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  • © 2019 Ginger Sprouse

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  • This book is dedicated to my beloved husband Dean, who has taken every step of this journey with me. You

    are my best friend. All that has been accomplished was truly done by the gracious hand of God, and we got to watch them unfold together! God is so good!

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  • Contents


    Chapter 1: Victor

    Chapter 2: Noticing

    Chapter 3: Some Soul Searching

    Chapter 4: Ginger’s Story: Expectations

    Chapter 5: Ginger’s Story: Dangerous Dreams

    Chapter 6: Ginger’s Story: Utter Rebellion

    Chapter 7: Stopping Changes Everything

    Chapter 8: A Friendship Is Born

    Chapter 9: Happy Birthday and Merry Christmas to Me

    Chapter 10: What Now?

    Chapter 11: New Year and Good- Bye Corner

    Chapter 12: You Don’t Scare Me

    Chapter 13: Coming Home

    Chapter 14: Mother Hubbard

    Chapter 15: The Past Makes an Appearance

    Chapter 16: Looking in the Mirror




    About the Author

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    Victor is a sweetheart. In all the time I have known him, I have

    never heard him utter an unkind word. A big kid in a grown

    man’s body, he is kind, warm, and funny. He refuses to believe

    anything but the good about everyone he meets. He has an excep-

    tional innocence about him that, frankly, scares me at times.

    Despite the fact that he is a grown man, he needs help. A lot of

    help. Depending on the day, he calls me his secretary, his driver,

    his agent, or his mom. After living on the streets of Clear Lake,

    Texas, he knows he needs help navigating life.

    He has been a fixture in my town for many years. Anyone

    who drove by the shopping center at the intersection of Nasa

    Road 1 and El Camino Real saw him. They would talk about

    “the guy on the corner” with a perplexed tone and wonder about

    him. Street people in our town were the exception more than

    the rule, so Victor was an odd sight in our upscale suburban

    neighborhood, just two blocks from Space Center Houston.

    Depending on the day, he would engage in any number of

    behaviors, from dancing and singing to standing stock still and

    staring at the sky. He would also traverse the corner in a tight

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    circle, tapping the light pole rhythmically and then walk away,

    only to rush back to tap it again and again and again. He was

    obviously homeless, but he never seemed to ask for anything. He

    never held a sign or bothered anyone in the passing cars. He just

    minded his own business, in this spot he claimed as his own, and

    spent his days dancing to his own tune, rain or shine. Some said

    he lived nearby; others said they saw him in different parts of

    town over the course of many months. I had seen him regularly

    for three years, although I heard he had been living in the area

    for eight or more.

    I could not tell you what made that particular day different

    from any other. It was nothing special. Had I known then what

    I know now, about the road I was to traverse with this man, I

    cannot say with certainty that I would have stopped.


    As strange as it feels to me, many people the world over know

    me as that lady who met a homeless man at a busy intersection in

    Texas and invited him to live with her family. It makes me cringe

    when people say to me, “you’re an angel,” even when said in

    utter sincerity and admiration. No, I’m not an angel. I don’t want

    anyone to pat me on the back and give me all the reasons why I

    should accept the moniker proudly. I want to be honest and tell

    them that I was a pretty messed- up person at one time.

    When my two children were young, the quest for perfec-

    tion landed me on the bottom of a nasty, lonely, dark pit. And

    I had no one to blame for the ugly wreck I had made of my life

    except myself. In the months following my separation from my

    then husband, Ben, instead of being in my warm bed in our cozy

    farmhouse, with my little ones tucked in safely upstairs, I was

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    alone, living in a sterile apartment in the middle of the city, sleep-

    ing on a hard bed with scratchy sheets, with my head throbbing

    along with my heart.

    It was 2009, and I was turning forty. I hesitate to say I was

    having a midlife crisis because that sounds like an excuse, and

    many of us have used it as an excuse to sin. I know I did back

    then. But I don’t do excuses. Not anymore. Today I sit here and

    acknowledge that I’m a person who has always had an aversion

    to learning from someone else’s mistakes, always preferring to

    make my own.

    Funny how with age comes a new way of looking at life.

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    C H A P T E R 1


    It’s 2017, and I’m hiding out in my garage “office” in suburban

    Houston. I don’t mean a pretty garage- turned- office from the

    TV show Fixer Upper. I’m referring to a garage office where my

    desk is my second husband’s dusty worktable, and the light is a

    bare bulb hanging from a cord in the ceiling somewhere above

    my head. An old Folgers coffee can has found a new purpose as

    my pencil holder, and my view is of my black Jeep and a color-

    ful multitude of dried- up spray paint cans lining the shelves like

    soldiers. My giant hulk of a dog, Max, sits under my feet, regard-

    ing me solemnly as he idly gnaws on his favorite tattered blue

    Frisbee. He too is lost in thought, likely wondering how much

    longer he has to wait until playtime, while I’m thinking about the

    last few years and how it came to be that I’m here, hiding out in

    my dusty garage with a meditative dog for a companion.

    I’m reflecting on all the bad decisions piled up high like the

    boxes and baskets on the shelves surrounding me. I can say that

    I possess no self-