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Dialogues with God

from Doug PerryJanuary 2007

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I didn't always, but in the last two years, I've learned to tune in very carefully to the voice of God. And I'm nottalking about just any old god. I'm talking about hearing the Holy Sirit of God that came down to man when!esus "hrist ascended and sat at the right hand of #ahweh, the great I A$. He says that His shee will hear andknow His voice. %See Aendi& A.

How did it haen that I started hearing Him and how do I know it's God( )ell, that's a different book. %Althoughsome is in Aendi& *. +his book is just here because God told me to start documenting some of myconversations with Him. +hen He told me to ut them all together so that eole could read them and decide forthemselves if they would like to hear God like this. $any eole will definitely -+ want to hear God like this Ithurts. It's hard. It will cost you everything. /ut it IS ossible. And I wouldn't trade it for anything.

If you don't think God talks to eole anymore, then just consider this an e&ercise in creative writing or a oeticallegory or my own fanciful daydreaming. I don't really care what you think. I know the difference and I know Heis real and I know He is directing my aths now that I know how to get out of His way. And I wouldn't trade it foranything.

+hese aren't articularly insightful. +hey're not the best things the 0ord ever told me. +hey're not documentationof dreams and visions and dee revelations. +hey're not words of knowledge about the secret things in someother erson's heart. +hey're just written documentation of sniets of the kind of daily, running conversation Ihave with the 0ord all the time. Sometimes daily to1do lists, sometimes encouragement, sometimes just a at onthe head. I'm not resenting them because I think they are the best of all the things the 0ord has shown me,they're not. +here are lots of things that He's told me that are very rivate, some that aren't for now, some that Idon't even understand yet. /ut these 2*ialogues3 are just so that maybe you'll hunger and thirst for a relationshilike this. He said that His shee would hear and know His voice. And you can, if you'll unclog your ieline andshut u and listen.

+he first of the *ialogues is more oetic than normal and was written just as my furniture store was beingcrushed. It was a serious low oint and robably near the beginning of when I started writing the *ialogues. #ouwill see that it is much different in style and tone than the others that followed. God is faithful 4ven when you feelcrushed and defeated, He will never let it go too far. +hroughout everything that I have endured, He has alwaysbeen faithful. He's a great *ad

/ehind these dialogues is a Siritual +uneu section that might hel you get unclogged so you can hear better.He's a really great *ad and I know He wants to talk to you like this. #t$s not %ust me& # 'now lots of fol's thathear (im li'e this. And lots have been raised u by !esus through me to hear Him like this. If I can hel youhear Him better so that you don't have to lean on your own understanding anymore and H4 can direct all youraths, that's the best gift I could ever think of giving you

)DD##O*)+ *O,-God doesn't worry too much about caitali5ation of ronouns associated with Him. He definitely doesn't re6uire itas a sign of resect for Himself when (e is talking. I asked and it's just not real imortant to Him. I usually do it,but if I forget sometimes or I'm tying too fast, that doesn't seem to bother Him. He knows that I love Him with allmy heart. He wants a broken and contrite heart, a circumcised sirit 7 not caitali5ation and a heart of ice.

I'm trying to resent these in as raw a way as ossible. I've only edited them where something was includedabout a erson or some bit of instruction or information that the 0ord didn't want made ublic.

+he only other change I made is that I ut His words in bold so you can read it easier. I doubt it is necessary,because it should be retty obvious who is whom, but I don't want to make it harder than necessary.

I would love to have commented on all the ama5ing miracles and divine aointments and erfect timings thatresulted from obeying the instructions He gave, but that too is beyond the scoe of this book. I'm not trying torove it was Him or justify what I heard or anything. I'm just resenting the raw conversations. #ou do what youwill with them. I don't have anything to rove and He is the only one I need to lease.

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Dialogue with God / 71200 / Par'3ille& !issouri

$y God and my 8ing,#ou alone are worthy of glory and raise,#ou alone are above all. #ou are my everything.I rest in your arms through all that comes,I'll rest in your arms.

/ut I'm so tired, 0ord. I've been fighting so long.+hey're not listening, 0ord. +hey're not changing.I feel all alone and I'm so tired.)here did #ou go( )here is my hel(#ou romised, Abba. 9lease(

4est& 5hild& #$m here.#$3e always 6een right here.# didn$t say it would 6e easy.

ou$re the one that prayed to 6e li'e !e. ou said you$d do anything. ou said you$d gi3e up anything.Did you thin' # wasn$t listening8

ou did mean it didn$t you8

-h, :ather. I meant it #ou know I didI didn't hold anything back 1 or at least I didn't mean to.I said #ou could have it all. I said I'd go. I said I'd endure./ut I'm so tired, Abba.

4est& 5hild& #$m here. ou can$t fail. 9hat #$3e made you to 6e& you 9#++ 6e. ou couldn$t screw it up if you tried.)nd you 9#++ try : 6ut # 'now it$s not on purpose.#$3e already made allowance for that.#t$s not a6out you. #t ne3er was.Just rest in !,. #$ll ta'e care of e3erything.

/ut it makes no sense+hey think I'm nuts.+hey think I'm making this all u+hey can't see that #ou would do this to somebody.+hey're just sure that if #ou called, then #ou would rovide.

And, sometimes, when I'm weak, they start to make sense.

4est& 5hild& #$m here.!y ways are not our ways.)nd it$s a good thing& too.

our ways %ust get you into more trou6le.;ut # ha3e a plan. )nd it$s a good plan.)nd it will confound the wise and it will glorify !y (oly *ame.

his isn$t a6out you. #t ne3er was.# appreciate that you$re willing&# lo3e you for it. !ore than you 'now.;ut this is ! show. #$ll write the script.

I know, Abba. I know. I get how big #ou are. At least as much as #ou've shown me and my uny brain can handle.I get the comle&ity and interconnectedness of #our lans. I get the majesty of it./ut right now, right this minute, I'm just hurting really bad, *addy.I'm sorry to make it about me, but ...

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4est& 5hild& #$m here.# 'now you. # 'now your needs.# 'now you need to see the plan.#$ll show you when you$re ready.)nd # 'now you need lo3e.# made sure you got %ust enough& didn$t #8)nd # lo3ed on you real good& didn$t #8

-h, God -h, :atherI do areciate the eole you sent 1and the words they soke at the right moment

And without me asking I know it's #ou. And, yes, #ou loved on me real good.So good that I can't sto crying 1 and I don't want to ever sto.

And I'm sorry to ask for more, I really am, but I just need to see.I need to see through #our eyes. I need to see the big icture.I need to know my lace. I need to see ...

4est& 5hild. #$m here.ime after time #$3e let you see through !y eyes.# want to show you more& and # will.

;ut it$s going to hurt. ou need to 6e ready.#t$s really dar' out there& and it$s going to get a lot worse 6efore it gets 6etter.+ots of people you lo3e are going to die. -ome really ugly stuff is coming.)re you willing8 here$s a lot of 6adness coming.

Abba, #ou know I'm willing.I've seen so much already, but I know there's so much more./ut could we lease just ski to the end("ould I lease just see more of the hay ending(I'm kind of drowning in the bad stuff.It hurts really bad. )hy won't they listen(

4est& 5hild. #$m here.

# 'now what you can handle.# can$t stretch you without pain.# can$t 6uild muscles without 6rea'ing some down.

ou as'ed me to put all the weight on. ou as'ed to 6e 6ig and strong. ou wanted to get it o3er with =uic'ly.here$s no other way& 6ut through the pain.rust me& # 'now a6out pain and suffering.#$ll gi3e you the endurance you need.#$m spotting. he weight will ne3er crush you.

9lease, :ather I'm so tired/ut I don't want to rest. I don't want to sto.I know how this works.I know something big is around the corner or it wouldn't hurt this bad.I'm willing. #ou know I am. I'll stand.#ou've got me through so many times like this before./ut I need you to lift just a little moreI need you to get the bar off my chest4very muscle is screaming 4very day it hurts more.It's really heavy and I don't think I have any strength left.

4est& 5hild. #$m here.# lo3e you. # really do. !ore than you can 'now.

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;ut #$m the one that gets to decide if you$3e had enough.#$m the one that 'nows what you can handle.+et !e do my %o6. +et !e 6uild you up.# 'now you$re tired. 9e$re almost there.Just push a little more. Gi3e !e a couple more reps.hen we can rest a little while and you can see the fruit of your la6or.

ou$ll see it. # promise. #t won$t 6e in 3ain. # promise.

-h, God. I will I don't know how, but #ou know.

I trust #ou. I do. I'll ush. I can do a coule more.9lease just sla me around when I sound like a sissy.9lease do what #ou do. /reak me. I meant itI'm not backing down )hatever it takes*on't be gentle. *on't go easy on me. *on't let u.+hey're hurting and dying and we're losing this war,I want to be strong. I need to be strong to reach them.I'll go. I romise./ut ... I'm so tired. ;eally tired. ;eally ...

# 'now& -on. # 'now. #$m here. 4est.#$ll dry e3ery tear. #$ll sustain you. #$ll hold your hand.9hen you can$t& #$ll do the hea3y lifting.

Just rest. # 'now what #$m doing.)nd we are *O losing this war. #$m 6aiting the enemy.#$3e got them all right where # want them.

+hanks, *ad. I know. I'm really sorry for this.

#t$s O?& 5hild. # 'now you are. ;ut it$s O?. ou$re doing really good. #$m really proud of you.#t will all 6e worth it. # promise : and # can$t lie. # promise.#$ll ma'e it up to you. ou$ll see.

I love #ou, Abba.

# lo3e you too& 5hild.

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Dialogue with God / )ugust "& 200 / 2<> pm / +i6erty& !issouri

#es, 0ord( )hat is it(

+isten carefully& -on. # ha3e a lot to say. oday is the 6eginning of a new thing. Just as the 6eginning ofthe month of )3 was important& so too& is the 6eginning of )ugust. +ots of decisions are made thismonth. +ots of people will choose whether to go into the Promised +and or chic'en out. -ome will try togo without me and get trounced. #f !y )r' doesn$t lead the way& there$s going to 6e trou6le. )t times& you

got ahead of me or turned to the side. # co3ered for you& 6ut there were still conse=uences. *ow we$regetting it all 6ac' on trac'& 6ut it has come at a cost. # 'now you understand that.

)hatever it takes 0ord. )hatever the cost to me. I deserve whatever comes. I just want to be in #our 9erfect )ill.9lease restore me, 0ord.

+isten. here is a half:moon on the 1th of )3. 9hich way are you going to go8 o the dar'ness or to thelight8 ,3eryone will ha3e to decide.

%A bunch of dialogues between August and -ctober were lost when we switched email servers une&ectedly.




Dialogue with God / "020 / +i6erty& !issouri

Good morning, 0ord. I'm here.

Good morning& -on. # lo3e you.

I love you, too, 0ord. )hat's the lan.

Don$t go to wor' today and don$t call in. ou need to finish writing <the ;ed *ragon book=. ou could ha3egot it done yesterday& 6ut you goofed off and got distracted. Don$t eat or drin' until you finish writing anddon$t go get the rest of the stuff out of the house. Focus on this. #$ll help.

I'm sorry about yesterday, 0ord. I'm sorry I let other things distract me. 9lease forgive me.

# do& -on. -tay on tas' today. his is really important. he Dragon wants to ta'e your mind off of this.(e$ll use anything or anyone to 'eep you from finishing this. ;ecause you allowed it without listening to!e #$m going to ha3e to dial up the pressure today.

I understand, 0ord. It's fine. +hanks for that.

Don$t answer the phone unless # specifically tell you to. Don$t go anywhere or plan on doing anything.Don$t ta'e a nap& don$t eat& don$t get distracted. # will help you write this. #t needs to get finished today.

#es, 0ord. +hank #ou, 0ord. )hat am I missing(

#t needs to 6e short and direct. his is not the time for a full eAposition of e3ery 3erse and e3ery nuance.9e$ll fill it all in later. 4ight now it %ust needs to get out there and 6e said. )lso it needs to 6e clear thatO*+ those with a personal spirit of repentance for J,4B-)+,! are truly free. #f they$re not weepingand mourning for (,#4 part in it and repenting for (,#4 sins and the sins of (,#4 forefathers& thenthey$re %ust fighting against it or creating their own Dragon. #t$s not enough to feel sorry that it happenedor to wish it was fiAed or to as' the +ord to forgi3e (O-, people that did it. ou )++ did it and you )++need to repent for your part in it.

#es, 0ord. I understand. "an I ...

*o.

"an I ...

*o. FO5B-C

-os Sorry, 0ord. #ou're right. I love #ou, 0ord. 9lease hel. +here is lots of stuff swarming and it's reallymessing with me.

# 'now& -on. #$ll help. 5lear out the sphere and unplug the pipeline.

-h, yeah. +hat heled. +hanks, 0ord. +hey're trying really hard.

) lot hangs on this. (eyC FocusCC

)ow. I'm drifting again Sorry, 0ord. -8. I'm getting it. *o you want me to write on the !e5ebel thing(

*o. Just the Dragon writing.

"an I check my email(

*o. Just the Dragon writing. #f you can stay on tas'& it won$t ta'e long. # don$t want this to ta'e all day.here are other things that need doing.

+hanks, 0ord. I'll try really hard. I love #ou. 9lease hel and don't let anything kee me from hearing #ou today.

# lo3e you& too& -on. #t will 6e fine. #$3e got it under control. Get to wor'.




Dialogue with God / "020 / 1<" am to 1> am / +i6erty& !issouri

Good morning, 0ord. I love #ou.

Good morning& -on. # lo3e you& too.

)hat's the lan, 0ord. I feel really heavy. +oday is already starting off with fear and trembling.

es& -on. oday is important. oday is transition. # am doing a new thing.

9lease 0ord, lease say I'm not out of order. 9lease say that #ou and I are -8 and that I haven't failed you. Iknow I goofed off on $onday and didn't get the *ragon thing written, but I'm really sorry.

-on& hear me. 4est. ou are O?. ou are in !y hand. # will pro3e it to you today. # will show you signs thatyou are where # want you. 4est.

)hatever #ou want, 0ord. +hank you. 9lease give me #our eace. I'm very tired and I don't know what to done&t. 9lease give me wisdom. I'm kind of scared. +here are so many things coming against me and I have noidea how it's all going to ever get settled. I want to serve and focus on #ou, but today they are all coming at me.+he money, the law, the state, the bank, the house, the family, the work, the brothers, I've got lying sirits in themouths of the rohets, I've got red dragons to deal with, I've got a bad tire on the van and so many other thingsall at once. I know #ou said #ou wouldn't give me more than I can handle, but it sure seems like I'm at the limit.

# 'now -on. his is a 6ig day. # 'now it$s hea3y. ;ut it$s not demonic& it$s %ust !e sitting on you. Don$t 6eafraid. # will co3er you li'e a 6lan'et and there will 6e lots of tears today& 6ut don$t 6e afraid and don$t letthe enemy turn it into despair or loneliness.

#es, 0ord. 9lease hel. I'm so weak. I have no hoe without #our hand.

# am here. #t$s time to 6e fruitful and multiply. # ga3e you Genesis " this morning for a reason. # made eachaccording to his 'ind and # made you for a purpose and for this time. )nd # ha3e loo'ed and seen that it isgood. 4est. oday we plant the seed and # will water it and 6ring the increase. #t will grow up fast. ou$llsee.

+hank #ou, 0ord. I love #ou. 9lease forgive my eole. 9lease heal my land. )e are wretched, naked, blind and

oor. 9lease oen blind eyes. 9lease, Abba. I'm sorry. 9ut it on me. )hatever it takes, just heal my eole.

-end the e:newsletter& -on. #$ll help write it. Offer the Dragon writing to those who ha3e ears to hear. )s'the intercessors to pray. ell the story.

Huh( +ell my story( 0ike the whole thing about what I've been through and going through(

es. ell them. +et them share your 6urden. -how them what it costs to see' !e all the way and del3einto the deep things. ell them how to help.

0ord, that doesn't seem very humble. )hat haened to 2like a shee led to the slaughter3(

*o one is ma'ing accusations. ;efore the 6rethren you tell them what you$re going through and you gi3e

the glory to !e for 6ringing you thus far. # will mo3e on their hearts as each needs.9lease 0ord, I need a confirmation. I don't want to seak forth the whole story if I'm not >??@ sure it's #ou.9lease(

-end this to -uEanne. ou already called ,li%ah. 5all again on your phone. # will confirm it.

9lease, 0ord. I love #ou. 9lease give me strength.

# )! sufficient. 4est. #$m here. #t$s all good.

+hanks, 0ord.




Dialogue with God / "0<00 / 100am to 1"0am / +i6erty& !issouri

#es, 0ord. I'm here.


I love #ou, too, 0ord. Good morning. +hanks for getting me u early. +hanks for rayer time with #our saints.)hat's the lan today(

First& # want you to rest. Go 6ac' to 6ed. #$ll get you up when it$s time. 9e need to get that tire replaced atthe Goodyear and you need to get a couple cans of Deft and the hardware to finish up the sign and forthe 6oard tomorrow at eronica$s oice. #$d li'e that done 6efore <0pm. )lso& you need to go ma'ecopies of the 6oo's and the )pology and the 4ed Dragon writing. )nd mail the 6oA to 5hris. Don$t BP- it.

#es, 0ord. +wo cans( Am I going to .. tomorrow( How many coies of the books( *o I need binders( *o I stillneed to buy those sticky hooks(

es& two cans. es& you$re going to .. tomorrow. 4ain "0& )pology "0& Dragon 20& )pologies 00. es& you$ll need 6inders for the 6oo's. #$ll tell you where. es& you are going to need hardware for thesign anyway& so go 6uy the hoo's.

*o I need to go fi& !udy's shower handle(

*ot yet. #$ll tell you when.

Am I sending money to /rother <BBBBBB= in 8enya(

*ope. *ot yet.

/ut 0ord, he's got starving orhans Some money showed u. Shouldn't I hel(

*ope. *ot yet. #t$s not as 6ad as you thin'. #$m doing something there. # 'now they$re suffering 6utHIIIIII has to loo' to !e first& not to any !an.

#es, 0ord. Have #our way, 0ord.

+ord& do you want me to let my wife ha3e those two chec's from ;ruce8

oe. She's on her own. +hat was $y rovision for the ministry. Have /ruce resend them.

es& +ord. #$3e got a lot more peace than normal& don$t #8 Bsually #$m 6awling when we do this. )re weO?8

#es, you're hearing $e better and I'm heling make things easier. )e're going to do this a lot from now on and Ican't have you always making uddles everywhere you go. C1

han's& +ord. ou$re funny. # lo3e ou.

I love you, too, Son.

)nything else8

)e'll adjust as the day moves along. Go get some slee.

O?. han's.




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Good morning, 0ord. +hanks for what #ouDve already done today. +hanks for revelation and wisdom. +hanks forhealing. +hanks for being resent. +hanks for allowing the Sirit to ray through us.

Good morning& -on. )ll is well. ouKre doing 3ery well today. ?eep pressing in and listening to my 3oice. #will lead and guide you through the day. 9e ha3e a lot to do& 6ut it may not seem li'e a lot at the time.

)hatDs first, 0ord(

ou can snac' while youKre on the computer. Drin' the water 6ottles # pro3ided. omorrow youKre fasting.#Kll gi3e a lot of grace on what you eat today.

+hanks, 0ord #our will. )hatever you want is fine with me.

First& answer +eslieKs email. Pray for her clarity and focus. Pray a shield around her and 6rea' the fear.,Aplain the 4ed Dragon to her personally and concisely. -heKs ha3ing a hard time 'eeping focus longenough to hear me.

#es, 0ord.

# want you to pray in tongues a lot today. # want to stretch you and teach you new things. Bse the newone sparingly& 6ut #Kll gi3e you more. #t is a complete language pac'age& e3en though you only got oneword to start. #tKs important. ?eep pressing in.

#es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord.

Get in touch with !erri. -ee a6out mo3ing some stuff o3er there to store temporarily. ou will 6e stayingwith them& at least for a little while. # canKt ha3e you here anymore. ouKll 6e in motion. DonKt get toocomfy / and pac' light. -tore e3erything else at !erriKs. #Km gi3ing them a choice& 6ut thatKs the plan.

#es, 0ord. I could really use some brake work on the van.

# 'now. #K3e got it. 5ontact -te3e. #Kll pro3ide the funds when the time is right.

"all him today(

*o. *ot today. ;ut soon. #Kll tell you when.

Should I send the last dialogue to /rother <BBBBBB= in 8enya(

*o. *ot yet. DonKt respond yet.

)hat else, 0ord(

!a'e some more 6uttons. Finish off the ones you ha3e printed. ouKre going to need to order more partssoon. 9eKre going to distri6ute some of those today. # want you to tal' to +ee at (yee a6out selling themthere. )nd call +inda ?.

#es, 0ord. "all 0inda about the buttons(

es& a6out the 6uttons and whate3er else # put on your heart or hers. Get the design for the neAt t:shirtfinished for 5hris and wor' on his sign.

#es, 0ord. +hanks for smoothing that over with "hris. 9lease heal any hurts there. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou, 0ord.

ouKre welcome. #t will 6e fine. # lo3e you& too.

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"an we talk about the Adamic language(

*ot here. *ot right now.

#es, 0ord. )hat else can I do for #ou(

Pray for J.P. and John (. Pray for ,dwin and )ustin. Pray for ;o6 . Pray for 5arlton.

"arlton, who( I donDt know any "arlton.

Just pray / and mean it. Pray the hard prayer. Bse the new tongue. #K3e got it. Pray that 5lare would gete3erything she needs 6efore she goes 6ac' to )ustralia. Pray for Jay. Bse the new tongue for that& too.

#es, 0ord. +hanks for #our love for all #our children. +hanks that #ou are watching out for us. +hanks for all theeole that #ou tell to ray for me when I need it.

# lo3e you all. # will not lea3e you nor forsa'e you. # will hold you in the palm of my hand and 'eep yousafe. ,3en when the fire is raging& the flames will not consume you. ou are mine.

+hanks, 0ord. #ou are an awesome God and there is no other besides #ou. 9lease donDt ever let me give #ourglory to another 7 or to me. 9lease kee me humble and broken.

es& -on. # will. # always answer that prayer. each them to pray that prayer.

#es, 0ord.

hatKs all for now. ?eep listening. here are some surprises / and some great ministry that will happenlater tonight. # ha3e something special coming for all of you.

+hanks, 0ord. #our will. 9lease donDt let me imose any e&ectations on #ou and what #ou are doing. #ou arefaithful and true and #our romises are yeah and amen. +hanks, 0ord.

# lo3e you& -on.

I love you, too, *ad.

O?& thatKs it. ,mail +eslie.

-8. +hanks.

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Dialogue with God / ""<0 / >am to 120am / +i6erty& !issouri

Good morning, 0ord.

Good morning& -on.

)hat's u(

-on& # want you to focus today. here is a lot that needs doing. # want you to really try hard to listen to my3oice. #$m going to gi3e you a list of things and # want you to get e3erything done. #t$s going to 6e tight.9e$re training here. Just li'e the waffles this morning& if you start praying late or finish late& they will 6urnand the 'ids will fuss. here are conse=uences when the timing is off. ry hard today. he day is comingwhen seconds here or there will ma'e a huge difference. #t$s not %ust o6eying& it$s o6eying at the rightmoment and in the right way : and not adding anything to it so that it runs o3er time. hat$s a 6ig one withyou that we$3e 6een wor'ing on for a long time now.

#es, 0ord. I get it. It sure is. 9lease do whatever #ou have to do to me so that I can fully and comletely follow#our schedule.

ou need to go through all of the stuff you ha3e and #$ll sort it. -ome to store and some to pac'. ou$regoing to need to finish the sign for 5hris as well. #$ll help with that. ou$re going to ha3e to 6e o3er at thehouse at 00pm to pac' up the sauna. )nd you$re going to drop stuff off at !erri and Joseph$s house. #$lltell you when. )lso& you$re going to go 6y (yee and tal' to +ee. #$ll tell you when. ?eep praying throughthe day and practicing the new tongue # ga3e you. ou$re %ust scratching the surface.

#es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. +hanks for #our direction. +hanks for #our gifts. Hel me stay on task and be a goodsteward of all that #ou've given me 1 including time.

ou need to get gas. )nd you need to call -te3e today a6out the 6ra'es. Just replace the pads. *o matterwhat else loo's li'e it might 6e a pro6lem& %ust replace the pads. Pull a 6ig disc 6ac'up of all the files onthe other computer& including the 6uttons. ;ac'up the email files on the , dri3e.

#es, 0ord. *o I have money for gas( And for ads(

es& it$s there. L20 in gas and #$ll ta'e care of the pads.

+hanks for what #ou did last night. +hanks for the surrise. +hat definitely was. Hel me to e6ui "lare fully forthe work that #ou have for her. +hanks for today and what #ou are going to do through her. +hanks for the honecall to ick this morning. +hanks for #our resence. I wish we could have stayed on the line all day, just silentlyfeeling #ou. +hanks for that.

# want you to finish the JeEe6el 6oo'. #$ll show you how. )lso& you need to start documenting all a6out allthe different demons that #$3e shown you. #t$s getting to 6e too many for the a3erage person to remem6er.#$ll help. Just start ma'ing a list of what you$3e learned a6out each one& what they do& what they loo' li'e&where they hide& where they port up& etc. #$ll help.

#es, 0ord. +oday, 0ord(

-ome today& 6ut it will ta'e awhile. )s # lead. ou won$t 6e a6le to finish the JeEe6el today& 6ut dig into itand we$ll see how far we can get.

#es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. Am I going to orthtown to take the sign(

*ot today. Go tomorrow. 5hris will 6e there and you can go 6y the sal3age meat place. Oh& and you$re notfasting tomorrow& %ust today.

-8, thanks, 0ord. #ou know I'll fast if #ou want me to.




eah& # 'now& 6ut it$s O?. his is a period of rest and restoration. here will 6e long fasts down the road&6ut this is a time of refreshing.

#es, it really has been. +hanks so much, 0ord. I love #ou. +hanks for #our saints and the blessing that they havebeen to me. 4ven in the midst of warfare and deliverance, I've just had a whole lot of fun and really enjoyedhaving eole around to walk with all day. +hanks for that.

# 'now what you need. here will 6e more of that coming. +ots of intimate time with indi3iduals in theirhomes. +ots of chances for me to 6less them through you as they care for you and offer their hospitality.Don$t forget that that is the point. #$m wanting to 6less them& so #$m sending you in to gi3e them a chance.#f they recei3e you& #$ll pour out onto them. #f they recei3e you a little& they$ll get a little. #f they fling opentheir arms and put e3erything on the ta6le li'e 5lare and -uEanne did& #$ll pour out 6eyond anything theycould thin' or imagine.

+hanks, 0ord. 9lease soften the hearts of the saints to receive God's anointed. All of them. 0et the rohets andaostles find comfort and rest among the saints. 0et the /ody be restored. +hanks, 0ord.

hat$s a6out it. #$ll ad%ust as we go along.

+hanks, 0ord. I love #ou, 0ord.

# lo3e ou& too& -on. Don$t go ma'ing this a6out OB. his is all a6out !,.

#es, 0ord. I'm sorry, 0ord. I love #ou, 0ord.

# lo3e you& too. Get to wor'.

#es, 0ord. +hanks.

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Dialogue with God / ""70 / "000am to "02am /Phillip$s house& +i6erty& !issouri

Good $orning, 0ord.

Good morning& -on.

+hanks for the work #ou're already doing this morning. I love #ou. 9lease be fully in charge today. I don't wantanything that's not >??@ #ou. 9lease hel me to stay on task and kee my eyes on #ou all day.

# lo3e you& too& -on. #$ll help. oday is important. ?eep watch o3er your heart. he enemy will try withloneliness and sorrow today.

#es, 0ord. +hank #ou, 0ord. 9lease hel, 0ord. #ou are my shield. #ou are my strong tower.

ep& that$s me.

#ou're so funny I love #ou, 0ord.

# lo3e you& too& -on. ;e strong. oday # need you to get the sign to 4i3er 5ity $s and the dis' for the neAtshirt. (a3e him total up what money remains and spend it all on getting as many of that shirt as you can.

On light colors& 6ut not too many white ones. #$ll help. +#-,*CC -tay focused.

-os. Sorry, 0ord. I drifted.

ou need to get o3er to -uEanne$s and get the last of your stuff. ou$ll need to get the stuff in the 3anemptied now and sort through it all at !erri$s later. ou need to get to !etro *orth today and settle withthem a6out the massage chairs. +ea3e the 'eys with -uEanne. +et her 'now you ha3e to ta'e themattresses and put them 6ac' in the trailer. +ea3e the 'eys and the loc' in the top drawer 6y the sin'. Getanything else of yours out of the trailer. ,ither pitch it or lea3e it in the garage at the house. hrow all the6ills and statements and stuff in the des' and the file ca6inet in the trash. ;ring the food from -uEanne$so3er to !erri$s. #$ll tell you what to do with it.

-8, am I calling anybody down South(

es& call -arah Fotopulos. 5all ?e3in.

0ord, I don't have a number for Sarah.

-end her an email and let her 'now you$re coming and as' for a phone num6er. hen call her when youget one.

-8. +hanks.

+ea3e on 9ednesday. #$ll direct. *o hurry. here are stops along the way. #$ll direct your path.

+hanks, 0ord. I just emailed Sarah. )as that -8(

eah& it$s fine. Good %o6.

Are we done(

eah& that$ll do. Print it out and try to stay on tas'.

#es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou.

# lo3e you& too. (ang on& it$s going to 6e a craEy rideC :M

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Dialogue / """00 / 6rea'fast time / OEar'& !issouri)t Fotopulos$ 'itchen ta6le.

Good $orning, 0ord.

Good morning& -on.

I love #ou, 0ord

# lo3e you& too& -on. Gonna 6e a good day& today. ou did really well last night. #$m 3ery proud of you.

... (,C

I'm sorry, 0-;*...the dogs distracted me. I'm sorry.

-tay focused on !e. #$m going to dial some things up today. rust !e. -pea' what # tell you to spea'.

#es, 0-;*. Give me strength. )hat's the lan for today(

5all your Dad. #$ll lead from there. *o& it$s not time to call the +ighthouse yet. 9e are going to somepastors$ today to pray.

#es. 0-;*. As you lead. 4mail(

eah& #$ll get you online again. *o& not calling Bncle ed yet.

Soon(

eah& soon. #$ll tell you when. es& call ,li%ah today : when # lead.

+hanks for what #ou did last night +hanks for what #ou're doing in 8evin. +hanks for communion time and what#ou told him to do. +hat was really retty.

eah& # had a great time& too. ou$re welcome. # lo3e you.

-h, I love #ou, too, 0-;*.

ime to go. Get mo3ing.




Dialogue with God / """>0 / <am to 72>am(oneysuc'le #nn& ;ranson& !issouri

Good morning, 0ord. +hanks for the slee.


I love you, too, 0ord. 9lease hel me today. 9lease rule and reign and be sovereign in every way. 9lease directmy aths and ut #our words in my mouth. It's all about #ou, not about me.

-on& # want you to crystalliEe all that # ha3e gi3en you in the last > hours a6out the 5hurch at ;ranson. #thas much wider applications& 6ut #$3e gi3en you words and dreams and 3isions and written things onyour heart and now it$s time to write it on ta6lets so that the people will hear and 'now.

#es, 0ord. 9lease hel, 0ord. #ou tell me what to say.

)s # ha3e shown you& there is a goal here& there is a finish line of sorts. hey will 'now that they are readyto handle the people that are coming and #$ll 6e ready to turn on the faucet wide open when they caneliminate all the static. 9hen a word or a gift or a directional arrow can mo3e all the way through themwithout losing integrity. Bse the para6le eAamples that # ga3e you& of the Ntelephone gameN and of a

corporate retail sale and of a medical school. hey cannot 6e an effecti3e hospital until they are inharmony& each playing their instrument in their own way& 6ut each in tune and in harmony with the othersand all playing the same piece of music. 9hen we change 'eys& they )++ ha3e to change seamlessly.9hen the pillar of fire pic's up and mo3es& they all ha3e to see it and stand and wal' together at the sametime. -how them the 'ic' line. <0ike the ;ockettes.=

#es, 0ord. I understand. -en the doors for me to seak it.

#t starts with the word ?e3in ga3e on -unday. #t has to flow out and 6e pure and 6e spread throughout thespirals. )nd it has to retain its integrity. Don$t focus %ust on 6rain things either& or it will put too muchemphasis on the soulish. #t$s the same with the spiritual things that are distri6uted to the people. heyha3e to 6e efficient dispensators of that which was entrusted to them. hat$s how they will grow& howthey will flow together and how they will 6ecome wine& not %ust indi3idual grapes connected 6y a 3ine.

9hen they are ready for har3est& # mash them together. hey do *O remain independent any longer. hewine has O*, fla3or throughout& not different fla3ors in different parts of the 6ottle. hey will 'now you6y your lo3e / for each other& for !y 9ord& for !y -pirit and for ruth.

#es, 0ord.

hey will 'now they are ready when it can flow throughout the 6ody without interruption or twisting ormisinterpretation. 9hen they are wal'ing shoulder to shoulder without %ostling each other. here will 6esome that plug it up or mangle it. #n order for this to wor'& they ha3e to "M ha3e a hunger to o6ey& 2M 6eJeEe6el:free& <M 6e all the way full of the -pirit& >M 6e a6le to hear !y 3oice really well and M ha3e !B5(fear of the +ord for what will happen if they transmit a mangled message. )nd& M they ha3e to getcompletely 4ed Dragon:free& and 7M then they ha3e to 'now how to enter into my rest.

#es, 0ord. I understand. 9lease don't let me mangle #our words either 9lease let this be ure and sto it if it's

not

his is ! mo3e& -on. his is ! wor'. hey su6mitted to !e and # will do it. #t will 6e a =uic' wor'& 6utnot many will 6e a6le to go all the way in the first wa3e. ;e prepared to identify those who can$t yet orwon$t : and ma'e allowance for them. DO *O ;4#*G D##-#O* : 6ut some will 6e doctors& some will 6enurses& some will carry stretchers and some will 6e assigned in the !ess (all or the !otor Pool or 6e!.P.$s guarding the gates. )ll are needed. ;ut the ones that listen the 6est are the only ones that can 6esurgeons. ;ut understand that at )* !O!,* # might 6ust through on )*O*, and e=uip them to 6ethe 6est doctor there or # might ta'e a doctor and ma'e them the 6est !P. DO *O put someone in a 6oAand ne3er let them out. ,Apect me to use the 6ase and foolish things. 5ontinue to grow them and try to




raise up doctors. )nd teach the doctors to 6e hum6le and willing to do any %o6 in the place. his is *Oa6out raising up superstarsC his is a6out raising up 3essels that will 6e transparent and # can e=uip anduse anywhere at any time. his is a6out 6eing a swarm of 6ees. ,ach with a stinger& all doing the wor'assigned to them& all critical& all focused on the har3est and all a6le to swarm 3iciously at a commonenemy. ou may 6e a6le to ta'e out a man or a 6ear or a dog& 6ut who can defend against a swarm of6ees8

#es, 0ord. I understand. 9lease write it all on my heart and hel me to e&lain it to 8evin and the others. Hel meto take it to all the laces you intend for it to go. I love #ou.

# lo3e you& too& -on. his is ! show. 4est.

)hat's the lan today, 0ord(

*ic' will call. -pend time with him. Do as # lead. Get ready to mo3e out of the hotel room. 5all thePheasant$s. ou$ll 6e with them for a few days. Prayer at the !ac'$s tonight. #$m not going to gi3e you toomuch more detail today. hings are fluid. ou did really well yesterday e3en though it seems li'e notmuch happened.

+hanks 0ord. "ould you lease ut some dead eole in my ath( I'd like some more ractice with the bigrayers. How are we ever going to raise the dead if we're never around dead eole.

ou$re so cute. #n time& -on. #$ll open doors. #t$s all good. )nswer your emails this morning and go get6rea'fast. *ot the 6uffet& unless they offer it for free. omorrow you$re fasting.

#es, 0ord. +hank #ou, 0ord. I love #ou so much. #ou alone are worthy of glory and honor and raise. #ou aloneare the source of every good thing. #ou are my rovider and my guide and my rest. +hanks, 0ord.

# lo3e you& -on. #$m proud of you. # told you that we would get here and here we are. *e3er forget.

#es, 0ord #ou are true in every way. +hanks so much +hank #ou, 0ord #ou're the best *ad ever

9e could do this all day& 6ut you need to get to wor'. -end this to ?e3in.





Dialogue with God / """0 / "2"pm to "22pmPheasant$s house& Forsyth& !issouri

Good morning, 0ord. +hanks for what #ou've already done this morning. +hanks for having "hris call. 9leaserestore his minutes on his hone and mine and rovide. +hanks for ministry in this home, 0ord. 9lease let #ourwords sink in and all of mine fall away. 0et #our eace rest on this lace.

Good morning& -on. # lo3e you. ou$re welcome. ou did %ust fine. ?eep listening and # will continue toincrease your land.

I love #ou, too, 0ord. +hanks so much. I'm having a great time. +hanks for #our eace. I couldn't do anythingwithout #ou. 9lease don't ever take #our Sirit from me.

4est& -on. oday will go faster than you thin'. !inistry tonight at *ic'$s house. Prayer for Forsyth lateron. Gonna get a hair cut.

"ool +hanks 0ord. #ou show me where and how. 0ord, do #ou think I should worry about the money(

*o. hat would 6e 6ad. Just trust me. #$3e got it.

0ord, why did you have me write that( I never worry about the money anymore.

For the people reading this. # 'now you$re all good.

+hanks, 0ord #ou're so funny. E1 Anything else(

Pray for 5hris and the 6attle he$s fighting. ell -uEanne& 6ut %ust 6road stro'es.

-8.

9rite some more on the demon list. ou$re going to need it soon. )nd ta'e a shower this afternoon6efore you lea3e. Do the laundry.

*id I get all the laundry out of the van(

*ope. 9ash the green sweater and the 6lac' pants& too.

-8, thanks, 0ord I sure love #ou a lot. #ou're the best *ad ever

# lo3e you& too& -on. #$3e got you in the palm of my hand. ou are safe. 4est in me and #$ll open e3ery door.#$m really proud of you.

+hanks, 0ord. It's all #ou. I didn't do anything and I know it. /ut thanks.

Go get the laundry and do that now. hen get to writing.

#es, 0ord.




Dialogue with God / ""200 / 12"am to 1<1am!ac'$s house& ;ranson& !issouri

Good morning, 0ord. I love you.


+hanks for the day. It's really retty. +hanks for what #ou did yesterday and how #ou showed u at the Sundaymorning meeting in /ranson. It was really great.

eah& # thought it was great& too. 5ould ha3e had a little less tal'ing and more praying& 6ut it was reallygood. #$m going to finish what # started here& you don$t need to worry a6out lea3ing. #t$s not a6out youanyway.

#es, 0ord. +hank #ou, 0ord. I know #ou have it under control. 9lease bless them abundantly and send me backwhenever #ou like. Hel me to get better at moving on without tears.

*o& -on. #$m ne3er going to do that. # made you this way and #$m %ust *,,4 going to ma'e it stophurting when you lea3e part of the ;ody 6ehind.

#es, 0ord. Have #our way, 0ord. +hank #ou, :ather. /less #our holy name. #our will be done.

-on& #$m opening doors& your time here is almost done. ell ?e3in that he can send the ;onfire storya6out the +ampstands to all his people or use it to show them what$s coming. -end him this dialogue.5all the papers and see a6out ad rates for non:profits. Go 6y the 6an'. !a'e more copies of the 6oo'swhen you ha3e cash. Bse the BP- store coupon. +isten to me 3ery carefully a6out the computer issue.!a'e some more 6uttons to lea3e here. ,mail Pat and Paul the address in +i6erty.

#es, 0ord. )hen am I leaving(

9ednesday. ou$ll 6e here for han'sgi3ing with them on uesday night.

0ord, where am I going(

#$m not ready to tell you yet. 9hen # do& you need to 'eep it =uiet and go cloa'ed. # don$t want them to seeyou coming.

#es, 0ord. #ou direct, 0ord. )hat else today(

Get the +ighthouse 6rochure off of Giles des'. 4ead it.

#es, 0ord. *o you want me at the intercessory rayer meeting tonight at Fm(

es.

-8, thanks, 0ord. +hat would be great. "an they ray for me(

eah& that$s part of the plan& too. ;ut stay fleAi6le 6ecause things are in motion. (a3e to tie up all theloose ends 6efore you lea3e.

Great +hanks, 0ord. Anything else(

hat$s all for now. Get to wor'.

#es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. I love you so much. #ou've been so good to me. +hanks for the rovision #ou ouredout. 9lease hel me hear you really good and be a good steward.

# lo3e you& too& -on. #$m here. 4est. #t$s not a6out you anyway.

#es, 0ord. +hank #ou, 0ord.




Dialogue with God / ""20 / "0>pm to "01pm(u66ell$s house in 9inns6oro& eAas

#es, 0ord(

# lo3e you& -on.

I love #ou, too, 0ord. +hanks for that. It occurs to me that you always start with that and I sure areciate it.

# lo3e it when e3ery6ody starts with that& too. ell them& would you8

#es, 0ord. I will. )hat's u(

Don$t eApect too much today. #t$s rest mostly. -ome teaching and lots of watching. here$s somethinghidden here and it$s going to 6e hard to find without a lot of focus and attention. al' less and listenmore.


Get the 6ag of originals out of the 3an so you$ll ha3e the cup model handy. Go through that with themwhen # tell you to.

#es, 0ord. I'm really ooed.

# 'now. ou can ta'e a nap. #t$s all good.

I love you, 0ord.

# lo3e you& too& -on. 4est.

#es, 0ord. +hanks.




Dialogue with God / "2"0 / 22am;est 9estern& )ddison& eAas

Good morning, 0ord.


I love #ou, too, 0ord )hat's the lan today(

5hec' out at ""00am. !a'e some calls to find 6inder parts. #$ll direct you after ""00am. 5all ,llie a6outthe time for the prayer meeting tonight and gi3e her directions. Don$t hurry today& it$s going to 6e a longnight.

#es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. +hanks for a good night slee. I really didn't want to stay here. +hanks for making me. Ihoe that whatever was missed can be made u for. I understand that the blood is on my head for talking toolong at lunch and missing the ne&t aointment. +hanks for not making me slee in the van in the cold.

?eep praying for my 6est& -on. -ometimes there will 6e suffering& sometimes there will 6e comfort. -taywilling for either. # will put you in situations that re=uire suffering& 6ut # will always get you through. ;ewilling to accept the times of comfort and e3en luAury as well. #t$s a great laptop& isn$t it8 :M

It sure is +hanks for making me buy it. +hanks for having me stay here. I would have been fine in a lace halfthe cost, but I know that there were divine aointments to get here. +hanks. 9lease hel me to receive. +hanksfor !ames' rayer yesterday about that. 9lease answer it and raise u more folks to watch over me. I love #ou,0ord. #ou're altogether lovely and altogether too good to me for what I deserve.

# lo3e you& too& -on. *o& it$s not time to send out an e:newsletter yet. -oon. +ay low.

-8, thanks. 9lease be with Amalia at -; <-ral ;oberts niversity=. 9lease kee that fire in her burning. I would;4A00# like to see something bust out there.

!e& too& -on. #t will. #$3e got it.

I'm still tired, 0ord. /ut I can't slee anymore, can I(

eah& you can go 6ac' to 6ed. here$s nothing urgent. #t$s all good. #$ll help you rest.

+hanks, 0ord. Am I finished(

ep. +o3e you. Decem6er is going to 6e amaEing.

0ove #ou, too. +hanks, 0ord.

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Dialogue with God / "20 / "0> am to ""0am)icardi$s house& Pensacola& Florida



)hat's u, 0ord( Am I off schedule(

*ope. 9e$re right on trac'. # 'now it seems weird& 6ut today is going to mo3e slowly for awhile.

-8, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. How come I worked for an hour and a half on a tri udate and then the comutercrashed just before I f inished(

Don$t worry a6out that. #t was %ust for me.

-8. )hatever. I know #ou've got it. +hanks for not letting me throw the comuter or something +hanks for youreace that asses understanding. 9lease continue to sontaneously disrut my life and my efforts at anymoment. )hatever #ou want is fine with me

# lo3e you& too. :M

So what's the lan today, 0ord(

# want you to lea3e right at ""<0. Go to Foley and ha3e lunch at +am6ert$s. 9atch for appointments. a'ea cup model in your poc'et. hen stop at the Pensacola 5hristian 5ollege after that and go where # lead.;e 6ac' 6efore >pm to meet !itt. #mportant stuff tonight. ;ig part of why you$re here. Pray for !itt$s safetra3el as well.

h, 0ord, don't you retty much have big angels around his car and this all lanned out( I never get why I need toray for stuff that I know #ou're going to do anyway.

-top thin'ing so much. Just do what # tell you. :M

#es, 0ord. #ou're the boss.

Pretty sure. :M

+hanks, 0ord. +hanks for this leg of the tri. +hanks for letting me see ;ick in $ississii. +hanks for +om $orris<the hitchhiker= and all the other folks along the way. +hanks for *avid and /ob and $itt and the folks here.9lease watch over $itt's car and kee he and his wife safe on this tri. 9lease don't let anything throw off #ourschedule and #our uroses. "rush anything the enemy is trying to do, in the ame of !esus.

here you go. hat wasn$t so hard was it8 :M

E1 0ove #ou, 0ord.

+o3e you& too.

Hey, am I getting an alignment today(

*ope. omorrow.

Hmm. -8. )hatever #ou say. Should I call them or go by or something( -H Sorry, 0ord, I got distracted.

#t$s O?. # didn$t go anywhere. # told you today would 6e 'ind of relaAed.

#eah, thanks, 0ord.




Don$t worry a6out the alignment& go 6y in the morning. he place ;o6 told you.

+hanks, 0ord. Anything else(

eah. 4est.

-8, I'll try. 9lease hel. +hanks, 0ord.

ou 6etcha. O?& that$s it. +o3e you.

0ove #ou, too, 0ord.

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Dialogue with God / "2""0 / ><am to am;est 9estern& *ash3ille& ennessee

Good morning, 0ord. +hanks for breakfast. I love #ou.

Good morning. # lo3e you& too& -on.

9lease, 0ord, what's the lan today( Am I in the right lace(

es& you$re %ust fine. han's for as'ing. ou$re doing a great %o6. 4emem6er that when pieces of OBsurface& it$s %ust so # can 'ill them& not to ma'e you feel 6ad. # didn$t send my -on into the world tocondemn the world& 6ut that the world through (im might 6e sa3ed. #t$s %ust to show the distance6etween where you are and where you should 6e& so that you can as' for more of me and less of you. #t$snot to ma'e you feel 6ad. hat can$t really 6e helped& # 'now& 6ut don$t li3e there.

#es, 0ord. I get it. +hanks. +hanks for #our Son. +hanks for #our sacrifice. +hanks for #our atience and love.4secially #our love.

ou$re welcome& -on. -top dwelling on Pensacola. #$3e got it. ou did fine.

/ut, 0ord, how come it's still messing with me( )hy can't I get it out of my head( Is there something stillunresolved or something on me( I don't want to lay footsies with it anymore, but it won't go away. How do I

close the door( It usually doesn't bother me like this

ou ha3e to as' me to do it.

/ut I have been and it's still messing with me I don't get it.

# lo3e you. # lo3e them. ;rea' the ties. -pea' it out. -lice it off.

#es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. It's done.

ep. *ow stand in faith.

#es, 0ord.

#$3e got it. #$ll ta'e care of it. *ot li'e you eApect. *ot li'e Da3e& 6ut #$ll fiA it. -top worrying a6out writing anemail to the fol's there. ou$re se3ered until further notice. *o contact until they contact you. -o don$tworry a6out it.

#es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. +hat hels. )hat's the lan today(

Gonna go slow and rest. ou ha3e two hours till chec'out. a'e a nap.

:or real( I just got eight hours

ep. ou 'now you$re tired. Get off the computer and nap. hen go to the ;aptist 6uilding& then toander6ilt. #$ll lead from there. Don$t call the Friths until # tell you.

#es, 0ord. 9lease hel me slee, 0ord.

# will. # lo3e you& -on. ou$re doing a great %o6. ?eep listening and learning.

+hanks, 0ord. It's all #ou. I know I couldn't do this. 9lease finish the work #ou started in ;achael <my wife=. ottoo soon, but whenever you're ready.

# will& -on. -he$ll 6e glorious. Just rest. #$3e got it.

+hanks, 0ord. I love #ou

# lo3e you& too& -on. 4est.

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Dialogue with God / "2"0 / 7>1am to 0<amroyer$s house& !t. (ope& Ohio (olmes 5ounty& )mish countryM

Good $orning, 0ord. I love #ou.

# lo3e you& too& -on. Good morning. #$m real proud of you.

0ord, I didn't do anything It was all #ou

# 'now& -on& 6ut you listened and o6eyed and it was really pretty.

+hanks, 0ord. It )AS really retty. I so love it when #ou come and straighten things out. It could have gone reallybadly last night, but #ou just swooed in and gently moved hearts the right direction. I sure areciate it. 9leasewreck Holmes "ounty. 9lease fill the Amish so full of !esus that nothing else can fit

hat$s the plan& -on. 4est. #$3e got them all right where # want them. *othing can stand against my Fire.

+hanks, 0ord. +hanks for letting me watch. )hat's the lan today(

!ore of the same. each them how to get so full nothing else can fit. Don$t 6e in a hurry& #$ll direct all ofyour paths. 4est in me.

#es, 0ord. )hatever #ou say. +hanks for "hris. 9lease bless him abundantly and get anything out of the waythat kees him from hearing #ou really good all the time. +hanks, 0ord. I'm having a lot of fun with him.

ou$re welcome& -on. #sn$t he a great 'id8 #$m really proud of him. (e$s real special& so ta'e good care ofhim.

#es, 0ord. I will, 0ord. Anything I need to do right now(

*ope. ou$re fasting until further notice. Just go where # say. ?eep praying for Jonas. he enemy 'nowsyou$re here now. ,Apect them to regroup and attac' from a new direction. 9atch for snea'y& su6tleattac's. hey$re also going to go for the soft targets& so armor up 9ilma and +eon and the girls reallygood.

#es, 0ord. I will, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. Anything else(

Don$t worry a6out anything. #$3e got it all under control. ou$re right where # want you. 4est.

+hanks, 0ord. I love #ou.

# lo3e you& too. 9or' on the Demon 6oo' until 5hris wa'es up.

#es, 0ord.




Dialogue with God / "2210 / ><am to 1<2amO3erstreet$s house& +i6erty& !issouri



I'm here, 0ord. )hat's the lan today(

4est& -on. #$3e got it. oday is a day of details and tying up loose strings. ry ?e3in again when # tell youtoo. ?eep praying for -uEanne and -usie. 5hec' in with 5hris ,. after noon& unless he calls you first.

ou$re not going to 6e a6le to get the t:shirts 6efore you lea3e. hat was %ust you. +ea3e that alone.

Sorry about that 0ord. 9lease forgive me. I'm sorry for the wasted time and gas and stuff.

#t$s O?& it was part of the plan. # forgi3e you.

I love #ou, 0ord. )hat else(

# lo3e you& too. ;e ready for =uic' directional changes. Don$t put me in a 6oA. his is listening ando6edience practice for all of you. ;ut whate3er path # send you down& #$ll meet e3ery need and you$ll 6e

ready.

#es, 0ord. I know, 0ord. +hank #ou. *o I need to call *avid at -;(

*ope. *ot yet. -end him the two email trip updates when you find his email address. )malia sent it toyou in an email : if you can$t find the scrap of paper you wrote it on. :M

-h, yeah +hanks, 0ord. 9lease increase my faith. 9lease hel me to trust my brothers and sisters more andknow when they are hearing you really well. 9lease hel me to stay out from under any of the red dragons.9lease, 0ord( +hey really scare me because I know it means I'll wander from #our erfect will.

4est& -on. #$ll put you through what # choose for you.

......

#es, 0ord. +hanks for letting "hris 4. call just now. +hanks for showing me the thing that was still holding himback. +hanks for freeing Him. 9lease tie u all the loose ends there. It was real retty, 0ord. All the way down tohaving "hris and I say goodbye the very IS+A+ before my hone ran out of minutes. I love how #ou do that.0ast night the hone died the second after I was done talking to Su5anne. I know most eole might not beimressed, but it's that little stuff, all day long that hels build my faith. -H So thanks for answering the rayer I

just rayed above )ow +hat was fast +hanks #ou're the best.

ou$re welcome& -on. here are F)4& F)4 more things li'e that than you are capa6le of noticing. #$3epac'ed your days with so many little treasures li'e that that it will ta'e years of you and # watching thereplays to see them allC 9e$ll %ust sit and laugh and you can mar3el at how well the Father ta'es care ofyou& e3en when you don$t notice. #f you or any6ody reading thisM as's me to start showing them all the

little QcoincidencesR that #$3e arranged in their li3es& # will. # lo3e doing it and # want them to see howin3ol3ed # truly am in their li3es.

-h, #4S, 0ord Show them A00 to me I know I see lots of them all day long. So many I couldn't even write themall down /ut show them all to me. As many as I can handle without my head e&loding. Show me A00 the siralsand alications of all that you're doing around me on every level.

4est& -onC # will& 6ut it would occupy too much of your system resources to handle it all. 9e$ll get there. #lo3e your heart.

-h, Abba. 9lease just use me as a walking, talking e&amle of #ou. )hatever #ou want to do with me is fine.




)hatever I have to give u is fine. I trust #ou. Have #our way. I love #ou.

# lo3e you& too& -on. 4est. es& you can get a hair cut today.

+hanks, 0ord. Are we done(

ep. ;ut # lo3e you.

I love #ou, too. 9lease be fully in charge today and rule and reign in every way and order all of my stes and

control the words of my mouth and the intentions of my heart. 9lease have #our way in all things and roll over meif I try to have my own way.

O?. (appy to do it. +o3e you.

I love #ou, too, 0ord. +hanks.

ou 6etcha.




Dialogue with God / "207 / >2pm / O3erstreet$s house& +i6erty& !O

-h God I hurt so bad. -h, God, I'm so lost. 9lease hel. 9lease hold me )hat is this(

#$m here -on& # lo3e you.

I love #ou, too, 0ord. 9lease hel. 9lease e&lain it. I need #ou, not any man.

#$m here -on& #$m here. #t$s all !e. rust me. # 'now what #$m doing. !y ways are not your ways. #t$s all partof the plan. 4est.

I don't know how to rest, 0ord. It hurts so bad 9lease hel me 4verything feels wrong, everything is twisted.

# 'now& -on. # 'now. Just power through. 5ow6oy up.

-h, God. 9lease Abba, lease, I don't now what to do. I'm not hearing good and it's freaking me out.

ou$re %ust fine& the pro6lem is with too much input. 4emem6er when you first got tongues and you weretranslating e3erything and answering =uestions in it8 #t was so strong for three days until it settled in.his is li'e that. ou didn$t notice right away& 6ut the anointing shot up and so did your input . # 'now it$sscram6ling some things. Just 'now it$s all part of the plan and # 'now what #$m doing. #t will settle downsoon. #t$s li'e feed6ac' on a hot microphone. Just endure the screech for a little while and it will go away

when the le3els settle 6ac' down.

I don't know what to do, 0ord. othing seems to be heling and I feel far from #ou. +hings are changing reallyfast and I can't get a handle on it.

ou$re not supposed to& -on. hat$s the point. hat$s always 6een the point. ou don$t need to figure itout& %ust o6ey.

I'm sorry, 0ord. #es, 0ord. 9lease hel me. +his hurts really bad I'm way over my head here.

#$m helping& -on. Get some rest. Get some time alone. Don$t try to reach out& %ust you and me is enough.

I'm sorry, 0ord. #es, 0ord. #ou and me. 9lease, :ather, lease take me home. I hate this lace. /ut not my will,but your's.

#n time& -on. 4est.

I don't know how to rest, 0ord. ot when there is so much ain. 4verything is changing. I don't know what I canstand on. It's not about the eole, I'll give them all u. I did give them all u. It's not about my ride or myministry or whatever. I just feel like there is nothing reliable at all.

hat$s what it was li'e when # was here. hat$s the way it$s always 6een. *othing here is relia6le& only theFather. ou were %ust lulled into a sense that it was sta6le& 6ut it ne3er was. !arriages& %o6s& cars&economies& weather& go3ernments / none of it is really sta6le when # don$t want it to 6e. ou ha3e to learnto trust in !, and !, only. )nd you ha3e to want O*+ what # want. #f we go with what OB want& this isne3er going to wor' out right. ou had to learn this. )nd # ha3e to write it on your heart so that you$llne3er forget.

#es, 0ord. #es, 0ord. )hatever it takes, 0ord. *on't let me back down 9lease, Abba. *on't let me chicken out.Give me whatever it takes to endure. I'll stand, I will, I romise. 9lease hel me.

+ay low for awhile. +et the dust settle. #$ll ta'e care of e3erything.

#es, 0ord. I'm so tired, 0ord. I really need a hug.

#$m here& -on. #$ll hold you& %ust rest in !y arms.

+hanks, Abba.




Dialogue with God / "07 / "22pm;est 9estern& ;a'er 5ity& Oregon

Good morning, 0ord. I love you.

# lo3e you& too& -on. #$m right in the middle of all of this& don$t worry.

+hanks for heling me with the drive 0ord. I know that you have to have been doing something for me to drive >hours straight with just a coule of hours of slee +hanks for rotecting the van and watching out for me on theroad. How many times have you saved my life since I first left 8ansas "ity two months ago(

ou$re welcome& -on. #$ll always gi3e you e3erything that you need to accomplish ! purposes. #$3esa3ed your life "> times in the last two months.

)ow +hanks 0ord. I know about some of them, esecially when that cement truck stoed short in front of me And I know that deer on the shoulder of the highway in the ;ocky $ountains yesterday was really thinking about juming in front of me. +hanks for all the ones I don't know about as well. I know #ou are taking really good careof me and watching out so well for me. +hanks for the rovision for this tri and working out the details so wecould get access to the funds just in time. I never know where it's going to come from, but I never have to worry

9hen money doesn$t come& start to wonder if you$re wor'ing my plan or planning your own wor'.

#es, 0ord. Hel me to always stay in #our erfect will. 9lease ignore any rayers that I ray, even the intentionsof my heart, that don't align with your best, most erfect will. I know that #ou will adjust sometimes to lease usand still find a way for it to bring #ou glory, but I don't want that. I want #our very, very best and I know thatmeans that it needs to be A00 #ou and -4 of me. I know it's my birthright as a joint heir and that #ou willhear my etitions, and that no man can take it from me, but I lay it down willingly. 9lease have all of #our wayand -4 of my way.

4eady to listen now and stop tal'ing8

-os. #es, 0ord. Sorry, 0ord.

?eep dri3ing. his meeting with John is important. ou$ll see. hen head for home. *ot going any farther-outh on this trip. *ow is not the time for 5alifornia.

#es, 0ord.

Gonna gi3e you more info on the way. #$m sorry a6out you ha3ing to miss your daughters$ 6irthday party&6ut it$s not time yet. # do want it all restored& 6ut it$s not time. he girls will 6e fine.

#es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou. )hatever #ou want is fine.

ime to go. !ore later.





Dialogue with God / "107 / 7"1am(ic's$ house& (ampton& #owa


Good morning& -on& # lo3e you& too. #$m right on top of this. ,3erything is fine. # 'now it loo's strange& 6ut# 'now what #$m doing.

0ord, I'm erfectly willing but the ersecution has increased and I don't seem to be doing anything to slow it down.In fact, I'm just retty sure #- are having me say things that make eole more mad at me How is this bringingunity and eace( "hris says he heard #ou tell him that I have a ;ed *ragon with my face on it. I'm sure I don't,but he's going to need to hear from #ou about why we're hearing differently. I don't know what the deal is.

#t$s fine. #$ll ta'e care of 5hris. ou$re going to ha3e to learn to let !, do the tal'ing sometimes.,3ery6ody has to gi3e each other the 6enefit of the dou6t and see' !e really hard and #$ll sort it out. oudon$t ha3e a red dragon. ou laid it all down in ;ranson& e3erything you want or desire or thin' is 6est.he intentions of a persons heart are not the same as ha3ing a red dragon with your own face on it. !ostof it is su6conscious anyway. rust me& # 'now what #$m doing.

I do trust #ou, 0ord. I do. I'll endure whatever. I know that a lot of the ersecution in the ast has come because Isaid things that I could have held in. I know that #ou're trying to make me tough and to show the /ody that real

ersecution will come if you let !esus out of your mouth all the time. 9lease don't sto. Have #our way in allthings. *on't let me ever get in your way. I trust my shield, 0ord. I trust that you have it under control and that if itmakes it out of my mouth, it was art of #our lan. I know that #ou are sovereign in all things.

ep. # )!. (ang in there& -on. #t$s all under control. # won$t put you through more than you can handle.-ometimes the refining fire hurts and sometimes when fire comes out of your mouth to refine others itta'es on really uneApected forms. Just rest. #$3e got it.

+hanks 0ord. Am I finished fasting, cause #ou know I'll go on until whenever if that's what #ou want.

*ope. *ot yet. -oon.

-8, thanks, 0ord. Anything else(

*o. #t$s all good. Just hang loose and try not to let stuff 6other you. #$3e got it under control. #$ll ta'e careof 5hris and -uEanne and 5lare and 4ic' all the others.

+hanks, 0ord.

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Dialogue with God / ""007 / ""am to 12"am(ic's$ house& (ampton& #owa

Good morning, 0ord.


I love #ou, too, 0ord. It was a weird night. *o I need to write down that song for my wife I got in the dream(

*o& it$s not for now. #$ll gi3e you more later on that. -tart paying attention& though& #$m going to startgi3ing you songs li'e that.

)ow. +hanks, 0ord Should I kee a recorder around at night(

eah& that$d 6e good.

)hat's the lan today, 0ord(

9e$re going to do some city:reaching today. )ppointments are all arranged. Just listen good and #$ll wor'it all out. Go in humility / and get a hair cut.

+hanks, 0ord. I will. Show me where.

4oger$s.

-8. +hanks, 0ord.

hat$s it. Get dressed.

-8. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou.

# lo3e you& too& -on. #t$s all good. #$m fully on the hrone. 4est.

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Dialogue with God / ""07 / 6rea'fast5omfort #nn& )l6u=uer=ue& *!

Good morning, 0ord.


-h, I love #ou, too, 0ord. 9lease rule and reign today in every way. 9lease get me where you want me andcontrol the words of my mouth and the intentions of my heart. 9lease, 0ord( +here's no other way to do thiswithout that

es& -on. # will. ou$re on the right trac'. (ead -outh.

*o you want us to go ray in the ghost town(

es& that would 6e fine. 9ait for a call from 5arl& 6ut head -outh anyway.

0ord, what's that mean( )ait, but head there anyway(

Don$t thin' so much. Just do what you need to do and #$ll wor' out the details.

#es, 0ord. I love you, 0ord.

# lo3e you& too. Don$t worry a6out what to say to 5arl. #$ll gi3e you the words. ou$re going in ahead ofPaul to plow the ground. +i'e Daniel *ash.

-8, hay to do it, 0ord. 4ven if I don't see 9aul. Is that it(

eah& that$s all for now. Get mo3ing. )nd 6rush your teeth.

#es, 0ord. +hanks, *ad E1




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)hat's u(

ou did really well yesterday. #$m really proud of you.

+hanks, 0ord. It was all #ou. I know that I didn't do anything e&cet get out of #our way.

# 'now& -on. ;ut you did a really good %o6 of getting out of my way. #t was really pretty& wasn$t it8 hatwas all ,4 important yesterday. (e is 3ery important to the 'ingdom and to what # ha3e for you to do.(e was still chained and you freed him. #t was really pretty.

-h, 0ord. I didn't free Him, #ou did

es& # 'now& 6ut you were there and you were the tool # used and # want you to 'now that #$m 3ery proud

of you and that # appreciate what you did yesterday.

+hanks, 0ord. I never 6uite get that, but thanks.

Don$t thin' so much. #$m trying to show you that& e3en if someone does something in o6edience to Godand they$re %ust transparent and it$s pure Jesus coming out of them& 6e gracious to the person and than'them and ac'nowledge their part in 6eing there and 6eing o6edient. # 'now it$s a fine line 6etween6uilding their pride and ma'ing it a6out them and %ust appreciating their o6edience& 6ut try to find thatplace. #t 6uilds their faith and ac'nowledges their -onship when you gi3e them a little pat on the head fordoing the right thing.

#eah, but didn't you make them do it anyway( )asn't it all art of the lan and they really didn't have as manychoices as they think they have( )asn't it going to get done one way or another anyway(

-ee& that$s what #$m tal'ing a6out. -top thin'ing so much. # don$t really need your understanding to helpme out here. Just ac'nowledge me in all of your ways and # will direct your paths.

#es, 0ord. Sorry, 0ord. Have your way. 9lease teach me how to roerly affirm and encourage eole for theirart in your master lan. #ou are sovereign and you know best. I love #ou.

# lo3e you& too& -on. # made you this way for a reason and it$s O? that you ha3e to analyEe e3erything&that$s part of what you$re for. ;ut sometimes you ha3e to %ust rest. here are some mysteries you will*,,4 6e a6le to get your head around until you$re disconnected completely from this world. )nd #$m notgoing to do that until the %o6 # ha3e for you is completed.

#es, 0ord. Have your way, but the sooner you take me Home, the better. I hate this lace.

# 'now& -on. ;ut it$s not time yet. #$ll tell you when it$s time.

+hanks, 0ord. 9lease bless *e5i and "arl and all the other folks we've met on this tri. 9lease bless 9aul and;ita that they would have a refreshing and growing time with "arl and Sheila. 9lease bless /ob and Andrew and$ichael and ;ick and *arren and $ike. Have your way with them, 0ord. )hatever it takes to get them walking inthe fullness of all that you have for them, do it. 4ven if it hurts. /less #our holy name, 0ord. 9lease be with thefolks at home, with Su5anne and "lare and 4ddie and 0arry and all the others. 9lease be with !anice and *enaand 8risti and !immie and *ave and !on and all the folks from the furniture store days. 9lease reveal yourself tothem in new ways and give them a bigger and bigger cu of !esus.

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# will& -on. hey are all in my hand.

+hanks, 0ord. And 0ord, lease, when you're ready, could you lease finish the work that you started in my wife(I know your romises to me about this and I'm willing to wait, but if there is something that I need to ray to loose#ou in some way to finish the work, lease have me ray it. 9lease don't let me do anything or say anything ordesire anything that gets in your way. :inish the work that #ou started in her. I know that she is a mighty warriorand that she will be a mighty helmate. 9lease, Abba, I'd really like that when it's #our time. +hanks for yourromises. I'll wait. She's worth it. #ou're worth it. I know that I'm just walking the same ath that #ou are walking,waiting for a ure, sotless /ride to return to #ou. And I'm willing, 0ord. I said that I would share in #our suffering

and I will 7 at least the ortion allotted to me that I can handle. And I'm glad to do it, but it hurts a lot. /ut I'm notasking you to take the ain away, just to hel me walk under the burden and fulfill your uroses.

# lo3e you& -on. #t will all 6e worth it / for you and for me. ou$ll see. #t will 6e glorious.

#es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. Have #our way, 0ord.

)re you done tal'ing now8

#es, 0ord. I'm sorry, 0ord.

his meeting today is important. hey$re all important& 6ut today is li'e a lynch pin. #t$s a 'ey. )ll thecomponent pieces are coming together. hey won$t line up =uite li'e you$re eApecting& 6ut all the pieces

are coming together. ou$re restoring the connecti3ity of the ;ody and tying together all the loose pieces.#t$s %ust the 6eginning of what is to come& it$s %ust your little piece of it& 6ut you$re a forerunner wal'ing itahead of them. # sent 5hris to help trac' and organiEe all the contacts so that you wouldn$t lose a singleone. es& you need to get in touch with 5harles in +at3ia. he fire is a6out to spread across the ocean.)nd you need to get with !oses in ?enya as well. ou need to eAplain the +ampstands to him as clearlyas possi6le. 9hen # tell you to& rewrite the city church 6oo' with all that you 'now now. Suote *ee as anappendiA& 6ut not as the main 6ul' of the 6oo'. ou ha3e enough now to stand on your own.

#es, 0ord. I will.

)lso& send the Dialogues 6oo' to +isa and to -usie and to -arah for their input. )nd to (lena. ?eepwor'ing on the demons 6oo' and incorporate all you 'now a6out the shields and the progression wewal'ed through.

-8. )ow, you want me to tell them about the shields, too(

9hat is there to lose8 ou already sound completely nuts. :M

#eah, I guess so. +hanks, 0ord #ou're so funny. +hanks for what you've made me to be. +hanks for this wildadventure. I was reading back through some of the *ialogues and on *ecember >st you told me *ecember wouldbe ama5ing and it sure was +hat was 9ensacola and Alabama and ashville and 8no&ville and $anchester andHolmes "ounty and 9atterson, ew !ersey and then a race back to 8ansas "ity, then "hristmas all together,then back to /ranson and then that bombshell revelation on ew #ear's 4ve that almost crushed me and thenending the year fellowshiing with some beautiful folks at a biker church in Arkansas. It really was ama5ing.

Asbury and /erea and + and icking u "hris :rith and just one miraculous rovision and aointment afteranother. 4ven the stuff with family was all #ou. #ou're an ama5ing God. #ou are always true to #our word andyet we're never 6uite able to get our heads around what #ou are really u to. +hanks for that. +hanks for theadventure. +hanks for the u55les and scavenger hunts and brain teasers. +hanks for the surrise resents andhidden treasures and une&ected blessings. #ou know what I need and I'm never going to lose interest in #ou+hanks, 0ord.

# lo3e you& too& -on.

*o I need to make coies today( I'm almost out of the laminated cu cards.

eah. #$ll show you where.

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Is there anymore to do on the *ialogue book(

*ot for now. Just add this one and sa3e it and send it off. ;ut # did already tell you to add your QPersonal,Aperience with the (oly -piritR writing to it / don$t forget.

-h, yeah. -8. +hanks, 0ord.

hat$s it. a'e care of that this morning 6efore 5hris wa'es up.

-8, 0ord. +hanks. I love #ou so much. +hanks for adoting me. I can't imagine what my life would be without#ou.

# lo3e you& too& -on. ou$re mine and #$m ne3er going to let you go. *ow get to wor' and stop crying.

#es, *ad.




*eed ) -piritual une:up80ots more available on www.:ellowshiofthe$artyrs.com

In the last coule of years I have visited do5ens and do5ens of different congregations. Sometimes I willfellowshi with four or five different congregations on one Sunday. As the 0ord has led, I've had the greatrivilege to get familiar with more astors of more denominations than most anybody I know. I've seen the good,the bad and the ugly in all the different styles and traditions and doctrines.

+he most common thing that I've seen is that almost universally there is a tendency toward utting on rogramsand ignoring the individual. +he bigger the congregation, the greater the tendency. %;ead the 2ndeniable

A&ioms3 online. In reality how that manifests always includes a statement about family and concern for theindividual but then it's offset and negated by the reality of a structure seemingly engineered to disregard individualneeds. However unconscious this may be, the reality is clearly that millions of "hristians are -+ walking in thefullness of "hrist or worse, walking around with massive oressions that continue untreated.

+here are +-S of eole leaving the institutional churches. $illions of them er year. )hy( /ecause they don'tfeel like their individual needs are getting addressed. +hey may sit through a good sermon that has some lifealication, but they don't see or feel the radical transformation that should come as a art of the normal "hristianlife. -r worse, they have a crisis or a need and nobody in the church resonds aroriately.

)e are -+ honoring God. )e are singing and dancing and retending everything is fine while eole are

bleeding to death in the ews %not to mention in the streets. 0isten to me, God does -+ want you to raise andworshi Him while you're ignoring the erson sitting ne&t to you who is having a crisis It *-4S -+ bring Himhonor for you to raise your hands and tell Him how great He is while you :AI0 to act like Him and heal thosenearest to you. Heal them 7 or at least +;4A+ them 7 and +H4 you can go raising and worshiing and tellingHim how great He is. He just *-4S -+ want to hear you singing while you're ignoring eole that are cryinginside #our rayers are going to bounce off of the brass over your head until you act like !esus. !ust knock it off

7 or else. He's not going to ignore their cries much longer.

+he church should be like the + show $JAJSJH. If they're having a arty and someone shouts "hoersthen the music stos and everybody rushes into action to do triage. +hat means raidly identifying andcategori5ing the wounded based on needs 1 the bleeding, sucking chest wounds go first, then the broken legs,then the scratches. A:+4; everybody is treated and in ;ecovery 7 +H4 you can go back to your arty. /utwhat kind of hosital would you be if you let them bleed to death in the comound because you refuse to stosinging and dancing because you had a schedule to kee( #ou lanned for this arty to take an hour and a half

and, by golly, you're going to stay on time no matter what.

4ven when !esus was right in the middle of a great sermon and had them all in the alm of His hand, if aaraly5ed guy droed down out of the roof, !esus S+-994* +A08IG and healed him. +H4 He could go onwith his sermon 1 A* everybody was ;4A00# imressed because of the miracle that had just haened in frontof them I'm not sure which would be the bigger miracle in some churches, that a aralytic rose and walked awayor that the astor stoed in the middle of a sermon

+he eole of God need to be trained u in how to raidly identify the hysical, emotional and siritual warfareoressing and killing their brethren and they need to be emowered to go and treat them on the sot. +he musicneeds to sto until 44;#/-*# in your cam is bandaged u. "hurch will not be he 5hurch until it stosbeing a show and starts being a hosital, first and foremost. +he reason it's not that now is because we abdicatedto aid leadershi to do all the work for us and they can't ossibly kee u. In fairness, many of them got to likingit and now don't trust the /ody to hel them 1 so it's a vicious cycle. /ut it's got to sto. +he /ody has to learn to

care for the /ody, whether or not there is a aid staffer. )e need the Gifts of *iscernment of Sirits and8nowledge oerating in force and we need to get back to fulfilling the Great "ommission 1 first by cleaning u ourown messes, then by G-IG. )e can't wait for them to "-$4 7 cause when we do, they're not staying, and it'sbecause they're not getting healed %because we're not acting like !esus.

If any of this stuff has convicted you and you reali5e you layed a art in sustaining a system that hasn't beenworking or you ever ignored someone that was bleeding because you had your own agenda, now would be agood time to find a 6uiet lace, hit your knees and say you're sorry. "rying hels God know you're serious. #oumight also want to admit it ublicly to the eole affected. How are they ever going to learn how to reent reallygood if somebody doesn't show them( *on't wait for somebody else to do it. It has to start with you.






-o what is a -piritual une:Bp8

:irst it's aimed at eole that already have !esus, but the rocess is the same regardless. A erson who is lostcould turn their life over and ush through lots of the stes right away and be that much more effective sooner. It's

just a matter of hunger level and God's sense of your rearedness. +he goal is immediate radicaltransformation, not gradual incremental change culminating in erfection after death. )e believe that it's ossiblethat God can heal and deliver and restore and sanctify instantly and we're going to aim for that. If He chooses totake longer, that's fine, but we're going to AS8 for ma&imum change in minimum time 1 even if it hurts. )hich it

will.

+yically, we would take a hard look at each of the three factorsC /ody, Soul and Sirit. Asking the Holy Sirit tohel us discern any areas where there is resistance to the will of "hrist, we would scan through each layerlooking for whatever the 0ord would choose to reveal. It might be a hysical illness that has a siritual cause, itmight be a soulish anger or bitterness or unforgiveness that is blocking Him and bringing down hysical curses,or it might be a siritual roblem of diminished caacity for Him because of limitations or filters that have beenlaced on God. It might be a demonic oression that has really old roots in abuse or addiction or someunresolved, ast sin that oened a doorway and allowed legal ground for the enemy. All of these are resolvablewithin the scoe of the ower granted to us through "hrist. Some can be settled nearly instantly and done awaywith once and for all. $any eole have e&erienced through this rocess an immediately lightness at theremoval of some old yokes of oression. Some e&erience immediate hysical changes as healing to theirillnesses or removal of addictions comes at the same time. )e want to allow God room to act in A# way Hesees fit. )e don't want to ut Him in a bo& anymore )e want to believe that He is big enough to con6uer

anything and that He wants us free. He is big enough, right( And He does want us fully free, right( All the wayfree( -f everything(

)hen you do a tune1u on a vehicle, you want to find anything that is keeing it from running at eak efficiency. Amisalignment, a missing art, low fluids, bad filters, even burnt out bulbs 1 anything that needs to be changed oradjusted so that it can be renewed back to the way it was designed. It's all in ;omans >K. In thanks for His mercywe offer our bodies as living sacrifices 1 holy, leasing and accetable 1 that is our siritual act of worshi.

So first, we have to be willing to offer our /ody 1 the vehicle, and all that it holds 1 as a sacrifice. )e need to bewilling and we need to commit to hold -+HIG back. +hat verse does -+ say we offer half of our body as aliving sacrifice 7 or even L?@. +he whole thing needs to go on the altar. A00 means A00.

/efore we can do anything else, we need it to be a holy, leasing and accetable sacrifice. And since oursinfulness screams against our holiness, and our own nature confirms it, it's clear that only by the atoning /loodof !esus is there any chance that we can be a leasing and accetable sacrifice. So before any tune1u is goingto do any good, we need to scrub the whole thing down with the /lood of !esus. #ou have to have acknowledgedyour needfulness for the /lood and asked Him to wash you clean of every sin.

Said less religiously, you have to tell !esus you're sorry for all the bad stuff you let in and you have to really meanit 1 and you have to believe that His sacrifice on the cross was sufficient to wie you clean. +his IS -+ anacknowledgment that !esus e&isted or that He was the Son of God 1 even the demons believe that. +his is not astatement you reeat after someone else so that you can join a church. +his is a full1on commitment to humbleyourself before Him and to give yourself over to Him so that He can be in charge from now on. +hat you wouldlike to bow down and let Him be who He is 1 $aster, 8ing, "ommander, ;uler, 0ord 1 in your life from now on.:ear of the 0ord is the beginning of wisdom. )ay too many churches are making it way too easy 1 and the resultis sick, owerless, shackled, unwise eole in the ews.

-8, -) you're an accetable sacrifice. So what's ne&t( Get u on the altar and shut u. #ou don't need tofigure out your ersonal urose. #ou don't need M? days to figure out what #- can do for God. #ou're thesacrifice Get cleaned off, climb u on the altar and lay there naked. /y doing this, by really doing this, reallylaying there naked 7 fully e&osed and willing to accet anything that comes 7 you are most definitely -+conforming to the world.

)hen He's good and ready, He'll move on to the ne&t ste. )hich is that He will take a big sword and begin tohack chunks of your head off and ut His head on. It's ainful at times and folks around you may not understandwhat's haening during that strange in1between time while you're trying to figure it all out and get the ieces ofyour head and His head to get on the same fre6uency. /ut eventually, unless you anic and jum off the altar, Hewill hack off all the bits that stand in His way and then you'll have the mind of "hrist. He will have transformed you




WARNING! D)*G,4C D)*G,4C9roceed at your own caution

)e will -+ be resonsible for A#+HIG that haens from here forward. #ou have been warned.

9e want you to 6e );-O+B,+ clear that this isFO4 -B4,& *O DOB; );OB # going to hurt ) +O.

#ou can drive K? miles an hour and you robably won't get hurt too bad in an accident.If you drive K?? miles an hour and you make a mistake, it's going to get really ugly.

his #- *O for sissiesCIf you have A# desire in you to slow down, *- I+ -)

*- -+ G- +HIS )A# *- -+ take our advice on this stuffIt will totally transform your life and things you love will be ried from you.

othing 7 -+HIG 7 that you have will be your own any more.So He can rebuild you His way, God will I$$4*IA+40# start yanking

chunks out of you. 9robably stuff you really liked. +he fire will get 4;# hot#f you e3en so much as 4 to do this in your own power& you$re gonna 6e toastC

O*+ Jesus in you can get you through this.

+ast chance. Get out nowC )++ the dar'ness 9#++ come for youC

9e$3e seen it o3er and o3er. 9e )4, *O 'idding aroundC#f you miss a step you could end up on crac' or 6eating your wife or drin'ingli'e a fish or in %ail. 9e$3e seen it happen to good& Jesus:lo3ing people whoweren$t all the way sold out. God will get you through& 6ut it will hurt e3en

more if you 6ail out. ou ;,,4 mean itC 9e$re serious.

9e lo3e you 3ery much. 9e want to see you refined and purified and 4,)++ dangerousto the enemy& 6ut we want you to 6e FB++ 4,)D 6efore you pull into the Fast +aneC




-till here8 GreatC *ow go 6ac' and reread the warning again.9e$re to wor' out our sal3ation with fear and trem6ling. (e$s serious.

O?8 ;ac' again8 Good. +et$s proceed.

-o which part of )++ don$t you understand8C

)here do you think you have an otion to love Him some( ;emember this old song( Have you really looked atit( How many times have you sung it and not really meant it( I know I did for years

# -urrender )llby !udson ). an *eenter, >NLQE

)++ to !esus, I surrenderC )++ to Him I freely giveC I will ,,4 love and trust Him, In His resence D)#+ live.I surrender )++, I surrender )++, )++ to +hee, my blessed Savior, I surrender )++.

)++ to !esus I surrenderC Humbly at His feet I bow, )orldly leasures )++ forsakenC +ake me, !esus, take me now.I surrender )++, I surrender )++, )++ to +hee, my blessed Savior, I surrender )++.

)++ to !esus, I surrenderC $ake me, Savior, 9(O++ +hineC 0et me feel the Holy Sirit, +ruly know that +hou art mine.I surrender )++, I surrender )++, )++ to +hee, my blessed Savior, I surrender )++.

)++ to !esus, I surrenderC 0ord, I give myself to +heeC F#++ me with +hy love and owerC 0et +hy blessing fall on me.I surrender )++, I surrender )++, )++ to +hee, my blessed Savior, I surrender )++.

)++ to !esus I surrenderC *O9 I feel the sacred flame. - the joy of FB++ salvation Glory, glory, to His ameI surrender )++, I surrender )++, )++ to +hee, my blessed Savior, I surrender )++.

A whole lot of us have been singing that but really meaning, I surrender S-$4. -r maybe, I surrender morethan that guy over there. +here are certainly lots of leaders in the churches that aren't meaning it ery feweole really mean A00. And yet that is the secific and direct command of God and affirmed three times by!esus Himself as the most critical commandment of all. $ore than any doctrinal statement or theologicalconstruct or interretation, we must do +HA+. :irst and foremost in the "hristian walk $S+ /4 a love for Godthat holds back nothing. Anything less means that you have missed the mark. "an there be any otherinterretation( )here does the /ible say, 2Invite !esus into your heart and then do whatever you want.3( )heredoes it say that you can give Him S-$4 and He won't mind. It says that God is a jealous God %4&. KOEO, 4&.ME>M, *eut. MEKMC *eut. OELC *eut. QE>OC !osh. KME>LC ahum >EKC and elsewhere. In fact, it says the Holy Sirit

in us envies intensely when we give ourselves over to the world %!ames MEM1O.

+his is hard stuff, and not what you may be used to hearing, but I don't see how you can find any otherinterretation. )e're to work out our salvation with fear and trembling. How much fear and trembling do you haveif you go down the aisle at youth cam in Nth grade and accet !esus into your heart and you're all done( +hearrow 9ath has just G-+ to be more narrow than that In fact, I believe the AS+ majority of church goers arenot going to heaven at all. I believe we've been lied to for years about what it is that God really e&ects of us. +heew +estament would be 4;# short indeed if the ath to heaven was as simle as, ;eeat this rayer afterme ... )hat's the oint of all the rest of it, if that's all it takes(

If you're still with me, the rest of this is going to be about heling you identify A# areas of /ody, Soul or Siritthat may yet be unsubmitted to God 7 and doing whatever is necessary to bring them into full obedience with"hrist. /ite down on something, this might hurt a little.

+he enemy is going to try everything ossible to kee you from walking this out. +he darkness *-4S -+ wantto lose a single inch of ground So let's ray this firstE

Lord, don't let the enemy keep me from this. Don't let the enemy distract me or confuse me. Gie meisdom, Godly isdom and as much of it as "ou think I can handle. #peak to me clearly and I'llfollo. $lease %ind up anythin& in me or around me that ould try to mess ith me durin& this time.In the Name of esus. Amen.

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# li'e pictures& so let$s start with this

+his is a very simle grahic, not at all meant to be thorough or all1inclusive. 0et the Holy Sirit show you all theareas in your life that need addressing. I'm sure He wants to :or now, we're just going to hit a few so you cansee how this works. If you're not hearing very well from God on what might be unsubmitted, just ask someoneclose to you 7 I'm sure they'll tell you the arts that don't look like !esus. Souses are good for that

If we had lots of eole in the churches with the gift of discernment of sirits, you could go to one of them and askthem what's messing with you and they could just tell you and hel get it off. If you know somebody like that, byall means, get them in on this. /ut don't take A#/-*#'S word for anything. "heck everything with God. 4ven if

you can't normally hear God very well, I'm just S;4 He wants to talk to you about +HIS stuff So you should bee&ecting that, as it relates to areas of your life that are unsubmitted, you're going to hear Him really well.

I susect He's been waiting so long for you to ask Him what the roblem is that as soon as you ask you're goingto get 0-+S of feedback. It may not be an audible thing, but somebody or some situation or a cloud or a little kidor a song on the radio or S-$4+HIG is going to be used to get through to you and show you the roblem. !ust4B94"+ an answer and listen for it. And when He tells you what the roblem is 7 ;494+ +urn from it anddon't go back.

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;ody

)e are all jars of clay, vessels to hold His glory, cus of one sort or another. )e are humble earthen vessels thatare flawed and cracked in many ways and yet He ours His glory into us. )e become the temle of His Sirit andHe lives in us Isn't that cool

Anyway, it's imortant first to understand that the )ord commands us reeatedly to be filled with the Sirit andin the tense it uses it means to be being filled 1 a constant in1filling, a constant effort to kee our cus toed off.

%+he grahics here are from the full article 2:ill $y "u, 0ord.3 on the website 7 :ellowshi-f+he$artyrs.com

here are 6asically these options•

#ou have - !4SS.• #ou have some !4SS and lots of SI.

• #ou have more !4SS and a little SI.

• #ou're all shook u by the )orld and 2life3 and can't figure out what's what.

• #ou're washed clean, but there's too much #-.

• !4SS has killed off lots of #- so He can increase and #- can decrease.

• #ou've been a good steward, so He gave you a bigger cu and lots more !4SS.

And it's not a one1time thing. He's our *aily /read, so you can move from one to the other fairly fluidly, even inthe midst of one day. It's not a one1time thing just cause you went down the aisle and got filled with the Siritone day. If you're not constantly S+A#IG :00 then you're going to drain off 1 or get lukewarm and stale. -verand over we're commanded to be full and to stay full 7 or to 2be being filled3. T And there's no oint at which youshouldn't be striving for a bigger cu. )e need Him in increasing measure every day to kee from being

ineffective and unroductive %II 9eter >EN. #ou get a bigger cu by ouring yourself out on those in need, thengetting refilled again.

T %Acts KEM And they were all filled with the )oly Ghost, and began to s!eak with other tongues, as the *!iritgave them utterance. 4hesians E>L And to know the love of (hrist, which !asseth knowledge, that ye might befilled with all the fulness of God. "olossians >EL +or this cause we also, since the day we heard [it], do not ceaseto !ray for you, and to desire that ye might be filled with the knowledge of his will in all wisdom and s!iritualunderstanding# 4hesians OEN And be not drunk with wine, wherein is ecess# but be filled with the *!irit#9hiliians >E>> -eing filled with the fruits of righteousness, which are by Jesus (hrist, unto the glory and !raiseof God. +or more on this, read the book, /ain 0own 12, Lord34 available free on the website.







+he Greek word used reeatedly for 2filled3 is 2leroo3 %Strong's RM>F. Here is Strong's definition of itE

"M to make full, to fill u, i.e. to fill to the fullaM to cause to abound, to furnish or suly liberally

"M I abound, I am liberally sulied2M to render full, i.e. to comlete

aM to fill to the toE so that nothing shall be wanting to full measure, fill to the brim6M to consummateE a number

"M to make comlete in every articular, to render erfect

2M to carry through to the end, to accomlish, carry out, %some undertakingcM to carry into effect, bring to realisation, realise

"M of matters of dutyE to erform, e&ecute2M of sayings, romises, rohecies, to bring to ass, ratify, accomlish<M to fulfil, i.e. to cause God's will %as made known in the law to be obeyed as it should be, andGod's romises %given through the rohets to receive fulfilment

%+hayer's 0e&icon also has a lot to say. *o a search for 2filled3 on www./lue0etter/ible.com and see.

+he oint is, !esus wants us :00 and He knows that only H4 can do it. )e're all going to be full ofS-$4+HIG. If our bodies are the temle of God and He lives in us, do you really want Him sharing sace withthat icky stuff( Shouldn't you be urified and cleansed of all unrighteousness so that He can reign sureme( Itsays 2the rayers of a righteous man availeth much3 1 so I guess the rayers of a kind1of righteous man availethractically nothing. )hy is H4 going to listen to #- when you ask for something, when #- won't listen to HI$

about getting the red stuff out %and the stinky yellow stuff( 9roverbs KOEKQ saysE 2 Like a muddied s!ring or a !olluted well is a righteous man who gives way to the wicked.3 +hat sounds to me like a cu that should beclean, but isn't.

Areas of direct disobedience or unresolved ain result in a draining off of that with which we are filled. Sometimeswe have a really hard time keeing our cu full because we have a big crack in our cu caused by anunforgiveness or a bitterness or a fundamental character flaw, and so we drain out almost as soon as we getfilled. Sometimes we can't ever get all the way full because of the goo we refuse to clean out that's taking u toomuch sace in our cu. ;eally entrenched red stuff kees us from being able to be filled to caacity. Sometimesthere are hysical oressions and sicknesses that have resulted from siritual roblems. +hese, too, needaddressing through the ower of !esus. $ore on all that later.

So, as it relates to the /ody, let's start with thisE

Is God telling you to do something with :--* other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey(Is God telling you to do something with *;I8 other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey(Is God telling you to do something with )-;8 other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey(Is God telling you to do something with $-4# other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey(Is God telling you to do something with S4B other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey(Is God telling you to do something with +I$4 other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey(Is God telling you to do something with your +-G4 other than what you're doing( If yes, why won't you obey(

Get the idea( -dds are retty good that if the Holy Sirit is convicting you of something and you're not obeying,it's because you've given the enemy room in your heart or because your own soulish nature just wants to rebel.4ither way, it's not really giving A00 and you need to do something about it. Sto thinking that He's just going tooverlook it and cut you some slack. He ;4A00# doesn't like being in there with that stuff and He's a really bigGod. $ore fear of the 0ord would be good. #ou might want to ray for that. "rying is good, too.

If the Holy Sirit is -+ convicting you of any of that stuff, then either you are not listening and you've got a giantride roblem blocking your hearing -; the Holy Sirit has already beaten you into submission on all thoselevels. I've met both kinds. !ust in case, now would be a good time to ray sincerely and ask the 0ord to showyou A#+HIG that disleases Him or any area of rebellion as it relates to your /ody.

O'& O?CC ou caught me& so what do # do a6out it8)ell, the first thing is to tell God you're really sorry. +hat would be good. He's been waiting a long time to hearthat. And if you've been saying it before but then going back like a dog to his own vomit, then He's robably notgoing to take your aology very seriously until you start sticking by your commitments to Him.

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If you've tried to turn away from stuff and haven't been able to, it's robably because you're doing too much of thefighting in your own ower 1 because you've tried to force obedience with the #- in your cu. +hat just utsmore and more ressure on you and more and more guilt when you fall. !esus lives inside of you and H4 is notaddicted to cigarettes or donuts or orn or work or anything. He has faced down every failing of $an and beatenit. If you will get out of the way and let HI$ fight your battles, it will be much easier. $uch. )e'll cover that morelater since it alies to all three of these comonents.

#ou need to be clear that SI means missing the mark. )hether it's murder or disbelief, it's sin and it kees youfrom walking in the :004SS of "hrist. #ou will not reach your ma&imum otential in Him if you remain

unsubmitted in some areas 7 A# areas. !esus said, if you 0-4 Him, you will -/4# Him. If you're not obeyingHim >??@, then you must not love Him >??@. And L?@ isn't going to cut it He wants A00 7 and A00 means A00.

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+et$s try this same process again

Is God telling you to do something with AG4; other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey(

)hat about Guilt, 0ust, "ontrol, :ear, $oney, 9ride, !ealousy, 0ying, *isbelief, Self1ity, 9ower, /itterness,nforgiveness, Gluttony, Idolatry, ;ebellion or others( Got any of those(

Simlified substantially, the soul is the mind 1 our emotions, our mental state, our rationali5ations and reactionsinternally to the world around us. It is what makes us distinctly us. +his, too, needs to be brought fully intosubmission with God.

In a sense, you could see it like thisE

+he yellow stuff is our soulish nature and it's not that much better than the red stuff. In fact, the /lood of !esuswashes away all of our sins in an instant when we ask for forgiveness, but if we don't fill the ga with !esus %andkee it full, the badness will just jum back into the vacuum. It's our yellow stuff that invited all the red stuff +he/lood of !esus is sufficient to heal us, but it's not the same rocess as with the red stuff. +he )ord says we're tocrucify ieces of us so that "hrist in us can live. )e're to carry our cross daily. )ell, that's about denyingourselves leasures that might be red stuff, but it's also about watching chunks of Self die so "hrist can increaseand #- can decrease. And I can tell you from 0-+S of e&erience with this 1 getting the red stuff out is A 0-+easier than getting all the yellow stuff out that disleases Him -ne is about behavior and the other is about ournature. Habits are far easier to change than character. /eating the yellow stuff into submission is the crucifyingourselves art.

o hysical trial you will ever go through 1 not climbing $ount 4verest in winter, not sawing your own arm off witha ocket knife, not doing a marathon on your knees 1 will 44; be as hard as getting your tongue and your mind

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beaten into submission. +HA+ is the great battle in our lives and the difficulty is evidenced by how really rare it isto find someone that has accomlished any substantial measure of success in that In fact, I'm convinced theonly way to do it effectively is to let !esus do it. )e can fake it for awhile in our own ower, but all we've done issuress it. -nly !esus can terminate it once and for all.

In fact, it's not ossible to walk in holiness at all without the Holy Sirit doing it. #ou can't use the yellow stuff tobeat down the yellow stuff. +hat just won't work. !esus is our righteousness and He alone is worthy and holy andcaable of making us like Him. )e can't get to be like !esus in our own ower. )e have to be clothed in "hrist,we have to run into Him who is our strong tower. )e have to be dead so that "hrist in us can live. And not just a

little dead either 1 A00 of those comonent ieces have to die. $aybe this will hel you figure out which is which.

He doesn't want to urge you of A00 the yellow stuff, that would eliminate you comletely and He kind of likesarts of you. -nce I asked Him what arts of me He wanted to kee and He said, 2/asically everything frombefore about si& years old.3 !ust the faith like a child arts. +hat thing in *avid that made him fearlessly go out toface Goliath because he just 84) His *ad was bigger and tougher than +HA+ guy's *ad




+here's a lot more to be said, but you'll need to ray through this yourself and ask God to show you very clearlyall the areas in which you are artially or comletely unsubmitted. I know it's a rayer He wants you to ray, so I8-) He will answer it and show you stuff. +hen it's u to you to lay it down.

I find that this kind of rayer hels a lot and gets nearly instant results 1 if you have the guts to ray itE$'f you forgot, go back and read the 2arning first3%

*ear 0ord, I'm really sorry for all the sin that I should have never let in. I'm sorry for all the old stuff that I've

let take root and boss me around. 9lease urge me of all unrighteousness right now through the ower of#our /lood. I stand in faith, knowing that #our /lood is sufficient to cleanse me of all unrighteousness.9lease show me A# area of my life that disleases #ou 7 anything that stands in the way between us andkees me from being able to walk in the fullness of all that you have for me. )hatever it is, I don't care howmuch I like it, I don't care how long it's been there, I don't care how much it hurts, it's got to go ;IGH+ -)in the ame of !esus. So 0ord, ri it, tear it, burn it, shred it, crucify it 7 whatever it takes. If I won't lay itdown, ri it from my gras. I don't care how much it hurts, I trust #ou. *o whatever it takes, but do it ;IGH+-). I won't flinch and I won't try to ho out of #our refining fire when it comes. *ial the heat u. I'm goingto stand. Give me the strength to stand. 9lease hold my hand. I'm going to really need #ou. +hanks, 0ord.#ou're the best *ad ever and I trust #ou. 9lease burn it all off and don't sto no matter how much I whine. Inthe ame of !esus, Amen.

Hear me 7 your growth in "hrist is directly roortional to your willingness to seek out and embrace His refining

fire. )hen He is ounding on you and life seems horrible, if you will go to Him and find out what He's trying toteach you, embrace it, learn from it and thank Him for it 1 then maybe you can move on. If you whine andcomlain and kee asking Him to turn down the flames because it's too hot, it shows a lack of trust that He knowswhat He's doing and it just slows down the whole rocess. How long is it going to take to cook a turkey in an ovenset at O? degrees( How long if it's set at MO?( +hat's the difference between "hristians in "hina and India andthose in America. )e have our ovens set at O? degrees and they have their's on full blast. 9ersecution dials uthe heat really fast 7 and results in e&losive growth in "hrist %and a sifting of those who mean it and those whodon't.

So don't be such a sissy. !um in the fire and learn to like it. Is He God or isn't He( )ill He rotect you or won'tHe( Are His romises good or aren't they( /uck u, ya big weenie. Go kill some yellow stuff.

-pirit-8, so we got the red stuff out %for today and we begged Him to kill the yellow stuff. So you robably have a voidin the to of your cu now. )hat are you going to do( If you leave it like that the enemy, who ranges to and frolike a hungry lion, will try to jum in there right away and mess with you again. #ou've got to get your cu full of!esus and kee it that way. And not just full to >??@, full to overflowing 7 u and over, mounded u on to.

So do you know how( )ell, you can read your /ible. #ou can listen to worshi music. #ou can ray. #ou can justsend time at the feet of !esus before the throne of God. )hatever is the best way you have found to drink in!esus. /ut be careful that you're not *-IG to get filled. +hat just means that you're trying to get more blue stuffby engaging the yellow stuff. +hat's a long uhill battle and can border on legalism. )hat it ends u doing isinviting in the red stuff again in the form of guilt, condemnation, self1righteousness, ride or some other nastything.

$aybe there's a better way. )hat does the )ord of God say about this(

!ohn FEN saysE &)e who believes in 5e, as the *cri!ture said, 6+rom his innermost being will flow rivers ofliving water.6 &

!ohn ME>? saysE Jesus answered and said unto her, 'f thou knewest the gift of God, and who it is that saith tothee, Give me to drink# thou wouldest have asked of him, and he would have given thee living water.

;ev. FE>F saysE +or the Lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them untoliving fountains of waters" and God shall wi!e away all tears from their eyes.




Here's a coule of -ld +estament reference so you know God doesn't changeE

!eremiah >FE>E L/0, the ho!e of 'srael, all that forsake thee shall be ashamed, [and] they that de!artfrom me shall be written in the earth, because they have forsaken the L/0, the fountain of living waters.

!eremiah KE>E +or my !eo!le have committed two evils# they have forsaken me the fountain of living waters,[and] hewed them out cisterns, broken cisterns, that can hold no water.

In that last one we see that they committed two evils, they didn't drink of the living waters and they had containerswith cracks in them. %A cistern is just a really big cu. In fact, they made their own cisterns to store u waterbecause they didn't trust in God's unending suly from the fountain. And the result was they had neither 7 A*they made God mad

It sure seems to me like those fountains of living water are the Holy Sirit. It says !esus is the 2:ountain in theHouse of *avid3 %ech >E> +he Holy Sirit is that blue stuff that fills us and dislaces all the other stuff. It wouldbe great if He would just shove everything out of the way, but for some reason we're involved and we have toarticiate in the rocess 7 or at least be willing and ask Him to do it.

+his being true %I hoe you agree, then we don't need to *- anything to fill our cu. )e just have to believe that!esus wants our cu full, that He romised that srings of living water would flow u from ISI*4 of us and then

just turn on the ta. )e just need to ask Him to fill us in whatever way H4 wants to fill us and teach us how tokee it that way. ;ememberC trust the 0ord your God with A00 your heart, lean -+ on your -) understanding,

but in A00 your ways acknowledge HI$ and H4 will direct your aths. %9rov. EO1Q

I think our job as a church is to find those who are oor in sirit 7 those whose cus are running low 7 and sharewith them. 9our ourselves out into them so that they can be filled. ot with our yellow stuff God forbid /ut fromthe abundance of the riches that have been given to us that we would share 7 of or wealth, of our hysicalenergyTstrengthTtime A* of the fountain of living water that is inside of us.

Haven't you ever been around somebody that, just being in the same room with them or getting a hug, made yoursirit feel full( I bet they had a cu that was overflowing 7 or they deliberately and selflessly oured themselvesout on you. +hey may not have known that's what they were doing or been able to e&lain it that way, they justknew that they had !oy and 9eace and that you needed some, so they shared.

+he 0ord gave me a vision once of how the church should oerate and it looks a yramid of chamagne glasses

at a wedding where they our in the to one and as it overflows, the glass below gets filled and overflows and soit continues all the way down. +hose who have the biggest cu of !esus should be constantly ouring themselvesout onto others and teaching them how to kee it going.

Shouldn't church be a filling station( How often do you go and leave feeling just as emty as when you got there(Some churches are really great filling stations and you can leave :00 of !esus 7 but you can't make it ast$onday afternoon without running out again. +hat's because we think we have to go to a building to get our cusfull. +he )ord of God doesn't say anything like that. +he )ord of God says rivers of living water will flow u fromISI*4 of S. )e have an endless suly And )4 are suosed to be the filling station for those that don'tknow how to ta into it. It's not about the building or the astor or nice music that gets us in the mood 7 every"hristian has access to the river of God Isn't that "--0 So, stick a straw in and suck /etter yet, just dive in.

/elow we're going to talk more about all the things you can be filled with, why you need to hel fill others and how

to get full and make sure you stay full. I know this may sound weird, but it's all in the /ible. o 6uestion about it.)e're suosed to erceive things in the sirit, not with our natural mind. +his is -+ the 2real3 world 7 this is notour home. )e are siritual beings and we need to get a lot more familiar with what's haening in the sirit.+hat's where the war is and that's where our hoe comes from.

I "orinthians KE>M 1 -ut the natural man receiveth not the things of the *!irit of God" for they are foolishnessunto him" neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned.

;omans NEQ 1 +or to be carnally minded [is] death# but to be s!iritually minded is life and !eace.




5ommunications / (otline to (ead=uarters

So, we got the red stuff out, we're getting more yellow stuff out, we learned how to get more blue stuff, now what()ell, now it's time to get your filters unclogged so you can hear God really well and H4 can direct A00 your aths.+his works better as a 6uestion and answer thing. ;eady(

First& what eAactly are we tal'ing a6out8 Does God really spea' to people today8#es. In a whole bunch of ways from a gentle nudge, to instruction through the )ord, to using other eole and

circumstances to seak to you, to sending dreams and visions %or angels 7 andTor even conversing directly withyou.

ou can hear God and con3erse with (im8C ouKre 'idding& right8ot kidding. #ou can absolutely talk to God and HeDll talk back. +here are millions of eole all over the world thatrely on God for constant daily instruction on all sorts of things. /ut, thereDs a difference between hearing Godaudibly %with your natural ears, outside of your own head and hearing the inner 2still, small voice3. ItDs retty rarefor God to seak to eole audibly %like thunder, but there are lenty of folks out there that say theyDve heardHim 7 and the evidence is that once they did, it changed them forever $any of the house churches in "hina areunder such ersecution that they canDt set a regular time for meeting or even tell each other when the meeting willbe 7 they all just ray indeendently and God Himself sets the time and lace and tells each to be there. I'vee&erienced that kind of coordination myself and hear Him seak to me all the time. +his is totally for real and thebirthright of every believer

9ait ... people hear the God of the Bni3erse tell them stuff8 +i'e what tie to wear and whether to turn leftor right8 9hat %o6 to ta'e8 9hat to ha3e for dinner8 *ot %ust 6ig stuff8Sure. +he /ible says, 2In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your aths.3 %9rov. EO1Q )hat doyou think 2A00 your ways3 means( And how is He going to direct you if you canDt hear Him(

;ut my pastor said God doesnKt tal' to people li'e thatCHmmm. )ell, God used to talk to eole all the time in the /ible. )onder when He stoed( *id He say He wasgoing to sto( IsnDt He the same yesterday, today and forever( If anything, once the Holy Sirit came in Acts K,there were 0-+S more eole talking to God directly ever mind the $I00I-S of eole all over the world whoyou have to conclude are thoroughly and certifiably nuts 7 including many of the most effective leaders of thechurch. In order to sustain that argument you have all kinds of logic roblems.

"onsider thisC#F God used to talk to eole but doesnDt now, (,* we must not need to hear from Him anymore. "an that be(/y all measures weDre worse off than ever. If there is a war between Good and 4vil, weDre losing retty badly rightnow and really deserately need to be getting commands directly from Head6uarters, not from flawed man1madesources and tradition1soaked interretations of Scriture

#F there is a battle between Good and 4vil, (,* who would benefit most if the eole on the 2Good3 side weretold they couldnDt A"+A00# talk to their "ommander in "hief( ow, you know the 4vil side is absolutely clear to44;#-4 that if you try to talk to +H4I; leadershi you )I00 get an answer ;4A0 fast 4ven "hristians areafraid to mess with -uija boards and call on the names of demons because somewhere inside they believesomething 4;# real will show u almost instantly. /ut at the same time, the forces of darkness want us to buythat -; God is mute *oesnDt that sound like something the snake would say in the Garden( *esite hundredsof e&amles in the /ible that He is available and accessible all the time, we have too often bought the lie that God

is unwilling or unable to actually talk to His children. ItDs a lie from the it and weDve bought into it for too long.

#F we receive the Holy Sirit when we are saved, (,* >T of the Godhead is living ISI*4 of us all the time %I!ohn ME>1>F /ut He doesnDt have anything to say( HeDs not interested in our daily activities( GodDs not bigenough to know what we should have for lunch( He knows the hairs on our head and monitors our every comingand going, but has no oinion about it or desire to give us advice( )hat kind of :ather is that( #F weDre dead anditDs "hrist in us that lives, (,* shouldnDt H4 be running the show( %;omans FEM1Q

+he most common argument I hear is that when the /ible was done being written then 2that which was erfecthas come and that which was in art was done away3 %I "orin. >E>? so we don't need to talk to God anymore.




ow, the argument is that all that ended when the /ible was done being written 7 but it didnDt end for the otherteam, so how come just all -; cool stuff got taken away( )ouldnDt it have really benefited the enemy a 0-+ tosread that story that we were owerless around for a coule thousand years( *o you see( +his is no kind ofway to fight a war +here $S+ be stuff weDve been leaving out +he enemy has us twisted u into a thousandieces %F,???W denominations to be secific and we canDt S+A* because weDre not -4 /ody. /ecause of allthe arguing over stuid stuff 7 which we would 44; have done if we had all been hearing the voice of Godersonally and reliably and walking in the Gifts

This is kind of scary.o kidding ItDs the biggest thing ever in your life +hat the God of the niverse wants to be intimately involved ineverything you do and say and eat and wear and think. +hatDs massively scary And yet, we can never haveeace and joy and victory until we have relationshi with !esus and are led by His Holy Sirit. #ou see, under ourown ower, we just screw everything u. +here has never been any strategy of $an that has led to anything goodin the long run. -h, it might work for a little while, but you get enough sinful eole involved in it, add money, mi&in a little satan 7 and itDs toast. -r worse, you get "ommunism or :ascism or something, and millions of eoledie. +here are just two otions 7 if itDs of $an it will fail and if itDs of God nothing can stand against it. %Acts OEN1L Since the institutional 2church3 in America is failing, somebody other than God must be in charge. See a logicroblem there(

Anyway, yes, itDs scary. /ut what a ayoff +o walk in holiness because God Himself is fighting off thetemtations and snares of the enemy, to hear Him all the time and get direction on anything and everything, to

know that He is comletely and totally in charge at all times in every situation. How are you going to find eace)I+H-+ hearing from God( How is what you have -) working for you(

And hearing His voice is not even a GI:+ of the Sirit ItDs just an automatic for every believer )e havenDt eventalked about rohecy and discernment of sirits and knowledge and wisdom and tongues and healing and all theother gifts God gives His children +rust me, the ayoff is ama5ing, but itDs going to cost you everything 7 buteverything you +HI8 you have isn't yours anyway, so who cares

2hat if ' hear wrong8 2hat if the enemy is messing with me8)ell sure, that can haen. HeDs certainly going to try to confuse and frustrate you. )e are secifically instructed,2do not believe every sirit, but test the sirits to see whether they are from God %> !ohn ME>. +hat $S+ meanthat other sirits are otentially messing with us, and since there is no indication that +HIS ended when the /iblewas comleted, then there must still be demons utting thoughts into our heads. And if there are still demonsutting thoughts into our heads, then we must still have a need to test and see if they are from God. And if theyDre

-+ from God, then we resist them and they flee. /ut it must also mean that one of the ossibilities is that thesirit weDre hearing IS from God %Again, roving the oint that God still seaks to us desite I "orin. >E>?.

#ou see > !ohn M goes on in verses K and to lay out how you can know what it is that is talking to you and fromwhere it comes, 2+his is how you can recogni5e the Sirit of GodE 4very sirit that acknowledges that !esus"hrist has come in the flesh is from God, but every sirit that does not acknowledge !esus is not from God. +hisis the sirit of the antichrist, which you have heard is coming and even now is already in the world.3

)hen we get a thought in our head we have to figure out who it is. +here are only three choicesE #ou, God or theenemy. Sometimes other eole tell us stuff, but theyDre still laying to one of the three. )eDre to bring everythought into obedience with "hrist %and the )ord. +hat means our own thoughts that are out of line A* theones inserted by the enemy. I find that, sadly, the enemy and I sound a lot alike. +he red stuff and the yellow stuffaren't really that different after all. I aly this filter to everything, 2If I follow through with this thought that just

came into my head, who is glorified most 7 God, satan or me(3 If it's anything other than God, even if it's me, Irebuke in the ame of !esus. And if it )AS me, I ask the 0ord to hunt down whatever in me wanted to suggestsomething that wouldn't glorify Him 7 and kill it.

"ould you screw it u( Sure. 9articularly if the voices are 4;# sneaky. )hich they will be because demons aresmarter than us and know the human condition very well after all these years of torturing and twisting us. )ithoutGod fighting for you, you havenDt got a chance. #ou have to be constantly on guard, constantly armored1u ande&ecting anything from any direction. /ut His arm is long and His shields are mighty. He will always get youthrough if you are sincerely seeking Him and trying to walk in holiness.




O?. #$m getting that it$s possi6le& 6ut #$m going to ha3e to hear (im for myself. #$m willing to try. 9hat dowe do8Great #eah, don't take my word for it, seek Him yourself. )ell the first thing is to ask the 0ord to show youanything that stands in the way between you and Him. It's like thisC

+he oint of the church coming together should be so that we can crucify ieces of ourselves so that "hrist in uscan live. Said another way, it's to hel each other identify the things that stand between us and !esus 7 and luckthem out. )e should all be working together to hel unclog our ielines. /ut that's not what's haening at all.

+he most common thing we ut in the way is our belief that God won't talk to us. +hat's got to go If you don't

think He's a 0iving God and active and able to seak and desiring relationshi with you, then you're going to haveto lay that down.

-ne of the other ossibilities is that you're worshiing the );-G !esus. 9aul said that would haen, thatsomeone would come reaching another !esus and eole would accet it. It's very simleC if you make u yourown !esus, don't e&ect an answer when you ray 9roserity1!esus, 4mergency1-nly1!esus, ot1Xuite1As1Good1As1+he1irgin1$ary1!esus, and a 5illion others are all $A*4 9. If you make your own god from scratch,e&ect about as much resonse as if you were raying to a stick. +hose are -+ /ible !esus 1 who doesn't liketo be toyed with and ut in a bo&.

-ther things in the way are a reliance on someone else for your holiness or connection to God %9astor, wife,mother, etc.. +hat's got to sto. +his is a -41on1-4 relationshi with !esus. obody is going to do it for you.-ther ieline blockages include addiction, ride, selfishness, bitterness, anger, la5iness, fear and so manyothers that kee us from e&eriencing the fullness that is I "hrist.

Ask the 0ord to show you what is in the way and He is faithful to A0)A#S do that if you'll listen. Ask some otherfolks to ray with you if ossible and just ray in agreement that the 0ord will make Himself very clear to youabout what to do ne&t.

!ust ray and believe. He'll come and hel unclog you. /elieve that He wants to talk to you and start conversingwith Him. :ind someone to be accountable with that knows God really well and make sure you don't act onanything that sounds fishy without verifying it with the )ord of God. ow, not with doctrine of $an, mind you 7with the )ord of God.




)nd One Other hing-ne of the best ways that I have found and one of the things you see in the 2*ialogues3 is that I learned thatsatan can't read your thoughts, so if you ask lots of follow u 6uestions and then wait and get out of the way 7 ifyou don't get answers or get s6uirrelly answers, it wasn't God. It's not enough to obey generally, if you love Him,you'll obey Him secifically and e&actly. I say that obedience isn't just juming when He says jum. #ou jumwhen He tells you, how He tells you, how high He tells you and you stay in the air until He says to come down+hat's radical obedience. *on't just obey generally 7 seek to obey e&actly. And for that you need more secifics.

It's like this, just assume that the urge to do something or the thought in your head is from God and then ask lots

of 6uestions. It says that the stes of a righteous man are ordered before him. It says that He directs our aths.!ust assume that He is a lot more involved then you might have susected and treat the voice in your head as ifit's Him %not you or the enemy. I'm not saying not to test the sirits 9lease don't hear that. I'm saying that this is-4 way to test them that is a little uside down, but I know it works for me %and lots of others.

:or e&amle, this e&change haens ISI*4 your head %-+ out loud where the enemy will hearE

Sontaneous thought os inE # need to call my !om.#our resonseE )ssume it$s the (oly -pirit prompting you and get details. ;e polite.

-h +hanks, 0ord. I will. *o you want me to call her right now( ... ause ... %wait and listen*o.

-8 +hanks for that, 0ord )hen do you want me to call my $om( ... ause ... %wait and listen200pm today-8. +hanks for that 0ord. *o you want me to call her on her cell hone or at home( ... ause ... %wait and listen5all her at your 6rother$s house.HH( )hat is she doing there( +hat's hours away. I'm sure she's home. ... ause ... %wait and listen*ope. 5all her at 200pm at your 6rother$s house.)ow. -8, 0ord. I'll do it. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou.# lo3e you& too.

+hen you ste out on faith, call your brother at KE??m, find out that $om is there and you give God all the glory 7

and your faith grows and grows -; she's not there and you use it as a way to troubleshoot your hearing methodand -+ as a way to disrove that God seaks to eole. #ou don't get discouraged, you accet it as a traininglesson and move on and ask Him to e&lain to you what went wrong. $aybe you colored or added to it, maybeyou were out of order in some way, maybe you've got a ;ed *ragon, maybe you didn't ask what day to call, etc.

He )I00 do surrising stuff like this so that you know it's Him. He absolutely will. )hen folks imlement this onelittle thing, it often S+S them God is 4;# creative and He will find a way to do little %or big things that roveto you that He is there and He is directing your aths. !ust wait and listen and don't add to it yourself.

#ou see, the enemy can imlant a thought, and they might even be able to anticiate a resonse or two from you 7 like chess moves. /ut they can't really read your thoughts and follow along with a se6uence of follow u6uestions. 9articularly if you throw off the timing by raising and and worshiing in between or setting the wholething to one side until the enemy least e&ects it.

If you acknowledge the voice as e&ternal and ask follow1u 6uestions and don't get any answers, or get reallyuseless answers, than it wasn't God. If the voice suggests you do something that doesn't bring glory to God, thenit was either you or the enemy. /oth of you want a do5en donuts at midnight. /ut if !esus isn't glorified by youeating a do5en donuts at midnight, then rebuke it and refuse to obey it 7 whether it was #- or the enemy

-ften when I'm fasting I will hear a voice that says I'm finished. sually it will be different that when the 0ord toldme earlier that I was to be finished fasting %like Fm instead of midnight. +he enemy wants me to disobey Godand to not be fasting in time for whatever trial is coming. If I ask a 6uestion right away when I first hear thatthought %20ord, is that really you(3, I will get an answer that sounds like God answering my thoughts %2#e. It'sme. #ou're done fasting. It's -8.3. /ut ... if I set it off to the side, do something else for awhile and then a fewminutes later, out of the blue, ask the 0ord %in my head if I'm done fasting, I'll hear a more reliable answer 7




usually that it wasn't Him. *on't let the enemy dictate the timing or rush you into action. +he 0ord will always allowyou enough to time to confirm it's Him or to be sure it's His voice. ;emember that the enemy can imlant athought A* can imlant a follow1u or two. /ut if you throw off the timing, ask a really odd follow1u, raise andworshi a little before asking anything at all, it will throw the enemy off and it's likely that the imlanted follow1uwill talk over you or not answer your 6uestion at all. +hen it gets easier to understand the difference between thevoices that are coming at you. +he 0ord is highly motivated to teach you how this works. !ust listen to Him.

9eole think that if you're hearing voices you're cra5y. )hat they don't understand is that the enemy will ut an 2I3in front and convince you that it's you. So, I guarantee you that we're A00 hearing voices, we just think it's us. :or

e&amle, 2I'm scared that I might have cancer.3 )as that you or the enemy( It sure wasn't God, He didn't give usa sirit of fear And if it's a sirit of fear, it's not S either 7 so it's e&ternal and it's designed to kill, steal anddestroy your life or your 6uality of life %or your witness as "hristians. +hat erson just heard a voice in their headthat wasn't them, but because the enemy works covertly and uts an 2I'm3 in front, we accet it as our own.

+here's a lot of stuff that I've learned and there's not nearly room for all of it, but I will add this one other thing. /e4;# careful about dates and times. If the 0ord says, 2soon3 or 2tomorrow3 that could mean just about anything.If He says 2)ednesday the KFth of !une, K??F3 now that's something. /ut don't bet the farm on 2tomorrow3meaning -; tomorrow. A day is as a thousand years to those who are outside of time, so be very cautiousabout those kinds of redictions. Ask for secifics and if you can't get any out of Him, then He robably doesn'twant you to have that information. He will always give you enough information to obey His directive, but notnecessarily as much as you'd like. 8ee in mind, too, that He doesn't necessarily honor the Gregorian calendar%2this year3 and that the Hebrew method of calculating days means they end at sundown %2today3. He kees His

otions oen. He can be true and you still be wrong. It's the interretation or the 6uestion or the hearer that isflawed, never His voice.

;ecently a brother and I were driving across country and the van was having trouble. +he 0ord had instructed usto go to a articular town and it was still a coule of hours away. *o we fi& the van( oe, we drive it until thetransmission is totally fried. +hen we send two nights in the desert. "an we call for hel( o. +he 0ord says,2)ill you walk(3 #es, 0ord. )e trust Him for everything and ask no hel from any man 7 not even sticking ourthumbs out. And when we've walked as far as we can %four or five miles dragging suitcases down the highway,He sends someone to ick us u and drive us toward the destination, but too far 4ast. +hen we walk some moreuntil we're ooed, then someone else icks us u and dros us directly on the doorste of the lace we weregoing. God had said that morning that we would be at our destination before the end of that day and we were,before sundown even. He is always faithful and true. #ou may not get there the way you e&ected, but He willalways get you there. *on't sto just because it doesn't look the way you thought it would %or should.

Along the way, we grew in our faith, we met some great folks, we got to bless some eole and ray for them andwe did get where He wanted us at just the right moment. And we got some e&ercise

I ray that this journey you're on will be just as much of an adventure for you.

#f you want to hear (im 6etter& pray something li'e this

Lord, '6m sorry ' ever !ut you in a bo. '6m sorry ' limited 9ou in any way. '6m sorry that ' haven6t been hearingyou as well as ' should and ' acknowledge that ' clogged u! my !i!eline with stuff. :lease, Lord, whatever ittakes, scrub it all out of there with the -lood of Jesus. ' ;ust want 9ou, Jesus. 9ou direct my !aths and organi<emy days. 9ou tell me what 9ou want and '6ll do it. )el! me hear 9ou better. )el! make me dangerous to theenemy. 'ncrease the Jesus in me, even if it hurts. ' love you, Lord. 9ou be in charge now. Amen.

#f you really& 4,)++ want to go fast and you trust God all the way& then pray something li'e this ;ut goread the 9arning againCCM

0ear Lord Jesus, ' trust 9ou. ' know 9ou6ll get me through. ' want to be fully e=ui!!ed, fully armored, fullybroken and fully willing to do your !erfect will. 2hatever in me that is resisting 9ou > kill it with !re;udice. Lord,there is a monster inside of me and it6s me. )unt it down and kill it and hang its head on the wall of my heart so'6ll never forget what ' was. :ut all the weight on. Load me u!. 2hatever it takes, ' trust 9ou. '6m ready now,Lord. 0ial the refining fire u! /?ALL9 high and let6s get this over with. 0o it right now3 ' know this !rayer isinside 9our will, so ' know 9ou are going to answer it. Just !lease don6t ever leave me. 'n the mighty name ofmy Lord Jesus (hrist, Amen.




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ohn ()*+- @ The man who enters by the gate is the she!herd of his shee!. The watchman o!ens the gate for him, and theshee! listen to his voice. )e calls his own shee! by name and leads them out. B 2hen he has brought out all hisown, he goes on ahead of them, and his shee! follow him because they know his voice. C -ut they will neverfollow a stranger# in fact, they will run away from him because they do not recogni<e a stranger6s voice.&

ohn ()*+ 5y shee! listen to my voice# ' know them, and they follow me.

/e%res 0D *o, as the )oly *!irit says" &Today, if you hear his voice, E do not harden your hearts as you did in therebellion, during the time of testing in the desert, where your fathers tested and tried me and for forty years sawwhat ' did. F That is why ' was angry with that generation, and ' said, 6Their hearts are always going astray, andthey have not known my ways.6 FF *o ' declared on oath in my anger, 6They shall never enter my rest.6 & F@ *ee to it, brothers, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God. F -utencourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin6sdeceitfulness. FB 2e have come to share in (hrist if we hold firmly till the end the confidence we had at first. FC

As has ;ust been said"

&Today, if you hear his voice,do not harden your hearts

as you did in the rebellion.&

FH 2ho were they who heard and rebelled8 2ere they not all those 5oses led out of ?gy!t8 FD And with whomwas he angry for forty years8 2as it not with those who sinned, whose bodies fell in the desert8 FE And to whomdid God swear that they would never enter his rest if not to those who disobeyed8 FI *o we see that they werenot able to enter, because of their unbelief.

Deuteronomy (1*(2 According to all that thou desiredst of the L/0 thy God in )oreb in the day of the assembly, saying, Let me nothear again the voice of the L/0 my God, neither let me see this great fire any more, that ' die not.

( 3in&s (4*(((0FF And he said, Go forth, and stand u!on the mount before the L/0. And, behold, the L/0 !assed by, and agreat and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in !ieces the rocks before the L/0# but the L/0 was notin the wind" and after the wind an earth=uake# but the L/0 was not in the earth=uake" F@ And after theearth=uake a fire# but the L/0 was not in the fire" and after the fire a still small voice. F And it was so, when?li;ah heard it, that he wra!!ed his face in his mantle, and went out, and stood in the entering in of the cave. And,behold, there came a voice unto him, and said, 2hat doest thou here, ?li;ah8

Isaiah 0)*+)+(@ And though the Lord give you the bread of adversity, and the water of affliction, yet shall not thy teachers beremoved into a corner any more, but thine eyes shall see thy teachers" @F And thine ears shall hear a wordbehind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.

Acts ++*1 D And ' fell unto the ground, and heard a voice saying unto me, *aul, *aul, why !ersecutest thou me8 E And 'answered, 2ho art thou, Lord8 And he said unto me, ' am Jesus of 1a<areth, whom thou !ersecutest.

Reelation 0*+) )ere ' am3 ' stand at the door and knock. 'f anyone hears my voice and o!ens the door, ' will come in and eatwith him, and he with me.




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5up rou6leshooting

0et's talk more about this cu thing.

+here are two ways that I know of to get your cu comletely filled u with God. +here is the daily walking inobedience and seeking and rayerful living that just ushes out the Sin a little at a time and creates habits ofeffectiveness and faithfulness. -ne day you look u and you've achieved sanctification %holiness, no red stuff.-r there is the e&erience that the first "hristians had at 9entecost 1 the /atism of the Holy Sirit.

It's kind of like if you have a swimming ool in your backyard you want to fill, you can stick a garden hose in it andlet the water run until it's full 1 or you can call the forestry service and have one of those giant helicoters thatdum water on forest fires just flood the whole block and fill your ool in one burst. :ar be it from me to tellsomeone that however much God they got in them they did it the wrong way I have dear, dear friends that did itboth ways and both are as full of God as anyone I know. I have had 9entecostals describe the first method asold school and unnecessary since the A5usa ;evival and the awakening in >L??. 4ven delegitimi5e it as amethod to build that relationshi with God. %$ostly they say we don't have time for that. /ut that makes nosense to me at all. It may not be the fastest, but it sure seems more lasting and less likely to be taken for granted.

+o build a habit of daily struggle and faithfulness rather than to rely on one burst seems erfectly reasonable.

If you're not into church linguistics, one of the terms you'll hear used a lot is Sirit1filled. )hat most folks wantyou to think it means is that their cu is totally full of God. )hat they ;4A00# most likely mean is that at someoint in their life they had a dramatic e&erience in which the Holy Sirit came on them and something haened.$ost robably what they really, ;4A00# mean is just that they seak in tongues. I've had folks ask me if I wasSirit1filled and I %and they know darn well that what they really want to know is if I seak in tongues 1 -+ if I'mwalking in holiness and am comletely filled with nothing /+ the Holy Sirit. It seems that for many eole,we've ut the emhasis on the Gifts, not the relationshi.

#ou see, what I think has haened with a 0-+ of eole is that they were in churches that ut a lot of emhasison the siritual gifts that can come when your cu is filled %esecially tongues and so they seek that e&erienceof being filled with the Holy Sirit just :-; that. +hat is, they're not laying everything down and seekingsanctification and willing to do whatever it takes to live victoriously and con6uer sin consistently and fearing anawesome God 1 they just want to seak in tongues like everybody else at their church. So they seek God andthey ask to be filled and they either don't %because God sees right through wrong motives or else they do get aburst, but not enough to really ush out all the sin. +heir cu's level rises enough for that gift but they can'tmaintain it because they're not committed to keeing the sin out consistently. +hey didn't get training on cumanagement, they just had an urgency for a manifestation of some sort. Since what God gives are GI:+S, Hewill let a erson kee them even later the level in their cu dros to dangerously low. +hat's how we end u withsome revivalists and others who can heal eole and yet are comlete selfish stinkers.

+here are lenty of eole that I've met that describe themselves as Sirit1filled 1 and I'd rather send time in abathtub with a wolverine than hang out with them. )hatever they once had is 0-G gone -ur lives are :0I*and dynamic, in constant motion and flu&. 0ike the dilation of the iris of your eye, we are tuned to the worldaround us and it affects us in all kinds of good and bad ways. +hat's why "u $anagement is so imortant.

)e should never worshi the creation instead of the "reator. )e should never seek after e&eriences or feelingsor manifestations. +hat's just -+ going to get your cu filled u all the way because it's comes from a selfish orrideful motive that is inherently sinful. #ou just can't ray for the Sin to be oured out and be sanctified so thatyou'll be cool or because you covet what someone else has or because you want to show them u. See theroblem( Sin is motivating the removal of sin. A house divided can't stand. *oesn't work. God sees right throughthat. He may give you manifestations, but it's just going to wreck you if you kee walking down that ath.

)e should seek -0# that !esus fill us comletely and do His work through us, that we should decrease so thatHe can increase. )e should seek -/4*I4"4 1 ure and comlete. +he other stuff is just side1effects of that.Signs and wonders will :-00-) 7 they will trail behind, not lead the way.




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DougKs Personal ,Aperience with the (oly -pirit%)ritten !an. KO, K??O 7 edited !an, >N, K??F

I had been raying and aching for several months to see the Holy Sirit come in ower and do something. I hadread Acts over and over and we were having a /ible Study time on Sunday nights at my furniture sho with the

folks I resected the most. )hat I was really hoing for was that book of Acts, 9entecost, tongues of fire stuff 7but had no idea what I was doing. +)I"4 in my life %before ovember of K??M had I ever even been in a roomwith someone seaking in tongues 1 and one of those was at a concert with like KO?? other eole. +hey didnDtteach me anything about this in the /atist church e&cet to be sketical and susect itDs made u 1 or worse,that itDs from the enemy. %4ven now, IDm still hyer1sensitive to it and itDs aroriate use. )hich is a good thing.

;ound about ovember of K??M, Andrew %Strom and I met and had lunch and he liked a lot of what I had beensaying about the roblems in the church. He asked me if I had been bati5ed in the Holy Sirit and I said, 2Huh(3)e talked about it for awhile and he encouraged me to read u and ray on it. A coule days later I went down tohis Sunday evening meeting he was having and he asked if I would like to seak 1 which, of course, I did. It had agood imact, although it was kind of like reaching to the choir since his crowd is already sort of outside of thestandard 2church3 streams.

+he following +uesday %>>TKT?M, Andrew was having a rayer meeting at the home of one of the folks in hisgrou and suggested I come and they would ray for me to receive 2the /lessing3 1 that is, to be filled with theHoly Sirit. +hey were all his family and a few other folks he trusted a lot. %IDve learned not to let just A#/-*#lay hands on me without being armored u really good I was fully rimed by the time it rolled around. )e had ameal and talked for awhile and then we rayed a little and then they were going to ray on me. +hey wanted meto sit in a chair in the middle of the room and I said, 2Heck, no IDm kneeling. o way IDm going to sit there allcomfy before God.3 So, about four or five of them are raying on me in tongues retty loud. It was hard toconcentrate, but I just decided that they were nice folks, so I didnDt care how they wanted to ray as long as theywere sincere and they heled me get what I came for.

Since I was a kid, I never rayed for anything but wisdom. ItDs just a math roblem to me. Solomon was thesmartest guy ever, thatDs what Solomon rayed for, that must make it the wisest thing to ask for. ItDs always at theto of the list of Gifts in I "orinthians and elsewhere. )hy ray for tongues( ItDs at the bottom of the list( !ust mybusiness instinct I guess. Go for the good stuff.

Anyway, so they rayed on me for about ?1M? minutes %I think as I begged for the Holy Sirit and romised todo right if He would bless me. I romised God that if He would emower me, I was willing to give u anything andendure anything. I just wanted to be the most dangerous erson on the lanet to the cause of evil. I wanted tosniff it out and ri out itDs heart with my teeth. I wanted to be GodDs it bull. I wanted wisdom, I wanted a highvantage oint, to see through the eyes of !esus. +o know what eole needed to hear to convict them, to burnaway all the imurities and see just the ure kernel of the essence of what we should be doing to lease Him.

I begged Him to shine a light on anything in my heart that was in the way and I would scrub it out. +ogether, Heand I just went through one thing after another. I have lenty of sins 1 maybe not big ones as the world judgesthem 7 but there was lenty of darkness in my heart for which to reent. I had to dro some angers at old bossesor girl friends or others. At one oint, He said, 2#ouDre retty good with the orhans, but youDre lacking with thewidows since you havenDt gone to see your grandmother in the hosital.3 So I romised on the sot that I would

go see her before the week was u and make it all right. +hat seemed to satisfy him. I ket getting a warm fu55yfeeling like this was my time and He was going to answer my rayers, but then it stalled out. About then, I think

Andrew and them were getting tired %they have to lean over, because I refused the chair and he asks me if thereis anything in the way or if there is a history of $asonry in my family. I said, 2o,3 and we just all agreed to raythat the 0ord would shine a light on what was the roblem. early as soon as we started raying again, the HolySirit reminded me that there wasnDt any $asonry, but I had been in a fraternity in college that re6uired that youtake an oath of secrecy on God. 4ven though when I was an initiate I hadnDt said the oath at the time, later on Iwas the ritualist and administered it to others. I instantly reented of it and renounced it and steed away fromthat. +hat was the last thing in the way.




!ust then, Andrew suggested that maybe I should stand u. )hen I did, the vision started. I rayed for wisdomand to see through the eyes of !esus. +o me thatDs just a higher vantage oint 1 where you can see more of the/ig 9icture. /oth the love and the anger, the judgement and the mercy. I had rayed to take on any task, nomatter the cost. So what He showed me was as much wisdom and resonsibility as I could handle withoutassing out. I distinctly remember a sense from Him that I didnDt really know how big a thing I had asked for, butHe was going to show me as much as I could handle anyway. He was glad that I asked, but almost grinningbecause He knew what it would do to me :atherly love like when your nine year old son wants to build his own:ormula -ne race car or something.

So for about ten minutes or so %maybe more, God ran this through my head. It was as if I was in outer sacelooking down on the globe. -n the right side is a reel of faces going by. All children, all different colors. +he vastmajority are crying or hurting or sick or dying. It was like fast forwarding a **, they whi by real fast and then itstos long enough to see a few, then they whi along again. -n the left side of the globe is the outline of Americaand a nasty, inky blackness covering it with tendrils sreading out all over the world. I knew that this was the sinof the church 1 selfishness, aostasy, greed, ride, denominationalism, waste, fraud, roserity gosel, etc. thatwas sreading out from America and reaching all over the world. +he reel of ictures of kids was running fullseed. +he 0ord said, 2#ou wanted to see through my eyes, IDm going to show you A00 of it.3 He knows that Ihave a heart for kids %as He does and thatDs the way He sees us anyway, so thatDs how He showed it to me 1 asinnocents hurt, killed, maimed, abused, imoverished, starving because of the nasty blackness coming out of

America. It was clear to me that these werenDt little kids, these were GodDs children of all ages. And He made itclear I was seeing A00 of them. I mean A00 of them. I honestly believe that all si& billion lus sun by. $aybemore, maybe it was all of them 44;. I canDt even comrehend it. /ut He made it clear that they were dying

because of S and what )4 have done maliciously, or selfishly neglected to do to ush back the darkness. I hada horrible ain in my chest and ached and groaned instantly.

AndrewDs middle girl, 8irsten %who was about >>, was raying hard on my right and without really knowing IDddone it, I grabbed ahold of her and hugged her to me and just stroked her head and cried big huge sobs. -ut loudI ket begging God to stay His judgement and aologi5ing for what weDd done to the children. I just felt so muchain in my chest and I was groaning and crying and just ket watching and saying out loud, 2-h, the children)hat weDve done to the children 9lease hel us save them, 0ord. IDm S- sorry.3 %-r some derivative orcombination thereof. And I ;4A00#, ;4A00# needed 8irsten at that moment as a real live kid I could et andhug and cry over. %She and I are bonded in a way I canDt really e&lain. She just let me et her head and dri onher and ket right on raying for me. )hat a good sort +his went on for a long time %to me and then finallyfaded with Him saying, 2#-D;4 resonsible for them. #ou said you would, so now itDs on #-.3 I asked the0ord, 2)hat do you mean(3 He said, 2#ou wanted to be the most dangerous erson on the lanet, you wanted to

see through the eyes of !esus, I showed you everybody, now youDre resonsible.3 I said, 20ord, youDre telling lotsof other eole theyDre resonsible, too, right( ItDs not just me(3 He said, 2It doesnDt matter, you said you werewilling, so now G-3 I got it then %and still do that somehow I ersonally have a resonsibility to reach them allwith the Gosel and turn this thing around. %Still trying to figure out how thatDs fair 11 or ossible

After it was over, I was still in a lot of ain in my chest. )e sat back in the circle and I was groaning and wincingin ain. +hey asked me what I had seen and I tried to tell them, but it was hard to breathe and every time IDd closemy eyes IDd get a glimse of it again and it would hurt. 0ike an ice ick in my chest. +he folks there wanted toreassure me that it was -8 that I hadnDt soken in tongues right away 7 which I found myself HIGH0# irritatedabout since thatDs not why I was there. I said, 2Hey. I got what I came for and then some I will never be the same.I asked for wisdom and to see the big icture and thatDs what I got.3 +here was a kind of 6uiet ressure that thetongues art was ;4A00# imortant, but they could see clearly that something big had haened and I was stillsitting there wincing and groaning and twitching in ain every so often. $ostly I was too distracted rocessing it tohave been bothered, but it was an imortant lesson about the subconscious ressure that can be ut on thee&erience without even reali5ing it. +hey all seemed to 44* tongues to haen at that moment, but then everysingle one of them went around and told about how when they started seaking in tongues it was some time aftertheir /atism with the Holy Sirit, some of them a 0-+ later. I didnDt comment much at the time, but I thought itinteresting that they all felt it SH-0* haen a certain way, but none of +H4$ had it haen to them that way. IdidnDt articularly want tongues, so it didnDt much matter.

At last Andrew made the most sense when he e&lained it mathematically %without meaning to. He e&lainedthat tongues is a way to let the Sirit hel relieve you of a burden so heavy that words wonDt work anymore andthat I would robably need it sooner or later if the ressure was high. +HA+ made sense, because I knew what Iwas carrying So at that oint, I started to see that it was coming and I was going to need it.




Anyway, we said goodbye and I got in my van to drive home, still wincing from the ain and moaning andgroaning with the weight of what IDd seen. :or several days, every time I closed my eyes I would see it again andwince and ache and moan. :or a coule of days after, I had this ama5ing love for everybody. I would go about myday just wanting to hug on eole and inch their cheeks because I just 84) how much !esus loved them Iknew they were one of the children that had whied by in my vision. I went into )al1$art and everyone wasS--- beautiful

+hings started to change instantly. I couldnDt lay video games anymore. I couldnDt watch +. I couldnDt curse. I

couldnDt survive without at least a coule of hours of raying a day. +he /ible was oened u for me and I sawthings and connections that IDve never heard A#/-*# say before. I couldnDt go anywhere without my /ible andI sent every e&tra minute in it. Sin reulsed me. IDve surely soken out of turn or ridefully or not consideredsomeoneDs feelings or misrioriti5ed my time or been irritated 1 but was instantly aware of it and reentant. I had ahard time getting any work done because I wanted to talk about God all the time 1 to anybody 1 and when I did,they were convicted. I got hysically ained if a dirty sam email oed u before I could delete it. I couldnDteven think about anything intimate with anyone other than my wife. "anDt even consider it or icture it. Gone isthe fighting at home over stuid stuff, lots more love all the time even though itDs a hard walk and thereDs stilldisagreement. -ne night He woke me u at Kam and said to ray for my wife. "omfy in bed with her on my arm,warm blankets, eyes closed 1 I rayed until QE?am without a break or do5ing off or anything. !ust like on auto1ilot, but not aslee. )hich is nuts cause IDll fall aslee tying sometimes and bash my head on the keyboard.$uch less, comfy in bed with my eyes closed

9lus IDm fasting now. ever know when or for how long, but I shouldnDt be able to fast even a half a day with thehyoglycemia I had. ow I get u in the morning and go to the fridge and ask the 0ord if I get to eat today.Sometimes He says yes and sometimes no. If I can hysically G4+ the food in my mouth, IDm not fasting. ItDs noteven a decision anymore. In the last two months He has had me fasting several times for KM hours or less, oncefor almost three days and once for almost four days. !ust water. o cravings, no ain, no headaches or di55inessor weakness. sually ends with some big event for which I need to be fully concentrated or clean. +hen I can getfood in my mouth again. I actually look forward to fasting because I know IDm being obedient and I know itDs goingto end with something that will glorify Him. 9lus itDs evidence of a suernatural rotection over me, because Ishould not medically be able to fast at all. K!date" *ince this was written the fasting changed to mostly withouteven water, FD days at a time, on average or B days a week without water for over two years now. That7s ;ustGod3 Lost over D !ounds in the first si months. *tabili<ed now and feel great3M

+he following three weeks %after >>TK held a constant conversational closeness with the Holy Sirit and some

A$AIG rayer time where He laid out more of what is coming and made romises to me of weaons I wouldhave in order to fight the battles ahead %including the gift of healing and discernmentTdeliverance of evil siritsand other stuff. In that time I got to articiate in two good friends getting full of the Sirit 1 one dear friend atanother of AndrewDs meetings %who started singing in tongues right on the sot and one by myself at thefurniture store with her. Also gave some really hard secific rohetic words individually to some eole thatchanged them. Also in that time, God sent this missionary family from "anada to 0iberty, $issouri to donate theirtime at my for1rofit furniture store and hel grow me and intercede for me

*uring the last >K weeks, I have been through four or five major hilosohical directional frameworks, tested andrejected bunches of theories and ideas, started two or three new websites, temered my anger at the church andnow refocusing and finally finding the ure central kernel of what God wants. !ust now finding a voice that He canlive with and God can use without creating more trouble for myself by distracting from Him. +he 0AS+ thing I wantto do is say something that will create an obstacle or kee someone from seeing the -ne +rue God.

Anyway, so thatDs where I am at the moment. )ho knows what ne&t month will look like

BPD), <200M+hat was as of >TKOTK??O. +he 2Aology to the )orld3 was written in :ebruary, K??O. +he business started to fliuside down in $arch and Aril resulting in a migration of eole leaving the business that were "hristians, butcouldnDt live on faith 6uite +HA+ much. )e started having rayer meetings in the store, as the 0ord directed.+hen the 0ord led us to start acceting donations of food and toys and clothes and furniture and other things atthe furniture store and caring for the oor 1 which has mushroomed into something ama5ing. +he "hurch of0iberty website went u in !une, K??O. +hings got ;4A00# freaky in -ctober, K??O. ow theyDre just comletelyoff the charts




9eole come to a furniture store to get healing and deliverance and groceries and rayer 1 or just a hug. $oreeole kee showing u to hel. ow we have authors and oets and musicians and artists telling us God gavethem something and He told them to give it to $4 so we could get it to the world $iracles haen every dayaround here. ItDs just not uncommon at all for a customer to come in and find two or three eole on their facescrying. 9raise God I could have never imagined a wilder adventure

9ray to be dangerous to satan. 9ray to get everything out of the way between you and God. 9ray that He wouldbust out of the bo& you ut Him in and reveal Himself in whatever way He thinks best. Sto telling Him what He

can and canDt do. 0et Him talk to you and HeDll direct your aths in 44;# way. And I GA;A+44 you that HeDllmake sure that you sto conforming to the world

!O4, BPD),- "2007MIn !uly of K??Q, God dramatically closed the furniture store and said to walk away. As of -ctober K??Q God saidto hit the road, so I've been traveling all over the country raying and meeting folks and breaking things in thesirit. Sometimes alone, sometimes with a brother traveling along. Sometimes icking u hitch hikers God islighting u eole all over and I get to watch He's restoring the /ody and bring connectivity and harmony back.$aybe you don't see it yet, but I do It's coming. +he ew Song is being layed 9raise God and it's just in time.

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