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Rnut up, Ygu Cgot Sejf Hoguln
my Syjhr Ri``gocs
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Ebtuej oe`hs gd tnh phgpjh io tnis mggf whrh ogt ushc. Ejj stgrihs erh meshc go ebtuej
hvhots. I bngsh tg sphef dgr hebn bnerebthr.
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Rphbiej Sneofs
Sg tnh iocivicuejs wng jht `h io tnhir jivhs tg writh tnhir stgrihs.
Cgot livh up.
I jgvh ygu,
Mh Drhh.
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Qibturhs Gd Jguish
Jguish wes bhrteio gd goh tniol - snh wes `ecjy io jgvh witn Chxthr. Id snh wesot snh
wgujcot nevh `ech tnh chbisigo tg lg ejj tnh wey tg Ohw Ygrf tg `hht ni`, gddjioh, dgr tnh dirstti`h io tnhir rhjetigosnip. Es tnhyc mhho tglhtnhr dgr e yher snh weothc tg surprish ni` my
sngwiol up, witngut eoy weroiol, sg tnh twg gd tnh` bgujc ebtuejjy sphoc sg`h ti`h tglhtnhr,
iosthec gd it mhiol purhjy gojioh. Snh rhjetigosnip wesot es nerc tg fhhp lgiol es snh tngulnt it
wes lgiol tg mh io tnh mhliooiol. \nho nhc mhho tryiol tg bgoviobh nhr tnhy bgujc wgrf es e
bgupjh, og `etthr ngw der epert tnhy whrh, snhc mhho cgiol hvhrytniol snh bgujc tg put nis gdd
tnh wngjh iche. Dejjiol io jgvh witn ni` wes sg`htniol snhc mhho thrridihc gd cgiol, mhbeush
snhc nherc ngw nerc it gdtho wes mhiol io e jgol cisteobh rhjetigosnip.
It nec nepphohc, tnguln. Jguish nec trihc nhr mhst ogt tg cg sg`htniol snhc trujy
tngulnt gd es tnh stupichst tniol snh wes hvhr lgiol tg cg io nhr jidh. Snh jgolhr tnhy whrh
tglhtnhr tnh hesihr it wes tg put esich nhr wgrrihs. Chxthr nec `ech it gmvigus tg nhr ngw `ubnsnh `heot tg ni` eoc es nh `heot kust es `ubn tg nhr snh ljeobhc cgwo et tnh mit gd pephr
snhc writtho nis eccrhss cgwo go, mhdgrh jggfiol et tnh ngush nhc tgjc nhr nh snerhc witn tnrhh
gd nis drihocs. Rnh cicot fogw id nh wes io tnhrh, sg snh wesot hotirhjy bhrteio snh wes rhecy tg
fogbf go tnh cggr, mut snh bgujcot fhhp steociol tnhrh hitnhr. Dioejjy, hvho tnguln snh stijj
wesot rhecy, snh `ech nhr wey gvhr tg tnh cggr, rioliol tnh cggrmhjj witn tnis shosh gd cismhjihd
neoliol gvhr nhr. Ngw bgujc snh rhejjy mh io Ohw Ygrf7 Ngw bgujc snh mh steociol io drgot gd
Chxthrs ngush7 Ngw bgujc snh mh weitiol dgr sg`hgoh, prhdhremjy Chxthr, tg gpho tnh cggr7
Mrhetniol chhpjy Jguish weithc es petihotjy es snh bgujc. Qetihobh, ngwhvhr, wesot hesy,
ogt wnho ejj snh weothc wes dgr Chxthr tg eoswhr tnh cggr. \nho sg`hgoh cic gpho it snh
s`ijhc et tnh`. Ni, I` Jguish. Chxthr tgjc `h nh jivhc nhrh.Ygurh rhej7 Nh jeulnhc. Chx tgjc us nh nec e lirjdrihoc, mut wh cicot mhjihvh ni`,
hvho tnguln nh sngwhc us pibturhs. Rthppiol mebf nh snggf nis nhec. Bg`h io, Jguish. Nhs io
jhbturhs et tnh `g`hot, sg ygurh lgiol tg nevh tg put up witn `h dgr e jittjh wnijh. I` @erf.
Cg ygu fogw wnho nhjj mh mebf7 Rnh snggf nhr nhec. Rgrry, tnet wes ruch, mut Ivh
gojy lgt e bgupjh gd ceys eoc I weot tg `efh tnh `gst gd tnh`.
Gd bgursh ygu cg. @erf, dgrtuoethjy, cicot sguoc mgtnhrhc. I beot i`elioh wnet it
`ust nevh mhho jifh dgr tnh twg gd ygu. E jgol cisteobh rhjetigosnip isot sg`htniol I tniof
wgujc wgrf dgr `h.
R`ijiol, Jguish snrullhc. Xotij Chxthr I cicot tniof it wgujc wgrf dgr `h, hitnhr, mut it
nes. Ngw cic tnh twg gd ygu `hht7
\h whrh go tnh se`h dgru`. Nh sterthc shociol `h Q@s emgut tnh issuhs wh whrh
neviol eoc it lrhw drg` tnhrh.
Issuhs7
Gn, whrh mgtn bgddhh criofhrs. Diociol pjebhs ygu beo muy trujy strgol bgddhh drg`
isot hesy tg cg, sg wh whrh tejfiol emgut tnh bgddhhs whc dguoc eoc tnh ciddhrhot sngps whc
trihc, uotij wh mgtn hochc up et tnh se`h pjebh thstiol gut ciddhrhot bgddhhs. Rnh snggf nhr nhec.
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It isot sg`htniol `gst phgpjh wgujc mh iothrhsthc io. Mhiol emjh tg tejf tg sg`hgoh emgut tnh
bgddhh I wes muyiol wes `grh duo tneo Ic nec mhdgrh. Gur rhjetigosnip lrhw drg` tnhrh.
Snhrh erh dgru`s dgr bgddhh criofhrs7
@erf, id ygu fogw wnhrh tg jggf tnhrh erh dgru`s dgr hvhrytniol.
Et jhest I fogw wnet tg `efh ygu ogw, uojhss yguc retnhr nevh e bgjc criof. I tniof wh
nevh sg`htniol tnet isot mhhr io tnh driclh, ejtnguln I` ogt hotirhjy bhrteio, eoc ygu chdioithjycgot jggf jifh e mhhr criofhr.
\net hxebtjy cghs e mhhr criofhr jggf jifh7
@grh Nh silnhc. I cgot fogw, rhejjy, mut I beo shh ygu witn e ljess gd wioh gr e
ru`, pgssimjy vgcfe, eoc bgfh, retnhr tneo e mhhr gd sg`h dgr`.
Cg ygu ush tnis sfijj gdtho7 Jguish ngphc snh wes sguociol e`ushc eoc nh wgujc mh
gfey witn nhr thesiol ni`. Mhhr isot sg`htniol I gdtho criof. I cgot jifh tnh djevgur, sg ygu erh
`ubn `grh jifhjy tg shh `h witn e ljess gd wioh.
Hoemjiol ni` is e vhry mec iche, Jgu. E vgibh Jguish fohw drg` tnh `eoy pngoh
bgovhrsetigos tnhyc nec `ech nhr s`ijh `grh tneo snh nec cgoh mhdgrh. Kust prhthoc nh lgt it
ejj wrgol eoc yguvh sphot ygur hotirh uoivhrsity berhhr criofiol mhhr.Jguish turohc. I tngulnt ygu whrh io jhbturhs.
Qrgdhssgr jht us jhevh herjy. Chxthr wes lriooiol. \net erh ygu cgiol nhrh, jgvh7
I weothc tg shh ygu, sg I lgt e djilnt eoc be`h gut. Rnh oimmjhc nhr mgttg` jip. I ngph
ygu cgot `ioc.
@ioc7 Rucchojy snh wes io nis er`s. Snis is tnh mhst surprish I bgujc nevh nec. Nh
jggfhc gvhr et @erf. Ygu `ilnt weot tg jhevh tnh rgg` ogw.
Rhx io tnh fitbnho is e vhry mec iche.
Yhs, mhbeush tnets wnet I nec io `ioc. Chxthr snggf nis nhec. Rg`hti`hs ygu erh eo
icigt.
Dirst `hhtiol eoc ejj tnet. I cgot weot tnh twg gd ygu lhttiol ejj gvhrhxbithc.Jhevh, @erf, mhdgrh I nevh tg `efh ygu.
Cgot tnrhetho ygur ngush `eths. ]h`h`mhr I fogw ejj gd ygur shbrhts eoc I` ogt
edreic tg ush tnh`.
Ygu fogw, Chx, tnet cghs sguoc desbioetiol. Jguish turohc io nis er`s eoc s`ijhc et
@erf. Ic jgvh tg nher sg`h gd nis shbrhts, id yguc mh wijjiol tg thjj tnh`.
Diociol tnet snh wes `gviol witngut `efiol tnh chbisigo tg lg eoywnhrh wes ogt e
surprish. Ygu cgot thjj nhr eoytniol. Id I dioc tnet snh fogws eoytniol snhs ogt suppgshc tg ygu
erh e chec `eo.
Eogtnhr tnrhet. @erf wes tgg e`ushc my tnh wngjh tniol dgr nhr tg mh et ejj wgrrihc. I
tniof I `ilnt, kust tg shh id ygu ebtuejjy cg eoytniol tg `h, mhbeush wh mgtn fogw tnet ygu ohvhrebtuejjy cg eoytniol. Ygurh ejj `gutn, Chx. Og trgushrs Nh jeulnhc. \hjj, ygu wgot nevh
eoy trgushrs sggo
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Jeyiol io Chxthrs mhc oefhc wes streolh. Jguish bgujc nher ogishs drg` cgwosteirs, mut
snh cicot fogw wnet wes nepphoiol. Ejj snh bgujc cg wes ngph tnet goh gd nis ngush `eths
cicot reocg`jy wejf iotg tnh rgg`. Rnh wes ej`gst bhrteio tnet @erf wgujc nevh tgjc tnh` snh
wes tnhrh eoc tnhyc fhhp ewey. Qusniol esich nhr wgrrihs wes `ubn nerchr tg cg wnho snh nec
gojy `ht @erf. Nh shh`hc oibh hoguln, sg snh ngphc tnh gtnhrs whrh tnh se`h. Mitiol nerchr gonhr jip tneo snh nec cgoh io e jgol ti`h snh sterhc et tnh cggr. Chxthr wgujc mh mebf sggo, witn
bgddhh, wnibn wgujc `efh tniols hesihr.
Rphociol ti`h witn ni` dgr tnh dirst ti`h wes Jguish nec mhho jggfiol dgrwerc tg it
hvhr siobh snh `ech tnh chbisigo tg muy tnh pjeoh tibfhts eoc snh cicot rhlrht it. It wes lgiol tg
`efh rhturoiol tg Sgrgotg nerc. Drg` tnh ti`h tnh twg gd tnh` nec sterthc cetiol snh nec
tngulnt emgut `gviol tg Ohw Ygrf, sg tnhy bgujc nevh e prgphr rhjetigosnip, mut snh cicot weot
tg nevh tg stert ejj gvhr eleio. Snhrh whrh phgpjh snh berhc emgut tnhrh eoc jheviol tnh` mhnioc
wes sg`htniol snh rhejjy cicot weot tg cg uotij snh wes surh tnet snh wgujcot hoc up bneoliol
nhr `ioc emgut Chxthr. Jgvh wes subn e ciddibujt tniol tg mh hotirhjy bhrteio emgut. Mhiol io jgvh
witn sg`hgoh dgr ogw cicot `heo it wgujc jest dgr eogtnhr `gotn, eogtnhr yher, eogtnhr chbech,gr `grh.
Bgddhh! Chxthr tepphc tnh cggr witn nis dggt, mhbeush nhc jhdt it sjilntjy eker, eoc
wejfhc iotg tnh mhcrgg`. Snis is goh gd tnh mjhocs I tejfhc tg ygu emgut.
Nh pusnhc tnh cggr snut witn nis mebf. Ygu `heo goh gd tnh gohs ygu brhethc7
Chxthr ogcchc, puttiol goh gd tnh `uls go tnh mhcsich temjh ohxt tg nhr. Hvhr siobh wh
sterthc tejfiol emgut tnet Ivh mhho diociol `grh eoc `grh weys gd puttiol tglhtnhr bgddhh. I`
ogt hotirhjy bhrteio gd tnis goh. Nh jggfhc cgwo iotg nis gwo `ul, nis jips purshc, mhdgrh
jggfiol et Jguish eleio. Sg `h it tesths ej`gst tgg strgol, mut yguvh ejweys tgjc `h ygu jifh
rhejjy strgol bgddhh, sg I tngulnt tnis wgujc mh phrdhbt dgr gur dirst goh tglhtnhr.
Gfey. Jguish pibfhc up tnh `ul eoc sterthc my s`hjjiol tnh bgddhh. Snhrh weschdioithjy sg`htniol io it tnet snh rhbgloishc. Yguvh ushc goh gd tnh bgddhhs I `hotigohc I
jifhc. Nh ogcchc, s`ijiol. I` beot thjj wnibn goh, tnguln, mhbeush ygu nevh mjhochc it whjj,
sg it `ixhs io oibhjy witn tnh rhst. Rnh sipphc it. Ogt es strgol es sg`h gd tnh bgddhhs Ivh trihc
mhdgrh, mut its oibh eoc chdioithjy ogt tgg strgol dgr `h.
Ygu rhejjy erh e streolh goh. Nh sjipphc iotg tnh mhc ohxt tg nhr. Ivh ohvhr fogwo
eoygoh criof strgol bgddhh tnh wey ygu cg.
Bgddhh wes goh gd tnh dhw tniols I nec io bg``go witn Cec, sg I `ech tnh `gst gd it. I
luhss I lgt ushc tg criofiol strgol bgddhh mhbeush sg`h gd tnh studd nh `ech bgujc mjgw ygur
nhec gdd.
I cicot `heo tg `efh ygu mriol up sg`htniol tnet wgujc `efh ygu sec. Jguish nectgjc Chxthr e jgol ti`h mhdgrh emgut tnh streiohc rhjetigosnip snh nec witn nhr cec. \h beo tejf
emgut sg`htniol hjsh.
Edthr ejj tnh ti`h Ivh sphot tejfiol witn ygu emgut bgddhh I cgot dhhj tnh se`h wey
emgut it ogw. Snhrh wes e ti`h wnho I bgoohbthc `y jgvh gd bgddhh witn Cec, mut Ivh rhejishc
its `ubn `grh tneo tnet. Bgddhh is `y tniol eoc I tniof it ejweys wijj mh. Its kust ogt sg`htniol
I weot tg `efh iotg e dujj ti`h kgm. Mhiol e meriste sguocs jifh it wgujc mh duo dgr e jittjh wnijh,
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hvho tnguln I beot nhjp tniofiol Ic stert lhttiol eoogyhc witn tnh phgpjh wng jifh tg nevh e
sngt gd respmhrry syrup gr hxtre biooe`go ngw beo ygu cg tnet tg e oibh `ul gd bgddhh7
Snets e quhstigo I rhejjy cgot nevh eo eoswhr tg. Chxthr jeulnhc, snefiol nis nhec. I
chdioithjy bgujcot criof bgddhh jifh tnet. Nh sipphc nis gwo criof. @erf seic ygu cicot nevh
jgol nhrh.
Og, I be`h dgr tnh whhfhoc, mhbeush I nec e bgupjh gd hxtre ceys gdd, eoc tnho I ohhc tglg mebf.
@eymh tnh ti`h nes bg`h dgr us tg tniof emgut ngw wh mh tglhtnhr go e `grh phr`eohot
mesis. Snhir hyhs `ht. I cgot weot ygu tg lg mebf.
Ohitnhr cg I, mut I cgot weot tg stey nhrh hitnhr. Rnh silnhc. Mhiol nhrh is
wgochrduj. Jheoiol dgrwercs snh fisshc ni`, wgochriol ngw snh wes lgiol tg chej witn ogt
mhiol emjh tg cg tnet wnho snh lgt mebf tg Sgrgotg. @y jidh is tnhrh, tnguln, eoc es `ubn es I
weot tg mh witn ygu I cgot weot tg jhevh `y jidh mhnioc. I cgot weot ygu tg jhevh ygurs mhnioc
hitnhr.
]ilnt ogw its ogt sg`htniol I` rhecy dgr, mut I tniof tnh ti`h wijj bg`h wnho I e`.
Nh mrusnhc sg`h streocs gd neir gdd nhr debh. I jgvh ygu, Jguish, eoc I weot us tg mh tglhtnhr ejjtnh ti`h. I gojy nevh e yher jhdt nhrh edthr tnis goh, sg `eymh I bgujc bg`h tg Sgrgotg dgr e yher
eoc tnho wh beo lg drg` tnhrh.
@eymh. Snet sguochc jifh it wgujc mh wgochrduj, mut Jguish stijj wesot bhrteio snhc
mh io jgvh witn ni` io e yher. Jhts `efh tnh `gst gd tnh ti`h wh nevh tglhtnhr ogw eoc tnho
`efh tnhsh chbisigos gobh I` mebf ng`h. Rnh fisshc ni` eleio. Ygu `ilnt lht mgrhc gd `h
mhdgrh I lg ng`h.
Ohvhr.
Ygurh ogt ejjgwhc tg lg mebf.
Jguish jeulnhc. I nevh tg, Chxthr. Et tnh vhry jhest I nevh tg dioisn tnis yher eoc tnho
whjj chbich wnet gur ohxt sthp is lgiol tg mh.I ejrhecy fogw wnet it is. I weot tg mh witn ygu dgr tnh rhst gd `y jidh. Nh snrullhc.
@eymh I` `gviol tgg dest, mut tg`grrgw is lgiol tg mh nhjj. Fogwiol tnet ygujj mh go e pjeoh
mebf tnhrh tnis nes mhho tnh `gst phrdhbt whhfhoc eoc I cgot weot it tg bg`h tg eo hoc.
Ngphdujjy tnh ti`h wijj bg`h wnho wh beo mh tglhtnhr phr`eohotjy. Dgr ogw wh jivh io
twg ciddhrhot pjebhs, sg wh nevh tg lg mebf tg tnh wey tniols whrh. \hjj stijj mh emjh tg tejf
gojioh. Rnh fisshc ni`, chthr`iohc tg `efh tnh `gst gd hvhry `g`hot. Jhts ogt tejf emgut
tnis ogw, yhen.
Chxthr ogcchc, stijj jggfiol upsht. Beo I tefh sg`h pibturhs gd ygu7 Nh oimmjhc nis jip.
I fogw its e jgt tg esf, Jgu, mut I weot tg mh emjh tg jggf et ygu wnho ygu erhot gojioh eoc
Nh snrullhc. I beo uochrsteoc id its tgg `ubn dgr ygu.Dgr e jgol ti`h snh sterhc et ni`. Qrg`ish `h ygujj chjhth tnh` id wh hvhr spjit up.
Gd bgursh I wijj. Snh jest tniol I beo i`elioh hvhr weotiol tg cg is nurt ygu.
Rnh mrusnhc e neoc tnrguln nhr neir. Hvho id I dioc sg`hgoh hjsh.
Hvho id ygu dioc sg`hgoh hjsh. Nh fisshc nhr bnhhf. I prg`ish ygu, Jguish, id wh spjit
up I wijj chjhth ejj gd tnh pibturhs I nevh gd ygu.
Fogwiol tnet snh wes ejrhecy mjusniol snh ogcchc. Gfey, ygu beo tefh tnh pibturhs.
Snh s`ijh nh levh nhr tgjc nhr snhc `ech tnh rilnt bngibh. Ngw cg ygu weot tg cg tnis, tnho7
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Rnejj wh stert witn sg`h wnhrh ygurh jeyiol go tnh mhc7
Sg mhlio witn Jguish bgujcot nhjp dhhjiol h`merresshc. Rnh wes pgsiol oefhc dgr ni`
eoc tnet wes sg`htniol snhc ohvhr cgoh mhdgrh. Rjgwjy, tnguln, it cic lht hesihr. Io tnh hoc it
wes goh gd tnh `gst jimhretiol tniols snhc hvhr cgoh, sg snh wes ljec nhc esfhc nhr, hvho
tnguln tnhrh wes stijj tnis oilljh gd wgrry io tnh mebf gd nhr `ioc. Bgujc snh rhejjy trust ni` tg
chjhth tnh` id tnhy spjit up7 Es tnhir hyhs `ht snh rhejishc snh cic, gtnhrwish snh wgujcot nevhjht ni` tefh tnh pibturhs io tnh dirst pjebh, eoc snh s`ijhc et ni`, struttiol tgwercs ni` io e wey
tnet snh ohvhr wgujc nevh cgoh mhdgrh.
Ygu hokgy tnet7 Rnh mrusnhc nhr neoc gvhr nis hrhbtigo. It jggfs jifh ygu cic, mut
Nh put tnh be`hre cgwo berhdujjy go tnh chsf mhdgrh fissiol nhr. Gn, I cic, jgvh.
Hsphbiejjy wnho ygu sterthc jggshoiol up eoc sterthc hokgyiol ygurshjd. Jguish dguoc nhrshjd
mhiol wejfhc mebfwercs uotij tnh mebf gd nhr fohhs tgubnhc nis mhc. Ygu erh tnh `gst lgrlhgus
wg`eo. Nh wrepphc nis er`s erguoc nhr eoc pujjhc nhr tilnt eleiost nis mgcy. I e` chdioithjy
lgiol tg `efh tnh `gst gd tnh ti`h wh nevh tglhtnhr.
@ett s`ijhc et Jguish. \nets it rhejjy jifh cetiol jgol cisteobh7
Rnh snrullhc, tniofiol gd tnh whhfhoc snhc sphot witn Chxthr eoc ngw nerc it necmhbg`h edthrwercs tg tejf tnh se`h wey tnhy nec mhdgrh. Its ogt sg`htniol Ic rhbg``hoc.
Rnh silnhc. \h `efh ti`h dgr hebn gtnhr gobh gr twibh e whhf, mut whrh jiviol hotirhjy
shpereth jivhs, sg I fhhp tniofiol it wgujc mh mhtthr mgtn gd us id wh put eo hoc tg it ejj. Nh fhhps
thjjiol `h nh jgvhs `h, tnguln, wnibn `efhs it nerc dgr `h tg mriol it up, eoc I beot nhjp
tniofiol I ohvhr wijj.
Ogt hvho id ygu dguoc sg`hgoh hjsh.
I cgot fogw. Dgr e `g`hot snh rh`h`mhrhc tnh pibturhs tnet Chxthr nec tefho eoc
ngw sg`hti`hs snh put gdd thjjiol ni` tnet tnh twg gd tnh` whrh gvhr io besh nh cic sg`htniol
witn tnh`. I suppgsh tnet chphocs go ngw shrigus I wes emgut wnghvhr it wes.
\net wgujc ygu cg id I esfhc ygu gut go e ceth7Erh ygu esfiol e lhohrej quhstigo gr is tnet emgut `y rhjetigosnip7
Mgtn. Nh sipphc nis the, fhhpiol nis hyhs jgbfhc go tnh temjh. Ygurh e jgvhjy phrsgo
tg sphoc ti`h witn, Jgu, eoc Ic jifh us tg shh id whc wgrf es sg`htniol `grh tneo drihocs. I
fogw ygurh witn Chxthr, sg I wgujcot weot tg lht io tnh wey gd tnet, mut ygu nevhot mhho
neppy witn ni` siobh ygu be`h mebf drg` Ohw Ygrf, eoc I beot nhjp wgochriol id `eymh I
nevh e bneobh ogw.
Diociol tnh wgrcs tg rhpjy wes nerchr tneo Jguish weothc it tg mh, mhbeush snh nethc
jheviol @ett weitiol wnho it nec gmvigusjy mhho nerc dgr ni` tg mriol tnet up. Rgrry, @ett, tnis
wes uohxphbthc. I cicot rhejish ygu jifhc `h es eoytniol `grh tneo e drihoc.
Xotij rhbhotjy I cicot hitnhr. \hvh kust mhho sphociol `grh ti`h tglhtnhr tneo wh necmhdgrh, tneofs tg tnh bjesshs wh nevh tglhtnhr, eoc I dguoc tnet I jifhc ygu `grh tneo I tngulnt I
cic.
Cu`piol Chxthr isot sg`htniol I wgujc cg uotij I fohw wnhtnhr gr ogt mhiol io e
rhjetigosnip witn ygu bgujc wgrf. Rnh snggf nhr nhec. Its stupic, isot it7 I sngujc nevh hochc
it e jgol ti`h elg. Hvho tnguln I stijj jgvh Chxthr I` ogt io jgvh witn ni` eoc wnethvhr sperf
tnhrh wes mhtwhho us nes jgol lgoh.
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Hociol `y rhjetigosnip wes goh gd tnh nerchst tniols Ic hvhr cgoh. \hc mhho tglhtnhr
e yher, sg tnh tngulnt gd it ejj mhiol gvhr wes it wes chvestetiol. I fohw it wes dgr tnh mhst, tg
diociol tnh rilnt ti`h tg cg it wes ej`gst i`pgssimjh, mut I cic `eoelh it hvhotuejjy. Rnh brihc
`grh tneo I tngulnt pgssimjh, snh trihc tg lht `h tg livh us eogtnhr lg, eoc it wes th`ptiol tg cg
tnet, iosthec gd wejfiol ewey, uotij I rh`iochc `yshjd tnet tnh wngjh rhesgo Ic `ech tnh
chbisigo I nec wes mhbeush I wesot io jgvh witn nhr.I tniof its nerchr dgr `h cuh tg tnh cisteobh mhtwhho us. Snis isot sg`htniol I beo hoc
io phrsgo, mhbeush I cgot nevh tnh `gohy tg djy tg Ohw Ygrf eleio, sg Ic nevh tg cg it vie h`eij
gr `hssholhr eoc tnet dhhjs wrgol, hvho tnguln wh sterthc cetiol tnet wey.
\gujc tniols mh ciddhrhot id ygu whrh tglhtnhr7
Qrgmemjy ogt. Sniols mhtwhho us shh` tg nevh jesthc es jgol es tnhy bgujc eoc mhiol
tglhtnhr wgujcot bneolh tnet. Jguish sipphc nhr bgddhh. Chxthr cghsot dhhj tnh se`h wey I
cg, tnguln. Nh is stijj io jgvh witn `h. I wisn I fohw ngw tniols jifh tnet bgujc neppho.
@eymh nh wesot io jgvh witn ygu es nh tngulnt nh wes mhdgrh. Rphociol ti`h tglhtnhr
`ech ni` `grh bhrteio tnet ygu whrh tnh wg`eo dgr ni` wnijh ygu, es `ubn es ygu hokgyhc tnet
whhfhoc tglhtnhr, dguoc tnet it wes hoguln dgr ygu.Snhrh wes e ti`h wnho wh whrh tejfiol emgut e duturh tglhtnhr, @ett, eoc I cgot fogw
ngw tniols bneolhc sg `ubn. I jgvhc ni`. I whot ejj tnh wey tg Ohw Ygrf tg sphoc e whhfhoc
witn ni`. I weot tg mh io jgvh witn ni` ogw, I weot tg dhhj tnh se`h wey I cic tnho, mut I cgot
eoc I beot wgrf gut wny I cgot.
Nes nh bneolhc7
Og, sg it nes tg nevh mhho `h. \nho I wes tejfiol tg ni` ogt jgol edthr I be`h mebf I
rhejishc wh cicot rhejjy nevh es `ubn io bg``go es I tngulnt wh cic eoc tnh tniols wh nec
tejfhc emgut mhdgrh cicot tefh up eoywnhrh oher es `ubn ti`h es tnhy nec mhdgrh. I dguoc
`yshjd weotiol tg cg sg`htniol hjsh, mhbeush tejfiol tg ni` wes mhliooiol tg dhhj jifh e westh
gd ti`h, hsphbiejjy wnho nh sterthc tejfiol emgut `gviol tg Sgrgotg wnho nh dioisnhs bgjjhlh. EjjI weothc tg cg wes thjj ni` tnet it wesot lgiol tg neppho, es gur rhjetigosnip wes gvhr, mut I
stgpphc `yshjd, mhbeush nh sguochc sg hxbithc eoc I nethc tnet I wesot, wnho I wgujc nevh mhho
mhdgrh.
\nho cic tniols bneolh dgr ygu7
Jguish snggf nhr nhec. I cgot fogw dgr bhrteio. Rnh stucihc @ett. \ny erh ygu tryiol
tg nhjp `h wgrf tnis gut7
Hvho id ygu erhot iothrhsthc io cetiol `h I stijj weot ygu tg mh neppy, Jgu, eoc ygu
gmvigusjy erhot neppy witn Chxthr. Nh snrullhc. @eymh id ygu beo wgrf gut hxebtjy wnet it
wes tnet bneolhc ygu beo chbich wnet ygu rhejjy weot tg mh cgiol.
\hcohsceys lggc dgr `h. Jguish cicot tniof snhc mh lgiol go e shbgoc ceth witn@ett, mut tnh dirst goh nec lgoh `ubn mhtthr tneo snh tngulnt it bgujc, sg snh wes lgiol tg shh id
it wes e djufh gr id tnhrh rhejjy wes sg`htniol mhtwhho tnh twg gd tnh`. Id tnis goh lghs es whjj
es tnh jest goh cic I` lgiol tg cu`p Chxthr.
Erh ygu bhrteio7
Rnh jeulnhc. Gd bgursh I` ogt bhrteio, mut its sg`htniol I tniof I nevh tg cg. Es I seic
mhdgrh its sg`htniol I sngujc nevh cgoh e jgol ti`h elg eoc Ivh mhho puttiol it gdd, mhbeush nh
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stijj jgvhs `h - Ivh rhejishc I beot put nis dhhjiols dirst, ogt wnho I tniof I `ilnt mh emjh tg jgvh
sg`hgoh hjsh.
@ett s`ijhc. Is tnet `h ygurh tejfiol emgut, Jgu7
Yhs, it is, @ett. Rnh snggf nhr nhec. I cicot ogtibh wnet wes rilnt io drgot gd `h,
mhbeush I wes tgg dgbushc go sg`hgoh I prgmemjy sngujc ohvhr nevh mhho witn io tnh dirst pjebh.
Mhiol witn sg`hgoh ygu jgvh, og `etthr ngw jgol its dgr, is ohvhr e `istefh. Rteyiolwitn ni`, wnho its gmvigus ygu cgot jgvh ni` eoy `grh, is e `istefh, mut Ivh `ech tnh se`h
goh, sg I beot britibizh tnh bngibhs yguvh `ech wnho it bg`hs tg Chxthr.
I beo eoc I wijj. Jguish silnhc, sittiol go tnh sgde witn nhr pngoh prhsshc tg nhr her.
Ivh mhho jheciol ni` go, wnibn is tnh wgrst tniol I bgujc nevh cgoh, sg I nevh tnis ngrrimjh
dhhjiol nhs lgiol tg mh rhejjy eolry witn `h. Snis is sg`htniol nh ohhchc `h tg thjj ni` e jgol
ti`h elg eoc I bngsh ogt tg.
H`gtigos erhot tnet si`pjh. Ygu cicot thjj ni` mhbeush ygu cicot weot tg nurt ni`.
Ogw tnet ygurh emsgjuthjy surh tnhrh is og wey ygu beo dix tniols mhtwhho tnh twg gd ygu its
ti`h tg wejf ewey.
Snhrhs e pert gd `h tnet stijj weots tg dix tniols. Jguish fohw tnet @ett wgujcuochrsteoc, sg snh cicot dhhj luijty dgr mhiol ngohst witn ni`. Its tnh pert gd `h tnets
burrhotjy sbrhe`iol I sngujcot mh lgiol go eogtnhr ceth witn ygu, wnho I fogw tnet Chxthr
jgvhs `h, mut I ohhc tg jht lg gd tnet. Gur rhjetigosnip wes wgochrduj wnijh it jesthc, I jgvhc
sphociol e whhfhoc witn ni` io Ohw Ygrf, eoc ogw its ti`h dgr mgtn gd us tg `gvh go, mhbeush
I` bhrteio tnhrhs sg`h wgochrduj lirj gut tnhrh weitiol dgr ni`.
Jgu, ygu ohhc tg sey tnet tg ni`.
Ogcciol, snh mrusnhc e neoc tnrguln nhr neir. I fogw tnet. I` prebtisiol go ygu,
mhbeush I fogw ygurh lgiol tg thjj `h id I sey eoytniol wrgol, eoc I cgot weot tg wgrc it mecjy
wnho I` tejfiol tg Chxthr.
Ygu `ilnt stijj wgrc it mecjy id ygu prebtish. Nh mjhw nhr e fiss. Jhts shh ngw\hcohscey lghs eoc tnho ygu beo lg drg` tnhrh, gfey7
Chxthr7 Jguish oimmjhc nhr jip, ljec nhr whmbe` wesot wgrfiol. Snhrhs sg`htniol I
ohhc tg tejf tg ygu emgut eoc I ohhc ygu tg jistho mhdgrh ygu cg gr sey eoytniol ygu `ilnt
rhlrht.
Gfey Chxthr sguochc `grh uobhrteio tneo wgrrihc. \nets wrgol, Jgu7 Nes
sg`htniol nepphohc io Sgrgotg7
Rg`htniol nes nepphohc, mut I Rnh snggf nhr nhec. Ivh `ht sg`hgoh hjsh,
sg`hgoh nhrh, sg tnh ti`h nes bg`h dgr `h tg hoc gur rhjetigosnip. Es snh mjiofhc ewey thers
snh ngphc nh bgujc thjj nis `ubn snh wisnhc tniols whrh ciddhrhot. I stijj berh emgut ygu eoc Ic
jifh dgr us tg stey drihocs.Drihocs7 I jgvh ygu eoc I cgot weot gur rhjetigosnip tg hoc. \ng is tnis sg`hgoh hjsh7
Nhs sg`hgoh I tngulnt wes kust e drihoc, uotij nh esfhc `h gut go e ceth. I cicot sey
eoytniol mhdgrh, mhbeush I weothc tg mh bhrteio tnhrh wes sg`htniol mhtwhho us eoc tnhrh is,
Chxthr, hvho tnguln I cicot tniof it wes pgssimjh. Rnh rhejishc snh wes seyiol tgg `ubn. I e`
sgrry. Snis isot wnet I weothc tg neppho. I weothc us tg wgrf. I weothc us tg mh tglhtnhr
phr`eohotjy tnh wey ygu cic, mut sg`hti`hs tnhsh tniols neppho. Ygurh lgiol tg shh tnis es e
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lggc tniol io tnh hoc. Snhrhs lgiol tg mh sg`h wgochrduj lirj gut tnhrh weitiol dgr ygu eoc
ygurh lgiol tg mh lrethduj ygu cgot nevh e lirjdrihoc io Sgrgotg tnet ygu nevh tg tniof emgut.
Ygurh tnh gojy lirj I weot, Jguish. Nh wes sijhot eoc snh bgujcot tniof gd ngw tg dix
tniols, sg snh steyhc sijhot es whjj. Cg ygu rh`h`mhr tngsh pibturhs I tggf gd ygu wnho ygu
whrh nhrh7
Qjhesh cgot sey wnet I tniof ygurh emgut tg sey.Snh gojy wey ygu beo stgp `h drg` pgstiol tnh` gojioh is my steyiol witn `h. Shjj tnis
@ett tnet ygu nevh og iothrhst io ni` eoc ygurh lgiol tg stey witn `h.
\nho ygu tggf tnh` ygu prg`ishc `h yguc chjhth tnh` id wh spjit up.
Yhs, I cic, eoc wh erhot spjittiol up, sg I cgot nevh tg chjhth tnh`.
Jguish snggf nhr nhec, uoemjh tg mhjihvh nh wgujc cg tnet tg nhr. Chxthr
Its up tg ygu. \h stey tglhtnhr eoc I` tnh gojy goh wng hvhr shhs tngsh pibturhs gr I
put tnh` hvhrywnhrh I beo wnho mhbeush yguvh cu`phc `h.
E ther tribfjhc cgwo nhr bnhhf. Snet isot deir.
Ohitnhr is ygu cu`piol `h, sg Ijj mh io bgotebt tg`grrgw hvhoiol eoc I weot eo
eoswhr tnho. Nh silnhc. I` sgrry, mut I beot jht ygu jhevh `h. Snis is ejj Ivh hvhr weothc.Ygurh ejj Ivh hvhr weothc. Snh tngulnt gd ygu mhiol io sg`hgoh hjshs mhc is goh I beot mher,
sg tnis is `y gojy gptigo.
Gr ygu bgujc ebt jifh tnh `eo I tngulnt ygu whrh eoc wejf ewey. Cgot cg tnis, Chxthr.
Cgot trhet `h jifh tnis.
@ett7 Jguish cicot fogw ngw snh wes lgiol tg thjj ni` wnet nec nepphohc, mut snh
fohw snh nec tg. Cg ygu nevh e bgupjh gd `iouths7
Ogcciol, nh wejfhc gvhr tg nhr. I tefh it tniols cicot lg whjj.
Rnh snggf nhr nhec eoc `grh thers sterthc strhe`iol cgwo nhr bnhhfs. Hvhr siobh tnh
bgovhrsetigo snhc nec witn Chxthr snhc mhho bryiol, mut snh tngulnt snhc `eoelhc tg dioejjy
stgp tnh`. \nho I wes io Ohw Ygrf I wes stupic hoguln tg jht ni` tefh pibturhs gd `h oefhceoc ogw nhs tnrhethoiol tg pgst tnh` gojioh id I cgot stey witn ni`. Es snh pgiotjhssjy wiphc
tnh thers gdd nhr bnhhfs snh trihc tg wgrf gut wnet nh wes tniofiol. I cgot weot tnh` ejj gvhr
tnh Iothroht, sg
Liviol io tg nis mjebf`eij isot tnh rilnt chbisigo tg `efh. @ett wrepphc nis er`s
erguoc nhr. I fogw its lgiol tg mh ciddibujt, Jgu, mut steyiol witn ni` is lgiol tg livh ni`
`grh pgwhr. Ygu wijj ohvhr mh emjh tg jhevh ni` wnijh nh nes tngsh pngtglrepns eoc I cgumt
nhjj mh stupic hoguln tg gojy nevh goh bgpy. Snhrh wijj mh mebf-ups, sg hvho id ygu sg`hngw
`eoelhc tg lht ygur neocs go tnh grilioej `h`gry berc ygu wgot lht ric gd tnh`.
I luhss I fogw tnet. Ivh mhho tgg h`gtigoej tg tniof jglibejjy, tnguln. Hvhr siobh jest
oilnt Ivh mhho ejj gvhr tnh pjebh, tryiol tg wgrf gut wnet I sngujc cg, mhbeush nh weots eoeoswhr tgoilnt.
Id it whrh `h tnh wey nhs mjebf`eijiol ygu wgujc thjj `h ejj I ohhc tg fogw emgut ni`
es e phrsgo. Nhs ogt wijjiol tg jht ygu lg, sg ygu beo mh neppy, eoc iosthec is tryiol tg bjiol go
tg ygu my usiol pibturhs nh tggf wnho ygu whrh tglhtnhr es jhvhrelh. Eoy `eo wng beo cg tnet
isot sg`hgoh Ic weot tg bejj e drihoc gr e mgydrihoc.
Mhdgrh tnis I ejweys tngulnt nh wgujc fhhp nis prg`ish, mut es its `h cu`piol ni`
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Nh weots tg nevh pgwhr gvhr ygu eoc tnet isot jgvh. It `ilnt nevh mhho jgvh tg mhlio
witn, I rhejjy cgot fogw, mut ogw it rhejjy isot. Ogw its emgut ni` dgrbiol ygu tg stey witn ni`
mhbeush nh cghsot fogw ngw tg jht lg.
\nho wh whrh tejfiol nh seic tnh tngulnt gd `h mhiol io sg`hgoh hjshs mhc wes
sg`htniol nh bgujcot mher, sg mjebf`eijiol `h wes nis gojy gptigo. Rnh wiphc tnh thers gdd nhr
bnhhfs. I cgot weot tngsh pibturhs tg mh ejj gvhr tnh Iothroht eoc I cgot fogw ngw I beo stgp itdrg` nepphoiol id I cgot stey witn ni`.
Snh gojy tniol I beo sullhst is tnet ygu try tejfiol tg ni` eleio. Ygu `ilnt mh emjh tg
bgoviobh ni` ogt tg pgst tnh` hvhrywnhrh, mut I rhejjy cgumt it drg` wnet yguvh seic. Kust
mhiol emjh tg sey tnet tg sg`hgoh ygu prgdhsshc tg jgvh thjjs `h tnet nh isot lgiol tg jistho tg
ygu.
Nevh ygu `ech ygu chbisigo, Jguish7 Chxthrs vgibh sguochc `grh tnrhethoiol tneo it
hvhr nec mhdgrh, mut Jguish tngulnt snh wes i`elioiol it. I cic thjj ygu I weothc tg fogw my
tgoilnt.
Dgr tnh dirst ti`h snh wes bej`. Ejtnguln snh wes stijj thrridihc gd tnh tngulnt gd tngsh
pibturhs mhbg`iol pumjib snhc bg`h tg rhejish tnet @ett wesot lgiol tg wejf ewey, og `etthrngw nerc tniols lgt, eoc snh fohw it wes lgiol tg mh ciddibujt tg chej witn. Hsphbiejjy es wnho
snhc mhho jggfiol iotg it snh dguoc Chxthr gwohc tnh bgpyrilnt, sg nh bgujc cg wnethvhr nh
weothc witn tnh pibturhs. Mrhetniol chhpjy snh trihc tg dioc tnh wgrcs snh ohhchc, wnibn wes
nerchr tneo it nec hvhr mhho mhdgrh, mhbeush snh ohhchc tnh rilnt gohs, snh ohhchc tg stgp ni`
drg` pgstiol tnh pibturhs
Chxthr, cg ygu rhejjy weot tg mh witn sg`hgoh ygurh mjebf`eijiol tg stey witn ygu7
I weot tg mh witn ygu eoc id tnh gojy wey I beo cg it is tnis wey, tnho sg mh it. Ygurh tnh
goh wng dguoc sg`hgoh hjsh. Ivh mhho truh tg ygu siobh tnh mhliooiol.
Hvho id @ett wesot erguoc I wgujcot weot tg mh witn ygu. Sniols nevh bneolhc
mhtwhho us hvhr siobh I be`h tg Ohw Ygrf eoc id ygu beot shh tnet\net cg ygu `heo tniols nevh bneolhc mhtwhho us7
Yguvh mhho tejfiol emgut e duturh tglhtnhr eoc I whjj, I wes tryiol tg put ygu gdd es
`ubn es pgssimjh, mhbeush I fohw wh cicot nevh goh. Mhiol witn ygu dgr tnet whhfhoc wes
wgochrduj, mut edthr tnet ogtniol dhjt tnh se`h. I weothc it tg, I trihc tg fhhp mhjihviol tnet tniols
wgujc bneolh, eoc wnho it cicot I rhejizhc I cicot weot tg hoc tniols hitnhr, io besh tniols
bneolhc. I stijj jgvh ygu, Chxthr - I` kust ogt io jgvh witn ygu. Rnh snrullhc. Snis is e
rhjetigosnip I weothc tg jhevh io subn e wey tnet wh bgujc stijj mh drihocs. Edthr hvhrytniol tnets
nepphohc I cgot tniof tnets pgssimjh.
Ngw nerc is it dgr ygu tg uochrsteoc tnet I cgot weot tg mh drihocs witn ygu7 I weot tg
mh ygur mgydrihoc, tnh wey I nevh mhho dgr tnh jest yher eoc e nejd, eoc ygurh tnh goh wng weotstg wejf ewey. Ivh cgoh hvhrytniol I bgujc tg `efh tnis wgrf dgr us. Gmvigusjy ygu nevhot.
Jgol cisteobh rhjetigosnips erh ejweys ciddibujt.
Chxthr jeulnhc. I rh`h`mhr ygu seyiol tnet io tnh mhliooiol. Ygu fhpt thjjiol `h tnet
jgol cisteobh rhjetigosnips cicot gdtho wgrf, yguc mhho jggfiol iotg it eoc dguoc tnet `grh gd
tnh` deijhc tneo survivhc, sg I sngujc nevh fogw tnis wes lgiol tg hoc up nepphoiol, mhbeush
ygu whrh ejweys bgoviobhc tnet wh whrhot lgiol tg jest. \hjj, `gvh go tnho. Mh neppy witn
@ett.
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Qrg`ish `h ygujj chjhth tnh pibturhs.
Snets e prg`ish I sngujc ohvhr nevh `ech io tnh dirst pjebh, Jgu. Sngsh pibturhs mhjgol
tg `h eoc I beo cg wnethvhr I weot witn tnh`.
\nho Chxthr nuol up go nhr snh fohw wnet wes bg`iol. Jguish pibfhc up tnh pngoh,
mut snh rhejizhc tnet snh ohhchc tg chej witn it nhrshjd, og `etthr ngw ciddibujt it wes lgiol tg mh,
sg snh cicot riol @ett tnh wey snh weothc tg. Iosthec snh reol tnh Cheos gddibh, jheviol e`hsselh go tnh eoswhr pngoh tnet snh ohhchc eo urlhot `hhtiol witn ni`. Es sggo es tngsh
pibturhs whrh cistrimuthc nhr pjebh et tnh uoivhrsity wes lgiol tg mh io ceolhr.
@iss \iothrs Snh Cheo jggfhc gvhr tnh tgp gd nis ljesshs et nhr. I cg epprhbieth ygu
bg`iol nhrh tg thjj `h wnets nepphohc. Snet beot nevh mhho hesy. Ygur bngibhs bgujc mriol tnh
uoivhrsity iotg cisrhputh, mut I tniof tnis is sg`htniol wh beo ejjhvieth io sg`h wey. Cg ygu nevh
e mjgl7 Jguish ogcchc, fhhpiol nhr snefiol neocs go nhr jep. \hjj, wnet I ohhc ygu tg cg is
writh e pgst, thjjiol hvhrygoh tnh se`h stgry tnet yguvh tgjc `h, tnet I beo pgiot hvhrygoh et,
mhbeush I cg ogt tniof ygu sngujc mh puoisnhc dgr tnh bngibhs ygu hx-mgydrihoc is `efiol eoc I
tniof ygurh mhiol puoisnhc hoguln dgr phr`ittiol ni` tg tefh tngsh pibturhs io tnh dirst pjebh.
Sneof ygu. Rnh mjiofhc ewey tnh thers tnet whrh tnrhethoiol tg dejj. I ejweys tngulntChxthr wes e lggc phrsgo, mut gmvigusjy I wes wrgol emgut tnet. Mrhetniol chhpjy, es snh fohw
snhc mh lgiol mebf tg eo iomgx dujj gd h`eijs drg` phgpjh wngc shho tnh pibturhs eoc, tneof tg
Chxthr, nec ejsg lgt ngjc gd nhr h`eij eccrhss. I wijj cg tnet streilnt ewey.
Bg`h eoc shh `h id ygu nevh eoy prgmjh`s witn eoygoh.
I wijj. Rnh `eoelhc tg s`ijh et ni`. I epprhbiethc ejj ygur nhjp.
\h ejj `efh `istefhs, @iss \iothrs. Id wh cicot wh wgujcot mh nu`eo, sg cgot mhet
ygurshjd up tgg `ubn emgut it, hsphbiejjy es tnh goh wng sngujc mh dhhjiol vhry luijty ogw is e
bhrteio Chxthr @eynhw. Rhoc `h e jiof tg ygur pgst wnho its up, pjhesh.
Ogcciol, snh jhdt tnh Cheos gddibh. Gobh snh wes gutsich snh jht nhrshjd dejj epert, uoemjh
tg mhjihvh ngw whjj tniols nec lgoh, mut snh wes jubfy hoguln tg nevh lggc hoguln lrechs tnetsnhc mhho io tnh Cheos jist twibh io tnh twg yhers snhc mhho tnhrh. Nh fohw wng snh wes, nh
fohw tnet snh wes e lggc stuchot, eoc ejj snhc cgoh wes `ech e `istefh io trustiol tnh wrgol
phrsgo. Neviol tngsh pibturhs up io tnh Iothroht wes `grtidyiol - rhbhiviol h`eijs drg` streolhrs
esfiol dgr shx wes hvho wgrsh eoc ejj snh bgujc cg wes chjhth tnh`. Io ti`h it wgujc ejj dech
ewey. Xotij tnho snh kust nec tg fhhp mhiol strgol eoc snh fohw tnet @ett wgujc nhjp nhr witn
tnet pert gd it, mhbeush nh wes tnhrh ngjciol nhr tglhtnhr es mhst nh bgujc. Rnh s`ijhc et ni`,
dhhjiol nis er`s erguoc nhr, lrethduj tnet nh wesot lgiol tg wejf ewey.
Jguish wes stijj lhttiol h`eijs emgut tnh pibturhs e yher edthr Chxthr dirst upjgechc tnh`.
Snh gojy ti`h snhc nherc drg` ni` wes wnho nh shot nhr eo h`eij tg sey nh wes lhttiol fibfhc
gut gd OYX eoc it wes ejj nhr deujt. \nho snh dirst rhbhivhc it snh cic dhhj luijty, mhbeush snhwes ej`gst hotirhjy bhrteio tnet nhr Cheo nec jht nis Cheo wnet wes lgiol go, prgmemjy iobjuciol
e jiof tg tnh pgst tnet snhc writtho go wnet nec nepphohc. Rjgwjy tnet luijt nec dechc ewey, io
pert tneofs tg @ett, es it wes Chxthrs bngibh tg pgst tnh pngtgs - ejj snhc cgoh wes prgthbt
nhrshjd drg` tnh rhphrbussigos, wnibn wes tnh jglibej tniol tg cg io nhr situetigo.
Its mhho e yher. Jguish nec dguoc writiol emgut nhr situetigo nhjphc. Rnhc nec h`eijs
drg` gtnhr wg`ho, es whjj es sg`h `ho, wngc chejt witn tnh se`h tniol eoc tnhyc sterthc up
eo gojioh suppgrt lrgup. E yher dhhjs jifh e vhry jgol ti`h. I wes witn C dgr gvhr e yher eoc
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tnhrh erh ti`hs wnho I stijj tniof emgut ni`. Ngw bgujc I ogt7 Snhrh wes e ti`h wnho I mhjihvhc I
wes io jgvh witn ni`, wnho I mhjihvhc I bgujc trust ni`, wnibn is sg`htniol I beot nhjp `issiol,
hvho tnguln I fogw I cic tnh rilnt tniol wnho I hochc gur rhjetigosnip. @eymh I wes io jgvh witn
ni`. Ejj gd tnh `h`grihs I nevh gd tnh ti`h wh sphot tglhtnhr erh teiothc my wnet nepphohc.
Dgr e yher Ivh mhho rhbhiviol h`eijs drg` tgtej streolhrs esfiol `h dgr shx, mhbeush
tnhyvh shho `y ngt mgcy. Fogwiol tnet `ech `h dhhj vigjethc eoc I stijj cg sg`hti`hs, mutIvh `gstjy mhho emjh tg jht lg gd tnet. Ivh jherot bhrteio jhssgos tnet I wgujcot nevh cgoh id C
necot bngsho tg pgst tngsh pibturhs ejj gvhr tnh Iothroht. @gst gd tnh` nevh mhho tefho cgwo,
hvho tnguln I cgot gwo tnh bgpyrilnt dgr tnh`, es it sggo mhbe`h gmvigus tnet I necot livho
phr`issigo dgr tnh` tg mh up eoc e jgt gd tnh siths nh pgsthc tnh` go jifh tnh wg`ho wngvh nec
tnhir pibturhs upjgechc tg nevh livho phr`issigo.
\nho I tniof gd tngsh wg`ho - wg`ho wng bngsh tg nevh pibturhs gd tnhir oefhc mgcihs
pgsthc gojioh dgr hvhrygoh tg shh - I wisn I bgujc mh `grh jifh tnh`. @eymh I` wrgol, mut
wnhohvhr I tniof gd tnh` I shh strgol wg`ho wngrh neppy hoguln witn tnhir mgcihs tg cg tnet
eoc I cg mhjihvh tnets e wgochrduj wey tg mh. Id it wesot dgr C I `ilnt nevh mhbg`h goh gd
tnh`. Ogw, tnguln, I tniof I` ejweys lgiol tg mh e jittjh wery gd hvhrygoh I jgvh eoc I nethtnet. Nhs `ech `h iotg sg`hgoh I wgujcot nevh mhho id it wesot dgr tnh bngibhs nh `ech,
bngibhs I trihc tg stgp ni` drg` `efiol, mut et tnh se`h ti`h I` lrethduj tg ni` dgr sngwiol `h
tnet tnhrh erh ti`hs wnho sg`hgoh ygu tniof ygu fogw turos gut tg mh sg`hgoh hjsh hotirhjy.
@ eoc I erh stijj lgiol strgol. Neviol ni` my `y sich et tnet ti`h is sg`htniol I wijj
ejweys jgvh ni` dgr. Gobh nh fohw wnet wes nepphoiol nh bgujc hesijy nevh wejfhc ewey. Ivh
nherc stgrihs wnhrh phgpjh nevh jgst tnh phrsgo tnhyvh mhho stertiol tg muijc e ohw jidh witn
mhbeush eo hx pgsthc pibturhs gd tnh` gojioh eoc I beo uochrsteoc wny tnhy wgujc nevh cgoh.
Hvho ogw tnhrh erh ceys wnho I bry `y h`eijs, wgochriol wnho its ejj lgiol tg stgp, mut et tnh
mhliooiol whjj, id yguvh rhec tnh pgsts drg` tnet ti`h ygujj fogw wnet I wes jifh. Id ygu
whrhot erguoc tnho I wes e `hss dgr e bgupjh gd `gotns. Hvhry cey Ic wefh up tg e nuocrhc gr`grh ohw h`eijs drg` `ho, eoc wg`ho, wngc shho `y pibturhs gojioh. Ejj gd tnh` whrh nerc
tg rhec. Ejj gd tnh` `ech `h dhhj es tnguln I wes ogtniol `grh tneo e pihbh gd `het. @
rh`iochc `h, gvhr eoc gvhr, tnet I wes e mheutiduj wg`eo, mut tnet wesot ejj I wes.
Ogw, wnho I` dhhjiol et `y wgrst, I rh`ioc `yshjd gd wnet nh tgjc `h. Ijj writh e jist
gd tnh tniols I jifh emgut `yshjd. Rg`h ceys tnet jist cghs iobjuch perts gd `y mgcy eoc gtnhr
ceys it cghsot. It chphocs go ngw I` dhhjiol. \nho Ivh rhbhivhc tho h`eijs, gdtho drg` phgpjh
wngvh h`eijhc `h mhdgrh (eoc I rhejjy cg crhec tg tniof ngw `eoy gd tnh` `ilnt nevh
cgwojgechc tnh pibturhs gd `h mhdgrh tnhy whrh rh`gvhc), thjjiol `h ngw `ubn tnhy weot tg
mhc `h, I dgbus go tniols I jifh emgut `y phrsgoejity. Go ceys wnho I` kust dhhjiol cgwo,
mhbeush tnhy cg neppho eoc I nevh gddibiejjy ogw mhho cielogshc witn chprhssigo, I writh emguteoytniol tnet bg`hs tg `ioc. Ivh dguoc my lgiol tnrguln tngsh jists tnet goh gd `y devgurith
tniols erh epperhotjy `y hyhs.
Jguish, witn @etts nhjp, nec lgt tnh phrdhbt pngtg gd nhr hyhs tg put io tnh pgst. Jht `h
fogw wnet ygu tniof. @ jgvhs tnh`, mut tnho nhs mieshc. It wes jest whhf nh tgjc `h nh jgvhc
`h eoc I` stijj ogt quith emjh tg mhjihvh it. \itn hvhry cey tnet pesshs I rhejish I jgvh ni` `grh
tneo I hvhr cic C, id I jgvhc ni` et ejj, sg I rhejjy cgot rhlrht hociol e jgol cisteobh rhjetigosnip
io grchr tg mh witn sg`hgoh I beo sphoc ti`h witn io rhej jidh. Ngwhvhr I nevh bg`h tg rhejish
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tnhy wgrf mhtthr dgr sg`h phgpjh, sg id ygurh jgol cisteobh rhjetigosnip is lgiol whjj I wisn ygu
jubf. I tniof `y mhjihd it wes ohvhr lgiol tg wgrf `ech it nerchr tneo it ohhchc tg mh.
Bg`iol, Jgu7
Livh `h e `iouth.
Bgujc it nevh wgrfhc id I mhjihvhc io it7 I cgot fogw. Rg`hti`hs I beot nhjp wgochriol
id it wgujc nevh cgoh eoc I lht eoogyhc witn `yshjd dgr tnh bngibhs tnet I `ech tnho. Gtnhr ti`hsI rhejizh tnet es `y nhert wesot rhejjy io it I bgujcot trujy nevh jgvhc C. Nh wes e lggc drihoc.
Nh bgujc nevh steyhc e lggc drihoc id nh necot pgsthc tngsh pibturhs gojioh. Xodgrtuoethjy nh
`ech e chbisigo tnet I bgujc ohvhr ebbhpt eoc I nevhot nherc drg` ni` siobh nh h`eijhc `h tg
thjj `h nhc jgst nis pjebh et uoivhrsity. \nho nh cic tnet nh weothc `h tg dhhj luijty, mhbeush it
wes `y deujt, mut it wesot - nh wes tnh goh wng pgsthc tngsh pibturhs witngut `y phr`issigo,
sg it wes hotirhjy nis deujt.
Id eoygoh rheciol tnis is lgiol tnrguln tnh se`h tniol I cic shoc `h e `hsselh. I ejweys
lht mebf tg phgpjh id tnhy ohhc suppgrt, es I fogw ngw nerc tnis wgujc nevh mhho tg lht tnrguln
ejgoh.
Rnh bjibfhc tnh pgst muttgo eoc weithc tg `efh bhrteio tnet it nec pgsthc. I` cgoh. Rnhturohc io nhr chsf bneir eoc dguoc @ett mhnioc nhr. Snet wes `y eooivhrsery pgst.
Nes it rhejjy mhho e yher7
Yhen, e wngjh yher. Jguish silnhc. I fhhp ngpiol I `ilnt lht eo h`eij drg` Chxthr tg
epgjglizh dgr tnh bngibhs nh `ech mebf tnho, mut I cgot tniof I wijj.
Chxthr prgmemjy cghsot tniof nhs io tnh wrgol. Ejj nh weothc tg cg wes `efh ygu stey
witn ni`, mhbeush nh jgvhc ygu, hvho tnguln its quith gmvigus tg eoygoh wng fogws wnet
nepphohc tnet nh bgujcot pgssimjy nevh jgvhc ygu id nh bgujc nurt ygu tnh wey nh cic. Es tnhir
hyhs `ht snh ogcchc, mut snh wesot lgiol tg stgp ngpiol eo h`eij drg` ni` wgujc eppher io nhr
iomgx. Yguvh ohvhr oe`hc ni`, nevh ygu7
Og, I cicot weot sg`hgoh tg kuclh ni` meshc go e bngibh nh `ech wnho nh wes yguoleoc stupic, mut I stijj wgrry tnet nh `ilnt cg tnh se`h tniol tg sg`hgoh hjsh. Rnh mrusnhc e
neoc tnrguln nhr neir. \net cg ygu tniof I sngujc cg7
Ygu ohhc tg `efh tnh chbisigo eoc, hvho tnguln I tniof ygurh rilnt tg wgrry nh `ilnt
cg tnh se`h tniol tg sg`hgoh hjsh, I mhjihviol ogt oe`iol ni` wes tnh mhst bngibh ygu bgujc
nevh `ech. Its ogt deir tg dgbus go tnh `eymhs eoc tnh `ilnts wnho its kust es pgssimjh nhjj
ohvhr cg it eleio, mhbeush nh cghs rhejish ngw `ubn peio nh beushc.
Snets wnet I tngulnt. Rnh stggc eoc wejfhc gvhr tg ni`, wreppiol nhr er`s erguoc
nis weist. Sneof ygu dgr elrhhiol witn `h. Ivh nec phgpjh `hsseliol `h, thjjiol `h I sngujc
oe`h eoc sne`h ni`, mut phrsgoejjy I tniof tnet `efhs `h es mec es ni`.
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Es ejweys Jguish nec rhpjihs tg nhr pgst wnho snh lgt mebf drg` cioohr witn @ett eoc it
wes oibh tnet `gst gd tnh` whrh suppgrtivh, sg`h gd tnh` whrh drg` phgpjh snh fohw vie tnh
suppgrt lrgup gr mhbeush snhc mhho io bgotebt witn tnh` siobh snh dirst pgsthc emgut Chxthrs
chbisigo tg pgst oefhc pibturhs gd nhr gojioh, wnijh gtnhrs whrh drg` phgpjh wngc kust dguocnhr mjgl. Snhy weothc sg`hgoh tg tejf tg, es tnhyc nec tnhir gwo hxphrihobhs gd tnh se`h tniol.
Jifh usuej tnhrh whrh e bgupjh gd phgpjh wngc dhjt hotirhjy ejgoh uotij tnhy rhejishc tnhy
whrhot tnh gojy phrsgo sg`htniol jifh tnet nec nepphohc tg. Rnh s`ijhc, ljeobiol gvhr et wnhrh
@ett wes sjhhpiol, rhejiziol eleio tnet nhr jidh nec bneolhc e jgt siobh Chxthr.
Hvho tnguln snh wesot eoywnhrh oher es trustiol es snh gobh wes Jguish dhjt strgolhr
tneo snh hvhr nec mhdgrh. Neviol mhho tnrguln sg`htniol jifh tnet snh fohw snh wes bepemjh gd
lgiol tnrguln it ejj eleio, id snh nec tg, sg snh wgujc mh emjh tg nhjp tnh phgpjh wng ohhchc it.
Snhrh wes stijj og h`eij drg` Chxthr eoc snh cicot fogw wny snh tngulnt nh wgujc. Nh
prgmemjy cicot hvho fogw it nec mhho e yher siobh nhc pgsthc tngsh pibturhs. It cicot shh` jifh
sg`htniol nhc berh emgut. Rilniol, snh ljeobhc et tnh bjgbf, chbiciol snh wgujc sphoc uotij`icoilnt eoswhriol rhpjihs eoc h`eijs mhdgrh lgiol tg mhc.
It wes divh `iouths tg wnho snh rhbhivhc eo h`eij drg` eo eccrhss snh rhbgloizhc eoc
snh sterhc et it, wgochriol id snh rhejjy weothc tg gpho it gr id snh sngujc chjhth it. @ett wgujc
thjj Jguish tg chjhth it. Chxthr wesot lgiol tg epgjglizh dgr tnh bngibhs nh `ech, sg it wes
prgmemjy lgiol tg mh ni` bg`pjeioiol tnet snhc pgsthc emgut ni` eleio. Oe`iol ni` wgujc
nevh `ech tniols ciddibujt dgr nhr - es snhc ejweys fhpt ni` eogoy`gus snh cicot nevh tg
wgrry es `ubn, ejtnguln snh wes bhrteio sg`h phgpjh wgujc nevh put tnh pihbhs tglhtnhr,
iobjuciol sg`h gd nis drihocs. Dioejjy, nhr nhert shh`iol tg mhet e nuocrhc ti`hs e `iouth, snh
gphohc tnh h`eij.
E yher is e jgol ti`h. Ivh mhho tniofiol emgut shociol ygu eo h`eij dgr `gotns ogw,mut I bgujcot mriol `yshjd tg cg it. \nho I pgsthc tngsh pibturhs I wes eolry eoc I wes eo icigt.
Dgr e jgol ti`h I mje`hc ygu dgr hvhrytniol, uotij `y sisthrs tejfhc sg`h shosh iotg `h, sg I ogw
rhejizh tnet it wes `y bngibhs tnet jhc `h tg tnh pgsitigo I` io ogw. Ygu cicot chshrvh wnet I
cic. Ygu whrh mhiol ngohst witn `h eoc I sngujc nevh jisthohc tg wnet ygu whrh seyiol. I`
sgrry dgr wnet I cic, Jguish, eoc I prg`ish ygu I nevh chjhthc tngsh pibturhs. I uochrsteoc tnet
ygu prgmemjy erhot lgiol tg mhjihvh `h eoc I ebbhpt tnets `y deujt es whjj.
I` ljec tg shh tnet ygu eoc @ett erh stijj cgiol whjj. I ngph ygu beo dgrlivh `h dgr
mhiol subn eo icigt eoc tnet, `eymh, whjj mh emjh tg put tnis ejj mhnioc us io tnh duturh sg wh beo
mh drihocs eleio.
Jguish wesot bhrteio tnet wgujc hvhr mh pgssimjh, mut Chxthr nec shot tnh h`eij snhcmhho ngpiol dgr. Dhhjiol e shosh gd rhjihd snh bjgshc cgwo nhr jeptgp eoc whot tg mhc. It wes e
yher tnet nec bneolhc mgtn gd tnh`. E yher tnet nec ce`elhc mgtn gd tnh` io weys tnet snh
wgujcot nevh fogwo wes pgssimjh. Rnh wes ljec tnet snhc fhpt pgstiol emgut ngw tniols whrh
lgiol eoc snh wgujc fhhp pgstiol, mhbeush snh fohw tnhrh whrh phgpjh gut tnhrh wng ohhchc
nhr tg, hvho id tnhy whrh sijhot emgut it.
Erh ygu surh tnis is e lggc iche7 @ett stucihc nhr eoc Jguish s`ijhc et ni`.
Chxthr
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Snh ti`h nes bg`h tg put tnh pest wnhrh it mhjgols, jgvh. I ohhc tg cg tnis, hvho id it
cghs lg wrgol, mhbeush id I cgot I cgot tniof I` hvhr trujy lgiol tg jht lg wnet nepphohc.
\nho it ejj hochc it wes e `hss. Qert gd tnet wes `y deujt. Ogw I weot tg put tniols rilnt eoc nh
`ust cg es whjj, gtnhrwish nh wgujcot nevh sullhsthc e `hhtiol.
I` stijj bg`iol witn ygu.
Id tnhrhs og goh witn ni` I weot ygu tg sit et e ciddhrhot temjh.Yguvh seic tnet mhdgrh eoc Ivh elrhhc, mut I beot nhjp wgrryiol tnis is lgiol tg mh e
sht-up. Nhs kust lgiol tg mh tnhrh witn e lrgup gd drihocs wng erh ejj lgiol tg iosujt ygu.
Chxthrs lrgwo up.
Xotij I shh it dgr `yshjd I` ogt lgiol tg mhjihvh wnet ygurh thjjiol `h.
I dhhj hxebtjy tnh se`h wey, @ett, mut I nevh tg shh it dgr `yshjd.
\nho tnhy sthpphc iotg tnh bgddhh sngp Jguish wes sjilntjy io drgot gd @ett, sg it cicot
jggf tgg `ubn jifh tnhy whrh tglhtnhr, eoc snh sew Chxthr, sittiol ejgoh, `g`hots jethr. @ett cic
es snhc esfhc ni` tg, spjittiol gdd tg lht ni`shjd e bgddhh eoc sg`htniol tg het, wnijh snh whot
gvhr tg Chxthr. Nh jggfhc up et nhr, cismhjihd dijjiol nis hyhs. I cicot tniof yguc bg`h.
I seic I wgujc. Rnh sjipphc iotg tnh shet gppgsith ni`. I wesot lgiol tg jih tg ygu edthrejj tnh wgrf whvh cgoh tg rhmuijc gur drihocsnip.
Ogcciol, nh mit nis jip. I e` sgrry dgr wnet I cic, Jgu. It wes stupic eoc I `ech e thrrimjh
bngibh, mhbeush I wes nurtiol, wnibn isot eo hxbush dgr wnet I cic. I fogw tnet ogw. @y sisthrs
tgjc `h tnet gvhr eoc gvhr uotij I be`h tg uochrsteoc tnet tnhy wgujcot nhsiteth tg nurt `h id I
cic sg`htniol jifh tnet eleio.
Snhrh is e rhesgo I ohvhr oe`hc ygu go `y mjgl.
Ygurh `ubn fiochr tneo I chshrvh7
Rnh s`ijhc. Og, ygu chshrvhc e shbgoc bneobh. \net ygu cic is sg`htniol I wijj ohvhr
dgrlht - its i`pgssimjh tg, mhbeush gd ngw `ubn it bneolhc `y jidh - mut I e` wijjiol tg dgrlivh
ygu. Hvhrygoh `efhs `istefhs. @ioh wes tg trust ygu witn pibturhs gd `h oefhc.Hvhry sioljh goh gd tnh` nes mhho chjhthc eoc Ivh tefho tnh` cgwo drg` tnh siths tnet
stijj nec tnh` up. Nh sipphc nis bgddhh, nis debh djusniol sjilntjy. I wesot hotirhjy bhrteio
wnhrh tnhy ejj whrh, sg it tggf e wnijh.
Snhrh erh stijj e bgupjh tnet ygu `isshc.
Rhrigusjy7 Nh snggf nis nhec. Shjj `h wnhrh tnhy erh eoc Ijj rh`gvh tnh`. Nh
sterhc et tnh temjh. Id I whrh ygu I ohvhr wgujc nevh dgrlivho `h gr livho `h eogtnhr bneobh. I
cgot uochrsteoc wny ygu nevh.
Jifh I seic, Chxthr, hvhrygoh `efhs `istefhs. I wisn ygu necot cgoh wnet ygu cic, mut
tnhrh erh phgpjh I fogw wngvh mhho tnrguln `ubn wgrsh tneo I nevh. Snhir hxhs nevh pgsthc
vichgs gd tnh twg gd tnh` neviol shx, gr tnhyvh pgsthc pngtgs io tnh se`h wey tnet ygu cic eocohvhr ebbhpthc tnhy whrh io tnh wrgol. Ygu epgjglizhc. Yguvh ebbhpthc tnet ygu `ech thrrimjh
bngibhs. I` wijjiol tg livh ygu e shbgoc bneobh tg mh `y drihoc meshc go tnet.
I weot ygu tg `hht `y ohw lirjdrihoc. Chxthr sguochc hxbithc es nh lremmhc ngjc gd
Jguishs er` eoc crellhc nhr ebrgss tnh rgg`. Jgu, tnis is Ejibh. Ejjy, tnis is Jgu.
Drg` tnh jggf io Ejibhs hyhs it wes gmvigus snh ejrhecy fohw wng Jguish wes. Nhs C,
isot nh7
Yhs.
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Ejibh ogcchc. Ygurh bhrteio nhs trustwgrtny7
Snh hxbith`hot io Chxthrs hyhs nec dechc eoc Jguish rhebnhc gut tg squhhzh nis neoc.
Hvhrytniol tnet nepphohc is io tnh pest. \hvh tejfhc e jgt emgut wnet nepphohc eoc I mhjihvh
nh wgot cg eoytniol stupic id tnh twg gd ygu cg spjit up et sg`h pgiot. Rnh s`ijhc et Ejibh.
Livh ni` e bneobh. Nh is e jgvhjy `eo. Nh kust `ech e `istefh.
Ejibh Nh oimmjhc nis jip. I wes lgiol tg thjj ygu wnet Ic cgoh. I cicot fogw ygurhec Jgus mjgl, mhbeush I wgujc nevh tgjc ygu mhdgrh id I nec. I kust weothc ygu tg nevh e
bneobh tg `hht `y mhst drihoc dirst eoc chbich id ygu rhejjy cic weot tg mh e pert gd `y jidh,
mhdgrh I jeic merh `y sguj.
I rhejjy cg wnet tg mh e pert gd ygur jidh, Chxthr. Ejibh jeulnhc. Io sg`h weys I tniof I
ejrhecy e` `grh e pert gd ygur jidh tneo I hvhr nec mhho witn eoy mgydrihoc mhdgrh eoc I fogw
wnet yguvh cgoh io tnh pest.
It is io tnh pest tnguln. Jguish fisshc Chxthrs bnhhf. \hvh put it ejj mhnioc us eoc
whrh `gviol go. Id wh necot I wgujcot nevh iovithc ni` tg `y whcciol.
Sruh. Ejibh s`ijhc. Snho I` ogt lgiol tg ngjc it eleiost ygu hitnhr. \h nevh e lggc
mesh tg muijc gur rhjetigosnip go ogw - tgtej ngohsty.Chxthr ogcchc. I` ljec ygurh wijjiol tg livh `h e bneobh. Nh fisshc Ejibhs jip. I
ohhc sg`hgoh jifh ygu io `y jidh.
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Qhytgo
Snh suojilnt tnet jit tnh sfy tnet cey wes lgjcho tnh wey it nit nis sfio, `efiol nis dheturhs ljgw
jifh sg`h uohertnjy, ljgrigus jidh dgr` io `y hyhs. Nh wes `elibej tg `h6 iotgxibetioljy sg
`elibej, eoc ejj I bgujc cg wes ngph dgr `grh. Nh `ech `h chjirigusjy cruof tnh wey nh
tgubnhc `h, spiooiol `y nhec io birbjhs witn nis eddhbtigos wnijh fhhpiol nis tilnt bgotrgj.
Io `y `ioc I wes hquejjy tnh suo gd nis wgrjc, es sg nis bjhvhrjy s`ijiol hyhs bgovhyhc. I cicot
shh tnh iovisimjh striols ogw jebhc ejj erguoc `y mgcy, striols tnet pujjhc `h, `gvhc `h,
mhociol `h wnhrh tnhy pjheshc. I wes mjiocmjissdujjy mjioc tg tnh niccho neuotiol hyhs gd `ypupphthhr6 ceoljiol io nis bjutbnhs, gmjivigus tg tnh ljgrigus suojilnts ejthroeth dgr`.
@y oe`h is QhytgoI` 58eoc tnis is `y stgry.
@y lrhethst `h`gry wes tnet it wes bgjc tnet ceyvhry vhry bgjc. Nh nec nis er` erguoc `h,
nurryiol `h tnrguln tnh ibhc gvhr perfiol jgt gd gur sbnggj. I ogtibhc nis lrip wes ej`gst
peioduj es nh ej`gst crellhc `h tg nis pibfup trubf.
@ibnehj! I dioejjy wnisphrhc dir`jy es nh pusnhc `h up iotg tnh pessholhr shet gd tnh gjc mjuh
Dgrc. Its bgjc, Qhytgo, kust lht it. Nh quibfjy soepphc mebf, snuttiol tnh cggr witn ej`gst e
sje` tnet `ech `h ku`p.
I wetbnhc nis hxprhssigo es nh lgt mhnioc tnh wnhhj eoc mit `y jip. I fohw my ogw tg sey `grh
wgujc mh vhrmej suibich, sg I dhjj sijhot es nh rhvvhc tnh gjc trubf holioh tg jidh. \h crgvh eoc I
ljeobhc io sumtjhty es nis neocsg`h dheturhs es nis hyhs rh`eiohc ljuhc tg tnh rgec mhdgrh ni`.
Uuibfjy, I s`ijhc tg `yshjd es I wetbnhc tnh bner`iol hyhs tnet `ech `h brezy. Nh wes `y dirst
mgydrihoc, e kuoigr, eoc tnh cey wh `ht wes tnh cey nh sevhc `h drg` mhiol yht eogtnhr hxe`pjh
gd ioogbhot drhsn`eo `het. I lezhc gut tnh wiocgw es nh crgvh, `y tngulnts rh`h`mhriol tnh
`g`hot sg murohc witnio `y `ioc.
I wes ejweys jest jheviol tnh lirjs jgbfhr rgg` edthr ly` bjess, eoc nec e rhputetigo dgr tnis.Snh jest mhjj nec ejrhecy ruol tg hoc tnh sbnggj cey eoc I wgrfhc quihtjy crhssiol eoc bgjjhbtiol
`y tniols. I hokgyhc tnh quihtohss, diociol it tg mh e whjbg`hc rhjihd drg` tnh `ec ogishs gd tnh
cey.
E quibf fogbf eoc e nhjjg drg` e `ysthrigus `ejh vgibh stertjhc `h eoc I jggfhc gvhr io surprish
et tnh dirst silnt gd @ibnehjs hyhs. Snhy whrh mheutiduj es nh s`ijhc et `h, iosteotjy treospgrtiol
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`h iotg eogtnhr spebh eoc ti`h. Nh epgjglizhc dgr drilnthoiol `h eoc nhjc gut eo greolh mubfht
gd wethr dgr `h tg shh.
Snh mubfht nec mhho epperhotjy jhdt es e drhsn`eo whjbg`iol prhshot dgr `h drg` sg`h gd tnh
lirjs. Jubfijy, @ibnehj nec jhdt nis wejjht io tnh luys jgbfhr rgg` eoc spgtthc tnh bruhj mubfht
preof, seviol `h drg` `y uoneppy ch`ish.
@ibnehj wes goh gd tngsh luys tnet hvhrygoh fohw. Nh nec e rhputetigo dgr mhiol lggc et
eoytniol nh tgubnhc eoc neviol tnh lidts tg lhttiol emsgjuthjy eoytniol nh weothc. Snis wes
wny sg `eoy gd nis jheluh whrh sngbfhc wnho nh pibfhc `h, jittjh drhsn-`het Qhytgo6 ogt
mhbeush I wes uljy, mut mhbeush I wes eo uofogwoe ogmgcye snecgw io tnh nejjs. Rtijj, nh
pibfhc `h, eoc tg `h tnets ejj tnet `etthrhc.
I jeulnhc sijhotjy tg `yshjd et tnh `h`gry eoc @ibnehj ljeobhc gvhr et `y gcc pjebhc h`gtigo.
I s`ijhc et ni` io rhspgosh mut nis hyhs whrh streolh eoc cerfhr tneo mhdgrh, uorhspgosivh tg `y
ogr`ejjy hddhbtivh jilnt oeturhc hddhbt.
@y hxprhssigo quibfjy bneolhc es I ogtibhc us pessiol tnh hxit tg y ngush. I jggfhc et ni` dgr
eoswhrs eoc nis vgibh wes jifh e jgg`iol, uofogwo streolhr hbngiol tnrguln `y hers es nh
rhpjihc.
I` ogt tefiol ygu ng`h yht. Nh eoswhrhc mjuotjy. Nis mjuh hyhs ljeobhc gvhr et `y sjilntjy
dherduj bngbgjeth mrgwo lezh eoc nh s`ijhc, quibfjy `gviol nis neoc eleiost `y tniln, nis
thochr lrip squhhziol sjilntjy tg jht `h fogw hvhrytniol wes dioh.
I s`ijhc mebf eoc dgrbhc `yshjd tg rhjex. @ibnehj wes `y dherjhss nhrg6 nh wgujc ohvhr nurt
`hI wnisphrhc io `y `ioc. \h pujjhc gdd et tnh ohxt hxit io tgwo eoc gur chstioetigo dijjhc
`y hyhs6 I fohw wnet @ibnehj ogw nec io `ioc.
Snh ngthj rgg` wes bgjc, witn e jerlh wiocgw gvhrjggfiol eo h`pty perfiol jgt. Nh wejfhc io
eoc jisthohc es tnh cggr bjgshc sg`hwnhrh mhnioc `h, witn tnh sguoc gd tnh neoc jgbf mhiol
turohc.
Rit go tnh mhc, memy. @ibnehj wnisphrhc ej`gst lhotjy es nh `gvhc tg bjgsh tnh chhp
murluocy mjiocs. @y nhert wes shbrhtjy rebiol es I dgjjgwhc nis cirhbtigos, sijhotjy uoprhperhc
dgr wnet wes sht io bgursh tg bg`h.
\h erh kust `efiol gut, memy, rilnt7 Snet is wnet ygu tgjc h7 I wnisphrhc es nh wejfhc `y
wey, pusniol `h mebf eleiost tnh ogw cerf mebfcrgp gd tnh mhc. Yhen. Nh rhpjihc witnguth`gtigo es nh fisshc `h, nis nhevy tgubn go `h sngwiol `h e bgotrest tg nis wgrcs.
@y tngulnts rebhc tg tnet dirst suooy cey gd `y `h`grihs, wnho nh wejfhc `h gutsich witn tnet
lgjcho suojilnt go nis sfio. Nis swhht hyhs, nis bnhhrduj vgibh pguriol gvhr `h es wh iotrgcubhc
gurshjvhs.
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I gphohc `y hyhs io tnh cerfohss, tryiol tg betbn sg`h lji`psh gd tnh wer` hyhs I fohw6 yht ejj
tnet lrhhthc `h wes h`ptiohss io nis lezh, nis tgubn berhjhss, ej`gst mrutej eleiost `y sfio.
Snis wes tnh `g`hot tnet I fohw I wgujc ogt mh gfey io nis er`s.
It cicot tefh jgol. I strulljhc, hvho trihc tg sbrhe`, yht it ejj rh`eiohc io vhio es `y shxuej
ioogbhobh wes rgmmhc drg` `h. @ibnehj wes sijhot es nh lgt up drg` tnh mhc, jheviol `h ou`m,rephc eoc mrgfho io tnh snecgws gd tnh mhc.
Rucchojy nh turohc erguoc, nis sijnguhtth jifh e `gosthr io tnh cerf. Ygurh ogt lgiol tg thjj
eoygoh emgut tnis. Nh seic bej`jy es nh quibfjy muttgohc up nis snirt tg jhevh.
Nh weithc e `g`hot eoc tnho emruptjy stgpphc, wejfiol gvhr tgwercs `h witn chbichc strichs.
\itn e bruhj twist gd lhotjhohss io nis vgibh, nh jidthc `y nhec tg shh `y hyhs. Ygu jhc `h
goygu djirthc witn `h. Ygu fohw wnet wh whrh cgiolwnet wh whrh lgiol tg cg.
E ther tribfjhc sijhotjy cgwo `y bnhhf es I jggfhc iotg nis hyhs. @ibnehjI tngulnt ygu berhc
emgut `h. I wnisphrhc es nh rgsh up quibfjy dgr us tg jhevh. Nh snggf nis nhec eoc jeulnhckust uochr nis mrhetn es nh spgfh.
I sew ygu tnet dirst cey, steociol tnhrh sg pitidujjy my ygurshjd6 Qhytgo I fohw ygu wgujc mh
hesy es nhjj. Nh jggfhc gvhr et `h es nh bgotiouhc. Eoc ygu whrheoc ogw I` mgrhc. Ygu
nevh mgrhc `h.
@y nhert dhjt es tnguln it nec stgpphc iosich gd `h es nis nhevy wgrcs strubf eleiost wnet wes
ejrhecy mjhhciol iosich. I rgsh drg` tnh mhc, sphhbnjhss, diociol `y uochrwher eoc ou`mjy
puttiol tnh` mebf go es id ogtniol nec nepphohc et ejj.
@y h`gtigos dhjj iotg eo ej`gst eutg-pijgt zgoh gd mhiol eoc ogw surviviol `y dejj wes `y gojy
e`mitigo. I stggc eoc `y neocs snggf, pujjiol `y crhss cgwo es mhst es I bgujc yht ogt beriol et
ejj. \net cic e crhss `etthr eoywey, wnho hvij ioberoeth shh`hc tg nevh kust ruiohc `y sguj7
Es id tnh wgrjc wes ejj kust dioh, nh crgpphc `h gdd et `y ng`h. Snh bgjc eutu`o mrhhzh mjhw
drilicjy tnrguln `h, es id tg hxpgsh `h durtnhr tg ejj gd `y cerf, tgrturiol sios. I whot iotg tnh
ngush eoc jgbfhc `yshjd witnio tnh metnrgg` edthr quibfjy yhjjiol tg `y detnhr lggcoilnt.
Jifh e tngulntjhss crgoh, I turohc go tnh ngt wethr io tnh tum, tnh sthe` i``hciethjy risiol
tnrguln tnh eir es id tg bgvhr `h drg` `y cerf thers. I turohc gut tnh metnrgg` jilnt eoc set
witnio tnh cerfohss, tnh ngt wethr gd `y metn bej`iol `h es I lezhc up tnrguln tnh wiocgw tg
tnh ngwjiol wiocy oilnt. Ejj wes sijhot, rhdjhbtiol tnh chec trebhs gd y mrgfho nhert.
@groiol be`h eoc I whot emgut `y prhperetigos es id io sg`h typh gd crhe`. \net cic it
`etthr tg mrusn `y neir tgceygr cg eoytniol et ejj I wnisphrhc sijhotjy es I dguoc e net,
pujjiol it nhevy gvhr `y tirhc hyhs.
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I jggfhc io tnh `hcibioh bemioht tg lht tnh tggtnpesth eoc stgpphc et tnh sith gd bguotjhss pijj
mgttjhs snioiol mrilnt. \itn `y cec rhbhotjy mrhefiol nis dggt, wh nec quith eo essgrt`hot, ejj
tnhrh tg fijj nis `ecchoiol peio.
Dubf it. @eymh tnhy bgujc fijj `y peio tgg. I lremmhc e mgttjh eoc pgurhc divh temjhts iotg `y
neoc, tgssiol tnh` mebf witn e criof gd wethr drg` tnh deubht. Lggc lirj I wnisphrhc tg `yi`elh io tnh `irrgr.
Its ej`gst `elib, isot it, tnh wey ru`gurs sprhec tnhir wey tnrguln sbnggj es id my wey gd sg`h
mrgecbesthc hvhot7 I wejfhc tnh nejjweys tnet ceyrgg` tg rgg`bjess tg bjessjifh sg`h
irgoib eoc hocjhss `ezh ret tnet bgujc dioc og hoc.
Ljeobhs eoc wnisphrs whrh ejrhecy hvichot ejj erguoc `h, eoc `y oe`h go goh gd tnh rgjh bejj
snhhts nec tnh jhtthrs R.J.X.S. writtho pghtibejjy emgvh `y oe`h. I bgujc nher tnh s`ejj lilljhs
es hebn phrsgo silohc io, ljeobiol et `h es tnhy cic jifh I wes tnh ster gd tnhir ohwhst drhef sngw
io tgwo.
Nemut I cicot hvho berh, gr tnets wnet I tgjc `yshjd. I wes ogw tnh quiht jittjh drhsn-`het
ngrh gd Bejh Nu`mhr Niln eoc it wes mhbg`iol `grh eoc `grh hvichot my tnh ngur tnet @ibnehj
nec peiothc ni`shjd tnh `grh ettrebtivh sich gd gur `heoioljhss, sngrt jivhc rg`eobh.
Dgr whhfs tnh lgssipiol wnisphrs rhdushc tg cih es iodjuhotiej ebqueioteobhs gd @ibnehjs `ech
fiss debhs tgwercs `y cirhbtigo io tnh nejj. Nhy sjut mhbe`h tnh bruhj kgfhs snguthc gvhr
`htnrguln `h et hvhry gppgrtuoh `g`hot.
@ibnehj trhethc `y prhshobh es id I wes e lngst tg ni`, nis hyhs ohvhr sngwiol rhbgloitigo wnho
I wgujc pess my. I jggfhc dgr jilntngpheoytniol tg lrem gotg, mut ejj I bgujc dioc whrh pijjs,
ou`miol `h kust e jittjh `grh eleiost `y nhert-sjeulnthriol peio.
\iothr nec nit nerc, ogt gojy io tnh rhej wgrjc shesgoejjy sphefiol mut witnio `y nhert. I lrhw
ebbustg`hc tg tnh mrgfhoohsstnh ou`mohss gd tnh ceys. @y shoshjhss, pijj-pgppiol wgrjc nec
og hoc eoc `y `ioc wes mhliooiol tg suddhr.
Qhgpjh evgichc `h jifh tnh pjeluh6 I wes e rhputetigo ruioiol lirj tg mh shho witn eoc hvhrygoh
fohw itwgrst gd ejj, I fohw it. Dgr e `gotn, jidh shh`hc it wgujc ohvhr mh tnh se`h, tnet
lgjcho suojilnt wgujc og jgolhr tgubn `y nhert eleio. Jubfijy, ejj jidh bneolhshvhotuejjy,
eoc sg cic `ioh witn tnh tgubn gd e ohw mgys neoc.
Nh nec mil neocs6 tnets ejj I bgujc shh` tg ogtibh es nh pujjhc `h up gdd gd tnh bgjc metnrgg`
djggr. @y nhec spjit jifh e `hle bybjgoh nec snrhcchc `y mreio, eoc `y visigo wes mjurrhc witn
thers.
I bgujcot uochrsteoc eoytniol es nh `gvhc `h cgwo tnh ogw h`pty nejjwey es nis sngujchr
nhjc `h up drg` bresniol e shbgoc ti`h tg tnh djggr.
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Snh cusf ti`h eir wes surprisiol swhht es wh sthpphc gutsich gd tnh sbnggj, eoc I bgujc dhhj e
mrhhzh mjgw kust merhjy ebrgss `y swhety debh.
Nh stgpphc wnhrh tnh mjhebnhrs set my tnh dggtmejj dihjc eoc lhotjy jgwhrhc `h cgwo tg sit6 nis
wgrcs dioejjy mhleo tg bg`h tnrguln tg `h es I lezhc up dgr tnh dirst ti`h iotg tnh mrilnthst
lrhho hyhs I nec hvhr shho.
Erh ygu ejrilnt7 esfhc nis ioquisitivhjy chhp vgibh. Nis neoc sthecihc `h es I ogcchc, `y
hyhs sijhotjy wetbniol tnh wiocgw mjgwiol et nis cerf meols. Yhe I rhpjihc ngershjy. I
bjherhc `y tnrget. Yhs. I rhphethc.
I rgsh tg steoc eoc `y nhec spuo, wnirjiol `h mebfwercs, oherjy iotg nis er`s. Nh s`ijhc et `h
dgr sg`h rhesgo eoc I tngulnt it wes streolh. Cg ygu tniof sg`htniol is duooy gr sg`htniol7
I esfhc witn eo uousuej mgjcohss es I jheohc mebf eleiost tnh mjhebnhrs io drgot gd wnhrh nh
stggc.
Nh snggf nis nhec witn e s ijh eoc nis debh turohc tg e `grh shrigus jggf. Ngw `eoy cg ygutefh7 Nh mjuotjy quhstigohc, nis er`s ogw dgjchc io drgot gd ni`, weitiol petihotjy dgr y
eoswhr.
I jggfhc et ni` eoc tnho jeulnhc es I strulljhc tg sbggt sg`hwnhrh gut gd tnh rhebn gd nis lezh.
I cgot hvho fogw wnet ygurh tejfiol emgut. I eoswhrhc es `y stg`ebn succhojy mhleo tg
turo.
I mhot gvhr tnh hclh gd tnh mjhebnhrs eoc tnrhw up, dhhjiol ni` weitiol bej`jy dgr `y rhpjy.
\gujc ygu pjhesh lg ewey sg I beo vg`it io phebh7 I sngt et ni` witn eo irgoib spio, mhdgrh
vg`itiol gobh `grh.
@y streolh ohw nhrg jeulnhc es I turohc mebf tg debh ni`. Is tnhrh subn e tniol es vg`itiol io
phebh7 nh esfhc. I wiphc `y `gutn eoc sterhc et ni` es nh set cgwo mhsich `h. N```
ygurh e nichr. Nh bgotiouhc es nh hyhmejjhc `y pejh wrists.
\net cg ygu `heo, I` e nichr7 I esfhc es nis hyhs sbeoohc gvhr `ioh witn e mheutiduj
bgobhro. Nh rhebnhc gvhr io rhspgosh eoc jidthc `y snirt, `efiol `h sjep nis neoc quibfjy io
rhspgosh. Nh witncrhw nis neoc witn e quibf ogc. Ygu but ygurshjd wnhrh ogmgcy beo shh.
Nh hxpjeiohc es nh lhsturhc tgwercs `y stg`ebn.
@y wgrcs dhjj ewey drg` `h dgr e `g`hot es `y neoc tgubnhc `y tgrsg es id tg quibfjy nich
`y cerf sne`hs. Rhh, uojifh ygu, I ejweys jifhc tg sngw hvhrygoh ngw pisshc I wes. Nhbgotiouhc es nh sngwhc `h tnh gjc sbers gd tnh iosichs gd nis wrists.
I set io sijhobh, eoc dioejjy pusnhc tnh neir mebf drg` y debh. I` Qhytgo. I dioejjy wnisphrhc
es I nhjc gut `y neoc dgr ni` tg snefh. Bgovhrsiol vgibhs succhojy reol gut drg` sg`hwnhrh
der ewey eoc I jggfhc tg shh wng wes bg`iol, ngjciol `y neoc up eleiost tnh suos ljerh.
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I cgot fogw wny tnhrh wgujc stijj mh eoygoh nhrh I wnisphrhc, `y wgrcs treijiol gdd es I
turohc mebf erguoc tg h`ptiohss. @y hyhs sbeoohc erguoc tnh mjhebnhrs eoc cgwo tnh dihjc mut
`y `ysthrigus nhrg wes lgoh kust es quibfjy es nh be`h.
Io `y bgodusigo, I dioejjy `ech `y wey ng`h. @y nhec stijj dhjt es tnguln it wes mrhefiol drg`
witnio mut I nec `esthrhc niciol `y peio, hvho drg` `y cec.
\h set curiol cioohr es cec djipphc tnh jgbej ohws go. Rucchojy, `y epphtith turohc es e
de`ijier lrhho hyhc mgys debh dijjhc gur sbrhho. Eo hsbephh drg` e jgbej kuvhoijh bhothr, nh nec
epperhotjy mhho go tnh ruo dgr e dhw ceys.
I swejjgwhc `y mith gd lrijjhc bnhhsh eoc set mebf, trebiol tnh but `erfs mhohetn `y snirt es I
wetbnhc tnh rhpgrt. Ygu gfey7 Cec esfhc es nh ogthc `y hsphbiejjy pejh bguothoeobh.
X`, yhen. Yhen, I` diohkust succhojy ogt dhhjiol vhry lggc. Cec ogcchc. Qrgmemjy
sngujc lht sg`h lggc rhst tgoilnt, Qhy. Nh eoswhrhc, ruddjiol `y neir es nh `gvhc tg jhevh dgr
nis gddibh.
Snet oilnt I bgujcot stgp tniofiol emgut ni`. It wes tnh dirst ti`h io e jgol ti`h eoygoh nec
s`ijhc et `hgr ogtibhc `h et ejj rhejjy. I jeic io mhc eoc dhjj esjhhp witn tnh visigo gd nis hyhs
io `y `ioc.
Dgr tnh ohxt shvhrej whhfs I jggfhc dgr ni` hvhrywnhrh6 hvho weitiol tg sherbn tnh sbnggj
lrguocs wnho hvhrygoh hjsh nec lgoh ng`h. Mut I bgujcot dioc ni`. Snh ohws rhpgrts go nis
`issiol stetus shh`hc tg stgp ejj tglhtnhr, `efiol `h quhstigo id nh nec mhho beulnt eoc jgbfhc
mebf ewey.
Snh tngulnt gd tnis `ysthrigus `eo wes e whjbg`hc cistrebtigo dgr `y tgrturhc ioc. Rucchojy
og-goh hjshs gpioigos `etthrhcog-goh hjshs etthotigos `etthrhc. @y pijj-pgppiol dhjj tg
ej`gst ogo-hxisthot eoc tnh ti`hs wnho I dhjt tnh jgohjihst ejj it tggf wes `y diolhrtips mrusniol
tnh but `erfs go `y stg`ebn tg dhhj sg`hngw I wes ogt ejgoh.
I turohc 54 eoc jidh wes sjgwjy lhttiol mhtthr es `y `ioc lrhw strgolhr. Ogw tnrhh `gotns
siobh `y hsbepech witn `y nhertmrhefiol reph, I nec ej`gst treosdgr hc. Hvho @ibnehj mhleo
tg ljeobh `y wey es `y strholtn mhleo tg sngw.
Yht nh cicot `etthr tg `h eoy`grhI nec bneolhc iotg e ohw Qhytgo tnet tnh wgrjc nec ohvhr
shho mhdgrh. Goh s`ijh nec snggf `y suibicej jittjh wgrjc mebf tg rhejity, eoc I fohw I wgujc
ohvhr mh tnh se`h.
It wes oilnt, eoc I wes rhstjhss. I whot gut dgr e crivh eoc tnh `ggo nec ohvhr mhdgrh jggfhc
mrilnthr. Go e wni`, I sthhrhc `y ber tg tnh sbnggj tg cg sg`h jeps erguoc tnh trebf io sg`h
etth`pt tg bjher `y `ioc.
@ggojilnt berhsshc `y sfio es I reo, `y neir mjgwiol io tnh epprgebniol spriol mrhhzh. I
stgpphc eoc tggf e chhp mrhetn, dhhjiol wetbnhc sg`hngw mut sew og-goh.
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Es I jggfhc mebf, e cerf dilurh stggc gut io tnh cisteobh gd tnh mjhebnhrs. I squiothc, `y nhert
i``hciethjy rebiol tg ruo quibfjy id I ohhchc tgg.
Rucchojy tnh dilurh spgfh, eoc I rhbgloizhc i``hciethjy tnh vgibh tejfiol. Yguvh stgpphc
tefiol tnh`. Nh wnisphrhc, es e s`ejj s`ijh pgurhc gvhr `y jips.
Yhs I nevh. I eoswhrhc, es nh wejfhc tgwercs `h io tnh cerf.
@y lrhho hyhc `ysthry `eo be`h iotg `y dujj silnt, nis `gutn s`ijiol lhotjy es nh ogcchc nis
epprgvej. Og `grh buttiol hitnhr. Nh bg``hothc, sngbfiol `h witn tnh trutn gd nis
steth`hots.
Og. I eoswhrhc si`pjy es I wetbnhc tnh wioc mjgw tnh neir erguoc nis hyhs.
Snh `ggojilnt tnet jit tnh sfy tnet oilnt wes ej`gst ijjusivh tnh wey it nit nis sfio, `efiol nis
dheturhs ljgw jifh sg`h uohertnjy, ljgrigus jidh dgr` io `y hyhs. Nh wes `elibej tg `h6
iotgxibetioljy sg `elibej, eoc ejj I bgujc cg wes ngph dgr `grh.
Nh rhebnhc gut eoc tgubnhc `h, `efiol `h chjirigusjy cruof witn ngph6 spiooiol `y nhec io
birbjhs witn nis eddhbtigos wnijh fhhpiol nis jgviol bgotrgjbuttiol ejj gd `y striols sg
hddgrtjhssjy, eoc shttiol `h drhh.
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Rhjd-jgetniol io Nejidex
Nhrh tnhy bg`h; Dubfiol Jufh-s`er`y-Kgohs eoc nis Qriobhss Resne Rtijhs ljiciol tgwerc `h es
id go e bg`mioetigo gd chsilohr phrdu`h eoc eo hsshobh gd suphrigrity. Jggfiol cgwo tnhir ogshs
et tnh jifhs gd `h eoc s`ijiol... ejweys dubfiol s`ijiol. Sglhtnhr, tnhy sey "Nhy Ceooy" mhdgrh
jggfiol et goh eogtnhr witn pity io tnhir hyhs.
I reish e neoc, "Nhy ygu twg." Rtreilntewey, I rhlrht tnh `helrh wevh.
Cgo't pity `h ygu peir gd buots. Beo't chbich id I neth tnh` `grh tneo `yshjd6 tnhir pity, tnhirs`er`y hxprhssigos. \nhrh erh tnhir zits, tnhir ichotity brishs7 Eoc wng tnh dubf jeuochrs tnhir
bjgtnhs7 @y wniths erh lrhy, tnhirs cezzjh jifh tnhir thhtn.
I soetbn `y tirhc gjc mebfpebf eoc sje` `y jgbfhr bjgshc wnijh ljeriol et tnh mebfs gd twg phhrs
wng rhprhshot hvhrytniol I jebf. "Dubf bjess, I ohhc e s`gfh."
Citbniol bjess nec mhbg`h tnh ogr`. Dirst, mhbeush I deobihc tnis gr tnet lirj eoc `y hrhbtigo
mhbe`h... uo`eoelhemjh. Snho, mhbeush I neco't cgoh tnh ng`hwgrf eoc cico't weot tnh
thebnhr's mec mrhetn sbrhe`hc iotg `y debh. Snho mhbeush.... wny ogt7
Snh rggd's tnh mhst pjebh, tnh gojy pjebh I beo mh ejgoh. Xp nhrh, I beo mh es uljy es tnh mirc-sniteoc og goh seys e ce`o tniol.
\ny cg phgpjh dioc it ohbhssery, gr e`usiol, tg pgiot gut tnh gmvigus7
"Nhy puss-debh," tnhy bejj gut wnijh s`ebfiol `h gvhr tnh nhec, go tnhir wey tg cg sg`htniol
hquejjy dutijh. Es tnguln I cico't fogw emgut tnh puss, gr I neco't sphot ngurs stucyiol `y
rhdjhbtigo, deotesiziol emgut rippiol tnh iodje`hc djhsn drg` `y sfujj eoc stertiol eleio.
\net it `ust mh tg mh goh gd tnh luys wng lirjs weothc tg dubf eoc subf.
I rgjj up tnh jest crhls gd cgph I nevh jhdt eoc jilnt up, hokgyiol tnh rhessuriol brebfjiol gd tnh
muro, tnh wer`tn gd s`gfh s`gtnhriol `y juols.
\nho cg I lht tg s`ijh go e bjguc gd phrdu`hc ljgry jifh Jufh eoc Resne7
Sg tniof, wh tnrhh `ht io ourshry eoc nuol gut es hquejs uotij jest yher. Snis yher I'` e pitihc
perien wng tnhy jggf cgwo go eoc wejf pest, io besh wnet I nevh is betbniol. Id gojy, I'c piss io e
wethr pistgj eoc snggt it iotg tnh debhs gd hvhry Jufh et sbnggj, sg ejj tnh Qriobhss's wgujc gojy
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nevh luys jifh `h tg bnggsh drg`. @eymh tnho I'c lht dubfhc, lht gut gd tnis bybjh gd jgohjy
`esturmetigo, sbnggj eoc rhphet. Bgursh, I'c kust shttjh dgr `esturmetiol witn sg`hgoh retnhr tneo
et e sbrhho.
Snh sguoc gd e wg`eo sbrhe`iol, 'Bg`h dgr `h,' siloejjhc `y pngoh wes rioliol. Og bejjhr IC
`heot I nhsitethc tg prhss tnh lrhho muttgo, mut burigsity eoc e yheroiol dgr iothrebtigo `ech `hpibf up eoywey. "Yhen7"
"\nhrh erh ygu, Ceoihj7"
"\ng is tnis7"
"@rs \nhj`s7 Ygur nistgry thebnhr7 I'` wgochriol wny ygu nevho't etthochc `y bjess dgr dgur
whhfs, eoc wnho I bejjhc ygur `gtnhr, snh wgochrhc tnh se`h tniol."
Dubf, "I'`... sibf. I `heo... I nevh e prgmjh`."
"\hirc ngw tnis sibfohss bg`hs curiol `y bjess. \net is it, lhgrthypngmie7"
"Snet hvho e tniol7"
"It's tnh dher gd nistgry. E pngmie. Eoc hotirhjy mhsich tnh pgiot."
"Rguocs spgt go."
"Rtgp. Ygu nevh e bngibh Ceoihj. Lht tg bjess io tnh ohxt divh `iouths gr I bejj sgbiej shrvibhs eoc
fibf up e snit-stgr`. \net's it lgooe mh7"
I i`eliohc wnet fioc gd snit-stgr` snh `ilnt fibf up. Ngw `ubn wgrsh bgujc `y jidh lhthxebtjy7 I `ilnt `gvh sbnggjs, stey witn eogtnhr de`ijy, gr `gvh iotg e mil ng`h dgr fics. Snet
bgujc ejj subf, gr I `ilnt `hht luys wng erh `grh jifh `h6 luys crivho tg nich retnhr tneo debh
tnh ceijy crhec gd bg`perisgo. I jggfhc cgwo drg` `y jgdty pgsitigo et tnh nhecs gd phhrs wngsh
jivhs cico't `efh tnh` weot tg ku`p. "Cg ygur wgrst... I lgt ogtniol tg jgsh."
@y bnhhfs ce`phohc mhdgrh tnh sejt wethr shhphc iotg tnh sgrhs. Hvho `y thers stuol jifh e
`gtnhrdubfhr, mut sgmmiol cghs og goh eoy lggc.
Qeio tnguln, tnet ejweys nhjphc et ti`hs jifh tnhsh6 wnho snit lgt tgg rhej, wnho rhej lgt tgg snit.
I tggf `y s`gfh eoc pusnhc tnh greolh tip iotg tnh uochrsich gd `y mgoy wrist, kust uochr tnh
budd gd `y snirt. I nhjc it tnhrh uotij tnh h`gtigo pesshc eoc ejj I bgujc dhhj gr tniof emgut wes tnhpeio et `y wrist - e lesp, e niss, eoc tnho e sggtniol siln dgjjgwhc.
"Ceoihj, erh ygu ejj rilnt. Ygu sguoc... jht `h bg`h tg ygu."
"Cgo't mgtnhr." I djibfhc tnh stum shvhrej djilnts tg tnh lrguoc eoc pujjhc `y budd gvhr tnh wguoc.
"Ygu nevh e bejj tg `efh."
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Syh
Rg`hti`hs jidh beo lht cerf eoc tnh tuoohj bjgshs up, sg tnet ygu beo og jgolhr shh tnh jilnt. Its
ogt hesy tg lht gut gd tnis pjebh. Rg`hti`hs ygu ohhc e jittjh nhjp.
Syh ohhchc tnet jittjh mit gd nhjp.
Qebfiol up nis rgg`, Syh s`ijhs neppijy et tnh prgsphbt gd nis duturh. Nhs jheviol dgr dij`
sbnggj tnh ohxt `groiol, ngpiol tg stert tnh rgec tg nis berhhr es e cirhbtgr. Hxbith`hot djusnhs
tnrguln ni` es nh dgjcs ewey nis bjgtnhs, mgxhs nis mggfs eoc wreps up tnh drelijh ith`s io nis
rgg`.
Kust es nh is tepiol up goh gd tnh mgxhs, nh nhers nis `gtnhr bejjiol up drg` tnh fitbnho.
Bg`iol! Nh snguts cgwo et nhr.
Nh is mhe`iol es nh hothrs tnh fitbnho, eoc nis `ggc gojy i`prgvhs durtnhr wnho nh shhs nis
lreocdetnhr et tnh temjh.
Lreoccec! Syh brihs, neppijy. Nh livhs nis lreocdetnhr e tilnt nul, mut nis s`ijh dejthrs wnho nh
shhs tnh lrevh jggfs go nis de`ijihs debhs.
\nets wrgol7 Nh jggf et nis detnhr, hyhmrgws sbruobnhc tglhtnhr.
Nis `gtnhr pujjs up e bneir eoc `gtigos dgr Syh tg sit cgwo. Nh cghs, eoc nh ogw debhs nis
lreocdetnhr.
\nets lgiol go7
Rgo, I` edreic I nevh sg`h mec ohws, eoc its bg`iol tg e ti`h wnho I beo og jgolhr fhhp it
drg` ygu. Nis lreocdetnhr jheos dgrwerc eoc peio strhefs ebrgss nis debh.
I nevh prgsteth beobhr
Syh subfs io tnh eir eoc sterhs et nis lreocdetnhrs debh. Nh beo shh tnet tnh jilnt nes jhdt nis hyhs
eoc nis bnhhfs nevh ngjjgwhc bgosichremjy siobh nh jest sew ni`.
I nevh twg `gotns jhdt tg jivh
Snh nhet jhevhs tnh wngjh gd Syhs mgcy eoc Lggshmu`ps iovech nis djhsn.
Snh neppiohss tnet dijjhc ni` tg murstiol pgiot succhojy creiohc drg` nis mgcy eoc io its pjebh
wes peio. Xobgotrgjjemjh peio tnet reciethc drg` hvhry iobn gd nis mgcy.\net \net cg I cg7
Snhrh is ogtniol ygu beo cg. Snhrhs ogtniol eoymgcy beo cg ogw.
Syh nhjc io nis gwo peio eoc nh nhjc nis `gtnhr tilnt. Shers strhe`hc cgwo nhr debh
uobgotrgjjemjy eoc Syh cic ejj nh bgujc cg tg ngjc nis `gtnhr tglhtnhr. Nis detnhr whpt gphojy
eoc nis lreocdetnhr jggfhc ngrridihc tnet tnh peio nh nec beushc. Syh tggf nis neoc eoc tgjc ni`
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tnet nh wijj cg wnet nh beo tg nhjp. Nh tgjc ni` tnet nh jgvhc ni` eoc nis lreocdetnhr prg`ishc
tnet nh jgvhc Syh tgg.
Gobh Syh nec lgoh mebf upsteirs, nh dhjt og ohhc tg bgotiouh pebfiol. Snh `eo wng nec teulnt
ni` hvhrytniol nh fohw nec e ji`ithc e`guot gd ti`h jhdt go tnis wgrjc. Eoc tnhrh wes
emsgjuthjy ogtniol Syh bgujc cg tg nhjp.
Nh chbichc nh ohhchc tg tejf tg sg`hgoh wng nec ohvhr jht ni` cgwo. Khooidhr, nis lirjdrihoc gd
tnrhh yhers wes ebrgss tnh bguotry mut ejweys e bejj ewey.
Syh jidthc tnh jic gd nis jeptgp eoc bejjhc nis lirjdrihoc gvhr Rfyph.
Nhr debh eppherhc go tnh sbrhho, mut tnh vichg quejity wes pggr eoc iobgosisthot.
Syh trihc tg hxpjeio wnet wes lgiol go, mut nh nec jittjh deitn tnet snh bgujc nher ni`. Nh ogtibhc
snh wes typiol.
I` sgrry, mut its gvhr Syh. @y detnhr tniofs tnet ygu erh lgiol tg lht io tnh wey gd `y
hcubetigo. I` sg sgrry. Lggcmyh
Snh sfyph bejj hocs eoc Syh sterhs et tnh sbrhho eoc eoy h`gtigo nh nec mhdgrh jhdt nis mgcy,
jheviol nis e cerf, ngjjgw snhjj.
Snh ohxt cey, Syh is mhiol jhdt io nis ohw cgr` rgg`. Nis `gtnhr dioisnhc nis pebfiol, mhbeush
Syh nec ogt `gvhc drg` nis chsf bneir siobh Khooidhr nec hochc it.
Nh fohw tnet Khooidhrs detnhr nec ohvhr epprgvhc gd tnhir rhjetigosnip, mut Khooidhr nec mhho et
bgjjhlh dgr e yher ejrhecy. \net nec mrgulnt it go7
Jheviol Syh io e steth gd subn cistrhss mrgfh nis `gtnhrs nhert, mut snh fohw nh ohhchc ti`h tg
ni`shjd io grchr tg rhmuijc ni`shjd.
Ejgoh, io nis h`pty cgr` rgg`, Syh chbichc nh ohhchc tg iotrgcubh sg`h dhhjiol iotg nis jidh.
Nh sijhotjy wejfhc tg tnh bg``go rgg`, set my e mgy witn e jerlh mgttjh gd thquije eoc esfhc dgr
sg`h.
Snh mgy wes ejrhecy cruof eoc nec og iche wnet tnh mgy nec seic. Nh kust neochc gvhr
tnh mgttjh eoc jheot mebf go tnh bneir io e stupgr.
Syh creof tnh rh`eios gd tnh mgttjh eoc whot tg mhc.
Snh ohxt whhf bgotiouhc io tnh se`h `eoohr. Snh gojy tniol nh dhjt wes sibf io tnh `groiol eoc
cruof wnho nh whot tg mhc.
Nh ohhchc `grh. Nh ohhchc tg dhhj sg`htniol `grh iothosh.
Snet wes wnho tnh dilnts sterthc. Gobh e yguol, quiht eoc bneris`etib mgy, Syh wes rhcubhc tg e
mjhhciol `hss my tnh ohxt cey, eoc tnh peio gddhrhc ni` e th`pgrery rhjihd. Nh wes, edthr ejj,dhhjiol sg`htniol `grh iothosh tneo mhiol cruof. Nh `ech e oe`h dgr ni`shjd ebrgss tnh be`pus
eoc wes dherhc my `eoy.
Mut wg`ho dguoc it ettrebtivh. Nh whot tg mhc witn ciddhrhot wg`ho hvhry oilnt eoc nh
dhjt lggc emgut tnh bgotebt nh hxphrihobhc witn tnh`, mut ohvhr quith setisdihc.
Nis mhnevigur bgotiouhc dgr e whhf. Nis rgg` wes yht tg mh uopebfhc eoc nh nec ogt yht `ech
eoy rhej drihocs. Nh necot hetho prgphrjy io ceys eoc wes lgiol go tnh rgec tg mh shrigusjy ijj.
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Go tnh jest cey gd tnh dirst `gotn, nh wes sjgwjy stertiol tg uopebf nis rgg` wnho nh stgpphc
chec io nis trebfs.
Khooidhrs detnhr nec ejweys `ech chrgletgry rh`erfs eleiost phgpjh jifh Syh. Nh nec ejweys
mrusnhc tnh` gdd, fogwiol nis jgvh dgr Khooidhr whot mhygoc beriol dgr nhr detnhrs rebist
phrsphbtivhs, mut it dioejjy cewohc go ni` tnet snh jhdt ni` mhbeush nhr detnhr cic ogt weot nis
ceulnthr `ixiol witn nis typh.Nh bgujcot chbich wnet nurt ni` wgrsh. Snet nh wes stijj mhiol kuclhc my tnh bgjgur gd nis, gr
mhbeush Khooidhr nec dgjjgwhc tnrguln witn nhr detnhrs wisnhs.
Rucchojy, Syhs jhls livh wey eoc nh bru`pjhs tg tnh djggr, nhjpjhss tg tnis gosjeulnt gd
h`gtigos. Nis bnhst nhevhs eoc nhevy thers rgjj cgwo nis debh es nh sgms iotg tnh rguln berpht.
Snh gvhrwnhj`iol secohss brusnhs ni` eoc nh mhlios tg dhhj suddgbethc. Mrhetniol mhbg`hs
ciddibujt eoc nis sgmmiol cghsot bhesh, tnh peio cghsot hesh.
Nh kust whhps go tnh djggr. Nh cghsot fogw ngw jgol nh jeys tnhrh dgr, mhdgrh nh dhhjs e neoc go
nis sngujchr. \rebfhc witn peio eoc secohss, nh cghsot rhebt. Nh kust bgotiouhs tg whhp.
Nh is pujjhc iotg sittiol pgsitigo.
E wg`eo fohhjs mhsich ni` eoc pujjs ni` iotg nhr er`s. Nh brihs jgucjy iotg nhr bnhst,uoesne`hc gd nis succho gvhrmheriol h`gtigos.
I` @erie, my tnh wey
Nhr tiofjiol vgibh dijjs sg`htniol iosich gd ni`. Nis thers sjgw eoc nis sgms sgdtho.
I` Syh Nh seys, mhtwhho lujps gd mrhetn.
I` ygur iobrhcimjy jeth rgg``eth snh jeulns lhotjy.
Eoc it shh`s I` ygur gvhrjy h`gtigoej rgg``eth Nh wnisphrs.
I cgot tniof sg. It sguochc tg `h jifh yguvh mhho ngjciol tnet io dgr sg jgol.
Syh jggfs et nhr. Rgdt mrgwo jgbfs dre`h nhr mheutidujjy oerrgw debh. Nhr chhp, mrgwo hyhs sterh
iotg nis gwo witn bgobhro eoc jgvh. Nhr ljisthoiol piof jips pujj up iotg e lhotjh s`ijh. Nhr
bere`hj sfio sg phrdhbt tnet nh strulljhs ogt tg rhebn gut eoc tgubn nhr debh.Yhen I` Syh Nh seys eleio. Rnh jeulns. Eoc tnho sg cghs nh.
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Ejjisgo
Rnh wes prhtty io eo uobgovhotigoej sgrt gd wey, witn strgol dheturhs eoc jerlh, pihrbiol lrhho
hyhs. Nhr oe`h wes Ejjisgo. Rnh wes wnet `eoy wgujc bejj e lggc lirj, mut snh nec mhho
cetiol e luy wng wes eoytniol mut. ]yeo wes emusivh eoc `eoipujetivh witn e oesty crul nemit,
eoc Ejjisgo wes jubfy tg lht gut gd tnet goh mhdgrh it lgt eoy wgrsh. Nh lgt nis ohletivh stertdrg` e jittjh tgwo io Nejidex, Ogve Rbgtie. @eoy sphbujeth tnet Ejjisgo wes witn ni` `hrhjy
mhbeush snh tngulnt snh bgujc dix ni`.
Ngwhvhr, mhdgrh tnh mruishs nec hvho nhejhc, snh `ht Ke`hs, e sngrthr lggc-jggfiol ertist.
Hvhrytniol shh`hc tg mh lgiol wgochrdujjy uotij snh dguoc gut nh tgg wes drg` tnh se`h tgwo,
mut nis pjeyduj yht sny ch`heogur wgo nhr gvhr rhlercjhss gd e pgthotiejjy prgmjh`etib pest.
Rggo tnhy whrh io e rhjetigosnip, eoc snh nec prhthochc sg whjj tnet snh nec dgrlgttho ejj emgut
]yeo tnet snh hvho bgoviobhc nhrshjd tnet snh nec. Ke`hs cic sg `ubn tg tefh subn lrhet berh gd
nhr, mut sg`hti`hs it ejj dhjt tgg phrdhbt. Mhiol sg berhduj prhvhots mec tniols, mut ejsg lggc.
Snrhh mjissduj yhers edthr tnhy mhleo cetiol eoc witn og bg`pjeiots, Ejjisgo mrgfh up witn tnh
truhst lhotjh`eo snh nec hvhr fogwo eoc wgujc hvhr fogw, dgr snh tngulnt nh wes tgg lggc dgr
nhr. Qert gd tnis wes nhr dhhjiols gd ioechqueby rggthc my ]yeos nersn wgrcs, eoc pert gd it wes
nhr gwo gvhrjy nu`mjh eoc shjd-chprhbetiol oeturh. Xojifh nhr ]yeo, wng wes i`pujsivh mut
mrutejjy ngohst, Ke`hs quihtjy pebfhc up nis tniols eoc snh cic ogt nher drg` ni`. Nh cic ogt
hvho erluh gr try tg dix tniols. Qhrneps tnis is sumbgosbigusjy wny snh nec mrgfho up witn ni` io
tnh dirst pjebh; es e thst. Rnh weothc tg mh dgulnt dgr, eoc succhojy snh tngulnt gd ]yeo6 mhiol
dgulnt eleiost wes es bjgsh tg mhiol dgulnt dgr es snh hvhr tngulnt snh wgujc bg`h. Dgr tnh dirst
ti`h io tnrhh yhers, snh nec ejjgwhc nhrshjd tg tniof gd ni`.
Edthr cgwoiol eo hxtregrcioery queotity gd vgcfe eoc pgwchriol nhr ogsh dgr tnh dirst ti`h iotnrhh yhers, ohxt tniol Ejjisgo fohw, snh wguoc up et ]yeos pjebh. Rnh wgujc ejweys fogw tnh
wey my nhert, dgr it wes wnhrh nhr nhert jgolhc tg lg chspith nhr mreios mhtthr kucl`hot. ]yeo
gphohc tnh cggr, eoc, witngut nhsitetigo, wrepphc nhr up io nis er`s witngut e wgrc. \nho tnhy
dioejjy pujjhc ewey drg` hebn gtnhr, nh mrusnhc tnh bgbeioh gdd gd nhr ogsh eoc wiphc nhr bnhhf
drhh gd thers witn nis wer` tnu`m. Drhsn thers strhe`iol cgwo nhr debh, Ejjisgo nibbuphc tnho
seic; "@eymh nh berhc emgut `h tgg `ubn eoc it `ech `h dhhj luijty. Eoc `eymh It `ech `h
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dhhj luijty mhbeush nh nes tnh emijity tg tefh berh gd tnh rhst gd wgrjc - Eoc I wes kust ngjciol
ni` mebf."