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The Dead Stars
Paz Marquez Benitez
THROUGH the open window the air-steeped
outdoors passed into his room, quietl
en!elopin" him, stealin" into his !er thou"ht#
$speranza, %ulia, the sorr mess he had made o& li&e, the ears to 'ome e!en now (e"innin" to
wei"h down, to 'rush--the lost 'on'reteness,
di&&used into &ormless melan'hol# The tranquil
murmur o& 'on!ersation issued &rom the (ri')-
tiled azotea where Don %ulian and *armen
were (us putterin" awa amon" the rose pots#
+Papa, and when will the lon" ta(le (e set+
+. dont )now et# /l&redo is not !er spe'i&i',
(ut . understand $speranza wants it to (e ne0t
month#+
*armen si"hed impatientl# +1h is he not a
(it more de'ided, . wonder# He is o!er thirt, ishe not /nd still a (a'helor2 $speranza must (e
tired waitin"#+
+She does not seem to (e in mu'h o& a hurr
either,+ Don %ulian nasall 'ommented, while
his rose s'issors (usil snipped awa#
+How 'an a woman (e in a hurr when the man
does not hurr her+ *armen returned, pin'hin"
o&& a worm with a 'are&ul, somewhat a(sent air#
+Papa, do ou remem(er how mu'h in lo!e he
was+
+.n lo!e 1ith whom+
+1ith $speranza, o& 'ourse# He has not had
another lo!e a&&air that . )now o&,+ she said
with "ood-natured 'ontempt# +1hat . mean is
that at the (e"innin" he was enthusiasti'--
&lowers, serenades, notes, and thin"s li)e
that--+
/l&redo remem(ered that period with a wonder
not unmi0ed with shame# That was less than
&our ears a"o# He 'ould not understand those
months o& a "reat hun"er that was not o& the
(od nor et o& the mind, a 'ra!in" that had
seized on him one quiet ni"ht when the moon
was a(road and under the dappled shadow o&
the trees in the plaza, man wooed maid# 1as he
(ein" 'heated ( li&e 3o!e--he seemed to ha!e
missed it# Or was the lo!e that others told a(out
a mere &a(ri'ation o& per&er!id ima"ination, ane0a""eration o& the 'ommonpla'e, a
"lori&i'ation o& insipid monotonies su'h as
made up his lo!e li&e 1as lo!e a 'om(ination
o& 'ir'umstan'es, or sheer nati!e 'apa'it o&
soul .n those das lo!e was, &or him, still the
eternal puzzle4 &or lo!e, as he )new it, was a
stran"er to lo!e as he di!ined it mi"ht (e#
Sittin" quietl in his room now, he 'ould
almost re!i!e the restlessness o& those das, the
&eelin" o& tumultuous haste, su'h as he )new so
well in his (ohood when somethin" (eauti&ul
was "oin" on somewhere and he was trin" to"et there in time to see# +Hurr, hurr, or ou
will miss it,+ someone had seemed to ur"e in
his ears# So he had a!idl seized on the shadow
o& 3o!e and deluded himsel& &or a lon" while in
the wa o& humanit &rom time immemorial# .n
the meantime, he (e'ame !er mu'h en"a"ed
to $speranza#
1h would men so mismana"e their li!es
Greed, he thou"ht, was what ruined so man#
Greed--the desire to 'rowd into a moment all
the en5oment it will hold, to squeeze &rom the
hour all the emotion it will ield# Men 'ommit
themsel!es when (ut hal&-meanin" to do so,
sa'ri&i'in" possi(le &uture &ullness o& e'stas to
the 'ra!in" &or immediate e0'itement# Greed--
mort"a"in" the &uture--&or'in" the hand o&
Time, or o& 6ate#
+1hat do ou thin) happened+ as)ed *armen,
pursuin" her thou"ht#
+. supposed lon"-en"a"ed people are li)e that4
warm now, 'ool tomorrow# . thin) the are
o&tener 'ool than warm# The !er &a't that an
en"a"ement has (een allowed to prolon" itsel&
ar"ues a 'ertain pla'idit o& temperament--or o&
a&&e'tion--on the part o& either, or (oth#+ Don
%ulian lo!ed to philosophize# He was tal)in"
now with an e!ident relish in words, his
resonant, !er nasal !oi'e toned down tomonolo"ue pit'h# +That phase ou were
spea)in" o& is natural enou"h &or a (e"innin"#
Besides, that, as . see it, was /l&redos last ra'e
with es'apin" outh--+
*armen lau"hed aloud at the thou"ht o& her
(rothers per&e't phsi'al repose--almost
indolen'e--distur(ed in the role su""ested (
her &athers &i"urati!e lan"ua"e#
+/ last spurt o& hot (lood,+ &inished the old
man#
6ew 'ertainl would 'redit /l&redo Salazar
with hot (lood# $!en his &riends had amusedldia"nosed his (lood as 'ool and thin, 'itin"
in'ontro!erti(le e!iden'e# Tall and slender, he
mo!ed with an indolent ease that !er"ed on
"ra'e# Under strai"ht re'al'itrant hair, a thin
&a'e with a satis&in" (readth o& &orehead, slow,
dreamers ees, and astonishin" &reshness o&
lips--indeed /l&redo Salazars appearan'e
(eto)ened little o& e0u(erant mas'ulinit4
rather a poet with waward humor, a &astidious
artist with )een, 'lear (rain#
He rose and quietl went out o& the house# He
lin"ered a moment on the stone steps4 then
went down the path shaded ( immature
a'a'ias, throu"h the little tarred "ate whi'h he
le&t swin"in" (a') and &orth, now openin", now
'losin", on the "ra!el road (ordered alon" the
&arther side ( madre 'a'ao hed"e in tard
la!ender (loom#
The "ra!el road narrowed as it slanted up to the
house on the hill, whose wide, open por'hes he
'ould "limpse throu"h the heat-shri!elled
tamarinds in the Martinez ard#
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Si0 wee)s a"o that house meant nothin" to him
sa!e that it was the Martinez house, rented and
o''upied ( %ud"e del 7alle and his &amil# Si0
wee)s a"o %ulia Salas meant nothin" to him4 he
did not e!en )now her name4 (ut now--
One e!enin" he had "one +nei"h(orin"+ withDon %ulian4 a rare enou"h o''urren'e, sin'e he
made it a point to a!oid all appearan'e o&
'urrin" &a!or with the %ud"e# This parti'ular
e!enin" howe!er, he had allowed himsel& to (e
persuaded# +/ little mental rela0ation now and
then is (ene&i'ial,+ the old man had said#
+Besides, a 5ud"es "ood will, ou )now4+ the
rest o& the thou"ht--+is worth a risin" oun"
lawers trou(le+--Don %ulian 'on!eed
throu"h a shru" and a smile that derided his
own worldl wisdom#
/ oun" woman had met them at the door# .twas e!ident &rom the e0'itement o& the %ud"es
'hildren that she was a re'ent and !er
wel'ome arri!al# .n the 'hara'teristi' 6ilipino
wa &ormal introdu'tions had (een omitted--the
5ud"e limitin" himsel& to a 'asual "Ah, ya se
conocen?" --with the 'onsequen'e that /l&redo
'alled her Miss del 7alle throu"hout the
e!enin"#
He was puzzled that she should smile with
e!ident deli"ht e!er time he addressed her
thus# 3ater Don %ulian in&ormed him that she
was not the %ud"es sister, as he had supposed,
(ut his sister-in-law, and that her name was
%ulia Salas# / !er di"ni&ied rather austere
name, he thou"ht# Still, the oun" lad should
ha!e 'orre'ted him# /s it was, he was "reatl
em(arrassed, and &elt that he should e0plain#
To his apolo", she replied, +That is nothin",
$a'h time . was a(out to 'orre't ou, (ut .
remem(ered a similar e0perien'e . had on'e
(e&ore#+
+Oh,+ he drawled out, !astl relie!ed#
+/ man named Manalan"--. )ept 'allin" him
Manalo# /&ter the tenth time or so, the oun"
man rose &rom his seat and said suddenl,
Pardon me, (ut m name is Manalan",
Manalan"# 8ou )now, . ne!er &or"a!e him2+
He lau"hed with her#+The (est thin" to do under the 'ir'umstan'es, .
ha!e &ound out,+ she pursued, +is to pretend not
to hear, and to let the other person &ind out his
mista)e without help#+
+/s ou did this time# Still, ou loo)ed amused
e!er time .--+
+. was thin)in" o& Mr# Manalan"#+
Don %ulian and his un'ommuni'ati!e &riend,
the %ud"e, were a(sor(ed in a "ame o& 'hess#
The oun" man had tired o& plain"
appre'iati!e spe'tator and desultor
'on!ersationalist, so he and %ulia Salas had"one o&& to 'hat in the !ine-'o!ered por'h# The
lone piano in the nei"h(orhood alternatel
tin)led and (an"ed awa as the plaers moods
altered# He listened, and wondered irrele!antl
i& Miss Salas 'ould sin"4 she had su'h a
'harmin" spea)in" !oi'e#
He was mildl surprised to note &rom her
appearan'e that she was unmista)a(l a s ister
o& the %ud"es wi&e, althou"h Do9a /dela was
o& a di&&erent tpe alto"ether# She was small
and plump, with wide (rown ees, 'learl
de&ined ee(rows, and deli'atel modeled
hips--a prett woman with the 'omple0ion o& a
(a( and the e0pression o& a li)a(le 'ow# %ulia
was taller, not so o(!iousl prett# She had the
same ee(rows and lips, (ut she was mu'h
dar)er, o& a smooth ri'h (rown with underlin"
tones o& 'rimson whi'h hei"htened the
impression she "a!e o& a(oundin" !italit#
On Sunda mornin"s a&ter mass, &ather and son
would "o 'run'hin" up the "ra!el road to the
house on the hill# The %ud"es wi&e in!aria(l
o&&ered them (eer, whi'h Don %ulian en5oed
and /l&redo did not# /&ter a hal& hour or so, the
'hess(oard would (e (rou"ht out4 then /l&redo
and %ulia Salas would "o out to the por'h to
'hat# She sat in the low hammo') and he in a
ro')in" 'hair and the hours--warm, quietMar'h hours--sped (# He en5oed tal)in" with
her and it was e!ident that she li)ed his
'ompan4 et what &eelin" there was (etween
them was so undistur(ed that it seemed a
matter o& 'ourse# Onl when $speranza
'han'ed to as) him indire'tl a(out those !isits
did some uneasiness 'reep into his thou"hts o&
the "irl ne0t door#
$speranza had wanted to )now i& he went
strai"ht home a&ter mass# /l&redo suddenl
realized that &or se!eral Sundas now he had
not waited &or $speranza to 'ome out o& the'hur'h as he had (een wont to do# He had (een
ea"er to "o +nei"h(orin"#+
He answered that he went home to wor)# /nd,
(e'ause he was not ha(ituall untruth&ul,
added, +Sometimes . "o with Papa to %ud"e del
7alles#+
She dropped the topi'# $speranza was not
prone to indul"e in unpro!o)ed 5ealousies# She
was a (elie!er in the re"enerati!e !irtue o&
institutions, in their power to re"ulate &eelin" as
well as 'ondu't# .& a man were married, wh, o&
'ourse, he lo!ed his wi&e4 i& he were en"a"ed,
he 'ould not possi(l lo!e another woman#
That hal&-lie told him what he had not admitted
openl to himsel&, that he was "i!in" %ulia
Salas somethin" whi'h he was not &ree to "i!e#
He realized that4 et somethin" that would not
(e denied (e')oned imperiousl, and he
&ollowed on#
.t was so eas to &or"et up there, awa &rom the
prin" ees o& the world, so eas and so
poi"nantl sweet# The (elo!ed woman, he
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standin" 'lose to her, the shadows around,
en&oldin"#
+Up here . &ind--somethin"--+
He and %ulia Salas stood loo)in" out into the
she quiet ni"ht# Sensin" unwanted intensit,
lau"hed, woman-li)e, as)in", +/musement++:o4 outh--its spirit--+
+/re ou so old+
+/nd hearts desire#+
1as he (e'omin" a poet, or is there a poet
lur)in" in the heart o& e!er man
+Down there,+ he had 'ontinued, his !oi'e
somewhat indistin't, +the road is too (road, too
trodden ( &eet, too (arren o& mster#+
+Down there+ (eond the an'ient tamarinds la
the road, upturned to the stars# .n the dar)ness
the &ire&lies "limmered, while an errant (reeze
straed in &rom somewhere, (rin"in" elusi!e,&arawa sounds as o& !oi'es in a dream#
+Mster--+ she answered li"htl, +that is so
(rie&--+
+:ot in some,+ qui')l# +:ot in ou#+
+8ou ha!e )nown me a &ew wee)s4 so the
mster#+
+. 'ould stud ou all m li&e and still not &ind
it#+
+So lon"+
+. should li)e to#+
Those si0 wee)s were now so swi&t--seemin" in
the memor, et had the (een so deep in the
li!in", so 'har"ed with 'ompellin" power and
sweetness# Be'ause neither the past nor the
&uture had rele!an'e or meanin", he li!ed onl
the present, da ( da, li!ed it intensel, with
su'h a will&ul shuttin" out o& &a't as astounded
him in his 'almer moments#
%ust (e&ore Hol 1ee), Don %ulian in!ited the
5ud"e and his &amil to spend Sunda a&ternoon
at Tanda where he had a 'o'onut plantation and
a house on the (ea'h# *armen also 'ame with
her &our ener"eti' 'hildren# She and Do9a
/dela spent most o& the time indoors dire'tin"
the preparation o& the merienda and dis'ussin"
the li)ea(le a(surdities o& their hus(ands--how
*armens 7i'ente was so a(sor(ed in his &arms
that he would not e!en ta)e time o&& toa''ompan her on this !isit to her &ather4 how
Do9a /delas Dionisio was the most
a(sentminded o& men, sometimes "oin" out
without his 'ollar, or with unmat'hed so')s#
/&ter the merienda, Don %ulian sauntered o&&
with the 5ud"e to show him what a thri!in"
oun" 'o'onut loo)ed li)e--+plent o& lea!es,
'lose set, ri'h "reen+--while the 'hildren,
'on!oed ( %ulia Salas, &ound unendin"
entertainment in the ripplin" sand le&t ( the
e((in" tide# The were &ar down, wal)in" at
the ed"e o& the water, indistin'tl outlineda"ainst the "ra o& the out-'ur!in" (ea'h#
/l&redo le&t his per'h on the (am(oo ladder o&
the house and &ollowed# Here were her
&ootsteps, narrow, ar'hed# He lau"hed at
himsel& &or his (la') 'an!as &ootwear whi'h he
remo!ed &orthwith and tossed hi"h up on dr
sand#
1hen he 'ame up, she &lushed, then smiled
with &ran) pleasure#
+. hope ou are en5oin" this,+ he said with a
questionin" in&le'tion#
+7er mu'h# .t loo)s li)e home to me, e0'ept
that we do not ha!e su'h a lo!el (ea'h#+
There was a (reeze &rom the water# .t (lew the
hair awa &rom her &orehead, and whipped the
tu')ed-up s)irt around her strai"ht, slender
&i"ure# .n the pi'ture was somethin" o& ea"er
&reedom as o& win"s poised in &li"ht# The "irl
had "ra'e, distin'tion# Her &a'e was not nota(l
prett4 et she had a tantalizin" 'harm, all the
more 'ompellin" (e'ause it was an inner
qualit, an a'hie!ement o& the spirit# The lure
was there, o& naturalness, o& an alert !italit o&
mind and (od, o& a thou"ht&ul, sunn temper,
and o& a piquant per!erseness whi'h is sau'e to
'harm#
+The a&ternoon has seemed !er short, hasnt
it+ Then, +This, . thin), is the last time--we'an !isit#+
+The last 1h+
+Oh, ou will (e too (us perhaps#+
He noted an e!asi!e qualit in the answer#
+Do . seem espe'iall industrious to ou+
+.& ou are, ou ne!er loo) it#+
+:ot perspirin" or (reathless, as a (us man
ou"ht to (e#+
+But--+
+/lwas unhurried, too unhurried, and 'alm#+
She smiled to hersel&#
+. wish that were true,+ he said a&ter ameditati!e pause#
She waited#
+/ man is happier i& he is, as ou sa, 'alm and
pla'id#+
+3i)e a 'ara(ao in a mud pool,+ she retorted
per!ersel
+1ho .+
+Oh, no2+
+8ou said . am 'alm and pla'id#+
+That is what . thin)#+
+. used to thin) so too# Shows how little we
)now oursel!es#+
.t was stran"e to him that he 'ould (e wooin"
thus; with tone and loo) and 'o!ert phrase#
+. should li)e to see our home town#+
+There is nothin" to see--little 'roo)ed
streets, bunut roo&s with &erns "rowin" on
them, and sometimes squashes#+
That was the (a')"round# .t made her seem less
deta'hed, less unrelated, et withal more
distant, as i& that (a')"round 'laimed her and
e0'luded him#
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+:othin" There is ou#+
+Oh, me But . am here#+
+. will not "o, o& 'ourse, until ou are there#+
+1ill ou 'ome 8ou will &ind it dull# There
isnt e!en one /meri'an there2+
+1ell--/meri'ans are rather essential to mentertainment#+
She lau"hed#
+1e li!e on *alle 3uz, a little street with trees#+
+*ould . &ind that+
+.& ou dont as) &or Miss del 7alle,+ she smiled
teasin"l#
+.ll inquire a(out--+
+1hat+
+The house o& the prettiest "irl in the town#+
+There is where ou will lose our wa#+ Then
she turned serious# +:ow, that is not quite
sin'ere#++.t is,+ he a!erred slowl, (ut emphati'all#
+. thou"ht ou, at least, would not sa su'h
thin"s#+
+Prett--prett--a &oolish word2 But there is
none other more hand . did not mean that
quite--+
+/re ou withdrawin" the 'ompliment+
+Re-en&or'in" it, ma(e# Somethin" is prett
when it pleases the ee--it is more than that
when--+
+.& it saddens+ she interrupted hastil#
+$0a'tl#+
+.t must (e u"l#+
+/lwas+
Toward the west, the sunli"ht la on the
dimmin" waters in a (road, "lintin" streamer o&
'rimsoned "old#
+:o, o& 'ourse ou are ri"ht#+
+1h did ou sa this is the last time+ he
as)ed quietl as the turned (a')#
+. am "oin" home#+
The end o& an impossi(le dream2
+1hen+ a&ter a lon" silen'e#
+Tomorrow# . re'ei!ed a letter &rom 6ather and
Mother esterda# The want me to spend Hol
1ee) at home#+
She seemed to (e waitin" &or him to spea)#
+That is wh . said this is the last time#++*ant . 'ome to sa "ood-(e+
+Oh, ou dont need to2+
+:o, (ut . want to#+
+There is no time#+
The "olden streamer was withdrawin",
shortenin", until it loo)ed no more than a pool
&ar awa at the rim o& the world# Stillness, a
!i(rant quiet that a&&e'ts the senses as does
solemn harmon4 a pea'e that is not
'ontentment (ut a 'essation o& tumult when all
!iolen'e o& &eelin" tones down to the wist&ul
serenit o& re"ret# She turned and loo)ed intohis &a'e, in her dar) ees a "host o& sunset
sadness#
+Home seems so &ar &rom here# This is almost
li)e another li&e#+
+. )now# This is $lsewhere, and et stran"e
enou"h, . 'annot "et rid o& the old thin"s#+
+Old thin"s+
+Oh, old thin"s, mista)es, en'um(ran'es, old
(a""a"e#+ He said it li"htl, unwillin" to mar
the hour# He wal)ed 'lose, his hand sometimes
tou'hin" hers &or one whirlin" se'ond#
Don %ulians nasal summons 'ame to them on
the wind#
/l&redo "ripped the so&t hand so near his own#
/t his tou'h, the "irl turned her &a'e awa, (ut
he heard her !oi'e sa !er low, +Good-(e#+
..
/36R$DO Salazar turned to the ri"ht where,
&arther on, the road (roadened and entered the
heart o& the town--heart o& *hinese stores
sheltered under low-hun" roo&s, o& indolent
dru" stores and tailor shops, o& din" shoe-
repairin" esta(lishments, and a 'luttered
"oldsmiths 'u((hole where a 'onsumpti!e
(ent o!er a ma"ni&in" lens4 heart o& old (ri')-
roo&ed houses with quaint hand-and-(all)no')ers on the door4 heart o& "rass-"rown
plaza repose&ul with trees, o& an'ient 'hur'h
and convento,now 'ir'led ( swallows "lidin"
in &li"ht as smooth and so&t as the a&ternoon
itsel&# .nto the qui')l deepenin" twili"ht, the
!oi'e o& the (i""est o& the 'hur'h (ells )ept
rin"in" its insistent summons# 6lo')in" 'ame
the de!out with their lon" wa0 'andles, oun"
women in !i!id apparel <&or this was Hol
Thursda and the 3ord was still ali!e=, older
women in so(er (la') s)irts# *ame too the
oun" men in dro!es, el(owin" ea'h otherunder the talisa tree near the 'hur'h door# The
"ail de')ed ri'e-paper lanterns were a"ain on
displa while &rom the windows o& the older
houses hun" 'olored "lass "lo(es, heirlooms
&rom a da when "rasspith wi')s &loatin" in
'o'onut oil were the 'hie& li"htin" de!i'e#
Soon a dou(le row o& li"hts emer"ed &rom the
'hur'h and un'oiled down the len"th o& the
street li)e a hu"e 5ewelled (and studded with
"litterin" 'lusters where the saints plat&orms
were# /(o!e the measured musi' rose the
untutored !oi'es o& the 'hoir, steeped in
in'ense and the a'rid &umes o& (urnin" wa0#
The si"ht o& $speranza and her mother sedatel
pa'in" (ehind Our 3ad o& Sorrows suddenl
destroed the illusion o& 'ontinuit and (ro)e
up those lines o& li"ht into 'omponent
indi!iduals# $speranza sti&&ened sel&-
'ons'iousl, tried to loo) unaware, and 'ould
not#
The line mo!ed on#
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Suddenl, /l&redos slow (lood (e"an to (eat
!iolentl, irre"ularl# / "irl was 'omin" down
the line--a "irl that was stri)in", and !i!idl
ali!e, the woman that 'ould 'ause !iolent
'ommotion in his heart, et had no pla'e in the
'ompleted orderin" o& his li&e#Her "lan'e o& a(stra'ted de!otion &ell on him
and 'ame to a (rie& stop#
The line )ept mo!in" on, wendin" its 'ir'uitous
route awa &rom the 'hur'h and then (a')
a"ain, where, a''ordin" to the old pro!er(, all
pro'essions end#
/t last Our 3ad o& Sorrows entered the
'hur'h, and with her the priest and the 'hoir,
whose !oi'es now e'hoed &rom the ar'hed
'eilin"# The (ells ran" the 'lose o& the
pro'ession#
/ round oran"e moon, +hu"e as a winnowin" (as)et,+ rose lazil into a 'lear s), whitenin"
the iron roo&s and dimmin" the lanterns at the
windows# /lon" the still densel shadowed
streets the oun" women with their rear "uard
o& males loitered and, ma(e, too) the lon"est
wa home#
Toward the end o& the row o& *hinese stores, he
'au"ht up with %ulia Salas# The 'rowd had
dispersed into the side streets, lea!in" *alle
Real to those who li!ed &arther out# .t was past
ei"ht, and $speranza would (e e0pe'tin" him
in a little while; et the thou"ht did not hurr
him as he said +Good e!enin"+ and &ell into
step with the "irl#
+. had (een thin)in" all this time that ou had
"one,+ he said in a !oi'e that was (oth e0'ited
and trou(led#
+:o, m sister as)ed me to sta until the are
read to "o#+
+Oh, is the %ud"e "oin"+
+8es#+
The pro!in'ial do')et had (een 'leared, and
%ud"e del 7alle had (een assi"ned elsewhere#
/s lawer--and as lo!er--/l&redo had &ound
that out lon" (e&ore#
+Mr# Salazar,+ she (ro)e into his silen'e, +.
wish to 'on"ratulate ou#+Her tone told him that she had learned, a t last#
That was ine!ita(le#
+6or what+
+6or our approa'hin" weddin"#+
Some e0planation was due her, surel# 8et what
'ould he sa that would not o&&end
+. should ha!e o&&ered 'on"ratulations lon"
(e&ore, (ut ou )now mere !isitors are slow
a(out "ettin" the news,+ she 'ontinued#
He listened not so mu'h to what she said as to
the nuan'es in her !oi'e# He heard nothin" to
enli"hten him, e0'ept that she had re!erted tothe &ormal tones o& earl a'quaintan'e# :o
re!elation there4 simpl the old !oi'e--'ool,
almost deta'hed &rom personalit, &le0i(le and
!i(rant, su""estin" potentialities o& son"#
+/re weddin"s interestin" to ou+ he &inall
(rou"ht out quietl
+1hen the are o& &riends, es#+
+1ould ou 'ome i& . as)ed ou+
+1hen is it "oin" to (e+
+Ma,+ he replied (rie&l, a&ter a lon" pause#
+Ma is the month o& happiness the sa,+ she
said, with what seemed to him a shade o& iron#
+The sa,+ slowl, indi&&erentl# +1ould ou
'ome+
+1h not+
+:o reason# . am 5ust as)in"# Then ou will+
+.& ou will as) me,+ she said with disdain#
+Then . as) ou#+
+Then . will (e there#+
The "ra!el road la (e&ore them4 at the roads
end the li"hted windows o& the house on the
hill# There swept o!er the spirit o& /l&redo
Salazar a lon"in" so )een that it was pain, a
wish that, that house were his, that all the
(ewilderments o& the present were not, and that
this woman ( his side were his lon" wedded
wi&e, returnin" with him to the pea'e o& home#
+%ulita,+ he said in his slow, thou"ht&ul manner,+did ou e!er ha!e to 'hoose (etween
somethin" ou wanted to do and somethin" ou
had to do+
+:o2+
+. thou"ht ma(e ou had had that e0perien'e4
then ou 'ould understand a man who was in
su'h a situation#+
+8ou are &ortunate,+ he pursued when she did
not answer#
+.s--is this man sure o& what he should do+
+. dont )now, %ulita# Perhaps not# But there is a
point where a thin" es'apes us and rushesdownward o& its own wei"ht, dra""in" us
alon"# Then it is &oolish to as) whether one will
or will not, (e'ause it no lon"er depends on
him#+
+But then wh--wh--+ her mu&&led !oi'e
'ame# +Oh, what do . )now That is his
pro(lem a&ter all#+
+Doesnt it--interest ou+
+1h must it .--. ha!e to sa "ood-(e, Mr#
Salazar4 we are at the house#+
1ithout li&tin" her ees she qui')l turned and
wal)ed awa#
Had the &inal word (een said He wondered# .t
had# 8et a &ee(le &lutter o& hope trem(led in his
mind thou"h set a"ainst that hope were three
ears o& en"a"ement, a !er near weddin",
per&e't understandin" (etween the parents, his
own 'ons'ien'e, and $speranza hersel&--
$speranza waitin", $speranza no lon"er oun",
$speranza the e&&i'ient, the literal-minded, the
intensel a'quisiti!e#
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He loo)ed attenti!el at her where she sat on
the so&a, appraisin"l, and with a )ind o&
a!ersion whi'h he tried to 'ontrol#
She was one o& those &ortunate women who
ha!e the "i&t o& uni&orml a''epta(le
appearan'e# She ne!er surprised one withune0pe'ted homeliness nor with startlin"
reser!es o& (eaut# /t home, in 'hur'h, on the
street, she was alwas hersel&, a woman past
&irst (loom, li"ht and 'lear o& 'omple0ion,
spare o& arms and o& (reast, with a sli"ht
'on!e0it to thin throat4 a woman dressed with
sel&-'ons'ious 'are, e!en ele"an'e4 a woman
distin'tl not a!era"e#
She was pursuin" an indi"nant relation a(out
somethin" or other, somethin" a(out *ali0ta,
their note-'arrier, /l&redo per'ei!ed, so he
merel hal&-listened, understandin"imper&e'tl# /t a pause he drawled out to &ill in
the "ap; +1ell, what o& it+ The remar)
sounded ruder than he had intended#
+She is not married to him,+ $speranza insisted
in her thin, ner!ousl pit'hed !oi'e# +Besides,
she should ha!e thou"ht o& us# :ana
pra'ti'all (rou"ht her up# 1e ne!er thou"ht
she would turn out (ad#+
1hat had *ali0ta done Homel, middle-a"ed
*ali0ta
+8ou are !er positi!e a(out her (adness,+ he
'ommented drl# $speranza was alwas
positi!e#
+But do ou appro!e+
+O& what+
+1hat she did#+
+:o,+ indi&&erentl#
+1ell+
He was suddenl impelled ( a desire to
distur( the un!e0ed orthodo0 o& her mind#
+/ll . sa is that it is not ne'essaril wi')ed#+
+1h shouldnt it (e 8ou tal)ed li)e an--
immoral man# . did not )now that our ideas
were li)e that#+
+M ideas+ he retorted, "oaded ( a deep,
a''umulated e0asperation# +The onl test .
wish to appl to 'ondu't is the test o& &airness#/m . in5urin" an(od :o Then . am
5usti&ied in m 'ons'ien'e# . am ri"ht# 3i!in"
with a man to whom she is not married--is that
it .t ma (e wron", and a"ain it ma not#+
+She has in5ured us# She was un"rate&ul#+ Her
!oi'e was ti"ht with resentment#
+The trou(le with ou, $speranza, is that ou
are--+ he stopped, appalled ( the passion in his
!oi'e#
+1h do ou "et an"r . do not understand
ou at all2 . thin) . )now wh ou ha!e (een
indi&&erent to me latel# . am not (lind, or dea&4. see and hear what perhaps some are trin" to
)eep &rom me#+ The (lood sur"ed into his !er
ees and his hearin" sharpened to points o&
a'ute pain# 1hat would she sa ne0t
+1h dont ou spea) out &ran)l (e&ore it is
too late 8ou need not thin) o& me and o& what
people will sa#+ Her !oi'e trem(led#
/l&redo was su&&erin" as he 'ould not
remem(er e!er ha!in" su&&ered (e&ore# 1hat
people will sa--what will the not sa 1hat
dont the sa when lon" en"a"ements are
(ro)en almost on the e!e o& the weddin"
+8es,+ he said hesitatin"l, di&&identl, as i&
merel thin)in" aloud, +one tries to (e &air--
a''ordin" to his li"hts--(ut it is hard# One
would li)e to (e &air to ones sel& &irst# But that
is too eas, one does not dare--+
+1hat do ou mean+ she as)ed with repressed
!iolen'e# +1hate!er m short'omin"s, and no
dou(t the are man in our ees, . ha!e ne!er
"one out o& m wa, o& m pla'e, to &ind a
man#+
Did she mean ( this irrele!ant remar) that he
it was who had sou"ht her4 or was that a 'o!ert
atta') on %ulia Salas
+$speranza--+ a desperate plea la in his
stum(lin" words# +.& ou--suppose .--+ 8et how
'ould a mere man word su'h a plea+.& ou mean ou want to ta)e (a') our word,
i& ou are tired o&--wh dont ou tell me ou
are tired o& me+ she (urst out in a storm o&
weepin" that le&t him 'ompletel shamed and
unner!ed#
The last word had (een said#
...
/S /l&redo Salazar leaned a"ainst the (oat rail
to wat'h the e!enin" settlin" o!er the la)e, he
wondered i& $speranza would attri(ute ansi"ni&i'an'e to this trip o& his# He was supposed
to (e in Sta# *ruz whither the 'ase o& the
People o& the Philippine .slands !s# Belina et al
had )ept him, and there he would ha!e (een i&
Bri"ida Samu had not (een so important to the
de&ense# He had to &ind that elusi!e old woman#
That the sear'h was leadin" him to that
parti'ular la)e town whi'h was %ulia Salas
home should not distur( him undul 8et he was
distur(ed to a de"ree utterl out o& proportion
to the prosai'alness o& his errand# That inner
tumult was no surprise to him4 in the last ei"htears he had (e'ome used to su'h o''asional
storms# He had lon" realized that he 'ould not
&or"et %ulia Salas# Still, he had tried to (e
'ontent and not to remem(er too mu'h# The
'lim(er o& mountains who has )nown the (a')-
(rea), the lonesomeness, and the 'hill, &inds a
'ertain rest&ulness in le!el paths made eas to
his &eet# He loo)s up sometimes &rom the !alle
where settles the dus) o& e!enin", (ut he )nows
he must not heed the radiant (e')onin"#
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Ma(e, in time, he would 'ease e!en to loo)
up#
He was not unhapp in his marria"e# He &elt no
re(ellion; onl the 'alm o& 'apitulation to what
he re'o"nized as irresisti(le &or'es o&
'ir'umstan'e and o& 'hara'ter# His li&e hadsimpl ordered itsel&4 no more stru""les, no
more stirrin" up o& emotions that "ot a man
nowhere# 6rom his 'apa'it o& 'omplete
deta'hment he deri!ed a stran"e sola'e# The
essential himsel&, the himsel& that had its (ein"
in the 'ore o& his thou"ht, would, he re&le'ted,
alwas (e &ree and alone# 1hen 'laims
en'roa'hed too insistentl, as sometimes the
did, he retreated into the inner &astness, and
&rom that !anta"e he saw thin"s and people
around him as remote and alien, as in'idents
that did not matter# /t su'h times did $speranza
&eel (a&&led and helpless4 he was "entle, e!en
tender, (ut immeasura(l &ar awa, (eond her
rea'h#
3i"hts were sprin"in" into li&e on the shore#
That was the town, a little up-tilted town
nestlin" in the dar) "reenness o& the "ro!es# /
snu('rested (el&r stood (eside the an'ient
'hur'h# On the outs)irts the e!enin" smud"es
"lowed red throu"h the sinuous mists o& smo)e
that rose and lost themsel!es in the purple
shadows o& the hills# There was a oun" moon
whi'h "rew slowl luminous as the 'oral tints
in the s) ielded to the dar)er (lues o&
e!enin"#
The !essel approa'hed the landin" quietl,
trailin" a wa)e o& lon" "olden ripples on the
dar) water# Pe'uliar hill in&le'tions 'ame to his
ears &rom the 'rowd assem(led to meet the
(oat--slow, sin"in" 'aden'es, 'hara'teristi' o&
the 3a"una la)e-shore spee'h# 6rom where he
stood he 'ould not distin"uish &a'es, so he had
no wa o& )nowin" whether the presidentewas
there to meet him or not# %ust then a !oi'e
shouted#
+.s the abogado there Abogado!"
+1hat abogado?" someone iratel as)ed#
That must (e the presidente, he thou"ht, and
went down to the landin"#.t was a poli'eman, a tall po')-mar)ed
indi!idual# The presidente had le&t with Bri"ida
Samu--Tandan" +Binda+--that noon &or Santa
*ruz# Se9or Salazars se'ond letter had arri!ed
late, (ut the wi&e had read it and said, +Go and
meet the abogado and in!ite him to our house#+
/l&redo Salazar 'ourteousl de'lined the
in!itation# He would sleep on (oard sin'e the
(oat would lea!e at &our the ne0t mornin"
anwa# So the presidente had re'ei!ed his &irst
letter /l&redo did not )now (e'ause that
o&&i'ial had not sent an answer# +8es,+ the
poli'eman replied, +(ut he 'ould not write
(e'ause we heard that Tandan" Binda was in
San /ntonio so we went there to &ind her#+
San /ntonio was up in the hills2 Good man, the
presidente2 He, /l&redo, must do somethin" &or
him# .t was not e!er da that one met with
su'h willin"ness to help#
$i"ht o'lo'), lu"u(riousl tolled &rom the (ell
tower, &ound the (oat settled into a somnolent
quiet# / 'ot had (een (rou"ht out and spread
&or him, (ut it was too (are to (e in!itin" at that
hour# .t was too earl to sleep; he would wal)
around the town# His heart (eat &aster as he
pi')ed his wa to shore o!er the ra&ts made &ast
to sundr piles dri!en into the water#
How pea'e&ul the town was2 Here and there a
little tienda was still open, its dim li"ht issuin"
&orlornl throu"h the sin"le window whi'h
ser!ed as 'ounter# /n o''asional 'ouple
sauntered (, the womens chinelasma)in"
s'rapin" sounds# 6rom a distan'e 'ame the
shrill !oi'es o& 'hildren plain" "ames on the
street--tubigan perhaps, or +haw)-and-
'hi')en#+ The thou"ht o& %ulia Salas in that
quiet pla'e &illed him with a pitin" sadness#
How would li&e seem now i& he had married
%ulia Salas Had he meant anthin" to her
That un&or"etta(le red-and-"old a&ternoon inearl /pril haunted him with a sense o&
in'ompleteness as restless as other unlaid
"hosts# She had not married--wh
6aith&ulness, he re&le'ted, was not a 'ons'ious
e&&ort at re"ret&ul memor# .t was somethin"
un!olitional, ma(e a re'urrent awareness o&
irrepla'ea(ilit# .rrele!ant tri&les--a 'ool wind
on his &orehead, &ar-awa sounds as o& !oi'es
in a dream--at times mo!ed him to an oddl
irresisti(le impulse to listen as to an insistent,
un&inished praer#
/ &ew inquiries led him to a 'ertain little tree-
'eilin"ed street where the oun" moon wo!e
indistin't &ili"rees o& &i"ht and shadow# .n the
"ardens the 'otton tree threw its an"ular
shadow athwart the low stone wall4 and in the
'ool, still midni"ht the 'o')s &irst 'all rose in
tall, soarin" 5ets o& sound# *alle 3uz#
Somehow or other, he had )nown that he would
&ind her house (e'ause she would surel (e
sittin" at the window# 1here else, (e&ore
(edtime on a moonlit ni"ht The house was low
and the li"ht in the sala (ehind her threw her
head into unmista)a(le relie&# He sensed rather
than saw her start o& !i!id surprise#
+Good e!enin",+ he said, raisin" his hat#
+Good e!enin"# Oh2 /re ou in town+
+On some little (usiness,+ he answered with a
&eelin" o& pain&ul 'onstraint#
+1ont ou 'ome up+
He 'onsidered# His !a"ue plans had not
in'luded this# But %ulia Salas had le&t the
window, 'allin" to her mother as she did so#
/&ter a while, someone 'ame downstairs with a
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li"hted 'andle to open the door# /t last--he was
sha)in" her hand#
She had not 'han"ed mu'h--a little less slender,
not so ea"erl ali!e, et somethin" had "one#
He missed it, sittin" opposite her, loo)in"
thou"ht&ull into her &ine dar) ees# She as)edhim a(out the home town, a(out this and that,
in a so(er, somewhat meditati!e tone# He
'on!ersed with in'reasin" ease, thou"h with a
"rowin" wonder that he should (e there at all#
He 'ould not ta)e his ees &rom her &a'e# 1hat
had she lost Or was the loss his He &elt an
impersonal 'uriosit 'reepin" into his "aze#
The "irl must ha!e noti'ed, &or her 'hee)
dar)ened in a (lush#
Gentl--was it e0perimentall--he pressed her
hand at partin"4 (ut his own &elt undistur(ed
and emotionless# Did she still 'are The answer
to the question hardl interested him#
The oun" moon had set, and &rom the
unin!itin" 'ot he 'ould see one hal& o& a star-
studded s)#
So that was all o!er#
1h had he o(stinatel 'lun" to that dream
So all these ears--sin'e when--he had (een
seein" the li"ht o& dead stars, lon"
e0tin"uished, et seemin"l still in their
appointed pla'es in the hea!ens#
/n immense sadness as o& loss in!aded his
spirit, a !ast homesi')ness &or some immuta(le
re&u"e o& the heart &ar awa where &aded
"ardens (loom a"ain, and where li!e on in
un'han"in" &reshness, the dear, dead lo!es o&
!anished outh#
/nalsis o& +the Dead Stars+
/n analsis o& the short stor +Dead Stars,+ a
stor o& +what i&+ as a married mana"ain meets
the woman he &ell in lo!e with man ears
earlier while en"a"ed to his wi&e#The stor is
(asi'all a 'ompilation o& the 'ompli'ated
'ir'umstan'es that e!er man has to"o throu"hin li&e#
/l&redo was on'e in lo!e with $speranza, no
dou(t, (ut there 'omes a time whenlo!e &ades,
and the onl thin" holdin" ou to"ether is the
!ow ou "a!e our &ian'>e, thatwhi'h ou
'annot ta)e (a')# 1h 'ant ou ta)e it (a')
.ts (e'ause ou are a&raid o& whatwill (e the
rea'tion o& the people around ou, spe'iall
durin" the time o& the stor# 1hats!isi(l
wron" a(out this is that most o&ten than not,
men re&use to listen to their ownearnin"s andsimpl su(mit to &urther dehumanization#
3o!e here, thou"h perhaps "enuine to a point,
&or /l&redo, is seemin"l wea) andpurposi!e#
1ea), (e'ause it is e!entuall o!er'ome (
propriet, and purposi!e (e'ause itwas merel
a tool to 5usti& his desire to "o a"ainst so'iet4
that &or on'e he will not (e apuppet, (ut the
master o& his own &ate# .n the stor, /l&redo
&alls drasti'all in lo!e with%ulia e!en as he is
en"a"ed to $speranza, (ut in the end &or"oes
the idea# He )ept onholdin" on to that "limmero& +what 'ould ha!e (een+ throu"hout the ears
o& his marria"eto $speranza, (ut upon meetin"
%ulia a"ain, he realizes that what he thou"ht
was there,had now "one &or more than one
reason#
6irst, it is possi(le to sa that a&ter what so'iet
has done to him <dehumanizedhim=, he &ound at
pea'e in his pla'e, and sou"ht no more that
illusi!e dream o& esterda#He understood,
a&ter meetin" her a"ain, that it was nostal"ia
that was ta)in" hold o& hisheart, and not the
+lo!e+ that he on'e &elt &or her# .t is said in the
stor that he is notunhapp with his marria"e,
(ut a part o& him alwas slips awa &rom the
world in order todream o& another li&e that'ould ha!e (lossomed, had he 'hose %ulia o!er
$speranza# On theother hand, it is possi(le that
there was no real lo!e to spea) o&, (ut a desire
&or somethin"else# He desired outh# /lthou"h
relati!el oun", he desired the qualities that
the outh&ulpossessed; !i"or, passion, !italit#
These are a &ew thin"s that he la')ed as a
person and to&ind these in %ulia "a!e him a
sense o& 'ompleteness# .t was a wel'omed
'han"ed in his li&e,and he wanted to hold on to
it &or as lon" as he 'ould, sin'e e!en i& he
'ouldnt (e li)e %ulia,he is 'om&orted ( the
thou"ht that he was a(le to meet someone who
is di&&erent &rome!er(od else, and that she
'ould ha!e (een his wi&e# He is noted to (e o& a
'ool and 'almdemeanor, whi'h is wh it seems
out o& 'hara'ter i& he suddenl (ursts with
ener"#
Dead stars sm(olize thin"s that are present (ut
are le&t unspo)en o&# The lo!e(etween /l&redo
and %ulia seemed real, (ut loo) 'loser and one
'an state that it was hardlmutual, and that it
was impossi(le to last# $speranzas de!otion to
/l&redo also resem(leslo!e, (ut sin'e she
(elie!es in the +re"enerati!e !irtue o&
institution+ more than true lo!e, itis sa&e to sa
that she is in the relationship, (e'ause o& moral
o(li"ation# So what onethou"ht as real <or
present= is now nothin" (ut an illusion#
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The stor re!ol!es around /l&redo Salazar, a
(a'helor o!er thirt, and two women;
$speranza, his &ian'>e o& &our ears, and a
oun" "irl &rom out-o&-town named %ulia Salas#
$!erone ta)es it &or "ranted that /l&redo will
e!entuall marr $speranza# But althou"h he isashamed to admit it, the intensit o& his passion
&or $speranza has &aded and he is attra'ted to
%ulia, whom he meets at a dinner part# But he
is aware that all his lo!ed ones-in'ludin" %ulia-
would disappro!e o& his &ailure to honor his
understandin" with $speranza# So he and
$speranza "et married and ha!e a &amil# Then,
ei"ht ears later, he "oes on a (usiness trip to
the town where %ulia, still unmarried, li!es# He
"oes to !isit %ulia, whom he has ne!er
&or"otten# But he is surprised to &ind that he no
lon"er &eels attra'ted to her# He 'ompares the
memor o& his lo!e &or her to dead stars, whose
"low is still !isi(le &rom the earth &or ears
a&ter the are "one#
Dead Star is a lo!e stor a(out a man named/l&redo Salazar,who has his &ian'e in the
person o& $speranza and the ha!e (een
en"a"ed &or quite some time# So'iet !iews
them as an ideal 'ouple# Their weddin" is a(out
to ta)e pla'e in the near &uture# Prior to the
weddin" howe!er, he sees another "irl, when
he "oes with his &ather to a 5ud"es house# He
tries to see) lo!e in her, (ut she )inda de'lines#
in that wa, /l&redo (e'ame a little (it 'on&used
in his up'omin" weddin" where he is a(out to
'hose (etween two options4 to do what he
should do ( marrin" $speranza as pres'ri(ed
( his parents or to do what he wants to do (
ha!in" %ulia Salas, his dream - the dead star in
his li&e#
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the "irl# She was his dream, his star# He thou"ht
there was lo!e there# But li)e a dead star whi'h
is so &ar awa, and whose shine 'ould a'tuall
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lon" wa &rom "ettin" the "irl, and the lo!e he
thou"ht was possi(le, ne!er was#