Irene Gunning BSITFinding HappinessI always wonderWhy life can be so unfair?Why struggles come?Why does loneliness has to be my friend?Everything seems vagueEverything seems hopelessWhen can my heart mend?"Theres always sunshine after a storm, they often say"Just pray to God and have faith in him"But Im damn tired, I need a healerMy weary soul needs help.In the midst of frustration, somewhere theres a voiceDeep down inside meWhispering, HOLD ON!You know what? The problem is you!You keep on thinking about your misfortunes,Hey pal dont be so bitter,You must be thankful you are lucky.Why?Because in spite of all those pains youve encountered,There are lots of blessings that youve received,But you are too blind to see.Just open your eyes! Wake up!Its never a life without adversity.Pains are there for you to be braver and wiser, to learn things.You can never be happy if you have no contentment.Dont expect too high.Just continue striving without expecting too much and believe me,You will find happiness.

Until WhenWhy are you just sitting there?You dont have any desire?It seems like you just dont care,You accept youre a loser?

Ambitions you said you have plenty,But it seems you have no fervency,Will help just fall from our almighty?Please quickly sort your mentality.

Now is always the time to begin,Abominate procrastination,Ignore any kind of distractions,What really needed is your action.

No one but you can start the feat,Eagerness is most important,Expand your God-given talent,Do not let your life go to waste.

ShyThis feeling I cant express,Words are scattered in my head,Like a messy room, an unorganized table,Dont know which to utter first.

Which word to choose?Can they understand?Will they be interested?How can I say precisely?

There are times I chose to stay quiet,Instead of expressing myself,So afraid to be judged,Scared to be laughed at.

After I said anything,Im quick to ask myself,Was my statement sensible?What they were thinking about me?

This paranoia is uncomfortable,Then there I go again,Back to my shell,Longing for the time to gain confidence to speak.

RebelMy mind is empty, my heart is fluttering,I can feel the fire burning yet I cant express,For most people, this thing doesnt make sense,They might see me as crazy, yet I dont care.All I wanted was to know who I am,Inside me, I let my soul to write,Why does society has to restrict?Telling you the proper standard, the proper wayBefore those standards, there were no rulesIt is men that created the rules, so why cant I?Do they think they are better? Do they think they are superior?Do they think they know everything?Why am I being judged when I dont follow the norms?Do I look stupid in their eyes?Should I laugh when they laugh?Shall I lose my true self just to fit in?

My PleaPlease dont be good to me,Or Ill start hoping again,You said its not working,So I left in despair.

You gave up easily,You threw all you promised,I tried to convince you,But your words shattered me.

With your blank expression,You said it wasnt love,It was impulsiveness,Its better to end it.

The misery you brought,Killed me a thousand times,I thought it numbed my heart,But here you are again.

I meant to resent you,I shall cease to love you,Im not a masochist,Please make me dislike you.

Me as a Student

For my future, I will endureThe hardships I might encounter,My weapon is determination,God and family are my captains.

Excellence I will always pursue,Cannot is not in my vocabulary,I will treat each challenge as a game,For my victory, I will wait patiently.

I might create plenty of mistakes,I might confront series of failures,But those would only make me wiser,Defeat has no space in my world.

Im not the best but Im unique,My talents, I will propagate,I will not look at others with envy,Because I know my capability.Love I will spread to everyone,Trustworthiness is my virtue,Perseverance is my key to life,My greatness will surely come in time.