Crossroads of Awakening Disc 1

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Module: Crossroads of Awakening Speaker: Eric J. Pepin

Disc: 1 of 4 Eric: You’ll have to excuse me, I’m quite emotional right now. It was a bit of an experience I had

at about 1:15. And there’s only one thing in the Universe that would even humble me . . . by

making their presence to me and saying something to me. And that experience came just a little

while ago. And poor Jason was sitting at the table and I had just finished eating and I started to

weep, I cried. And I tried to hold it from him and I just want you guys to know - it’s not pain. It’s

not sadness. It’s weeping of joy . . . I don’t know how to say it. So, I wasn’t expecting that and I’m

just trying to pull myself together.

My mind is very dimensional . . . multi-frequency kind of layer of where my mind is at right

now. One foot is trying to stay here and the other one is up here, so I’m doing like when you guys

shift; I’m gasping for air because for me it’s profound. So, If it’s profound for me, I think you guys

have an idea where I’m at and where I’m trying to come back down to. Or you’re just going to have

me weeping the whole time. We can’t have that! So, I’m going to try to talk; it’s like translating

from up here . . . that I’ve been spiraled now. Talk about being tested, you know. You think you got

it all down and you’re at it. And then of course, you know, the Universe says something to you, and

even I (says excuse me then pause) am humbled by this being by God. And I am nothing . . .

nothing. (Starts to say something then says excuse me . . . pause).

I don’t want to get all like Reverend Billy whatever on you guys, so. It’s so not like me. So the first

thing I just want to say, let me look upon your faces, let me look upon your souls. And I can not tell

you how proud I am that you guys are here.

I’ve looked for 10,000 years. Time is very different in that other place. And time is very

short, but feels very long here in the organic body. And, I don’t need to tell you how I’ve suffered

because I know that I’m preaching to the choir. I know that you guys have suffered. And you know

what I mean; being here, in this dimension, in this world. It’s a choice. It’s a choice you all made in


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a different place, in a different time. Like Star Wars: In a far, far away place. All of you guys. And

to give you a little bit more of the riddle that I tried to dance around very carefully for good reason.

I was asked to go find the very best - the very best. And I don’t ask why when I’m asked by God,

the Universe. I just say okay. And I was asked - evidently I was doing a good job, I suppose. An

old soul - and I’m talking white cell . . . I’m talking old time. I am so not talking just your everyday

white cells. I am not talking your everyday spiritual people. I’m talking, human terms. I am talking

about ancient old, old, old beings that were in other worlds in the Universe, asked to be there to do

the work. For these other worlds, for these other places, FAR away - 10,000 years of searching;

10,000 years of journeying and coming into worlds like this, organically, in this dimension. And

having to approach other enlightened beings and saying I’ve been asked to come here in person to

ask you to come to a certain time . . . a time . . . a certain place . . . a certain moment. And that it

would be perilous, and I have to ask in person because we’re trying to fly under the radar. Under

the radar.

I’ve kept an oath of secrecy, not able to really truly say what or where and expect people to

know and understand and knew damn well the old souls, the ancient ones, they’ll know. But I had

to ask. And you got to come in and scratch the knowledge. Put it deep . . . deep. It’s like asking

yourself to die. But for one being - not one of you guys questioned. Not one. And asked you to

come here, and be part of the world. Be part of the organism. Merge in. Bring not the full attention

upon you so that it’s not smited. I’ll call it the Darkside, I’ll call it whatever you want. So, there is

some truth, take it for what you want. I can say it now, I can show you certain things that you need

to know now. This is holy ground. Do you understand? The Island is holy ground; it is Gaia’s, the

heart chakra. Its vegetation . . . it’s the Force . . . it’s, it’s at its strongest here. We’re not of the

earth, per say. So, in one way, it’s a little unusual for us. But, yet, we can also fully understand it.

I can speak my mind because the Darkside is too tempted and intrigued as you are to know

what my next move is to do something to me at this point. It has as much anticipation to what I’m

up to, what is it that he has to be concerned with now? Holy ground. I made it to the base. We made

it to the base. Does everybody understand what I’m saying? If you knew, you never would have

made it. It’s too hard for this state of organic mind that you guys are dealing and coping with every

single day. That the joy of knowing that I’m going to start unveiling some of this would have


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emanated from you - don’t under estimate the, I hate to sound like Star Wars, the Darkside, the

dark force.

You know that sometimes one can not control that temptation. Our hearts beam at the

mention of God, beam at the mention of the Universe, beam at the mere thought. How can we

contain such intense joy that we have, and love, and loyalty for this being? So one has to be silent

and let you guys move under the radar. It’s like holding your breath, suffering. And you guys do it

willingly, the same as I, I do it willingly.

So I want to look at you. I’m not looking at your faces, I mean that in human talk, I don’t

know. Let me look upon your faces. What I’m saying is let me look into your souls. Because I am

in need finally of the company of my friends. I’m in need, and I’m tired like you. And I need that

company now because I can finally say it without the consequences of having to fly under the radar

and what it might do. They’re certain borders I’ve pushed, yes. Everything I’ve taught is the true

ancient knowledge. It’s clean, not manned up by man’s consciousness, interwoven with the

knowledge. Not the, with all due respect, the shaman stuff. It’s clean what I’ve given you. How you

want to internalize it, that’s up to you guys. Because I know you’re going to pull it from that higher

place that you’re bringing in. I didn’t want clones; I wanted ancient beings that are damn powerful.

The finest from across the Universe! It’s like we’re drawing the line. You know, one says well why

it’s going to be earth? Well, if it’s some other planet, it would’ve been - well why this planet? It’s

here. That’s why. And it’s now, and it’s approaching. It’s not some kind of cataclysmic event. Like

I’ve been saying over and over, if it shoots straight and you can figure it out, then it ain’t what it is.

It still will move to the side, and you’ll go that’s funky! But that’s right. You understand what I’m

saying? So, one foot here one foot there. Alright. I can do it. I just want to just have a moment,

okay?

Mohammed, here. I want you to know something that I know that you all need to know. I

remember watching a movie. I like movies in this dimension. It’s also sometimes the Universe

talking. It’s a movie, I can’t remember the name of it. It was about this Asian family, and she had a

daughter. And the mother and they’re at the table. And the mother was saying afterwards, why

don’t you pick this, or do this or that and the daughter was arguing. She’s very meek, very gentle

and the mother finally stops and says to her - I forget her name - she says, “I see you. I see you.”

Don’t think that I don’t see you. You know, they’re certain things I can do and they’re certain


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things I can’t do. They’re rules. And believe me, last year was tough because there are a lot of rules

that even IT broke to break me. Because IT knew this was coming to here. It’s coming now. So it

was throw all the stops and throw the kitchen sink at me and everything else. That’s fine. I’ll take it

all. You can’t stop it now. You can’t. So, be mad, be pissed, I don’t care. All I have to say is I’m in

good company. I’m in the company of powerful friends and I will say it to the Darkside now – Step

Aside, Step Aside. That’s good company.

It’s funny, because I’ve done some ‘One-on-Ones’ the last few days, and you know, I don’t

want to say it’s about money. But there is a reason behind it all. Trust me. And, so I’m doing what I

have to do, and that’s the way things work here, it’s a resource to build a resource and I’m fine with

that. So I’ve been working very hard and I wanted to share a few things that were very interesting,

and things that I need to get off my chest.

I want all the women in here to stand up. This is what I want to say. What isn’t said and

needs to be said. It’s true - I lean towards the men because this is a world where they have

advantages versus the women. And the women got screwed. She has to give birth, she has to give

the child, she has to do . . . many births. Where the men have a certain kind of freedom that they

can move towards their spirituality, okay? When one gives birth, there is this love that is put into

the child. But this is an organic world, this is still an organic child - soul too. There are diversions

And so I never really focused so much. All I cared about was, I have to set up some kind of line

before I’m discovered by the Darkside, lets say. I need to work as quickly as I can. And I thought:

the women in this dimension, their mind moves into subject areas and interest that’s not in the line

with the clean knowledge I have to give them. Because they move with the intelligence from here.

It’s different than how a man uses their kind of intelligence. When I say intelligence, I don’t mean

brains, okay? I mean spirit. I mean frequency.

I’m so humbled . . . humbled. Never did I think, my arrogance if you will, that I would find

some - believe me, there’s things upset now. You’ll understand, okay? Never did I think that I

would find such powerful women. Powerful! You don’t even know you’re potential! And I need

you to know that – equal. Believe me, it has to do with your work. Okay? And, I will teach you, I

will empower you, I will do whatever I can. But, I thought wrong. I’m willing to admit it. And, I

am honored and humbled to be in your presence. So much, you have no idea. So, to you. I wanted


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to straighten that piece of business out. And no one can tell you any different now because it came

from the source, okay? The guys - they’re sitting here, “arrghh.”

My mind is racing around - where it should begin? There are certain techniques that I want

to teach. And it’s about which one I want to jump on because I’m more excited about sharing

information I’ve never shared. And then there’s a part of me that says, you know, well, then they’ll

complain that I’m not teaching enough technique. So I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if you

don’t. It’s always a 50/50 crowd after. So everybody just wants - let’s bring it on! Let’s do it all

now! So we’ll do as much as we can, as usual. I’m going to teach you guys something, because it’s

important that I do. And I do not want you to under estimate the power of what I’m going to teach

you.

There are pieces I give, and there are full pieces. I don’t give things that are not absolutely

useful, okay? It’s not about holding back. It’s about timing, okay, timing. And I get very upset

when people say - well, he’s holding back certain knowledge. Well, I’m not trying to belittle here

now, but would you give your 5 year old a buck knife to go carve sticks and trees with? Okay? But

is the child going to argue with you if that’s what it decides it wants? And seems to think that

others have that? Okay? You guys are just - damn if you guys aren’t powerful old souls and I’ve

got to play the game, you know. You know, and then think, you know, oh well I don’t want to get

in a wrestling match now with them, so you know. Now I got to...sigh.

So, let’s get right to it. One, it’s going to be a challenge. Because of the weather, because of

what’s going on as you all understand. How many of you guys have worked with the tones? Please

raise your hands. Okay, go ahead put them down. The tones are a class that we offer. I suggest you

get your hands on it, okay? I don’t give any sales pitches. This is not about money...it’s not about

making money. If you can’t afford it, and you’re honest, and you’re sincere, you talk to my staff.

Believe me, we’ll work something out, okay? The pitch is a tone. It’s like a high pitch tone if you

tune into it, okay? What this is is frequencies that I call the sound of God, if you will. As I said

before, God’s not going to talk like I’m talking to you now. God’s not going to have a

conversation, “Hey what’s up?” Okay? God is just this -- beyond even our imagination. Of this, this

presence of being, okay? And there are things in an organic body, okay? That if we want to work in

these higher levels, to kind of re-awaken us and re-stir how to move in those places. Okay? Then

there are little things that are like hidden for us to discover. The pitches are that little something.


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One of many, as I’ve given many, but one of something, okay? If you listen to them you will hear

like this: (making high pitch sound). And if you concentrate on it - you can’t use your brain, you

can’t use your brain. Because the second you use your brain, and you think upon it with the frontal

brain it goes like this from: (making high pitch sound and it suddenly being whisked away). It’s

gone. So now you got to clear, you got to concentrate, you bring it back: (making high pitch sound

again)...and then all of a sudden, you got to clear your mind. You got to go deeper. And not think

with the forward brain. The organic brain. And all of a sudden you’re going to hear another one:

(making high pitch sound again). And it’s like this: a bar now is what I would call it. And it’s

going: (making another high pitch sound). And the more you let yourself go and you let this other

consciousness move into it, it goes from: ( making another high pitch sound), and it’s going to go

louder and louder and louder. It can be deafening. Deafening.

What you want to do then is you want to take this bar. And you take this piece, and you’re

going to listen: (making high pitch sound again) And you go boom...there’s 4 of them. And you’re

holding it. And then there’s 8 of them. And you can feel them. You can see them. But it’s not sight,

it’s not feeling. It is coming from this other place as a being you exist. As you’re a dimensional

being, you don’t have arms and legs and hands and a nervous system. We want to go back to that

because that’s what we are plugged into right now. So it just makes logic. You got to throw the

logic out. You got to throw the rationality out. You got to do everything that you don’t want to do.

Everything that says, “No, what are you nuts?” Okay? It’s scary. It’s like a threat. It’s the organic

body that’s being threatened. And it’s holding you here; it’s holding you still, saying, “No, you

want to be here.”

So you have all these bars out, and you’re like controlling them all now, okay? You’re just

holding them, holding them. And then, of course, it’s not the babbler. It’s this other part of you,

comes forward, okay? And all of the sudden it goes from here, it goes: (making sounds of tones

evaporating). And you’re right back to that first one when you had it and it disappeared, and you’re

like, “Okay, I got to start all over again.” You got to practice, and practice, and practice with it.

And when you have the 4 up, and you have this going on, you can lower it. You can make it come

forward. You can move it like this. And you hear it go: (making high pitch sound). You can do all

sorts of stuff with it, okay? And what are you doing? I’ll tell you what you’re doing. To your

dimensional body, this is what you’re doing: you’re like a little baby...first steps. Maybe you had a


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heart attack and you’re paralyzed. And you got to re-learn what you absolutely already know

perfectly! It’s as if it were removed from you. And you got to re-awaken those cellular bodies in

you. To retrain them. And as you keep practicing, you’re going to get better and better. And all of a

sudden you’re going to go, “I don’t need the pitches now. I can move. I can move my energy

around.” And you’re going to go, “Well, I can do these things but I’m not quite sure what they

mean now.” And then, in this world, one can move energy and the organic body - it doesn’t feel

anything. By understanding the pitches, you go into - my favorite word that I always get corrected

on – ‘suptle’ which you guys will correct me as subtle. Fine, whatever. Anyhow, the point is I can

not stress to you more, it’s frustrating. It’s frustrating as an organic being to hang onto those

pitches. It goes against everything that we want. And your brain will just throw it out if you’re not

careful to hold onto to them. Because they don’t belong here and as long as you’re listening to them

it’s like pulling you dimensionally higher. And it’s like - you’re bodies like, “No.” And then,

(making whisking away sound) you forget. You’re like, “What was I doing 10 minutes ago?”

Uhhhh . . . that tone thing. And you’re forgetting. I mean you were just like . . . I mean you feel it.

You’re there. It’s a funny thing. It doesn’t want you to learn.

You know, it’s like I said to somebody about the jungle and energy. I love Gaia. I love

Gaia, the Earth, the Goddess. Call it whatever you want. But I have a friend of mine who is very

earthy and I mentioned I was going to talk about Ayahuasca. Ayahuasca is a hallucinogenic that

comes mainly from Brazil, but they’re brought it into other places. You drink it and you guys are

going to, I mean it’s like, schwwaaaaa (making sound) Okay? Ah, you’re going to go to some deep,

deep, heavy places. The problem with us were other people - like, you know, I don’t want to say

the hippies, or whatever, but they go there. They’re like they know it all now. “I’ve got this

knowledge and the Gaia rhythm and I get it” and they feel it and da, da, da, da, da, da, da. I said to

my friend Ko, I said uh - she says, “don’t you want to be part of Gaia, don’t you want Gaia to take

you in?” I say no. She was like, “what?” she was like “but . . .” I say what. What, do you think it’s

like a bad thing? She’s like “yeah!” I’m like - well, I said, “I’ve got news for you. I’m of the

Universe. I was asked to come here and to protect because Gaia is not of itself. Gaia belongs to a

much bigger picture. Much bigger picture.” And I said, “I will not isolate myself to the

exclusiveness to just Gaia. I don’t serve Gaia. I will act upon its orders, and I will protect it with a

ferocity, okay? But because it is the will of God, the Universe, and I will not be forgetting that. I


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will not let it slip from me that I’m so entrenched into the Earth Goddess. The Earth Goddess is

nothing - nothing in comparison to her father, her creator.” And this is what people forget.

They say they remember, they feel it in here, it’s one and the same. Human beings have a

tendency to title and tag things. Those of you who’ve learned from me know what I am talking

about. Well, when you say Goddess and the Goddess, you can’t say Universe and God, it’s not the

same. The Goddess is somehow tagged emotionally that is an Earth being of energy. And they

forget, they forget. An Earth she’s tough. She is of nature. It’s not like this lady sitting there having

a conversation. It is similar to God, but God’s way much more intense. But, it wants to create life.

It wants to over take. You stay still long enough, she doesn’t care about your flesh. Flesh to her is

just part of soil, trees, land, it’s of the earth. And she wants to love you. She wants to love you so

much. Love you, and you’re like “ahhhhh.” Okay? You’re in a stasis. You’re in a stasis because

you’re like “ahhhh, love, mother . . . mother, energy, creation.” And that’s all the organic part of

you. Okay? And it’s love.

The problem is that a mother can love her child too much to and ruin the child. They can

stifle the child, never to leave home, to have fear to leave the mother, to be concerned about

moving away. There can be too much love. The Earth has to be strong. It is in space, its sub zero

temperatures, it is brutal. It’s getting meteorites thrown at it. And we’re like “what meteorites?”

1,000 years . . . a million. It’s nothing to her. She constantly has to deal with shit. Okay?

Constantly. And what is here, she’s nurturing and thriving and wanting to grow because that is the

will of God and she’s obeying. She’s obeying. She’s emanating this frequency out saying I love

God too. But we’re down in the core of it. And now we’ve been sent from another universe and

we’re these ancient beings, these ancient white cells and we know what we’ve got to do. And now

we got to say “OK, well you got to shut off what you know.” That’s going to get you through this

and merge in and now we’re like “OK, we know there’s something here, we know there’s

something we got to connect to, we know that we’re connected to something higher. But let’s

sample this, let’s sample that.” And we’re like going through bags of stuff throwing it over our

head, and you got to speed up time. “That’s, uhhhhh, Buddhism. Looks uhhh, you know,

Christianity. (Making sounds uhh ummm). What the hell are they saying? Who? What?”

Okay, so this is what we’re sampling. We’re sampling all these things because the

navigator’s saying no… no… yep ...maybe...maybe...looks good. Exhausting ourselves. And now


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we’re like, “this isn’t anything, I can’t take it anymore. I love you universe, you got to tell me. You

got to tell me.” Spoiled children. And the universe, they’re like you got it already. You agreed. You

agreed to the contract. Eric, whatever, came and talked to you. The spokesperson I chose to send to

do the job. You signed the contract, shut up now. Do the job, okay? And you guys aren’t (laughing)

crybabies by no means, okay? But it’s like growing pains. You’re like this sucks. This sucks, I had

it down, I know I had it down. You took it from my memory, and you packed it away, I’m going to

unpack it, I know it’s there. I’m helping you unpack, believe me. And I’m like “what the hell did

you need this for?” “You don’t need this.” And you’re like “yes I do.”

So, back to the pitches, because I’m still on target, okay? You just don’t know it yet. You

think I’m wandering around. Let’s come back now, okay? The pitches...the frequencies. It’s what’s

helping you to learn to move that body. I mean I can give you data, I can give you knowledge. I can

help you unweave all these knots that hold you in this dimension, okay? The pitches are an

exercise. I got news for you, you’re all lazy. You’re all lazy. I’m lazy, but you know what my

answer is? I already made it....so it’s like (says tauntingly) nah nah nah nah nah nah nah. Okay? I

don’t know what to say to you. Okay? It’s the truth. Once in a while I’m going to get my butt

kicked, but not as often as you guys do, and that’s good. Anyway, so you guys are going to have to

fight for these tones, these pitches. You guys who don’t know it need to learn it. I think Matthew

Struve’s been teaching it here, okay? If you haven’t taken it or you’re haven trouble hearing it, you

don’t deserve to know it because you need to hunt him down. With some mercy. Some of you guys

have been brutal on some of the staff. They came back like drones last night. Okay? I said “now

you know what it feels like.” I said, “Yeah, I walk around, I said I feel like a pinball.” Okay? One

person comes by it’s like, ping. I turn around to go this way, ping. It’s another one. I go - a triple

one - ping, ping, ping. And I’m like (making long inhale sound) and then I’m like, no. I got to look

cool. I’m the master. I’m the teacher. Yeah . . . sure… no…. Okay? No idea. I got an organic body

just like everybody else. And the thing is, my brain says you got to answer that question. Oh, you

got to answer that question. And my body’s going ahhhhhhrrg. Okay?

The pitches, the tones, are very real. They will wake you out of a dead sleep. You’ll jump

up like this. And be like it sounds like a car just, a truck just went through your head. Like

“waaaaooohh.” Okay? And you’ll be like “what the hell was that?” That is your mind slipping into

those higher dimensions and when you slide into them, somehow, your organic body and the brain


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somehow interprets it kind of funky. Do you see what I’m saying? And that’s what it can sound

like sometimes. It’s not literally what it sounds like, but we’re translating with electrical current,

per say, through an organic brain and it’s trying to translate it. It’s like a radio station and taking a

toaster and getting it to capture the sound waves. And it sounds like shit, but you can make it out.

But it’s not designed for that, but somehow, you know, MacGyver...you’re doing it. Whatever, you

know. I don’t know if in reality you make a toaster turn into a stereo system, but you get the gist of

what I’m saying. And that’s what you’re doing. We’re taking - shit, Okay? And we’re bringing it

into these higher dimensions. And I don’t mean literally that the organic body is shit....sometimes it

feels like it. But, anyway. So, we’re working with what we got, because we are building this

dimensional - inner dimensional, multi dimensional body. And we’re saying, Ok...we got to

exercise the arms, you got to exercise the legs. And what does a guy do whose going into therapy

who had the stroke and can’t move half the body? They’re almost making him do it. Because there

is a part that just wants to give up. That says I don’t want to do it. Okay? And nobody here would

be any different including me. And I would be the worse. Because I’d be bitching up a storm and

they would hate me. That’s what you guys have to do right now. You guys are in like therapy to

physically build up your bodies multi-dimensionally now that you are under the grid.

The frequencies are going to teach you how to kind of do this and you’re going to forget to

do it. You’re going to let it evaporate from your memory. You’ll going to see it and get it and jump

on it, and then you’re going to forget about it. Or you’re going to take it to a certain point and

you’re going to go “I’ve done everything I can with it. What else is there to do? Gee Eric, I’ve

gotten 50,000 bars. How do you like that?” Good for you. I got 100,000. Anyway, so the point is, is

that there are things one would be missing if one were to say to me, “I’ve taken it to the limit.” No.

You took it to the limit...you’re sailing because you really can have no luggage mentally to get

there. You literally have to surrender, they’re like micro surrendering. Okay? And there’s

something about, about dropping into the back of your head to reach the higher. It’s almost like I

relax waves. And then I slip in. And the second you have a thought, it’s like it backs up to more

firmer. And you want to drop them. And then you’re like, “oh yeah, I’ve got it good.” And you’re

like, whoop. And you’re like “I trained for the babbler. I shouldn’t be babbling. I do my

meditations. I know my self, why I am babbling, god dam it all.” And so you go back, because it’s


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not meditation. You can kind of play around with them, but meditation, what you’ve learned, is all

of the skills to get you through all this other stuff that I’m going to throw at you.

It’s telling you, you know, it’s like this. Okay? I’m teaching you babbler’s bad. This is how

you beat the babbler. This is how you move energy. This is how you breathe it. This is what’s

going on when I say this. This is how you’re going to handle it, because when you start moving and

the car’s rumbling, and it’s like putt putt putt. You got this piece of garbage that you had to fix up

because you’re in the middle of the jungle, okay? You’re on planet Earth and you’re like here’s the

heap of crap you got to fix to get off the island now. Okay? And you’re ferociously working on it

because you want to get off the damn Island. Okay? So, you get it going and it’s like putt putt putt

putt putt. And we got banana fuel that we fermented to make. And it’s crap, but we got it to work.

We know if we can catch flight, it makes it into an elite craft or something, it like metamorphoses,

we know that.

So, you got to work with what you got. The tones, when you go there, is the skills you’ve

got from meditation that is your wax on and wax off. It’s what’s going to make you - when you get

to certain points, and you start to fall back, you’re going to use your old skills to kind of BOOM!

And then you’re going to go right back again. Okay? It’s just going to come to you intuitively.

They say in martial arts, you learn a move over and over again so that when something happens,

you don’t think about it. It’s not so much you plan for it. So when somebody goes to swing at you,

your body just does it. You’re doing the same thing. That’s why you’re meditating. You’re holding

yourself there, you’re moving your energy, you’re going into higher places and coming down.

You’re learning to control the body. And, so when you’re going to go into these other places, when

you start to listen to the tones - and I’m tipping you off now more than you’ve been tipped off

before - and you’re like, “alright, I’m going to go back and look at that because I went through that

whole place and I didn’t see a door.” And I walk up to the wall and I’m kicking it and it’s swinging

open and I’m saying there it is the whole time. That’s how you got to be thinking. It’s there, it’s

hidden from you.

So, when you enter the tones, you’ve got to use the skills without thinking that you’re using

the skills. Okay? Get the humor out of that one, I don’t know. And you know exactly what I’m

talking about. And everybody else who ever sees this who walks in there going to go “This guys a


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nut. What is he talking about? The skills you have that you don’t have that you shouldn’t be aware

you’re using that you shouldn’t be using but you should be using.” It’s like ahhhh.

I’ll tell you, they sweated a few pounds off me in this place. Okay? The kitchens up there,

I’m down here. I found motivation and I didn’t like it. But I made it back and forth. And then I

figured out I could send for it. I deal with the same crap you guys deal with, just differently. I have

other challenges, okay?

So, we’ve taught you guys the pitch, the frequency, okay? I think it’s going to be extremely

difficult to catch that pitch in this environment with the wind blowing and the environment. And as

you guys are going to find out, there’s a lot behind all this, and I’m going to be unveiling in part 2

tonight. Okay? There’s only so much that I can spew out. So...the pitch. I just wish I could have

you guys do the pitch in here and I just know it’s going to be really hard for a lot of people. Not all

of you guys because most of you guys know about it and other ones will stumble into it, probably

because of where you’re sitting, actually. Because sound waves are kind of moving stronger in

certain areas and less in others depending where you’re sitting, and so on and so forth.

So, I’m going to explain it - WOW! Look at this. Well, alright. The staff is kind of

thinking. Of course it’s not frosty icy cold. I hope nobody really takes me too serious. I heard that

my sense of humor - nobody knows how to react. And they’re like they don’t know if you’re being

serious or you’re being funny. I say the same thing all the time. Well no wonder they didn’t laugh

and they looked at me like they were real nervous and scared, you know or something, you know?

So, the important part is I find it amusing, okay? Alright, I’ll get back on track, I know...I know.

Alright, the pitch, the tones. We’ve taught about the pitch, we’ve told you it exists, we’ve

helped most of you guys find it. Some of you guys are sitting here scratching your head saying

“well, how come I was never told about the pitch?” Don’t bring it up with me. Bring it up with your

coaches, bring it up you know, or you’re ordering it. Bottom line is, bring it up with the big man. I

don’t know what to tell you, okay? But now you’re onto it. You guys can get off your own duffs.

Those of you guys who don’t know about, you know about it now. Okay? And that’s where you’re

going to have to go before you… and don’t do what I’m teaching you now. Okay? Don’t rush

yourselves. It’s that damn airplane on the banana fuel. Okay? On the island. You’re going to hit the

gas, and instead of getting up to speed, because you’re thinking “I’ll power it...it’s just going to

take off.” Fool, fool, fool. Dummy, dummy, dummy. Okay? You’re going to do this and the


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engine’s just going to blow up because it can’t do that much that fast. And now you’re at square

one, Okay? Now what are you going to find to build an engine? Okay? Now you lost all your

banana fuel because you picked the whole forest to make it now go look for papaya and start all

over again. Patience, Okay? And that’s one thing most of you guys don’t have. Well, we’re made

of the same fabric, I can tell you that much. There’s no patience. I can only warn you guys over and

over and as I say to students over and over and over again - the ones that are around me that drive

me crazy. The ones you guys are probably envious but you have no idea. Some of you guys got to

see what they get. They get a lot of this, all the time. So, it’s good. It’s bad, I know. The point is, is

that if you jump into what I’m going to show you, the reason why I haven’t said anything is I

needed to make sure people didn’t jump too fast. Now there’s a big clue psychologically in what I

just said. Does anybody know one of the words I just used?

Audience: Too fast

Eric: Too fast? Nope

Audience: Jump?

Eric: Jump. Now what does the word jump mean. You guys rattling through all of them. Hop,

jump, skip. None of which I will do. Okay? Too much exercise. Jump. You know it’s like sci fi

channel. What do the space ships do? They say we’re going to jump into hyper dimension. Oh, now

you guys are getting a little excited, Okay. I’m going to teach you guys. Even my students right

now are like this, “What is he talking about? We don’t know this. Damn him. We’re supposed to be

the first to know.” I held out on them today. I held out on them a whole week. Honest to God. And

then I would be like, “yeah, I got some information. I figured out a solution to…” “Really? What is

it?” And I said “No, I got to wait. We got to all be together.” I’m milking it out just like I am right

now. I’m killing all of you guys now. And it drove them nuts. Drove them nuts.

I’m going to teach you guys how to jump, okay? Jumping is moving yourself into that hyper

dimensional place, Okay? And just because I teach you guys how to jump doesn’t mean you guys

are going to jump very well. Not my problem, Okay? Not my problem. It’s up to you guys to figure


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out how to use all the equipment. I’ve given you as much as I can. I will continue giving as much

as I can until I can’t. Okay? But I know I’ve 10 times enough to do the job. It’s just that everybody

has to find - you guys are all slightly different designs, I guess is what I’m trying to say. You’re not

all from the same damn planet. When you were on that planet, you were organic. Multi

dimensionally, you were not. That’s why I had to intervene into this organic other world to go find

where you were, what the hell you were doing. And they say when you croak, here’s the map, go

meet us there, you know. That was very funny.

Jumping is actually very simple. Right under your noses. I wouldn’t be surprised if some

people caught onto it. But I can tell you already, they didn’t know what the hell they had. It’s like

sitting around a house, you know, and you’re saying you’re bored to death, there isn’t anything to

do, it’s been a month, and then you look over and the whole time there’s been a TV sitting there

connected to a satellite dish or something. Not that TV’s good, I know I’m going to get in trouble

now for that. But anyway, the point is, is the idea of it. Okay? It’s been under your noses. Okay?

It’s probably a lot under your noses, just to drive you guys a little bit crazier. So, this is it. Are you

ready? You guys don’t really look like you want to know. Okay. When you’re listening to the

tones, it’s very simple. I want to ask something now. Matt, watch what I’m going to say be on some

class already or something, but, do you do any breathing techniques when you’re doing the tones?

What do you do? Tell me. No, no...I’m talking to Matthew. He’s on the spot now. All eyes are on

Struve. (The Student proceeds to say something that is inaudible on the recording)

Okay. This is how close it is. Okay? And I’m telling you don’t under estimate it. You go see

if I’m right or wrong because I know you guys are going to do the stupid thing is what I call it. It’s

inevitable. You guys are like Baard. There some piece of information and he don’t know about it

and he’s like a kid running for it to listen to the tape of some conversation I had with somebody

else because he’s like a, I’ll get in trouble for this, but he’s like a whore for knowledge. And I

suspect most of the people in here are whores too. So, I mean that in the nicest way. Okay? So, I

know what’s going to happen. I’m going to tell you guys and I might not even see you guys

tonight, you know. It’s going to be like, “we don’t need him now.” Maybe I shouldn’t say anything.

Believe me. Tonight I’m going to bring down the house. Okay? So. That’s it. I got to compete with

rest of them and show you guys who the old dog still is, okay? I’ve been very excited about tonight.


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So, when you’re listening to the pitches, I’ve also taught over, and over, and over again that

breath, which yoga and all these other schools really teach, they’re already onto certain things,

Okay? In some ways, I’m the ‘Johnny come lately’. Or I’m the one who’s just really reminding you

guys of stuff that you guys may not be paying attention to because they’ve known a lot. When

you’re listening to the pitch, breathing, okay, is your consciousness. It’s somehow connected to the

organic body. When you get upset, you know people always say, “Take a deep breath -- blow it

out.” And I’m always like, “Shut the hell up, okay? Because I don’t care. You’re just making me

madder.” You know. I got it under control, Okay? There is something to be said about watching

your breath. Okay? Your breath is the first thing you do coming in. It’s the last thing you’re going

to do when you’re heading out. And everybody’s heard it before. Okay? Think about it. We hear

things but we don’t think about it. We don’t reflect on it. We don’t look at it. We go uhh,

pretty...next thing...it’s mine. Here it is up on the shelf. You don’t even marvel at it. I mean there’s

stuff that I have that I’ve brought in my litterbug phase of life, okay, that have, and I’ll look at it

and it’ll fall over and I’ll turn it over and I’ll go “OH...I never knew it has this thing on there.

That’s very interesting. It’s only been 5 years. But hey, that’s cool. I wish I would’ve known that

earlier.” This is what I’m saying. When I say it’s the first thing you do and it’s the last thing you

do, you got to be thinking about what I’m saying. It is the simple things that we overlook most

quickly because we’re like that can’t be important I do it every day, every night, bla, bla, bla. I

already thought about it a million times. Have you thought about it with non-thought? Have you

thought about while you’re going into the zone? What is it that you’re doing when those of you

guys have gotten the in-between class, and you’ve done it, and you’ve shifted, and you’ve gone

into this in-between state of consciousness? Your breathing drops. It’s like something completely

changes. The silence, the calm. You move the environment.

So, powerful things happen if you just are careful enough to see them happening, Okay?

Breathing - Your breathing stops. It’s almost like your calm, breathing stops, everything around

you, like time, slightens, a bit. Things go slower that should be going faster. Things change, but

you’re not paying attention. You paying attention? Big things are happening. So, breathing and

breath. When you’re listening to the tones - here it is, it’s coming, I’m going to say it. All you have

to do is take the pitch when you got it going good, without any thought, inhale it, and expand the

pitch outward. Just like I tell you to expand your energy. Breathe in and get big like a balloon. Feel


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the energy. Okay? You feel the energy moving out from you. Okay? What I’m saying is, you take

that pitch, Okay? And it’s like (making high pitch sound) and you go (making louder pitch sound).

It’s a difference between holding it really loud and working it, okay? Now all of a sudden, you’re

not thinking about your breath. It’s the last thing on your mind. I don’t want to be thinking about

my body. I’m telling you, hold it. Hold it. When I say hold it that means non-thought. Hang onto

those bars. Get them nice, and then all of a sudden, just go (making breathing sound) and just

expand them. It’s going to go from (making ringing sound), okay? Trust me. Okay? Your whole

energy field is just going to go (making whoosh sound). And you’re going to come back down.

You know why? Even a bird has to have a few attempts. And then you guys will ruin it. (Making

whining sounds) I should have been flying by now. (More whining sounds). Okay? Fine. Now

you’re back in the doe, you’re back in the machine, keep bitching, you know, there you go. Okay?

It’s that simple. It’s that simple. It’s the simple things that are the things most easily

overlooked. You want some big fancy complex answer? Well, let’s throw the Vedic teachings at

you, let’s spew it off for the next 30 years and yeah you’ll get it. But by the time you get it, you’re

going to be like this (making gasping sound)...you can’t even do it. And how can you learn if you

got the flu? You know? Would you be sitting here you got the flu? Well, you whores probably

would. Anyway, Okay...Sounded so horrible. We got to edit some of this out, because it makes

sense here and now but, not really. That was funny. But you getting what I’m saying, Okay? Is that

you got to weigh out your moments right. You got to plot is what I’m saying. You got to

go...Okay? Don’t make it so you set yourself up for failure because you’re your own worst enemy.

You’re going to be brutal on yourselves mentally, psychologically because you think you should

have hit some more levels. Okay? You got to strategize, you got to have patience. Work on your

tones before you go trying to expand it to that level.

Here you got (making ringing pitch sound), and you’re like, “Oh, I’m all that. Now I’m

ready to go multi-dimensional.” Okay? Unbelievable some of the stuff I have people come to me

with, okay. Unbelievable. “How come I haven’t hit multi-dimensional levels? I’m qualified, I’m

doing all this energy work, I’m on a multi-deep level, bla, bla, bla. It’s like its being kept from me.”

I’m like, “Go away. Shut up. You’re not even trying yet.” “What do you mean?” Surrender,

Breathing, Tonal class, Meditation skills (making cutting sounds). Start integrating them. That’s

what I’m saying. If you mastered that class, and you worked with it, then you already would


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intuitively know what to do just like the martial arts. You’ll know. And you guys are so - this is the

problem with old souls, especially ancient ones, big pain in the asses at the same time. You’re like,

“I already deserved this, why should I have to work for it again?” If I had to do it, you guys can do

it too. I’m first, I’m the princess...If I got to do it, you guys got to do it. Okay? Same drill. Okay? I

don’t like the term Princess. Cut it, put it in as king in there. Anyway.

So, this is what I’m saying. Okay? Is that you have to learn things before you go jumping

into them. Don’t be so impatient. Be patient with yourself. I think the biggest killer of Gods, okay?

When I say Gods, I don’t mean like you guys are Gods. I mean Gods in the noblest effect of when

one is enlightened, what would be a good word to call them? “Oh...they are like a God.”Okay? It’s

tagging, so I’m going to use a tagging mentally for something you can internalize emotionally and

kind of get better what I’m saying. So when I say Gods are walking on earth, I mean that there are

enlightened beings walking around. And of course they’re (making sound effects) because they

can’t remember much right now. It’s there. You know, it’s like they say, Callie or which one it is.

A lot of folk lore’s. They say you can go down the road, you got the little old lady with the big

thing on her back (Eric making spooky sounds), Okay? And you’re like, you know, walking, you’re

like, “Yeah I can help her out, I’m tired it’s hot out… So, this is who you guys are. You guys are

like this little old lady, you’re like the old man, you look all helpless. Some of you guys feel

helpless. “Eric my life is miserable (Making whining sound).” Listen, I can match you, I can match

you. Maybe not lately, but, I’m doing okay lately. But, I’m always ready. I know it can get pulled

at any second. Okay? High-low, high-low. That’s life. Deal with it. Master it. Find a way to work

with it. Okay? But the bottom line is, is that you’re feeling like you’re at this pathetic aged

weakened. You’re not as robust as you could be, you’re not where you want to be. Listen, it’s all

about doing the things I’m telling you to do. But the biggest thing that’s going to hold you down is

your impatience. Impatience will kill Gods. Okay? It will kill Gods. And the biggest reason why

most people, almost all of them, do not reach these enlightened states - is impatience.

You know what the second killer is? Setting a set expectation of what it’s supposed to be

like. And you don’t even know you’re doing it. That’s the point. You already think, “Well, God,

Eric’s enlightened man. You know, he can probably do this or that or he’s cruising to these…” You

know, alright, so it’s true. It’s true. I’ll admit. There’s a dimensional yacht that we that are

enlightened go to. And we drink it up and whoop it up and dance all night and have a good time


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and we’re going “ahh, those fools are in the other lower dimensions. Ha, ha, ho, ho.” Okay? That’s

not what it’s like. Okay? That’s not what it’s like. Stop trying to figure out what it’s going to be

like and you might get invited in. It’s your wanting that so much, that the wanting comes from your

human self. Your organic self. And it creates a frequency. And that frequency, in all honesty, is too

thick, too heavy, too fat, too disorganized, too whatever. It can’t get in. Can’t get in. Because it’s a

tone. I don’t know how else to say it. You guys got to unravel this. Okay? You’ve got the tools,

I’ve given it all. About having thought, but not with human thinking. I mean this is in Foundation

Set. It’s all there. Now it’s like “but it’s so much...” Unbelievable.

More than most people who’ve been searching have. Spoiled, spoiled, spoiled. Okay? How

many out there don’t even know what the heck I’ve got out there, and that I’ve given. Okay? Where

were you guys before you found it? Okay? You know, running around, you know with the pagans,

with the horns in the air naked through the forest. Doing the color of light, you know, vibrational

feel it spiraling in. I mean, I’m picking on everybody now, I know. But think about where you’ve

been and where you’re at now. Okay? And you don’t have to be identical to what I’m teaching.

What I want is, I want a hybrid, I don’t want clones. Okay? I don’t want clones. I don’t want

everybody to be like, “We got to be just like Eric Pepin.” I want a hybrid. And, I don’t want all my

bad parts in there it’s a lot. Okay? So you’d better be smart in figuring that out and which parts

you’re going to take. You got to take the knowledge, the good stuff and bring it in, contemplate it,

work with it. And then you take half of yourself, you throw out a lot of the luggage that you know

that you can’t take, Okay? And you breed them together in your dimensional self. And then what

comes out is this awakens you. That’s the ancient being. Because the only thing you’re really after

is your true pillar, your middle pillar, Okay? And you need the skills in order to handle this rough

weather to get through it and how do I map this all out. And I’m like your co-pilot; I’m just trying

to help you. I don’t want ego worship. I don’t want hero worship. I mean I know I talk and

everybody’s like “ahh...Eric’s the guy.” Believe me; I do the same thing as everybody else. I

complain, I fart, I pull my pants down, I pull them up. Things happen some times and I’m like,

“Why? Why? That’s wrong for the body to do that, you know?” Same thing. Okay? But I have this

luxury of sitting down and just going (making whoosh sound) and I can go and I can work in these

higher places. And I come back and I’m like the kid made a mess of the house. What did my body

do now? Okay? Very funny stuff. So unappreciated (says with a sigh).


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Anyhow. So, you’ve got to stop putting these expectations. Somebody said to me the other

day, that what attracted them to me was that I was so real. That I was so real. These guru’s and

these teachers and you know, I’m so amused by them. You know, they come out and they got the

orange and they got the cloth around and they’re all like, and you know, they’re like “ahh..ahh.”

And he goes in, he sits down, he lifts his leg up when nobody’s looking and (making passing gas

sound), you know, and he’s like Okay. Air it out. Alright, let them in. If you’re thinking that you

got to be like these people, I’m telling you bullshit. Okay? It’s bullshit. And you’re creating a set

standard for your consciousness that that’s where you think you need to be to enter stages of

enlightenment. And this is weight. This is weight holding you down because here you go thinking

again. Here you go thinking like this is what I think it should be like. Okay? And just for the

record, I have, you know, big respect for certain spiritual teachers. You know, you’re going to

throw the Dali Lama out there or something like that. I’m not making fun of those teachers. Keep

that in mind. There are certain ones that I definitely have a lot of respect for. They have their

approach to teaching and what they’re teaching and it’s for different levels of people to kind of help

them and get them to where they need to be. Good stuff. Okay?

I’m teaching people that I consider white cells and they’re part of this world, they love

people. They’re integrated with the world, they love Earth. Love. We have absolute love for all

mankind. Okay? But, there’s a certain kind of knowledge we’re appropriate for. It’s like, you know,

you grow up. And if you’re Asian, you eat Asian food. You come to America, you eat the

American food. What do you crave? You crave what is familiar to you. It’s like Baard with his

damn chocolates, Okay? Got to have the Norwegian chocolate, the American stuff is crap. There’s

nothing wrong with Hershey’s. It’s good. Okay? So, we know what truffles are. We’re not dumb.

Okay. So, you know, you got to realize that there’s a certain kind of food that you guys from where

you are from, you’re origins, that you’re looking for. This is part of throwing all that crap over your

heads. And searching through things, okay? You know what it is? It’s like Baard. Baard comes and

he’s like (making huffing puffing sound). It’s like “what’s the matter.”

Baard: “Nothing...nothing...nothing.”

Eric: And I’m like what the hell’s the matter with you? You know. You’re driving me nuts.

Baard: “I need something. I need...”

Eric: What do you need?


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Baard: I need some candy.

Eric: Candy? He’s got the biggest sweet tooth you can imagine. Him and Jason. So, here, I think

he’s going stir crazy. They’re driving me crazy. I’m like I got to be the master. I got to, you know,

get...get...get. I got to get in the zone. I got stuff to do. And you’re distracting me now. I’m going to

lightning bolt your ass. Get away from me, okay? So, this is all the time (making huffing puffing

sounds), you know? So, Phillip comes, Okay? And what’s Phillip? Phillip’s his friend from

Norway. He’s not engulfed into the Higher Balance stuff, but I like Phillip - Phillip raise your hand.

I’ll make you famous now. Okay? So, Phillip comes and he’s like hey, hey, you know, Phillips very

laid back, so he can hang. Okay? And he’s like, “Oh, I brought something for you.” Throws out this

bag of Norwegian chocolate or something. This one over here (making fast moving animated

sound)...”ahhhh.” If I could get that out of him as a student, I should just hold the bag. Okay? Who

comes out of his comatose from the heat, from teaching like this: “candy?” They were like this.

They were hopping and stuff.

So, what I’m saying that’s what it is to us, this knowledge, it’s what I’m serving for food for

you guys. It’s like...like “ooo...this is the good stuff now.” You know, when you guys smelled it the

first time you’re like “errrr....probably same crap. This - that.” You know, you’re looking at it,

you’re looking at it. (Making smelling snorting sound). Give me some more of that, what’s this too.

Okay? And that’s how it begins. And I know. I know. I’m like yep. That’s right. Good stuff. Good

stuff. Here you go. Got to pay for dinner now because I got to buy more ingredients. Okay? I got to

find the time to make it. Okay?

So, this is what it comes down to. I am not picking on other schools of teaching. Okay? I

think that you can come out with a Hunan dish that we would all die for. You could come out with

a Persian dish; you could come out with something from India. I mean I eat everything. Do I look

like I got any problems picking what I’ll eat? I love all food. Okay? I love all people. Okay? There

is no defining anything with me. You know? Except for a few things - I don’t eat seafood or fish.

Probably a lot of people will be shocked by that. It’s icky. It’s slimy, it’s icky. Anyway, so, the

point is, is that I’m trying to find another way still to teach. I use a little humor. I use this, but it’s

analogies that I’m using. I’m making you guys feel certain things that you can relate to, not just

words of like you have to do this and do your lotus position. And here’s your mantra and you do

that for a month and (making nonsense sound effect) Okay? Out. It needs to go. So, you’ve found


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you food. I’m your food. I have all due respect for other belief systems. I’d be happy to sit down to

hear what they have to say, I see the beauty, I see the eloquence, I see the truth in what they’re

saying. And then, the bottom line is, is there’s a lot my crappy cooks out there then there are really

good cooks. Isn’t that true in life if you look at it that way in life? Okay? And that’s what I’m

saying and what I’m making fun of. So, I don’t want you guys to think that I’m saying that all of

it’s crap out there. Just that I make the best food, that’s all.

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