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A P E R S O N A L A N D
T H E O L O G I C A L M E M O I R
A Change of Heart
Thomas C Oden
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Oden Tomas C
A change of heart a personal and theological memoir Tomas C
Oden
pages cm
Includes bibliographical references and index
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ContentsPreace 983097
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Prairie Dawn
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A World at War 983091 he 983089983097983093983088s 983091983097
Love and Learning
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he Church of Whatrsquos Happening Now
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he U-urn
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Charting the Course
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he Outpouring of Grace
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A ime of Harvest
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After Eight Decades
Acknowledgments 983091983091983093
Writings by homas C Oden 983091983091983095
Notes 983091983092983089Index o Names and Institutions 983091983096983089
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Preface
All school work came to a halt when every kid in my third grade class
went out to the cotton fields during harvest time A aded yellow school
bus took us a ew miles out o town to ldquopull bollsrdquo We sang and laughed
at the thought o briefly escaping rom the classroom
I dragged a long white denim sack my grandmother had made or me
It had a harness to loop over my shoulder which allowed me to pull itthrough the long rows o cotton as I stripped the cotton fibers rom their
shell Te barbed husk o the boll was there to protect the sof cotton
fibers I was pulling out Te trick was to get the cotton out without
getting our hands bloody rom the sharp edges o the cotton husks
A single row o cotton was a quarter mile long and took a long time
to work but row afer row we worked as ast as we could We competed
to see how many pounds o cotton we could pull in a single day Ten wedragged those long heavy sacks ull o cotton to one o the Ford Model
trucks where it was weighed and soon taken to the cotton gin An
overseer supervised the weighing and we were paid cash immediately
For a third grader it was the most money I had ever had in my pocket
Tough exhausted I also elt like I had accomplished something big1
Ten there was baseball It was the sweet spot o my lie Maybe it was
because Mickey Mantle and I were born on the same day and year in
Oklahoma but I have always been captivated by the game o baseball
Whenever Mantle and Joe DiMaggio were on the same field my ear was
glued to the radio
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I kept up with the St Louis Cardinals when Dizzy Dean was pitching
Enos Slaughter was hitting over 104862710486241048624 and Johnny Mize was breaking
records or home runs I always thought o baseball as the perect game
It contains the exact combination o distances and speeds to make a
competition both air and unpredictable Even today I still love watching
the story o a game unold with all o its maneuvering and strategizing
I was blessed by baseball but more so blessed by a grandmother who
prayed or me every day even though I did not pay much attention to all
o her prayers I always knew that she and God would be there or me In
her own way she led me to believe that sooner or later I would get some
hint rom God about doing something I could do that really needed to
be done She planted seeds o belie in me which let me trust that provi-
dence was at work in my lie and that our ree choices are being en-
couraged by Godrsquos grace
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part one
Early Years
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1
The 1930s
Prairie Dawn
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Jackson County Te flat land made me aware o the big sky From the
top o the water tower you can see or miles My childhood was spent in
a small town in the short grass country o Oklahoma Te town o Altussits in the middle o windy wheat fields and silently grazing cattle
Nearby are ancient granite mountains in the distance that turn purple
in the late evening sun Te Navajo Mountains are about six miles away
to the east and the Quartz Mountains fifeen miles to the north Te
Oklahoma red granite mined there is the oldest and finest anywhere
Beore statehood this was ertile grazing land or nomadic Native
American tribes like the Comanche and Wichita who once roamedthese plains looking or buffalo Finding and collecting arrowheads was
my first venture into the world o discovering that ancient hidden world
I elt the privilege o holding a bit o history in my hand
During the rontier years rom 1048625104863210486301048630 until statehood in 1048625104863310486241048631 six
million Longhorn cattle rambled through our county grazing on prairie
grasses all the way rom Abilene exas to Abilene Kansas on the Old
Western rail Our amily acquired the deed to some property that
touches the slopes o one o the Navajo Mountains where the North
Fork o the Red River meanders south as i it were looking or exas It
became a place or amily retreat natural wonder conservation and
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exploration or turtles wildflowers and an occasional porcupine
Altus was as ar rom the centers o power as you could get in
Oklahoma hidden away in the extreme southwestern corner o the state
Te dirt roads in the county were ofen impassable afer the prairie thunder-
storms Afer World War II a ew were asphalted Many nearby towns
that were once thriving have virtually disappeared Only a ew lonely
remains o armhouses still stand Many rural churches and schools have
almost vanished as well and some are used or barns or storage
Everything in Altus was within walking distance It was an eight-block
walk to get a haircut downtown and a three-block walk to the park
tennis courts and high school Beyond that was a sea o wheat fields and
cattle ranches
No one amous or wealthy lived in my hometown Tey were armers
laborers and small-town olk Lie was not easy but the love we had in
our amily elt like all we needed We did not think o ourselves as re-
stricted or lef behind Tis was the center o the world so ar as I was
concerned We lacked nothing essentialEveryone knew that i they were going to make something o their
lives they would have to do it or themselves No one attributed success
or ailure to a personrsquos environment or external causes Tey assumed
that most outcomes were due to the effort o the person or lack o it I
someone messed up we would more likely ponder how a hurtul habit
might be a lesson or us to avoid
A ldquocan dordquo spirit was what most clearly characterized that independentand confident small town But the lack o rain and an abundance o dust
depleted arm incomes Tat led to many homeless men on the move
looking or odd jobs Strong and good men on the road to somewhere
would knock on our door needing ood but they were always willing to
work or it Even though they were on the move all we needed to know
was that they were persons who had allen on hard times and were hungry
We never turned any o them away My mother would always find some-thing to eed them usually what we would be eating that day
Tey were not asking or anything more than lefovers or a cup o
coffee or a ew crackers or bread I never remember them asking or
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money probably because there was almost no money circulating Ofen
business exchanges occurred by bartering goods or services Mom ofen
reminded me that each one o those people in need was made in Godrsquos
image Tey were people portrayed in the movies as hobos but we never
used that word I knew they were hardworking people who couldnrsquot pay
their mortgages and had to leave good arms as the banks were ore-
closing on them and disrupting long-laid plans
Dust storms were a regular part o my childhood I can still smell and
eel the looming approach o a thousand oot high wall o heavy gray
dust rolling in unexpectedly We would all run inside to try to seal the
windows with newspapers we attached by pins and masking tape to keep
as much dust as possible out o the house
We conserved and reused everything In that sense most everyone in
our town would have been considered ecologically minded by necessity
but without any ancy words We carved many o our own toys When
the rubber on the slingshot broke I would look or an old inner tube and
a tree branch to start over and make a new oneDad purchased a set o small leather-bound books containing the
shortened versions o classics such as Hamlet Rousseau and the ballads
o Robert Burns One o them was Emersonrsquos Self-Reliance I read it at an
early age maybe ten Because o Emersonrsquos book sel-reliance became a
key aspiration in my search or character
Despite everything I considered Cypress Street the worldrsquos best place
to be Still do We were on no main route and seldom locked our doorsI saw pictures in the newspapers o soup lines in the cities We much
preerred to be in dust-coated Oklahoma than in a Chicago ood relie
line or a crowded Hooverville camp in Caliornia
Te gentle warmth of family Almost every kid on my street came
rom a close-knit amily at a time when amily meant everything My
amilyrsquos small red brick steep-rooed English cottage had two bedrooms
but to us it always seemed to have plenty o space or everyone We hadhideaway olding beds or visitors and amily On holidays the house
could sleep as many as seventeen Tat was good because we had an
extended amily that stretched rom ippecanoe County Indiana to Las
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Cruces New Mexico I was among the youngest near the bottom o the
pecking order so I was ofen consigned to ldquosleeping at the oot o the
bedrdquo I was always happy to be a small kid in a large amily
My small world was my big amily My identity stemmed out o theirs
and I wouldnrsquot have been me without them I remember my childhood
much like William Butler Yeats described himsel in his early days in
Sligo as ldquoa boy with never a crack in my heartrdquo I elt complete as a child
lacking nothing important And I learned that delayed gratification was
part o every worthy endeavor
Growing up I was intrigued by the stories told around our fireplace
about my grandmotherrsquos grandather Elijah Walker who was the first
merchant to set up a small trading post in Northern Alabama to buy and
sell oods tools and goods among the Creek Indians Even more exciting
were Civil War stories about my great-grandather John C Oden whose
military record shows he was captured our times in battles that ranged
all the way rom Richmond to Natchez Each timemdasheither by release or
escapemdashhe returned to his own unit led by Colonel Tomas Bluett aferwhom my grandather was named and later I was named
My grandmother Sallie Elisa Walker rode into Arkansas on a Con-
estoga wagon Just afer the Civil War while she was still a young girl her
pioneer ather Andrew Jackson Walker gathered up his growing amily
rom around alladega Alabama and set out or the West where they
hoped to mine or gold or find tillable land
Afer several days on the road as the wagon pulled up to the erry onthe ombigbee River there was a horrible accident When the wagon
tipped Salliersquos brother Tad ell off and was crushed by the wagon wheel
Grieving the amily stopped to mourn and bury their little boy Sallie
did the only thing she could do she climbed back in the wagon and with
her heartbroken amily headed due west on the rough roads toward
Little Rock
From there they headed south to Clark County where some o theirAlabama riends and amily had settled In November o 1048625104863210486311048630 they ar-
rived at the village o Amity or what they thought would be a short stop
Heavy snows began to all and they could not continue Tey stayed in
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Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
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Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
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A change of heart a personal and theological memoir Tomas C
Oden
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Includes bibliographical references and index
ISBN 983097983095983096-983088-983096983091983088983096-983092983088983091983093-983097 (pbk alk paper)
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ContentsPreace 983097
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Prairie Dawn
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A World at War 983091 he 983089983097983093983088s 983091983097
Love and Learning
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he Church of Whatrsquos Happening Now
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he U-urn
983094 he 983089983097983096983088s 983089983095983097
Charting the Course
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he Outpouring of Grace
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A ime of Harvest
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After Eight Decades
Acknowledgments 983091983091983093
Writings by homas C Oden 983091983091983095
Notes 983091983092983089Index o Names and Institutions 983091983096983089
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Preface
All school work came to a halt when every kid in my third grade class
went out to the cotton fields during harvest time A aded yellow school
bus took us a ew miles out o town to ldquopull bollsrdquo We sang and laughed
at the thought o briefly escaping rom the classroom
I dragged a long white denim sack my grandmother had made or me
It had a harness to loop over my shoulder which allowed me to pull itthrough the long rows o cotton as I stripped the cotton fibers rom their
shell Te barbed husk o the boll was there to protect the sof cotton
fibers I was pulling out Te trick was to get the cotton out without
getting our hands bloody rom the sharp edges o the cotton husks
A single row o cotton was a quarter mile long and took a long time
to work but row afer row we worked as ast as we could We competed
to see how many pounds o cotton we could pull in a single day Ten wedragged those long heavy sacks ull o cotton to one o the Ford Model
trucks where it was weighed and soon taken to the cotton gin An
overseer supervised the weighing and we were paid cash immediately
For a third grader it was the most money I had ever had in my pocket
Tough exhausted I also elt like I had accomplished something big1
Ten there was baseball It was the sweet spot o my lie Maybe it was
because Mickey Mantle and I were born on the same day and year in
Oklahoma but I have always been captivated by the game o baseball
Whenever Mantle and Joe DiMaggio were on the same field my ear was
glued to the radio
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I kept up with the St Louis Cardinals when Dizzy Dean was pitching
Enos Slaughter was hitting over 104862710486241048624 and Johnny Mize was breaking
records or home runs I always thought o baseball as the perect game
It contains the exact combination o distances and speeds to make a
competition both air and unpredictable Even today I still love watching
the story o a game unold with all o its maneuvering and strategizing
I was blessed by baseball but more so blessed by a grandmother who
prayed or me every day even though I did not pay much attention to all
o her prayers I always knew that she and God would be there or me In
her own way she led me to believe that sooner or later I would get some
hint rom God about doing something I could do that really needed to
be done She planted seeds o belie in me which let me trust that provi-
dence was at work in my lie and that our ree choices are being en-
couraged by Godrsquos grace
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part one
Early Years
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1
The 1930s
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Jackson County Te flat land made me aware o the big sky From the
top o the water tower you can see or miles My childhood was spent in
a small town in the short grass country o Oklahoma Te town o Altussits in the middle o windy wheat fields and silently grazing cattle
Nearby are ancient granite mountains in the distance that turn purple
in the late evening sun Te Navajo Mountains are about six miles away
to the east and the Quartz Mountains fifeen miles to the north Te
Oklahoma red granite mined there is the oldest and finest anywhere
Beore statehood this was ertile grazing land or nomadic Native
American tribes like the Comanche and Wichita who once roamedthese plains looking or buffalo Finding and collecting arrowheads was
my first venture into the world o discovering that ancient hidden world
I elt the privilege o holding a bit o history in my hand
During the rontier years rom 1048625104863210486301048630 until statehood in 1048625104863310486241048631 six
million Longhorn cattle rambled through our county grazing on prairie
grasses all the way rom Abilene exas to Abilene Kansas on the Old
Western rail Our amily acquired the deed to some property that
touches the slopes o one o the Navajo Mountains where the North
Fork o the Red River meanders south as i it were looking or exas It
became a place or amily retreat natural wonder conservation and
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exploration or turtles wildflowers and an occasional porcupine
Altus was as ar rom the centers o power as you could get in
Oklahoma hidden away in the extreme southwestern corner o the state
Te dirt roads in the county were ofen impassable afer the prairie thunder-
storms Afer World War II a ew were asphalted Many nearby towns
that were once thriving have virtually disappeared Only a ew lonely
remains o armhouses still stand Many rural churches and schools have
almost vanished as well and some are used or barns or storage
Everything in Altus was within walking distance It was an eight-block
walk to get a haircut downtown and a three-block walk to the park
tennis courts and high school Beyond that was a sea o wheat fields and
cattle ranches
No one amous or wealthy lived in my hometown Tey were armers
laborers and small-town olk Lie was not easy but the love we had in
our amily elt like all we needed We did not think o ourselves as re-
stricted or lef behind Tis was the center o the world so ar as I was
concerned We lacked nothing essentialEveryone knew that i they were going to make something o their
lives they would have to do it or themselves No one attributed success
or ailure to a personrsquos environment or external causes Tey assumed
that most outcomes were due to the effort o the person or lack o it I
someone messed up we would more likely ponder how a hurtul habit
might be a lesson or us to avoid
A ldquocan dordquo spirit was what most clearly characterized that independentand confident small town But the lack o rain and an abundance o dust
depleted arm incomes Tat led to many homeless men on the move
looking or odd jobs Strong and good men on the road to somewhere
would knock on our door needing ood but they were always willing to
work or it Even though they were on the move all we needed to know
was that they were persons who had allen on hard times and were hungry
We never turned any o them away My mother would always find some-thing to eed them usually what we would be eating that day
Tey were not asking or anything more than lefovers or a cup o
coffee or a ew crackers or bread I never remember them asking or
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money probably because there was almost no money circulating Ofen
business exchanges occurred by bartering goods or services Mom ofen
reminded me that each one o those people in need was made in Godrsquos
image Tey were people portrayed in the movies as hobos but we never
used that word I knew they were hardworking people who couldnrsquot pay
their mortgages and had to leave good arms as the banks were ore-
closing on them and disrupting long-laid plans
Dust storms were a regular part o my childhood I can still smell and
eel the looming approach o a thousand oot high wall o heavy gray
dust rolling in unexpectedly We would all run inside to try to seal the
windows with newspapers we attached by pins and masking tape to keep
as much dust as possible out o the house
We conserved and reused everything In that sense most everyone in
our town would have been considered ecologically minded by necessity
but without any ancy words We carved many o our own toys When
the rubber on the slingshot broke I would look or an old inner tube and
a tree branch to start over and make a new oneDad purchased a set o small leather-bound books containing the
shortened versions o classics such as Hamlet Rousseau and the ballads
o Robert Burns One o them was Emersonrsquos Self-Reliance I read it at an
early age maybe ten Because o Emersonrsquos book sel-reliance became a
key aspiration in my search or character
Despite everything I considered Cypress Street the worldrsquos best place
to be Still do We were on no main route and seldom locked our doorsI saw pictures in the newspapers o soup lines in the cities We much
preerred to be in dust-coated Oklahoma than in a Chicago ood relie
line or a crowded Hooverville camp in Caliornia
Te gentle warmth of family Almost every kid on my street came
rom a close-knit amily at a time when amily meant everything My
amilyrsquos small red brick steep-rooed English cottage had two bedrooms
but to us it always seemed to have plenty o space or everyone We hadhideaway olding beds or visitors and amily On holidays the house
could sleep as many as seventeen Tat was good because we had an
extended amily that stretched rom ippecanoe County Indiana to Las
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Cruces New Mexico I was among the youngest near the bottom o the
pecking order so I was ofen consigned to ldquosleeping at the oot o the
bedrdquo I was always happy to be a small kid in a large amily
My small world was my big amily My identity stemmed out o theirs
and I wouldnrsquot have been me without them I remember my childhood
much like William Butler Yeats described himsel in his early days in
Sligo as ldquoa boy with never a crack in my heartrdquo I elt complete as a child
lacking nothing important And I learned that delayed gratification was
part o every worthy endeavor
Growing up I was intrigued by the stories told around our fireplace
about my grandmotherrsquos grandather Elijah Walker who was the first
merchant to set up a small trading post in Northern Alabama to buy and
sell oods tools and goods among the Creek Indians Even more exciting
were Civil War stories about my great-grandather John C Oden whose
military record shows he was captured our times in battles that ranged
all the way rom Richmond to Natchez Each timemdasheither by release or
escapemdashhe returned to his own unit led by Colonel Tomas Bluett aferwhom my grandather was named and later I was named
My grandmother Sallie Elisa Walker rode into Arkansas on a Con-
estoga wagon Just afer the Civil War while she was still a young girl her
pioneer ather Andrew Jackson Walker gathered up his growing amily
rom around alladega Alabama and set out or the West where they
hoped to mine or gold or find tillable land
Afer several days on the road as the wagon pulled up to the erry onthe ombigbee River there was a horrible accident When the wagon
tipped Salliersquos brother Tad ell off and was crushed by the wagon wheel
Grieving the amily stopped to mourn and bury their little boy Sallie
did the only thing she could do she climbed back in the wagon and with
her heartbroken amily headed due west on the rough roads toward
Little Rock
From there they headed south to Clark County where some o theirAlabama riends and amily had settled In November o 1048625104863210486311048630 they ar-
rived at the village o Amity or what they thought would be a short stop
Heavy snows began to all and they could not continue Tey stayed in
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Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
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Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
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Oden Tomas C
A change of heart a personal and theological memoir Tomas C
Oden
pages cm
Includes bibliographical references and index
ISBN 983097983095983096-983088-983096983091983088983096-983092983088983091983093-983097 (pbk alk paper)
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ContentsPreace 983097
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Prairie Dawn
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A World at War 983091 he 983089983097983093983088s 983091983097
Love and Learning
983092 he 983089983097983094983088s 983095983093
he Church of Whatrsquos Happening Now
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he U-urn
983094 he 983089983097983096983088s 983089983095983097
Charting the Course
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he Outpouring of Grace
983096 he 983090983088983088983088s 983090983095983097
A ime of Harvest
983097 he 983090983088983089983088s 983091983090983093
After Eight Decades
Acknowledgments 983091983091983093
Writings by homas C Oden 983091983091983095
Notes 983091983092983089Index o Names and Institutions 983091983096983089
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Preface
All school work came to a halt when every kid in my third grade class
went out to the cotton fields during harvest time A aded yellow school
bus took us a ew miles out o town to ldquopull bollsrdquo We sang and laughed
at the thought o briefly escaping rom the classroom
I dragged a long white denim sack my grandmother had made or me
It had a harness to loop over my shoulder which allowed me to pull itthrough the long rows o cotton as I stripped the cotton fibers rom their
shell Te barbed husk o the boll was there to protect the sof cotton
fibers I was pulling out Te trick was to get the cotton out without
getting our hands bloody rom the sharp edges o the cotton husks
A single row o cotton was a quarter mile long and took a long time
to work but row afer row we worked as ast as we could We competed
to see how many pounds o cotton we could pull in a single day Ten wedragged those long heavy sacks ull o cotton to one o the Ford Model
trucks where it was weighed and soon taken to the cotton gin An
overseer supervised the weighing and we were paid cash immediately
For a third grader it was the most money I had ever had in my pocket
Tough exhausted I also elt like I had accomplished something big1
Ten there was baseball It was the sweet spot o my lie Maybe it was
because Mickey Mantle and I were born on the same day and year in
Oklahoma but I have always been captivated by the game o baseball
Whenever Mantle and Joe DiMaggio were on the same field my ear was
glued to the radio
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I kept up with the St Louis Cardinals when Dizzy Dean was pitching
Enos Slaughter was hitting over 104862710486241048624 and Johnny Mize was breaking
records or home runs I always thought o baseball as the perect game
It contains the exact combination o distances and speeds to make a
competition both air and unpredictable Even today I still love watching
the story o a game unold with all o its maneuvering and strategizing
I was blessed by baseball but more so blessed by a grandmother who
prayed or me every day even though I did not pay much attention to all
o her prayers I always knew that she and God would be there or me In
her own way she led me to believe that sooner or later I would get some
hint rom God about doing something I could do that really needed to
be done She planted seeds o belie in me which let me trust that provi-
dence was at work in my lie and that our ree choices are being en-
couraged by Godrsquos grace
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part one
Early Years
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1
The 1930s
Prairie Dawn
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Jackson County Te flat land made me aware o the big sky From the
top o the water tower you can see or miles My childhood was spent in
a small town in the short grass country o Oklahoma Te town o Altussits in the middle o windy wheat fields and silently grazing cattle
Nearby are ancient granite mountains in the distance that turn purple
in the late evening sun Te Navajo Mountains are about six miles away
to the east and the Quartz Mountains fifeen miles to the north Te
Oklahoma red granite mined there is the oldest and finest anywhere
Beore statehood this was ertile grazing land or nomadic Native
American tribes like the Comanche and Wichita who once roamedthese plains looking or buffalo Finding and collecting arrowheads was
my first venture into the world o discovering that ancient hidden world
I elt the privilege o holding a bit o history in my hand
During the rontier years rom 1048625104863210486301048630 until statehood in 1048625104863310486241048631 six
million Longhorn cattle rambled through our county grazing on prairie
grasses all the way rom Abilene exas to Abilene Kansas on the Old
Western rail Our amily acquired the deed to some property that
touches the slopes o one o the Navajo Mountains where the North
Fork o the Red River meanders south as i it were looking or exas It
became a place or amily retreat natural wonder conservation and
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exploration or turtles wildflowers and an occasional porcupine
Altus was as ar rom the centers o power as you could get in
Oklahoma hidden away in the extreme southwestern corner o the state
Te dirt roads in the county were ofen impassable afer the prairie thunder-
storms Afer World War II a ew were asphalted Many nearby towns
that were once thriving have virtually disappeared Only a ew lonely
remains o armhouses still stand Many rural churches and schools have
almost vanished as well and some are used or barns or storage
Everything in Altus was within walking distance It was an eight-block
walk to get a haircut downtown and a three-block walk to the park
tennis courts and high school Beyond that was a sea o wheat fields and
cattle ranches
No one amous or wealthy lived in my hometown Tey were armers
laborers and small-town olk Lie was not easy but the love we had in
our amily elt like all we needed We did not think o ourselves as re-
stricted or lef behind Tis was the center o the world so ar as I was
concerned We lacked nothing essentialEveryone knew that i they were going to make something o their
lives they would have to do it or themselves No one attributed success
or ailure to a personrsquos environment or external causes Tey assumed
that most outcomes were due to the effort o the person or lack o it I
someone messed up we would more likely ponder how a hurtul habit
might be a lesson or us to avoid
A ldquocan dordquo spirit was what most clearly characterized that independentand confident small town But the lack o rain and an abundance o dust
depleted arm incomes Tat led to many homeless men on the move
looking or odd jobs Strong and good men on the road to somewhere
would knock on our door needing ood but they were always willing to
work or it Even though they were on the move all we needed to know
was that they were persons who had allen on hard times and were hungry
We never turned any o them away My mother would always find some-thing to eed them usually what we would be eating that day
Tey were not asking or anything more than lefovers or a cup o
coffee or a ew crackers or bread I never remember them asking or
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money probably because there was almost no money circulating Ofen
business exchanges occurred by bartering goods or services Mom ofen
reminded me that each one o those people in need was made in Godrsquos
image Tey were people portrayed in the movies as hobos but we never
used that word I knew they were hardworking people who couldnrsquot pay
their mortgages and had to leave good arms as the banks were ore-
closing on them and disrupting long-laid plans
Dust storms were a regular part o my childhood I can still smell and
eel the looming approach o a thousand oot high wall o heavy gray
dust rolling in unexpectedly We would all run inside to try to seal the
windows with newspapers we attached by pins and masking tape to keep
as much dust as possible out o the house
We conserved and reused everything In that sense most everyone in
our town would have been considered ecologically minded by necessity
but without any ancy words We carved many o our own toys When
the rubber on the slingshot broke I would look or an old inner tube and
a tree branch to start over and make a new oneDad purchased a set o small leather-bound books containing the
shortened versions o classics such as Hamlet Rousseau and the ballads
o Robert Burns One o them was Emersonrsquos Self-Reliance I read it at an
early age maybe ten Because o Emersonrsquos book sel-reliance became a
key aspiration in my search or character
Despite everything I considered Cypress Street the worldrsquos best place
to be Still do We were on no main route and seldom locked our doorsI saw pictures in the newspapers o soup lines in the cities We much
preerred to be in dust-coated Oklahoma than in a Chicago ood relie
line or a crowded Hooverville camp in Caliornia
Te gentle warmth of family Almost every kid on my street came
rom a close-knit amily at a time when amily meant everything My
amilyrsquos small red brick steep-rooed English cottage had two bedrooms
but to us it always seemed to have plenty o space or everyone We hadhideaway olding beds or visitors and amily On holidays the house
could sleep as many as seventeen Tat was good because we had an
extended amily that stretched rom ippecanoe County Indiana to Las
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Cruces New Mexico I was among the youngest near the bottom o the
pecking order so I was ofen consigned to ldquosleeping at the oot o the
bedrdquo I was always happy to be a small kid in a large amily
My small world was my big amily My identity stemmed out o theirs
and I wouldnrsquot have been me without them I remember my childhood
much like William Butler Yeats described himsel in his early days in
Sligo as ldquoa boy with never a crack in my heartrdquo I elt complete as a child
lacking nothing important And I learned that delayed gratification was
part o every worthy endeavor
Growing up I was intrigued by the stories told around our fireplace
about my grandmotherrsquos grandather Elijah Walker who was the first
merchant to set up a small trading post in Northern Alabama to buy and
sell oods tools and goods among the Creek Indians Even more exciting
were Civil War stories about my great-grandather John C Oden whose
military record shows he was captured our times in battles that ranged
all the way rom Richmond to Natchez Each timemdasheither by release or
escapemdashhe returned to his own unit led by Colonel Tomas Bluett aferwhom my grandather was named and later I was named
My grandmother Sallie Elisa Walker rode into Arkansas on a Con-
estoga wagon Just afer the Civil War while she was still a young girl her
pioneer ather Andrew Jackson Walker gathered up his growing amily
rom around alladega Alabama and set out or the West where they
hoped to mine or gold or find tillable land
Afer several days on the road as the wagon pulled up to the erry onthe ombigbee River there was a horrible accident When the wagon
tipped Salliersquos brother Tad ell off and was crushed by the wagon wheel
Grieving the amily stopped to mourn and bury their little boy Sallie
did the only thing she could do she climbed back in the wagon and with
her heartbroken amily headed due west on the rough roads toward
Little Rock
From there they headed south to Clark County where some o theirAlabama riends and amily had settled In November o 1048625104863210486311048630 they ar-
rived at the village o Amity or what they thought would be a short stop
Heavy snows began to all and they could not continue Tey stayed in
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Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
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Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
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A change of heart a personal and theological memoir Tomas C
Oden
pages cm
Includes bibliographical references and index
ISBN 983097983095983096-983088-983096983091983088983096-983092983088983091983093-983097 (pbk alk paper)
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ContentsPreace 983097
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Prairie Dawn
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A World at War 983091 he 983089983097983093983088s 983091983097
Love and Learning
983092 he 983089983097983094983088s 983095983093
he Church of Whatrsquos Happening Now
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983093 he 983089983097983095983088s 983089983091983089
he U-urn
983094 he 983089983097983096983088s 983089983095983097
Charting the Course
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he Outpouring of Grace
983096 he 983090983088983088983088s 983090983095983097
A ime of Harvest
983097 he 983090983088983089983088s 983091983090983093
After Eight Decades
Acknowledgments 983091983091983093
Writings by homas C Oden 983091983091983095
Notes 983091983092983089Index o Names and Institutions 983091983096983089
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Preface
All school work came to a halt when every kid in my third grade class
went out to the cotton fields during harvest time A aded yellow school
bus took us a ew miles out o town to ldquopull bollsrdquo We sang and laughed
at the thought o briefly escaping rom the classroom
I dragged a long white denim sack my grandmother had made or me
It had a harness to loop over my shoulder which allowed me to pull itthrough the long rows o cotton as I stripped the cotton fibers rom their
shell Te barbed husk o the boll was there to protect the sof cotton
fibers I was pulling out Te trick was to get the cotton out without
getting our hands bloody rom the sharp edges o the cotton husks
A single row o cotton was a quarter mile long and took a long time
to work but row afer row we worked as ast as we could We competed
to see how many pounds o cotton we could pull in a single day Ten wedragged those long heavy sacks ull o cotton to one o the Ford Model
trucks where it was weighed and soon taken to the cotton gin An
overseer supervised the weighing and we were paid cash immediately
For a third grader it was the most money I had ever had in my pocket
Tough exhausted I also elt like I had accomplished something big1
Ten there was baseball It was the sweet spot o my lie Maybe it was
because Mickey Mantle and I were born on the same day and year in
Oklahoma but I have always been captivated by the game o baseball
Whenever Mantle and Joe DiMaggio were on the same field my ear was
glued to the radio
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I kept up with the St Louis Cardinals when Dizzy Dean was pitching
Enos Slaughter was hitting over 104862710486241048624 and Johnny Mize was breaking
records or home runs I always thought o baseball as the perect game
It contains the exact combination o distances and speeds to make a
competition both air and unpredictable Even today I still love watching
the story o a game unold with all o its maneuvering and strategizing
I was blessed by baseball but more so blessed by a grandmother who
prayed or me every day even though I did not pay much attention to all
o her prayers I always knew that she and God would be there or me In
her own way she led me to believe that sooner or later I would get some
hint rom God about doing something I could do that really needed to
be done She planted seeds o belie in me which let me trust that provi-
dence was at work in my lie and that our ree choices are being en-
couraged by Godrsquos grace
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part one
Early Years
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1
The 1930s
Prairie Dawn
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Jackson County Te flat land made me aware o the big sky From the
top o the water tower you can see or miles My childhood was spent in
a small town in the short grass country o Oklahoma Te town o Altussits in the middle o windy wheat fields and silently grazing cattle
Nearby are ancient granite mountains in the distance that turn purple
in the late evening sun Te Navajo Mountains are about six miles away
to the east and the Quartz Mountains fifeen miles to the north Te
Oklahoma red granite mined there is the oldest and finest anywhere
Beore statehood this was ertile grazing land or nomadic Native
American tribes like the Comanche and Wichita who once roamedthese plains looking or buffalo Finding and collecting arrowheads was
my first venture into the world o discovering that ancient hidden world
I elt the privilege o holding a bit o history in my hand
During the rontier years rom 1048625104863210486301048630 until statehood in 1048625104863310486241048631 six
million Longhorn cattle rambled through our county grazing on prairie
grasses all the way rom Abilene exas to Abilene Kansas on the Old
Western rail Our amily acquired the deed to some property that
touches the slopes o one o the Navajo Mountains where the North
Fork o the Red River meanders south as i it were looking or exas It
became a place or amily retreat natural wonder conservation and
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exploration or turtles wildflowers and an occasional porcupine
Altus was as ar rom the centers o power as you could get in
Oklahoma hidden away in the extreme southwestern corner o the state
Te dirt roads in the county were ofen impassable afer the prairie thunder-
storms Afer World War II a ew were asphalted Many nearby towns
that were once thriving have virtually disappeared Only a ew lonely
remains o armhouses still stand Many rural churches and schools have
almost vanished as well and some are used or barns or storage
Everything in Altus was within walking distance It was an eight-block
walk to get a haircut downtown and a three-block walk to the park
tennis courts and high school Beyond that was a sea o wheat fields and
cattle ranches
No one amous or wealthy lived in my hometown Tey were armers
laborers and small-town olk Lie was not easy but the love we had in
our amily elt like all we needed We did not think o ourselves as re-
stricted or lef behind Tis was the center o the world so ar as I was
concerned We lacked nothing essentialEveryone knew that i they were going to make something o their
lives they would have to do it or themselves No one attributed success
or ailure to a personrsquos environment or external causes Tey assumed
that most outcomes were due to the effort o the person or lack o it I
someone messed up we would more likely ponder how a hurtul habit
might be a lesson or us to avoid
A ldquocan dordquo spirit was what most clearly characterized that independentand confident small town But the lack o rain and an abundance o dust
depleted arm incomes Tat led to many homeless men on the move
looking or odd jobs Strong and good men on the road to somewhere
would knock on our door needing ood but they were always willing to
work or it Even though they were on the move all we needed to know
was that they were persons who had allen on hard times and were hungry
We never turned any o them away My mother would always find some-thing to eed them usually what we would be eating that day
Tey were not asking or anything more than lefovers or a cup o
coffee or a ew crackers or bread I never remember them asking or
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money probably because there was almost no money circulating Ofen
business exchanges occurred by bartering goods or services Mom ofen
reminded me that each one o those people in need was made in Godrsquos
image Tey were people portrayed in the movies as hobos but we never
used that word I knew they were hardworking people who couldnrsquot pay
their mortgages and had to leave good arms as the banks were ore-
closing on them and disrupting long-laid plans
Dust storms were a regular part o my childhood I can still smell and
eel the looming approach o a thousand oot high wall o heavy gray
dust rolling in unexpectedly We would all run inside to try to seal the
windows with newspapers we attached by pins and masking tape to keep
as much dust as possible out o the house
We conserved and reused everything In that sense most everyone in
our town would have been considered ecologically minded by necessity
but without any ancy words We carved many o our own toys When
the rubber on the slingshot broke I would look or an old inner tube and
a tree branch to start over and make a new oneDad purchased a set o small leather-bound books containing the
shortened versions o classics such as Hamlet Rousseau and the ballads
o Robert Burns One o them was Emersonrsquos Self-Reliance I read it at an
early age maybe ten Because o Emersonrsquos book sel-reliance became a
key aspiration in my search or character
Despite everything I considered Cypress Street the worldrsquos best place
to be Still do We were on no main route and seldom locked our doorsI saw pictures in the newspapers o soup lines in the cities We much
preerred to be in dust-coated Oklahoma than in a Chicago ood relie
line or a crowded Hooverville camp in Caliornia
Te gentle warmth of family Almost every kid on my street came
rom a close-knit amily at a time when amily meant everything My
amilyrsquos small red brick steep-rooed English cottage had two bedrooms
but to us it always seemed to have plenty o space or everyone We hadhideaway olding beds or visitors and amily On holidays the house
could sleep as many as seventeen Tat was good because we had an
extended amily that stretched rom ippecanoe County Indiana to Las
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Cruces New Mexico I was among the youngest near the bottom o the
pecking order so I was ofen consigned to ldquosleeping at the oot o the
bedrdquo I was always happy to be a small kid in a large amily
My small world was my big amily My identity stemmed out o theirs
and I wouldnrsquot have been me without them I remember my childhood
much like William Butler Yeats described himsel in his early days in
Sligo as ldquoa boy with never a crack in my heartrdquo I elt complete as a child
lacking nothing important And I learned that delayed gratification was
part o every worthy endeavor
Growing up I was intrigued by the stories told around our fireplace
about my grandmotherrsquos grandather Elijah Walker who was the first
merchant to set up a small trading post in Northern Alabama to buy and
sell oods tools and goods among the Creek Indians Even more exciting
were Civil War stories about my great-grandather John C Oden whose
military record shows he was captured our times in battles that ranged
all the way rom Richmond to Natchez Each timemdasheither by release or
escapemdashhe returned to his own unit led by Colonel Tomas Bluett aferwhom my grandather was named and later I was named
My grandmother Sallie Elisa Walker rode into Arkansas on a Con-
estoga wagon Just afer the Civil War while she was still a young girl her
pioneer ather Andrew Jackson Walker gathered up his growing amily
rom around alladega Alabama and set out or the West where they
hoped to mine or gold or find tillable land
Afer several days on the road as the wagon pulled up to the erry onthe ombigbee River there was a horrible accident When the wagon
tipped Salliersquos brother Tad ell off and was crushed by the wagon wheel
Grieving the amily stopped to mourn and bury their little boy Sallie
did the only thing she could do she climbed back in the wagon and with
her heartbroken amily headed due west on the rough roads toward
Little Rock
From there they headed south to Clark County where some o theirAlabama riends and amily had settled In November o 1048625104863210486311048630 they ar-
rived at the village o Amity or what they thought would be a short stop
Heavy snows began to all and they could not continue Tey stayed in
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Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
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Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
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ContentsPreace 983097
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983089 he 983089983097983091983088s 983089983091
Prairie Dawn
983090 he 983089983097983092983088s 983090983093
A World at War 983091 he 983089983097983093983088s 983091983097
Love and Learning
983092 he 983089983097983094983088s 983095983093
he Church of Whatrsquos Happening Now
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983093 he 983089983097983095983088s 983089983091983089
he U-urn
983094 he 983089983097983096983088s 983089983095983097
Charting the Course
P983137983154983156 1048627 H983151983149983141983159983137983154983140 B983151983157983150983140
983095 he 983089983097983097983088s 983090983089983097
he Outpouring of Grace
983096 he 983090983088983088983088s 983090983095983097
A ime of Harvest
983097 he 983090983088983089983088s 983091983090983093
After Eight Decades
Acknowledgments 983091983091983093
Writings by homas C Oden 983091983091983095
Notes 983091983092983089Index o Names and Institutions 983091983096983089
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Preface
All school work came to a halt when every kid in my third grade class
went out to the cotton fields during harvest time A aded yellow school
bus took us a ew miles out o town to ldquopull bollsrdquo We sang and laughed
at the thought o briefly escaping rom the classroom
I dragged a long white denim sack my grandmother had made or me
It had a harness to loop over my shoulder which allowed me to pull itthrough the long rows o cotton as I stripped the cotton fibers rom their
shell Te barbed husk o the boll was there to protect the sof cotton
fibers I was pulling out Te trick was to get the cotton out without
getting our hands bloody rom the sharp edges o the cotton husks
A single row o cotton was a quarter mile long and took a long time
to work but row afer row we worked as ast as we could We competed
to see how many pounds o cotton we could pull in a single day Ten wedragged those long heavy sacks ull o cotton to one o the Ford Model
trucks where it was weighed and soon taken to the cotton gin An
overseer supervised the weighing and we were paid cash immediately
For a third grader it was the most money I had ever had in my pocket
Tough exhausted I also elt like I had accomplished something big1
Ten there was baseball It was the sweet spot o my lie Maybe it was
because Mickey Mantle and I were born on the same day and year in
Oklahoma but I have always been captivated by the game o baseball
Whenever Mantle and Joe DiMaggio were on the same field my ear was
glued to the radio
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I kept up with the St Louis Cardinals when Dizzy Dean was pitching
Enos Slaughter was hitting over 104862710486241048624 and Johnny Mize was breaking
records or home runs I always thought o baseball as the perect game
It contains the exact combination o distances and speeds to make a
competition both air and unpredictable Even today I still love watching
the story o a game unold with all o its maneuvering and strategizing
I was blessed by baseball but more so blessed by a grandmother who
prayed or me every day even though I did not pay much attention to all
o her prayers I always knew that she and God would be there or me In
her own way she led me to believe that sooner or later I would get some
hint rom God about doing something I could do that really needed to
be done She planted seeds o belie in me which let me trust that provi-
dence was at work in my lie and that our ree choices are being en-
couraged by Godrsquos grace
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part one
Early Years
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1
The 1930s
Prairie Dawn
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Jackson County Te flat land made me aware o the big sky From the
top o the water tower you can see or miles My childhood was spent in
a small town in the short grass country o Oklahoma Te town o Altussits in the middle o windy wheat fields and silently grazing cattle
Nearby are ancient granite mountains in the distance that turn purple
in the late evening sun Te Navajo Mountains are about six miles away
to the east and the Quartz Mountains fifeen miles to the north Te
Oklahoma red granite mined there is the oldest and finest anywhere
Beore statehood this was ertile grazing land or nomadic Native
American tribes like the Comanche and Wichita who once roamedthese plains looking or buffalo Finding and collecting arrowheads was
my first venture into the world o discovering that ancient hidden world
I elt the privilege o holding a bit o history in my hand
During the rontier years rom 1048625104863210486301048630 until statehood in 1048625104863310486241048631 six
million Longhorn cattle rambled through our county grazing on prairie
grasses all the way rom Abilene exas to Abilene Kansas on the Old
Western rail Our amily acquired the deed to some property that
touches the slopes o one o the Navajo Mountains where the North
Fork o the Red River meanders south as i it were looking or exas It
became a place or amily retreat natural wonder conservation and
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exploration or turtles wildflowers and an occasional porcupine
Altus was as ar rom the centers o power as you could get in
Oklahoma hidden away in the extreme southwestern corner o the state
Te dirt roads in the county were ofen impassable afer the prairie thunder-
storms Afer World War II a ew were asphalted Many nearby towns
that were once thriving have virtually disappeared Only a ew lonely
remains o armhouses still stand Many rural churches and schools have
almost vanished as well and some are used or barns or storage
Everything in Altus was within walking distance It was an eight-block
walk to get a haircut downtown and a three-block walk to the park
tennis courts and high school Beyond that was a sea o wheat fields and
cattle ranches
No one amous or wealthy lived in my hometown Tey were armers
laborers and small-town olk Lie was not easy but the love we had in
our amily elt like all we needed We did not think o ourselves as re-
stricted or lef behind Tis was the center o the world so ar as I was
concerned We lacked nothing essentialEveryone knew that i they were going to make something o their
lives they would have to do it or themselves No one attributed success
or ailure to a personrsquos environment or external causes Tey assumed
that most outcomes were due to the effort o the person or lack o it I
someone messed up we would more likely ponder how a hurtul habit
might be a lesson or us to avoid
A ldquocan dordquo spirit was what most clearly characterized that independentand confident small town But the lack o rain and an abundance o dust
depleted arm incomes Tat led to many homeless men on the move
looking or odd jobs Strong and good men on the road to somewhere
would knock on our door needing ood but they were always willing to
work or it Even though they were on the move all we needed to know
was that they were persons who had allen on hard times and were hungry
We never turned any o them away My mother would always find some-thing to eed them usually what we would be eating that day
Tey were not asking or anything more than lefovers or a cup o
coffee or a ew crackers or bread I never remember them asking or
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money probably because there was almost no money circulating Ofen
business exchanges occurred by bartering goods or services Mom ofen
reminded me that each one o those people in need was made in Godrsquos
image Tey were people portrayed in the movies as hobos but we never
used that word I knew they were hardworking people who couldnrsquot pay
their mortgages and had to leave good arms as the banks were ore-
closing on them and disrupting long-laid plans
Dust storms were a regular part o my childhood I can still smell and
eel the looming approach o a thousand oot high wall o heavy gray
dust rolling in unexpectedly We would all run inside to try to seal the
windows with newspapers we attached by pins and masking tape to keep
as much dust as possible out o the house
We conserved and reused everything In that sense most everyone in
our town would have been considered ecologically minded by necessity
but without any ancy words We carved many o our own toys When
the rubber on the slingshot broke I would look or an old inner tube and
a tree branch to start over and make a new oneDad purchased a set o small leather-bound books containing the
shortened versions o classics such as Hamlet Rousseau and the ballads
o Robert Burns One o them was Emersonrsquos Self-Reliance I read it at an
early age maybe ten Because o Emersonrsquos book sel-reliance became a
key aspiration in my search or character
Despite everything I considered Cypress Street the worldrsquos best place
to be Still do We were on no main route and seldom locked our doorsI saw pictures in the newspapers o soup lines in the cities We much
preerred to be in dust-coated Oklahoma than in a Chicago ood relie
line or a crowded Hooverville camp in Caliornia
Te gentle warmth of family Almost every kid on my street came
rom a close-knit amily at a time when amily meant everything My
amilyrsquos small red brick steep-rooed English cottage had two bedrooms
but to us it always seemed to have plenty o space or everyone We hadhideaway olding beds or visitors and amily On holidays the house
could sleep as many as seventeen Tat was good because we had an
extended amily that stretched rom ippecanoe County Indiana to Las
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Cruces New Mexico I was among the youngest near the bottom o the
pecking order so I was ofen consigned to ldquosleeping at the oot o the
bedrdquo I was always happy to be a small kid in a large amily
My small world was my big amily My identity stemmed out o theirs
and I wouldnrsquot have been me without them I remember my childhood
much like William Butler Yeats described himsel in his early days in
Sligo as ldquoa boy with never a crack in my heartrdquo I elt complete as a child
lacking nothing important And I learned that delayed gratification was
part o every worthy endeavor
Growing up I was intrigued by the stories told around our fireplace
about my grandmotherrsquos grandather Elijah Walker who was the first
merchant to set up a small trading post in Northern Alabama to buy and
sell oods tools and goods among the Creek Indians Even more exciting
were Civil War stories about my great-grandather John C Oden whose
military record shows he was captured our times in battles that ranged
all the way rom Richmond to Natchez Each timemdasheither by release or
escapemdashhe returned to his own unit led by Colonel Tomas Bluett aferwhom my grandather was named and later I was named
My grandmother Sallie Elisa Walker rode into Arkansas on a Con-
estoga wagon Just afer the Civil War while she was still a young girl her
pioneer ather Andrew Jackson Walker gathered up his growing amily
rom around alladega Alabama and set out or the West where they
hoped to mine or gold or find tillable land
Afer several days on the road as the wagon pulled up to the erry onthe ombigbee River there was a horrible accident When the wagon
tipped Salliersquos brother Tad ell off and was crushed by the wagon wheel
Grieving the amily stopped to mourn and bury their little boy Sallie
did the only thing she could do she climbed back in the wagon and with
her heartbroken amily headed due west on the rough roads toward
Little Rock
From there they headed south to Clark County where some o theirAlabama riends and amily had settled In November o 1048625104863210486311048630 they ar-
rived at the village o Amity or what they thought would be a short stop
Heavy snows began to all and they could not continue Tey stayed in
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Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
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Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
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Preface
All school work came to a halt when every kid in my third grade class
went out to the cotton fields during harvest time A aded yellow school
bus took us a ew miles out o town to ldquopull bollsrdquo We sang and laughed
at the thought o briefly escaping rom the classroom
I dragged a long white denim sack my grandmother had made or me
It had a harness to loop over my shoulder which allowed me to pull itthrough the long rows o cotton as I stripped the cotton fibers rom their
shell Te barbed husk o the boll was there to protect the sof cotton
fibers I was pulling out Te trick was to get the cotton out without
getting our hands bloody rom the sharp edges o the cotton husks
A single row o cotton was a quarter mile long and took a long time
to work but row afer row we worked as ast as we could We competed
to see how many pounds o cotton we could pull in a single day Ten wedragged those long heavy sacks ull o cotton to one o the Ford Model
trucks where it was weighed and soon taken to the cotton gin An
overseer supervised the weighing and we were paid cash immediately
For a third grader it was the most money I had ever had in my pocket
Tough exhausted I also elt like I had accomplished something big1
Ten there was baseball It was the sweet spot o my lie Maybe it was
because Mickey Mantle and I were born on the same day and year in
Oklahoma but I have always been captivated by the game o baseball
Whenever Mantle and Joe DiMaggio were on the same field my ear was
glued to the radio
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I kept up with the St Louis Cardinals when Dizzy Dean was pitching
Enos Slaughter was hitting over 104862710486241048624 and Johnny Mize was breaking
records or home runs I always thought o baseball as the perect game
It contains the exact combination o distances and speeds to make a
competition both air and unpredictable Even today I still love watching
the story o a game unold with all o its maneuvering and strategizing
I was blessed by baseball but more so blessed by a grandmother who
prayed or me every day even though I did not pay much attention to all
o her prayers I always knew that she and God would be there or me In
her own way she led me to believe that sooner or later I would get some
hint rom God about doing something I could do that really needed to
be done She planted seeds o belie in me which let me trust that provi-
dence was at work in my lie and that our ree choices are being en-
couraged by Godrsquos grace
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part one
Early Years
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1
The 1930s
Prairie Dawn
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Jackson County Te flat land made me aware o the big sky From the
top o the water tower you can see or miles My childhood was spent in
a small town in the short grass country o Oklahoma Te town o Altussits in the middle o windy wheat fields and silently grazing cattle
Nearby are ancient granite mountains in the distance that turn purple
in the late evening sun Te Navajo Mountains are about six miles away
to the east and the Quartz Mountains fifeen miles to the north Te
Oklahoma red granite mined there is the oldest and finest anywhere
Beore statehood this was ertile grazing land or nomadic Native
American tribes like the Comanche and Wichita who once roamedthese plains looking or buffalo Finding and collecting arrowheads was
my first venture into the world o discovering that ancient hidden world
I elt the privilege o holding a bit o history in my hand
During the rontier years rom 1048625104863210486301048630 until statehood in 1048625104863310486241048631 six
million Longhorn cattle rambled through our county grazing on prairie
grasses all the way rom Abilene exas to Abilene Kansas on the Old
Western rail Our amily acquired the deed to some property that
touches the slopes o one o the Navajo Mountains where the North
Fork o the Red River meanders south as i it were looking or exas It
became a place or amily retreat natural wonder conservation and
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exploration or turtles wildflowers and an occasional porcupine
Altus was as ar rom the centers o power as you could get in
Oklahoma hidden away in the extreme southwestern corner o the state
Te dirt roads in the county were ofen impassable afer the prairie thunder-
storms Afer World War II a ew were asphalted Many nearby towns
that were once thriving have virtually disappeared Only a ew lonely
remains o armhouses still stand Many rural churches and schools have
almost vanished as well and some are used or barns or storage
Everything in Altus was within walking distance It was an eight-block
walk to get a haircut downtown and a three-block walk to the park
tennis courts and high school Beyond that was a sea o wheat fields and
cattle ranches
No one amous or wealthy lived in my hometown Tey were armers
laborers and small-town olk Lie was not easy but the love we had in
our amily elt like all we needed We did not think o ourselves as re-
stricted or lef behind Tis was the center o the world so ar as I was
concerned We lacked nothing essentialEveryone knew that i they were going to make something o their
lives they would have to do it or themselves No one attributed success
or ailure to a personrsquos environment or external causes Tey assumed
that most outcomes were due to the effort o the person or lack o it I
someone messed up we would more likely ponder how a hurtul habit
might be a lesson or us to avoid
A ldquocan dordquo spirit was what most clearly characterized that independentand confident small town But the lack o rain and an abundance o dust
depleted arm incomes Tat led to many homeless men on the move
looking or odd jobs Strong and good men on the road to somewhere
would knock on our door needing ood but they were always willing to
work or it Even though they were on the move all we needed to know
was that they were persons who had allen on hard times and were hungry
We never turned any o them away My mother would always find some-thing to eed them usually what we would be eating that day
Tey were not asking or anything more than lefovers or a cup o
coffee or a ew crackers or bread I never remember them asking or
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money probably because there was almost no money circulating Ofen
business exchanges occurred by bartering goods or services Mom ofen
reminded me that each one o those people in need was made in Godrsquos
image Tey were people portrayed in the movies as hobos but we never
used that word I knew they were hardworking people who couldnrsquot pay
their mortgages and had to leave good arms as the banks were ore-
closing on them and disrupting long-laid plans
Dust storms were a regular part o my childhood I can still smell and
eel the looming approach o a thousand oot high wall o heavy gray
dust rolling in unexpectedly We would all run inside to try to seal the
windows with newspapers we attached by pins and masking tape to keep
as much dust as possible out o the house
We conserved and reused everything In that sense most everyone in
our town would have been considered ecologically minded by necessity
but without any ancy words We carved many o our own toys When
the rubber on the slingshot broke I would look or an old inner tube and
a tree branch to start over and make a new oneDad purchased a set o small leather-bound books containing the
shortened versions o classics such as Hamlet Rousseau and the ballads
o Robert Burns One o them was Emersonrsquos Self-Reliance I read it at an
early age maybe ten Because o Emersonrsquos book sel-reliance became a
key aspiration in my search or character
Despite everything I considered Cypress Street the worldrsquos best place
to be Still do We were on no main route and seldom locked our doorsI saw pictures in the newspapers o soup lines in the cities We much
preerred to be in dust-coated Oklahoma than in a Chicago ood relie
line or a crowded Hooverville camp in Caliornia
Te gentle warmth of family Almost every kid on my street came
rom a close-knit amily at a time when amily meant everything My
amilyrsquos small red brick steep-rooed English cottage had two bedrooms
but to us it always seemed to have plenty o space or everyone We hadhideaway olding beds or visitors and amily On holidays the house
could sleep as many as seventeen Tat was good because we had an
extended amily that stretched rom ippecanoe County Indiana to Las
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Cruces New Mexico I was among the youngest near the bottom o the
pecking order so I was ofen consigned to ldquosleeping at the oot o the
bedrdquo I was always happy to be a small kid in a large amily
My small world was my big amily My identity stemmed out o theirs
and I wouldnrsquot have been me without them I remember my childhood
much like William Butler Yeats described himsel in his early days in
Sligo as ldquoa boy with never a crack in my heartrdquo I elt complete as a child
lacking nothing important And I learned that delayed gratification was
part o every worthy endeavor
Growing up I was intrigued by the stories told around our fireplace
about my grandmotherrsquos grandather Elijah Walker who was the first
merchant to set up a small trading post in Northern Alabama to buy and
sell oods tools and goods among the Creek Indians Even more exciting
were Civil War stories about my great-grandather John C Oden whose
military record shows he was captured our times in battles that ranged
all the way rom Richmond to Natchez Each timemdasheither by release or
escapemdashhe returned to his own unit led by Colonel Tomas Bluett aferwhom my grandather was named and later I was named
My grandmother Sallie Elisa Walker rode into Arkansas on a Con-
estoga wagon Just afer the Civil War while she was still a young girl her
pioneer ather Andrew Jackson Walker gathered up his growing amily
rom around alladega Alabama and set out or the West where they
hoped to mine or gold or find tillable land
Afer several days on the road as the wagon pulled up to the erry onthe ombigbee River there was a horrible accident When the wagon
tipped Salliersquos brother Tad ell off and was crushed by the wagon wheel
Grieving the amily stopped to mourn and bury their little boy Sallie
did the only thing she could do she climbed back in the wagon and with
her heartbroken amily headed due west on the rough roads toward
Little Rock
From there they headed south to Clark County where some o theirAlabama riends and amily had settled In November o 1048625104863210486311048630 they ar-
rived at the village o Amity or what they thought would be a short stop
Heavy snows began to all and they could not continue Tey stayed in
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Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
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Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
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I kept up with the St Louis Cardinals when Dizzy Dean was pitching
Enos Slaughter was hitting over 104862710486241048624 and Johnny Mize was breaking
records or home runs I always thought o baseball as the perect game
It contains the exact combination o distances and speeds to make a
competition both air and unpredictable Even today I still love watching
the story o a game unold with all o its maneuvering and strategizing
I was blessed by baseball but more so blessed by a grandmother who
prayed or me every day even though I did not pay much attention to all
o her prayers I always knew that she and God would be there or me In
her own way she led me to believe that sooner or later I would get some
hint rom God about doing something I could do that really needed to
be done She planted seeds o belie in me which let me trust that provi-
dence was at work in my lie and that our ree choices are being en-
couraged by Godrsquos grace
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part one
Early Years
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1
The 1930s
Prairie Dawn
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Jackson County Te flat land made me aware o the big sky From the
top o the water tower you can see or miles My childhood was spent in
a small town in the short grass country o Oklahoma Te town o Altussits in the middle o windy wheat fields and silently grazing cattle
Nearby are ancient granite mountains in the distance that turn purple
in the late evening sun Te Navajo Mountains are about six miles away
to the east and the Quartz Mountains fifeen miles to the north Te
Oklahoma red granite mined there is the oldest and finest anywhere
Beore statehood this was ertile grazing land or nomadic Native
American tribes like the Comanche and Wichita who once roamedthese plains looking or buffalo Finding and collecting arrowheads was
my first venture into the world o discovering that ancient hidden world
I elt the privilege o holding a bit o history in my hand
During the rontier years rom 1048625104863210486301048630 until statehood in 1048625104863310486241048631 six
million Longhorn cattle rambled through our county grazing on prairie
grasses all the way rom Abilene exas to Abilene Kansas on the Old
Western rail Our amily acquired the deed to some property that
touches the slopes o one o the Navajo Mountains where the North
Fork o the Red River meanders south as i it were looking or exas It
became a place or amily retreat natural wonder conservation and
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exploration or turtles wildflowers and an occasional porcupine
Altus was as ar rom the centers o power as you could get in
Oklahoma hidden away in the extreme southwestern corner o the state
Te dirt roads in the county were ofen impassable afer the prairie thunder-
storms Afer World War II a ew were asphalted Many nearby towns
that were once thriving have virtually disappeared Only a ew lonely
remains o armhouses still stand Many rural churches and schools have
almost vanished as well and some are used or barns or storage
Everything in Altus was within walking distance It was an eight-block
walk to get a haircut downtown and a three-block walk to the park
tennis courts and high school Beyond that was a sea o wheat fields and
cattle ranches
No one amous or wealthy lived in my hometown Tey were armers
laborers and small-town olk Lie was not easy but the love we had in
our amily elt like all we needed We did not think o ourselves as re-
stricted or lef behind Tis was the center o the world so ar as I was
concerned We lacked nothing essentialEveryone knew that i they were going to make something o their
lives they would have to do it or themselves No one attributed success
or ailure to a personrsquos environment or external causes Tey assumed
that most outcomes were due to the effort o the person or lack o it I
someone messed up we would more likely ponder how a hurtul habit
might be a lesson or us to avoid
A ldquocan dordquo spirit was what most clearly characterized that independentand confident small town But the lack o rain and an abundance o dust
depleted arm incomes Tat led to many homeless men on the move
looking or odd jobs Strong and good men on the road to somewhere
would knock on our door needing ood but they were always willing to
work or it Even though they were on the move all we needed to know
was that they were persons who had allen on hard times and were hungry
We never turned any o them away My mother would always find some-thing to eed them usually what we would be eating that day
Tey were not asking or anything more than lefovers or a cup o
coffee or a ew crackers or bread I never remember them asking or
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money probably because there was almost no money circulating Ofen
business exchanges occurred by bartering goods or services Mom ofen
reminded me that each one o those people in need was made in Godrsquos
image Tey were people portrayed in the movies as hobos but we never
used that word I knew they were hardworking people who couldnrsquot pay
their mortgages and had to leave good arms as the banks were ore-
closing on them and disrupting long-laid plans
Dust storms were a regular part o my childhood I can still smell and
eel the looming approach o a thousand oot high wall o heavy gray
dust rolling in unexpectedly We would all run inside to try to seal the
windows with newspapers we attached by pins and masking tape to keep
as much dust as possible out o the house
We conserved and reused everything In that sense most everyone in
our town would have been considered ecologically minded by necessity
but without any ancy words We carved many o our own toys When
the rubber on the slingshot broke I would look or an old inner tube and
a tree branch to start over and make a new oneDad purchased a set o small leather-bound books containing the
shortened versions o classics such as Hamlet Rousseau and the ballads
o Robert Burns One o them was Emersonrsquos Self-Reliance I read it at an
early age maybe ten Because o Emersonrsquos book sel-reliance became a
key aspiration in my search or character
Despite everything I considered Cypress Street the worldrsquos best place
to be Still do We were on no main route and seldom locked our doorsI saw pictures in the newspapers o soup lines in the cities We much
preerred to be in dust-coated Oklahoma than in a Chicago ood relie
line or a crowded Hooverville camp in Caliornia
Te gentle warmth of family Almost every kid on my street came
rom a close-knit amily at a time when amily meant everything My
amilyrsquos small red brick steep-rooed English cottage had two bedrooms
but to us it always seemed to have plenty o space or everyone We hadhideaway olding beds or visitors and amily On holidays the house
could sleep as many as seventeen Tat was good because we had an
extended amily that stretched rom ippecanoe County Indiana to Las
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Cruces New Mexico I was among the youngest near the bottom o the
pecking order so I was ofen consigned to ldquosleeping at the oot o the
bedrdquo I was always happy to be a small kid in a large amily
My small world was my big amily My identity stemmed out o theirs
and I wouldnrsquot have been me without them I remember my childhood
much like William Butler Yeats described himsel in his early days in
Sligo as ldquoa boy with never a crack in my heartrdquo I elt complete as a child
lacking nothing important And I learned that delayed gratification was
part o every worthy endeavor
Growing up I was intrigued by the stories told around our fireplace
about my grandmotherrsquos grandather Elijah Walker who was the first
merchant to set up a small trading post in Northern Alabama to buy and
sell oods tools and goods among the Creek Indians Even more exciting
were Civil War stories about my great-grandather John C Oden whose
military record shows he was captured our times in battles that ranged
all the way rom Richmond to Natchez Each timemdasheither by release or
escapemdashhe returned to his own unit led by Colonel Tomas Bluett aferwhom my grandather was named and later I was named
My grandmother Sallie Elisa Walker rode into Arkansas on a Con-
estoga wagon Just afer the Civil War while she was still a young girl her
pioneer ather Andrew Jackson Walker gathered up his growing amily
rom around alladega Alabama and set out or the West where they
hoped to mine or gold or find tillable land
Afer several days on the road as the wagon pulled up to the erry onthe ombigbee River there was a horrible accident When the wagon
tipped Salliersquos brother Tad ell off and was crushed by the wagon wheel
Grieving the amily stopped to mourn and bury their little boy Sallie
did the only thing she could do she climbed back in the wagon and with
her heartbroken amily headed due west on the rough roads toward
Little Rock
From there they headed south to Clark County where some o theirAlabama riends and amily had settled In November o 1048625104863210486311048630 they ar-
rived at the village o Amity or what they thought would be a short stop
Heavy snows began to all and they could not continue Tey stayed in
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Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
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Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
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part one
Early Years
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1
The 1930s
Prairie Dawn
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Jackson County Te flat land made me aware o the big sky From the
top o the water tower you can see or miles My childhood was spent in
a small town in the short grass country o Oklahoma Te town o Altussits in the middle o windy wheat fields and silently grazing cattle
Nearby are ancient granite mountains in the distance that turn purple
in the late evening sun Te Navajo Mountains are about six miles away
to the east and the Quartz Mountains fifeen miles to the north Te
Oklahoma red granite mined there is the oldest and finest anywhere
Beore statehood this was ertile grazing land or nomadic Native
American tribes like the Comanche and Wichita who once roamedthese plains looking or buffalo Finding and collecting arrowheads was
my first venture into the world o discovering that ancient hidden world
I elt the privilege o holding a bit o history in my hand
During the rontier years rom 1048625104863210486301048630 until statehood in 1048625104863310486241048631 six
million Longhorn cattle rambled through our county grazing on prairie
grasses all the way rom Abilene exas to Abilene Kansas on the Old
Western rail Our amily acquired the deed to some property that
touches the slopes o one o the Navajo Mountains where the North
Fork o the Red River meanders south as i it were looking or exas It
became a place or amily retreat natural wonder conservation and
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exploration or turtles wildflowers and an occasional porcupine
Altus was as ar rom the centers o power as you could get in
Oklahoma hidden away in the extreme southwestern corner o the state
Te dirt roads in the county were ofen impassable afer the prairie thunder-
storms Afer World War II a ew were asphalted Many nearby towns
that were once thriving have virtually disappeared Only a ew lonely
remains o armhouses still stand Many rural churches and schools have
almost vanished as well and some are used or barns or storage
Everything in Altus was within walking distance It was an eight-block
walk to get a haircut downtown and a three-block walk to the park
tennis courts and high school Beyond that was a sea o wheat fields and
cattle ranches
No one amous or wealthy lived in my hometown Tey were armers
laborers and small-town olk Lie was not easy but the love we had in
our amily elt like all we needed We did not think o ourselves as re-
stricted or lef behind Tis was the center o the world so ar as I was
concerned We lacked nothing essentialEveryone knew that i they were going to make something o their
lives they would have to do it or themselves No one attributed success
or ailure to a personrsquos environment or external causes Tey assumed
that most outcomes were due to the effort o the person or lack o it I
someone messed up we would more likely ponder how a hurtul habit
might be a lesson or us to avoid
A ldquocan dordquo spirit was what most clearly characterized that independentand confident small town But the lack o rain and an abundance o dust
depleted arm incomes Tat led to many homeless men on the move
looking or odd jobs Strong and good men on the road to somewhere
would knock on our door needing ood but they were always willing to
work or it Even though they were on the move all we needed to know
was that they were persons who had allen on hard times and were hungry
We never turned any o them away My mother would always find some-thing to eed them usually what we would be eating that day
Tey were not asking or anything more than lefovers or a cup o
coffee or a ew crackers or bread I never remember them asking or
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money probably because there was almost no money circulating Ofen
business exchanges occurred by bartering goods or services Mom ofen
reminded me that each one o those people in need was made in Godrsquos
image Tey were people portrayed in the movies as hobos but we never
used that word I knew they were hardworking people who couldnrsquot pay
their mortgages and had to leave good arms as the banks were ore-
closing on them and disrupting long-laid plans
Dust storms were a regular part o my childhood I can still smell and
eel the looming approach o a thousand oot high wall o heavy gray
dust rolling in unexpectedly We would all run inside to try to seal the
windows with newspapers we attached by pins and masking tape to keep
as much dust as possible out o the house
We conserved and reused everything In that sense most everyone in
our town would have been considered ecologically minded by necessity
but without any ancy words We carved many o our own toys When
the rubber on the slingshot broke I would look or an old inner tube and
a tree branch to start over and make a new oneDad purchased a set o small leather-bound books containing the
shortened versions o classics such as Hamlet Rousseau and the ballads
o Robert Burns One o them was Emersonrsquos Self-Reliance I read it at an
early age maybe ten Because o Emersonrsquos book sel-reliance became a
key aspiration in my search or character
Despite everything I considered Cypress Street the worldrsquos best place
to be Still do We were on no main route and seldom locked our doorsI saw pictures in the newspapers o soup lines in the cities We much
preerred to be in dust-coated Oklahoma than in a Chicago ood relie
line or a crowded Hooverville camp in Caliornia
Te gentle warmth of family Almost every kid on my street came
rom a close-knit amily at a time when amily meant everything My
amilyrsquos small red brick steep-rooed English cottage had two bedrooms
but to us it always seemed to have plenty o space or everyone We hadhideaway olding beds or visitors and amily On holidays the house
could sleep as many as seventeen Tat was good because we had an
extended amily that stretched rom ippecanoe County Indiana to Las
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Cruces New Mexico I was among the youngest near the bottom o the
pecking order so I was ofen consigned to ldquosleeping at the oot o the
bedrdquo I was always happy to be a small kid in a large amily
My small world was my big amily My identity stemmed out o theirs
and I wouldnrsquot have been me without them I remember my childhood
much like William Butler Yeats described himsel in his early days in
Sligo as ldquoa boy with never a crack in my heartrdquo I elt complete as a child
lacking nothing important And I learned that delayed gratification was
part o every worthy endeavor
Growing up I was intrigued by the stories told around our fireplace
about my grandmotherrsquos grandather Elijah Walker who was the first
merchant to set up a small trading post in Northern Alabama to buy and
sell oods tools and goods among the Creek Indians Even more exciting
were Civil War stories about my great-grandather John C Oden whose
military record shows he was captured our times in battles that ranged
all the way rom Richmond to Natchez Each timemdasheither by release or
escapemdashhe returned to his own unit led by Colonel Tomas Bluett aferwhom my grandather was named and later I was named
My grandmother Sallie Elisa Walker rode into Arkansas on a Con-
estoga wagon Just afer the Civil War while she was still a young girl her
pioneer ather Andrew Jackson Walker gathered up his growing amily
rom around alladega Alabama and set out or the West where they
hoped to mine or gold or find tillable land
Afer several days on the road as the wagon pulled up to the erry onthe ombigbee River there was a horrible accident When the wagon
tipped Salliersquos brother Tad ell off and was crushed by the wagon wheel
Grieving the amily stopped to mourn and bury their little boy Sallie
did the only thing she could do she climbed back in the wagon and with
her heartbroken amily headed due west on the rough roads toward
Little Rock
From there they headed south to Clark County where some o theirAlabama riends and amily had settled In November o 1048625104863210486311048630 they ar-
rived at the village o Amity or what they thought would be a short stop
Heavy snows began to all and they could not continue Tey stayed in
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Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
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Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
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1
The 1930s
Prairie Dawn
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Jackson County Te flat land made me aware o the big sky From the
top o the water tower you can see or miles My childhood was spent in
a small town in the short grass country o Oklahoma Te town o Altussits in the middle o windy wheat fields and silently grazing cattle
Nearby are ancient granite mountains in the distance that turn purple
in the late evening sun Te Navajo Mountains are about six miles away
to the east and the Quartz Mountains fifeen miles to the north Te
Oklahoma red granite mined there is the oldest and finest anywhere
Beore statehood this was ertile grazing land or nomadic Native
American tribes like the Comanche and Wichita who once roamedthese plains looking or buffalo Finding and collecting arrowheads was
my first venture into the world o discovering that ancient hidden world
I elt the privilege o holding a bit o history in my hand
During the rontier years rom 1048625104863210486301048630 until statehood in 1048625104863310486241048631 six
million Longhorn cattle rambled through our county grazing on prairie
grasses all the way rom Abilene exas to Abilene Kansas on the Old
Western rail Our amily acquired the deed to some property that
touches the slopes o one o the Navajo Mountains where the North
Fork o the Red River meanders south as i it were looking or exas It
became a place or amily retreat natural wonder conservation and
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exploration or turtles wildflowers and an occasional porcupine
Altus was as ar rom the centers o power as you could get in
Oklahoma hidden away in the extreme southwestern corner o the state
Te dirt roads in the county were ofen impassable afer the prairie thunder-
storms Afer World War II a ew were asphalted Many nearby towns
that were once thriving have virtually disappeared Only a ew lonely
remains o armhouses still stand Many rural churches and schools have
almost vanished as well and some are used or barns or storage
Everything in Altus was within walking distance It was an eight-block
walk to get a haircut downtown and a three-block walk to the park
tennis courts and high school Beyond that was a sea o wheat fields and
cattle ranches
No one amous or wealthy lived in my hometown Tey were armers
laborers and small-town olk Lie was not easy but the love we had in
our amily elt like all we needed We did not think o ourselves as re-
stricted or lef behind Tis was the center o the world so ar as I was
concerned We lacked nothing essentialEveryone knew that i they were going to make something o their
lives they would have to do it or themselves No one attributed success
or ailure to a personrsquos environment or external causes Tey assumed
that most outcomes were due to the effort o the person or lack o it I
someone messed up we would more likely ponder how a hurtul habit
might be a lesson or us to avoid
A ldquocan dordquo spirit was what most clearly characterized that independentand confident small town But the lack o rain and an abundance o dust
depleted arm incomes Tat led to many homeless men on the move
looking or odd jobs Strong and good men on the road to somewhere
would knock on our door needing ood but they were always willing to
work or it Even though they were on the move all we needed to know
was that they were persons who had allen on hard times and were hungry
We never turned any o them away My mother would always find some-thing to eed them usually what we would be eating that day
Tey were not asking or anything more than lefovers or a cup o
coffee or a ew crackers or bread I never remember them asking or
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money probably because there was almost no money circulating Ofen
business exchanges occurred by bartering goods or services Mom ofen
reminded me that each one o those people in need was made in Godrsquos
image Tey were people portrayed in the movies as hobos but we never
used that word I knew they were hardworking people who couldnrsquot pay
their mortgages and had to leave good arms as the banks were ore-
closing on them and disrupting long-laid plans
Dust storms were a regular part o my childhood I can still smell and
eel the looming approach o a thousand oot high wall o heavy gray
dust rolling in unexpectedly We would all run inside to try to seal the
windows with newspapers we attached by pins and masking tape to keep
as much dust as possible out o the house
We conserved and reused everything In that sense most everyone in
our town would have been considered ecologically minded by necessity
but without any ancy words We carved many o our own toys When
the rubber on the slingshot broke I would look or an old inner tube and
a tree branch to start over and make a new oneDad purchased a set o small leather-bound books containing the
shortened versions o classics such as Hamlet Rousseau and the ballads
o Robert Burns One o them was Emersonrsquos Self-Reliance I read it at an
early age maybe ten Because o Emersonrsquos book sel-reliance became a
key aspiration in my search or character
Despite everything I considered Cypress Street the worldrsquos best place
to be Still do We were on no main route and seldom locked our doorsI saw pictures in the newspapers o soup lines in the cities We much
preerred to be in dust-coated Oklahoma than in a Chicago ood relie
line or a crowded Hooverville camp in Caliornia
Te gentle warmth of family Almost every kid on my street came
rom a close-knit amily at a time when amily meant everything My
amilyrsquos small red brick steep-rooed English cottage had two bedrooms
but to us it always seemed to have plenty o space or everyone We hadhideaway olding beds or visitors and amily On holidays the house
could sleep as many as seventeen Tat was good because we had an
extended amily that stretched rom ippecanoe County Indiana to Las
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Cruces New Mexico I was among the youngest near the bottom o the
pecking order so I was ofen consigned to ldquosleeping at the oot o the
bedrdquo I was always happy to be a small kid in a large amily
My small world was my big amily My identity stemmed out o theirs
and I wouldnrsquot have been me without them I remember my childhood
much like William Butler Yeats described himsel in his early days in
Sligo as ldquoa boy with never a crack in my heartrdquo I elt complete as a child
lacking nothing important And I learned that delayed gratification was
part o every worthy endeavor
Growing up I was intrigued by the stories told around our fireplace
about my grandmotherrsquos grandather Elijah Walker who was the first
merchant to set up a small trading post in Northern Alabama to buy and
sell oods tools and goods among the Creek Indians Even more exciting
were Civil War stories about my great-grandather John C Oden whose
military record shows he was captured our times in battles that ranged
all the way rom Richmond to Natchez Each timemdasheither by release or
escapemdashhe returned to his own unit led by Colonel Tomas Bluett aferwhom my grandather was named and later I was named
My grandmother Sallie Elisa Walker rode into Arkansas on a Con-
estoga wagon Just afer the Civil War while she was still a young girl her
pioneer ather Andrew Jackson Walker gathered up his growing amily
rom around alladega Alabama and set out or the West where they
hoped to mine or gold or find tillable land
Afer several days on the road as the wagon pulled up to the erry onthe ombigbee River there was a horrible accident When the wagon
tipped Salliersquos brother Tad ell off and was crushed by the wagon wheel
Grieving the amily stopped to mourn and bury their little boy Sallie
did the only thing she could do she climbed back in the wagon and with
her heartbroken amily headed due west on the rough roads toward
Little Rock
From there they headed south to Clark County where some o theirAlabama riends and amily had settled In November o 1048625104863210486311048630 they ar-
rived at the village o Amity or what they thought would be a short stop
Heavy snows began to all and they could not continue Tey stayed in
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Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
G983154983151983159983145983150983143 U983152
Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
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exploration or turtles wildflowers and an occasional porcupine
Altus was as ar rom the centers o power as you could get in
Oklahoma hidden away in the extreme southwestern corner o the state
Te dirt roads in the county were ofen impassable afer the prairie thunder-
storms Afer World War II a ew were asphalted Many nearby towns
that were once thriving have virtually disappeared Only a ew lonely
remains o armhouses still stand Many rural churches and schools have
almost vanished as well and some are used or barns or storage
Everything in Altus was within walking distance It was an eight-block
walk to get a haircut downtown and a three-block walk to the park
tennis courts and high school Beyond that was a sea o wheat fields and
cattle ranches
No one amous or wealthy lived in my hometown Tey were armers
laborers and small-town olk Lie was not easy but the love we had in
our amily elt like all we needed We did not think o ourselves as re-
stricted or lef behind Tis was the center o the world so ar as I was
concerned We lacked nothing essentialEveryone knew that i they were going to make something o their
lives they would have to do it or themselves No one attributed success
or ailure to a personrsquos environment or external causes Tey assumed
that most outcomes were due to the effort o the person or lack o it I
someone messed up we would more likely ponder how a hurtul habit
might be a lesson or us to avoid
A ldquocan dordquo spirit was what most clearly characterized that independentand confident small town But the lack o rain and an abundance o dust
depleted arm incomes Tat led to many homeless men on the move
looking or odd jobs Strong and good men on the road to somewhere
would knock on our door needing ood but they were always willing to
work or it Even though they were on the move all we needed to know
was that they were persons who had allen on hard times and were hungry
We never turned any o them away My mother would always find some-thing to eed them usually what we would be eating that day
Tey were not asking or anything more than lefovers or a cup o
coffee or a ew crackers or bread I never remember them asking or
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money probably because there was almost no money circulating Ofen
business exchanges occurred by bartering goods or services Mom ofen
reminded me that each one o those people in need was made in Godrsquos
image Tey were people portrayed in the movies as hobos but we never
used that word I knew they were hardworking people who couldnrsquot pay
their mortgages and had to leave good arms as the banks were ore-
closing on them and disrupting long-laid plans
Dust storms were a regular part o my childhood I can still smell and
eel the looming approach o a thousand oot high wall o heavy gray
dust rolling in unexpectedly We would all run inside to try to seal the
windows with newspapers we attached by pins and masking tape to keep
as much dust as possible out o the house
We conserved and reused everything In that sense most everyone in
our town would have been considered ecologically minded by necessity
but without any ancy words We carved many o our own toys When
the rubber on the slingshot broke I would look or an old inner tube and
a tree branch to start over and make a new oneDad purchased a set o small leather-bound books containing the
shortened versions o classics such as Hamlet Rousseau and the ballads
o Robert Burns One o them was Emersonrsquos Self-Reliance I read it at an
early age maybe ten Because o Emersonrsquos book sel-reliance became a
key aspiration in my search or character
Despite everything I considered Cypress Street the worldrsquos best place
to be Still do We were on no main route and seldom locked our doorsI saw pictures in the newspapers o soup lines in the cities We much
preerred to be in dust-coated Oklahoma than in a Chicago ood relie
line or a crowded Hooverville camp in Caliornia
Te gentle warmth of family Almost every kid on my street came
rom a close-knit amily at a time when amily meant everything My
amilyrsquos small red brick steep-rooed English cottage had two bedrooms
but to us it always seemed to have plenty o space or everyone We hadhideaway olding beds or visitors and amily On holidays the house
could sleep as many as seventeen Tat was good because we had an
extended amily that stretched rom ippecanoe County Indiana to Las
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Cruces New Mexico I was among the youngest near the bottom o the
pecking order so I was ofen consigned to ldquosleeping at the oot o the
bedrdquo I was always happy to be a small kid in a large amily
My small world was my big amily My identity stemmed out o theirs
and I wouldnrsquot have been me without them I remember my childhood
much like William Butler Yeats described himsel in his early days in
Sligo as ldquoa boy with never a crack in my heartrdquo I elt complete as a child
lacking nothing important And I learned that delayed gratification was
part o every worthy endeavor
Growing up I was intrigued by the stories told around our fireplace
about my grandmotherrsquos grandather Elijah Walker who was the first
merchant to set up a small trading post in Northern Alabama to buy and
sell oods tools and goods among the Creek Indians Even more exciting
were Civil War stories about my great-grandather John C Oden whose
military record shows he was captured our times in battles that ranged
all the way rom Richmond to Natchez Each timemdasheither by release or
escapemdashhe returned to his own unit led by Colonel Tomas Bluett aferwhom my grandather was named and later I was named
My grandmother Sallie Elisa Walker rode into Arkansas on a Con-
estoga wagon Just afer the Civil War while she was still a young girl her
pioneer ather Andrew Jackson Walker gathered up his growing amily
rom around alladega Alabama and set out or the West where they
hoped to mine or gold or find tillable land
Afer several days on the road as the wagon pulled up to the erry onthe ombigbee River there was a horrible accident When the wagon
tipped Salliersquos brother Tad ell off and was crushed by the wagon wheel
Grieving the amily stopped to mourn and bury their little boy Sallie
did the only thing she could do she climbed back in the wagon and with
her heartbroken amily headed due west on the rough roads toward
Little Rock
From there they headed south to Clark County where some o theirAlabama riends and amily had settled In November o 1048625104863210486311048630 they ar-
rived at the village o Amity or what they thought would be a short stop
Heavy snows began to all and they could not continue Tey stayed in
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Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
G983154983151983159983145983150983143 U983152
Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
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money probably because there was almost no money circulating Ofen
business exchanges occurred by bartering goods or services Mom ofen
reminded me that each one o those people in need was made in Godrsquos
image Tey were people portrayed in the movies as hobos but we never
used that word I knew they were hardworking people who couldnrsquot pay
their mortgages and had to leave good arms as the banks were ore-
closing on them and disrupting long-laid plans
Dust storms were a regular part o my childhood I can still smell and
eel the looming approach o a thousand oot high wall o heavy gray
dust rolling in unexpectedly We would all run inside to try to seal the
windows with newspapers we attached by pins and masking tape to keep
as much dust as possible out o the house
We conserved and reused everything In that sense most everyone in
our town would have been considered ecologically minded by necessity
but without any ancy words We carved many o our own toys When
the rubber on the slingshot broke I would look or an old inner tube and
a tree branch to start over and make a new oneDad purchased a set o small leather-bound books containing the
shortened versions o classics such as Hamlet Rousseau and the ballads
o Robert Burns One o them was Emersonrsquos Self-Reliance I read it at an
early age maybe ten Because o Emersonrsquos book sel-reliance became a
key aspiration in my search or character
Despite everything I considered Cypress Street the worldrsquos best place
to be Still do We were on no main route and seldom locked our doorsI saw pictures in the newspapers o soup lines in the cities We much
preerred to be in dust-coated Oklahoma than in a Chicago ood relie
line or a crowded Hooverville camp in Caliornia
Te gentle warmth of family Almost every kid on my street came
rom a close-knit amily at a time when amily meant everything My
amilyrsquos small red brick steep-rooed English cottage had two bedrooms
but to us it always seemed to have plenty o space or everyone We hadhideaway olding beds or visitors and amily On holidays the house
could sleep as many as seventeen Tat was good because we had an
extended amily that stretched rom ippecanoe County Indiana to Las
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Cruces New Mexico I was among the youngest near the bottom o the
pecking order so I was ofen consigned to ldquosleeping at the oot o the
bedrdquo I was always happy to be a small kid in a large amily
My small world was my big amily My identity stemmed out o theirs
and I wouldnrsquot have been me without them I remember my childhood
much like William Butler Yeats described himsel in his early days in
Sligo as ldquoa boy with never a crack in my heartrdquo I elt complete as a child
lacking nothing important And I learned that delayed gratification was
part o every worthy endeavor
Growing up I was intrigued by the stories told around our fireplace
about my grandmotherrsquos grandather Elijah Walker who was the first
merchant to set up a small trading post in Northern Alabama to buy and
sell oods tools and goods among the Creek Indians Even more exciting
were Civil War stories about my great-grandather John C Oden whose
military record shows he was captured our times in battles that ranged
all the way rom Richmond to Natchez Each timemdasheither by release or
escapemdashhe returned to his own unit led by Colonel Tomas Bluett aferwhom my grandather was named and later I was named
My grandmother Sallie Elisa Walker rode into Arkansas on a Con-
estoga wagon Just afer the Civil War while she was still a young girl her
pioneer ather Andrew Jackson Walker gathered up his growing amily
rom around alladega Alabama and set out or the West where they
hoped to mine or gold or find tillable land
Afer several days on the road as the wagon pulled up to the erry onthe ombigbee River there was a horrible accident When the wagon
tipped Salliersquos brother Tad ell off and was crushed by the wagon wheel
Grieving the amily stopped to mourn and bury their little boy Sallie
did the only thing she could do she climbed back in the wagon and with
her heartbroken amily headed due west on the rough roads toward
Little Rock
From there they headed south to Clark County where some o theirAlabama riends and amily had settled In November o 1048625104863210486311048630 they ar-
rived at the village o Amity or what they thought would be a short stop
Heavy snows began to all and they could not continue Tey stayed in
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he 983089983097983091983088s 10486251048631
Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
G983154983151983159983145983150983143 U983152
Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
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Cruces New Mexico I was among the youngest near the bottom o the
pecking order so I was ofen consigned to ldquosleeping at the oot o the
bedrdquo I was always happy to be a small kid in a large amily
My small world was my big amily My identity stemmed out o theirs
and I wouldnrsquot have been me without them I remember my childhood
much like William Butler Yeats described himsel in his early days in
Sligo as ldquoa boy with never a crack in my heartrdquo I elt complete as a child
lacking nothing important And I learned that delayed gratification was
part o every worthy endeavor
Growing up I was intrigued by the stories told around our fireplace
about my grandmotherrsquos grandather Elijah Walker who was the first
merchant to set up a small trading post in Northern Alabama to buy and
sell oods tools and goods among the Creek Indians Even more exciting
were Civil War stories about my great-grandather John C Oden whose
military record shows he was captured our times in battles that ranged
all the way rom Richmond to Natchez Each timemdasheither by release or
escapemdashhe returned to his own unit led by Colonel Tomas Bluett aferwhom my grandather was named and later I was named
My grandmother Sallie Elisa Walker rode into Arkansas on a Con-
estoga wagon Just afer the Civil War while she was still a young girl her
pioneer ather Andrew Jackson Walker gathered up his growing amily
rom around alladega Alabama and set out or the West where they
hoped to mine or gold or find tillable land
Afer several days on the road as the wagon pulled up to the erry onthe ombigbee River there was a horrible accident When the wagon
tipped Salliersquos brother Tad ell off and was crushed by the wagon wheel
Grieving the amily stopped to mourn and bury their little boy Sallie
did the only thing she could do she climbed back in the wagon and with
her heartbroken amily headed due west on the rough roads toward
Little Rock
From there they headed south to Clark County where some o theirAlabama riends and amily had settled In November o 1048625104863210486311048630 they ar-
rived at the village o Amity or what they thought would be a short stop
Heavy snows began to all and they could not continue Tey stayed in
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Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
G983154983151983159983145983150983143 U983152
Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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he 983089983097983091983088s 10486261048627
Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
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he 983089983097983091983088s 10486251048631
Amity which became the ancestral home o the Oden amily Sallie grew
up and ell in love with my grandather Tomas Oden the son o a Pres-
byterian minister Teir marriage united two evangelical Christian tradi-
tions which would influence their amily rom then on Cumberland
Presbyterian and Wesleyan Methodist
My grandather Clark my motherrsquos ather was a railway man all his
lie About the same time the telegraph was invented by Edison my
grandather landed a job delivering newspapers on board the Indian-
apolis and Belleontaine Railroad which led to his learning telegraphy
and eventually to his lie as a railway agent He moved his amily rom
Pendleton Indiana gradually west to assignments in the exas Pan-
handle then to Nevada and finally back to Oklahoma
Grandather Clark was a loyal union man with lengthy seniority in
the Brotherhood o Railway Workers which at that time was among
the nationrsquos strongest labor unions Granddadrsquos most prized possession
was his official railroad time piece his round Hamilton watch which
he kept in his vest pocket on a gold chain Since human lives as well asreliable arrival schedules were at stake in the railroad business he lived
by the clock His passion or railroading was passed on to all his amily
especially to his two sons both o whom became university teachers in
fields related to the technology and history o railroads1
I inherited this same love o the railroad I ofen would go down to
the Katy station in Hollister to visit with my grandather at his busy
railway office I remember the special sound o an almost nonstop tele-graph tapping out Morse code Trough the incessant hum o dots and
dashes Granddad was the first in town to learn o wars elections tor-
nadoes or the St Louis Cardinalsrsquo scores
My ather was born in 1048625104863210486331048629 on an eighty-acre arm near the Caddo
River in Arkansas When I visited that old amily arm as a kid I came
away with touching memories o how my dad had grown up on the
rontier Tere was a small rame house which had at its center a redbrick fireplace with crackling cedar firewood I can still smell burning
My grandather built that house with his own hands
In his smokehouse I got a sense o how the pioneer amily had lived
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by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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he 983089983097983091983088s 10486251048633
aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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10486261048624 A C983144983137983150983143983141 983151983142 H983141983137983154983156
I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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he 983089983097983091983088s 10486261048625
was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
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10486261048626 A C983144983137983150983143983141 983151983142 H983141983137983154983156
anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
G983154983151983159983145983150983143 U983152
Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1919
he 983089983097983091983088s 10486261048627
Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
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10486251048632 A C983144983137983150983143983141 983151983142 H983141983137983154983156
by preserving with salt brine the pork or bee they had raised or the fish
or owl they had hunted I watched my tall lanky grandather Oden eed
the stock with alala eed he himsel had grown and draw resh cold
water with a rope and bucket out o a well he had dug and an improvised
pump he had installed on his own back porch My grandather was a
hard scrabble armer who played the fiddle and talked politics with a
quiet wry wit My dad and his brothers and sisters along with their
parents worked this arm repairing their own tools planting and
mowing and living largely within a bartering economy
I have wondered what might have prompted a Presbyterian armer
and his Methodist wie to name my ather Waldo almage Oden Tey
used to read by candles they themselves had made rom beeswax or
animal-at tallow Possibly they read somewhere about Peter Waldo who
was the medieval preacher who ounded the Waldensians or Reverend
DeWitt almage o the Brooklyn abernacle who was the leading
Presbyterian holiness preacher o his day
Dad was the first one in his amily who managed to get a higher edu-cation His Latin teacher in his Arkansas one-room school thought he
did well enough to encourage him to become a lawyer which he did by
pressing urther westward into Oklahoma He attended the University
o Oklahoma Law School in its earliest years graduated in 1048625104863310486261048624 and then
went on to the University o Chicago Law School Afer passing the bar
he settled into his law practice back in Oklahoma He in turn assisted all
o his brothers with their educationFor ninety years there has been an Oden Law Firm in Jackson
County led by my ather and brother al continuing a firm that had
been ounded beore statehood When asked what he did my dad
would answer drolly ldquoJust a country lawyerrdquo But I ound out he was
one o the best when I saw his trial record He went to the courthouse
almost every day and litigated cases or clients in trouble many rom
small armsAs a boy I spent many hours around my dadrsquos office watching him do
his legal work and seeing him help people rom all sections o our com-
munity Dadrsquos county seat law firm served all layers o society and every
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8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1519
he 983089983097983091983088s 10486251048633
aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1619
10486261048624 A C983144983137983150983143983141 983151983142 H983141983137983154983156
I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1719
he 983089983097983091983088s 10486261048625
was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
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10486261048626 A C983144983137983150983143983141 983151983142 H983141983137983154983156
anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
G983154983151983159983145983150983143 U983152
Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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he 983089983097983091983088s 10486261048627
Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
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he 983089983097983091983088s 10486251048633
aspect o the human condition Lacking cash clients would ofen barter
or legal services with chickens cattle mineral rights and garden
products From the back seat o a courthouse bench I watched my ather
reason with judges and juries settle disputes deend mostly under-
privileged clients and embody the rule o law I also relish the memory
o my ather checking the conditions o seeds or roots o his maize crop
singing tenor in church or reading into the late evening a thick maroon-
covered mortgage history o a clientrsquos property
I treasured my time at Dadrsquos office I liked the smell o the leather o
the books the quietness and the invitation to learn Tick books were on
every wall floor to ceiling protected by glass enclosed bookcases His
most valuable possessions were his books I loved to tiptoe into his
hushed library and spontaneously read on any random page o any o his
weighty volumes o the Corpus Juris
Mom completed Dad in so many ways bringing joy and confidence
into our home lie Troughout my lie I saw my mother ace economic
hardship wartime conditions and tests o character that always seemedto make her stronger She could be tough but in a most gentle way Her
childhood was spent in Amarillo exas during its boisterous cowhand
days She told us that some o the ranch hands would ride into town on
Saturdays shouting and shooting their guns into the air but her parents
always kept her sae in the house until they had gone
Everyone who heard my motherrsquos voice elt her warmth She took
quiet pleasure in perorming unnoticed random acts o anonymouskindness o her final days she was orever hosting caring listening and
serving Still she beams her lightness into my dusky evenings showering
her special orm o glory on me I donrsquot ever recall a speck o guile or
despair in her character
I was born in the all o 1048625104863310486271048625 when the Dust Bowl was just beginning
and Hoover was president Tose were the difficult days between the
Crash o 1048625104863310486261048633 and the election o Franklin Roosevelt Since there wasno hospital in Jackson County except or a small clinic in Dr Allgoodrsquos
house a block away I was born in the smaller o the two bedrooms o
our house
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10486261048624 A C983144983137983150983143983141 983151983142 H983141983137983154983156
I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
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he 983089983097983091983088s 10486261048625
was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
Copyrighted Material wwwivpresscompermissions
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
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10486261048626 A C983144983137983150983143983141 983151983142 H983141983137983154983156
anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
G983154983151983159983145983150983143 U983152
Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
Copyrighted Material wwwivpresscompermissions
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1919
he 983089983097983091983088s 10486261048627
Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1619
10486261048624 A C983144983137983150983143983141 983151983142 H983141983137983154983156
I showed up as little brother to a very bright big brother (al) with
round glasses who would become a lawyer like our ather Later a little
sister (Sarah) would appear who would have to be strong enough to
contend with two big brothers Happily the three o us have stayed very
close over the years
At five I was finally old enough to become a Cub Scout al had already
earned his First Class Badge and had his eye on getting a whole sleeve o
merit badges Each step required a difficult task and an examination
providing proo o having learned something useul I ollowed the Cub
Scout Motto ldquoDo your bestrdquo We learned to tie knots camp out co-
operate and tough things out I memorized the Scout law which says ldquoA
Scout is trustworthy loyal helpul riendly courteous kind obedient
cheerul thrify brave clean and reverentrdquo Tese ideals have never been
erased rom my consciousness2
I entered Mrs Highsmithrsquos kindergarten the same year I became a
Cub Scout Mrs Highsmith had converted a double garage at the back
o her property into a place or preschool education We learned aboutgetting along together singing nature numbers game playing and truth
telling In the rhythm band I got to play the sticks Others more ortunate
got to play the tin whistle drums or ocarina
My next school the Old Washington School was a ar cry rom Mrs
Highsmithrsquos garage Built at the time o statehood its creaking stairs sym-
bolized the passing generation o original Jackson County pioneer set-
tlers A our block walk rom my house the school was to me an awesomebuilding o bright red brick looming high above me with its soaring
Victorian ceilings and heroic pictures o Washington and Lincoln Its
most conspicuous eature was an out-o-the-window second floor fire
escapemdasha long tube-like slide plunging down to the dirt playground at
a 10486281048629-degree angle In my classroom on the first floor we envied the
luckier older kids upstairs who got to go down the slide during fire drills
My teacher Miss Peetry was young warm considerate and yesbeautiul She made everything at school interesting I ell in love not
only with learning but in a six-year-oldrsquos way with Miss Peetry My
world there was un sae wholesome and nourishing My best riend
Copyrighted Material wwwivpresscompermissions
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1719
he 983089983097983091983088s 10486261048625
was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
Copyrighted Material wwwivpresscompermissions
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1819
10486261048626 A C983144983137983150983143983141 983151983142 H983141983137983154983156
anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
G983154983151983159983145983150983143 U983152
Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
Copyrighted Material wwwivpresscompermissions
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1919
he 983089983097983091983088s 10486261048627
Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1719
he 983089983097983091983088s 10486261048625
was a reserved kid in overalls named Ralph Blaine whose shyness
matched my own It was good to have a riend who could understand my
quiet ways
A house full of music As the son o an Arkansas country fiddler Dad
always desired a house ull o music Tis is what he discovered in Mom
a woman with a heart ull o music Troughout my youth the house was
always pulsating with music o all kindsmdashclassic country hymns and
popular songs We had music students in our living room almost every
day with Mom guiding countless five-year-old fingers through the first
steps o Haydn and Mozart My mom especially reached out to talented
young Arican American students some o whom went on to college
music degrees and became proessional musicians I enjoyed seeing the
proud aces o parents who came into our living room to hear their chil-
drenrsquos recitals
Everybody in my amily requently played instruments sang harmony
and put together skits We all learned early to read music understand
rhythm and improvise chords All three o Momrsquos sisters were musiciansand every summer they made a train trip to Chicago or music lessons
My grandather provided harp instruction or Louise violin or Mary
and Catherine piano or my mother Lily and flute lessons or Dave and
Ira Grandather Clark owned the first movie theater in the village o
Duke when the earliest silent movies were being shown Duke Teater
combined live music with those films It was a stage or amateur peror-
mances and homemade vaudeville entertainment His daughters per-ormed as ldquoTe Clark Sistersrdquo with my mother at the keyboard
Growing up in my amily meant small fireside perormances on many
nights While none o us in the immediate amily chose music as a pro-
ession all o us have been lielong musical enthusiasts al was good
enough at bassoon while in high school to get an invitation to serve as
bassoonist in the Oklahoma City Symphony Philharmonic Orchestra
under the direction o Maestro Victor Alessandro Now in his eightiesal still has a huge repertoire o sing-along songs musical comedy
country and olk songs and entertainment gigs or Valentinersquos Day
dinners amily reunions Rotary Clubs and church meetings available
Copyrighted Material wwwivpresscompermissions
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1819
10486261048626 A C983144983137983150983143983141 983151983142 H983141983137983154983156
anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
G983154983151983159983145983150983143 U983152
Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
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Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
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anytime or any occasion always unny and ready at the drop o a hat
It was through music that I first learned to reason Te reasoning
process in music occurs through rhythm melody chords progressions
transitions and grace notes From a young age I grasped intuitively that
I could apply musical modes o mental organization to anything else I
studied When I tried to explain this to others I ound them mystified
but to me its reasonableness was sel-evident Tanks to my mother I was
playing a simplified orm o Beethovenrsquos ldquoFuumlr Eliserdquo at five As I grew I
ound every kind o music appealing rom Leadbelly to Shostakovich
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Finding purpose At ten an epiphany happened to me on a summer night
when my cousins and I were sleeping outdoors on blankets As I lay on
the grass looking toward the sky or comets and constellations I ound
mysel involved in a deep and puzzling thought process about space I
wondered what was beyond the edge o the universe Really beyond I
the world was measurable and we could imagine an edge to the universewhat could be ldquobeyondrdquo
Ten I wondered what might have happened beore the earliest point
in time I wondered what ldquobeore timerdquo could ever possibly mean and
puzzled about what might exist afer the last moment o time I realized
much later that Augustine had already pondered this Tough I did not
know that I was raising the question o the mysterious relationship be-
tween finitude and infinity I recall how deeply affected I was by the twinmysteries o space and time
In our amily the day began with ldquoUpper Roomrdquo devotional readings
with our parents beore breakast We always said grace beore each meal
Scripture prayer and thoughtul conversation were woven into the daily
abric o our amily lie I memorized passages o Scripture like Psalm 1048625 and
1048625 Corinthians 10486251048627 Tese gems still return to my memory at unexpected times
We also gathered with Grandmother Oden in the living room just beorebedtime to hear a passage o Scripture read usually a chapter Ten we
would get on our knees and pray Grandmother began with ervent peti-
tions or the amily the lost the poor and the spiritual health o the nation
Copyrighted Material wwwivpresscompermissions
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1919
he 983089983097983091983088s 10486261048627
Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books
8112019 A Change of Heart by Thomas C Oden - EXCERPT
httpslidepdfcomreaderfulla-change-of-heart-by-thomas-c-oden-excerpt 1919
he 983089983097983091983088s 10486261048627
Dad taught the menrsquos class at church during most o his adult lie I
remember him on Saturday evenings pouring over Peloubetrsquos Select Notes
a commentary or teachers I still treasure thumbing through his leather
Bible tattered and underlined over many years o teaching with some
o his marginal notes still intact3
All Methodists back then knew that everyone had a calling that would
give purpose and meaning to their lives but I wasnrsquot sure what mine might
be With two musical grandathers a piano teaching mother a barbershop
quartet singing ather and a big brother who was a musical whiz it seemed
to me at first that music might be my calling At thirteen I set a goal o
learning how to play every instrument in the orchestra (I did itmdashexcept
or the strings) I began arranging quartet and orchestra scores on a small
scale at age thirteen As an aspiring composer I got a lot o practice at
writing and arranging musical scores or quartets and singing peror-
mances and by fifeen I thought that composing might be my calling Te
idea o a vocation in ministry was first planted in my mind at about age
ten by Brother Hiram Brogan a retired minister in our church EverySunday he wore the ormal dress o black tie and tails in the tradition o
Southern Methodist ministers at that time He always held beore me the
thought that I might grow up to be a minister His school teacher daughter
Bessie thought so too but I assumed they were just being nice
For a long time I was unclear about what ministers did on days other
than Sunday Ten came the summer when I was invited to drive around
the tobacco arms o rural ennessee all day with my Uncle Turstonwho was making annual visits to his congregations as their Methodist
district superintendent Tat trip provided an exciting glimpse o parish
ministry I had not seen beore Affable jolly and generous Turston
smoked good cigars despite Methodist rules Te day I was with him he
was traveling around his district to encourage those congregations to
meet their projected goals take care o each other and have some un
doing it As I was warmly welcomed everywhere I began to wonderabout being something like him Other times I vaguely imagined that I
wanted to be a lawyer Either way all I ever really wanted was to end up
with a house ull o books