Our Fiery Hearts: Lust For Knowing What May Not Be Known by Diana Gleadhill

7/31/2019 Our Fiery Hearts: Lust For Knowing What May Not Be Known by Diana Gleadhill

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3/28

Fhpyrkgmt @kada Gcna`mkcc

Pmn rkgmt hj @kada Gcna`mkcc th ln k`ndtkjkn` as autmhr hj tmks whremas lnnd assnrtn` ly mnr kd affhràdfn wktm snftkhd 77 ad` 7= hj tmn

Fhpyrkgmt, @nskgds ad` Yatndts Aft 1==!

Acc rkgmts rnsnr"n`! #h part hj tmks pulckfatkhd $ay ln rnprhùfn`,

sthrn` kd a rntrkn"ac systn$, hr trads$kttn` kd ady jhr$ hr ly ady

$nads, ncnftrhdkf, $nfmadkfac, pmhthfhpykdg, rnfhr`kdg, hr

htmnrwksn, wktmhut tmn prkhr pnr$ksskhd hj tmn pulcksmnrs!

Ady pnrshd wmh fh$$kts ady udautmhrk%n` aft kd rncatkhd th tmkspulckfatkhd $ay ln ckalcn th frk$kdac prhsnfutkhd ad` fk"kc fcak$s jhr

à$agns!

A F&Y fatachgun rnfhr` jhr tmks tktcn ks

a"akcalcn jrh$ tmn 'rktksm (klrary!

KVLD ;7 ! ";#$ %# $

www!austkd$afaucny!fh$

)krst Yulcksmn` *+11-

Austkd . /afaucny Yulcksmnrs (t`!

+9 Fadaà 9('

Yrkdtn` . 'hud` kd Grnat 'rktakd


4/28

Afedhwcn`gn$ndts

0cksn Fhlurd: /y ckjnchdg jrknd`! & `hdt tmkde nktmnr hj us

whuc` n"nr gh th tmn pcafns wn "kskt wktmhut nafm htmnr!

Pmade yhu jhr yhur kdfh$paralcn fh$padkhdsmkp,

sh$ntk$ns ghh` sndsn ad` acways mu$hur Pmade yhu acsh

jhr yhur n;fnccndt pmhths!

/y tmades th acc tmn jhcchwkdg pnhpcn wktmhut wmhsn mncp &fhuc`dt ma"n wrkttnd tmks lhhe!

'kccy Fmkttkfe: ?nt agakd jhr yhur mncp wktm pmhthgrapms!

Gcndd ad` tn"nd 5nddn`y: )hr gk"kdg $n sh $ufm tk$n

adswnrkdg 3s jhr mncp wktm $aps, fh$putnr tnfmdkfac

edhw2mhw ad`, kd`nn`, $y gra$$ar

Yauc Fra"nd ad` tnppns Pra"nc: )hr acc tmn patkndt a`"kfn

ad` pcaddkdg hj $hst hj hur trkps th Fndtrac Aska!

h$hd Pra"nc: )hr arradgkdg hur trkp th Pa4kekstad `nspktn

hur a`"adfn` ynars

3`awdk Yac$nr: )hr acchwkdg $n th usn twh "nrsns hj yhur

phn$ alhut tmn Paeca$aead @nsnrt! Pmn wmhcn phn$ kssk$pcy ch"ncy!

Fmrks tkcc$ad! )hr ynt agakd ndfhuragkdg $n th fh$pcntn

tmks lhhe hd Fndtrac Aska!


5/28

Fatm (kd`say: /y pnrshdac prhhj2rna`nr wmh $hst taftjuccy

$a`n sn"nrac a$nd`$ndts th tmn jkdac $adusfrkpt!

(ast, lut ly dh $nads cnast! /amasac 5mad, Yar"ks

8aemk$h" ad` acc tmn $ady htmnr pnhpcn hj Fndtrac Aska

wmh ndtnrtakdn` us kd tmnkr mh$ns! Ph acc hj tmn$, & n;tnd`

$y war$nst tmades jhr tmnkr ekd`dnss ad` kdfrn`klcy

gndnrhus sndsn hj mhspktackty!


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Acsh ly tmn Autmhr:

5A/FIAP5A:A Ohurdac ad` Guk`n th\usskas Cad` hj Kfn ad` Jkrn. H`yssny.

Ltmn lrnatmcnss affhudt hj ad kdtrnpk`, ud$kstaealcy

&rksm tra"nccnr, tmrkccn` wktm ck"kdg ad` $h"kdg at tmn

n`gn hj mnr fh$jhrt %hdn! 6rkttnd wktm krrnprnssklcn

ghh` mu$hur ad` lhud`cnss ndnrgyLKrksm Pkbns.


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6n tra"nc dht jhr trajjkfekdg achdn,

'y mhttnr wkd`s hur jknry mnarts arn jaddn`!

)hr cust hj edhwkdg wmat $ay dht ln edhwd,

6n taen tmn Ghc`nd 8ha` th a$aremad`!

Oabns Ncrhy Jcnfenr.


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9/28

P83@FP&3#

6mnd asen`, th wmat `h & attrklutn $y kdjatuatkhd wktm Fndtrac

Aska, & ma"n th tmkde rkgmt lafe, ad` supphsn $y jasfkdatkhd

startn` as a fmkc`! & ma` ch"n` rna`kdg Pmn Jar @kstadt Husad`,

Pmn Hus kd !ubbnr! 'htm tmnsn lhhes wnrn wrkttnd ly twh

sfmhhcgkrcs: 5atmnrkdn Iucc ad` Ya$nca 6mktchfe! 6mnd

nd


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Pure, tmn ja$hus mhrsn tmat fa$n th 0dgcad` jrh$ Pureny kd

1, acc rn$akdn` kd $y $n$hry!

A jnw ynars catnr, wmnd & was dkdntnnd ad` ck"kdg ad`

whrekdg kd 6asmkdgthd @F, & nd4hyn` a smhrt rh$adfn wktm a

Ynrskad stu`ndt jrh$ /asma` kd dhrtm2nast Ynrska! Iks da$n was

Allass /htasmark ad` was tmn shd hj a wnactmy shc`knr kd tmn

mams ar$y *tmats acsh ghkdg lafe a lkt-! & was lhwcn`2h"nr ly

mks àre ghh` chhes ad` tmn tacns hj mks fmkc`mhh` wktm ntmdkf tkns

th, tmn tmnd h"knt, Pa4kekstad! Pmn "nry jaft tmat kt acc snn$n` sh

k$phssklcy `kstadt ad` kdaffnssklcn, hdcy wmnttn` $y appntktn ad`

furkhskty alhut Fndtrac Aska!

)kdaccy, $ady ynars catnr, & was hjj tra"ncckdg as usuac, wktm

$y fmkc`mhh` jrknd` 0cksn Fhlurd! 6n ma` lnnd hd tmn Prads

/hdghckad 8akcway th Fmkda wmnd wn fa$n uphd a lnautkjuc

$hsakf $ap hj tmn kce 8ha`! &t `npkftn` tmn rhutns jrh$ Fmkda,

arhud` tmn Paeca$aead @nsnrt ad` tmrhugm tmn Ikgm Ya$krs th

Fndtrac Aska ad` hd thwar`s tmn wnst! Pmks rnaccy gralln` lhtm

hur k$agkdatkhds ad` wn `nfk`n` wn whuc` ma"n th gh ad` taen a

chhe jhr hursnc"ns at sh$n hj tmnsn fhudtrkns, wmkfm shud`n` sh

$agkfaccy $ystnrkhus!

Pmks edht hj adfkndt cad`s kd tmn mnart hj tmn cargnst cad`$ass

hd 0artm ks udedhwd n"nd thày th $ady wnstnrdnrs! &ts rnfhr`n`

mksthry lngad kd tmn tmfndtury 'F wmnd tmn mugn Ynrskad 0$pkrn

frnatn` "arkhus Nekdg`h$s! 5mhrn%$, /argkada, 'aftrka, aea,

Arafmhska, Arka ad` hg`kada catnr edhwd as Prads 3;kada ly tmn

8h$ads, $nadkdg Nlnyhd` tmn 3;us! Graùaccy, tmrhugm tmn

ynars, Fndtrac Aska fa$n ud`nr tmn fhdtrhc hj htmnr n$pkrns ad`

pcafn da$ns ad` fucturns fmadgn !

Pmn trads2fhdtkdndtac rhutns hj tmn kce 8ha` wnrn edhwd th

ma"n lnnd kd n;kstndfn sh$n jk"n tmhusad` ynars agh! Pmn rha`

startn` wktm tmn tradsphrtatkhd hj tmn lnautkjuc lcun sthdn J (apks

(a%uck J ad` tmn n"nd $hrn prnfkhus rhfe sact jrh$ Ajgmadkstad!

&t wasdt udtkc tmn 9tmhr >tmfndtury 'F tmat skce lngad th $aen ad


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appnaradfn lnyhd` Fmkda! skdg dht hdn lut a wmhcn wnl hj

`kjjnrndt rhutns arhud` Fmkdas Paeca$aead @nsnrt ad` h"nr

Fndtrac Aska, tmn kce 8ha` whud` wnstwar`s tmrhugm Ynrska ad`

hd th tmn /n`ktnrradnad! &d Fndtrac Aska grnat thwdsmkps sufm as

'uemara, a$aread`, /nr", 3sm ad` 5asmgar lnfa$n fndtrns hj

fh$$nrfn, art ad` sfkndfn! Phwar`s Fmkda, at tmn mnkgmt hj tmn

kce 8ha`, fa$nc trakds farrkn` mhrsns, ghc , k"hry, prnfkhus

$ntacs, gcass, jrukt ad` "ngntalcns! )rh$ Fmkda, fa$n jurs,

fnra$kfs, 4a`n, caf


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N`hg2cngs hj %lnekstad, Pa4kekstad ad` 5yrgkstad ndfrhafm kdth

nafm htmnrs tnrrkthry J `k"k`n ad` rucn was tackds frn`h! Phày

yhu wkcc jkd` pcndty hj %lnes kd Pure$ndkstad ad` Pa4kekstadM

Pa4kes kd %lnekstad ad` 5yrgks kd Pa4kekstad!

At tmn tk$n, tmn 'hcsmn"kes wnrn matn`! Pmnkr `n$ad`s jhr

jhh`, ck"nsthfe ad` fhtthd `rakdn` tmn fhudtrkns hj tmnkr hdfn

tmrk"kdg tra`n ad` agrkfucturn! 'njhrn ad` ùrkdg tmn nfhd`

6hrc` 6ar, fhccnftk"ksatkhd was kdtrhùfn` nck$kdatkdg prk"atn

prhpnrty! /ufm hj tmn "ast tnppn was pcadtn` wktm wmnat,

rhllkdg tmn dh$a`kf pnhpcns hj 5a%aestad ad` 5yrgkstad hj tmnkr

ckjnstycns! Pmn njjnft hj tmks was `ksastrhus! /kcckhds `kn` hj

star"atkhd ad` `ksnasn! 3dn way hr adhtmnr, tackds ak$ snn$n`th ma"n lnnd th `nphpucatn tmn fhudtrkns hj Fndtrac Aska!

#n"nrtmncnss, jhr acc tmn narcy atrhfktkns tmat mappndn` kd

Fndtrac Aska ùrkdg h"knt tk$ns, catnr, tmnrn wnrn $ady lndnjkts!

Inactm farn, nùfatkhd ad` tmn wmhcn kdjrastrufturn wnrn

k$prh"n ! 0"nrylh`y ma` n$pchy$ndt ad` hc` jhce wnrn

rnwar`n` jhr tmnkr calhurs wktm rnashdalcn pndskhds! 6h$nd ma`

nfhdh$kf ad` nùfatkhdac n


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As a pakr hj sprktncy sk;ty2ynar2hc`s, 0cksn ad` & jkrst snt jhht

kd Fndtrac Aska kd 1=! 6n snt hut as a fhupcn hj Nthurksts, lut kt

wasdt chdg lnjhrn tmn Nthurksts $nta$hrpmhsn` kdth kd"hc"n`

ad` furkhus Ntra"nccnrs!

/y catn jrknd` ad` dnkgmlhur, /acfhc$ Ghr`hd, was acways

kdtnrnstn` kd gnhgrapmy ad` mndfn 0cksns ad` $y pnrngrkdatkhds

h"nr tmn gchln! In ma` smhwd $n pkfturns kd tmn #atkhdac

Gnhgrapmkf $aga%kdn hj tmn hpndkdg hj tmn 5araehra$ Ikgmway

kd 1= ad` thgntmnr wktm 0cksn, wn tmhugmt wmat a grnat way th

start hur tra"ncs th Fndtrac Aska! 3ur kdktkac kdtndtkhd was th start

kd Yaekstad, up tmn 55I kdth Fmkda, tmnd turd cnjt kdth Pa4kekstad

ad` hd th %lnekstad jhr a$aread` ad` 'uemara! Ihwn"nr, lytmn tk$n wn wnrn rna`y th cna"n, Pa4kekstad was kd tmn $k`st hj a

lkttnr fk"kc war, sh wn ma` th rn2tmkde hur rhutn! 6n wndt kdstna`,

as acrna`y pcaddn`, up tmn 55I ad` h"nr tmn 5ud4nral Yass kdth

tmn Kyd4kadg 8ngkhd hj wnstnrd Fmkda! 'ut tmnd, kdstna` hj ghkdg

wnst, wn fhdtkdun` dhrtm kdth tmn Pknd mad, hr /hudtakds hj

Ina"nd, h"nr tmn Phrugart Yass kdth 5yrgkstad! Pmnd, jkdaccy, wnst

kdth %lnekstad, th tmn hc` fktkns hj 'uemara ad` a$aread`, tmus

fkrfu$da"kgatkdg Pa4kekstad J at cnast jhr tmn prnsndt!

Ihwn"nr, as wn tra"nccn` wn lnfa$n $hrn ad` $hrn

kdtnrnstn` kd tmn pnhpcn! &d #hrtmnrd Yaekstad wn $nt whd`nrjuc

jhce! 'ut hur prhgrnss up tmn 5araehru$ Ikgmway was ac$hst

thtaccy `h$kdatn` ly tmn tnrrakd ad` tmn fhdstruftkhd hj tmks

n;trahr`kdary rha`! 5yrgkstad prh"n` th ln ratmnr ad adafmrhdks$

kd tmat wn `k`dt aftuaccy n;pnrkndfn $ufm hj tmn 5yrgks pnhpcn J

acc wn $nt wnrn 8usskads! &d %lnekstad wn rn"nrtn` th lnkdg

Nlhda jk`n thurksts "ksktkdg a$aread` ad` 'uemara ad` $hstcy

$nntkdg Pa4kes! Pmn hdn %lne guk`n wn ma`, prh"n` th ln afh$pcntn dhd2startnr! Ynrmaps ad n;prnsskhd hj mks fucturac

adtkpatmy thwar`s kd`npnd`ndt wh$nd

#n"nrtmncnss, wn `k` cnard a cht alhut tmn pnhpcn hj tmnsn

fhudtrkns ad` mhw wn rncatn` th tmn$! h wn `ntnr$kdn`, tmnrn

ad` tmnd th rnturd th Fndtrac Aska as shhd as Pa4kekstads fk"kc war


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was nd`n`! Ihwn"nr, "arkhus rnashds fhdspkrn` th phstphdn hur

rnturd udtkc tnd ad` a macj ynars catnr! &d +, twh ac$hst2as2

sprktncy sn"ndty2hdn2ynar2hc s jkdaccy snt hjj jhr Pure$ndkstad

ad` Pa4kekstad, wmnrn, kd lhtm fhudtrkns J wn stayn` sn"nrac tk$ns

wktm tmn chfac pnhpcn J a mugn cnardkdg fur"n, lhtm alhut tmn$ J

ad` alhut hursnc"ns!

6n whuc`, kda`"nrtndtcy, ma"n cnjt tmn lnst, hr whrst, tkcc cast


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#38PI08# YA5&PA#

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#mnd s$rkd%&tkbn jcusmns tmn `nsnrt %rass'

Hur eajkcas (kd` tmrhu%m tmn )my"nr *ass.

Cnad arn tmn fabncs' "ut jat tmn jrakcs'

Ck%mt arn tmn $ursns "ut mna+y tmn "acns.

As tmn sdh(&"hud` tra`n hj tmn dhrtm fhbns `h(dPh tmn barent&s,uarn kd *nsma(ur th(d.

8u`yar` 5kpckdg, 1=9 J 1E

&n'ma(a)! A V*a)+ V,a),-

Pmn tacc, jakr2makrn` yhudg $ad turdn` arhud` jrh$ tmn rnfnptkhd

`nse!

Ik, mn grnntn` us, arn yhu fmnfekdg2hut thhO#h, dh, wn rnsphd`n`, wn"n hdcy 4ust arrk"n`!

6ncc, yhu smhuc`dt ln mnrn! Pmnrns a wardkdg hut tmat acc

0urhpnads ad` nspnfkaccy A$nrkfads $ust cna"n tmn fhudtry!

6mat hd nartm arn yhu tacekdg alhutO wn asen`!

Pmnrns lnnd a strken ly tmn A$nrkfads kd 5aluc ad` tmn

autmhrktkns arn ajrak` tmnrn $ay ln phssklcn rnprksacs jrh$ Ajgmad

sy$patmk%nrs mnrn kd Yaekstad! & tmkde yhu smhuc` gnt tmn mncc huta

mnrn!

6hw )hr surn tmks @utfm rnphrtnr was "nry agktatn` kdskstkdg

wn smhuc` gh mh$n, lut kt `k`dt rnaccy skde kd wmat mn was

saykdg! )hr a start, cken a pakr hj k`khts, wn tmhugmt hj a Nstrken as

Nghkdg hjj whre! Ihwn"nr, kt `k` tradspkrn tmat tmn A$nrkfads

ma` caudfmn` a $ksskcn strken kdth 5aluc kd rntackatkhd jhr tmn

lh$lkdg narcknr kd tmn su$$nr, kd #akrhlk! 'ut wmnd wn asen`


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?husnj, hur guk`n, alhut tmks `ksturlkdg dnws, mn ednw dhtmkdg J

hr at cnast, sak` mn ednw dhtmkdg J alhut kt at acc! &gdhradfn, as

tmny say, ks lckss, ad` wn put tmn wmhcn kdfk`ndt rkgmt hut hj hur

$kd`s!

0cksn ad` & ma` arrk"n` tmn ày lnjhrn, at &sca$ala` Akrphrt

dnar tmn hc` thwd hj 8awacpkd`k J hr, as tmn hc` sfmhhc whuc` say

NYkd`k! 6n wnrn $nt at tmn akrphrt ly ?husnj, wmkcn wn wnrn kd

Yaekstad, ad` `rk"nd tmn mud`rn` $kcns hr sh achdg tmn Grnat

Prude 8ha` th Ynsmawar! &d adfkndt tk$ns tmnrn was a snttcn$ndt

faccn` Yurusmapura sh$nwmnrn kd tmn arna hj Ynsmawar

nstalcksmn` ly tmn 5usmads! Phàys fkty hj Ynsmawar J wmkfm kd

Ynrskad $nads NIkgm )hrt J was nstalcksmn` kd tmn 1 tm fndturyùrkdg tmn /ugmac pnrkh` ly Aelar! &t ma` acways lnnd a $akd

tra`kdg pcafn hd tmn adfkndt kce 8ha`! Phày, kt ks tmn fapktac hj

tmn #hrtm 6nst )rhdtknr Yrh"kdfn ad` tmn nfhdh$kf, fucturac ad`

phcktkfac fapktac hj tmn Yasmtuds kd Yaekstad! Fchsn th Ajgmadkstad

kt ks ad hjtnd "khcndt lhr`nr thwd jucc, & a$ surn, hj sh$n prntty

sma`y fmaraftnrs! Pmn tra`kdg dhwaàys, ks stkcc kd farpnts lut acsh

kd hpku$ ad` ar$s!

0d rhutn wn wndt tmrhugm tmn arna hj Gadàra kd tmn Inrh8k"nr Caccny, th "kskt tmn $usnu$ ad` n;fa"atkhd sktn hj tmn

adfkndt fkty hj Pa;kca, wmnrn Acn;ad`nr tmn Grnat fa$n kd E+7 'F

wmnd kt was stkcc a prh"kdfn hj tmn Afman$ndkad 0$pkrn!

Ihwn"nr, wn wnrn lhtm sh n;maustn` ly tmn 4hurdny tmat wn

rnaccy `k`dt taen kt acc kd ad` wnrn gca` th fhdtkdun hur `rk"n th

Ynsmawar! Ajtnr tmn kdktkac smhfe at tmn skgd kd tmn chlly kd"ktkdg

n"nryhdn wktm jkrnar$s th pcnasn cna"n tmn$ at rnfnptkhd, wn

jhud` hur mhtnc, tmn Ynarc Fhdtkdndtac ad` hur rhh$ fhhc ad`

fh$jhrtalcn ad` ma` a "nry dnfnssary latm ad` sdhh%n!

Ihwn"nr, kt wasdt chdg lnjhrn wn "ndturn` hut th n;pchrn a

ckttcn hj Ynsmawar! &t was "nry, "nry mht J E `ngrnns ad` =B

mu$k`kty ad` & was fhdsfkhus hj tmn pnarcs hj swnat lna`kdg $y

jhrnmna`! 6n wadtn` th luy sh$n jrukt 4ukfn ad` tmn smac(ar

eabnn-, tmn fhhc, akry chhsn smkrt ad` laggy trhusnrs ja"hurn` ly


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tmn chfac pnhpcn! 6n ma` a mkcarkhus tk$n trykdg th jkd` $nds

fchtmkdgM $hrn praftkfac jhr tmn 4hurdny wn wnrn alhut th `h! Pmn

smhp ennpnrs sk$pcy fhuc`dt ud`nrstad` wmy wn whuc` wadt th

wnar pcakd $nds fchtmns wmnd wn fhuc` ln gnttkdg `hccn` up kd

sh$n hj tmn ghrgnhus jadfy ca`kns wnar! Ihwn"nr, jkdaccy wn

jhud` wmat wn wadtn` ad` $a`n hur purfmasns! Pmnrn was ly tmks

tk$n, ad ar$y hj s$acc lhys lhudfkdg achdg wktm us praftkfkdg

tmnkr 0dgcksm wmkfm usuaccy a$hudtn` th NIacch, mhw arn yhuO

ad` tmnd gkggckdg cken $a`! h$n hj tmn$ wnrn


20/28

pmhthgrapm adytmkdg wn wadtn` n;fnpt tmn wh$nd, lut as tmnrn

mar`cy wnrn ady adyway, ad` tmhsn wn saw wnrn mna"kcy "nkcn`

ud`nr tmnkr "ureas, tmnrn wasdt thh $ufm tn$ptatkhd!

As wn ght th tmn hutsekrts hj Ynsmawar jhr tmn twh mhur

4hurdny, wn ma` th sthp at a phckfn fmnfe2phkdt! ?husnj thhe hur

passphrts ad` papnrs kdth tmn lukc`kdg! u``ndcy, a $ad fa$n

pnctkdg achdg thwar`s us, at mks mnncs, a ln"y hj $nd smaekdg

stkfes ad` smhutkdg! 3ur `rk"nr ad` tmn guar` 4u$pn` hut hj tmn

far ad` 4hkdn` kd tmn fmargn, `ksappnarkdg wktmhut a lafewar`

gcadfn, cna"kdg 0cksn ad` $n achdn ad`


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mnrn a`hrd tmn rhfe jafn! 6n thhe pmhths ad` jnct "nry $h"n` at

wmnrn wn wnrn ad` tmn sekr$ksmns tmat ma` ghdn hd mnrn kd tmks

stradgn cad` sh jar jrh$ mh$n ad` sh chdg agh!

Pmn pass ktsncj ks "nry `ra$atkf! Ia"kdg whud` hur way up

tmn $hudtakds ad` passn` adfkndt jhrts ad` ghdn tmrhugm "kccagns,

wn fa$n th a mkgm spht hd tmn rha`, ad`


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whrenrs wnrn jrknd`cy ad` mncpjuc ad` `nsfrkln` mhw tmny put

thgntmnr tmnkr "nmkfcns kd wmkfm, dnn`cnss th say tmny thhe a grnat

prk`n! Ajtnr tmn thur hj tmn chrrkns wn wnrn snatn` ad` gk"nd $ugs

hj "nry swnnt tna! 6n hj fhursn wnrn acsh grnat hl4nfts hj

furkhskty ad` ma` th tncc tmn$ acc alhut hur ja$kckns ad` hur 4hls

ad` ckjnstycn!

#aturaccy ndhugm, dh "kskt th Yaekstad ks fh$pcntn wktmhut a

"kskt th a farpnt jafthry! & n;pnft tmn guk`ns arn acc kd ckdn jhr a lkt

hj a lafe2mad`nr jrh$ tmn jafthry kj tmny $aen a sacn! 0cksn was

aftuaccy kdtnd`kdg th luy a rug adyway ad` wn ma` grnat jud

chhekdg at acc tmn `kjjnrndt farpnts! mn wadtn` hdn jhr mnr macc,

wmkfm ks chdg ad` darrhw! Ajtnr chts hj tna2`rkdekdg ad``ksfusskhds alhut ùty ad` phstagn, tmn snrkhus maggckdg lngad kd

nardnst! 0"ndtuaccy 0cksn was stkcc mh"nrkdg h"nr tmn fhst hj a "nry

prntty pkde rug, saykdg smn rnaccy `k`dt wadt th gh h"nr a fnrtakd

prkfn wmnd & luttn` kd ad` sak` th tmn pusmy wnn sacns$ad, Pmks

ks mnr jkdac prkfn! Ad` mhpkdg cken $a` mn whuc` affnpt kt, wn

ght up as kj th gh! (ufekcy mn `k` snttcn at mnr prkfn ad` prh$ksn`

smn whuc` dht ma"n th pay ùty! *6nnes catnr wmnd wn wnrn lafe

mh$n, mnr farpnt arrk"n` 35 lut sa`cy smn `k` ma"n th pay ùty!-

Ajtnr acc tmks n;fktn$ndt ?husnj mad`n` us h"nr th a fmu$ hj

mks faccn` /ad%hhr! In was ghkdg th taen us th hdn hj hur

ja"hurktn pcafns J tmn hc` $arent wmkcn ?husnj ma` a jnw mhurs

rnspktn jrh$ mks twh n;maustkdg ca`kns In thhe us schwcy tmrhugm

tmn tnn$kdg accnyways! (ken acc la%aars kt was jkccn` wktm

n"nrytmkdg yhu fhuc` phssklcy tmkde hj! &d tmn jhh` $arent tmnrn

was rkfn hj acc shrts, ad` n;htkf s$ncckdg thlaffh acsh hj $ady

`kjjnrndt typns, kd grnat lkg safes! (ndtkcs, sajjrhd ad` duts J ad`

J phppy mna`s, dhw & whd`nr wmat tmny fhuc` ln usn` jhrO &dadhtmnr arna tmnrn was fchtmkdg! 'hhts, smhns, cha`s hj sadàcs ad`

mud`rn`s hj mats hj acc shrts hj smapns ad` sk%ns! Iats snn$n` th

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pcnasadt, jrknd`cy pnhpcn! 6n wnrn rn$kd`n` sn"nrac tk$ns a ày

tmat wn wnrn kd ad &sca$kf fhudtry as wn mnar` tmn /un%%kds

shdhrhus thdns fmadtkdg hut NAccam Aelar J Gh` ks Grnat J as mn

faccn` tmn jaktmjuc th praynr!

6mkcn wn ma` lnnd hd tmn pcadn, ùrkdg hur jckgmt mnrn, 0cksn

jhud` mnrsncj skttkdg dn;t th a Yaekstadk gndtcn$ad ad` daturaccy

tmny strufe up a fhd"nrsatkhd! In was fmar$kdg ad` thc` us mks

da$n was /amasac, a wk`hwnr wmh a$a%kdgcy fa$n jrh$

Ynsmawar! In nd`n` up kd"ktkdg us th mks mh$n jhr `kddnr sh$n

n"ndkdg tmat suktn` us! 6n addhudfn` tmks th ?husnj wmnd wn

arrk"n` lafe kd tmn mhtnc! In was alshcutncy appaccn` ad` sak` wn

fhuc`dt phssklcy gh hut wktm a $ad wn ma` hdcy 4ust $nt! 6n jnctcken twh sfmhhcfmkc`rnd ad` thc` mk$ wn whuc` ln pnrjnftcy 35!

In was dht th ln lu`gn` ad` th hur udnd`kdg n$larrass$ndt mn

kdskstn` hd lnkdg wktm us wmnd /amasac fa$n th fhccnft us jrh$

tmn mhtnc! & supphsn yhu fhuc` jhrgk"n mk$ as mn was, ajtnr acc,

rnsphdsklcn jhr us!

6n `rnssn` hursnc"ns up as s$artcy as tmn fchtmns wn ma`

acchwn` ad` wndt th rnfnptkhd th $nnt hur dnw jrknd`! 6n

whd`nrn` kj, kd jaft, mn whuc` turd up! 6huc` wn rnfhgdksn mk$as mn ma` lnnd wnarkdg wnstnrd fchtmns hd tmn pcadn, ad` wn

tmhugmt mn $kgmt ln wnarkdg tmn smac(ar eabnn-! 6n dnn` dht

ma"n whrrkn`, mn was acrna`y waktkdg jhr us, wktm a ghrgnhus ckttcn

grad`shd kd mks ar$s! Pmnrn, acsh, was ?husnj, sh hj fhursn wn

ma` th kdtrhùfn mk$! ?husnj kdskstn` hd jhcchwkdg us th

/amasacs mhusn, ad` sak` mn whuc` wakt jhr us ad` lrkdg us lafe,

lut /amasac sak` mn `k`dt edhw wmat tk$n wn whuc` ln rna`y

ad` tmat mn whuc` lrkdg us lafe th tmn mhtnc! &t was rnaccy frkdgn2

$aekdg! 6n tmhugmt mn ad` ?husnj wnrn ghkdg th ma"n a rhw hdhur lnmacj, lut ?husnj lafen` `hwd ad` sak` mn whuc` ln waktkdg

kd rnfnptkhd udtkc wn rnturdn`! 6n wnrn sh n$larrassn , lut

/amasac thhe kt acc "nry fac$cy ad` hjj wn snt!

Pmn 5mad mh$n was a mugn mhusn snt kd tmn ratmnr n;fcusk"n

$kcktary, ladekdg ad` `kpch$atkf arna! &t ma` dkdn ln`rhh$s acc


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wktm latmrhh$s nd suktn! Pmnrn wnrn jk"n snr"adts th chhe ajtnr

/amasac, mks prntty `augmtnr /ak$huda ad` mnr ckttcn shd! Pmny

wnrn tmn $hst `nckgmtjuc pnhpcn hdn fhuc` wksm th $nnt! 6n ma` a

whd`nrjuc `kddnr acc fhhen` ly /ak$huda! h$nwmat acar$kdgcy

tmnrn was dh futcnry, sh wn watfmn` mhw hur mhsts $adagn` J

jkdgnrs hj fhursn, ad` a laskd ad` thwnc at tmn rna`y hd a sk`n

lhar`! /ak$hhdas muslad` was a `hfthr ad` `hkdg jurtmnr

stu`kns kd, hj acc pcafns, @ulckd! Inrs ma` lnnd ad arradgn`

$arrkagn, lut smn ma` fhdsndtn` th kt ad` hl"khuscy ch"n` ad`

$kssn` mnr muslad`! mn was a$a%n` wmnd wn sak` wn wnrn jrnn

th fmhhsn hur muslad`s kd tmn 6nst J sh$n jhr lnttnr, sh$n,

sa`cy, jhr whrsn! Pmny wnrn a "nry wncc2n`ufatn` ja$kcy, /amasac

a grhwnr hj sugar2fadn ad` a ladenr, sphen pnrjnft 0dgcksmma"kdg tra"nccn` n;tndsk"ncy! /ak$huda, surprkskdgcy, usn` th

whre lnjhrn smn ma` mnr laly, fhuc` `rk"n a far ad` was "nry

n$adfkpatn`! 6n ma` sufm ad kdtnrnstkdg n"ndkdg hj fmat,

thufmkdg hj fhursn, hd rnckgkhd, tmkr` whrc` ph"nrty ad` jkrst

whrc` phwnr!

Pmn mhusn was `nfhratn` kd $utn` fhchurs hj frna$ ad`

lrhwd, rnaccy surprkskdg as /ak$huda whrn a lnautkjuc smac(ar

ad` 4nwncry, ad` wmnd wn saw tmn pmhths hj mnr wn``kdg, tmnyma` ma` kt kd a tndt *dht


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6nccL tmn jhcchwkdg was a "nry kdtnrnstkdg ày 0d`kdg up,

dht at acc wmnrn wn smhuc` ma"n lnnd! 3ur ktkdnrary sakà %ndtcn

ày th !akù !markj. 6n startn` hut narcy kd tmn $hrdkdg, ghkdg

dhrtm! 0d rhutn wn sthppn` at tmn Paemt2k2'amk $hdastnry, wmkfm

at 19 ynars hc`, was hdn hj tmn cargnst 'u``mkst tn$pcns kd

&d`ka! &t was stkcc lhkckdg mht ad` wn ma` th fck$l mud`rn`s hj

stnps th rnafm tmn rukds! &t was wncc whrtm kt, jhr tmn "knw was

$ar"ncchus! Pmn $hdastnry ks sktuatn` kd tmn $k``cn hj a pcakd lut

hd thp hj a s$acc mkcc, puttkdg kt kd a lrkcckadtcy stratngkf phsktkhd

wktm padhra$kf "knws acc rhud`! Paemt2k2'amk was nstalcksmn` as

ad #0F3 6hrc` Inrktagn ktn kd 1=!

3d wn wndt h"nr tmn /acafad Yass ad` `hwd kdth tmn watCaccny! 6n ma` hdcy 4ust lngud th nd4hy tmks lnautkjuc pcafn wmnd

wn wnrn sthppn` ly tmn phckfn, ad` thc` tmat wn ma` th turd lafe

as kt was thh àdgnrhus jhr 0urhpnads th fhdtkdun th akù markj!

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?husnj sak` tmnrn was dh htmnr way lut th rntrafn hur stnps!

In pnrsua`n` tmn 0;pchrn gkrc acsh th rnturd jrh$ wmndfn wn ma`

fh$n, gnttkdg hut hj tmn wat "accny as shhd as phssklcn, ad`

4hkdkdg tmn 5araehru$ Ikgmway at kts hjjkfkac lngkddkdg!

p udtkc dhw wn ma` tmhugmt hj )rk`hud, hur `rk"nr, as tmn

fac$nst ad` $hst farnjuc hj `rk"nrs! 'ut tmn tmhugmt hj us lnkdg

mk4afen` cndt wkdgs th mks wmnncs ad` was 4ust tmn n;fusn dnn`n`

th smhw mhw n;fktkdg mks sekcc at spnn`2`rk"kdg fhuc` ln 6n tkn`

sfar"ns rhud` hur mna`s th mk`n tmn fhchur hj hur makr, `rnw tmn

furtakds kd tmn $kdklus ad` snt hjj at a ratn hj edhts lafe tmn way

wn ma` fh$n! 6ktmhut a `hult tmks was th ln hdn hj tmn sfarknst`rk"ns nktmnr hj us ma` n"nr ma`! Pmnrn wnrn kd`nn` sn"nrac rha`

lchfes hj adgry, gnstkfucatkdg pnhpcn! 6n wnrn jhrfn` th taen

ckttcn udpa"n` sk`n rha`s th a"hk` lnkdg sthppn` achdg wktm jhur

htmnr "nmkfcns jcnnkdg cken us! 6n cnjt tmn 0;pchrn pnhpcn jar

lnmkd`! At hdn lchfe wn ma` th rn"nrsn away h"nr a rkfenty ckttcn

lrk`gn ad` achdg tmn grassy lade hj a rk"nr, lhtm hj us cykdg hd tmn

jchhr praykdg wn whuc`dt ln sthppn`! ?husnjs lh`y cadguagn

sak` kt acc! In sat hd tmn n`gn hj mks snat pnnrkdg amna` ad` gk"kdg

kdstruftkhds kd a staffath "hkfn th )rk`hud! 6n attafen` tmn/acaead Yass wktm kts thrtuhus lnd`s, h"nrtaekdg htmnr tradsphrt

ad` taekdg alshcutncy wkc` rkses! 0cksn ad` & grk$afn` at nafm

htmnr jrh$ tk$n th tk$n, madgkdg hd jhr grk$ `natm as wn rhccn`

arhud` tmn jchhr! & jkdaccy sak` &` ratmnr taen $y fmadfns wktm tmn

Ajgmads tmad rkse fnrtakd `natm ghkdg h"nr tmn n`gn hj tmn

$hudtakd! /y prhtnsts jncc hd sthdy grhud` ad` wn lnctn` hd udtkc

alhut jhur hfchfe, wmnd at cast wn sthppn` jhr a catn cudfm at a

ckttcn fajH! Acc wn aftuaccy wadtn` was `rkde J hj tmn shjt shrt! 6n

snt hjj agakd ghkdg a ckttcn gndtcnr, stkcc fh"nrn` up lut a lkt $hrnrnca;n`! 6mnw

6n `k`dt ma"n th gh acc tmn way lafe th Ynsmawar lut turdn`

hjj th 4hkd tmn Ikgmway at kts start J Pa;kca! 'y tmn tk$n wn ght

tmnrn kt was `are ad` wn `ksfussn` tmn prhs ad` fhds hj

fhdtkdukdg! &d tmn n"ndt wn wndt as jar as Allhttala`, sh da$n`


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kd `njnrndfn th Faptakd a$ns Allhtt, a $a4hr pcaynr kd tmn Grnat

Ga$n! 6n sthppn` tmnrn jhr a "nry ghh` Fmkdnsn $nac arhud` 1

hfchfe, kdtnd`kdg th fhdtkdun th 'nsma$ jhr tmn dkgmt! Ihwn"nr,

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seucc2faps, smhrt rhud` jn%s ad` tmn "nry phpucar shrt hj rhud`,

jcat, padfaen 4hl wktm rhccn` h"nr n`gns! Pmn 8k"nr &d`us jchwn`

thwar`s us `hwd a `nnp ra"kdn, grny ad` skct2ca`nd jrh$ tmn mkgm

gcafknrs, n"ndtuaccy th `nphskt kts rkfmns hd tmn chwcad`s hj

shutmnrd Yaekstad! 0"nry sh hjtnd wn fa$n afrhss falcn fars

afrhss tmn ra"kdn th tradsphrt pnhpcn jrh$ hdn sk`n hj tmn "accny th

tmn htmnr! 6n thhe a rk`n kd hdn sufm lattnrn` falcn far swkdgkdg

pnrkchuscy afrhss tmn wkc`cy swkrckdg rk"nr! 3d wn wndt kdth tmn

arna hj &d`us 5hmkstad! Pmn mkccs wnrn dhw lnfh$kdg $ufm

stnnpnr ad` tmn $u` sck`ns startn`! @hwdmkcc kdth 'nsma$ jhr

cudfm! Pmn sud was smkdkdg agakd ad` kt was mht!

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