POETRY OF THE FALLEN

THE DARK GIFT

It is a night of ethereal pain,in our diabolical rhythm we have slain

all that’s pure and sacred won’t remaincos we take human life with disdain

Then all pleasure is translated in pain

The world is ours when the sunlight faintsHeaven close its gates coz we are our own saints

Till the golden sky appears againLet moonlight embrace us

Avoiding the future ahead us

Live for the memories and live foreverJust don’t forget to savor all the hollowness after

As for the shadows which cover our facesThey’re just traces of our race

Observing death and its lovely pace

Entomb all the hope and fruitless fateAs the lights are put out for your sake.

Intoning the deepest song of sorrow,while wolves vent their howls

shower me with your old powerful bloodand allow the owls to secure our souls

dancing till dawn, join the ritual

your fangs like daggers set me free fatallythe wound pierce the skin dolefully

mark me as yours,bless me with your forever mourn

because this life I can’t take no more

The thirsting one stirs, as hunger sinks inA dark angel looming over me

vitae streaming from the pale flesh beneathA lurking gentle wrath is what it seemsA frozen liquid fire that hypnotizes me

Neither fear, nor regret will erase,the endless shadows on our graves

Finally I find my nest in your embraceStranding to your magic with no face

Mist shrouds our gaunt forms,as in ourselves we’re lost,

in this maelstrom of pathetic love.

Your raven hair cascades overyour pale and tragic shoulders,

Dazed arms in agony,circles me delicately

While full scarlet lips part slightlyTo taste me soberly, as I weep silently.

Dementia

I don’t need human companyI want to embrace a corpse still

A soulless being which makes me chillLay down in a box, and face all the thrill

Your rotten body is now in my powerWith it I can pleasure myself for hoursLicking that skin which now tastes sour

And suck at the bones which muscles would cover

I wanna pull myself into your dead limbsAnd exchange bones and fluids

And even if the putrid stench makes me flinchI’ll hold your stinking form tightly as I sink in a eternal sleep

PLANT A DEAD TREE

World, a vampireMan, a diseaseLove, a menaceHatred, a grace

War, a flamePeace,

the insane

Oblivion, a passionBetrayal, a drug

Loyalty, a fashionShame, a curseBoredom, a pest

Freedom,at last

Silence, a dazeMemory, a wasteRegret, a disgrace

Pain, a stakeThruth,

Lost in space

Death Wish

I wanna die, please let me dieMake me quickly disappearThere’s nothing here for me

But all those things I don’t wish to seeThey’ve come back again to haunt meThey’ve come back again to tease me,

to rub off me, killing me slowlyI wanna die, please let me die

It’s too much regret to conceiveLove brings pain and no relief

No matter how many gods I believeNone of them give me release

Even if Satan listen to my whimsThousand prayers I’ll say to himI wanna die, please let me die

Cause friends I have none,And peace is long gone

Set me free, grant me a diveCause also the family I had once

Vanished without sparing me a glance.Will you let me die? Why won’t you?

I wanna part from this worldTo breathe another life,to welcome my demise

and to rejoice in paradiseWhen I finally soar to the sky

May death allow my wings to fly, amidst fire

Waiting Upon the stairsI waited for you

I counted the hours to see youI pined for you

As I smiled upon that mirrorDressing up for you

I longed for usWhen my heart stopped beating

And each breath I took meant a feelingWhen my hand missed yours

And in my life had no simple lossI waited for you

When the love went far awayAnd left me sour memories of blue in the highwayEven though the breaks didn’t s stop my dismay

I still saved the burns of that very dayI did hide them carefully for nobody’s display

The ceremony started quickly and my dreams flew awayI continuously waited for you and the price I severely paid

I hurt for you as your hoped arrival only delayedI bled for you and I felt like forgetting the vows of yesterday

I waited for youWhen my voice started trembling

And the choir initiated a holy chantingThey were all waiting for you,

As I cried on the church stairs, nursing my fresh woundsOn the date of our marriage,

As I held those pictures of that loving golden ageOh, how I badly missed your embrace,

Yearning to see your dear faceAnd even though the sound of your name still stains me with disgrace

I’ll still wait, wait and wait

HUNTRESS

I feel the emptiness of your soul even though you’re not hereI feel the heat of your coldness even when you’re no longer with me

The lights go out and you still glowThe dust fades out and my mind flows

I feel the loneliness of your smileI feel the man who pretends to be an isle

I feel the shape of an endless exile

Touchless, Thoughtless, tensenessFearless, loveless, Relentless

The ice melts after a cloudy dayThe sun paints the sky with blinding rays

You’re the brightest in heavenThe very image of hell’s decay

When in my eyes there’s only youI can’t even feel the pain of yesterday

I yearn for a quiet peaceful delayAs I dance among the ashes of fate

I bathe in the night, when the full moon risesI clap hands when the time freezes slightly

I quietly wait for your heart to bloom somedaySo I can feed the beast which took my heart awayAnd pour out these feelings that drive me insane

I feel your presence when I look awayI wish I could beg you to stay

I smell your scent when you slip awayI hear your breathing when I’m not awake

Faceless, sightless, ravenous desireRestless, merciless, sadness pyre

Lend me the key of your neverending happinessLet me set you free from the shackles of forgetfulness

Lead me to the depths of your body and soulMan and CreaturePain and oblivion

IMMORTALITY

I do not fear deathIt's not so bad to fade awayBut I refuse to believe that

At such event of life everything endsSo what's the meaning of this cycle?

Should I look for a bible?I won’t be just a memory

Countless times I want to rebornEndless lives I want to record

In the deepest core of my multiple soulsThe bruises of these journeys

I'll keep them close'Till my heart gives in to another journey

GIVING UP

Steps catch up with meI turn around

But it’s not you who I see

My hands trembleMy heartbeats run amok

My voice quiversAnd I can barely stand the shock

The thing beckons me to come closerI pray in silence ‘till the moment is over

With a blink of an eyeFinally I realize

It’s my own demiseCold as ice

So I obeyThere’s no point in running away

There’s nothing left to saySince you were the one who turned me away

I accept the cold hands of deathAnd suddenly sigh at my last breath

Oh God, I beg of you, gimmie restBecause my tombstone is already set

Waiting for my body and soulTo crumble in the desert

LIFE’S FASCINATION

Why you try to survive, if you’ll inevitably die?Is there any path to salvation through damnation?

When the passion starts?When does it end?

When the light in your eyes sparks?When your body burst in flames?

When the eternal shining will revealSomething that can keep my faith still?

What restrains you, what binds youIf not the bitter sweetness of this nonsense?

Is it a solution finding bliss in ignorance?

Life also get rid of the innocentsSo let’s stay imprudents

And later pay the consequences

There’s pain, there’s pleasureSeize all life’s treasures

Cause those in the endAre just stains left in a statue

Imagine the grieving of our bonesDesperate to heal its woundsOnce covered by human flesh

Now embraced by deathAnd enlaced by the pest

We bled, we fedIn the end there’s nothing left

We can search for God and start to begCause there’s no way out of this endless mess

How come I must knowWhere the obsession needs to go?

How come I must knowWhere to find redemption in this dark world?

I wanna liveI wanna cry

I want to be releasedI don’t want to die

When will I ever be cured?Of this damned infatuation with life?

JUST ANOTHER DIE HARD ROMANTIC

I was lonely, crushed, and sadSo you came, bearing love, company and meds

I thought you could mend my heartBut all you did was to tore it apartIn the beginning there was trustThat with time turned into dust

I was ready to forgive, but all you did was deceiveAnd no matter how much I grieve

I know I’ll never be completeCause countless times I lost my sleepHoping that one day I might succeed

Getting rid of all the memories you considered cheapYou broke me in two

Without telling me the truthHave you ever felt, noted, or listened?

While I shattered, burned, or screamed?My tattered world, my field of rotten dreams

Both never seemed so fragile,After stained with your sins

You fed on my sorrow, increasing my griefPolluting my core, stepping on me

I’m alone again, me and my thoughtsHurting again, unable to hold the sobs

But I’ll love again, even as my heart gets soreCause the most painful joy, lies in the heart of those who love

Our picture

I saw a ghost todayIn that favorite place of ours

In that bench hooded by flowersIn which you pushed me away

I saw a shadow todayLooming over that thick branch of ours

In which the spring built a towerWhere we used to climb to forget yesterday

I saw a spirit todayWhere every broken rock now lay in dismay

I couldn’t help but recall how we clung at each other before it was too late

Wishing the autumn leaves to shelter our faces from the rainWhen we held each other and dived into the bottomless lake

I saw an apparition todaySitting in that private earth of oursWhere we used to dig our morrow

And watch the rainbow’s colors followThe infinite blue as the wind blew

I saw a spectrum todayHiding amongst those treasure of oursWalking in the holy land we borrowed

Sharing chants with owls and chipping sparrowsI witnessed the scene again relay

I saw a poltergeist todayIt beckoned me, as it quietly disappeared

It summoned me, as I slowly squeezedIn that mind of yours which I’ll always live

Dilapidated future of ours never accomplishedFutile vows of yours, promises ever fulfilled

You only noticed now, that bodiless being was meTrapped in the sole heart of our love

Seared in the tender death of our kiss

BLOODY LOVE LIES

I don’t care what you didI don’t even care if you missed me

What only mattersIs what you have to giveBecause whatever it is

I’m struggling with needSo come and save me

Devour me and take meMake me part of you

Feed this hunger inside youLet me be with you

As long as you want me toCause all I want is you

God bless the innocence in youWhich only exist to adorn youAllow me to share it with youLet us taste each others blue

Be my night keeperTurn into my reaper

Play me with your fingersReduce my soul to cindersThen let’s make it simplerFor love there’s no meter

You don’t remember what it means to smileAnd I just want a way out of this exile

You can slap my face with styleIf you keep this secret in our private isle

Windows shatter, doors tumbleDreams disintegrate, hearts crumble

I don’t intend to resistIf you shower me with greed

So come and taste my blood with your lipsJust a sip, a crimson drink

As our hearts dance in syncI am you, you are me

Two lost souls ready to sinkBleeding me dry, making me sighAs the love slowly dies in my eyes

Sick with pleasure, locked in raptureI keep pouring lies without measureI can’t tell you how long it will last

Cause soon you’ll be part of my pastEach end brings another beginning

In the sky, angels celebrate our singingWhile demons in hell prepare our stinging

Let’s stop fighting against our destinyOur invincible enemy

Let’s surrender to insanityLet it bury the dubiety

Let it burn the fantasyThen let us drown in uncertainty

Love was never good to youWe can see what it has done to you

But I was very fond of youThough I lied to you

I never meant to hurt youYou left me, I cursed you

You despised me, I spat on youYou hurt me, I cheated on youBut now you know the truthI was never made for you

As you seek for me in the eyes of a strangerI’ll find my peace in the kiss of a bystander

Jealousy, anger, regretPain, angst, despair

A sum of dazzling feelings,Will you realize that something is missing?

PEACE

It’s a hidden mysteryA restricted islandIt’s a silent feelingA no man’s land

It’s something we craveIt’s something we fear

It’s a mute roar on a deaf’ earIt’s something unsolvedIt’s a rhythm unbroken

It’s a tranquil sceneCeasing the waves of the sea

A dead scream of a child’s whimThe end of the line for you and me.

Harbored Hatred

Hate above the skies,Abhorring demon’s and their lullabies

Hate the horizon,Kill the remaining angels and let them fry

HateHate everyone, hate the other

Hate the world, hate your own brotherHate for the wrong reasons

Hate all life seasonsHate the moon, the air, the seas

Hate the dark, the blues, the sealsHate the pain, hate the laughHate all that makes you half

Just the plain and simple hatred, will allow you absolutionOnly the venomous and burning hatred will erase this allusion

Despise their lies and just hateShoot their eyes and please, just hate,

Once more and again harbor hateHate and breathe hatred till your lungs get sore

Hate what you are, hate what you’ve beenHate their smiles and all you’ve ever seen

Hate your originHate your own feelings

Hate your own soul for no reason or meaningHate randomly, hate for the sake of hating

Hate purely, hate dolefullyEat, drink, and cry hatred

Hate from the bottom of your heartHate till your body torn apart

Hate today, hate tomorrow and yesterday

Hate, for all humans, harbor hatred night and day.

ForeverafterDammed be eternity

Which cursed me, and sentenced my eyes to witnessthe lives of those whom I love, be reduced to dust

I watch them born, I behold them dieI wait as they grow up and also grow oldI see their flaws, see they work them out

I observe their passions, laugh when they fall hardI appreciate their growing light, their cheerful enthusiasm

Their foolish dreams, their uncertain pathsTheir worthless greed and senseless wars

Their pitiful regret and countless faultsI respect their obsessions, their hunger for possessions

Their fear of damnation and unstoppable seek for salvationI understand their pain, I mourn for their lossesI listen to their whims, rejoice with their noises

I grieve for their bad deeds, when they burn alive the seasThen they amaze me again,

with their charm and impeccable smileAlthough later I inevitably cry for a while,

when they infallibly start to run out of time

Deafening Silence

These walls enclose my pathI’ve never been really human

I’ve never feltI’m filled with void

That's just the way it isand the way it always shall be

Need you to give warmth to this bodyThis cry of mercy, this fervent plea

I devote them to youPlease engulf my barriers

Before I face the scythe’s doomBring down this iron armor

Cause these days have been sourBecause my struggles are in vain

I can’t gather my own powers in the rainI’m too absorbed, my thoughts are far too denseI’ll succumb to suspense as I cry out nonsense

I carry grief in my shouldersFrom all the forgotten lovers

And the angst still hoversAs solitude takes over

Tears drop like liquid fireFinally I realize, I’m not an isle

Will you fill this everlasting desire?Give me shelter in your life?

I do not want to pineChase these wicked thoughts from my mind

Teach me how to flyAnd let me ascend to the sky.

I weakly confess,silently in madness,

such sorrow, has been merciless.

Butterfly’s Witchcraft

Tell me I’m frozenThat I’m twisted and broken

How can I hide, How can I live?Drowned in sorrow, living in griefHow can I shout, how can I speak

Shackled in hollowness without any sleepHow can I howl, how can I decide?How can I be your long lost bride?

An artificial doll made of liesThe first and last lady of butterflies

Who never lands, who never slidesWith poisonous flips to keep you mesmerized

Open up your eyesI won’t stay by your side

But keep your mind preoccupiedWith my own wings I’ll always shine

And blind all light of joy from your eyes

We’ll be One For EvermoreHands stained with gore

Don’t care about the pain anymoreBe where I can hear you

Cause I still miss you and even feel youSometimes I envy the dead

I still have the scar that once bledA eternal burning flame long gone

A fateful moment no one could postponeViolent tune deafening our heart strings

Turning into a cold winterWhat should be a beautiful spring

Roaring as an untamed animalEchoing, unnatural, faintly dismal

Cannot mend the pieces of my broken lifeCause with a blink of an eye I lost my sight.

Poison is a cure sometimesSo I dove into the ache from time to time

I can’t get any lowerI inhaled pest, cause life is a sucker

The ecstasy is dead, cause love is a fucker.A mediocre laughter was burnt alive

And all felicity remanent was put asideFading in the scorching desert of my dispassion

Erasing all that was left of passionLeaving a deranged mind in damnation

Inside a head full of disorientationsImmersing into its saddest reflections and

Mistaking the sanity’s directions.Disfiguring feelings, dismantling dreams,

We’ve broken promises, committing more sins.I kneel in your grave, my heart stops,

I swallow the earth, my body rots.Now you claim me as yoursAnd I gently whisper to you:You’ll be mine, I’ll be yoursWe’ll be one for evermore

Next of Kin

My brother was my only friendThe one who often spent time with meAnd was always a patient ear to lend

Whenever I hurt or needed to voice my wench

He would tell me tales of princes and nobles from FranceTell me how elves and saints were all heaven’s sent

My brother was my only friendHe often held my hand while I tried to sleep

When dreams of ghosts would come to haunt meEven when daddy made me cry and grieveAnd the others shut me out and ignored me

He never failed to be there, beside me

My brother was my only friendWhen we’d run freely after kitesWhen the day turned into night

When the fright crawled up my spineAnd when I passed out in that alley

My brother was my only friendWhen from dozens beatings he made me escape

Protecting me from the venomous pain and senseless rageSupporting and soothing me and at that tender difficult age

When love was constantly mistaken by hateWhen drugs and alcohol ended up in my plate

When nor friends or family I could faceWhen I thought that saying sorry was too late

When I believed this world would drive me insaneWhen I imagined that being alone was my fateHe’d promptly pick me up and carry me away

My brother was still my only friendEven when I shouted and got angryWhen I cut myself or needed money

He’d calm me down through the phoneSay that it was ok and I should come home

My brother is no more my only friendEarth swallowed him up suddenly

No more advices or complaintsI’ll hear from him contently

All I do now is light up candlesAnd stare up at the sky where he now stands

This Feeling is Over MeI’ve always cried over the ending

Lovers came and went,The rape of feelings were neverending

I’d sigh and bendIf you offered me some devotion cents

I’d prowl the nightKilling myself, killing time

Looking for a partner

Someone who’d take me fartherOn high heels, I’d swear to make ‘em kneelBut as soon as I peeled, their groins I’d feel

Grinding me to pieces against my will

I’ve searched all my life for the right guyBut after having some fun

I kept with the plightSelling bits of love overnight

I let them dirt my insidesAs all the passion turned to fright

Like a love hooker,I was supposed to be a looker

And no matter which names they’d call meI’d always stay as a loserUsed, groped and bruised

The beauty wouldn’t last foreverYet the guilt, would remain for everafter

As they pushed me to the mattressAs they drove me into this madness

And we fucked with flatness

I’d cry over my beaten flesh, violated and taintedWhich for money was cheaply exchanged

I’d moan, I’d purr, I’d groanWhenever they’d nail me to the bedWhenever they’d hurt me too bad

Or make me extremely sad

Thrusting their evil seeds inside of meAll of them had their ways with me

So I was fed up with that deranged love and its flingsBut now I realize, how I long for that feeling

To be again and again over me

NATURE’S CALL

I want to break these walls and face the windI want to shatter the glass until my limbs freeze

Will you witness the sunset till your ears get red?Let the rain invade your room claiming up your bed?

Can you hear the rocking of clouds?And the waves rocking at each other as violent clouts?

Can you hear the creature’s cries out loud?As it howls down its own damned sorrow?

Do you notice the yellow glow in my iris?As I carefully clutch at my wounded sides?Will my savage claws in your path slide?

Or from your oblivious destiny turn aside?

Let’s go take part in the bloody huntingI’m your prey trapped in a slam dancingI’ll increase my speed to keep on runningThen lick my fur clean and go slumming

Paint my sky with a slight shade of grey,Let me climb in the finite twilight

Since my eyes cannot stand another dayMy ferocious breath is coming short

And the untamable heart is sick with delayThe vigor and life is put out of me

For the countless souls devoured I must pay

As my fangs and paws are snatched away from meForsake the animal in these woods covered by leavesSkin and scalp torn apart just as the hunter pleases

Dead meat is my flesh, another foreign taste in your lips

Allow me to make love to the nightTo deliver myself in the pure absence of light

To entertain the trees above me in a sorry plightStill looking for a last exit to surviveWithin this lost and dark paradise

Winter in my heartI’d never ask you why

We allowed our lives to pass us byOr let our lives turn into a lie

deciding to say each other goodbyeI can no longer keep this disguise

I can no longer feed those liesI can no longer restrain these feelings inside

I can no longer stare at the skyWhen even the stars don’t shine

I can no longer keep closed my eyesI can no longer dismiss those times

I can no longer control the frightWhich freezes my fragile spine

I’m sorry, I’ll quit this for a whileI can no longer be your queenThat quiet woman made of ice.

Hold me close, don’t you dare to speakKiss my face, but avoid my lips

Lend me your shoulder, set me freeSing me a song to the sound of a dream

Now sew my eyes shut as I fight to sleep.

Welcoming Self –InjuryEmbrace me with all your might

Seal my love in thine fine armsDry this flood of tears with thine damned desire

Cast away my demons with thine fierce kiss of fireLend me your hand to build our secret empire

Let the moon witness our journey for 666 timesLive for the lament of our accursed heart’s demise

And pray aloud for death not to torn us apartThen let us rest upon that stone placed in our desert isle

For the sake of each other’s soul,Let’s carve our names in blood

Let’s vow to cross oceans of burning acidLet’s once and for all dump all emotions which are placid

Escape in Vengeance

Hatred wells up in my eyesAs I trace the lines of my tears with a knife

You say you’re sorry for thatI know you’re sorry all the timeFor you I lived with deception

Meeting ends against misconceptionbreaking laws altogether

just so sin would bound us togetherMy sky is no longer bruised with stars

All the clouds keep surrounding those deep scarsThat became my own,

That turned into my sunAnd made me nurse my long wounds.

I promised not to cryI swore to make your heart fry

But instead I can only dream about vengeanceNever act on it, escape in this grievance

I make arrengments for your death,As I bury myself in nothingness and unrest

They say the cure I need is time, but it hastens, it flies.To prevent me to kill you

I write out my feelings in rhythm and rhymeAbout our fucked up relationship,

my hatred, and my crimeI look over my shoulder, can’t stand up for myself

All I do now is stand against myselfI ponder and wonder how to bring you down

Yet I threw the same rock that knocked me down.I’m unforgiven, I’m harsh, I’m bitter

At least that’s what they say,out by night, in by day.

TIME FLEW (I just)

I just scream, to have no attentionI just shout, to vent my frustration

I just hunt, to obtain infatuationI just cut, to have compensation

I just write, to lift elationI just fight, to burn in damnationI just sin, to look for redmption

I just work, to believe I have a functionI just smile, to have some reception

I just pray, when I need some compassionI just love, when my heart is drenched by passion

I just cry, when I suffer from rejectionI just hate, when I’m filled with dispassionI just betray, when my heart lacks affection

I just care, when I’m lost in obssesionI just listen, when I crave for possesion

I just sleep, to bury my deceptionsI just hurt, when I need some distraction

I just live, to swallow my conceptionsI’m just myself, body and mind, one reflection.

Devil’s dance

She’s every face,She’s everyone,

Just a tiniest glanceand I’m gone.

Demon in disguisedon’t disappear from my sight

She’s everywhereShe’s burnt me at once

Gripping my body and faithCursing me to the bones

She loves disgracesShe calls me little one

She’s the worst of tempestsShe’s my temple and throne

She calls me sweetI call her poison,

She’s my daily drugI’m her wicked potion

Loving not wisely but too wellI pray God not to find me

(but to send me to the pits of hell)When I hurt myself in this maze of spell

Cut my skin deep

Laugh at me as I bleedThen hold me in your arms till I fall asleep

Paint these walls with the blood coursing through my veins and burn me alive in this searing heat of pain

I give her my heartShe concedes me a dance

I beg for forgivenessShe becomes my saint

Painful Rapture

I find light through darknessI find lucidity through madness

I feel my pulse throbbing,I know that I’m sobbingAnd still, I welcome pain

As the flames rose to my feetAs my dreams were all thrown into the sea

As my conscience faded in a whimAs my heart cried just for thisI still begged god no releaseIn the grace of abominationI slash the skin in adoration

The injure no more a temptationAs the loss of blood evoked elation

Redemption I found noneAll I wished was a home

But al my yearns turned to stoneHidden on a shade and completely alone

Grant me the deserved solitudeGrand me a cure to heal these woundsAnd a tourniquet to cover those bruises

Grant me all that you haveGive me some of the love, I always lacked

Bite the hands that feed

All Your fingertips touch meAs you try to rescue me

All you muscles move freewhen you try to reach for me

But, do you love me?

No one ever cared, but here you areNo one ever listened, yet you are all ears now

and promise to pick me upwhenever I fall

But do you love me?

Can you hear my heart beating?Can you hear the words stinging?

You were a star,Shinning so brightly that enslaved me from afar

You were a rose,Smelling so pure, that poisoned me without a cure

You were the sky,Hanging so heavy above my head

That without its weight certainly I wouldn’t lastYou were the sun,

Burning so warmly on my shouldersThat without its heat I’d end up frozen

You were my life,Pretending to last forever

But later experience taught me betterNo, there was never a heaven

You were those handsWhich slapped and comforted meWhich abused and reassured me

That gave me pain and love,Constantly.

TrashingI am the villainI am the hurt

I have no feelingsI’m about to turn you to dust

I am the inexcusable painDisguised as a suicidal ropeAll your struggles are in vain

Cause for your suffering, I lust

I will hang youI’ll damn you,

I’ll absorb all of youI’m the train, without rein,

Ready to run over youI will take your likePeel off your soul

Bathe in your bloodAnd fill you with blueI’ll have my revenge

If you say it’s not true

That you laughed at my miseryAnd beat me pretty good

I’m not your consoleI’m not your friendI’m a Pandora’s boxFull of gentle hate

I am the highest level of despairYour inmate and unfortunate fate

Dress me and feed meTry not to feel meCry and resist me

I’ll make you feel guilty

Karma’s knocking at your doorVictims no more crawl on your floorAs for your crime and punishmentThere won’t be mercy, no more.

The heritance and the heiress

I was there facing him again after so many years,I was there and so was him

I was older, sober, wiser, but no, not for himFor him it seemed that things remained the same

But I wanted to believe I had became more tactful, smarter and strongerWe didn’t say anything to each other for a long period of time

We just stared and observed each other’s figureHis features were still recognizable, not even centuries would make me forget

his stone cold gazeHis hard insensitive face, which I never failed to blame

And that blinding light coming from him which used to set me ablazeI was there, taken by a mirage of the past

I wanted to ask him “Where has your fatherhood gone”?While I still tried to figure out just what went wrong

When did we start to betray our own feelings?How come I hated you for so long?

How is that possible that it still lives within me?I wanted to throw my grief directly at your face, but instead I smiled at you

before it was too lateUnable to keep up the farce we’ve pathetically sustained for so long… for the

sake of our so called peace!You didn’t smile back, you kept quiet, and if it wasn’t for the wetness which

covered your cheeksI’d say you had been frozen by your own callousness

Ah, the pain, humiliation and mistreatments

All of that prepared me to face up the worldTo overcome the adversities and never trust a living soul

And truth to be told, I still owe that man.I went to him to express my false gratitude, expecting to hear the same old

mockeries about womanhoodI planed to hide my frustration, disappointment and restlessness

But he insisted to bring back in me those unsettling memoriesI cannot forgive you father, cause I’m not even able to forgive my own self.

MYRIAD OF PRAYERS

The sun will rise again, but no, not for meThough the end of the day I won’t see

Your smile and hopeless dreamsThe ocean at night will remainWashing away all human sins

The moon will enlighten the dark streams of the seaBut my arms are too tired, to even swim

Above all my mistakes theirs won’t be erasedBut white clouds will open to judge them thy name

As the voices twirl, I try to remember not to feelIgnoring pleas and tortured screams

I’ll only forgive angels according His willThe star will fall in the summer skyThe horizon will certainly be bright

When I say farewell to sunlightScorching souls with flaming birds’ flights

I’ll miss the chance to burn under these heightsAs I lay down in the earth and my body rises

I won’t be able to watch them fade awayThe spirits with their divine chants of slaves

Won’t you ever spare a song for me in my very endCause I’ll enjoy the solitude to my heart’s content

But perhaps to this world there’s something I should have lentThe ability to weep when the sorrow doesn’t bent.

FORLORN CONFESSION

How to talk about something you don’t even know?You only hear what is like

Though no such things ever crossed your mindHow can you miss something you’ve never felt?Why is this continuous gloom inside your head?

Will a bottomless soul survive through the sunset?

Tell me what I want, give me what I needCause I’m starving, dying for it

I still have ambition to harbor, and lungs to breatheFeed this sleepless hollow, a freedom so thin

Save me from myself and find a way to redeem yourselfI’m a lost cheep in need of help

An existence to be pitied, condemned to hellNothing makes me want to go onI no more have dreams to rely on

When will death claws descend upon my flesh?Will I find rest in those dark trees’ nests?

Where will this path lead me?Is it too late to beg for release?

For the love of God come to my aidWhoever you may be,

Whenever you accidentally step on my ashes scattered in your dreams.

THE LAST DAY

Abhorring life’s wicked waysDestroying old ties and hopeless dates

Fear for the best, expect no restHope for the worst, myriads of memories turned to dust

I don’t know what’s worthTo strive and grow old or to live without your hope

Wherever I stay melancholy by my side remainsDead or alive let those lies for once see the light of day

Try not to pay attention when your flawless tears mingle with the acid rain

To God, to the priest, to the moon I’ll wail and complainYou know I’m no saint and with time I’ll faint

Although all my struggles were in vainWithout you here I won’t even be able to face my fate

Grant me your divine comforting sightSave this moment for your entire timeErase these thoughts from my mind

Soothe me with your lovely candid smileCome and be my immortal knightChoose the day I’ll inevitably die

But promise me not to let me miserably pineUnless I’m securely nestled in the warmth of your arms

TEMPESTUOUS AGE

I wanna remain youngCarrying up my pride and writing songs

I wanna stay forever bluntLove sillily and jump

Laugh openly and do bunch of stunts

Say what I want just when I pleaseDon’t insult me with your Christ

Don’t tell me what I need

I plan to party all nightDon’t wait up for me

My heart is running wildIgnoring death or disease

Staying up all this timeDon’t bother with the curfewTry to ground me for weeksI won’t ever swallow my will

I’m parentless right nowCasting away the fucking chillMy restless mind is outspoken

Makes up excuses which sound so real!

I smoke marijuana and swallow my pillsI’ll dream wide awake

Though my impetus won’t seal

I’ll club and scream out loudIgnoring sermons and crappy laws

Nor a beating or slap will shut me outMy guitar and joyful comrades

are my family by nowIdols and legends I’ll chase

Cause I wanna be one of them somehowRock n’roll and drugs won’t stain

What I conquered till nowAlcohol and sex will erase

Bruises of fights and rebounds

Don’t you lock me up in a cageI won’t reach adulthood right nowPimples and tattoos say my name

I’m the unripe youth crumbling down

School and rules are not my thingWhen caught stealing I end up in a pinch

Education is the enemy, it makes me flinch

I can master and tame whatever I gripRefrain from tutoring me, stop your whipLet loose these ropes, I yearn to be free

Convention and workSmell like shit

This prattle is old, I demand my releaseQuit your mind games that seek to fool mePolitics and religion just gimmie the creepsPolice and creeds please stay way from meNewspapers and dirt are all over the streetsBig shots and priests won’t ever control me

Reading a book won’t call me downDon’t you try to arrest me or I’ll squall

I like fast cars to pick up my datesI speed down at night to ride with my mates

We crack up jokes with time to wasteWe rebel against system, the government we hate

We stare at the sky as the stars burn in flamesWhatever goes wrong the others we’ll blame

Years will pass and I’ll no longer be meCause this rosy strong skin will be taken from me

Hail, hail another happy birthdayMy, my another funeral date

Who cares? Who sees?I’m in a tempestuous ageI’m the king of my dreams