Cinderella story · When I was a kid, dad hit me, insulted me and kept telling me that I'm a loser....
Transcript of Cinderella story · When I was a kid, dad hit me, insulted me and kept telling me that I'm a loser....
Cinderella storyby Yle
Producer Sanna HautamäkiDirector Mape Morottaja
Main cinematographer Janne LangenEditor Timo Boeck
I was just ten months old when my dad drove my mom away from our family. Dad became a single parent to me and my sister.
From that day started my childhood of fear.
When I was a kid, dad hit me, insulted me and kept telling me that I'm a loser.
I left home as soon as possible and got married. I got two wonderful children. Everything was fine until all that childhood abyss came over me. I realized that I was at the age of my son when my mom abandoned me. I was only ten months old!
I was so tired with two little kids! We repaired old house, my husband was working all the time and I was lonely. I couldn't see the light and I fell apart. I attempted suicide.
After I tried to kill myself, my dad didn't want to come to see me at the hospital. Maybe he thought that I was just as weak and pathetic as he had told me when I was a kid. He disowned me. I decided to fight and survive. I decided to forget my dad.
I went to see my mom after 25 years. She told me that she didn't want to leave us, but she was too scared because my dad had beaten her. Mom had became an alcoholic. That was the first and the last time I saw her. She was my mom, but there was no connection between us. She was a stranger to me. She died couple of years after we met. I was sad and mad to my dad, because he stole my mum from me when I needed her most!
I went to the therapy and I survived. I wanted to get my strength back and peace of mind.
Couple of years later my dad committed suicide. I was surprised, because he had judged my suicide attempt so strict. Before his suicide, he changed all his property to cash and destroyed it all, 356 000 euros, by putting the cash to paste water. He didn't want to leave me any heritage. I literally wash all the money. After many investigations, bank decided to refund all that money to me and my sister. I hated that money so bad, I would rather had a normal childhood and loving family.
After my long therapy my daughter thought it´s her payback time for her good childhood that I had built her and she predicated me to Cinderella story. She knew that my mind is peaceful now and it's time to me to move on. She was right!
I threw myself to Cinderella story´s stylist Outi Broux´s hands.
Now that I'm mentally balanced, I want to renew my appearance as well.
Cinderella story made me see myself in a new way.
I want to shine again. I want my inner glow shimmer in my appearance.
I want to have a better self-confidence. I want to learn how to get best out of myself.
I got tons of great guidance from Cinderella story!
I want to be proud of myself again.
I want to live without fear, without my dad's scary shadow. I want to enjoy my marvelous family.
I want to exceed myself.Cinderella story encouraged me a lot.
I did it! I´m not the loser he told I'd be. I´m so happy!And now I know that for my beloved ones, I'm enough just the way I am.
Thank you Cinderella story, you helped me find the real me!