliticiansyounamed, likeGeorgeBush10. They know aboutMKUltramind control, sexualchildabuse formindcontrolpurposes,CIAcocaineoperations, andabsolutely

nothingaboutsurvivingcontainment.”

“I’m really hungry,” I complained, knowing it seemed trivial in light of theissuesweweredealingwith.Yet,itwasanintrusivefact.

“SoamI,”Marksaid.“Didyoubringanypeanutbuttersandwiches?”

“Wewere out of peanut butter. Imade egg sandwiches for us instead.” I dugaroundtheconsolehopingtofindloosechange.“Doyouhaveanychangeforasoda?”

“Iwish,”Markanswered.“Idon’tevenhavemoneyforgas.Let’shopewehaveenoughgasinthetanktogetbackhomefromourmeetingwithJohnMorrow.We’resupposedtomeethimatahotelroomallthewayacrosstown.”

Weknockedonthehotelroomdoor.Awide-eyedgentlemanopenedthedoorasfarasthesecuritychainwouldallow,checkedbehindus,andquicklyletusin.

“They’ve alreadykilledour investigator,” Johnbegan. “GaryCaradori andhisson,nearlyayearagoJuly11,1990.Hehadtheevidence.”

“Whoknewhehadtheevidence?”Markaskedaswewalkedinandsetonthecouch.

“Everybody. We thought if everyone knew, we would be safe.” John’s eyesbrimmedwith tears.ObviouslyhewasaconcernedcitizenandnotahardenedIntelligenceofficer.

“Thefirstruleofsurvivalismakingcopiesofeverything.Thesecondiskeepinga tape recorder running.” Mark flipped open his briefcase to reveal the taperecorder.“Andneveruseacourtroomasaforum.”

Johnwaswritingeverythingdownasfastashecould.“Thecourtcaseisalreadyunderway.Everythingisgoingwrong.”

Mark and John talked at length. The CIA had already infiltrated the Franklincase,leavinglittlehopethatvictimsPaulBonacciorAlishaOwenwouldhavea

chancetohealandrecoverfromtheirordeal.TheparallelsbetweentheFranklincaseandKelly’sextendedfarbeyondAlexHouston,yetwecouldnotalignwiththeNebraskaLeadershipConferenceduetotheextenttowhichtheywerebeingpulled down by the very ones they sought to expose. Their evidence againstGeorge Bush, Sr. was overwhelming, as was ours. Yet convergence of theinformation could have placed Kelly in the same precarious position that theNebraskavictimswerestrugglingtosurvive.

“Let’sstayincontact,”Marksuggested.“Maybewecanhelpeachothersurvivethismesswithoutaligningourefforts.”Aswewentoutthedoor,Johnhuggedusbothasthoughhe’dneverseeusaliveagain.

AsMarkdrove thePacer towardhismother’s,wemadegooduseof the timediscussingevents.Weknewwewereindeep,yetwealsoknewwecouldsurviveaslongaswekeptourselvesfreeofothercasesandorganizations,andrecordedandcopiedeverything.

“The Nebraska Leadership Conference is one more example of how well-intentionedorganizationsbecomeinfiltrated,”Markcommented.

“Why are they alignedwithTedGunderson?” I asked.Tedwas awell-knownand liked former FBI agent who was Resident Agent in Charge of theSoutheastern Division in Memphis during the years that I was abused. HeclaimedhehadnotbeenawareoftheblatantandrampantCIAdrugoperations,let alone mind control. Gunderson’s recent investigations into the McMartinPreschool11 child abuse scandal resulted in one of the worst nightmares inCaliforniahistory.Tedretiredin1979asSeniorSpecialAgentinChargeoftheFBIinLosAngeles,California,andhisfriendshipwithLAPoliceChiefDarrylGatesblazedthroughtheinfamousLAriots12.

“Idon’tknowwhytheyassociatewithGunderson,”Markanswered.“Ialwayssay ‘I knowwho to trust because I knowhow to trust’ becauseofpeople likehim.Ted is such a likable person, yetwe know better than to align ourselveswithhim.He’slikethekissofdeath.”

“HeremindsmeofLeslieNeilson’scharacterin‘NakedGun13’whereeveryonearoundhimdieswhileheobliviouslysmileshiswaythrough,”Imused.

Mark laughed.“You’renot thefirstperson tomake thatcomparison.TedevenlookslikethatNeilsoncharactersincetheybothareofNorwegiandecent.”

“Why are people judged by their projection rather than by their actions?” Iwondered.“Theoldadage‘neverjudgeabookbyitscover’certainlyshouldbeapplied.PeopleinthepubliceyelikeErnestRayandotherentertainersIknow;orJimTraficant,andmostpoliticiansIknow,canprojectanythingandfolksbuyintoit.Why?Can’ttheysee?”

“InthecaseoftheNebraskaLeadershipConference,”Markthoughtfullyreplied,“desperation and ignorance seems to have blinded them to reality. You knowyourself that fear isblinding. It takes logicandarigidformula tosurviveCIAcontainment.”

IreflectedontheuntimelydeathsofDarleneKinsey’shusband,GaryCaradori,and his son. “People need to know what you do, Mark. Your insight intosurvivingCIAcover-upisdesperatelyneededthesedays.Weneedamediabreakonthisinformation.”

“It’sgoing to takesomeonewithseriousstrengthofpurposeandconviction tobreak throughmediacensorship.Somebodywhowon’t rolloverandcave intointimidation. Those media networks are like street prostitutes who do it formoneyandnotforpassionoftruth.PlustheyhavetheirFCC14licensetoprotectanddowhattheyaretoldoutofDC.”

“RitaJenretteputhershowontheline,”Iremindedhim.

“I respect her for it, too. She’s not the Geraldo-type who’ll roll over and doanythingforajob.”

“Thatremindsme,”Ithoughtaloud.“CiviaandTedGundersonarefriends.TheykneweachotherthroughtheMcMartinscandal.Civia,asareporter,coveredthestory while Ted, as an investigator, tried to uncover it. ‘Small world’ as myabuserswouldsay.Itisabizarrecoincidence!”

“There isnosuch thingascoincidence ifaFedanda journalistare involved,”Mark advised. “When the same people keep popping up over and over again,thereisareasonforit.Signslikethisshouldneverbeignored.”

“Itdoeshelpidentifywhoispartofcontainmentand‘cover-ops’.”

“Better turnoff thatrecordersincewe’rerunningoutofbatteriesagain,”Marksmiled,turningintothedriveway.“Let’sleavethis‘smallworld’behindandgomeltintoours.”

Chapter19OCTOPUS

Thesunwasshiningdirectlyoverheadbythetimeweemergedfrom‘ourworld’ofbliss tofocusonourgoals.Thephonewasringinglikeanalarmclock,andMarkhuggedandkissedmewarmlyonemoretimebeforerisingtoanswerit.

I slowlywokeup, luxuriating in thepassion that lingered inour room.Mark’svoicebarelyreachedmeashetalkedonthephoneinthekitchenwhilethecoffeebrewed.Istretched.Anothernewday!Ireflectedonour love,appreciatingthesafety,peace,andhopethatthinkingfreelybroughttolife.Circumstanceswereintense, yet life’s conditions could not reach the realistic spiritual high thatcomeswithbeingfreetolivetrue-to-soulinharmonywithlove.Unconditionallove celebrated through unconditional sex helped balance the intensity of ourlives.

Mark opened the bedroom door, asking me to join him outside for coffee. Islipped into my robe and went with him into the fresh air. We enjoyed ourprivacy out in the country. We settled into the swing under the shade tree,savoringourcoffeewhilewetalked.

“That was a reporter by the name of Danny Casolaro who just called.” Wepausedtowatchahugecrowflyoverhead,castingashadowacrosstheground.Markresumed,“HeisthereporterwhoisinvestigatingtheInslawcase.FormerNational Security Advisor William Hamilton1 owns Inslaw, which producedsophisticated computer software called PROMIS until it was stolen by theJusticeDepartment.”

“WhydidDannycallus?”Iasked,sincewedidn’tevenownacomputeratthetimeletaloneunderstandthesubject.

“Helearnedaboutusthroughnaturalattritioninthecourseofhisinvestigations,andknowsthatwehavecollaboratinginformation.Myspookcontactthatgave

methe‘OK’codeonDannyapparentlydidlikewisewithhim.Itsavedalotofunnecessarydialogue,whichallowedustogetstraighttothepoint.Casolaroisabout to publicly expose the whole Inslaw case, which he refers to as ‘TheOctopus2’ due to the different tentacles of corruption emanating from theExecutiveBranchofthePentagon.DickThornburghisrightatthecore.

OnetentacleoftheOctopusextendstoByrdandSenateAppropriations;anotherinto CIA cocaine ops and mind control. When Danny’s story breaks, it willexposeyourcaseandKelly’s.Inslaw3alsotiesinwithIran-Contra4,BCCI5,andtheOctoberSurprise,amongothers.ThornburghhasrefusedtoanswerquestionsbeforetheHouseJudiciaryCommittee,whosubpoenaedcloseto500documentsregardingInslawandthestolenPROMISsoftware.Casolarosays‘theOctopus’isthebiggeststorytoeverbreakinthiscountry.Hebelievesitcouldre-establishConstitutionalvaluesof truthand justicebyexposinghigh-levelcriminals likeThornburgh and Byrd, and ultimately return the Government to the people.Prettyexcitingstuff.”

“Isheawareofthedangers?”Iasked.

“Of course,” Mark answered. “Apparently he has significant inside contacts,information, and support. Otherwise he would never have found us. Heuncovered the JusticeDepartment’smotives in stealing the PROMIS softwareand for pushingHamilton‘s Inslaw business toward bankruptcy. The softwarewas sold to Israelwith a ‘trap door’ in it,which gave the JusticeDepartmentaccesstothedatabaseofIsraeliIntelligence.”

“TheMossad?”

“Yes,”Markanswered.“Itwasalsosoldwiththesame‘trapdoor’init toIraqandotherforeigngovernments.That’swhy‘nationalsecurity’hasbeenslappedontheInslawcase.Casolarohassurvivedtheinvestigationpart,andwascallingfromDCtoalertus thathehasfullmediaexposure linedupforreleaseofhisstory.Itsoundslikeheisgoingtosucceed.”

“Customs intel said the storywould break. Casolaromust be one of the onesdoingit.”

“Thereisavastnumberofreportersreadytobreakstoriesonmindcontrol,CIA

cocaineops,andGovernmentcorruption.Theyknowourcountryisbeingtakenoverbycriminals,andwanttostopitasmuchaswedo.AlleyesareonDannyright now,waiting for him to take the lead andbreak it allwideopen.”Marksmiled.“Itwouldsuremakeaworldofdifferenceforusifhedoes.Anyway,hewantstotalkwithyouandwillbecallingbackinafewdays.”

“Isheaspook?ShouldItalkwithhim?”

“Of course,”Mark assuredme. “He is a really nice person; very soulful andkind.Healreadyhashisfactsinorder.Hejustwantstotellyouthatherespectswhatyou’redoingandthinksit’sphenomenalyousurvived.”

“Survivalisnoaccident.HemustknowI’dhaveneversurvivedwithoutyou.”

“Heindicatedthat.”

Wefinishedourcoffeeandwentback inside tobeginwriting letters. Inaivelybelieved religious leaders like Pat Robertson and Jesse Jackson6 might havecompassion on Kelly’s situation and help. So we wrote them letters and senttheminformationpacketswiththefewremainingstampswehad.WealsowrotetoLindaBlood,whowasintheprocessofwritingherexpose’onAquino,TheNew Satanists7. Linda had known Aquino for years and was appalled by historturous,controllingactions.AquinoclaimedLindaashisgirlfriendforawhile,andshecouldonlyspeculatethatperhapsitwashernamethatfirstattractedhimto her. Linda’s physical appearance also undeniably resembled Lillith’s, thewoman Aquino later married. While Linda was clearly more attractive thanLillith, bothwomen looked likeAquino’smother.WhateverAquino’s twistedjustificationswerefor latchingontoLinda,she turnednegativeexperience intopositive by publicly exposing his satanic ‘secret’ means of mind control. ShereleasedinsideinformationprovidedbyfriendsofherswithintheTempleofSetthatwouldhauntAquinoinfutureyears.

Mark and I drove back into Nashville a few days later for yet another courthearing.Apsychiatricevaluationofmewasrequiredforcourtrecords,andCoxwasorderedtoundergopsychexamsaswell.SinceMarkandIwereinconstantcommunication with many of the nation’s leading psychiatrists, I certainlywasn’tconcernedwithtestresults.Mentalhealthprofessionalswereamongthefirsttoencounternumeroussurvivorsofmindcontrolfillingtheiroffices.Since

rehabilitativeinformationwasscarceandtheproblemsovastandsevere,wordspread thatMark’s recoverymethods used onme had proved successful. Ourconversationswithpsychiatristsandpsychologistswereindepthandextensive.Were it not forKelly’s adverse experiencewithmental health, itwould neverhaveoccurredtometobecautioussubmittingmyselftoanevaluation.Besides,I was elated that Cox would be undergoing a psych exam. Even the leastqualifiedpsychiatristwouldsurelydiagnosehisobviousinsanity.

Mark strongly advisedme to be cautiouswithmy exam, andnot to expect somuch from Cox’s. “The CIA is notorious for falsifying psych exams. Scamexamsareasroutineasconfiscatingmailandtappingphones.”

Mark’sadvicesoonprovedtruewhenIwentinformypsychexamasorderedwithDr.CynthiaTurner-Graham.“Wearthistransmitterwireandkeepyourtaperecordergoingatalltimes,”hetoldme.Iwentinside,confidentthoughcautious.

“Wouldyoulikemetocompleteallof these tests?”Iasked, lookingatahugestackofpapers.

“Dowhatyouwant,” she toldmewithout lookingup from thenewspaper shewas reading.“Ialreadyknowthe results. Ihavebeenadvisedonhowtowriteyou up and I’ve been paid well for it. You’ve made some serious enemiesrunningyourmouth,honey.”

“I’vealsogotserioussupport,”Itoldher,pickingupmybelongingstoexitthebuildingquickly.“Thankyou for runningyourmouth.”Marksawmerushoutthedoor,hadthePaceringearasIswungintothecar,andquicklydroveaway.

“Youwere right,” I grinned. “Andwe have it all on tape. If Cynthia Turner-Graham is the best they can do,we’ve got itmade. She tipped their hand.” IplayedthetapeforMarkaswedrovestraighttomycourtappointedattorney’soffice.

“We’llgiveJeanCroweacopyofthetapelater,butsheneedstohearthisnowand put a stop to this nonsense,” Mark said. After submitting the recordedevidenceofthefoiledscam,nootherevaluationwasattempted.Cox’s“cleanbillofhealth”psychexamwasconsideredascamaswell,andtheintendedadversecourtresultswereaverted.

WhenweplayedthetapeforJeanCrowe,shehadsaid,“I’mnotsurewhatwecandowiththissinceitisn’tatestresultlikethecourtordered.Whatmadeyourecordthis?”

“It’snecessary foroursurvival to recordeverything,”Mark toldher.“Wesurecan’tcountonthejusticesystemtotakecareofthingsforus.”

“That remindsme,” Jean said, standingup. “I saw in thenewspaper thatDickThornburgh is talking about resigning8. He says he’ll be running for Senateinstead.Ididreadwheresomekindofcover-upandcocaineusewastracedtohisofficelikeyoupredicted.Youmustbepsychic!”

Igroaned.“That’snot‘psychic,’it’sinsideknowledge.Bigdifference.Whatisitgoingtotaketoprovetherealityofthiscasetoyou?”

“Youneedtoproveitthecourt,nottome.”

Ithrewupmyarmsinexasperationandturnedtoleave.“It’sagoodthingIwas‘psychic’enoughtorecordCynthiaTurner-Graham,”Isarcasticallymutteredasweleft.

When I saw Kelly the next week, she slipped me a hospital ID braceletindicatingthatshehadbeeninjuredinaCumberlandHousevanaccident.Ihadnotbeennotified.OnecompassionateCumberlandHouseworkerslippedmethemedical records from the accident as well, along with hospital records fromwhenCox had previously triggeredKelly into respiratory failure.My outrageovernotbeingnotifiedwasoverwhelmedbymycompassionforKelly.Shewasachildinneedofunderstandinginordertohealfromhertraumaticpast,andstillshewasforcedtodealwithtraumaandcover-upeveryday.Sinceshehadbeenforbidden by court order from talking tome about such things, she knew sheriskedastraightjacketandpaddedcellforslippingmethehospitalbracelet.

Coveringforher,Ismiledthroughmydisdainandhidthebraceletinmypurse.Kellysmiledbackandwecommunicatedbeyondwords.Wesharedthatwarmth,knowing,andbondthatnocourtorderscouldhinder.

“With understanding comes compassion,” I told her. “And they just don’tunderstand you or where you’ve been. Reality doesn’t go away just because

someone‘inauthority’doesn’tcaretounderstandthetruth.Believeinyourself,Kelly.Ido.”

“Iknowwhat’sreal,”Kellyconfidentlysaid.“Believingornot-believingdoesn’tchangethefacts.That’swhyitdoesn’tmatterwhattheybelieve.AndIdon’tjust‘believe,’Iknow.”

“Truth,byitsverynature,nevergoesaway,”Ireassuredher,asIsooftendid.“Neither do I.”While I hugged her, I cradled her head tome. Such a strongspirit.

“Imaginewhatyourfutureholds,”Isaid.“Universouljusticeisbigger-than-lifeandasabsouluteastruth.Itridesonwingsoflove,andloveisthemostpowerfulforceintheuniverse.Whenlife’snegativesareinevitablybalancedbypositive,it is tipped to the good by nature of universoul justice. Considering all thenegativesyou’vebeenthroughinlife,whatmustyourfutureholdtobalanceit?Yourfutureisbrightwithpromise.”

KellysoftlylaughedwithdelightwhileIheldher.“Youarebrilliant,Kelly,andeveryoneisgoingtoknowitsomeday.”

IsilentlyreflectedonDannyCasolaro'sprogress,knowinghewasonthevergeofmakingapositive,profounddifferenceforusall.

WhenMark and I left Cumberland House that day, we went directly to JeanCrowe’sofficewiththehospitalIDbraceletandmedicalrecords.“Pleasedon’texposeKelly for givingme this,” I pleaded. “She doesn’t need to be put in astraight-jacketfortellingthetruth.”

”Whatdoyouwantmetodo?”Jeanasked.

“Knowthetruth.”

MarkandIleftJeanCrowe’sofficeandwenthome.Whilewewereunwindingfromalong,hardday,thephonerang.

August10,1991.DannyCasolarowasdead.

Chapter20“SUICIDED”

ThemurderofDannyCasolarochangedtheworld,andthepublicneverknewit.Onlythoseofuscountingonmediapersonstobringtherealityofgovernmentcorruption to light knew it, andnowwewere left onour ownwhile seasonedjournalists cowered in thedark.Danny’smurder sentaclearmessage thathadterrifiedthemediaintosilence.

Mark and I discussedDanny’smurder the nextmorningwhilewe sipped ourcoffeeinthebackyardswing.“AdoubleagentinsiderassetwithintheFBIcalledand told me Danny was dead. He was killed inWest Virginia of all places,”Mark began. “Right there in Byrd’s backyard. Danny was in a hotel inMartinsburg,WestVirginia,onhiswayhometocompletehisstory.Hecalledhisbrother1totellhimhehadtheevidence.Heshouldhaveknownthephonewastapped.” Mark wrestled with his grief and the magnitude of the meaning toDanny’sdeath.“Hewasexcitedaboutbreakingthenews,”Markwipedhiseyes.“Nextthingyouknow,Dannyisfounddeadinthebathtubwithhiswristscut.Abrief, cryptic ‘suicide’ notewas found in place of his ‘Octopus’manuscript. Iknow for a fact he wasn’t suicidal when I talkedwith him. He even told hisbrotherhewasnotsuicidalintheeventsomethinghappenedtohim.Hiswristswereslitsodeephishandswerenearlysevered.Thereisnowayhecouldhaveslithisotherwristinthatcondition2.”

Mark and I sat in silence before he continued. “Danny’s bodywas embalmedbefore the family was notified. Elliot Richardson, the former US AttorneyGeneral who worked the Inslaw case with Danny, is calling for a Federalinvestigationintohisdeath.”

“Maybetherewillactuallybeaninvestigation3launchedsinceThornburghisnolongerinofficetocoveritup,”Ihopedthroughmygrief.PresidentBush,Sr.hadacceptedThornburgh’sresignationasAttorneyGeneralwithinhoursofDanny’sdeath4. By August 15, Thornburgh had sidestepped the Inslaw case and

unlawfullypackedup258boxesofdocuments5andleftoffice6.

“His assistant7 filled his vacancy,” Mark reminded me. “It’s the same tune,differentsong.”

“Itwouldn’t bringDanny back, anyway,” I cried. “Themost that could comefrom a legitimate investigation would be that the media quits cowering andrestores freedom to the press.Maybe someonewill even have the fortitude toreleasethe‘Octopus’inDanny’shonor,andforthesakeofourcountry.”

“EveryjournalistIknowofisafraidofbeing‘suicided’now.They’vecoinedanew word from Danny’s death, but they’re afraid to even speak it, let alonebroadcast it.”Mark’s frustrationwith cowardice reached newheights. “Howawholenationcanfearacriminalfewisbeyondmycomprehension.”

Still dressed in our robes,we rose from the swing andbeganwalking.Naturecould be soul soothing at times like these, andwemade ourway through thewoodsattheedgeoftheyard.

“Danny’scausewillneverdie,”Ivowed.“Surelytherearemorepeopleouttherelikeuswhowillkeepthespotlightoftruthonhismurderandthecausehediedfor.”

“ElliotRichardson’scall forafederal investigationwillmost likelybestoppedunderthe1947NationalSecurityAct.Whencorruptionreignsuncheckedatthepolitical top, criminal activity filters all the way down through local police.These days, law enforcement is protecting a corrupted system rather than it’scitizens.”

“It’slikethemilitary,”Iadded.“Iftheycouldthinkbeyondwhattheyaretold,theywouldrealizethatOperationJustCause8was‘justcause’Bushwantedhispartner-in-crime Noriega silenced before he revealed that he was on the CIApayroll for being their drug broker for the Columbian cartels. Themilitary isprotectingacorruptedsystem,too,whethertheyareawareofitornot.”

Markagreed.“Withbothlawenforcementandthemilitaryprotectingacorruptsystem that the media is afraid to expose, it’s easy to understand why the

governmentisdeterminedtotakeawayourguns.”

IthoughtaboutMark’sstatement,acutelyawareofthecampaignthathadbeenlaunched to disarm citizens. Still, the connection wasn’t clear. “What do youmean?”

“This criminal governmentdoesn’twantguns in thehandsofpeoplewhocanthinkforthemselves.”

“Ofcourse,”Iresponded,realizingthatjusticewassolelyuptothepeoplenow.“Butmanycitizensaren’t thinking for themselves thesedays, either.Now thatthemediaisafraidtoreportthetruth,peoplewon’tthinktoseekitthemselves.”

“YouknowwhatHitlersaid,”Markremindedme.“Hesaid,‘Whatgoodfortuneforthegovernmentwhenthepeopledonotthink’.”

“With what you and I know about social engineering,” I said, “until thegovernment succeeds in taking guns away from citizens, they’ll be telling uswhotoshootjustliketheydidthemilitaryinJustCause!”

“Weneedtogetthetruthouttherebeforeitgetstothatpoint,”Marksaid.“Gunsarehumanity’slastlineofdefense.Truthisthefirst.”

“Whenpeoplerealizethetruth,they’llbeempoweredtotakethesefewcriminalsoutofpowerandreclaimtheircountryandfreedom.Evolutionoverrevolution.Beingarmedwithknowledgeismuchmoreeffectivethanweapons.”

“Thisistrue,”Marksaid.“Whenyouconsiderthetechnologicaladvancementsthatthecriminalsincontrolofourcountryhavetouseagainstus,ourgunslookineffectiveanyway.Granddaddy’ssquirrelgunisnotgoingtogetitwhenfacedwith their computerized advancements, harmonics, ELF waves, biologicals,nuclearcapacityandsoon.Still,webetterhangontoourweaponsjustbecausethey are hell-bent on taking them away. They must feel threatened by them.Besides,beingarmedwithtruthandweaponsisapowerfulcombination.”

“Thetruthisessentialforensuringthatpeopleknowwhotheenemyis,”Isaid.“Socialengineeringon themostbasic level isalreadycausingracialproblems,

forexample.Byfocusingpeopleonracialdifferences,likenessesareoverlooked.Emotional issues like racism, homosexuality and abortion keep people hatingand fighting amongst themselves so as to divert them from realizingwho theenemytrulyis.”

“Divide and conquer.Hate is a result of fear, and fear is themost controllingemotion of all,”Mark said. “Look at how themedia caved into fearwith themurderofDanny.”

“Howlongdoyoubelieveitwilltakebeforepeoplewakeuptoreality?”

“Let’s hope theywake up soon, despite themedia blackout,”Mark answered.“The longer it takes, themore effortwill be required to restore peace, justice,andfreedom.We’lldoourparttomakesurethetruthgetsoutthere.”

“Dannycertainlydidhispart.Peopleshouldknowthatanyonewiththepassionforjusticelikehehadwouldneversuicideatthepointofvictory.”Ireflectedonhiscourage.“We’dbettermakeitclearthatwe’renotsuicidal.”

“Noonegetsoutofherealive,”Marksaid,whichwasafactheoftenstatedinregards to living lifefullywithoutrunningfromdeath.“Butwe’renot throughwithourpurpose anymore thanDannywas.You’re right.We’llmake it clearthatwe’renotsuicidal.”

Wehadbeenwalkingforsometime,anddecidedtoreturntothehouseandgetdressed for the day. Just as we were about to emerge from the woods,Marksuddenlystoppedmeinmytracksandgesturedmetobestill.IsawthroughtheweedsthatMelba’shousewassurroundedbywhatappearedtobeaS.W.A.T9.team.Theblackuniformedmenhadgunsdrawn,andwerecirclingthehousetoenterthroughalldoorways.Mark’sfingerwenttohislips,signalingmetostaysilent.Iwatchedashestealthilyapproachedthemenfromtheirblindsidewhiletheyassumedtheirpositionsforaraid.

He tapped theshoulderofaCountySheriffDeputy, triggeringhim to look theoppositedirectionfromwhereMarkstood.“Whatthehellareyoudoing?”Markboomed.TheDeputyjumped,nearlydroppinghisweapon.

“Whoareyou?”heloudlyresponded,clearlystartled.

“Not themanyou’re looking for,”Mark responded.“Nowwhatareyoudoinghere?”

“ThereareFederalagentsoutfrontwhoneedtoseeyou,”hesaid.“I’mjustheretoaccompanythemasrequiredbylaw.”

Federal agentsmust be accompanied by the local Sheriff or hisDeputywhenraiding a citizen and/or serving awarrant byConstitutional law.Knowing thelocalelectedSheriffisessentialforallcitizens,andcanprovetobealifesaver.We hadn’t elected our local Sheriff, and Dan Alsobrooks did not havejurisdictiontostoptheharassmentthatwasunfolding.

“Whythedramatics?”IheardMarkaskastheywalkedaroundfront.

“Weheardyouwerearmed,”theDeputyreplied,asIemergedfromthewoodstoslipthroughthebackdoor.

Melbawasoblivioustowhatwasgoingonoutside,andIwentintoourroomandquickly pulled my clothes on. Peeking through the blinds I could see Marktalkingtoseveralmen.TherewasnoS.W.A.T.van,justoneSheriff’scaramongseveralFedcarsparkedoutfront.IwasstillshakingwhenMarkwalkedintheroom.

“They were here to serve a warrant for me to appear in Federal Court,” hecalmlyinformedme.

“Onwhat charge?” Iwas perplexed how they could charge himwith a crimewhenheepitomizedjusticeitself.

“ThreateningthelifeofthePresident.”

“What!?”Iknewthatwaspreposterous.

Marksmiled.“Obviouslythis indictment isgoingnowhere.Wearesopubliclyvocal,everyoneknowsIwouldn’tjeopardizeyourcasewithanythingsoabsurdeven if Iwas thatstupid.Therecan’tpossiblybeanyevidence.Even theFeds

whoservedthepapersknowbetter.”

“Thenwhydidtheysurroundthehousewithgunsdrawn?”

“TheyknowI’marmed.They’repussies,notaposse.”ObviouslyMarkwasn’tworried,yetIdidnotsharehisconfidenceinviewofDanny’sblatantmurder.

“Thereisnojusticeinthiscountry,”Isaid,givingvoicetomyconcerns.“Iftheycan trump up charges like this, there is no limit to what they can do in acourtroom.”

“Oroutsideofone,”Markpointedout.“Lookwhat theydid toDannyright infrontof thepublic’seye.At leastIgeta jurytowitness thisattempttosilenceus.”

“Butthecourtroomcan’tbeusedasaforumforspeakingout.”

“We’renotgoingtouseitasaforum,”Marksaid.“Sometimesmorecanbesaidinsilencethaninwords.”

“We?”SinceMarkwasn’tmultiple,hemustbereferringtothetwoofus.HowdidIfigureintothis?

“You’llhavetotestifyasawitness.This isaridiculouschargethat isgoingtoblowbackonthemandexposethemasthecriminalstheyare,”Markassuredme.

Mark’smotherknockedimpatientlyonourdoor.“Mark!”sheshriekedasthoughwewerestilloutside.“Whenareyougoingtotakemetothestore?”

“Justaminute,”hetoldher.Shehadnocluewhathadjusttranspired,anditwasbetterthatway.Heturnedbacktome,huggingmeinacomfortingembrace.“I’llmakeaphonecallwhilewe’reintown.Thisisanopportunity,notaproblem.”

“Mark!”Melbawasbangingon thedoor again,unable tohearhis attempts toreply.Herolledhiseyesandslippedintohisjeansandshirt.Heopenedthedoorandshenearlyknockedonhischest.“Oh,”sheexclaimed,steadyingherself.“Iwanttopickupanangelfoodcaketogowithmylunch.”

MarksmiledbackatmewhileIgotmypurse,sharingtheunderstandingthatitmustbenicetohavesuchsimple“big”problems.

Byafternoon,weeachhadappointments linedupwithFederalAttorneyswhoweretakingourcasepro-bono.Sinceweweren’tpayingthem,Iwonderedwhodid and how that would effect the outcome. While we discussed ourcircumstances, the doorbell rang.Mark and I looked at each other,wonderingwhoitwasthistime.Hepeekedthroughtheblinds.

“It’sBilly!”heexclaimed.“Iwonderwhathe’sdoinghere?”

Ournew-foundfriendfromtheCopyShopinNashvillehaddrivenall thewayouttoMelba’shouseinthecountrytoseeus.Hepresenteduswithahugebasketfull of gourmet foods, which looked especially delightful considering ourwelfarebudget.“IheardaboutDannyCasolaro,”hesaid,aswethankedhimforhisgift.“Ifiguredyoutwocouldusesomecheeringup.”

Iwastouched.“Billy,thatissothoughtfulofyou.”

“Weren’tyouafraidtocomeouthere?”Markasked.“YouknowI’marmedandonhighalert.”

“Noway,”Billyanswered.“You’rewiseandsensible,notanemotional,fearfultype.Whywouldyouevenaskmeaquestionlikethat?”

“We’vehad an interestingday,”Markbegan.We allwalkedoutside, enjoyingthepeaceofnaturewhilewetalked.WetoldBillyabouttheFederalwarrant.

“You must be making significant progress,” Billy observed. “You’ve gotsomebodyrealscaredtomakeamovethisridiculous.”

Marksmiled, lookingmein theeyetomakesureIgot thepoint.Webegantorelaxinourconversation,enjoyingourfriendshipratherthanfocusingonoutsidepressures.SoonMarkwastellingBillythestoryofhowhelearnedaboutKellyandmefromtheChineseofficials.“AlexHoustonissouncool.It’sawonderhislackofdiplomacyalonedidn’tgetuskilled.Herewewere,guestsoftheChinesemilitarywhoalreadyknowwhataslimebagcriminalhe is,andhe’sexplaining

business to them. Finally, our Hong Kong partner took me aside and said,‘Misser Houston is embarrassment speaking broken English to interpreters.’ IhadtofindawaytoshutHoustonup,whichisnearlyimpossibletodowithanentertainer.PlusIhadtothrowhimoutof thecompany,and rescueCathyandKellyfromhim.”

Weall laughedasMark imitatedHouston speaking to the interpreters.Since IhadtraveledforeightyearsunderAlexHouston’scontrol,IknewexactlywhatMark was talking about. Houston had the same broken English for everylanguage. There were many times I believed Mexican and Cuban drug lordswouldkillhimjusttoshuthimup.Inretrospect,thoseweredangeroustimes.

“Icanseewhyyoutwoaren’tafraidofdeath,”Billysaid.“Ifitwasyourtimetodie,itwouldhavehappenedbynow.”

“I’ve had numerous near-death experiences,” I agreed. “I’ve peered over thatedgeandhaveabsolutelynofear.Ifpeopleknewwhatdeathisreallyabout,theywouldbeginenjoyingtheirlivesinsteadofrunningfromdeath.”

“Peoplefearwhattheydon’tknow,”Markadded.“I’vehadclosecalls,too,andhaveevenbeendeclaredDOA10.I’mnotafraidofdeathintheleast.”

“I’llcrossthatbridgewhenIcometoit,”Billysaidlightheartedly.

“Inever sawabridge.Orpearlygates.Ora tunnel, river,or light,”Marksaidfromexperience.“It’smorenaturalthanthat.Lessearthly.”

“Morelikeatransitionintoapeacefuldimensionofimmenselove,”Isaid.“It’snot‘anend’,it’smorelikeabeginning.”

“Well,”Billysaid,risingtoleave.“Danny’sinabetterplace.”

“Yes,”Iagreed.“Butthisworldisnotabetterplacewithhimgone.”

“We’vegotquiteachallengefacingus,now,”Marksaid.“Bringingtruthtolightinamediablackoutisn’texactlyeasy.”

“By theway,” I injected,“we’renot suicidal justbecausewedon’t feardeath.We’renotthroughwithwhatweneedtodoanymorethanDannywas.So,youhearditfirst,weareNOTsuicidal.”

“Well,staysafe,”Billysaid,walkingtohiscar.HesmiledatMark,“Iknowyouwill.”

“Thanksforthebasket,”Icalled,rememberingthegourmetgoodieshebrought.

Billy smiled. “I figured you could use some fun treats.” He turned to Mark,“Comeandseemenexttimeyou’reintownandletmeknowwhatthelawyershavetosay.”ThetiresofBilly’sTransAmsquealedashedroveaway.

Chapter21FEDERALWARRANT

“Ididn’tknowFederalAttorneyscouldbesounderstanding,”I toldBillyafterourmeetingwithourrespectiveattorneys.“Myattorney,MikeTerry,seemedtounderstandeverythingbeforeIeventoldhim.”

“FunnyhowthathappensamongFeds,”Marksarcasticallycommented.

“Yeah,”Billyacknowledged.“Let’sseewhatjusticehecanbringtoyourcase.Whatdidyourattorneyhavetosay,Mark?”

“Therewasn’tmuchtodiscuss.Wehadtowalkacrossthestreetsotheycouldfinger print me. I asked why that was necessary since the Feds already hadfingerprintsonmeintheirfiles.”

“Whathadyoudone?”Billyasked,alarmed.

Marksmiled.“Workedforthem.”

“That’saboutascriminalasitgets,”Imuttered.

“Didyouhavetosubmittothefingerprintinganyway?”

“Sure,”Markanswered.“ButIhadfun.Theguywhowastakingmyfingerprintskeptgettingsmudgedresults.ItmusthavebeenthenervoustickIdevelopedfortheoccasion.Bythetimetheywereclearenoughfortherecord,heandIweregettingalongwellinspiteofHenryMartin,myattorney,advisingmetoshutup.Afterhetookmypalmprint,Ishookhishand.”

“Heshookyourhand?”Billylaughed.

“Myattorneywasn’ttoohappyaboutit.Neitherwashewhenherealizedwhathehaddone.Anyway,HenryMartinwassteamingmadbythetimeIsubmittedthehandwritingsamples.TheytoldmeIhadtowritethenames‘AlexHouston,Earl O’Brien, andWayne Cox’, which I found odd since the subpoena sited‘threateningthelifeof thePresident.’SoIasked,‘whyareyoubeatingaroundthebush?Shouldn’tIwriteGeorgeBush?’Myattorneywasadamantlyadvisingmetobequiet.ButtheFedtakinghandwritingsamplessaid,‘Ididn’taskyoutowriteGeorgeBush,butapparentlyyoudid’.”

Billywaslaughingbythen.“Whatdidyousay?”

“’OfcourseIwrotePresidentBush,threateningtopursuejusticeinKelly’scaseregardlessofwhoherperpetratorswere.’Igottothe‘threatening’wordandmyattorneyalmostkeeledover.Ithoughthewasgoingtohaveaheartattacksincetheveinsinhisneckstuckoutsofarwhilehewasspitting‘shutup’atme.TheFBIwasvideo recording thewhole thingand Iwanted them toknowwhere Istood.”

“Didtheymakeyouwrite‘GeorgeBush’?”Billywasholdinghissideslaughingbythen.

“Overandoverlikeagradeschoolpunishment.SoeachtimeIwroteit,Iwroteit differently just because I could. I told them my back had been giving metrouble,whichcausednervedamage.”

“WhendoestheGrandJuryconvene?”Billyasked,awarethat thiswouldbeanecessarystepinorderfora‘notruebill’oraFederalindictmenttobedelivered.

“September19.”

“Iwonderedwhatdatetheywouldcomeupwithsincetodayisalreadythe9th.”BillywasawareofthenumbersgamestheFedsalwaysplayed.“Ifitisthe3rd,6th, or 9th, I always know you twowill be in town for court or some kind ofharassment. Why do they keep playing the numbers game when they knowyou’reontothem?”

“Because they are so self absorbed and arrogant that theywould rather signal

their friends than disguise their plan,” Mark said. “And many at the topsubscribetotheancientmysticsKabalanumerologygame.

“Like33rddegreeMasons?”

“It’snotquite that simple,” Ianswered frommypointofview.“TheyactuallybelieveinthenumbersbasedonthemathematicaluniversetheHebrewsdevisedthousandsofyearsago.”

The Copy Shop was growing increasingly busy as rush hour picked up. WehuggedBillyand left. Ineeded tomeetwithJeanCroweandScottRosenburganyway.

“BobAnderson threatenedEdithHammonsat the last ICAM1meeting,” I toldmyattorney.“Doeshehave jurisdictionover theOrganizedVictimsofViolentCrime?”

“Ifitscaredher,Iguesshedoes.Bobthrowshisweightaroundall thetimetointimidatepeoplewhenhethinkshe’slosingabattle.Apparentlyheisconcernedwith the progress that Marsha Willis and Debbie UpChurch are making onKelly’sbehalfthroughICAM.”

“Edithisn’ttakingitlightly,”Iinformedher.

Jeansmiled.“BobAndersondoesn’tknow thepoliticalcloutEdithhasbehindhergrandmotherly appearance.Heharasses everybodywho standsbyyouandKelly,includingme.Maybeshecanputhiminhisplace.”

“Behindbars?”Iasked,turningtoleave.

“Inbars,atleast,”Markchimedin,referringtoBobAnderson’sreputeddrinkinghabits.

“Maybehe’llbedisbarred,”Jeanplayedalong,insinuatingthathecouldlosehisattorney’slicense.

Markand Ipartedat theelevator sohecouldputmoney in theparkingmeter

whileIwentuptoseeScottRosenburg.

Upon completing legal paperwork for the upcoming child support trial, Scottpaused to inquire about Mark’s Federal subpoena. Word spread fast throughNashville, which somehow managed to keep its small town aires despite itsmetropolitansize.“We’regoingtopleadthe5th2,”Itoldhim.“Itdoesn’tmakesense tomeother than thatwecan’tusecourtasaforumanyway.Thatseemsbackwardstomewhencourtsaresupposedtoknowthetruth.”

“Itisacomplexcase,”Scottthoughtfullyexplained,“and‘threateningthelifeofthePresident’doesn’thaveanythingtodowith it.Bystayingsilent, theycan’tdilute the realityof your casewithnonsense.Youarebetter off keeping thesemattersseparate.”

“SinceDannyCasolarowasmurdered, themedia iscowering;whichgives thecriminalsopposingusfreereign.Imustadmit,thisonemakesmenervous.”

“Yes, but I know you have friendswith just asmuch power. Plus you’ve gotsupporters likeEdithHammonswhoisontelevisionadvocatingforvictimsallthetime.”

“Thankyou,Scott,” I said,genuinelycomfortedat the thought. “It is true thatcitizens’ organizations are very supportive. People helping people works farbetter than major organizations like Human Rights Watch, AmnestyInternational,ortheChristicInstitute.”

“TheChristicInstitutehasn’thelped?”Scottasked,awarethatChristianorientedorganizationsshouldbemorehelpful.

“NeitherhasPatRobertsonorJesseJackson,” I said.“Since the issueofmindcontrol becomes a spiritual one by natural attrition, I thought the Christianswouldbeamongthefirsttohelp.”

“Whatdoyoumean‘spiritual’?”Scottasked.

“Bymy definition, spiritual is our innate love energy source or connection toGod so-to-speak. Soul is the merging of spiritual into the physical world. I

realizethisisjustmyperception,andpeoplecorrectmyuseofthewordsallthetimebasedontheirinterpretation.”

Scott thoughtaminute. “Religious semanticsaside,howdoes it interfacewithmindcontrol?”

“From experience I know thatwithout free thought, there is no freewill, andwithout freewill, there is no soul expression.Even thoughmy spiritwas in asafe, loving spacewhilemy bodywas being tortured to carry out thewill ofothers, I had no ability to express it. I could not think to stand by moralprincipalsorcauses,andaboveall,Iwasn’tfreetoliveinharmonywithlove’swill.Now that I am free to think to express,my spiritual testimony is strong.Whichmakesitdifficultformetounderstandwhychurchesclosetheirdoorsonmeandthewholeissueofmindcontrol.MaybeIdon’tusetheproperreligioussemanticstodescribeit.”

“Maybeitwillhappenintime,”Scottoffered.

“IntimeforKelly?They’realreadytoolate.Wedohavealotofsupportfromvictims’ groups like Edith’s Organized Victims of Violent Crimes who areworkingtowardslegalhelp.JustusUnlimitedoutofLittleton,ColoradoandtheNationalVictimCenterarehelping.Speakingofbizarresemantics,Idon’tevenfeellikea‘victim.’NeitherdoesKelly.”

“Irefertoyouasasurvivor,”Scottsaid.

“Thatisabetterterm,”Iagreed.“Although‘survivor’soundslikeweshouldbewhiningaboutourpast‘victimization,’andneitherKellynorIcanrelatetothatspace.Theultimategoalofvictimsandsurvivorsisto‘forgive’theirabusersinorder to psychologically heal. In our case, healing is a deliberate psychiatricprocess. Understanding our abusers makes more sense than ‘forgiving’ them.With understanding comes positive change, sometimes compassion, whereas‘forgiveness’soundslikecondoningcriminalactions!It’sallsemanticsanyway,Iguess.”

“Pleadingthe5thisamatterofsemantics,too,thatultimatelywillworkinyourfavor.Sometimes the less said, themore that’s understood. It’s likeyour backchild support case.We will only present finances to the judge, not the other

issueseven though theymaybemorepertinent.Mark iswise in tellingyou toneverusecourtasaforum.”

“Thankyou,Scott.Yourlegaladviceisheartwarming.Iwishallattorneyshadthe strength of spirit that you do.”As I rode the elevator down to the groundfloor of the Stahlman Building, I realized I didn’t know Scott’s definition of“spirit,” “soul,” or “religion,” and wondered if I should have mentioned hisstrengthofspirit.BythetimeIwaswalkingtowardthePacer,Iunderstoodthatheartfeltcommunicationsurpassedsemanticsanyway.AndIlearnedthatfromaDistrict Attorney? I smiled as I climbed in the car, feeling confident that allwouldgowellwithMark’sGrandJuryhearing.

OnSeptember19,wearrivedat theFederalBuildingearlysince Iwas told tocome in for questioning by the FBI prior to the hearing. BradGarrett was intownfortheoccasion,andheandPhilTuneyweretomeetwithmeinAttorneyGeneral Joe Brown’s office. “Remember,” Mark emphasized again, “Saynothing,andtheyhavenothing.Theyhavenothing,sosaynothing.Openyourmouth…andtheyhavesomething.Whatyousaywillbeusedagainstyou.”

“Neveruse court as a forum,” I recited. “I’m ready.MikeTerry says thisFBIquestioningisn’tpertinenttoyourcasesodon’tansweranything.Whenwe’reinfrontoftheGrandJury,allIdoispleadthefifth.Thatissimpleenough.I’llbegladwhenthisisover.”

I rode the elevator alone to JoeBrown’s office on the top floor.His secretaryshowedmetoasideroomwhereGarrettandTuneywerewaiting.

“How’s it going with Internal Affairs?” Garrett asked, as though he werereferringtoour lastmeetingin theUSCustomsoffice.OurworkwithInternalAffairs was not his business, and his attempt to trick me into talking wastransparent.

“Let’s talk about internal affairs,” Tuney said. “You claim you know DickThornburghsexually.Tellmeaboutit.”

“Inyourhottestdreams.”IacceptedthecupofcoffeeGarretthandedmeandsetitonthetablewithnointentionofdrinkingit.

“Maybe you’d rather tell me what you know about Noriega. We’ll see if itmatcheswhathesaysaboutyou.”Tuneygesturedformetodrinkthecoffee.

“IthoughtyouwereheretoquestionmeaboutMark.”

“We have all our answers there. And the evidence, “ Garrett said. “He’ll belockeduplongerthanNoriega.He’sfacing20yearstolife.”

Tuney shuffled through a huge stack of papers in front of him. “You know,everybodyinDCknowsByrdhasalittlepenis.Whatelsecanyoutellmeabouthim?”

ItookasipofthewaterthatIhadbroughtwithme.

“AllIputinyourcoffeewascreamandsugar,”Garrettdefensivelysaid.

“I’malreadyawakeandalert,thankyou,”Ideclinedthecoffee.

“Wellgood,”Garrettanswered.“Thenyou’llabsorbwhatI’mabouttotellyou.Itisimportantthatyouknowthefacts.YouneedtoknowthatMarkisgoingtobelockedupfortherestofhislifeifyoupleadthefifth.”

“Pleadingthefifthisanadmissionofguilt,”Tuneynodded.

“I don’t know how you’re going to live with putting him away forever in aFederalpenitentiary,”Garrettsaid,hisveiledthreatstrengtheningmyresolvetostaysilent.“Thornburgh’soutofofficenow.HisfriendWilliamBarriscarryingouthisworkwhileheplays.We’lllethimknowthatyouhadMarklockedup.”

“He’lltellByrd,”TuneysaidtoGarrettasthoughhewereprotesting.

“Wordwillspread,”Garrettassuredme.“Allbecauseyouthinkyouaresosmarttopleadthefifth.YouaremakingabigmistakethatwillcostMarktherestofhislife,restingbehindbars.”

Wesat insilence.I lookedatmywatch.Itwasnearlytimeforcourt.“Bylaw,youcannotkeepmefromtestifying.”

“I’mtellingyou,”Garrettsaid,standingup.“Don’tpleadthefifthorMarkwillneversee the lightofdayagain.WhoevergaveyouthatadvicehassetyouupandMarkwillgodown.Don’tpleadthefifth!”

Wewalkedoutof theoffice to theelevator,whichsuddenlywasn’tworking. Ilookedatmywatch.Therewasn’t time for this. “Take the stairs,”Tuney said,openingthedoortothestairwell.Anxioustoleave,Istarteddownthestaircase.

“Don’tpleadthefifth!”GarrettshoutedasIarrivedatthedooronthenextfloor.Itwaslocked.Ikeptgoing,experiencinglockeddoorsallthewaydownintothebasement. Weaving through boxes, buckets, trash and janitor tools, I finallystumbledoutintoaroomwithanelevator.Apparentlyitwasaserviceelevator,butittookmetothemainfloorwherecourtwasabouttobegin.

My attorney was pacing outside the courtroom, checking his watch. I wasscheduled to testify first. Mark was being held separately from me in HenryMartin’sofficeacrossthestreet.Reliefspreadacrossmyattorney’sfacewhenhesawme.Therewasno time toexplainwhereI’dbeen.“I’mnotallowed tobepresent in there,” he remindedme, speaking quickly. “I’ll be right here.Aftereachquestion, tell the judgeyouneedtospeakwithcouncil. It’s justaploytomakethemwait.Doit.Comeouthereandwe’llact likewe’re talking itover.I’lltellyoutopleadthefifth.”

Whenmyturntotestifycame,IblockedoutmyhorribleexperiencewithGarrettandTuney, and took the stand.TheGrand Jury looked somber, and the Judgeappearedagitated.Iansweredeachquestionwithaneedtospeakwithcouncil,only to come back into the courtroom to plead the fifth. By the time I wasthrough, theGrand Jurywasweary.WhenHenryMartin told the prosecutingattorney,VanVincent,thatMarkwouldalsobepleadingthefifth,hewasn’tevencalledtotestify.TheGrandJurydelivereda“notruebill”andMarkwasfree.

The whole ordeal had proved so strenuous, I could only cry with relief. Wewouldcelebratelater…fortherestofourlives.

Chapter22NEED-TO-KNOW

“Iwasn’tsurprisedwhenHenryMartintoldmethatIwouldnotbetestifying,”Marksaidaswediscussedourcourtexperienceonthelongdrivehome.“Iheardhimon thephone talkingheatedly toVanVincent, tellinghim that Iwouldbepleadingthefifththesamewayyoudid.Whenhehungupthephone,heletmeknow that thiscasewasn’tover justbecause Iwouldn’tbe testifying.Hesaid,‘Theyaredeterminedtolockyouuponewayoranother.’Buthedoesn’tknowwhat I know. I tried to tell him, ‘the whole case was a hoax to begin with.They’llattempttheirharassmentfromananglelesscostlytothem.Likethey’llkeepconfiscatingmymailorraidingmyhouseorsomethingelsemundane.’Hestillcouldn’tgrasptheconceptthatIamnotscared.”

“This whole thing was unnerving for me,” I admitted. “It wasn’t Garrett andTuneythatscaredme,ofcourse; it’swhatIknowabout theprisonsystem.Alltheyneedtodoislockeitheroneofusupforonedayandit’sover.Mindcontrolis sohighlyadvanced, rampantandunrestrained in theprisons, it’snowondertherehasbeensuchamajorefforttolockusup.”

Markswervedaroundacarthathadstoppedinthemiddleoftheroadwhilethedrivertriedtodecidewhichwaytoturn.“WhenIwasworkingforAmpexoutofRedwoodCity,California back in the1970’s, Iwas courieringTopSecret filetapes into Fort George Mead, Maryland on mind control methods that werebeing used in prisons and mental institutions. Everything I saw and knewregarding mind control had convinced me that we could literally empty ourprisonsandmental institutionsby turning the inmates intoproductive,healthy,happycitizens.Ireallybelievedthatbehaviormodificationtechniqueswouldbeusedtobettertheworld.”

“Theystillcanbe,”Ireassuredhim.

“Perhaps they could be if the informationwasn’t being classified.As long as

thesecriminalsareinpowerclassifyinginformationandtechnologyinordertocontrolthepublic,howwilltheknowledgereachthepeople?”

IthoughtofDannyCasolaroandsighed.“Withjournalistscavingintofearandthreatsofbeing‘suicided’,Idowonderhowthetruthwillbebroughttolight.Itneedstobe,though.Peopleneedtoknowwhatyouknow.”

“That’s ironic,”Mark said. “Iwasoperatingon aNeed-to-Knowbasiswhen Ibelievedmindcontrolcouldhelppeople.Areyoufamiliarwiththeterm?”

“Sortof,”Ianswered.“DickCheneyandothercontrollerswouldtellmewhatIneededtoknow,butIneverperceiveditasaterm.”

“Well,Need-to-Know is a term officially used by theCIA and other alphabetorganizationsliketheFBI,NSA1andDIA.ItmeansyouaretoldallyouNeed-to-Knowinordertocarryoutyourpartofanoperationwithoutfullawarenessofwhat you’re working towards. In my case, I believed the government wasdevelopingmindcontrol inorder tohelpsocietyrid itselfofcrimeandmentalillness.Nobodybothered tellingme that itwasbeingdeveloped to control thepopulation,createsuper-humanspecialforceswarmachines,orwasbeingusedtotortureandhurtinnocentcitizenslikeyouandKelly.Ihadnoclue.Iwassofocusedondoingmy“part”andexcitedattheprospects,thatitneveroccurredtomethatIwascontributingtothegreatestmenacemankindhaseverendured.”

“Howdidyoufindout?”

“Thatisastoryallinitself.”

“Well,we’vegottime,”Isaid,referringtoourlongdrivehome.“It’sthepublicwhoisrunningoutofit.Isthetaperecorderon?”“Yes.”

“Good.Let’sleaveitonforposterity.I’dreallyliketoknowallyoucantellme.”

“IwasoriginallyhiredasanaudiotapeengineerfortheSoutheasterndivisionofAmpex,Corporation,sellingtapewithinNashville’sCountryMusicIndustryandto NASA in Huntsville, among other government operations. Having a Top

Secret Security Clearance gave me access to mind control information that Iotherwise would not have been privy to. In the early days, what I witnessedabout training monkeys from the Yerkes Primate Center in Atlanta, GeorgiafiguredrightinwithNASA’suseofprogrammedmonkeysforspacetravel.”

“Didtheyevertorturethemonkeys?”

“Ofcoursenot!”Mark lookedappalled that Iwouldevenasksuchaquestion.“Wewereteachingthemtounderstandwordsthroughsignlanguageandtorunsimpleequipment. Ineversawtraumabasedmindcontrolmethodsbeingusedon the monkeys, let alone on inmates of prisons and mental institutions. Mynatural rapportwithanimalsmadeworkingwithprimatesa funand rewardingaspect of my career. I enjoyed communicating with them and seeing themrespondsopositively.”

“I’msorry,”Isaid.“Ididn’tmeantosuggestthatyouwouldhaveanythingtodowith trauma based mind control. I know you better than that. It’s just thateveryoneIknewtorturedanimals,andIthoughtitmighthavebeenpartofwhatledyoutoexpandyourvision.Youstillhaven’ttoldmehowyoulearnedbeyondyourNeed-to-Know.”

“WhileIwaswithAmpex,IalsoworkedotherdivisionssinceIhadaClearance.I worked the Yerkes Primate Center in Denver, Colorado, for example. Ofcourse,IpreferredworkingtheAtlantabranchsinceIlivednearthere.Plus,theCenter forDiseaseControl inAtlantawas amajor account ofmine since theCDC required somuch tape for the oldwall sized computers theywere usingbackthen.TheCDCwasonemorereasonwhymyClearancewassohigh.ThisputmeintouchwithotherTopSecretinstallationslikeJackParson’sLaboratory‘JPL’inPasadena,California.BetweenthereandRedwoodCity,IwasspendingmoreandmoretimeinCalifornia.”

“ReaganwasGovernorofCaliforniabackthen,wasn’the?”Iasked.

“Yes. He became involved in mind control operations in the state mentalinstitutionsandprisonsystems.”

“I knew Reagan was responsible for releasing Merle Haggard from SanQuentin,”Isaid.

“Wasn’tHaggardinprisonformurder?”

“Yes,”Ianswered.“IamawarethatmindcontrolwasbeingusedinSanQuentinatthetime.IwonderifitwasusedonHaggard,orifhesimplybecameprivytoit. Personally, I knowHaggard2 as a torturous abuserwho openly perpetuatesmindcontrol.”

“Peoplecan’tbeprogrammedtoprogram,”Markremindedme.“Thinkaboutit.Knowledgeisourdefenseagainstit.Onceweareawareandstayconsciousofit,we knowwhen our actions are in conflict with our soul intent. Likewise, thesubconsciouscannotconsciouslymanipulatethesubconsciousofotherswithoutdeliberateawareness.”

“Thatmakes sense,” I agreed. “Haggard sayshe ‘soldhis soul to thedevil’ inordertobereleasedfromSanQuentin.AnditwasReaganwhoreleasedhim.”

“Himandhowmanyothers?”Markwondered.“Reagan’sreleaseofinmatesandmental patientswas contrary to the studies I was involvedwith.While I wasworkingwithAmpexsoheavilyinCalifornia,Reaganjumpedintothemixwithhistraumabasedmindcontrol.UnderNationalSecurity,thereisnolimittotheamount of torture, abuse, experimentation, or evenmurder that people can besubjected to without recourse, and Reagan capitalized on it! The president ofAmpexbecameembroiledinafiercebattlewithReagan,desperatelyfightingtomaintaintheintegrityofhiscompany.Reaganwouldn’thearofit.Hewashell-bentonusingeveryhorriblebrainwashingtechniqueimaginable,torturouslyandtechnologically expanding far beyond Ewen Cameron’s experiments inMontreal! Then he turned the tortured mentally ill out onto the streets3! ThebenevolentworkIwasdoingsuddenlywasbeingtakenoverbyapowermongerwhoseonly concernwas for his political career andnot thepeople.HenearlycollapsedAmpex in a trumped up stock scandal that supposedly involved thepresidentofthecompany”

“Howdidhedothat?”

“Easy, since theCIAcontrolsWallStreet.TheUnitedStatesGovernmentwasrapidlybeingtakenoverbythatsamecriminalfactionthatabusedyou.Theygota firm gripwith theKennedyAssassination, and the same players are still inpowertoday.”

“LikeFord’sCabinet?”Iasked,referringtoformerPresidentFord’sSecretaryofState,DickCheney;hisheadof theCIA,GeorgeBush;hisDefenseSecretaryDonaldRumsfeld;andhisPressSecretaryJackValenti.

“Thatnamesahandfulofthemrightthere.Valenti,whoyouknewasReagan’sfriendandheadoftheMotionPictureAssociationofAmerica,wasevenapartofKennedy’smotorcyclebrigadethedayhewasshot!Anyway,thepointIwasmaking is this: Since these powermongers are put in office byCorporations,those that are run by friends flourish while Corporations like Ampex arediminished.Thesepoliticalcriminalsdidn’twanttheresultsofAmpex’sworktoreach the public, so it was financially scandalized through stock fraud. Thesepoliticianscontrol throughsecrets,and itwouldn’tbenefit themif their secretswereincorporatedintosocietyasapositivefunctioningpart.”

“IsthatwhytheyhavesecretsocietiesliketheMasons?”Iasked.

“Well,that’sadifferentarea.Yetwhenyouthinkaboutit,secretsocietieshavecompartmentalized information the same way it is compartmentalized in themind of a dissociative under mind control. I know you can relate to that!Compound the same concept further by creating divisions in society throughsocial engineering of racism, sexism, religious differences, and so on, andinformationbecomesevenmorecompartmentalized.”

“It’s as though everyone is functioning on a Need-to-Know! People need toknowthis!”Iwasexcited.

“Theyneedtoexpandtheirconsciousnesstorealizethatwhattheythoughttheyknewwasbutafractalofreality,”Markexpounded.“WhenIfoundoutthatmygood intentionswere actually fueling amechanism to control humanity, Iwasdevastated.When I realizedwhat thismeant to our country andworld, Iwasappalled.AndReaganwasrightthereattheepicenterofitall.”

“I perceived Reagan as ‘Uncle Ronnie’ until my free thought allowed forexpandedknowledge.NowI see thateveryoneelse inside thebeltwayand thepublicperceivehimthewayhisTVimageportrayedhim.”

“Andstillportrayshim todaywithBush inofficeandValenticontrollingwhatpeoplewatchonTVfromhisHollywoodpowerposition,”Markadded.

“How are people going to realize their Need-to-Know is limiting theirunderstanding,theiractionsandreactions,andultimatelymankind’sevolution?”

“Coincidentally…”Markbegan.

“Come on,” I argued before hemade his point, “to quote awiseman I know'thereisnosuchthingascoincidence'!”

“Yougotthatright!”Marksmiled.“LikeIwassaying,‘coincidentally’Iheardfrom a spook-turned-whistleblower in Cooperstown, New York who isdisseminatinginformationunder the title‘Need-to-Know’.Ineededtoknowifhewaslegitimate,andsofarmosteverythingchecksout.Ithoughtyou’dfinditinteresting that someone is actually spreading information under ‘Need-to-Know’.”

“Thatistoocool,”Ireplied.“Whatkindofinformationishespreading?”

“That’swhatpromptedmetocheckhimout.HisnameisStephenBratcher,andheclaimshewasavictimofMKUltraon thehighest level. Ifhewasamindcontrolvictim, I’mnot surewhatcausedhim tobreakprogram.Most likely itwasdue tohisage.He’s inhisearly thirties.Oneof the first things tosurfacewashismemoryofDisneyWorldmindcontrolprogramming.”

“Howdidherememberthat?”Iasked,acutelyawareofthesophisticatedmindcontrolprogramming thatwenton there.Fewpeoplehad rememberedorweretalkingaboutDisneymindcontrolin19914!

“ApparentlyhewasobsessedwithMickeyMouseandDisneythemeslikemostprogrammed slaves are, andwaswonderingwhy.The fact that he could evenwonder is either indicative of his programming breaking up, or he was avolunteerlikehealsoclaimswhoskatedwhenthetorturebegan.”

“Nobodyvolunteerstobetortured,”Iargued.“Iwastoldthesamethingundermind control, that I ‘volunteered.’ Operating out of the “Volunteer State” ofTennessee during the ‘80’s gave me cause to hear that often. It sounds likeBratcherisverbalizingprogramtome.”

“He’snotrecovered,that’sforsure,”Marksaid.“You’dbesurprisedwhatsomepeople do volunteer for, though, for money. There’s some reason why he istalkingaboutvalidinformation.”

“Does he smokemarijuana?” I asked, aware thatmarijuana’smind expansionproperties are the motive behind the government’s adamant opposition to theherb. Since it can render mind control uncontrollable by penetrating memorycompartmentalization,marijuanauseisstrictlyforbiddeninthemilitary,specialforces,amongspies,etc.

“He doesn’t smokemarijuana that I know of, although he admits to drinkingheavily.Itmaybethathisprogramming,ifhehadany,isbreakingupnaturallythewayyoursdidat30.Sinceheisatthatagewhenelectro-chemicalchangesoccur naturally in the brain, it could have affected the barriers to hiscompartmentalizedmemory.”

Markpausedthetaperecorderforamomentwhilehesaid,“Look,Iknowforafact that some of what he’s talking about is valid since Ampex installedsophisticated equipment in the labyrinth of laboratories under the proposedDisney site while I was working for them. Those labs were crammed withsophisticatedelectronicsthathavenothingtodowiththemeparkrides.Bratchersaid he was under the Disney Theme Park’s Holden Lake and suddenly hadawareness. He described the layout of that area that I had been into.” Markresumed recording. “It really freaked him out since he was supposed to beoperatinginacontrolledroboticmodeandsuddenlyrealizedhehadnoconceptofhow longhehadbeen in theUNderworldofDisneyWorld5.That’snot thebestplacetobreakprogramordecideyoumadeabadchoicevolunteering.Hesomehowmanagedtosurviveitandhasbeentalkingeversince.”

“Howishesurviving?”Iasked,deeplyconcerned.

“He is asking for help, which is why he contacted me. Even more thanrehabilitative therapy, he is wanting a few pointers on how to stay alive andsurvivewhistleblowing.He’sdisseminating information,buthe’s talkingaboutthemostcontroversialstuffofall.”

“Disney?”IknewspeakingbadofDisneycarriedenormousconsequencessinceit was a programming epicenter for MK Ultra mind controlled slaves from

militaryintelligence6, special forces,spies,andevenentertainerswhocouldbeharmonicallytunedalaTrilby7.

“Yes.Andhe’stalkingaboutTheFarm8.What’sevenmoredangerousisthathereleasedsensitiveinformationonDARPA.”

“What’sDARPA?”

“DefenseAdvancedResearchProjectsAgency9.It’sthemostTopSecretspecialweaponsdevelopmentlabintheworld.”

“I’mgladIdon’tknowaboutthatone.”

“You’vetalkedabout,onlynotbyname.It’sinasleepylittletowninVirginia.”

“Oh,thatplace,”Ishuddered.“IguessIdidn’tNeed-to-KnowthenamewhenIwasthere.Isn’titcalledBlackbeardorBlackbirdorsomethinglikethat?”

“Keeplookinguntilyouseearoadsigninmemory.”

Iclosedmyeyesandfocused.“Blacksburg!”

“Yes! I was aware of it when I was couriering file tapes for Ampex. Myperception of DARPA is that it holds the key to what is eroding the soul ofAmerica-andtheworld.EverythingIknowmaystillbeclassified.”

“ThenIwon’taskyouwhatyousaw,”Isaid,awarethatlawsofSeditioncouldresult in his imprisonment if anyone found out he was talking. “What doesBratchersay?”

“BratcherisdisseminatinginformationonDARPA’spurpose.SincetheUSisamixture of people from all over the world who combine genetics throughbreeding, they share cultures and knowledge from theDNA level all thewaythroughtoaconsciouslevel.Theverystructureofourcountryprovidesrewardsto those who achieve themost and advance the farthest.Well, over time, theknowledgeand resultant technologiesbecame themosthighlyadvanced in theworld.”

“And this is the knowledge that the criminals in control of US are keepingsecret,”Iconcluded.

“Yes.It’swheretheyroottheirphilosophy‘secretknowledgeequalspower’andtheirbasisforcompartmentalizingbitsandpiecesof it throughNeed-to-Know.According to Bratcher, these secrets are multiplying and compounding at analarming rate. Technology has reached a level where it is compounding itselfthrough computerization creating artificial intelligence. Artificial intelligencecontinues tobreedwith technology, to thepointwhere technologiesareoutofcontrol and appear alien.What I saw back in the 70’s was already alarming.Knowledge was becoming unmanageable, and those controlling secrets wererunning out of ability to absorb, comprehend, and utilize it all. Bratcher saysthey’ve now allowed alien-technology to compound to the point where it istotallyoutofcontrol,andthesurvivalofhumanityisinjeopardyasaresult.”

“But artificial intelligence lacks soul, and therefore lackswisdom just like thecriminalsincontrolofit.Thinkaboutit.Withwisdomwecanshift

power,dismantlethesecrets,andreclaimourinnatestrengthbeforeit’stoolate.”

“And have these criminals tried for crimes against humanity,” Mark added.“Whattheyhavedoneistreasonoustoallmankind!”

“Mankindcanstillmakethenecessarychanges,”Icontinued.“Allitwouldtakeis a spiritual revolution evolution!By everything I overheard being discussed,thoseflatthinkerswho’vebeenincontrolalreadyknowtheyareoutoftime.It’sjustamatteroftimeuntilartificialintelligencecontrolsthem,too.”

“Maybeitdidallalong,”Marksuggested.

“Maybeitisalien,”Isurmised.“Thepointisstillthesame.Wisdomoutthinksacriminalmind every time.With spiritual evolution throughwisdom, humanitycanreclaimsoulpurpose.WhatisBratcher’sspinonasolution?”

“He’s focused on step one, disseminating the facts. PeopleNeed-to-Know thetruthfirst.”

“Wow,”Ipondered.“Truthdoesmakeusfree.”

“ItkeptmefreefromaGrandJuryIndictmenttoday,”Marksmiledasheturnedoff the tape recorder and parked the Pacer in the driveway. “The differencebetweenfictionandrealitywasalltheGrandJuryhadNeed-to-Know.”

“Andwe’refreetocelebratethevictory!”Isaid,openingthedoor.

Chapter23PANDORA’SBOX

ThenextdaywasspentwritingoutTopSecretmemory.BitsandpiecesofwhatI had previously remembered regarding my experiences at the Blacksburg,VirginiaDARPAlaboratoryconcerningartificialintelligenceandGeorgeBush’sdiscussions regarding the same demanded to be expanded and written out incomprehensive detail. The strenuousness of yesterday’s Federal Grand Juryhearing, combined with the discussion of DARPA, had triggered a need tofurtherdeprogramwhatIknew.

Additionally,wewerenearingacalendardate,whichnaturallytriggersmemorystronger thananythingelseevenwithoutaconsciousconceptof time.Perhapsthat is why people celebrate anniversaries and holidays on an annual basis.Whatever the reason, calendar dates such as the first week in August’sCongressional Recess and the first week in October’s Country MusicAssociationAwards always causedmymemories to surface accordingly. I hadbeenusedextensivelyduringthosetimes.Thisyear,GeorgeBushwasscheduledto be in attendance at the CMA awards in Nashville, which enhanced myurgency towrite outmemory.As aWhiteHouse/Pentagon levelmind controlslaveduringtheReagan-BushAdministration,Ihadbeeninapositiontowitnessand experience secret inner sanctuary operations and tactics that should bepublicknowledge.Myneedtowriteoutthesephotographicallyrecalleddetailswas increasing proportionately to my growing awareness of public ignoranceandsociallyprogrammedapathy.

While Ideprogrammedandwroteout thevast informationand technologies towhich I had been exposed, I would occasionally emerge from my past longenoughtomakesidenotesofsolutions.SinceIwasnowcapableofthinkingandultimatelyfeeling,makingnotesof“soulutions”helpedmetorespondlogicallytothesepreviouslyexperiencedharshrealities.Likewise,peoplemustlogicallythink out of the box that social engineering has locked them into, rather thanallowahandfulofcriminalstodictatetheiractions.GoodpeoplehaveaNeed-

to-Knowthatwhattheydon’tknowiscontrollingthem.

PerpetraitorsIknewduringmytenureasanMKUltramindcontrolledslaveareacutely aware of human behavior patterns, such as how violent behaviors insociety often occur in conjunction with specific calendar dates. DARPA’sinformation source provided intricate details into actions and reactions thatreverberate for generations, and this insight was being kept secret from thepopulacewhileitwasusedagainstthem.

Reagan’s unprecedented release of mental patients while he was Governor ofCalifornia was implemented on a national scale during his PresidentialAdministration. Occultism (a.k.a. satanism), which is usually the reversal ofCatholic mass, had been used extensively as a trauma base for mind controlwherebymany institutionalizedpeoplewere termedSurvivorsofRitualAbuse(SRAs) by mental health professionals. Around Halloween, county jails andmental institutions filledupwithpeople suffering fromcalendar-date intrusivememory flashes.Whenmemories are not written out, occultic flashbacks canresult in violent behavior and subsequently overfill jails as well as mentalinstitutions.

Unrecovered victims who were turned out onto the streets during the 1980’sbeganactingouttheirsatanicabuseinasubconsciousefforttobringconsciousawareness to their plight. Satanic movies like the CIA’s Jesuit moviedirector/producer Peter Blatty’s over-hyped “Exorcist,” and music like OzzyOsborne’s, were also deliberately introduced into society in accordance withsocialengineeringplansemanatingfromDARPA.ItwasforeseenthatReagan’sreleaseoftherituallyabusedfrommentalinstitutionswithouteffectivetherapywould result in their acting out their abuse on calendar dates. This, in turn,traumatized others, reaching proportions that traumatized society as a whole.Sincetheeffectsoftraumaonthehumanmindrenderpeoplemoresuggestibleand easily led, social engineering began evolving into mass mind control asanticipatedthroughthisdeliberatelyenhancedviolence.

People’s superstitions “naturally” heightened through their ignorance inconjunctionwithoccultism’sdeliberateriseinthe‘70sand‘80’s1.Additionally,humankind’s innate need for calendar-date tradition furthered the use ofnumerologyforcontrolpurposes.Mathematicalsequencewaseasilyperpetuatedbyartificialintelligence.

Forexample,theUSpublicwouldbecomeconditionedtoviolenceoccurringonApril 19, the calendar date when both Waco and Oklahoma City Bombingtragediestraumatizedthenation.RarelydopeopleintheUSdaregatheronthatdateanymore.Ontheflipsideofthesamephenomena,globalfocusofloveonValentine’sDayhasraisedcollectiveconsciousness,romanticexpectations,andtraditional indulgence in chocolate decadence every February 14. Even thosewithoutacurrentrelationshipcravechocolateonthatdatethewaypeoplecravehotdogsandhamburgersonJuly4intheUS.Asmoreandmorepeoplerealizethis human trait of socially engineered autogenic responses to calendar dates,collectiveconsciousawarenessrisesasisnecessarytoincitedeliberate,positivechange.

Whynotdeclareeveryday“theday”tofocusonlove,ratherthanonlyonedayper year? What kind of collective consciousness would rise when loveencompasses the globe each and every day? Would love’s positive energyreframe calendar dates of fear and trauma?Could declaring every day “EarthDay” save the planet from the imminent destruction that is perpetuated everyotherdayoftheyear?Withawareness,possibilitiesareendless!Byrisingabovepredictable routines to establish deliberate heightened awareness instead,spiritualrevolutionwouldmakeuswiser.Ifhumankindcollectivelystoodstronginthisknowing,theycouldreclaimcontroloftheirlives!Thekeytoopenthisawarenessistruth.

Most all actions of those few criminals in control have/had triple meaning,cause,orpurposebasedontheartificialintelligenceknowledgetheyareprivyto.Nothingiseverperpetratedbythem“accidentally”or“coincidentally.”Theonlyexception to this is when unanticipated “blowback” from sudden exposure offormerly secret information occurs. Considering that they have full access tosuppressed and artificially compartmentalized intelligence, it is easy tounderstandtheirabilitytoutilizeitonvariouslevelsatthesametime.

Criminals in control of our information andour technology even consciouslyspeakontwolevelsatthesametime.NLP,thelanguageofthesubconscious,haslongsincebecomeanaturalformofcommunicationforthem.Television’smasscommunicationenabledthemtomanipulatethepublicthroughspeakingonbothconscious and subconscious levels at once with ease. Specific words used toconditionthepublicbecomeclear,andevenpredictable,withawareness.

During Reagan’s Administration, the word “awesome” emerged, followed by“amazing.”GeorgeBushthenledusthrough“AMaze”wheretheexitsignwaschanged to enTrance. Then people were “basically” conditioned to economic“basics”foryears.WhenUSmilitiasbegangainingstrengthandnumbersinaneffort to regaincontrolofConstitutionalvaluesandgovernment, everyviolenttragedyof the timeswas termeda“maliciousattack.”Prior to the“malicious”attack on militias, they were respected for peacefully and wisely upholdingAmerican2 values.Thosewitheyes-to-seeandears-to-hear realizedwhat spin-doctorsweredoing,whiletheignorantwereledfurtherintothedark.

Most who could think to seek answers to society’s increasing violence werealready socially engineered to accept media-hyped government solutions, andtheypredictablyreactedaccordingly.SenatorByrd,inthepowerfulpositionsofSenateMajorityWhipandheadofSenateAppropriations, couldquote theUSConstitutionaswellassatanistsquotetheBible.HecouldtwistverbiageintoareversaltofittheNewWorldOrderagendawithoutthepeople’sawarenessthathe was doing so. “Good people don’t think to look for this kind of criminalactivity,”heconfidentlyboasted.

Inthemeantime,spin-doctorsofsocialengineeringspunthenewsandviewsofthe population without their conscious knowing, creating further divisionsamong them. In response to the rise of satanism, debate over ConstitutionalvaluesofFreedomofReligionbecameadeliberateemotionaldiversionaryissue,while harmonic technologies through music blasted violent lyrics into thesubconsciousmind.Violentlyricsthenbecamethediversionaryissue,focusingthepublicawayfromthetechnologicaladvancesintheapplicationofharmonicsandincitingdebateoverConstitutionalvaluesofFreedomofSpeech.ErosionofUS Constitutional values commenced while the original issues were neverresolved.

DARPA’s source of artificial intelligence was driving problematic actions,reactions, and solutions designed to enforce controls, in addition to providingreverberating results from secret technological harmonic advancements. Thosewho fed from this Top Secret advanced information source, such as GeorgeBush, began gaining global momentumwhile the people lost more and more“basic”freedoms.

AtBohemianGroveinNorthernCalifornia,thisadvancedartificialintelligence

was/is discussed by those gathered there for the purpose of ushering in whatNero,AdolphHitlerandGeorgeBushtermtheirNewWorldOrder.UnderMKUltramindcontrolinthe‘80s,IwasoftenusedsexuallyattheBohemianGrove,which gave me cause to overhear and photographically record these intensediscussions3.

Computerized technological advancements have perpetuated artificialintelligence to the point where it appears alien. Even those at the Grove hadvaryingpointsofviewontheoriginalsourceofDARPA’sartificialintelligence,spawningfascinatingdiscussionsonvariousmulti-dimensionalextra-terrestrials.

IwasattheGrovein1986underMKUltramindcontrolwaitingforneworderswhile George Bush talked with his comrade Dick Cheney. Artificialintelligence’s hundred-year plan to total global control was discussed.Computerswerescheduledtoemergeastheleadinghouseholdcommunicationsdevice. These flat-thinking criminals believed that they would be capable ofcontrolling people on aworldwidemass communications levelmore powerfulthan television. Focused computer users would already be tranced into theirmonitorscreens,whichwouldthenbeusedtopumpvastamountsofinformationinto their heads. “It will bring people up to speed information-wise,” GeorgeBushhadsaid.

FormerPrimeMinisterofCanada,BrianMulroney,hadexcitedlydiscussedthesame concept being applied through the school systems.Bush,Mulroney, andCheneyhad failed toconsider thatcomputerswouldbeusedbyhumankind tocommunicatetruthwithwisdomtore-establishfreethought.JustlikeByrdhadsaid regarding “good people” being unable to “think to look for this kind ofcriminal activity,” these flat thinkingcriminalswere incapableof thinking likeus.Theynever thought toconsider thestrengthof the innatehumanspirit, thefar-reaching impact of wisdom, and resultant soulutions. While artificialintelligence was providing themwith information on actions and reactions, itwasnotprovidingwisdom.Truth’swisdomishumanity’skeytofreedom.

Itwas discussed and decided that fearwould be perpetuated globally in orderthat focuswould stay on the negative rather than allow for soul expression topositivelyemerge.Aspeoplebecamemore fearful andcompliant, capacity forfreethoughtandsoulexpressionwoulddiminish.Thereisadistinctinabilitytoexert soul expression under mind control, and evolution of the human spirit

woulddiminishalongwithfreedomof thoughtwhenbombardedwithconstantnegative terrors. Whether Bush and Cheney deliberately planned to raise acollective fear over collective conscious love is doubtful. They did not think,speak, or act in those terms. Instead, they knew that information control gavethem power over people, and theywere hell-bent to perpetuate it at all costs.Cheney,Bush, and other global elite ushering in theNewWorldOrder totallybelieved in the planmappedout by artificial intelligence.Theywere allowingtechnologytodictateglobalcontrol.

“Lifeislikeavideogame,”Bushoncetoldmeattheruralmulti-milliondollarLampe,MissouriCIAmindcontrol trainingcampcomplexdesigned forBlackOps Special Forces where torture and virtual reality technologies were used.“SinceIhaveaccesstothetechnologicalsourceoftheplans,Idictatetherulesofthegame.”Therulesofthegamedemandedinstantaneousresponsewithnotime to consciously thinkandcritically analyze.Constant consciousdisruptionof thought through television’s burst of light flashes, harmonics, andsubconscious subliminals diminished continuity of conscious thought anyway,creating a deficit of attention that could easily be refocused into video gameformat.

DARPA’sartificialintelligencewasreliantonsecrecy,andaterrifyingcoverforrealitywaschosentodivertpeoplefromthesimpletruth.Sincepeopleperceivealiensasbeingphysical like them, itwasdecidedthat the technological realitycouldbedisguisedaccordingtopreconceptions.Throughgenerationsofgeneticencoding dating back to the beginning of man, serpents incite an innateautogenic response system in humans to “freeze” in terror. George Bush wasexcited at the prospects of diverting people from truth by fear throughperpetuating lizard-like serpent alien misconceptions. “People fear what theydon’t know anyway. By compounding that fear with autogenic fear response,theywon’twanttolookintoPandora’sBox.”

Through deliberate generation of fear; suppression of facts under the 1947National Security Act; Bush’s stint as CIA director during Ford’sAdministration; the Warren Commission’s whitewash of the KennedyAssassination; secrecy artificially ensured by mind control particularlyconcerningDARPA,HAARP,Roswell,Montauk,etc;andwithpeople’sfluidityof conscious thought rapidlydiminishing; the secret government embraced theproverbial‘absolutepowerthatcorruptsabsolutely.’

According toNewWorldOrder plans being discussed at theGrove, plans forreducingtheearth’spopulationwasahighpriority.Massgenocideofso-called“undesirables” through theproliferationofAIDS4washighonBush’sagenda.“We’llannihilatetheniggersattheirsource,beginninginSouthandEastAfricaand Haiti5.” Having heard Bush say those words is by far one of the mosttorturous things I ever endured. Equally as torturous to my being were thediscussions on genetic engineering, human cloning, and depletion of earth’snaturalresourcesforprofit.Cheneyremarkedthatnoonewouldbeabletothinktostoptechnology’splan.“I’lldestroytheplanetfirst,”Bushhadvowed.

I knew as I deprogrammed, thatGeorgeBush and hisNewWorldOrder planmustbestoppedatallcosts.Mysidenotesofsoulutionspreventedmefromre-dissociating from the reality that I never wanted to believe in the first place.WhetherBushwasboastingormeantwhathesaid,Iwatchedastheplanbegantounfold.Iwasalsoseeingreformulationofplansashumankindbeganslowlywakingupandgatheringstrengthofspirittochangethesourceofpowerflow.

“We need to go to town in the morning,” Mark told me after I closed mynotebook. “Bratcher saidhemailed some importantpapers tome. Ineed toatleastattempttoretrievethembeforetheFedsgetholdofthem.”

“Good,” I said. “I’d like to see Kelly, and check on Rosenburg’s progresstowardsobtainingthechildsupportCoxowes.”

Bright and early the next morning, we loaded up the Pacer and drove toNashville.“RememberwhenIfirstbeganhavingmemoryflashesinAlaskaandtold you about Bush saying hewould destroy the planet if he doesn’t get hisway?”

“Yes, andhe’s right on schedule.”Mark rolleddown thewindow to let in thecool,freshmorningair.

“That’s what I was writing out in detail yesterday.” Now that it was alreadywritten out, talking about it with Mark was healing. Tears rolled down mycheeks. “It causedme to realize again why we’ve been able to survive theseyears sinceyou rescuedKelly andme.Youare sowise.Wenever couldhavemade it to this point if itweren’t for you and your ability to applywhat youknowwith soul andwisdom.You have applicable intelligence. Its nowonder

DARPA’s computers can’t seem to predict and counter your actions. You’reoutthinkingthemall.Youareproofthatlovewins.”

“Truth always survives,” Mark said. “It’s getting it out there that is sotreacherous.”

“The truth Danny was about to reveal didn’t go away just because they‘suicided’him.”Iblewmynose.

“His true purpose lives on,” Mark expounded. “With the remaining mediajournalists cowering in the shadows, it’s hard to see beyond the moment torealize themagnitudeofhisaccomplishments. In time,his truthwillbepublicknowledge.Hissuccessmaynotbevisiblerightnow,yetinsomewayshemadeahugedifferenceforallofus.”

“Inessence,heputacomputervirus inBush’svideogame,” Iassuredmyself,reflectingonmyconsciousawarenessofthedetailsthatbecameclearyesterday.

“Whateverittakestocrumblethematrix,”Markadded,seemingtounderstandthemeaningbehindmystatement.

“Whatisamatrix?”

“Look itup in thedictionary. It’s thebeginningwithanend;astructure likeawomb;therockthatgrowsthecrystal,”Markdefined.“Bush’s‘videogame’hasanorigin,astructure,amatrixfromwhichitoriginates.WhenIreadyournoteslastnight,itwassimpletoseethesolutionsyounoted.Rememberingeventsasyoudid,despiteBush’sdarkspin,undoubtedlyclearedyourvision.Feardidn’tblindyoutotruth’ssolutions.”

“Truth,nomatterhowhorribleincontent,doesfreemefromfear,justlikeyousaid it would. Now when I see that lizard alien image creeping into societythroughsocialengineering,Iknowit’s justamatterof timeuntil truthshattersit’sfearfulillusiontosetthepublicfree.”Ithoughtbacktoanotheralien-themeoccurrence Bush had perpetuated through his ‘You are what you read’programming6.“It’s likerememberinghowthelizardholograph7Bushshowedmewasstaged.Realizinghereallyisn’tanalienfreedmymindtorecallothereventssurroundingthetrauma,andmostlikelythisDARPAinformation,too.”

“That’swhatImeanttheotherdaywhenIsaidthatrealizingthetruthissteponetowardsimplementingsolutions.Bratcher’sNeed-to-Knowconceptisessential.”

“NowpeoplesimplyNeed-to-Knowtherealitythatlizard-aliensareadeliberateDARPAillusionliftedfromtheOuterLimitstvshowinordertobeempoweredto take positive action and unplug artificial intelligence fromnegative sourceslikeBush.”

Marksmiled.“That’smoreeasilysaidthandone.”

“Well,truthnevergoesaway,sowehaveallthetimeintheworldtostopthesenarrow-mindedflatthinkers.Nomatterhowintelligenttheyareandhowfartheyprogress,wisdomwillstopthem.”

“Mind control must be stopped first,” Mark countered. “Under mind control,humanityisoutoftime.”

“Wow,”Ithoughtaloud,whilemymindreverberatedwiththemeaning.“You’reright.Truth needs to prevail now. I’m fortunate to be free to think formyselfagainandbelieveinthepowerofthepeople.ItmustscarethewitsoutofBush,Byrd, Cheney, and all those creeps that thewizard’s curtain8 has been pulledbacktorevealtheyarejustvile,evilmenrunningacomputertheycallPacer.”

“Or is thecomputer running them?Eitherway, they’veoverplayed theirhand.Theymaybelieve they are ‘above the law,’”Mark said, referring toReagan’sstatementduringOperationShellGame9.“Butthey’resubjecttothesamelawsofhumanityandthesamelawsoftheuniversethattherestofusare.Theycanandwillbestopped.”

Before Mark dropped me off at Cumberland House to see Kelly while heattemptedtoretrieveourmail,IdashedintotheStahlmanBuildingtoseeScottRosenburg. He informedme that Cox had delayed court depositions until thefirstweekofJanuary,whichmeantobtainingthebackchildsupportwouldtakelongerthanhoped.Fortunately,timeframestowardsKelly’srehabthatMarkhadestablishedwereflexible.

IstoppedbyJeanCrowe’sofficeonthewaybackdownstairs,andlearnedthatEdithHammonshadfiledcomplaintagainstCox’sattorney,BobAnderson,withJudgeShookhoff.Shevowed that ifactionwerenot taken immediatelyonherdetailed charges of threats and harassment, she would take the matter to theSupremeCourt.

While I pickedupmycopyof thedocument and turned to leave, JeanCroweadvised, “Wayne Cox is scheduled to see Kelly again when he’s here fordepositions in January.Youmightwant toaskDr.Nurcum to recommend thatthevisitnottakeplace.”

“I’ll takecareofit,”Iassuredher,hurryingoutthedoortogetbacktothecarbeforetheparkingmeterexpired.

OnthewaytoCumberlandHouse,IfilledMarkinonrecentevents.Weagreedto seeDr.Nurcum,RepresentativeWest,MarshaWillis, and anyone elsewhocouldaffectthematterassoonaspossible.ItseemedIhadbarelyclosedthecardoorbeforeMarkspedoutofsight,andIcouldonlyhopehewouldsucceedinconfiscating our confiscated mail. I went on into Cumberland House to seeKelly.

Kelly and I would be supervised by a friendly social worker today, whoimmediately notified me that Melissa was gone. I was relieved that Kellywouldn’t be subjected to her Halloween rituals. We sat on the floor to drawpictures together, discussing mind-brain function as only she and I could.“CharlenesaysIhave togetalongwithmypeersorelse,”shesaid,nervouslyglancingatthesocialworkersupervisingourvisit.“Itmakesithardtobetrue-to-soulwhenIhavetoactlikesomethingI’mnot.”

I drew thepie graph illustration thatMarkhaddrawn forme. I illustratedhercompartmentalizedmind,crypticallyexplainingthatthedifferentcompartmentswere different displays of her personality that were able to get along withanyone. To ‘get along with her peers,’ she reflected their personality throughwhat is termedby real therapists as ‘mirroringandmatching.’ “That reflectionprojectionissomethingtobeawareof,nottouse.Sincesometherapistslacktheeducation tounderstandyourcondition,” Iexplained,“theymight forceyou tomirror andmatch ‘or else’.Whenyou stay strong inwhoyou are true-to-soulrighthere,”Ipointedtothecenterofthegraph,“youcanchoosetoactasyou’re

toldwhileknowingdeepinsideit’sanact.”

“Isthatpartrighthere,”Kellypointedtothecenterofthegraph,“thatlittlelightinsideme?”

“Yes!”Iwaselatedbyherperspective.“Shineitbright.Keepshiningitbrighterand brighter until you are the radiant, brilliant you that you know yourself tobe!” I continued drawing the picture as a beautiful sunflower in full bloom,reflectingunlimitedlightfromthesun.Sheunderstoodthemeaningbehindthedrawing,whichshecouldkeepasalovingreminderwithoutCumberlandHousestafftakingitaway.

“Here’sapictureforyouthatshowshowmybrainworks,”Kellyexcitedlysaidas she drew a fascinating picture illusion. In less than twominutes, she drewwhat appeared to be anEskimo looking into the sun from one angle, and theheadofathoughtfulIndianChieffromanother.Iwasastounded!Notonlydidthepicturereverberateindepiction,italsoreverberatedinmeaningconsideringher partCherokee heritage, ourAlaskan experience, and a headdress that alsoappearedassunshine!

“You are brilliant!” I hugged her, forever strengthened in light of her lovingspirit.

Chapter24STEPSEVEN

January13,1992,extensiveCourtDepositionsweretakenasscheduled.ThoseinattendanceincludedWayneCox,hisattorneyBobAnderson,anattorneyfortheDepartmentofHumanServices,Kelly’scourtappointedGuardianAdLitemMarthaChild1,AssistantDistrictAttorneyScottRosenburg,mycourtappointedattorney Jean Crowe, and me. While these depositions should have beensufficient toobtainKelly’s right to therapyand freeher from theState JusticeandMentalHealthSystems,January13onlyprovedtobethedayfromhellasindicatedbythedate.

Bylaw,discoverydepositionsrequiredthatIsubmitquestionstomyattorneytoask Wayne Cox. The questions I posed were formulated with Mark’s expertinput,andwouldhaveprovedsufficienttoforceCoxtopurjerhimselfandrevealthe truth.Questions like:Does lime have a color?Clocks andmusicians bothhavewhat?Whatdoesaclocknothave thatamusician’shanddoes?Whatdoyouuse a kiln for?These questionswouldhavebypassedCox’s ability to lie,triggeringhimintohispersonathatonlyknewmurderanddismemberment.Myattorney violated the law and my rights by refusing to ask these pertinentquestions.

Worsestill,whenhearrivedintownWayneCoxwaspermittedaccesstoKellyby Charlene Johnson who overrode court orders and Dr. Nurcum’srecommendation that suchvisitationbeprohibited.Mydistressat learning thisatrocityinthecourseofdepositionswascompoundedbyknowingIhadnolegalrecourseagainsttheviolation.MyheartwaswithKellythewholetimemymindfocused on countering contrived allegations and answering grueling legalquestionsobviouslyformulatedbysomeoneknowledgeableofmydiffusedCIAMKUltraprogramming.

When the process was finally complete, I rushed to Cumberland House tocomfort Kelly. Cumberland House staff forbid me to see her, claiming to be

under strict orders fromCharlene Johnson. I sought resolution to the dilemmafromICAM,theorganizationoverseeingKelly’scasethatwassecuringherout-of-staterehabthroughDr.Nurcum’sforthcomingdiagnosis.IlearnedthatICAMhadsuddenlybeendissolvedandwasno longer inexistence. ItwouldbedaysbeforeIwasabletoseeKelly.

Kelly cried when I finally saw her, “I thought I was being protected againstWayne,butCharleneheldmedownandforcedmetoseehim.Iputmyfingersin my ears so he couldn’t trigger me this time, and Charlene held my handsbehindmeandmademelisten.What’sworseisthatWaynekepttriggeringmeandnoonestoppedhim.”

Mind control triggers can be individualized, in sync with the victim’sconditioning.Visualorauditorycontactwithanabuserisasignificanttriggerinitself. Even if I could somehow convey understanding of this mind controltrigger to Kelly’s “care-givers,” it most likely would not have resulted in thepositivechangeshesodesperatelyneeded.Thegrossinjusticeandtotallackofcompassion at this point had convincedme that itwas completelyup to us tomakenecessary,drasticchanges.MarkandItookimmediateactiontoestablishKelly’stransfertothehightechrehabthatawaitedheroutsidethecountry.

Depositionshadprovedthat$3000ofwhatCoxowedinbackchildsupportwasreadily available. Thanks to ScottRosenburg, SixthCircuitCourt proceedingsquicklycommencedtoobtainreleaseofthefunds.HepresentedthecasebeforeJudge Brothers2, who awarded Kelly the $3000, then withdrew his originaljudgmentwhiletheDepartmentofHumanServicesfiledclaimtoit.

Although we were aware of ongoing scandal surrounding Judge Brothers’allegedmoneylaunderinganddealingsinNashville’scocaineindustry,ourcaseagainstCoxwassostrongthatthisdelaywasnotanticipated.Inadditiontothenumbers proving he owed extensive back support,we had obtained a copy ofCox’s Louisiana bank statement of an account in Kelly’s name. Still, JudgeBrothersdelayedthereleaseofthemoney,andultimatelyreleaseofKellyfromtheTennesseesystem.

After court, I walked across the street from the Court House to ScottRosenburg’soffice to furtherdiscuss thecase.“Having looked intoCox’seyesduringdepositionwasenoughtoconvincemethathewaslying,”Scottsaidwith

compassion,“and thathe ismost likelycapableofexecutingwhatyou’ve toldmeabouthim.Iamdedicatedtothiscase,Kelly’scause,andherlegalrighttothatbackchildsupport.Itwillbereleased,”hevowed.“Soon.TheDepartmentofHumanServicesmaybeawardedcurrentchildsupport,buttheyhavenolegalrighttowhatisalreadyowed.”

I stopped by Jean Crowe’s office as usual on my way out of the StahlmanBuilding. “Since ICAM was dissolved, there is a new organization calledOmniVisionsthatwasspecificallyformedtodealwithcaseslikeKelly’s,”JeanCroweexcitedlytoldme.

“Wedon’tneedmoreredtapetocomplicatethingsfurther,”Isaid,skepticalofanyState-organizedhelpbythistime.

Jean lowered her voice. “It’s designed to help you. We’ll go to the meetingtomorrow.TheywantMarktoattendaswell.”

The meeting with OmniVisions did seem encouraging. It appeared that theemployeeswemetwithweresincereintheirdeterminationtohelp.Theyalreadyhad a large file on Kelly, and were aware of her need for out-of-staterehabilitation.

“UntilwecanobtainKelly’stransfer,thereisanewtherapistintownwithadualdegree in psychiatry and psychology who is willing to take her case,” theyassuredus.“HisnameisWilliamMitchell.Heisjustnowopeninghispracticehere,andabigcaselikeKelly’scouldestablishhiminNashville.Bestofall,heclaimstobeacutelyawareofMKUltramindcontrolandrecoveryfromit.HestudiedunderDr.MartyOrne.”

Markspokeup.“IknowMartyOrne3.HeworkswiththeDepartmentofDefenseand has a published reputation within the CIA for executingMKUltra mindcontrolabusesthatbeginwhereDr.EwenCameron4leftoff,”heasserted.“Itisrumored that he still sleepswith hismother for fun.How do you knowwhatMitchell’sintentionsarewithKelly?”

“Seeforyourself.Hewants tomeetwithyouandCathybeforeheaccepts thecase.”

WhenMarkandImetwithDr.WilliamMitchell,Md.Phd.,wefoundhimtobehighly intelligent,well informed, and he demonstrated that hewas capable ofhandling Kelly’s case. Although Dr. Mitchell had professional ties intoVanderbiltPsychiatric,hisassociationwithDr.Nurcumwouldbeminimal.Hewasn’t even interested inNurcum’s findingsor filesonKelly. “My first effortwithKellywill be to treather for the extensivePTSDshemusthave sufferedwith Cox’s recent visit and to develop a rapport with her,” he said. “You arewelcometomonitorherprogressinmycare,butmyfirstorderofbusinesswillbetopetitionthecourttosealherrecords.

ThatwillkeepallStateandFederalpryingeyesoffhercase.It ismyintenttohelpyourdaughter,notfeedintelligencetotheFeds.”

AfterwatchingMitchell expertly useNLP,Mark’s impressionwas “he can bedangerous.”Still,therewasnoviablealternative.SoonafterKellybegantherapywithDr.Mitchell,OmniVisionsclaimedtheywerepreparedtoprocureheroutofstate therapy,whichwould in turn protect her from further abuse byCharleneJohnsonandWayneCox.“Allyouhavetodoisrelinquishfullcustodyofher,”they said. “What few remaining parental rights you still have are beingoverriddenbythecourtsanyway.SimplysignthispaperandKellyisfree.”

IwasdesperateforresolutiontoKelly’sever-increasingneedforprotection,butIhadnocausetotrustOmniVisions.NordidIyettrustDr.Mitchell,althoughheappeared tobemaking fastprogress treatingKelly’sPTSD. Iopted to think itover.

BeforeIcouldevensleeponmydecision,itwasmadeforme.January22,1991theState ofTennessee took full custodyofKelly through immoral and illegalmeans.Iwasn’tevennotifieduntilafterthatfact.Dr.Mitchell’srequesttosealKelly’srecordswasdenied,andshewasstoppedfromfurthertherapywithhimwhile he appealed. Mark suspected this was a ploy since Dr. Mitchell hadcompletedhispartfortheCIA.

MarkandIbeganwritinglettersinearnest,notifyingeveryonewhowasawareof Kelly’s case on state, national, and international levels that the State ofTennesseehadsuddenlytakencustodywithoutatrial.

“Why is this being allowed to happen?” I wailed. “Kelly’s case should set

precedent.Itcanmakethedifferenceforsomanyaffectedbymindcontrol,andyeteveryoneseemstoburytheirheadinthesandratherthanfacetheissue.”

“People ignoremind control because theydon’twant to think about it,”Markexplained.

“Which doubly perpetuates it,” I concluded. “Theremust be away to resolvethis.”

“We’llexhausteveryoptionuntilwefindaway,”Markconsoledme.

In addition to ourmassive letterwriting awareness campaign,we also quietlysolidifiedarrangementsforKelly’stransferoutofthecountrytowherequalifiedrehab awaited her. When the $3000 was finally released through ScottRosenburg’sdiligence,MarkandIwerereadyandfinalizedthedetails.

Within hours of establishingKelly’s flight to freedom, theDoctor anticipatingher arrivalwasmurdered.When thephonecall came in,wewere toldhewasmurderedwhiletreatingaUSIntelligenceofficerassignedtoNATOSpecialOpswhowasactivelyinthemidstofInternationalespionage.Weweredevastated.

In the meantime, OmniVisions released Kelly from Cumberland House andplaced her in Foster Care--with Melissa Thurmond! Melissa was the formerCumberlandHouse worker who held the occult “full moon rituals.” I had nolegalrecourse.

Life’sconditionscouldn’tbeworse, it seemed.Markand I turned toeveryonewecouldthinkofforhelpwithintheStateofTennessee;inWashington,DC;inlaw enforcement, politics, and mental health; as well as national andinternationalorganizationssupposedlydesignedtointerveneinsituationssuchasours.Wecontactednewsorganizations,televisionnetworks,mediapersonssuchasOprahWinfrey5,andweevenappealedtothosewehadpreviouslycontacted.WepleadedwithUSCustomsInternalAffairsforintervention,onlytofindthattheirunderstanding,compassion,andvalidationofourcasecouldnotovercomethepoliticalcorruptionthathadtakenoverAmerica.

OnedayinearlyAprilwhileMarkandIwerefuriouslywritinglettersseekinghelp, there was a knock at the door. Aman in a wrinkled suit who appeared

severely traumatized saluted Mark when he opened the door. He spewed hiscredentialsandshowedhismilitaryID,sayinghisnamewasTommyBland.“Iknow of your circumstances, and I would like to help in exchange for yourexpertadviseonhowIcanregaincontrolovermyownlifeandmind.AreyoufamiliarwithDARPA?”

Tommy’sstory,whatherememberedofit,wastraumatic.Tearsstreameddownhisfaceasherelayedoneof themosthorrifyingexperiencesIhadeverheard.Mark provided him understanding and coping skills, which in turn gave himhope that some day he might recover. “What you know could restore freethought to America,” Tommy told Mark emphatically, “and ultimately helphumanityaswhole.IwilldoanythingIcantohelpyou.”

“When the time is right, I’ll takeyouuponyouroffer,“Mark toldhim, fullyaware thatTommy’s admission of holding aStepSevenTopSecretClearanceandIDcredentialscouldprovebeneficialtoourcause.

Withindays,EdithHammonstelephoned.Whensheexcitedlysuggestedthatwemeet,Mark and I droveout to her house. Itwasn’t likeEdith tomake such arequestandweknewitmustbeimportant.

Afterpouringourcoffee,Edithbegan,“BenWestcalledmeandaskedmeifyouwouldspeakbeforetheTennesseeLegislatureregardingKelly.Weneedchangesinthelawtoprotectthechildrenratherthanprotecttheirabusers.CommissionerGrunow will be in attendance.” Commissioner Grunow was head of theDepartment of Human Services who had repeatedly refused to meet with methroughout Kelly’s ordeal. Now he was being called to task, and I eagerlyacceptedtheinvitationtospeak.

“WhatshouldIdoaboutmembersoftheLegislaturethatIwasexposedtoundermindcontrol?” I askedher. “Iknow thatSenatorAlbright is still inoffice.” IthadnotbeenuncommonformetoattendLegislativefunctionsandpartiesbackinthe1980’s,dealingCIAcocaineand/orbeingprostitutedtovariousmembers.Albright in particular stood out inmymind since Iwas prostituted to him inconjunction with Alex Houston’s first mind controlled slave, Maria Medina.Albrightwas heavily involved in CIA cocainemoney laundering ops that ranthroughNashville’scountrymusicindustry.

“ImentionedthattoBen,”Edithsaid.“Hetoldmetoassureyouthatyouhavenocausetobenervousjustbecauseyou’remakingafewcriminalsnervous.Hesaid,‘lettheguiltysweatbecauseitonlyfurthervalidatesyourcase.’Besides,”shepattedmyhand,“I’llbewatchingthemtomakesuretheywon’tcomenearyou.”

“Oh,theywon’tgetnearher,”Markvowed.

Iwasn’tnervous,anyway.Thiswasclearlytoogoodofanopportunitytoallowthepast tomuckitup.IcouldmakeasignificantdifferenceonKelly’sbehalf.EdithhandedmeaslipofpaperwiththenumbersHR1462andS902writtenonit.“ThosearethenumbersoftheBillinKelly’snamethatarecurrentlybeforetheTennesseeHouseandSenate.You’rescheduled tospeakonMonday,April13th.”

“The13th?”Markraisedhiseyebrows.

“Well,maybe it will prove to be their unlucky day,” I smiled, fully aware ofnumbersgamesbynow.

WhenweleftEdith’s,MarkandIbrieflystoppedbyTommyBland’sapartmenton thewayoutof town.Markhadpreviouslybeen toTommy’sresidence,andtippedmetohisdisplayofphotographsinvolvingUSAirForceIntelCommandandDARPA.IstudiedthefascinatingphotosthatlinedhiswallswhileMarkandTommy talked. There were pictures of him with Bush as CIA Director,Panamanian Leader Manuel Noriega, recognizable Top Brass military, besideAirForceOne,andothernotablephotosthatseemedtomethattheyshouldbeclassified.

When Tommy’s teenage children began arriving home from school, theylovingly tended to their father. They treated him attentively with respect,compassion, and understanding. They knew their father had suffered extremetrauma,andaskedonlythathereceivehelp,too,oncewesucceededinobtainingitforKelly.Ourbriefstopprovedtobeahighlyinformativeandverymovingexperience.

On the long drive home, I decided not to question if Tommy’s ID had hadanything to do with the recent turn of events. It wouldn’t have made any

difference anyway, and sometimes it was more beneficial not knowing suchdetails, especially when it involved a Step Seven Clearance. Instead I asked,“DidyouseeallthosephotosonTommy’swallofhimwithGeorgeBush?”

“Icouldn’tgetpastthatoneofhimwithNoriega.”

“It’snowonderheishavingtroublewithhismemory,”Icontinued,stillthinkingofthephotosofhimandBushtogetherinvariousplaces.

“Withwhat Tommy knows aboutNoriega andBush,”Mark continued, “BushshouldbesittingonNoriega’slapduringhisupcomingtrial.”

Noriega’s trialwas scheduled for Friday,April 10.Despite our submission ofevidence throughnumerousmeans including JimDibble,C.I.D., andattorneysReese Bagwell and Frank Rubino, we hadn’t been called to testify. I thoughtabout Mark’s statement that Bush should be sitting on Noriega’s lap. “BushshouldbesharingacellwithNoriegaanywaybasedontheinformationCustomsvalidated regarding my experience with them in CIA cocaine ops6! I assumeTommy hasn’t been called to testify at Noriega’s trial either, since pertinentevidenceisstillhangingonhiswalls.ObviouslyNoriega’scaseisriggedasbadasKelly’s is.WithBush in office andNational Security slapped on the case,thereislittlehopethatthetruthwillcomeout.”

“Itwilleventually,”Markassuredme.“Italwaysdoes.AlotofpeopleknowthatJustCausewas‘justcause’NoriegawasskimmingCIAdrugprofitsfromBush’sCIA baby known as Operation Watchtower. The facts can’t be suppressedforever,especiallywhen the likesofWilliamVanRaaball theway through toTommyBlandhaveevidencelinkingthetwo.”

WedrovetherestofthewayinsilencewhileIfocusedonwhatIwouldsaytothe Legislature on Monday. Something had to give. Kelly’s situation withMelissawasbecoming increasinglyworsewithevery fullmoon.Beingdeniedtherapy for PTSD with Dr. Mitchell right now compounded the felony. HowcouldIsimplifysuchacomplexsubjectasmindcontroland,ultimately,Kelly’sneedsforpublicpresentation?Somehow,Iwouldhavetofindthewordstoopentheirears,theirminds,andtheirheartswhilemotivatingthemtotakeaction.

IftruthwereallowedtocomeoutduringNoriega’strialonApril10,itcouldbe

ofenormousbenefittomyspeechbeforetheLegislatureonthe13th.Noriega’strial, however, did little to reveal reality7. Bush’s involvement was twisted toappear heroic, as though his ‘Operation Just Cause’ was a major Drug Warvictory.Inthewakeofthatwhitewash,mydeterminationwasatanalltimehigh.

WhileIspoke,IbarelynoticedSenatorAlbright’soutragewhilehestormedoutofhisseattodramaticallymakeaphonecallinplainviewofeveryonepresent.IstayedintenselyfocusedonclearlymakingmypointforKelly’ssake.Notonlydid I cite the injustices incurred through a corrupt justice and mental healthsystem,Ialsopointedoutspecificswherebureaucraticredtapeonlytangledthefacts. I suggested solutions thatwould bemore humanitarian and less formal.State forms and laws did not allow for room to address issues that werebecoming prevalent in society, from ritual abuse and incest to mind control.When Iwas through,RepresentativeWestcalled for immediatechanges in theDepartment of Human Services to be written out in full by CommissionerGrunowandplacedonhisdeskwithintheweek.

A short question and answer period followed. Support was strong andcompassionate. After a few moments, Tommy Bland, in full dress Air Forceblues, stood up to say, “Today the voice of the people changed governmentpolicy.Couldthisbeconstruedasagiantstepforwardintheirmovementagainstthe dictates of the New World Order?” Pandemonium broke out in theLegislature,andthemeetingwasunofficiallyadjourned.

While Imademyway through the crowd towardsMark, I was roughly spunaroundtofaceCommissionerGrunow.Hewasseethingmad,spittinghiswordsatme.“IpersonallyassureyouthatyourdaughterwillneverbefreedfromStateCustody,andthatIwilldoeverythinginmypowertomakesureyouneverhavevisitationwithheragain.”

Somehow I remained calm while I retorted, “By the time you submit yourpaperworktotheLegislaturefortheirapproval,Iwillbedoingeverythinginmypowertoinsureit’sthelastthingyoudoasCommissioner.”

While I continued to make my way through the crowd to Mark, Ben Weststoppedme to excitedly tellme that theBill before theLegislature inKelly’sname would undoubtedly pass. When I told him about Grunow’s threat, heassuredme,“Youneednotworryabouthimsinceheanswerstome.”

“It’swho inWashington,DC that he’sbeen answering to throughout this casethatconcernsme,”Iresponded.

Markarrivedatmysidebythen,wiselyexpressingappreciationtoBenWestfortheopportunityhehadaffordedus.Afterextendingmythanksaswell,IturnedtoMarktoaskwhereTommywas.

“Ididn’tevenknowhewashere!”Isaid.“ThequestionheraisedregardingtheNewWorldOrderraisedpeopletotheirfeet.I’dliketothankhim.”

WeneversawTommyBlandagain.

Chapter25USMALE

May 9, 1992 the Bill before the Tennessee State Legislature in Kelly’s namepassedintolaw.EdithHammonsmailedacopyofthelaw’sverbiagetoourPostOfficeBox,anditneverreachedus.

“Wedon’tevenget junkmail through thatPostOfficeBoxanymore, letaloneimportantdocuments”Marktoldher.“I’veexhaustedeverydiplomaticmeansIknowtorectify theproblemtonoavail. I’mgoingtohaveto takeactiononitmyselftomorrow.”

Whenwe arrived inNashville the nextmorning,Mark droppedme off at theCopyShopwhilehetendedtothematter.AfterImadeafewnecessarycopies,Isettledintotheemployee’sbackroomwhereBillywasbusyworking.

“HowisMarkgoingtostoptheCIAfromconfiscatingyourmail1?”Billyaskedwhilehecontinuedhisworkbindingbookletshehadcopied.

“Ireallydon’tknow,”Ianswered,watchingthefrontdoorthroughthetwo-waymirror.“I’llsurebegladtoseehimcomethroughthatdoor,though,totellusallabout it. He really is disgusted with the Feds for refusing to act on thedocumentedcrimeswe’ve turnedover to them,and this illegal confiscationofourmailisonemorecrimethey’reignoring.”

“Ya’ll are battling a corrupt government over freedom of thought, and theyinterrupt your communications violating freedom of speech,” Billy stated.“That’scriminal.”

“TheyconfiscatedourcopyoftheLegislativeactionontheBillinKelly’sname.The bill passed into law, yet it hasn’t done anything to alleviate Kelly’scircumstances.ItseemscriminallyironicthatthisnewlawinKelly’snamedealswithmindcontrolandsatanismwhile,atthesametime,Melissahascontrolof

Kelly by court order and is subjecting her to occult rituals! Not only is thatmorallyandlegallywrong,butKellyispotentiallyvolatileandcouldtriggerintoviolencefromtheritualsatanytime.I’mconcernedforhersafetyandthesafetyofthosearoundher.”

“Let’shopeshewon’tsolveherproblemwithMelissaherself,”Billyoffered.

“IcanonlyhopethatDr.Mitchell’scourtactionwillproducepositiveresultsrealsoon.”

“It’s awonder any justice canbeobtained through the courts anymore,”Billyobserved. “I noticed that George Bush intervened on Ernest Ray Lynn’ssentencing forhiscriminalcocaineandattemptedmurdercharges tosubstitutehisprisontimewith‘punishmentofwritingasong2.’Writingsongsiswhathedoesanyway!We’retheonesbeingpunishedforhiscrimesifwehavetolistentoit.”

“PoorLoretta.IhadhopedtheywouldlockErnestRayupsoshecouldbefreefromatleastoneofhermindcontrolhandlers.Instead,heisfreetocontinuetomanipulateherinherMKUltravictimizationanddistributecocainefortheCIA!Whatkindofjusticeisthat?”

“DoesLorettaknowsheiscarryingcocaineonherbusesfortheCIA?”

“Shecan’tthinktoknowit,Billy.Shewouldbedevastatedtoknowhowsheisbeingusedforcriminalactivitythatultimatelyhurtsothers.Sheissuchapure,gentle, loving soul. With Mooney, Ken Riley, and Ernest Ray all activelyparticipatinginheruseandabusebytheCIA,IhadhopedthatperhapsErnestRay’sconvictionwouldresultinherfirststeptowardfreedom.ButGeorgeBushstepped in and set Ernest Ray free instead! Did you notice that Ernest Ray’sattorneywasReeseBagwell?3”

“Bagwell keeps popping up in news lately, whitewashing these CIA criminalcases. It’s a good thing Mark kept him off your case. Noriega’s trial was‘amBushed’bythesamecover-upofCIAcocaineops.I’llbetErnestRaywasn’ttheleastbitnervousaboutthetruthleakingoutconsideringBagwell’sinputintohisandNoriega’scocainecases.”

“It astounds me that the media is ignoring Noriega’s extensive ties into thiscountry, fromhis education at theSchoolof theAmericas4 to hiswell knowninvolvementwithBush and theCIA in the cocainebusiness.Can’t people seethat this so-called War on Drugs is no more than the CIA eliminating theircompetitionwhiletheytakeovertheindustryworldwide?”

Ipausedtoreflect.“Ifpeopledon’twakeupsoon,we’llhaveadruglordrunningthiscountry.”

“Wealreadydo,”Billysaid,unjamminghisstaplingmachine.

I laughed. “I’m referring to Bill Clinton. In 1984, I was at the Swiss VillaAmphitheater inLampeMissouri5whereBushandClintonwere talkingabouttheirNewWorldOrder.BushwasreallypleasedwithhowwellClinton’sMenacocaine operation was funding the New World Order effort, and he assuredClinton he would be rewarded politically. In those days, the groundwork forNAFTA6wasestablished toopentheborder to‘free tradeofdrugs toequalizeoureconomies,’andClintonwasrightthereinthemidstofitall.Itwasalreadydetermined thatBushwouldbeput in theofficeofPresidentat the same timeSalinaswasputinasPresidentofMexicosotheycouldusherinNAFTA.”

“Waitaminute,”Billysaid.“Whataboutelections?”

“What elections?” I asked. “Its easy for them to rig voteswith the electronicballets. If third world countries used archaic methods of voting, we sent inrepresentatives from the US to ‘oversee them.’ Everybody I knew in politicsdidn’t give elections a thought. They knew that people would believe in thecorrupted,controlledpolls,andthatthoseappointedtoofficeinaccordancewiththeNewWorldOrderweresecure.”

“Sopeoplearemisledbytheirleaderstobelievetheychosethem?”

“Not only that,” I answered, “but figureheads are placedwhile the real powerworks behind the scenes. For example, when Salinas was Vice President ofMexico, he ran the country while dela Madrid was only a Presidentialfigurehead. Vice President Bush ran this country while Reagan was actingPresident.”

“WhyisBushPresidentnow?”

“These guys have become so arrogant, they are blatant. Their overconfidencewill eventually be their downfall. In the meantime, they have planned forcontingencieslikewe’reseeingwiththemilitiasandpatriotsbeginningtowakeupandrebel.WhenBushandClintonwere talking in1984,Bush toldClinton‘whentheAmericanpeoplebecomedisillusionedwithRepublicansleadingthemintotheNewWorldOrder,you,asaDemocrat,willbeputintoplace.’IexpectthatClintonwillbeournextPresidentbasedonthatconversationIheard.”

“Thisisseriousinformation!”Billylookedupfromhiswork.“ItsnowondertheFedsareworriedaboutyourrevealingwhatyouknow.”

“TherearealotofpeoplewhoknowwhatIknow7,”Iassuredhim.“Andevenmorearewakinguptorealityfast.PeoplewithIntelligenceoperatingonaNeed-to-Knowaregaininginsightintoabiggerpicturewiththetruththatisemerging.TheygainonemorepieceofthepuzzleandtheBigPicturesuddenlycomesintofocus. When it does, their paradigms shift. Mark and I are also aware ofnumerousscientistswakinguptotherealityofaNewWorldOrderagendawhoare furious that they’vebeenmislead andused.Thesepeople are unitingwithstrength, and theNewWorldOrder elitewill need toplay their hold card andswitch political parties. Watch and see. Clinton will appear to ‘defeat’ Bushaccording to plan, while Bush continues business as usual from behind thescenesoftheNewWorldOrder.”

“WhodoyouthinkwillfollowClinton?”

“Acompliant,sleepingpublicmesmerizedbyhisOxfordlearnedcharisma.”

Billy looked up from hiswork again to clarify his question. “Imean into thePresidency.”

“Hillary?” I smiled half-heartedly. “Seriously, she is brighter thanBill, and isevenmorecorrupt.Knowingher,she’dprobablyratherworkbehindthescenes,although she may be used as another appearance of ‘change’ since she’s awoman.That’sjustspeculationbasedonhowthesecriminalsoperate.Theywanttokeeptheirpowerallinthefamily.IdidseeBush,Jr.beingconditioned,andtrained for the role of President at the Mount Shasta, California military

programmingcompoundin19868.He’snotverybright,though,soIdon’tknowhowtheycouldpossiblyprophimup…”

ThefrontdoorbelljingledasMarkstormedintotheCopyShopandstrodeforthedoorofthebackroomwhereheknewBillyandIwouldbe.Ijumpedupandthrewmyarmsaroundhim.

“How’ditgo?”

“We’llgetourmailnow.”Marksatonthecounter,takingalongdrinkfrommybottleofwater.

“Howdoyouknow?”Iimpatientlyinquired.“Whatdidtheysay?”

“Nothing,”Mark said,wiping hismouth. “I did the talking. Iwalked into theofficesupplythey’reusingforafront…”

“Whatofficesupply?”Billyasked.

“The one down the road a couple of blocks in the same building as the BellTelephoneCompany,”Markanswered.

“HowdidyouknowitwasaCIAfront?”BillyshutdownhisbindingequipmenttolistentoMark’sreply.

“Icouldsmellthem,”Marksmiled.

“Isthatwhatthatstinkisthatblowsthisdirectionsometimes?”

“Comeon,”Icoaxed.“Really.Howdidyouknow?”

“Aneducatedguess.TheCIAusesofficesupplyfrontsasoftenastheyusetoy-manufacturing fronts.They are so routine and predictable. I’ve beenwatchingthat place, and never saw legitimate business being conducted. It’s an OfficeSupplywithnooffice supplies. Instead, guys in suits anddarkglassesdrivingFed cars frequent the place. Anyway, I went inside and the place was prettymuchemptyexcept for agorgeousgirl sittingat adeskplaying receptionist. I

pattedmyfrontpocket,andsaid,‘Seethis?I’mnotgladtoseeyou’.”

Billychuckled,familiarwiththeinfamousMayWestline,‘isthatyourpistolinyourpocketorareyoujustgladtoseeme?’

“Whatdidshedo?”Ieagerlyasked.

“Shereachedunderthedeskandpushedherpanicbuttonjust likeIhopedshewould.Whenshestartedtoslidethedraweropen,Iassumedshewasgoingforaweapon so I slammed it and got in her face. I told her, ‘you know I have anexplosive temper. When people cheat me, threaten me, or steal my mail, Ibecomeexplosive.Youdon’twantme tobecomeexplosivenow,doyou?’Shewassittingthere,dumfounded.SoIleft.”

“Howdoyouknowwe’llgetourmail?”Ididn’tunderstandwhyMarkwassocertainhehadaccomplishedhisgoal.

“Isaidtheword‘explosive’threetimes.Repetitionisthemostcommonformofmindmanipulation used by theCIA.They know that itworks, so they use it.Whichmeanstheyalsorecognizeitwhensomeonelikemedeliberatelyrepeatsawordorphrasethreetimes.Sheboughtmybluff.I’mtellingyou,we’llgetourmailandthatlittleOfficeSupplystorewillclose.”

“You’ve never been wrong before under circumstances like these,” I smiled.“Thanksfortakingcareofit.I’mgladit’soverandyou’reOK.”

“OfcourseI’mOK,”Markreplied.“Idon’ttakechances,justcalculatedrisks.There’snowaytolose.”

“Well,”Billysaid,“Justthesame,I’mrelievedtoseeyoubackinonepiece.It’snoteverydaysomeonestormstheCIAandwalksawayunscathed.”

“They’reabunchofwimps,plus Iwaiteduntil theyall left for their3martinilunch,”Marktoldhim.“Don’tbuyintotheirtough-guyfront.”

“Speaking of ‘wimps’,” Billy switched subjects. “What is this ‘wimp’ imageBushprojects?”

Ianswered.“Ibelieveitisadeliberatelycontrivedpublicimagestemmingfromhispedophilicwimpappearance.Hetalkstothepubliclikehe’stalkingtokids.He even uses his Mr. Rogers9 voice. It’s a total diversion from the mindcontrolling,warmongeringcriminalthathereallyis.”

“Whatmakessomeonelikehimbecomeapedophile?”Billyasked.

“Multi-generationalabuse,mostlikely,”MarkansweredwhileIgatheredupourbelongings to leave. “Besides, people like him who have all the money andpower in the world know no boundaries. They have no limitations legally,financially,morallyorotherwise.”

“TheCIAjustlearnedboundariesonconfiscatingourmail,”Isaidaswewalkedtowardthedoor.

“Yeah,”Billyagreed.“AUSmalegotthroughtothemsotheUSMailcangetthroughtoyou.”

Chapter26GODSAVEUSFROMRELIGION

“WhatreligionisGod?”KellyaskedwhenIfinallysawheragain.

OurmailhadresumedforthemomentandtheCIAfrontrelocatedthedayafterMarkstormedtheOfficeSupply,yetitwasmid-summerbeforethecourtagreedthatKellyshouldresumetherapywithDr.Mitchell.NotingKelly’sdeterioratedcondition, Dr.Mitchell immediately arranged for her andme to begin familytherapywithhiscohortsocialworkerFrankNeiswinder.

“Kelly,”Neiswinderbegan.“Whyareyouangrywithyourmother?”

“I’mnot!”Kellyadamantlytoldhimagain.“Willyoupleasejustletusvisit?Ihaven’tseenmymominalongtime,andwewanttotalk.”

Ignoring Neiswinder, I responded to Kelly’s significant question. “To quoteGandhi,‘Godhasnoreligion.’Religionismanmade.”

“Thenwhydoesn’tGodsaveusfromreligion?”sheaskedasatearsmearedherheavy black mascara down her cheek. When I wiped her tear, my handaccidentallysmearedthebloodredlipstickshehadstartedwearing.Neiswinderhandedheratissue.

“Goaheadandcry,Kelly,”Neiswindersaid.“Cryoutallthatangeryouhaveforyourmother.”

Kellyrolledhereyes.“I’mnotangryatmymother!HowmanytimesdoIhavetotellyou?”Shewipedatherstainedcheekwiththetissue,tanglingherselfintheridiculouslyage-inappropriatemoonandstarsearringsthatdangledpasthershoulders.

“Ihearangerinyourvoice,”Neiswinderpersisted.

“Look,IshouldbewithmymotherandcourtisforcingmetobewithMelissainstead,”shetoldhim.

“Howdoes thatmakeyoufeel?”heasked,asmost therapistsare trained todoregardlessofcircumstances.

“Angry!”sheroared.“I’mangryatMelissa!I’mangryatthecourt!Butmostofall,I’mangryatyouforinterruptingmeandmymomagain!Ineedtotalkwithher.Please!”

“Wearesavedfromreligionwhenwegowithinforouranswers,”Ibegan,fullyawareoftheunderlyingreasonforKelly’squestions.

“Withinwhere?IthinkI’mwithouta‘within’rightnow.SoI’mrunningasfastas I can away from religion the directionMelissa showedme.Only that isn’tworkingeither.”Shetwistedoneofahandfuloftheoccult-themeringsshewaswearing. Occultismwas taking its toll. The heavy black circles underKelly’seyeswereaccentuatedbythethickeyelinershewore,whichmatchedherblackattire.Mypreciousdaughterwasunderallthatdarknesssomewhere,andIonlyhadafewmoreminutestoreachherbeforeoursessionwouldend.

“Ofcoursenot,”Iscoffed.“Satanismisareligion,too.Whyareyouturningtoareligiontogetawayfromreligion?That’snotverybright.Thinkaboutit.”

Kellywassilentforaminute,whichinspiredNeiswindertospeakup.“Kelly,doyoufeelangrywithyourmotherformakingyoustaywithMelissa?”

“Ifshesaysyes,”Itoldhim,“willyoualleviateKelly’s‘anger’bychangingthecourtordersoIcantakeherhomewithmewhereshebelongs?”

“Mymom isn’tmakingme staywithMelissa,”Kelly chimed in. “Myabusersare.Theyaremanipulatingthecourtandprobablyyou,too.Forthelasttime,Iamnotangrywithmymother!”

“Thinkaboutwhatyoujustsaid,”Neiswinderappearedangryhimself.

“OK,”Kellysaid.“Ifyou’llgivemeaminutetothink,that’sexactlywhatIwas

doingwhenyouinterruptedagain.Butyou’renotgoingtotellmewhattothink.Peoplehavedonethattomeallmylife.”

“Ratherthantellherwhattothink,”Isaid.“Whynotteachherhowtothink.Forherself.That’swhatsheisintherapyfor.”

I turned back toKellywhileNeiswinder fumed. “What is bright,” I remindedher,“isthatlittlelightinsideofyou.Lookintoit.Lookwithin.Findyourself.Don’t look outside yourself for answers.When religion started telling peoplewhat to think rather than allowing them to think for themselves it became ameansofcontrolrather thanspiritualfreedom.Strengthenyourself.Shineyourlightbright.Don’tburyitunderallthisdarkness,”Igesturedtoherblackattireandoccultjewelry.“Projecttrue-to-soul.Beyourself.”

Kellythoughtaminute.“Tobemyself,Ihavetoknowmyself.Toknowmyself,Ihavetothinkformyself.ItshardtothinkformyselfwhenIdon’tknowwhoIamanymore.”

“Youhaven’tchanged,”Iheldherclose.“Youareyou,inside.Believeinyou.Ido. Don’t let people likeMelissa lead you outside yourself. Remember. Youranswersarewithin.Lightenup!”

Kelly smiled, and then looked serious. “I’d lighten up more if people wouldlistentomeandletmecomehome.”

“Wecan’tletlife’scircumstancesinfluencewhowearetrue-to-soul.Weneedtostayunconditionallytrue-to-soul.”Iheldherclose.“Iloveyouunconditionally,because I know who you are. Unconditional love isn’t influenced bycircumstances.”

AnothertearsliddownKelly’scheek.“Melissasaidyoudon’tloveme.CharleneandWaynesaidyoudon’tloveme.”

“Whatdotheyknowaboutlove?”Iaskedher.“Theydon’tevenknowyou.”

“Oryou,”Kellysaid,huggingmetight.“It’snotover‘tilwewin,rightmom?”

“We’ll win,” I assured her. “Love always wins. Unconditionally. Love by itsverynatureis themostpowerfulforceintheuniverse.Loveis thelightwithinyou,soshineyourbrilliance.Youknowyou’rebright.”

“Yeah, I am pretty bright,” Kelly agreed. “I’m doing really good in publicschool.HalfofwhattheyteachisjustGlobalEdgarbage,butIcanstillpassallthetestswithoutbelievingwhattheysay.”

WhileKellywas inCumberlandHouse,hereducationwasminimalwithin theconfinesoftheinstitution.ThesparseeducationKellydidreceivetheredidlittleto stimulateher advanced intellect.WhenKellyhad startedkindergartenyearsbefore,shealreadytestedataninthgradereadinglevel.NowCumberlandHousewasgearedbelowakindergartenlevel,andKellywasconcernedaboutherlackofeducation.IhadcomfortedKelly’sfrustrationsbyreassuringherthat“allshewasmissinginpublicschoolwasGlobalEdanyway.”SincetheAlaskanschoolsystem was openly and actively opposing the government’s attempt to forceGlobal Ed in their system, Kelly was acutely aware of the ineptness of itsstructure. “Programming more information into my brain doesn’t make itknowledge,”shehadsaid.Nowthatshewasbackinpublicschoolforthefirsttimeinyears,itwasreassuringtohearhertalkabouthereducationexperience.Beforewecoulddiscussitfurther,though,Neiswinderannounced‘time’sup.’

“The time flew by,” I complained. “We barely even had time to address yourinitialquestionaboutwhatreligionGodis.”

“Sure we did,” Kelly said gathering up the pile of occult jewelry she hadremoved.“Theansweriswithin.God’slovelightiswithin…me.Andreligioniswithout…love.”

“Waitaminute,”Isaid,alarmed.“Ididn’tsayreligioniswithoutlovesincetherearegoodpeopleinallreligionswholoveand…”

“Whyaretheresomanyreligiouswars,then?”shewiselyasked.“Andwhydotheyabusechildreninthechurch?Andwhyaresatanicreligionsevendarker?”Sheshuddered.

“Oh my God,” I realized the magnitude of our conversation. “Things aren’talwayssoblackandwhite,Kelly.Keepyourlovelightshining,though,andthe

truthwillbecomeclear.Remember, the answers arewithin,” I saidasMelissahonkedthehornof thecaroutside.“Staytrue-to-soul, true-to-yourself, true-to-love,”Icalled.“Iloveyou!”

I walked towards the car where Mark was parked, deep in thought. When Iclimbed in, I noticed tears in his eyes. “I can’t stand it,” he said, his voicequavering.“It’ssohardtoseeherandnotevengettotalkwithher.”Thecourtorder prohibiting contact betweenMark andKellywas as absurd as the courtplacingKellyinanoccultFosterHomedespitelawsbeingpassedinhernametoprohibitit.Wherewasjustice?Wherewascompassion?

“I’msorry,”MarkcriedasIhuggedhimclose.“Icanonlyimaginewhatitwaslikeforyouseeingherafterallthistime.”

“I’ll tell you all about it,” I smiled. “This day was easy compared to whatMelissaisabouttofaceafterKellyandItalkedtoday.KellyisnothappywithMelissaorheroccultism.”IproceededtotellMarkallaboutourconversationaswedrovetowardshome.

Thenext“FamilyTherapy”session,KellyandIagainindulgedinconversationdespiteNeiswinder’sdeterminationtoconductconventionaltherapy.Shehandedmea copyof thepoem shehadwritten ‘GodSaveUsFromReligion.’ Itwasactuallyaprofoundandlovingpiecethatcouldhavebeenentitled‘GodSaveUsFromCult/OccultAbuse.’

“Wow,Kelly,” I exclaimed after reading it. “This sounds like you have givensignificant thought to our conversation lastweek.” I looked at her, pattingherthickblondhairandholdingherclose.

“I’mfeelingmorelikemyself,”shesaid,ahintofinnerpeacereflectinginhereyes.“Onlyotherpeoplearen’tseeingitthatway.”

“Whoevercan’tseeyouinallyourbrilliancemustbeblind,”Isaid.“Who…”

“OK,”Neiswinder interrupted, standingupafter shuffling throughhis stackofpapers. “Today we are going to accomplish what we didn’t get to last week.Let’sbeginbyidentifyingtheproblem.Iunderstandthatyouhateyourmother,Kelly.Why?”

“Ohno,notagain!”Kellyslumpedinherchair.“MymomandIhavesomethingreallyimportanttodiscuss.Pleaseletustalk.”

“Weshouldalldiscussitthen,”hesaid,leaningoverintoourspace.

Kellyignoredhim.“Igotintroubleinschool,”shesaid.

“Whathappened?”Kellyhadbeenenrolledinsummerschooltodeterminewhatgradeshemightadvancetonextfall.

“WeweresupposedtobestudyingpoliticalscienceandmyteacherbroughtupBush,”Kelly swallowed hard, her pupils dilating. “Shewas talking about theWaronDrugsandwhataheroBushis.”

“Ohno,”Igroaned.“Whatdidyoudo?”

“Ijustaskedherifsheboughtintoallthatpropagandabullshit.”

“Didyouusethatword?”Iasked,knowingthattheuseofprofanityisforbiddeninschool.

“No!” she said. “Imean, yes.But shewasmad about the ‘propaganda’word.Earlier when we were doing social studies, she said we have the best ofeverything in thiscountry.Shesaidwehave thebiggestvarietyof food in theworld,and I toldher shewas feedingmepropaganda. I toldher Iknewbetterbecause I had eaten international foods on the cruise ships and fruits in theCaribbean.”

I realizedKellyhadmemoriessurfacing,andwaseager todealwith that issuerather thanwhather teacherhad tosay.Butwhathadhappened inschoolwasimportant toKelly, sohelpingherwithmemory recoverywouldhave towait.Neiswinderwasoblivioustotheimportanceofwhatwasbeingsaid.

Kelly continued, “She told me that anyone with such a vivid imaginationcouldn’tpossiblyknowpropagandafromthefacts.Itoldher,‘propagandais,infact,imagination’wheresomebodymakesupliestofoolpeoplelikeher.”

NeiswinderwastakingnotesasfastasKellywastalking.Iknewsheprobablygotintroublewiththatstatement.KellywentontotellherthatGlobalEdwaspropaganda,andtheteacherphonedMelissaforameeting.

“Kelly,”Neiswinder interrupted.“Yourmothersayssomeprettybizarre things,andyouarecopyingher.Doyoufeelyouneedtocopyherinordertomakeherlikeyou?”

Kelly didn’t answer him. “Melissa was already disgusted with me because Iwrote this poem.” She gestured to the poem she handedme. “She thinks I’mpossessedbydemonsandwantsmetoseeanexorcist.”

Iswallowedmyrageknowingthattreatingritualabusewithsuperstitionwasindirect opposition to healing. I knew Kelly was aware of this since herPsychiatristinAlaskahadhadcausetocounselheronitinthecourseoftherapy.“Whatdidyoutellherwhenshesaidthat?”

Kellysmiled,“Iaskedherifsheknewthat‘exercise’builtstrength.”Toaliteralmind,thiswasanaturalresponseandastrongreasonwhyreligiousabusecannotbetreatedwithreligion.SinceKellywascapableof‘exercisingherfreethought’tosomedegreeeversinceAlaska,sheapparentlyfoundhumorinthewordplay.“Iwasjustplayingwithher,”Kellycontinued.“Ididn’tbelieveshewasserious,butshewas!Nowsheistakingthemattertocourt.”

“I’ll stop that,” I assuredKelly. “TheBillbefore theLegislature inyournamewasjustpassedintolawand…”

“Ms.O’Brien!”Neiswinderroared.“Youareinviolationofcourtorder.Thisismyoffice,andIwillnottolerateanymoreofyourlackofcooperationwithmeorwithcourtorders!Yousitoverthere.”Hepointedtoachairacrossthesmallroom. “Kelly, you sit here.”Hewent back to his desk and sat down. “Alrightthen.Kelly,youneedtoanswermyquestionnow.”

“Whatquestion?”

“Whydoyouhateyourmother?”

“Idon’t”

Neiswinderrephrasedhisquestion.“Thenwhyareyouangry?”

“BecauseyoujustinterruptedusagainandIgetangryatanyonewhoseparatesus.”

“I’mgoingtoreportthistoDr.Mitchell.YoutwoaretotallyuncooperativewiththerapyandIdon’twanttowasteanymoreofmytimewithyou.”

“Canwestillmeethereandtalk?”Kellyasked.“Wedon’tgettoseeeachotheranymoreexceptforhere.”

“That isup toDr.Mitchell!”he said.Wesmiledat eachotherhoping thatDr.Mitchell wouldn’t interrupt our only chance to talk together. Neiswinderconcludedthe“therapy”sessionfortheday.

On the way out of town, I stopped by Jean Crowe’s office to stopMelissa’spursuitofanexorcistthroughthecourts.

“There are exorcists available that the Department of Human Services uses,”Jeantoldme.Iwasastounded.Thiswasarchaic.Iremindedherofthebillthatjust passed into law in Kelly’s name regarding legitimate therapy for rituallyabusedandmindcontrolledchildren.

“Besides,” I toldher.“Whywouldwewant to ‘castout’personality fragmentsthat need to be reintegrated? ‘Casting out’ dissociative personas that werecreated through ritual abusewould only further reinforce the division. In thiscase,though,it’sevenworsebecauseMelissawantsto‘castout’Kelly’srefusalto comply with superstitious occult rituals. That equates to programming her.No.Absolutelynot.WehavegottocounterMelissa’srequest.”

“Well,youwrite itout then,”myattorneytoldme,handingmeapen.“Idon’tunderstandwhatyouwantsaid.”

Iwroteouttheverbiageforhertopresenttothecourt.Ourpetitiontothecourtin conjunction with Dr. Mitchell’s would certainly prove sufficient to stop

Melissa’seffortstoobtainanexorcist.

The next full moon, I received a phone call. Melissa claimed Kelly was“unmanageable”andhaddumpedheroffona street cornernear theNashvilleYWCA1.Ournext“FamilyTherapy”sessionwithNeiswinderwastobeheldatVanderbiltUniversityChildren’sPsychiatricHospital--theDefenseDepartmentSubcontractorwehadbeenavoiding.TheonlypluswasthatKellyhadfoundthestrengthwithintosaveherselffromMelissa,superstitiousexorcism,andoccultreligion.

Chapter27OUTPOSTofFREEDOM

“Kelly is suffering from homicidal and suicidal ideations,” Frank Neiswindertoldmewhen I arrived at Vanderbilt Psychiatric formy first visit withKellysincetheincidentwithMelissa.

“What do you expect from someone who is forced to participate in occultritual?” I asked. “Thiswas inevitableand is exactlywhy I adamantlyopposedKelly’splacementwithMelissatobeginwith.Noonelistened.Now,onceagain,peoplelikeyourselfarebeingeducatedatKelly’sexpense.”

Kellysatsolemnly,slumpedinherchair.“WhyamItheonewhoislockedup?”Kelly complained to Neiswinder. “My abusers are free. Melissa howls at thesamemoonWayneCoxhowls at, andyou think I’mnuts?”Neiswinderdidn’tanswer.Kelly continued. “Why isMelissa allowed to dumpme like a sackofdonatedjunkatthe‘Y’whilethecourtmakesmeandmymomhavesupervisedvisits?”

Kellyhadarighttobe‘angry’overtheinjusticeofbeingplacedwiththelikesofMelissa and kept from her loving home. Being locked up in VanderbiltPsychiatricmustbetraumaticforher,too.VanderbilthadanarrayofelectronicdoorsandlocksthatrivaledthePentagon’stokeeptheinmatesisolatedintheirsanitizedhospitalsetting.

“Wherewouldyouliketobe?”Neiswinderaskedher,asthoughshehadn’tjusttoldhimagain.Didheeverlisten?Ifhehadcaredtohearher,hewouldhaveatleastknownMelissa’soccultritualswerecounter-productivetoherwell-beingassheverbalizedsoclearlyweeksbefore.

“I’d like to bewithmymom and dad, back inAlaska,”Kelly answered. “Ormaybewiththemonacruiseshipfarawayfromhere.”Sheturnedtome,“Mom,IwasrememberingsomethingaboutBush1,NCLcruiseships2,andCIAcocaine

operations.Iwroteitout.”

Neiswinderliterallyfelloutofhischair.“Kelly!”heexclaimed,dustinghimselfoffandsittingbackdown,“Ididn’tknowyoucouldrememberanythingaboutthepast!Whereisthismemoryyouwroteout?”Hestartedshufflingthroughhisstacksofpapersagain.

“IwroteitforDr.Mitchell,andstaffsaidtheywouldgiveittohim,”shesaid,looking at him skeptically. “I really don’t trust anyone elsewith it exceptmymomanddad.”

Sheturnedbacktome.“IthadlotsofdetailsaboutCIAcocaineoperationsinit,rightdowntothetriggerstheyused.WewereinHaiti,weren’twe,Mom?”Shelowered her voice. “I was thinking about that word, how Catholics call hell‘Hadies’andhowmuchI‘hate’ thesmellof thatplace.DidtheynameitHaitifor‘hate’orfor‘hell’?AndwhowasSaintThomas?Thatplaceisclosetohell.”

“Whatplace?”Neiswinderaskedher.

“St. Thomas,”Kelly said nonchalantly. “The one in theVirgin Islands.Mom,doesvirginmeanhavingsexornothavingsex?”

“Itmeansuntouched,”IanswereduncomfortablywhileNeiswindermadenotes.

“SoHaiti iswhere theyhavesex,and theVirginIslands iswhere theydon’t?”Kelly’s literal mind seemed to be misinterpreting the names of the twoCaribbean islands.Still, if shehadbeenwritingoutmemory, shewouldknowsexoccurred inbothplacesbasedonherownexperience. I knewherbrilliantmindwas traveling somewhere else, and I listened to her beyond thewords IknewwereonlyintendedforNeiswinder.“IsthatwhyHadiesgotAIDS3?”

She apparently had remembered the sex, and was concerned with havingcontractedAIDS. IglancedatNeiswinderwhowasaskinganurse forKelly’swritings.“NoteveryonewhohasbeentoHaitihasAIDSanymorethaneveryonewhohasbeentotheVirginIslandsisavirgin,”Iassuredher.ShechuckledwhileIcontinued.“EspeciallywhentheCIAknowsthepeopletheyaresendingoverthereareimmunetothatstrainofAIDS.”ReliefwashedoverKelly’sfaceassherealizedshehadstoodamidstAIDShellwithoutcatchingit.

Ithoughthowextremeherexperienceoflifehadalreadybeenandcontinuedtobe.Nomatter how explicitly she expressed herself inwords, thosewhoweresupposedtobe“caring”forherdidn’tseemtohear.YetIcouldhearbeyondherwords.Our ability to thought-communicatewas deep, allowing us to share anunderstandingaboveourmonitoredverbalizations.Helpingmyeleven-year-oldchild dealwith the reality of her past pertaining to sensitive topics likeAIDSwasstrenuouswhileundersupervisionwedidnottrust.ThefactthatshechosetospeakcrypticallytomenowelevatedmyconcernsforwhatwashappeningtoheratVanderbilt.Somethingwasverywrong.Neiswinder’sover-reactiontohermention ofmemory recoverywas not consistentwith someonewhowould beworkingalongsideofDr.Mitchell,unlessMitchellwassomethingotherthanheportrayedhimselftobe.

Neiswinder concluded our “Family Counseling Session” early since he wasobviously eager to obtain Kelly’s written-out memories. Since the nurse hadalready turned them over to Dr. Mitchell, Neiswinder was empty handed inaddition to again missing the magnitude of the conversation Kelly and Iexchangedrightinfrontofhim.

The next week when I saw Kelly, we were taken through a series ofelectronically locked doors to a large dayroom where Neiswinder was to bejoinedbyanursewhocould“maintainstructureoveroursession.”KellyandIwereseatedapart.Ourabilitytocommunicate,likeourlove,knewnodistance.Significant understanding passed between us. I realized that Kelly’scircumstanceswereurgent,whichcompoundedfurtherwhenshetoldthenurseshe had “bumped her head and couldn’t remember anything anymore.” Thewordsdidnotseemtobeherown,andIstartedtorisefrommychairtotendtoher.

SuddenlyIfeltafamiliarsensationovercomemybody,renderingmeweakandunabletostand.Harmonics.Iknewthefeelingfromthepast,andwasawarethatthis Top Secret classified weaponry had technologically advanced tominiaturizationthesizeofaremotecontrol.Thedevicecouldfitinapurseorabriefcase,andmybrainstemwasreverberatingwithitseffects.

NeiswinderwasleadingKellyfromtheroomwhenawarenessallowedformetofight through the fog in my brain and stand. I wobbled over to the “nurse,”

whose jaw had dropped in surprise. I backed her against the wall while IfumbledfortheIDcardhangingaroundherneckandsaid,“Iwon’tforgetyournameis…”Focusingwasastrain,yetIwasdeterminedtoreadthenameonhertag. “Huffaker.” I looked her in the eye. “If Kelly is hurt, I hold youresponsible.”

“Kellydoesn’twant toseeyouanymore,”shesaidasshebeganunlocking theelectronicdoorstoescortmeout.“Yourvisitationisconcluded.”

I knew our lives were in grave jeopardy, and considered the possibility thatKelly’s memories regarding Bush and the fact that he was in Nashville threetimes recently were connected. Presidential elections were coming up nextmonthand the localpresswas lookingeagerly foraRepublicanscandal.EventhoughIknewelectionswererigged,IwasalsoawarethatNashvillewasafocusof media attention since Tennessee Senator Al Gore was on the Presidentialballet as Bill Clinton’s running mate. Kelly’s memories regarding Bush hadcertainlysurfacedataninopportunetime.

Mark was livid when he learned what had happened to Kelly and me atVanderbilt,andheimmediatelytookaction.JuvenileCourtRecordsprovethatabattle of allegiances by Vanderbilt between Kelly and government tiescommenced.Thedoorsofthecourt,Dr.Mitchell,andDr.Nurcumwerelockedas tight as Vanderbilt’s high security electronic doors. Neiswinder wasimmediately“retired”fromhis jobasa therapist.AndMarkandIstruggledtosurvivetheintensityofourprecariouscircumstances.

“I’mtoldthattheinformationyourememberedregardingNAFTAhastheBushAdministrationasconcernedaboutitastheyareaboutKelly’smemories,”Markinformed me one morning as we sat outside drinking our coffee. “We needimmediate public exposure to survive this. Unfortunately, the media is stillcavingintocensorshipandLindaBlood’sbookisn’tduetobereleasedyet.”

Linda Blood’s work on her book The New Satanists4 was taking longer thananticipated, and we had hoped that its release through Walmart stores ascontracted would blaze the trail throughmedia censorship by now. Her workhad,however,putusintouchwithseveralinternationalorganizationsconcernedwith Lt. Col. Aquino’s satanic activity that was emanating from US militarybasesworldwide. Still, these connectionsweremilitary and Intelligence5 level

rather than public, and could not help us reach the public exposure we sodesperatelyneeded.Iwonderedhowwecouldpossiblysurvivelongenoughtoreachthepublicwithtruthunderthecircumstances.

“I’m in communication with Perot’s6 group through their mind controlsurvivor’sunderground,”Markcontinued.

“Karyn?”Iasked,referringtothesurvivorwithwhomwewereincontact.

“No survivor is trustworthy until deprogrammed, and I’m not too sure aboutKaryn after speaking with her,” Mark answered. “I am in touch with RossPerot’ssister,though,andshesuggestswehanddeliverapacketofinformationtothemrightaway.OurpreviousattemptstosendPerotinformationthroughthemailsystemfailedandthedocumentsapparentlywereconfiscated.We’llneedtotraveltohisheadquartersinTexastodeliverthempersonallythistime.Besides,shehasagreedtotalkwithmewhenwegetthere.”

“IthoughtTexaswasBush’sheadquarters,”Icommented.“IsPerotfromthere,too?”

“PerotisinDallasandBushisoutofHouston.TheircloseproximityprovidedPerotacloseupviewonBushthatinspiredhimtorunagainsthim.Heknowsalot about mind control, the CIA’s corruption in the drug industry, and howelections are rigged. His extremewealth bought him somuch airtime on TV,though,thatitisgoingtobedifficultforthemtoslipthiselectionpastthepubiceye.He’scausingproblemsandsubsequentlywakingpeopleup.ThisisagreatopportunityforustoconnectwithamajormovementagainstBush’sNewWorldOrder.”

“Itsoundsgood,”Isaidapprehensively.“IlikewhatPerotissaying,andthefactthathe is runningasecretundergroundforsomemindcontrolsurvivors.ButIdon’tlikethethoughtofgoingintoTexassoclosetoelections!”

“Getusedtotheidea,”Markadvised.“We’rescheduledtospeakinHoustononthedaybeforeelections.”

“What?”Iexclaimed.

“USCustomsAgents, BorderGuards, and local police are frustratedwith theCIA slappingNational Security on every drug bust theymake at theMexicanborder.Theywanttoknowwhythesecriminalsaregoingfree.Theyalsowanttoknowmoreaboutmindcontrol,becausetheyrealize thedrugcouriers theyarebusting are robotic, have superhuman strength, and suffer from amnesia. Theinformationyou’ve turned intoCustomshasgiven them their first insight intowhat isgoingon, and theywantus toaddressa forumofagentsandcops thefirst week in November. They opted to hold this seminar at election timebelievingBush andClintonwould be too busy to interfere. Eitherway,we’reinvitedtospeak.”

“Wow.”Iswallowedhard.“WhateverittakestosurviveandmakeadifferenceforKelly.At least itspublicexposure in themosteffectiveareawecanspreadinformation.Theyneed toknowhow thegroundwork forNAFTA is rooted indrugsandcorruptiontoequalizeoureconomiesfortheNewWorldOrder.Iftheright people know about it,maybe they can stop the erosion of our economybefore we reach third world status like Mexico, plus stop the CIA’s War onDrugsfrombeinglaunchedagainstcitizens.”

“Workingwith lawenforcementwillonlyhelpourcredibility,”Markwenton.“Credibilityisallwe’vegot,andwe’llneedeverybitofittoaffectKelly’scase.Thisconferencewherewe’llbespeakingissponsoredbyanationalorganizationoflocal,state,andfederallawenforcementfromallacrossthecountryaswellasfromtheUS/Mexicanborder.Thiscanonlyhelpourcause.”

Isippedmycoffeeandthoughtforaminute.“I’mnotapublicspeaker,”Isaid,realizingmy lackofprofessional speaking techniques.PresentingKelly’sneedtotheTennesseeLegislaturedidnotqualifymeasapublicspeaker.

“Neither am I!” Mark chimed in. “I worked under a Top Secret SecurityClearanceforyearsbecauseIcouldkeepsecretsandmymouthshut!NowI’msupposed tobecomeagovernmentwhistleblower and tell all?This is hard forme, too,butwehavenochoice. It’souronlychance for survivalaccording toour supporters with Intelligence I’ve been talking with. They also gaveme acontactnumber foranundergroundnewspaper inFloridacalled theOutpostofFreedom7.Itisjustnowbeingformedtoexposegovernmentcorruption,andI’mgoingtowriteastoryforthemonmindcontrolfortheirfirstissue.ItisexpectedthattheOutpostofFreedomwillspawnsimilarundergroundsourcesofnewsfor

thegrowingPatriotmovementinthiscountry.Withmainstreammediacensoredfrom reporting truth and focusedon social engineeringpropaganda, it is up tocitizenswhocanstillthinkfreetoarmeachotherwithtruth.Besides,maybebywritingthisstoryitwillmakeiteasiertospeakaboutit.”

“Publicspeakingcan’tbetoohard,”Iconsoledhim.“Sinceit’snotaboutus,thefocuswillbeontheinformationwepresent.Ourchallengewillbetopresentitinawaythatmakesthemwanttohearitandabsorbit.”

“According to statistics, 50 things out of 100 are normally remembered, but1000pointsof apresentationoutof1000canbe remembered if it’spresentedright.”

“Evenifwepresentitright,canpeopleretainitlongenoughtotakeaction?”

“Memoryretentionisatanalltimelowduetosocialengineering,”Markagreed.“But if people can think to ask the question, theymust bewaking up beyondsocial engineering expectations. This is a prime opportunity for us to beginsoundingthealarmtowakeupmorepeople.”

“We need more than a whistle to blow,” I said, referring to the literalinterpretationof‘whistleblower.’“Thiswakeupcallneedstoresoundaroundtheworld, andwecan’t counton themedia to amplify it.Wehavea challenge infrontofus,but I’mbettingwe’llsucceed. Ibelieve inhumankind. Ibelieve intruth.”

“Truth always prevails.” Mark swallowed the last of his coffee before goinginsidetostartwritinghisarticlefortheOutpostofFreedom.

Chapter28WHEREHAVEALLTHECHILDRENGONE?

“Where have all the children gone?” was the title of Mark’s explicit andrevealingarticlefortheOutpostofFreedom.Itwouldbesometimeyetbeforeitwas printed while this prototype for Patriot newspapers was organized andfunded.MindcontrolwasrampantthroughouttheprivatesectoroftheUS,andmanychildrenwereaffected.Kelly’scasewasamongthefirsttosurfaceinthecourts, yet it certainly wasn’t the only one. Mark and I personally knew ofhundreds.

Underground networks were rising up all across the country to deal with thedevastation wreaked on society by the vast proliferation of MK Ultra mindcontrol. Public outcry by citizens concernedwith a failing justice system andcorrupt government was censored from mainstream corporate media.Meanwhile,abusedchildrenwerebeingreturnedtotheirhandlersbycourtorderfor so-called ‘Reasons of National Security’. This gross injustice caused theformation of numerous reputable organizations like Believe the Children,V.O.I.C.E.S.,andJustusUnlimited.

UndergroundnetworkssuchasFayeYeager’s1providedtemporarysafehavensfor survivors fleeing abusers and/or the corrupted justice system. Thegovernment’s attempts to stop Faye Yeager through prosecution and publicpersecution only fueled the determination of survivors and their supporters tokeepvitalundergroundssuchasFaye’sintact.

MoreandmoreoftheseundergroundswerecontactingMarkandmeseekingtipsonhowtohelpthenumerousdissociativesurvivorsfleeingtheirabusers.Manywere walking right back into their abuse base since they could not maintainconsciousmemoryofwho theywererunningfrom.Someweremurdered.Ourphonerangroundtheclockwithdesperatepleasforhelp.

One mother Mark and I met with, Bernadette MacArthur, had used the

underground networks in conjunction with fleeing the country with her fivepreciouschildren.Fourofthemreportedlyhadbeenhorriblyabused,andwhenthecorruptcourtsystemthreatenedtoperpetuateit,Bernadette,pregnant,fledalltheway toTurkeywith themin1988.Brilliantlymaneuvering throughEuropeandMexico, she slipped back into theUS and FayeYeager’s underground in1989. Determined to surface and ‘normalize’ her children’s lives, Bernadetteappeared on national TV and began speaking out. To further their safety, shethen joined the Sheriff’s Department and worked her way up the chain ofcommand achieving the rank of Major. This extraordinary mother went toextremes to protect her children and ensure their freedom! Additionally,BernadettetaughtSheriff’sDepartmentpersonnelhowtoidentifymindcontrolsurvivors, satanic victims, and occult ritual sites. Her highly acclaimedaccomplishmentspavedthewayforothers,whileprovidingabackdoorintotheundergrounds for those on the run.Unbeknownst to her,Bernadette saved themindsandlivesofcountlesssurvivorswhilesavingherownchildren.

Another validated mind control victim struggling to become a survivorfranticallycontactedusfromSwitzerland.SheclaimedtoworkfortheUN,andwas highly intelligent. She sought coping skills to help her think to survive.Victimsofmindcontrolcannotthinktoescape,northinktosurvive,andrequireoutsideintervention.Theymustbefreeoftheirabusivefamiliesandcontrollingenvironments in order to become survivors, and this particular victimwas noexception.Weneverheardfromheragain.Manydiedintheirstruggletobreakfreeofthechainsthatimprisonedtheirminds.

IfeltfortunatetohavesurvivedmyWhiteHouse/PentagonlevelMKUltramindcontrolexistencetobelovinglyliftedfromitbyMark.Withouthim,Icouldnothave reclaimed control over my own mind and life, and neither Kelly nor Iwould be alive. Where there is life, there is hope. Mark’s and my hope forKelly’srehabilitationfueledourdeterminationtomakeadifferenceforheratallcosts.NowthatIcouldthinktobethenurturing,lovingmotherIknewmyselftoinnatelybe,forcedseparationfrommydaughterwasintolerable.

ThedesperationIfeltwasreverberatingthroughoutthecountryandworldinthehearts and souls of parents and their children with similar plights. It was asthoughweemergedfromthefiresofhellblazingatrail tofreedom,andfoundourselvesinaworldfrozeninfearandapathy.Humankindhadbeenleftoutinthecold,numbtotherealityofgovernmentsecretsthatwereslowlyerodingthe

foundation of life. The shining light of truth began to melt away decades ofsocial engineering, superstition, ignorance, and lies.But theprocesswas slow,andsurvivorsindesperateneedofimmediatehelpandunderstandingturnedinpanictotheundergrounds.

ThetrailweavingthroughKaryn’sUndergroundledustoPerot’ssisterandourscheduledmeetingwithPresidentialCandidateH.RossPerot.Aswedroveuptohis glass skyscraper empire in Dallas to deliver the information packet asrequested, Mark and I noticed armed guards on the rooftops, in the bushes,behindthetrees,andeverywhereweturned.Theyappearedominouslyrobotic,carriedriflesandmachineguns,andpatrolledtheirpostlikethosewhoguardtheWhiteHouseinDC.

“You’dbestwaitinthecarwhileIdeliverthis,”Marksaid,obviouslyconcernedforoursafety.“Idon’tknowhowlongI’llbesinceI’msupposedtomeetwithPerot’ssister,butIdoubtitwillbelong.Ihopewedidn’twasteourpreciousgasmoneydrivingherebecausethisisn’tlookinggood.”

“Maybehehasalltheseguardsbecauseelectionsarenextweekandhisfamily’slifewasactuallythreatened,”IofferedasMarkparkedthecar.

“Theseguyslookprogrammed,”Marktoldme,confidentinhisassessment.“Inwhich case I know how to handle them, so you just sit tight. They’ll beinterestedinwhatI’mdoing,andwillonlywatchyouinthecarfromadistance.You’llbeperfectlysafeaslongasyoustayrighthere.”

I watched as guns pointed toward Mark when he emerged from the car andstrode towards the elaborate entrance with the packet in hand. It was only amoment before I saw him walking through the green glass catwalk thatconnectedtheentrancebuildingtoPerot’sheadquarters.Aguardwalkedacrossthe roof directly above him, keeping hisweapon trained onMark through theglassceilinguntilhedisappearedfrommyviewintotheheadquarters.

I felteyesonmewhile Iwaited,andnotedseveralguardsacross theperfectlymanicured landscape watching my every move just as Mark predicted. Thisplace looked more like Emerald City in theWizard of Oz movie than it didcampaignheadquartersforRossPerot.Witharmedguardsroboticallymarchingeverywhere, I began to wonder just who Ross Perot really was and if his

underground was another catch net for mind control survivors rather than anescape.

Iwasn’t alonewithmy thoughts long.Mark soon emerged from the building,smiled as he casually saluted the guards at the door, and got back in the car.“Done,” he said, starting the car and backing it out of the parking space inseeminglyonemovement.“Theyhaveourinformationandwe’reoutofhere.”

“Whathappened?”Iwascurious.

“I’lltellyou,”hesaid,salutingthegateguardsasweleftthepremises,“assoonasweareoutofrangeofthemonitors.”Hepulledoffhisnecktie, tossingit inthe back seat.After a fewmoreminutes, he began. “Those guys appear to beSpecial Forces2, which made it easy for me to deal with them. I spoke theirlanguageandknewhowtoavoidsettingofftheiralarms.Still,Iwasscannedandscreened on the elevator while I rode it up to Perot’s office.When the doorsopened, therewereadozenmachinegunspointingatme. I said, ‘at ease’ andwalked across the room to Perot’s secretary, who took the information.Apparently, she was expecting me, and thanked me by name for the packet.When she didn’t mention a meeting, I didn’t either. I just got back on theelevatorandleft.”

“WhatdoyouthinkPerotwilldowiththeinformation?”

“Well,heobviouslyalreadyknowsaboutmindcontrol,”Marksaid.“I’mbettingwedon’teverhearfromhimorKaryn’sUndergroundagain.”

We didn’t. But then, we weren’t waiting for a response. We were too busystrugglingtosurvivetoensureKelly’ssafety.MypersistentattemptstoseeKellywere continuously met by locked doors. I knew that Commissioner Grunow,despitehisthreatstokeepmefromKelly,wasnotthekeeperofthekeys.Thiswasmuchbiggerthanhe.

November1st,MarkandIpackedupourdocumentsandpaperworkanddrovetoHoustonforourpresentationattheNationalCultInterventionNetworkseminarfor law enforcement. Also presenting information that intermeshed with ourswastheNationalCrimeCommissionInformationClearingHouseforPolice,andGregReid’sYouthfire.

Asurvivorofincestandoccultismhimself,GregReidhadcausetobeawareofmindcontrolops that transportedournation’smissingblondehairedblue-eyedchildrenover theMexicanborder andon to variousArabdestinations3. Everyborder guard, Customs official, and police officer in attendancewas aware ofthis mind control ring. Photos of Columbian and Saudi private jets full oftraumatizedchildrenwereinabundance,yet“NationalSecurity”preventedthemfrombringingtheperpetratorstojustice.

Greg Reid's highly structured and documented efforts featured his search forabductee Johnny Gosch, as well as his success in freeing a group of smallchildrenfromaholdingpenneartheborder-onlytoberebukedwith“NationalSecurity.”Everyoneagreedthat“NationalSecurity”wasthreateningthesecurityofournationanditschildren,andthisseminarwasintendedtodiscoverwhy.Bysharinginformation,theproblemwasclarifiedandsolutionsformulated.

While speakers in accordancewith standard lawenforcement tactics presented“just the facts,” it was the discussions between presentations that furtheredunderstanding. The very concept of pedophilia was as difficult to grasp forhardened law enforcement officials as it is for the average person, despite thefact that they saw the widespread devastation. Having grown up in anenvironment saturated with pedophiles, and having been around high-levelpoliticiansandpedophiles suchasGeorgeBush, I sharedmy insight into theirjustifications.

Multi-generational sexual child abuse is such a common cause of theproliferationofpedophiliathatHitler/Himmlerresearchfocusedonthisgenetictraitformindcontrolpurposes.WhileIpersonallycouldnotrelatetotheideaofsexwithachild, Ihadparentsandbrothersandsisterswhodid. I stillbelievethat George Bush revealed today’s causation of the rapid rise in pedophiliathrough justifications I heard him state. The rape of a child renders themcompliantandreceptivetobeingledwithoutquestion.This,Bushclaims,wouldcause themto intellectuallyevolveataraterapidenoughto“bring themup tospeed”tograsptheartificialintelligenceemanatingfromDARPA.Hebelievedthat thisgenerationconditionedwithphotographicmemory throughabusewasnecessaryforafutureheforesawcontrolledbytechnology.

Since sexual abuse enhanced photographic memory while decreasing criticalanalysisandfreethought,therewouldultimatelybenofreewillsoulexpression

controllingbehavior. Inwhichcase,socialengineeringwasunderwaytocreateapathy while stifling spiritual evolution. Nevertheless, to short sighted flatthinking individuals such as Bush, spiritual evolutionwas not a considerationanyway. Instead, controlling behavior in a population diminished by globalgenocide of ‘undesirables’would result inHitler’s ‘superior race’ surviving toclaimtheearth.PerceptualjustificationssuchasthesethatwerediscussedattheBohemianGrovecertainlydidnotprovidemewiththecompletebigpicture.Itdid,however,provideaviewbeyondthestereotypedchildmolesterinatrenchcoatthathelpedinunderstandingthevastcrimesandcover-upsbeingdiscussedatthisseminarinHouston.

“Why do you believe the New World Order elite are unconcerned withhumanity’s spiritual evolutionwhen Catholic Jesuits are clearly involved?” Aweasely-lookingman inablack trenchcoatposed thequestion tomebetweenspeakers.HeclaimedtobeaspyassociatedwithMexico’sformerPresidentdelaMadrid.MarkandIwerescheduled tospeaknext,assoonas this lunchbreakconcluded.Markwatchedthisuninvitedguestclosely,asdideveryothercopandFed in the room, from the podium while he arranged his documents beforespeaking.

“Justlikegoodpeopledon’tthinktolookforthekindofcriminalactivitybeingdiscussed here today, the powers-that-be cannot think to consider the humanspirit,”Ianswered.“Theyarefollowingaroadmapestablishedbyacomputer,andspiritualityisnotpartofitsprogramming.”

He smiledand tookadrinkofhis coke,hisblackeyes snapping. “Butwearetalking about Jesuits, not NewWorld Order elite. Jesuits are Catholic monkswholiveonlyinthespirit.”

“YousaidyourselfthattheJesuitsareinvolvedwiththeNewWorldOrderelitein your initial question,” I reminded him. “And the New World Order iscomputerdriven.Rather than listen tochurch rhetoric, research foryourself tolearn that Jesuits, the Intelligence arm of theVatican, are the same oneswhosupported Hitler. There is a faction of Catholics dedicated to furthering thechurch’spoliticalagendathatbelievestheywillbetheoneworldchurchintheNewWorldOrder.Clearly that is not about spirituality. Things are seldom soblackandwhite.”

Hechuckled,hissnappingblackeyesthrowingsparksofgenuinelaughterwhileheslappedhisknee.“That’sexactlywhatdelaMadridtoldme!”

“Didhetellyouwhyhemasqueradesasa lizardaswell?”Isaid,doubtinghissincerity.

“He’s nomore a lizard thanhewas aPresident,” he said, smiling. “It’s all anillusion.”Quindereachedintothepocketofhistrenchcoattopullouthiswallet.All eyes were instinctively on him, making sure he didn’t pull a weapon.Everyonewas armed at this seminar.EvenMark,whoknew Iwas capable ofhandlingQuinderegardlessofhisagenda,stoodpoisedforaninstant.Thumbingthroughastackofvariousbusinesscardstallenoughtomatchanyoccasion,hechoseoneandhandedittome.

“Herbert Quinde,” he said, like I was supposed to believe it. “Miguel delaMadridsentmeintotalkwithyou.”

The details he provided regarding delaMadrid indicated to me that either heknewhimwellorwasactuallysentinbyhimasheclaimed.Hevoicedsexualdetails thatonlydelaMadridandIwouldknow,andthensaid;“heknowsyouwouldn’tthinktosayanythingbadorpersonalabouthim.”Heattemptedtolockin his message with keys to my old programming that had long since beendeprogrammedanddiffused.

Unaffectedandeager topresent thefactsaspreviouslyplanned, I joinedMarknearthepodium.Everyonetookaseat,pulledouttheirnotepadsandpens,andlistenedattentivelywhileMarkspoke.Hearmedthemwithspecificsonhowtoidentify and handle mind controlled drug curriers, how mind control createsseemingly superhuman strength that knows no bounds, and why ‘nationalsecurity’washinderingtheireffortstoprosecute.

WhenMarkfinishedspeaking,IprovidedbackgroundonhowIwasconditionedforMKUltratoworkonaWhiteHouse/PentagonlevelduringtheReagan-BushAdministration. By understandingmy experience, they gained insight into thecomponentsofmindcontrol,aswellaswhoatthepoliticaltopwassanctioningthiscriminalactivity.TheyalreadywereacutelyawareofBillClinton’scocaineoperations, and knew that this so-called ‘election’ was only an illusion ofchange. Their point of reference for understanding the details Mark and I

presentedallowedforadvanceddiscussionsthateffectivelyarmedthemformorethana‘warondrugs.’

In addition to the information presented onmind control andCIAdrug ops, IexplainedhowIhadbeenusedforthegroundworkofNAFTA.Quinde’smouthdroppedwhenIrevealeddetailsregardingdelaMadridthathebelievedhehadsilenced, and I watched his paradigm shift when he realized I had truly beendeprogrammed.ManyNewWorldOrdersecretsandpersonal reputationswerestakedonthebeliefthatIcouldnotbedeprogrammedtorememberthatwhichIwas supposed to forget, and the reverberations from my apparent recoveryunnervedmanyMKUltraperpetrators.Inadditiontorealizingtheirsecretswereno longer safe, many gained an expanded view of their Need-to-Know thatcaused them to consider the strength of the human spirit and re-evaluate theirgoals. Obviously artificial intelligence from DARPA and Sandia Laboratory,despitethevastintellectandtechnologyinvolved,waslackingahumanelement.Thoseattheseminarwhoriskedtheirliveseverydayonthefrontlinesoftheso-called ‘warondrugs’werestrengthened in their resolveaftergainingaclearerview.

Most important to me personally, was knowing that Kelly was safer for ourefforts. Law enforcement in attendance from Louisiana would be watchingWayne Cox, and support from various police organizations nationwideconcerned for the welfare of children would only prove helpful. The flow ofAmerica’s children across the border to New World Order destinations wasunderstood, and slowed with exposure. Shining the light of truth on secretactivitiesalwaysforceschange.Andpositivechange throughpublicawarenessremainstheultimatejustice.

After the seminar on the night of elections,Mark and Iwatched the foreseenresults on our motel tv while Clinton was ushered in as President. Bush’sacknowledgementofhisso-calleddefeatwasbrief,yet revealing to thosewitheyes to see and ears to hear truth. “I’m going hunting early this year,” heannounced.

Chapter29SODOMANDGOMORRAH

An abrupt knock on the door of our hotel room woke us up early the nextmorning.“Openup!”Avoiceshouted.“Sheriff’sDepartment!”

Mark relaxedand shovedhispistolbackunderhispillow,grabbeda robeandopenedthedoor.

“You’regoingtogetyourselfkilleddoingthatshit,”hetoldDeputyDave.DaveRossi,whohadhostedtheNCINconference,smiled.

“Ineededtocatchyoubeforeyouleft town,”hesaid.“I’vegot to talktoyou.What you and Cathy know needs to be heard in a community in NorthernCaliforniawhereI’mworkingonacase.Itinvolvesmindcontrol,andthewholetownisdevastated.Myphonesaremonitored,soIdon’twanttotalkaboutthisbyphone.”

“We’llmeetyouinthecoffeeshopintwentyminutes,”Marktoldhim,closingthedoor.

“Twentyminutes?”IflungthecoversfromMark’ssideofthebedinvitinghimbackin.“Isupposethat’senoughtime.”

“Noit’snot,”Markarguedplayfully.“Weneedtobedressed,packed,andoutofherebythen.AndI’vegottotakeashowerandwakeup.”

Ijumpedoutofbedandranfortheshoweraheadofhim.“Joinmeifyouwantto,”Icalled.

Twentyminuteslaterweweredownstairs,ourhairstilldamp,tossingourbagsinthe car. Deputy Dave walked up, balancing three large coffees and a sack ofdonuts.

“Let’stalkrighthere,”hesuggested.“Everybodyinthecoffeeshopknowsme.Thisis important.”Wetookthecoffeeandleanedagainst thecar,enjoyingthemorningsun.DeputyDavereachedinhispocketandproducedaphotographofchildrenandtheirparentspicketingoutsideoftheMarinCountyDaycareBoard.Theirsignsread,“WhydoestheFBIprotectAquino?”

“WhereisMarinCounty?”Iasked.Mygeographywasstillatrocious.

“NearthePresidio1,”DeputyDavebegan.AquinowasstationedatthePresidioarmy base, and by 1987 had been under criminal investigation for sexuallyabusing children in the daycare. The PresidioDaycare scandalwas infamous,and even the appeals judge refused to espongeAquino’s criminal child abuserecord2.“Aquino’sontheMarinCountyDaycareBoard.”

“How canMarin County justify having a suspected satanic childmolester ontheirboard?”Iwasastounded.

“Obviouslythechildrenintheareaarewonderingthesamething,”DeputyDaveanswered. “Thewhole town is in a daze.Satanism, childmolestation,missingchildren,mindcontrol,injusticethroughthecourts.I’mtellingyou,thesepeopleneedhelpjusttocopewiththePTSD.Youcouldgivethemcopingskills,Mark.And the information you have could clarifywhy cover-up is so prevalent andwhyAquinoisallowedontheirDaycareBoard.Understandingmighthelpthemsurviveandsolvetheirnightmare.”

“I’m told Aquino owns the building that houses the Marin County DaycareBoard,”Markinjected.

“ThePresidio isprettyclose to theGrove3,” Isaid, thepicturebecomingevenclearerfrommyperspective.

“SoarePetalumaandSantaRosawhere thesechildrenin thephotoarefrom,”DeputyDavesaid.“ThecaseI’mworkingon involvesmindcontrolofachildwhoclaimsAquinoabusedher.Shehasstungunprodmarksandclaimstohavebeen sexually assaulted at Bohemian Grove. And that’s just the beginning.Anothermother,DeniseBeaumont,hasa lawsuitbefore theSantaCruzGrand

Juryregardingmolestationofherdaughterandgovernmentcover-up.Hercaseincludes amassive letter writing campaign reaching out tomany of the samepeople inDC that you did, fromLouis Sullivan at theDepartment ofHumanServicestotheWhiteHouse.”

I thought a moment. “The vicinity around the Grove would feel safer to theattendingDignitarieswiththepeopletraumatizedandcontrolled.”

“I talkedwithDenisethismorning,andshesaidthatshewouldgladlydevotehertimeandresourcestosettingupyourspeakingengagementifyouwillagreetoit.Whatdoyouthink?”

Mark thought about it a moment. “We’re not public speakers, nor are weauthorities.”

“No one knows it all,Mark,” Deputy Dave told him. “But between you andCathy,youknowmorethanmost.”

“I’mnotatherapist.OfferingrecoveryfromPTSDwouldbepracticingwithoutalicense.”

“The fact thatyouobviouslyhelpedCathy reclaimhermind iswidelyknown.Mentalhealthprofessionalsdon’tevenknowwhatritualabuseis,letalonemindcontrolandrecoveryfromit.Peoplerespectyourinsight.I’mnotaskingyoutobeatherapist;I’mjustaskingyoutosharewhatyouknow.Ifyouwereonthefront linesofawarandsawyourbuddybleeding,you’dhelpstop theflowofbloodwithoutconsiderationtowhetherornotyouhadamedicallicense.Thisisnodifferent. Ifyou sawwhat I’ve seen in that community,youwouldn’t evengiveitasecondthoughtbeforehelping.Thesepeoplearedevastated.”

MarkandIexchangedlooks,communicatingadecisionthatdidn’tneedwords.“OK.Whenwe talk on the phone,we’ll talk around this subject andmisleadanyonewhomaybelisteningthroughphonetaps.CathyandIarealreadybrokefinancially,sosomeonewillneedtocoverourexpenses.”

“Thatwillbearranged.ThereisalocalTVnewsreporterwhoisactiveonthiscase.I’llputherintouchwithyou.HernameisCarolFrank.”

We finished our coffee, and thankedDeputyDave for hosting us inHouston.“Thankyou, for speaking. Iknowmy lifehas changed, and thewayeveryoneelse is talking, their lives changed, too. Kelly’s picture is on the wall of myofficewhereitwillstayaslongasittakestosecureherfreedom.”

MarkandIgotinthecartobeginourlongdrivebacktoTennessee.“Awholecommunitydevastated?”Marksaidtohimselfasthoughgraspingthesizeoftheproblem.

“I thought the whole world was like the environment I came out of,” I said,“untilyoucamealongandrescuedKellyandmefromit.”

“Sowhydragyoubackintoit?”

“You’re not draggingme,we’re doing this together by choice.Big difference.Thesepeopleshouldknowtheyarebeingheardandunderstood.

That is their first step towardhope, andpeopleneedhope to live.Howwell Iknow!”Ismiled.

“There are a lot of people pinning their hopes on this so-called change ofAdministration,”Marksaid.

“Theyneedtobasetheirhopeontruth,notillusion.”

“Hope,Arkansasproducedan illusion,”Mark smiledat the irony. “ThemediahasmadeabigdealoutofthefactthatBillClintonisfromHope,Arkansas.”

“This‘appearanceofchange’wasmostlikelyplannedpriortowhenIfirstheardabout it in 19844. Itwas hard enough forme to grasp the concept ofClintonbeing a governor since I perceived him as a drug lord.Nowhe’s President? Iknow for a fact that Hillary wears the pants in their relationship, and theirrelationshipismorelikebusinesspartnersthanhusbandandwife.Idon’tbelieveshe’lltakeabackseattohimevenforthepubliceye.She’llredefinetheroleof‘FirstLady’.”

“She’snotaladyanyway,”Marksaid.“She’smoremanthanheis.”

Ilaughed.“HomosexualitywillundoubtedlyriseinthisAdministration.Idon’tknowhowtheycanhidetheirsexualpreferencesfromthepubliceye.”

“Themediacanspinany illusion theywant to,”Markremindedme.“Besides,theyhaveachild.Theymustatleastbebisexual.”

“Just because my sexual experience was with Hillary doesn’t mean that’s allthereistoher,”Iagreed.

“Andhomosexualmalesdon’tengageinthekindoforalsexBilldidwithyou,either,”Mark furtheredhispoint. “Sowhydoyousayhomosexualitywill riseduringtheirAdministration5?”

“Becausetheybothopenlysupportit,”Isaidhavingwitnessed/experiencedbothofthemengagedinhomosexualactivity6.

“YoucorrectlypredictedtheriseofheroinwhileBushwasinoffice,”hesaid.

“And people still don’t think to ask why his Yale Skull and Bones fraternitynameis‘Poppy.’SinceClintonismoreheavilyinvolvedincocaineopsthanheis Bush’s heroin ops7, the price of coke and crack will probably drop in thiscountrywhileavailabilitysoars.”

Markagreed.“ThePresidencyswitchedpartiesallright,fromaheroinpartytoacokepartywithallthesameplayersinvolved.”

“Except for the kidsBush used and abused,” I said. “NeitherHillary norBillbelieveinpedophilia.Frommypointofview,thatisamajordifferencebetweenthe Bushes and Clintons. Other than that, they’re playing the same DARPA-SandiaLabscomputergame.”

IreflectedonmyexperienceatSwissVillathatIhaddeprogrammedandwrittenout in detail. In typical criminal fashion, Bush intended to covertly videotapeClintonhavingsexwithachildasblackmailbackup.DespitethefriendshipandNewWorld Order goals they shared, they had their differences. The biggestdifference I had cause to witness between the Bushes and Clintons was thatneither Bill nor Hillary believed in sexually abusing children. Bush had

deliveredhismostconvincing‘justification’speechwhileofferingtoshareKellywithBill, anchoring it toClinton’sOrderof theRose allegiances.The ideaofcompromising him through blackmail had offended Clinton, yet he wasobviously disgusted with Bush for attempting to sell him on “evolutionaryjustifications”astowhyheshouldbesexuallyactivewithChelsea,ifnotKelly.This conflictbetween the two ranmuchdeeper than sexualpreference.WhereBushadheredtopedophiliaasthemeanstoan“evolutionary”end,theClinton’svoicedbeliefingeneticengineeringandcloningasthemeanstothesameend.

“The conflict of sexual interest between the Bushes and Clintons doesn’tprecludethefactthattheysharethesameendtotheirmeans,”Icommented.“Iwonder ifClinton’s perceptionof genetic engineering and cloningover sexualabuse and mind control is simply the next step in DARPA’s generated plan.Neither route to so-called ‘evolution’ deals with the strength of the humanspirit.”

“When people learn what is behind aliens, cloning, and mind control, they’llknowwhatonearthisgoingon,”Marksaid.“Withtruthcomesunderstanding,hope and solutions.One thing is for sure; thisAdministrationwill continue todivertpeople’sattentionasfarawayfromthat realityashumanlypossible. It’sstilluptothepeopletodotheirduediligenceandembracethetruthinorderfornecessarychangestooccur.”

“Ourresponsibilities justexpanded,” Iadded.“Thisnextspeakingengagementshould result in a lot of good peoplewaking up to reality, finding their innerstrength,andreverberatingthemessage.IjusthopechangecancomeintimetohelpKelly.”

Werodeinsilence.

When we arrived back in Nashville, Kelly’s circumstances hadn’t changed.VanderbiltwasstillbattlingitsallegiancesbetweentheDIAandthewelfareofthe children in the court system. Neiswinder had officially turned in hisresignation,Mitchellwasnowheretobefound,Nurcumrefusedtospeaktous,andmyattorneydidn’tknowanythingaboutKelly’swellbeing.

Mark’sandmy letterwritingcampaignhadyet toovertly impactKelly’scase,althoughithadputusintouchwithhundredsofsimilarcasesacrossthenation.

Thisresultedinsignificantnetworkingwithmentalhealthandlawenforcementprofessionals, investigative media personnel, and numerous organizations thatwerespringingupalloverthecountry.Whilemainstreammediaremainedsilenton the issue of ritual abuse and mind control, the people were abuzz withinformationsharing.

Ourupcoming speaking engagement inSantaRosa,Californiaput us in touchwith numerous concerned professionals and parents. As our public profileincreased,effortstocontainusroseproportionately.AftertheNCINconferenceinHouston,Markand Iwerenetworkedwith theso-calledMissingChildren’sFoundationand it’s founderRoyStephens.MarkquicklydiscoveredStephen’sassociationwith attorneyTimStone and quickly sidestepped all connections8.TimStonehadbeenattorney for JimJonesof the JonestownmassacreswhereCIAmindcontrolandcover-upprevailed.Mark’sabilitytonavigateusthroughCIAcontainmentexpertsintheseprecarioustimesstrengthenedhispublicimageto the pointwhere hewas considered ameasuring stick indicator ofwhowashonestandwhowascorrupt.Markdidnotappreciatehisfastgrowingreputationsincehepreferredalowprofile.Atthesametime,Iwasexcitedattheprospectsofthepublicchoosingamanof integrity, justice,peace,andlovetoleadthemfromthedark.

Onapersonallevel,myattorneycontinuedtoblindlyaccept“legal”directionsinKelly’scaseas theyunfolded.She informedme,“Nashville’snewmayor,PhilBredeson,organizedanewchildwelfareoversightgroupcalledA.C.C.T.TheyaremeetingtomorrowtodiscussKelly’scaseandweneedtobethere.”

At least I would be able to find out something about Kelly. I had not beenpermittedtoseehernorspeakwithhersincetheharmonicincidentatVanderbilt.Thiswasthelongest,byfar,thatIhadeverbeenforcedapartfromherwithnocommunicationandmyheartacheddesperatelytoensureherwell-being.

Theplan of care drawnupbyA.C.C.T.was encouraging.Onpaper it at leastappearedasthoughtheirfocuswasonKellyandthattheirintentionstoreuniteKellyandmeweregenuine.PlacementforKellywasbeingactivelypursuedinanefforttofreeherfromVanderbiltPsychiatric.AfterKellyreportedCIAdrugopstoDr.WilliamMitchell,shewasreportedlysubjectedtohightechmeansofaffecting her brain activity in an effort to “erase her memory entirely.”According to A.C.C.T.’s reports, this resulted in Kelly’s above average

intelligence to plummet to what they termed “learning disabled9.” I wasdevastatedbythenews.Still,Iwasforbiddentoseeorspeakwithmydaughter.

“If you continue to hopelessly grieve, “Mark advised, “youwon’t be helpingKelly.You’vegottoturnnegativesintopositivesinordertorelentlesslypersistandgivevoicetoKelly’sneeds.Isuggestyoufindawaytoturnyourgriefintomotivation,andletyourloveforhercarryyouforwardforhersake.”

Mark’swisdompulledmethroughmydepression,andIreliedonmystrengthofspirittorenewmyenergyandhopes.Thisbattlewasn’tover,andlikeIhadtoldKelly,“Itsnotover‘tilwewin.”

MyrenewedstrengthneverfalteredwhenImetwithmyattorneythenextweekand she told me, “You are supposed to be paying child support. The cost ofKelly’s court case and therapy is in the millions of dollars, and you areresponsibleforpayingitoryoufacejailtime.”

“Pay itwithwhat?” I asked.Mark and I barely had enoughmoney for gas todrive to her office to be told that. “And why should I have to pay for beingseparatedfrommydaughterwhilesheisabusedbythejusticeandmentalhealthsystems?Thisisabsurd.”

“Absurdornot,itisacourtorder.”

Iwent upstairs to see ScottRosenburg. “I’m the one the court has ordered toprosecuteyouforthemoney,andIrefusetodoit.It’sagainstthelaw.Thejudgeisinviolationofseverallawsbyorderingmetoit.Don’tworryaboutthis,”heassuredme.“IknowyouhaveyourhandsfullwithKelly’sdirecircumstancesrightnow.Itwillbemonthsbeforethisissueisaddressedincourt,andIalreadyhavemypaperworkinordertostopthisnonsense.Itisobvioustomeandothersconcernedwith thiscase thatsomeonehighup inpoliticswants tosilenceyouandKelly,andanyonewhosupportsyou.”

January 25, 1993 a fire broke out in theStahlmanBuilding one floor beneathRosenburg’s office. Arson was suspected10. Although files were destroyed,Rosenburg was uninjured. Around the same time, he also narrowly escapedserious injury in a severe automobile accident involving his family.Circumstancesweresuspicious.Rosenburg’sdeterminationtopositivelyimpact

Kelly’scaseonlyrose.

February 3, 1993, Mark’s article “Where Have All the Children Gone” wasprintedinTheOutpostofFreedomandspreadacrossthenationthesamedaywewere to speak in Santa Rosa, California. When we disembarked from ourairplaneinSanFrancisco,anunlikely,disheveledcharacterholdingasignwithournamesonitgreetedus,“WelcometoSodomandGomorrah.”

Chapter30MARINCOUNTY,CALIFORNIA

“CarolFranksentme,”thewide-eyedyoungmansaidaswetossedourluggageinthetrunkofhiscar.“I’llbedrivingyoutoPetaluma,andamgratefulfortheopportunitytotalkwithyouontheway.”

HepulledintoSanFrancisco’sbumper-to-bumpertraffic.“ThePetalumaParksandRecreationBuilding is reserved and set up for your speaking engagementtonight. Since residents from Santa Rosa are also coming in to hear you, weplaced loud speakers outside for thosewho can’t get in the building.You areneededhere,andI’mproudtobethefirsttothankyoufortravelingallthiswaytohelpourcommunity.”Heblinkedhistearsaway.“Myparentssexuallyabusedme, my Catholic church ritually abused me, and I don’t remember whathappenedtomeinVietNam.Yetit’snotformethatI’msogratefulyou’rehere.It’sforthechildren.Thereisstillhopeforthem.”

“We have a hotel room reserved for you that adjoinsDaveRossi’s room,” hecontinued.“Hearrivedafewhoursago.Icantakeyoustraighttoyourroom,orwe can stop byCarol’s apartment first. Shewants to talkwith you before theeventbegins.”

CarolFrank’sapartmentwasinanoldbuildinginawealthyresidentialareaofPetaluma. The young, blonde haired blue-eyed beauty welcomed us warmly.Carolhad just returnedhomefromworkandwasstilldressed inherTVnewsattire.Munchingonacarrotstick,sheofferedusacupoftea.

“IfirstlearnedaboutAquinofromaconcernedmotherinSantaRosawhocalledthetelevisionstationwithoneofthemosthorrificstoriesI’veeverheard.You’llmeether.Hername isDeniseBeaumontandshearrangedmosteverythingforthis event. Anyway, I began investigating and found out how widespreadpedophiliaandsatanismactuallyare!It’snotlimitedtopoorhillfolkoralonestrangeronaplaygroundlikeIthought;therichest,mostinfluentialpeopleare

involved.Weevenhavea judgehere inMarinCounty that is rumored tobeasatanist!ThemoreIlooked,themoreIlearnedthatwhatIreallydidn’twanttobelievewasreal.”Carol’sblueeyeswidenedassheleanedforwardtowhisper,“I foundout itshappeningrighthere inmyownbackyard!Myfather,who isAir Force Intelligence, lives around the corner. When I told him what Idiscovered,headvisedmetoforgetaboutit!”

CarolwasobviouslysufferingfromPTSD,aswasthefellowshehadsenttopickusupfromtheairport.MarkwasprovidingbothofthemwithcopingskillsasIexcusedmyself touse thebathroom.AsIwalked throughCarol’sapartment, Icouldn’t help noticing that her “own backyard” was a public graveyard. Ishuddered.

Whenwe arrived at our hotel room later that afternoon,Mark toldmehehadnoticedthegraveyard,too.“Nomatterhowyoulookatit,thatisgruesome,”hesaid. “It’s not as bad as having learned about her father working for the AirForceIntel,though.Wehadbestuseextremecautionwhilewe’rehere.”

I slipped out ofmy travel clothes to showerwhileMark unpacked our bag toretrievetheclotheswewouldwearforspeakingthatevening.Therewasaknockat the door, and I grabbed a towel and ran for the bathroom asDeputyDaveidentifiedhimself.

“Don’tshoot!”hehollered.“It’sme!”

“Who’s‘me’?”Markholleredback,asifhedidn’tknow.

“You’reMark!” Deputy Dave laughed. “Unlock the door between our roomsfromyourside,andI’llcomeinthroughthere”

“You’rethecop,youpickthelock,”Marksaid,unlockingthedoorandswingingitopen.

“They only taught us to bust doors down.” Deputy Dave walked in, greetingMarkwarmly. “Let’s leave the door open between us. I’ve been tippedwe’regoingtohavesometrouble.”

Marksaid,“Ihatetrouble.ButIlovereadjustingtroublemakers.”

We left for the Community Center as soon as we were dressed. People werealready walking towards the Center in droves, every one of them appearingdazedandtraumatized.“Fromthelookintheeyesofthepeople,thislookslikeawarzone,”Markcommented.

“OrHaiti,”Isaid.Tome,MarinCountywasreminiscentofHaiti1duringBabyDoc’sreignwithitsslow,unblinkingresidents.

“YouseewhyIwantedyoutocomehere,”DeputyDavesolemnlyagreed.

We found our way to the speaking podium, nodding a greeting towards thepeople already assembled. As we spread out our documents and informationresourcesforanyonewantingcopies,ayoungdisheveledmotherapproachedus.“I’mDeniseBeaumont,”shesaidwarmlyembracingus.“Thankyouforcoming.These people are my friends and neighbors, and we desperately need help. Iknow you hold a key piece of this puzzle that could empower us to actuallymakeadifferenceforthesakeofthechildren.We’vejustbeenrunningincirclesupuntilnow,notknowingwhichwaytoturn.”

WhileDenisemadelastminutemicrophoneadjustmentsandbrieflyspoketothegathering crowd,Mark and I steppedoutside to talk.We foundourselves in acrowdthatwasevenlargerthantheoneinside.“ThiscommunityisreminiscentoftheoneIgrewupin!”Iexclaimed.“Itseemseveryoneisaffected2.”

A tall, handsomeyoung father holding his infant son strode up to us. “I can’tstay,”heannounced,lookingoverhisshoulder.“ButIhadcomebyheretonighttothankyouforhelpingtherestofthesepeople.They’regoodpeoplewhodon’tdeservewhat is happening.Neither doesmy son.”Tears silentlypoureddownhis ruggedcheeks. “Maybeyoucanhelp themavoidwhat ishappening tomerightnow.Thecourt justorderedme to turncustodyofmysonover tomyexwife. ‘National security’was invoked in the judge’schambers. I couldn’t eventestifythatmyexisapracticingsatanist,herboyfriendisCIA,orthatIcaughtherfondlingmyson,”hehuggedthebeautiful,sleepingbabycloser.“Irefusetoletherabusehimanymore.Nooneshouldhavetoleavetheirhome,theirjob,and everything they know to disappear into an underground just to keep theirchild from being abused.Maybe by raising awareness you can prevent others

fromhavingtodowhatI’mdoingtonight.”Withhischildclingingtohiminatighthug,PeterTscherneff3turnedanddisappearedintothenight.

Absolutely determined and motivated to make a necessary impact on MarinCounty,MarkandIwentbackintothebuilding.Marksharedhisknowledgeandwisdomwithcompassion,andIwatchedastruthopenedeyestoawakenpeopleenmasse.Theylearnedthecausationandthecuretotraumabasedmindcontrol,andhowtosurviveCIAcover-up.

When itwasmy turn to speak, the zombie-like appearance of the peoplewasalreadylifting.IbegansharingwhatIknewfrombehindthescenesoftheNewWorldOrderregardingMKUltra,includinghowLt.Col.MichaelAquino’sso-called“powerofsatan”wasactuallyascientificformulainvolvingastungun.Iexplainedhowcompartmentalizedmemoryisthemind’ssanedefensetotraumatoo horrible to comprehend and how writing out memory changes theemotionallyincomprehensibletologicallycomprehensible.Thetruththatsetmefree could freeothers from fear sincepeople fearmostwhat theydon’t know.Armed with truth, Marin County could effectively take a stand for theirchildren’ssake,mychild’ssake,andthesakeofhumanityasawhole.

By the timewe left the Petaluma Parks and Recreation Center, the people ofMarinCountywereabuzzwithinformationsharingandplans.Thesamepeoplewhohadappearedtraumaticallydazedwerenowawake,aware,andmotivated.WhileDeputyDavehelpeduspackupthecartodrivebacktoourhotelrooms,MarktookmeasidetotellmeaboutamanwhohadapproachedhimwhileIwasspeaking.

“He flashedhis IdentificationsofCIA/DIA/NSA4 andasked to speakwithmeoutside.Hetoldme,‘I’mheretodeliveramessage.Idon’tknowyou,butIamawareofpeoplewhodoknowyou thatarebettingyouwillsucceed ingettingthewordoutpubliclyonmindcontrol.’WhenItoldhimthatNationalSecurityhasalreadybeeninvokedonthiscase,hesaid,‘theyalwaysdothat.Justdon’tgivelawenforcementanycausetocomeafteryouorcontainyou.Neveruseacourtroomasaforum.Therearealotofpeoplebehindthesceneswhoapplaudyou for what you’re doing and are keeping a close eye on everything.Mindcontrol ismuch bigger thanmost people could imagine.’We exchanged otherpertinentfacts,thenhevanishedintothenight.”

“Thatwas kind of him to share support and encouragement like that,” I said,feelingthegravityofourcircumstances.

Physicallyexhaustedandemotionallydrained,MarkandIrodeinsilencewhileDeputy Dave talked excitedly as he drove us back to our hotel. “Youaccomplished more with this community than I dreamed you could, and myhopesandexpectationswerehigh,”hesaid.“Itlookstomethatthiscommunityis being socially engineered and controlled to ignore the atrocities emanatingfrom Bohemian Grove and through Aquino and the Presidio. Now that thepeopleknowtheycan’tcountontheirself-appointedso-called‘elected’officialforhelpandchange,theycanthinktorefusetofollowthem.”

“Whenpeoplelead,leadersfollow,”IcommentedasIsooftendid.

Whenwe got back to our hotel room, our door was open.Mark and DeputyDaveimmediatelydrewtheirweapons,workinginsynchronizationtolocatetheintruder.RightbehindMarkwasalwaysthesafestplaceforme,andIfollowedhimuntilbothhotelroomswerecleared.Markmotionedformetostayputonthebedwhilehe followedDeputyDavewhowaseffortlesslyclimbingout thewindow.Severalminutes later, they returned,discussing theCIA intruderwhotheylearnedfledhisroomtwodoorsdownafterransackingours.Assumingourroomwasbugged,DeputyDaveclickedon theTVwhileheandMark talked.Ironically,adocumentarydepictingBarrySeal’sCIAdrug runningwasairing,andwasrightatthepointwherehisfatewassealedformurderinArkansas

AsuddenknockonthedoorpromptedMarkandDeputyDavetodrawtheirgunsagainandassumedefensivepositions. ItwasWilliamJasperof theJohnBirchsociety.

“IjuststoppedbytogiveyouacopyofmybookGlobalTyrannyStepbyStep5since it ties inwithwhat you are saying.”William Jasper continued, “And tothankyouforhavingthefortitudetospeakoutonmindcontrol.”

“Comein,”Marksaid,gesturinghimin.

“Everybodyelse is,”DeputyDavemutteredunderhisbreathashe shovedhisweaponintohisholster.

William Jasper walked in. “I can see how you’ve survived,” he commentedwhileMarkputhisgunup,too.

Beforewecouldallsitdown,therewasanotherknockonthedoor.DeputyDaverolledhiseyes,sighed,anddrewhisweaponagainwhileMarkdidlikewiseandansweredthedoor.Afewlocalsaskediftheycouldcomeinforaminute.

“Wewon’t stay.God knows you’ve done somuch already.”A tall gentlemansaid.Behindhim,wesawCarolFrankamongthegroupfilingintoourroom.“Iguess you knowCarol,” he kept talking nervously, “since she’s covering yourstoryforlocalTVnews.”

“Irealizethatyoudon’tmean‘coveringit’asin‘cover-up’likemostTVnewsdoes,”Ismiled,attemptingtolightenthemoodwithliteralinterpretation.

“Oh,Carolcan’ttalkaboutmycaseonTV,”hequicklyanswered.“Ifshecould,Iwouldgetmydaughterback.ButAquino’sinvolvedandCarolisn’tallowedtotalk about thePresidioormindcontrol.Or satanism.ACatholicpriest abusedmygirl,youknow.Itallseemsconnectedsomehow.”

I knew from my own experience how comforting it is just to have someoneunderstandandcare, and I foundmyenergy rise tomeethisneedwhileMarkandCaroltalked.

Another knock at the door interrupted us. “How did somany people find outwherewewere?”DeputyDavecomplainedashedrewhisgunagain.

“Wefollowedyou,”thetallmanansweredmatter-of-factly.Somehowitamusedmesince Iwasn’tunderany illusionsof safety justbecauseDeputyDavewaswithus.

“There’snoplace to runandnoplace tohide,” Iquipped.“Orat least so I’vebeentold.”

Five distraught women entered the room, somewhat unnerved by the arsenaldisplayed.“Whytheguns?”oneasked.

“Wehadanintruderand…”DeputyDavebegan.

“Callthepolice!”anotherwomansquealed,causingDeputyDavetorollhiseyesagain.Afterall,hewasdressedinfulluniform.

“Youcanstayatmyplace,”Carolkindlyofferedasthoughthatwouldbesafer.“I’llbedrivingyoutotheairportanywayaftertomorrow’sinterview.”

“Whatinterview?”Markasked.

“AfriendofmineisflyinginfromLA,”sheexplained.“HeworkswithPrimeTime,20-20,andSixtyMinutes.Whenhelearnedthatthelocallibrarywouldbestocking videotapes of your presentation tonight since it’s so important to thecommunity,thatcinchedit.He’sonhisway.He’llbehereat10AM,whichwillgiveyounearlyfourhourswithhimbeforewehavetodrivetotheairport.”

MarkandIexchangedlooks,agreementpassingbetweenus.“Doyoubelieveitwillactuallyhelpspreadthewordonmindcontrol?”

“Oh, yes,” Carol responded enthusiastically. “People who couldn’t see youtonightorwerestuckoutsidearecountingonthelibrarytoprovidethetapeslikethey promised. Plus the library is offering copies of your documents andresources as well. They know the CIA is infamous for confiscating materialsfromlibrariesandtrackingwhoreadswhat,sotheyareduplicatingeverything.Ourlibraryhereisonthesideofthepeople.”

“Theyare inmycounty, too,”William Jasper chimed in. “We’ll networkwithyour library for copies. The people have grown weary of big governmentintervention,andthelibrariesarecomprisedofpeoplejustlikeuswhorefusetotolerateitanymore.”

Mark elaborated on his question, “I was actually referring to tomorrow’sinterview.Do you believe this reporter can actually get past JackValenti andnationalsecuritymediacensorshiptobroadcasttheinterviews?”

“Hefullyintendsto,”Carolsaid.“Itmaytakeawhile,but inthemeantimetheinformationwill be right there for other reporters to educate themselveswith.

Thatway,whenthetimeisright,theywillbepoisedandreadytogetthewordout.Itfreesthemtorevealotherpertinentstoriesaswell.”

“Like CIA cocaine ops?” someone asked. “That’s what my daughter wasprogrammedfor.”

Despitebeingtiredfromourlongday,wetalkedonintothenightofferinghopeandhelptothedesperatepeoplewhofilledourroom.

After only a couple hours of sleep, Mark and I arrived at our appointedrendezvous for our interview in a wealthy residential neighborhood. Intrusiveblackhelicoptersdottedthesky,circlingthehouseforthenextfourhourswhileMarkandIansweredquestionsforthewell-informedreporter.“Wecanstillusethis footage,” he assured us, “despite the helicopter noise. Everyone is prettymuchontothatformofharassmentanyway,soitwillonlylendmorecredibilitytoyourstory.”

Whenwewerethrough,thereporteraskedmetostepoutsidewhereitwasabitcoolerawayfromthehotlightsofthecamera.Tearssliddownhischeeksashesaid,“Ipromiseyouyourstorywillbetold,butwehavetoovercomecensorshipfirst.Somanypeopleareaffectedbymindcontrolthesedaysthatitshouldn’tbelonguntilwepenetratemediablackout.Until censorship is overcome, though,you can rest assured I’ll be doing all I can to publicly provide a point ofreferenceforunderstandingthisinformationwhenitisreleased.”

Heblewhisnoseandwipedhiseyes.“Iknowalotofotherreporterswhoarededicatedtothiscause.They’vecoverednumerousstoriesonsatanism,missingchildren,corruptjudges,andCIAcocaineoperationsonlytohavethemcensoredbeforetheycouldbeaired.Wehavearchivesofpertinentinformationtowhichthesetapeswemadetodaywillundoubtedlybeadded.Atleastuntilcensorshipisovercomethesevideoswillbeeducatingotherreporters.”Hegesturedtowardtheannoyinghelicoptersstillcircling.“Andwe’realltiredofthisnonsense!”

“I’msorryforwhathasbeendonetoyou,”hetoldmewithcompassion,“andIassure you all men aren’t like your abusers.Most of us are more likeMark,althoughImustadmithe isoneof themostphenomenalhumanbeings Ihaveever met. I’m glad he came along in your life and rescued you and yourdaughter.Not only for you, but for the thousandsof others likeyou.”Hewas

sobbingnow.“LikeIsaid,Ipromiseyou,yourstorywillbetold.Itmustbetoldor…” A helicopter circling especially close dipped down, drowning out hiswordsandhissobs.

Markwalkedupandinformedmethattwowomenwhohadjustarrivedneededto speak with both of us. After a warm hug, I left the reporter’s side andfollowed Mark back into the house. Both women were mothers of childrencaught up in mind control cover-up, one of which paralleled Kelly’s and mycase. She, too, had volumes of documents and evidences whereby it wasinexcusable that justice had not prevailed. The othermother conveyed a storythat touched me so deeply it undoubtedly will continue to motivate me withreverberatingpassionforever.

Thismotherwasveryweakfromthe final stagesofcancerandchemotherapy,and tears slid down her pale gray cheeks as she toldme her story.When shereportedsexualabuseofherthreedaughters,thelocalcourtsystemtookcustodyof them. The children appeared dissociative identity disordered from theirordeal,yetwerereportedlydeniedtherapyandplacedinFostercare“sincethemotherwasdyinganyway.”Whenshefinallywasgrantedbriefvisitationwithherpreciousdaughters,theylookeddazedandroboticwithnomemoryofherortheirsexualabuse.Mindcontrolwasapparenttothismother,andshestruggledtogivevoicetotheirplighttonoavail.Sheexplainedhowloveandconcernforherchildrenhadkeptheralivefarlongerthanherdoctorsthoughtpossible.Sheembracedmeandsaid,“NowIcandieinpeaceknowingthatyouareouttheretalking,raisingawarenesswiththesamepassionforjusticeandloveforchildrenthatIhave.Thankyou.Pleasekeeptalking.Pleaseremembermydaughters.”

Carol Frank arrived to drive us to the airportwith no time to spare. She spedthroughSanFranciscorushhourtraffic,onlytohavehercarquitontheGoldenGateBridge.Welaterlearnedthathergastankhadbeensabotagedwithsugar,andtherewasnofixinghervehicle.Ascarswhizzedpastus,shemiraculouslycoasted onto an exit ramp that sloped downhill. Fortunately for us, a taxicabseemingly appeared from nowhere and picked us up. We barely caught ourflight,andtheairplane’sdoorsclosedbehindus.AsMarkandIsettledintoourseats,eachofuswasacutelyaware thatwehad justsurvived theunsurvivableonceagain.Itseemedonlymomentsagowhenweweregreetedwith“WelcometoSodomandGomorrah.”WeleftMarinCountyfeelingabsoulutelycommittedwithapurposebiggerthanlifetobringingtherealityofmindcontroltolight…

forthechildren’ssake.

Chapter31BEHINDYOUREYES

Myarmsachedtoholdmydaughter,andmyheartbeat inrhythmtomysobs.Upon returning fromMarin, I learned that Kelly had been transferred to thefarthestpointinthestateofTennesseewithoutmyknowing.“Atleastsheisfreeof Vanderbilt Psychiatric Hospital and Dr. Mitchell,” Mark comforted me.“Charter Lakeside in Memphis is affiliated with the same chain of CharterPsychiatricHospitalsthatCharterNorthinAlaskais.Thisoneisevenaccreditedwithtreatingdissociativeidentitydisorderedchildren.”

Still, I reflected on how themother in Santa Rosa dying of cancer found herdaughters programmed and amnesic once shewas finally granted visitation. Iwondered if Kelly could think to remember me after her atrocious ordeal atVanderbiltthatrenderedher“learningdisabled.”ItfuriouslyfrustratedmethatIwasforbiddenvisitationandwaslefttorelysolelyonthetelepathicconnectionweshared toassessher condition. I sensed thatour connectionwas intact andthatshesharedmyfrustration.VerbalconfirmationofourtelepathicsensewouldbeascomfortingtomeasIwassureitwouldbetoKelly,though.

“We’llgo into town tomorrow todoallwepossiblycan toward reestablishingvisitation,”Markassuredme.“PerhapsEdithHammonscanatleastfindoutherconditionthroughtheOrganizedVictimsofViolentCrimes.”

The next day, after exhausting every possiblemeans of gaining visitation,westopped our PostOfficeBox to collect ourmail. Thenwe dashed over to theCopyShoptoseeBilly.

“A fax just came in for you,Mark,”Billy announcedwhenwewalked in thedoor.“Itlooksreallyimportant.”

“IsitaboutKelly?”Ieagerlyasked.

“I’mnotsure,”Billyansweredkindly.“Itdoesn’tappeartobeabouther,though,sinceitisfromCanadianSpecialIntelligenceServices.”

Markread thefaxwhileBillycontinued.“It’sashameyouandMarkcan’tdowithKellywhatPeterTscherneffdidwithhisson.”PeterTscherneff’s1storyhadrecentlyreachednationalnewssincehewasbeingcriminallypursuedforfleeingwithhischild.PeterwasseverelyPTSDedwhenwespokewithhiminMarin,whichcouldcloudhisjudgmentandsignificantlyincreasehischancesofbeingcaught. Still, Billy believed that publicity and subsequent public outcry couldonlyresultinprotectionforPeter’ssonevenifhewerecaught.

“I’mnotsosurehe’llsucceed,”Icautioned.“Besides,withKelly’sprogrammedrespiratoryfailurethatwouldn’tbepossibleforus.”

“That’s not even the half of it,”Mark added, looking up from the fax hewasreading.“CathyandKelly liveunderconstant threatofbeingkilledif theyaretogether. I have been assured by trusted agents from different IntelligenceAgencies that the threat is real since someone in DC fears their combinedtestimonieswill bust the casewide open. It is also said that their abusers arehopingthatCathywilllosehermindbeingseparatedfromKelly.”

“Theydon’t knowme,” I said, “or theywould realizemy love forKelly onlystrengthensmyresolvetologicallyprevailratherthanemotionallycollapse.”

“They’ve underestimated all of us,” Mark told Billy. “Their arrogance willultimately be their downfall. The best thing we can do for Kelly is to incitepublicoutcrybybringingherplighttolightthewaywearedoingitnow.”

Shiftingsubjectstothefaxheheld,heaskedBillyifhecouldusetheCopyShopfaxmachinetosendaresponseimmediately.“Ofcourse,”Billytoldhim.

Mark scrawled a short response requesting phone contact later that evening.Whilehewrote, I read thefax,whichwasstamped“URGENT”inbold lettersacrossthetop.Itsaid,“GreetingsMark.Arecentdevelopmenthaspromptedmeto fax this to you. I have some information that will be of concern to youpersonally.” It contained pertinent contact information and a signature, alongwithaP.S.thatread,“Pleasedestroythisfax.VERYIMPORTANT.”

“Thanks,”MarktoldBillyashesent thefax“We’llneedtogethometocatchthisphonecallwhenitcomesin.”

Laterthateveningwhenthephonerang,Markansweredit.WhileIwasanxioustoknowwhatitwasallabout,Ihadlongsincelearnedthateavesdroppingwascounterproductive to understanding what actually was transpiring. Theimaginationcan fill in theblanksbasedon insecuritiesof themomentmakingwhat isheardmisinterpreted.Afterasilentpause,IheardMarkcheerfullysay,“Sure.Notaproblem.”

Despitewantingtoheargoodnews,IdrewnoconclusionsandwaitedforMarktosharehisinformationwithme.“ItseemswespookedMikeyAquinooutofhisboots when we spoke in ‘his own backyard’ in Marin County,” he told me.“CanadianSpecialIntelligenceServicescaughtwindofahit2thathasbeenputoutonusasaresult.OurfriendwithCSISisquiteconcerned,andtoldmethatMikeyisnolongerwelcomeinCanadauntilthecaseagainsthimisresolved.IassuredhimI’dtakecareoftheproblemonthisendimmediately.”

IwasconfidentthatMarkcouldavertthesituation.HewaslightyearsaheadofAquinointelligence-wise,andIlookedforwardtoseeinghiminevitablyoutthinkhim.Wesatdowntoopenourmail.

“BethVargoofBelievetheChildrensentusanencouragingletter,”Iannounced.Beth Vargo’s letters were always a source of strength and hope to me, andprovided insight into in themagnitudeofwhatwasbeingdonenationwideonbehalfofabusedchildren.

“Excellent,”Mark responded. “Here’s another letter fromGordonThomas.Hereallyappreciateswhatwe’redoingtoexposemindcontrol,andwouldlikeustosendmoredocuments.Ionlywishhewasn’tdefendingtheVatican.”

GordonThomas’bookJourneyIntoMadness3wasbringingtherealityofmindcontrol to the forefront. It was rumored that he befriended singer SinaidO’Conner during the course of her deprogramming and recovery from theextensive Catholic abuse that inspired her infamous Saturday Night Live4expose’ofsame.“Isn’titironic,”Inoted,“thatGordonThomaslivesinanoldmonasteryrectoryinIreland?”

“Itseemslogicaltome,”Markanswered.“WhatbetterplacetogainaclearviewandstillbeaVaticanapologist?”

“Well, the term ‘rectory’,” I pointed to the heading on Gordon Thomas’stationary,“isa term that the studentsatCatholicCentral5 jokedabout. ItwasacceptedknowledgethatPriestssexuallysodomizedkidsinthe‘rectory’,whichtoourliteralmindswasderivedfrom‘rectum’and‘wrecked‘em.’Likewise,weinterpreted the terms ‘altered personalities,’ ‘altered states,’ and ‘alter boys’ asderived from sexual abuse on church altars.What an ironic twist thatGordonThomaswouldexposesuchabusesfroma‘rectory’!”

“HowwidespreaddoyoubelieveCatholicssexualabusebyPriestsactuallyis?”Markquestioned.

“EnoughthatgirlsinCatholicuniformsaresynonymouswithpornographyandsexual promiscuity,” I stated. “If sexual abuse of children by Priests isn’tcommonknowledge,itshouldbe.”

“It will be,” Mark firmly stated. “Gordon Thomas and Sinaid O’Connor areamongagrowingnumberofpeoplespeakingout.EvenAquinoisprovingtobea significant downfall to the Catholic church rather than a recruiter for theJesuits,CIA,andDIA6asintended.”

I turned back to our stack of mail. “We have a letter here from a girl inCaliforniarequestingspecificinformation,”ItoldMark.“HernameisSueFordandsheisaskingforcopiesofmydeprogrammingnotes.”Ifrowned,“Readingthemcan’tbehealthyforavictim,whichsheclaimstobe,sinceshewouldstillbehighlysuggestible.Iwonderhowsheevenlearnedaboutmynotes?”

“Itwouldhavetobethroughmentalhealththerapistssincethey’retheonlyonescirculatingthatinformation,”Markresponded.“Letmeseethat.”Ihandedhimherletter.HewasonlypartwaythroughreadingSue’sletterwhenhepointedtothewords‘ProjectMonarch.’“Yes, ithas tobe throughmentalhealthsincesofewpeoplearefamiliarwiththatterm.Sheobviouslyalreadyknowsofyourpastsincesheisusingyourlanguage.‘ProjectMonarch’isprovingtobeanidealwaytotrackwherehighlysuggestiblevictimsaregettingtheirinformation.”

“Judging by her handwriting7,” I observed, “she genuinely appears to besufferingfromadissociativedisorder.”

“Butherverbiageisnotconducivetomindcontrol,”Markargued.

“I’llgiveheracallandseewhatthisisabout,”Isaid,reachingforthephone.

AyoungmanwithperfectdictionansweredthetelephonenumberprovidedonSue’sletter.“RodRobinson,”hecheerfullysaid.

“MynameisCathyO‘BrienandI’mattemptingtoreachSueFord.”

“Cathy!”Rodexclaimedasthoughheknewme.“Sueisrighthere.We’vebeenlookingforwardtoconnectingwithyou.IamanauthorwritingafictionalbookonmindcontrolthatincorporatesmuchofyourinformationthatSuewasabletoobtainthroughhertherapist.”

“Iwasrespondingtoherrequestformydeprogrammingnotes,”Ibegan.“Ifsheisavictimofmindcontrol,though,itwouldnotbeinherbestinteresttohavemynotes.Sheneeds to learnofherpast from the insideout,not fromoutsideinput.”

“Oh, I agree,” Rod assuredme. “She is a victim of incest, not mind control.Whenher therapist toldheraboutyouandyourcase, Ibecamevery interestedsinceIlearnedaboutmindcontrolinHawaii.MyfatherwasstationedinAlaskaasapastor in theAirForce.Yes,he sexuallyabusedme.But itwas themindcontrol atrocities I witnessed and their extensive effects on the military thatcompelled me to write my book. Mind control must be exposed, and thisfictional account I am writing isn’t about anyone specifically, it simplyintroducestheconcepttopeopleinapalatablewaytheycanaccept.”

“HowdoyouhappentobeinCaliforniawithSueFord?”Iasked.

“Imet her on the beach in Kauai while she was vacationing andwe becamefriends,”heexplained.“Wecouldrelatetoeachotherbecauseoftheincestweexperienced.Shehas beendiagnosedwithMPD8. I’ve been so busywriting Ihaven’t had time to find out if I’mMPDed like I seem to be. Anyway, Sue

supportsmyworkasanauthor.WhenshereturnedtoCaliforniatoresumehertherapy,I toldherI’dcometovisit.Well,hereIam.Whatperfect timing, too,sincewefoundyou,arealsurvivorofmindcontrol,withinformationIcanusetoanchormybook in reality.Thankyou for survivingandhaving theheart tospeakout!”

“It is love for my daughter that motivates me,” I said. “Her situation isdeplorable.”

“It is for thechildren that I amwriting thisbook,”Rodvowed.“That’swhy Iwant enough accurate facts to incorporate into this story to actually help stopchildabuse.CanyousendtheinformationSuerequested?”

“Yes,” I answered. “I will send it to your attention, though, as long as youpromisemeyouwon’tsharesuchdetailswithSuerightnow.Eventhoughshewasn’tlikelyexposedtomindcontrol,sheisstillhighlysuggestiblefromabusehorrific enough to result in her current diagnosed condition. She has alreadypickedupontheterm‘ProjectMonarch’anduseditinherletter,whichvalidateshersuggestibility.Soplease,Rod,makesurethesedocumentsIsendyoudon’thinderherpersonalprogress.”

“Wow,”Rod’svoicequavered.“Youhavesomuchcompassionafterallyou’vebeenthroughthatyoustillcareaboutSuewhenshedidn’texperienceafractionofwhatyoudid.”

“Sheobviouslyexperiencedsomethingbadifsheissufferingfromadissociativedisorder,”Iresponded.“Justbecauseherexperienceandminearenotthesamedoesn’tmakehertraumaanyless.Overthelineisover-the-lineregardlessoftheextent,anditsoundslikeyoubothmayhavecrossedit.”

“I’ll findout someday,”Rodsaid.“If thisbooksells theway Ibelieve itwill,then I’ll take themoney from it and seea therapistmyself. I’mdoingOK fornow,though.”

“Itsounds like it,” Isaid.“I reallyappreciatewhatyouaredoing topositivelyimpactsocietywithwhatyouknow.I’llsendtheinformationrightawaysoyoucantakeitwithyouwhenyoureturntoHawaii.”

“I’ll be leaving nextweek,” Rod said, “but I hopewe talk again sometime. Ithankyoufromthebottomofmyheartforallyouaredoingfor thechildren’ssake.Suethanksyou,too.”

Whenwehungup,IwenttofillMarkinontheconversation.Hewasdeepintocomposing a note of response toAquino’s attempt onour lives, though, and Icertainly did notwant to disturb him.A fewminutes later he showedme theletterhehadwritten.

“IknowsomeonewhowillmakesureAquinoreadsthis,”Marksaid,smiling.

Theletterbegan:“Thisisthevoiceinyourheadandtheguybehindyoureyes.”WhenIfinishedreadingit,Ibecamemoreexcitedthanever.

“Thereisnowayhecanignorethis!”Ilaughed.

“Itwillhaunthim,”Markassuredme.“Heshouldknowbetterthantogointoabattleofwitsunarmedandwithoutsufficientback-up.Myfriendsareabovehisfriends,andhewillstanddown.”

“Itistoocoolthatyoutoldhimheis‘nothingspecial”andjustanother‘psychclone’spinningdeceitfrom‘behindthewizard’scurtain’thatisbeingexposed.”

Mark sealed the letter in an envelope. “He’s ‘mind’ now that I’m behind hiseyes.”

Chapter32HEALth

Markmadearrangementswithoneofhis ‘guardianangel’contacts tohavehismessage personally delivered to Aquino, while I sat in a doctor’s office.Experience taught me to listen to my body rather than rely on a doctor todiagnoseor tend tomyhealth.This routine visitwas simply for renewing theprescriptionIhadtotreatthegnawingpaininmybelly.Ifeltfortunatetohavesurvivedthetotaldigestivefailuremyabusersbelievedwouldkillme,andwaspleasedtoknowhowthepowerofthemindcanbeusedforhealing.Afterall,sinceperpe-traitorscouldprogramspiestodiebeforetheycouldthinktorevealsecrets,thereversecouldbeusedformaintainingorregaininghealth.

“Ms.O’Brien,”thedoctorsaidsolemnly.“IcannotinallgoodconsciencewriteyouaprescriptionforasimpledruglikeAnaspazwhenyouare,infact,dying.”

“No,I’mnot,”Ibegan.

“Yesyouare!”heargued.“Your lower intestine isdeadandyousoonwillbe,too.”

“I’veheard this foryearsandknowit isnot true,”I toldhim.“All Iwant isarefillonmyprescriptiontohelpcalmthepaininmybelly.Areyoudenyingmerelief?”

“Areyoudenyingthatyou’redying?”heretorted.

Icouldn’thelpbutsmile.“TherearethosewhowouldliketobelieveI’mdying,and apparently you’re counted among them. But the fact is, regardless ofanyone’s belief, I am alive and am simply asking for relief. Relief from yourbelief.OrreliefwhileIdie.Eitherway,allIwantisaprescription.”

“Fine!”Hescrawledoutaprescription,rippeditfromthepad,andtossedit to

me.“Don’tbothercomingbackheretoseeme.”

“HowcouldIcomebackifI’msupposedtodie?Wow,that’saspookythought.”Thedoctor’seyeswidenedinhorror. I jumpeddownfromtheexamining tableandstrodeoutthedoor.

MarkwasalreadyintheparkinglotwhenIemergedfromthedoctor’soffice.AsIclimbedintothecar,webothasked,“How’ditgo?”Thensaid,“Youfirst.”Iwavedtheprescription.

“Hedoesn’twanttoseemeanymore,”Isaid.

“Aquinocan’thelpbutseeme.”Marksaid,“I’mbehindhiseyesnow.”

“The doctor said I’m dying.” I knewMark knew better. Mark had, after all,literallysavedmylifeseveraltimesusingthepowerofthemindwithlove.

“Aquinoonlywishesheweredead,but I’llhaunthim there, too.”MarkdrovethePacertowardstheCopyShop.“I’mgoingtodropyouoffatBilly’swhileImeetwithanotherspookwhowillreinforcethemessagethatMikey1isplayingwithfirethistime.Thatfatlittlenarcissisticsatanistdoesn’twanttogooutinablaze of glory, so he’ll recant his threats and diffuse the hit he put out on us.DeputyDavePTSDed2overthis,soIwanttomakesureMikeyknows‘hehasnowheretorunandnowheretohide’because‘we’rewatchinghimfrombehindhiseyes’.”

“Deputy Dave PTSDed?” I asked, concerned. Mark and I had seen so manygood,strongpeoplebecomecasualtiesonthefrontlinesofthismindwar.

“InoticedhewasshowingsignsofPTSDwhenwewereinSantaRosa,”Marksaidwithcompassion.“It’snot thedeath threatsandavertedhits that senthimover theedge, it’s thechildren.He’sseentoomanychildrenhorriblyhurt,andcan’tdealwithitanymore.He’ssodepressedhe’sdespondentandirrational,andhisfocusistotallygoneforthemoment.Hisjobisfartoodangeroustoallowforthe kind ofmistakes PTSD causes. So, he’s taking a little time off and usingsome of the coping skillswe talked about to pull himself back together.He’sgoingtodosomewritingwhichnotonlywillhelphimrecover,itwillalsohelp

thecause.”

Wedrovetherestofthewayinsilence.

Billy was quite busy when we arrived at the Copy Shop, so I walked to thenearbypharmacy togetmyprescription filled.Then I retrievedourmail fromthePostOfficeandsettledintotheemployee’sbackroomwhileBillytendedhiscustomers. Ipulledoutmynotepadandbeganwriting.WithsomuchCatholicabuse being discussed, memory of my encounter with Nicaragua’s DanielOrtega3surfaced.

AlexHoustonwastravelingfortheCIAaboardNCL’scruiseshipinthesummerof 1985, and I had cause to be with him. Houston’s bad ventriloquism actprovided him cover for theCIA drug ops hewas actuallyworking,while theHandwritingAnalysis4lecturesthatIgaveprovidedmyexcuseforbeingthere.In reality, Iwouldbeboardinga smallplanebound forNicaraguawhileNCLdocked in their Yukatan,Mexico port-of-call. I had been programmed with amessage from theWhiteHouse to deliver toNicaragua’sCommandantDanielOrtega.

As I wrote out my memory in photographic detail, I smelled the smells andsensed the sensesof the event. It all felt so real andclose, almost as though Iwerethereagain.OrtegawasunlikeanyothercontactImadeduringmytenureas anMKUltramind controlled slave. I sensedhis strengthof spirit and soulconviction, andhe exuded an energyof love.Howcould this be?Themodestroomwhere Imetwithhimwas linedwithweapons, andashtraysoverflowedwith cigarette butts and a few marijuana roaches. I had been conditioned toabhormarijuanaaboveallelse,sincethegovernment’sconcernwiththeherb’smind-alteringandexpandingpropertiescoulddisruptdeliveryofmessageslikethisonetoOrtega.Ofcourse,atthetimeIcouldonlyperceivemarijuanaasthe“evilweed”Iwastolditwas.Likewise,IshouldhaveperceivedOrtegaastheviolent warmonger I’d been conditioned to believe he was; yet his powerfulpresence conflicted with my pre-programmed perceptions. The connection Isensedwasbigger-than-life,abovelife’sconditionsandeventsofthemoment.Icouldn’tthinktoquestionorwonderundermindcontrol,butthequestionsthatrosewhiledeprogrammingcontinuetodate5.

AsIwroteoutthemessageIdeliveredtoOrtega,Irecalleditcomplete6withthevoiceinflectionsofmyprogrammers,whichwereusedverbatiminmydelivery.ThemessagewasacombinationofVaticanbasedthreatsandbribes,allofwhichwere to convince Ortega to accept New World Orders in the name ofCatholicism.Ortega’sviewofCatholicismapparentlydidnotincludeapoliticalagenda, however. In the course of his response, which automaticallyphotographicallyrecordedinmybrain,hesuggestedthatthepictureoftheNewWorldOrderthatReaganpaintedlackeddepth.Andlikewise,theCatholicJesuitrole in that NewWorld Order was just as shallow. His message7 to ReaganclearlydenouncedtheNewWorldOrder.

Billyburstthroughthedoorofthebackroom,warmlygreetingme.“Oops,”heinterruptedhimself.“Ididn’trealizeyouweredeprogramming.”

BillyhadbeenpresentonnumerousoccasionswhileIwasdeepinsidemyheaddeprogramming,andwasalwaysrespectfuloftheprocess.

“It’sOK,”Iassuredhim,settingdownmypen.“IjustcompletedwhatIneededtowriteanyway.Howareyoudoing?”

“Great,now that I seeyouandMarkaresafe,”Billysaid.“After the faxya’llgot,Iwasabitconcerned.”

“Mark tookcareof it,” Ismiled.“Andhe’s further reinforcingoursafetyrightnow.”

Markburstthroughthedoorasthoughoncue.“Thatdidn’ttakemeaslongasIhad anticipated,” he announced. “Mikey and his legions of academic moronswon’tbebotheringusanymore.”

“Great!”Isaid,throwingmyarmsaroundMarkinabighug.

WhileBillyandMarktalked,Igatheredupmypaperworktoleave.“Whereareyougoingsofast?”Billylaughed.

“Home,”Ismiled,givinghimaquickhug.“We’regoingtocelebrate.”

“What are you celebrating?”Billy asked good-naturedly, opening the door forme.

“Life!”Iexclaimed.

MarksmiledatBilly,“Likewedoeveryday.”

On the way home, I excitedly toldMark about my deprogramming notes onDaniel Ortega. “He’s true-to-soul!” I gushed. “He could make a powerfuldifferenceforhumanitywithhisstandagainsttheNewWorldOrder!”

“Whoa,”Markcautioned.“He’sacommunistmilitarydictatorwhosepeopleareatwar.”

“This is bigger than politics,” I insisted. “Admittedly, I don’t understand hispolitics8, but I know he is a man of conviction and peace. He stands strongagainst the New World Order, and someday that will matter far more thanpoliticaldifferences.”

“I’d like to seewhatyou’vewrittenoutwhenwegethome,”Mark saidashedroveusoutofcitytrafficandontothewindingcountryroad.“You’redrawingsomeseriousconclusionsfromlimitedexperience.”

“Irealizethat,”Iassuredhim.“Butmysenseswereevenstrongerthenthantheyare now, and that is worthy of consideration. Ortega is a powerful spirit whodefiestheglobalelite.Heisafighterforfreedom.”

“Freedom by whose definition?”Mark asked. “One man’s freedom fighter isanotherman’sterrorist.”

“Innate freedom, within soul’s realm of love,” I answered. “Not freedom bypoliticaldefinition,butratherfreedomthatcomeswithfreethought.Heopposesmindcontrol.”

“SodoesBillClinton,”Markremindedme.“LookintoOrtega’spolitics.Expand

whatyouthinkyouknow.IamnotarguingyourpointthatweneedtoputasidedifferencesandunitetoovercometheNewWorldOrder.RatherIamsayingthatexpandingperceptionsisnecessaryforallpeopleeverywheresoanotherformofdictatorshipdoesn’t fill thevoid leftwhen these criminals are finally removedfromleadership!”

Longdrivesprovedtobeanidealtimeforindepthconversationorforplay,aswell as for reflecting and thinking. Mark’s and my relationship was socomfortableandsecurethatourdiscussionswereasvariedasourpointsofview.Our life’s circumstances had raised our perspectives and priorities above andbeyondwhatothersseemedtoargueabout.WhenpeoplelearntothinkbeyondTVtowhatreallyisgoingonintheworld,theywillchangetheirprioritiesandperspectives,too!Everyoneisonhisownlearningpath,andthereisnoneedtochangesomeonewhoisdaringtothinkbeyondsocialengineering.Mark’spointabout Ortega was valid whereby I would research more. Yet my hopes fordismantlingNewWorldOrder controls in time to unplugDARPA and SandiaLabs technology rested in humankind’s setting aside their differences for thesakeoftheirlikenessesinpeaceful,spiritualevolution.

“How can humanity unite in truth when ‘National Security’ secrecy keeps usdivided?”Iwondered.

“The 1947 National Security Act must be abolished,” Mark answered. “Thatshouldbegoaloneafterpeopleregaincontroloftheirgovernments.ThentheycanunpluganddefuseDARPA.”

“It’salmostacatch22,”Iconcluded.“PeopleneedtruthforstrengthofspirittounplugcomputerizedArtificialIntelligencethatissuppressingtruth!”

“Peoplehavenotimetolose,”Markagreed.

“According to the doctor, I don’t have any time left either,” I said. “Why dodoctorsinsistongivingmenegativenews?Isitduetotheirextensiveeducationthroughdrug-companypaidmedicalschools?”

Markanswered.“Moreandmoredoctorsareexpandingtheirnarroweducationfocus to learn about cures emanating from the private sector. They study andworkhardfordegreesasMDs,PhDs,etc.andintheprocessaretaughttolisten

onlytootherswithsimilareducationcredentials.Yetitisbecomingincreasinglyobvious that their education deliberately includesDARPA generated plans forcontrolling and thinning the population, while pertinent healing facts areomitted.Theyare livid.Thosewhobecamedoctors tohelppeople rather thanmake money are rising, while doctors like the one you saw today are losingpatients.”

“Ilostmypatiencewithhimtoday!”IassuredMark.“Myhealthisimprovingatan astounding rate considering that you and I are applying what we knowtowardsmyhealing.AllIwantedfromthatdoctorwasanedgeonthistummypainwhile I am in the process of healing.Mentally focusing away from painduring intense times like these is difficult because I don’t have time to bedissociative!”

“Saying you don’t have ‘time’ to be dissociative is an oxymoron,” Markremindedme.Dissociationisoppositeofawareness,andisthereforetimeless.

“You’reright,”Ilaughed.“Inreality,Idon’thave‘time’tohurt.Choosingtousethe Special Forces ‘no time to bleed’ program in direct association with myhealthmustbebetterthananyprescription!”

Markagreed.“SincethesubconsciousmindcanbeprogrammedtostopSpecialForcesservicemenfrombleedingwhenshotorinjuredsotheycancontinuetheirmission,weknowthemindiscapableofresponding.Ifthemindcanrespondtooutside manipulation, it certainly can respond to our own spirit-driven healthchoicesanddirectives.”

“Obviously,” I said. “Neither of us has had a cold in years becausewe reallydon’thavetimeforone.Thathealingmechanismworks!Peopledonothavetobetraumatizedandprogrammedtoacceptthishealingrealization.”

“Gettingthemtorealizeitisthechallenge,”Marktoldme.“Thepharmaceuticalcompaniesthatfundmedschoolsdon’twantthisfactrealized,andthereforetheinformation is suppressed.Many pharmaceutical companies and doctorsmakemoney by treating symptoms rather than causations. When causations areunderstood, cures are oftentimes a given. Cures don’tmakemoney.WhywasAspartamereleasedintothepopulationdespiteevidenceofthedamageitcauseswhileDonaldRumsfeldwasCEOof Searle?Whydo you thinkGeorgeBush

wasontheboardofdirectorsforEliLilly9drugmanufacturing?Tocounteractthemassgenocideheperpetuates?Whydoyouthinkpoliticiansaresohealthyandlivesolong?Whatdotheyknowthattheyaren’ttellingus?I’mnotsayingthis is all a conspiracy to thin thepopulation, but pertinent health informationshould be public knowledge rather than deliberately suppressed. If thisinformationweretaughtinschools,unethicaldrugcompanieswouldloosetheircontrolontheworld.”

“Ifpeopledoconsciouslyrealizetheirinnateabilitytoheal,”Ielaborated,“theycould allow it to sink in on a subconscious level through meditation so itbecomesautogenic.Meditationisatleastasdeepashypnosis,isn’tit?”

“Yes,”Mark agreed. “Meditation, like real prayer, for all practical intent andpurpose is selfhypnosis.And it ismuch safer!Findinganethical, trustworthyhypnotist todeepena tranceisrisky.Ifpeopleknewthedangersofallowingastage hypnotist to play with their subconscious, that nonsense would beoutlawed.”

“AlexHouston is a good example,” I said. “People would think twice beforeseeing a hypnotist to stop smoking let alone pay them to play with theirsubconsciousdrivers!”

“Any habit control through hypnosis is like trusting drug companies to cureyou,”Markasserted.“Habitshavecausation.Ifapersonstopssmokingthroughhypnosis, the cause is not being addressed and will manifest itself throughanotherhabitornewemotionalproblemcroppingup.”

“Isthatwhypeoplegainweightwhentheyquitsmoking?”

“Itcanbe,ifthereasontheysmokedisduetoanoralfixation,”Markexplained.“When trauma like incest occurs before age five, it usually results in adissociative disorder and manifests itself through heightened sexuality,addictions,habits, etc. If thehabit is stopped throughhypnosis, theunderlyingcausationwillseekanotherrouteandmemoriesmaybegintosurface.Hypnosisis seriousbusinessand shouldneverbeusedasentertainment.Meditation likeprayerismuchsaferandultimatelymoreeffective.”

“WhydosomanyChristiansopposemeditation?”Iasked.

“Becausetheyaretaughttoopposeit,”Markanswered.“Thinkaboutit.Ifacultchurch leading people outside themselves in order to control their perceptionswere to allow their congregation to go within themselves for answers, theywouldlosecontrolandmoney!”

“Meditation is only heightened prayer,” I began. “Throughmeditation, peoplewouldrealizethat,likepeace,freedomandunconditionallove,healingisalreadywithin. Church teaches that God knows no time, so it seems logical thateveryonewouldembracethattimelessspacethroughmeditationandacceptthehealingthatalreadyexiststhere.”

“Truthnaturallyexistsinthatsamespace,”Markfurthered.“Onceyoulearnedto control your own mind and direct your own thoughts, you were free toconsciouslydirectyourownsubconscious!”

“Iknowthe insandoutsofmyownbrainextremelywellnow, thanks toyourhelpingmeexercisemybrain.Byreachingandstretchingintootherregionsofmybrain, I learned to thinkandchooseformyself. Ichosehealing.Withyourlove strengtheningmy choice to heal,we healedmy eye after the optometristsaidIwasgoingblind10.Whicheyewas that?” I joked.Confusing locationasanotherhealingtacticcomponent.Sometimesitisbettertosimply‘forgetaboutit.’Evenwellintentionedquestionslike‘howareyoufeelingnow?’canresultincounterproductivefocus.“WehealedthedamageCheney11didtomyjaw.”DickCheneyviolatedmeundermindcontrol,butIrefusetoletthepastintrudeonmypresent.The same subconscious ‘mental oilcan’wasusedonmy jaw thatwasused on my wrists and ankle joints to overcome the arthritis setting in. It isphenomenalthewaymybodyhashealedfromtorture.“Whattheyusedforbad,weused forgood.When the realityofmindcontrol is successfullybrought tolightandfullyunderstood,peoplecanusetheinformationtofreehumanityfromallkindsofailments.”

“The positives from learning aboutmind control far outweigh the negatives,”Mark agreed. “Good people have a right to the information on mind brainfunction.Oncetheyrealizethetruth,theycanassumethehealing.”

“Healingisagiven,”Isaid.“Itiswithin.Itiswithintherealmofunconditionallove as is peace, freedom and wisdom. The common factor of all religions,politics,andhumankindiswithin.Assumingthistruthcanhealtheworld!”

Chapter33TREASONSOF“NATIONAL”SECURITY

“Theelevator is still not functioningproperly after the fire,”Markand IwerewarnedaswesteppedintotheStahlmanBuilding’selevatortorideuptoScottRosenburg’soffice.Thedoorsclosedbeforewecouldgetbackoff.Welistenedto horror stories from other people on the elevator with us as it creaked andgroaned itswayup to the11th floor.Wepried thedoorsopenwithour fingerswhenitstopped,andwesteppedoutintoScott’sbusyoffice.

“I’mgladtoseeyou,”ScottgreetedMarkandmewarmly.“We’renearlyreadyfortheMarch17courthearing.ThereisnolegalwayyoucanbechargedwithchildsupportorwithpayingKelly’saccumulatedmentalhealthcosts.”

“That’sarelief,”Isaid.“ThereisnowayIcanpay,andIcertainlycannotaffordtimeinjail.”

“ThereisonequestionIdoneedananswerto,”Scottsaidthoughtfully.“WhatreasoncanIciteforyournotworkingastandardninetofivejob?”

“That is impossible,” Mark injected. “Any routine she keeps like that couldprovedeadly.We’vebeenadvisedbymycontactswithIntelligencetoavoidanyandallroutines.Ajobisoutofthequestion.”

“Iunderstand that,”Scottempathized.“Especially sincemy familyand IwerefollowingourusualSundayroutinewhenwewereinthatcarcrashthatwasnoaccident.”

WhenScottandhisfamilyhadnearlybeenkilledlastwinter,MarkandIwereastoundedbytheirnarrowescape.Markshookhishead.“Ajobisabsolutelyoutofthequestion.”

“Besides,” I said. “I’m still deprogramming. It would be difficult to shift my

focusoutsidemyselfwhenIkeepmyheadupmypastsomuchthesedays.”

Rosenburg smiled. “I realize that, too,” he assured us. “But I cannot submiteitherexcusetothecourtsincetheirexplanationwouldbecensored.Everyoneincourtknowsyourcircumstancesanyway.WhatIneedisamedicalexcuse.”

“Psychiatric confirmationofCathy’s condition could legallywork against us,”Mark explained. “Diagnosis terms for recovery from mind control and DIDwouldultimatelyprohibitherfromtestifyingincourtintheeventthiscaseevergoestotrial.I’msurethatisexactlywhatiswantedrightnowtokeepherquiet,butit’snotgoingtohappen.”

ReferringtomymedicalcircumstancesIsaid,“Itwouldbewrongtosubmitthenegativedoctor’sdiagnosisonmydigestivesystem,eye,hearing,andjawwhenMark and I have used the power of the mind for healing. And my vaginalmutilationcarvingwouldn’texactlybeareasontonotwork.”

Scott winced. “I am confident we have a strong enough case without themedical.I’llseeyouincourtonthe17th.”

When the 17th arrived, I did not knowwhat to expect and wished thatMarkhadn’tbeenbannedfromthecourtroom.Eventhoughthecourtroomwaspacked,theonlyonepresentthathadthefortitudetosupportmewasScott.Andhewasscheduledtotestifyagainstme.

Scottbegan,“YourHonor,ifIprosecuteMs.O’BrienfordebtsowedonKelly’sinstitutionalizationorforchildsupport,Iwouldbeinviolationofmyownhonor,oathofoffice,andnumerouslaws.You,too,areinviolationof…”Scottopenedthe large lawbookhecarriedwithhim,citingvarious lawshehadmarkedforthisoccasion.

JudgeShookhofflistened,fidgetinginhischair.ThenheinterruptedScotttosay,“Lawsdonotapplyinthiscaseforreasonsofnationalsecurity.”

Stunned silence filled the courtroom.Then pandemoniumbroke out and courtwas dismissed. I ran out the door of the courtroom to where Mark wasimpatientlypacing,andburstintosobs.Alarmed,Markbeganrapidlyescorting

metothecar,askingwhathappened.

“It’s over,” I sobbed, believing things couldn’t beworse.Mark started the carand began backing out of the parking lot. “Shookhoff just invoked nationalsecurityonthecase!”

“What?!”MarkstoppedthePacer.

“WhenRosenburgcitedwhichlawswerebeingviolated,Shookhoffsaid,‘lawsdonotapplyinthiscaseforreasonsofnationalsecurity!”Isobbed.

“I’mnotbelievingthis,”Marksaid,hiseyesfillingwithtears.

“Meeither!”Iblewmynose.

“Imean,thisisthebestnewsI’veeverheard!”

“What?”Iasked.Markturnedmetofacehim.

“Nationalsecuritycanonlybeinvokedinjudge’schambers,”heexplained.“Itisamatterofpublicrecordifit’ssaidinopencourt.Hesaidthisinopencourt?”

“Yes,”Isaid,stillnotgraspingthemagnitudeofwhatjusthappened.

“Shookhoffmaywell have just saved our lives,”Mark excitedly assuredme.“He totally validated yours and Kelly’s case by invoking national security inopencourt.”

“Hewouldn’tdothat,”Iargued.“Shookhoffisobviouslyagainstus.”

“No,heisnot,”Marksaid.“UpuntilnowhehasbeenforcedtocomplywiththeFeds,andhejustbrokefreeoftheircontrolswiththisstatement.Inessence,hebreached national security to invoke national security in open court!” I hadn’tseenMarksohappyandexcited.“You’reright,”hecontinued.“It isover.Youjustwon.”

“Itdoesn’tfeellikeit,”Isaid.

“Justwait and see,”Mark said, huggingme close. “Now that you are free ofcourtimposedhindrancesyou’llbeabletoaffectKelly’scasemorethanever.”

“How?”Iasked.“HerConstitutionalrightsandbasichumanrightsarestillbeingviolated.Shecannotsendorreceivemail,takeormakephonecalls,andwecan’tevenseeeachother!Howisthisawin?”

“You’ll see,”Mark said. “Right now your emotions are blinding your logicalabilitytoseeclearly.Understandablyso.You’vebeenthroughalottoday.Let’sgohomeandletthissettlein.I’llcookyouanicedinner,massageyourfeetandhands,andwe’llrelaxabit.”

I reached inmy purse and clicked off the tape recorder that I’d had running,removedthetapeandhandedittoMark.

“Andcelebrate,”Markaddedwhenhesawthetape.“I’mgoingtodoeverythingI can to get today’s court records, although they most likely were instantlysealed.Itdoesn’tmatter,though,”hesmiled.“You’vegotthetape!”

MarkstoppedbythePostOfficeonthewayhome,pausinglongenoughtopokehishead in thedoorof theCopyShop.“Billy!”heexclaimed.“The judge justinvokednationalsecurityonthecaseinopencourt.”

“Noway!”Billy said, smiling big. “Isn’t it a violation of national security topubliclyinvokeit?”

“Hediditanyway,”Markannounced.“Andwe’vegotitallontape.Shookhoffjustsavedourlives.”

“Doyouthinkhedidthatonpurpose?”Billyasked.

“No,”Ibegan.

Markinterrupted.“Yes,IbelievesobasedonafewthingsIknow.We’regoinghometocelebrate!”

Ittooksometimefortherealityofwhathadtranspiredtosetin.Itseemedtome

thatsincerevokingtheNationalSecurityActwasourfocus,thejudgecouldonlyhurtusbyinvokingit.SlowlyIbegantorealizehowthismovehadvalidatedourcase.Additionally,Rosenburgexplainedthattheordersforchildsupportwereinlimboasaresultwherebytherewasnoneedformetoworryaboutpaying.Bestofall, I soonreceivedaphonecall fromAbbott JordanatCharterLakeside inMemphis.

“MsO’Brien,”AbbotJordanbegan,“IamKelly’stherapistatCharterLakeside,andwhatshetellsmedoesnotcoincidewithwhatthestatetellsme.MyconcernisforKellyaboveallelse,andIrealizethatImaybeinviolationofcourtorderby telephoning you. National security clouds Kelly’s court case anyway, so Ichosetofollowmyheartandtalkwithyou.”

“HowisKelly?”Ieagerlyasked.

“Shemissesyou,”AbbottJordantoldme.

Tearsofreliefsilentlystreameddownmyface.Sherememberedme.Thiswasagoodsign.“Howisherhealth?”

“She had an appendectomy recently,” he informed me. Why hadn’t I beennotifiedthroughthecourt,myattorney,orthestate?“Butsherecoveredfine,andherasthmaisbeingmaintainedwithinhalers.”

“Doesshetalkaboutherpast?”

“No,”hetoldme.“Shedoesn’tseemtorememberanything.ItwouldbenefithertremendouslyifyouandIcouldtalk.Ineedsomehistoryonherinordertotreather therapeutically. Icanseeshehasbeenseverely traumatized,yetdon’tnowhoworwhy.”

“Isn’tthatinherrecords?”Iwassureitwas.

“Her recordsaresealed,”Abbott Jordan toldme.“All Iknow is thatwhat shesaysaboutyouconsciouslyandsubconsciouslyisindirectconflictwithwhatthestatereports.Evenhersandtraysandothertherapiesindicatethereismoregoingon with this case than meets the eye. Now I’ve learned national security is

coveringupsomething,andIcannotfindoutwhat.”Hisvoicequavered.“IdoknowlovewhenIseeit,though,andKellylovesyouandmissesyou.”

“CanIseeher?”Iasked,myheartleapinginmythroatatthepossibility.

“I’msendingyoua letter fromKelly,”he said. “Sheapparentlywrote it sometimeagoandjustnowentrustedmetogetittoyou.IgaveittoKatieFinneytogivetoyou.”

“Oh, no,” I groaned.KatieFinneywas a stateworkerwith theDepartment ofHumanServices,andIdoubtedIwouldeverseetheletter.

“Sheassuredmeshewoulddeliverittoyou,”hetoldme.“Sheistheonewhotoldmeaboutnationalsecuritybeing invokedonyourcase. IunderstandfromKellythatKatieisnotafriendtoeitherofyou,butIbelieveIcantrustherwithdeliveringKelly’smessagetoyou.Shewasquitemovedbyit,especiallyinviewofthenationalsecurityincidentincourt.”

“WhencanItalkwithKelly?”Ipleaded.

“Iwill tell herwe talked, and that youwould like to speakwithher,” he saidkindly.“Iknowshewantstotalkwithyou.Inthemeantime,getthatletterfromKatie.I’llbephoningagainsoon.”

When I finally receivedKelly’s letter in earlyApril 1993, itwas tattered anddatedSeptember1992.ShehadobviouslycarrieditaroundwithherformonthsbeforeentrustingAbbottJordantogetittome.Itread:

“DearMom,

Imissyouvery,verymuch.I’mtryingtogetitarrangedforyou,me,anddadforavisit.V.C.A.P.H.(VanderbiltPsychiatricHospital)putawholebunchofshitinmyhead;makingmebelieve that youdon’t loveme, that you abandonedme.I’ve cried for thepast 3weeks almost everyday andnight. Iwishyouwouldwriteback if this letterevergets toyou. Igottago. I loveyou;andrememberthesetwolinesalways…’Itsnotovertillwewin’and‘EverythingIdo,Idoitforyou.’

Itwassignedwiththreebigheartsand‘Love,Kelly’

Chapter34SEVENTEENLITTLECHILDREN

“What does ‘National Security’ have to do with the documented rape andmolestationofachild’smindandbody?”was thequestion raised toStateandFederalGovernmentbypeopleworldwide.Afterthe1947NationalSecurityActwas induced onKelly’s case, the letterwriting campaign thatMark and I hadpreviously started tookwingsand thousandsof letterspoured into theStateofTennessee and Washington, DC. Additionally, people from around the worldwerewritinglettersofencouragementtoKellyandsendinghergifts.Sinceshecouldnotreceivehermail,thelettersandpackagesbeganaccumulating.

Most importantly, Abbott Jordan telephoned again. “Kelly would like to talkwithyou.”

“Great!”Iexclaimed,eagertotalkwithher.“Pleaseputheronthephone!”

“Iwouldratheryoucomeinforavisit,”hesaid.“SowouldKelly.Iamtakingadvantage of the fact that ‘laws do not apply in your case due to nationalsecurity’tocircumventpreviouscourtordersandallowforvisitation.”

“Icanseeher?”Iaskedindisbelief,disappointedthatIwouldn’tbetalkingwithherimmediatelybyphone,yetthrilledbythepossibilityofactuallyseeingher.

“You may want to keep this quiet,” he cautioned. “We don’t want anyonepetitioningthecourttostopthisvisitation.Ineedtoscheduleyoutocomeinandgive Kelly’s history to Charter’s Administrator anyway, and you can see herthen.Canyoucomeinthefirstofnextweek?”

“Monday?”Ihoped.Ifwedidn’thaveenoughgasmoneytogettoMemphis,Iknewwewouldcomeupwithitsomeway.Wehadthreedays.

“We’llseeyouthen,”AbbottJordansaidcheerfully.

“HugKellyforme,”Iimplored,“andtellherIloveher.”

“Willdo,”hesaidandhungupthephone.

EarlyMondaymorning,MarkandIpackeda fewpeanutbuttersandwiches toeatalongthewaytoMemphissincewedidn’thaveadimetospare.Thecostofgas alone was half a month’s budget to us.We loaded our briefcases full ofdocumentsintothePacer.“Haveyougotthetaperecorder?”Markasked.Iheldit up. “Extra batteries?” I dug through my purse and held those up, too.“Cookies?” Of course. I had baked Kelly’s favorites, wishing that we couldaffordtobringherclothes,booksandgifts.

“Kellywon’tcarewhatyoubringordon’tbring,”Markremindedme.“Shejustwantstoseeyou.”

“Andyou!”Iassuredhim.

“Idon’tknowwhattoexpectthere,”MarksaidsadlyashestartedupthePacer.“IthasbeensolongsinceI’vebeenallowedtoevenwavetoheracrossaparkinglot,letalonetalkwithher,thatIcanonlyhopeAbbottJordanwillallowmetoseeher,too.Eitherway,you’llatleastgettovisitandfindouthowshe’sdoing.”

ThelongridetoMemphisgaveusbothtimetothink.Wedroveincomfortablesilence, occasionally holding hands. By the time we arrived, I was equallynervous and excited to see Kelly. First, Mark and I met with Charter’sAdministrator forwhat seemed an eternity. ThenwemetAbbott Jordan, whoappearedassoulfullykindashehadsoundedonthetelephone.

“Mom!”Kelly cried, running to greetmewith a big hug. “Dad!”She huggedMark,sobbingnow.“Imissedyoubothsomuch,”shegulpedbetweensobs.Wecried,too,reassuringherofourlove.

“AllIkeptthinkingwas‘it’snotovertillwewin’,”shesaid.“IknewtheywerelyingtomeatVanderbilt.”

“IdideverythingIcouldtoseeyou,”Iassuredher.“Theywouldnotletmeinthedoor, tellingme that you refused to seeme. I didn’t believe themeither. I

knowyoubetter than that.”Weall cried andhugged, and evenAbbott Jordanwipedhiseyes.

“Kelly toldme you all were close,” he said. “I could see shewas telling thetruth.Whyisyourfamilytornapart?”MarkandAbbottJordantalkedtogetherwhileKellyandIcaughtuponeachother’slives.

“Ikeptsensingyouwerethinkingofme,”Kellyacknowledgedaswediscussedourtelepathicconnection.“AndIknewyoumissedmelikeIwasmissingyou.ItoldAbbottJordannothingcouldkeepusapartbecauseourloveisbiggerthanlife.”

Asidefromourseparation,KellyrememberednothingelseaboutherVanderbiltexperience. I did not push for answers, or inquire about her past. Instead,wetalkedaboutherrecentappendectomy,herrelationshipwithAbbottJordan,andhernewfriendswhileweate thecookiesI’dbrought.CharterstaffexplainedIcouldnotbringfood1intothefacility,butmadeanexceptionfornow.Icouldn’tleave any, though, andKellywas eating asmany as she could hold, savoringeverybite.When itwas time to leave,weknewthatwewouldbeseeingeachotheragainsoon.Still,itwaspainfulsayinggoodbye.

Ontheridehome,MarkexplainedthathistimewithKellywouldbelimitedtowarm greetings because any visitation between them could disrupt our timetogether. Abbott Jordan knew he was walking a fine line to allow visitation.“Besides,” Mark consoled me, “you and Kelly should have every possibleminutetogether.”Hiseyescouldnothidehisowndisappointment,andIlovinglycaressedhim.Suchunselfishlove.

“WhenAbbottJordanaskedwhyIcouldn’thelpKellythewayIhelpedyou,IexplainedhowKelly’svictimizationdifferedfromyours,”Markexplained.“Hereallyappreciatedtheinformation.I toldhimthat, inessenceItookthementalhandcuffsoffyouandhandedyouthekey,whereasIdon’tevenhavethekeytoKelly’s technological programming. Hers is more like a magnetic lock thatrequiresacomputerizedelectronickey.Technologicalmindcontrolislightyearsaheadoftraumabasedmindcontrol,andheunderstandsthatnow.”

“Hadheheardofharmonicprogramming?”Iwondered.

“HeknewabitaboutHAARP2,”Markanswered.“HebeganresearchingitafterhearingrumorsthatHAARPmayhaveplayedaroleintheLARiots3.”

“IfanythinggoodcouldcomeofsuchviolenceastheLARiots,itwouldbethatpeopleatleastbeganresearchingHAARP,”Icommented.“AndRodneyKing’sinfamousplea‘can’twealljustgetalong?’stillresoundslongaftertheriotsdieddown.”

“BetweenOperationJustCause’sblatantuseofharmonicsonNoriega,andtheLARiot rumors regardingHAARP, harmonics is becoming a householdwordnow,”Markagreed.“ItgivespeoplelikeAbbottJordanapointofreferenceforunderstandingKelly’shightechmindcontrol.”

“How did you explain to him why our family has been so unjustly andimmorallytornapart?”Iinquired.

“Itoldhimwhoandwhatweareupagainst,whichhesaidfitwithwhatKellyclaimed,”Markexplainedashedrove.“ApparentlyVanderbiltcouldnotmakethe reality of Kelly’s past go away despite their reported attempts to‘harmonicallyerasehermemory’.Ialsoexplainedtohimaboutherrespiratoryprogramming,andthemagnitudeofthethreatstoyourlivesifyouaretogether.Heunderstandsthattheseobstaclescanbealleviatedanddealtwithintime,andis thereforedetermined topersist in reunitingour family.He realizes legalitieswon’tbeeasytoworkthroughunderthecircumstances,butneverthelesswillbemakingalltherightrecommendationstofreeherfromthesystem.”

“Thatisarelief,”Isighed.“Thisisthefirsttimewehavehadsomeoneworkingwithherwhoisgenuinelyonourside.”

“WhatdidyouandKellytalkabout?”Markeagerlyasked.

“Mostlywecaughtupwithwhathasbeengoingonsincewesaweachotherlastfall,”Ibegan.“ApparentlytherewasabitmorediscussionbytheDepartmentofHuman Services regarding an exorcism, and Kelly insisted that she was notpossessedbytheirbeliefsystem.”

“Shesaiditthatway?”Markwantedtoknow.

“Yes,” I smiled. “Idon’tknowhowmuchclearer shecanexpressherself thanthat.Anyway, thatwhole occultmess seems to be overwith and she is reallygladtobefreeofit.”

“Afterall shedealswith in life,”Markcommented,“Shecertainlydidn’tneedthatnonsense,too.”

“Whatconcernsmenow,”Itoldhim,“isthatshehasstartedherperiodsandisworriedaboutgettingpregnant.Apparentlyshehasbeen‘gettingalongwithherpeers’abittoowell.Wehadagreattalkaboutthat,though.Sheexplainedthatshe has some difficulties living true-to-soul at all times since she is stillswitchingpersonas,especiallyafterVanderbilt.Loveisastronganchortolivingtrue-to-soul,whichsherealizes iswhereher innate identity is found.Bybeingheretoreassureherthatsheislovedandislove,ithelpsstrengthenherresolvetolivetrue-to-soul.”

Icontinued.“Throughus,shehasseenwhatalovingrelationshipcantrulybe,and said she doesn’twant to settle for anything less thanwhatwe share. SheknowsIamhappyandwellcaredfor,andadmiresthefactthatyoudon’ttreatme likea sexobject.Bybeingyou,Kellyhas learnedmoreabout love thanalifetimeoftherapycouldhavetaughther!Sheisalreadysowiseat13thatshechooses to soulfully express her sexuality through love only. That is quite ahealthy choice considering sexual abuse heightened her drive the sameway ithaseveryothersexuallyabusedchildinstitutionalizedatCharter.ItoldherhowproudIamofherandforher.Butuntilsheactuallylivestrue-to-soulalwayslikeshestrivestodo,I’dstillliketohaveherputonbirthcontrolpills.”

“That’sagood idea,”Markagreed,“considering thehormonesragingbetweenallthosesexuallyabusedkids.”

MarkandItalkedtherestofthewayhome;decidingwhateachofuscoulddotobest benefit and strengthen Kelly under the circumstances. The next time wewent toNashville, I approached the subject of birth controlwithDHSworkerKatieFinney.“Teachhersomemoralsinstead!”shescreechedatme.

How could a social worker dealing with abused children every day be soignorant?“Iwouldliketohavethatopportunity,”Iretorted.“IfKellywerefreeofyourcustodyandIwereraisingher,thiswouldn’tbeanissue!”

Iwas outraged.Most of all, Iwas disgusted thatKellywas somisunderstoodwhileshestruggledtohealherselfandlivetrue-to-soul.ObviouslyKatieFinneydidnotevenknowKelly,orshewouldn’thavemadesucharidiculousstatement.Asusual,itwouldbeuptoustomakethebestofadeplorablesituation.

Deplorable situations were becoming commonplace in America these days4,joltingmanypeoplefromtheircomfortzones.Therichweregettingricher,thepoorweregettingpoorer, and formerlymiddleclasscitizenswereplummetingtowardthirdworldpovertylevel.Justicewasboughtandsoldwhilegovernmentcorruption reigned supreme. Crime escalated out of control while the CIA’sboomingcocaine,crack,andheroinindustries5 turnedourstreetcornersintoabloodbath.

Citizens began meeting in basements, churches, schools, community centers,anywheretheycouldgathertodiscusshowtorightthewrongsinsociety.GlobalEducation6waserodinghumanmoralsatsucharapidratethathomeschoolingwas fast becoming the common alternative. People unplugged their TVs andvideogames inaneffort tomaintainfree thought.Theyturned toundergroundnewspapers,radio,andwordofmouthfor truthevenbeforetheinternet linkedtheir voices. As fast as people united to take their country back, theirorganizations were either infiltrated to divide them or were slandered by thepress.MilitiasweretermedWhiteSupremacists,patriotsweretermedextremists,schoolkidswereturnedintogangs,andawarecitizensweretitledUN-Americanconspiratists. Mind control weaved throughout society’s woes, and was thecommon thread that should have tied everything togethermaking sense of thechaos.

Butmindcontrolwasbeingcoveredupfor“reasonsof‘national’security”.

Meanwhile,warwaswaged againstUS citizens. Psychologicalwarfare tacticswereaimedatthepopulacetokeepthemshootingateachother,whilehorrifyingexampleswerebeingmadeofhighprofilepatriotleaders.Ninemonthsprevious,US Federal Agents had stormed the Idaho country home of Randy Weaver,murderinghis son andhiswifewhile they scrambled for their lives.Weaver’ssupposedcrime?AttemptingtounifycitizensaccordingtotheUSConstitutionandtakebacktheAmericangovernmentfromaself-appointedNewWorldOrderelite. Rather than terrify the public into submission, this inhumanemurder ofVicki and SamWeaver only served to awakenmore people to the reality that

somethingverywrongwashappeningtou.s.all.

Nowtroublewasbrewingagain,anditwasonlyamatteroftimeuntilviolenceexploded sufficient to traumatizemuchof thepopulace.People are easiest ledwhile PTSDed from trauma, and a horrific standoff inWaco, Texas had beenplaying out for days on every television station. A banner with reverberatingmeaning reading ‘Can’t We All Just Get Along7’ waved from the Wacocompoundwhilethemediaslaughteredtheirimage.

8AMonApril19,1993ourtelephonerang,wakingusfromadeepsleep.Marklistened to the desperate plea for help on the other end. The standoff at theBranch Dividian compound in Waco, Texas had reached a pinnacle, and 83peoplewere trapped insidewilling to die rather than surrender to governmentcontrols.BillClinton’s newly appointedAttorneyGeneral JanetReno claimedthe people were victims of cult brainwashing. The Branch Dividians8 vowedtheywouldnotcomplywithgovernmentmindcontrol tactics.SinceMarkwasnownationally recognized as a leader in deprogramming, hewas called on tohelp. The stage was already set for destruction, however, and Mark wiselysidestepped an attempt to burn him with the rest in order to help Waco’ssurvivors sift through the ruins of their lives. By the time Federal Agents(GeneralWesley Clark9, 2004 Presidential contender, led) were through withtheirunprecedentedraid,seventy-fourpeopleweremurderedandburnedalive.Among the dead were Seventeen Little Children10. Nine people miraculouslysurvived,includingonebravesoul,DavidThibodeau11,whodaredtospeakoutafterwards.

Wewereanationundersiege,andMarkandIdidnotwanttobecomecasualtieson the front lines of this mind war. For Kelly’s sake, we needed to keep theproverbial spotlight of truth shining bright. For the sake of survival in thesetumultuoustimes,weneededtokeepalowprofile.

Iknewthe ideaof takingKellyandrunning likePeterTscherneffdidwithhissonwasonlyanemotionaltemptationandnotalogicalanswer.ThewisdomofthisdifficultdecisionbecameevenclearerwhenPeterwascaughtafteronlyfourmonths12, incarcerated,andhispreciousson turnedover to theveryoneshe’dfled.Ensuingmediacoverageofhisarrestwasdeplorable13,asitattackednearlyevery moral issue parents nationwide were standing against on behalf of thechildren. This brave, youngman and his son paid the ultimate price of being

usedaspublicexamples.

“IfonlyPeterhadstayedtolistentousspeakinPetalumathatnight,”IsaidasIread another slanderous newspaper article denouncing him, “he would havehearduswarnabouttheverycatchnetoperationthatensnaredhim.”ThenamesinthearticleIwasreadingwerealltoofamiliar.

“Even if Peter had stayed and listened to that information,” Mark asserted,“chancesarehewouldhavebeencaughtanyway.PeterwassoPTSDedthathewasdestinedtomakeafatalerrorinjudgment.Hishighpublicprofilemadehimamediatargetthatensuredhewouldbecaughtandpubliclycrucified.”

Despite extreme efforts to divide and conquer the people, many resilientAmericans were more determined than ever to stop the erosion of freedom.Peoplewhocouldstillthinktoaskquestionsweredemandinganswers.

TVtalkshowslikeOprahWinfrey’sbegantoflourish.Oprahwasnolongerjusta localNashville girlwith a talk show, shewas becoming a household name.Truetoherword,awarenessofincestandchildabusewasrisinginproportiontoherpopularity.

While pioneers like Oprah tread lightly through censorship, key stories thatcould make a world of difference were ignored or slandered by mainstreammedia. Mark and I learned that Michael Jackson’s sister, LaToya, was indeprogrammingandrecoveryfromtheMKUltraabusespermeatingtheJacksonfamily.LaToya’svalianteffortstospeakoutafterwritingherbook,GrowingUpin theJacksonFamily14,weredenouncedby themedia to thepointwhere shefledatelevisedinterviewintears.Mindcontrolsurvivorswerebeingintimidatedinto silence just like the reporters who were silenced in the wake of DannyCaselaro’s demise. The Jackson storywas stifled alongwith other key eventsthatwentagainstDARPAgeneratedsocialengineeringcontrols.

Outside the controlled media spotlight that portrayed u.s. as apathetical andcompliant, the patriot movement was in full swing and growing strong. TheWaco tragedydidmore to unite people thandivide them, as evidencedby thesongIwaslisteningtoontheradio.SingersongwriterCarlKlang15gavevoicetoAmericaandtouchedmysoulashesang,

“SeventeenLittleChildren,don’titmakeyouwonderwhy?SeventeenLittleChildren,howcouldtheydeservetodie?Maybeweshouldstopandaskourselves,havewebecomesoblind?WillSeventeenLittleChildrenfinallyopenupyourmind?Openupyourmind.”

Chapter35THERAPISTS’MISTAKES

“Remember that fellow that came fromAlaska to see us a couple of monthsago?”Markasked.

Of course I remembered. I had been heavy into deprogramming at the time,though,andhadstayedfocusedonwritingwhileMarkvisitedwithhimandhissister.“Yes,”Ianswered.“Hewasasbigasagrizzlybearandsmartasafox.”

“That’stheone,”Markacknowledged.“Hissisterjustcontactedustoseeifwewant todoacableTVinterviewwitha friendofhers inHuntsville,Alabama.ApparentlytheinformationyouturnedinregardingtheJohnnyLeePicnicscamandmurderinGuntersvillecheckedout.Betweenthedetailsthatwerevalidatedin Alabama, and those that her brother verified in Alaska, there is sufficientevidenceforthebroadcast.Doyouwanttodoit?”

“Sure,”Ireplied.“ButIamabitconcernedaboutgoingbackinto‘NASAcityUSA1’,especiallytodoanexpose’onlocalTV.”

“Noneed toworry,”Markassuredme. “Thepolitical connectionsand supportthatyoujustgainedareasstrongasitgets.Besides,mostfolksinAlabamaarenot like the criminals you knew, and are reputed for their rebel attitudes andindependencefromtheFedsinstead.Alabama’sstatemottois‘WeDareDefendOurRights’.You’relikelytofindmorelike-mindedpeopletherethananywhereelseinthecountry.”

“Let’sdoit,”Isaid.

WhilewereadiedourselvesforourtriptoAlabama,SueFordcontactedusfromCalifornia. “I amworkingwith a group of therapistswhowould like tomeetyou,”shesaid.

“Are you working with them, or are they working with you?” Mark wiselyasked,awareofSue’sdiagnosed‘MPD’condition.

“IamworkingonmyPhD.inbehavioralpsychology,”sheanswered,avoidingthe question.Markwaited. Sue cleared her throat. “They have questions, youhaveanswers,andIhavetwoairlineticketsifyouwillcometoCalifornia.Justsaywhen,andI’llcoverallyourexpenses.”

“Waitaminute,”Marksaid.“Whoare these therapistsandhowdid they learnaboutus?”

“Most of themworked the aftermath of theMcMartin case, are familiar withmindcontrol,andknowyouwere inNorthernCalifornia thispastspring,”sheanswered.“PlusRodtoldthemaboutyouwhenhewashere.”

“That’salotofmoneybeingspentforavaguepurpose,”Marksaid,suspectingmorecausebehindherexplanation.“Isthereanotherreason?”

“Iwouldlikeyoutohelpme,”sheadmitted.“ThemoreIresearchedandstudiedpsychology,thelessIhealed.”

“You have to heal from the inside out,”Mark advised. “Not through outsideinput.BasedonwhatI’veseen,yourmemorymayalreadybecontaminatedwithotherpeople’sexperience.I’mnotsurewhatIcoulddoforyou,especiallysinceIamnotaqualifiedtherapist.PracticingwithoutalicenseisaseriouschargethatIamnotwillingtofaceforanyone.”

“Myofferstillstands,”Suetoldhim.“Thereisawholegroupofprofessionalsoutherethatwanttohearwhatyouhavetosay,credentialsornot.Thinkaboutitandletmehearfromyou.”

On the drive toHuntsville,we briefly discussed the possibility of traveling toCaliforniaagain.Yet itwason thewaybackafter successfullycompleting thecableTVbroadcastthatwemadeourdecision.Manydoorshadopenedforusinthe stateofAlabama, andwewere contemplating thepossibilityof eventuallymovingthere.

“If we make any money through donations while we’re in California,”Marksaid,“itmightbeenoughtorelocate.ThesupportandprotectionAlabamaoffersseemstoogoodtowalkawayfrom.”

“MaybewecouldevenhaveKelly transferred there,” Ihoped.“Abbott Jordanwouldcooperatewithaplanlikethat.”

“It’srisky,”Marksaid.“NASAstillposesathreateventhoughtheGovernorisclean.Forus,NASA’sbackyardisasafeplacetobe.ForKelly,we’llhavetoseewhat mental health has to offer.We’ll take it slow, and in the meantime I’llacceptthatoffertoflyouttoCalifornia.”

WhenwearrivedbackatMark’smother’shouse,sheannouncedasusual,”Thatmancalledagain.”

“Whatman,mother,”Markaskedkindly,smoothingthehairfromhereyes.

“Thatmanwiththenewspaper.”

“Whatmanwiththenewspaper?”Markwascuriousnow.

“Oh,youknow,”Melbasaid.

Trying to be patient, Mark asked, “With the Tennessean? The NashvilleBanner?”

“YouknowdamngoodandwellwhatI’mtalkingabout!”sheretorted.

Markthrewuphishands.“Ifyouthinkofit,mother,letmeknow.”

“Howdareyoutalktomelikethat!”Sheturnedaroundandstompedbacktoherroom,slammingthedoor.

“Welcomehome,”Ismiled,reachingfortheteakettle.“Howaboutacupoftea?”

“Sure,”Markansweredashethumbedthroughthestackofmailpokingoutofthe trash can, retrieving envelopes addressed to us. “Hey, this one looks

interesting,”hesaid,noticingtheElPasoTimesreturnaddress.

Markwalkeddownthehalltohismother’sbedroomandknockedgentlyonthedoor.

“Goaway!”Melbacalled.

“Was‘thatman’withtheElPasoTimes?”heaskedheranyway.

“Itoldyouhewas!Goaway!”

“Thanks,mother.”Markwalkedbackintothekitchentoshowmethearticlethatran July 19, 1993pertaining to amajor cocaine bust at theEl Paso border.Abrief note accompanying it explained that the informationwe discussed at theHouston NCIN conference resulted in this bust. The reporter was fired forrunningthestory,butitwastoolate.Thenewswasalreadyout,‘thankstous’.Thefront-pagephotorevealedhundredsofkilosofcokestamped“Clinton.”

“Theydon’tlabelcocaine,”Ilaughed.

Mark agreed, “Regardless, somebody in the chain is implicating Clinton’sinvolvementinthedrugindustry.Themoreanyonetriestoprovethisstoryisahoax,themoretheywillfindoutitistherealthing.Andnomatterhowyoulookatit,that’salotofcoke!”

“StorieslikethisonecouldderailNAFTA,”Ihoped.“Ifpeoplerealizedourself-appointedgovernmentleadersarebehindthe‘freetrade’ofcokeandheroinovertheborder,the‘warondrugs’couldactuallybewon.NAFTAwouldnolongerbeasteppingstonetotheNewWorldOrder,andwecouldsharecommongroundwithMexicansinpeace!”

“Unitewith‘illegalaliens’?”Marksaid,sarcasticallyusingasociallyengineereddiversionarytermintendedtokeeppeopledivided.“You’resucha‘liberal’.”

“Idonotfitintheconfinesofasociallyengineeredlabel,”Iplayfullyprotested.“You’replaying semanticswithme. I’msaying thatpeopleneed toput labels,semantics, and socially engineereddivisions aside to unite against thebankers

andtechnologyspinningourworld.”

We tookSueFord upon her offer, andwere soon absorbing the attitudes andatmosphere of her wealthy Hollywood Hills suburb. The ClintonAdministration’s plan to divert, bore, confuse, and divide the people throughrevising the voluminous verbiage of NAFTA had little effect on SouthernCalifornia’scitizens.Thelocalsweren’ttheleastbitconcernedover“Mexican’staking their jobs” or “illegal aliens” sneaking drugs into the country. It wasaccepted knowledge that the CIA ran the drug business, and to competewiththemwassuicidal.Perspectiveswereabitmorerealisticsoclosetothesharedborder whereMexicans and Americans alike freely lived above propaganda’ssocialengineering.

“People get more sun in their eyes here in California,” Sue explained as shedroveusfromtheairport toherapartment.“Itclearstheirvision.That’swhyIwantedtobringyouhere,soyoucantelluswhatwecandoaboutwhatweareseeing.”

“Whatwouldyouliketoseeaccomplished?”Markasked.

“Mytherapistneedssomedirection,”Sueanswered.“Shesaysshehasgoneasfarwithmeasshecan,andIknowI’mstillswitchingpersonas.Shehasagreedtomeet with you tomorrow after you speakwith the group of therapists I’veassembled.”

Inwardly, I groaned. Meeting with therapists all day while jetlagged did notsoundpleasanttome.Markmustfeelthetrip,too,andwouldmostlikelyprefertonothitthegroundrunning.

“I’mrightinthemidstofadivorce,”Suecontinued.“Ihavetobeincourt thenextdayandwouldappreciateitifyouwouldbeanexpertwitnessforme.”

“I’mnoexpert,”Markbegan,“andIhaven’twitnessedanythingyet.”

“Ohyesyouare!”Sueexclaimed.“IneedyoutoexplainaboutMKUltramindcontrol’sProjectMonarch.”

“I’mnotevengoingtoaskwhy,”Marktoldher.“Theanswerisno.Absolutelyno. You apparently brought me here under false pretense, and I refuse tocompromisemyintegrityforyouragenda.”

“I’llpayyou,”Suebegan.

“That’s a bribe. Look, let’s get one thing straight,” Mark was smiling hisdangeroussmilealreadyandweweren’teventoSue’sapartmentyet.“Youcangiveme a donation proportionate to every second I spend giving you copingskills foryourdisorder, but Iwillnot take your orders. I agreed tomeetwithyourgroupof therapists,whichIwilldo.Andaftermeetingyou,yes, Iwouldliketotalkwithyourtherapist.”

WepulledintoSue’sgatedcommunity,andcarriedourbagsuptoherapartment.The apartment was oddly devoid of décor, personal effects, and the kind oftriggersmostDIDmultiples surround themselveswith. “You can sleep on thefuton,”shetoldus.“We’llgetanearlystartinthemorning.”

NeitherMarknor Isensedanyprivacyandwereuncomfortablediscussingourimmediatecircumstances.Therewasnoneedtoanyway.

ThenextmorningafteranicebreakfastoffreshCaliforniafruitsandcoffee,wedrovetoourWoodlandHillsOfficeBuildingmeeting.Thegroupwassmallandcomfortable,andwediscussedeverything from theMcMartincase toWaco tothe devastation inMarinCounty.We talked about theClintonAdministration,CIAcocaineandheroinops,PoppyBush’swidelyknownpedophilia,andmindcontrol.

“WeknowmindcontrolistheprimaryweaponsystemforusheringintheNewWorldOrder,”onetherapistadmitted.“Whatcanwedoaboutit?

How canwe treat the survivors filling our offices?What dowe dowith theirtestimonies?”

“It’s notwhat is remembered that is important,” Mark began. “It’s how it isrememberedthatcounts.Contentisirrelevantuntilafterthesurvivorsheal.Thenit’suptothemtochoosewhattheywanttodowiththeirknowledge.Yourjobissimple.Youdon’thavetobeaninvestigator,alawyer,ajudge,orjury.Allyou

needtodoisprovidethetoolsforhealing,andhelpthemdealwithrealityalongtheway.”

“Butrealityissohorrible!”anothertherapistsaid.HerwideeyesindicatedshewasmostlikelysufferingfromPTSD,aswasmosteveryoneelseintheroom.

“It can be if it is dealtwith emotionally,”Mark explained. “If it is dealtwithlogically, the emotionally incomprehensible becomes comprehensible andhealing occurs. Reality becomes easy to deal with. Encourage your clients towriteouttheirmemory.Theveryactofmovingapenrequiresthelogicportionof the brain, shifting compartmentalized memory over to logic as its beingwritten out. This way, a victim need not suffer abreaction by reliving theirexperience and re-traumatizing themselves. Nor do they traumatize you bytellingyouaboutit!ItappearstomethateachofyoucouldbenefitbyusingthismethodtodealwithrealityyourselvesandovercomePTSD.”

“Weknowwe’rePTSDed!”anothertherapistchimedin.“We’vediagnosedeachotherandheldourowngrouptherapy!”

“Grouptherapyisanotherpoint,”Marksaid.“DID/MPDsarehighlysuggestiblefromtrauma,andtheirmemoriesareeasilycontaminated.TheyneedtoshutofftheTV,putdownthebooks,andgowithintofindtheiranswersinordertowriteit out. Listening to other survivors only confuses and tangles their memorieswitheveryoneelse’s.”

A therapistwho agreed relayed a quick example. “I began one group therapyintroducingmyself as the therapist, and a client said, ‘My friend thought thebrochure said you were ‘the rapist’ and wouldn’t come.’ This literalinterpretationtookonalifeofit’sown,instantlyerodingtrustforme.Everyonepresentbegantalkingabout‘therapists’andthewholesessionwasdisastrous.”

Markchuckledinunderstanding.“WhyholdgrouptherapyanywaywheneachDID/MPDisagroupwithinthemselves?”

Everyone laughed. “Group therapy may be effective for some things,” Markcontinued,“butitiscounterproductivefordissociatives.”

“I attend group therapy three times aweek,” Sue said. “It’s comforting tome

knowingothersgothroughmorehellthanIdo.”

“Howcanyoucompareyourselftootherswhenyouhaven’trememberedwhatyou’vebeenthrough?”onetherapistaskedher.“Mostpeoplearetraumatizedbyhearingwhathappenedtoothers.”

“Enough so to PTSD,” another therapist added. “I’m going to start treatingmyself for PTSD using the methods Mark discussed. And group therapy fordissociatives is history in my office. No wonder it never produced positiveresults.IthoughtIwasdoingitwrong!”

“Has Mark determined if you’re a Project Monarch mind control victim?”someoneaskedSue.

“That is a leading question,” Mark cautioned. “Anyone who is highlysuggestible gravitates to such leading questions, which could result in falsememory.”

“Ineedtotalkwithyouaboutthat,”oneofthemoreprominenttherapistssaid.“The False Memory Foundation is a significant problem. They can destroyminds and lives faster than we can heal them. Look what happened with theMcMartincase.”

Everyone nodded in agreement. “Check the backgrounds of those whooriginatedthefoundationandyouwillfindmoreCIApedophilesthanyouwouldinaCatholicchurch,”avoiceemphaticallystated.

“ItdependswhichCatholicchurchyou’re referring to,”someonesaid,causinglaughtertolightenthesubject.

“Weallcouldloseourlicensebecauseofthiscover-uporganization,”atherapistsaid.“Wereallydoneedyouradvice.”

“Consider what I’ve already said,” Mark answered. “It’s not your job to beinvestigator,provideexpertcourttestimony,orbejudgeandjury.Aboveall,donotactlikeanattorneyandaskanyleadingquestionsever.Forexample,ratherthanask‘wasthatdaddyintheclownsuit2whorapedyou?’Ask,‘whowasin

the clown suit?’Rather thanask, ‘didhe touchyourprivateparts?’Ask ‘whathappened next?’ Never provide outside information or introduce terms like‘Project Monarch.’ Don’t ask for ‘names and ages’ of alters, it furthers thedissociativedivisions.Aboveall,neverask‘howdoesthatmakeyoufeel?’Theyweredissociatedfromemotionally‘feeling’then,andassociatingwithitnowismisleadingandcounterproductivetoreintegrationoftheirmemories.Ask‘whatdoyouthink?’Thisstopsabreactiondramatics.Sinceyourclientswillbewritingout memory anyway, your questions need not be spontaneous and will belimited.”

“Whatiftheyaskusthequestions?”onewomanwantedtoknow.“I’lluseSueasanexample,ifthat’sOKwithyou.”Suenodded.“SheaskeduswhatweknewaboutProjectMonarch.”

“Turnthequestionbackaround.Askherwhatsheknowsandhow she learnedit,”Markreplied.MarkturnedtoSue.“Howdidyoulearnaboutit?”

“Mytherapisthasdocuments…”shebegan.

“Wait.”Markput uphis hand to stopher, and turnedback to thegroup. “Hertherapist is obviously making a mistake right there sharing other people’sinformation and documents with her. If it is not information from the inside,‘forgetabout it’,”headvised,exemplifyingwithliteral terms.“Then,afteryoudealwithyourclient,researchitforyourself.Ifyouknowthetherapist,phonehimforcopiesofthedocumentsandtiphimtohiserror.Allyoutherapistsneedtouniteandre-educateeachother.TheFalseMemoryFoundationiscapitalizingon therapeutic error to discount all survivors’ testimony and cover up CIApedophiliccrime.”

“If we had known this during the McMartin case,” one therapist said, “thechildrenwould have been regarded as credible. Theyweren’t being asked thewrong questions; they were being asked the questions wrong. And the kidssuffered the consequences for therapeutic ignorance.What youhave taught ustodaymust be incorporated into educatingmental health professionals. I don’tknowwhytheydidn’tteachusinschool…”

“EwenCameron,”someoneinjected.“Dr.EwenCameron,founderoftheAPA,worked for theCIA inMKUltra and had cause to suppress this information!

Leave it to someone from the Intelligence community to reveal the truth hesuppressed.Considering thatwe’veallbeen trained toonlyaccept informationfromotherswithsimilareducationcredentials toours,we’re fortunate to learnthetruth.Thankyouforsharingwithus,Mark.We’llalluseourcredentialstospreadthewordamongstourcolleagues.”

Everyone nodded in agreement. AfterMarkmet privately with several of thetherapists,wedroveover to theofficeofSue’s therapist.HerprimaryconcernwaswiththeFalseMemoryFoundation,whowasthreateningherlicenseduetoSue’scase.“WhethertheyarecoveringupfortheCIAorifI’vedonesomethingwrong, eitherway I’ve done all I can for Sue.Maybe she needs to start overusingyourmethodsforhealing.”

Onthedrivebacktoherapartmentthatevening,SuestoppedataConvenienceMarketandboughtseveralnotebooksinwhichtowritememoriesaccordingtoMark’smethods.

Chapter36THANKSFORTHEFALSEMEMORIES

“Ineedafreshstart,”SuewastellingMark.“WiththemoneyIwasawardedinmydivorce, Icanafford to relocate. Iwant tobewhereyouare,writeoutmymemories,andheal.Rodistravelingbacktothestatestofinishhisbook,andhecanmeetmeinTennesseejustaseasyashecancomehere.I’llhelppaylivingexpenses up to $500 a month, which is a fraction of my cost to live in thisapartment. You could move out of your mother’s house and we’ll share anapartment.”

“CathyandIaregoingtotakeawalk,”Marktoldher.“I’llgiveyouananswerwhenwegetback.”

Wewalkedforhours.TheprosandconsofSue’sproposalwerecomplex.“WecouldmovetoAlabama,”Ibegan.

“ForGod’ssakewe’dhavetolivewithher,”Markcountered.Neitherofuslikedthatidea.Wekeptwalkingandthinking.

“She could heal, and stop being a professional ‘victim’ or ‘survivor’,” I said.“Through your wisdom, she could learn like I did that blaming others anddwellingon thepast isacopout to living.Maybeshewouldevenbecomeanassettosociety.”

“Sueiswhosheis,multipleornot,”Marksaid.“Reintegrated,shewillstillbeSueonlymorefocused.”

“Sincehermemoryiscontaminated,doyoubelieveshecanstillreintegrate?”Iasked.

“That’s the pertinent question,”Mark answered. “Iwas talkingwithDr.ColinRossof theISS&D1,andhewassaying that thebestway tocounter theFalse

MemoryFoundationistoinfiltratethemandhealthemfromtheinsideout,so-to-speak.Intheprocessofourconversation,ItoldhimaboutSueandraisedthequestion, ‘which isworse,beingavictimofabuse,avictimofbad therapy,orboth?’”Heseemstobelievethatisirrelevantwithapplicationofproperhealingtechniques.”

“You could prove that theory by encouraging her to heal by writing out hermemory.”

“Sheclaimsshehasbeenwritingouthermemories foryears,”Mark informedme.“Thejournalsshepresentedtometoreviewwerecomprisedoflinesfrommovies, books, and a half dozen old conspiracy stories that have circulatedaroundtherapists’offices.Shewouldneedtolearnhowtoaccuratelywriteoutmemoryfromwithinwithoutoutsideinput.Youtwowouldn’tbeabletodiscussyourvictimizations.”

“Sheshouldn’tvocalizewhileshe’swritinganyway,”Iremindedhim.“Iwon’thaveaproblemnottalkingwithher.”Ismiled.

“Ihearyou,”Marksaid.“That’swhatconcernsme.Whatpricewouldwepaytolive with her and help her heal? And heal from what? Linguistically hersubconscious language indicates she is role-playing a mind control victim todrawattention toadissociativedisorder.Sheeither isdeliberatelyperpetratingfraudorisindeedavictimoffalsememoriesfromhertherapists.”

“IfwegotoDCtotestifybeforeCongresslikewearesupposedtoinAugust,”Ipointedout,“maybewe’llbesofocusedonthatitwon’tmatter.”

“Thisiswhatwehadhopedfor,inaway,”Markthoughtaloud.“Whydoesthisopendoorlooklikeabrickwall?”Tearssliddownhisface.“I’drathershareahomewith justyou. I’ve looked forward to thatever sincewemoved intomymother’s.”

AsIwipedthetearsfromhischeeks,theybeganslidingdownmine.“Me,too,”Iadmitted.“Maybethisisasteppingstone.”

“Or a stumbling block,” Mark replied. We sat down on the curb under astreetlightand thought itover,dreading thedecision that seemed toalreadybe

made.

SueleasedanSUVsportsutilityvehicletopullasmalltrailerover2000milestoTennessee,andhandedMarkthekeys.Thedriveacrosscountryseemedtotakean eternity, despiteSuequietlywritingmostof theway.While I gaveMark abreakanddroveawhile,helookedoverSue’srecentjournaling.

“Thisreadslikeafantasystory,”Marktoldher.

“You’relookingatcontent,”Sueaccused.

“No,” Mark countered, “I’m referring to how you’ve written this. What youwriteoutisforyourbenefitonly.Itisnotwrittentobereadbyothers.

Actualdeprogramming looksmore like…”Mark lookedaroundforoneofmyever-present notebooks. Turning to me he asked, “May I show Sue whatdeprogramminglookslike?”

“Ofcourse,”Ianswered.“Mynotebookisinthebackseat.”

Mark retrieved it and randomlyopened it. “Seehowdisjointed this is?”Markaskedher,pointingtothesidenotes,variedhandwritingfromdifferentpersonas,incompletethoughts,andnotesofintrusivememoryflashes.“Itisnotwrittenforanyonetoread,butrathertopulldowncompartmentalizedbarriersinthebrain.By writing out memory this way, you’ll regain access to all of your mind atonce.”

“Ineverfillintheblankswithwhat‘might’havehappenedinorderforittoreadsmoothly,”Ielaborated.“Eventually,thepicturecomestogethermuchthewayajigsawpuzzledoes.Byaskingmyselfquestions like ‘howdid Iget there’ and‘wheredid I go afterwards’, I gainmorepieces and eventually thememory iscomplete. It is important to write out one memory compartment, or onepersonas’memory,andthenexpandtheinsight.”

BythetimewearrivedbackinNashville,Suewasactuallywritingoutmemory.ShecontinuedwritingwhileMarkandIpackedupourfewbelongingsforourmove to Alabama. We kenneled our red Chow guard dog, Tong, our two

remainingpet raccoonsTycoon2andMarty,andourhugewhitewolfdogwhorecentlyhadadoptedus,andputtheminthePacer.Thenwecaravannedvehiclesfor the short journey to the tiny, two bedroom house we had located on theoutskirts of Huntsville. The quasi-rural neighborhood would be ideal formemoryrecovery,whilethelackofbigcitydistractionswouldallowforinwardfocus.

Mark and I used the house’s tiny office for compiling the documents andpaperwork we would need to testify before Congress in August. When thePermanentSelectCommitteeofIntelligenceOversightofficiallypostponedourtestimony until the next spring, Mark and I shifted our focus to generatingincomeinstead.Sue’scontributiontohouseholdexpensesrarelycoveredtherentandutilities,whichleftnoextracashforfueltotraveltoseeKellyinMemphis.Nordidwehavecashforgroceries.Sue’spersonalwealthwasextravagant,yetthegourmetfoodsshestoredinourrefrigeratorwereofflimitstous.Whenherconstant additions to her wardrobe overfilled her closets, there was plenty ofroominours.

Mark and I were resourceful, and together we began repairing andreconditioningoldmotorcyclesforresale.TherewasnothingMarkcouldn’tfix,anditexercisedmybrainjusttoworkbesidehim.Weenjoyedworkingtogetherasmuch as playing together, and thismeans of generating enough income tosustain uswas a pleasure. I knew therewas no limit to the amount ofmoneyMark could make under normal circumstances, but our situation was not yetconducivetoroutineliving.

One time when we went to visit Kelly, another child had asked her why wedidn’t bring her presents. Kelly quickly replied, “My parents are too busymakingadifferencetomakeabuck.”Indeed,that’sexactlywhatweweredoing.

OccasionallySueand Iwould take abreak fromwork toplay tennis together.Competitivesportswerenotmyinterest,butIenjoyedthephysicalchallengeoftennis.Afterplaying forhoursonehotafternoon,wesatdown in theshade todrinkourwater.IrelayedastorytoSueaboutatennistournamentI’dbeenin.“While Alex Houston played golf in the annual Charlie Pride Pro-Am GolfTournament in Albuquerque, New Mexico, I joined the ladies for a tennistournament.Mypartner3and Imade itall theway to thechampionship finals.Weendedupinsecondplaceafteratwo-hourplayoffbecausewewerelaughing

sohardatouropponents.Theywereangryanddisgustedwithusforlaughing,andthemaddertheygotthemorewelaughed.”

“That’snotfunny,”Suesaid.

“Itwasfunnybecausethewatercoolerswerefilledwithbeer,andneitherofusdrankbeer,”Itoldher.“ButtheAlbuquerqueafternoonsunwassohot,andwewere so thirsty we drank some. It went straight to our heads and cost us thetournament.Havingsuchagoodtimemeantfarmorethananytrophyevercouldhave.”

“Didn’ttheyhavecoke?”sheasked.

“Only thecocainevariety,” Ianswered.Frommyexperience,CIAcocaineopswerewhatCharliePride4’s tournamentswere really all about.Part of the cashgeneratedwaslaunderedthroughhisbankinDallas,Texas.PridewastiedintothesameSavingsandLoanscandalsthatNeilBush5hadbeencaught in.EvenBushJr.’sbaseball“bud”NolanRyan6ownedabankassociatedwithCIAblackops.Additionally,thedrugrunningIwasinvolvedwithwaschanneledthroughAlbuquerque’sLADodgerbaseballtrainingcampandprofitslaunderedthroughlocal Catholic charities. Charlie Pride’s annual Pro-Am Golf Tournamentscovered it all.With respect to Sue’smode of heightened suggestibility, I keptthesedetailstomyself.

“Iwonatennistournamentonce,”Suetoldme.“Reaganmetmeafterwardsandaccessedmysexprogramming.”

“Didyouwritethisout?”Iasked,concernedwithSuevoicingpossiblememory.

“Ofcourse,”sheassuredme.“Reaganboughtmedrinksanddinner,andthenwetookalongromanticwalkonthebeach.”

“Whydidyougettoeatanddrinkwhileundermindcontrol?”Iasked.Iknewthatthreedaysofsleep,food,andwaterdeprivationwereanintegralpartofMKUltratraumabasedmindcontrol,especiallybeforebeingprostitutedtothelikesofReagan.

“Whydidyougettodrinkatthetennistournament?”Shecountered.

“Becausewehadbeenthereforaweek,andthiswasthelastday,”Ianswered.“Iwasn’t programmed for the tennis tournament,Houston justwantedmeout ofthewayforawhile.”

“Well,”Suesaiddefensively,“Ican’thelpitifReagandidn’tlikeyouandthathewasinlovewithme.”

Whenwereturnedhome,ItoldMarkabouttheconversation.“Ididn’tmeantobetherapeuticallyincorrectopeningupconversation,”Itoldhim.“AndIdidn’tknowhowtorespondtowhatshewassaying.”

“Reagandoesn’tloveyou,”Markteased.“Howdoesthatmakeyoufeel?”

“Betweenthetorturesandtraumas,”I laughed,“Idon’t thinkReaganlikedmeanybetterthanCheneyorBushdid.WhydoesSuesaythingslikethat?”

“Ego,”Markanswered.

“Whatisthat?”Iwondered.Myownegohadbeenshatteredbeforeitdeveloped,leavingmetofindmytrueidentityatsoullevelafterI’ddeprogrammed.

“Perceptionofself,”Marksimplydefined.

“Perceptionofselfbasedonsocialengineeringandwhatotherssay?”Iasked.Itseemedthategowasoutsideofselfwhiletrue-to-soulidentitywaswithin.

“Sue’smassiveegomakesitdifficultforhertohealcompletely,”Marktoldme.“Itisachallengeforhertodeprogramwhensheisconstantlycomparingherselftoothers.I’llhaveatalkwithheraboutthisagaintonight.”

LaterthateveningwhenMarkbroughtuptheconversation,Suedemanded,“Tellmethecomponentsofmindcontrol,then.”

“Youneed to remember foryourself,”Markencouragedher, just incase therewassomeremotepossibilitythatshehadbeenexposedtomindcontrol.

“I have a degree in psychology,” Sue reminded him. “I have a right to thisinformation. Besides, Rod needs it for his book so he can include accurateinformationonmindcontrol.”

“I’ve already talked about this with Rod by phone,”Mark told her. “And heagreednottodiscussitwithyouuntilafteryoureintegrate.”

Suestompedtoherroomandslammedherdoor.Overthenextfewweeks,shecontinuedtoreintegrateandhealfromincestdespiteherself.Rodcametovisitasplanned,andexpressedmoreexcitementoverSue’shealingprocessthanshedid.

“Thisisabsolutelyremarkable!”heexclaimed.“Icanseeshehasfusedandmayevenbereintegratedbythetimemybookcomesout!”Rodwasinthefinaleditstagesofhisnovelonmindcontrol,andaskedMark forhis input.Theyspenthoursgoingover themanuscript,whichprovidedMarkaprimeopportunity togiveRodcopingskillsfor thechildhoodabusehehadendured.Rod’s trustforMarkwasaspureashiscommitmenttohelpingothers.

One evening we were all gathered around the dining room table celebratingRod’scompletionofhisbook.

“How‘boutabeer?”Markoffered,peeringintotherefrigerator.

Roddeclined.“Nothankyou.I’mhighonlife.”

Marklaughed.“IusedtogethighonlifebutIbuiltupatolerance.”

Wealllaughed,enjoyingRod’slastnightinAlabama.Suewassolemn,however.“Youallactasthoughyoubelieveyoucanchangetheworld,”sheaccused.

“ActuallyI’dratherjustmakeadifference,”Irepliedlightly.“Isn’tthatwhatlifeisfor?Tomakeapositivedifference?”

“I’dwanttomakesomekindofcontributiontohumanity,”Rodsaid,“evenifIhadneverheardofmindcontrol.”

“It’s not so easy turning the negative of mind control into a positive,”Markagreed.“Raisingawarenessdoesmakeadifference,though.”

“Sincemyexperiencewasonlyincest,”Suecomplained,“IguessIhavenothingtocontribute.”

“Sue,”Rodremindedher.“Youhealed.Youhavefusedandareonyourwaytototal recovery.You livewith two of the finest people on the planet, and havecontributedtomybookthroughyourexperience.”

“Iwantmynameonthecoverthen,”Suedemanded.

“OK,”Rodtoldher.“I’lltellyouwhat.Ifyou’lldothelegworkongettingthisbookprintedandpayhalftheprintingcost,youcanaddyournametothecover.”

Suebrightened,excitedattheprospects.“Really?”sheasked.“MynamecanbeonthecoverofStarshine?”

“Right aftermine,”Rod smiled. “You’ve got themanuscript right here.Whenyousolidifyadealtohaveitprinted,I’llwireyouhalfthemoney.”

ThedayafterRodreturnedtoHawaii,Suewassittingatthekitchentableaskingwhataliassheshoulduseonthebook.“Whynotuseyourrealname?”Iasked,notcomprehendingwhysomeonewhohadsufferedfromadissociativeidentitydisorderwouldwanttocreateanewidentity.

“Forlegalreasons,”sheresponded.“’BriceTaylor’soundslikearealname.”Itnever occurred toMark,me, orRod that Suewould eventually removeRod’sname from his book entirely, ironically change the title to “Thanks for theMemories,” and keep all the sales profits. Sue’s connivingmeans were morefocusedthanevernowthatshewasreintegrated.

“Youwereright!”I toldMark.“Beforeyoustartedworkingwithher,yousaidthat ‘Sue iswho she is, and reintegrated shewould still beSue only bemorefocused!’”

“IreallywishIwasn’trightasoftenasIam,”Marksaid.

“Butthisisimportantinformationformentalhealthprofessionalsjustthesame,”I said, still excited. “For one, a person can heal from falsememories; and fortwo, all multiples are not nice when they do heal. Why do you think she isstealingRod’sbook?”

“Iwanttoknowwhysheiscreatinganewidentityforherself,”Markanswered.

Oneafternoonafterplayingaroundoftennis,SueandIweretalkingundertheshadetree.“IknewMichaelJackson,”shetoldme.

ConsideringthatshewasfromSouthernCalifornia, thatseemedviableenoughuntilsheadded,“Ihadsexwithhimallthetime.”

“Sue,” I reminded her, “Michael Jackson was busted for pedophilia lastDecember.”

“Ifhewasapedophile,hewouldbeinprison,”shestated.

“It’s sad that his reputed MK Ultra mind control victimization has beenoverlooked by the press,” I responded. “I really thought mind control wouldpenetratemediacensorshipthistime,andstillcover-upsurpassedjustice.Marksaysthe‘glovedone’isahugecashcowthattheyhaven’tfinishedmilkingintopoverty.Hereallyneedstobestoppednowforhissakeandthechildren’ssake.Understandinghiscircumstanceswouldmakeaworldofdifference.”

AmongthoseMarkandInetworkedwith,ElizabethTaylorwashighlyrespectedforherquietactivismagainstmindcontrol.ItwasnosurprisewhenshewhiskedMichael off to a highly specialized hospital in the UK to have himdeprogrammed.Themediaspotlightwasstillonhimforhisblatantpedophilicactions, however, and the CIA could not allow for the press to discover thecausation. LaToya had already been silenced, and therewould be no limits tohowfar thegovernmentwouldgo tocover thisup.WhenMark receiveda tipfromanIntelligencecontacttowatchatelevisedbroadcastat3AM,wetunedin.Elizabeth Taylor’s press agent was raising public awareness to his and Ms.Taylor’s plight. Their lives were on the line since the CIA had stormed herresidence and physically extracted Michael Jackson before he could bedeprogrammed.Onceagainmindcontrolwascoveredupatallcosts.

“Mindcontrolistheperfectdefenseforanycrime,”Suespeculated,smiling.

I shuddered at the look in her eye. “When someone gains awareness whilehealing from any level of dissociation, they become responsible for theiractions.”

IpackedupourtennisequipmentanddrovebacktothehousetotellMarkwhathadtranspired.HewasasappalledasIwas.“SheplanstoreleaseRod’sfictionbookasherrealitysoshecanusemindcontrolasadefenseagainstanycrime.”

“Mindcontrolisnotadefense,”Marksaid.“It’safactor.”

“Againstwhat?”Iwondered.StealingRod’sbook?Wedidn’twait to findout,andaskedhertoleaveimmediately.

Chapter37TRUTHMAKESU.S.FREE

Oneeveningwereceivedaphonecall fromour friend inAlaska.“There isanherbal teaon themarket thatmayactuallyhealyourdigestion,”heannouncedexcitedly.“Itrevivesintestinalaction,bringingitbacktolife.”Mytummystillgavemedifficultiesattimes,andIwaseagertotrythistea.“Itispricey,soI’llhavemysisterbringsometoyousinceshelivesnearbyanyway,”heassuredus.Sure enough, she brought me a ‘lifetime’ supply of the tea, which workedwondersformyhealth.Thesetwowiseandthoughtfulfriendstouchedourlivesinmanyways.

Theyintroducedustotheircircleoffriends,whichseemedtoinfinitelyexpandlikeripplesinapond,encompassinggoodol’boysandpoliticalactivistsallthewaythroughStateandNationalpolitics. Itwashealingformetoencountersomany aware people on so many social levels who were actively making apositivedifferencewiththeirknowledge.EveryoneImetwithoutexceptionheldthesetwoinhighestesteemandrespect.AmongthosewemetwasanattorneybythenameofLarryBecraft.Becraftwasprimarilyfocusedontaxissues1,yetprovidedinvaluableinsightandadviceonoursituation.

LarryBecraftisanambitious,tall,handsomemanwithapowerfulpresenceandbooming voice. Never have I heard anyone speak so forcefully to say thegentlest,wisestthings.BecraftstrodeallthewayacrosshisHuntsvilleofficeintwogiantsteps,exercisinghisagilitytomaneuverthroughstrategicallyscatteredstacksofpapersandlegaldocumentstoclearoffafewchairs.

“Haveaseat,”heboomed,flashinghisboyishsmile.Iwatchedhimlikeabugunderglass,curioushowanyattorneycouldpossiblybeclean.LarryBecraftwashighlyrespectedandwidelyknown,andheandMarkgotalongasthoughthey’dbeenfriendsforyears.

“How‘boutacupofcoffee?”heoffered,searchingunderneathapileofpapers.I

suspected he was searching for the coffeemaker and declined. “Ah hah!” heboomed,pleasedwithhisdiscoveryofanashtray.Hepromptlylitadeliciouslyfragrantcigar,offeringonetoMark.“Thisclutterisorganized,”heexplained.“Idon’thaveasecretaryoraseparateroomforfilingallthesepaperswhileIworkon them, nor do I have the time to properly presentmyself as a conventionalattorney.” Becraft’s unpretentiousness was appealing. His long legs stretchedcomfortablyoutinfrontofhimwhilehistoeswiggledfreeinapairofsandals.

“Iappreciateyoutakingthetimetomeetwithustoday,”Markassuredhim.

“I’mglad for the break, actually,”Becraft said. “Ever since I set precedent inthat groundbreaking tax case against theFeds, I’vehadmore cases than I canjuggle.”

“It looks like you’re in the same position we are,” Mark told him, lookingaroundattheobviouslackoffunding.“Peoplewakeupwhenthey’rehitinthepocketbook,sobythetimetheyturntoyouormeforhelp,they’rebroke.”

Becraftflashedthatsmileagain.What judgecouldpossiblyresist thatwinningsmile?“Wearen’tawardedcashwhenwewinacase,either,”heelaborated.“Wejustkeep theFedsfromhelping themselves tomoreofourmoney. It’shard tomakeendsmeetundercircumstanceslikethese,butasyouknow,successisn’talwaysmeasuredindollars.Someday,someonewithmoneywillcomealongandempowerustoaccomplishevenmoreforthepeopleofthiscountry.”

“We just received noticed that our testimony before Congress has beenpostponedagain,”Mark toldhim.“WithBudCramer2on theOversightpanel,we’veprobablybeenpostponedindefinitely.”

“Youneed tobeprepared for that contingency,”Becraft advised. “Compileallthat information youwere prepared to present toCongress and put it in bookform.”

“We’renotauthors,”Markprotested.

“This isn’t about writing a book,” he wisely explained, “it’s about havingpertinentinformationreadytoreleaseenmasse.”

“With certain members of Congress censored from hearing it for ‘reasons ofnationalsecurity,’howcanwereleaseittothepublic?”

“This country needs positive change through public awareness,” Becraftanswered.“Congressobviously isn’tgoing tomake thenecessarychanges,butthepeoplewill.Everyday theyarewakingupandgainingapointof referencefor understandingwhat you andCathy have to say. This case should be triedbeforethecourtofpublicopinionanywaysoitsnotjustallsweptundertherug.”

Becraft paused aminute, thinking. Then he lifted a corner of the Turkish rugcovering thewooden floor of his office and extracted ahandful of papers.Hesmiled and laid them on a stack near his desk. “I knew I’d find those,” hemutteredbeforecontinuing.“Footnoteandreferenceasmanyfactsasyoucan.”

“Look, Larry,”Mark told him. “That won’t be so easy. For one, most of theinformationCathyhasreportedisstillclassified.”

“Shehasn’ttakenanoathofsecrecy,”hecountered.“A‘Rite-to-Remain-Silent’programdoes not constitute an oath.Lawsof sedition donot bindher. If youcan’tprovethefactsasright,letresearcherstrytoprovethemwrong.Ialreadyknowtheycan’tfindfaultwithherfacts.”

“Datesandtimesaremostlikelyoffabit,though,”Markargued.“Sinceshehadnoconceptof timeandconsequentlyno senseofdistanceundermindcontrol,certaindatesandplacesstillneedvalidatingthroughlegitimateinvestigation.WeintendedtopointthatoutwhenwepresentedthefactstoCongress.”

“So tell the people that,” he said. “The facts can all be validated throughexpandedthinkingandconcernfortruth.Thepointispeopleneedtoknowaboutmindcontrol.Theyneedtoknowwhatishappeningtothiscountry’seducation,mental health, and justice systems. They need to know what the NewWorldOrder agenda is about before NAFTA makes economic slaves of all of us.Armedwithtruth,thereisnowaytolose.”

Marknoddedinagreement.“Truthismightierthanthesword.”

“Andgranddad’ssquirrelgun,”headded.“Themilitiasneedtoknowwhattheyareupagainstinordertobeaseffectiveasthiscountryneedsthemtobe.”

“Granddad’ssquirrelgunisnomatchforDARPA,”Markagreed.“Squirrelgunsinthehandsofpotentially200millionpeoplehavetheFedssweating,though.”

Becraftsmiled.“Theywon’tbeabletodisarmthiscountry.Therearetoomanypeoplealreadyawake,aware,andarmed.”

“If the latest TV polls tell the people they are disarmed, they might blindlyfollowit,”Markspeculated.“Peoplearewhatthey’retold,andtheylovetobetoldwhat themajority isdoingso theycandoit too.It’sasociallyengineeredherdmentality.”

“Followtheleader,”Becraftnodded,settingdownhiscigar.“Onlytheleaderisanillusion.Alie.I’mtellingyou,weneedtogetthetruthoutthere.”

“Whenthepeoplelead,leadersfollow,”Iquipped.

“Thepeoplebettergettoleading,”Markadded,standinguptoleave.

“Getthatbookout,”Becraftsaid.

Onthewayhome,wediscussedBecraft’sadvice.Commentingonhischaracterwasfirst,though.

“I’ve never seen an attorney with true-to-soul projection,” I toldMark as hestartedthedrivebackhome.“Heispurelyunpretentious.”

“I’veneverseenonesointelligent,”Marksaid.“Andwise.RatherthanperceiveLarryBecraftasanattorney,Iseehimasastrongmanwithintegrityandafinesenseofjustice.”

“Andabrilliantmind,”Iadded.

“Hisintelligenceisoffthescale,”Markagreed.“Thatmustbehowhecanstaysocleanswimminginapoolofscumbagattorneys.He’sdefinitelyunique,andIsureamgladtohavelegaladviceIcantrust.”

“Sohowdowewritethisbook?”Iasked.

“Like he said, we’ll write it from the documents and deprogramming notes,”Mark reiterated. “We’ll pick and choose pertinent validated facts according towhatwillbestgivepeopleaclearunderstandingofmindcontrol.Knowledgeisour only defense against it, sowewillmake sure the knowledgewe share iscomprehensive.”

Wedroveinsilence,thinkingthroughthetaskathand.

Finally, I said, “We need to know the pulse of the nation, what it is that iswakingfolksupandwhy.”

“Radioisanexcellentmediumfordeterminingthat,”Markremindedme.“Itisaresurrected technological artifact whose time has gone and come again. Nowradiohasfastbecomethevoiceofthepeople.3”

“Maybe by speaking out on some of these radio shows, taking questions, andgettingfeedbackwe’llhaveabetterfeelforthepulseofthenation,”Iventured.“Through networking like we have, we already know key issues with whichpeopleareconcerned.”

“LikeGlobalEducation?”Markelaborated.

“Exactly,” I responded. “We know many people are home schooling theirchildren since the education system is failing so miserably in the areas ofapplicableintelligenceandmorality.”

“Weknowhundredsofkids aremissingor arebeing returned to abusersby afailed justice system,” Mark continued. “We know militias are gatheringstrength, thatpeoplerefusetopaytaxestoagovernmentthatdoesn’trepresentthem,andthattheCIAhastakentheirdrugwartoourstreets.Plusvideogamesarecreatingviolencethesamewaytheyerodecriticalanalysisforcombatinthemilitary.Theseareallpointsofreferencemanypeoplearegaining.”

“PeopleseemtobeawareoftheMasonicconnection,”Icommented.

“Weshouldbecarefulwiththat,”Markwarned.“MostMasonsdon’tevenknowwhatisgoingonuntiltheygethigherupintheorganization.”

“Like33rddegree?”Iasked,notreallyunderstandingthelevelsofFreeMasonryIwasexposedtothroughoutmyMKUltravictimization.“Byrdwas33rddegree.SowasReagan.”

“Even that isn’t soblackandwhite,”Markelaborated.“Byrdclimbedhiswayup, andReaganwas given an honorary degree through the global elite.Eitherway,the33rddegreeisgrantedasanhonorratherthanearned.”

“What aboutTraficant?” I asked. “Iknowhe is aMason,onlyhe’s connectedinto theOrderof theRosebranch.Andhe’snot even a Jesuit that I knowof.WhataboutVanderJagtandFord?Theywerepartofmygrandpa’sMasonicBlueLodgeinMichiganthat launchedmeintoMKUltra.I’mnotreallysurewheretheOrderoftheRoseandFreeMasonryconverge.EspeciallysincetheCatholicspretendtoopposeMasons.”

“CatholicsopposeMasonsthesamewaytheyopposesatanism,”Markobserved.“The faction ofCatholics youwere exposed to need the negatives to create aneedfortheirsolutionsandvisaversa.”

Talkingabout it seemed tobeclarifying theconfusion.“TheMormons Iknewwere exactly the same way! The only secret society I know of that spannedMormons,Catholics,CIA,Jesuits,andMasonswastheOrderoftheRose.”

“Thatwouldbeyouranswerthen.”

“ButpeopleonlyhaveapointofreferenceforMasons,”Icomplained.“OrfortheIlluminati,whichIneverevenhearddiscussedaroundDC.HowwillpeopleknowwhatI’mtalkingaboutwhenIsay‘OrderoftheRose’?”

“People absolutely must expand their knowledge,” Mark pointed out. “Theyneedtothinkout-of-the-box.”

“TheTVbox?”

“No,” Mark chuckled. “Well, yes, that too. I was referring to the box socialengineering has locked them into. In order for them to effectively combat theinvisiblemenacethathaspermeatedsociety, theyneedto learntorecognizeit.

Labels don’t get it.Even aswe are speaking, youqualify ‘Catholics’ and ‘theCatholicsyouwereexposedto.’We’vetalkedaboutvariouslevelsofMasonry.Peoplewanttopointatonecertaingroupbecausethey’vebecomelazyintheirthinking. To realize it is more than just one group, and that the individualscomprising thegroupshavevarious levelsofknowledgeand involvement,andthatthoseindividualsareallontheirownlearningpathandmayexpandoutoftheircurrentNeed-to-Know,takesabitmorethoughtthansomepeoplecanthinktogive.”

“Peopleneeddiscernment,”Iagreed.“Theyneedspiritualevolutionbeforetheyinciterevolution.Howarewegoingtoexplainthisinthebook?”

“Wewon’t,”Markanswered.“We’llgive them theabsolute factsand let themfigure itout.WiththemeteoricalriseofNSA’sinternet theycannowinstantlylooksuchinformationupforthemselves.”

I gulped. Could people wake up in time? Could they gather their strength ofspirit?“Wisdomoutthinksacriminalmindeverytime,”Iventured.

“Truthmakesu.sfree,”Marksaid, turningontothecountyroadleadingtoourhouse.“Let’sarmthemwithtruthandwe’llhavedoneallwecan.”

Chapter38PULSEOFTHENATION

Key people were being murdered by the Clinton Administration at such analarming rate that the term “suicided” evolved into “Arkacided.” Arkansas,Clinton’shomestate,waslitteredinbodiesandawashinthebloodofbothBill’sandHillary’sassociates.WhentheClintonstookofficeintheWhiteHouse,thewar zone that always accompanied them extended to DC. An infamousdocumentknownasthe‘ClintonHitList’begantocirculateamongthepeopleoftheUnitedStates.Lawenforcementwasforcedintoprotectingacorruptsystemrather than the people, and the corporate controlled media was cowering tocensorship. Citizens quickly learned to inform and protect themselves whilemilitias organized and grew in an effort to meet the escalating needs of thepeople.

BillClinton’sMenaAirportdrugoperation spawnedmoredeaths than just theinfamousmurderofdrugdealerBarrySeal1.Twoteenageboys,KevinIvesandDon Henry, were murdered after apparently stumbling onto the Mena drugoperation2.TheirremainswerefoundontherailroadtracksinaccordancewithWayneCox’sm.o.3Atleastsixpeopleinvestigatingorattemptingtoexposethishorrendous crime were murdered, still in accordance with Cox’s m.o.4 I hadalreadyreportedtolawenforcementthatIhadwitnessedCoxmurderingpeopleonthesamepivotalstretchofrailroadtracksinthecourseofBillClinton’sMenaCIA drug ops. At great risk to his life, ArkansasDeputy Sheriff John Brownconfirmed those murders and more around Mena. Few survived the Menamassacresuntilpertinentdocumentationcirculatedamongthepeople5thankstotheeffortsofconcernedcivilservantslikeJohnBrown.Sincethen,JohnBrownhasbecomeanelectedSheriff.

Clintoncorruptionemanating fromArkansas stunksobad thatan IndependentCouncilwasformedtoinvestigatethecriminalactivity.

WhilemostUScitizenssoughttoarmthemselveswithtruth,somefelthopeless

and became desperate. August 13, 1994, a small Cessna airplane deliberatelyslammed into theWhiteHouse. Subsequently, theAmerican people lostmorerights. Patriot rallies were growing in numbers and frequency, including keygatheringssuchastheBranchDavidianmemorialinWacothatwasintendedtobe an annual event. “WeWant This CountryBack6” and “Just SayNo to theN.W.O.”werecriesthatresoundedacrossthecountry,yetthevoiceofthepeoplewasreplacedinthemediabyDARPAgeneratedsocialengineeringpropaganda.

Bloodflowedfromthepulseofthenation,andonlytruthcouldhealthewound.Mark and I obtained a computer that was little more than an electronictypewriter,andbeganwritingourfirstdraftofTRANCEFormationofAmericaaccordingtoBecraft’ssuggestion.Rarelydidwetakeabreakfromthistask,aswefeltastrongneedandurgencytocontributewhatweknewtohumanity.Todo anything lesswouldmake us a part of the problem rather than part of thesolution.Ourchoicewasclear.

Meanwhile, I received a letter frommy court appointed attorney Jean CroweSeptember16,1994.AbbottJordan’srecommendationstohaveKellytransferredtothebesttherapy7 inthecountryresultedindisputefromherabusers.ACCT,theoversightgroupwhohad transferredKelly toCharterLakesideandAbbottJordan’scare,intervenedonyetanotherplacementforKelly.Thistimeshewastransferred to a Christian based institution in Knoxville, Tennessee calledJabneel.JabneelwascloserinproximitytoournewresidenceinAlabama,yetIwas distraught over Kelly’s being transferred from Abbott Jordan’s care.Admittedly he had accomplished all he could with Kelly without necessarysupportivetechnologicalremedies,yethiscompassionandunderstandingprovedinvaluable. Nevertheless, Kelly was transferred and Mark and I immediatelywenttoseeherandtomeetwithhernewcaregivers.

Thewarmth,compassion,andkindnesswithwhichweweremetatJabneelwereencouraging. Children were the focus of Jabneel’s staff rather than federalfunding,whichmeanttheycouldnoteasilybethreatened,bribed,orcoercedintocover-up. Kelly was devastated that she had not been returned to her lovingfamily andwas still in a holdingpattern.Shewas ready for positiveprogress,andJabneellookedlikemoreofthesametoher.Wewalkedoutsidetotalk.

“Wecantalkfree!”Iexclaimed,whileMarktendedtostaffinside.“Idon’tknowwhothesepeopleare,buttheyobviouslycareaboutyouandourfamilyunity.”

Suddenly, Kelly looked up and brightened. “A horse!” she exclaimed, slowlymoving toward the fence that separated her from the stallion. The stallionprickeduphisearsandhiseyes softenedashewalked towardher.TheHorseWhisperer8 had yet to be published, and Monty Roberts9 was relativelyunknown.YetKelly’s ability to communicatewith animals, especially horses,wasanatural.Allittakesistrue-to-soulhumility10,andKelly’swasevident.

Shelookedatme,hereyesdancing.NowordswereexchangedsincesheandIdidnotrequirethemforcommunicationanymorethansheandthestalliondid.She slipped under the fence to tenderly caress her new friend. The stallionappeared tobe as pleased as shewas. “Maybe thiswon’t be such abadplaceafterall,”Kellyannouncedwhenshecrawledbackunderthefence.

BythetimeMarkandIleftJabneel,wefeltconfidentthatKellywouldbecaredfor.Thiswassmallconsolationfornotraisingherourselvesinourlovingcare,yetithelpedallofustodealwiththeadversecircumstances.

WeresumedwritingasquicklyaswearrivedbackinAlabama.Progressseemedslowsincewewereeager to release the truthswewereprivy to.Theneed forinformationcontinuedtoescalatewhileAmericawasbeingscrutinizedgloballyforit’scorporatedrivenpoliticalcriminalcorruptionthatwasoozingaroundtheglobe.

Thewarring and economic hazards that had been generated for decades sinceJohnF.Kennedywasassassinatedparalleledtheadverseenvironmentalimpact.BushSr.’snoncompliance11withthe1992EarthSummitinBrazillefttherestoftheworldastoundedbyUSapathy,whileHAARPandglobalwarmingremainedunchecked.Tideswereturning,glaciersweremelting,rainforestswereburning,ocean reefswere dying, stormswere raging, and thatwas only the beginning.TheClinton

Administrationwasnothelpingtosavetheplaneteither.SenatorByrd’s“CleanAirandWaterAct”continuedtolinehispocketswithpayoffswhilecorporationspolluted both air andwater, and environmentalistswere portrayed asmoronicterroristsbythemedia.

Spooks from around the world began contacting us. Mark’s reputation as ameasuringstickforwhoishonest,whoiscorrupt,andwhoisaninfiltraitornow

extendedoutofthecountry.Hisintegrityandtenacitywereinfinite,earninghimtherespectofallwhoknewhim.“You’vebecomeanurbanlegend,”aspooktoldhim. “At a time when the rest of the world needs to see an American heroemergefromitsashes,youriselikeaphoenix.”

Markwasneveronetoadheretosuchimages.Hewastoobusy.Whenhebegantofeeltheweightoftheworldonhisshoulders,heturnedtoarespectedfriendandmentor.“We’vegottogotoDC,”hetoldme.

Igulped,butdidnotquestionhisdecision.HecertainlyknewtheprosandconsofourtravelingintoWashington,DC.NotonlyhadIsurvivedmypreconceivedterroronourfirst trip intoHuntsville,Alabama,wenowlivedthere inrelativesafety.Besides,IconsoledmyselfthatwewouldgettoseeKellyinKnoxvilleonthewaybackfromDC.

ItwasearlyDecemberwhenwedroveuptoColonelFletcherProuty’smansionintheDCsuburbofAlexandria,Virginiaandknockedonthedoor.Noanswer.“He’sexpectingus,”Marktoldme.“YoustayhereandI’llgoaroundfrontandringthebell.”Iwaited,assumingMarkhadrousedhim.Afewminuteslater,IheardhimapproachthedoorwhereIstood.Heswungitopen,warmlyinvitingmeintojoinhimandMark.

Igaspedandnearlyfellbackdownthesteps.FletcherProutylookedamused,thecornersofhismouthturningupanddisappearinginhiswise,wrinkledface.Hiseyestwinkledbright,flashingwhitelightlikealaserpenetratingmybeing.Hisenergy was more powerful than any I have ever encountered, and it was anenergyofpurelove.Again,heinvitedmein.Ifoundmyfootingthistime,andgratefullywentinside.

FletcherProuty’s sitting roomwasanelaborate libraryofhighlypolished rosewood, with books stacked haphazardly everywhere. Obviously his personallibrarywaswell used and not intended for ornamental display. “Iwant to seeTRANCEinmylibrarysoon,”hetoldus,motioningusintoeasychairs.Marksatacrossfromhimwheretheycouldlookeachotherintheeyeastheytalked,soclosethatIcouldnothearawordfromwhereIsat.DidCol.Proutyknowmyhearingwasdefective?Itwasaprofoundprivilege,regardless,justtositinthesameroomwhilethesetwowisespooksconversed.Apparentlytheykneweachotherwell.Astheirconversationbecameanimated,Istillcouldn’thearathing

andsmiledtomyself.UndoubtedlyFletcherProutydidknowthis,andhadheldprivateconversations in frontofothersbefore.Hewasa spook’s spook, and IfeltasthoughIhadjustenteredaRobertLudlum12novel.

Hestoodup,movingwiththekindoffluidblurofagilitythatonlymartialartistsknew,andpickedupabookfromhisdesk.Hepulledapenfromhispocketandwroteinthebook,handingittomewithasmile.“ThankGodyousurvived,”hesaid,andsatbackdowntotalkfurtherwithMark.

Ilookedatthecoverofhisbook.Iread:TheSecretTeam,theCIAanditsAlliesin Control of the United States and the World by L.Fletcher Prouty13,Col.U.S.A.F. (Ret.)14Every spook I had evermetwas “retired,” Imused.Thebackcoverread:

“…he(Prouty)spenthislastnineyearsofserviceinthePentagonastheofficialFocalPointOfficer--firstfortheAirForce,andthenfortheentireDepartmentofDefensewiththeCIA.AllCIAmilitaryactivitieswerethuschanneledthroughhim. Not being a CIA man, he was exempt from taking the oath of secrecy.Being the Focal PointOfficer put him in a very privileged position: in effect,ProutyhasfarmoreknowledgeofCIAactivitiesthanalmostallmembersofthatorganization.”

Wow. I hadhadnoclue, andcertainlynever encountered the likesofFletcherProuty while in the Pentagon with Dick Cheney15. I only knew a bit of hishistory; that Fletcher Prouty had worked very closely with JFK16 and wasdeployedtotheSouthPoleatthetimeoftheassassinationtoensurehewasoutoftheway.Atthesametime,ProutynotesthatGeorgeBush,Sr.wasinDallas.Iwanted toknowmore.Proutyasserted thatKennedy’sassassination inessencesignaled a hostile take-over of the United States, shifting power from thePresidencytotheCIA.RealitysunkinwhileIsatinhislibrary.FletcherProutycouldmakeaworldofdifferencewithwhatheknewandlearnedwhileearningtheconfidenceoftheSecretGovernmentfromhisPentagonposition.

Inthe1992PrefacetotheSecondEditionofTheSecretTeam,Proutywrote:

“Like it or not, we now live in a new age of ‘One World’… This is thefundamental game of the Secret Team. They have the power because they

controlsecrecyandsecretintelligence…”

Thisman“thanksGod that I survived”whenhisknowledge and insight couldultimately change theworld for the better? If only people knew that thismanwhoheldthekeytoAmerica’sfuturewaspureloveenergyinmotion.Wisdom.Peace.The truthsheknew indeedwould setus free.AndFletcherProutywasrevealingalltoanyonewitheyestoseeandearstohear.17

MarkandIleftFletcherProuty’sresidence,anddecidedtolightenupbytakingafewphotosaroundDCbefore returning toAlabama.Sincewewerealready inthevicinity,wedroveby theCIAfirstandacted like ignorant touristsclickingpictures.WhenCIAsecurityreprimandedusanddemandedthefilmasweknewthey would, Mark laughingly reminded them, “The CIA doesn’t own thehighway,dothey?”andleft.WetookphotosoftheDepartmentofJusticewhere“ThePriceofFreedomisEternalVigilance”iscarvedinstone.WalkingacrossthemalltotheSmithsonian,wesawafewvendorssellingforbiddensouvenirs.Weboughtseveralbumperstickersincluding“DAREtokeeptheCIAoffdrugs”inresponsetotheirpopular“DAREtokeepkidsoffdrugs”program.Ichoseonethat read “DARE to think for yourself” andwe even bought the ever-popular“We’re Not in Kansas Anymore18” bumper sticker for posterity. MarklaughinglyheldupateeshirtformeimprintedwiththeFBI’sFederalWitnessProtection Program emblem and thewords “YouDon’tKnowMe.”The Fedscertainlydidn’tknowme,ortheywouldhaverealizedIwouldspeakoutandtelltheircriminalsecrets.

“I’lltakeyoutoanicerestaurantfordinner,”Marksaid.OfallthetimesIhadbeen inWashington,DCduring theReaganBushAdministration, I had neveroncebeenallowedtoeatduetomindcontrol.Markknewthis,andoptedforafineseafoodrestaurantreputedtobethebestinDC.Wecountedoutthelastofourspendingmoney,andwentinsidePhillips’Restaurant.

“The name is right,” I said, referring to Mark’s gourmet chef abilities. ThedinnerwasgoodbutI’dbeenspoiledbythebestforyears,andIrealizedforthefirsttimethatgoingouttodinnerwouldalwaysbesecondarytowhatIcouldeatathome.

Onthelongdrivehome,silencewasascomfortableasourconversations.Afewmemories had surfaced as though theywere yesterday after being to somany

familiarplaces,and Iwrote.Myprogrammingwasno longeraccessible,and Ididnot trigger theway Iused to.Thebitsandpieces I rememberednowonlyfilled in theblanks, rarelyevenchangingmyperceptions.Wetalkedvery littleabout Mark’s conversation with Fletcher Prouty, focusing only on the strongpoints. Col. Prouty looked forward to the release of TRANCE since he, likeBecraft, could not foresee certain members of Congressional IntelligenceOversight allowing us to testify in April as planned. Prouty shared formerPresidentTruman’sdisdainoverthe1947NationalSecurityAct,anddiligentlysought tohaveit repealed.OurcasewasonemorereasonwhyheopposedtheNational Security Act. Ironically considering the position he held in thePentagon for years, Prouty was a proponent of truth and denounced secretsaboveallelse.

“On The Secret Team’s Acknowledgement page,” I ventured, “I noticedreferencetoaTVproducerbythenameofAlLevin.”

“HeandhisbotherMarcLevinareapowerfulteamworkingbehindthescenes,”MarkansweredbeforeIcompletedmyquestion.“BlowbackProductions19willundoubtedlycontinuetoemergeasatruevoiceofthepeople.”

Knowing that Fletcher Prouty was providing ammunition to those arming thefrontlineswithtruthinthismindwarwascomforting.Winwasinevitable.

Itwas thenextdaybeforewe reachedKnoxvilleandstopped toseeKelly.Asalways, itwasbittersweet seeingher, enjoyingeverymomentwehad togetherbefore being separated again. Her caregivers at Jabneel were fully aware thatNationalSecurityhadbeeninvokedonKelly’scase.TheysharedourfrustrationthatKellywasdenied theavailable, thoughsuppressed,qualified technologicalrehabshesodesperatelyneeded.Insteadtheyprovidedherwiththebestcopingskills they could. Much of what they offered, they learned fromMark whileKellyandItalked.

Wewalkedoutside,enjoyingthefreshairasweaimedtowardsthefencewherethestallionKellybefriendedwaseagerlywaitingforher.IreachedinmypurseandpulledoutacarrotI’dbrought,whichKellyofferedhimoncesheslidunderthe fence. The best therapy and counseling Kelly received was in her silentrelationshipwiththestallion.Itoccurredtomethatunderanycircumstances,hernaturalconnectiontohorsesprovidedthedeepesthealingshecouldexperience20

outsideofherlovingfamily.

Ourvisitendedmuchtoosoon,althoughallthetimeintheworldwouldnotbeenough, it seemed.Mark and I still had a long drive ahead of us.We huggedKellyandbeganthejourneyhome.

Thephonewasringingoffthewallwhenwegotbackin.Wehadonlybeengonea fewdays,yetwe receivednumerouscalls. “Whereya’llbeen?”Billy asked.Eventhoughwedidn’tseehimveryoftensincewemovedfromNashville,ourfriendattheCopyShopwasasclosetousasever.“I’vegotaboxfullofmailtoshipyou,”hetoldus.“I’vebeencollectingupallthemailfromyourPostOfficeBox, and it’s accumulating fast. You have correspondence from all over theworldinhere.Whatareyoutwoupto?”

Mark briefly filled him in, explaining our progress in writing TRANCE andinternationalinterestitalreadystirred.Afterchattingafewminutes,hehunguponly to have the phone ring again.This time itwas our former neighborwholivednearMark’smother.“Melba’sdoingreallywell,”heassuredus.“Ilookinon her all the time. There’s been a few detectives come by looking for you,thoughit’snothinglikeitusedtobewhenya’lllivedhere,”hedrawled.“Ireallymissyou,butImustadmitIdon’tmissthenoisyhelicopters.Theyleftwhenyoudid.”

“MaybeFortCampbellreroutedtheirflightpattern,”Marksuggested.

“Yeah,right,”helaughed.“Justonemoreofthosecoincidences,huh?”

“Couldbe,”Markchuckled.“IthinktheyreroutedthemoverourhousehereinAlabama.”TheytalkedabitmorebeforeMarkhungup.

“Blackhelicoptersareapopulartopicofconversationthesedays,”hetoldmeasI finished unpacking our bags. “I’ve grown so used to themnow that…”Thetelephoneinterruptedhim.

Ipickeditupthistime.

“Isthebookready?”Becraftboomedintothephone,causingmetofumbleit.

Iputitbackuptomyear,“We’reworkingonit.”

“IheardyoumetwithFletcher.”What?I’dheardhim,butsurelyhedidn’tmeanFletcherProuty.Wehadn’ttoldanyone.Notingmyhesitancy,Becraftcontinued.“Theman’sasaint.”Yes,hemustmeanFletcherProuty.Iknewourphonewasmonitored,anddidn’tknowhowtorespond.

“Justaminute,please.” Isaid,handing thephone toMarkas though itwereahotpotato.MarkapparentlywasascomfortablewiththeconversationasBecraftwas,andIrelaxed.Iwasn’tsurehowBecrafthadlearnedofourmeeting,butthethought of him having one of those inaudible quiet conversations in FletcherProuty’s library struckme funny. Iwas still smilingwhenMark hung up andexplained tome thatBecraftheardFletcherProuty talkingaboutMKUltraontheradioearlier thatday.“He’sgetting thewordout,”Markwassayingas thephonerangagain.

ThistimeitwasaseriouscallfromagroupofpsychiatristsandpsychologistsinTexaswhowerehosting amindcontrol seminar inMarch.Theywantedus tospeak. Mental health professionals from all over the country would be inattendancetofurthertheireducationalcredits.Mark’sreputationhadspread,andhewas reputed tobe theauthorityonmindcontrol.Apparently severalpapershadbeensubmittedtotheAPAbypsychiatristsreferringtoMark’sknowledge,andIwasregardedasthemodelforrecovery.ItseemedthatthegroupwespokewithinSouthernCaliforniaweretruetotheirwordincirculatingtheinformationundertheircredentials.Therapistshadreachedanimpasseintreatingsurvivorsof mind control, mostly due to the FalseMemory Foundation. It was widelyknown thatMark had provedwithSue that recovery fromFalseMemorywaspossible.Hisknowledgewas indemandby themental health community, andtheywerewillingtohostusfortheDallasevent.

“Most disturbing,” he was told, “the number of survivors has swelled toepidemicproportion.Weneedyourhelp.”

Markagreed to talkwith themfurther. In themeantime,westayedfocusedonwritingTRANCE.Theneedfortruthwasepidemicnationwide.

Chapter39CANYOUTHINKTOCARE?

“HowamIsupposedtospeaktoanauditoriumofshrinks?”Iasked.

“You’re giving voice to survivors like Kelly who can’t think to speak forthemselves,”Markwiselyreplied.“Whatwouldtheywanttherapiststoknowsotheycanheallikeyouhave?”

“Will theycare to listen?”Iwondered.“Somehow,havinghundredsofshrinkscondescendinglypulltheirglassesdowntoscrutinizemeisunnerving.”

“YouknowaswellasIdothattheCIAcontainsmanyoftheircrimesbylockingpeople up inmental institutions,” he remindedme. “They tried usingCynthiaTurner-Graham to lock you up until we sidestepped it. Having hundreds ofshrinks earning educational credits listening toyou speak is instant credibility.The CIA can’t even try to use that method of containment on you anymore.Hundredsofshrinksvalidatingyourrecoveryisprettypowerful.Congresscan’tignoreit,plusthatwillbenicetohavewhenTRANCEispublished.”

“Weneedsomething towear,” I laughed,notingMark’susualattireofa robe.Clotheswerenotourpriority,eachofuspreferringcomfort.

“You’reafineonetotalk,”Markjokedback.Iwasverycomfortableinmyownskin.

“Well,shrinksarenotgoingtolistentouslookinglikethis,”Imused.“I’vegotafewthingstowear,butIhadbetterlosesomeweightsoIcanfitintothem.”

“You’renotfat,”Marknoted.

“Iknow,”Ianswered,referring tooldCharmSchoolprogrammingmethodsof‘think it and become it’. “’I am thinner’. Besides, if I stand at attention I

automaticallylosefivepounds.”Ithrewmyshouldersback.

“Oh, that looksgreat,”Marksaidsarcastically.“March in therewithamilitantstancetospeakoutonrecoveryfrommindcontrol.”

I giggled. “It’s pretty hard to care about appearancewhen looks are only skindeep.”

“People are conditioned to listen to speakerswho are dressed a certainway,”Marktoldme.“Weneedtoappearconfidentandlookmorelikethemandlesslikeus.Appropriateattirewouldbeconservativeclothes.”

“They’reshrinks,”Iprotested,“Can’ttheyseeinoureyesthatweareconfidentandsincere?”

“They’renotgoingtolookatyoureyesifyougointherethatway!”MarkandIjoked and played, adjusting to the idea of speaking publicly to professionalswhenneitherofuslivedegotisticalpretense.Itwasn’taboutus,anyway.Itwasabout the information,whichwe needed to impart in themost comprehensivemannerpossible.Justthesame,Itapedanoteonthefridgethatsaid,“Eat‘light’atnight,”andoneon thebathroommirror thatsaid,“Whyweight?”UsingoldCharm School methods to subconsciously adjust my perceptions to produceresultsofmychoiceseemedaformofjusticeinitself.

By the timewearrived inRichardson,Texas forour speakingengagementwewere ready.SueFordhadbeen invited tosetupaboothunder thepretenseofselling Rod’s book, when in fact all the shrinks already knew she was theprototypeofrecoveryfromfalsememorythatwasperpetuatingacharade.MarkandIweresobusy thatwebarelyhad timetoacknowledgeherpresence.“Nooneisbuyinganything,”shewhined.“Alltheywanttodoistalk.”

“You’reright,”Markcleverlyalertedher,“Nooneisbuyingit.”Suestilldidn’tgetit.

Speaking was easy once we started. This elaborate symposium was differentthan from conversing with therapists or offering answers to a devastatedcommunitylikeMarin.Sureenough,assoonasIbegantospeak,anauditoriumofshrinkspulledtheirglassesdowninunisontoexaminemethewaytheywere

taught. Only I wasn’t intimidated. According to APA statistics, 90% of thoseaccreditedinmentalhealthhadgottenintothebusinesstolearnwhatwaswrongwiththem.Thiscertainlydisrobedtheminmyeyes!AfterMarkandImadeourinitialpresentation,weheldquestionsandanswers,whichactuallyprovedtobefunandinformative.

Weansweredtheusualquestionslike“whyareyoustillalive?”

“Wisdomoutthinksacriminalmindeverytime,”Iresponded.“Asidefromthat,peopleneedtoconsiderthestrengthofthehumanspiritandexaminetheirownspiritualbeliefsforanswers.”

Markwasmorepracticalthanphilosophical,offeringananswermoresuitabletotheir mind set. He explained the power of the mind and subsequent healingmethodsusedtoliterallysavemylifeinclinicallyintellectualterms.

One psychiatrist, obviously uncomfortable standing before his peers took themicrophone,blewinitafewtimesdeafeningthecrowd,thenyelledintoit“Canyouhearme?”Satisfied that allwaswell, he asked, “Aren’t you afraidof theCIA?”

“Why?”

“Theythreatenourlicenseandourlives,andwe’rejusthelpingpeople.Youtwoaretellingtheirsecrets,”heelaboratedwhileothersshooktheirheads.

“Theyhave asmuchpower as yougive them,”Mark answered. “Kindof like‘satan’ does.”We had already discussed Lt. Col. Aquino1 and his ‘power ofsatan’MKUltramind control techniques. Everyone presentwas familiarwithAquino due to the vast number of survivors theywere treatingwho had beenadverselyaffectedbyhimand/orhissatanicoffshoots.ForthisreasonAquino’sformergirlfriend,LindaBlood,whowrotethebookTheNewSatanistshadbeeninvited to speak at this symposium as well. Mark’s answer incited a fewchuckles.

“TheyarecrucifyingBennetBraun,”someoneshouted.

“The CIA is notorious for making examples out of their opposition on theforefront,”Markremindedthem.“Whetherheisrightorwrong,BennetBraunistheirexampletomentalhealthprofessionalsthesamewayDannyCasolarowasto reporters and the media; the same way Peter Tchernev was to concernedparents;andthesamewaytheBranchDavidiansweretopatriots.Ifwecaveintotheirthreats,theywin.”

“Nowyou’vebecomea threat to them,”someonesaid, taking themicrophone.“Aren’tyouafraidtobeontheforefront?”

“Mark and Iwere never perceived as a threat to themuntil itwas too late,” Isaid. “My abusers believed I would die, and that even if I did survive theybelieved that I couldn’t recover. Many government secrets and personalreputations were staked on the belief that I could not be deprogrammed toremember thatwhich Iwassupposed to forget.By the time they realized theirerrorinjudgment,wehadalreadyreportedtheirsecretstoeverybranchoflawenforcement in the country. Again, wisdom outthinks a criminal mind everytime.Thesecriminalsareintelligent,buttheyareflatthinkers.Theylackdepth,theylacksoul,andthereforetheylackwisdom.”

“Thosewhodohavewisdom,”Markinjected,“learnedthroughCathy’srecoverythattheirconclusionsonroboticmindcontrolwereerroneous,anditshiftedtheirparadigms making them among the strongest supporters we have. They haveturnedagainsttheirflat-thinkingpeersandarenowthreateningthem.WhilewemayneverknowthetrueidentitiesofournewfriendsinLangley,weknowtheyareawarethatweknowwherecovertsupportisemanatingfrom.”

“Howdoyouknowyou’renotundermindcontrolnow?”Afemalepsychiatristaskedintothemicrophone,thenpulleddownherglassesawaitingmyresponse.

“IknowwhoIam,”Iansweredwhilemymindsorted throughamillionmoreexplanations.“IknowwhereI’vebeenandIhaveconstantconsciousawarenesswiththeabilitytothinkahead.”

Someone else stood, “Its clear to see that you and Mark are very differentpersonalities.Howdidyoureestablishyouridentityafterbeingwithoutoneforsomanyyears?”

“OnceIregainedfreethought,Igainedfreewillandsoulexpression,”Ibegan.“Inever thoughtaboutmyself according toother’sperceptionsorhowsocietywantedmetoproject,whichismyperceptionofwhategois.Sincemyegowasshatteredprior toage five,collectingup thosepiecesdidn’tmakemuchsense.SoI’mjustme,true-to-soul.Itfeelssogoodtobefreetobeme,thatIcelebratethatfreedomeveryday.”Ismiled.“Isupposethatmakesfreedomaconditionofthesoulratherthancontingentonoutsideinfluences.”

Thenextpsychiatristtotakethemicrophonedefensivelyfoldedhisarmsacrosshischest,making it awkward toaskhisquestion.Somehow,hestill raised themicrophone to ask, “You said you recovered by making the emotionallyincomprehensible logically comprehensible throughwriting outmemory. I getthe point, but are you capable of emotion now? It seems ludicrous that youwouldsmilewhenyouobviouslyshouldbeintears.”

“WhenIsmile,itisapositiveemotionalexpression,”Ibeganwithasmile,thengotserious.“Themosthorrible torture Ieverenduredwasseeingmydaughterabused.WhenshewastakenintoTennesseecustody,itwasasthoughthatabusecontinued. Only now I could think to make a difference for her. Of course Icried.Icriedriversof tearsandonlyfoundmyselfdrowningin them.Iwasn’thelpingmy daughter. Negativity is immobilizing, so I shifted that emotion tologicinordertopositivelyaffecthersituation.Itisludicroustoapply‘normal’emotiontoanabnormalsituation.Instead,Ichosetomakeadifferenceforherandothermindcontrol survivors likeherby logically imploringyouandyourpeerstocaretohelp.Icouldn’tmakethatpointifIweresobbing.”

“Askyourclientswhat they think, rather than‘howdoes thatmakeyoufeel’,”Mark suggested. “You will get logical answers rather than illogical tears andtantrums.It’snowondersomanyofyoureportviolentreactionsfromsurvivorsof ritual abuse when you’re indirectly challenging your patients to becomeillogical.”

Onenegativeresponderspokeup,“WhenareyougoingtotellmesomethingIdon’talreadyknow?”

Markflashedhisinfamoussmile2andsaid,“IknowyouandIknowyouhavenever recovered a single survivor, so when are you going to apply what youknow?”

“Howdoyoudealwithforgivenessissueswithoutemotion?”anelderlytherapistaskedme.

“Iunderstandmyabusers,”Iexplained.“Understandingismorepowerful thanforgiveness. Forgiveness equates to condoning child abuse whereasunderstandingarrestsit.Equallyasimportant,neitherguiltnorragebecomesanissuewithunderstanding.”

Mark injected,”The therapists’ ideaofconfrontingabusersandforgiving themcanbedangerousphysically andpsychologically to survivorsofmindcontrol,whereasunderstandingcanhelpthemhealandthusprotectthem.”

Ayoungwomanstood.“IunderstandtheproblemsgrouptherapywouldcreateforMPDsurvivorsduetotheirheightenedsuggestibility.Arethereotherwaystoavoidfalsememory?”

“Hypnoticregressionsarecounterproductive,”Markbegan.

Theyoungwomaninterrupted,“Didn’tyouusehypnosisonCathy?”

“Absolutelynot,”Markassuredher.“Thatwouldbe likedrowninga fish!Shewasalreadytrancedandneededtobedehypnotised.AsIwassaying,hypnoticregressions are counterproductive. ‘Rebirthing’ and re-parenting that is sopopular among you right nowonly further entrenches divisions the sameway‘naming’personasdoes.Theseguidedimagetacticshaveproventoleadtofalsememory.Aboveall,neveraskleadingquestions.”

“Cathy,”anadversarialshrinksaid,“SinceMarkhasanintelligencebackgroundandknowssomuchaboutmindcontrol,didyouseehimaroundDC?”

“It’s a good thing I’m recovered,” I responded, “because that is a leadingquestion.”

Everyonelaughed,afewpeopleclapped.

“Iwish I hadmetMark back then,” I continued, “becausemy daughter and Iwouldhavebeenrescuedevensooner.”

Everyone was laughing and clapping, and a few even stood while the shrinkshrankinhisseat.

Someonewearinga‘ProjectMonarch’ teeshirt tookthemicrophone.“WhenasurvivortellsustheywerevictimsofProjectMonarch,howdowefindoutifitisafalsememoryorreal?”

“The same way you would deal with any MK Ultra mind control survivor,”Mark answered. “Have them write out their memory, and begin bydeprogrammingtheprogramfirst.Tellthemtoaskthemselveswhattheyknowabout ‘ProjectMonarch’ andhow they learned it.This samemethodwill helpthem identify screen memory and even hypnotically induced scrambles. Byfollowingtheguidelinesfordeprogrammingthatwetalkedabouttoday,anyonecanhealfromanyleveloftrauma,falsememory,orprogramming.”

“When a client hasmental blocks, what can be done to trigger theirmemorywhenwedon’tknowwhatthetriggersare?”heelaboratedfurther.

“Wearing a tee shirt like thatmight help,”Mark quipped,while laughter roseagain. “Seriously,” Mark continued, “they are likely to be wearing triggersthemselves.Payattention to theirobsessions and fixations.Theeasiestway todeterminepotential triggers is tohaveyourclientsmakecollages.Suggest thatthey clip pictures and headlines,words, phrases, anything that captivates theirfocus,andcollecttheminaboxforaweekormore.Whattheyclipisimportant,but how they assemble their collages is even more revealing. Cathy broughtcopiesofhercollageswithherifyoucaretoseethem.”Thecollagescirculatedtherestoftheafternoon.

Iwasasked,“Towhatsinglethingdoyoumostattributeyourabilitytoheal?”

“Love,”Iquicklyanswered.

“’Yousaidthatwithoutfreethought,thereisnofreewill.Andwithoutfreewillthere is no soul expression.’ If love is soul expression, how could you lovebeforeyouhealed?”

“Markgavelovefirst,”Iexplained.“Notnecessarilytomesincehedidn’tknowwhoIwasanymorethanIdid.I’msayingthathe is love,heexudeslove, the

magnitudeofhiscaringtorescuemydaughterandmeisproofofthatlove.Hisloveenergystrengthenedmyspirittowanttoheal.Hislovegavemehopeandthe capacity to trust. Love is the most powerful force in the universe, and Iattributemyhealingtolove.”

“We can’t love our patients thewayMark loved you,” someone said, causinglaughter.

“Yourtonesuggestsyouarereferringtosex,”Markreplied.“Whetheryoudooryoudon’thavesexwithyourpatients,youarelikelytobeaccused.Multiplesarenotoriousfor initiatingsex,switchingpersonas, thensuingforrape.Whenyoudeliberately cause abreaction by asking ‘how does thatmake you feel?’ or byasking leadingquestions, or evenby twistingwords like ‘sex’ and ‘love’, youcouldbeendangeringyourreputation,your license,andyour libertyaswellashinderingyourpatient’srecovery.”

The therapist grew serious and presented the statement again in a reasonabletone.“Wecan’tloveourpatientsthewayMarklovesyou.”

“Youcangatheryourownstrengthofspirittocaretohelpthemheal,”Ireplied.“Through caring comes understanding, and being understood is a major steptowardrecoveryforanysurvivor.Knowingthattheyaren’tclinicallycrazy,thatwhathappenedisthemind’ssanedefensetotraumatoohorribletocomprehend,givesthemhope.Yourgenuinecaringandunderstandinggivesthemthestrengthto trust andhealusing themethodswe’vediscussed todaysuchaswritingoutmemory.Lovecomesinmanyforms,andcaringisoneof them.Again, that isexactlythekindofloveMarkfirstdisplayedtome.”

TheMindControlsymposiumprovedtobehighlysuccessful,anditwasdeeplyrewardingtoknowthatothersurvivorswouldhealbecauseofit.

Chapter40EVOLUTIONOVERREVOLUTION

“Isthebookreadyyet?”LarryBecraftboomedthroughthephoneagain.

“Iwish,”Ianswered.“It’stakinglongerthanIeveranticipated.”

“Iwish itwas ready, too,because Ineedcopies to takewithme toWaco,”hesaid. “I’m scheduled to speak, and this year’s patriot rally memorializing theBranchDavidianspromises tobeevenbigger than itwas lastApril19.DavidThibodeau1,oneoftheonlysurvivorstonotbelockedupafterthemassacre,isscheduledtospeak,too.IintendedtogivehimacopyofTRANCE.”

“Pleaseextendourwarmthjustthesame,”ItoldBecraft.

“CarlKlang2 is going to be there to sing Seventeen Little Children,” he saidsolemnly,drawingadeepbreath.

“IhopehesingsitsoloudthatitcanbeheardallthewaytoDCsoJanetRenoand Clinton hear it, too,” I said. “And while he’s at it, I hope Carl singsWheresoeverEaglesGather3 andWeWant ThisCountryBack loud enough tohearddowntheroadbytheBushes.”

“WedoneedtoholdarallylikethisinDCtodemonstratethepeacefulintentofthepeople,”Becraftagreed.“Thepeopleneedtobeheard.”

“They’ll be heard loud and clear during Rolling Thunder4,” I laughed. EveryMemorialDay tens of thousands of bikers roar throughDC in tribute toVietNamVets,POWsandMIAs5.“Botheventsdealwithmindcontrol,ifyouthinkaboutit.”

“People need to think about it,” Becraft agreed. “Which is why I reallywish

ya’llhadTRANCEready.ThiseventinWaconextweekisgoingtobehuge.”Hepaused,thenasked,“IsMarkaround?”

IinterruptedMark’swritingtogivehimthephone.Iknewhe’dwanttotalktoBecraft.

It seemed everyone we knew was converging on Waco to discuss ideas forpreventing such a massacre from ever happening again. That very day—twoyears to thedayonApril19,1995-- theAlfredP.MurrahFederalBuilding inOklahomaCitywasblownup,killing168peopleandmaimingmore.Themediablamed thepatriots forwhatwasdeemeda“malicious”attack.Thecitizensofthe United States were devastated. No one wanted to believe that theirgovernmenthaddeclaredwaronitspeople.Yetwarsarewoninthemindsofthepeople,andpsychologicalwarfarehadbeenlaunchedin1947withthebirthoftheCIAandtheNationalSecurityAct.

Traumatized,peoplebecamecompliant.Terrorized,theybecameafraidtogatherin large groups. Fortunately the internetwas coming intowide use giving thepeopleameansofcommunicationwithinthe‘safety’oftheirownhomes.Peopleturned off theirTVs.They denouncedCNN,making the same point by eitherreferringtoitasthe“ClintonNewsNetwork”orthe“CriminalNewsNetwork.”Instead they turned to radio and shortwave, patriot newspapers and word ofmouth.Thepeopledesperatelyneededandwereseekingavoice.

SoonaftertheOklahomaCityBombing,MarkandIbeganreceivingphonecallsrequestingustospeak.Peopleneededanswersasmuchastheyneededavoice,and they received neither through the media. TRANCE was nearly ready forpublicationand,believingitwouldbeinprint thatspring,weacceptedasmalltouroutwesttopromoteit.

Mark, whose vast history leading the highest levels of aviation and tourismmarketinginthecountry,wasconcernedaboutpromotingabooklikeTRANCE.Since we were US Government whistleblowers, our ‘freedom of speech’ wascontingent upon following strict laws and regulations. Self-publishing was amust.

WehadalreadywitnessedthegovernmentinfluencingbigpublisherstopullkeybooksoffthemarketsuchasLindaBlood’sTheNewSatanists6.Thisbook,once

featured in Walmart stores across the country was quickly pulled from theshelves. Other pertinent books fell prey to CIA censorship, and we weredeterminedtoavoidthatpitfallatallcosts.Self-publishingmeantweassumedallcostsandpromotion,andwedesperatelyneededbothmoneyandexposuretoaccomplishourgoalofbringingtherealityofmindcontroltolight.“IfeellikeI’mpositivelymarketingallhellbreakingloosewithanegativebudget,”Marksaid.

Iagreed.“Wakingpeopleuptotherealityofmindcontrolwhenweonlyhavea‘whistletoblow’isachallenge.”

“Perhapsthissmalltouroutwestwillhelpgetusstarted,”Markhoped.

“Maybewe’llearnenoughmoneythentorunafewads,”Isuggested,thinkingof the numerous alternative news sources that were now flourishing. ClayDouglas’The Free American7 newspaper to the internationally popularNexusMagazine8wouldprovideawiderangeofreadership.

“By law,wecan’t advertise,”Markexplained. “Aswhistleblowerswehave torelyonothers to spread theword. Ifwekeep the titleof thebook simple andconfinedtoonewordlikeTRANCE,itwouldbeeasierforotherstopickuponit.”

“Irealizeyou’rethemarketingexpert,”Itoldhim.“Still,TRANCEFormationofAmerica clarifies the fact that the American people can not think to stop theatrocitiesofthecriminalsincontrolofourgovernment.Lookwhathappenedtothe people of Nazi, Germany since mind control was not figured into globalpublic perception. With computerization and DARPA’s technologicaladvancements,AmericansareevenmoremindcontrolledthantheNaziswere.Ifothercountriesunderstandthatfact,perhapstheywillhavecompassion.ItismyhopeandintenttoenlistpositivehelpfromtheworldandavoidWorldWarIII.”

“ThefactsinTRANCEwilldothatoncetheyreadit,”Markargued.

“People tendto judgeabookbyitscover,”Isaid.“Andeventhosewhodon’treaditwillgetthepointifwetitleitTRANCEFormationofAmerica.”

“Ifpeoplehearthetitleratherthanreadit,theyarelikelytomisspellitandfailtoreaditorgetthepoint,”Markcautioned.

I respected Mark’s marketing expertise, and understood the difficultiescompoundedbynothavinganadvertisingbudget.

“Can we title it ‘TRANCE’ with ‘Formation of America’ as the subtitle?” Iasked.

Mark smiled andhuggedme. “Howcan I denyyou anything, especially that?You have had everything in your life controlled and decided for you up untilnow.Obviouslythisisimportanttoyou.Itwon’tbeeasy,butI’llmakeitwork.Besides,academicsgravitatetolongbooktitles,andwecertainlyaremeetingalotofthem!”

The editing of TRANCE was expertly completed; the task of indexing,footnoting, and referencing done; and the $50 cover artwork was beingassembled for maximum impact. The old familiar question of ‘groceries orstamps?’was replacedwith ‘whathaven’twe sold thatwecan sell inorder toprint?’ Time dragged on as we sought resolution, while at the ‘same time’ itseemedtoflytowardsourscheduledspeakingengagementsoutwest.

Thetimehadarrivedforustotouroutwest,andwehadnobooks.Nevertheless,we embarked on the speaking circuit as arranged. The woman who hadstructuredthetalks,EvaVail,wasaMormonrefugeeinsearchofanswers.Afterbeingledastraybyacontrollingbeliefsystem,shewashavingdifficultyfindingher path within. Her assistant, Marta Brown, was her stability, inspiration,strength, and reliable friend without whom the whole event would havecrumbledmuchthewayEva’smindhadforherbeliefs.Forme,Martawasaninstantforever-friendandsoulsister.

Marta was raised in a Catholic orphanage where abuse and trauma prevaileduncheckedbya localpublicwhosevisionwascloudedbyCatholic religiosity.HerMexicanAmerican heritage of Lakota and PascuaYaqui Tribes borderedbetween history’s justification for slaughtering natives and ignorance of aCatholicfactionhell-bentondomination.Martasurvivedtheorphanage,turningwithinforsolaceandpeacetowhereshefoundspiritualwisdomoftheancients9.True-to-soul she became strong enough to function brilliantly through the

dissociativestructureofhertraumatizedmind.Notherapynorlovewasgiventoher,savefortherelationshipshenaturallydevelopedwithanimals.Herkinshipwithalllifeincludedhorses,eagles,dogs,birds,andeveryotherlivingcreaturethat thrivedinnatureasshedid,embracingthegifts thatMotherNaturefreelygave.

Marta shared Mark’s and my dedication to truth, and turned our otherwisedisastrous first speaking tour into a profound success. The two weeks wetraveledacrosscountrytogetherseemedtohavenobeginningorend,butratherwasabigger-than-lifeexperiencethatwouldreverberateforyearstocome.

We spoke to parents devastated by atrocious circumstances similar to those inMarinCounty,California;anassemblyofMormonrefugees inSaltLakeCity;victims and families of victims of varying levels ofmind control; and awiderangeofpatriots,citizens,andmilitias.Afraidtogatherinlargegroups,peoplequietly assembled in basements, schools, churches, and barns.We traveled byvanthroughsomeofthemostbeautifulcountryinAmericatoreachthem,fromthe plains of Montana through the mountains of Idaho, down the coast ofWashington state and Oregon. Between destinations we talked for hours,discussingthebeautyofthespectacularscenery;eachspeakingevent,thepeoplein attendance and their communities; social engineering and people’s point ofreference for understanding mind control; human values, ancient spiritualwisdom,animals,andmore.

In theNorthwesternsectionof theUS, theprevalenceofmilitarymindcontroland the widespread Mormon based alien and satanic themed controls weresecondonlytoapowerfulcombinationofthetwo.Weheardnumerousreportsof “lizard aliens” in combat boots who drove military vehicles. Likewise,“satan”woremilitaryattireandblacktrenchcoatsalaLt.Col.MichaelAquino’sinitiates.ThediscussionsI’dheardasachildfromMichigan’sGovernorGeorgeRomney10 regarding the mergence of CIA, Nazi, and Catholic mind controltechniques to create a powerful means of control for his Mormon churchapparentlycametofruitionandthedevastationwashorrific.Eachpresentationofinformationalongthewayfocusedonthatcommunity’sprimaryconcernsinanefforttopositivelyimpactthepeoplewithtruth.

Eachstopwasdifferent,yetthecommonthreadweavingthroughsociety’swoeswasmindcontrol.MarkandIpersonallyexperiencedthepulseofthenationand

hearts of the people and responded in kind. Our discussions while drivingbetween destinations were profound, sometimes lightened with laughter andpersonalinsights.

At one point while Mark was driving, I noticed a red convertible sports carslowly passing along side the van as though it were a replica scene from themovieFamilyVacation11.ThebeautifulyoungdriverflirtedwithMark,whowasdeep in thought and oblivious to her actions, her revealing attire and flowingblondehair.IlaughedatthescenarioandpromptlynudgedMark.“Lookoutsideyour window!” I giggled, watching his astonished expression at the girl’sobviousbeauty.

“Whatisthematterwithyou!”EvaVailshrieked,turninginherseattofacemeas she continued a verbal tirade admonishing my lack of jealousy. I wasperplexed since I hadn’t been socially engineered to sexist divisions andpreconceived notions. After all, why shouldn’t Mark see this beautifuldistraction from a long monotonous stretch of highway? Was I supposed tobelievehewouldleavemysidetojoinherintheconvertible?Wasn’tmonogamyanatural choice rather thanacontrol?Was I immoral, asEvaperceived?ThiseventwassignificanttomesinceIrealizedforthefirsttimethatthesecurityofMark’sandmyrelationshipwasfarremovedfromthetrivialrules,regulations,andvaluessocietyperpetuated.ThewayI saw it, jealousywasanegative thattrulyhadnoplace inour relationship.Whyshould it?Jealousywasnopartoflove.

Mark softly explained, “Cathy now knows security that doesn’t includejealousy.”

MartaandIresumedour lightconversation,deeplydiscussingpeople’spursuitof riches, social status, and ego driven goals. “Some people spend their livesenslaved to the economy so they can ‘own’ land, displaywealth in termsof ahouse,jewels,and‘things’,andenjoylifeaftertheyretire,”Martawassaying.“Ibelieveinthewisdomoftheancientsthatnoone‘owns’thelandourcreatorhasprovided.”

“Eveniftheyspendtheirhardearnedmoneyonland,”Iagreed,“itisnottheirstotakeanywhere.”Wepeeredoutthevan’swindows,appreciatingandenjoyingnature’sbeautyfullyeventhoughwehadn’tpaidforit.

“Afieldofmaize(corn)wasmorevaluable toLakotaandPascuaYaqui tribesthan accumulated ‘things’ are to wealthy people since it would sustain life,”Martacontinued.“Sunandrainwasmoreimportantthanastructuresegregatingpeoplefromnature.”

I ponderedMarta’s perspective. “Since people couldn’t control nature, maybetheyneededtocontrolwhetherornottheyexperienceit.”

“Sotheycouldexperiencewhatinstead?”Martaasked, laughing.“Retirement?Peopleworkall their livesso theycanbegin to liveafter they’vebecomeold,slow,andembitteredfromdecades inpursuitofshallowvalues.Materialismisthe downfall of man. Its no wonder life has lost meaning. People need toremember.Theyneedtorememberwhattheyhaveforgottenthroughgenerationsoflivingoutsidethemselves.”

“Humankindneedsaspiritualevolution,”Iagreed.

“Evolution12 over revolution,”Marta said. “That’swhywe’re out here.That’sour mission. To remind people. When you speak, you teach them how toremember.Youknowthewaysinceyourpathhasbeenanextremefrommindcontrol’stotalamnesiatotrue-to-soulawareness.”

Wow.IknewinmyheartthatMartawasright.Thiswasn’taboutpolitics.Thiswasbiggerthanlifejustlikeourfriendship.Shewassowise,soselfless,andhervisionfarexceededthemoment.TheUSwasintumultuouspoliticalturmoil,yeta physical revolution wouldn’t guarantee a change of leadership. This wasn’tabout finger pointing at certain corrupt individuals who took over ourgovernment;itwasaboutusall.Spiritualevolutionthroughtruth’swisdomwastheonlywaytopeace.Wisdomwastheonlywayhumankindwouldthinktostopfollowingleadershell-bentonenslavingus.AttunedwithtelepathyMartaadded,“Freedomisaconditionofthesoul,notpolitics.”

Onour journey,we stopped inNoxon,Montana tomeetwith JohnTrochman.Trochman’sMilitiaofMontanawaslogicallyfoundedonUSConstitutionallawand the Declaration of Independence. Trochman’s M.O.M. had become theleader inAmerica’sgrowingmilitiamovement.Since themediaspunviews to‘maliciously’ blame Ruby Ridge,Waco, and the Oklahoma City bombing onpeople who upheld Constitutional checks and balances designed to prevent

hostiletakeoverofgovernment,IwaseagertolearnthetruthaboutM.O.M.formyself.Idoubtedthemedia’sportrayalofTrochmanasaviolentmanwhohadfinanciallycapitalizedonthepatriotmovement,yetIhadnoideawhattoexpect.As we neared Trochman’s mountain home, I was absolutely astounded bynature’sbeautythatparalleledAlaska’ssplendor.HowcouldanyonewakeuptosoulrejuvenatingbeautysuchasthiseachdayandhavetheadversarialattitudethemediaclaimedTrochmanhad?

We crossed a ricketywooden bridge, bounced a shortways down a two-trackroad through the woods that stopped at an extended aluminum trailer, andclimbedoutofthevan.Wherewasthewealth?Wherewerearmedguards?

“Hello!” a voice called. A white haired bearded man walked towards us, hisworn shoes flopping across the gravel. I was dumbfounded. There was thatfeeling again, the same one I’d had when I met Fletcher Prouty. A powerfulenergyoflovegrewinmagnitudeasTrochmanapproached,nearlyknockingmeover by the time he embraced me. I realized this was my heightened sensesrespondingtosoul’sdiscernmentinspiritualaffirmation.Chillsrosestandingthehairuponmyarms.Wasthisthatsensationpeoplespokeofwhenexperiencingtruthbiggerthanlife?IglancedoveratMartatoseethehaironherarmsspikedas though reaching to the heavens and smiled. One thing was clear; nothingaboutJohnTrochmanfitthemedia’sportrayalofhim.

“Comeoninside,”heoffered.“Forallpracticalpurposes,thisismyhome13,myoffice, my point of operation forM.O.M., and,” he paused while happy littlechildren chased around him until he scooped one up in his arms in a hug,“playgroundformychildren.”

Wewalkedinsidethemetalbuilding.“Haveaseatanywhereyoucanfindone,”hesaid,gesturingtoscatteredmetalfoldingchairs.“IfIwereaswealthyasI’mreputedtobeI’dhavealuxuriouscomfortableseattoofferyou.Youknowhowit is, though; people devoted to a cause put every penny they have intoperpetuatingithopingtomagnifytheirvoice.”

“And we still only have a whistle to blow,”Mark related, then smiled as heasked.“Whereareyourarmedguards?”

Trochman’seyestwinkled.“Youknowthatbridgeyoucrossedcomingin?Well,

thewayIfigureit,nomilitaryvehiclescancrossitliketheydidinRubyRidgeorWacowithoutbustingthrough.Andthat’stheonlywayinorout.”

TheconversationbetweenMarkandTrochmanwasdeep,detailed,andintricateastheydiscussedwhatwasrequiredtotakebackourgovernment.“Granddad’ssquirrelgunisn’tgoingtostopthem,”Markchallenged.

Trochman laughed. “Guns are nomatch for DARPA’s technology. The way Ifigure it, if every person in the United States stood by the Constitution andDeclarationofIndependence,wecouldtakebackthegovernment.Mostpeopleareignorant,though.Sinceglobaleducationhasrewrittenhistoryinpencilsoitcan be erased and rewritten to fit any circumstance, students aren’t taughtfundamentalAmericanvaluesanymore.Itsuptoustoeducatethem.WhenI’mfacedwith thedecision tobuystampsorbullets, I’llbuystampsevery time inhopesofgettinginformationoutthere.”

“Armingpeoplewithtruthismoreimportantthanarmingthemwithweapons,”Markagreed.

“Ifpeoplehaveboth, they’llat leastknowwhotheenemyis,”Trochmansaid.“Thegovernmentdoesn’twantustohavegunsforareason,andIfigurethatisreason enough to have them. If we don’t stay armed, how can we defendourselvesagainstunwarrantedattack?”

“Or against the violence being created in society through social engineeringtechnology video games,” I added. “Video games provide the same techniqueused by the military to program soldiers in basic training. When it wasdiscoveredthatonly15%ofallpeoplecouldkill theirperceivedenemyduetomoral considerations, that number was increased through bypassing criticalanalysis to not think and ‘just do it’. These trained soldiers are notdeprogrammed when turned back into society! Now they are still shootingwithout cause, blasting citizens in public restaurants, post offices, andplaygrounds.”

“Iamdeeplyconcernedaboutalltheprogrammedmilitarymindsthathavebeenturned back onto the streets without being deprogrammed,” Mark observed.“EvenmorealarmingthanwhatCathyjustsaid,isthattheseprogrammedpeopleare prime candidates for terrorists to re-direct. They’re already trained and

highly suggestible, and are beingmoved into terror training campswithin thiscountryandaroundtheworld.”

“Mind control is a serious problem,” Trochman agreed. “We have CIAinfiltrating the militias through programmed former Special Forces. They aremaking us all appear violent, diluting the true purpose of organizations likeM.O.M.Weareproponentsofpeace,notwar.”

“Evolutionoverrevolution,”Isaid.

“Exactly,” Trochman agreed. “You perpetuate truth from your end, and I’llpersist in doing it frommine. If everyone does their part,we all stand towinbackcontrolofourgovernment.”

WeleftMontanaandourwhole tour through theNorthwestacutelyaware thatmind control was the common cause of society’s escalating problems, whilepeace was the common solution. Peaceful noncompliance with New WorldOrder controls would naturally result in spiritual evolution over revolution. Itwastime.

Chapter41VOICEOFTHEPEOPLE

June15,1995JohnTrochmanspokebefore theSenateSubcommitteeonAnti-Terrorism.Wisdomoutthinksacriminalmindeverytime,andwhenitisdrivenby one as intelligent and soulful as Trochman, even the media’s demeaning‘malicious’ attack could not overshadow his brilliance. He gave voice to thegrowingnumberofawakeandawareAmericansashespoke:

It is saddening that this opportunity to address theSenate has risenout of theOklahoma tragedy. We whole-heartedly denounce this deplorable act ofviolence.We have andwill continue to assist in anymanner to apprehend allpersonsthatmayhaveplannedand/orcarriedoutthatdastardlydeedatwhateverleveltheymayhide.

At the present time we view the militia movement as a giant neighborhoodwatch1. The movement is made up of a cross section of Americans from allwalksoflife,withonesingularmandatewhichispublicandovert:thereturnofthe Constitution of the United States, and to your oath to defend thatConstitution.

TheDeclarationof Independencegivesexcellent insightas towhypeople feeltheyneedtogrouptogetherandparticipateinmilitia/patriotorganizations.Thisdocumentspeaksforitselfonceagainasitdidover200yearsagowhenflagrantinjusticescontinued“outofcontrol”byoppressivepublicservants.

Werequestthatthisdocumentbeenteredintothepermanentrecordasapartialsupportdocumenttoourstatements.

ThefollowingarejustafewexamplesastowhyAmericansarebecomingmoreandmoreinvolvedinmilitia/patriotorganizations.

Thehighofficeof thePresidencyhasbeen turned intoapositionofdictatorial

oppression through the abusive use of executive orders and directives thusleaving Congress stripped of its authority. When the President over-rulesCongressbyexecutiveorder,representativegovernmentfails.

When government defines human beings as a biological resource under theUnitedNationsecosystemmanagementprogram,maintainingthatstateandlocallawsarebarriers to thegoalsof federal government,when the average citizenmustworkforhalfofeachyearjusttopaytheirtaxes,whilebillionsofourtaxdollars are forcibly spent to bail out the banking elite, while our fellowAmericans are homeless, starving, and without jobs, Congress wonders whytheirconstituentsgetupset.

When government allows our military to be ordered and controlled byforeigners,underPresidentialorder,allowingforeignarmiestotrainonoursoil,allowingourmilitarytolabelcaringpatriotsastheenemy,thenturnstheirtankslooseonUSCitizenstomurderanddestroyordirectsasnipertoshootamotherin the facewhileholdingher infant inher arms,youbetyour constituentsgetupset.

We thepeople havehad about allwe can standof the twisted, slanted, biasedmedia in America who take their signals from a few private covert interestgroups bent on destroying what’s left of the American way. We respectfullyrequest thatyourelyuponyourowninvestigations,steeringclearof themediaand their rumor-gossipmillsofdisinformation.Althoughmosteveryone in themovementhasassembledaroundtheFirstAmendment“freedomofspeechandthe right to peacefully assemble” we have not forgotten what our foundingfathershavestatedabouttheSecond.FormerPresidentJamesMadison-“Awellregulatedmilitia,composedofthebodyofthepeople,trainedtoarms,isthebestandmost natural defense of a free country”; FormerVice PresidentEldbridgeGarry--“I ask what is the purpose of the militia? To offset the need of largestandingarmies,thebaneofliberty.”

Whywouldhecall thearmedforces thebaneof liberty?Why is thePentagonwaging an active campaign towin over the populace?Why does themilitaryCivilAffairsFM41-10seemtobesoapplicableinAmericatoday?Paraphrasing“Stepsnecessaryfortheoverthrowofanation.MayGodbewithAmericaashewatchesovertheshouldersofyouwhowriteherlaws.Anationcansurviveitsfools and even their ambitions, but it cannot survive treason from within.

America has nothing to fear from patriots maintaining vigilance. She should,however,fearthosethatoutlawvigilance.”

Thankyou.

MarkturnedofftheTVandwesatinsilenceafterTrochman’sspeech.

“Wow,”Ifinallysaid,wipingtearsfrommycheeks.“’ThePriceofFreedomisEternalVigilance’.It’setchedinstoneoutsidetheJusticeDepartment.”

“And‘TheTruthShallMakeThemFree’ischiseledinstoneintheLangleyCIAoffice,”Markadded.

“ThetruthTrochmanspokeshouldrestorefreedomandConstitutionalvalues,”Ihoped, fully aware that the voice he gave Americans that day was just abeginning.

AfterTrochman’slandmarkspeech,Americancitizensbegantofeelabitmoreempowered.Theygatheredinstrengthandinnumbers,andcautiouslydaredtobeginassemblingagain.

OppositiontoGlobalEducationwasastrongcommonbond,andhomeschoolingbecameprevalentenoughtocatchtheattentionoftheFederalGovernment.Theyquickly organized a counter solution through former Education Secretary BillBennett2,whoseeditingofahyped“bestselling”bookkepthiminthemedia’sspotlight long enough to gain a voice. He infiltrated the “homeschooling”movement, writing the “rules and requirements” that wise homeschoolersignored. Peaceful noncompliance. Parents chose to teach their children truth.Noncompliance was gaining collective strength. Even Germans formerlycontrolled by Nazis noted similarities between Nazi and US societies, citingeducation andHillaryClinton’s proposedmedical programas copiedverbatimfromtheCommunistManifesto,andcalledfornoncompliance.

Alabama’s Independence Day July 4, 1995 was monumental. Governor FobJames listened to the voice of the people and stoodhis ground againstGlobalEducation3. Local headlines proudly announced “Independence from Global

Ed4”whileFobJamespointedoutthat“theFederalGovernmenthasnobusinessmeddlingwiththemindsofthechildren.”

From experience5 I knew that Senator Byrd had cleverly and deliberatelywithheld funding from schools nationwide for years, creating a reliance onfederal funding that was contingent upon the Global Ed program. Still, FobJamesturneditdown,wiselyunderstandingthatfreethoughtwasmorevaluablethananyamountofmoney.Thisbravemovewasexemplaryofwhatoneawake,awareGovernorcoulddoforthepeople’sfreedom.AlabamaremainedtheonlystateintheunionupholdingConstitutionallawandstate’srightsratherthansellouttoNewWorldOrdercontrols,forwhichFobJameswouldbeimmortalizedininfamy6.

“YouwererightaboutAlabama,”IremindedMark.“Youtoldmethepeopleofthisstatewerethemostindependentinthecountry.Howdidyouknow?”

“Peoplehavemorerightsthanthegovernmentsincetheyvoteinpoliticianswhorepresent their views,”he answered. “Theypay attention to issues and actionsratherthanpoliticalrhetoric.”

“Howcanthatmatterwhenvotesdon’tcount?”Iskepticallyasked.PoliticiansIknew7 certainly didn’t believe in the electronic voting system and neverconcernedthemselveswithvotes.TheyattendedStateFairsandkeyfundraisingeventsinordertogeneratemoremoney,buttheyalwaysremainedconfidentoftheir ‘re-election’ based on their connections to corporate controllers and theirglobalelitebankers.

“Peoplepayattentionandtalkwitheachother,”Markbegan.“Mostimportantly,theymonitorelectionsonlocallevelsandstayawareoftheresultsoftheirvote.TheyknowthattheirlocalSheriffhasthelegalpowertoacceptorrejectFederallaw enforcement intervention. A major key to Alabama’s freedom is in theirlocalSheriffsandpoliticians.Theymakeitapointtoknowthesepeopleratherthanvoteaccordingtowhohasthemostlitter-on-a-sticknamefamiliarity.”

“Is that why the locals are so determined to run you for Mayor?” I asked,suddenly understanding why they adamantly demanded rather than requestedMark’scandidacy.

“They know I can’t be bought off,” he affirmed. “My reputation as aman ofjusticeiswhytheypersist.Theydon’treallyknowhowtimeconsumingitisforustodowhatwedo,andthereforecannotunderstandwhyIdon’trunforoffice.The people in Alabama closely monitor their local elections. In turn, localpoliticianscloselymonitorstateelectionsbasedontheirconstituency.Thepointispeopleareinvolved.

Thephonerang,andMarktookthecall.Whenhewasthrough,hefilledmeinon theconversation. “ThatwasEvaCoppilillo,”he toldme.Evawasa strongpolitical activist and concerned grandmother who had moved to the UnitedStatesfromCanadasomeyearsback.“SheisstillhotonthisNAFTAissuesinceitinvolvesbothCanadaandtheUS,andespeciallysincesheknowsitisagiantstep toward the New World Order.” Eva knew like we did that control andequalization ofMexican, US, and Canadian economies was an integral movetowardsglobaldominance.Ifpeopledidn’twakeupnow,theNewWorldOrderwouldquicklybecometheNewWarOrderasothercountrieswereforced intocontrol of greedy bankers and global elite. “She asked if she could give ourphonenumbertoaCanadianactivistwhowantstosponsorusintospeak.Itoldher‘yes’andthatweexpectedthebooktobeprintedinacouplemonthssowe’dacceptaspeakingengagementthen.SheisaseagerasBecraftforustogetthebookout.”

“Therearea lotofpeople lookingforwardto thereleaseofTRANCE,”Isaid,gesturingtowardalargestackofmail.“EveninAustralia.”

“That’simpossible,”Markreplied.“Doyouknowwhoisadvertising?”

“Yes,” Ianswered, referring tooneof the letters.“DuncanRhodeswithNexusMagazine8.”

“NexusMagazine is a highly respected internationalmagazine,” he said. “I’mgoingtolookintothisandseewhereDuncanRhodesgothisinformation.”

Mark soon learned thatDuncanRhodeswas recognizedas ageniuswithdeeptiesintomanyIntelligencecommunities.“Duncanprobablydoesn’tevenrealizeheknowssomanygoodspooks.”

Wherever Duncan Rhodes got it, he got it right. He seemed to know when

TRANCEwascomingoutevenbeforewedid.ThespeakingengagementwehadacceptedinToronto,Canadawasdrawingclose,andonceagainwewerewaitingonreleaseofourbooks.

By October 1995, the patriot movement continued to grow stronger by theminute thanks to the powerful push JohnTrochman gave it in June.Recently,patriotradioshowsandnewspapers,andeventhenewermediumoftheinternet,wereabuzzwiththeactionsofonebravesoldierwhoboldlyrefusedtowearaU.N.bluecap.DefyingPresidential authority,MichaelNew9 stood out among550soldiersinhisUSmilitaryolivecapwhiletherestcavedintowearingUNblues. This young man became a hero to the patriots by standing strong forAmericaratherthantheNewWorldOrder.MichaelNewwassubsequentlycourtmartialed and discharged from the US Army for “Bad Conduct” because heobeyedhisoathand refused to switchallegiances.MichaelNewwasguiltyaschargedforlovinghiscountry,andAmericanpatriotscouldrelate.

TRANCE was finally released only days before our scheduled appearance inToronto,requiringdropshipmenttoourspeakingdestination.Afewcopieswereexpress shipped directly to us, which Mark and I tossed in the trunk of ourpackedcarandembarkedonourjourneytoCanada.

Drivingseemedawiseoptionatthetimesinceitallowedforustostopalongthewaytolocatemyformer“sister”inMKUltra10.Manyofthekeystohermindcontrolprogrammingparalleledminewherebyincreasingherchancesofhealing.SheandIhadbeenprogrammedinunisonatTraficant’s11YoungstownCharmSchool to be prostituted together to, among others, Ronald Reagan, DickThornburgh,andBrianMulroney.12

Afterasurprisinglycomplexsearch,wefinally locatedmygirlfriend.Shewasraising five children in a tiny caretaker’s shack in a graveyard behind a cultchurch. She and her children were being maintained under MK Ultra occulttraumas. “No one would believe the things I can’t remember,” she said, herpupils dilating in her big blue eyes. “I’m not reporting to Arlen Spector13anymore,” she revealed. “Instead, TomRidge14 is advisingme andmy kids.”Knowingshewasstillmaintainedby‘terrorexperts’inMKUltramindcontrolduetoherfivechildrenbeingactivelyusedwasenoughtoconvinceMarkandme that her chances of survival were greater without interference. Still, Itelephoned her occasionally to keep in touch in hopes that some day this

beautifulsoulcouldbehelpedfor‘reasonsofHomelandSecurity.’

WhenMarkand Idrove intoCanada,CanadianBorderguards subjectedus toinspection.Whilesearchingourbelongingsinthetrunk,theyfoundourcopiesofTRANCE complete with numerous references to Canadian Prime MinistersPierre Trudeau and BrianMulroney.Mark and I didn’t know what to expectwhile they thumbed through thepagesofTRANCE.Finally, oneof theguardswalked over to us and quietly said, “We need to confiscate one copy of thisbook, and would appreciate it if you’d sign it. Thank you for bringing suchpertinentinformationintoCanada.PeopleonbothsidesoftheborderhadbetterwakeupquicktotherealityofwhatNAFTAentails.”Theyshookourhandsandwavedusthrough.

The group gathered to hear us speak in Canada were not unlike Americans,advertising the event by word of mouth and gathering in a local church.InformationonTrudeauandMulroneycameasnosurprise,asmanyCanadianswere already acutely aware of their New World Order agendas. Of majorconcern to them was the Global Education program. It was so clear thatAmericans and Canadians shared the same concerns, the same goals, and thesameneed to unite rather than divide according tomedia spin.Whodrew thelineinthesandanyway,politicallyseparatingthestrengthwewouldhaveifweallunitedthewayour leadershad?Mulroney,Bush,Salinas,andClintonwereallofthesameagendaperpetuatedbythesameglobalbankersbeingrunbythesamehalfdozenmega-corporations.

Just as in theUnited States, people becamemost concerned and aware that aproblem existed in our governmentswhen it hit them financially. Peoplewhowerewakingupfirstweretheoneswhodidn’thaveanymoney,whichkeptusstruggling financially toget thewordoutonmindcontrol.Theybought everybook we had in Canada15 in order to spread the word themselves, whichprovidedjustenoughmoneyforthelongdrivebacktoAlabama.

“I’ve got an olderGoldWingmotorcycle you can have in lieu of a speakers’fee,” our sponsor Hugh Hale offered. “I know you two enjoy riding and arecapableoffixingupoldbikes,sopleasetakeitwithyou.Itstoomuchformetohandle.”

Knowingwecouldfixandsellthebike,weobtainedthepaperworkandhitched

amotorcycletrailertothecar.“Wereallyappreciatethis,”wetoldhim.“Mostofall, thank you for the opportunity to speak to so many fine awake awareCanadiansandgettingthewordoutonmindcontrol.”TheimpactwehadmadeinCanadawouldreverberateforyearstocome.

Oncewearrivedattheborder,wewereastonishedandashamedtoseeadistinctline of trash, litter, and filth of the US clashing with Canada’s pristineenvironment. US border guardswere not so kind, and it took us two days ofdetainmentbeforewefinallywereallowedbackintoourowncountry.

TheGoldWingmotorcycleresultedinaseriesoftrades,sales,andrepairsthatkept us financially afloat for months. TRANCE was priced to perpetuate theword rather than generate income, which was exactly the mode of operationneededasUSGovernmentWhistleblowers.

TheadvertisementthatDuncanRhodesraninNexusMagazinesetprecedentforothers to do likewise, and TRANCE became a popular topic in patriotnewspapers and radio stations across the country and worldwide. It’s a goodthing,too,becausecasesofbooksnowfilledthetinyhomewerented.

“Whoisgoingtobuyallthesebooks?”IwailedwhenIsawthem.“Peoplearen’tgoingtowanttoreadthis.TRANCEwaswrittenforCongress!”

“You’reright,”Marksaid.“Peoplewon’twanttoreadthisandtheywon’twanttobelieveit,butthatdoesn’tprecludethefactthattheywillreadandbelievetheelementstheyrelateto.Peopleareaskingquestionsanddemandinganswers,andTRANCE provides those answers like it or not! Don’t be so negative. Thesebookswon’tbearoundherelong.”

Beforethefirstboxofbookscouldgatherdust,wehadtoreprint16.Markwasright;peopledidwanttoknowthetruthevenifitwasn’tpleasant.Armedwithtruth, they became empowered to make a difference for themselves, theirchildren,theircommunitiesandtheirnation.Peoplewerereadyforchange,andpublicawarenesswasprovingtobetheultimatejustice.

ByDecember,JudgeShookhoffscheduledacourthearingtoaddresstheissueofKelly’s accumulating mail. The global letter writing campaign that raised thequestion “what does national security have to do with the documented and

provenrapeandmolestationofachild’smindandbody?”hadvastlyincreasedafter national security was invoked on Kelly’s case in 1993, and was rapidlyescalating again sinceTRANCE had been released. In direct proportion to theletters pouring into Tennessee’s Governor’s office were letters and packagesaddressedtoKellywishingherwell.

JabneelsupervisorstraveledtoNashvillewithKellyforthehearing.Toherandme,thishearingprovidedonemoreopportunitytobetogether.Wehuggedeachotherandsatdown,eager tocatchuponeverythingsincewe’d last seeneachother.Closelymonitoredunder thecircumstances,Kelly carefully revealed theConstitutionalLawbookletthatIpreviouslyslippedher.WhenMarkandIhadmetwithJohnTrochmaninMontanalastspring,heaskedmetogivethebooklettoKellyforhimifpossible.Ihad,andnowIcouldseethatsheobviouslyhadreadit.

Whenthehearingbegan,JudgeShookhoffwasapparentlyfrustratedwitheventsandtheboxesofmailthathadaccumulatedsupportingher.“Farbeitfrommeto‘violateyourConstitutionalRights’!”he toldKelly. “Youcanhaveyourmail.All of it.And Iwant you to knowwhyyouhave received somuchmail,” hecontinued,wavingacopyofTRANCE fromhis Judge’sbench.“Iwantyou toreadthisbook!”

Kellycalmlyreplied,“ItismyConstitutionalRighttoreadwhatIwant.AndIchoose not to read that book because I need to heal from the inside out, notthroughoutsideinput.”

I was proud of Kelly for having read the Constitutional Law booklet JohnTrochmanhadsent,andmostofallforapplyingwhatshelearned.Aboveall,sheapparently understood what it took to heal and was tending to her ownrehabilitationeloquently!Thiswasthefirsttimeshehadbeenpermittedtospeakincourt,andJudgeShookhoffwasobviouslyastounded.Courtwasadjourned.

TheJabneel supervisorswhoescortedhercelebratedhervictory,andappearednearly as excited as Iwas.Thankfully they had driven a van, and itwas nowfully packedwith boxes ofmail. On theway back toKnoxville, they boughtKelly a celebration dinner. Between their understanding and compassion, ourvisits, and Kelly’s friendship with the horse pastured next door, she wasprogressing.Bestofall,Kellyhadbeengivenavoiceincourtandwasheard.

Chapter42SELECTIONS

“Mom!”Kelly squealed through thephone. “You should see the cards, letters,and gifts I got! People really do care! I got a billion stuffed animals, maybemore,”shelaughed.“Ikeptmyfavoritesandpassedaroundtherest.Allthekidsat Jabneel have cuddly toys now. I got awhole library full of books. Lots ofthemarehorsebooks,thereallynicekindthatpeopleputontheircoffeetableswiththegreatestpictures.RightnowI’mreadingareallygoodbookthatafriendofyourssentme.Sheissocool.HernameisMartaBrown.”

“I’m not surprised you picked her out of hundreds,” I smiled. “She is a purelovingspirit.”

“Icantell!HaveyoueverreadJamesRedfield’sTheCelestineProphecy1?”

“Notyet,”Itoldher,eagertohearmore.

“You’llloveit!I’llgiveyouacopywhenyougethere.Actually,Ihavethree.‘Whatacoincidence!’Threepeoplesentittome.”

“Doyoubelieveincoincidence?”Iasked.

“Not really,” she answered. “Imean, that’s kindof thepart I’m reading aboutnow.See,TheCelestineProphecy sayswhenyoupayattention tocoincidence,youlearnthey’rereallynotcoincidencesafterall.Theyhappenforareason.Ithelpsapersontobeawareofwhathappensaroundthem.”

Already I liked the ‘being aware’ part. “Everybody is on their own learningpath,”Itoldher,“soarecoincidencessomethingtolearnfromorsomethingtoemotionallyrespondto?”

“Learnfrom,”shequicklyanswered.“Personally, Idon’t letoutside influences

directmyfeelings.I’vebeenstuckaroundalotofcrazypeopleandwhenIstaytrue-to-soul and strong in who I am like we’ve talked about, their crazinessdoesn’tdrivemecrazy.Ithink‘coincidence’ismorelikethefactthatIgotthreeof these books. Three people thought it would be helpful to me. And I‘coincidentally’chosetotellyouaboutMarta,becauseshefeelsclosest.IfeelaconnectiontoherandIdon’tevenknowher.”

“Her senses are heightened like yours are,” I said. “And she telepathicallycommunicateswithanimals2.Maybeyoupickeduponthatsomehow.”

“Oh,Mom,”Kellysaidseriously,“Icanfeelthelovefromallthesepeople.Youshouldseemyletters.Somesaytheyareprayingforme,othersaremoredirectinsendinglovestraighton,abunchofpeoplearebeamingmebluelights,”shegiggled.“Sometosscrystals,afewareholdingchurchservicesforme,andmostmeditateonsendingmelove.Thereareevennativetribalceremoniesheldinmyname3!Youknowwhatisthecoolestthing?Itdoesn’tmatterwhattheybelievein, Icanfeel itall!Bestofall, Icouldfeel itbefore theytoldme!Iwonder ifthat’swhat it feels like toGod’s Love energy? Itwouldn’tmatterwhat namepeoplecallGodwhenit’stheLoveenergythatcounts.”

“Unconditional Love,” I concluded. “That is the ultimate power, the mostpowerfulforceintheuniverse.Thesameenergyasyoursoul.Sowhenyoulivetrue-to-soul,youlivetrue-to-love,andtherearenolimits towhatyourlifecanhold!Therearenolimitstowhatyoucanbeandaccomplish!”

“When I stay true-to-soul and true to the Love energy that I am inside, thenprayerislikeadirectedtelepathytoGod’sLove4energythatmakesitbrighter,whichmakesmebrighterwhenIstaytunedin!Whatifeverybodyintheworlddidthatatthesametime?”Sheasked,obviouslyenjoyingherownprofundity.

“MaybeitwouldcreateacollectiveconsciousLove5energypowerfulenoughtopeacefullychangetheworldforthebetter,”Iencouragedher.

Oh,Mom,”shesaid,stillenthused,“Doyouhaveanyextrastamps?Iwant towriteeveryoneback.Igotsomereallyniceartsuppliesandwanttosendsomepeople pictures. I’m going to draw something forMarta for sure. Probably ahorse.”

“Wow,”Ilaughed.“Whata‘coincidence’!Martaisalsoanartist,andshekeepshorses on her ranch. She’d love hearing fromyou. I’ll send you some stampsrightaway.”Markand Ikept lotsof stampsaround thesedays tomailout thecopiesofTRANCEpeopleordered.

“Thanks,”shesaid.“I’dratheryoubringthem,though,ifyoucan.I’dreallyliketoseeyou.Iwishyouwerehere.”

“You know I am in spirit,” I assured her. “I’m always striving to see you.‘EverythingIdo,Idoit foryou.’Weshouldbeable tocomeandseeyourealsoon,althoughtomorrowwouldn’tbesoonenough.”

“Ortoday,”sheadded.

“Oryesterday,”I toppedher.“Inorderforanythingtobe‘fastenough’forourfamilytogethernessitwouldhavetoberetroactive.It’sneverfastenough.Andthereisnever‘enoughtime’whenwedogettogether!”

“Iknow,”Kellyagreed.“It’sagoodthingourloveistimeless.”

“Forreal!”Iagreed.“DadandIhavetomakeaquickbusinesstripandwe’llseeyouassoonaswegetback.Hugyourstallionformeandallyournewstuffedanimals.”

“Callmetomorrow?”

“Youknowit.Seeyousoon.Iloveyou!”

Talking with Kelly is always a profoundly fun experience because she is. Ireflectedonourconversation,trustingthateveryonewhowroteherwouldsensethat she was sending love back to them. I sifted through the assortment ofstamps, picking out ones I thought she’d especially be drawn to. Perhaps itwould help her to focus and actually write folks back as she intended. Asabsolute as she was in her determination to write them all back, I knew shewouldonlyfocus longenoughtowriteafew.Therestwouldeitherremainanintention,orlittlebylittleshemaywriteafewmore.Kelly’sabilitytofocusandfollowthroughonher intentionshadbeenhinderedbyherVanderbiltordeal. I

wonderedwhatthiswouldmeanforherfutureifrehabwasn’tobtainedforher.Regardless, I rested in knowing she is a strong spirit. She certainly is aninspirationtome!

Isealedtheenvelopeofstampstomailtoheronourwayoutoftown.WehadbusinessinLasVegasandwerelookingforwardtothefunwewouldhaveintheprocess. Mark and I didn’t follow the old adage “never mix business withpleasure.” Our work was intense, and balancing the stress with play seemednatural. And LasVegaswas ideal for exercising ourwork ethic economicallysinceneitherofusgambles.

IndowntownLasVegas,rightneartheinfamousVegasstrip,MarkandIlocatedthebuildingwherewewouldbedoing live, in-studio radio.OurhostwasLouEpton6, a wise and clever political activist dedicated to truth whose wit wasbrighterthanallthelightsofLasVegas.LouwasonceasuccessfulHollywoodcharacteractorwholookedlikehestillbelongedinfrontofaTVcameraratherthana radiomicrophone.Yethis radioaudiencewasenormous,dedicated,andreflectiveofhisvastintellect.LouEptonwasmakingadifference,andMarkandIwerepleasedtobeapartofhisshow.

Ontheair,wetalkedaboutTRANCEandourpersonalexperiencesthatledtoitsrelease.Thesecondpartoftheshow,Loutookcallerswhokepthisswitchboardlitupinanefforttoaskquestions.Hislistenersaskedquestionsregardinghomeschooling;howtopersonallyrecoverfromthetraumaoftragedieslikeWacoandthe Oklahoma City bombing; how to help loved ones suffering fromdissociation;howtothinkaboveandbeyondmediaspinandsocialengineeringto take back our government; Clinton’s ‘hit list’ and CIA cocaine crimes;HAARP, NAFTA and the NewWorld Order; and every other pertinent issuefacingAmericansocietythatwasaddressedinTRANCE’sdocumentedfacts.

AsUSGovernmentWhistleblowers,Mark and I were limited to talking onlyabout our experience. Since mind control was the common thread weavingthroughsociety’swoes,thisallowedforawiderangeoftopicstodiscuss.LawsofseditionslightlylimitedwhatMarkcoulddiscussregardinghisexperienceinIntelligence, yet his insights on the history of mind control and internationalramificationswere significant.Membersof the IntelligenceCommunitywouldcall in to Lou’s show to askMark questions that I couldn’t begin to answer,while others asked questions directly pertaining tomy experience undermind

controlonaWhiteHousePentagonlevel.

Onecallercuriousabout the increasinglystrangerelationshipbetweenBillandHillary Clinton wanted to know about Independent Council Ken Starr’s7revelations of Bill’s affairs withGennifer Flowers and Paula Jones. Frommyexperience,IperceivedBillandHillarytoshareastrongfriendshipandbusinessrelationship.SinceIknewthembothtobebisexual8, themediahyped‘affairs’couldnotbewhattheyappeared.Icalledthema“perversiondiversion”fromtherealcrimesBill andHillarywereguiltyof.Hillary’sactasa jiltedwifewasadeliberate “division decision.” Knowing the Clintons and social engineeringtactics,theillusionwascreatedtoseparateherfromBillinthepubliceyesothatshewould eventually run for President as intended. Just asBillwent into theofficeofPresidentasa“Democrat” tomake thepublic feel theyhadachangefrom“Republicans” leadingtheminto theNewWorldOrder,HillarywouldbetheillusionofchangefrommalePresidents.

Wewenttostationbreak,andIsummeduptheirrelationshiptoLouasIpulledoffmyheadphones.“HillaryiswithBillforhishead,andheiswithherforherbrains.”Webegan laughing,which increasedmyneed to relievemyselfof thecoffeeI’dbeendrinking.

“The ladies’ room is across the way,” Lou explained. “Since the rest of thebuilding is closed for the night, you’ll need to walk outside to reach it.” Hehandedme thekeys. Itwasnearlymidnight and I needed tohurry inorder towrapuptonight’sradioshowafterthebreakandranacrossthelot.

“Catty!”AforeignvoicedboomedasIwatchedthebiggestmanI’deverseeninmylifequicklyemergefromavan.IturnedaroundtoretreatbacktothesafetyofLou’soffice,andthemanbeganrunningafterme.“Catty!”Hecalledagaininaheavyaccent,“Ineedtospeakwithyou.”

Louwasalreadyatthedoor,hiseyestwinklingasusualasheopeneditforme.

“Vuk,”heidentifiedthegiantSerbian.“Youfrightenedher.Youforgetyouareabigman.”

“Iwanted tocatchCattybefore theshowconcluded,”hesaid.“I sawher,andthoughtshewasleaving.”

“Actually,sheneededtousetheladies’roomanddoesn’thavetimenow,”Lousaid, looking at hiswatch. “We’re back on the air for the conclusion.Have aseat,” he told the Serbian while we dashed back into the studio for our finalremarks.MarkandIthankedLouforhostingusonhisshow,andheinvitedusback.Afterhisclosingremarks,weremovedourheadphonesandswitchedofftheequipment.Louhandedmethekeysagainwithasmile,andbeganclosingupthestudiowhileIdashedovertotheladies’room.MarkwalkedovertotalkwithVuk.

When I came back out, the studiowas closed andMark, Lou, andVukwerealready in the parking lot talking and laughing like old friends. I joined themlongenoughto learnthatVukwasaSerbianspookcloselyassociatedwith theworldcourt inTheHague.Heneededvideotaped testimony,andarrangementsweremadeforhimtovisitusatourhomeinAlabamathenextmonth.

Markand IbidLougood-byeand returned toourbudgethotel exhausted.Weignoredtheharmoniclureofthecasinowitheaseaswewearilymadeourwaytoour room. Besides, asMark wisely quips, ‘You will eventually loose playinganotherman’sgame.’

“I’mhungry,”Icomplainedaswestretchedacrossthebed.“I’msotired,though,itdoesn’tmatterthatwedon’thavemoneyfordinner.”

“I’m so tired it doesn’t matter that this bed is hard,” Mark added, and thenlaughed when he discovered the outdated bed-vibrating device bolted to thenightstand.“Onequarterwouldsolveallourproblems.Wewouldn’thearyourstomachgrowloverthenoiseofthiscontraption,anditwouldbouncethisbedasthoughithadsprings.”

“Save the quarter,” I said, joining in his laughter. “Let’s bounce the bedourselves.”

The next day, we were scheduled for an afternoon radio broadcast with RodRemlin andLance Schofield,whose radio stationwas affiliatedwithWWCR,WorldWideChristianRadio.TheirmakeshiftstudiowasinRodRemlin’shome,whichwasagorgeousupscalehomeinasuburboutsideofVegas.MarkandIimmediatelyfeltathomewiththesetwo,andtheradioshowswedidwiththemwere themost comprehensive solutionbasedbroadcasts ever.Nowonder their

listeningaudiencewassobig!

Ourconversationswereoftensodeepandinterestingthat itwaseasytoforgetwewereontheair.Afterall,thetruthwasthesamewhetherwewerespeakingitor talking it. Rod Remlin and Lance Schofield were the same way, and thenumerouscallerslightinguptheswitchboardwantedtojoininourconversation.

Former Mexican President Carlos Salinas deGortari was currently seekingasylum in Irelandwhile his brother,Raul,was serving50years for their drugrunningandmurder.Nevertheless,SalinaswasselectedtobecomePresidentoftheWorldTradeOrganizationfortheNewWorldOrdereffort9.Backinthe‘80swhen Iwasbeingused to lay thegroundwork forNAFTA10, I understood thecloserelationshipbetweenSalinas,CheneyandBush,Sr.Itwaspre-determinedyearsinadvancethatSalinaswouldtaketheofficeofPresidentofMexicowhileBushbecamePresidentoftheUSandBrianMulroneyPrimeMinisterofCanadasothethreecouldusherinNAFTA.

What did this say about elections? Based on everything I witnessed andexperiencedbehind the scenesof theNewWorldOrder, electionswere riggedand pre-decided. In thirdworld countrieswhere electronic balletswere not inuse, the United States sent in “vote monitors11” to ensure turnout was asplanned.Inthesevolatiletimes,manyAmericanswererealizing‘elections’wereappointedandthesubjectwasafocusoftalkradio.

What did this say aboutSalinas?That he not onlywas a proven traitor to hiscountry,hewas a traitor tohisbrotherwithwhom Iknewhewas in thedrugbusiness12,andatraitortotheworld.

Whatdid this sayaboutCheney?That ifUSpoliticalcrimesagainsthumanityand/or theenvironmentwereoccurring,hewasin the loopgivingorderswhilehidingbehindhiscorporateinterestssuchasHalliburton.

What did this say about Bush, Sr. and BrianMulroney? That they were selfappointedleadersmisleadingtheircountriesintoNewWorldOrdercontrols.

No, I didnot believe in elections anymore thandid thepoliticians andworldleadersIwasassociatedwithinMKUltraundermindcontrol.Globalelections

were based on a much bigger agenda formulated by DARPA technology andfundedbya fewworldbankersandglobalelite.Basedonwhat Iknew,Bush,Jr.13wasexpected to followBillClinton into thePresidency,andHillarysoonwouldfollowhim,keepingitallinthefamilyofdictators--unlesspeoplewokeup,wisedup,andelectedtobecomeactivelyinvolvedinpoliticsfromthelocallevelonup.

“TheSecretGovernmentwent intoplace in1947,”Markexplained toacaller.“As did theNational SecurityAct. TheConstitution of theUnited Stateswasfounded in truth and justice for all, not for a fewself appointed secret leadersoperatingonthephilosophythat‘secretknowledgeequalspower.’Secretshavenow compounded to the point where people no longer think to ask the rightquestions. Technological secrets emerge as technological control. Ask whatHAARPisabout.AskaboutDARPA.Asknowwhileyoucanstillthinktodosobecause technology isbreeding itself throughcomputerizationand it’s timewetookitoutofthehandsoftheSecretGovernment.”

“Why are we following leaders we didn’t elect?” I asked. “The criminals incontrolofourinformation,our technology,andourcountryare intelligent,buttheylackwisdom.Theynevercountedonthestrengthofthehumanspirit.Theynevercountedonanyonetellingtheirsecrets.Theirarroganceistheirdownfall.Wisdomoutthinksacriminalmindeverytime.Wedidn’telectour leaders,butwecanelectnottofollowthemthroughpeacefulGandhiannoncompliance.”

CarlKlang’sWeWant This Country Back14 faded in, bridging us to the nextsegmentoftheworldwidebroadcast.

Chapter43COLLECTIVECONSCIOUSEVOLUTION

“Are you conscious of the international concern you have raised with yourcase?”Vukasked,savoringanotherbiteofthegigantic42ozsteakMarkboughtandpreparedforhim.“TheWorldCourtinTheHagueisveryinterestedinwhatyouhavetosay.BythetimeIamthroughkeepingtheappointmentsIhavewithyourJusticeDepartmentandgovernmentleadersofcountriesIwillnotidentifyin this house…” Vuk interrupted himself to savor more of Mark’s exquisitecuisine.Heclosedhiseyesandmoaned,dabbingthecornersofhismouthwithhisnapkin.“Didyouknowyourhouseisbugged?”

“Theybugpeopleforfarlessinthiscountry,”Marksmiled.“C’monVuk.Whatdoyouthinkthisis,afreecountry?”

Vuklaughed,leaningbackinhischair.Ourinexpensivedinettewasnotcapableofsupportingsuchweight.NotthatVukwasoverweightforhissize,itwasjustthathissizewasgiganticandmuscled.Thechairgroanedasthemetaltwisted.

“I’msorry,”Vukapologized.“I’vebrokentwoofyourchairsandfearyouwon’task me back for more of your cooking.Mark, you are the finest chef in theworld.Iknow.I’mqualifiedtomakethatjudgmentsinceIhavesampledcuisineinthefinestrestaurantsallaroundtheworldinmytravels.IwouldflytoUnitedStates,toAlabama,justfordinnerrighthere.Iwillbringchairs.”

MarkchuckledashereplacedVuk’schair.“I’msorryIdon’thaveastrongchairtoofferyou,”hesaid.“Thereisnomoneyinwhistleblowing,though,andweallmake dowithwhatwe can afford.This dinettewas free.And you are free tocomebackandseeusanytimeyouchoose,myfriend.”

VukhadfastbecomeafriendwhilewewereinVegas,andthatfriendshiponlysolidified more since his arrival in Alabama. Vuk was a spook’s spook on amissionanditwasdeeplyencouragingtoknowaspyofhisstaturesharedour

passion for spreading the truth revealed inTRANCE. “Wewill succeed,”Vukvowed.“Kellyisallthereasonintheworldtomakesureofit.You,too,Catty.ButKelly,sheismymotive.”Tearsfilledhiseyesfromhisintensesincerity.

Armedwithacaseofbooksandvideosof recorded testimony,Vukhuggedusgood-bye.“Youwillhearfrommeagainsoon,”hepromised.

Andwedid.VukdidcomebacktoAlabamaonoccasion‘fordinner’andprovedtobeapowerfulallyinourquesttoincitepeacefulchange.

Thephonerang.“Weneedtobuysomemorebooksfromyou,”adearsupporterof ours from themid-west toldme, then hollered, “Wally, pick up the phone.Cathy’sontheline.”WallyandJuneMidkiffwereamongthefinestpeopleMarkandIhadmet.This lovingpairwasabsolutelydedicated tohelpingspread thewordonmindcontrolatallcosts.Theirfixedretirementincomedidn’tstopthemfrompassingcopiesofTRANCE totheirlocalpoliticians, townsfolk,andotherpatriotgroupstheysupported.Theywerelivingproofthatagehadnothingtodowith compassion and concern for the future. They had enjoyed the best ofAmericawhen itwas free; backwhen it endedwars rather than started them.TheycherishedUSConstitutionalvaluesandwereappalledtoseethemerodedand replaced with NewWorld Orders.WhilemanyAmericans were lulled tosleepbyapathyandcomplacency,JuneandWallystayedvigilant,soundingthewake up call. They were alarmed by the criminal takeover of Americangovernment,andwereactivelydedicatingtheirallintermsoftimeandmoneytorestoretruthandjusticetotheircountry.Theychosetodoitthroughsupportingus,amongothers.

As Ihungup thephone, it rangagain. ItwasWesMann1.“Ineedsomemorebooks,” he said. “How soon can you shipme some? I sold out at the festivalwhenoneofmyspeakers,DavidIcke2,talkedaboutyouguys.”WesMannwashighly respected throughout Canada for the annual festivals he hosted inspectacularBritishColumbia.He brought in speakers from all over theworldwho shared his passion for freedom. Wes was a political activist who wasmaking a difference, and books from the various speakers he brought inweresold through his Preferred Network3 year round. During his festival, peopletraveledfromalloverCanadatocamponhispristinewilderness land,dineonhissister’sinfamousfinecooking,andattendtheseminarshostedbydozensofsought-after speakers. The eventwas huge and always successful.Mark’s and

mypersonalrespectforWesisbiggerthanlife.ThechildhoodhesurvivedisthemosthorrificI’veeverheard,andhedealtwithhispastinordertomoveforwardandstrengthenotherswithtruth.

The phone rang again. Something needed to be done about this constantintrusion that had grown in direct proportion to our success in bringing thereality of mind control to light. Yet our success as whistleblowers was notreflectedinourfinances.“Weneedacode-a-phone,”IcalledtoMarkwhowasworkingintheotherroom.“Orasecretary.”

“Wecan’taffordeither,”heholleredbackgood-naturedly.“I’llanswerit.”

It was Larry Becraft informing us of a rally being organized forWashington,DC.“AfriendofmineinCaliforniaisstructuringtheeventrightnowandwantstoknowifyou’llspeak.ItwillbeheldonthemalllawninfrontoftheCapitalonLaborDayWeekend.”

“Ofcoursewe’llbethere,”Markassuredhim.“Wewouldn’tmissit.”

“Comebymyoffice,”Becraftsaid,assumingourphonewasbugged.“I’llgiveyouaninformationpacket.”

ThatwasuncharacteristicofBecrafttosuggestavisitunlesshehadsomethingtotellus thathedidn’twant tosayover thephone.Hecertainlywasn’tonetowastehistimeanymorethanwewere,soMarkagreedtomeetwithhimrightawaytofindoutwhyhereallywantedtoseeus.

“I’vegotamessageforyou involvingevidenceonOperationWatchtower,”hetipped us. Through a series of connections, it was arranged for us to pick upboxesofdocumentsdetailingGeorgeBush,Sr.’sWatchtowercocaineandheroinroutes.RetiredBrigadierGeneralRussellBowenwas once an integral part ofthis operation. He worked directly under Bush until he turned whistleblowerthrough his 1991 book The Immaculate Deception, The Bush Crime FamilyExposed4.ItwaswidelyknownthattheMexicanandCaribbeandrugopsIhadworkedunderMKUltramind control tied directly inwithWatchtower.ThesedocumentsandevidencescouldproveinvaluabletoussinceGeneralBowenwasleavingthecountryindisgustandfrustrationwiththelackofjustice.Bush,Sr.hadlockedhimupinaFederalPrisonuntilheagreedtoleavethecountry.

NumerousIntelligenceinsiderslikehimweretellingalltothosewitheyestoseeand ears to hear truth.RodneyStich’s bookDefraudingAmerica5 tied inwithRussell Bowen’s book and testimony as well as Col. Fletcher Prouty’s6revelations. Gaylon Ross7, formerly associated with the National SecurityAgency,publiclyupdateshisglobalidentificationofWho’sWhooftheElite8 inorderthatpeopleknowwhotheirself-appointedleadersare.Thetruthhasbeenandisoutthereforthegrowingnumbersofawakeandawarepeopleseekingit.

TheUSGovernment deliberately operates far in advance ofwhat they finallyallow the people to know, whereby forerunners like Fletcher Prouty wereliterallyaheadoftheirtimeintheirrevelations.Withtruth“aheadoftime”andAmericans “losing time” due to high tech mass mind control, bridging theinformation gap would require timeless spiritual evolution. The criminals incontrol of our country knew this, and were counting on fear, trauma andsuperstition to keep people from gaining the spiritual strength necessary tooutthink them.They feared the collective conscious9wisdom that beginswithtruth. Again, their shallow flat-thinking and egotistical arrogance had notaccounted for Intelligence insiders having the strength of spirit to collectivelytelltheirsecretsandlaunchtheevolution.

Equallyasinfluentialwerethevastnumberofgovernmentcontractorsoperatingon a Need-to-Know who expanded their knowledge with truth. Free thoughtallowsforthecapacitytothinkbeyondoneselftoabiggerpictureandnowthey,too, were talking and/or applying peaceful noncompliance. Scientists from allovertheworldconcernedwithenvironmentalandtechnologicalissueswerealsosharing information, organizing, and applying solutions. The Organization ofConcerned Scientists10 extends through international think tanks wherecollective conscious awareness continues to escalate at a rate that canonlybeattributed to wisdom. Such spiritual evolution continues to collectively risewhile truth is shared, peaceful noncompliance is applied where effective, andchangeismadefromwithin.

WhenBarbaraTrent accepted herAcademyAward for her 1993 documentaryThePanamaDeception11,shedidn’twearadesignergownasshewalkeduptothe podium and brilliantly explained that whistleblowers never profit becausetheirpassionissostrongeverypennyisdedicatedtofurtheringtheireffort.SoitwaswithMarkandme.Wechose toamplifyourvoicebyworkingexhaustivehoursspeakingoutonradioandinpersonallover thecountryandworldwide.

We met a vast array of people who were waking up to make a differencewheneverandwherevertheycould.ManyofthesefinepeoplewereconvergingonWashington,DCwithusLaborDayweekend.

MarkandIlocatedabudgetmotelanhour’sdrivefromDC,andwereunpackingourbagswhenwewerestartledbyaknockonourdoor.ItwasourfriendPerryFerrell,whohaddrivenhisPrevobushalfwayacrossthecountrytoattendtherally.Perry’sautisticson,Glenn,ispureunconditionalloveduetotheexemplarythoughtcommunication12theyshare.

“Whatareyoudoinginthisbudgetmotel?”heasked.“IbookedyouaroomattheWatergateHotel.C’mon.Nobodywill‘bugyou’there.”

WelaughedatPerry’scleverjoke,whichwastypicalofhisever-presentwit.TheWatergatewasinfamousforthebuggingincidentthatcostNixonhisPresidency.Perry’s generous offer not onlywould be luxurious and a convenientwalkingdistancetoourspeakingengagement, itpromisedtobefunconsideringheandhisentouragewerestayingthere,too.Itwasquitestressfulformetobespeakingright in front of the nation’sCapitol knowing that everymember ofCongresshad a copy of TRANCE--including my former abusers! The fun that alwaysaccompaniedPerrywouldcertainlyprovidetheperfectbalancetothestress.Tome,“balance”wasalwaystippedtothegoodinkeepingwithuniversaljustice.

OurroomattheWatergatewasspectacular,biggerthanourhouseinAlabama.Andthebedwasabsolutelyunforgettable.MarkandIwereoutonourbalconywhensomeoneknockedonthedoor,andImademywaythroughourelaborateroom and hallways to answer it. It was Perry. “Can you see all those ‘suits’guardingmy room?”he jokingly called toMark,whowas still outside on thebalcony.

“No,”Markanswered,lookingaroundandnotingthearmedguardsstrategicallyplacedonthepremises’balconiesandrooftop.“Seriously,isn’tthatBobDole’ssuitethattheguyindarksunglassesisguarding?”

TheWatergatewasinfamousforitspoliticalties.Perrylaughed,“IthoughttheywereallguardingmyroomwhileItakeyoutodinner.”

Dinnerwasevenmorefunthanitwasdelicious,andthehorrorsandtraumasI

hadexperiencedinDCfadedfarintothepast.ThispositiveexperiencegavemejusttheedgeIneededforspeakingthenextday,loudandclearenoughforByrd,Traficant,theClintons,andalltherestofDCtohear.

Early the next morning we set up a table near the stage from which to sellTRANCEafterspeaking.Dozensoffriends,activists,andpatriotswehadcometoknowwere settingup their tablesandboothsaswellwhileCarlKlang finetunedthesoundsystemforusall,thensoulfullybegansinging.CharlenaAldenhaddoneacommendablejoborganizingandstructuringtheevent.NationalTVwas expectedly absent, but international news groups were in abundance. Allweekend long, speakers andmusic resounded throughDC.Weconnectedwithotherspeakers,madenewfriendsandembracedthosewealreadyknew,signedbooks,andgavenumerousinterviewswhilecrowdsofpeoplegatheredaround.

“Hey girl,” a familiar voice said. “I rode the bus all the way to DC for thisevent.”

“Dana!” I exclaimed, hugging my friend. “I didn’t know you were coming.Whereareyoustaying?”

“I found a roomover at the shelter,” she answered.Danawas street-wise andresourceful,butitdidn’tseemrightthatthisgorgeouspeaceactivistshouldstayina shelter. “Sleeping isn’twhy I’mhereanyway. Iwanted toexperience thisrallyandcontributeanywayIcan.”

“Our friend Perry Ferrell got us a room over at theWatergate where no onewould‘bugus’,”Itoldher,laughing.“It’sahugeroomandIreallywishyou’dcomeandstaywithus.Comeon,”Ipleaded.“AgorgeousgirllikeyoubelongsattheWatergate.”

Herbigeyestwinkledatthereverberatingmeaning.“Maybe,”shesaid,alwaysindependent.“Iappreciatetheofferanyway.”ShetookoffherbackpacktoshowmethebrochuresshehadbroughtdepictingKellyandtellingherplight.“Whileyou’re speaking, I can pass these around.” Typically, Danawas always doingsomethingsignificantlyprofound.

Danahadattendeda seminarmonthsbeforewhereMarkand Iwerespeaking,andwebecameinstantfriends.Wesharedaconnectionbeyondwords.Literally!

Dana’s soulful telepathy was familiar, as though we had known each otherforeverandourfutureswouldremaininner-twined.Herchildhoodwasthekindthathinderedmost,butDanadidnotrelatetothe‘victimspace’anymorethanIdid.Instead,sheturnedthenegativeofherpastintopositiveaction.

Sheopenedherheartandherhometohelpothersfindtheirinnerstrengthjustasshehad.Suchstrengthwasneededthesedaysmorethaneverinordertothrivein an increasingly difficult society. Sexually abused children often grew up tobecome exotic dancers, porn stars and prostitutes which exposed them to awholenewworldof problems.Danawas there tooffer shelter, understanding,healing, peace of mind, and rehabilitation from addictions to CIA cocaine,heroin,andcrack.Herhumanitarianandpoliticalactivismwasexemplary,andIwasthrilledthatshehadjoinedusinDC.

Thesunwasrisinghigh,aswasthetemperature,whenPerryofferedtobuyusallcolddrinksandsnacks.“Comewithme,”hesuggested.IhesitateduntilDanasaidshe’dfillinformeatthetabletohelpMarksellbooks.“I’llwatchafterherrealclose,”PerryassuredMark,awareofconcernsformybeing insuchcloseproximitytomyabusers.

DCshoppingwasprimarilylocatedunderground,andPerryandIoptedforthemarketundertheWatergate.Justbeyondtheprestigiouslobbywereescalatorstothe market, and we rode them down. Perry’s arms were already full of colddrinkswhenhelocatedashoppingcart,whichhecontinuedtoloadwithsnacksand a cooler.While he filled the cart, I explored the smallmarketwonderingwhat gourmet goodies filled the shelves to cater to the rich and famous thatshopped there. A few minutes later, Perry caught up with me, breathless. “Icouldn’tfindyou!”heexclaimed.“Wheredidyougo?Thereareonlythreeislesin this store. I thought theFeds carriedyouawayor something.Howwould IexplainthattoMark?IpromisedIwouldlookafteryou.”

Thewholethingseemedludicroustome,butPerrywasgenuinelyshakenashepaid for the items and we went out the door with the shopping cart full ofrefreshments.Neveroneforrules,regulations,andsocialprotocol,Perrypausedatthebottomoftheescalatorlongenoughtoaimthecartbeforepushingitontothemovingstairs.“Ialreadylostyouonce,andIrefusetoleaveyouherewhileIcarrythesepurchasessackbysack,”heexplainedastheshoppingcartclatteredand rattled loudly along the escalator. It was so wrong, especially at the

Watergate,tomakesuchanoisyspectacleofourselvesandIlaughedmyselftotears. Iwasdoubledover laughingby the time theescalator reached the lobbyandPerryslammedthecartover thehumpandonto theWatergate’sexpensivecarpet. He nonchalantly tipped the doorman as he told him to return the cartdownstairs.Thedoormanwasastonished,wonderinghowhewouldaccomplishsuch a maneuver while we climbed into the cab. The derelict shopping cartlooked ridiculously out of place in the lobby of one of the most prestigioushotelsintheDC,andIwasstilllaughingwhenwearrivedbackattherally.

ItwasnearlytimeforMarkandmetospeak.ItwassuchanhonorandprivilegetospeakbesidethelikesofLarryBecraft13,GaylonRoss14,DavidIcke15, JackMcLamb16,Dr.StanMonteith17,MichaelNew18anddozensmoreinfrontofournations capital, our peers, crowds of people and international news groups.Mark’s andmy presentation of facts centered on repeal of the 1947 NationalSecurityAct,whichthreatensthesecurityofournationandworld19bycoveringcrimes against humanity. Mark’s focus was more pointed, whereas mineextendedtoKelly.

“Harry Truman,”Mark was saying to the crowd,” had only one regret in hisPresidency,according tohissister’s testimony,and that issigning theNationalSecurityAct into power. Truman felt he had been tricked into signing it, andforesawitasthedownfallofthecountryhelovedandservedsowell.The1947NationalSecurityActfullyallowsforthetakeoveroftheAmericangovernmentbyasecretgovernment,orshadowgovernmentasithasbeencalled.HereintheUnited States of Americawe have laws, Constitutional Laws, and the Bill ofRights enabling we-the-people from succumbing to such takeover; yet theNationalSecurityActoverrides themall.Wedon’tneedmorelawstostoptheproliferationofthesecriminalsincontrolofourcountryandtheirblatantchildabuse,mind control, erosion of justice, drug dealings,murders, genocide, anddominanceoftheworld’stechnologyandresources.Weonlyneedtorepealthe1947NationalSecurityAct!”

Applause was thunderous. After all, every issue being presented at this rallyultimatelycamedowntothefinalpointthattheNationalSecurityActneededtoberepealed.

Ispokeoutwithapassion,givingvoicetothenumerousmindcontrolsurvivors

likeKellywhocouldn’tthinktospeakoutforthemselvesandwerebeingdeniedjustice and rehabilitation for so-called “reasons of national security.”While IbroughttheissueofmindcontroltolightandgavevoicetoKelly’splight,Danadistributedhundredsofflyers.Kelly’spreciousimagecompletewithourfamilymotto“It’sNotOverUntilWeWin”wascirculatingeverywhere,thankstoher.Asusual,Dana’sworkcontinues to reverberate sincepeople in turncirculatedevenmorecopiesoftheirflyer tofurtherraiseawarenessofKelly’splightandtherealityofmindcontrol.

WhenCarlKlangsawKelly’sflyer,heexcitedlytoldme,“’It’sNotOverUntilWeWin20’isasongofinspirationthatIfeeltheneedtowriteforKelly.”Carlissoulfully profoundwith deep insights,which he eloquently expresses in song.It’s no wonder he was fast becoming an international favorite as well as anAmericaniconforthepatriotmovement.ThepowerfulsonghewroteforKellybecameaglobalanthemsongofdeepencouragementtoherforyearstocome.

By the timewe returned to theWatergate that evening,wewere all exhaustedandexcited.“I’lltakeyoutodinner,”Perrygenerouslyofferedagain,leavingusoffatourroomwhilehewentdownthehalltohisroomtodress.

Danaknockedonourdooraswestarted toget ready fordinner.“Idecided totake you up on your offer,” she announced, “at least long enough to take ashower.”

PerryplayfullywhistledtoDanafromdownthehall,loudlyinvitinghertojoinusfordinner.Ayoungmanwhowasalsoapproachingherlookeddisappointedasshegracefullyaccepted,andturnedbacktowardtheelevator.

“You’dbettercome inhere,” I laughed,swinging thedooropenwide.“I’msogladyoudecidedtocome.”

“Wow,” she exclaimed, her soulfully eyes shining as she looked around theroom.“WhowouldbelieveI’mhereattheWatergateabouttodressfordinner,whenallIhaveinmypurseisabusticket!”

“Youcouldbeaswealthyasyouwanttobe,”Iassuredher.“Justbecauseyourhelpingpeople takesprecedentovermakingmoneydoesn’tmeanyoucouldn’tberichenoughtolivehere.”

“Iwasofferedthatmuchmoneyonthewayuphere,”shelaughinglyadmittedasshe took off her backpack and opened it up. “I must look like some kind ofholisticwhoreorsomethingwearingjeansandapeasanttopattheWatergate.”She pulled a small bundle from her pack, which unfolded into a beautifullydetailedforestgreenhempdress.“I’mnotmuchonglamour,”shesaid,holdingupthedressagainstherdelicateframe,the

deep green accentuating her beauty. “What do you think? Can I wear this todinner?”

I hugged her tight. “Your unpretentiousness epitomizeswhat awoman shouldbe!”The showerwas open, andDanawent to get readywhileMark emergedfrom the dressing area of the bathroom, looking handsome and refreshed.WewalkedoutonthebalconytotalkwhileDanapreparedtojoinusfordinner.

“CarlKlangiswritingasongforKelly,”IexcitedlytoldMark.

“AndwehaveinvitestodomoreradioshowsthanIcancount,”headded.“DidIseeyoudoinganinterviewwithDutchNationalTV?”

“IknowtheywereamongseveralIdidtoday,”Ianswered.“SpanishTVwantedtointerviewyou.Didtheycatchupwithyou?”

MarkandIhadeachbeensobusythatitwasnecessarytofilleachotherinontheday’s activities.Danawas ready inno time, and joineduson thebalcony.“Collective consciousness21 went global today,” she said, seemingly summingupourconversationasPerryarrivedto takeusall todinner.Danapickedupacopy of TRANCE and slipped it among the classics in the room’s elaboratelibraryaswewentoutthedoor.

Chapter44THETURNINGOFTHETIDE

ThenextmorningwebegansellingcopiesofTRANCEandrelateddocumentsasfastaswespreadthemoutonthetableattherally.Vastnumbersofpeoplewereinattendance,despite theUSmedia’s lackofcoverageof theevent.Wordhadspread, andCarlKlang’s soulful songs filled the air, drawing in scores ofDCtouristswhohappenedupontheeventaswell.

AuthorandspeakerDavidIckehadflowninfromEngland,andmadehiswaythrough the crowds to speak with us before the event officially commenced.“David!”Iexclaimed,throwingmyarmsaroundhiminawarmhug.“It’sgoodtoseeyou.”

“Ihadbusinessinthecountryanyway,”hesaid,“soIdivertedmytripabitsoIcouldparticipateintherally.”

Markpulledupanextrachair,invitingDavidtojoinus.“Willyoubespeaking?”heasked.

“I justmetwithCharlenaAldenand she’sworkingme into the schedule rightnow,”hetoldMark.“ShewantedtoknowwhatIintendedtospeakaboutsincethis event isConstitutionallyorientedand focuseson theBillofRights. I toldherI’dspeakbrieflyonwhoIknowtobeincontrolofyourgovernmentsincethesameNewWorldOrdereliteareleadingBritainaswell.”

Davidwasanauthorwhohadwrittenabooktitled“AndtheTruthShallSetYouFree1,”whichclearlysharesourcommonground.Inhisbook,Davididentifiesthe global elite and their NewWorld Order, and provides solutions based onspiritual evolution. Professionally, David is an author and public speakerwherebyheisnotboundbythelawsgoverningwhistleblowingthatMarkandIare.Personally,Davidhadbeena friend for some timeandoffered significantmoralsupporttoKelly.Iupdatedhimonhercircumstances.

“ThestallionnextdoortoJabneelisthebesttherapyforKellysincehekeepsherfocusedonnaturalspiritualvalues,”Iwasexplaining.“Whatyoutoldheraboutspirit being stronger than genetics was one of the most powerful, healingstatementsshe’sembraced.I’vetakenthelibertyofexpandingyourstatementabitfurthertoincludespiritbeingstrongerthanprogram.Ofcourse,thetrickofitistokeepherfocusedspirituallytrue-to-souldespiteheradversecircumstances.Havingthestallionnextdoorreallydoeshelp.Themoreshelivestrue-to-soul,the more free thought she has. The more free thought she has, the more sheheals!”

“Sheisapowerfullystrongspirit,”hesmiled.

“Inlightofthatrealization,”Isaid,“myfriendandIwerediscussingthemisuseof‘exorcism’onmindcontrolledmultiples…”

“Whoisusingexorcismonmultiples?”Davidinterruptedtoask.

“TheStateofTennessee,” I answered. “Howweknow that is a story in itself.Anyway,myfriendishighlyintelligent,wherebyitislogicalthatsheishighlyspiritual.Shefullyunderstands thatmindcontrol isexactly that,controlof themind.”

“Whileyouweremindcontrolled,wherewasyourspirit?”Davidasked.

“Itwasasthoughmyspirittookflighttoasafelovingspacewhilemybodywasbeingusedandabused,”Ianswered.“Iknowfromexperiencethatwithoutfreethought,thereisnofreewill,andwithoutfreewill,thereisnosoulexpression.Just because amind- controlled victim cannot think to soulfully express theirspiritdoesnotmeanthespirit ispossessed.EvenIdidn’tpossesitundermindcontrol! Once I regained free thought and free will, pure spirit was againsoulfullyexpressed.”

“Considering that Kelly’s spirit is light,” David thoughtfully said, “and herabusersaredark,darknesscannotovercomelight.”

Markpausedfrombooksigningtoaddtoourconversation.“Itisaphysicsfactthatdarkcannotovercomelight.Lightisvisibleradiationanddarkisabsenceoflight.”

I smiled. “Mywise friend used the analogy of two rooms, one light and onedark. Light shines into the dark under the door between them, yet darknesscannotpenetratethelight.Bythisprincipal,possessionisanimpossibility.”

“The belief of possession is dark and fear-driven,” David concluded, “whilespiritislightandlove-driven.Fearcannotovercomelove,yetlovecanovercomefear.”

“Fearcanonlypossessthemind,andthepeopleIknewinDCareacutelyawarethatfearfulpeopledonotthinkclearlyandthereforeareeasilyled,”Iexplained.“Sotheydeliberatelygeneratefear,thenpointthewaytorun.”

“Problem, reaction, solution,” David quipped, quoting from his own book. Iwhole-heartedlyagreed.“Itkeepspeopleinthedarkastowhattruthis.”

“Thereisgoodandbadineverything,”Davidsaid.“Everyorganizationbecomesinfiltrated,fromreligiontogovernments.Afterbeingmisledandkeptinthedarksolong,peopleforgethowtoidentifywho’swho.”

Isaid,“Thatiswhatthecriminalsincontrolarecountingon.Again,theyfailedto consider the strengthof thehuman spirit.Whenpeople shine their spirituallight,sotospeak,itclearlyrevealsthetruthandovercomestheirdarksecrets.”

Davidthoughtfullysaid,“Spiritnaturallyoverridesanydarknesstheygenerate.”

“Wow,”ItookinDavid’ssimplisticmessageandsavoreditamoment.“I’lltellKellyyousaidthat.Shealreadyadherestounconditionallove,andidentifiestheessenceofherbeinginlightofthatunconditionallove.Thiswilllogicallydefinewhatsheknowsaboutlivingtrue-to-soul,takingittothenextleveltonaturallyoverridetheirdarkprogram.”

“Weareallmulti-dimensionalbeings,”Davidexpanded,“andsheneedstruthonalllevels.”

“ThekindofhightechharmonicprogrammingthatKellyenduredisjustanothermeans of control that is faster and more precise than trauma-based mindcontrol,”Ibegan.

“Howdoesharmonicprogrammingwork?”Davidinquired.

Mark, who understood the scientific aspect of harmonics, turned to David toexplain.“Everythingonthisplanetvibratesatacertainfrequencyasexemplifiedby thewear-ringon thebottomof antiqueglass.Whenharmonics change thatfrequency,suchasthoseemittedbyanoperasinger,crystalglasswillshatter.Tofurtherthisexample,considerforamomenthowafavoritesongincitescertainfeelingsandsentiments.Theharmonics responsible for inspiringsuchemotionare actually vibrating the neuron pathways of the brain. This is why an oldfavoritesongcanstirmemoriessuchas‘wefellinlovetothatsong’.Harmonicshave now been perfected to deliberately vibrate neuron pathways tocompartmentalizememoryinMKUltraprogramming.Laboratoriesdevelopingelectronic mind control techniques in the ‘70s and ‘80s referred to theapplicationofharmonicsasbraintraining.”

David nodded his head in understanding, and I continued my point, “Justbecause harmonics are more advanced technologically does not mean theyadvancefurtherintothebeing.Harmonicsstillcan’tpenetratethelightandtouchthespirit.”

“AllKellyneedstodoisrealizeandembracethattruth,”Davidassuredme,hiseyes twinkling. “When she realizes she has awholeworld of people beamingtheir spiritual love light to further brighten her path, she can confidently steerherselfagain.Sheinspirescollectiveconsciouslovewithhertruth.”

IhuggedDavid,theknowingpassingbetweenusthatKellywasfreeanditwasonlyamatteroftimeuntilsheassumedthatknowing,too.

Mark, who was speaking with Dr. Stan Monteith2, sensed the moment andsmiled. “It looks as though you two just solved the world’s problems.We’redoing the same thing over here.” Dr. Stan laughed, and they resumed theirconversation.

“Backtotheglobalscopeofproblem,reaction,solution,”Isaid,“Considerthattheproblemissecrecy,thereactionissuperstitiousfear,andthegivensolutionisfollowtheleader.”

“The herdmentality,” David added, wisely capable of condensing a world of

truthintoafewwords.

“Exactly,” I said. “Consider that the government is years ahead of us throughsuppression of their secret advancements. They generate fear by perpetuatingsuperstitious conclusions that keep people diverted from the truth and lookingthe other way. By the time people finally do see secrets surface such as theStealthfighter,theysuperstitiouslyconcludetheyareseeinganalienspaceship.Thismakes people feel helpless, as though they cannot do anything about thesituationandtheylooktothegovernmentforasolutionasanticipated.”

Markjoinedbackinourconversation.“Whosaysaliensaren’tmicroorganismsencasedinagrowingcrystallineenvironmentthatdon’tevenneedaspacecraft?Invasionofthemindthoughmindcontrolisworsethananyalieninvasioncouldbeanyway.It is ridiculous thatpeoplefearwhat theydon’tknow,andjumptosuperstitiousconclusionratherthanseekthetruth.Besides,whatwouldaliensdothatthesecretgovernmentisn’talreadydoing?Takeovertheworld?Perpetuatemassgenocide?”

“Alienscouldbetransdimensional,”Iadded.

“Orlizards,”Davidadded.

“They’renotlizards,”Ibegan.“That’stoosimple.”

“What aboutGeorgeBush, then?”David asked. “”You talk about him turningintoalizardinTRANCE.”

“Notreally,”Icountered.“Isaidhecreatedanimageofturningintoalizard.”

“TRANCEwaswritten forCongress,”Mark reminded him. “Congress alreadyknowsabout theholographicgenerators thatproduce suchan image. Itwasn’tnecessary to beleaguer the subject to them because they already know it is ahoax.TestimonyhasalreadybeenprovidedtoCongressregardingtheequipmentBushusedtoperpetuatetheillusion.”

“There are numerous similar accounts around the world regarding lizards,”Davidsaid.“I’llbe including them,andyours, inmynextbookwhichwillbe

released next month3. With numerous people talking, there is truth to thissomewhere.”

“Thetruthliesintheprogramtodeliberatelygeneratefear,”Isaid.“I’veheardBushdiscussingthefactthatpeopleautogenicallyrespondtosnakesandlizardsby freezing in fear. By capitalizing on that natural reaction, they expect toperpetuatethefearthatkeepspeopledivertedfromthetruthandeasilyled.”

“WheredidBushgettheidea?”Davidasked.

“I’mnotsurewhostartedit,”Ianswered.“ButIdoknowitwasdiscussedanddecidedattheGrovethatthislizardalienthemewouldrenderpeoplehelplesstodo anything about mind control, wars, ecological and economical depletion,division, diversion, genocide and everything else leading them into the NewWorldOrder.Sincetheseperpetraitorscan’tpossessthehumanspirit,instinctisas close as they canget.This iswhy they control innate human response likematernal instinct, survival instinct, religious instinct, and instinctive ‘freeze’responsetoserpents.Plus,spiesareoftenreferredtoas‘chameleons’duetotheirability to blend into any environment, and this theme blends in with theirtraining.The lizardalien themewasspread throughout themilitaryalongwithAquino’ssatanism.”

“That’swhyyouhearsomanymindcontrolledvictimsrecallinginphotographicdetailthattheselizardswearcombatboots,”Markadded.“’Justlikesatandoes’.When alien spacecraft looks like Top Secretmilitary aircraft, andwhen satandrivesamilitaryjeep,that’saprettygoodclueit’samindcontrolprogram.”

“Whyaresomanypeopletalkingaboutitthen?”Davidaskedhim.

“TheanswerresidesintheinfluencesciencefictionmoviesandTVserieshaveprogrammed into their highly suggestible minds for over forty years,“ Markexplained. “Dragonshavebeenaprimary featureof folk lore for thousandsofyearswithinallculturesstartingwiththeAsians.Toaddsubliminalstrengthtothis,bearinmindthatmorepeoplehavediedfromvenomousreptilesthanfromall wars and plagues combined. People are genetically programmed to fearreptiles. When mind controlled victims spew this program, it either destroystheircredibilityorperpetuatesthefear.Eitherway,theBusheswin.Weneedtogetthetruthoutthere.”

“I’m presenting all the possibilities in my book,” David said. “Lizard aliensprovideapointofreferenceforconsideringthepossibilitythataliensareamongus.”

“Youcansaywhateveryouwantto,”Markagreed,“becauseyouareanauthor.Wehave to stick to the factsby lawbecausewe’rewhistleblowers. Ifyouputyour spin on Cathy’s experience, we’ll have to answer questions outside herrealm of experience. That is a precarious position for us to be in aswhistleblowers.”

“If I say ‘thatwasn’tmy experience’ then peoplewill think I’m arguingwithyou,andyou’remyfriend,”IpleadedwithDavid.“OrpeoplewillassumeI’msayingthereisnosuchthingasaliensandaccusemeofperpetuatingcover-up.Ido believe in the plausibility of alien life forms both less andmore advancedthanus.Theremustbeintelligentlifeouttheresomewhere!Whoknows?Theremayevenbealienswhogenerateloveratherthanfear.”

Davidthoughtamoment.“Thisreallyisn’tyoursorminetoresolve.Ratherthanperpetuate fear and terror,globalgovernments shouldbeuniting to investigateand understand such phenomena as crop circles, crystal skulls, sightings, andabductions.”

“And publish the findings!”Mark wisely added. “There may indeed be alienabductionsbasedonwhatwe’vebeen seeingwhenwe travel.There are someverycrediblepeoplesayingsomeprettybizarrethings-someofwhichareverypositive!Not everyone talks about lizard aliens in combat boots!Personally, Ithinkdifferentspecieshaveincorporatedintooursocietyforgenerationstothepoint where it’s normal now. Consider the numbers of scientists4 andgovernment officials adamantly claiming that aliens concerned withhumankind’s survival infiltratedourmilitary installations afterwedropped thenuclearbomb.”

“Knowledge doesn’t fit into a box,” I furthered. “Discussions I heard at theGrove pertained to dimensions and ‘they are us in the future’ attitudes. Theybelieve they can surpass time throughDARPA’s computerization to reach intoartificialintelligence’sfutureknowledge.Dimensionstothemaredimensionsofknowledgethatkeepsthemaheadoftime.”

“It’s time they realize the proverbialWizard’s curtain has been pulled back toexposethemandtheirsecrets,”Davidstated,referringtoOzthememindcontrolprogramming.

Markinjected,“AsIrecall,theword‘wizard’isspunfromtheword‘lizard’.”

“Oz programming is rooted in their dimensional perception,” I agreed.“Politiciansreallyareoutoftouchwiththepeople,whichisanotherreasonwhyDCisregardedas‘overtherainbow’fromtherestofu.s.Whenwelookbehindthe curtain, we see it is simply men pulling levers and pushing buttons on acomputerized illusion. They selected humankind’s destination, obtained theroadmap,andstayedthecourse;nevercountingonpeopletoturnontheirheartlightsandsteerclearoftheirinhumaneplan.”

“Love’sfrequencyishigherthantheirenergyoffear,”Davidasserted.“Ifpeoplewouldkeeptheirlovelighton,they’llmaintaintheirfreedom.”

“LikeKelly,”Ismiled.

“Kelly is an inspiration to all of us,” David said, rising to tend to his ownflourishingbooksales.“Thetideisturning5,andsheisontheleadingedge.Giveherheapsoflovefrommewhenyouseeher.”

Chapter45BACKTOTHEFUTURE

By the timewe leftDC,Mark and I had solidified friendships and numerousspeaking engagements. The ride home provided Mark and me the luxury ofdiscussing themagnitude of events, conversations, and contactswe hadmadeovertheweekend.

“IneverthoughtI’dlivetoseethedaywhenwewouldspeakonthelawnofournation’sCapital,”Ibegan.“Beingfreetothinktotelltheirsecretsrightintheirownbackyardisanultimateuniversaljustice!”

“Callingforrepealoftheir1947NationalSecurityActshroudofsecrecyintheirownbackyardisrewarding,too,”MarksaidasheturnedontothefreewayoutofDC. “It is impossible for the shadow government to hide secrets when thespotlightoftruthisfocusedonthem.”

“IlikeDavid’sstatementthatitisdifficultforpeoplewhoareleftinthedarktoclearlyseewhoisgoodandwhoisbad.Inlightofyourpowerfulsenseofjusticeand truth, you’re naturally regarded as themeasuring stick of discernment. Ifeveryonegatheredtheirstrengthofspiritandfacedthetruthlikeyouhave,theglobalelite’sNewWorldOrderwouldbehistory.”

“IknowwhototrustbecauseIknowhowtotrust,”Markstated,matter-of-factly.

“You realize truthwithwisdom, thenacton it throughyourpowerful senseofjustice,”Iassessed.“Yourformulafordiscernmentisbiggerthanlife!”

“It hasn’t solvedKelly’s need for the available qualified rehabilitation,”Markfrowned.“TheNationalSecurityActhasyettoberepealed.”

“YougaveKellytheabilitytogatherherstrengthofspiritandstrivetolivetrue-to-souldespitebeingdenied technological rehab,” I remindedhim.“Shenever

knewwhat lovewas until you rescued uswith your pure, unconditional love.Loveisthemostpowerfulhealingforceintheuniverse,andIamdeeplygratefultoyouforfreeingKellyandmetorealizeit.”

Mark thought it over, still frowning. I persisted, “As her mother, under anycircumstancesIwouldwanthertoknowandliveloveaboveallelse!”

“ToquoteDavid,”Mark said, “We’re allmultidimensionalbeings.Kelly is anextrememultidimensionalbeing,sotospeak.Sheneedsanddeservesrehabonall levels.All thatstandsbetweenherandavailablerehabis the1947NationalSecurityAct!Itneedstoberepealedinorderthatharmonictechnologiesareputinthehandsofgoodpeople.”

“SinceRoswellhappened in1947, Iwonder if repealing theNationalSecurityAct will result in the emergence of truth about aliens and dispel the lizardillusion,”Ipondered.

“I’mnotonetobelieveincoincidence,especiallywhereDCisinvolved.”Markdroveuptheramptothehighwayhome.“Historyprovestheworldchangedin1947, and knowing the details could stop history from repeating itself.Somethingchangedin1988,too.Idon’tknowwhat—asidefromtheobvious.”He squeezed my hand. “It appears to have been the beginning of somethingpositive.Peoplebeganwakingup.”

“Iknow!” I smiled.“KellyandIweren’t theonlyoneswakingup.Somethingpivotal seems to have occurred in 1988 according to reports from others. It’salmost as if another group of ‘aliens’ or ‘angels of old’ came in to save thesleepingplanet.That’s justspeculation,ofcourse,yet theremustbesomethingtoit.Isn’titabizarre‘coincidence’thattheDeLoreanusedinthemovie“BacktotheFuture1”traveledthroughtimewhenthespeedreached88mph,andthatyourescuedKellyandmeinaDeLoreanin‘88?”

Mark smiled. He was used to me attaching my lofty ideals to his logic. Ourdifferencesalwaysprovedfun.“TheCIAbecameofficialin1947alongwiththeNationalSecurityAct,theRoswellincident,andCongress’approvaloftheCIA’sProjectPaperclip2andProjectCinderella3.”

“Everypolitico Iknew regardedRoswell likeMontauk—nocause for concern

becausetheyhadthepublicdiverted!”

“Montaukwasaboutatopsecretweaponsystemandmindcontrol,”Marktoldme. “My brother-in-law was one of the leading scientists working on globalsubmarine detection using sea water as the conductor of sonar waves. HisdoctorialthesisonthiswonhimajobasanassistantforWernervonBraun4.Theliteralinterpretationbeingvoicedbythemind-controlledvictimswhoworkedonMontauk was that the government was warping time! Keeping this relativelysimpletechnologicaldefensedevelopmentsecretmadeitnecessarytomaintainstrictsecrecyatMontaukPointNaval

AirStation.Theworkerstherewereexposedtomindcontrolandgiventhetime-warpcoverstory.”

“LikewiththePhiladelphiaExperimentcoverstory?”

“Sortof,”Marksmiled.“TheMontaukstorytookonalifeofitsownsincethetruth wasn’t available until 1982 when Japan’s Toshiba5 Corporation handedoverthetechnologicalspecificationstotheSovietsonthescrewsorpropellersofthree classes of submarines. There also exists another technology for makingsoldiers, tanks and airplanes appear ‘invisible’ based on liquid crystal displaytechnology. Now I hear stories of ‘invisibility’ and ‘time travel’ knowing fullwell that the ‘invisibility’ factor is actually technological and ‘time travel’ issuppressionofDARPA’sfuturisticknowledge!”

“Does DARPA deal with the Illuminati, Masons, and Sir Francis Bacon?” Iasked.

“Idon’tknowwhatallDARPAknows,”Marklaughed.“Icantellyou’vebeentalkingwithDavid,though.WhydidyoumentionSirFrancisBacon?”

“SenatorByrdoften did,” I answered. “SirFrancisBaconweaved throughhisdialogue,fromtheRosicrucianstotheBible,ShakespeareandtheConstitution.”

“Thatisinteresting,”Marksaid.“SirFrancisBaconisrumoredtohavewrittenShakespeare, edited the King James Version of the Bible, and broughtFreemasonryintothiscountrywhileitwasbeingfounded.”

“The first amendment of the Constitution calls for Separation of Church andState,”Isaid.“Webothknowthatisanillusion.”

“Churchcontrolswhatgovernmentdoesn’t,”Markelaborated.“Andgovernmentcontrolschurchesthroughthe501(3)(C)taxexemption.Anychurchthatfailstofollow government mandate dictating what they can say and who to supportloses their tax- exempt status.Thechurcheshavebecome the ‘greatwhore’ astheBible6predicted.”

“I know throughBillyRoyMoore’s LordsChapel that certain evangelists aremindcontrolledtoreligiouslyleadpeoplewherethegovernmentinstructs.Thisincludes brainwashing the people to believeGod leads thisNewWorldOrderagenda,andtomuledrugsfortheCIAundertheguiseof‘missions.’Thisfactisdifficulttobringtolightwhenpeopleareprogrammedtobelieveastandagainstreligious cults is a stand against God. Evenmanywho turned away from thechurchseekingaspiritualpathwereabsorbedbyaNewAgereligion.Anytimepeople seek answers outside themselves, they become misled. The truth iswithin.”

“It is interesting to note that the organization supposedly overseeing so-calledSeparationofChurchandStatewasformedin1947,”Mark informedme.“SirFrancisBacon’sinfluenceonboththeConstitutionandBibleshouldincitetheirscrutiny.”

“SirFrancisBaconsoundslikeaninfluentialpartofhistory,”Iconcluded.

“So isRasputin,”Mark said. “AndHitler.AndBush.AndNostradamas.Eachhadaccesstosecretknowledge,andeachuseditfortheirown‘game.’Historywill just keep repeating itself until people wake up and control their owndestiny.”

“Evolutionoverrevolutions,”Iquipped.“PeoplecanlearnfromhistoryorfromDARPA’s futuristic plan. Either way, the truth will lift them from the circlesthey’rerevolvinginnow.”

“History is being re-written,”Mark remindedme. “You said so yourself.AndDARPAiscoveredupundertheblanketofthe1947NationalSecurityAct!”

“Itallkeepscomingbackaroundtothesamething,”Inoted.“Untiltruthcomesto light, theNational Security Act keeps people in the dark, hiding the truth.Revolutiondoesn’tbringaboutchange,itonlykeepspeoplespinningincirclesundertheillusionofchange.”

“Whichiswhyweneedaworldwidespiritualevolution,”Marksaid.“Thatway,thelightautomaticallydissipatesthedark,revealingthetruth.Oncepeopleknowthe truth, they can repeal the National Security Act, regain control of theirgovernment tounplugDARPAandHAARP,andreleaserehabforKellyandaworldofothersinneed.”

“Yes,” I agreed, excited now. “We can peacefully solve somany problems byassumingourownrights.Peoplewillstopfollowingtheleaderstheydidn’telect.They can stop fretting about the concentration camps7 being built across thecountryandtakecontrolofthem.They’reoursanyway.

Our tax dollars paid for them. Themilitary can choose to stop fighting otherpeople’swars,andallowpeacetohappen.”

“You’reright,”Marksaid.“Thesameonescontrollingwararecontrollingpeace—byforce.‘Peacekeepingforces’isanoxymoron.”

“Allofhumankindmust exert evolutionnow,” I suggested. “The fewwhoareawakeandawareareprovingtheiractionsaren’tenoughtoovercometheglobaleliteyet.Thepathtocollectiveconsciousevolutioniswithin.Itiswithinusalltogatherthestrengthofspiritnecessarytoevolve.”

“Iagreethatiswherechangemustbegin,”Marksaidthoughtfully.“Worldpeacebegins within, freedom begins within, and wisdom begins within. Then it allmust be applied on this level. That’s what I was saying about Kelly. She ishealedonaspirituallevel,yetapplyingitonalllevelsrequireshertostaytrue-to-soulatalltimes.Beingwronglyandunjustlyinstitutionalized,thenforcedto‘getalongwithherpeers’isn’tconducivetolivingtrue-to-soulatalltimes!”

“Sheknowsthis,”Iresponded.“Itisastruggleforherunderhercircumstances.Oncesheisfreefromthesystemandsociety’signorance,perhapsshewillfindherselfinanenvironmentthatallowshertobetrue-to-soulallways.”

“I hear what you’re saying,” Mark solemnly affirmed. “Yet repealing theNational Security Act would result in freedom from struggle under anycircumstances.”

“That statement reverberates with national and international8 meaning.” Ithoughtonitforamoment.

Markspokeup.“RememberwhenwewereattheGlobalScienceCongresslastyear,andtopbrassfromMcDillAirforceBasecameinandattemptedtotriggeryouroldMKUltraprogramming?”

“Ofcourse!”Iassuredhim.“Whentheirtriggeringdidn’twork,theirparadigmshiftedtorealizeItrulyhadbeendeprogrammed.Theexpressionontheirfaceswasbetterthananyjusticeacourtcoulddeliver.”

“Howwouldyoudescribewhatitwaslikebeforeyouweredeprogrammedwhenyoudidrespondtoatrigger?”

“Akneejerkreaction,”Isaid.“Therewasnowaynottorespond.Mindcontrolismorepowerfulthanablinkresponsewhenpepperisthrowninyoureyes.It’smore likenotblinkingplus stopping tears from forming in thepeppered eyes.Kellybattlesthatkindofresponseeveryday.”

“KellyisthebrightestshiningexampleofspiritualevolutionI’veeverknown,”Marktoldme.“Thereisnoexcuseforanybodyanywheretonotwakeup,facethetruth,andevolve.Whentheydo,theyoweittoKellyandallotherslikeherto assume control of technology and release the technological antidote to hercondition.Technologydoesn’tprecludethespiritual,itshouldemergewithtruthaspeoplereclaimtheirlives.”

“Ihearyou,” Isaid,wipingmyeyes.“Ihearyourwordsandyoursoul intent.YouarethebrightestshiningexampleofreverberatingevolutionI’lleverknowinthislife.”

Wedrovemostofthewayhomeinuneventful,peacefulsilence,eachofusdeepinto our own thoughts.Before returning toAlabama,we stopped to seeKellywhowasstillflourishingunderthecareofherstallionfriendandJabneelstaff.She hadwritten a brilliant article on subliminals in the course of her Jabneel

schoolingtitledTheInvisibleMenace,WhatYouDon’tKnowisHurtingYou,andpresentedmewithacopy.

“DadandImethundredsofpeopleinDCwhoacknowledgeyouastheirgreatestinspiration,”Itoldher.“Withyourpermission,I’dliketosharethisarticlewiththem.”

“Of course,”Kelly said,matter-of-factly. “They probably already know aboutsubliminals,though.”

“You’d be surprised what people don’t know!” I laughed. “You and I gainedsignificant insightwith our experience! Speaking of significant insight,DavidIckesendshislove.”

“YousawDavid?”shesquealed.“Didyouhughimforme?”

“Ofcourse,”Iassuredher,andproceededtoconveyourdiscussiontoheraboutspirit,light,andsoul.

“Whenyousay‘soul’,you’retalkingaboutthatlovelightinsideofme,right?”sheasked.

“Ofcourse,”Ianswered.“Whatisyourperceptionoftheword?”

“ThechurchheresaysspiritisGod,andsoulishisspiritinus.”

“Whatdoyousay?”Iasked.

“ThatGodisloveenergy,whichisthesameloveenergyshiningthroughme.”

“Ilikeyourdefinition!”Iexclaimed.“Peopletendtoplaysemanticswithwords,and having twowordswith inner-changeablemeaning keeps people bickeringwhentheyreallyagree.Yourdefinitionofloveenergyisclear.”

“I like ‘loveenergy’because it is auniversoul name for ‘God’ that crosses allreligionsandnames,includingBuddha,Allah,andtherest.”

“Isthattermacceptedinchurch?”Iasked.

“Idon’tknowwhatisacceptedinchurch,”shehonestlyanswered.“AllIknowisI’mexpectedinthechurch.SoIsitthere,andgowithinmyselfandthink.Iwasthinkingaboutmypoem‘GodSaveUsFromReligion’andhowGod’sloveenergydoesn’treallyact.It’suptopeopletosavethemselvesandtheirchildrenfrom religious abuse by allowing that love energy to flow through them andstrengthenthemtotakeaction.Ilikenot‘blaming’Godwhenitspeoplewhoaretoblamefornotstoppingtheabuse.Somepeoplestillneedreligionandit’suptothemtocleanitup.Beingherehasgivenmeinsightintohowsomepeoplestillneedreligion.”

“How’sthat?”Iasked,astoundedbyKelly’sspiritualevolutionandcompassionforothers’needsdespitehercircumstances.

“Oneofthekidsisinstitutionalizedherebecausehisalcoholicfatherbeathimsobad. Now his father quit drinking and goes to church. He’s a better man forgoing without alcohol. Maybe he couldn’t have quit without his church’ssupport,”Kellythoughtfullysaid.“Atthesametime,though,thereisanotherkidinherewhoseabusivefatherwenttocourtandsworeonaBiblethathewasaChristian and they believed him.Now the kid is locked upwhile his abusivefatherisfree.”Kellywassilentamoment.“Iwonderwhy‘swearing’onaBiblemeansyou’retellingthetruth?”

“Peoplemustgowithinforthewisdomtodiscerntruth,”Ianswered.“We’reallonourownlearningpath,though,andsomepeoplestillneedrituals.”

By the timewe left Jabneel,Kellywas hopeful and excited about having herarticleprinted. Iassuredhershewasmakingapowerfuldifferenceherselfandothersjustbybeingherselftrue-to-soul.

AswecompletedourdrivebacktoAlabama,IsharedKelly’sdefinitionofsoulandspiritwithMark.“Besides, I like thewayher ‘love-energy’definition isadirect, constant connection that clarifies themeaning of life!Whatwould yousayisthemeaningoflife?”

“Consider the source,” Mark instantly replied. I laughed, pondering thereverberatingmeaning.

“Youdefinedlife’scycleinthreewords!”

“Dr.Stan9 runs circles aroundmyprofundity,”Mark smiled. “I really enjoyedtalking with him at the rally. He certainly is a profound individual with vastknowledge.I’mlookingforwardtodoingradiowithhimwhenwegetback.”

“Hehasaradioshow?”Iasked.

“He’sreputedtobeoneofthebest,”Markassuredme.“Aftertalkingwithhim,Icanbelieveit.HisRadioLibertyisbroadcastfromMonterey,California.Sincehe’sinrelativecloseproximitytotheGrove,he’salreadyhadcallerstoconfirmmuchofwhatyou’vebeensaying.”

“IheardAlexJones10wastheradiohostwiththemostontheGrove.”

“Heiswellrespected,”Markconfirmed.“Dr.Stanis‘multi-dimensional’so-to-speak in that he knows the solution to the world’s problems is ultimatelyspiritual.HetypifiesthetypeofbrilliantscientistwhoisadevoteChristian.Hisexpansion of topics and knowledge extends even further. I can mention anyremote topic, and he instantly spews a dozen cross-references that confirm it.I’mtellingyou,hisintellectispowerful.Doingradiowithhimisgoingtobeapleasure.”

“Is he bound byClear Channel controls?” TheClintonAdministration’s 1996Telecommunications Act deregulated radio stations in an effort to stifle thepeople’scommunicationsthroughacorporatemonopolytocontroltheairwaves.

“ClearChannelcannotevenstifleourfriendBillBoshearsoftheScizone11,andhe’sworkingrightinitat theirCincinnati,Ohioheadquarters!”Markclarified.“There certainly is no stoppingDr.Stan.He alreadybroadcasts on shortwave,FMstationsacross thecountry,and internet.Hemakeshard-to-findbooks likeTRANCEandaudio/videotapesreadilyavailable.Heknowshowtogetthetruthout there without being censored. The internet is fast becoming the people’ssource of truth these days, andDr. Stan has a history of being on the leadingedgesecuringhumanity’sfuture.Hebroadcastsradioovertheinternet!”

“Ionlyspokewithhimbrieflyattherally,”ItoldMark.“Andbrieflywaslong

enoughtodeterminehehasapowerfulpresenceandisamanofintegrity.Withyouconfirmingwhat I sensed,beingonhis radio showwillbeapleasure.Doyouknowhowhegotintoradio?”

“Bycaring forhumanityandbeingconcernedwithwhathe seeshappening toour country,” Mark answered. “He is a retired successful orthopedic surgeonwho chooses to contribute to humanity throughRadio Liberty12. He could beretiredinluxuryinHawaii,thoughhechoosestosoundthetrumpetofalarmathisownexpense.Dr.StanisarealpracticingChristian.”

“Itisfascinatingtolearnhowpeoplefromallwalksoflifechoosetobringtruthtolightthroughradio,newspapers,andbooks,”Isaid.“Thesepeoplearetakingpositiveaction.LookatClayDouglas.Heisaseasonedbikerwhohasseenitalland done it all, and is now devoting his all to humanity through The FreeAmerican13 newspaper, website, and radio; plus he hosts some of the bestpreparednessseminarsinthecountry!”

“HemightprintKelly’sarticle,”Marksuggested.

“ClayhasbeensogoodtoKelly, I’msurehewill, too,”Iagreed.“DavidIckewilllikelyspreaditalloverEuropelikehehasTRANCE.CarlKlangembracedourfamilymottoattherallyandiswritingasongforKellycalled“ItsNotOverUntilWeWin.”Healreadyhasasolidhistoryofsuccessfulairplay,soKelly’ssongshouldskyrocketupthecharts.WithCarl’ssongandKelly’sarticlecirclingtheglobe,collectiveconsciousnesswillrise!”

“The collective voice of the people is demanding a stop to the CIA’s blatantcrack,coke,andheroindistribution,”Markinformedme.“ThatvoicehasbeenamplifiedbyaretiredLosAngelescopnamedMikeRuppert.Heisasrelentlessasweare,andtheinformationheputsoutonhiswebsiteisimpeccable.”

“Whichwebsiteisthat?”

“It’s copvcia14. Because of the likes of Mike Ruppert and his website, theClinton Administration is being forced to address the issue of the CIA’sinvolvement in thedrug industry15.Thispertinent fact is emerging alongwithotherkeyissuesthatfurthervalidateTRANCEforpeople.Idon’tknowhowthey

cancontinuetocontainitall.NowondertheCIAhasover55,000operativesintheUSalone.Ittakesalotofmanpowertoplugasieve.”

“Haveyouheard any feedbackon thedetailed information anddocumentswesubmittedtotheIndependentCouncil?”Iasked.IthadbeensometimesincewehadturnedinrequesteddocumentsandfactssubstantiatingdetailsinTRANCEtotheinvestigatorsofClintons’scandals.

“Idon’texpecttohearbackfromthem.I’vebeenassuredKenStarrreceivedthepackage, though. Apparently the package you mailed John Brown regardingyouraccountofTedShackley’s involvementwithBushandClinton’sdrugopsnever did reach him.He has your testimony, though.All this is adding to thechargesagainsttheClintonAdministration.”

“ItstillastoundsmehowGermansfamiliarwithNazimindcontrol tacticsandpolicies are alerting theAmerican people,” I said, referring to their campaignagainstHillaryClinton’s proposed health care plan andGlobal Ed. “They areliterallytryingtostophistoryfromrepeatingitself!”

“Circlesandcycles,”Marksaid.“Roundandroundwego.Historyisdestinedtorepeatunlesspeopleriseabovetherevolutionswithspiritualevolution!”

Chapter46ALERTPEOPLE!

“TheCIAisinvestigatingitself1todeterminewhetherornottheyareinvolvedinthe drug business,” someone in the audience was saying. “I wonder if theinformation detailed in TRANCE is among the 500,000 documents they arereviewing?”

AwiseandalertsheetmetalworkernamedBillMahkovitzhadinvitedMarkandme to speak in his hometown of Santa Cruz, California, andwewere on thequestionsandanswerssegmentofourpresentation.BillMahkovitzwasamongthegrowingnumberofAmericanswhofeltcompelledtotakeactionagainstthepersistenterosionofUSvalues.HisAustralianbornwifedidnotwanttobelieveTRANCEatfirst,yetshebelievedinherhusbandandsupportedhisdeterminedeffort to bringMark andme in for a seminar.Bill andClaire2Mahkovitz arerepresentative of what good people can do to arm loved ones and theircommunitywithtruth.Theywerebringingapreciouschildintothisworld,andtheywantedtoensuretheworldwasstableenoughtoraisehimin.

“I’dliketoseethose500,000documents,”Ireplied.“HowtheCIAcanreviewthatmuchevidenceandstill‘justsayno’totheirobviousinvolvementisabsurd.The average drug dealer on the streets knows theCIA runs the drug businessthesedays.Either thedealersarewith theCIA,or thewarondrugs isagainstthem.”

“MikeRuppert3 explains thiswellonhiswebsiteatwww.copvcia.com,”Marksaidasmostpeopleinattendancenoddedtheirheadsinagreementwhileafewothersquicklymadenote.

“Why are drugs still illegal when the CIA distributes them?” someone asked,promptinglaughterthroughoutthecrowd.

“Wehavemorepeoplelockedupinthiscountryforvictimlesscrimesrightnow

http://www.copvcia.com

thanwehavethroughouthistory,”Markresponded.“MostarepoliticalprisonersoftheCIA’sso-called‘warondrugs’thathasbeenwagedagainstallofus.Forexample,over646,000citizensarearrestedeachyearformarijuanause,despiteseveral states upholding the votes of millions to legalize it medicinally.Privatized prisons have become an obscenely profitable business that hascompromisedoursystemofjusticemuchlikethecopwhoispaidacommissionforwritingatrafficticket.”

Iadded,“Ifdrugswerelegal,howwouldtheCIAfunditsblackbudget?”

“500,000 documents proving the CIA’s involvement in the drug industryindicatestomethatsomeonebesidesyouisspeakingout,”ayoungmanstated.“Whydon’twehearfromotherrecoveredMKUltravictims?”

“Theyarebeingheard from4,” I assuredhim.“Kellyand Icertainlyaren’t theonly ones affected. Mental health professionals and law enforcement areoverwhelmed with the numbers reporting sexual abuse and mind controlabuses.”

“According tomental health statistics, the average pedophile sexuallymolests298children,”Markinjected.

“We hear from other victims in various stages of recovery all the time,” Icontinued. “Some were abused by perpetraitors I’ve named, and not just thehighprofileones.Forexample,PaulBonacciof theFranklin5 casehasnamedAlexHoustonasoneofhissexualabusersandMKUltraprogrammerswhilehewas in theBoysTownCatholic orphanage.AliciaOwen, also of the Franklincase,was imprisoned like somany others on so-called perjury charges due toclassified MK Ultra mind control. Seidina Reed, the victim mentioned inTRANCE6 whowas routinely prostituted to Saudi Prince Bandar Bin Sultan7,began legal procedures thatwere reportedly silenced under the 1947NationalSecurityAct.”

“Noteveryonewhocomesrunningoutoftheproverbialfiresofhellwantstobea firemanwhen theyemerge,”Markexplained. “Cathyand Iknowoneyoungladywhotherapeuticallyovercamethemindcontrolconditioningofareligiouscult,extremepsychabusebyhermother,andextensivetraumasbytheKKK8inordertofreelypursueherownchoicesinlife.”

“Lisa, the remarkable girl Mark cited, now successfully teaches English toforeign retarded and autistic children by compassionately utilizing herheightened telepathic skills to span language and mental barriers,” I added.“Many victims can’t think to recover so well. Those like Loretta Lynn, forexample, should be honored for living the love she is despite ignorant peopleturningablindeyeandadeafear toher subliminalpleas foryears.Themoreyouknow, themoreyouseeandhear.Anothervictimclaiming‘noonewouldbelieve the things I can’t remember’ is counting on people like yourselves towakeupandmakeanecessarydifferenceforherandherfivechildrensotheycanrecoverfromdecadesofPentagon-levelabuse.”

“CathyistheonlyvocalrecoveredsurvivorofMKUltraspeakingtoday,”Markexplained. “This doesn’t mean that there aren’t numerous recovered mindcontrolled survivors submitting information. Neither Cathy nor I are publicspeakers,we’rewhistleblowers.It’snoteasyspeakingout.Yetwe’reexercisingourfreedomofspeechtodaytoensurefreethoughtforfuturegenerations.”

“Somepeoplearegrouchywhentheywakeup,”Iadmitted.“They’renotalwayskind.Loveandconcernformydaughtercompelsmetospeakout,andthelovethatMarkandIsharestrengthensme.”

“Are you andMarkmarried?” a conservativewomanwearing a huge crucifixaskedaccusingly.“I’mnotsureIwanttohearaboutlovefromsomeonewho’snotmarried.”

“I’lltellthattoyourCatholicPriestwhoteachesmarriagecounseling!”someoneshoutedather.

Ayoungwomangentlyshiftedthesubject.“IunderstandthatyouwereforcedtomarryyourMKUltrahandlers.Whoarrangedforthesemarriages?”

“MyformerownerinMKUltra,USSenatorRobertC.Byrd,”Ianswered.“Mydaughterwasbornwhile Iwasstillbeing torturedand traumatizedbymyfirsthandler,WayneCox.Oncemind control conditioningwas established throughhim,ByrdorderedKelly andme tobe transferred toour secondhandlerAlexHouston. Byrd assured me that I would be bound to him through my forcedmarriagetoAlexHouston,whichhedemandedoccurontheanniversaryofthe

KennedyAssassination.Byrddeliberately took full control ofmeon the samedatethatthesecretgovernmenttookcontrolofourcountry.”

“WhateverhappenedtoWayneCox?”sheasked.

“Cox’s blatant serial killings tie directly in with CIA Black Budget drugoperations, which is why he remains free for so-called reasons of nationalsecuritydespitethevastamountofevidenceprovinghisguilt.”

Asalways,Iwasasked,“HowisKellydoing?”

Inthecourseofupdatingthemonhercircumstances,ImentionedKelly’sarticle.“’The Invisible Menace; What You Don’t Know Is Hurting You’ has beenpublishedaroundtheworldinvariousnewspapers.Herinsightintosubliminalsis significant due to her awareness, which raises the question why are weallowing corporations to manipulate our minds through high tech ads loadedwithsubliminals9?Wepaytobemanipulatedwhenwepurchasetheirproducts.”

“AhalfdozenCorporatemonopoliesaretakingoverthiscountry,”Markwarned.

“Learn how our minds are subliminally manipulated through her article,” Isuggested.“ItispublishedinClayDouglas’FreeAmericannewspaper10,amongothers.”

“Shouldweoutlawsubliminalsinadvertising?”someoneasked.

“Wesimplyneedtoeducateourselvessincenoonecanlegislateagainstpeople’ssuggestibility levels,” Mark said. “That is what advertisers understand best.KnowledgeisourONLYdefenseagainstsubliminalsthesamewayitisagainstmindcontrol.Thinktwicebeforeyourespondtoanad,andthinklogically.Payattentionratherthanpaycorporatesponsorsbypurchasingtheirproducts.”

“Outlawingsubliminalswouldnotnecessarilyundogenerationsofconditioningcausedbyhightechadvertisements,anyway,”Iadded.“Itmaybethatintrusivedisruption of conscious thought through such advertisements every eight totwelve minutes has contributed to the rise in Attention Deficit Disorder.Combinedwith videogames, our kids havegrownup in a culture of constant

subconsciousbombardmentthatdisruptsconsciousthought.Thisisapossibilityworthlookinginto.Again,raisingawarenessiskey.”

Adistinguishedgentlemanstood.“ForyearsIhavedonatedtoBoysTownandCovenantHousebelievingIwashelpingthechildren.WhenIwasalertedtothecorruption,Ilookedintoitmyselfandsawitwastrue.NowIwonderhowintheworldIcanhelpthechildreninawaythatactuallybenefitsthem.”

“Believe thechildren,” Ibegan.“Keepyoureyes,ears,andheartopen to theirindividual need and respond accordingly. When you choose to empowerindividualactivistslikeMarkandmethroughyourdonations,stayvigilant.Seethedifferenceyourmoneymakes.”

Markinjected,“Everytimeyoudonatemoney,justlikeeverytimeyoucastyourvote,stayawareoftheresults.”

“You talk about Bill and Hillary Clinton being bisexual,” another participantbegan. “It is a disgrace to our country to have homosexual activity beingpromotedfromtheWhiteHouse.Wehavegaycelebrationweekinourschoolsnow.Iwouldliketoleadthecauseagainsthomosexuals.”

AfewpeoplecheeredandIquicklysaid,“Homosexualityisoftena‘result’,nota‘cause’.Totakeonacause,firstconsiderthecauseofit.Lookthroughtheeyesof love to find the cause rather than succumb to socially engineered hate.Childhoodsexualabuseisonesuchcause.Let’sstandagainsttheirabusers.Itistimeweputourdifferencesasideanduniteagainstthosesociallyengineeringustodivide.Unitedwestand,dividedwefall.”

“ThenwhydidyoubringuptheissueinTRANCE?”theparticipantpersisted.

“Inreality,”Ianswered,“Iwasstatingthefacts.”

“TRANCEwaswritten forCongress,”Mark reminded them.“It iswellknowninsidethebeltwayofDCthattheClintonsarebisexual.”

“Itismyexperiencethattheyarebisexual,leaningtowardthehomosexualend,”I continued. “This fact is important in view of themedia’s current perversion

diversionsleadingpeople’sattentionawayfromthecrimesagainsthumanityofwhichtheClintonsareactuallyguilty.WhenIincludedinformationabouttheirsexual preference inTRANCE, it certainlywasn’t intended to incite emotionalresponse. Instead, it provides crucial details necessary for understandingwhatweareactuallyseeingtoday.Hillaryisn’tthejiltedwifesheisbeingportrayedtobe. This separation of the sexes ideology with the Clintons is a socialengineeringtacticto,amongotherthings,createtheillusionofdivisioninorderthatHillarycanfurtherherownpoliticalcareerinthefuture.”

“ThinkbeyondTV’sspin,”Markcautioned.

“I’veheardrumors thatHillaryhasBillClintonundermindcontrol,”someonesaid.“Isthereanytruthtothoserumors?”

“Absolutelynot!”MarkandIexclaimedinunison.

I continued. “No one undermind control has the capacity to cleverly lie andcreatively twistwords likeBillClinton does!Themore you understand aboutmind control, the easier it will become to identify victims. Victims caneloquently deliver a speech over and over using the samewords, same voiceinflections andgestures, the samedramatic pauses as programmed, yet cannotthinktospontaneouslyrespondtoquestionscharismatically.”

Markfurtheredtheexplanation.“Especiallyquestionspertainingtodates,times,geography,orevenhowtospellsimplewordslike‘potato’.Peopleundermindcontrol are literal, and are therefore incapable of playing word semantics,misleadingothers, and spontaneously telling ablatant lie thewaySlickWilliedoes.”

A polite youngman stood. “Our country is being overrun byMexicans sinceNAFTA.We’reloosingjobsandpayingfortheirwelfare.Howarewesupposedto‘lookthroughtheeyesoflove’whilewe’regoingbankrupt?”

“HaveyoueverbeentoMexico?”Iasked.“Theyhaveavailablemedicinetherethat is affordable.They sure can’t get that here, especially throughour failingwelfaresystem.Andtheyhavemorefreshproducethanwedo.Admittedly,thefreshness of our produce has improved sinceMexicans came here to showushowtofarmandharvestitproperly.Itisexpensive,though,andIsuredon’tsee

Mexicans reaping the financial or health benefit of our genetically engineeredfoods.NAFTAwasdeliberatelydesigned toeconomicallyenslaveuswhile therichgetricher.SocialengineeringsegregatesusfromtheMexicanpeople,whowe ignorantly blame for our demise while their leaders and ours deliberatelyenslaveustoNewWorldOrdercontrols.Thiswastheplaninthemid-1980sthatIknowof,anditiscomingtofruitionbecauseweallowourselvestobedivertedby hate. Don’t listen to what politicians say, look at what they do. They areunitedindividingwethepeople.Dividedwefall.Let’sallunite,puttheblamewhereitbelongs,andstoptheeconomicandecologicaldestructionofourplanetandlives.”

“When the people lead, leaders follow,”Mark addedwhile folks clapped andcheered.

A middle-aged woman stood up, “Jon Benet Ramsey11 was murdered lastDecember, and after readingTRANCE it is clear tome that shewas probablyundermindcontrol.Stungunprodmoleswerefoundalloverherbody;shewasdressedageinappropriatelywithaplasticsmileandpupilarydilation;aperversepedophilicsexactonChristmaskilledher;hermotherwasMissWestVirginia12;her fatherwas amilitary subcontractor likeyour father; and thewhole case isbeingcoveredup!Doesyourcasetieinwithhersinanyway?”

“Yes,” Mark answered, then turned to me. “Excuse me for answering thisquestion first since it is directed to you.” Turning back to the audience hecontinued,“Ongoinginvestigationsmakethisaverysensitivesubjectrightnowsinceacopyofthemilitarytrainingfilm‘HowtoCreateaMindControlSlaveUsing a Stun Gun13” was found in the Ramsey house. Cathy was used in amilitary training film by that title. Also, a manifest from the ferry travelingbetweenTraverseCity,MichiganandBeaverIslandregistersJonBenet’sfatherandCathy’sfatheronthesameferryride.”

I injected, “My younger brother was nick-named ‘Beaver’ after this so-calledreligiousMichigan retreat. Beaver Island is in close proximity to theRamseyhouseholdinCharlevoix14,whereJonBenetalsoheldthebeautypageanttitle.”

Mark continued, “Beaver Island is an identified mind control-training centerassociatedwiththeJesuits.PeopleworkingformediamogulRupertMurdock15havethisevidence.Let’sseewhathedoeswithit.”

“We’llneverseewhathedoeswithit!”someoneskepticallyshouted.

“He’ll investigate it the sameway theCIA is investigating itself!” and “He’llcoveritup!”werevoiced.

“Recently when I saw my daughter, Kelly,” I quickly began in an effort tominimizepandemonium,“shecriedwhenshesaid,‘theonlydifferencebetweenJonBenetandmeisthatshecan’tbeabusedanymore’.JonBenet’smurderhaspromptedrumorsofmindcontrolandcausedpeopletothinktoaskquestionsthemediawon’tanswer.Peopleare learning that themedia isascontrolledasJonBenetappearedtobe.”

Thequestionwasasked,“Didhermother,PatsyRamsey,killherdaughterlikethemediasuggests?”

Markanswered thequestionwithaquestion.“Isn’t it ironic that JohnRamseymarrieda‘Patsy’16?”

“Thatpreciouschilddidnotdieinvain,”Isaid,solemnly.“Hermemorylivesoninallofus.Howmanymorehavetodiebeforepeopleinthiscountrywakeupandstoppedophilia,mindcontrol,andNewWorldOrders?”

“AwholenewgenerationofmindcontrolslaveshasbeenrecruitedsinceCathyandIhavebeenspeaking,”Markadded.

“KnowledgeisourONLYdefenseagainstmindcontrol,”Isaid.“Please,helpusspread the word for Kelly’s sake, Jon Benet’s sake, and for the sake ofhumanity’sfuture.”

“BuycopiesofTRANCEandarmyourlovedoneswithtruth,”Markcontinued.“We’renotmakingmoneyoffthis.TRANCEispricedlowsothatthoseofyouwho are economically challenged like us can afford to get this crucialinformationoutthere.Indeed,itistruththatmakesusfree!”

BillMahkovitz came up to the podium and hugged us both while the crowdstoodinapplause.“I’dliketothankMarkandCathyforcomingoutheretonighttosharewhattheyknowwithallofussothatwecanbemoreeffectiveinour

own efforts to take back our government and our lives. I wish they’d havebroughtmorebooks,though.We’veonlygotthreeleftandthey’rehardtofindsince TRANCE is self-published to circumvent censorship. Mark, where canthesefolksgetacopy17?I’llbuyacaseofbooksfromyouanddowhatIcantomakethemavailable.WhereelsecanthesefolksbuyTRANCEaroundhere?”

“ThroughDr.StanMonteith,”Marksuggested.

“OK, Dr. Stan has some. Tune into Radio Liberty or go to his website atwww.radioliberty.com.Thankyouallforcomingoutheretonight.”

“Thanks,Bill!”someoneshoutedgoingout thedoor.CarlKlang’s latestmusicrelease “It’s Not Over Until We Win18” was being played through the soundsystem as people gathered their belongings.Most people stayed awhile to askpersonal questions and talk. Communities like this one were reliant onindividuals like Bill Mahkovitz to unite them with cause and arm them withtruth.

BillandhisfamilyhavegrownverydeartoMarkandme,andrepresentwhywecontinuetospeakout.Wefinallylefttheauditoriumtogether,exhausted.Ontheridebacktoourhotelroom,wediscussedtheevent.“Whyisacceptanceoftruthcontingentuponusbeingmarried?”Iasked,genuinelyperplexed.

“It isn’t,” Bill Mahkovitz replied. “People are socially engineered to acceptthings one way. It’s like why you have to dress up to speak. People need toexpandtheir thoughtanddeepentheirvalues.”Hethoughtamoment.“Iknowyoutwoaremarried,butwhenisyouranniversary?”

“TheendofDecembersometime,”Ianswered.“DoyouknowthedateMark?”

“I don’t know,” he told me. “I suppose we could look on the back of ourweddingphoto.”

BillMahkovitzstarted laughing.“You two justdon’targueaboutconventionalthings, do you?Couples hold it against each other if one of them forgets theAnniversarydate.”

http://www.radioliberty.com

“Wehaven’tquitehoneymooning longenough topause foranAnniversary,” Itoldhim.

“ClaireandIcanrelate,”hechuckled.

“Inthefuture,”Marksaidthoughtfully,“wewouldbewisetoaskpeopletowriteouttheirquestions.Withtoday’sissuessovolatile,folksaregettingemotional.”

“I thoughtweweregoing tohaveananti-gayprotest there for aminute,”BillMahkovitzagreed.

“By writing out their questions,” I added, “it could help keep them focusedlogically,too.Ithinkthisisabrilliantidea,Mark.”

“We’lldoquestionsandanswersthatwayfromnowon,”Marksaid.“Theycanmakenoteoftheirquestionswhilewespeak.”

“NexttimeyoucomebacktoSantaCruz,”BillMahkovitzsaid,“I’llhavepaperand pencils ready to hand out as they come in the door.Youwill come back,won’tyou?”

“Absolutely,”Markagreed.

“I’llstartalertingpeoplenow,”hesaid.

Chapter47INLIGHTofINSIGHT

“TheFeds came in, flashedFBI identification, and started shackling us kids,”KellywastellingMarkandmewhenwelearnedJabneelhadsuddenlybeenshutdown in July 1997. “They started loading us in vans.Most of the kids weretotally freakedout. I amsoused toabuseby theFeds I calmed theotherkidsdownwithjokesandstuff.ItoldthemwhatMomtaughtmeabout‘changeyourthought,changeyourmood’.Anytimeemotionoverwhelmsmythinking,Iusethat to logicallyrefocus. Ithelped them, too.Afewofmyfriendsevenstartedsinging‘It’sNotOverUntilWeWin1’withmewhiletheytransportedus.Bythetime they unloaded us from the van shackled and chained together, we weresinging‘SwingLo,SweetChariot2’.One of theFeds tried not to smile. I sawhim.”

“What excuse did they give for closing down Jabneel?” I asked Kelly,swallowingmyrage.

“Nooneknowsforsure.Youcanaskmynewhousemotherandshe’lltellyou‘it’s the devil’.” Kelly had been immediately switched over to a group homewithout any court procedures. “All they did was takemy records. Everybodysawthemdoit3.”

“DidtheyarrestJabneelstaff?”Markwondered.

“Nope,”Kellyanswered.“Theyjustchaineduskids,boxedupmyrecords,andlockedthedoors.”

Kelly’snew‘house-mother’cameover togreetusandprovideexplanation.“Itwasthedevil,”sheassuredus.

“Doyouknowanythingaboutdissociativedisorders?”Markaskedher,notingherpupilarydilationandblankstare.

“Huh?”She asked. “Kellywill be attendingHighSchool in the fall, and theyneedyoutoprovideherschoolrecords.”

“TelltheFedstoturnthemover,”Kellyadvisedhermatter-of-factly.

“Maybe you are familiar with the old term ‘Multiple Personality Disorder’,”Markpersisted.

“Huh?”Sheaskedabsent-mindedly.

“Areyoufamiliarwithchildabuse?”Iaskedher.

“Ofcourse,everyonehere isabused.Wedon’tallowanysatanismordrugs inourhouse, though,”sheassuredusashalfadozentattooed,piercedteenswithvariousshadesofneonhairwalkedby.

“Whobuystheirclothes?”Iasked,notingoccult-themeteeshirtsoneveryoneofthem.

“Theydo,”sheanswered.“OnceamonthItakethemshoppingwiththe$10thestategivesthemtomeettheirneeds.”Shewanderedoff,leavingusaloneagain.

“That’sliketheblindleadingtheblind,”Markmuttered.

“I’mworkingwithanewhorse,”Kellyannounced.“HisnameisBreeze4.Theowners put him out to pasture after a bunch of satanists got hold of him andturnedhimmean.He’snotmean.Hisownersjustdidn’tcaretounderstandhim.They didn’t even comfort him.He knows I understand, though, and trustsmenow.Iridehimallthetime.”

Kelly’s ability to telepathically communicatewith animals5was proving to bethe only positive outlet she had in her occult-saturated placement. Evenwhenshebeganattendingpublichighschool, satanismprevailed there, too.True-to-soul,shecouldn’tbecontrolledbythereligiousmeanssurroundingher.

BackinNashville,IimmediatelyarrangedforameetingwiththeDepartmentofHumanServicesinaneffort toobtainKelly’srecordsasrequestedbyherhigh

school.

“We’verestructuredandarenowtheDepartmentofChildren’sServices,”Iwastoldbyastateworker.“YoucangetKelly’s records released through theFedswhocloseddownJabneel.”

“Obviouslythatisnotpossible,”Isaid.“Pleaseatleastcallthehighschoolandexplain to themthat theycanmeetwithme.Rightnowtheywon’tevenallowmeinthebuildingbecausetheybelievetherearecourtordersprohibitingit.YouandIbothknowthatisabsurd.Inthemeantime,theyarecounselingKellythatshecannotgraduatewithherclassunlessherrecordsareprovided.Thepressurethisputsonherisenormous,inadditiontobeinginapublicschoolforthefirsttimeinyears.”

“No.”

“Thatwasn’t a question.Where is your logic?Where is your compassion?” Iasked,onlytobemetwithblankstaresandnoresults.

ByOctoberKelly tookmatters intoherownhands, fleeingpressure, injustice,andoneofKnoxville’scommonmurderousoccultrituals.Alongwithafriend,she hitchhiked nearly 200 miles to Nashville where she was found sleepingunder a bridge. The phone call she placed to me moments before when shearrivedwasapparentlyillegallymonitored,andlocalpolicepickedherupbeforeIcouldrespond.Shewasthrustbackintostateinstitutions.

“We’re going to place Kelly in Try6-Angle House,” the Department ofChildren’s Services informedme. “She is in lockdown right now and you areprohibitedfromseeingher.”

“Kelly has been through a strenuous ordeal andneeds comforting,” I pleaded.“Weneedtoseeeachother.”

“Ms.O’Brien,” anewDCSworker assigned toKelly’s case said, “If it is anycomfort, I’ve been going over Kelly’s records and seewhere she has alreadyaccumulated close to twenty-five thousand dollars in her State BankAccountfromSocialSecurity7.Whensheturns18,thismoneywillbereleasedtoherto

ease her back into society. Perhaps she can even obtain the type therapy youseek.”

“EvenifIbelievedyou,”Itoldher,“itdoesn’thelpKellytoday.Today,sheandIneedtotalkifyouwouldplease…”

“No,”shesaid,lookingatherwatchandgatheringupherpapers.“Thismeetingisadjourned.”

InordertocopewiththemagnitudeofKelly’sordeal,Iwroteletterstoherdailyandbeganventing throughpoetry.Thepoemswereusually for and about her,focusingonhope,love,andsoulutions.Ifoundthatbywriting,Icouldstillshiftthe emotionally incomprehensible to logic the same way I had indeprogramming.MypoetryprovedtobeatherapeuticmeansofcopingIwouldutilizeforyearstocome.Inadditiontothis,Ithrustmyselfintowork.

Mark and I were speaking out on the radio and through seminars that werebeginningtoextendinternationally.Thevolumesofpaperworkandbooksfillingourtinyhousefinallybrokethefoundationintwo!Ourlandlordwasnotpleased,and refused to refund our renter’s deposit when we were forced to leave. Aswhistleblowers, Mark and I had devoted our all to spreading the word in amannerconducive to survival andmaintainingour right to speakout. Itwasaprecariousbalance,yetweweredeterminedtosurviveatallcosts!Loosingourdepositwasunderstandableyetdifficultunderthecircumstances.

“I’d rather gowithout gas and groceries than alignwith any organization thatwould fund us and can be infiltrated,” Mark told me as we sat on the stepsfiguringoutournextmove.

“EverydaywesurviveisonemoredayIgettobewithyou,”Isaid,holdinghishand.“I’dratherspendtimewithyouthanspendmoneyanyday!”

“OK,”Marksmiled.“Nowthatwehavethatissueresolved,whatarewegoingtodoaboutit?”

“You’reaskingme?”Ilaughed.“WhatdoIknowaboutmakingmoney?”

Mark’seyestwinkled.“I’mserious!”Isaid,fullyawareofwhathewasthinking.

“SoamI,”hesaid,risingtogobackinside.“Maybeananswerwillcometous.”

ThateveningourfriendwhoinspiredourmovetoAlabamaphonedandwetoldher our dilemma. “There is a big vacant house onmy property that you twocouldfixupifitwouldmeetyourneeds.Itneedssomework,butitcertainlyislargeenoughforspaciouslivingquarters,anofficeortwo,andastorageareaforyour books and documents.” The next day she showed us the house and weimmediatelybegantheprocessofrelocating.

“Atleastit’sbrickandwon’tbreakinhalf,”shelaughedaswemovedourtonsof documents and books in. Her attitudewas positively bright, and I grew tolearnmanypointsofwisdomfromherthroughtheyears.

“If this house was a shack I would love it for the soul-rejuvenating naturesurroundingit!”Iexclaimed,huggingherwithdelight.“Thankyousomuchforsharingitwithus!”

It would be a full month before we finally got all the vines pulled off thewindows and bricks to even see the complete house. The electricity neededrewiringandtheplumbingneededreplacing,yetMarkandIwerenostrangerstowork.Especiallywhenitwasalaboroflove.Whenthelightscameonandwecouldfinallyseeourhome,Iwasastoundedbyitsbeautyandstrength.Itwasamagnificenthome,andMarkandIfeltprivilegedtoliveinsuchapeacefulandserene setting. Waking up to soul rejuvenating beauty each day makes thehardestoftimeslighter,andwerelishedeverymoment.

Webuiltnewcagesforourraccoons,whothrivedintheirnewenvironment.Ourcoonsimmediatelymadefriendswiththeneighboringwildcoons,andsoonwehad dozens coming up to visit every night. The wildlife in the wooded areaaroundussoonrealizedwewereattunedtothemandtheirneeds,andouryardturned into awildlife sanctuary! In addition to the coons,wehad fox, beaver,eagles, bobcats, squirrels, chipmunks, deer, and even an occasional bear. ThedeerwouldsleepontheporchthewaymoosehadinAlaska,andtheyfeltasathomewithusaswedidwiththem.

Thewild‘coonssoonbecamejealousofourpetraccoons,andwantedacageof

theirown.Cageswereregardedasprotectionfromoutsideintrudersratherthancontainment, and thewild coons soon claimed the small have-a-heart trapweused for treating sick animals. Theywould lock themselves insidewhen theywerehungry,expectingwewouldfeedthem8.Aftertreatingafewwildcoonsforfleasandworms,wordapparentlyspreadamongthemthatthetrapwastheplaceto go for assistance. One time when the door didn’t shut properly, the cooninsidehelditcloseduntilwetendedhisneeds!Mamacoonsbeganbringingtheirnew babies up forworming and snacks.Never once did they steal or destroyanything.Coonsareveryintelligentandpolitewhentheyarecaredfor.

Beingattunedwithnaturekept life inperspective.Everyday I tookourblondechowdogMosesforawalk—orrather,hewouldtakeme.MoseshadadoptedMarkandmepriortoourmove.Thetinyhousethatbrokeintwowasrightin‘tornadoalley’wheretornadoswerecommonplace.Afteronesuchviolentstorm,Moseswandered intoouryardseekingmedicalattentionforasnakebite.Marktreatedhim,andhedeeplyappreciatedit.Moses’intelligencewashigh,andhistelepathiccommunicationsweremetwithunderstanding.Themoreheinteractedwithus,thestrongerhiscommunicationsbecametothepointwherehehadnoneedtobark,jump,slobber,oractlikeadog.Hewasoneofusandheknewit.Because of his unique characteristics, he fit right into our new homeenvironment and soon became our constant companion.Moses abandoned hisinstinct tohunt in favorof inner-communicatingwithwildlife,whichadded tothepeaceofourenvironment.

Ournewhomehadahugeoffice,whichprovedidealforbalancingtheintensityof our business with nature’s wildlife pleasure. TRANCE was soon ready forreprint again. “You wondered how we would sell the first printing,” Markreminded me. “Now we’re needing to reprint again. We didn’t make quiteenoughprofitoffthelastruntopayforthisprinting.Weneedtocomeupwithsomecash.”

“Weshouldraisethepriceofthebook,”Isuggested.“Atleastitwillperpetuateitselfthatway.”

“No,”Marksaidthoughtfully.“Weneedtokeepitaffordablesopeopleareabletohelpusspreadtheword.Mindcontrolisthecommonthreadweavingthroughsociety’swoesandmorepeoplearerealizingiteveryday.”

“Whowouldbelievewearebroke?”Iasked.“YouhavesuccessfullymarketedTRANCE to where it is already reputed to be one of the best selling self-publishedbookever.We’remakingasignificantpositivedifferencebringingtherealityofmindcontroltolight.”

“NotenoughforKelly,yet,”Marksaidsadly.“Hersituationisdeplorable.Sheisnearly18,soonwillbefreeofthesystemandwestillhaven’tobtainedherrighttoqualifiedrehab.TheNationalSecurityActhasyettoberepealed!Maybebygoingglobalwiththeinformationwecaninciteaction.Theinternethasproventobetheperfecttoolofmasscommunicationonaglobalscale.”

“Iknowyouaregoodatmaking something fromnothing,” I admitted. “Thereisn’t anything you can’t fix or build. Still, it astounds me that you built acomputerbydissectingouroldonewhenitwasn’tevenmadefor internetuse.Your applicable intelligence is why TRANCE will soon be going global. Nowonderweneedtoreprint!Webettergopullsomeofthemotorcyclepartsinthegaragetogetherandbuildabiketosellsowecanaffordtoreprint.DemandforTRANCEwillriseevenmorewithClintongoingthroughimpeachment.”

“Doyoureallybelieve‘slickWillie’willbeimpeached?”Marklaughed.

“He’llprobablyjustredefine‘impeach’thesamewayhehasredefined‘sex’andeverythingelse,”Icomplained.

“Themediahasredefinedthewholecountry,”Marksaid.“Itusedtobethatartimitateslife.Nowlifeimitatesart.WagtheDog9provedthat.”

“Howdoyou think themedia got the jumpon thewholeMonicaLewinsky10scandal?”

“TheMossadmaybeabletoanswerthatforyou.Ican’t,”Markinformedme.

“IfClinton gets impeached,” I said, “itwill be for all thewrong reasons.Theperversion diversion will have worked! That’s not tolerable! People need torealizetruthorthesamepeoplewillstayincontrol.”

“Even if people did learn,” Mark said, gathering up tools to work on a

motorcycle project, “they’ve got to restructure the voting system before theycould get their own choice in office. Everybody already knows the majoritydidn’tvoteClintonintothissecondterm.”

“RememberthatcalleronClayDouglas’11radioshow?”Iasked,carryingtoolsouttothegaragewithMark.

Mark laughed. “Thatwas funny. Everybodywas complaining that they didn’tknowanyonewhovoted forClintonand thatdrunkcalled inandslurred, ‘I’mtheonewhovotedforClinton.”

“UnlessClintonredefines‘impeach,’maybethevoiceofthepeoplewillatleastbeheardtovotehimoutofoffice.”

“IwishpeoplewouldlearntruthbeforeBushJr.assumesoffice,”Marksaidashebegantoassembleamotorcyclefromaboxofparts.

“Ifpeopledon’twiseup,”Isaid,“they’regoingtokeepit‘allinthefamily’ofdictators as planned. Look at how PoppyBush’s sons are already lined up toassume office with Governor Jeb running the drug capital of Florida, andGovernorJr.inTexasreadytoclaimthePresidency.”

“Bushhasbeenrunningthiscountryalongtime,”Markacknowledged.“Hewashead of the CIA when they took control of the country during Ford’sAdministration.”

“At least Ford didn’t pretend to be elected,” I noted. “Reagan only acted likePresidentwhileBush ran thecountry.Everybody inDC that Iwasexposed toknewBushranthecountrywithCheney12rightbesidehim.WasthereeventheillusionofanelectionwhenBushpubliclyassumedofficeafterReagan?”

“Youdon’tremember?”Markasked.

“No!”Ismiled.“Iwasabitdistractedwakingupfrommindcontrolandgoingtothetopoftheworldwithyou.”

“Welltherestishistoryanyway,”Marksmiled.

“Historythatwasplannedin1984whenBushtappedClintontofollowhim!”Icomplained.“ThisnonsensehasgottostoporPoppywillbepullingJr’sstringsnext!”

“Speakingofwhich,”Marksaidscrewingapart intoplace,“passme thatnut.ThismotorcycleshouldbereadyforsaleintimeforustoreprintTRANCE.”

By the timewewere ready to reprint, themotorcyclewas sold.Thisprovidedjust enough extra income for us to tend toKelly’s disastrous release from theTennesseesystem.Shewasmissingagain.

I knockedon the door ofTry-AngleHouse and socialworkerSuzanneBooneansweredthedoorleavingthechainintact.

“Whatdoyouwant?”sheaskedthroughthecrack.

“Mydaughter,”Isaid.“WhereisKelly?”

“Youfindher,”sheretorted.“Whenyoudo,tellherIsoldherclothesandhopechestfulloftrinkets.”

“Howcanyoubesoheartless?” Iasked.“Thosegirls in therearecountingonyou.”

“ThereisnothingIcandoforanyofthem,”sheansweredcoldly.“Oryou.Thesystemisn’tworking.”

“Thenfindyourvoice!”Isnapped.“Makeadifference!”

MarkwasawareofhowtheCIAoperatesandutilizedhisinsighttolocateKelly.WefoundherquiveringinaCIAsponsoredcrackhouseafterbeingsenttoFortCampbell,Kentuckyfor(obvious)reportedtraumatization.Holdingaweaponinplain sight,Mark kept the owner of the crack house in his sightswhileKellygathered her clothes. I led my daughter from the house while Mark backedslowlyawaytojoinusinthecar.Wespedaway.

Kellythankedusandthankedusforrescuingherfromthathell,andconveyeda

horrifyingstoryofrecentsordidabusebytheStateofTennesseethatledtothatmoment.Sobbinghysterically,shereportedbeingtakentoFortCampbellwheretheytrainandprogramthe101stAirborne.Nextthingsheknew,shewasinthecrackhouseandwewereleadingherintothecar.

Weknewwewere all ingravedangeruntilMark shook the tails followingusanddroveussafelyoutofNashville.Pausingtoregroupandplanournextmove,weallsharedtheknowingthatwejustsurvivedtheimpossibleagain.

“Sowhatdowedonow?”weponderedaswesharedafast fooddinner in thecar.

“Ihaveafriend,”ItoldKelly,“whocankeepyousafeandhiddenrightnow.Sheis streetwise and profoundly soulful. She’s been working for you behind thescenes for years, and loves you verymuch.Her house is never the same, andalwayshasdifferentpeople inneed likeyoucoming through.Shehas assuredmethatherdoorsarealwaysopentoyou,andIknowinmyheartit’sthesafestchoicewecanmakerightnow.”

“Canweseeeachotherthere?”Kellyasked.

“Yes!”

“It feels right tome,”Kelly said,curlingup ina fetalposition in thebackseatandsleepinguntilwearrived.

“Dana!”Igreetedmybeautifulfriend.

“You’re takingmeuponmyoffer?” she smiled. “Everythingwill be fine. I’lltakecareofherlikeshe’smyowndaughter.”

“Inlightofyourinsight,”Ihuggedher,“Iknowyouwill.”

BythetimeMarkandIslippedaway,DanaandKellyweresittinglotus-styleonthefloordoingYoga together likeacoupleofbest friends.“This isapeacefulwaytorelax,”shewastellingKelly.“Soonyou’llbeabletodream13again.”

Chapter48GLOBALWARNING

“Itisanewday,andpeopleworldwideneedtorealizethatthedaysofoperatingon a Need-to-Know basis are over,” our friend with the United Nations wassaying. “Socially engineered narrow views are no longer an excuse forignorance.Nowthatthetruthisrealized,wisdomdemandsaction.Peoplecannotburytheirheadsinthesandanymore.”

“They’veburiedtheirheadsinthesandsofanhourglassandtimejustranout!”Iagreed.

Our friend, whose name is most likely an alias anyway, is working towardpositivechangewithintheUnitedNations.IhadsufficientcausetodoubttherecouldbeanygoodpeoplewithintheCIAorpolitics,andlearningthattherewasprovedtobedeeplyencouraging.NowIhadtheprivilegeofwitnessingpositivechange within areas of the UN corrupted by global elite hell-bent on massgenocidethroughAIDS,vaccinations1,and immunizations2.Scientistsworkingon this level learned the truth, expanded theirNeed-to-Know and took action.Theywonbymaking thenecessarypositivedifferencesand thosecriminals atthetopdictatingtheiractionsdidn’tevenknowit.

“Thegoodguyshavealreadywonand thebadguysdon’tknow ityet!”Marksaid.

“When the people lead, leaders follow whether they realize it or not,” Iconcluded.

Mark and I were traveling on an international speaking circuit that positivelyprovidedusanexpansiveviewofglobalperspectives.Theproblemswithglobalelite’sversionoftheNewWorldOrdershadbeenidentified,andsolutionswerenowbeingimplemented.Peopleofvastwealthwereseekingnewwaystoinvesttheirmoneyfreeoftheoldschoolglobalelitewhohadbeeninpowertoolong.

Theyweredeterminedtofundpeace,notwar;freedom,notslavery;education,notpropaganda;truth,notsecrets.

Mark and I fit in well with these wealthy folks despite our obvious financialdifferences. I always understood thatMarkwas fully capable of generating asmuchmoneyasanyone,yet,likeKellysaid,“he’stoobusymakingadifferencetomake a buck.” Personally, I knew nothing about spendingmoney let aloneinvestingit.Yet,weweresharingwhatweknewwiththesewealthyfolksfromall over the world who sought to invest in humanity’s future rather than theglobal elite’s history. After all, I did know Senator Byrd who held the pursestringsonthemostpowerfulcountryintheworld.AndhewassellingUSandallof humankind out to global controls by funding wars, genocide, andenvironmentaldestruction.

Scientists3withmicroscopic focus on internalmechanisms of our planetwerealarmed by this destruction and were organizing. They needed to make theirvoicesheard in time to sound theglobalwarning.Glacierologists studying theearth’shistoryfrozenintheNorthandSouthPoleswerewatchingitmeltawaybeforetheireyes,andwantedtoknowwhy.TheylearnedthatGlobalWarmingcaused by burning hydrocarbon fuels is destroying our planet along withHAARP. Thirty million years of ecological balance has been disrupted! Themeltingoftheglaciersiscausingaworldofchange.Ashistorymelts,thefuturebecomesclear.Therewillbenofutureunlesspeopletakeactionnow.HowcouldtheseGlacierologistsmaketheirvoicesheardwhenpeopleseeminglydidn’tcaretounderstandtheirscientificlanguage?

Aswhistleblowers,neitherMarknor I could speakoutonanythingother thanwhatweknewfromexperiencedespitethevastviewweweregaining.Besides,mylimitedEnglishdidnotincludespeakingfluentscience,academia,computerspeak,attorney,orfluentanythingthathadbigwordsindigenoustospecializedfocus.

Wisdom naturally spans all language barriers through collective consciousspiritualevolution.Inordertogaineyestoseeandearstohearfromotherwalksof life beyond our own, spiritual evolution must begin within. After all, thesociopaths responsible fordestroyingourplanet arevastly intelligent; yet lackthewisdomthatcomeswithspiritualevolutionthroughtruthandpoweroflove.Their source of power is secrets, hatred, war, and wealth from fossil fuels,

chemicals and drugs. Now we know that oil consumption is primarilyresponsiblefordestroyingourplanet’secosystem.Ifwedon’twakeup,wiseup,andevolve,mothernaturewilltakecareofherselfwithweatherthatgrowsmoreviolentbytheminute.Actingonspiritualevolution’swisdom,wecanall learnfromeachotheranduniteinpurposelightyearsaheadofpoliticalandreligiousdifferences.

ThemoreMarkandItraveled,themoreIreliedontelepathiccommunicationtospan languagebarriers.Children all over theworld arenaturally the easiest toreach because ego hasn’t yet artificially separated them from reality. Society’sconditioningandeducationalacademiccreditshavenotyetclosedtheirearsandeyes.Religion’spiousdifferenceshavenotyetconfusedtheirpuresoulwisdomandunconditionallove.Everywherewewent,Ifocusedonthechildrentolearnfromthemtheirculture,priorities,andpurpose.AsI lookedintothechildren’seyes,Isawafuturebrightwithpromise.

ForoveradecadeIhavenoticedmoreandmorechildrenbeingbornwithlove’swisdom in their soulful eyes. Is humankind genetically evolving to save thespecies?Isthisanindicationthatthespiritualevolutionhasalreadycommencedbiggerthanlife?Coulditbethatevolutionhasalreadyoccurredinthetimelessspiritual dimension to be realized on earth in these tumultuous times? Theansweriswithin,andseeingthistruthreflectedinthechildren’seyesaroundtheworldisprofound.Lookwithinyourselftorealizeyourowntruth,andthenlookwithinthechildren’seyestoseetheirs.Spiritualevolutionalreadyis,allweneedtodoisreal-eyesit.

BALI,INDONESIA

“If we learn to expand our thought beyond what we think we know byunderstandinghowmindcontrolworks,wecouldpreventhistoryfromrepeatingitselfwithWorldWar III,”Markwas tellinganauditoriumofovera thousandattendees from around the world. The 50 foot tall giant screen behind himamplified his image so all could see the sincerity reflecting in his eyes. Anelaboratemilliondollarsoundsystemamplifiedhisvoice,soallcouldhearthemagnitudeofhismessage.Elaborate Indonesianwoodcarvingsandspectacularfoliagedecoratedtheresortwherewewerespeaking,whichamplifiedthesoul.BaliprovedtobethespiritualMecca4itwasreputedtobe.

“WorldWar II’sNaziGermanywasawarning fromhistory,”Markcontinued.“Thatwarningwasstifledunderthe1947NationalSecurityAct.NaziandfascistscientistswerebeingtransportedtotheUnitedStatesthroughProjectPaperclip5since America wanted to learn the mind sciences that spelled the demise ofGermany. There is no ‘beating around the Bush’ that the folks fundingHitlerwere building the foundational structure of his NewWorldOrder. Follow themoneyandatsomepointyou’llarriveattheVatican.MKUltrawasapowerfulcombination ofwhat theCatholics had long since learned about the effects oftraumaon thehumanmind,Nazimindcontrol techniques,andadvancingCIAtechnologiesforrefiningpsychologicalwarfare.”

ThefoundationalhistoryMarklaidprovidedfolkswithapointofreferenceforunderstandingmypartofthepresentation,andhowIcametorecover.Betweenthetwoofus,therealityofmindcontrolbecameirrefutablycomprehensive.

“Many government secrets and personal reputationswere staked on the beliefthat I could not be deprogrammed to remember thatwhich Iwas supposed toforget.Theflatthinkingcriminalsincontrolofourcountrythatwereincontrolof my mind never counted on the strength of the human spirit. They nevercountedonthepoweroflove.Theynevercountedonwhatcouldhappenwhenagoodman likeMarkPhillipsgotholdof their secretknowledgeandused it tofreeamind rather thancontrolone. Just likewecan’t think like theydo, theycan’t think likewe do. For as intelligent as they are, they lackwisdom.Andwisdomoutthinksacriminalmindeverytime.”

OurtimeinBaliwashighlysuccessfulbothintermsofsharinginformationonmind control and gaining an inside view into Indonesian culture.UnlikemostIndonesians,BalineseareprimarilyHinduandwerelivinglightyearsbeyondthetumultuousviolencebrewingamongtheirMuslimneighbors.WhileMarkandIexperiencedBali’speace,nearbyEastTimor’stensionswerebeingfueledbyoil-greedy outside influences. Nevertheless, the smiling people of Bali remainedsoulfullymoraland thoughtfullyaccommodating.Looking into theeyesof thechildren provided a view into anotherworld. Aworldwhere people naturallylivedspiritualvaluesattunedtonature.Iexpandedmyownvisionto lookintothe eyes of the adults, andwas astounded to see an evenwiser version of thechildren’seyes;stilljoyfulandfreeofegotisticalpretense.NowonderBaliisaspiritualdestinationwhenitissocleartoseepeaceandfreedominaction6.

OSAKA,JAPAN

Markhadbeen recovering fromextensive spinal surgery for less than30dayswhenwespokeinJapan.IntheUnitedStates,theprognosisforhissurvivalwasminimal and recovery nil. Surgery was unattainable for us anyway since wecouldnotaffordthenecessaryinsurance,letalonethehundredsofthousandsofdollarshospitalizationrequired.MedicalservicesintheUSwerebasedsolelyonmoney,andthemedicalsystemhadcollapsedandfailedwithoutcompassionforthe needy.We turned toAustralia and found themost advancedmedical careavailable.Noamountofmoneycanbuyhealthandhappinessanyway,andwewereelatedtolearnAustraliaknewthis,too.Mark’ssurgeonunderstoodthatthesubconsciousneversleeps,andwasmindfulthatdiscussionsduringsurgeryonlyaffirmedhealing.Recoverywas regardedas important as surgery, and it couldeasilytakeamonthbeforeMarkcouldwalkoutofthehospital.

Mark’sattitude towardhealingwaspositively impatient, though.“Idon’thavethetimenorthefinancialresourcestospendamonthinthehospital,”hetoldhissurgeon.

“When you canwalk, you can leave,” he assuredMark, totally confident thatthatwould takeweeks. Three days after surgery,Mark rose from his bed andtook his first steps. By the fifth day he dressed to leave, much to theastonishmentofhissurgeon.“Ican’tevenwritethisupforthemedicalbooks,”he exclaimed knowing he would jeopardize his medical license to documentsomethingsomiraculous7.

When Mark spoke in Japan, he was a walking, talking manifestation of themind’shealingpowerwith love.People listened intently towhathesaid; fullyrealizingheknewwhathewastalkingabout!

Forme,JapanwasacelebrationofMark’shealingandanextensionofmyownresolve to surround him with pure love. At first I believed my inability toconnectwiththeJapanesepeoplewasduetomyownfocusoncaringforMark.Japanese segregated Mark and me from them the same way Americans hadtreatedblacksinthe‘60s,seatingusinthebackofrestaurantsawayfromthem.They exuded an accusing aloofness that I would havemisunderstood entirelyhad it not been for the children. I looked into the children’s eyes, and theyshowedmethewaytotheirsoul.Generationsofwar,control,andtechnological

focushad taken its toll,andI lookedbeyond thepain to theirpeace. Itwasasthough they vibrated at a different frequency.Once the children revealed it, Ibegan connectingwith adults as readily. I learned a powerful lesson. Lookinginto their eyes, I saw our future unless we wake up and evolve to stop thewarring.DisdainforAmericanswasdisdainforourwarmongeringways,andtheJapaneseasawholehadlearnedthatwarisnotanansweraftertheirattackonPearl Harbor inWorldWar II and the resultant atomic bomb retaliation. Thetrauma of the atomic bomb attack8 seemingly thrust them into a nation ofthoughtcommunicationthatcollectivelyisrisingtowardpeacefulevolution.

BC,CANADA

Western Canada’s soul-rejuvenating pristine beauty, vast wilderness land, andNativeheritagetendtodisplacetheintensityofsocialengineeringaimedattheCanadian people. Native Canadians, like Native Americans, maintain theirhistory of wisely discussing current events with an eye on the future. TheseNatives,commonlyreferredtoas‘Indians,’donotrecognizetheimaginarylinedrawn in the sandpolitically separatingCanada, theUS,andMexicoanymorethantheydothecontinentalspanoftheHopisandTibetans.Traditionallyunitingtostrengthen their soulfulwisdom, theseprofoundnativessidestep television’ssocial engineering, Global education, and political propaganda to quietly andpeacefulassumetheirrespectfulplaceinhistory’sfuture.

Likewise, small communities of people sparsely populateCanada’swildernesswhereby personal interaction provides hope for their increasing evolutionarystand against the NewWorldOrder. The 1997 CBCBroadcast of “The SleepRoom” reflectedCanadian intolerance ofUS generatedmind control, keepingcitizens aware of the CIA’s MK Ultra atrocities perpetrated at their AllenMemorial Institute in Montreal since the 1950’s. Nevertheless, much of theurban population is still being blindsided by the systematic use ofmassmindcontrol’stechnologiesasisreflectingintheeyesofthechildren.

“Our children are being misled through Global Education,” one concernedparentwas saying.Markand Iwereoftenbroughtback intoCanada to speak,and were concluding another presentation in Vancouver. “History is beingrewritten andhumanvalues ignoredwhile information isdownloaded intoourchildren’s brains through computers. What are the ramifications of education

methodssuchasthese?”

“Creativity is lost,”Mark began, “as is a capacity for critical analysis of theinformation. This results in a robotic compliance without question and aninabilitytoproductivelyapplywhatislearned.ANewWorldOrdermindsetofcomplianceisbeingmanufacturedthroughyourchildren.”

I added, “During the 1980’s, I worked under US Education Secretary BillBennett who was actively implementing Global Ed on a national andinternational scale.MypersonalassociationwithFormerPrimeMinisterBrianMulrooneywasduetohisdirectinvolvementinthisGlobalEdeffort.WhileheandBillBennettbothwerededicated toCatholicJesuitmindcontrolmethods,Brian Mulrooney emphatically initiated the use of technological harmoniccomputerizationintheclassroom.”

Ayoungmanasked,“Whichisworse?CatholicJesuitmanipulationofreligiousvaluestoinstillcontrolsonthechildren,orharmonictechnologicalcontrols?”

“IampersonallyawareofformerPrimeMinisterPierreTrudeau’smanipulationofCanada’seducation systemusing Jesuitmeans,” I answered. “This isnot tosay all Catholics are guilty of ill intent anymore than are the educatorswhoimplementsuchmeansonthechildren.Personally,Ibelievethatthosewhoarenotguiltyofabusivemindcontrolmeanswillrisetostopthosewhoare.PierreTrudeau’s Jesuit mind control influence in the school system, churches, andpolitics are widely recognized and abhorred, as are Brian Mulrooney’s. ThedevastationTrudeauwreakedonCanada’schildrenandsocietybecame furtherentrenched through the computerized harmonic technologies BrianMulrooneyimposed. Between the two forces, manipulation of your children’s mindsdemandsyourawarenessandimmediateactiontostopit.”

“Goodpeopledon’tthinktolookforcriminalactivityofthismagnitude,”Markcontinued.“Therefore,itisuptoeachandeveryoneofyoutoinformothersinyourcommunitytoraiseawareness.”

“Look into the children’s eyes,” I advised. “I have. A flicker of hope shinesthroughtheirtearsthatsomeonewillseetheirneed.Theynotonlyreflectmindcontrol abuses, they also reflect the kind of sexual abuse being deliberatelyperpetrated through the churches for the purpose of mind control. Child

prostitutionisskyrocketinginCanada.Why?”

Anelderlymanresponded,“Understandingmassmindcontrolmethodsgivesusthe edge we need to be effective in stopping the abuse of our children.Apparentlywe have been slow inwaking up, and our children have paid theultimate price. As a society, we have lost our way through superficialmaterialism,treatingourchildrenlikepossessionsfortrade.

Childprostitutionandpedophiliahavebecomesorampantthatwecannolongercloseoureyesinlightofthetruth.”

IndividualswithinCanadafrustratedwith theirgovernment’ssystematiccover-upofchildabusearetakingpositiveaction.PeacefulnoncompliancewithNewWorldOrderwar/terror tacticsandcontrols isbecomingcommonplace.Peopleare raising awareness and their voices for the sake of their spiritual freedom,theirchildren,andtheirfuture.

MANILA,PHILIPPINES

“Todaywe are donating computers toManila’s school system that are free ofGlobalEducationtacticsinorderthatthechildrenlearntruththatcanbeappliedwith wisdom.” This announcement was met with thunderous applause by therecipients, as well as by the wealthy seminar participants who had found yetanother productiveway to invest theirmoney in humanity’s future free of theglobalelite.Theyknewthattax-deductibledonationstomajorcharitiesreachedthegreedyandnot theneedy, and that thebestway tocontributewas throughcaring.Caringtoseetheneedandpersonallyrespondtoit.

Manilawasapoverty-strickencity thatwas rich inwisdom.Thepeoplehadasoulfulhistorythatopenedtheireyestotherealityoftoday’sworld.Theyclearlysaw a future of hatred, enslavement, and control through the warmongeringglobalelite,andwereintheprocessofpeacefulnoncompliancewhileMarkandIweretherein1999.ThepeopleofManilawerepredominantlyCatholichavingsuccumbed to charities out of necessity asmost thirdworld countries do.Yetlocalnewspapersreportedextensivepedophiliainthechurch,pointedlyreferringto itaschildabuseandnothomosexualityasdiversiondemanded.Rather thanfile lawsuits against theCatholicChurch, they sidestepped it by building their

ownchurches freeof ‘thoughtcontrol.’WhileMarkand Iwere inManila, thePopewas forced to address the issuewith thenoncompliantPhilippinepeoplecallingforcessationofchildabuseandthoughtcontrolintheCatholicchurches.Theyprintedhisstatement,andbuilttheirownchurchesanywaywiththemoneytheywerenolongersendingtotheVatican.

Likewise,theysidesteppedGlobalEd.Duetotheirpoverty,theaveragechilddidnotgrowupbeingconditionedbySesameStreet9orvideogamesto roboticallyaccept informationbeingpumpedintotheirbrainsatwarpspeed.SinceGlobalEdwasdesignedtoincreasetheirlearningcapacitywhiledecreasingtheirabilityto critically analyze, the high tech process was not compatible withManila’ssoulful children. They rejected the onslaught of information, which Markcleverlylikenstodrinkingfromafirehose,andunknowinglyrejectedthewayhistorywasdeliberatelyrewrittenintheprocess.

Thewealthyseekinginvestmentsinhumanity’sfutureembracedtheopportunitytomeet theneedsof thePhilippinechildren themselves.Thecomputerswouldallow these precious children to learn truth at their own pace while gainingcomputerization’scommunicationsthatwouldlinkthemtotherestoftheworld.

Everybody ison theirown learningpath, andmine feels extremelyprivileged.Universal justice,whichisalwaysnaturally tippedto thegoodwithlovebeingthemostpowerfulforcein theuniverse,wasprovidingmeanexpandedglobalview after blindly following orders undermind control. Through this extremeexperience, universal justice reverberates asMark and I volunteer our lives toparticipateintheworldwideevolutionaryprocess.ThisdonationofcomputerstothePhilippinepeopleexemplifieswhatcanbeaccomplishedwhenwecaretoseetheneedandrespondourselves.

RIMINI,ITALY

“Cathy and I have been fortunate to travel around the world several timesspeaking out on mind control,”Mark was saying to the crowd gathered nearRimini,Italywhiletranslatorsrapidlyinterpretedhiswordsandcamerasrolled.“ItisencouragingtofindtherestoftheworldmoreawakeandawarethantheyareintheUnitedStates.”

Ayoungmanstoodtoaskhisquestion,whichwasinterpreted.“CardinalLaw10

isinRometodaytomeetwiththePoperegardingtherampantpedophiliaintheBostonArchdiocese.AreAmericansawarethatmindcontrolisinvolved?”

“After speaking out on the Boston11 connection for over a decade, it isencouragingtoseethefirststepbeingtakentowardjustice,”Ibegan.“However,the US media not only fails to address the issue of mind control, they arediverting people’s attention away from the issue of pedophilia by calling ithomosexuality.ManyofthesurvivorsofCatholicabuseandtheirsupportersareawarethatmindcontrolistheunderlyingissue.Thepublicisnot.”

Markelaboratedfurther.“Repressedmemoryofchildhoodsexualabuseusuallybeginstosurfacearoundage30whennaturalelectro-chemicalchangesoccurinthebrain.Theisawidelyknownandestablishedfact.ThefactthattheVaticanplacedaten-yearstatuteoflimitationsonreportingsuchabuseeliminatesavastnumber of their victims from joining the class action suit. Neither Cathy norKelly iseligible forcompensationunder this rule.Howmanyothersarebeingignored?”

“Please,”Iadded,“Iencourageeachandeveryoneofyoutoposethisquestionto theVatican.Ask howmanyvictims ofCatholic abuse are being ignored inaccordancewiththeVaticanChildAbusePolicy12.FeelfreetospecificallyciteKellyandmeasexamples13.”

Many people in the audience made note while the young man said, “Pleaserepeatthatspecificpolicy.”

“Thank you for making note of this. The Vatican Child Abuse Policy isconsideredsosecretivethatmanyliveswerelostattemptingtobringthistruthtolight for the children’s sake. The billions spent and lives lost covering up therecentVaticanBankingscandalareonlysecondarytoTheVaticanChildAbusePolicy. Please ask how many victims like my daughter and me are beingdeliberatelyignoredunderthisVaticanChildAbusePolicy.”

DecadesofCatholic relatedabuse in Italy left thepeopleacutelyawareof theatrocities emanating from the Vatican. They evolved above and beyond theabuse,provingthatknowledgeistrulyapowerfuldefenseagainstmindcontrol.Their insight has yet to stop theVatican from taxing them, yet it did serve to

protect their children. Wise and aware, Italians proved to be highly evolvedpeaceful people rather than the Catholic mobsters I had been conditioned toexpect.Looking into thechildren’swiseeyeswasadelight,and theyassumedtelepathiccommunicationinkeepingwiththelifestyletheyknew.

“We choose to notwatch television in Italy,” someone elsewas saying. “Ournewswe discuss. It is understood here that Bush does not runAmerica. It isobviousheismanagedandcontrolled,andthathisfatherandDickCheneysettheworldstagewhileKarlRovedirectshim14.DoAmericansknowthis?”

“No,”MarkandIansweredtogether.

Mark elaborated first. “Thewhole country PTSDed after the 9-11 tragedy.Asyouallknow,traumaleavespeoplemoreeasilyled.PeopleintheUnitedStateshave yet to learn about mind control, and therefore could not safeguardthemselves fromtraumaticeffects. In theeventsomeonedid think to look intomind control, the Freedom of Information Act was immediately revoked and100,000 documents on MK Ultra reclassified. Of course, Cathy and I hadalreadyobtainedcopiesduringthefewmonthstheyweredeclassified,whichwemake conveniently available on CDRom15 everywhere we go in an effort toraise awareness ofmind control.Knowledge is our only defense againstmindcontrol,andAmericanswererendereddefenselessagainstthecontrolsimposedon them after 9-11. Traumatic bloody images played over and over and overagainonTVwhileordersweregiven to sendmoney that hasyet to reach thevictims.Between images, peoplewerebombardedwith fitness commercials tokeep them focused on a physical reaction. They could not think to think forthemselvesorgatherstrengthofsoul toaskpertinentquestions.Questions like‘whyisBushhuntingterroristsinoilreserves’whenallheneedstodoislookinhisownbackyard.”

“Orthemirror,”Iadded.“In1995,TRANCE16hadalreadydetailedthatJr.wasbeing trained for the Presidency by his father and Dick Cheney. Awealth ofpertinent information could come to light if only Jr. were deprogrammed andcouldthinktotellwhatheknows!EventsBush,Sr.andCheneydiscussedattheBohemian Grove in the mid 1980’s are unfolding today with Jr. as actingPresident. Jr. is evidence of mind control’s sliding scale, as well as amanifestation of his father’s and Hitler’s dream. Jr’s brother Jeb Bush hadassumed Governorship in Florida, where it was decided that Jr. had been

‘selected’ President. ABC news even inadvertently released pre-determinedelection results thedaybeforeelections!AmericansknewBushJr.wasplacedforareason,andthatwarwasimminent.Bush,Sr.andCheneywerehuntingoil,and9-11gavethemlicensetodoit.”

“Fossil fuels are causing global warming,” an elderly man said. “Bush andCheneyaredestroyingourplanet.DoAmericansrealize thatoil isno longeranecessaryfuelsource?”

“Yes,”Mark answered. “Many have died attempting to make alternative fuelsources available. Bush-Cheney oil companies are powerful. Prior to 9-11,Americans were adamantly opposing their oil-drilling destruction of Alaska’spristine wilderness17. They were asking questions regarding Area 51’spropulsiontechnologies18.Theirvoicesweresilencedafter9-11whilethemediafocusedonlyontraumaratherthansolutions.”

Thisdiscussionwasfurtheredduring lunch,which isan integralpartof Italianculture.Lunchbreakslasttwotothreehours,withmanybusinessesclosingforthe daily event. Soon thereafter, even more time is devoted to dinner. Italiancuisineisreputedtobethebestintheworld,yetitisnotsomuchthefoodthatistheir focusofattentionas it is theconversations sharedwithmeals.Talking isanimatedwith Italiansgesturingmuchof the timewith theirhands rather thaneating.Talkisintenseastheywalktoandfromeatingestablishments,manyofwhicharequaintoutdoorcafés.

Mark and I determined that all the walking and gesturing Italians do mustcontributetotheirfitness.ThewholetimewewereinItaly,wedidnotseeanyobesepeople.Americansaregrowingheavierandheavier,whichappearstoberesultantfromgeneticallyengineeredfoods.Italianfoodfeelsassatisfyingasittastes,whereas food inAmericahas seemingly lost its ability to satisfy.Whenone Italian explained that American food was prohibited in Italy, I quicklyrealizedthatgeneticengineeringoffoodwouldhavetosoonceaseforeconomicreasons19. Iaffectionatelyrefer toItalyas“Eatily.”It isduringtheirsharingofmealsthattheirlivesareenrichedwiththetruthsthattheysharewitheachother--freeofTVspin.

FIRSTLIGHT,FIJI

AnewdaydawnsfirstinFiji!Sunshinestherebeforeitreachesanywhereelseontheearth,andIcertainlycanunderstandwhy.Iwouldshinetherefirst, too!Fijiislivingproofthatallofhumankind’sfondesthopesandidealsforautopicshambalacanberealizedinlightoflove,peace,andwisdom.

MarkandIjoinedfriendsforalifeenhancing‘BlueLagoonCruise’inFijiattheturn of the millennium. This perfect time to experience the first light of themillenniumwasenhancedbytimingbiggerthanlife!

“Heymate,”ourMaori20forever-friendKaneRobinsonbeganwhenwereturnedfromourcruise,“doestimefeeldistortedtoyou?Ifeellikewejustleft,yetwerethereforever.”

“Ifeellikewejust‘arrived’atsomekindofmajorspirituallevel,”Iobservedaswedisembarkedtheyacht.

“Lifewillneverbethesame,”Markagreed,carryinghissnorkelinggear.“Itjustgotbetter.”

“Allofmyvalueshavechanged,”Kanecommented.“AndIalreadyfeelricherforit.Itisasthougheverythingwe’veeverworkedforisalreadyrealized,andnowwesimplyneedtogothroughlife’smotionstoachieveitinreal-time.”

“Kane,Idon’tknowspecificallywhatthefutureholds,”Markadmitted.“YetIamconfidentitisallinorder,thatyouareforeveranintegralpartofourlives,andthatsuccessisabsoluteforallofus.”

“Its like everything came together while we played!” I exclaimed. “I’veexperienced missing time before, and this wasn’t like that. I remembereverything,andyet there isnostructureof timeinmymindas thoughwehadsomekindofprofoundspiritualexperiencebeyondtime.”

Life still felt surreal when we gathered for dinner at our resort on the ‘mainisland’.TheFijianpeoplegatheredtobidusfarewell,soulfullysingingajoyoussongas theydancedandclapped. “Wewill seeyouagain,” theywarmly said,huggingusasthoughwewereoneofthem.Theyrecognizedourtransformation,andknewthatwewereoflikemindandspirit.

The Fijian people are peacefully happy, enjoying daily life in their utopicheaven.Nature’sbeautysurroundingthemissoulrejuvenating,fromthesandybeaches and palms to the pristine shorelines and mountain peaks. Snorkelingrevealedyetanotherdimensiontotheirpeacefulislandparadise,andMarkandIforever cherish our shared experience in their crystal clear waters.We joinedhands, floating as one in bliss and ecstasywhile the spectacular Fijianwatersteamedwithlifearoundus.

Fijianchildrenreflectthewisdomoftheancientsintheireyeswhiletheyplayinjoyous abandon.Thought communication is a given, and is somuch a part ofdaily life that it is accepted norm. I sensed no language barrierswith themortheir elders. On various Fijian islands, there is no electricity or life’scomplications that accompany such ‘conveniences.’ Therefore, there is anabsence of social engineering, video game diversions, pollution, greed, andcrime. Best of all, Fiji’s natural resources are within their people, nature’ssimplisticbeauty,andabundantfruits,vegetation,andkavakava.

There is no oil to exploit or war over. The Fijian people have gone to greatlengthstokeeptheNewWorldOrderfromabsorbingtheirparadiseinthefuturebycreatinganillusionofviolentcannibalistichistory.IlearnedthishistorywhilesittingamongthemononeremoteislandneartheboardedupshackofaCatholicchurch. “The missionaries built this structure,” an old man was saying as hepassed around the kava kava, “and told us itwas our temple forworshippingtheir God. They promised us money and wealth. How can we be richer thanthis?”Hegesturedtotheparadisearoundus.“Whydoweneedawoodentemplewhenourbodiesareourtemple?WhyworshipGodovertherewhenourgodiswithin?Wesentthemhome.”

Mark and I never really left Fiji. We took it with us in our beings, foreverchangedby theknowingthatheavenonearthwasareality. Itseemedillogicalthatallofhumankindhadn’talreadyembracedthissharingkinshipwithalllifethewaynatureintended.OntheflightbacktoAustralia,MarkandIfeltnoneedto reduce our Fijian experience to words and blissfully shared the knowingbetweenus.

OZ

WhatatripitistomethatAustralianscalltheirhomeOz,yetittrulyisunlikethe rest of the world. Australians are unpretentious true-to-soul people whoexhibitnoshameorfalsepride.Warmustreallyannoythemsincesuchnonsensereallyisn’ttheirspace,unlesstheirpreciouschildrenarethreatenedorabusedinanyway.

MarkandIcallAustraliaoursecondhome.Wehavespentmuchtimethere,andexperienced many of its cities from Sydney to Adelaide to the Gold Coast.EverywherewehavetraveledinAustraliawehavefoundthestrongestpeopleonthe planet, soul-wise and otherwise. One minute they may be wrestling acrocodile,andthenextcuddlingakoala.

While Mark rehabilitated from his spinal surgery in Adelaide, we met withindividualswithin theAustralian government concernedwithUS influence ontheircountryandwithintheirmilitarybases.MKUltramindcontrolwasontheriseinthemilitarybasestheysharedwiththeUS,andsurvivorswereemergingenmasseseekinganswers.

“US National Security is suppressing pertinent facts on mind control and,subsequently, recovery from it,”oneofficial explained. “HowcanUScontrolsencompasstheglobe?”

“AnycountrythathasapeacetreatywiththeUSissubjecttothetenantsofthe1947NationalSecurityAct,”Markreplied.

“WhenmindcontrolsurvivorsmentionwhatmayhavehappenedinRoswellin1947,NellisAirForceBase’sArea51,oradvancedpropulsiontechnologies,USNational Security is always invoked,” one high-rankingmental health officialreported. “Why have so many of Area 51’s Top Secret military operationsrelocatedtoAustralia21?”

“Over thepast fewyears, an increasingnumberofAmericansbegan snoopingaround Area 51 and asking questions,” Mark replied. “When they unearthedevidence of advanced propulsion, the coal and oil corporations running ourcountrywhosuppressemergenceofsuchtechnologiessimplyshiftedlocations.Obviously, your leadership sold out and allowed for relocation of Area 51 toPineGap22.”

Awide-eyedindividualwhispered,“Ithoughtalienswerebehindthis.”

Marksmiled.“If theyarealiens, theyobviouslyneedourhelptoovercomeoilcorporation suppression of their environmentally friendly propulsiontechnologies.”

“Aliensorotherwise,”Iexcitedlyadded,“itishumankind’ssoulwisdomthatisrequiredfortakingnecessaryeffectiveactionagainstthoseflat-thinkingwarandoil mongers who hide behind the National Security Act. It is up to each andevery one of us to raise awareness to stop them from destroying our fragileecosystem,suppressingemergingtechnologies,andfromusingMKUltramindcontrolmethodstoensuretheirsecrecy.”

Upon conclusion of ourmeeting, one government official declared, “Betweenthe 1947National SecurityAct,mind control, andHAARP, solutions such asyouandconcernedothers23offermustbeimplementedimmediatelyinordertostopthedestructionofourplanetandlives.Iassureyou,manyofusjoinyouincontrolling our own destiny, and dissention from within the highest ranks ofgovernmenthasbegun.”

RecentlyMark and Iwere in Sydney visitingwith our dear friendsKane andJustine.NeenaLove,whohadbeenontheFijiancruisewithKaneandus,cameby to share her recent revelation. She had artistically written: The day Isurrenderedtonothingless thanloveeventheskycouldsetnolimits towheremy heart could soar! Her precious children Amber and Soul (Love) wereflourishinginlightoftheirmother’sdeepinsightsandambitions,anditprovedrewarding forme toknow thisworldwouldbeabetterplace for themandallchildreneverywherebythetimetheygrewup.WeallknewthatAustraliawaspivotaltorealizingthisworldofchange.

ItappearsthatAustraliaisroughly20yearsbehindthetimesoftheUSintermsofsocialengineering,technology,andgovernmentalcorruption.ThismeansthatAustraliansarecapableofthinkingfreelywithsufficientabilitytopreventwhathashappenedintheUSfromhappeningtothem.AustraliansarelearningfromAmerica’sdemise,andchangehasbegun.Theyclearlysee theeffectsofmassmindcontrol,andcollectivelyunderstandthatthistooloftheNewWorldOrderisaninvisiblemenacethatisunwelcomeintheirlives.Theglobalelitehastakenhold ofAustraliansmuch like the proverbial handful of sand; the harder they

squeeze,thelesstheyhold.NeitherMarknorIhaveevermetanAustralianwhowould willingly stash his cash in someone else’s pocket like Americans did.Australians are not apt to forfeit their fun and independence to succumb toslaveryatatimeintheirhistorywhentheyareemergingintoworldmarketsandleadership in their own right.Australians are awake, aware, and sounding thealertacrosstheirlandinordertomaintaintheirpreciouswayoflife.Theyknowthat knowledge is ouronlydefense againstmind control, and thatmaintainingfreedomofthoughtisessentialtotheirfuture.Awarenessiskey.Andawarenessisrisingdownunder.

EPILOGUE:ASSUMEYOURVICTORY!

TheUnitedStateswasoriginallydesignedasa“globalmeltingpot”ofvariousnationalities, cultures, and heritages where genetics naturally combined inpeaceful union. Americans were born from the best of everyone, inspiringstrengthof spirit, character, and intellect.ThroughDARPA’sandSandiaLab’scomputerizedsocialengineering, this innatestrengthandspiritualfreedomwasslowlypoliticallyredefinedintomaterialisticcomfortzones…

Until 9-11.Terrordesigned to shockAmericans into compliance slowlybeganlosing its initialholdwhile thatoriginal “globalmeltingpot” strengthof spiritrose from the ashes. Comfort zones devastated by terror and the ensuing“homeland” national security and Patriot Acts forced a sleeping populace toawaken. Most Americans now realize that corporately-controlled news andcontrivedpollsdonotrepresenttheirviews,andtheyarere-emergingintotheircommunities and/or utilizing the internet to communicate truth and inner-actwith each other. They are asking questions and demanding answers, acutelyaware that wisdom outthinks criminal minds and computerized artificialintelligence.

Appalled bywar and environmental disasters, the people of theUnited Statesjoinwith therestof theworld inputtingasidedifferences longenoughtostopthis Global Elite’s version of the so-called New World “Order”. Globalcommunications such as the Internet, humankind’s unified purpose, andworldwidespiritualevolutionmakesplanetaryunityaninevitablenaturalreality.Yetglobalizationasit isbeingimposedonusthroughtheNewWarOrderandit’sPatriotActsisnotourchoiceanymorethanareitsself-appointedleaders.IfitwereuptoUS,ourso-calledleaderswouldbeimpeached;asinremovedfromofficeaccordingtothedefinitionof“impeach”beforeBillClintonredefinedit.NeverbeforeinthehistoryoftheUnitedStateshavesomanypeoplecalledforimpeachment. National news does not give voice to this vast majority of

Americans. Instead, people are being misrepresented in a deliberate effort tosocially engineer the world into believing it wants environmental destruction,war,financialdevastation,slavery,andmindcontrol.

Revolution is not an answer. One man’s terrorist is another man’s freedomfighter, and violence of any kind can be perceptually defined either way.“Fighting for freedom” is akin to the term “military peacekeeping forces”.Violence is not necessary for humankind to realize and wisely claim thefreedom,peace,andstrengthofspiritthatalreadyisinnatelywithineachofus.

Expandedthoughtisnecessaryforseeingbeyondsocialengineering’sperceptualdistortions, word-play conflicts, and confusion. Through MK Ultra mindcontrol’sdarktunnelfocus,Inolongercouldseethatgoodpeopleexistedinthisworld.I losthopeuntilMarkhelpedmeexpandmyvisioninlightofloveandtruth.Likewise,goodpeopledidnot think to lookforsuch inhumaneabuseasmindcontrol.Peopledividedbywhattheyknowanddon’tknowbecomeevenmore isolated by secrecy. Divided we fall. Now that truth has come to light,humankind’s vision becomes clear. Themorewe know, themorewe see thatmindcontrolis thecommonthreadweavingthroughsociety’swoesandglobaltensions.Weareboundtobesetfreebyrealizingthistruth.

Itiswithineachoneofustoseekthetruthandactonwhatweknow.Thelatestcorporatelycontrivednewsandpollsthatdividearenotgoingtotellusthatweareoneandhavewon.Anotherillusionofpoliticaldifferenceisdestinedtobedisplayedinanefforttoreplaceourleadershipwithmoreofthesameunlesswewise up and real-eyes that neither race, gender, religion, political party, namerecognition,norwealthrepresentstruechange.Changemustcomefromwithinsoul’s realm of unconditional love where our likenesses far outshine ourdifferences. People all around the world want the same things: peace, love,health,andhappiness.Throughourshared likenessesweall stand tomake thetruedifferenceinchangingourleadership.Whenthepeoplelead,leadersfollow.

We have a choice. Either we spiritually evolve together, or our planet’srevolutionswillspinusintoviolentdestructionandMotherNaturewillbuckusalloff thisplanet.Quietly reflecton thepossibilities1.Expandyourvisionandfindtruthwithinyourselfinordertounderstandothers.Liveyourtruein-sightinlight of love. Through vigilancewe can freelymaintain positive, evolutionarychangeforthesakeofourplanet’ssurvivalandhistory’sfuture,forthesakeof

ourchildren,andthesakeofhumanityasawhole.Youarenowempoweredtobecomeapartof thesoulution. Indeed, it isanewday.ExertevolutionNOWandpeacefullyASSUMEYOURVICTORY!!

ABBREVIATIONS:

CIA,CentralIntelligenceAgencyFBI,FederalBureauofInvestigationDIA,DefenseIntelligenceAgencyDEA,DrugEnforcementAgencyNSA,NationalSecurityAgencyTBI,TennesseeBureauofInvestigationCID,CriminalInvestigationDivisionCSIS,CanadianSpecialIntelligenceServicesNASA,NationalAeronauticalSpaceAdministrationDARPA,DefenseAdvancedResearchProjectsAgencyHAARP,HighAltitudeAuroralResearchProjectMPD,MultiplePersonalityDisorderDID,DissociativeIdentityDisorderISS&D,InternationalSocietyfortheStudyofDissociationAPA,AmericanPsychiatricAssociationAPA,AmericanPsychologicalAssociationNLP,NeuroLinguisticProgrammingNAFTA,NorthAmericanFreeTradeAgreementCDC,CenterforDiseaseControlBCCI,BankofCreditandCommerceInternationalJPL,JetPropulsionLaboratory(akaJackParson’sLaboratory)NCIN,NationalCultInterventionNetworkDCS,DepartmentofChildren’sServicesDA,DistrictAttorneyLA,LasAngeles(California)WWCR,WorldWideChristianRadioMOM,MilitiaofMontanaNCL,NorwegianCaribbeanLinesCBC,CanadianBroadcastCorporationCNN,CableNewsNetwork

GNN,GuerillaNewsNetworkNCAP,NationalCoalitionAgainstPornographyVIP,ValleyInstituteofPsychiatryVOICES,VictimsofIncestCanEmergeSurvivorsS.W.A.T.,SpecialWeaponsandTacticsFCC,FederalCommunicationsCommissionSRAs,SurvivorsofRitualAbusePOW,PrisonerofWarMIA,MissinginActionD.,DemocratR.,RepublicanNWO,NewWorldOrder(oftentimesmakes“D”and“R”obsolete)

ACCESSDENIEDForReasonsofNationalSecurity

FromtheauthorsofthecultclassicTRANCEFormationofAmerica.With their lives and liberty on the line, TRANCE was hurriedlycondensedfromcourtroomtestimonyintoabookformandprivatelypublishedbytheauthorsinSeptember1995.

ACCESSDENIED ForReasons ofNational Security is the rest oftheir true life’s story, which required 16 years for the authors tosurvive and 3 years for them to write. This book is an amazingtestamenttothestrengthofthehumanspiritandoneyouwillneverforgetforaslongasyourthoughtsremainfree.

While TRANCE has become known worldwide in many licensedtranslations as one of the most successful US governmentwhistleblowers’ books ever written, it was never intended for thepublicwhohadnoreferenceforunderstandingmindcontrolnorwasit tobeconsideredabook.Rather it iswhat it is, a trueand todateuncontested document for the US Congressional Permanent SelectCommittee on Intelligence Oversight. TRANCE is CathyO’Brien’sdocumentedtestimonysheprovidedtoUScourts,USCongress,andthe United Nations Commission on Human Rights Abuses of herexistenceasaCIAMK-Ultramindcontrolproject’sslave.

ACCESSDENIED isarealbookofanswers,solutionsandpositivehope for all of u.s. and our allies around theworld. This bookwaswrittenforeveryoneandespeciallyfor thethousandswhohavereadTRANCEandwerelefttoimaginepertinentdetailsthatcouldnotbe

included.• HowdidCathyrecoverfrombeingtortured“outofhermind”

untilage30whenintelligenceinsiderMarkPhillipstriggeredandrescuedherandherdaughterKellyawayfromtheirCIAoperativehandler?

• What are the documented details of how Mark & Cathysurvived the state and federal and Congressional judicialgristmillaptlycalledthecriminaljusticesystem?

• Lastbutnotleast,whatarethefactsastohowMark&Cathywere able to survive long enough to globally expose thecriminalactsofsomeofthemostpoliticallypowerfulpeoplewhoarestillincontrolofourplanettothisveryday?

ACCESSDENIEDisawhistleblowers’livingguidetosuccess.

1CentralIntelligenceAgencyandDefenseIntelligenceAgency.2CIA’sMindControlProject.3“ProjectMonarch”wasreportedlyoneofover125long-termresearchgeneticmind control sub-program of MK Ultra focused on multi-generational abusebasefamilies,asidefrombeingconsideredanurbanmythsinceithasyettobedeclassifiedoravailablethroughUSFreedomofInformationAct.4 D.West Virginia, President Pro Tempore of the Senate and head of SenateAppropriations formany years,Byrd has been in office longer than I’ve beenalive.1Histamine reactioncanbesevere, resulting inbubbling,bleedingskin, scars,andevendeath.www.goldbaum.net/balance/Whats_Histamine.html21984CBS,Inc.3BillClintonalsohasheldthepositionofArkansasAttorneyGeneral.4www.assumption.edu/webVAX/mena/Roberts7May96.html,“DoubleCrossed”BarrySeales’story.1 Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. PTSD is a basis for mind control andoftentimesisdeliberatelyinducedleavingapersonhighlysuggestibleandunabletothinkforthemselves.ManyAmericansPTSDedafter9-11,asdidcitizensofGermanyafterthe1933attackoftheirgovernment’sReichstag.2Harmonictechnologiesinmindcontrolhavenowadvancedtoreachdeepintothe subconscious to control breathing, heartbeat, blinking, etc. wherebyprogramminghasreplacedthecyanidepilltoensurespiesdiewiththeirsecrets.3 The term “multiple personality disorder” was misleading and was oftenconfusedwithschizophrenia,whereby themoreappropriate term“DissociativeIdentityDisorder”wasacceptedbythementalhealthcommunity.4DefenseAdvancedResearchProjectsAgency.5Charter’sfounderandchairmanoftheboardresigned3yearspreviousduetosuppressionofinformationandwhathetermed“theCIA’sinvolvement”withhishospitals,re:www.psyfin.com/articles/charter.html.6PostTraumaticStressDisorder7Chapmanwas later implicated in a sexual child abuse investigation scandal,AnchorageTimes.8www.centeroflight.com,Muskegon’sresourcecenterforvastnumbersoflocalsurvivorsofincestand/orCatholicabuse.9March16,1997, theMuskegonChroniclenewspaperbeganaseriesdetailingMuskegonasthepedophilecapitaloftheUSwww.mlive.com.10 Dr. Colin Ross, Bluebird; Deliberate Creation of Multiple Personality by

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Psychiatrists, Manitou Communications 2002, available throughwww.radioliberty.com.11LindaHunt,SecretAgenda:TheUnitedStatesGovernment,NaziScientists,andProjectPaperclip1945-1990,NewYork,St.Martin’sPress1991.12After3generationssuchtraitsmayresult ingeneticencodingandautogenicbehavior.13 Ford’s Presidential Cabinet consisted ofDickCheney as Secretary of State(nowVicePresident),GeorgeBush,Sr. tohead theCIA(UnitedNations,VicePresident,President,hisJr.nowactingPresident),DonaldRumsfeldasSecretaryofDefense(nowSecretaryofDefense),andJackValentiasPressSecretary(nowheadoftheMotionPictureAssociation).14TheRepublicanNationalCommitteeheadedbyVanderJagtputGeorgeBush,Sr.intotheofficeofPresident.1FatherBurtnerofPortland,Oregon.2TheSleepRoom,CanadianBroadcastCorporation1997TVbroadcast.3 Marischen was implicated in the same child abuse investigation ring asAnchoragePoliceofficerJackChapman,AnchorageTimes.4SheappearedonAmerica’sMostWantedTVshowin1989.5 Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is commonly referred to asMormon.Wayne Cox also professes to be a Mormon, and Kelly and I wereoccultrituallyabusedwithintheMormonchurchandprogrammedtoparticipateinCIAcocaineopsthatwereutilizingMormonBishop’swarehousestostoreandpackagecocaine.6MaxKitchens’positionwasdirectlyundertheheadofUSCustomsatthetime,WilliamVonRaab.7EagleRiver/Chugiakisonly½hourdriveintheiceandsnowfromAnchorage.8 Carol Marshall, Chapter 15, Part 2, The Last Circle.www.lycaeum.org/books/book/last_circle/o.htm9GeorgeRomney’sson,MittRomney,movedfromUtahtobecomeGovernorofMassachusettsduringthecourseofCardinalLaw’sCatholicpedophilescandal.In 2004, Governor Mitt Romney’s relationship with Bush Jr spawnedspeculationofhisreplacingCheneyasBush’srunningmatein2004enroutetohisplanned2008bidforPresident.10MormonBishopGlenPace,inanefforttoexposethewidespreadsystematicmindcontrolproliferating throughout theLDSchurch, releasedan innerofficememoexposingthisdeliberatecrime7-19-1990.11B.K.Eakman,EducatingfortheNewWorldOrder,Portland,Oregon,Halcyon


House,1991.12Bullet-proofKevlarlinedbriefcase.13“LouisJollyWest,theMasterofClockworkOrangeMindControlisDead,”New York Times, 1-8-1999 Jolly West was called in on such infamous mindcontrolcasesasSirhanSirhan,Oswald,CharlieManson,andTimothyMcVeigh.14Yearslater,Hassanretractedthisstatementasordered.15ConspiracyTheory,1997,www.conspiracytheory.warnerbrothers.com.1 “Cramer on ‘Top Secret’ Panel,” The Huntsville Times, March 13, 1994;CramerwaspromotedtoUSCongressanditsPermanentSelectCommitteeonIntelligenceOversight.2TRANCEFormationofAmerica,www.TRANCE-formation.com.3Pp.109,124,134,TRANCE,www.TRANCE-formation.com.4Videoby this titlewas reported tohavebeen foundat the JonBenetRamseyhouseholdafterher1996murder,andherautopsyprovedstungunprodmarksonher6yearoldbody,“StunGunSaidUsedinRamseyKilling”,December20,1997,LosAngelesTimes.5P.109,TRANCE,www.TRANCE-formation.com.1Ourstaywouldlastfrom1990to1993.2Over-activehistamineoftenaccompaniesmindcontroltraumaanddissociativedisorders.3Chapter13,“OperationShellGame,”TRANCE,1995.4Chapter12,“OperationCarrierPigeon,”TRANCE.5Ibid.6Ibid.p.1507Harmonicsdrive lyricsdeep into thesubconscious,which isone reasonwhyhearing a certain songwill bring backmemories of “falling in love” or othersignificanteventsthatoccurredatthetime.8“DibbleandtheDevil,”TheCurrier-Journal,Louisville,Kentucky,6-18-90.9MarkandIstayedsobusysurvivingtheimpossiblealltheseyears,thatmakinga living financially has yet to be realized. Perspectives and priorities changeundercircumstancessuchasours,whilesexandfoodarestilloutofthisworld!1CongressionalCourier.2 Russell S. Bowen, The Immaculate Deception; The Bush Crime FamilyExposed.3Chapter12,“OperationCarrierPigeon,”chapter13,“OperationShellGame,”TRANCE.4 By 2002, US Customs was replaced by “Immigrations and Customs

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EnforcementBureauoftheDepartmentofHomelandSecurity.”5DrugEnforcementAgency.6“NAFTAisnowopenlyreferredtoasthe‘NorthAmericanDrugAgreement’by US Customs…”, William Von Raab, http://db.uwaterloo.ca/~alopez-o/politics/narcosys.html.7PressSecretaryunderformerPresidentFord,nowheadoftheMotionPictureAssociation of America. Michael Powell, son of Colin Powell, is currentlyChairmanoftheFederalCommunicationsCommission1JeffMerritt,TRANCEFormationofAmerica,p.40.2Countrymusicentertainer,p.180,TRANCE.3P.127,TRANCE.4Pp.169,170,171,TRANCE,www.radioliberty.com,Dr.StanMonteith.5Chapter20,“NewWorldOrderoftheRose,”TRANCE.6Chapter27,“HotelCalifornia,”TRANCE.www.TRANCE-formation.com.7Chapter28,“’FreeTrade’ofDrugsandSlavesattheJuarezBorder,”TRANCE.www.TRANCE-formation.com.8FBISpecialAgentBradGarrettwastransferredtotheWash.DCbureauwherehe was lead investigator in the death of White House deputy counsel VinceFoster, themurder ofWhiteHouse internMaryCaitrinMahoney, key federalprosecutionwitnessinthemurderofAimalKasiatCIAHeadquarters,andleadinvestigator in the Chandra Levy case. P. 229, TRANCE. www.TRANCE-formation.com.9AsUSAttorneyGeneralandheadoftheJusticeDepartment,DickThornburghdecided which cases would be investigated or covered-up by all FederalAgencies including the Federal Bureau of Investigation, Drug EnforcementAgency, and Customs. Thornburgh was Governor of Pennsylvania during theThreeMile Island nuclear disaster and subsequent cover-up, and was a mindcontrollerandsexualabuserofmineasdetailedthroughoutTRANCE.10GarretthadbeenflowninfromWashingtonDC,althoughhepurportedtobewiththeNashvilleoffice.1Chapter24,“A-HuntingWeWillGo,”TRANCE.2 Chapter 9, “Ronald Reagan’s American Dream, a Pandora’s Box ofNightmares,”chapter10,“’Commander’DickCheneyandReagan’s‘HandsOnMindControlDemonstrations’,”TRANCE,1995.3 Ohio Congressman Jim Traficant, now serving an eight-year sentence in aPennsylvaniaFederalPenitentiary, told theAmericanpublichesupported theirright to bear arms while voting against it, etc. Chapter 7, “Charm School,”

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TRANCE,1995.4Chapter14,“ClintonCokeLines,”TRANCE,1995.5 D. Indiana, Permanent Select Committee on Intelligence, Subcommittee onIntelligence Policy and National Security, Subcommittee on Terrorism &HomelandSecurity,son-in-lawSen.J.BennettJohnston.6FormerGovernorofPennsylvaniaappointedtoheadHomelandSecurity.7“SilenceEqualsDeath,”TRANCE,www.TRANCE-formation.com.8pp.174-82,RandyRiese,NashvilleBabylon;p.180TRANCE.9AnyrelationtoKeithWhitley?1Wayne Cox, too, remains free for so-called “Reasons of National Security”despitevastevidenceagainsthim.2 Thornburgh was Governor of Pennsylvania during the Three Mile Islandnucleardisasterandsubsequentcover-up.3P.102,TRANCE.410-26-90,LutonMentalHealthCenter.5 Thornburgh was forced to resign from his position as Attorney General inAugustof1991amidstacocainescandalinhisDCoffice.6FromTimRoemer’sEvansville,Indianadistrict.7bullet-proofKevlarlinedbriefcase.1IronicallywithindaysofKelly’sadmittance,CumberlandHousechangedtheirlogo to depict a childwithMonarch butterflywings, signifying that they nowhousedMKUltraProjectMonarchmindcontrolledchildren.Thesignremainstheretodate.2 Senator Al Gore becameVice President under Bill Clinton, and Presidentialhopefulthereafter.3 Multiple Personality Disorder, or as it is now termed, Dissociate IdentityDisorder.4Pp.134-5,TRANCE.p.83RandyReise,NashvilleBabylon.5 Loretta Lynn’s maiden name, Coal Miner’s Daughter, Warner Books, 75RockefellerPlaza,NewYork,NY10019,1975.6LindaBlood,TheNewSatansists,WarnerBooks1994.7“TheMcMartinNightmare”,coverstory2-5-90,PeopleMagazine.8LaterAOL-Time-Warner.1BayofPigsInvasion,1961.2Bush,Jr.overrodethisConstitutionallawin2001withaPresidentialExecutiveOrderafter9-11makingit“legal”fortheCIAtoassassinateanyforeignleadersoutofstepwithPoppyBush’sNewWorldOrder.


3D.Tennessee,ontheSenateAppropriationsCommitteeunderByrd.4ThoseinsidethebeltwayofDCconsiderSassera‘rubberstamp’.5PresidentBush,Sr.6 R. North Carolina Senior Senator Jesse Helms, whose compassionstrengthenedmeovertheyears.7 Ina laterconversation,Kellyexplained thatshehadbeenconvincedIwouldnot be tortured if she would take it instead. I had been instructed that KellywouldnotbetorturedifIwouldtakeit.Neitherofussucceededinprotectingtheother,yetitwasasignificantrevelationtousbothtolearnthetruth.1Theirmother’snamewasValerieVasquez.2 A manifest from the ferry to Beaver Island showed my father and JohnRamsey,JonBenet’sfather,tobeonthesameboattothisobscuremindcontrolprogrammingcamp.3 Previous documentation of the vaginal mutilation carving turned into USCustomshadrecentlyresultedinNorthLittleRock,Arkansas’detectiveRakoinandcornerNowyskicontactingusregardingCox’sknowninvolvementinlocalrailroad track murders and a female body vaginally carved according toHouston’sm.o.4IwasalsomonitoredsoIwouldn’tsay‘WizardofOz’or‘President,’orspeakofthepastdespitemyknowingKellyhadtolearnofherpastfromtheinsideoutratherthanthroughoutsideinputinordertoheal.5ThiseducationprogramwasdesignedaftertheoneimposedonHitler’sYouth.Learnmoreatwww.radioliberty.com.6Chapter21,“GlobalEducation2000,”TRANCE.BennettalsoheldpositionsasUSDrugCzar,professedJesuit,Bohemian“Grover,”Homeschoolingauthority,andMKUltramindcontrolprogrammer.7Pp.179-81,TRANCE.LamarAlexanderisalsoaformerEducationSecretary,andhasbeenaPresidentialCandidate.8Pp.174-82,RandyReiseNashvilleBabylon.9Pp.134-5,TRANCE.10www.deliberatedumbingdown.com.CharlotteIserbyt.1J.AllenBoone,KinshipWithAllLife, republishedin1976byHarper-CollinsPublishing, People who have been abused oftentimes connect strongly withanimals, and excel in careers centered around them. Carol Gurney, TheLanguage of Animals; 7 Steps to Communicating with Animals, Bantam-BellPublishing,adivisionofRandomHouse,1540Broadway,NY,NY10036,2001.2Kellymaintains that being separated from her family by the statewasmost


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traumatictoher.3Ilaterlearnedthatthepay-offmoneywasfederalandnotfrommyfather.1Recentstatisticsshowed1in5Afghanis,aftergenerationsofbrutalwarringinAfghanistan, suffers from PTSD dissociation, which is considered to be theprimebasisformindcontrol.2 Carol Gurney, The Language of Animals; 7 Steps to Communicating withAnimals, (Bantam-Dell Publishing division of Random House, Inc. 1540Broadway,NewYork,NY10036)www.animalcommunicator.net.1 John Grinder and Richard Bandler, Trance-formations: Neuro-LinguisticProgrammingandtheStructureofHypnosis.2 The Invisible Menace: What You Don’t Know IS Hurting You, by Kelly,publishedinmagazinesandnewspapersworldwidein1996.3Thoughtcommunicationishonestbynature,conveyingarealityratherthanaconglomerationofwords.4P.992,TheAlmanacofAmericanPolitics1992.5Traficantwassilencedduringhis2002criminaltrial,resultinginhisconvictionand8yearprisonterm.6FortCampbell,where101stAirbornearetrained.7 Numerous indirect threats to our lives by Joe Rodgers, delivered byMetroPolice,wereconfirmedwhenMarkandIattemptedtoaddresstheissuewithhimathisNashvilleoffice.8TheCIAoftenusesfakebusinessfrontsfortheiroperations,toymanufacturersandofficesupplystoresbeingamongthemostpopular.9AustralianPsychiatristDr.Nurcum.10 A newly formed child advocacy group for children tangled in the JuvenileCourtsystemthathadtakenonKelly’scause.11Chapter8, “TheCIA’sWaronDrugs;Eliminating theCompetition;”chapter12,“OperationCarrierPigeon;”chapter13,“OperationShellGame,”TRANCE.12P.152,TRANCE.13CaribbeanbeaconsystemestablishedforCIAdrugops.14Bush’sson,Jeb,iscurrentlyGovernorofFlorida(despitehailingfromTexas),during which time the so-called 2000 Presidential elections were “recounted”andBushJr.wasputintotheofficeofPresident.15DrugEnforcementAgency1AtermdescribingMark’sspook/spyfriends.2LorettaLynn’ssonandHurricaneMillshomewerelocatedinthesamedistrictinwhichweresided.

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3“Lynngetsprobationincocainesale,3-timefelon’sturningpoint’”March27,1992,Nashville,Tennessean.4P.125TRANCE.5 Chapter 8, “CIA’s War on Drugs Operation, Eliminating the Competition,”TRANCE.6Pp.154,156TRANCE.7 The Carefully Crafted Hoax, self published booklet Box 30165 Lincoln,Nebraska68503.8PaulBonacci.9 Houston displayed an honorary “key” to this infamous Catholic children’shomeinNebraskaonhisdenwallsincehefrequentedtheplacesooften.10 “Is George Bush the World’s Leading Child Molester?” November 1991,InsideNews, POBox311,Maleny,Queensland 4552Australia;Bushwas notallowedtodebarkAirForceOneonatriptoAustraliaduetoextremeprotestsregardingthisissue.11PeopleWeekly,February5,1990.12 April 29, 1992, L.A. California riots, police and government corruptionreportedtobecauseinriotsthatinspiredthebrutalizedRodneyKing’sinfamousplea“Can’twealljustgetalong?”131988ParamountPictures.14FederalCommunicationsCommission.1 Harry V. Martin, “Federal Corruption INSLAW, Napa Sentinel, 1991,www.sonic.net/sentinel/gvcon7.html.2 www.lastcircle.com, Carol Marshall, The Last Circle, available through.www.tomdavisbooks.com/ebooks/lastcircle.3 “Waswriter the victim of aDC conspiracy?”August 14, 1991,The BostonGlobe.4Chapter13“OperationShellGame,”TRANCE.5TheBankofCreditandCommerceInternationalthatHoustondealtwith.6Neitherofferedanysupportorassistance.7LindaBlood,TheNewSatanists,1994WarnerBooks.8 “Attorney General to quit in summer,” The Tennessean, June 5, 1991 note:includedonhis“potentialsuccessorlistwereJohnAshcroft,KenStarr,andhisDeputyAttorneyGeneralWilliamBarr.1Dr.AnthonyCasolaro,aphysicianintheWashington,DCsuburbs.2 “See no evil, Why are the media ignoring the strange death of DannyCasolaro?”TheBostonPhoenix,September6,1991.

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3 Harry A. Martin, “Federal Corruption INSLAW, Napa Sentinel, 1991,www.sonic.net/sentinel/gvcon7.html.4www.bushlibrary.tamu.edu/papers/1991/91080900.5 “Papergate? Dick Thornburgh’s 258 mystery boxes”, Atlanta Journal-Constitution,December19,1993.6 Thornburghwent on to becomeUnderSecretaryGeneral for theUN ’92-93,and Chairman of Space Technology and Science Institute,www.ssti.org/board.htm.7WilliamBarr,www.fas.org/irp/commission/testbarr.htm.8 Barbara Trent, The Panama Deception, 1993 Academy Award BestDocumentary, the First Academy Award for a documentary film.www.empowermentproject.org.9SpecialWeaponsAndTacticsPoliceForce.10DeadOnArrival(tohospital)1 The Child Advocacy Organization that was overseeing Kelly’s case whichDebbieUpChurch.2 The 5th Amendment of the US Constitution stipulates that a person couldremain silent in court on the grounds that answering questions could beincriminating.1NationalSecurityAgency2Chapter24,“AHuntingWeWillGo,”TRANCE.3“Freeingthementallyillwasaterriblemistake,”TheHuntsvilleTimes,July22,1997.4The1998bookbyPeterandRochelleSchweizer,Disney,TheMouseBetrayed;Greed, Corruption, and Children at Risk, Regnery Publishing, Inc, OneMassachusetts Avenue, NW, Wash.DC 20001 was considered highlycontroversialandresultedinthemurderoftheauthor.Bratcherwasspeakingoutnearlyadecadebeforeit’srelease!5“OfMiceandManassas”,SPYmagazine,October1994.6Themilitaryevenkeepstheirownhotelthere.7 Chapter 6, “United States Military & NASA Mind-Control Training”,TRANCE.8CIAtrainingcenterinVirginia.9Wearantivirus firewalls if/whenseekingfurther informationonlineregardingDARPA!1NewYorkTimes,CIA’sinfiltrationof“whitewitchcraft”cultsthroughoutNorthAmericaintroducedbloodtraumaintotheirritualsexpandingintoSatanism.

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2www.militiaofmontana.com.3Chapter18,“IntheMeanTime,”TRANCE.4www.radioliberty.com.5Chapter23,“WhirledVision,”TRANCE.6Chapter17,“AboutFaces,”TRANCE.7SecretServicetestimonyverifiesdetails.8L.FrankBaum,TheWizardofOz.9Chapter13,“OperationShellGame,”TRANCE,p.145.1MarthaChild’shandwasthefirstouttakingthecashpayoffthatBobAndersonhaddoledoutclaimingitwasfrommyfather.2 “Judge used cocaine jury prospect says,” The Tennessean, 6-29-94. JudgeBrotherswas repeatedly caught up in cocaine scandals andmoney laundering.“Nebel asks federal judge to look into prosecutors,” The Tennessean, 3-5-94.“NoactionlikelyinBrothersallegation,”TheTennessean,6-30-94.3Dr.ColinRoss,Bluebird,www.rossinst.com4CBC’TheSleepRoom.5Oprahclaimedthat,whileshewascensoredbythenetworkfrombroadcastingourcase,shewouldremaindedicatedtomakingapositivedifferenceforabusedchildren.6 Chapter 12, “Operation Carrier Pigeon,” and Chapter 13, “Operation ShellGame,”TRANCE.7“NoriegaGuiltyBySaturation,forjury,witnessescredible,”USAToday,April10,1992.“NoriegaGoesontheDefensive,callshisconvictionpolitical,”USAToday, July13,1992,“NoriegaReceives40Years,”WashingtonPost, July11,1992.1 Experience proves that mail disruption is not the fault of USPS Postalemployees who oftentimes voice complaint over unwarranted governmentinterventionintheirreputablebusiness.2 “Lynn gets probation in cocaine sale, 3-time felon’s ‘turning point’,” TheTennessean,March27,1992.3Ibid.4 http://www.soaw.org andwww.personal.umich.edu/~lormand/poli/soa/panama.htm5Chapter14,“ClintonCokeLines,”TRANCE.6NorthAmerican FreeTradeAgreement,Chapter 16, “OperationGreenbacksforWetbacks,”TRANCE.7www.nathanielblumberg.com/neil.htm

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8Chapter24,“AHuntingWeWillGo,”TRANCE.9BushoftenusedthevoiceofFredRogersof thepopularchildren’sTVshow“Mr. Roger’s Neighborhood” to gain the confidence of children. Chapter 15,“NoMoreBeatingAroundtheBush,”TRANCE.1Shelterforthehomeless,amongotherpublicservices.1Chapter25,“BushBaby,”TRANCE.2NorwegianCaribbeanLinescruiseship.3Chapter23,“WhirledVision,”TRANCE.4LindaBlood,TheNewSatanists,WarnerBooks1994.5CanadianSecret IntelligenceService, andCultWatchAustraliawere amongthem.6RossPerot,PresidentialCandidatein1992untilhisfamily’slifewasreportedlythreatened.7www.outpost-of-freedom.com1Redbook,February1993.2Mark learned fromhis former associates thatPerot is in violationof theUSConstitutionbyhavinghisownstandingarmyofSpecialForcestypessittinginMexico.3Chapter28,“’FreeTrade’ofDrugsandSlavesattheJuarezBorder,TRANCE.1Chapter26,“NewWorldOrders,”TRANCE.2Aquinov.Stone,Citewe768F.Supp.529(E.D.Va.1991).3BohemianGrove,www.TRANCE-formation.com4Chapter14,“ClintonCokeLines,”TRANCE.5HillaryoftencampaignedatGayandLesbianrallies,marchedinparades,“GayCelebrationWeek”wasdeclaredaspartofGlobalEducation,etc.6P.154,155TRANCE.7Bymyexperience,Bush’sheroinopsoutofAfghanistanwereheaviest.8InvestigatorGaryCaradoriandhissonlosttheirlivesJuly11,1990whenthissameroutewasnotsidesteppedbytheNebraskaLeadershipConference.9 Vanderbilt’s abusive, intrusive technology adversely resulted in brain stemdamagethatcontinuestodate.10January25,1993,“StahlmanBuildingblaze‘suspicious’,”TheTennessean.1Chapter23,“WhirledVision,”TRANCE.2Throughout the years,MarinCounty continuously surfaces in the newswithsuchcasesasaninfamous.murderofayoungchild,www.pollyklaas.org,andasthe hometown of Taliban ‘recruit’ John Walker. Lindh who became a

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controversialprisoneroftheUSwaronAfghanistan.3 “Anti-Pedophile Sought in Kidnapping,” The San Francisco Chronicle,February12,1993.“Tennis Pro Arrested for Fleeing with Child,” The San Francisco Chronicle,June8,1993.“DaycareFoeFacesKidnapCharges,“TheSanFranciscoChronicle,August13,1993.4Itisrare,thoughnotuncommonthatspookshighupinIntelligencehavemorethan one function, the most common being (Federal Bureau of Investigation)FBI/CIA. This particular spook had Identification for Central IntelligenceAgency,DefenseIntelligenceAgency,andNationalSecurityAgency.5WilliamF.Jasper,GlobalTyrannyStepbyStep,1992.WesternIslands,POBox8040,Appleton,Wisconsin,54913.1 “Anti-Pedophile Sought in Kidnapping”, The San Francisco Chronicle,February12,1993.2Acontracttokill.3 Gordon Thomas, Journey Into Madness, the true story of secret CIA mindcontrolandmedicalabuse,1989BantamBooks,ISBN#0553-28413-4.41992,www.rollingston.com.,re:SinaidO'Connor.5MuskegonCatholicCentraliswhereIattendedhighschool.6DefenseIntelligenceAgency’smilitaryintelligenceandSpecialForces.7 Chapter 9, “Ronald Reagan’s American Dream: A Pandora’s Box ofNightmares,”TRANCE. Ihadbeen trainedby theCIA toanalyzehandwriting,which is a scienceas accurate as thegraphologist. Inmycase,having learnedwhileundermindcontrolwithaphotographicmemory,myhandwritinganalysisskillswerestillconsideredtobepreciseenoughtobeusedasevidenceincourt.8 Multiple Personality Disorder, the outdated term for Dissociative IdentityDisordered.1‘Mikey’isacommonlyuseddemeaningnicknameforMichaelAquino.2PostTraumaticStressDisorder.3Chapter22,“MyContra-bution,”TRANCE.4TheCIAusesexperthandwritinganalysistodeterminewhomtohire,whomtotrust,whomtofire,etc.,asdootheragenciesandUScourtrooms.Handwritinganalysishasbeenrefinedtoanexactscience.5http://news.excite.com/news/ap/011105/19/nicaragua-election.6Pp.183,184TRANCE.7Pp.184,185TRANCE.

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8 Iwas still experiencing that ‘RipVanWinkle’ timewarp feelingsince Iwasstill catching up on the real world beyond what I’d been programmed toperceive.9 “WhatUSDrugCompanyProducedHeroin andLSD?”USAToday, June5,1991,p.8A.10 Chapter 31, “The King and Eye,” TRANCE. I understood this to be thedefinitionof‘remoteviewing’.11 Chapter 10, “’Commander’ Dick Cheney and Reagan’s Hands On MindControlDemonstrations,”TRANCE.1 Since many institutionalized children reportedly responded to sugar withheightened energy, sugar had been replaced with Aspartame. Aspartame wasbeingreconsideredbyCharterhospitals,however,sincethelethargic,apatheticalresponse it created was proven to have an adverse effect on health, mentalhealth, and American society as a whole. Aspartame was the only drug Ipersonally sufferedwithdrawals fromaftermindcontrol, as itwasdeliberatelyused in copious quantities to incite compliance. AspartamewasmanufacturedwhenDonaldRumsfeldwasCEOofSearle,andapproveddespitevastadverseproof during Rumsfeld’s tenure on Reagan’s transition team.www.newswithviews.com, www.pharmcentral.com,http://alkalizeforhealth.net/Lsweetdebate7.htm.2High Altitude Auroral Research Project. Holes in Heaven video by PaulaRandol-Smith, www.haarp.com;Angels Don’t Play this HAARP by Dr. NickBegichandJeaneManning,EarthpulsePress,1995.3May,1992.4“TheUnitedStates,HowtheWestwasStunned”,TheWorld’sMostDangerousPlaces,byRobertYoungPelton,HarperCollins1998.5Ibid,“Drugs,War’sBastardSon”.6EducatingfortheNewWorldOrder,B.K.Eakman.7InfamousRodneyKingquotefromtheLARiots.8Were‘Dividians’chosento‘Divide’theUnitedStatesallegiancessubliminallyaswellasovertly,oristhename‘coincidence?’Were“Dividians’dividedfromWaco since George Bush, Jr. ‘coincidentally’ resides there? Or becauseWacohousesaTopSecretDeltaForcemindcontroltrainingcamp?9 Google search on Wesley Clark leads to numerous accounts, includingwww.radio.weblogs.com10www.klang.com11APlaceCalledWaco,ASurvivor’sStorybyDavidThibodeau,PublicAffairs

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Publishing, 1999. Thibodeau lists the names of 21 children,whileCarlKlangrefersto“17LittleChildren,”whileothersourcesreferto23childrenincluding2 unborn fetuses.Numbers vary according to perceptual definition of a child.Regardlessofthenumber,innocentchildrenwerekilled.12“TennisProArrestedforFleeingwithChild,”TheSanFranciscoChronicle,June8,1993.13“PetalumaFatherNotAlone,FearofSatanismAcross theNation,”TheSanFranciscoChronicle,June12,1993.14 LaToya Jackson,Growing Up in the Jackson Family, Century Publishing,1992.15SeventeenLittleChildrenbyCarlKlang,1993.www.klang.com.1Huntsville,Alabamaisoftenreferredtoas‘NASACityUSA’and‘NaziCityUSA’duetoWernerVonBraun’sNASASpaceandRocketCenterinfluence.2 Pedophiles always find cause to be around children,working boys and girlsclubs,paradingthemselvesasclowns.Manychildrenreportabusebyclowns.1InternationalSocietyfortheStudyofDissociation2Allofourpetshadkeensense,andnoneofthemlikedSue.3AvictimofCIA/JesuitMKUltramindcontrolwhoworkedunderGovernorBillRichardson.4P.126,TRANCE.5www.nathanielblumberg.com/neil.htm.6P.198,TRANCE.1 http://home.hiwaay.net/~becraftWe the People Foundation forConstitutionalEducation,Truth-in-TaxationHearing2-27&28-02www.givemeliberty.org2FormerHuntsvilleDistrictAttorneyBudCramer,whoalreadyactivelycoveredupourcaseresultinginthe1991threattoourlives,wasnowaUSCongressmanon the Intelligence Oversight committee. “Cramer on ‘top secret’ panel”,TheHuntsvilleTimes,March13,1994.3Thiswaspriortothe1996TelecommunicationsActderegulatingradiostationsallowing for the Government controlled Clear Channel to monopolize theairwaves.1www.assumption.edu/webVAX/mena/Roberts7May96.html,“DoubleCrossed”BarrySeale’sstory2ObstructionofJustice,theMenaConnection,IntegrityFilms.3Modusoperandi,ormodeofoperation.4P.105,TRANCE.5TheMenaCover-up;Drugs,Deception, and theMakingof aPresident;The


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ClintonChronicles;TheDeathofVinceFoster,CitizensforHonestGovernmentfilms.6www.klang.com7Dr.BennettBraunoftheISS&Dwasreputedforhisworkwithchildrenuntilhe became a casualty of the cover-up, whileDr. RichardKluft andDr. ColinRosswereconsideredthebestinthecountryforadults.SinceKellywasaminor,Braunappearedbestuntillegaldifficultiesengulfedhim.8NicholasEvans,TheHorseWhisperer,1996DellBooks,1998movie.9http://www.montyroberts.com/mrilc.MontyRoberts,TheManWhoListenstoHorses,1996,TutorPublishing.10 www.taoofequus.com, and www.americanhorsetrainersgroup.com use andteachthisJohnLyons’method.11 A decade later, President Bush Jr. echoed his father in noncompliance byrejecting ecological sustainabilitywww.observer.guardian.co.uk/worldsummit200212RobertLudlum,TheBourneIdentity,BantamBooks.13L.FletcherProuty,TheSecretTeam;theCIAanditsAlliesinControloftheUnited States and theWorld, Second Institute for Historical Review Printing,1992.14UnitedStatesAirForceColonel,retired.15Pp.142-3,TRANCE.16FletcherProutywasdepictedas“Mr.X”inthe1991filmJFK.17TheCollectedWorksofCol.L.FletcherProutyCDRom,available throughwww.prouty.org/cdrom.html.18ApopularquotefromtheWizardofOzbefittingofDC’sillusion.19CIA,America’sSecretWarriors,DiscoveryChannel,www.discovery.comandwww.levinproductions20 Linda Kohanov, “The Tao of Equus; a woman’s journey of healing andtransformation through the way of the horse,” New World Library 2001.www.taoofequus.com1“A-queen-oh”istheproperItalianpronunciation,thomostarefamiliarwithhisattempted diversion from his Jesuit affiliation/agenda by pronouncing it “A-keen-o”.2Whenfacedwithanythreateningsituation,Marksmilesknowingfullwellthatthethreatwillsoonbeneutralized.1 David Thibodeau, A Place Called Waco, A Survivor’s Story, Public AffairsPublishing,1999.


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2http://www.klang.com.3RandyWeaver’sRubyRidge Idahomountain homewas stormedbyFederalAgentsresultinginthemurderofhiswifeVickiandsonSamin1992.4www.rollingthunder1.com.5PrisonersofWar,MissinginAction.6LindaBlood,TheNewSatanists,WarnerBooks1994.7www.freeamerican.com8www.nexusmagazine.com9Lakotageneticheritage.10Chapter2,“TheRitetoRemainSilent,”TRANCE.11FamilyVacation,NationalLampoon,1983.12www.consciousevolution.com.13Hisothertrailerwasprivate.1NeighborhoodWatchisanorganizednationwideactionbycitizenstoprotectthemselves and their neighbors since they could no longer rely on lawenforcementwhoprotectafailedjusticesystemratherthanthem.2Chapter19,“E.T.PhoneRome,”TRANCE.3StateofAlabamaResolutionHJR353.4Manynameswere assigned to thisFederal control of schools in an effort tododge protests. Names include ‘America 2000,’ ‘Outcome Based Education,’‘Goals2000,’and‘GlobalEducation.’5Chapter21,“GlobalEducation2000,”TRANCE.6 The forces in Washington, DC would soon launch a monetary affront thatwould force Alabama to accept Global Ed, overriding Constitutional state’srightsastheysooftendonow.7TRANCE.8www.nexusmagazine.com9 http://mikenew.com Daniel New, Michael New: Mercenary or AmericanSoldier,AmericanSovereigntyActionProjectpublisher.10Chapter20,“NewWorldOrderoftheRose,”TRANCE.11Chapter7,“CharmSchool,”TRANCE.12Ibid.13PennsylvaniaSenatoron theJudiciaryCommitteeandSenateSubcommitteeonAnti-TerrorismwhoseinfluencebegandiminishingafterTrochman’sspeechin‘95.14ThePennsylvaniaGovernor,nowheadofHomelandSecuritysince9-11.


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15 Now available though our friend and Canadian Distributor Wes Mann atwww.preferrednetwork.com16AwonderfulladyinAlaskaloanedusenoughmoneytoreprint.1JamesRedfield,TheCelestineProphecy;anadventure,TimeWarner1993.2J.AllenBoone,KinshipWithAllLife.3 “Coincidentally” years later,Mark and Iwere privileged to attend one suchceremonyinhername,andthenativeAmerican(Hopi)leadingitcalledon“theGreatCoordinatorofCoincidence”toclearlyleadtheway!4 After being abused by religion, Kelly refers to a supreme being as “loveenergy”ratherthanareligiousname.5www.spiritualhorizons.net6www.KLAV1230.am.com7www.1997/gen/resources/players/starr/lewinsky.com8www.TRANCE-formation.com9www.mexconnect.com/mex_history/jtuck/jtsalinas.htm10Chapter16,“OperationGreenbackforWetbacks,”TRANCE.11This isnot tosayall“votemonitors”wereawareof theirpurposebeyondaNeed-to-Know.http://news.excite.com/news/ap/011105/19/nicaragua-election12Ibid.13Iknewin1986thatBush,Jr.wasbeinggroomedforthePresidencywhileatthe CIA MK Ultra mind control training camp on Mount Shasta. When heassumed theofficeofPresident in2000according toplandespite forewarningpeoplesince1990andofficiallythroughTRANCEby1995,theAmericanpublicknewhestolethe“election”inhisTexanbrother’s“homestate”ofFloridayetfelt powerless to stop him after the 9-11 trauma. Now Hillary is suddenly aSenator from “the World’s Capital” of New York, ready to move intoPresidential position as planned unless people reclaim their country and livesnow.14www.Klang.com1www.preferrednetwork.com2www.davidicke.com3www.preferrednetwork.com4 Russell S. Bowen, The Immaculate Deception, the Bush Crime FamilyExposed,AmericaWestPublishers1991.5 Rodney Stich, Defrauding America; Dirty Secrets of the CIA and otherGovernmentOperations,DiabloWesternPress,1994.6Col.FletcherProuty,TheSecretTeam;theCIAandItsAlliesinControlofthe

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UnitedStatesandtheWorld,InstituteforHistoricalReview,1973.7www.rie.com.8RobertGaylonRoss,Sr.,Who’sWhooftheElite;MembersoftheBilderbergs,CouncilonForeignRelations,TrilateralCommission,SkullandBonesSociety,Committee of 300, RIE Publishing, always updated and available throughwww.rie.com..9www.consciousevolution.com10www.UCSUSA.org11BarbaraTrent,ThePanamaDeception,1993.www.empowermentproject.org12Thoughtcommunicationisanaturaltoautisticchildrenwherebytheyrespondwelltotherapywithanimals,particularlyhorses.www.taoofequus.com13www.givemeliberty.org14www.rie.com15www.davidicke.com16PoliceAgainsttheNewWorldOrder.17www.radioliberty.com18www.mikenew.com19The1947NationalSecurityActaffectsallwhohavetreatieswiththeUS.20www.klang.com21www.spiritualhorizons.net1David Icke,And the Truth Shall Set YouFree,Bridge ofLove Publications,1995.www.davidicke.com2www.radioliberty.com3David Icke, I AmMe, I AmFree; theRobot’sGuide toFreedom, Bridge ofLovePublications,1996.www.davidicke.com4www.disclosureproject.org5DavidIcke,TheTurningoftheTide,audioandvideotapesofhispresentationsavailableatwww.davidicke.com1BacktotheFuture,UniversalPictures,1985.2TheimportationofNaziandFascistscientistsintotheUS.3Controlofthemedia.4FounderofNASA.5ReaganaskedCongresstobanallToshibaproductsindefinitely.6Revelations;177Newsweek8The1947NationalSecurityActbindsanycountry thathasa treatywith the

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2Oldslavehymn.3 Testimonywas provided to that effect. Kelly’s recordswere never returned,makingitimpossibleforhertograduateorcontinueschooling.4Kelly’ssuccesswithBreezebecamewidelyknownthroughoutTennesseeandKentucky,promptingher reputation for telepathichealingcommunicationwithhorses.5www.taoofequus.com6InNLP,“try”isconsideredanon-productivenegativethatisavoidedbyawarementalhealthprofessionals.7It“disappeared”bythetimeKellyturned18.8Theraccoonsrefusedallgeneticallyengineeredfoodsandanythingcontainingaspartame!9WagtheDog,NewLineCinema1997.10www.1997/gen/recourses/players/starr/lewinsky11www.freeamerican.com12 Chapter 24, “A-Hunting We Will Go,” TRANCE 1995. www.TRANCE-formation.com13Thereisnoabilitytodreamorhopeundermindcontrol.1In1981,SenatorByrdadamantlyorderedthatKelly’schildhoodvaccinationsbe immediately stopped. Vaccination, The Hidden Truth, Taycare Pty Ltd,[email protected] alreadydonated through theBill andMelindaGatesFoundation is used to find and fund scientific solutions toworld health crisisincluding AIDS, immunizations, vaccinations, education and more.www.csmonitor.com/2003/0925/p01s04-woaf.html.3www.UCSUSA.org4Perhapsthereisamoreappropriatetermthanthisthatappropriatelyspansallreligion, but I used this word because it’s the one I know for a physicaldestinationforspiritualpurposes.5 LindaHunt, Secret Agenda; TheUnited StatesGovernment, Nazi Scientists,andProjectPaperclip1945-1990,St.Martin’sPress,1991.6Violence resultant from9-11 does not fit the attitude and atmosphere of theBalinesepeople,whichraisesquestionsastothepoliticalagendathatupsettheirbalance.7Markcontinuedtoheal“110%”innotime.8ThemoviePearlHarborhadbeenmediahypedtoanextremejustpriorto9-11, causing history buffs to delve into the causation. The trauma allowed



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