ABC of Emotions

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ABC of EMOTIONS

50 poems of hearts and feelings

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ABC of Emotions

A Amour

B Bliss

C Chagrin

D Doubt

E Ecstasy

F Fear

G Glum

H Hope

I Indifference


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AAMOUR

Oxford Dictionary

/ moor/

noun a lover or love affair.

ORIGIN Old French, from Latin amorlove.


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THANK YOU

You melt my heart

When I was stone

You open my eyes

When I was blindfold

You gave me wings

Now I can fly

You gave meanings

When I look at the sky

Thank You


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DEMETER OF PERSEPHONE

nay hades not for ye

glass of sand wounded me never

nay demeter pull ye not

for persephone shall resurface

for thy spirit is theseus

by the axe thee slew periphetes

thrown sciron into the cliff of the turtle

parted procustes from the limbs

say not medea of forked tongues

black ship shall sail to crete

beast of minos fell by the horn

dare not dionysus lay the claim

for aradne thy crown to retain


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CARVING THE GORGE

scrapes of stones

granites my ozone

the molten chunk

solidified and hardened

yet breath of willow

breezes whispers of soul

no longer spilling the spell

but chiseled, are the walls

and the name that lingers

now carved onto the gorge

forever, it will stay there...


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LIFE IS LIFE

Of the bed of roses

Where the buds wither before they bloom

Life is life

Of the light of stars

Where the ray eclipses into the vacuum

Life is life

Of the comfort of sleepers

Where the tremor shakes solitary room

Life is life

From the top of the mountains

And from the depth of the oceans

From there...

Life...

Is still life

Those wandered lost in the cave

And those triumphed out from the maze

For them...

Life...

Is still life


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When the sky is so blue

Or when it is the gloomiest hue

Yes, even those times

Life is still life


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SHICHI

Sprouting in the ground

Away from the peeping eye

Survival on the scarlet soil

Then in the mother's womb

Sense and sensation

Tangerine of imagination

Always in the sun vessel

Smug by the strength

Sunset by the endurance

And in the beating lump

Spreading the joy from above

Forest that glue every turfs

Up in the gullet

Exchanging the meanings

Ocean whom continents it links

Don't forget the veiled iris

Spear of the mystics

Woad to help you seek


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The zenith of the wisdom

Controlling everything below

At the end of the rainbow


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I'D RATHER SLUMBER

I'd rather slumber

Than seeking it forever

I'd rather lay down

Than holding to what's gone

I'd rather sip the breeze

Than charging back to mist

I'd rather slumber

Stepping the past error

I'd rather lay down

Not turning around

I'd rather sip the breeze

There's nothing that I miss


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ESCALATION

Escalation to the high mist

To the majestic burning balls

Beyond the oval spiral path

Existed from smokes and dust

Gliding through septa arcs

Of septa shines and septa lights

Feeling the septa vibration

Soothing the septa vision

Elevation to the rabbit rock

A mirror knows no stop

Never blind ever so gleaming

Smoothen the dark by the glint

Sailing through the whisper of life

Whispering the joy at your rise

Whisper that caress a bruised heart

As it whispers all day and night


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SCENT

The lingering around

Keeping me abound

Only the fragrance

No light nor sound

Your presence in scent

Binding my momentary stance

Freezing in the astound

You're alive in remembrance


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AS LONG AS...

As long as there is a dream

I'll draw a fantasy into life

As long as there is a seed

I'll grow a bark into forest

As long as there is a rainbow

I'll shine a prism into mirage

As long as there is a stone

I'll carve a boulder into monument

As long as there is a droplet

I'll stream a drip into lagoon

As long as there is a mist

I'll weave a cloud into canopy

As long as...

I surely will...


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EMPTYING THE BUCKET

The wild beast in the white cage

scratching the claws on the red soil

howling for freedom

roaring to wander

to fly towards the brightest sun

And wailing wind blew past

ripping apart the pearly bars

behold! the beast is out

let it rove the dream land

the land that it desired

And so the dam became empty

and the drums stopped beating

yet the world seemed so full

and so beautiful

the bucket is emptied

the burden is lifted...

I kissed the ground

and stared at the sun

one day, I'll be there


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CCHAGRIN

Oxford Dictionary

/sh grin/

noun annoyance or shame at having failed.

verb (be chagrined) feel annoyed or ashamed.

ORIGIN French, rough skin, shagreen.


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TRUTH HURTS BUT LIES KILL

Give me a good news to smile

Give me truth not seamed with a lie

Give me something that I can rely

Give me the stars, not the firefly

Hand me a cup of kindness and care

Hand me on a plate that I can bear

Hand me the answer to this nightmare

Hand me the portion that I share

Tell me what's wrong with this picture

Tell me why black just became blacker

Tell me what crushed the amber

Tell me why I suffocate in my chamber

Deceive gives no comfort

But spread the ill

Truth might hurt

But lies will kill


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WASN'T IT ME

When you lost your light

And your world so dark

You were in sadness and fright

Wasn't it me who sat beside?

When you entered the wrong aisle

Joy now you knew it wasn't real

You were blinded which is vital

Wasn't it me that you strangled?

When you decided to live on lies

You inflicted pain lows and highs

Bleeding at the end of your very knives

Wasn't it me who still gave you smiles?

After all those pain and fear

Isn't it me who's still here?

And now you found your way forward

Isn't it me you just slaughtered?


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TO THE CONDOR

I lay my mat to the condor

Amidst chimes above my door

The tick is stopping, I would let go

I tie my shoe to yesterday's dream

Wiping the spill over the brim

Chasing it out by shriek and scream

I refuse to burden i refuse to hold

The stinking corpse was not my gold

The ugly past was never my mold

Bridge that burnt, raft that stormed

Twice shy, twice been wronged

Empty nests, lack of pigeons

So I lay my mat to the condor

Digging everything out to the flow

The ticking stopped, I'm letting go


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PRIORITY

Last to be picked

At the bottom of the stack

At the end of the queue

Something of no value

When it's here

You lifted and you threw

When it's gone

It won't bother you

Something of no value

It'd be too late to say

You cared all the way

When what you hold today

Out of your hand, far away

Last to be picked

At the bottom of the stack

At the end of the queue


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TRUSTING THE UNTRUSTED

I'd hide the corpse with canvas

And the wound with cloth

I'd wipe the tears with a curve

And say everything is alright

I'd wear the mask to hide my face

And my black swollen eyes

I'd stay lost in this maze

And find my way in the starlight

I'd carry this pain with me

And bear it to infinity

I'd burden all the hurt within

And holding on left and right

I'd try to put my trust in you

And crying as I do

I'd try finding loyalty in untrusted you

And hoping for miraculous sight

Trusting you...

Trusting the Untrusted...


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THROW ME AWAY

Did I tell you how you make me feel?

Like an old toy floating in the sea

While the wave pushes me further adrift

Into what seems like an eternity

Waiting for someone who needs company

This game is something I failed to see

When I chose where I wanted to be

Now I don't know what is real

When you stay or when you flee

You giggle, you laugh cheerfully

I opened my eyes I saw solitary

Around me I can't see your glee

Do you really think that you own me?

Did you think that when you...

You pick me up

You throw me me away

We could fight as much as we may

You pick me up

You throw me away

We'll just make up another day

You picked me and now you throw me...

Away...


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Did I tell you what you make me think?

Like an old toy stench and stink

An eyesore even to a blink

Waiting for the end of this hellish dream

The bore in my chest that you reamed

And you called it one of my stint

Closing your lid to this bleeding

It's spilling along the brim

When you turn and you grin

Plugged off from my scream

Yesterday you healed the wound clean

And now you jab another sting

You own me, is that what you think?

Did you think that when you...

You pick me up

You throw me me away

We could fight as much as we may

You pick me up

You throw me away

We'll just make up another day

You picked me and now you throw me...

Away...


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OUT IN THE FIELD

Out in the field

The ground ain't flat

Squeezing my every will

Fell on my back

Oh so gray this field

The ground where I step

Often that I kneel

Again I get up back

Why this scorching field

As the sun be my hat

Dreams seem so real

Yet truth still in wrap


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THE MORSE OF REMORSE

In the Morse of remorse

The boulders of gross

Grind my teeth

and clench my fist

Ain't no mountain ain't no range

Crust moves by the quaking drain

It ain't gonna stay, never!

The birds that flew

The wind that follow

Stunned and uncontrolled

Scarred, the hideous clot

Slur the curse

Dread to rehearse

One after one

Said and undone

Light that shone over the dawn

At dusk it will be gone

Barge of rust cut across

Web the flow drag the anchors

Grab and grip at the knot

Slick spit threading the rope

Vibrating air hitting the drums

Nothing but hollow rhymes!


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Sickening!

Ark that left the harbor

There's no wind but oak of row

That quest to the stone

To the mirror should be thrown

Like fire meets the gas

And citrus on open flesh

All around to disperse

Three sixty it scatters

Wiping clean nothing stay

Puff the phlegm into the haze

Back to the Morse

The Morse of remorse

!!!!


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AS THE SAND FALL

As the sand fall into the bottom glass

As the grain fills the cavity with mass

I am tending to my own wound, unrest

But every second is a new hurt

Every moment I'm hitting the dirt

For the feeling you refuse to convey

For the words you refuse to say

As the sand fall like a high torrent

As the grain reminds me of my torment

I am tending to my own wound, lament

But every second is a new stump

Every moment I'm numbing the lump

For the feeling you refuse to convey

For the words you refuse to say


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LIKE AN ARROW

like an arrow

not a boomerang


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DISPLEASED CHAMELEON

Why am I red

when I'm out in the field?

Why am I blue

when I'm clinging in the forest?

Why am I green

when I'm swimming in the sea?

Layered pigment betrayed me

Gleeful iris tricked me

Gland of mucous lied to me

A displeased chameleon


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THUS WHY DECEIVE?

How simple it is to make believe

Yet there is no relieve

When you are bereaved

The very end to achieve

All the tricks up your sleeve

When in the moment of breve

The truth is there to retrieve

But sadly in that grieve

By the darkest of the eve

That what you perceive

Only the shortest of reprieve

How can it be so naive

Of the lies that are cleaved

They only paint to peeve

To those who receive


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BEACON OF NOWHERE

Trailing the beacon of nowhere

Disoriented by the broken hull

The light that must be somewhere

Turned out void

Offering null

The song of the gull

And rhythm of the sea

Was is all just a dream

Or is real

But ceased to be

By the sight of the beacon

By the sight of the land

By the sight of the hope

To end this strand of the beaten

To step onto where trust withstand

To knot by the end of the rope

The beam and its ambience

Forsaken the retreat to the silence

And the beacon of nowhere

Deceptively shines when eyes stare


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I DON'T KNOW

I don't know what should I say

I don't know what ticked me this way

I don't know what lead me astray

I don't know what made me stay

I don't know what did I see

I don't know what would I be

I don't know what came to me

I don't know what was the key

I don't know what turned me real

I don't know what was my deal

I don't know what froze me still

I don't know what spun my wheel

I don't know what sent me far

I don't know what split me ajar

I don't know what lighted my star

I don't know what bleed my scar

I don't know what did I know

I don't know what swung my row

I don't know what was this for


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I don't know what I did not know


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BY THE BRANCHES

Like mistletoe to the bare oak

Like water to the leaking boat

Like air to the null vacuum

Like light to the dark room

Like grass to the open field

Like shark to the juicy seal

Like bee to the nectarous bloom

Like germ to the open wound

Like dirt to the clean shoe

Like heat to the exposed dew

There are sure things in life

Less you tried to break the ice

To stand I have to rise

But I'm holding by the branches

Holding by the weaken branches...


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THE MAN IN THE MIRROR


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I looked into the mirror

and saw an old man I didn't know

lying on the floor

gasping for breath

I stared at the the face

"why is thy gloom?"

"hath thou bear trouble?"

he cried to me "save me please!"

I looked deeper into the mirror

and saw a kid on his knees

blood over his limbs

tears in his eyes

laughter from his lips

I stared at the face

"who art thou?"

he screamed at me "look at me!"

I closed my eyes

surrendered to the darkness

and wind back the continuum space

there were horns on my head

ringed with glittering halo

there were wings on my back

of fire and icicles


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I've ripped them off years ago

When I opened my eyes

I looked into the mirror

and saw myself, the 'me' that I know...


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EECSTASY

Oxford Dictionary

/ekst si/

noun (pl.ecstasies) 1 an overwhelming feeling of great happiness or joyful excitement. 2 an

emotional or religious frenzy or trancelike state. 3 (Ecstasy) an illegal amphetamine-based synthetic

drug with euphoric effects.

ORIGIN from Greekekstasis standing outside oneself.


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RAINBOW

Seven bridges in the sky

Seven arcs before the dry

Seven hues soothing the eye

Seven bridges that I see

Seven arcs all so real

Seven hues come to me

Seven bridges will you stay

Seven arcs the floating ray

Seven hues after the gray

Seven bridges at my dusk

Seven arcs always too scarce

Seven hues will not last

Seven bridges before the light

Seven arcs chase the dark

Seven hues close to my heart


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LIKE A CHILD

Tumbling blocks crushing blockades

Maze that washed to brown

O the scale shattered by the gates

Swapping dusk and dawn

Amplitude beneath the scarlet

Refract nowhere near the gold

Beyond threshold might be the maggot

Place the hope onto mast and row

I feel like a child...


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FFEAR

Oxford Dictionary

noun1 an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm. 2 the likelihood of

something unwelcome happening.

verb1 be afraid of. 2 (fear for) be anxious about. 3archaic regard (God) with reverence and awe.

PHRASESno fearBrit.informal used as an emphatic expression of denial or refusal. put the fear of

God in (orinto) make very frightened. without fear or favour impartially.

DERIVATIVESfearlessadjectivefearlesslyadverbfearlessnessnoun.

ORIGIN Old English, danger.


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THE THRONE

The throne of icicles

Cold spikes ups and downs

Void of heat

Vacuum of life

Who's the king of that crown?

Who's going to bear

The pain sans heir

When nightingale sings

And breeze of odor wind

Scent that lingering

When the owl scowl

And wolves howl

The stinks so foul

Then who's the king of that crown?

Who's going to suffer

Inflicted upon the throne


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SAN GUO


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remolcadores

tugs of dos estados

along tracked lunar circumferences

till the spoils are mountains

slipped in the wraith

of ghoulish wailing

sanguo...

inferno inside, flaming the cage

crown cracks spilling jewels

throne breaks in agony

while the veins bleed darkness

stand off in triangle

fueling the flame

sanguo...

a cloud reaching for the ray

of the sunshine

a land waiting for the rain

to give it life

a wind trying to breeze

for touches and kisses

whisper of battlecry over the hill


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sanguo...

had the limbs strayed to far

of the meant way of ajar

orion, show where they are

fumbled way below secure par

blinded to see the star

sanguo...


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TRACING THE WINDING TRAIL

How many years have it been?

since I scaled my will on this very path

carved my dream on this very heart

and heart of yours

your souls where I pay my tribute

and my debt of gratitude

How many years have it been, friends?

since we planted the seed

of the creeping shrub?

Here I am, out to trace

the long lost trail that we grazed

searching for the same willow

once I saw from my window

May along this road

I'll see the me, the very me

That I used to be


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THE WAR WITHIN

The war within

.rampaging through my veins

..gushes of blood pushing the strains

.cracking through my nerves

..spiking out like dark curses

.blinding all of my senses

..throwing my wits over the fences

The war within

.against my will

The war within

.is killing me


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GGLUM

Oxford Dictionary

adjective (glummer, glummest) dejected; morose.

DERIVATIVESglumlyadverb.

ORIGIN related to dialect glum to frown, variant ofGLOOM.
http://www.askoxford.com/concise_oed/gloomhttp://www.askoxford.com/concise_oed/gloom


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I KNOW...

I know its futile to try

I know I could never fly

Even if I'm the cloud giving rain

The desert will always return to dry

And I know its really useless

To end up feeling breathless

While denying the constant pain

Living life that is lifeless

I know the oceans are blue

Though I tried to paint it new

Drown again and again

In the wave of the same hue

Amidst the mirage I wander

Amidst the illusion truth asunder


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IN THE CUPBOARD

Hideous and disgusting

A secret tightly locked

Darker, even than nullified light

No eyes shall be rested on the face

No sense should catch the stench

No soul should know the existence

No mind should be allowed to ponder upon

Hideous and disgusting

Skeleton in the cupboard

Never shall you step outside

Hold on tight

Live with your might

With you, burdened the shame

Ripping through the name

Skeleton, inside the cupboard


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PINHEAD

Rewind the fabric

Peep at the burns

Ranges that were static

Between the flame turns

Dunce of a pinhead holding the lanterns

Anchor a moment while

In this new harbor

Nay, not for a smile

When lighted is the fire

Fool of a pinhead clinging in dire

Storm and the hail

Crushing green serenity

Sun of no avail

Cracked, seamed dignity

Dumb of a pinhead blinding reality


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HEADS

Gain will not that you think you own

Over the rail facades were shown

On the spikes of truth unknown

Disregarding the seeds yet not sown

_void

Bolstering the lance, flesh it bore

Yes, hexa-ritcher on the receptor

Elongating is no more


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FLAG OF THE CLOUD

I've swam across the torrents

I've jumped across the ravines

I've crawled across the woods

I've hiked across the mountains

So that I can touch the clouds

So I can weave the linings

So I can knot on my pole

So I can wave the flag


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THE GARGOYLE'S SEED


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As I'm watching...

yet the totem fell apart

into the red larva beneath

suffocated amidst the fumes

yet the larva settled at last

cultivate the new land

for a gargoyle to bury its seed

yet came shooting a strong bark

shades of leaves for rovers

breezes of wind for vagabonds

yet the flowered branches never bear

blooms withered, and peeking out again

nothing fell for the feed

yet new seeds pushing their way

through the petals and spores

only to die halfway

yet fruit of longing will not grow

for it was destined to sleep

or fall into the fire


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As I'm watching....


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OF ICARUS AND ATHENA

Oh the lump of beating flesh

What say you to this?

Why did you strayed off the willed path?

Didn't you hear the scream...

From the one behind the temple and eyes?

Oh the whites beyond forelock

What say you to this?

Why did you let go of the leashed dog?

Don't you remember the scream...

From the wounds behind the clock?

Let the swan glide in the grace

Crystal lake, like no other place

Let the crow me return to alleys

Filthy bins, where I live lowly

I am Icarus

Dreaming of Athena

Yet my wax feathers

Could never reach the sky


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HHOPE

Oxford Dictionary

noun1 a feeling of expectation and desire for something to happen. 2 a person or thing that gives

cause for hope.

verb1 expect and want something to happen. 2 intend if possible to do something.

PHRASEShope against hope cling to a mere possibility. hope springs eternal in the human

breastproverb it is human nature to always find fresh cause for optimism. not a (orsome) hopeinformal

no chance at all.

DERIVATIVEShopernoun.

ORIGIN Old English.


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1431

It's the beginning for things that begin

It's the ending for things that end

For some it's a dawn for a new morning

For others it's a dusk for the day that went

As for me, I want to start anew

For what I did that I'd rather not do

Not that I detest what I've been through

Only the changes are somewhere due

I'd like to step further on the ground

Letting go of the past I can be nothing but strong

For the principals I've been holding on

Might not be right but who determines what is wrong?

Like every wound time will heal

Nothing will change while standing still

Being resolute cementing my will

The sun is down it's time to seal

It's the beginning of something that begins

It's the end of something that ends


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LESSON

Someone's loss is some other's gain

Give a cat a diamond is an attempt in vain

But your leftovers will ease its pain

You saw the sand when you stepped upon

Someone might see glistening silicon

You can't see what you'd rely on

The stone that you threw away

Can be the one you crave someday

What you give you'd get back

But the card you put in the sack

Won't come back into the deck

Yesterday when you made a mistake

Is a lesson for you to take

Today is to be cautious

Before you lose another precious

If you walk the same path

You'll face the same wrath


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It's the simplest of life's math


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TRYING TO STAY AFLOAT


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Future seems like a myth

Trying to stay afloat


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NOTHING HAS CHANGED

Another hole dug

Inside the valley

Another rock blown

Onto the mountain

Another rain fell

Into the ocean

A mere hole...

It won't change the flowing river

A mere rock...

It won't stop the blowing wind

A mere rain...

It won't flood the stretching continent

And the river

Still streaming its torrent of hope

And the wind

Still whispering the breeze of joy

And the continent

Still containing the life of dream

And nothing has changed


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FOUNDRY

So I ponder

Which crossings diverted the sight

Which stones marked with illusion

Which presumptions blinded the sense

And I turn

Looking back over the hills

Peeking beyond the cliffs

Sighting over the oceans

Yet I see

What was a chainmail now mere cotton

What was a ladder now mere string

What was a musket now mere marble

Then I resolute

To stand where the line started

To crouch where the prints smeared

To run where the gun blew

Let me lend a hand

To erase the fear and doubts

To smudge the indecisive roots


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To firm the hidden blooms

Instilling confidence in tomorrow


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THE SUN SHINES THROUGH

Piece by piece,

I cracked them open

Bits by bits

I chipped them stones

come wide, come tall

faith is my forte

the darkest of the wall

is nothing but rigid clay

piece by piece

and bits by bits

grit my teeth

clench my fists

let everything cracks open

chipped into stones

let the sun shines through

and the sun will shine through


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JUST ANOTHER MOUNTAIN

Hey look!

A new mountain to pass

standing in my way

like the ones I climbed before

So spread the news to my limbs

tell the hands to powder the grip

and the legs to steel the feet

Because here we are

at the feet of rockiest mountain

yet larger, and yet steeper

unlike any other

And tell the spine, the guts and the thighs

tell them don't be afraid to die

No matter what turbulent or pain

it is just another mountain


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IINDIFFERENT

Oxford Dictionary

adjective1 having no particular interest or sympathy; unconcerned. 2 not particularly good;

mediocre.

DERIVATIVESindifferencenounindifferentlyadverb.

ORIGIN Latin, making no difference.


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MONOTONOUS WORLD

Simmer in the summer

Rays those I wander

Split one and all

In this monotonous world

Cicadas in my head

Pulsing breath vaporing red

Lift the chin to stand stall


At the crossroad stood freezing

Dice in fist tightly gripping

Granite that was pearl



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THINGS LEFT BEHIND

Mountains those climbed

Rocks those scaled

And cliffs those fell from

Are rivers those dammed

Forests those bared

Flats those dug

Those things left behind

Shrapnels of broken words

Truth like summer blossoms

Betrayal in the crimson spills

Are things left behind

Once left the bow

Flint head soaring through

And feathers that follow

No turning, neither twisting

Forward is the only motion

Those things left behind

Distant curses behind the curtain

Carcasses in the tunnel

Puppeteer smiled behind the mask


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Are things left behind


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WHAT YOU SEE WHAT YOU SAW

What you see

Is swelling within me

What you saw

Left me in awe

If what you see

Is what should it be

If what you saw

Diverted all in all

Then what you see

Is the towering tree

Then what you saw

The seed when its raw

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