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Two parents received this email from their daughter, who was away at college and 4
just about coming home for Christmas break. So they opened up the email and it 5
said this: 6
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Dear Mom and Dad, I am sorry I haven't written lately but you see all my things 8
were destroyed in the dorm fire. My eyes are almost completely healed now and 9
there should be no permanent damage from the smoke. While the dorm is being 10
rebuilt I have moved in with my boyfriend. I think you met Roy when you were 11
here on parent's weekend. I know how much you have always wanted 12
grandchildren, so you'll be happy to know I am expecting a baby at the end of 13
next summer. 14
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Then the letter went on and it said: 16
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Please excuse this exercise in English composition. There was no dorm fire. My 18
eyes are not damaged. I am not living with my boyfriend and I am not pregnant. 19
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However, I did receive a D in English and an F in French and I wanted to be sure 20
you got this information in proper perspective. 21
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Now if you are the parent and you are reading along this letter, I just imagine 23
how you are feeling as you read more and more that is happening in her life and 24
all of a sudden you realize none of those things have happened. It's a D in English 25
and an F in French. You feel a sense of relief and you go oh honey, is that it? We 26
are going to be able to handle that. And it is in the contrast that we are able to see 27
perspective and perspective is liberating; the ability to use our perspective and 28
use it well, and that's what this lesson is about. 29
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Now that you have been exploring a possibility for yourself, a dream, if you have a 31
picture of that dream and imagination of that dream just thinking about it like 32
quickens your pulse. It matches your core value. You've tested this dream. It's 33
going to cause you to grow. It's good for others. There's so much in this dream 34
that matters and right behind that will come a sense inside of you like well do I 35
really deserve that or can I really have that or some of the things that we may 36
have picked up along the way about ideas of ourselves as not good enough or 37
somewhat damaged or somehow not having the skill or the talent or the smarts or 38
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the contacts or the whatever it is, the age. Most of us have perceptions about 39
ourselves that are limiting and create in us a sense of doubt about the 40
possibilities. So this lesson is about letting go of some of the perceptions that we 41
have that are self-inhibiting and self-limiting. 42
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Understanding first of all that you are not your personality. You have a 44
personality. You are not your body. You have a body. You are a spiritual being 45
having a human experience. You have a body. You use your brain, which is the 46
switching station between your individual awareness and the mind of God. You 47
have creative capacities that are unlimited except by your own thinking and your 48
own understanding. And just like the parents who got an upsetting letter from 49
their daughter but when they changed their perception the truth emerged, 50
everything changed in how they felt and their ability to help their daughter solve 51
whatever the situation was. It's not different with you and me. 52
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There's a Hindu story that I really love. It's about a pregnant tiger who goes out 54
hunting one day. She finds a whole herd of goats. She goes after the goats because 55
she is very, very hungry. She is ravenous. So she attacks them desperately and she 56
gets so tired and runs so hard that she just collapses in exhaustion and she dies 57
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giving birth to her cub. When the goats return to the field they find the 58
motherless newborn. Those goats decide to adopt him. So he grows up repeating 59
behaviors like those around him. He bleats. He eats grass. He believes himself to 60
be a goat. So this little cub who grows into a tiger now is wandering with the goats 61
and acting like a goat and bleating like the goats and eating the way the goats eat. 62
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Then one day a tiger, a big male tiger, comes into the goat herd and all the goats 64
scatter except this little tiger. He is about a year old now and looking at this big 65
male tiger somehow he is sensing an affinity with this tiger. But he freezes in his 66
tracks and he stands there staring at the tiger. The big tiger comes over to him 67
and says 'What's wrong with you?' The little one says 'What do you mean what's 68
wrong with me?' The big tiger says 'What's wrong with you? What are you doing? 69
You are acting weird. You are acting like a goat.' The little tiger says 'I am a goat!' 70
The big one says 'No you're not. You are not a goat.' He leads the little tiger over 71
to a pond. A very still pond. He said 'Now look at yourself. Really look at yourself.' 72
The little cub looks at himself and he looks at the big tiger and he is confused. The 73
tiger says 'Come with me, come with me.' He takes him back to his den and in the 74
den there is some leftover meat from a gazelle that had been his recent kill. So he 75
says to the little tiger 'Eat this.' The little cub says 'Well no way. I am a 76
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vegetarian.' The tiger says 'Try it. Just try it.' So the little tiger reaches over and 77
he takes a bite off the bone. 78
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In this Hindu story, when that little tiger who thought he was a goat reaches 80
down and tastes some of the meat, at first he chokes on the meat. He gags and 81
then a piece of that meat enters his bloodstream and the cub begins to stretch. He 82
bares his claws, he opens his mouth wide and he lets out for the very first time in 83
his life a small roar. That first roar isn't very fearsome. It's not yet all the roar that 84
the tiger will give, but that first roar is called the roar of awakening. It's the first 85
moment when this being recognizes that he wasn't who he thought himself to be. 86
He wasn't limited to the kind of life he had been living and that there was way 87
more for him. 88
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So you and I, when we first get introduced to the idea that we are way more than 90
we thought ourselves to be; that we have capacities and creative talents and a 91
genius code in us as unique as our thumbprint, at first we too choke on this 92
information. We may discard it. We say no, no me. I am...and we describe 93
ourselves and the personality we have known or we describe ourselves from the 94
viewpoint of those who raised us or taught us or in some way influenced our self-95
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image. But there is something very, very powerful in the shifting of your self 96
image from a local personality with your history driven understanding about who 97
you are to a more evolved, conscious aware understanding of yourself as an 98
evolving being who uses not only your human brain, your body, your emotions, 99
but the mind of God to create. 100
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Now who you are is a divine being. You didn't create yourself. You can't even 102
make your heart beat. You can't take one breath on your own. It is living spirit in 103
which you live and move and have your being and that presence, that power, the 104
authentic you is living and moving and having being as you. So in these lessons 105
we are learning to explore our longings, to pay attention to our discontent as the 106
two streams of information that are guiding us, that send information to our 107
conscious mind about decisions we can make that move us in the direction of the 108
dreams we have. So you pay attention to your longings. You pay attention to your 109
discontent. Those are streams of information to the conscious mind about a 110
direction that leads you into a greater and fuller expanded expression of yourself. 111
For this you came. To bear witness to this incredible being that is the authentic 112
you. The great news about this is the more you do this the more I do this, the 113
happier we are. The healthier we become. The easier things get. It's as if we lift 114
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into a jet stream of support because we are in harmony with our soul's purpose; 115
who we are meant to be. 116
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So we have spent some time listening to our longing, listening to our discontent, 118
paying attention, getting an idea of a dream, testing that dream. We've run that 119
dream by the five point test. We noticed our dream, listened to it, paid attention 120
to it, tested it, said yes this is a good dream. As soon as we say yes to the dream 121
it's in essence that we step beyond the boundary of the life we've known and now 122
we are in what's called the gap. The gap between the life we have known and the 123
life we have not yet brought in and traversing that gap is a tricky path. There is 124
almost a gravitational pull to the life we have known. It's already established. We 125
have lived that life. We've come to know that life. 126
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Some people call that a comfort zone even when it's uncomfortable. At least it's 128
comfortable because we know that life. You set a dream in front of yourself and 129
you really say yes to that dream, you test that dream, you say I am going to live 130
that life. I am going to live that life. What's called your paradigms, or all the ways 131
you've thought about yourself now rise up and they argue with you about the 132
possibility that you really do have to live the greater larger life. Here's the truth, 133
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you do have the capacity. It may not yet be a developed capacity or a known 134
capacity for you but you do have the capacity. There's not one thing you could 135
think of that's beyond the capacity of the universe to bring forth and you are one 136
with this universal power, presence and mind. 137
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Now we call this a sense of deserving. A growing sense of deserving or a greater 139
and greater self esteem. Esteem just simply means valuing. How you value 140
yourself and understanding that you have a self image that can shift to a higher 141
and greater emergence of authenticity that's in harmony with really who you are 142
created to be. So when you think of the word your 'self', if you use a small s to 143
define the self you can see that your self and the version that you've had to think 144
of yourself is your personality, your history, what others have said, what you've 145
done so far. It's not that it's not true; it's just not all of your self. 146
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Your Self, if you take that self and put a capital S, there is a Self; there is an 148
authentic Self. There is the Self that you are before you took this human birth that 149
you are when you lay this human body down. This Self that is the real you. That 150
Self has a DNA. It has a divine destiny to express unique talents and skills and 151
gifts that are as unique as your thumbprint in this world. But you will mute that 152
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opportunity if you only identify with your history, if you only see yourself based 153
on the conditions you currently had, known or experienced. So learning how to 154
shift, in essence, your sense of Self becomes part of the great gift that you have in 155
deciding to build a dream. Because remember, building the dream, getting the 156
thing you say you want, building the house, having the family or whatever it is, 157
creating the business, writing the book, doing the travel, whatever it is that you 158
feel a longing for and a yearning to experience and express that will be a 159
wonderful thing--but the really wonderful thing is who you become in the 160
process; who you discover yourself to be as you get to know this authentic self. 161
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And just like those parents who all of a sudden had a shift in perception that 163
changed everything in regard to how they were perceiving the situation with their 164
daughter, you and I can have a shift in perception that absolutely changes us. The 165
magnetic field in which we live and move and have our being draws unto us the 166
substance that's coherent with the images we hold. So when you have a bigger 167
idea you want to be sure that that bigger idea lives inside of you and there's no 168
dissonance. That you're not saying yeah I'd love to have that but I'm not worthy 169
of it. I'd love to have that but I don't have the education. I don't have the 170
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background. I don't have this or that. And in essence, perhaps you don't currently 171
but you have access to the mind of the infinite in which all things are possible. 172
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So let me give you a few stories to help anchor this idea. There was a woman I 174
knew named Carla. Carla had grown up in a Catholic family. She had gone to 175
Catholic school. She was a kid who was always in trouble. She always asked a lot 176
of questions and irritated her teachers, who were nuns. She said one day in the 177
fifth grade, her nun teacher just absolutely lost her temper, took the little ten year 178
old in front of the entire class and said--there were twenty-six other kids in the 179
classroom by the way--and the nun said 'Alright, what you are all going to do now 180
is one by one I want you to stand up and I want you to name something about 181
Carla that you don't like and we are going to all tell Carla what's wrong with her.' 182
Carla told me that as a ten year old, she just remembers standing in this 183
classroom with one student after another telling her what was wrong with her 184
from the way she looked to the way she acted to the way she dressed to the beliefs 185
she held to some of what she considered to be the most good things about herself 186
and maybe even some of the deepest secrets she had that only her dearest friends 187
would know. But in the presence of this authority figure, the nun, one by one the 188
students did exactly as they had been asked to do. They stood up and they told 189
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Carla things that really hurt Carla's feelings. In the authority figure of this nun 190
somehow in this little girl's mind she translated that to mean God was saying 191
these things about her. 192
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As time went on, Carla shut down. She began to hate herself. If everyone else saw 194
her this way that must be how she was. So in junior high then she began to seek 195
out a cure for her pain. She found it in drugs and alcohol. She drank herself well 196
into her twenties and then having fifteen years of drinking and drugging she 197
finally became very ill and at the threat of losing her life she finally into recovery. 198
She said that in the recovery process she began to realize that she was recovering 199
a new sense of identity; that her true identity was not at all what she had come to 200
believe on that fateful day when she was a ten year old. She saw that the nun was 201
just upset that day, that maybe she was being irritating to that nun. That maybe 202
she was asking too many questions. Certainly the nun had acted in a way that was 203
misguided but she had had a tough day. But also Carla came to see that nun was 204
not God. Nor were all the comments that were made that day the definition of her 205
true self. The nun was just a person who got frustrated with a child one day and 206
did something. But that child had taken that information, much like the parents 207
who took the information that their college daughter was temporarily blind and 208
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very much pregnant, she had a mental response, an emotional response, and a 209
physical response. All of Carla's choices from then forward had been based on 210
what she had come to believe about herself by that one experience. The 211
information she had been given was very, very wrong. 212
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So in recovering her true identity Carla began to realize that she had a divine 214
nature. That it didn't mean that she didn't have amends to make or things to 215
make right about the life she had lived, but it meant that she was not defined by 216
those ideas about herself, nor was she defined by the behaviors that she had done 217
to try to mitigate the pain she felt. And she began to recognize that there was 218
something in her that was worth way, way more than she had had any idea of. So 219
as we learn, each one of us in this process, in dream building, in learning to bring 220
forth your goals, your ideas, your talents, your skills, for you to move into a more 221
expanded and expanding version of life that's calling you one of the practices--222
and it's a practice over time--is to learn to believe in yourself in a different way, 223
and to believing really who you are. That you are not what you have done. You are 224
not what you have had happen to you. You are way more than that. And when we 225
first hear these ideas and we originally begin to taste the idea that I have had 226
experiences, I have a body, I have had things happen, I have done things...that's 227
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history, it's feedback, it's information but it's not who I am. Most of us choke on 228
that. We choke on that idea and say wait a minute because we have come to only 229
see ourselves through the lens of our history and our experiences. But once we let 230
this begin to get into our bloodstream a bit we will find ourselves in a kind of roar 231
of awakening that absolutely transforms us as well. 232
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There is a story about eight buddies who go golfing one day. They break up into 234
two foursomes. The first foursome gets done and they wait for the other group. 235
They are sitting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and finally, 236
maybe an hour and a half after they have expected the second struggles in. The 237
guy in the first group says 'My gosh! What took you guys so long?' A fellow from 238
the second group says 'Oh man. It was a tough game.' The first guy says 'Why?' 239
and the other one says 'Well on the second hole Harry had a heart attack.' They 240
said 'Oh my gosh that's horrible! What happened?' The other one says 'Well, after 241
that it was hit the ball and drag Harry, hit the ball and drag Harry.' 242
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Now that's kind of a bad joke. Taken in a broader spectrum of that joke, I mean 244
poor Harry. But the idea is that we would laugh at anyone that would try to play 245
the game of golf dragging something that heavy with them. Yet you and I are 246
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often playing the game of life dragging our own 'Harry' with us; dragging 247
something that no longer is alive, life-giving or having meaning in our lives. Quite 248
simply 'Harry' is the dead weight. There are parts of ourselves that we have long 249
since needed to discard. They have died but we are still hanging on. Experiences, 250
ideas, happenings, we are still dragging perhaps our childhood story. Still hauling 251
around what our spouse did yesterday or ten years ago, or a different spouse. We 252
are lugging around the notion that we are not lovable or not smart enough or not 253
something. We are still dragging around limiting ideas. And it's heavy, and it's 254
exhausting and what we find is there's no energy left for dream building. 255
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There was a couple that I met once in working with them. The man's name was 257
Brad. He said 'You know most people would say that I was an easygoing guy, but 258
my family would not say that because there's a whole side of me that they see that 259
only comes out with those who are nearest and dearest to me. It's a part of me 260
that I think aptly they've called--they've probably given me the right name for it--261
they call it the werewolf. Things can just be going along ok and then I'll get stuck 262
in traffic or I'll come home and see a bike out in the driveway where I wanted to 263
park or I trip over something inside of the house and instantly I will just be filled 264
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with a rage and I'll just dump that on anyone and everyone who is around. The 265
kids will go oh no dad, the werewolf is here. Dad the werewolf is here!' 266
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So Brad decided he wanted to change that. That instead of having the people that 268
were closest to him be the recipients of the darkest side of him, he wanted to 269
discover what it was that he could do that would liberate him. In essence this was 270
Harry he had been dragging around; a learned style of behavior that created pain 271
with the closest people he had in his life. So he began to practice an exercise 272
where he would in essence push a pause button. When that behavior would begin 273
to surface up in him, he recognized he could actually push the pause button and 274
consciously choose how he would respond. That he could decide, you know I can 275
still get angry about this and I can still do whatever...that option doesn't leave me. 276
But for the next fifteen minutes or the next five minutes or the next--and it took 277
him a while to exercise his capacity to choose how he would respond instead of 278
just reacting. To choose to respond. 279
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Now in essence you have heard the word 'responsibility'. We all have the ability to 281
choose how we will respond. But most of us have been trained to be reactive, so 282
we were trained how we should respond by the way we watched our parents 283
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respond or react. Once it's programmed it becomes a reaction. We don't even 284
think about it. We just think that you spill some milk you get upset. Somebody 285
cuts you out in traffic, you get upset. That you have a patterned response that is 286
unconscious now and so we call that a reaction because it is no longer consciously 287
choosing how we are going to respond. We just react a pattern that has always 288
been established somewhere along our learning. But it's not liberating and why it 289
matters in dream building, why it matters in creating the life that you want is that 290
you want to be able to harness your whole authority. Your authority is a co-291
creator with the infinite. 292
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So as you begin to recognize that you perhaps have some Harrys you have been 294
dragging around, patterns that are no longer really useful, helpful, creative, 295
energizing and you begin to just take an honest inner inventory and say you know 296
that pattern isn't really how I want to be basically that pattern is not harmonious 297
with the life that I say I want to live. That if I want to be more abundant but I am 298
acting stingy, if I want to have more love, but I am holding thoughts of 299
resentment, that anything I am doing mentally, emotionally, physically that is 300
dissonant or out of harmony with the picture I am holding for the life I want to 301
live that dissonance is like putting two ends of the magnet together, two positive 302
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ends of the magnet repel. So I have to create in essence a vibrational match in my 303
way of being with the picture I say I want in my life. 304
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So working with some of these ideas around releasing patterns of thinking or 306
behavior that are not in harmony with the image of the life I want to live 307
increases my sense of deserving, opens me up. I now become a vibrational match 308
for ideas and circumstances and situations that actually look like they come out of 309
the blue to support my understanding of the steps I need to take to build the 310
dream I want to have. 311
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So Brad realized that there was a part of him that really could choose a different 313
way. That was new information for him. He just didn't know quite how to access 314
that at first. He knew the first part of it was to actually believe that he had more 315
in him that he had known. Even though he didn't know how to access it yet he 316
had to make a choice. You know what; I really could choose to be different. So he 317
thought ok so what am I going to do with that energy of rage when it starts to 318
come up in me and I just want to vent it and get it away from me. I want to get 319
angry and vent that energy. So he started thinking about what was most 320
important in his life. He thought about what really mattered most to him and he 321
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knew that is was his family. So instead of going with that energy of bursting out, 322
he thought I am going to choose to create this differently. He thought, you know 323
if I really were living the life I wanted to live I would celebrate my family. As soon 324
as he said the words celebrate family even his body would shift because he knew 325
that that was very important to him. 326
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So he began to practice that and he was tested with a werewolf experience not 328
long after he made a decision. He said he was driving home in traffic on the inner 329
lane and his car, which was fairly old, absolutely died. So in the midst of the 330
traffic and waiting for someone to come and help him he got out of the car and 331
was leaning up against the guard rail watching all the traffic go by. He said the 332
steam was just rising from the hood of his car. He said if someone could have 333
taken an infrared picture they would have seen coming out of my ears, my nose, 334
my eyes and every other place in me where steam could emit. He said 'I was just 335
so angry about this and all of a sudden I thought wait a minute. I made a 336
decision. I could respond differently. I made a decision that it is a matter of 337
perspective. This is a broken down car. That's it. It's a broken down car. It can't 338
control my life unless I let it. It's a broken down car.' Then he remembered 'I have 339
a great family. I have a broken down car but I have a great family'. 340
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Not long after that a policeman stopped. They called a tow truck. The tow truck 342
driver looked inside and the engine was completely frozen so the tow truck driver 343
says 'Where do you want me to take your car?' Brad says 'Take it to a junkyard.' 344
So he had the car towed away. The policeman gave him a ride to the next exit 345
because he could catch a bus from there. He was standing there waiting for the 346
bus and he thought 'Ok how am I going to go home now?' And this was outside 347
his experience. His pattern of experience was always to be mad, stomp around, 348
vent when something like this had happened in his life. So he thought 'Ok, so 349
there's a part of me that is greater than this experience. What I really want to do 350
is remember that I have a great family. I have a dead car but I have a great 351
family.' All of a sudden he got this idea, because right next to where he was 352
standing waiting for the bus was a 7-11. So he went into the 7-11 store and he 353
bought a bottle of sparkling apple cider. He picked up a bouquet of wild flowers a 354
vendor was selling outside the store. He took the flowers, the bottle of apple 355
cider, carried it on the bus, walked almost a mile to his house after the bus 356
dropped him off, came in the door. 357
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The family looked at him. His wife says 'What's this?' He says 'Guess what? The 359
car's dead, we have no money but I love you all.' He said their jaws dropped and it 360
was like who are you and what did you do with dad? It was so empowering to 361
him. It's a small story in some regards, but it was a big story in Brad's life because 362
it was a defining moment. That moment defined Brad's recognition that there 363
was a choice in him about how he would respond and that he was no longer 364
limited to the personality or the person he had known himself to be. That was a 365
roar of awakening. And that roar of awakening, when you discover there is more 366
to you; that you have more than the life you have lived, the experiences you have 367
tended to react to, you have more. That more puts you in touch with a stream of 368
more. More ideas, more understanding, more availability, all of that is in 369
coherency with you becoming the person who absolutely can live the dream your 370
holding. 371
372
So you know our little tiger? The other tiger could look at that tiger all day long 373
and say you're not a goat, you're not a goat. You are a tiger. But until that little 374
tiger begins to resonate with that himself and taste the meat himself there is no 375
roar of awakening. So someone else...I can tell you that I know you are worthy of 376
your dream. I can tell you that I know there is more to you. I can tell you because 377
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I have had forty years working in this laboratory called life working with 378
thousands and thousands of people and I know that about you. But it really 379
doesn't do you much good for me to know that about you. It's you tasting it. It's 380
you being open to do the experiences that we are talking about, to work in your 381
workbook, to begin to take just baby steps. And I will tell you this and you know 382
it's true, that baby steps taken sequentially and consistently will ultimately even 383
take you up Mount Everest. So there's nothing that's ever happened in your life 384
that's beyond the power that's within you to transform that and ultimately use 385
that for you good. 386
387
So Brad made a shift by being willing to focus on his own deserving at a deeper 388
level and then he began to practice that new understanding in regard to old 389
behaviors. There's a man I know named Scott. Scott and I have known each other 390
for a long time. During the Vietnam days, Scott had a strong feeling that he just 391
did not want to be involved in participating in any actions that brought physical 392
violence to anybody else. So he filed as a conscientious objector during the 393
Vietnam War. His first filing was rejected and then in the course of his appeals 394
the war ended. So his friends started coming home. Some of them that he had 395
gone to high school with had lost limbs. Many of them had lost whole portions of 396
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their heart. They just really felt disillusioned and disheartened about having gone 397
off, surrendered their own innocence only to have society reject them when they 398
came home. Scott said to me later when he would talk to me about it, he said 'I 399
was feeling like here I was, I sat at home being a paper pusher trying to get out of 400
it.' He said that he began to build inside of himself a feeling that he did not 401
deserve good things in his life. Others had been willing to sacrifice and he had 402
not. As he grew older he became a successful businessman but he noticed that he 403
wasn't really able to give of his heart in any of his relationships. He had money 404
but he felt disconnected. He felt isolated. He had a wife, he had kids but he didn't 405
feel connected. What we notice is that for some of us our lack of deserving will 406
really affect our financial affairs. For some of us our lack of deserving affects our 407
relationships and sometimes it affects our health as well. So wherever it's 408
showing up in your life know this, that it is a disconnect from the authentic self. 409
410
So Scott began to practice again spiritual principles. He began to practice a 411
different kind of thinking. He began to practice recognizing that there was more 412
to him than he had known. Scott began to develop a personal companionship or 413
relationship with a sense of his own higher power. He began to practice 414
recognizing that there is more to me than I have known. I did the best I knew how 415
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at that time. And he went back and he in essence took a look at the Harry he had 416
been dragging, which was my friends went off and sacrificed. I didn't go and 417
sacrifice. But he went back to the moment when he made the decision to be a 418
conscientious objector and he knew that at that moment he really was doing what 419
he thought was right. It isn't that he didn't want to serve his country. He just 420
didn't want to be involved in physical violence causing harm to someone else. He 421
really believed that. He began to repattern his understanding about that Harry 422
he'd been dragging all those years. He said so how am I going to break free from 423
this? How do I step into a state of really feeling my own deserving? 424
425
So he began to notice that he had some invitations to be in service and Scott 426
discovered that the more he was in service the better he felt about himself. He 427
had always felt better when he was giving because he had seen that while he 428
wanted to be a conscientious objector, again he never meant that he didn't want 429
to serve his country. He just didn't know how. So he had been doing service work 430
off and on throughout the years. He was president of a contractor’s organization 431
and he said that when he received that title he prayed 'Under my presidency let 432
me do something that is significant for my community.' He said within a week 433
someone called him and told him about a group of Vietnam veterans who wanted 434
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to build a Vietnam memorial to the vets in Oregon who had lost their lives. The 435
group didn't have much money and was looking for someone to help. There was a 436
lot of construction and paving of the road that would be needed and could Scott's 437
group help? Scott said could it have been more of a divine fit in answer to his 438
silent prayer asking the universe to support him in building a deeper believing in 439
himself that he would also do something good for the community? It just seemed 440
like such a terrific fit for him. So he became a spokesperson to the other 441
contractors about giving time and talent and resources and dollars to this project. 442
443
And under Scott's presidency the Vietnam War memorial was built for the State 444
of Oregon. As it was nearing completion Scott knew that he needed to do one 445
more thing so he gathered with a group of the vets who were planning the 446
dedication. They were celebrating Scott and saying what a great guy he was. 447
Slapping him on the back, saying 'You know, we are so grateful for you!' and he 448
said he just felt this lump coming up in his throat and he knew that he had to 449
speak. So he said 'I need to tell you my story.' And he went ahead and he told the 450
others gathered who were all Vietnam vets, some without limbs, many who had 451
lost friends and buddies during the war. 'It has such a burden that I have carried. 452
I have not found a way to contribute and I wanted to honor the way you did 453
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contribute, which was right for you and I still wanted to find a way to contribute 454
myself.' He said that he expected perhaps rejection or disdain from some of them 455
but that is not at all what he got. What he received was acceptance and through 456
many, many tears that were shared that day he said it was a true cleansing for 457
him. On the day of the dedication, Scott said that he stood there and he realized 458
that he had asked for a way to heal his past. The universe had responded equally 459
with a wondrous way that he could use his skills and talents to give back and this 460
was an authentic new deeper understanding of Scott's true deserving that came 461
out of his decision that he wanted to have that. 462
463
So no matter what your Harry is. No matter how heavy the burden you carry or 464
that says you don't deserve, for Scott is was guilt over the war, for Brad it was 465
rage over the way he had been raised, for Carla the cruelty of a nun. You too can 466
set that weight down and you can discover the truth about yourself. So as you are 467
thinking about this right now, and I don't know what your particular Harry is but 468
I know you've got one, we all have things that we carry from the past. You don't 469
set Harry down just once. Whatever that Harry is down and then thoughts of that 470
will come back again. You set it down again and again and again. And that's a 471
practice. But you will find over time that the less you carry Harry, even when you 472
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are tempted to pick him up again you recognize that--you know, first you are 473
carrying him all day long then you realize you've carried him a half a day, then 474
you realize you may have carried him an hour and then there's the moment when 475
you reach down to pick up Harry and you say no. I am no longer carrying that. 476
This no longer has anything to do with me. It's historic, it's informative. I will 477
take the information and the learning but I am not carrying the weight anymore. 478
479
There is a presence and power that is present in this universe. It is seeking ever 480
freer, fuller expanded life everywhere present in the universe. It is life itself. 481
Something wonderful is happening with you right now. It is this thing called life. 482
It's seeking ever freer, fuller expanded expression. It will work in you, through 483
you and as you if you allow it. We can deepen our sense of deserving, every one of 484
us, by letting Harry go. Setting Harry down. Harry is our dead weight. The part of 485
ourselves that we have long since needed to discard. So we may be lugging 486
around the notion that we are not lovable, dragging limiting ideas like it never 487
works out for me or whatever those are, but when you are weighted by excess 488
baggage you haven't the energy to carry to greater possibilities. So don't allow 489
Harry to control your life. You deserve better. 490
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So here's an exercise I want you to do to help you unload Harry. You are going to 492
pick up your workbook. You are going to play with some titles. Now we tend to 493
think that some of the titles we've carried are permanent, but the truth is all kinds 494
of things change when we change our idea, just as the parents when they changed 495
their idea oh it's not this, it's that. All of the experience of that email shifted. Now 496
imagine some of the old titles. You've read about failed politician, Winston 497
Churchill. That was a printing. It was a headline. Failed Politician Winston 498
Churchill. Bing Crosby was told he was way too off tune to ever have a success as 499
a singer. There was disco child, John Travolta. You know, every person who has 500
evolved has discarded some of their old titles, and the truth is no title is 501
permanent. No title we give ourselves or anyone else represents the totality of 502
that individual and you can shed any title you want to. 503
504
So in your workbook you are going to make a list of old dead weight titles that 505
you've carried about yourself on the left side of the column of your workbook. 506
Things you once believed about yourself, possible titles that you might have at 507
one point held on to or carried or someone else gave you. And then you will 508
notice in your workbook that you are invited to, called to write some new titles 509
that are coherent, that are compassionate, that are authentic, that are true in 510
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terms of you being the person who can deliver and experience and express the 511
dream you are calling forth. 512
513
I have in my left hand column, teen mom. I have in that column--and it isn't that 514
it isn't true. I was a teen mom. But my energy on that being a negative title, I put 515
it there because at one time that was shameful to me. Now I feel positive about 516
that now and so I put it in my right column. You can have even some titles in both 517
columns. But the important thing is that columns that are no longer true for you, 518
that are dead weight, that are limiting put them in your left column and then 519
redesign some titles that are coherent with what you are creating and what you 520
want to be and what is really authentically true about you. Begin to define 521
yourself, design yourself, refine yourself according to ideas that create the image 522
of yourself as the person you are really here to be. 523