Creative Writing Competition 2021
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City of Rockingham Creative Writing Competition 2021
1. Chloe Hosking, Unghosted
2. Jason Vettoor, Wipeout
3. Rosanne Dingli, Young Franz
4. Nadia Heisler Walpole, How to Write Your Own Eulogy
5. Anya Cally, Undefined
6. Esther Kipchumba, Andy
7. Sam Cecins, Flavourless
8. David Firby, Rainy Daze
9. Shannon Meyerkort, Anti-metamorphosis
10. Nicki Blake, Children of the Mountain
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Everything here, including my car, was going along just fine, ‘til the
saltwater got in all the graves. Then my old Gran, who we dead and buried a long
time ago, when I was just a girl, she came back up out of the dirt. Well, I can’t
say I was glad to see her again. She stuck her fingers in the light sockets and all
my power went out. It’s been bread and butter for dinner ever since.
My granddaughter, her name’s Lizzy, she said, “Nan, I told you this would
happen. You voted wrong and now the water’s come up.”
I always tell her, we can’t be saving the environment until the economy’s
fixed. I say this under my breath. Wells women have a temper like the sea breeze.
Sometimes it blows over and sometimes it blows you away. Anyway, I don’t
really see what voting has to do with this mess. It’s the erosion that’s the problem
and really. Whose idea was it to put the cemetery down there near the shore
anyway? Only other thing down that way is the surf club and by gosh who cares
if that’s underwater.
Now Lizzy’s mother, Katherine, she hasn’t come back up and good news
that is. I suppose she must be buried somewhere dry, over there on the mainland.
“Doesn’t it feel weird, having your Gran in the toaster?” asked Lizzy. I
tolc her no, not really, she’s not all that much the same now, what with being
mostly transparent and gliding around like a fish with boiled eyes.
***
Now, sad thing was, it seemed Gran was here to stay. I went to drive to
the shops, just to buy myself a bite more bread to eat, but she’d crawled into the
petrol hole and was looking out at me with one miserly spirit eye and those nasty
clawing spirit fingers that feel so cold when they run down your neck at night on
their way from your electric fan to your lamp bulb.
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“Gran!” I told her, loudly, “a woman’s got to eat!”. She just looked at me
slowly and next thing her eye’s all gone but my car still won’t start. So I set off
for a walk to the shops for the first time in twenty years. To get there I had to go
past my neighbour’s place, and he was sitting outside on the porch, looking at his
lawn like a woebegone sea lion, all whiskery and down-mouthed.
My neighbour’s name is Tom and poor old bloke, he thought his wife was
gone five years ago and here she was back again, clogging up his lawnmower and
making the grass grow long.
We wandered along, side by side, up the path into town and as we walked,
the nine a.m. plane passed overhead. I’ve never got on one myself. Nasty things,
planes. Of course, Katherine Wells would tell you differently– if she could, that is.
“I guess that’s too high for ghosts to get at,” said Tom.
“But what are we going to do, Tom?” I asked, and he said, “Well… I
reckon I just have to let the yard go. It was getting a bit much to manage
anyway.”
“Are you going to sell that lawnmower?” I asked him.
“Who around here will buy a lawnmower now?” he said, and he was right.
Everywhere around this island were people who couldn’t boil a kettle, let alone
pull-start a noisy lawn-eating petrol-guzzler. Well, that’s what Lizzy would call it
anyway.
After some time my knees were creaking and down the hill we could see
tombstones sticking out the water like old grey teeth. The spirits only evacuated
six days before but already the shop shelves were looking skint.
We talked to Mim, who owns the shop. She said none of the boats can get
off the island on account of all the angry elders and even that Jones baby, who
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died a hundred years ago but is back now, mewling in the dinghy outboards. Let
alone the ferry. Well! And no new supplies could come in either.
I was reminded of the day Katherine and I quarrelled last. The crossing
was a salt millpond, but if the waves had been up she might be here now too,
filling my television with her ghost-plasma.
Tom and I walked back up the hill to my little house and there was Lizzy.
“Nan,” she said, looking a picture in her old blue overalls, even though she’s cut
her lovely hair short again. “We need to start a garden.”
“Oh gosh,” I said. “Why’d we want to do a thing like that? God gave us
fingernails so we could keep them looking clean.”
Lizzy was not having a bar of it. She was ‘hangry’ I guess, as the young
people say.
So the very next day we and half the town were out in our front gardens hewing
up the nice green grass just to plant some vegetables. All I could think was, what
a pity the ocean had to rise up now, when the rains had just greened up my lawn.
***
A few days after we’d finished all the tinned beans, a boat arrived full of
men in suits. They came from the mainland to sort out all our problems. They
got almost all the way in to shore before the outboards cut and they had to swim
like sodden penguins, little briefcases balanced atop their heads. They spoke to
Mim because they thought she was the important one around here.
“Mim,” they said, “we haven’t heard from you in five days,” and what did
Mim say? “Well of course you haven’t, the bloody ghosts are in all the telephone
holes.”
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“Well, Mim,” said the roundest one, importantly. “We should sort out
these here ghosts. Why don’cha show ’em to us?” It’s Tom who told me all this.
He was in store for another yarn with Mim when the children raced in to share
news of oversized seabirds on the approach.
“Those spirits got scurried out of their graves because the water came up,”
Mim told the men, “and the only way to fix things is to get the water back down
again. Spirits don’t like salt.”
Then, said Tom, the men were very quick to explain that the water is the
same height it’s always been, and even if it isn’t there’s nothing they can do to fix
it on account of it not being their fault. And, also, there’s no such things as ghosts
anyway.
So Mim told them, “Well, you just hop back on your boat and get off
home then, there’s nothing you can do here,” and her Dad made a point of
walking right through the man with the blackest suit and sticking his rude finger
up the man’s left nostril. The men pretended they couldn’t see anything, but when
their boat wouldn’t start Tom’s brother’s son did watch them have a little shout at
Miss Molly Clarke, permanent age seventeen, who was sitting in the engine with
her toes through the fuel line.
The men swam back in to shore again, by then very limp, almost crawling
up the beach. Mim put them up in the room above the shop. We saw them on the
balcony that afternoon. They were standing there holding their mobile telephones
above their heads and shouting a bit, doing some kind of special dance to appease
the spirits, I guess.
That isn’t going to work, I could’ve told them. There’s no way to flush
them out once they’ve a mind to settle somewhere. Our island was awfully quiet
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by then, no radio or TV and no music except old Billy who played piano in the
town hall. All the young folk, Lizzy included, started to get a new interest in that
old-time music. A few of them even asked me to teach them to jive.
Well, I guess we learned not to mind so much about the spirits or
even having to grow things and walk everywhere, but then we found ourselves
three weeks below sea level and running out of places to put all the men in suits
who kept floating on over here and multiplying. So one night, after a dance, we
all sat around in the town hall and made noises so that others could tell we were
thinking hard.
“I quite like them,” said Tom in his unhurried way.
“We all know that, Tom,” said Mim sharply. “But we’re getting hungry
and we can’t eat bureaucrats. They’re too leathery.”
Lizzy lay on the floor in a dancing dress that once belonged to her mother.
I was reminded that she had wanted to leave again herself soon, on another of
those world tours she likes so much. Things must have been delayed, I suppose.
But, anyway, Lizzy always returns home eventually. Even when she was a baby,
she was returned to me.
“We never needed barges when I was a lad,” said Tom, heavily. “We just
grew our food and sometimes those fishermen would sail over and sell us olives.”
Lizzy sat up with a start, and grabbed the arm of Tom’s brother’s son,
Jeremy, his name is.
***
And so the next morning we trudged to the dock with barrows of
telephones and toasters and the like, so as to lump the ancestors all in one place.
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The smallest barge was rigged with tarpaulins. Tom sat slumped on the
dock, chuffed but too worn out to carry even a small barrow-load. I sidled down
beside him. I’d quite enjoyed getting to know Tom, those quiet weeks.
Once we all got there, the wharf was swathed in fog and the whole
translucent mess shuddered a bit as we lined the dock, throwing our ghost-broken
rubbish across to the barge, which began to sit frightfully low in the salt water.
“Too bad, you lot,” called Lizzy to the barge. “Pull your cold bloody
fingers out and remember this is your doing too!” All the foggy miasma of spirits
wobbled a little bit and a strange not-noise blew out of it.
“It’s what’s going on out there that’s the problem,” said Lizzy. “There’s
petrol engines and plastic bottles and all sorts of things that make the oceans grow
and starve at the same time.”
The cloudy mob shifted, and the average age of the island climbed steeply
as our young, our adventurous and foolhardy, boarded the barge with oars and
loud mouths.
I nearly lost sight of Lizzy in the muddle of mist and rubbish and
bureaucrats, but then a short mess of brown hair, no longer than a boy’s, emerged
halfway up the mast and I saw her untangling tarpaulin from a line.
“Bye, Lizzy,” I shouted.
“I’ll be back, Nan,” she shouted back, as the sails filled into seashells or
gull wings, except blue and smudged with grease stains. The whole pile bobbed
out, the bald solid penguin men on top and translucent eyeballs peering out from
underneath. And Lizzy, a smudge herself in the distance.
“Bye Gran,” I murmured, waving. I’ll miss her a bit, but it’s like Lizzy
says, the mainland won’t be done any harm by a visit from our lot.
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***
Two months after the barge took all our young people and ghosts away, I
stood out in my vegetable garden, eating sweet peas right off the plants. Tom was
walking down the hill in the distance, and everything was very quiet.
I wondered at the time, and looked up at the sun. My neck cricked
violently and I realised the morning was almost over. I’d been outside for hours.
There was a little hole in my chest, right between my lungs. Something
was missing from the day.
“Ay!” Tom called out to me. I looked up and he was pointing at the sky.
“The plane didn’t go over today!” We laughed. I thought of Lizzy, and where
she might be, and how she might come home.
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Chapter 1
Andrew Jacobson
I don’t remember hitting my head. I do, however, remember exploding a car.
The smoke bomb was supposed to stink up my crummy science teacher’s rickety old Ford, not set the entire contraption on fire. But it did.
So here I am, in a hospital room, with a killer headache, hoping that past twenty-four hours never happened.
Mum and Dad are somewhere to my right. Arguing, as usual. I must have dozed off. They sure were not here the last time I opened my eyes.
Time to face the music.
It takes several blinks for my eyes to adjust to harsh lighting. I can see them now, both in their designer suits and expensive leather briefcases. Typical of them to bring work to their son’s hospital room.
Snippets of conversation reaches me.
“Suspension is possible…”
“Not enough proof…”
“Can’t keep backing Andrew…”
“It’s arson. Police will be here…”
Police? Surely a small fire shouldn’t involve the police? And what do they mean that they can’t keep backing me up? They are high-end lawyers, filthy rich! My brain starts to work at twice the speed.
My dad runs a hand through his neatly combed hair. “You know what would have been convenient, that fall should have wiped out his-”
He pauses. A very long pause. I can basically see the cogs and gears working away in his lawyer brain. His eyes widen.
More frantic whispers. “Memory loss after head trauma…so common…”
Mum gets the same excited look on her face.
In a perfectly choregraphed move, they both turn to me, unholy glee on their faces. “Amnesia,” they chant in unison.
Huh!
In case you don’t know me, I am Andrew Jacobson. AJ to most. And looks like I am about to add misleading law to my growing list of felonies.
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“Don’t slip up, Andrew. You need to make everyone believe that you have lost your memories. No more detentions. No more calls to Principal’s office. Keep a low profile. Until we come up with a plan to sort this mess.”
Mum’s words in the car this morning vibrate through my brain.
Easier said than done.
Pretending to be nice to these dimwits is harder than it looks.
For one, every single one of them hates me. For good reason. For the past two years, I made it my mission to make their lives miserable. Why? I have no respect for a bunch of nerds. They have done their fair share to make feel like a worm when the word got out that I am dyslexic. There were only two options before me then: Fight or flight. I decided to fight.
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Chapter 2
Dr Sellini
Teaching science used to be my passion. Moulding young minds used to excite me.
After forty long years, the magic is gone beyond redemption.
Sure, I still love science, but its kids like Andrew Jacobson who make me wonder about my career path.
His latest stint dabbing in arson. Insurance Investigation. I just want to give up and go home.
Unfortunately, my mortgage does not give me that choice.
As I walk into the room, the class falls silent.
I pull out my laptop and begin the roll.
Halfway through, my nightmare walks into the room. A4 size paper clutched in his hand.
“Late again Andrew?”
He looks at me blankly. “Excuse me? Is this,” he reads out loud,” Ummm.. Dr Sell-me’s class?”
The class erupts in laughter.
My death stare takes care of it.
Word around staffroom is that Andrew has lost his memory. Head trauma. I do not think I am that unlucky.
I will get the truth out of him. One way or other.
“Whatever trick you’re playing boy, it won’t work.”
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“I’m sorry sir,” he says, “I don’t understand what you mean.”
Is that a flicker of smirk?
Excited chatter. Gasps.
“Enough. Take a seat,” I growl.
I don’t miss the micro second pause as he approaches Nathan. His best mate. Partner in crime.
He finds the last empty spot.
Andrew is not fooling me. I’ve been a teacher long enough to see he is faking.
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Parker Mulligan
Everyone’s laughing at me, Parker. Because I can’t read. Can you help me?
Memories of Andrew swirl inside me as I watch Andrew walk along the strip-lit school corridor, looking meek. Kids give him a wide berth.
The whole school is buzzing with the rumour that he lost his memory. Some say he is faking it to get out of the Sellini scandal. I don’t know what to believe.
Seeing Andrew makes me feel oddly sad. We used to be friends. Sort of.
That was before he turned Hulk and decided to smash those of us who belong to nerd community.
Hand on heart, I can swear that I have never once insulted him.
My thoughts interrupt when I see Callan run into him. I watch in horror as their bodies collide. Books fly. iPad hits ground.
Callan steps back, eyes filling with tears.
Here it comes.
The punch. The pain.
To my shock, Andrew does not do a thing.
He simply picks his books off the floor and walk away, mumbling an awkward sorry.
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Chapter 3
Dr Sellini
Three weeks since the incident. Nobody believes me.
Lack of evidence makes the arson investigators think I set fire to the car myself.
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They know I’m a chemistry teacher, and the cause of fire are items regularly found in a chemistry lab. And the worst part is, they think I did it for the insurance money.
Overworked school teacher. Hefty mortgage. Closer to retirement.
To an arson investigator, I suppose it makes sense.
They don’t even hear me out when I tell them it’s Andrew.
Security camera and time stamp place him near the scene that night. But the trail goes cold.
Andrew, for his worth, is a great actor. Oscar worthy.
He is staying away from trouble.
To those who observe, he is giving a stellar performance.
To a point even I have begun to wonder if he really has amnesia.
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I see him again, Parker, the nerd with thick rimmed glasses. He is sitting beside the water fountain, nursing a bump the size of fifty cent coin on his forehead. Comprehension dawns. Parker would have leaned down to have a drink from the fountain and someone, most probably Nate would have given him a shove.
My normal response- a guffaw at Parker’s misery. But today I do not feel like it. For one, he looks so miserable. Without meaning, my legs move forward. As I lean down to give him a hand, I see his eyes are red from crying.
“I’m sorry,” the words are out of my mouth before I can swallow them.
He waves a hand vaguely in the air as I settle him onto the bench in the quiet area. “You didn’t do it.”
A few kids passing by shoot panicked looks, seeing me with Parker. Their animosity shocks me.
When I speak, my voice is unusually subdued. “But I have. Hurt you. Like before.”
He looks surprised. “So, you do remember.”
Ah...don’t slip up, AJ.
“No. But it’s pretty easy to figure that I was not exactly popular around here.”
Yeah man...you were nothing but a bully. Parker doesn’t say it, but his expression says it all.
“Why don’t you fight back?” I cannot believe these words are coming out of my mouth. As I say it, my eyes roam to the skinny arms, tightly clenched fingers, wide-eyed innocent look on his baby face. Parker is prime picking for any bully.
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“Guess people who bully me are trying to make themselves feel good by making me feel bad.”
I smile cynically. “Jeez, dude. Who taught you such baloney? They hurt because it’s fun. Plain and simple. And you Parker are an easy target.”
No eye contact. Just a sniffle. “What do I do then?” A soft murmur. Almost heartbreaking. At least enough break my black heart.
“I think I have an idea.”
He looks at me, suspicion and surprise in his eyes.
I really think there is something wrong with my brain.
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Chapter 4
Andrew Jacobson
Is it just me, or does everyone seem to like me more now?
Ever since Parker incident a few weeks back, things have shifted in my favour.
Parents. Smiles all around.
Even teachers. Less scowls and more nods.
Except Nate and the gang.
Now that I’m helping out the “wimpy kids”, they think I’m their enemy.
To be honest, even though this started out as a scam, I kind of like being the protector of the weak.
Most back off when they see me, feeling hurt that I’d abandoned them. I shrug it off though.
Playing referee to this match between Team nerds and Team old buddies is fun, but exhausting.
Who knew a spot of amnesia was all I needed to turn my life around.
I pause.
Actually, there is one more fence I need to mend.
Dr. Sellini.
My thoughts circle back to the conversation I had overheard between mum and dad last night.
“I feel sorry for the guy. Looks like he will go in for insurance fraud. Plus the heavy fines.”
As much as I hate Sellini, I never intended for this to happen. My prank might cost him his career, his life.
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PA speaker crackles to life, jarring my thoughts. “Andrew Jacobson, report to the Principal’s office.”
This can’t be good.
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Arson Investigator Jefferson Davis
I want to believe Dr. Sellini is telling the truth. I really do. But when there is so much evidence stacked against him, it is hard to tell anyone otherwise.
I look around the room. Dr Sellini, the social worker, Andrew’s parents. Everyone on edge.
Time to put this case to rest.
The door opens and in walks Andrew. Lanky, tall for a fourteen-year-old. Blue eyes wide with innocence.
He doesn’t look scared as I thought he would be. Confused maybe.
I look at him, “Hi Andrew, I am Arson Investigator Jefferson Davis. Please take a seat. I have a few questions for you.”
He sits next to his parents as I launch into the usual spiel. Why were you there? How did you get hit? What did you see? He did not answer much. But then again, the kid had a concussion. Knowing the attempt has been futile, I sigh.
The social worker intercepts. “No one is accusing you, Andrew. We know you have injured yourself and you may not remember much, but-”
“It was me,” he says, words so soft that I think it’s my imagination.
His father looks panicked, “He hit his head, he doesn’t know what he’s talking about.”
Andrew, now defiant, shakes his head. “Stop standing up for me, dad. I want to own up to my mistake. I did it!”
Now his father is sweating. Sellini looks ready to burst from excitement. Well this sure makes my case difficult.
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It’s been a week since the trial, and my parents are still mad at me.
“Why would you say that?”
“We had to pay a huge fine!”
But I don’t care. I ended up getting a caution from the judge. And better yet, I saved an innocent person from a fine, possibly, jail. It’s funny, during those first weeks, I didn’t even care how it would affect my teacher. I only thought about myself. But now, I’ve changed. I hang out with Parker. I help kids who get bullied. I’m even acing my tests!
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Mr Sellini is happy now that he got a new car, generously bought by the Jacobson family. He still hates me. But not as much as before.
I now have a reading specialist helping me out every week.
I have made up with Nate and the gang.
Life is good.
All because I wiped out.
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He thought about it again, and then some more. It was perplexing.
It was a numbing mystery, a mystery couched in the words Boy, ungrateful
boy. In the words Cold unfeeling boy. In the words Go away, boy!
Moth
Butterflies
He rolled over, pulled blankets and crumpled sheet over his head; pulled
random inexplicable mind-words back in out of the chilly room and under
bedclothes that had started to take on his smell.
Butterflies? Three sisters, three. One had to live differently, when one was by
oneself. Vastly differently. Alone in a room, for a start. Now if Georg and Heinrich
had lived, it might have been ... it might be another story. But no, no. No more
boys. No boys; they were dead. When babies went, it was sadder, he could tell,
than if they perished when they grew up. Would he die when he grew up, or soon?
Mutti and Vater were always at the factory. He could not ask them. He could
not hold his mother’s hand and look into her eyes and form his words. ‘Mutti,
Mutti – listen. Will I grow into a big man?’
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Asking Nanny Lange was useless. What did she know about death? Nothing.
She knew nothing except how to fold nappies, how to warm milk, how to take
down the hems of an outgrown pair of trousers. She was slow, and ugly, and
uneducated, not like Mutti. But she was strong, and took him piggyback all over
the house when the girls had a nap. She was not offended when they asked her to
cook as well as mind the children.
‘You never nap.’ Her accusation was practical, not resentful. She was full of
truths and facts, that nanny. Facts and figures derived from her narrow life, which
she lived mildly, armed with a wooden spoon in one hand, and a clockwork rabbit
in the other.
The children took to her instruction wrought of ignorance much better than
to that of their intelligent but taciturn governess. Taciturn? Brutal.
Teaching came naturally to Nanny Lange. ‘See? Twelve potatoes and two
carrots for four people. Fifteen potatoes, three carrots and three onions for six.
Count, Franz – count them. Count them, then please take a nap?’
He didn’t nap because he slept in on the long cold mornings, after listening
to rustling and mumbling when his parents prepared to leave the house. He would
go back to sleep and wake to noise in the street, or to cold silence before the girls
fought over ribbons or cried over their Haferbrei or slammed enamel porridge
bowls and jangled spoons on the scarred kitchen table. Three little sisters. Their
breakfast was a long messy affair. Valli, Elli, Ottla; so different. So the same.
Anyone sensible would stay in bed until they were done. Until their chins were
wiped and their hands washed. Until they sat with slates and chalk and picture
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books and listened to Fraulein Schmidt rounding her vowels and slitting her
consonants. The front room and its oval table held them captive until lunch was
laid in the kitchen and Nanny Lange and the maid with bad skin, who came in
from goodness knew where, waited. Hands knotted in voluminous rough-dried
kitchen towels, they watched the girls eat.
‘Franz, what will you eat for lunch?’
‘Cheese. Bread. Bread. Sausage. Cheese. Um. Cheese.’
Laughter rocked chairs, swung the lantern over the table, set the pot-laden
rack above the range ringing. ‘If you don’t form sentences properly Fraulein will
lock you up.’ The girls hiccupped with mirth. More accusations from the mouths
of babes, even the sweet little pursed mouth of Ottla, who was – if you questioned
him closely and in private – his favourite. They repeated the threat. Fraulein will
lock you up.
Fraulein Schmidt will put you away under the stairs and lock the door. She
will! She will!
How long had he spent under those stairs? Smells of mould and mildew,
odours of ancient newspaper, mouse droppings, winter boots, umbrellas furled
with great dirty drops still in their folds. Smells of handkerchiefs and orange peel
and apple cores forgotten in coat pockets ... they were caught forever in his
nostrils. There were enough jokes about long noses in this family. Enough ridicule
and humiliation about red hands, long noses and bent backs.
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Words crowded in when he was in the dark, crouched in the stair cupboard,
fighting for space among raincoats and walking sticks. ‘Stand up straight! Comb
your hair! Study your spelling!’
Spelling. Words. Hair. Nose.
Spelling
Spelling
Spelling
‘Cheese. Bread.’
‘Ha ha! You will never be good with words. It’s under the stairs with you for
the afternoon! Ha ha.’
It was dark there, dark. In the winter it was an icebox, and his toes curled
and froze. In the summer, it was close and scarier than ever; an airless place where
gasps and sobs faded to scared shallow inhalations. Cockroaches crackled over old
newspaper, under and in between creased pages, so he rolled into a ball, with
arms over his head, lips tightly shut. If a cockroach crawled into your mouth, you
turned into an insect. The governess told him that.
‘If you read properly, if you spell your words right, if you pronounce your
esses well, you will never be punished again. You won’t grow thin brown wings
and antennae. Hear me? Do you hear, Franz?’
But he was pushed often, with sickening regularity, into that small space
where the monsters were bigger than him, where the cockroaches were huge.
‘That’ll teach him.’ She dusted thin hands, wiped them down the sides of
that stiff black skirt and looked away from the maid’s eyes. ‘Don’t ask. Don’t even
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ask. I cannot stand your pitiful questions. What did he do? What did he do?’ She
mimicked cruelly, avoiding the maid’s numb look.
She locked him away, and that night Vater boomed and blustered, pointed
his finger and brought downstairs his razor leather, thumping down landing to
landing. There was no escaping them – it was one or the other, but if he had to
choose between one castigator and another, it was plain which of them he feared
more. Would a friendly look, a nice word, perhaps a smile, be so alien to his
father’s concept of how to raise a boy?
‘See this? See this? Look here, boy.’
Where was he supposed to look?
Raving, ranting; his father’s thunderous voice bellowed. ‘Do you want it
stroked along your backside, son? If Fraulein Schmidt tells me once more you slur
your words and fail at spelling you will feel it across your poor thin measley
weasley pitiful awful bony bottom.’
Mutti was sweet and quiet, Mutti was consolation and relief. But Vater
reigned over them all with a resounding voice, a balled fist, and a cruel tongue.
What chance did he have against words like those?
He was only small, and his sisters were even tinier. Well, if truth were to be
told, they would soon all three be taller, and more robust. No one, though, none of
them, would have a bigger nose.
‘Stop snivelling! Stand straight. Stretch! Try to touch the ceiling with the top
of your head.’
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Sometimes it was hard to think. Sometimes it was a misery, a mystery, a
puzzle to recall who abused him more. Who of them had said what. Which of
them had scolded harder. Vater and Fraulein Schmidt. Fraulein Schmidt and
Vater. Ah.
oOo
Late afternoon. Cold, freezing late afternoon. In the cupboard under the stairs
again; for spelling Schmetterling wrong. He crossed it out and wrote Motte
instead. Butterfly, moth – was there any important difference? Why was it always
insects? Is a moth an insect? A butterfly metamorphoses from a caterpillar. Is a
caterpillar an insect?
‘Of course it is! Of the order Lepidoptera. Go! Write all those words fifty
times each, now. Write, you lazy beggar.’ Fraulein Schmidt never looked him in
the eye. She pointed at him with one of her sharp pencils. She wiped her hands on
her stiff skirt and pulled her thin mouth down at the corners.
He disgusted her.
He made her spit her esses.
Writing on a new sheet of paper, scratching with pens and pencils, whose
points broke too often, he wrote and wrote.
Moth
Moth
Butterfly
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Lepidop
Lepidoptera
Catterpiller Caterpillar
Moth
Butterfly
Caterpillar
Cockroach
Moth
Franz Kafka
Franz
Franz Kafka
Cokroach Cockroach
Cockroach
My name is
Moth
Cockroach
Kafka
After writing a word fifty times, it looked strange, and he started to doubt
the spelling. Fear knotted his stomach. Knitted his fingers. His head did not rise
until he sensed it was dark outside.
oOo
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Dark, dark. He pulled at blankets and sheet.
Dark, darker, darkest; spell it right. Spell the words correctly.
Dark. Light. Light. It streamed in through a chink in the curtains and struck
the chest of drawers, leaving a slant on the carpet. A gold slant. Dust motes
danced in the air. In the air in his bedroom. It was no longer cold; something had
changed.
‘Franz.’ He spoke to himself. ‘Franz, get out of bed. Start your day.’
Sometimes, it was the only soft voice he heard all day. The little girls shrieked and
laughed. Nanny Lange sang rhymes in a shrill out-of-tune monotone. Fraulein
Schmidt scolded and shouted. Vater, home from the factory, bellowed and howled
all evening.
He rolled out of bed. How many lines would he have to write today? How
many hours would be spent in the cupboard under the stairs? Up, up, out.
Staggering to the window to pull at the curtains, he glimpsed something strange
and took one step back. One step.
One step and there he was, reflected in the full-length mirror on its swivel
stand.
Something had changed.
He had changed.
He was not a boy of ten.
Or eight.
He was not a cockroach.
Or a butterfly.
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Or a caterpillar.
He was not a lazy beggar.
Or a moth.
He looked at himself in utter surprise. He was a grown man. Not tall, but
fully grown, an adult. A man, a man. What a transformation.
He had not died a child.
He ran a hand through hair that even squashed from sleep, looked like it
would grey soon. He ran fingers over his chin, and felt a night’s growth of beard.
‘You transmute into a grown man, but your childhood never leaves you.’
ooooOOOoooo
1737 words
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I walked towards the deserted historical building suspecting it had all been a prank. I
reminded myself Sundays are for sleeping in, for cooking pancakes-in-too-much-
butter, for Netflix binging, for making love – not that I have a partner, but still – to go
to church – not that God cares, but still – or, at least, for drinking beers with Adam at
the local. Instead, there I was in East Fremantle at 6.45am sharp on the thirteenth
Sunday of the year, as specified in the orientation e-mail. I knocked on the heavy
wooden door and got embraced by a cloud of dust and probably asbestos. I knocked
again, holding my breath, and the door moved.
‘Password, please.’ An ancient lady stood by the half-open door, dressed in black
from head to toe. The password! I had totally forgotten. The old lady sighed.
‘The name of the course, son.’
‘How to Write Your Own Eulogy,’ I said quickly, feeling stupid for shouting like I had
just scored bingo. Satisfied, the old lady guided me into a large room illuminated only
by the weak sunlight coming through the windows. A dozen or so students were
already obediently seated and ready to receive further instructions, just like a bunch
of well-trained Poodles.
‘I am your Master for today’s class,’ she said. ‘Take a seat. We will start soon.’ The
air in the classroom was thick with anticipation. The Master – she insisted on being
called that – skipped the icebreakers, ruining my chances to meet someone nice so
that the class wouldn’t be a complete waste of time. Not that my type went to a one-
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day course on how to write eulogies, but still. As a matter of fact, I wasn’t into this
type of bullshit either. I had just been gifted the course through an Instagram
competition I had won about a game called Death Stranding.
‘By the end of today you all will be ready to die,’ the Master said confidently. The girl
beside me gasped, or maybe she farted – it was hard to tell, for the room smelled
like death already.
‘This does not mean that you die soon after the course,’ the Master continued, and a
few students exhaled in relief.
‘Perhaps you will. But death will be less scary to you because today you shall find
your purpose.’
What a load of crap, I thought, itching to get out.
The first exercise the Master gave us was to write what we wanted to do before
dying. I created quite a list then for what it proved to be not a bad exercise after all.
In my top three were:
1- Learn how to kitesurf
2- Meet someone
3- Apologise to Scott
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The second exercise was to write down something we regretted doing and would
change if we could before we died. Easy!
1- To have supported Scott no matter what
The Master proceeded by giving us more exercises. By lunch time my hand ached
from too much writing. Food was then served: soggy carrots, a hard-boiled egg, and
steamed rice. The chef did really well in conceptualising the idea of death on a plate.
After lunch, the Master resumed, ‘You now have one hour to perform the hardest
task of the day. I want your heart, mind, and soul put into this, for now you may write
your own eulogy.’
That was a hard task indeed. For some reason, I couldn’t stop thinking of Scott and
his stupid new boyfriend, Etienne. His Instagram was full of photos of Parisian bars
and cafes, and of Etienne of course. I wondered how he pronounced his wimpy
name, and the thought of his lips made me miss him like crazy.
After his dad passed, he told me he wanted to go live overseas. He needed this, I
knew that; he was an adventurer, not a coward like me, content to live in a life full of
lies. I remember feeling like I was playing hide and seek when Scott and I were
together – if you can use this word, since we were never really together as a couple
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– except we were the ones who were always hiding from our friends and family. The
funny thing is that I don’t even know if they were looking for us. Who were we really
hiding from? Them, or us? But back then it felt like they were indeed looking for us,
and, if they ever did find us out, we’d be both dead. Now that almost five years have
passed, I think everyone knew we fancied each other before high school even
started.
Scott hadn’t spoken to his dad since he decided to tell his old man he was gay.
Needless to say, the prick didn’t take it too well. The guy was a big fan of the whole
‘sex, drugs and rock’n’roll’ shite, let me tell you, minus the sex, most likely, since the
fella was always alone. We all knew he was on the gear even though school boys
aren’t meant to know such things. I wished I had spoken more to Scott about this.
So it came to me as no surprise when Scott packed his bags soon after we got the
news about the overdose. We were living in a tiny studio in Northbridge back then,
but it was enough for me. Why couldn’t this be good enough for him too? Why did he
always want more? I didn’t want to leave Perth, I’d been here my whole life. It wasn’t
perfect, but at least it was familiar. At the end, we had a massive fight and I told him
he was free to go to Mandurah, Canada, or to hell, for all I cared. I just wanted to
hurt him, because the mere thought of not having him was unbearable to deal with it
on my own – I needed him to feel the pain too.
Suddenly, after all this talk about death and regrets, the desire to talk to Scott got so
gigantic inside my chest that instead of writing my own eulogy, I wrote him a letter.
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‘You may stop now.’ The Master stopped us half an hour earlier than expected, and
a few students murmured in disapproval. The Master then asked each of us to read
our lines in front of the room, as if we were the MC’s of our own funeral.
When my turn came, my armpits were damp with sweat and my hands were shaking
violently. Not because I cared about sharing about my sexuality with the whole class
– I was now very good at this – but because I thought I was about to make a fool of
myself. I read my letter, explaining I lied when I said I didn’t care if he left, because
the truth is it still hurts the fact he did. I told him I was glad he found someone and
was happy and free to be who he really is even though he was miles away from me.
‘No more hide and seek after all, huh?’ I joked. I think if life were kind enough to offer
us a second chance, maybe I’d be there with him. I still can’t believe I wrote all of
this. There were long pauses in between my sentences as I my throat felt all lumpy
and thick. Finally, I apologised to him, for the way things ended between us, not only
the romance, but the friendship too, it’s what I missed the most these days. When I
finished reading the last sentence, I caught the fart-girl smiling at me weirdly. The
whole thing was quite creepy if I’m honest.
After the readings, we were directed to a courtyard with a firepit placed on its centre.
We all formed a circle around the fire, and I feared I was being a part of a weird cult
that Netflix was sure to make a documentary about. The Master had all our
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responses in hand, including my letter. With an abrupt gesture, she then threw
everything on fire, like one does with confetti at newlyweds, except no one was
laughing, or happy, or hopeful.
Some of the students got upset about the papers’ cremation; others were angry. I, on
the other hand, found it quite entertaining to see my wishes, regrets, and apologies
dancing in the flames, their ashes quickly ascending to the heavens even though
they probably didn’t fit there, their tiny particles being carried away by the wind and
becoming part of the air I was breathing, finally coming back to me after all. I wonder
now if a tiny particle has ever made its way to Paris. Has it?
‘Class dismissed,’ the Master shouted after everything had burned down. I left then,
having learned not much at all, for I was definitely not ready to die – at least not
before having a couple with Adam. That, and learning how to kitesurf.
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My throat constricts, my vision blackens.
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I can hear sirens. Someone has come to let me go.
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I wake up to the smell of disinfectant burning my throat. Another failure huh…
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I’ve been at the hospital for three days now. One person has come to visit me. My friend
Pastille. I wonder why he isn’t abroad still.
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Turns out, Pastille had come to visit me during the time of the… incident. He looks pretty
shaken up, but otherwise, I think he looks fine… kinda.
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I’ve been on watch for the past three weeks, and December is just about to come to an
end. My friend has been visiting non-stop lately, and it’s endearing. But he always looks
like he’s holding something back from me, and for once, I mind it. I really want to ask
about it since he’s been stressing out, but I don’t think I have to. He’s probably going to
break today.
I was right, unfortunately. My usually optimistic friend has gone through a kind of…
explosion today, lashing out at me. Telling me I’m an idiot. Asking me why I did it.
Apologising… hugging me… saying I was wanted and loved no matter what… I don’t
know how long we’ve been hugging for, but it’s long enough that he has to go once
we’re done.
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I think I’ve been crying for thirty minutes now, but the tears are starting to slow as I stare
up at the ceiling. I’ve been looking at it every night since I’ve been here, but this is the
first time I’ve been looking towards the window. There isn’t anything to see, with the city
lights glaring harshly and reflecting off the glass, but even then, it’s the most beautiful
thing I’ve seen.
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December 25th, a day for celebration. The day was quiet on my end. With no one to
hang out with often, I’m sort of just left on my own. Until Pastille went to drag me to his
place. We’ve been ripping into this one romance Christmas movie for the past two hours,
and I don’t remember the last time we were laughing like this. I really want to laugh like
this with him more often.
I’ve been starting to sew again. I forgot how much fun this was. Before, it was just
frustration and hating everything I had created. This time though, I could truly see this
time. The small creases and folds that cascade along the fabric, and the stitches that dot
the seams. How happy people look once they have their new set of pyjamas, and how
full my heart felt. I didn't realise I would miss this so much, but here I am.
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I can finally look at myself in the mirror. I still hate it, how I see myself. But I no longer
look at those scars with shame. Every cut, ever healed over scar, flashes of bruises that
previously would decorate my skin… they were proof. Evidence. They no longer were
mocking me. They were now fading into my skin, becoming a part of me. A reminder, but
it's no longer painful. I may not be completely fine right now, but I'm getting there. I'm
moving forward.
Therapy helps. I don't like the questions, but it helps. I now have a name to my condition.
Depression. I never thought it would apply to me, but all the signs were there. New
Years has long since gone, but it's only just sunk in now. I'm not fighting alone now. I
have Pastille by my side, and my family. I can finally breathe easily in my sleep, even if it
gets interrupted by an incoming nightmare. Those horrors and stresses are still there.
Some scars reopen from time to time. But now I can look up. Finally, I can rest.
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My name is Patrick Grace. I'm twenty six, and I like sewing. My best friend is Pastille
Minerva, and I live near the park, trees blooming in abundance. I go for walks there
often, and as I sit on the hill, overlooking the sunrise, I can tell that tomorrow is going to
be okay. Not good, far from perfect, but okay.
That's fine to me.
Fin
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Andy
I
There’s an old, tired train that snakes around the loneliest city.
There are people around me. I’m stating the obvious.
They feel like flesh and blood and organs. This nobody can see.
I woke up like I was grabbling for life inside a womb. Like I was tearing apart lungs and veins, lungs and
veins, parasitically, trying to feel for something beyond me. The walls were living, cold, white, swimming
things, rippling like the disturbed surface of still water, and in the middle of them, a stiff, gaunt figure
anchored to a bed with wrists that were too thin and eyes that were too dark. Here I was, I thought, and there
he was beside me, and maybe in spite of me: the man, middle aged, greying beard and eyes red-tinged like he’d
been crying or drinking, or both.
Andy. Can she hear me? Andy.
Andy… watch the way the words fall off his tongue and sound them out and breathe them in. I enjoyed the
way they sounded, held gentle against the arms of his voice; vulnerable, left wide-open, and loved and beaten
and earth-shattering. The man smelled of cigarette smoke and brandy. He drove back to the house not much
longer after the night when the doctor had pumped his lungs full of grief—of the whole tragedy, the whole
honest and terrible truth. The man had started to cry despite himself, and all that remained was left there in
the disarranged, understood realm of unspoken things: the waiting. He knew. The dealing with.
I watched the trees outside the window from the backseat and imagined they were watching me watching
them and slowly trying to make some sense of me. The man pushed a CD in the radio and a voice was strung
out, clear, despite its melancholy. Look at me, look at me, look at me. He was singing about attention.
“This one was your mother’s favourite,” Paul said. I said nothing.
Eventually, the city fell away. Reddish dust floated around everywhere and some clung to the man’s old jeans
as he stepped out of the car. They seemed to make him heavier, and I noticed then that he walked like he’d
been carrying something around with him for a long time. There was a Christmas wreath still hung up on the
door, despite the bitter June chill that nipped on neck and nose and bony wrists, and the living room still
smelled like cinnamon.
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It was a nice house, with photographs. Oakwood floors and cedar French doors and a small hole peering out
under one of the wall-hung frames. White walls and blue flowers on the dinner table and wide-open windows
with sheer curtains that rippled and ballooned when the wind came—like they were saying, “here I am, here I
am!”—and the kid, now considerably older, used to run under them and squeal. Allie. The man’s name was
Paul. Sound them out. Breathe in, and hold. The room they’d given me smelled like citrus and looked like it
had gone untouched for months, years even.
Allie snuck out after dinner. It was part of a routine, like how Paul would go out for a run before breakfast.
How he would disappear behind the shed after he put Violet down for her midday nap and come back smelling
like smoke. How Allie would go out and come back home at four, and he would ask how her day had been and
she would say fine. At the table, they would exchange mediocrities; Paul would talk about work, Allie would
talk about school most of the time, and some days, they would barely say anything at all. After dinner, Allie
would go out again.
From the furthest corner of her doorframe, I watched her turn in her black dress, fix her strawberry lipstick,
consider her reflection, force a grin, prod at her waist, pick at her legs, tug at her hair. She threw herself onto a
chair and sighed. Picked up her notebook and scribbled furiously for a while and then held it up to the soft
light of a lampshade. She read what she’d written aloud to herself theatrically.
ALLIE’S “ESSAY”
The boy wrote a letter to his lost lover, and the letter began, I hope these words find you in good health, which
was to say, I wish I could forget you, which was to say, don’t forget me, don’t forget me, don’t forget me.
Her voice fell away as she read on, bit by bit, until it was lonelier and more lost than an empty lifeboat floating
on the Pacific’s edge. She ripped out her words and balled them up, then threw them in a trashcan sitting at
the corner of her room.
II
There’s an old, tired train that snakes around the loneliest city. I watch people file in
until there’s only a few of them left on the platform.
Some waiting to be passengers
on the next train, some just waiting.
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In a good mood, Paul would tell stories about all the paintings he used to make when Allie was just a kid. He’d
go out on the porch and paint whatever mood he was feeling. Sometimes, he’d paint landscapes, sometimes
people walking out on the street. Paul’s most successful paintings were the ones he put no effort into.
Sometimes they were shapes, sometimes anomalous objects, misshapen and by themselves and therefore—art.
None of them ever sold as quickly, but they sold, nonetheless. He didn’t do it often, though. They weren’t
anything to him, so devoid of the pleasure and freedom that he found in painting, but they seemed to be
something to other people. He supposed it was all in the nature of us, to find meaning where there wasn’t any.
Paul never painted much anymore. Every Sunday, he’d put on a blue-spotted tie and go to church. When he’d
come back, he’d stare at the photographs for a while, and eventually he’d go back to the shed.
One more thing: the graveyard. People called this one the Garden. I figured it was intended to be ironic. Every
Sunday, after church, Paul would visit the Garden. He would walk to the same headstone and stand over it
with his head bent.
“You know, I never told you said about this boy in my class,” he would say, or something along those lines.
“About seventeen. He meets a girl over the summer. They mess around and fall in love. But she wasn’t from
here, and when the summer was over, she had to leave. The boy and the girl, they get into this huge fight over
it, long distance this and long distance that, and the neighbours come calling once, and the whole town’s
holding its breath because nothing this good’s happened in years, believe it or not. The girl goes away. They
never speak to each other again.
“But she loved him. Hell, she cried for him. And the boy grows into a man, and he’s driving back home from a
service. Nothing’s really worked out for him, some ten years later, except maybe one thing. See, his wife’s
singing her favourite song, but he’s so lost in his thoughts, thinking about why the things that could’ve been
make him so angry, and he’s not paying attention to the road at all.”
He made a strangled noise somewhere deep in his throat and then he was silent for a while.
“Don’t you ever wonder?” he said, eventually. “You sit there, and you wonder… maybe if you’d tried harder or
become a better person or the world had been kinder to you, things would’ve been different.”
“Sometimes,” Mama whispered, instead of always. I heard a silent continuation, an unsaid but that stalked into
an incomplete sentence; a quiet acceptance in the dead that the living lived to look for.
And yet, and yet. There was the soft ache at the base of my throat for the same air that he shared with
everyone else. There was the metamorphosis of grief, and living, and my staying the same.
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I watched them grieve for the comfort of being remembered. Dead and gone, stripped bare, and at the core of
me— still this god-awful desire to be cared for.
This is what I noticed about the Garden: The headstones were lined up row by row like soldiers waiting
tolerantly for orders that they knew would never come. When the wind blew especially, the tall blades of grass
seemed to sweep and reach as people passed, like beggars. In Paul’s front yard, there was a red mailbox with
chipped paint, stuffed full to the brim with letters nobody had the time or energy for; Here, there was a sombre
abundance of time and silence, like the bare white consequence of the gluttonous thing of living, of taking in
too many colours at once.
Paul seemed surprised. Allie had walked up beside him. Saltwater tears bled into her cheeks like coffee stains
and the clouds that followed her breathing came out fast and short and he was tracing lop-sided circles on her
back with an outstretched arm.
“I’m sorry,” she admitted. It was the most honest thing she’d said in a long time.
“You’re alright, kid,” he told her.
“I think about them all the time,” she said. “Every second of every day, it’s just like…”
“Feels like drowning. I understand. Me too.”
After a while she said, “I don’t want you to be sad like this forever.”
“Forever is a long time,” he said. I wasn’t sure what point he was trying to prove.
He put his arm around her shoulder, and they stood there for some moments or hours. Eventually, she pulled a
blue flower out of her coat pocket and placed it gently on the dirt, and Paul was turning his attention to the
empty plot beside Mama’s gravestone.
“Funeral’s this Sunday,” he said weakly.
“I know,” said Allie. “Finally get past this purgatory.”
“Guess so.”
She tapped him on the back.
“You’re alright, kid,” she said. He managed half a smile.
They started to walk away. I called out, like I always did. Screamed until I rubbed my throat red raw. Mama
wrapped her arms around me in a firm but warm embrace as I collapsed to the floor, breathing hard and heavy.
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She whispered, “you’re safe here, my little girl.”
I asked her, “do you think they’ll remember me forever?”
Forever is a long time, said Paul inside my head.
Just far away enough so I could make out the outlines of her face, Allie turned suddenly.
“Andy,” I read from her strawberry lips. She looked almost hopeful.
IV
The train stops at the hospital.
Here she is, a stiff, gaunt figure anchored to a bed, with wrists that are too thin, and eyes that are too dark. I crawl beside
my cold body and fall asleep. This is what I am saying about dying: There are people around me. I’m stating the obvious.
They feel like flesh and blood and organs. This nobody can see. I wake up like I’m grabbling for life inside a womb. The
man starts to cry despite himself. They drive back to the house. He pushes a CD in the radio, and the voice is not singing
about attention at all, but the sort of profound, harrowing love that dulls the glitter and glamour of both dying and living
equally. The city falls away, reddish dust makes the man heavier, and the living room smells like cinnamon year-round.
When the man got home seven nights after the accident, he punched a hole in the wall. Still, it’s a nice house, with
photographs. White walls and blue flowers. Sheer curtains that ripple and balloon when the wind comes, like us all. Here
I am, here I am, which is to say, don’t forget me, don’t forget me.
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Catastrophe came for Graham so quietly, its arrival slipped
entirely beneath his notice.
There was no flare or sound or pain. It wormed its way inside
him through neurons and nerve ends, while he drank at the bar of the
Whitefield Tavern. Discreet as a midnight mistress and just as
devastating.
Graham watched as the bartender drew his first beer, chin
resting upon steepled hands. Glass tilted 45 degrees. Straightened as
the beer foamed. He nodded with approval as the young man placed
the full glass down on a felt coaster.
“Enjoy, Mister Adams,” the bartender said.
Graham lowered his eyes to study the beer. It was light and
clear. The colour of hay. Fizzy carbonation rising in twisting streams.
The spongy lather of head holding firm. Very nice.
He took out his pen and writing pad from his jacket pocket and
scribbled a few notes on the bartop.
The chief brewer Ramone was standing in the doorway of his
office, dabbing his brow with a linen cloth. Graham did not think he was
sweating from the heat. Ramone’s sidelong glances were lingering just
a little too long.
Graham breathed in the beer’s aroma. It was tropical. Mangos
and peach. He took his first sip. There was fruit, certainly, but the
backbone of the flavour was the pinesap bitterness of the hops. He
swallowed and nodded to himself as he jotted down more notes.
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Ramone, evidently, could no longer bear the anxiety. He
sashayed up to the bar.
“Mister Adams, I’m dying to know your thoughts on our Imperial
I.P.A.”
Graham took another sip and smacked his lips. “It’s nice,” he
said. “Very tart.”
“Double hopped,” Ramone said. “We add the first batch early to
boost the bitterness.” His gaze flickered down to the open notepad on
the bar.
Graham flipped the cover shut with an apologetic smile. “Sorry,
Ramone. You’ll have to read the review on the blog, like everyone
else.”
Ramone looked sheepish. “Would you like to try one of our
seasonal brews as well?” he said. “Something different. A Sour,
perhaps?”
“I’m not one to turn down temptation,” Graham said, flashing a
grin.
“Fantastic. I’ll order you a slice of red velvet too.”
“Red velvet?”
“Trust me,” Ramone insisted.
“Cake and beer,” Graham said. “It’s a hard life, isn’t it?”
Ramone poured the Sour in a tall frosted glass. Frothy lacing
clung to the inside. He set it on the bar with the cake and Graham
leaned forward to smell the fragrance. He paused and sniffed again.
There was no discernible scent.
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Graham wrinkled his nose. No matter how deeply he inhaled, he
could detect not a whiff of citrus or vinegar as he had expected. He
tasted a mouthful.
Flat. Flavourless. The Sour might as well have been soda. He
masked his disappointment with a thoughtful expression.
“How do you like it?” Ramone asked.
“Well,” Graham paused as he searched for words. “It’s certainly
different.”
“Try it after the cake,” Ramone urged. “The contrast really brings
out the funk.”
Graham spooned a morsel of the red sponge into his mouth. It
was bland and pasty, like glue. He looked down at the rich crimson
dessert. The berries practically bursting with ripeness. The cream, light
and buoyant. This didn’t make any sense.
He ate another spoonful and washed it down with a gulp of beer.
It was like his tongue was coated in wax. Even if the beer was
off, he should have tasted something.
“So? Am I right?” Ramone cajoled.
“Umm,” Graham said. Ramone was staring at him. Concern
creeping into his eyes.
“Delicious,” Graham spurted. “They compliment each other
perfectly. Those spicy notes in the Sour…” he trailed off, sensing that
his lies were snowballing.
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Ramone beamed. “Thank you, Mister Adams! Thank you!” he
crooned. “You know, they say when it comes to beer, your palate is the
very best.”
Graham returned the smile, but his mouth was barren as an
ashen wasteland.
***
When Graham arrived back at his apartment, his terrier Hazel
greeted him excitedly at the door. He marched straight past her into the
kitchen.
There were fresh lemons in the fruit bowl. He took one and
deftly sliced it into wedges on the chopping board. He picked one up,
juice squeezing out and wetting his fingers.
Hazel watched him curiously from the floor. Doe-eyed and tail
swishing.
“Am I insane?” he said to her.
Then he bit into the flesh of the wedge. Liquid burst in his
mouth. He tore the flesh off the rind with his teeth and chewed.
Nothing.
He licked his lips and swallowed.
No tang. No acidity. Like eating a slippery wad of paper.
He hauled open the fridge door and snatched up a carton of
milk. He poured it straight from the spout into his open mouth. Some
spilled down his chin and onto his shirt.
His back molars ached as the cold milk lapped around them, but
he tasted no creaminess. No flavour. He slapped the milk carton down
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onto the kitchen counter and grabbed the next item in the fridge. He
examined its label. Habanero hot sauce.
“Here’s goes,” he said, twisting off the cap.
He shook the bottle, dashing the sauce directly into the back of
his throat. He swilled the paste over his tongue and the roof of his
mouth.
Then he counted. One. Two. Three.
He flung the small bottle at the floor. It shattered, shards of glass
tinkling across the tiles. Hazel spun with her tail between her legs and
scrambled to the safety of the bedroom. Graham stood there staring at
the mess. A bloody smear of bright sauce at its centre.
What was a beer critic who could not taste beer?
Who could not taste anything?
***
The doctors told him the condition was called Ageusia. But what
it was called mattered less to Graham than what it meant. And it meant
those blissful afternoons of cake and beer were over.
His first gambit was a woman named Amber. A student of
Cowan University’s brewing short course. She came along to all of
Graham’s tastings and even sat beside him on panels at festivals. His
assistant, he told people.
Every time he was served a beer, so too was Amber. She would
sip hers first, like a medieval cupbearer testing for poison, and then
whisper her impressions in his ear. Tastebuds for hire.
Unfortunately, Amber was less than eloquent with her words.
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“It tastes really long,” she whispered at one tasting.
“What?”
“Yeah, long. Tastes like flowers smell, but later its different. Like
a Cherry Ripe.”
“The flavour evolves on your palate?”
“Oh,” she said. “That’s much better.”
“It’s flirtatious. It charms your tastebuds with a bouquet of roses.
Then surprises them with a picnic of cherries and chocolate.”
“Cute,” Amber said. “You’re pretty good at this.”
But if Amber was rambling while sober, she was downright
incomprehensible drunk. And she proved perfectly happy getting
sloshed on Graham’s payroll. He cancelled their arrangement after just
one month.
Graham found his next recourse in technology. The machine
was surprisingly small, the size of a smartphone. Easily concealed in
his shirtpocket. The researcher who sold him the device insisted it
could analyse the chemical composition of any beverage and
determine the flavours with scientific precision.
He would feed this mechanical mouth through a little rubber
tube. Stealthily spitting his beer dregs down the straw like a seabird
feeding her chicks. But there was little nuance to be learned from the
device’s gages. Graham was renowned for sophistication, not for a
simple score out of ten.
And so he found himself pondering a final resort in the sterile,
overbright office of Doctor Manstrom.
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Manstrom was a private surgeon. His teeth were somehow too
white, seeming to glow with their own light as he explained the
procedure.
He laid a chart over his desk. A cross section of a human head.
The skin and flesh peeled away to reveal the spongy nasal passages.
The cavity of a sinus. The long curve of a pink tongue.
“All of this tissue would be removed surgically,” Manstrom
explained. “And then replaced and sculpted into a new gustatory
system.”
“Where would this new tongue come from?” Graham asked.
“Your own cells,” Manstrom said. “It’s not a transplant. It’s a
reconstruction. We can recreate your tongue exactly as it was before
the Ageusia.”
“And you’ve done this before?”
“No, Mister Adams. You could be making history. Patient zero,”
Manstrom’s teeth glittered beneath the florescent light. “Of course, I will
need you to sign a preliminary waiver for such a ground breaking
operation.”
“A waiver?”
“This isn’t technically a necessary procedure,” Manstrom said.
“And as with many elective surgeries, there are risks.”
“Such as?”
“Well there’s no guarantee that you’ll actually be able to taste
and smell again,” Manstrom said nonchalantly. “And you may lose your
ability to talk, or at least your speech could be severely impaired.”
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“I see.”
When Manstrom fetched the waiver forms, the stack was a
hundred pages thick. He dropped it on the desk with a thud.
Graham licked his thumb and began flicking through. After the
first three pages, he turned to the end. The dotted line.
“Why the hell, not,” he said as he signed.
I’ve already lost everything that mattered.
***
There was a final flavourless tasting before Graham’s
procedure. A full stop to this phase of his life before… whatever came
next.
It was a competition. Graham gloomily sipped the anaemic ales
and mumbled platitudes into his microphone. Voted the same way as
the other judges. The winners were announced to applause and pint
glasses tinkled in celebration.
Afterward, he sought out the winner as a matter of habit. Garage
Kettle Brewing. A moustachioed hipster, if Graham had to guess.
The brewer had retreated to the venue’s staff room, away from
the crowd. When Graham found them, he pulled up. Looked away
when he realised he was staring.
She stood crooked in the doorway, leaning against the frame
with her shoulder. Her left leg was gone from the knee down. The
stump bound with a pressure sleeve.
Graham cleared his throat. “Are you the brewer from Garage
Kettle?” he asked.
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“That’s right,” she said. “Stephanie Wilcox.”
“I’m Graham Adams, one of the judges, I wanted to congratulate
you.”
“Adams,” she said. “The beer blog guy.”
“That’s me.”
“I heard you used to be feared around here,” she said.
“Everyone held their breath when you scribbled on that pad.”
“Used to,” Graham said. He was trying not to look down at the
gap where her leg should have been.
She caught his gaze. “You want to know what happened?” she
asked.
“No, no. Sorry,” Graham said. “I don’t mean to pry.”
“Helicopter crash,” she said with a dramatic hand flourish.
Graham choked on his own words. “What?” he managed to
sputter.
She laughed. “Shocking right? But true. I used to be an
aeronautical engineer in the A.D.F. Twelve years of service.”
“Wow,” Graham said. He shook his head. “A helicopter crash?”
“I don’t actually remember anything,” Stephanie said. “I passed
out as we went down. Woke up in a hospital bed in Timor. And…” she
pointed down at the stump.
“I’m so sorry,” Graham said.
She shrugged.
“How on earth did you go from that life to brewing saisons?”
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“Pretty easily,” she said. “I was laying around at home feeling
sorry for myself. I knew how to build stuff and I loved beer. So I built my
first kettle in my garage.”
“Garage kettle,” Graham said. “The brewery name.”
“Yup.”
“Incredible.”
“Well, I hope you use that word to describe the beer.”
“Right.”
And so as silent as catastrophe had come, so too came
reinvention. There was no penny drop. No lightbulb. Just the seed of
an idea, ripe to bloom.
“Listen,” Graham said. “You wouldn’t happen to be interested in
an interview, would you?”
“Like for an article?”
“Yeah,” he said. “I think I’m going to try something new.”
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Rainy Daze
Epileptic neon flickers from Lowry’s industrial streetscapes plagiarised scenes from plagiarised movies Endless drizzle rolls down the outside of steamed up windows she peers outward through the Bangladeshi café warmth Silhouettes of mackintosh and brolly plastic bags on grateful heads, origami caps adorn tattered hats and shopping trolleys, briskly ply midst traffic horns
Liquid carpark shines, reflecting dancing colours stygian flow… carries jetsam down old kerbstone gutters Another Manchester jet black…wet slate midwinter opera just another mindless shopping mart oasis meme Remembering her regular vacations to Mediterranean Spain she gave herself strength to mix and match her memories to hatch variables of past montage into her new role play
Jenny looked into her toddler’s eyes should I swap you for past good times... my halcyon days? or will we journey together, mother daughter entwined transfigure our lives in mindful ways Drizzle eases, thick bulbous clouds choke the dank bronchial night Toddling outside together, young Heather in her pet harness Jenny smiled and cried… her umbilical tethered child.
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Anti-metamorphosis 1
Anti-metamorphosis
Peter is looking at himself in the glass of the bus shelter wall. It reminds him of the
reflection he sees in the morning mirror when it is still misted with steam. Younger, less
defined. It makes him look like the profile picture he uses on all his socials. It is the
image he wants to see on the back cover of his upcoming book.
A middling famous author once commented that the photo made him look like Truman
Capote; surely a statement of his literary prowess rather than a reference to his sexuality.
Regardless, he tries to maintain this image to make it easier for readers to spot him. He
wears an argyle sweater vest, one of five on rotation. A plain, well-tailored shirt. Dressy
jeans. Leather loafers. Plastic glasses. (He’s aware of the irony). He pulls a small
notebook from his breast pocket.
Plastic glasses. Paper towel. Old news. Oxymoronic conundrums of the modern man.
Pleased with himself for having chosen the topic of his next blog post (it’s not even eight
o’clock), Peter lays a small pile of books next to him on the bench. On top, he places his
notebook and fountain pen, a gift from the middling famous author after their single night
together.
Then he waits.
He has no bus to catch, no place to be. He is working. A wright. A wordwright. A waiting
wordwright.
He takes up the pen.
Wright. Shipwright. Playwright. A person who constructs and builds. Change website tag
line.
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The morning sun crests a large jacaranda, sending an arrow of light into his left eye.
Blinking, Peter shuffles sideways on the bench sending his carefully stacked books
toppling to the ground. As he crouches to pick them up he becomes aware of a pair of
light brown worker’s boots, scuffed on the toe, thick black tradie socks. Peter tracks up
the hairy, well-formed calves, past the well-stocked stubbies, to an outstretched hand.
Given the rest of the outfit, the nails are remarkably clean.
‘Looks like a challenging read.’
Peter is used to his intellect intimidating people. He accepts the book graciously, hauling
himself back up onto the bench. Peter rearranges himself self-consciously and waits for
the inevitable recognition.
The young man is quiet. He does not have buds in his ears or pull a phone from his
pocket. Peter knows it is unusual for a young person to be disconnected, to have empty
hands (the tools of connection are usually palm-sized) yet the tradie sits easily, legs
stretching forward, hands resting on his thighs. Peter uncrosses his legs, spreads his knees
a little wider. He glances at his own hands.
Book manicure for Thursday.
Unsettled by the silence, Peter reaches for a book. His short story is on page 46,
published in 2011 to positive reviews and heralding him an upcoming talent, one to
watch. It even warranted a few lines in the Herald. Such a long time ago. Are people still
watching?
‘Are you okay?’
Peter looks over at the young man, taking in his brown eyes, the well-trimmed beard.
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‘I’m perfectly well, thank you.’ Being on the receiving end of unwarranted concern feels
slightly damp and uncomfortable, like a mask that has been worn too long. ‘Why do you
ask?’
The tradie smiles; his teeth are very white. They are pleasing to look at. Peter’s fingers
inch towards his notebook.
Look into teeth whitening.
‘You were making groaning sounds and clenching your fists. I thought you might be in
pain.’
Suddenly Peter feels quite naked and shivers as though his pasty body is exposed and not
covered by an argyle sweater vest and well-tailored shirt. Dressy jeans.
A hiss at the corner announces the arrival of the 93. The engine races as it pulls to a stop,
disgorging a young mother and her sour-faced child. The tradie and Peter regard each
other for a moment, each expecting the other to stand and board the bus. The bus driver
clearly shares this expectation, eventually taking off in a crunch of gears and reportable
language.
‘I’m waiting for the 91,’ the man says by way of explanation.
‘It only comes every forty minutes,’ says Peter, who knows these things.
The young man looks disappointed, glances at his watch. ‘I’m in enough trouble as it is;
being late for work will really cap off a shit month.’
Detecting a story, Peter sits a little taller.
‘Are you a writer?’ the man suddenly asks, as though just noticing.
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Peter assumes the appropriate expression, that of modest pride. ‘You recognise me.’ It’s a
statement of fact, not a question.
Pause. ‘No… I don’t think so. But you look like a writer. Perhaps I have heard of you.’
Peter waves his hand. ‘Have you read Masticating Without My Mouth? Or The Master’s
Tale?’
The man’s expression gives Peter his answer. A chill wind seems to blow right through
Peter. His very bones are cold.
‘Well, those are short literary works, perhaps before your time. Maybe you have read my
blog Musings on Thought? Seen my opinion piece in The Age? I was a judge for the 2013
Darville Awards?’
The man shakes his head without shame, oblivious to how ignorant he is revealing
himself to be. ‘Have you published any novels lately?’
Peter’s chin lifts as he looks down his nose at the hirsute young man next to him.
Society’s desperate need to link the production of sole-authored, long-form fictional
books (which are actually published) to the worth of authors is tiresome. The morning
wind sends the fine hairs on Peter’s chest into a state and he spasms. His fine Argyle
sweater vest is useless; it may as well be mesh.
‘I am working on my upcoming book,’ Peter announces grandly, trying to recover some
of the pride he felt earlier. ‘I’ve been told by a panel of my contemporaries it will be the
Great Australian Novel.’
The tradie’s eyebrows rise and Peter thinks he looks suitably impressed, but then he
opens his mouth and there are those white teeth again.
‘I thought Jasper Jones was the Great Australian Novel. I’ve read that one.’
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Peter clenches his jaw so tight it sends a current of pain through his back molar. The one
with the hole. It feels like an expensive hole, one Peter cannot afford to fall through right
now. He scrabbles for his notebook.
Why the Great Australian Novel must be adult fiction and cannot be YA.
The fine pen slashes through the page. Ink bleeds through the paper. There is a strange
sensation in Peter’s chest. He looks down to see a gaping wound in his torso where the
triangles used to be on his sweater. His fingers trace the edge of the hole. There is no
blood, just nothing. His heart has vanished.
But the young man continues as though he hasn’t ripped out Peter’s very core.
‘I actually read that book to my girlfriend, she was pregnant.’ He smiles with the
memory. ‘Every night by seven o’clock she’d be so tired after work she would be ready
for bed, so I would lie next to her and read her a few pages of Jasper Jones. I think Jasper
is a great name.’ His voice trails off and he looks down the empty road.
‘I really am going to be in trouble if I’m late.’
‘You don’t have a car?’ (It’s unusual for young people not to have cars these days).
‘Oh I have a car,’ the tradie says. ‘A Holden V8 ute. She’s a beaut.’
‘Then why…?’ Peter gestures at the space surrounding them. The glass walls with posters
spruiking fried chicken, the cold metal bench that Peter can feel in his muscles as though
he no longer has skin. Or clothes.
‘I lost my licence. DUI.’ The man rubs his beard, so neatly trimmed. ‘I never drink and
drive but two months ago, I was at my mate’s place watching the footy, had a few beers,
then my girlfriend called. The baby was coming early. I needed to be with her, so I
jumped in the ute and drove to the hospital to meet her. Almost made it.’
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‘Why not wait for an Uber?’ Peter wanted to know, losing interest in the story. Another
irresponsible youth. It would be much more interesting if he was an alcoholic. Trapped in
a world of dependency and shame.
Remember to be a recovering alcoholic. Capote. Kerouac. Tennessee Williams. Research
downward spiral. Write short memoir piece about my courageous fight against the
darkness. Create a pithy quote ie. F. Scott Fitzgerald: ‘First you take a drink, then a
drink takes a drink, then the drink takes you.’ Self-created prison of glass and vapours.
YES!
Peter curls his hands around his notebook. Everything he is, every thought he has, the
building blocks of his upcoming book – his only book – lays on the pages. The notebook
is Peter.
He places the end of the fountain pen against his lip, assumes a posture of thoughtful
contemplation like the picture on his socials. This is usually when he hears small gasps of
recognition. It feeds him.
But the only sound Peter can hear is the wind whistling through the hole in his chest. His
feet have disappeared too.
In desperation, Peter tries to take back the tradie’s attention. ‘What did you have?’
‘I’m sorry?’
‘The baby. Was it a boy or a girl?’
The tradie stands abruptly, shoving his hands deep inside his pockets. His back is to
Peter.
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‘The baby died. It was too soon, she was too little. Angie was all alone in that hospital
room, giving birth to our tiny dead baby girl and I was in the back of a paddy wagon.
Stupid. STUPID.’
The tradie kicks at the glass wall with his steel-capped boots. A web of cracks blooms in
the glass.
Avoid mixing metaphors.
There is a rumble from the opposite direction and a deep purple ute slows. The window is
down, a tattooed arm casually dropped over the door.
‘Mate,’ the driver calls. ‘I heard you got done. Really sorry to hear about Ang too.’
The tradie nods, takes a few steps towards the kerb. ‘Thanks mate.’
‘You want a lift?’
The young man shakes his head, ‘m’going in the opposite direction.’
Peter has sat taller on the bench, but the man in the ute does not even flick his eyes in
Peter’s direction. He may as well not even exist.
The silver veil. Becoming invisible as we age.
But that is just for nobodies, Peter tells himself. He is a famous writer. He has over four
thousand followers. He was interviewed last year on Community Radio about his
upcoming book.
Besides, his hair is not silver. He keeps it a youthful shade of sandy blonde. Like Capote.
He reaches up to tuck his hair behind his ear, to find he no longer has a hand.
‘Those your books?’ The man in the ute is pointing at Peter’s neatly stacked pile of texts.
‘Na mate, there was someone here before. Old bloke. He must have left them.’
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‘I was gonna say,’ the man laughs. ‘Life’s not that desperate.’
Even from this distance, Peter can see the yellowed smile, the missing tooth. He is
repulsive yet relatable. He would make a fantastic character in a short story about the
failures of the education system.
Peter tries to reach for his notebook. It is difficult with no hands.
A rumble in the distance.
‘That’s me,’ says the tradie.
‘Right then.’ The man lifts his hand in farewell and leaves in a roar. A smudge of rubber
defiles the road.
The tradie has his hand out, calling the bus. It hisses to a stop.
The tradie pauses on the lower step of the bus, looking back at the shelter. All he sees is
the pile of books. Sitting on top is the notebook, its now blank pages flapping in the
breeze.
Shrugging, he swings himself onto the bus.
City of Rockingham Creative Writing Competition 2021
Children of the Mountain
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Children of the Mountain
In the months leading up to his death, my grandfather gradually became blue.
Most of the men in our village being miners, life expectancy was low and few lived to
experience grandfatherhood. This meant that while having a grandfather was unusual,
having a grandfather who was also blue conferred an odd celebrity upon my brother and
myself among our schoolfriends. For a small fee, we used to let them onto our property
to peek through the window into his bedroom and view him where he sat like an ancient
deity, propped up against a pile of white bolsters - eyes half-closed, head slumped, chin
resting on his chest.
He was not the bright blue of the summer sky above the mountain but the deep purple-
blue of bruises and brinjal. In the beginning the hue was just faint tinge upon his
fingertips, but, as time went on and his breathing grew more laboured, his coffee-coloured
skin became completely suffused, like brown paper soaking up ink.
“What happened to him?’ our friends would ask. We claimed he was magical, relying on
them to spread the rumour so we’d make more pocket-money. Our parents had asked the
same question of the local doctor. They’d guessed there was a problem with his lungs for
respiratory ailments were commonplace in our community, but skin darkening to indigo
wasn’t something anyone in the village had seen before.
“It’s affecting grandfather in a different way,” our mother told us, “There are black trees
growing inside him that steal his air. The lack of air affects his skin.”
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Her attempt to explain his condition in a way our young minds could understand only
added to the myth of grandfather. In our eyes, he became part god, part tree. We reworked
our schoolyard sales-pitch and started charging an extra coin to anyone who wanted to
have a look at him.
“Who are all those people?” he asked in one of his lucid moments, as he glanced towards
the window that framed a cluster of small, wide-eyed faces.
We liked it when he was awake and could talk to us. Our parents were always busy; father
spending long hours at the mine, mother occupied with housework, our baby sister, and
grandfather’s care. Grandfather, however, had nothing to do but sit, and, when he was
conscious, he seemed to like our company.
His yellowed teeth flashed in his blue face when we told him of our money-making
scheme and he whispered – for he always spoke in a whisper now – how pleased he was
to be useful. Then, when he playfully demanded a cut, asking if there was enough coin
for cigarettes, my brother ran all the way to the village to buy the cheap fragrant beedi
sticks he loved, and which my mother refused to get him because the doctor had forbidden
them.
“It cannot matter now,” said Grandfather, as he tried to pincer a cigarette. But the hands
which once swung a pickaxe for twelve hours a day and prised rubies straight from cavern
walls, were too frail to lift the tobacco to his mouth, and, as soon became apparent when
we put the cigarette to his lips, the body which had endured the harshest working
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conditions was too weak to properly inhale the smoke. In the end, I lit one and waved it
around the room like an incense stick. Grandfather sniffed the sweet cinnamon- and
clove-scented air, and was happy.
It became our little ritual, when we noticed he was awake, to burn a cigarette and perch
on the edge of his bed to talk to him. He seemed less strange, less blue, in those moments
when he was whispering stories of his life underground – the long pauses as he struggled
for breath adding to the drama of the tales. He’d been twelve when he first descended
into the mine beside his own father.
“You cannot imagine how absolute the darkness is,” he murmured, “Not if you shut your
eyes tight and cover them with your hands. Not if you hide beneath the bedcovers. You,”
he nodded at my brother, “you’ll see what I mean, in time.”
My brother, who was nine, grinned and said he couldn’t wait. Then he turned and mocked
me, because I was a girl who had to stay above ground and keep house for my husband.
When I protested that I wanted to go to the mines too, Grandfather shushed me, assuring
me I had the better fate, though, when he told of the great explosions the miners set to
blast away chunks of rock and reveal new seams of gems, I felt envious that I’d never
experience this excitement for myself, even if it was as dangerous as he claimed.
“Once you go underground, you become part of the mountain,” he told us, “You eat away
at its insides and it takes revenge by eating yours. You become more mountain than man.”
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“Is it blue underground, grandfather?” my brother asked, “Did the mountain make you
blue?”
Grandfather smiled a little.
“In a way it did. But underground is not blue. When you light a lantern, the walls are
white like roti and the gems are the colour of persimmons.”
“What makes the gems, grandfather?” continued my brother, whose eyes had grown wide
at the thought of caves that looked like bread and fruit.
But grandfather had fallen asleep.
I took up the story which we’d heard so many times before.
“The mountain presses down with its whole weight. It is so heavy and so hot, hotter than
the hottest summer day. Then, after a long, long time of constant weight and heat, the
rock turns to rubies, and emeralds, and sapphires.”
We’d seen polished gems only once before when Father had taken us on a rare trip to the
city. In the gold bazaar we’d been dazzled by the array of jewellery, deep buttery gold
chains studded with tiny twinkling stones which were so unlike the jagged lumps of rock
that emerged from the mines and which Father explained were the reason for his life
underground. We stared at the glittering displays and asked him why he never brought
any home, then discovered the end-product of his labours was not for people like us.
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“Sapphires!” my brother echoed with a sigh, “Those are the ones that are blue. Like
Grandfather.”
“They are the children of the mountain,” I said, because that was exactly how Grandfather
always finished that tale.
The next time Grandfather opened his eyes was the day the mine caved in. We were
sitting on the floor next to his bed, dividing our small hoard of coins into a pile for us and
a pile for cigarettes, when the rumbling sound started. We leapt to our feet, ran to the
window, looked out towards the mountain. Through the shimmer of summer’s humidity,
we saw an ash cloud blooming above the mine-site as the groaning in the earth grew
louder.
We were transfixed until a loud coughing made us turn around. Grandfather was
struggling to move.
“I know that sound,” he wheezed, “Help me up! Help me look!”
The two of us were trying to lift his skinny frame when my mother ran in, pushing baby
sister into my arms and shouting at us to stay in the house. We saw her running through
the pasture, towards the mountain which had a new stark crater pock-marking its southern
face. We stood together, me holding my sister, my brother propping up Grandfather’s
gasping form. The baby was weeping as if even she knew what an enormous tragedy was
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taking place. Grandfather was weeping too, the tears glazing his cheeks to polished
turquoise.
In the days leading up to his death my grandfather was fully-conscious, his eyes open and
onyx-bright in his wrinkled cobalt face. While my mother grieved along with the other
widows, we stayed beside Grandfather who, gently, quietly, and with many ragged
breaths which had nothing to do with the black trees in his lungs, explained why we
would not be seeing our father again.
“The way in has been lost,” he said, “and it’s too dangerous for anyone to clear a path to
where the men were working.”
“But what will happen to Father?” sobbed my brother, “Mother said we can’t even bring
him to the cremation grounds.”
“Remember what I told you about the weight and the heat of the mountain upon the
underground?” Grandfather said, “They work the same upon your father and make him
part of the mountain. I am sure he has become a gemstone by now. Think of him as a
ruby - the biggest, brightest ruby you can imagine.”
“A child of the mountain?” asked my brother.
“Exactly,” whispered my grandfather, sounding exhausted, “Exactly.”
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So only one journey was made to the cremation grounds - for Grandfather a week later.
His dark blue skin was hidden under the wrappings of a shroud into which my brother
and I tucked a single beedi cigarette. As a girl, I wasn’t allowed to go with the men when
they carried him from the house, but later I crept out and went to see where the pyre had
been. I took a stick and poked around the site, expecting to find sapphires, and was
disappointed that my magical grandfather, whose own son had become the biggest ruby
in the mountain, had himself transformed into nothing more than a patch of scorched
earth.
His ashes were thrown into the river. We told our schoolfriends that he’d become a grey
cloud which floated away down the valley, but, as evidenced by our now empty palms
and pockets, this was not the kind of story which would bring us any coins at all.
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